First off let me start off by sayn Thank you to everyone who was concerned about me and thanx for all the prayers, words of encouragement and sweet gifts of soup, cards, animals. They all meant alot to me. My sister made sure to keep me updated. I asked her to update u all as well.
Well as you were told I had to have stumach surgery. And I now have to go threw Dialysis for my failing kidneys. This time around Im afraid the cancer seems to be kicking my ass but I am not quitting. I am a fighter and I will continue to fight no matter what. I have to, for Cierra.
Now onto what I am utterly irritated by at the moment. I was finally able to confide in someone I thought was a kind sweet guy and I tried to let him into my personal life to see what might happen. I allowed him to know about what I was dealing with and going threw and when all my treatments were etc. And he was relentlss. Instead of being supportive and understanding he became cruel and unreasonable.
Every time I went for a treatment and needed to rest he would txt and harass me, and today when I finally get out of the hospital I update my status so friends knew I was home he got bent outta shape cuz I didnt txt him, He started bombing my cell with hateful txt msgs.
I wrote a msg on his page just now and in it I quote most of his msgs he txt me.
Do you think I was cold, harsh in what I said, uncaring? Let me know. Im really tierd, sore, and now hurt. I dont wanna come across as a bitch but damn the things he said were so wrong..
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OK Asshole You woke me up being a shithead so now Its my turn!
My status says nutn bout my fucking VIP . Its been gone for over a week now. It says how I am finally home now from the damn hospital and Im sick and sore still. I had fucking surgery you Do you understand that shit? I am 21 fucking yrs old and I have a lil girl to think of. I have fucking Cancer and its eating me up and all you can think of or care about is that I dont fucking txt you back when you want me too. You are a selfish piece of shit! I listened to your whining and feeling sorry for yourself, how you cant find a girl and havnt had one in years. How you have low self esteem and Ive tried to be a friend and deal but I tell you about Chemo and how it fucking makes me sick and zaps all my energy and all you do is worry bout Shawn!!. I give you the days I go and you pick those days to fuck with me. I tell you all I do is sleep cuz if Im awake Im sick as hell and so what do you do? You txt and txt and whine no matter how I plead with you to let me sleep and you get me sik. Im tryn to get better here so I can watch my lil girl grow up and you only care that I didnt fucking tell you hi. My sister was on my Fubar to let my friends know what was going on with me and what was happening with my health and surgery she wrote a fucking blog she doesnt know who all I talk to she just knew I wanted certain friends to know why I wasnt talking to any of them and so they wouldnt worry. It was amazing how many ppl friends and strangers that sent prayers and get well msgs and the one guy who claimed to really care about and like me and love me was the one that only cared that I updated my status today when I came home from the hospital to let ppl know I was home but still sick and recouping all he was concerned with was that I didnt txt him hi. So he calls me a stuck up cunt!! Nice word!! Says no wonder Im sick,cuz I treat ppl like shit who only wanna talk to me so fuck off, Im cruel cuz all u have been is sweet to me, and to stop using my sickness as a way to treat ppl like shit and I need to grow up!! You are a total fucking crazy person. All you are pissed about is that Im not there for you to have phone sex with or deal with your Bi Polar up and down fucking moods and make you not cry when your upset. Well sorry Ive been a lil busy making myself not cry cuz Im in pain, cuz Im scared , cuz I cant make my lil girl stop crying cuz she misses her mommy! Fuckoff Shawn!! That is totally fucking rediculous! As to your lil txt just now bout having a gf now for a week well congrats heaven forbid she doesnt hang on ur every need. If you do have one tell her she needs to be sure her bf stops txtn the other girls how much he misses them etc!! For someone who has a gf u sure got bent outta shape about me not txtn u.. So whatever! As to Jason he isnt my fucking bf. So honey you know nutn!! He WAS my bf. HUGE diff. I dont have time for a BF Im to busy worrying about my health and my daughter! Now with that being said GOOD BYE!!
Karma's Bane http://fubar.com/darthshawn
