Fubar Blog Posts 4

So You Know....
I will be shutting off my shoutbox completely very soon. If you need me send a message. I will not discuss anything of a personal nature anymore. I might not even flirt anymore. I stayed up very late last night talking to a great friend of mine. I have been thinking alot lately and with this talk I decided on some things! First of all........... most things cyber related is just that nothing more. So many view this as an escape. We are entitled to live as we choose. When you realize you are not living for you anymore that is when you must change it back. I need to find me all over again. He has always helped me so many times with kind words and comforting my heart and soul. I do hope any and all who read this can find a friend like this. The person on the other side of the screen can be extremely real................ never forget that. I do not know if I will stay on here in the long run or not. I do know I met some nice people on here. One friend tests my nerve a bit, but y

Thanksgiving 2007
Ironically, this is probably going to be the first Thanksgiving I am going to enjoy since I have been back from Iraq. Last Year, was kind of on a down beat note considering I had recently gotten fired by former employer prior to again Ironically 2 days before Veteran's Day(A blessing in its self not having to work with a management made of cowardly and self serving assholes) . There are a lot things to be thankful for : I still have my health. I still can think for myself. I have new job with a good company, making decent money. I have my own place to live. Always room for improvements but those will come in time. I have my family, my sons, and my friends. I have faith that things will work out in the end and for the best. I have been blessed with Gifts and challenges from God and it has given me a rich life that money can not buy. I am in America, the land of the free because it is the home of the brave. While I might be in an endless fruitless chase in the pursu

Happy Thanksgiving
"CHEERS" HAPPY THANKSGIVING! I Hope You All Enjoy This Thanksgiving Day, Sometimes We Take Things For Granted But We All Truely Have Something To Be Grateful For... Even If It Is Just Being Able To Take A Breathe Of Fresh Air... Be Blessed And Have A Happy Thanksgiving Day. Love Ya, ♥ SKYLAR ♥ "Sky's The Limit" ♥

Saved A Spider
I was at my dancing lessons yesterday and I saw this granddaddy long leg walking across the floor, about to be stepped on. Well I risked my own hand and swooped down, picked it up and took it outside to release it in the mulch. In that simple minute I realized that everyone is much like that spider, we'll about to be crushed by something bigger but not always greater and sometimes we need to be rescued and set back on the right track. So tomorrow while celebrating either with friends, alone, at work or with family just think that you wouldnt be where you are today without the rescue of someone; and maybe you know someone that should be rescued and set in the mulch. Happy Thanksgiving yall!

My Best Friend!!!
My grandmother was my best friend...She was the only one thst stood behind me no matter what i said, did, or crazy idea i might have pitched to her. 11/21/07 Mama Kelly past away in her sleep. I will miss her very much with all of my heart. I can still hear her calling me "robbie" from up the street, coming back from the corner store for her. I will miss her terribly!!! A candle burns at both ends, Fire racing flame. My mind is cluttered-full of lies, All your answers sounds the same. I do not know what to think, Too much is on my mind. Nothing seems the way it should, And I am running out of time. The wick is disappearing, Someone please tell me what to do. My mind tells me that its over, But I am still missing you." LOVE YOU MAMA KELLY!!!

Until We Meet
Until we meet My nights will be a little colder My days a little shorter My heart will beat a little less rapid Until we meet I know that my arms will be empty My mind hurting from the constant thought of you Minutes will seem to be hours Hours will seem to be months While months will seem like eternity Until we meet The stars in the sky will not affect me with its gleaming sparkles of life Until I am gazing at them in your arms And the food that I eat will not be as fulfilling and nourishing Until it is you that I share the my food with And Until we meet I will not feel whole My world will seem incomplete Until that wonderful day When our eyes make first contact And our bodies and souls collide in blissful whirlwind The words will roll off my tongue like a sweet love song "Hello, my love, I couldn't wait to meet yo

The Death Of America
is really sad and pathetic as a whole.Maybe its just me but im sick and tired of getting wished a happy thanksgiving as if were supposed to be proud that the white man killed off the Native Americans.. Celebrating this day as an American holiday makes me sick your really celebrating the death of the Real Americans.. Your ancestors all came here killed off a race now you celebrate it whats next Iraq? We went there and killed a bunch of them. think about it lets celebrate the deaths of all the people we have killed in the name of greed!! yeah this journal ends here on the note that giving thanks for the things you stole or killed for is wrong on so many levels that you should all be disgusted with yourselves..

Shower Pics
I got a request from a friend on Fubar to see more shower pics so I put all 17 that I had on a directory on my webpage. You can see them here: http://www.mynaughtystory.com/shower_pics/ I hope everyone is having a great weekend. XOXO Beth

Ok How Much Is Too Much And When Will The Jealousy End
OK YA'LL ITS TIME FOR THIS CHILDISHNESS TO STOP!!!!!! DEANNA, JEFF, YA'LL KNOW THAT LONE WOULD NEVER TAKE ANYONE FROM YOUR CREWS...AS A MATTER OF FACT HE HAS NO PROBLEM WITH HIS MEMBERS BEING IN OTHER CREWS SO I DON'T UNDERSTAND THE ANIMOSITY YA'LL ARE PUTTING OUT. FOR THE MEMBERS OF THE MYSTIC WARRIOR TRIBE, YA GOTTA TAKE THE GOOD AS WELL AS THE BAD IN THIS, NO IT'S NOT YA'LLS FAULT WHATS GOING ON BUT THATS THE WAY IT IS. I'M NOT IN ANY CLUB OR FAMILY, BUT I LOVE THE FRIENDS THAT I HAVE WHO HAPPEN TO BE IN MANY DIFFERENT CLUBS ON THIS SITE. I THOUGHT THAT BEING PART OF A FAMILY WAS TO ACCEPT EACH OTHER AS THEY WERE, NOT FOR WHO THEY WERE ALLIED WITH....IF THATS THE CASE I WONDER WHY I HAVE MANY DIFFERENT FRIENDS ALL OVER. I LOST MY REAL LIFE FAMILY WHEN THEY TOSSED ME OUT, IT HURTS WHEN YOU SEE THE SAME CRASS, HURTFUL, AND SHALLOW WAYS (SHOWN TO FRIENDS BY OTHER FRIENDS) THAT I HAVE EXPERIENCED HERE. ONE OF THESE DAYS YA'LL ARE GONNA LOOK BACK AND WONDER WHY THINGS H

Your Prayers Are Needed
Dear friends and family, Prayers needs right away We have a real close friend Michelle, who’s daughter Alyssa a 2yr old beautiful little angel was severely burnt in a house fire The baby was trapped in her bedroom when a volunteer firefighter found her She was found lying on a bed in a smoke-filled room, "badly burned, but still breathing.” What we know right now is that it does not look good for Alyssa she is so badly burnt Please I ask of you to keep Alyssa her mommy and the rest of her family in your prayers http://www.dailymail.com/News/200711230016

Test: How Freaky Are You In Bed? - I Got A 60..
HOW FREAKY ARE YOU IN BED? GET A PIECE OF PAPER AND NUMBER IT FROM (1-13) AND NO CHEATING! SEE THE RESULTS AT THE END OF THE TEST! WHEN YOU SEND IT ON PUT YOUR SCORE IN THE SUBJECT BAR... _________________________________________________ 1.WHAT COLOR ARE YOUR EYES? A. LIGHT COLOR B. CHANGE COLORS C. DARK 2.IF YOU WERE TO MEET UP WITH THE CRUSH OF YOUR LIFE YOU WOULD... A. SEDUCE THEM B. JUST CHILL C. CHILL AND THEN SEDUCE 3.WHATS YOUR FAVORITE TYPE OF WEATHER? A. RAIN B. THUNDERSTORM C. SUNNY D. CLOUDY 4.WHATS THE BEST TYPE OF FRUIT? A. STRAWBERRIES B. CHERRIES C. GRAPES D. PEACHES E. KIWI 5.THE BEST PART OF THE 24 HOURS IS.... A. NIGHT B. DAY C. AFTERNOON 6.WHATS THE BEST SEASON OF THE YEAR? A. FALL B. SUMMER C. SPRING D. WINTER 7.HEADBOARD OR NO HEADBOARD? a-HEADBOARD b-NO HEADBOARD 8.WHATS YOUR ZODIAC SIGN? A-LEO B-VIRGO C-SCORPIO D-LIBRA E-GEMINI F-ARIES G-CAPRICORN H-CANCER I-

Raising Pussies
In the land of Tofu, soybeans, hybrids, protests, and eating disorders (I'm talking about California by the way, if you haven't already figured it out), it really is no wonder why so many "Pussies" are being raised. I am fairly confident that California coined the phrase "I'm offended". Of course you are offended! If someone did something that has no effect on my life whatsoever, and it is something that I shouldn't even be concerned with.....I would be offended too!! *eyeroll* Here is why I believe that I am displaced and I was born in the wrong state. 1. I believe in spanking children a). Soooooo Spanking is physical abuse huh? and Time out is emotional humiliation and abuse?? and Communication is the only form of discipline that the state looks upon and agrees with??? Wow....Mr. and Mrs. Bleedingheart Liberal Smarty pants.....let me ask you a question. If my son grows up with no fear of consequence (and yes, a spanking really does get their attention)... if he grows up to b

Sicker Than A Dog
I had to go to urgent care because my flu bug has turned into bronchitis and am laid out on drugs to keep me from coughing... I will stop by now and then to say hi but that is about it for this weekend it appears. When I sit up like I am now to type this blog I end up having a coughing fit. The dr. said that if this keeps up they may need to admit me into the hospital because it will develop into pneumonia. I sure don't want that to happen. I can't wait until tomorrow when my Seahawks will shatter the Rams. GO SEAHAWKS!!!

Wondering
I'm sitting here and wondering,if the following is really close to prostitution??? I totaly understand if somebody lets just family members see their NSFW pics. But today i run across a profile with this info for NSFW pictures. This is selling them selfs: 1 day blast = 1 week in my NSFW pictures 3 day blast = 1 month in my NSFW pictures 7 day blast = 2 months in my NSFW pictures + a free booty salute *If you cant afford a blast or you dont have a CC you can send 75,000 fu-bucks (using the fu-pal link on my page) to get a 1 day peek into my private folders* Now why would i pay for some pics if you can get them all day long for free on the web?? What is ya'lls opinion to this?

Boyfriend Application
Ladies Title it "BOYFRIEND Application" Guys Title it "GIRLFRIEND Application" copy and paste this to a message and fill it out and send it to me 1. Your Name: 2. Age: 3. Fave Color: 4. Whats your sign? 5.Phone Number: 6. Location: 7. Height: 8.Hair (color and style): 9.Piercings/tattoos: HERE COMES THE FUN ... ... ... 1. Are we friends? 2. Do you have a crush on me? 3. Would you kiss me? 4. ...with tongue? 5. Would you enjoy it? 6. Would you ever ask me out? 7. Would you make a move on me in a movie theater? 9. Would you take care of me when I'm sick? 10. Do you want to tell me something that you couldn't before? 11.Would you walk on the beach with me? 12. If you heard a rumor about me, would you defend me? 13. Do you/have you talked crap about me? 14. Do you think I'm a good person? 15. Would u take a nap with me? 16.Do you think I'm cute? 17. If you could change anything about me -would you? 1

The Real You
So what is the deal with people and pictures. I mean you see a picture of them and you are like dayum he or she is hot. You view their web cam and it's like who the fuck are you. I really don't understand this. How do you change your picture. I don't understand. Just be yourself if not in the end it will come back to get you. Fake people are the worst people of all.

To Explain Some Few Things With My Words
To explain some few things!!!!! Well prob u realize my lost Blogs i posted on here...and some of u can read as well.. and when u can read my about me, u know i screw up on the past real bad. I had somebody special „special for me“. We had a lot of up and downs and some real bad argues and fights as well...i guess that happens when 2 real stubborns trying to go with the head throw the wall...and it probably wasnt easy for us after he was deployed in the sand box and me staying in Germany. I dont say all was bad..he try to support me and also i try to support him as well...it was hard to do all over the computer or the phone, but i think we both done a good job on it ( i hope i does). Well what happen between us, i meet somebody on fubar. Why i let it happen? Well i guess not all was going well between him and me. So at the end i was sitting between two chairs. The one i luv ( well i might realize that a lil to late) and the other one who was really a sweety on that time as well...

If You Would Like To...
If any of you would like to send a comment or message to either Mary's or Christina's page, pleae click on the pics below. Christina will make sure her mother gets them all!!! thx! Mary's page: Christina's page:

Lingerie Or....
If your girl comes downstairs wearing some real sexy lingerie she just got and your playing a video game would you drop what your doing and jump her or would you just look and say "Nice, i gotta finish my game first tho"? cuz my man did just that to me yesterday and when i told him to forget it i was going to go change he's like "that's fucked up!" and i'm like "yeah and so is choosing ur damn game over me" Ladies if your man did that what would you do??

