IVE BEEN THINKING ALOT LATELY ABOUT MY LIFE,THINGS IVE DONE,PEOPLE IVE MET,AND PEOPLE THAT HAVE COME AND GONE.AHH,SWEET MEMORIES.IT ALL SEEMS SO LONG AGO YET THERE AS FRESH AS YESTERDAY.CHILDHOOD,VIETNAM,THE AGENCY,LOVES FOUND AND LOVES LOST,EACH HAS ITS OWN BITTER SWEET MEMORY.NOW AS THINGS BEGIN THEIR FINAL NESTING I FIND MYSELF RELIVING THOSE MEMORIES MORE AND MORE.TODAY IVE DECIDED TO SEARCH OUT THOSE MEMORIES AND FIND WHAT IS LEFT OF THE PAST AND WHAT THE FUTURE MAY HOLD.
IVE GOT A FEW THINGS PACKED AND STRAPPED ON THE OL BIKE AND IM GOING TO START THAT JOURNEY.FIRST IM GOING TO MY OLD STOMPING GROUNDS,KANSAS CITY.
THATS WHERE MY LIFE BEGAN AS FAR AS MY MEMORIES GO AT LEAST.MY FIRST RECOLECTION IS OF QUINDARO BLVD.ON 12 STREET.MY EARLY CHILD HOOD WHEN I HAD MY MOM STILL.
FROM THERE,MAPLE HILL CEMETARY WHERE ILL VISIT MY FAMILY BEFORE I EMBARK ON THE LONG RUN.NO THATS NOT DEPRESSING ,I NEVER REALLY KNEW THEM BUT I DO FEEL THE LONLINESS FROM LOOSING THEM.FROM THERE,THE LOWER STATES,TEXAS THEN FLORIDA THEN BACK ACROSS TO CALIFORNIA,YES ITS BACK TRACKING BUT ITS IN THE ORDER OF MY MEMORIES.FROM THERE,ITS DUNSIETH NORTH DAKOTA,I LIVED ON THE RESERVATION FOR A FEW YEARS WITH MY GREAT GRANDPA.BEFORE I JOINED THE SERVICE.FROM THERE,WELL THATS WHERE I DECIDE THE FUTURE,OR WHAT I HOPE THE FUTURE MAY HOLD.
I WONT BE ON HERE VERY MUCH EXCEPT WHEN I STOP AT A LIBRARY BUT ILL POST A RUNNING DIARY OF MY JOURNEY AND THE MEMORIES I EXPLORE AND THE CHANGES I FIND.I KNOW THEY SAY U CANNT GO BACK AND IM PREPARED FOR THAT,BUT I KNOW YOU CAN GO BACK.YOU CAN WALK THOSE FIELDS OF DREAMS AND YOU CAN FIND YOURSELF AGAIN.
THATS MY SOUL PURPOSE.TO FIND JUST WHO I AM AGAIN AND TO FREE A FEW GHOSTS.IM LEAVING TOMARROW AT 4 AM,WISH ME LUCK,STOP BY AND LEAVE SOME LOVE AND REMEMBER THIS,THERE IS NO GREATER TOMARROW,THAN TODAY.
LOVE YOU ALL,AND ILL MISS YOU BUT ILL BE BACK AND IM LEAVING A DIARY OF MY TRIP AS OFTEN AS I CAN.I HOPE A MUCH BETTER RENEGADELVR RETURNS AND FOR ONCE AND FOR ALL,GHOSTS CAN BE BURRIED.ALL MY FAMILY HERE,LOVE YA TO DEATH,ALL MY FRIENDS AND FANS,DONT KNOW WHAT ID DONE WITH OUT YA.TO EVERYONE ELSE,MAY GOD BLESS YOU AND KEEP YOU IN HIS SITE.
