how do you explain to someone that you love them and want nothing but the best for them but every day you witness their destruction. You watch them throw their lives away. Its even worse when its your life thats been thrown away also. How do you explain to someone that not only are you afraid for them but you are afraid of them too. You give your everything to someone only to be asked "why can't you be like the girls I talk to on the internet?" It is hard to be like them when your life has been sucked dry by that exact person. How do you tell the person thats taken everything away from you that they are the reason why you cry all the time? How do you tell that person that they are the reason why your sick all the time. How do you tell that person that they are the reason that you feel dead inside. I can not be mary fucking sunshine, I can not make friends with them knowing the fake side of me, for someone to know me they have to know me entirely.
You don't know someone until you eat, sleep and live with them. Right now, I just want to waste away, You have already made me into nothing.
