I don't mean to sound whiney or bitchy or anything but here goes. A few months back i was dumped over a mistake that has also caused me to lose my best friend. I also have been bed ridden and stuck at home thanks to a lack of funds, a vehicle and surgery. on top of this everyone i know has piled their problems on top of mine and im close to the edge. every day i just wanna sleep and sleep and not wake up. sometimes i wonder why i even did. all i seem to feel is pain and hurt and i can't trust people. cause all that seems to happen is i end up getting shafted when i need them. my only solace seems to be in books and playing games. for a brief time i can escape reality for a little while. I know you will say there are those that have it worse. and that im being selfish or whatever. but when you spend your time helping or trying to help everyone around you and they turn their backs on you.. then whose there to think of you? so yes im being selfish and thinking of myself..eventhough right now i hate myself but eh.. least its something right?
