So, yeah...I am single again. Not a bad thing though. I actually like being single. Plus this last guy I dated just wasn't my type, no matter how hard I tried to make myself believe he was my type. I DO wish I would have listened to my friends though. The things that have been told to me the past couple of days by people he has went out with just amaze me. NO, I did not go asking any of them anything, but for some reason they suddenly feel the need to let me know what happened with them. Usually I don't listen to such chatter but after hearing that he used the same LINES on them as he did me, I am glad I listened. "You have my heart" .... yeah, whatever. How many women can you tell that to in a few months and actually keep a straight face? LMAO ~shakes head~ I actually wasn't pissed until these conversations happened. I was annoyed but not pissed. NOW I am pissed. There is nothing I hate worse than a liar. If a man can not be a MAN and be truthful, he just needs to keep on steppin. I guess this is why I am losing my trust in men. And I really do hate to say that. I love men! LOL But lately I have not had the best of luck with them. I need to find me a man who KNOWS how to treat a woman, works and pays his own bills, respects my relationship with my children, isn't so insecure that if I am not up his ass he thinks I am cheating, is not so jealous that a phone call from my 14 yr old cousin sets him off, is mature and not always using the "if I don't get my way, it's over" ploy, and someone who can accept me for who I am. I know, tall order there but hey, the last 2 guys I have dated have really made me look at relationships in a whole new light. Looks, they aren't a big deal. I do have certain things that catch my eye about the opposite sex, of course, but in the end, it's not what matters. I can go from lusting over a shaved head to loving some long hair on a man. I can go from getting lost in soulful brown eyes to happily staring into a set of baby blues. In the end, we all get old and wrinkly. I need more than just a good looking guy...I need someone that I can talk to for hours on end about everything. I need someone that I can just sit with and never say a word and be content. I need someone who can make me laugh on my bad days and keep me grounded on my good ones. I need someone that will love me enough that when I am upset, they will WANT to know what's wrong. I need someone who will KNOW in their heart that I am a faithful woman and trust me. I need someone who will let me have my independance and yet be my rock and shoulder to cry on. I need someone who will be TRUTHFUL even when the truth hurts. I need someone mature enough not to play games. Ya know, I am just gonna stop here, I feel like this whole blog is just pointless. I am just rambling. If you made it this far, I am sorry...LOL but thank you for reading/listening. Anyone know a guy like I just described? Anyone? LOL JK Well, maybe not. HAHAHA Seriously, I just needed to vent a little and I am buzzed as hell thanks to a good friend of mine. Hope you all are having a great weekend and Happy Fathers Day to all the dads and single moms who have had to be "dad"!!!!!
