You write that you are breaking my heart again? How is this so? you are talking about the story i write ?? right? thats what your talking about... it must be because thats all that is making sence to me.
I am confused but not in the way you think. You are confusing me by saying you are breaking my heart again? Is it because you are reading my story? please tell me....
Because thats all that makes sence.... Am i jealous of him? you want an honest adult anwser right? Yes of course i am or part of me is, the part that still loves you.
I gave up that fight so long ago... And now here we are again. Not the way i wanted to remember this date.... Is that how you are breaking my heart? Reminding me of mistakes i made ? mistakes i pay for still?
They cost me you ... and they cost me her too... I've paid for them twice now. So tell me where is that fair?????
You say you are breaking my heart again? It still has not healed so how do you break what is already broken? Never healed you see wounds that will never go away. That is my final punishment.
I am not meant to be happy i got that already. I do want you to be happy you do deserve that and i have tried despritly to be there as your friend. Sure there are the moments i have where i stop and think.. perhaps thats part of the punishment as well i am unsure.
You want unfair? this month has been a year. Hows that for unfair? look at your calender and where were we a year ago this date?
There was one saying in my story directed to you.. I am sure you know it but just in case i'll say it right here.
I do know i want you to be happy whether that be with Joe or teddy or some other guy down the road that you havnt even met yet..I mean all we have in this world is the ability to be loved and return that love .. and that time is no mans friend So i have to be happy now in this time and have to be right with that... So i guess all i am saying is that... the mear fact of being in love with you is enough for me so your off the hook*
Your off the hook... I gave up a long time ago, thats my truth that i live with every day, knowing that. So there is no broken hearts here. Just wounds that are never going to heal... Self inflicted as you would say... I'm sorry
the only words i can say and mean anymore ... I'm sorry.
P.s
you say you arent working harder, but you are,
i guess that does break my heart...even more.