Tired Of It!!!
Seems to me that every time I look at fubar I have a new shout asking me to read something about someone. Or whenever I look at my yahoo I have a mass asking me to read a blog about how so and so did this. Honestly im sick of it. I am tired of looking at the bulletin boards and only seeing drama. Yes I know that someone may have done something really wrong, and yes I know that many people are effected by this. I understand that things happen, people make mistakes, but you need to learn from them and move on. I refuse to be told to block someone just because of something I had nothing to do with. I am friends with who I want to be and I will continue to do so until I decide that maybe its time to go different ways from that person. If you have any problem with me being friends with someone then please delete me or ignore it because I will not choose between people and I will not block someone just to make you happy. I am my own person, I follow my rules, not yours. So now that I have sa

Life
Is it possible to find that person to make me happy? Is it possible to find someone that can make me smile at the worst of times? Is it possible to be happy alone? Is it possible to be able to wake up to that one person every morning and say i love u? Is it possible to find that one person to make my heart melt and take my breathe away everytime they walk into a room? Is it possilbe to have that one person to make the same wich on the same star for true love? Why cant i find that person? why cant i find that one person who is not fake, untrue, unfaithful? Is it possible to find all these things or am i being to high maitanence? I want to know that one person that always cares for me, always thinks of me. And not just the thoughts of how i am doing but just wondering what i am doing and if i am thinking of them at the same time they think of me. Where can i find all of this and IS IT POSSIBLE?

Poetry!
I've mentioned to a few that I have dabbled in poetry and have had a few publised! I wan't to share a few of them over time with my friends here! Feel free to express your feelings. "Our Lord,His Way!" The Lord gave us life, To do as we will. Yet our lives have not changed, And may never still. Our minds were given to think and to plan. To live out our lives as woman and man. We may not be good, and seldom seem strong! But will live out our lives, by what's right or what's wrong. As Christians we'll live as intended by GOD, To be relished with love or punished with rod! Tomarrow he'll come, We pray this each day, Those who love him will go Those who don't, they must stay! This is our fate in a world filled with pain! This is our fate in the Devils domain!

Why Do Yo U Do It ?
ok im a gentleman and im sorry to say this but it makes me so angry whe n a woman puts herself down like omg " im not much to look and or im fat or ugly .. wtf .. men arent that shallow to agree wit h you ..oohh ok some are but whe n some one liek me for instance tell you yo u are pretty or something geez say something better thans "well im not ".. we think yo u are for a reason . granted some men on here jsut want a fuckin hard on and someone ot masturbate too.. and then there is me .. a true freind who is out here pleading his heart out tell you, yo u and beautiful ... anyways i had ot get that off muh chest love al l of you muah

A Trip To The Hospital
Oh me and my stubborn ass. I went to workout today thinking that i can start off where i left off which was about a MONTH ago, but I did try to take it easy. I worked my arms, and some abs for a bit. I went downstairs to the counter and requested the racquetball gear. Just then I felt light headed. I asked for a Powerade. Next thing I remember was someone was smacking me in the face, "Dude. you okay?" I thought I was dreaming and was about to nod back off when he was like no no no. Bastard. So they took off my headphones, put a towel on the back of my head. . .and from what I hear I hit hard enough that i bounced up and hit again. They put me on the board which was very uncomfortable. It took about 20 minutes to get to the hospital. It didnt take long to get processed and my head and chest Xrayed. I was a smartass from the time I regain conscienous. I was out maybe a minute. Long story short they found I have an Enlarged heart. So now I need to go see a Cardiologist. The thing that

In Pain!!!!
On this day, I went to work as normal everything went normal. Then after all my work was done, I saw the (box) bailer was full so I made a bale and after putting it on a pallet, I went to get a pallet jack. Seeing all the manual pallet jacks were in use except the powered pallet jack. I hate using the powered pallet jack, but figured what the hell. I put it in reverse, I stumbled on a stack of pallets behind me the handle flew up and hit me in the face and the powerjack rolled up my foot. I yelled for help, and the produce manager ran over and helped drive the jack off my foot. I was rushed to the ER where my foot was X-rayed and it was confirmed that the bones in my foot were broke.

Poetry In Motion
This one was the first to be published. I hope you'll like it. "ON A CLOUD" "Watch the shies", He told us this, If somthing else, His gift you'll miss. Like a thief, He'll come again. To save the souls of rightiouse men! "A cloud he says", He'll come upon, and watch I will from dusk till dawn. For If I misshis second visit, My life will go, My soul goes with it. A pit of sulpherwaits for those, Who will not learn from prophits old. The bodies weak, It will not do, Those things which GOD has told us to. Listen now to what I right, Our time is turning into night. Give over what is wrong for right, For now we end this soulful plight!

12 Days
12 Days of Christmas December 14, 1972 My dearest darling John: Who ever in the whole world would dream of getting a real Partridge in a Pear Tree? How can I ever express my pleasure. Thank you a hundred times for thinking of me this way. My love always, Agnes ======================================================== December 15, 1972 Dearest John: Today the postman brought your very sweet gift. Just imagine two turtle doves. I'm just delighted at your very thoughtful gift. They are just adorable. All my love, Agnes ========================================================= December 16, 1972 Dear John: Oh! Aren't you the extravagant one. Now I must protest. I don't deserve such generosity, three French hens. They are just darling but I must insist, you've been too kind. All my love, Agnes ========================================================= December 17, 1972 Dear John: Today the postman delivered four calling birds. Now really, the

Short Erotica Story I Wrote...
It had been months of waiting and wanting and she decided to fly to meet him finally. They lived on separate coasts so the opportunity didn’t come until that moment. She showed up at his house nervous but confident that he would be pleased. She changed into a trench coat with little underneath. She went up to his door and rang the bell. He opened the door surprised but so happy. She said, “hello love I have been waiting forever for this moment.” She told him with a seductive smile, “I am your gift unwrap me.” He slowly undid the tie to the trench coat and saw the sexy lacy panties and bra she had on. He couldn’t resist a minute longer and took her into his arms and kissed her deeply. He had been wanting her from the moment he laid his eyes on her and now she was finally his. He laid her before the fire he luckily already had going. She was so soft and smooth. He wanted to kiss and taste every inch of her. Already her tongue had done wonders in his mouth playfully dancing with

Fubar Marriages
Its the Freaking Internet People !!!! Can you say "misplaced reality". What is this crap "Fubar Husbands and Fubar Wives" ??????? Someone please explain this to me???? Has anyone ever thought that maybe that is whats wrong with this world?? MISPLACED REALITY .. I mean if Fubar Marriage is your excuse for cheating or having affairs or even a reason to have cybersex then your mentally unstable !! Really if this offends you then you know exactly what i am talking about. psst.. get a life ..

God Help My Sanity!
My eldest daughter is turning 13 tomorrow and shes already started being a royal pain in the ass long before...Im not ready for this! Im only 32 and the scary part of it all is that shes turning out just like I was at that age...not a good thing as I was not a pleasant teenager and put my parents through hell (hench the name devilchild that my mother nicknamed me) How do u deal with a unruley teenager?? I dont want her turning out the way I did and I want whats best for her and the crowd shes hanging around with at school are bad news!! They have already gotten her into trouble several times and now shes being threatened to be expelled because of her behavior...aagghhhhh. It also doesnt help that I divorced her dad then remarried and am now divorcing her step dad (I attract the jerks for some reason) and now her biologocal dad is divorcing his second wife! Thats way too much for someone her age to deal with. Shes like my best friend and we get along real well but when shes a bitch and

My Tombstone
I have studied many times. The marble which was chiseled for me. A sun at high noonstanding over me. Within it's hot rays of light. It told my history, my life. Dreams are only dreams. Unless you pursue them. For what I wanted, I always succeeded. I sometimes stumbled, but never was defeated. All I wanted was to get the most out of life. So left with my ambition, for wanting a good life Because I have risen. I soon must fall. To live without ambition and self-confidence. It isn't living but it's dying. And living isn't living without a little fun. For my day is over but anothers' has just begun. Tyler Montgomery jan 2001

Poem 1
Intimacy sitting there her heart is broken all the trust and love have gone unspoken her dreams,wants, needs, and desires have all been put out like her fire the soft gentle caressing kisses that she so fondly knew and now misses kind words of love , passionate emotions are all gone now, as is the loving devotion time goes by and days go on like the lly pads on golden pond water rushes by, so do emotions love comes and goes like the wind on the ocean her love is kind warm and true i see the passion in her eyes of blue in my heart i hold her tight for our love and passion burns this night Troy Cooper Copyright ©2007 troy f cooper

It's A Joke Someone Sent Me That Should Ring True To Many Of You
A young Canadian soldier was attending some college courses between assignments . He had also completed missions in Afghanistan . One of the courses had a professor who was a vowed atheist. One day the professor shocked the class when he came in. He Looked to the ceiling and flatly stated, 'God, if you are real, then I want you to knock me off this platform. I'll give you exactly 15 minutes.' The lecture room fell silent. You could hear a pin drop. Ten minutes went by and the professor proclaimed, 'Here I am God. I'm still waiting.' It got down to the last couple of minutes when the young soldier got out of his Chair, went up to the professor, and cold-cocked him; knocking him off the platform. The professor was out cold. The young man went back to his seat and sat there, silently. The other students were shocked and stunned and sat there looking on in silence. The professor eventually came to, noticeably shaken, looked at the soldier and asked, 'What the hell is the m

Christmas Story
Last year at Christmas time, my mom went to my sister's house for the traditional holiday feast. Knowing how gullible my sister is, my mom decided to play a trick. She told my sister that she needed something from the store and asked if my sister wouldn't mind going out to get it. When my sister left the house, my mom took the turkey out of the oven, removed the mixed stuffing, stuffed a Cornish hen, and inserted it into the turkey... then re-stuffed the turkey. She then placed the bird(s) back into the oven. When it was time for dinner, my sister pulled the turkey out of the oven and proceeded to remove the stuffing. When her serving spoon hit something, she reached in and pulled out the little bird. With a look of total shock on her face, my mother exclaimed, "Barbara, you've cooked a pregnant bird!" At the reality of this horrifying news, my sister started to cry hysterically. It took the entire family almost two hours to convince her that tur

My Baby Girl
Everyone has seen this montage already but something new has come up to make me post it again. I just found out my baby girl is seriously sick. She may have something wrong with her liver. The moment I found out I fell apart. I love my daughter with all that I am. She was the one person who saved me, helped me to be the person I am today. Without her I wouldnt have become a mother, or know the true purest of love. My son gives me the same pure love. I love him just the same as my daughter. My daughter is the one who made things clear for me, made me sit down and see the path i needed to go. With out my children I am nothing. My daughter fullfills me in so many ways. Im having trouble breathing at the thought of losing her. I cant lose her, I will lose a big part of who I am. My children are my legacy, my proudest achievements. I pray that she makes it through this and will continue on and have a full life. I love u baby girl, my savior, my life the air that I breathe.

A Rose Is A Rose
I was talking to a friend of mine the other day who expressed what is probably a very common idea. She said, "Have you ever thought how language limits thinking? You cannot think what you cannot express. I have thoughts that language cannot touch. Maybe it is my limited mental abilities or that I am not a very deep thinker." Do others who read this blog also feel this at times? In any case, I know this person to be very smart and that she is indeed a deep thinker so I had to come up with a way to show her and maybe others that there is a mode of thinking which has nothing to do with mental abilities. I asked her how she would describe a rose. She answered as most people would by saying that she would describe its parts, its attributes, perhaps its aroma, etc. And I said, "Sure, but can you describe the rose itself?" The answer is that you cannot describe the rose itself. A description of its components will give a person who has seen a rose an idea of what you are talk

P.i.t.a And A Question (long)
SO, let's rewind until April of this year. I am coming home from working a Phillies game and it's really late at night. As I am getting close to home, there is a tree fallen in the road. I swerve into the oncoming traffic lane a little to avoid it and WHAMMO, there is a truck behind the tree and I crash into it, destroying the passenger side of my car. He was facing me, with no lights on and hidden by this tree. To try to shorten the story, he was blitzed, and had crashed solo, taking out both this tree and a ophone pole. I have no clue what his BAC was, but I do know he was given 6 charges, including the drunk driving, no seatbelt, no insurance (ANOTHER headache) and driving while suspended. SO.. another month goes by and I get a summons from the municipal court. While I was found not to be at fault both legally and for insurance purposes, and while I was not really injured, I am being called into court. Granted, I am only called as a witness for the prosecution it's stil

Please Keep Our Dear Friend Adam... Close To Your Heart & In Your Thoughts & Prayers...
Our dear friend, Adam...lost his dear Mum suddenly yesterday. I'm not sure of the details as yet...but I do know he was very close to her & she meant the world to him. And that he is devastated & needs all the support & love from all his family & friends here. Anyone who has the blessing of having Adam's friendship...knows what a caring, loving person he is & the dearest friend you could ever have. I wanted to do this because he is very important to me as he is to all of you here & to let everyone know about his deep sorrow & loss of his dear Mum...

