chellabella's blog: "Slave to my Addiction"

KELLY CLARKSON LYRICS "Addicted" It's like you're a drug It's like you're a demon I can't face down It's like I'm stuck It's like I'm running from you all the time And I know I let you have all the power It's like the only company I seek is misery all around It's like you're a leech Sucking the life from me It's like I can't breathe Without you inside of me And I know I let you have all the power And I realize I'm never gonna quit you over time It's like I can't breathe It's like I can't see anything Nothing but you I'm addicted to you It's like I can't think Without you interrupting me In my thoughts In my dreams You've taken over me It's like I'm not me It's like I'm not me It's like I'm lost It's like I'm giving up slowly It's like you're a ghost that's haunting me Leave me alone And I know these voices in my head Are mine alone And I know I'll never change my ways If I don't give you up now It's like I can't breathe It's like I can't see anything Nothing but you I'm addicted to you It's like I can't think Without you interrupting me In my thoughts In my dreams You've taken over me It's like I'm not me It's like I'm not me I'm hooked on you I need a fix I can't take it Just one more hit I promise I can deal with it I'll handle it, quit it Just one more time Then that's it Just a little bit more to get me through this I'm hooked on you I need a fix I can't take it Just one more hit I promise I can deal with it I'll handle it, quit it Just one more time Then that's it Just a little bit more to get me through this It's like I can't breathe It's like I can't see anything Nothing but you I'm addicted to you It's like I can't think Without you interrupting me In my thoughts In my dreams You've taken over me It's like I'm not me It's like I'm not me

Okay one of my more recent fantasy involves a parking garage. I imagine that I have just gotten done with an appointment. It is very late in the day and I had to park earlier farther into the garage than I would have liked. I walk out of the door to the stairs, my skirt swishing as I walk. I am exausted from the day I've had and cant wait to just get in my car and drive home. My legs are killing me in these shoes and I know that I will most definately be taking a nice hot shower when I get home. I look around the parking garage and notice most of the occupants have already left for the day. It is so nice to have some time for peace and quiet. As I get closer to my car I hear sounds coming from some where close by. It sounds like a man and a woman talking in almost hushed tones. I reach into my purse to find my keys and cant find them anywhere. Damn! I franticly start to think where the last time I saw them was... and then I hear the woman giggle from something. I turn to look at them. I can only just see them in the dimmed lights. They are standing there kissing rather deeply next to what I assume is their car. I don't know why I continued to watch. Maybe it is that deep dark side of me that just couldnt pull away from the sight. Now the couple are resting up against a car still kissing but now it looks like the man has started to rub the woman's breasts with one hand and holding her closer with the other arm. I catch a glimps of the woman's hand drifting to the front of the man's slacks. She uses both hands and unbuckles his belt and pulls it out of his pants. they both kind of chuckle at this and continue to kiss. I just keep watching intranced by what is happening. Next the woman unbuttons his pants and glides her hand down into the waist band. Oh my I feel hot all over. I wonder if they can see me. I keep thinking that I should turn away and look into my car to see if I left the keys inside or run back up and see if they are in the office I came from. I can't for some reason turn away. I hear the man groan and feel my panties getting very wet. Next I see the man's left hand that was on the woman's waist travel to the hem of her skirt, sliding just beyond it and then he begins to caress her thigh as he inches his hand back up. You can tell that she isnt wearing any panties so his fingers have nothing to move aside as he gets to where her thighs part. He dips his fingers into her and brings them out. Then he does it again and the woman's head falls back and she moans in a chuckle.. I find myself sitting against my own car. I lick my lips. They seem to be dry all of a sudden. The woman begins to loosen the man's tie. I hear her say " We dont want to get to loud do we?" The man chuckles and shakes his head no as I hear the silk of the tie zip as she pulls it from his neck. They kiss very deeply and then the man takes the tie and belt from the woman. As if she knows just what to do she stands facing their car's hood. The man come up behind her and takes her both of her wrists and places them behind her back. I keep wondering what in the world are they doing. Still it turns me on and I cant stop watching their display. As he ties both of her wrists together with his belt I feel my hand inching down my skirt and wander under it. I am not even aware of where I am. I draw my fingers under my panties and begin to rub my clit. The man tightens the belt one last time and the woman looks over her shoulder, her lips forming a soft "oh". I bit my lip as I continue to watch while my other hand starts caressing my breast circling its tip with my thumb then gently tugging on it with my thumb and index finger. Some how the parking garage has become a suana as sweat drips down my forehead. Next the man takes the tie and puts the center into her mouth and ties it around her head. He is very gentle while he does this.. He then pushes the woman to lie with her stomach on the hood. He pulls up her skirt and proceeds to push himself inside of her. As he enters into her I feel my fingers pushing deeper into my pussy and I gasp from the pleasure. I rub in and out pushing them against my spot. I look over at the man and woman and he is behind her fucking her hard. I hear them both moaning and increase my fingers tempo. I feel my juices dripping down my fingers. I cannot believe I am doing this in the parking garage. I can hear their skin crashing together. Harder and more rhythmic each time. My fingers get harder and more intense inside of me. I lay my head back savoring the sounds of their bodies and the heat of mine. Finally I hear them panting louder and as I let out one long moan I hear them both gasp and come together really hard one last time and then the man sighs. I stand there knowing they must have heard me. The man pulls his pants together. He undoes the belt from the woman's wrist and the tie gag from her lips . She turns and smiles at him while she straightens her skirt. This causes me to straighten mine as well. I notice that the woman goes to the driverside door opens it and gets in. As she starts the engine the man walks away back into the direction of the stairway. I am still panting from what happens I turn notice my purse is spilled out onto the pavement and there beside my purse are my keys. I get the keys, get into my car and drive home....

Super Freak by M.W. Balled up tension deep within Tell-tale signs of my sick sin Gripping tightly in my chest, Wondering what's with all this mess, Prooding poking around my head, Thinking thoughts that cant be said, Piercing deeper to the rigid core, Not knowing what it all is for.

Hey Im m... I am addicted to sex and love (romantic and emotional intrigue etc.) Anyway for the last few months I have been working 12 steps to try to relieve myself of the addiction. Well ummm I had some interesting epiphanies that has let me to a wonderful relationship so far with a dom.. hehehehe.. so now I am a slave to my addiction which is my obsession with my dom... Perhaps if I am a good girl he will let me post some of my stories here lololol.. hmm we will have to see.. but being good lately has not been easy. Any suggestions?