nInjA KittY's blog: "Simon's Thoughts"

If you have to think about whether you love someone or not, then the answer is no. When you love someone... you just know. Every night, I hope to forget you, but every night you're still in my dreams. You're the one wiping my tears away, and you're the one muffling my screams. Then reality is my brutal awakening when I realize you just don't care enough. You were never there when I needed you, you were never there when times got tough. I remember when I could lie in your arms and suddenly everything was alright. Now my pillows leave me feeling empty and I have to cry myself to sleep at night. You really were my first for everything- my first hug, my first kiss, my first love. It's so hard to simply let go and move on when you're the one I'm always thinking of. Giving up means I let you down, and I'm so sorry that I'm running away. There's nothing left for me to gain, and there's no reason for me to stay. I'll deny that my heart aches for you, 'cause regrets would be mental suicide. There is just no room for compromise when both of us have too much pride. I'll just hurt myself trying to fix what's broken, so I think I'll pass, on trying to put back together this relationship made of glass. Your words cut like shards, causing pain like all those other cruel things you do. You always hurt me, so I let go... but I can't keep myself from loving you.