Sometimes You Just Need To Type
You ever get that sometimes you just need to let it all out ... just randomly ramble to or rather at someone?? God im having a bad fuckin day.. this is my first full week back at work in a month.. for those that dont know i had a 4 wheeler accident and hurt my shoulder which left me off work for the afore mentioned month.. its so hard being back at work, not the work itself coz i sadly do love my job and what i do just the circumstances i guess you would call it... 6 weeks ago one of my very close friends commited suicide, he and i worked together and its so hard not having him here, im a wreck.. i have been since it happened, i feel like my heart will never stop hurting.. the stupidest things set me off crying at random moments in the day.. i have this feeling like everyones gonna leave me and its terrifying me.. Why do we have to love?.. it only leaves you hurt and afraid and disappointed.. So im blindly trying to make it through this day where i really just wanna curl

Great Spirit
O' GREAT SPIRIT WHOSE VOICE I HEAR IN THE WINDS AND WHOSE BREATH GIVES LIFE TO ALL THE WORLD HEAR ME I AM SMALL AND WEAK I NEED YOUR STRENGTH AND WISDOM LET ME WALK IN BEAUTY AND MAKE MY EYES EVER BEHOLD THE RED AND PURPLE SUNSET MAKE MY HANDS RESPECT THE THINGS I HAVE MADE MAKE MY EARS SHARP TO HEAR YOUR VOICE MAKE ME WISE TO UNDERSTAND THE THINGS YOU HAVE TAUGHT MY PEOPLE LET ME HEAR THE LESSONS YOU HAVE HIDDEN UNDER EVERY ROCK AND LEAF I SEEK STRENGHT NOT TO BE GREATER THAN MY BROTHER BUT TO FIGHT MY GREATEST ENEMY MYSELF MAKE ME ALWAYS READY TO COME TO YOU WITH CLEAN HANDS AND STRAIGHT EYES SO WHEN LIFE FADES LIKE THE FADING SUNSET MY SPIRIT MAY COME TO YOU WITHOUT SHAME!!!

Organized Religion.. Thanks To Behind Blue Eyes -- Hes So Dreamy!!
Organized Religion OK, this one is honestly just to see how many people I piss off (and to let everybody know I'm an equal opportunity heckler). THE TROUBLE WITH ORGANIZED RELIGION Having a personal relationship with God is a wonderful concept that has been absolutely ruined by organized religion. Somehow, over the centuries control freaks have insinuated their own opinions into the Word to the point that their opinions have become Dogma. So, I give you a few observations. Jehovah's Witnesses: Their Heaven has been full since 1978. Buddhism: Right. Just sit there. Everything will be OK. Right. Mormons: Sorry, I take the Black Thing personally. They can kiss my ass. Judaism: Whole religion, half a book. Islam: The phrase Improvised Explosive Device is not in the Quran. Some of you are a little off track. Hindu: Who in their right mind wants to spend the Afterlife as a cow? Catholicism: I cant even say anything w/o sounding like I'm piling on....OK

Son
my son was born between 9 and 930 pm on nov. 27th. he was 53cm long and 9lbs 5oz. ill update this entry when i learn the exact time of his birth. and probably add pics once i have them. his name is Hayden Mikhail. more details later. UPDATE: Exact time 9:39pm. His head 35cm, body is 52 cm around.

In Deep Thought.....
My fubar pal, kritter07, is ALWAYS in deep thought...so i ask him?...what is the thought for the day???....and sure enuff he tells me "you can never get enough sex"........ ...hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm..... ..i agree. ....what about you?............

How Do Men See Me
Men See You As Desirable Men often find you immediately attractive and sensual You're honesty is refreshingly beautiful ... it draws guys in You are also able to be open with your feelings with no emotional baggage Packing light means you enjoy new relationships easily How Do Men See You?

Again I Find Myself Thinking
I'll never make him as happy as drugs do. I'll never make him as happy as drugs do. I'll never make him as happy as drugs do. I'll never make him as happy as drugs do. I'll never make him as happy as drugs do. I'll never make him as happy as drugs do. I'll never make him as happy as drugs do. I'll never make him as happy as drugs do. If I just keep saying it I'll accept it. I'll never make him as happy as drugs do. I'll never make him as happy as drugs do. I'll never make him as happy as drugs do. I'll never make him as happy as drugs do. When I hurt, when my heart hurts, I get horrible physical pains that shoot up my right arm. Thats how I know its love.

Cute-o-meter
CUTE-O-METER Post this and watch the answers you get sent back to you in your messages!!! If you don't repost your a scaredy-cat and you will have relationship problems for 5 years. So post it now. -2= Nasty -1= Ugly 0= Not Ugly 1= Almost Okay 2= Okay 3= Average 4= Cute 5= Really Cute 6= Beautiful/Handsome 7= Gorgeous 8= Sexy 9= Incredibly Sexy 10= Breath Taking 11= Me you bed noww 12= Come Fuck the shit out of me ...Which one do you think I am? Tell me in a message. Then, repost this as: "Cute-O-Meter

Pretty Pissed
right now im pretty mad cause when it comes too people need help leveling up im the first or one of the people that comes and tries too help with even thinking if i should or not. But when it comes too me needing help and asking for i get one person and only one person that comes too help me when i needed it soo im just wondering why no one can take a few mins. outta there day to go too someones page and rate something...........

The New Place
I spent the last few days getting everything packed and ready to go. The move went very well. But I find myself void of many things... like food! Today I'll be shopping for the most part, buying the essentials. It's been difficult being away, wondering what everyone has been up to. I'll be in and out all day long, but I should be back here tonight. I hope to chat with my close friends! Have a great day everyone :)

Creepy!
So I think the building may need to be exorcised. The power shut off and turned on 3 times in a row. By the grace of God I was able to get down thru the elevator. Of course as soon as I stepped out all the power shut off again. It was great.

Today's Rant
Ok, so you've checked out my page & you think I'm cute or hot, or whatever.....Thanks I'm flattered. BUT This doesn't mean that I want to "hook up" with you...and by the way just wtf does that mean anyway...stupid cliche. No, I don't care how large, small, or weird your penis is...and If I want to see pics of it, I'll ask...hold your breath. No, I don't want to talk dirty to you, and I really don't want you to talk dirty to me...there are plenty of other "girls" out there not to mention sites set up especially for that...cheap bastards. Get a clue As a "WOMAN" I find it disrespectful, degrading, and elementary, not to mention the fact that it insults my integrity...as well as your own! What happened to getting to know someone a little first...Damn!

The Angel That Stands By Me
Dreams of love, so beautiful Fairies dancing by the sea. the moon shining in the heavens, And an angel standing by me! And when the morning sun breaks~ Butterflies flutter by. Bees that kiss the blossoms, Cottony clouds in the sky! Oh, what a lovely scenario Lovelier, it could not be. And all the more perfect, With the angel that stands by me! For you were always by my side~ For more, I could never ask. And long ago, Heaven sent you to me, And in soft sunshine, I always bask! For never could I ask for more~ Than the glories I always see. All these wonderful gifts are mine, With the angel that stands by me!

Another Update!
Ok so i thought it was time to do another blog. The last one i did was right after my real life boyfriend broke up with me..At the time i was having weird dreams about him and his new gf..i still am a lil..But its just me beatin the crap outta her..Nothing to do with him. I still got alot of stress in my life atm but it isnt as bad as it was while we were together. If you guys are unsure what happened read my last 3 blogs called comming to a end, continued and update. It gets easier and easier each day! I realized that i didnt miss HIM..i just missed someone being around!..Like i said in prior blogs..Hes HER problem now.. Sooo anyways..i met a really great guy on here. Hes simply amazing. I know the whole online thing dosent usually work but i guess its all up to the ppl in the relationship. If you want it to work it can!..Its not like we are 12 yrs old ya kno...anyways..he helped me through alot of the tough times..listened to me bitch about my problems and no matter how down i was

Elf-zilla
So in my manic attempts to be a fun and winsome step mom I signed onto the committee for the children's Santa Ball Luncheon @ work. Planning and plotting begin- wicked crazy fun cool stuff in bloom. Costumes purchased. I laugh (suckers!) Am drawn to Gingerbread man full body foam-y suit with the primary desire to scream giggling "Not my gumdrop buttons" & "You monster!". Was rebuffed in that eerie Jedi way by the panel of uber mom. (Jedi being that it takes about 4 hours to go- "Oh man- that's my dick in the dirt"...) Minutes of meeting come out and to my horror and dismay realize that I was elected Santa's special helper elf. Ummmm ok. I'm 6'0", and amazon with an array of tattoo's and funky dyed black hair. Why me? Tonya claims irony. Jen claims Sadism. I'll be Elf-zilla, if only for the curly toed belled shoes that tinkle jingle ring as I walk. Oddly it seems that I have convinced a vast majority of the Polish mafia to bring their lil' people with the lure of Lizzzylock elfzilla & c

Fooking Downraters
well I just had my first lovely experience with a downrater please lets show him the love he just showed me because I wouldn't give him my messenger info Da White S...: whatever, you're fuckin ugly anyway ->Da White S...: sorry I dont give that out to just anyone especially people i dont know Da White S...: to chat on there, why else? ->Da White S...: why? Da White S...: k, what's you yahoo or msn? ->Da White S...: yes Da White S...: DO u have yahoo or msn messenger? ->Da White S...: k Da White S...: questionf or u ok? Da White Sox rated you a '1'! · Sorimar just walked into the bar! · Da White Sox just checked you out

Finally!
Well, I went to a new doctor today. He's the head Dermatologist and after seeing him today, I so wish that I had been able to see him from the start a few months back. First, for the many of you who are not aware of what I'm even talking about regarding my leg, I have had a problem with my leg (originally both legs) since the end of May. Hence, the reason for no leg pics in my albums for many months! :P It started out as Erythema Nodosum (inflammation of the deep tissue of the leg). My left leg cleared up but my right leg got worse and swelled really bad, to the point that I was having to stay off of it with my leg propped up and taking the major pain killers. After about 3 months, my doctor told me that he was referring me to a dermatologist because he had exhausted all he knew on me and didn't want to waste anymore of my time. (He's a great doctor but a family practicioner.) So, I started seeing a new Derm. who began me on new meds (that were very scary!) of which I have been tak

Lover's Dance.....
Glistening bodies entwined in an ageless erotic dance, seeking pleasures from each other, seeking wonder and romance. She touches his face with tenderness. He draws her body near. Aching, needing hunger will make their destiny clear. Their lips meet in soft kisses, their tongues begin passion's war. Forgotten now, the outside world. All is here, behind this door. He strokes her body tenderly, she arches up for his caress. He finds her silken portal and her womanly wetness. She moans in fiery desire and pulls his hand away, wishing to end this exquisite torture and get on with passion's play. She straddles his waiting body, eases him into her feminine hollow. She leads him on a rhythmic dance, his thrusting hips must follow. She rides him faster, even then, to hear his wondrous sighs. She shows him all the delights she has between her womanly thighs. They stare into each other's eyes and gasp as ecstasy unreels, and tangles them i

To My Family And Friends
I will not be around much as my sister in Indiana is under a pain killer induced coma for the last three days they don't know what is wrong with her and I would appreciate any prayers. Thank you so much to everyone. xo

Just Want To Be Heard
Most of you know i have depression pretty bad. I know very few of you will read this.IDC. I'm not even sure why I am posting this because it will accomplish nothing. Im not looking for pity or attn, (well, maybe a little to be honest...lol) but seriously, i just want someone to know how i feel. Fucking irony! I am afraid of not breathing, yet i have asthma, and i enjoy smoking. I always wanted to be the one who turns heads, yet, i am obese, and i enjoy eating. I want to die, but i dont have the balls to kill myself. Now this is the part i never talk about. The truth is, i think about it all the time. I think about how to do it, when, how would i be found and by who. And who would care, seriously? I know Tim would be devastated! (plz see previous blog) My daughter would be crushed, maybe a few friends. And how many drama seeking posers would use it for pity points? FUCK THEM! I have seen ppl react when someone from fubar dies. I am not impugning anyones pain but you KNOW most

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The Key To My Heart.
I had once lost a key a key that locked my heart I thought the key was gone for good but now I know where it is The key to my heart is right in your hand That is why I love you so I never want to let you go You had the key and now I love you and you love me and now we are happy

Hi ,
Hello to everybody . I want to say I'm sorry for not being around much this week . I've been busy helping a friend doing a remodel on her house , And have been starting early and by the time I get home I'm beat . And have not been checking back in . I will get back to all of you that have rated added and left me comments in the last few days , Again thank you for understanding . I hope everyone has a great weekend . Thank you . luv you all , Tom

Is There Still A Christmas?
Me and my best friend were out the other day when he called his daughter's school and asked when her Christmas play was, the lady that answered the phone told him that there wasn't a Christmas play but there would be a holiday program. Hmmmmm, Holiday program? Well I wasn't born here in the states cuz I was in a military family but we still celebrated Christmas. I am down with all the other things that go on during the season but Christmas has always been a tradition not holidays. Even a few years ago big corporations changed their slogans from Merry Christmas to Happy Holidays which was still quite upsetting due to the traditions and values that even I myself grew up to. Does anyone else fell the same? I mean we all have our family traditions but now to say that calling it Christmas is politically correct not to upset others, isn't that taking away the choice that we have to celebrate? Sorry if this upsets anyone but I'm not knocking on the other things that others have to celebrate c

Sex And How It Should Be
To all my friends near and far I've taken the time to put together a few of my thoughts –Truly amazing sex can happen only when both partners are willing to take risks. To have the best sex, you've just got to be a little bad. When you go beyond your limits, you discover hidden turn-ons and new sensations. Plus, you get the blood-pumping jolt that comes from being bolder, ballsier and so much hotter in bed. Your willingness to explore your sexual boundaries will also build intimacy and trust between you and your partner. So, here are some of my sexy sins you should make a must and commit to. Please enjoy !!! Bust Out a New Move - Nothing makes the bedroom buzz with erotic electricity like debuting a dirty act you've always been curious about, especially if you think it's kinda kinky. Spontaneously slipping a novel technique into your lusty lineup will elevate an ordinary sex session into a reckless, fasten-your-seat-belt romp. It will also open your eyes to erogenous zones yo

