Scared that I'll be alone again, even with promises from my other. I don't want to go throw that again. Some of you may know what I mean and some of you will not. Before I met this man I'm with, (man of my dreams) I was with a guy for 4 years, engaged, and had a child....one day up and decided he didn't love me anymore. He did it to me Twice with those same words. but has fucked me over so many times its unreal. And Always went back. Well Not this time. I swear I'll never let my daughter go through that again. There are times now even with the guy of my dreams standing by my side that I freak out and swear he's doing the same. I don't know what I can do to get that out of my head. I love him but I don't want to push him away because of something he isn't guilty of. I'm scared, that one day i'll end up alone because he'll hate the person i am because of the last guy. He's the sweetest person in the world to me. Maybe its just cuz I've been there on more then one occasion? I don't know. But on a Lighter Note I finally go to the Doctor on Monday for my pregnancy!!! WOOT that scares me too lol
