As I sleep written on May 26, 2006.
Cold sweat trickles down my face.
My pillow stained with millions of silent tears.
The squeal of tires rings in my ears as I'm pulled from my reoccurring nightmare.
His brown eyes wide with fear still loom before my tired eyes in the darkness.
His blood curdling scream still hangs in the air around my bed.
Only when I sleep do I hear his voice and see his perfect features.
Only when I sleep do I feel his warm touch on my skin.
But as I awaken from the horrific scene,
I realize he is simply a memory of what I once knew.
He'll never hold me again as I fall asleep.
He's gone forever now.
Falling Apart written on May 13th, 2006
Falling apart from the inside out
Burning alive,
And no one sees.
Staring at you,
But never really seeing the pain.
Falling apart from the inside out
Hiding behind the walls you've built,
Keeping everyone out.
No one can break through,
Not even those closest to you.
Falling apart from the inside out
Numb to the world,
Only because you live in hell.
Always retreating further inside yourself,
Will you ever be whole again?
I'm falling...
I'm falling...
I'm falling apart from the inside out!
