Someone just asked me if I was 24/7 or just big time play with a little bit of vanilla...
Just big time play? Like its a bad thing? Like being enslaved 24/7 is the only ideal?
I am enslaved all the time, but probably not in the same way a lot of people define it.I can sink into that headspace at just a click of his fingers, a glance, or something really small, but, yeah, I have a ‘real life’ too - and couldnt function without one.
I have been thinking quite a lot recently about what it is that I actually want. What I actually am, and whether I can be ‘better’.
At the moment I would say, being brutually honest, I am a masochist, and one who loves intolerable pleasure.
There’s more to it than masochism though.
I am also a lover of being controlled, of being brainwashed, and feeling as though I am"his",I like play being combined with reassurance of who is in control and of the fact that someone can
push my amazinglittle buttons in my head with orgasmic results.
ultimately…no doubt I am a brat who will be controlled and completely undone - and deep down thats what I really want.
