Ever have one of those days were things are ok and then its like a smack across the face things start to turn upside down and u want to scarem for bloodly murder...
Well here is my call SOS someone save me i have no clue what has come over me but i feel like i have lost control with everything ...Im normaly open minded and can say whats on my mind but when it comes down to something i cant seem to bring myself to do it and dammit to hell its agervateing me to no end...Can someone save me...Well hell i just want one person to save me but it feels as he has lost controll him self and dont see that i am even at this point ...I wonder why i bother why i fight to keep trying
If i yelled who would hear me...If I cried who would hear me...If I were to walk away who would wonder were i was at...Would I even be missed ( yeah some ppl would miss me) i know that much....
Im needing my SoS...will i get it idk but to be honest im starting to think that i wont because im looked at as this strong person and can handle it all...But i have news for ppl...I will admit i am a strong person but one can take some much before they scream....Well here is my scarem take me in your arms love me and tell me ur there for me as u used to do dont let me keep feeling as im by myself because that is what u are doing, is makeing me feel as im alone and no one is there ....suffering down deep with hiden tears and i keep it back and not say anything for im scared of what i dont even know to be honest....
DAMMIT why do i feel like this is a nightmare with a happyending at the end but it takes me to scarem for your help to see that i need you to snap me back... I take everyone on and deal with everyone and who is there to deal with me but me myself and I...A time has come for me to bring all this down and open all this up and if you care or anyone cares tell me that im just haveing one of those freakin freaky days were i feel like im in the dark....Well im closeing now before i lose my mind all together
~*~Mandie~*~
So sad MUSIC isnt even soothing me and help me...and thats my other part of me that keeps me calm
