For a long time now I've been searching for my true love. Searching for a love that will last a lifetime. I've yet to find it. Lately my search has become complicated and full of confusion. The women I seem most attracted to just don't know what they want or they are afraid of love. I know what I want. I want someone I can shower with love. Someone I can care about and she will care about me in return. Someone I can lay next to in bed late at night and talk to for hours. Someone I want to hold on to for eternity, never letting go. Someone I can give my heart to. Why is this so hard to find? The women I meet tell me how nice I am. They tell me how sweet I am. They tell me I'm too good to be true. Maybe that's my problem. Maybe I'm too nice. Maybe I'm too sweet. Maybe I'm too good. I've spent years changing who I am to become the person I am today. I don't believe in violence. I don't believe in causing others pain, except during sex when they ask for it. I believe in helping people. I believe in doing what is best for others, even if it hurts me to do it. I put all others before myself. I only say what I mean and I only make promises I intend to keep. Basically I do everything I can to be nice, sweet, and good. All the women I meet say they care about me. They all say they want to be friends, but not a single one of them wants a relationship with me. I often wonder what is wrong with me. What is it that makes me so unattractive? Were all those years I spent to become the man I am nothing but a waste of time? Is it true that nice guys finish last? I'm beginning to believe my search for love was nothing but a waste of my time. I should just learn to enjoy the loneliness I constantly feel. I've always felt I was destined to be alone. I guess I was right... JFC
