alooooha fu-holes =]

blog #2 of the day. lol i'm on a roll right...

some thoughts...my own thoughts, but i'm sure lots share my feelings.

its a new year! whoa where the hell did that come from...wasn't it just july? yeah...last year kinda blew. so did the year before that. for me anyway. i'm ready for a change. some "re-evaluating". i feel like every year i say that though...ya know "GOALS! CHANGE! GET MY FUCKING SHIT TOGETHER!!" and yet here i sit another year of almosts behind me. good god.

i honestly can't think of any really "good" things that happened to me or for the people i love. just hurt and let down and out right slap in the face shafts from the world. marriages falling apart, people lying to each other, loved ones passing away, money problems...you name it...everything went wrong last year...ask your friends, they'll probably have some story about how shit just didn't work out.

we all get so wrapped up in our own negatives and they feel so huge and overwhelming that we end up missing out on all the positive things, because they aren't usually so high impact...we take for granted all those little things. i do it all the time...so focused on what ISN'T going right...right now.

anyway, babble. i don't really have anything negative to say about anything today. i woke up at 6am and couldn't go back to sleep. i'm in quite a mood. not good not bad but feisty lulu for sure. i went to bed last night...in a funk to say the least. i think i've surrounded myself with friends that care about me for real. not just for points or any of that bullshit, cuz really...on the point and rate whore side of things i have nothing to offer you. lmao. i don't spend obscene amounts of money on ability bling...not even for myself. but every now and again i don't feel like my friendship is appreciated. sometimes i feel like the people around me have ill intentions and i'm always the last to know. i won't let myself be hurt...so if any of you are here for reasons other than just knowing me...please just turn around and get the fuck back out of my life.  with that said.... lol

i posted a blog earlier this morning to just kinda say HI FRIENDS, YOU'RE THE BEST. lol named a few by name.

i hear that the new year is going to bring some new things to light and its also going to continue fueling the fires that are already going on. i hope everyone involved the best and that ya'll have cleaned out those nasty ass skeletons in your closets cuz its probably gonna get ugly...thats the vibe anyway.

but mixed in with all the AWFULNESS that is bred around here...there were some pretty awesome things that i stumbled upon and that were also pointed out to me. a few blogs, a few great people, etc etc. this blog was awesome...so imma link it...you should read it lmao.

http://fubar.com/new-years-solutions/b336930-1139927

great blog by an awesome woman. ^5 Tori.