May be getting "real serious" with someone. (If you're a fan of Ray Stevens, you'll remember the 4 stages of serious from his "seriously" movie)It's true, the grass is always greener on the other side. When not in a relationship, I long to be close to someone. Then when it happens, I start doubting it, finding things wrong with it, and wishing for more of my freedom.
Tonight it's BBQ'd steaks and Gentleman Jack at his place. Friday night. 50 miles from home. Yikes!!
Am I ready for this? Do I really want to try it again? I have a laundry list of "must haves" for the next serious relationship. I was hurt by the last serious relationship (physically & mentally) and figured that if I had a list of items that were "required", I was safe - no one person could fit that bill.
Now someone comes along who just might be "it". But then again, I thought someone might be "it" six months ago and it didn't work out. That's when I added to my "must have" list figuring that predicament wouldn't happen again. Now I'm questioning my list, his qualities, my heart and my head.
Is this what I want??? I have friends and family enough that love me and keep me busy. I'm content with my life. Why do I long for something else and then question it when I'm on the brink of having it?
If I were 30 I think I would feel differently. It would be companionship for the long road of life. Now that I'll be 50 in 40 days that long road is shortened and I wonder if it's really worth it for the rest of my life now. I mean, how long does it take to train a puppy, I mean man? lol
