i cant go on.. its to hard.. the drugs cant help. death cant help. love is the reason it hurts so much .. i wish i could hate you.. i cant though.. i dont know why i love you so much.. its killing me. and death holds no release cuz i know you will join.. fuckedup.. its getting time for me to take the controler and play my last round and try to beat the score.. may you all forgive me when it finaly comes out