My Greatest Joy in Life is Being a Dork's blog: "Sarah's Corner"

I tend to be a very giving person. I would take my clothes off and hand them over to someone who needed them more than me in a heart beat. I do my best to help out any one and everyone. There are just times though when I want to help so bad and just can't or I don't have the resources to do so. Today is one of those days. A friend of mine is in dire need of help and I can't help them. I don't have what they need. They are looking to me for answers and I don't have them. This drives me nuts there's nothing I can do to make it easier on them. It's frustrating I have no idea what to do or to say. It is tearing me up inside and wish I could do more to help them. It's a real downer for me. It makes me very sad....

I'm so confused. Do you ever feel like someting is missing in your life. I mean I know what I'm missing and wanting and it might sound cheesy to others though, I want to find true love. I'm not talking fairy tale i'm talking some one who makes you feel good about yourself. Someone you can't get off your mind. I keep looking and looking and I just feel like every time I try I fail. Maybe I'm expecting too much from people I don't know. Some times it really honestly bothers me, makes you wonder if it's you who the problem is. It's just driving me nuts lol. I guess I'll expand on this though more in the morning. I'm way to tired lol. :* muah!

Before you read this I want to inform you that I am not a racist. However, I find the following passage to be true on many different levels. I think this is a great piece and it can open a ton of different forms of discussion. I did not write this so if you are offended I apologize in advance. I want to know how you feel about this. Let me know what you think: You pass me on the street and sneer in my direction. You call me "Whiteboy," "Cracker," "Honkey," "Whitey," "Caveman" and that's OK. But when I call you, nigger, Kike, Towelhead, Sand-nigger, Camel Jockey, Beaner, Gook, or Chink you call me a racist. You say that whites commit a lot of violence against you, so why are the ghettos the most dangerous places to live? You have the United Negro College Fund. You have Martin Luther King Day. You have Black History Month. You have Cesar Chavez Day. You have Yom Hashoah You have Ma'uled Al-Nabi You have the NAACP. You have BET. If we had WET(White Entertainment Television) we'd be racists. If we had a White Pride Day you would call us racists. If we had white history month, we'd be racists. If we had an organization for only whites to "advance" our lives, we'd be racists. If we had a college fund that only gave white students scholarships, you know we'd be racists. There are over 60 openly proclaimed Black Colleges in the US, yet if there were "White colleges" that would be a racist college. In the Million Man March, you believed that you were marching for your race and rights. If we marched for our race and rights, you would call us racists. You are proud to be black, brown, yellow and orange, and you're not afraid to announce it. But when we announce our white pride, you call us racists. You rob us, carjack us, and shoot at us. But, when a white police officer shoots a black gang member or beats up a black drug-dealer running from the law and posing a threat to society, you call him a racist. I am proud. But, you call me a racist.

Have you ever felt so overwhelmed that you just wanted to explode. Just lash out at any one or anything just to get a release on all your built up anger. Ever been so stressed out that you just want to shut down and avoid any one that could just push your buttons even further beyond where you ever wanted to be. It’s funny how I as a human being allow my self to get all worked up over personal situations. I know I’m not the only one who feels like this at times but why is stress such an intense feeling. It just builds up and up and up waiting for that one incident or emotion to push it beyond the universe and then the poor person who it is unleashed upon I feel terrible for. I really wish that stress did not exist. Do you think we could possibly live in a stress free world? Most likely not, but this has allowed me to vent some of my frustration thanks for listening.

It's a Thursday and I am absolutely bored out of my mind. I'm at work and it's dead. It's our National Customer service meeting the next two days. There is a bunch of training classes. None of which I will be attending due to people thinking that they will be over my positions head. Oh well. I can't wait for the weekend. I haven't decided on what I'm doing yet but I know it will be fun. Any suggestions on fun things to try. I do enjoy trying new things, however I will not bungee jump or jump out of a plane. If any one wants to chat hit me up i'm so bored grrr!!! Luv ya much :* muah!

Have you ever had that day when you just don't want to get out of bed, but you know you have to. You're already running late and you arrive at work late. Anything you do on that day is worthless everyone is made at you, you feel extremely over whelemed with everything on. You just want to run home crawl into bed and cry. It seems like everyone else is in a bad mood and they just want to pick a fight with you. Yeah I am having one of those days. Grrrrrrr :(!