unequaliris's blog: "sister christian"

I was so lonely, it was late November, My Mom had just died on the 24th 2012. I had been befriended by a gentleman who turned out to be no GENTLEMAN at all but I got out with ut any real harm. In this time I had just been sad over the loss of my precious son, Tony, he was sad a lot, Tony decided to take his life on May 16th and he did this to himself in such a sad way, leaving a very lucid note with directions on what he had and had not done. an what needed doing around his home. I cried over that one as the coroner had to take the last piece of paper my son ever left me, so I thought. So as I put my dear son to rest, My poor precious mom got more ill, and finally succomed to death from Parkinson's disease in November 24,2012. I did not tell her of Tony's suicide, because you see, My Kid brother Dan had done this on Jan 02,2008, My Older sis Joycce had taken her life onFe 13,1980. But my poor mom in her sad demented state said. " The suicides are after you aren't they?" I said no MOM I am here and will always be here for you. She spent the last year of her life in a nursing facility as she would have periods of such chaotic thoughts she would call the police on me or go or try to go out looking for her car, which the poor sould had not had in quite some time. Erst while my husband of near 20 years (1994) was neither sympatheti nor was he communicative so it was like having a roommate that thought you were the maid or cook. I was so lonely so in July of 2012, I left my marrriage, moving into a small cabin, that my son Tony's Dad and I had built 40 years prior for his grandfather. Tony later inherited it. Which in turn defaulted to me. This cabin was in derelict state, so a woman with Parkinson and MS, being me, decided to refurbish it. This particularlabor of love has been both an adventure and a disaster at times. It had no plumbing suitable, the foot valve on the pump to the well was bogged and worn, the walls were all dark and dingy, the yard had been ignored and unkempt to say the least as I had taken Tony to live near me in Alabama since his 1st serious suicide attempt, in 2006. He just could not recover. Well this cabin was,is has been my home for nearly a year. It now is painted pale yellow outside. has white walls, cleaned carpt, a new floor in the kitchen and bath remodeled along with all new plumbing, a new foot valve and deeper well. better drainage, and new flowers as well as all of the others cleaned so the spring has been phenomenal. I have enjoyed songbirds, hummingbirds, and all creatures like rabbits, deer, and even armadilloes, as well as raccoons and such in my yard all hours. For more than a year I have had trouble sleeping so I will get up at odd hours an work on my home or yard....But what I am about to share is what has kept me alive and actually saved me

DAVID. I am in love with David. I preserve his name and will not clarify all of my relationship for very good reasons.

In late Noveber I had just buried my MOM,was so distraught over my son's suicide, and a grief group had led me to a dangerous fellow I barely escaped.

I took it upon myself, a woman who is not overly familiar with the internet or chats or groups and certainly not dating internet. Joined on the 29t of November 2012, a senior dating chat what ever it is called. In approximately 15 minutes of my having joined the group. I found my self staring at a posted wall. Physically standing at a wall. Now mind you I was sitting in front of my pc, not standing at a wall. Along comes a handsome gentleman, he had a clip board in his hands, and appeared shocked by my appearance, stating. "You ...aren't supposed to be here. I had no reply as I was not sure eithere of us "were" there. He set aside his clip board, and kindly talked as he led me to an office where we sat across from one another. I remember sitting and staring across at the most beguiling male I had set my eyes upon. He was soft spoken but all together male, he emanated it. I was talking and he asked " So you find you are on your on and need to figure out what to do with your life. I said yes. He said "What do you want to do with your Life?"

Well at times I can be catty or frivolous so I replied, "I want to have sex, lots of it>" He almost laughed then looked me straight in the eye and said or asked. "And when you have sex,lots of it, what are you going to do with the rest of your life?" I said OH I believe we will think of something.  Our relationsship began to bloom, We have not ever again run into eachother on the virtual reality of life , but have created a reality and I have not ever loved a human more or beeen more grateful for a man who has made me want to live again. I was nearly prepared to throw the chips in. and along comes a literal miracle. His name is David, and I await him. I am selling my cabin, it is alredy contracted. and though I will not share our plans are formulated. He has given me excitement and joy and a desire to do all of the things a woman in love wants to do. It is odd to meet in a miracle as no one wants to believe you. But trust me....David is real as am I.