Online Love...
Sup pplz!!! Well this my first blog on here and i am new to the site and i have noticed a few things *LOL* I see all the wifey and hubby names and im just curious do these ppl really feel they can fall in love with someone online? Or all these names just jokes and fun for the site? Have these ppl actually met? Do they even live in the same area? I myself have been in online relationships and i must say i was hurt!!! It wasnt because i didnt want it to work but i found out later that this man was all about games and nothing that he seemed to be online...Now in sayin that im not knockin online relationships i myself am talkin to someone now that im really feeling and im gonna give this another chance, but i really dont think u need to publicly have a wifey or hubby name to gratify a relationship...Or is this just like a trophey name? A hands off dont touch this person belongs to me name? Well i myself dont feel like all that is necessary...in life i have found out the more u draw attenti

Good/bad
someone asked me not to long ago why do girls say they want a nice guy but always go 4 the assholes.....well this is what i told him..... every guy that i have ever been with has started out as a god send done all the little things to get the girl that he so claimed to want at the time and then stopped doing all the little things that matter most and then turned into something totally different a month,2 months,a year later its not that some girls prefer jerks its that some are so used to it that they don't realize it sometimes and then when a decent guy comes along and shows respect they are too scared because they have never had that b4 so some tend not to give a decent guy a chance ,ya know guys will do just about anything thing to get a girl that he wants and then suddenly stops ummm the little things are what makes some girls the the happiest..............and yes this goes for guys as well....woman always want to know why a guy prefers a girl that treats him wrong and does thi

+please Excuse All The Blood
I've annoyed hella people today. Just by being me. Whatever, life sucks...I'm always the listener, never the seeker. Always the maiden, never the user. Always the failure, never the winner. Yeah my bad you guys....my writing journal is MIA so this fvcking computer(along with you guys) is going to have to deal with with my lame whinery. Whatever, I just want to stop existing for awhile....life sucks. I said that already. Yeah.+

Friends Pictures
Just so ya know i am puttin pictures of my friends in my new photo album and if you want to be in it let me know please?? thanks new friends are welcome as well so please let me know again THANKS!!!!!!

Christmas Carols For The Psycolgically Challenged!! Lmfao!!
1. Schizophrenia --- Do You Hear What I Hear? 2. Multiple Personality Disorder --- We Three Queens Disoriented Are 3. Amnesia --- I Don't Know if I'll be Home for Christmas 4. Narcissistic --- Hark the Herald Angels Sing About Me 5. Manic --- Deck the Halls and Walls and House and Lawn and Streets and Stores and Office and Town and Cars and Buses and Trucks and Trees and Fire Hydrants 6. Paranoid --- Santa Claus is Coming to Get Me 7. Borderline Personality Disorder --- Thoughts of Roasting on an Open Fire 8. Full Personality Disorder --- You Better Watch Out, I'm Gonna Cry, I'm Gonna Pout, Maybe I'll tell You Why 9. Obsessive Compulsive Disorder ---Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells ... 10. Agoraphobia --- I Heard the Bells on Christmas Day But Wouldn't leave My House 11. Senile Dementia --- Walking in a Winter Wonderland Miles From My House in My Slippers an

To My Dear Friends...thank You!!!
Thank you all, everyone who commented on my first blog entry!!! The 5th bone in my foot is broke vertically, long ways down my foot. I go to a specialist on wed dec 5th at 2:10 pm. Hopefully I will find more information then.

Surprise Ending
Giving Up wine... I was walking down the street when I was accosted by a particularly dirty and shabby-looking homeless woman who asked me for a couple of dollars for dinner. I took out my wallet, got out ten dollars and asked, 'If I give you this money, will you buy wine with it instead of dinner? 'No, I had to stop drinking years ago', the homeless woman told me. 'Will you use it to go shopping instead of buying food?' I asked. 'No, I don't waste time shopping,' the homeless woman said. 'I need to spend all my time trying to stay alive.' 'Will you spend this on a nail salon instead of food?' I asked. 'Are you NUTS !' replied the homeless woman. ' I haven't had my nails done in 20 years!' 'Well,' I said, 'I'm not going to give you the money. Instead, I'm going to take you out for dinner with my husband and me tonight.' The homeless woman was shocked. 'Won't your husband be furious with you for doing that? I know I'm dirty, and I probably smell pretty disgusting.' I said

Poetry
like the wings of an eagle majestic and free. two hearts are beating as one heart would be. when i gaze in your eyes i can see only love. your a beautiful angel from the heavens above. whenever im near you my heart skips a beat. the first time we met i was swept from my feet. soulmates are special like one of a kind. its the one special gift that is so hard to find. i just want to kiss you so softly and slow. and hold you so gently and never let go. those are the feelings a soulmate can bring. its the feeling of true love the most wonderful thing.

"aspiring Love"...this Is Beautiful =)
I titled this, but my friend Jim wrote the body. He's an amazing writer! Great job hun! this is EXACTLY what i want... like the wings of an eagle majestic and free. two hearts are beating as one heart would be. when i gaze in your eyes i can see only love. your a beautiful angel from the heavens above. whenever im near you my heart skips a beat. the first time we met i was swept from my feet. soulmates are special like one of a kind. its the one special gift that is so hard to find. i just want to kiss you so softly and slow. and hold you so gently and never let go. those are the feelings a soulmate can bring. its the feeling of true love the most wonderful thing.

How Can People Be So Cruel
I have the landlady from hell. She started eviction procedings on me on Nov 30th. She has issues and taking it out on me and my son. I have always paid my bills and always tried to be the perfect tenant. I am looking at surgary on the 13th and Xmas with my son. She knows I have no money and no place to go. I have never felt this down and out. I know I have rights but I know she will make my life a living hell till I leave. What am I to do? How can someone be so heartless. Life just sucks right now.

"this"
This I want This I need This I crave This I desire This nothing This intangible This indefinable This everything This surrounds This fills This everywhere This nowhere This feeling This thinking This seeing This hearing This accepting This not expecting This not wanting This not needing Accepting This Hearing This Seeing This Thinking This Feeling This Nowhere This Everywhere This Fills This Surrounds This Everything This Indefinable This Intangible This Nothing This I desire This I crave This I need This I want This

Guidance
One day two small boys decided to play a trick on Mullah Nasruddin. With a tiny bird cupped in their hands they would ask him whether it was alive or dead. If he said it was alive they would crush it to show him he was wrong. If he said it was dead they would let it fly away and still fool him. When they found the wise old man they said, Mullah Nasruddin, that which we are holding, is it alive or dead? Mullah Nasruddin thought for a moment and replied, Ah, my young friends, that is in your hands! Mullah Nasruddin, why do you always answer a question with another question? Do I? Occasionally I noodle around on the internet just for the fun of it. Today I looked up Mullah Nasruddin found the story above. Reading it I thought of one of my friends, one of the people I guide, who is constantly accusing me of never actually answering a question. She says that I always reply to a question of hers with another question. She has been saying this to me for years and I kind of laug

So Sad
I am so disappointed..:( For Master Feather, who has put everything he has into this contest hes in and he has not received even a bit of the help that we as a team can give. I have been moving...and I am still..I will be off all day tomorrow and will have to wait for them to reconnect my service at the new place. Thats my excuse..what is everyone elses? Are we ready to give up being a team, cause if thats the case please let me know ok? I need feedback from everyone in HOTT...If you can spare a few minutes to write. :( Those that have been helping and doing the best they can I thank you, and I am sorry I havent been here. I would love to know what is going on though..:( Anyone out there?

I've Met My First Person Off Of Fubar :)
Well I haven't had and/or taken the time till now to do this.. but I've met my first person off of Fubar. We managed to meet last Thursday after I got off work. It just so happened that Wednesday evening we were talking about where he'd be heading and that it would be nice to get to meet sometime. He said well too bad you live on the wrong side of Ohio.. I said why is that? He said well I have to pick up a load in Archbold... I said WHAT!? I live in Northwest Ohio.. he's like OH .. for some reason I thought you lived in PA .. LOL so we figured things out.. kept in touch on thursday to see how things were going to work out.. and I met him at a truck stop in Napoleon .. not far from where I work and live. Sooooo YAY .. I met Wolfers :D ~Wolfie~ RL Hubby of Sweet Brat, FU Fiance of Durty Girl and FU BF to *Naughty Girl*@ fubar and I look forward to meeting so many more :) Lusion o.O

A New One I Wrote!
I have so much hurt inside, Sometimes I just want to die, I try and hide it with a smile, But that only lasts a little while, Is it right for me to feel this way, I have done nothing wrong, Yet my heart bleeds at a rampant pace, Will it ever stop? Will it ever slow? What on earth will ever stop the flow? I have done nothing to deserve this pain, All i do is want to love in vain, You say one day you love me with all your heart, Then the next you are ready to part, Why cant you make up your mind? Instead of playing with mine, I dont need this anymore! I will not do it again! My heart will only love one from now own, It is so sad it has come to this, But alas, that is the way it is!

Lounges
Can't decide whether or not to create a lounge. Is it really worth it? After all, I'm too shy to chat to most people (believe it or not!) and I wouldn't have the first clue how to customise it to make it look interesting...

Sorry
Iam sorry if i offended anyone this past weekend. It seems i took my sister out to the bar for her first time. Instead of being a night of fun with my baby sister it turned out to be a joke because someone had to put something in my drink to try to et me to pay attention to them. well poor guy didnt get his way (thank goodness) my sister got me out of there so if i was mean to anyone over the weekend im sorry i just wasnt up to par after that little incident.

Noooooooooo
COMMON! Please dont say on halo 2 that team swat is all capture the flag shit now! *CRIES* nooooooooooooooooo man ugh! I miss team swat sooo bad and I finally went on halo 2 and omg... grrrrrrr!!!!!! K thats my rant for today.. *sigh*

Broken, Torn And Shattered
pleasureyourpage Blood oozed from a thousand internal wounds He inflicted on her innocent soul And broke her deep inside, Now she’s torn, never to be whole. She denied what happened For years Suppressing the memories, ignoring the humiliation, Swallowing all the tears. One day she choked on those unshed tears, Now that she deals with all the pain Her life has turned upside down And never will be the same again. Still she tries to make something of her life, Trying desperately to glue the shards together And while she may succeed someday She will still be broken, now and forever.

Hehehe
He laid her on the table so white and clean and bare his forehead wet with beads of sweat he rubbed her here and there. He touched her neck and felt her breast then drooling he felt her thigh the slit was wet and all was set he gave a joyous cry the hole was wide he looked inside all was dark and murky. He rubbed his hands and stretched his arms then STUFFED THE XMAS TURKEY!!!

Lovers Lust
Lovers Lust He saw her from across the darkened hallway. The only light that of a candle. She did not see him. His gaze was hidden in shadow. He looked upon her with admiration. He never saw such beauty. Her hair was of black walnut and her eyes glowed in the candle light. Deep blue, with a shade of gray like a cool morning before dawn. She had high cheekbones and a sharp nose. Italian and Greek features in her face. Her body was tall and slender. Her breasts high and small. Long smooth legs hidden in her long dress. Black silk flowing in a distant breeze. He was frozen with awe. He never saw such beauty. He watched her walk out onto the balcony away from the single flame of the candle. He knew she was alone in this house. And he felt the urge to let her know of his presence but waited. She stood silent in the moonlight. The night sky bright with the moon and stars made a silhouette that showed her form. She raised her hand to the sky and opened her fingers

Let These Be Your Desires
Love has no other desire but to fulfill itself But if you love and must needs have desires, Let these be your desires: o melt and be like a running brook That sings its melody to the night. To know the pain of too much tenderness. To be wounded by your own understanding of love; And to bleed willingly and joyfully. To wake at dawn with a winged heart And give thanks for another day of loving; To rest at the noon hour and meditate love's ecstasy; To return home at eventide with gratitude; And then to sleep with a prayer For the beloved in your heart And a song of praise upon your lips.

