Hey Everyone -
Well, I arrived in TN yesterday and the flights were unenventful for sure.
My sister met me at the airport and the first thing she said to me was, "Dayum girl, you got skinny you need to eat!" LMFAO IDK where she see's skinny because she is smaller than me...lol
Anyway, while we were at the store getting some items for my brother in law's medical needs; she said something about my size again, and I stood in front of her to show her that I am not smaller in width then she is. As some woman watched on in her car - I moved a little closer to my sister and OMG both of us were looking down and we hit heads. The lady in the car I notice was laughing at us. I only noticed because this was a so did anyone see that shit kind of moment as Haley and I just cracked up laughing at our own silly beings. LMAO
Needless to say, when we got to the house the first thing my brother in law asks me is, "Do you think they can fix my face!" I had to leave the room because I was going to cry. I take for granted everyday that I have no scars or anything on my face. At that moment I seen myself realize how the simple things we see in a mirror everyday whether we find ourselves ugly, average, or beautiful can be so quickly changed in an instant from a traumatic event such as an accident. This also was the first time I seen my brother in law shed tears. He is every sense of a man and I just never imagined him getting all teary eyed in front of me. While doing his medical care for the first time it was difficult to keep myself together without letting emotions overcome me. I guess I never realized how much I still enjoy what it is I do for a living; the compassion is unbelievable still many years later.
Yes, as a Paramedic I see trauma everyday but have few personal experiences to relate or identify with on such a personal level. Don't get me wrong I have endured trauma in my family relative to domestic violence and a sister who was shot in the back and left disabled. My heart still manages to find compassion and concern for my fellow person and so much more for my family and friends. I will admit, I am a strong person but like most people when things affect our family I am extremely sensitive. I think I forgot how sensitive I was in heart, mind, and soul. Needless to say, my first time doing home care and despite it being for my brother in law this has been quite an experience already and its only day 2 for me. It is a lot of work. So, for the nurses that do homecare - my heart goes out to you all.
I am very happy to be blessed with the skill and knowledge to be able to help my family as much as I can. Yesterday was my sister's first real break. I can't imagined being disabled and having to face every challenge in life to be able to help your loved one to heal. She is my hero for sure! Gosh, I just love her. I am so glad she is able to now just take time for herself and focus less on the medical concerns and worries that she has been consumed with prior to my arrival here. I know she will still have them; but, I feel so much better being able to give her a break and showing her by being here for them both really means a lot to me and I know to them both as well.
I am also very happy to tell you who my real life hero is - she is an angel for sure.
Anyway, I must run and get some things done here. I will post updates from time to time about how we are all doing here in TN. I wish everyone well. If you read this thank you - leave me a comment if you care to. Otherwise, I'll see you all in my next update.
Love,
Me
