I have always heard that the secret happiness in life, friendships, and love to be yourself, be honest, and to treat others like you want to be treated. I have generally tried to live by those mantras, although as my friends will tell you I can be quite the pill at times. I am always myself, even though that means that sometimes I am brash, bull headed, and I refuse to kiss ass. I stand with my friends no matter what (Just ask my friend Jill about her ex-husband and the only reason I havent killed the prick yet)... I will do for my friends no matter what; that's just what you should do for friends. I always try to treat others with the understanding I know that I want and need from others, especially because the mood swings do make me difficult to deal with sometimes.
I guess this week has been an emotional drain on me... Finding out that Michael has been lying to me for the past ohhh year or so and ONLY tells me the truth because he gets busted big time (well, actually is the way he has always been), but to be calling me trying to get me to meet him at hotels for sex when in fact, hes been MARRIED for over a year, and as recently as a month ago begging me to meet him while in fact his WIFE who just so happens to be 15 weeks pregnant also... WTF is wrong with people? For 8 years I was never good enough to be serious with, but risk everything for 15 minutes of fun (1.. the longest hes EVER gone is 35 minutes, and 2.. its usually only fun for him anyway) It Angers me to no end that he tried to use me this way, and the fact there is a child that is on the picture (even if its not born yet) totally infuriates me to no end....
Then again, there's nothing new with the second choice/back up/last resort status I somehow am relegated to... I guess you cant expect the universe to be fair all the time.... Is it really totally wrong to want one person to treat you with respect and care and honesty? Is it even possible in today's world to find that? So far it has been for me..... Maybe one day He will come along and prove to me that not all guys are like Michael, that there are a few left that are actually gentlemen.
