I don't know what to do, and fear it may even be to late. So, here I am, posting a thread, requesting the advice of an unbiased audience.
I met her about 3 years ago, shortly after I moved to Houston. And began working with the same company but at another location, and we formed a friendship. Needless to say, I had fallen in love with her the moment I first laid my eyes upon her. I had never felt what I felt when I first looked into her eyes, or anything remotely close, it was intense. Then I fell for her son. He was 3 at that time, soon to be 6 now. I adjusted my schedule to babysit him while she worked, resulting in me getting about 2, or 4 hours on a good night, of sleep; but didn't mind. If I was able to do it for her, I did it; help with rent, electric, food, anything. We developed a close friendship until personal issues in her life, moved to Dallas around Christmas time 2 years ago, and lost contact with her. So we had a year of the best friendship I've ever had, and yet I never received anything, not even one HUG, nothing, just goodbyes and drive safes.
We reconnected about a year after she left when she came back for a while, but the same issues caused her to quickly leave again.And on Christmas Eve of 06 I got the best Christmas Present ever. I found her again, back in Houston. And I'll add that I am now getting hugs everyday. But, I still love her. Her family loves me, her son loves me, her mom knows I love her and constanly droping little hints when we do things together, and especially when it includes her son. Her aunt that she adores and loves and goes to for advice loves me and knows how I feel for her as well.
I had already told her I loved her once, before she left, but I wouldn't make a move, that I would rather have her in my life as only a friend, than not to have her at all. Never got to really discuss anything as we were soon interupted and never really brougght it up again. But, I love her with everything in me that can love, and I want to tell her again, but I don't think I should. She knows I do, I can't hide it; but that first year, I put myself so deep into the dreaded "friends category" which is basically the point of no return. She knows I love her, I just wish I could tell her I love her, but I don't want to risk losing her again by doing something I shouldn't. What do I do?
