I will never know what it is like to be someone's fantasy
I will never be the object of envy
I can't remember what it feels like to be made love to and no fucked
I can't remember when my life hasn't sucked
No matter what I am outside I will always be the fat girl on the in
I am in so much pain and so alone I don't know where to begin
I will never know the look of true desire
I will never know a man who's not a liar
I will never again know a day free from pain
now with MS another life's stain
my oldest baby lost all family and friends gone
I ask every minute what I've done wrong
I crave for one hour in a pretty woman's life
to be so desired all of my life
I will never know love like the love I have wasted
only cheating and ugliness I have tasted
I ache for one love filled kiss full of longing before I die
but I know it won't happen so my poem ends with good-bye
