why cant i be happy? why is it so hard for me to smile? is it cause so many people dissapoint me in my life? or hurt me? or using me ? people say it is so nice to love someone ... i really dont know anymore how that feels i dont know how to love someone i feel like i am a ghost .... some people dont care about how i feel .... all i was looking for was love someone who love me the same way i love him but everytime i am crossing those type of assholes who just use me and hurt me what is life about ? getting hurt or dissapointed getting so far that i cant trust nobody anymore ? i wished someone could tell me i wished i would find someone who can put that smile back on my face and make my heart happy but i didnt think i will find it again... i dont think there is someone outside in this world who can take the way i am the honest the being real and always speaking my mind person .... alot men r scared of that they cant take it they run away from a woman like me why is that ? men say i need a good woman i need a strong woman i need a woman who is honest and real but when the have one in front of them they cant take it and they only use her and hurt her break her heart they just dont understand what a good woman is going trough with them that she accept all they doing and saying they keep quiet they try to make everybody happy but do someone care to make us good women happy ? nope we have to take anything till it is enough and when we blow up cause it is enough what we take and cant handle it anymore the men run away i will never understand why men r so weak
