I Love You Baby girl..
Current mood: depressed
Category: sad Life
Sandi I hope someday you can read this and know how much I love you..
Perhaps you will be mad at me 4 talking to Mom and Dad...I did it because we love you..I love you.. We are desperate to help you annd it was the only way..If I had 2 do it again and choose between you getting mad 4 a while or trying 2 help the Dr's and you parents save your life..If I had to I would do the same thing all over..
From the moment we met we bonded.. you have been my BFF, my love, my sanity 4 2+yrs now..
I wish I had been more available these last few weeks..perhaps we would be on the phone now or online or exchanging gifts..
Instaead I'm writtting this..trying to ease the pain in my heart.. It's not helping... I look at your pictures, comments, messages, everything reminds me of you..
I call the house everyday to check on you...I talk 2 your mom or dad 4 awhile then I hang up and cry
I hope Don had nothing to do with this or there will be no place he ca hide... I'll turn him myself if your parents don't..They love you so much..they taking this hard...
One minute I'm angry you left me this way and didn't listen, the next I miss you so it hurts...
I can't sleep at nite... you are always on my mind...
I keep trying to find a way to help you and I reached a dead end so far but you know how presistant I am...If I could trade places with you I would... Your pain is my pain... your loss would be beyond pain..
All the times (which was daily+) we said "I love you" doesn't seem like enough..
I can't help feeling I let you down by not being there when you may have needed me and prevented all this...
Liz call me several times a day to check on you also...she feels the same way...though we are all friends what you and I have is different and specail..
I feel like my soulmate is leaving me and I can do nothing to prevent it..
Baby girl you know I love you more than anything.. I miss you so much..
Please be strong and pull through this because I don't think I could take it if you don't..
I MISS YOU SANDI.. PLZ COME HOME 2 US AGAIN..
