Sadness, which I look upon like a warm sweet apple pie resting on the window of a plantation house kitchen window. In my sadness I’ve found joy, through my sadness I knew that I could feel emotions without my sadness I am left with nothing but an empty void which no emotion would dare to be conceived. I go through my sadness and ask it to deliver me into humanity show me what’s it like to feel, the pleasure of a hug like a father to son or mother to daughter. I ask it to pull me to the realm of humanity where I can be loving and caring, so that I might just one day be giving and sharing to my fellow human being. I embrace my sadness with great joy for through my days on this earth it is the one emotion that never fail to let me down, it always came around and never deserted me like that of love, happiness and anger. No matter how much I tried to do right by people I always seem to fuck up. No matter how much I am there for a person I am always alone in the end. No matter how much I am willing to open up and give unconditional love to a person I am quickly met with rejection. I once use to experience all emotions that was a long time ago they betrayed me as if I was Native American being promise my land by the settlers. Sure I had the emotion of love but like a good squatter always do it only stayed around long enough to be seen once seen it disappeared as if it was a ghost. I learn from you my sadness we as humans chase after so many emotions but you are right there with us never leaving because we always come back to you and you welcome us with open arms. They say nothing last forever even life long lovers have the clause to death do us part. But sadness you found away to beat that and always remain with us after all I never seen a person not be sadden at a funeral.
