In times of trouble and insanity
I carry masks to disguise
the pain I carry
secure behind my eyes
I can never let out again
the misery I hide
to hell with my dignity
to hell with my pride
from this day forward
and for ever more
I will mount this mask
that will be my lore
No reaching out when I am weak
no solace will I seek
when you look for answers
when you say your prayers
all you will see is masks
and no pain that I bear
Wings of wax will melt and fall apart
But what if they are a true reflection of what's in my heart?
Weak, easily discouraged, and without pride
My escape to freedom denied
I can never spread my wings and fly
I will never know the feeling of the sky
For these broken wings keep me grounded
And trapped with the memories of how they once sounded
They used to be so beautiful and proud
But now they hang around me like a black shroud
Reminding me of my once known glory
And how this is just another sad story
These wings are torn and tattered, no longer able to carry me
My heart, unable to dream of the possibility of being free
And my soul, now a deep black abyss
Waits silently for death's blissful kiss.
Harsh words & violent blows
Hidden secrets nobody knows
Eyes are open, hands are fisted
Deep inside I'm warped & twisted
So many tricks & so many lies
Too many whens & too many whys
Nobody's special, nobody's gifted
I'm just me, warped & twisted
Sleeping awake & choking on a dream
Listening loudly to a silent scream
Call my mind, the number's unlisted
Lost in someone so warped & twisted
On my knees, alive but dead
Look at the invisible blood I've bled
I'm not gone, my mind has drifted
Don't expect much, I'm warped & twisted
Burnt out, wasted, empty, & hollow
Today's just yesterday's tomorrow
The sun died out, the ashes sifted
I'm still here, warped & twisted
Behind the mask
She goes about her day to day and does her duties to perfection,
She cries alone and works her way through fears and self rejection.
No one knows this angel is carrying around such grief
If they only saw a glimpse of things they'd sigh in disbelief.
She seems to be so perfect not one single flaw,
Everyone looks at her with envy
If they only knew it all. Her heart aches with loneliness and her tears disguised with pride,
Why does she care what they think its becoming too much for her to hide
She sits at home and pours her heart out to a man that doesn't really care
He never hears a word she says he looks right through her as if she's not really there.
She is running out of friends to confide in and family's gone astray
Alone and broken hearted, she slits her wrists and slowly fades away..
Her emotions were never real, never felt
Waiting an eternity for the ice to melt
The ice maiden in her castle cemented the icing
Her intensity and piercing gaze was so enticing
Yet shrouded by darkness of a broken heart
She screamed a silence that echoed through the dark
She proclaimed her love then shredded her words
She was cold and calculating but she’d heat him up
Once she manipulated and had her way, she was gone without a trace
Leaving him with that frozen look upon his unworthy face
The frost that glazed over her luscious lips
Could start a fire with just one passionate kiss
She sent shivers down his spine with a single touch
That first icy glance was set on a mission to crush
There within a trapped frozen heart
A true, and now lost love did part
Life is a prison, let me out,
No one to listen, to hear when you shout.
Climb the walls of insanity,
Ride the waves of despair,
If you fall it don't matter,
There's no one to care.
Used to wish for a window,
To see birds , trees, and sky,
But your better without one,
It stops you aiming to high.
Watching freedom is painful,
For those locked away,
Seeing love, joy and happiness,
Another price that you pay.
Strong is good, weak is bad,
Be it false , be it true
Your mind makes the choice ,
And enforces it too.
Cell walls built by society,
With rules to adhere,
If you breach the unacceptable,
You had better beware.
Hide the pain, carry on,
Routine is the key,
Don't let on that you're not
What your pretending to be.
Lock it all up inside you
How badly that bodes,
Look out for that one day,
When it all just explodes.
Leaving naught but a shell,
Base functionality too.
But killing all else,
That was uniquely you.
So how do you grow,
With a timebomb inside ?
Or how to defuse it,
Without destroying its ride
You can't ....
The blade pierces the skin
as it passes through with ease.
I am here to do your bidding,
I am here to please.
Can you feel your blood splatter?
As it oozes across your skin?
Or do you feel nothing?
I do think this is my sin.
I'm starting to feel faint now.
I can feel life passing from my body.
Do you feel sick? Weak?
Or have my demons finally ceased?
I can feel nothing anymore.
My life force is all but gone.
I think my soul has drifted.
The night has passed before the Dawn