Virgin Nightmare
A virgin girl asks her boyfriend to come over Friday night and have dinner with her parents. Since this is such a big event, the girl announces to her boyfriend that after dinner, she would like to go out and make love for the first time. * * * * * * * * * Well, the boy is ecstatic, but he has never had sex before, so he takes a trip to the pharmacist to get some condoms. He tells the pharmacist it's his first time and the pharmacist helps the boy for about an hour. He tells the boy everything there is to know about condoms and sex. * * * * * * * * * At the register, the pharmacist asks the boy how many condoms he'd like to buy, a 3-pack, 10-pack, or family pack. The boy insists on the family pack because he thinks he will be rather busy, it being his first time and all. * * * * * * * * * That night, the boy shows up at the girl's parents house and meets his girlfriend at the door. "Oh, I'm so excited for you to meet my parents, come on in!" * * * * * * * * * The boy goes ins

Why
A DREAM FOREVER CRUSHED The moment I saw you I had to let you in I saw this amazing love starting to begin I opened my soul to a beautiful vision of you I hoped, I prayed that your feelings were true I have never before loved and I have paid the cost Alone and empty and feeling forever lost But, then, I had thought I have truly found An Angel who walks upon the ground You had gone beyond all limits for me Giving me everything for the world to see I now will search again my whole life through And I swear I will never find anyone quite like you You are so very special to me I only wished that you could see My heart alone makes just a single beat A sound so low and so incomplete My heart all alone, waiting to be heard Waiting for your love like songs from a bird My heart with yours had such tenderness Now without you it feels nothing but emptiness A heart alone, searches for its mate You were my dream now it's too late Forever your heart it hears That sound it ha

A Good End, To A Long Work Week
Long Work Week (Bi-Guys & Straight) It had been a long boring week in the office and being late in the day on a Friday, most of the people had already gone home. Seemed to be just me, in my office and the cleaning crew who were wandering through the halls of the building. I started prowling the internet, for some distractions. I found some sites with erotic pictures and movie samplers. Before long, I could feel my cock waking up. So, I stood up to push the door closed, then back to have a seat behind my desk. I slowly unzipped my slacks and pulled out my half hard cock, for a little stroking time. I found a few good movies of some very orally talented girls, always a favorite of mine. I get into a good rhythm, stroking away, nice slow long strokes. I can see some pre-cum oozing over the thick head of my cock, now. I smear my juices all along the shaft, now well lubricated, I wrap my hand fully around the shaft and begin to stroke it faster. It turns out, I

Water Or Wine ?
This all sounds perfectly logical to me! As Ben Franklin said: In wine there is wisdom, In beer there is freedom, In water there is bacteria. In a number of carefully controlled trials, scientists have demonstrated that if we drink 1 liter of water each day, at the end of the year we would have absorbed more than 1 kilo of Escherichia coli, (E. coli) - bacteria found in feces. In other words, we are consuming 1 kilo of poop. However, we do NOT run that risk when drinking wine & beer (or tequila, rum, whiskey or other liquor) because alcohol has to go through a purification process of boiling, filtering and/or fermenting. Remember: Water = Poop, Wine = Health Therefore, it's better to drink wine and talk stupid, than to drink water and be full of shit. There is no need to thank me for this valuable informat ion: I'm doing it as a public service

New Idea On War
New Direction for the war on terrorists. "Send Prior Service Vets over 60 " I am over 60 and the Armed Forces thinks I'm too old to track down terrorists. (You can't be older than 42 to join the military.) They've got the whole thing backwards. Instead of sending 18-year-olds off to fight, they ought to take us old guys. You shouldn't be able to join a military unit until you're at least 35. For starters: Researchers say 18-year-olds think about sex every 10 seconds. Old guys only think about sex a couple of times a day, leaving us more than 28,000 additional seconds per day to concentrate on the enemy. Young guys haven't lived long enough to be cranky, and a cranky soldier is a dangerous soldier. "My back hurts! I can't sleep, I'm tired and hungry!" We are impatient and maybe letting us kill some asshole that desperately deserves it will make us feel better and shut us up for a while. An 18-year-old doesn't even like to get up before 10 a.m. Old guys alw

Drama Free!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Drama Queen or King? Well u guys say we girls are Drama Queens lol.. and for sure i hate it when i have to be agree with u...but what i figure out, u guys are Drama Kings as well...and some of them doing a pretty good job on it :-P Laying around home, being sick..geezz u getting pretty boring...and u have plany time to think..so i try to think what cause Drama. I am on the point right now, Drama between a couple it cause when they are not honest and lie constantly..well to stop that Drama u should sit down and talk about it.. try to work things out..when its keeps causing Drama then u might need to move on in u re life..well to move on its not always easy, but both sides need to find a way to deal with it..need to face it. Drama between a ex couple its bad too...why does it happen? Well i guess it happen cuz some of these 2 can not let go, or 1 of these 2 people still have some feelings for the other one..maybe they feeling missunderstanding...maybe one think the other one done

And How Is Your Week Going?
Anyone who has read my other blogs knows that i have been through some adversity in life. This ive grown accustomed to and accept that in life problem-solving is a 24/7/365 job for me. This has usually only extended to my personal life. Professionally I've not dealt with it much having worked up until recently exclusively in health care. Then I took this job. I work for a 50 year old Greek man who owns too much property for his own good. 4 Hotels, 2 gyms and numerous residential rental properties. Guess who manages them all by herself? Dumbass here! I took this job when I came here as manager of the hotel. He pissed off the bookkeeper by calling her a fucking bitch and she quit in April. I AM NOT A BOOKKEEPER! This he is fully aware of but doesnt seem to recognize or give a crap about. He is verbally and mentally abusive, threatening and just all around evil. I've been told to "get out of his fucking face i fucking disgust him." That "i dont fucking care about any

So Not A Happy Day...
This morning I wake up to information that a friend of mine wants to use another friend of mine to serve a purpose for her. I think it's bs since she doesn't like him anyway. After fuming over that my father decides he wants to do me a solid and give me a ride to work. Imagine my surprise. Then I completely forgot.... he doesn't take the highway. So to further add to my aggrevation I was stuck in the car doing about 25-30 to work with Mr. Road Rage himself. Yeah today sucks so far.

Are You Really A Friend?
Ya know the other night I was feeling really crappy due to yet another problem with my car. (I guess I should have made it a raunchy/sexfilled blog instead) I posted a blog not asking for purchased "hugs" but just a hug in general. A few people off my friends list read it & only ONE commented & offered me a hug. Thanks CherokeeLady for letting me know you feel my frustrations & care. Pip1966 hit me up on yahoo & I want to thank him for that. Everyday we sit at our computer sending out comments of greetings & friendship but yet are you REALLY a friend of anyone on here??? ~*~Lizzy~*~

What Matters
I knew my endless summer was over as I watched her walk away across that dusty gravel parking lot... It had been a long 5 years since that fateful day on 9-11. The T.V. newsmen said Americia is under attach and we don't know where the President is. I don't know where he was either, exactly but I have a damn good idea since I was with his airplane pulling security. She was safe at home with the kids in what east coasters laughingly call "flyover Country" while we were ditributing more ammo and putting on our ballastic flack vests. You see we thought it was all a drill designed to test our response, then we heard the real news on some little old ladies car radio. Not long after things went back to semi normal but every single true American knew in their heart that our innocence was long gone. My life had changed radically. Long gone were the days of working for a fortune 500 comapany, replaced by working security for the U.S. Army in some backwater airport disarming women of their

Fuck It!
THIS IS GOING TO BE LONG WINDED AND I DO NOT GIVE A FUCK HOW BAD OR WORSE THIS MAKES ME LOOK OR FEEL IN YOUR EYES. BLOGS ARE HERE FOR THIS REASON. YOU DONT LIKE IT DONT FUCKING READ IT. SO HERE IT GOES. I JUST SPENT 8 MONTHS OR MORE TRYING TO BE WITH SOMEONE. WHICH AS A RESULT OF TONIGHT IS NO LONGER. I FUCKED OUT OF IT! OH WELL AS THEY SAY. OR AS MY MOTHER PUTS IT SO WELL.............. IM A COX , NO MATTER HOW MANY TIMES LIFE KNOCKS YOU ON YOUR FUCKING ASS. GET THE FUCK BACK UP DUST YOUR SELF OFF AND KEEP GOING. CAUSE THAT WHAT WE DO. WELL THATS WHAT IM GONNA DO ! I JUST BLED MY SOUL FOR THE ONE THAT HAS MATTER TO ME MORE THAN ANYONE ELSE IN THE UNIVERSE. IT FAILED. YES I LOVE YOU MORE THAN I CAN EVER TELL YOU. YES YOUR EVERYTHING TO ME. SORRY FOR FUCKING BEING A REAL GOD DAMN MAN AND ACTUALLY GIVING A SHIT. SORRY FOR FUCKING MISSING YOU WHEN YOUR GONE. I DONT GO TO BED LATE DEALING WITH SHIT AND GETTING UP EARLY TO SPEND TIME WITH FOR MY OWN HEALTH. I ACTUALLY LIKE SLEEP. AND OH YEAH

R I P Daddy
5/12/07 Awoken by the news that my dad had passed away this morning. After several attempts to fight his heart condition,it sadly got the best of him. My dad had been in hospital for almost a week now and last night he had a heart attack and had his life support line switched off. If you know what a fathers love is like then u can relate to the burnin sensation in my heart. I've cried non-stop since I got the news and its only the strength that keeps me standing. I know my daddy is ascending into heaven and now he's with my mother..watching down on me. He left behind : 6 children 5 grand children many nieces & nephewss 3 brothers and 4 sisters work partners &. alot of family and friends who will miss him unconditionally! R I P Mi Padre.... Jeffrey Gustavo Simone 21/08/55 --> 05/12/2007 x

Unfortunately
As unforseen circumstances have come up I will be gone for a short while....( hopefully not longer than 2 weeks) Will miss all of you and will be thinking of many of my friends. Hopefully those i know best wont forget me and keep in touch somehow....( if possible from time to time... i may be able to borrow a friends computer to say hi...)LOVE YAS...BIG HUGS AND ALWAYS WILL BE IN MY THOUGHTS

People Who Take The Net As A Joke
Its so wild how many people take the net for a big huge joke, its hunting grounds for people to toy and play with ur heart, really sad. We are humans behind these screens, so you should treat the net as u would the people in your real life. People shouldnt say things unless they mean them, Ive had several women hit me up in my shoutbox telling me about all the guys that have played them, and I have several guy friends that tell me about how women have done them wrong, It is really sickening to know people do these things and dont even care about the other person, they just wanna string them along and break their hearts for the hell of it. I know several people that have met from the net, fallen in love, got married, and im happy for them, thats wonderful, but theres still the losers on here that like to lie to you, play several people at once, those are the people that deserve to be alone, as far as im concerned. Lord knows I have been played tons and lied to, not a good feeling. I bet

I Will Miss You!!!
To all my friend I love you guys. You all rock!!! I am going through a very hard time right now. I'm moving out and leaving by my husband's request. I don't know when and how long I will be on the net until I get everything settled. This is going to be hard for me so I hope you understand. Being with someone for ten years and have it fall apart is beyond heart breaking. But, I understand people grow apart. Right now my big decision is if I stay in Oklahoma or move back to Texas where my family is. I don't know which I want to do. I would miss my friends here. Yes, I love my family but, I wouldn't want to be a burden to them and live off them till I could get a job there. My very close friend will hear from me and I will let you know how I am doing along the way. I do believe things will look up. I'm trying to be a strong person through this but, I will admit I'm not doing a very good job. I'm at a loss right now and don't know up from down. Anyhow I don't want to ramble on and put the

My Dear Friend Brent Wrote This. Please Comment On It.
My dear friend Brent wrote this.....please stop by his page and leave a comment on his page. http://fubar.com/user/736166 Please keep in mind that our soldiers see far more than we realize. in my mind this all a dream,a non-fiction dream which does not end. as young men age i see good men die.i pray this dream would end. with thease four walls in the still of night the voices yell go and fight most dreams merely come and go but this stays as my foe,a memory that fails to fade forever burning like an endles flame.voices yell and choppers fly. how i wish this dream would die.

Christmas Disorder Carols
Yah know...it's still 20 days before Christmas and I am up to my eyelids in Christmas Carols!! I am no scrooge but when they start playing them in August....lol, you get my point... My cousin however sent me this list of all the Christmas Carols I could sing if I went as totally off the deep end as I claim.....LOL. Yay for the list of Christmas Carols for a few of my favorite disorders....LOL 1. Schizophrenia --- Do You Hear What We Hear? 2. Multiple Personality Disorder --- We Three Kings Disoriented Are 3. Dementia --- I Think I'll be Home for Christmas 4. Narcissistic --- Hark the Herald Angels Sing About Me 5. Manic --- Deck the Halls and Walls and House and Lawn and Streets and Stores and Office and Town and Cars and Buses and Trucks and Trees and..... 6. Paranoid --- Santa Claus is Coming to Town to Get Me 7. Borderline Personality Disorder --- Thoughts of Roasting on an Open Fire 8. Personality Disorder --- You Better Watch Out, I'm Gonna Cry, I

This Week.
Hey everyone, I am sry that I disappeared for a little bit. I Finally got my promotion so I have been in training all week and some of last week too. But I think I am back for the most part until next week for more training! So I still need luv and if I get enough I will post some more naughty pics next week sometime!

Perspectives And Perceptions. (page 6)
Perspectives and Perceptions. Relativity of the Human Condition. “It would be best said that all fact is derived from perspective and perception As “We” know it. To speculate that “We” as a race can answer complex equations and deliver a complete and infallible answer is completely insane.” R. Seaverns Let’s take an easy perspective on this perception of time and space, reality And fantasy, religion and science, fact and myth, truth and deception. Contradiction is the key to learning and or finding truth. To base a truth on merely one perspective is to say there is in fact no other possible answer. There can be many answers to any given question and though all answers may appear to differ, not all will be correct or wrong so much as a different perspective on the equation. For example we could use simple math to demonstrate this amazing feat of wisdom. In this mathematical problem we have to decide how to get to the true answer and that answer being 3. 2+1

The Mall
The Mall I took my dad to the mall the other day to buy some new shoes. We decided to grab a bite at the food court. I noticed he was watching a teenager sitting next to him. The teenager had spiked hair in all different colors: green, red, orange, and blue. My dad kept staring at him. The teenager would look and find him staring every time. When the teenager had enough, he sarcastically asked, "What's the matter old man, never done anything wild in your life?" Knowing my Dad, I quickly swallowed my food so that I would not choke on his response, knowing he would have a good one. And in classic style he did not bat an eye in his response. Got drunk once and had sex with a peacock. I was just wondering if you were my son.

