well this might get a lil long and rambling cause i have alot going on...so i was datin this guy...hes on my family list...back in febuary...then i moved to oklahoma...and he went overseas and we kinda split up..and it was hard for me then...i went out started to drink.....alot go out with someone i had met in claremore...name shall not be mentioned to fill this void...he was a total doosh.. well the person and i decided to try again...just after halloween....and well its been rough i mean i love the boy todeath and i would be so heart broken if we ever split up agian i couldnt do it to be honest.but its hard he lives in flordia and i live in oklahoma and im struggling day by day to deal with the distance..i mena i know he loves me to...but when i drove to see him in louisanna thats where it got even harder...i dont know what it is yet or why but feel that its going to end up back as us as friends and its harder than ever for me to accpt cause i dont want to give him up..i fought like hell to have him but i feel that we are living two different worlds right now and we just arent working the way id like to be...so with that said im now his friend again...and its killin me..... it really is ...i give up i really do....