well, i am in a state of total confusion of where i need to be. i know what i want... just the fastest way to get to my goal is whats complicated.... i know i want to end up back in il sometime soon. but right now my only options are reno and venice fl.... it sucks because i feel like my entire life is spread out all over, but all i want is to have my life together in one location. right now i feel like i will just be broken up everywhere because the forces around me. i feel like every force that could be against me, is completely out to get me. maybe im just paranoid, but i just dont know. i think i am going to go back to florida and get things straight in my head once again... after my mind is set, i will be ready to venture back to il where i know i can be truely happy. i hate feeling so torn. i wish someone could understand.
