i relived parts of the past 2 years last night.it was strange because it was a mix of two relationships. things that happened in two different ones to two different people happened but only with the one.i hurt so much right now.my body is so sore. the dream was so intense. i don't understand why this keeps happening. why i do i keep having to relive really painful things?i relived fights, beatings,a horrible pregnancy,being deserted, and thats just to name a few.i hate sleeping. i hate feeling this way and i keep trying to stuff about and people keep bringing me back down.i don't want to think about my baby, or think about what shitty thing my last 2 exes did. or how i fucked up and made them do bad things to me and im sick of hurting
