Another warm day here in West-Central Florida, If it wasn't for the papers declaring the end of Summer, I would have missed the entire thing...That's one of the advantages of living anywhere but here...I was raised up North, and after surveying many folks here seems that there aren't many "locals"...most moved here from there...the mornings are getting cooler, I HATE MORNINGS...I would rather work at night, I consider myself a vampire of sorts...so much in the news, it makes me question the decision made to have children, what type of world will I leave, I'm not talking about Social Security, which isn't, or even the enviroment...just wonder what my legacy to my children will be...my mother legacy was strength, will as she got sicker, I really hated the fact that it left her, I hope to never get that way...I want to be able to give to my children always, the strength they need, pick them up, and make them independant like my mother made me...she always said, my boy will never have to depend on a woman for anything, come to find out later that meant she never really wanted to me to be married, but she had shown me how to be on my own, and I think she may have felt betrayed when I got married, not once but twice...you see I'm a shy person, only really had 4 what can be called relationships, and in all of them the girl made the first move...those of you that get to know me better will find this hard to believe, but that is because like the Wizard of Oz, I hide behind the computer, the way he hid behind the curtain...I'm sure my ex's would say I was never shy, but if they had never made any type of advancement, they would have never found the other me...the one that jokes, with the quick wit...the one that says I was put on this earth to make people laugh...then there is the true me...darker than a person deserves to be, the serious one, the moody one, some have seen glimpses, but never the full picture...one day I may, as Pink Floyd said, "Tear Down The Wall"...till then be prepared to laugh, be touched, in a nice way, as you get to know the me I show the world, if you ever chat with me you'll notice "Mr. Happy-Go-Lucky"...But take a good look at my face, you'll see my smile looks out of place, if you look closer its easy to trace...the tracks of my tears...~PEACE~M1K3Y
