DJ ROB BLACK WOLF OF MISSOURI's blog: "some of my writings"

As I sit here thinking.

imaiges of your face and smile flashes threw my mind.

I somtimes wonder what life would be like if things have went differently.

Then I look at what I have now and relize.

That I would never change or give up what I have now.

Promises

promises are just words to make someone feel better.

some promises are keep some sometimes and some are broken.

to  me promises are just words put together.

promises that are broken can hurt some people very much.

to some people promises are words of honor.

But to me promises have no meaning anymore.

Looking back

I look back on my life and see what I have done wrong and what I done right.

Then the toughts of people that I have loved and the people that have loved me.

Then I relize that I have let so many people down also hurt so many people as well.

I find myself asking what is my purpose here in this world.

Wondering wolf

The wolf wonders the land looking for that special one.

now that the wolf has found her she is gone just as fast.

She was taken way from him even though she says she keft on her own.

Now the wolf wonders around lost in this big curel world.

The wolf's soul is still with atht special female wolf even though she dosent want him.

   ..I site here and think here are two souls conneceted in the dark

always hiding in the shadows trying to run from what is realy plain to everyone else also.

one day there will be light on the two soulz that are traped in the dark but instill that day comes those are just lost soulz.

and the whole world will know when the light shows the lost two soulz the way out of the dark cause also comes wtih them caos and mayham.

one of the lost soulz are full of firer and darkness, the other soul is full of life and happiness.

the only good that will come of the two lost soulz being free from darkness is the balance they will offer to others.

so I sit here thinking of the two lost soulz waiting to leave the darkness hopeing and praying that the day will come soon.

for it is then that this old man can put his mind to ease about his own life and get to living again.

for when that day comes this old man will have fire in his life again.

i sit here night after night with the thoughts and inamgies going threw out my mind and in my sleep i still hear your loving voice telling me just wait and things will be ok.but my heart and soul says theyy miss you so much that they cant keep going on all they want to do is serival up and die. cause without you my life is so empty and meaningless. soill just sit and wait for death to take his toll on me. seeing how ive cheated him out of getting me and when you was my lover death was to affarid to come close cause he knew i found my purpose in life. and that was to be with you and be happy.but now that your goine death is knocking at the the door to my soul again. and my soul  has told death that he can take me soon. but my soul told death to go ahead and take him now. the soul just gave up on even trying. and the heart bleeds more and more each day. wiht out the angel that was there with her loving to heal it every time it would start to beak and to bleed. but  now the saving angel is gone forever cause i cant control my miced up feelings. so now mr. death has tookoen my soul and will have my heart soon. and then the body will be the last to go. and when that day comes we dont want the angel to be upset or worry we are better off of being gone we will no longer hurt from pain or causeing pain to the angel we love more then anything in this life time............ so we welcome death

i will always love you no matter all the hell i go threw with you even after the day i die cause trying to prove my love to you has just pushed you away but also you have killed my soul and pushed me away evne though your being so fucking blind to what you have standing here in front of you in me .. all you know to do is run when things get rough. but that dont mean i dont love you cause i will always love you even beyound the graveand just hope one day that you will open you eyes and see that i will always love you and ill be waiting for you with open arms the day you get you head out of your ass and want to be with me cause i love you for ever and always will even though you killed my soul tonight on the phone i feel so cheep and used but that dont mean shit cause i will always love you wiht all my heart what is left of it  one day you will get the help you need and see how much i love you and hopefuly ill still be alive to hold you say that every thing is ok but even if im not around just remember that i love you and always will even in the land of the dead

the mind can mess with how you feel about yourself. it can be realy  bad when you love a woman so much that life itself dont matter. and now that your gone out of my life my soul is dead and the body isshutting down as well. it is just a matter of time before the body shuts down. you said you were todaly in love with meand my lite up. but now your gone my soul said goodbye to the world. i have closed myself off to the world.. that way i dont  get hurt anymore cause im tried of hurting and yes this time you are to blame you took my heart and soul and just killed them botheveryonesays your only thinki9ng of yourself but that dont change the fact that ilove you i willl love you to the day idie and honestly i hope it is soon butthat dont mean that i wont carry my love for you forever cause i will  be in love with you forever

My eyes look down at my heart
bleeding as it shall every ever be
it can all be traced back to the very start
when i said it could just be you and me

you and me couldn't stop hugging
i didn't see the sudden train coming
the lights blinded me
and i couldn't start running

It ran me down
and it ripped me apart
but don't think Ive left town
I'm still in there somewhere deep deep down