This Wont Be Pretty...
I usually dont write blogs... or complain too much... but... I am today. If you think I'm an innocent sweet person, you may want to cover your ears (eyes) LOL. If you are in fact going to be a whiny ass LITTLE BOY and BITCH at me because I dont talk to you enough, because I dont pay enough attention to you... because you think I ignore you or I'm rude.... guess what ... I have a few words for you and a few directions for you to follow. hint... its realllly warm there. *wink* I'm not fucking here to babysit and entertain your sorry ass. Just because you dont have a life, doesnt mean that I don't. I'll treat you the same way you treat me. Didn't your mother teach you that? I'm not here to be a WHORE, SLUT or a pervert... sorry fellas thats just not me. I have enough class NOT to sell myself (unlike others) for points or gifts. I said it on my profile page and I'll say it 'til I'm blue in the face. I am here to meet interesting people WHEN I HAVE THE FUCKING TIME. I'm not

If U Have A Problem With Me...
then please get off my friends list! i wuz just called a spoiled bitch that bitches about everything... who the fuck cares? duznt everyone here have that right? freedom of speech? so anywayz he blocked me before i could respond... damn... so again, please be my guest and delete me from ur friends list if u have a problem with me...

God Damn Perfect Breakfast
There are always MuMMs about what to eat for breakfast and the answers are always wrong. So to save time I am writing down the recipe, so I can ctrl+c and ctrl+v it later (yes I am the keyboard shortcut king as well as the html king) nobby's Breakfast Stew Ingredients: -Pack of good quality Pork Sausages -Pack of good quality streaky bacon, smoked back bacon will do (possibly called canadian bacon) -1 Onion -Some mushrooms -A few spring or salad onions -2 cloves of garlic -1/2 pint boiling water -1 large can of baked beans, Heinz preferred -A shake of bisto instant gravy (other gravy powders are available) -1 tasty duck egg -2 slices fresh bread of your choice Method: Chopppity chop everything up into slices and stuff, preferably bite size and fry the onion, oniony bits of the spring onion, garlic, bacon and sausages in a mahussive frying pan until browned, adding the mushies half way through. De glaze the pan with the water. Add the gravy, boil up. Then mix in

Love & Pain
I fell in love. Huge mistake. I should have known better. And now it's over. It's for the best, I know that to be true. But that knowledge doesn't make it hurt any less. I have no business being in love with anyone, or allowing anyone to love me. I'm a sex addict. There, I said it. And he's right, I may never be able to be faithful. Even with treatment perhaps there's just no hope for me. Right now I can't allow myself to care. All I can do is feel the pain wash over me in waves. I've never felt so badly or so deeply in my life (save for the love I feel for my children). Mick, should you by some chance read this, I know you're right and this needed to end. I'll always love you but like I told you from the start, my love is just not enough. I'm sorry I can't be who and what you need and deserve. Please don't give up. Not all women are as messed up as I am. I hope one day you'll find real happiness. Your Zoey no more. As for those of you who read this you may want t

Women Over 40 -by Andy Rooney
In case you missed it on 60 Minutes, this is what Andy Rooney thinks about women over 40: 60 Minutes Correspondent Andy Rooney (CBS) As I grow in age, I value women over 40 most of all. Here are just a few reasons why: A woman over 40 will never wake you in the middle of the night and ask, "What are you thinking?" She doesn't care what you think. If a woman over 40 doesn't want to watch the game, she doesn't sit around whining about it. She does something she wants to do, and it's usually more interesting. Women over 40 are dignified. They seldom have a screaming match with you at the opera or in the middle of an expensive restaurant. Of course, if you deserve it, they won't hesitate to shoot you if they think they can get away with it. Older women are generous with praise, often undeserved. They know what it's like to be unappreciated. Women get psychic as they age. You never have to confess your sins to a woman over 40. Once you get past a

"a Memory Locked In Time"
I walk into the room and see mummy sleeping So peaceful as she’s lying there more beautiful than my eyes have ever seen. Her hair as black as a stallion, Her skin so soft and fair, Her dress the color of jade. Her pillow soft as sateen, The blanket to her hips with her hands folded neatly. The yellow roses by her side that say “We’ll miss you mummy; Love Bridgette and Daniel” Then I look at grandma and ask “Why is everyone weeping” She looks at me and says “Isn’t she pristine? I couldn’t find her favorite medallion. Do you like the way they did her hair? Do you know she loved giving medical aid? She always liked drinking the tea that was green. She always did things so sweetly. Did you know she was going to get a little toy spaniel?” I look back at her and say “Grandma you have not answered me.” “What do you mean?” “Why is everyone weeping when mummy is just sleeping?” “Your mummy is not sleeping my dear she went to live in heaven.” “Your mummy is not waking

A Joyful Update!
The husband of my infertility client called this afternoon! She delivered a healthy baby boy at 12:45 p.m. today! They are naming him William. I am so very happy for them. They have worked so hard to have this little treasure! I have been blessed to be a part of it all. I think I'm going to cry again! Have a wonderful evening, dear friends! Love, hugs, and blessings, one and all! Later! Muahz!

Women In Dance Clubs
When women go out, it seems they have a code they live by - never leave the ones you came with. You go out as a group, you go home as a group. It’s like you’re some special ops team going behind enemy lines. Is that why you all go to the bathroom together - you’re afraid if you split up, some guy’s gonna pounce on whoever’s left like a wounded gazelle? See, guys don’t have this code - there‘s no Band of Brothers crap going on here. We could be hours from home, but if a girl even looks at us - screw you, find your own ride home. “But we’re in Idaho.” Good luck with that, start walking. And women can get mean in dance clubs. You don‘t even need us guys, you all just dance with each other. Why is it ok for girls to dance together, but if two guys want to slow dance together to a slow song - must be gay. And when you women are dancing, at some point some drunk, desperate, lonely guy - usually me - tries to casually dance his way into the middle of the group. that's when you g

My Christmas Gift To You
This is somewhat embarrassing to admit, but since I’m only working part-time, Christmas will be tight this year. In light of that, I will be making bedroom slippers for you all as gifts so please let me know your sizes. You'll most likely agree that it's a splendid idea, and should you wish to do the same, I've included the instructions below: How to make bedroom slippers out of maxi pads: You need four maxi pads to make a pair. Two of them get laid out flat, for the foot part. The other two wrap around the toe area to form the top. Tape or glue each side of the top pieces to the bottom of the foot part. Decorate the tops with whatever you desire, silk flowers (this is most aesthetically appealing), etc. These slippers are: * Soft and Hygienic * Non-slip grip strips on the soles * Built in deodorant feature keeps feet smelling fresh * No more bending over to mop up sp

Unreal...
It's really insane how some of these crazy umm.. should I call them b*****s?? or just cuckcooo broads?? anyway.. if they spent less time stalking and more time at their shrinks office, the world would most definately be a better place. They have definately crossed more than a few lines and it's really sad. Sad that they have to try to interrupt others lives to make their day more pleasureable. Sad that they don't have love that they need so they make a false life to try to fill that empty void. Sad that they make stories up to get sympathy and love from people that normally wouldn't give them the time of day. Saddest, is that they don't even know what they are doing. Cuckcoooo. If you think i'm talkin about you, you're probably right and perhaps you should get your nosey ass out of my blog? Please, take your meds today and call your doctor. You realllllllly truly need some help. Have a great day!

Why....
Why does my soul hold on To this pointless life No good ever comes Only pain and hurt Are all that i ever feel All these scars i bare overlay day after day and year after year Love is just a mirage Always seeing it, but never able to attain no matter what i do nothig evr changes just a new wound and more pain my heart, soul, and mind left staind beyond repair

Love On The Internet?? Really???
OKAY, LET ME ASK ALL OF YOU PEOPLE OUT THERE IF YOU SERIOUSLY BELEIVE IN LOVE ON THE INTERNET? I MEAN REALLY BELEIVE, NOT JUST HOPE FOR IT. I WAS A LITTLE BIT SKEPTICAL WHEN I FIRST STARTED TALKING TO GIRLS ON THE COMPUTER. THEN I MET ONE THAT I THOUGHT WAS GREAT EXCEPT FOR THE FACT THAT SHE LIKED TO PLAY TRUTH OR DARE ON CAM WITH MYSELF AND OTHER GUYS AND GIRLS OF COURSE, WE ALL KNOW TRUTHOR DARE IS NO FUN WITH JUST 2 PEOPLE. THERE IS A WORD FOR THAT, ITS CALLED FOREPLAY. ANOTHER THING ABOUT THIS GIRL IS THAT SHE GOT BOLDER AS THE NIGHT PROGRESSED, WHICH WAS NO PROBLEM FOR ME CONSIDERING THAT I ONLY EVER CHOSE DARE ( LADIES THIS IS A PERFECT OPPORTUNITY FOR YOU TO CHECK OUT MY PICS, JK ). SHE ALSO HAD THIS PARTITION SET UP NEXT TO HER BY THE COM AND WOULD LEAN OVER AND DO SOMETHING EVERY ONCE IN AWHILE. I'M THINKING, " COOL A GIRL WITH MANNERS, SHE WONT EAT IN FRONT OF THE CAM ". SO I LIKED HER, WE GOT TO KNOW EACH OTHER A LITTLE BETTER BY TALKING ON COM AND PHONE EVERYDAY, A

Inspiration
My heart has become an ocean, Beloved, since Thou hast poured Thy love into it. Hazrat Inayat Khan Long before I knew what a Sufi was I had a copy of Pir Vilayat’s first book, or I guess it was his first book, “Toward The One.” It had a lot of good information in it but it was almost impossible to read because of the type font and the lay out. But, inside was a poster, which I still have somewhere. I had this poster hanging in the wall of my bedroom and I used to sit on my bed and read it over and over. The above quote was the main sentence, larger than all the others, more prominent on the poster. I used to puzzle over this saying, not being sure who the Beloved was. I figured it had to be some kind of reference to God but it certainly was not the God I was taught about, a remote amorphous being who occasionally, and apparently quite randomly, deigned to notice and even less often, interfere in human affairs. I was taught that if one prayed often enough and sincerely enou

'twas The Month Before Christmas........ Sorry If You Are Offended By This
'Twas the month before Christmas when all through our land, Not a Christian was praying nor taking a stand. Why the PC Police had taken away, The reason for Christmas - no one could say. The children were told by their schools not to sing, About Shepherds and Wise Men and Angels and things. It might hurt people's feelings, the teachers would say December 25th is just a " Holiday ". Yet the shoppers were ready with cash, checks and credit, Pushing folks down to the floor just to get it! CDs from Madonna, an X BOX, an I-pod Something was changing, something quite odd! Retailers promoted Ramadan and Kwanzaa In hopes to sell books by Franken & Fonda. As Targets are hanging their trees upside down At Lowe's the word Christmas - was no where to be found. At K-Mart and Staples and Penny's and Sears You won't hear the word Christmas; it won't touch your ears. Inclusive, sensitive, Di-ver-is-ty Are words that were used to intimidate me. Now Daschle, Now Darden

A Bad Start
well my x-mas just started off bad i may have lost too people that may have meant a whole lot to me but this maybe my last entry and possibly my last time on fubar i just have alot of thinking too do over the break....

Male/female Objects
Male or Female? You might not have known this, but a lot of non-living objects are actually either male or female. Here are some examples: FREEZER BAGS: They are male, because they hold everything in, but you can see right through them. PHOTOCOPIERS: These are female, because once turned off; it takes a while to warm them up again. They are an effective reproductive device if the right buttons are pushed, but can also wreak havoc if you push the wrong Buttons. TIRES: Tires are male, because they go bald easily and are often over inflated HOT AIR BALLOONS: Also a male object, because to get them to go anywhere, you have to light a fire under their butt. SPONGES: These are female, because they are soft, squeezable and retain water. WEB PAGES: Female, because they're constantly being looked at and frequently getting hit on. TRAINS: Definitely male, because they always use the same old lines for picking up people. EG

Lunar
WHEN THE MOON IS FULL AND THE DARKNESS REIGNS THE TRANSFORMATION CAN BE SEEN! FROM WOMAN TO SAVAGE BEAST! HER SMOOTH SKIN NOW FULL OF FUR AND HER TEETH AS SHARPER THEN A RAZOR BLADE! HER BLUE EYES TURNED A SOULLESS BROWN TAINTED WITH A THIRST FOR HUMAN BLOOD! SHE WILL HUNT FOR HER UNEXPECTING PREY! ALL HUMAN EMOTION! NOW EXSTINCT LEFT WITH ONLY ANIMALISTIC INSTINCT FOREVER DAMNED WITH THIS CURSE!

Women....
Ok... My opinion on how Women should be treated; A Women is just about the Most Important.... hmm I ain't gonna call them things.... Beings. There. Women are just about the Most Important Beings that inhabit this Planet. They should be treated with the Utmost respect. Men think about it, Without Women, we wouldn't be here. True without us no one would really be here, but come on. They go through the Trouble of carrying your children. Don't you think that they at least deserve enough respect to not be broken by us being major Pain in the asses?? When you find that someone, or even just find someone that you fall in love with, it could just be me, but don't you think that they should be the first on any agenda. When I find that someone, on my To Do List the first thing would be; Tell her how much you care about her. That should be the first thing on ALL Men's Agenda. If a women is hurt, Take care of them. Keep watching this Blog, I will try to add on to it.

