I have been struggling with this the last week. It seems as my beagle is suffering and the cancer is very aggressive. I watched her in the last week go to a state where she was eating on her own to where we have to hand feed her. She has started having bloody noses and it seems continous. She has completely stopped using her right hind leg and I am seeing new growth on her. Tonight I was listening to her breathe and it seemed very labored. I am about to go lay a towel in my bed and put us both to sleep one last time. In the morning I will take her to the vet and say goodbye. I know she is suffering but I am struggling with letting her go. She has always been the comforter in the family. I know it is best for her but I lose a dear friend who past food and water expects nothing but a pat on the head. She listens when I just need to get things out and she does it with out judging and input or opinions she is just there supporting. Knowing it is best doesnt make it easier. So I am closing out this blog and going to love on my dog one more night and pray for strength tomorrow.
