MY HEAD IS SPINNING FROM THE THOUGHTS THAT RUN THROUGH MY MIND,
MEMORIES OF THE PAST FLASH THROUGH MY BRAIN LIKE I'M WATCHING A SLIDE SHOW OF MY LIFE,
I THINK BACK TO HAPPIER DAYS WHEN THE WORLD WASN'T AS ANGRY AS IT IS TODAY,
THE FLOODGATES HAVE OPENED AND MY TEARS ARE FORMING PUDDLES ON MY PILLOW,
I WISH I COULD CLOSE THE GATE BUT THE PRESSURE OF MY PAIN IS JUST TOO GREAT AND I'M JUST TOO WEAK TO FORCE IT CLOSED.
SO I'LL CRY MY TEARS OF A THOUSAND MEMORIES BOTH, HAPPY AND SAD, AS I LIE HERE SHAKING IN FEAR OF WHERE THIS RIVER OF TEARS WILL TAKE ME.
I WISH I COULD FLOAT DOWNSTREAM INTO A "LAKE OF TRANQUILITY" BUT SOMEHOW I DON'T THINK SUCH A PLACE EXISTS.
I THINK I NEED TO BE PREPARED TO DO SOME WHITE WATER RAFTING.
UNCONTROLLABLY CRASHING INTO THE ROCKS ALONG THE WAY.
I HAVE NO LIFE JACKET ANYMORE SO IF I TILT JUST A LITTLE I'LL SURELY FALL OUT AND DROWN IN MY OWN SADNESS.
SO WHAT IF I DO HOLD STEADY AND MAKE IT TO THE SHORE SAFELY? THEN WHAT? WILL I BE LOST IN THE DARK FOREST OF REALITY? I HAVE NO SENSE OF DIRECTION, ESPECIALLY IN THE DARK, AND OF COURSE MY FLASHLIGHT ALWAYS HAS DEAD BATTERIES.
SO I'LL WANDER AIMLESSLY AND HOPEFULLY I WON'T FIND THE PATH THAT LEADS TO INSANITY.
ONCE I FIND MY WAY THERE I'LL NEVER FIND MY WAY BACK.
ALL I CAN DO IS HOPE SOMEONE WILL SEND OUT A SEARCH PARTY TO FIND ME,
SOMEONE TO KEEP CALLING OUT MY NAME SO I CAN FOLLOW THEIR VOICE BACK TO REALITY.
I NEED THIS NIGHTMARE OF DARKNESS TO END OR I WILL NEVER FEEL THE WARMTH OF THE SUN AGAIN.