The Nitty Gritty Pt 2
Because I can generally only speak for myself...I really don't like to delve into any other aspects of the lifestyle that I generally don't know about. But...because I'm blind as a bat and didn't see a comment on the last "Nitty Gritty" I'll delve a little further. Under the community there is a code of ethics that are stressed to be followed. They are not laws or rules but more like guidelines to keep everything in order. More common sense than anything else. The Black Veil. "The 13 Rules of the Community." 1. DISCRETION This lifestyle is private and sacred. Respect it as such. Do not make a sideshow of yourself. We do not have to prove ourselves to anyone. Appearing on public TV to tell the world that you drink blood is useless attention-getting. It gets a negative reaction for the whole community. Our place is in the shadows; our greatest protection from small-minded humanity is the fact that they do not believe we exist. Someday they may be ready for us to reveal ourselv

City Of My Love
MySpace Graphics & MySpace Codes Beyond the sleepy hills I see, The sun drops in yellow mist, The sky is fresh with dewy stars, Above a sea of amethyst, Yet, in the city of my love, The sun burns all the heaven's bare, For him,the happiness of light, For me a delecate despair, Give me neither love nor tears, Or dreams that sear the night with fire, Go lightly on your journey,Unburdened by desire, Forget me for a month, a year, But my love, think of me, When unexpected beauty burns, Like sudden sunlight into the sea I could give him weeping, Or I could give him song, But how can I give him silence, My whole life long

More Than A Memory! R.i.p
On Sept. 17th, I recieved a phone call while driving home that my Daughter's dad was found dead in his home after never showing up for work that morning. I fell to pieces and could'nt believe my ears, my 1st thought was how was I going to tell my 7 yr.old daughter that her father was dead. Then the thought of how am I gonna raise her alone came to mind knowing that she loved her daddy and this news would crush her. The time finally came for me to tell her when she got home from school, there was no way around it. One look at me and she knew somethin was terribly wrong and wanted to know right away! I told her the best way I could possibly find and as suspected she busted out crying hysterically. To this day she still talks about him as if he is still here and does'nt show much sorrow, almost as if it still has'nt sunk in yet. I on the other hand have sleepless nights and still have days where all I can do is cry. He was a great father and deffinately a one of a kind person and I wil

R.i.p Nana
On December 5th/07 i lost an amazing woman in my life. It was my grandmother. May u rest in peace and look after all of us that loved u much and cherished what u brought to us. U will never be forgotten at all. U will always be remembered for the love that u gave all of us. For every single tear that we shed, we r sheding the greatness of ur love for every single one of us! Now u can be back with ur dearest husband that u love so much with all ur heart. it has been 6 yrs since u seen him last. but i know he will put his arms u and give u a kiss on ur forehead like he always did to u. May u look over us and look after the ones that we have lost all ready. Nick and Amber, the great grandchilderen that passed away way b4 there time. may u look after them for now until Donna (Sister) and I get up there to be with them once again. These candles will burn for u and for the others that we have lost in our family for ever and ever. For every candle that is burning u

Please Understand
OK I DID THIS BEFORE...I GOTTA DO IT AGAIN. WHEN I TURN ON MY PUTER.....IT TAKES AWHILE. I HAVE ALOT OF STUFF THAT OPENS. SO YELLING AT ME AS TO WHY I AM NOT ANSWERING YOU IS PRETTY POINTLESS. MY FRIENDS...YOU KNOW I LOVE YOU. I AM NEVER RUDE NOR DO I IGNORE YOU, BUT DUE TO SOME PEOPLE THINKING THEY ARE MY ONLY FRIEND I HAVE DELETED MY YAHOO. TO MY TRUE FRIENDS, YOU KNOW AS SOON AS I AM ABLE, I ALWAYS RESPOND TO YOU. SO I HOPE YOU UNDERSTAND, AND WILL GIVE YOU MY NEW YAHOO WHEN I CREATE IT. THANK YOU FOR UNDERSTANDING AND.... LOVE YA MEAN IT! PEE-JAY

"nothing Seems
"Nothing seems important to anyone until they come close to losing it. They will go on day by day and ignore those around them that make their life worth while. No one ever pays attention to someone like that until they aren't there. At this time, they realize exactly what that person was doing for them and begin to see that they aren't as alone as they think.

The Next 2 Weeks!
Hi everyone! The life of a music director gets very hectic at this time of year. In the next two weeks, I will be involved in 5 evening rehearsals and 6 performances. That means my time online will be somewhat limited. I want you all to know that if I do not get the chance to comment to you or rate any of your items, it's because of those time constraints. I know I have the best friends and family here and I want to keep ALL of you! If I don't get the chance to wish you a Merry Christmas, Happy Kwanzaa or Happy Hanukkah during that time, I wish you all the best holidays possible now. Hopefully things will return to normal during winter break! Peace and love to all of you!!!!!

Real Love (dedicated To Bitch Azz Lewis Liriano)
I can't live a day without thinking bout you, you still controll my thoughts and actions(NOT IN A NEGATIVE WAY THOUGH) without you knowing it. I really miss you, but im gonna try and move on and love someone else who actually deserves it. If we were meant to be together then it will happen, but obviously were not so im not gonna spend my time waiting for you because your not worth it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I STILL LOVE YOU THOUGH ALWAYZ AND FOREVER XOXO MUCHO BESOS

Some Guys?
A YEAR AGO HE CHEATS ON ME, THEN HE WANTS ME BACK, THEN HE FINDS SOMEONE ELSE AGAIN, AND NOW HE WANTS ME AGAIN..UGH I JUST DONT BELIEVE HIM..HE SAYS HE LOVES ME YET HE CHEATS ON ME..THAT ISNT LOVE..THAT IS HAVING YOUR CAKE AND EATING IT TOO...

Getting Older
Last night at 7pm my time, my Aunt Nell passed away. I did not know my Aunt really well, she lived in Scotland along with all my relatives on my mom's side of the family. Mom was born and raised there. I felt extremely close to Nell though because she was one of the long-distance relatives that always sent a christmas card and a birthday card and other things to me while I was growing up. She visited us in the states many times over the years bringing her husband and my cousins with her on a number of those occasions. Growing up I didnt have many relatives in the states. My dad had a sister and an aunt, and he had two nephews. That was all the family I had in the states growing up, aside from my brothers and sisters, mom and dad. It was always the 7 of us on holidays and birthdays with the occasional visit from Dad's sister. Dad's aunt passed away when I was 16. His sister passed away in August of 2005 and he passed away in June of 2006. That put an end to dad's side of the family. I

Nsfw Pics.
A friend posted this in his blog I was appalled by what I was reading...I cannot believe that some women really thinks they Are Something to Look At to sell themselves...Not to mention it's degrade themselves and to the rest of us women like myself who prefer to be shown respect. I hate beggars and I think this person is pathetic. I'm sitting here and wondering,if the following is really close to prostitution??? I totally understand if somebody lets just family members see their NSFW pics. But today i run across a profile with this info for NSFW pictures. This is selling them selves: 1 day blast = 1 week in my NSFW pictures 3 day blast = 1 month in my NSFW pictures 7 day blast = 2 months in my NSFW pictures + a free booty salute *If you cant afford a blast or you dont have a CC you can send 75,000 fu-bucks (using the fu-pal link on my page) to get a 1 day peek into my private folders* Now why would i pay for some pics if you can get them all day long for free on t

Trust
Trust is a huge issue with me. I don't give it out often, but when I do, it's 100%. Lately I've noticed that trust is traded freely as if it were a dime stock on the exchange. There was a time when someone's word meant something, but that time is long gone. It makes me sick when someone acts one way in private and tells you things they swear are just between the two of you and you find out that everyone else knows. They act one way with you, then another with everyone else. Some say that's not lieing, but I think it is. IF you make someone feel special, only to let them later find out that they are one of many interacting with you in the exact same way, you're a liar. You're not doing that person any favors. It makes you wonder how many secrets you told that person that have been spread around like wildfire. One day, the people who do this will have to face their biggest fear, they will be all alone and will have only themselves to blame.

Rating Someone #1
this is my very first blog.. so please bare with me.. im just so annoyed right now with the way one person just rated me tonite! a "#1" as in One!! And you want to know why? All cause I beat her playing a few games !! How unfair is that? I have rated each and every person on here a "10", why not... LOL...besides the 1 rating I got tonite ,, my only other was a 7... every single person who came to my page rated 10's. so my only one QUESTION is~~~~~~~ How do you rate peoples pics?? (really by appearance or are you just polite? (ok it was a 2 part question! lol

Hey
YAY! I made spotlight! Wow that made my day soo happy yesterday to wake up to that!! So now I can say I pretty much exp. everything on this site.. pretty much and it makes me happy! Happy to have such wonderful friends on here! Hello to all my new wonderful fans and friends that showed me love yesterday and made my spotlight a awesome time! love yas!! You all soo RAWK! There is a few people here I want to thank for helping me get there! You guys are the best ever and I thank you from the bottom of my heart for all the love and help you gave to get me that spotlight! Theses guys all chipped in fubucks when they didnt even have too!! love you guys soo much!! Go spank rate fan add whatever just love them for me :D Tanya "Not Your Average Girl" FuWifey to DJ. Mr. Nice Guy¢¾Viper Pit&Club Erotic Staff@ fubar FuBob~No Salute = No ADD~@ fubar CASEY ~ TOP NOTCH SECURITY OFFICER FOR FUBAR'S AFTER HOURS~OFFICIAL JEE@ fubar Kris10-ized@ fubar Sefier@ fubar ۞

Wondering
WONDERING A GENTAL KISS PLACED UPON YOUR FORHEAD WAKING YOU FROM YOUR REST WARM HANDS STROKING YOU’RE BACK SLOWLY COMING AROUND TO YOUR BREAST MOIST SOFT LIPS SLOWLY RUNNING OVER YOUR EARS WORDS OF LUST MAKE YOU HAPPY JUST TO KNOW HE’S NEAR THE BODY HEAT WARMS YOUR BACK AND HEART BEAT SKIPS HANDS SLOWLY RUN DOWN YOUR SIDES AND GRASP YOU’RE HIPS A TUG TO PULL YOU CLOSER YOU CAN TELL HOW HARD IT’S BEEN TO TAKE IT SLOW THE MIND STARTS RACING IN THOUGHTS OF WHERE THIS MIGHT GO

Hit N Run
I went out for a nice ride yesterday (Sunday) with a few friends. We made a stop at a little resturant in Cardiff By The Sea. My bike was parked along the curb as I was sitting in the outdoor patio drinking a soda. When what o I hear but the distinct sound of a bike hitting the ground. Some piece of shit ran over my bike and just took off. Thankfully a guy got the plate number for the truck that hit my bike. But what kind of spineless piece of shit runs over a mans Harely and doesn't have the balls to face up to it? Anyways again I just needed to vent!

I'm So Scared!!
This is so hard for me. I'm about to lose everything. My girlfriend left me, I lost my job, and I'm almost out of money to pay bills. I have no family, and if I lose everything...what's going to happen to my 4 cats and 2 ferrets? This isn't fair. I worked so hard my whole life...working on holiday, weekends, my birthday, every day I could. Found the woman of my dreams and she leaves me last month. I am so scared. I have never been in a situation like this and I am scared for my babies(my pets) I can live on the streets, worse comes to worse, but my animals?? They are my babies. I am scared and don't know what to do. It's not like I'm NOT looking for a job...I am!! NOTHING! WHy does this happen to good people?

Leaving Fubar
HI gals and guys. Ive been here for almost 2 yrs now and I seriously think I need a life. lol Im ready to fall in love again...Im feeling really lonely. I want to thank all of you fans and friends on here that really made it fun. For those who do know me and have my number, email or cell text number may feel free to keep in touch. For those who dont...it was nice knowing you. I had a lot of fun here. My last day here will be Dec 21. Love ya all and have a wonderful Christmas and New Year OXOX Mare (babygirl68)

Why Are Ppl Sp Rude And Hateful
Look I got on this sight to make friends and possible modeling gigs. I have met alot of very nice ppl, Men and Woman alike. Then there are the ocassional ones who send obnoxious msgs or hae mail. What I don't understand is if ppl feel so much anamosity towards others why would you ask to befriend them? Here is an example of what I am talking about.. sdfun8: well u look like white trash ->sdfun8: WTF??? That was really rude and uncalled for.. sdfun8: $200 to fuck u ?

I Don't Give A Shit!
Don’t you hate when people say that phrase? “I don’t give a shit.” Well, who wants to receive a shit? Or when people say, “I’m going to take a shit,” is it the same shit the people who do give a shit gave away? It’s questions like these that keep me up all night. And I wonder why I can’t ever seem to keep my eyes open at work. But then again, I really don’t give a shit. I don’t take shits either. I leave them. I don’t give them, but I leave them. If someone else wants to take them, so be it, but I’m not a shit-giver. I hope I’m making my point here. But we have to look at this through multiple angles. Some people just say, “Shit!” when something goes wrong, as if that’s going to do anything to rectify the situation. Then there’s the whole, “shit out of luck” phrase that doesn’t make any f***ing sense. But we still listen to it, try to understand what it means, and then use it ourselves. I know for a fact that this is why I can’t have nice things.

