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This is just me having a really bad day, and needing to put my thoughts down. You don't have to read it. . .it's likely nothing relevant to you. . .
Well, we all went up to St. Louis today to see my Grandma at Barnes. She's not doing so great. She's in renal failure, is fighting a bad infection, can't talk, on a ventilator, dialysis. . . and they're taking her off life support on Tuesday. So it's only a matter of time. . . I don't know how to deal with this. . .I don't know if I can handle another death in my life. This f'ing sucks. And my little girl will never get to know her great Grandma. . .never remember how sweet and giving and loving she was. And then I get get home from seeing my grandmother lying in a hospital bed with 10 tubes coming out of her, looking like a bag of bones, not even able to move or talk, and you know what Josh does? Yells about me not having his work clothes washed and calls me dumb and worthless. What a great ending to an already wonderful day, huh?
