Im so out of touch with who I use to be.
Now Im like a scared little boy running from life.
It seems as if Im lost and dont know my own way back.
30 years old and most of those years were full of strife.
I never asked to be this way
but its what I cant deny.
Inside of me is whats not free.
How long must I cry?
See me then and see me now.
You wouldnt recognize.
So different in the way I feel.
The truth is in my eyes.
Im a saddened soul that wants rebirth.
I want what use to be.
The past is done but held on to.
I need to set it free.
I dont know how or if I could
but an effort I must give.
To have a chance at life again.
The desire to finally live.
Its scary how I feel sometimes
and unsure is what I become.
To be alone for I have chose
and inside I feel numb.
Where do I start? How does this begin?
Can someone take my pain?
Im tired of looking up to the sky
with these tears that fall like the rain.
A sad little boy is what lies beneath
this flesh that hides who I am.
Right now Im confused as to which way to turn
and Im losing the strength to stand.
