ThickerThanaSnicker's blog: "Society"

So i have decided that i will be writing a weekly blog about things that I find interesting, or i feel need talked about. Last week was obesity this week is idenity crisis.

Have you ever felt that you were born the wrong sex? You look at your body.. and your disgusted.. Like.. why do i have breasts.. these arent mine.. or.. i should have breasts? and your a man asking yourself this? 

I believe this is all a mental thing, not that they are crazy, but that the hard wiring was crossed, and the physical doesnt match the mental. (as i will say the same with gay lesbian peoples.) this will be a differnt blog entirely) and i give people that take the time and have the courage to change themselves, so much admiration for going after what you want!

This is something that happens more commonly then what you might think. I can speak about this personally, but not that i would or want to be a man. But growing up i was always tall, i stand 6'0-6'1 now. I was always small chested. the women in my family are all 5'6 and under very large chested.. so i felt like i was not like them.. and i have a very masculine personality.. and feel the need to be able to support my family, and take care of things and people around me. BUTTTT.. there are women who look at their bodies and know this is now what they are supposed to be.. that something is missing.. somethig bigger. There are men that look at their genitila, and think.. WTF is that thing hanging there.. thats not mine.. i dont want that.. and so they change themselves. they take drastic measures, sometimes as much as going under the needle several times to shave chin bone, or add breasts, remove or add a vagina. And at the end of the day, these people dont feel accepted by society all because they are misunderstood. I think if everyone would just stop and take a look and think, before you speak. because i know at somepoint in anyones life, there is something they wanted so badly they would do anything for it... so if you stop and think of it that way...

Let me start off by saying if your easily offended stop reading here. 
*** ALSO LET ME SAY: THERE IS NOTHING WRONG WITH BEING BIGGER AND BEING HEALTHY!!!

Also, i will start off by saying i have ALWAYS been big, at my biggest i was 250-260. I am now at 180. The journey was not easy, every day i struggle and will struggle for the rest of my life. But the reason i am writing this is because today as i was shopping, i saw a grandmother a mother and a child the gma and the mother were easily 300+ and rolling around in a automated scooter.. this poor baby couldnt have been any older then 7 years old and weighed easily.. 150 she was so big she could hardly breath. What kind of life are you giving your child? what kind of example? Making small changes mkae a HUGE difference. Which i will go into those later. However, people blame people and things.. they make excuses.. HELL EVEN I DO!!! (for example, i work 20 hour shifts.. roughly 135 hours every 2 weeks.. im effin tired when i get done with work, i have no motivation to work out.. soooo if im not going to work out i have to make decently healthy choices on what im putting into my mouth. 

One of my biggest things i deal with every day is people looking at my like im crazy when im like damn im fat.. im 6'0-6'1 i weigh 180-185.. so sure i dont look HUGE.. but i am big.. and its hard when you get it in your head that society doesnt view you as big, so your like oh im good... and then i will start to slip. I am starting to figure out what my triggers are for eating, such a the privious one. 

Find out what yours are.. stress, bordem.. your watching a movie, and your like oohhh snacks? I know those are mine too! so stock up on healthy items, AND DONT FORGET TO SPLURGE OR YOUR SETTING YOURSELF UP FOR FAILURE! If you looove chocolate.. and your like oh i wont eat it anymore.. WRONG WRONG WRONG.. you will find yourself eating a box of candy instead of maybe just that one candy bar...

Count your calories.. if you have the time to measure and do all that then hats off to you.. i know i dont. But if you have a food that you love and your commonly eating it, then check the back of the can or what not.. and keep a running idea if its 180 calories.. write down oh i had 200... round it off.. and then when your getting close to your count you can say well ive had close to what my caloric intake is.. and this will help you lose weight..

adding 5-10 minutes of exercise, take a walk.. dance. what ever makes you feel good.

Please feel free to leave your thoughts, the good the bad the ugly.. or questions..

I AM ONLY SPEAKING FROM MY OWN EXPERIENCE AND YOU SHOULD ALWAYS CONSAULT A DOCTOR BEFORE STARTING ANY DIET OR EXERCISE PLAN..

Only you control your future.. so make it bright!

Today i was having a discussion with someone about emotions and how they are viewed, and how everyone has more then 1 side to them. life isnt always rainbows unicorns and sunshine. There is a deeper side to everyone thmoat most people dont let out because society has taught us thatwe should leave this to ourselfs.. swept under the carpet, then we go get depression meds that make us quacks.... when in reality  most people just need someone to talk to. Quite frankly i find that my  thoughts are much deeper and darker at night when the rest of the world is asleep. I feel that thats the time i let my emotions out.. I feel like life makes us who we are and our experinces do as well, but i do feel that alot of the times it is a negative impact in our lfes and so many people hold things in because, they have no one to talk to and when they do.. a secret private life is no longer secret... sigh..