I tear my heart open...I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
My scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open
.........just to feel.....hell of a life I'm existin' in......
no benefits for PTSD, TBI...nothin'.....just because I put my hands on a bitch-ass LT. when he made a fucked-up comment about the emotion I was displaying for a member of MY fuggin' fire-team who had bled out not ten minutes before........I was still covered in his mother fucking blood cause I had my mother fucking HAND jammed in his leg trying......trying so so so very hard yet so very futilely to close off the femoral artery that had been torn......So , yea....I kicked the LOT's ass right there on the spot.....got the boot....but fuck yea.....it WAS WORTH IT!!!!!!!