The Moody Monday
Welcome A little music to blog to: Much more below Happy Monday folks! Thanks to fraid knot for her mentioning the 'moody blues' Now you all have to endue my little trip down 'nostalgia lane'! What a weekend - huh? mine included a visit from my Granddaughter Ella Grace :) Just wears me out - but what a joy! I hope you all had A good one as well. Anything interesting? come on - tell me lol seems like I do ALL the talking here! With that silliness heres Today's Comment: See, I told you it was M O O D Y

Here's A List Of People We Can Level
SHE HAS 238 TO GO 63 PICS NO STASH ITEMS SHE'S LEVELED w0lfl0ver@ fubar HE HAS 783 TO GO 57 PICS NO STASH HE'S LEVELED TOO Big Daddy Tony@ fubar SHE HAS 1695 TO GO 10 PICS 9 STASH ITEMS SHE LEVELED So Ya Wanna Be Me@ fubar HE HAS 1331 TO GO 37 PICS 1 STASH ITEM HE'S LEVELED ~BaBi-D~@ fubar HE HAS 2458 TO GO 135 PICS AND 25 STASH ITEMS HE'S LEVELED pepperpapry@ fubar HE HAS 6225 TO GO 168 PICS AND 19 STASH ITEMS HE'S LEVELED j_keniston "check out my photography"@ fubar

Tales From The Twilight Zone...
i was at my in-law's house for thanksgiving, and my brother-in-law and i got into a conversation about young-earth vs old-earth creationism. (as most of you know, i am a christian.) the young-earth view is that God created the world in six literal days, about 6000 years ago. the old-earth view takes into consideration the evidence that the universe is at least 15 billion years old, and that the earth is about 4.5 billion years old. my brother-in-law has been watching a lot of videos lately that promote the young-earth view. i lean toward the old-earth position. anyway, we got into this conversation, which lasted much longer than i cared to discuss it, and he ends up challenging me to a debate. i should explain that he is a very contentious person. he has been arguing about baptism with anyone who will respond for the last two years. it's hard to explain. simply put, he's a pain in the ass. the guy is my brother, (by marriage) and i love him. but his constant talk about

Own Her Now !!! For One Week
Ok our very own female up for auction guys!! as listed below is what she will and will not do 1 personal salute from me 1 1 hour cam session sfw added to family for 1 week 1 phone call 100 11's a day for 1 week or to whomever you wish I give them to my name as lonely dreamer fu owned by for 1 week my crush for a week so bid away fubucks,vips,blast,and or big pimpin gifts will be accepted so guys bid ur hearts out have fun with her for 1 week!! u ahould have any questions plz ask and ill answer highest bidder will pay Tesha before she is urs for 24 hours so lets have fun and be nice!!

Angst
I just wrote this as a response in a Mumm which was asking if we had ever found "The One", the love of our life. I don't know why but it has stirred up something in me this evening that has made me very sad yet angry at the same time. I want, seek, search.....do not find. Not just the One, but so many things in life I think are due me, that i was made for but never find "the fit", like a key that never finds it counterpart, unfulfilled..... I said: December 11, 2007 @ 3:35 pm "I am jaded, bitter and doubting the whole concept of "true love", "soulmate" and "monogamy". I thought one person could be THE one. It didn't last long. This was after countless frogs, toads, rats and reptiles. I think the time has passed. I think someone stole the needle from my haystack while I wasn't looking. I'd be surprised if I ever found him now. Or if he ever found me. I don't believe in fairy tales anymore. Not for me. " *********************************** Not me. Maybe never. It sh

Have You Ever?
Have you ever Ran into a persitant stranger that doesn't give up? I have.. Have you ever ran into a person's who words make you stop an think? I have.. Have you ever ran into someone that makes you smile? I have.. Have you ever ran into someone who wants to stand by your side while y ou work on your dreams? I have.. You ever run into someone that just feels right for you? I have.. Have you ever ran into someone who could be the right one for you an you push them away? I have.. Have you ever not opened up to lettin someone in? I have.. Have you ever got the feelin your soulmate is right in front of you an you walk away? I have.. Have you evr missed that one that could of been? I do...

Dwell
There is a place in which I dwell Where there is no God There is no hell. Just an overwhelming abundance of Thoughts, Ideas, Wants, Needs, Desires. Prayers go unheard, Sacrifices unrewarded. There is a Mighty Tree made of souls. Wasted Youth, Forgotten childhoods, Ignorance. All the simple things that mattered once are no more. We must live our lives as adults Judging, Hating Shielding ourselves from the Truth. As children all we wanted to do was Play, Yell, Climb. There was No Color, No Race, No Barriers. Just pure childhood fun we all belonged we all had friends. There is a place in which I dwell Where there is no God There is no hell.

Fun Blog
But, If you just make a *copy of this *(need a code) and paste it to my profile comments: I give you ANY: "DRINK" ~Let the good times roll~ You want! offer good until December 25 Please only one gift per person! Happy Holiday's Catch & Release

Where Are The Nice Guys?
I see this question posted with some regularity on the internet, so I thought I'd take a minute to explain things to the ladies out there that haven't figured it out. What happened to all the nice guys? The answer is simple: you did. See, if you think back, really hard, you might vaguely remember a Platonic guy pal who always seemed to want to spend time with you. He'd tag along with you when you went shopping, stop by your place for a movie when you were lonely but didn't feel like going out, or even sit there and hold you while you sobbed and told him about how horribly the (other) guy that you were fucking treated you. At the time, you probably joked with your girlfriends about how he was a little puppy dog, always following you around, trying to do things to get you to pay attention to him. They probably teased you because they thought he had a crush on you. Given that his behavior was, admittedly, a little pathetic, you vehemently denied having any romantic feelings fo

Thrusday
~H E L L O~ Happy Thirst-day! Man, the holiday seems to be rushing Full force and relentlessly ahead! (ugh) Funny - Last week it was snowy with the seasonal appropriate weather, Now the closer it gets to 'the' day... the less it seems like snow (here in Ohio - that is) I cant recall a December 25th with snow since I've moved back here from Vegas ... Matter of fact, the last TIME I played in the the snow during 'that' day -WAS- in VEGAS! Seriously, we cooked steaks on the grill Xmas day - then went up to the mountains early in the evening and filled the back of the truck with snow and took it home for a 'snow' ball battle (more like slush, but ...) Its one of the few days that I really enjoy that icky white stuff. So, do you all enjoy having a white Christmas? When the last Xmas morning you woke up ... and the first thing you did was: LOOK TO SEE IF IT SNOWED? So I hope this finds you all in the Holiday spirit. I w

Can You Handel It?
Topic....Oral Sex. Ok things are going to warm up so pay attention.... He should start with kissing her tummy working his way to her thigh's then with your tongue start with long strokes nice and slow to the tip of your tongue - like your licking an ice-cream take your time and make sure to explore slowly drawl her lips into your mouth and tease them with your tongue. Then move to her c.l.i.t once again long strokes with your tongue then switch to the tip circle it then lightly flick it with the tip of your tongue every so often increase then pressure then pull back watch for her reactions closely. Next take her c.l.i.t into your mouth gently suck on it as you circle it all around over the top with your tongue. Now is where you can be a little playful she at this point should be getting closer and closer this is where you can pull back a little allow your warm breath envelope c.l.i.t.o.r.i.s - kiss her tummy slowly and passionately – allow her to anticipate what is co

New Business Venture
I'm working on taking my photography and trying to start my own business you can check out my webpage for it at J Keniston Photography or e-mail me at j_keniston_photography@yahoo.com or by phone at 207-478-5118 for more information who knows if it will end up going anywhere but i figured what the hell do i have to lose.

Hahahahahaha!!!!!
me and the shipping supervisor just made everyone laugh. i was walking past him to go into the next office to get some paperwork when he holds out his hand to me. i took and we ballroom danced for like 1 minute before we broke into a salsa dance for another minute and then walked away from each other like nothing happened. I love this place sometimes. It's so... random! LOL!

Some Basics About Me
Since coming back to cherrytap or what fubar as its now known I've come across alot of men who want to know every little detail about me. It seems that everyone wants to know where I live and how much it would take to get me to open up on my life for them. When I was here the first time I met a nice guy who was really sweet and fun to talk with, he knew my situation and knew that I was a recently married woman who was just looking for friends. Some people on here have tried the "nice and sweet" guy routine to get to see my pictures and I've decided that its not fair. What do I get for letting you guys see my pictures? Absolutely nothing? What do you guys get? Instant Gratification and for some of you masturbation material, but I'm left with nothing to show for it so I figure why shouldnt I get something for posting these pictures and thats why I've decided to charge people. Charging does 1 thing. It keeps most of the pervs out of my hair for asking me to let them int

My Addiction
I got this from a friend . Those of you that know me and have seen my pix's you have seen that I am a addict . You also have noticed my plague from the Salvation Army . If not for them and the love of my family and close friends I would not have been able to get the help I needed . EvEn If YoU hAvE rEaD tHiS b4 ScRoLL dOwN tO tHe BoTtOm, PoSt YoUr NaMe AnD pOsT oN uR pAgE. jUsT cAuSe U hAvE rEaD iT dOsEn'T mEaN eVeRyOnE hAs!! I destroy homes – I tear families apart. I take your children and that’s just a start. I’m more valued than diamonds, more precious than gold. The sorrow I bring is a sight to behold. If you need me, remember, I’m easily found. I live all around you, in school and in town. I live with the rich, I live with the poor. I live just down the street and maybe next door. I’m made in a lab, but not one like you think. I can be made under the kitchen sink, In your child’s closet, and even out in the woods. If this scares you to death

Blushes
This poem was write by a very special friend of mine for me...thank you Fred.** big hugs hun** My words, like sweet soft lips touching the erogenous zones of your mind Make you blush Fairies dance lighly down your spine When I whisper to you And you blush an almost felt, long distance kiss on your neck, just below the ear You blush Your head tilted to the right, and down hands clenched Blushing I adore blushes F.M.

Its Done
I did the hardest thing I have ever done yesterday. Stanly was "put down" I was there with him when it was done. I needed to be there, he needed to see me not some stranger. He needed to know he was loved. It was kind of peaceful, he just fell asleep. He looked so at peace finally, no more pain. It was terrible to watch but I am glad I was with him, scratching his ear. He is in a field now and will become part of nature. I will miss my baby but I am glad he is not hurting any more!!

Prayers Needed!!!!!
Some of the best people in my life are the ones that do the little things... This is my boy Ricky. He has got to be one of the sweetest men I have met in a long time. We have been spending a lot of time together lately and it's great! Somehow he knows just when to call when I need it the most. Ya know... it's the little things... phone calls throughout the day just to tell me he misses my voice, a knock at the door when I am having a shitty day, bringing flowers just to make me smile, waiting for me for hours at times to make up my mind as far as what movie we are going to go see... lol He is a sweetie. This is one man that has done so much for me in so many ways. So I am reaching out to my family here on Fubar for help.... I got the phone call tonight that his mom is in the hospital and they are not expecting her to make it thru the night. She is 48 years old and full of life, yet at this time she is so fragile. My heart is heavy and I can't imagine having to go thru this at thi

I Wrote This Poem
my life /lonely/ness were i.m truel.y lost all i want two do is just cry i know in my heart i cant be with you but i know someday our eyes will meet but i also know ill never have you just two touch you feel your hands heart.your tender lips on mine but i guess i have always know it will never ever be this way again i think about you 24-7 .my our whatever i am two you last for life she knows who this is for even though were miles across the sky/no my love will never die

Hh Gift
As most of you all know I was in a auction. Well since my hubby is as stuborn as me he won me and my gift is a happy hour. I will be doin it later on this week not sure on a date or time yet Ill let everyone know but I hope everyone can be around when my purdy lil face is up at the top! :P I wanna thank everyone that placed a bid on me! I was so flattered by all the bids I was gettin so thank you! I had alot of fun with this auction and cant wait till the next time Im in one. So thanks again for all the bids and I hope everyone has a very merry christmas and happy new year! xoxo -cotton

Give Over To Your Desires
Nite falls and I stand unworthy Gazing out upon her heavenly frame sillohueted by light from the shades A perfect form not marred by time Yet enhanced by the glow of divinity Lost in amorous awe I stare Knowing that she and she alone is the one The face that men have warred for and over The voice men have fallen silent to hear The figure that men have tried and failed to sculpt The mind which perceives all yet reveals little And in that moment that lies between thought and passion released I realize that now at this moment of all men who have came and went I truly stand most blessed And so we become one One form ablaze with desire One mind filled with a primal want and need One heart attuned to every move and moan Giving over to the delicate system that forms ecstacy In at the time we find our crescendo A loud guttural scream that releases all and holds for nothing And in there the earth stands still and we Oh that tender we, adrip with the honey glaze of love Drift off into eternal sa

I'm Outta Here!!!
THIS IS NOT A JOKE!!! TAKE SERIOUSLY!!! I REGRET TO INFORM YOU BUT THE PIMP WILL DIE ON JANUARY 31st AND WILL NOT RETURN. HEY PEOPLE IT BEEN A BLAST MEETING NEW FACES AND HANGING OUT WITH THE SOME OF THE KEWLEST PEOPLE ON THE PLANET BUT I HAVE DECIEDED TO WALK AWAY AND NEVER COME BACK... I WOULD HAVE BEEN GONE ALREADY BUT MY VIP IS BOCKING THE EXIT AND WON’T LET ME GET THROUGH. *JAN 31st* IS MY RESERECTION DATE BACK INTO SOCIETY AND AWAY FROM HERE... SOME OF YOU, YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE CAN EITHER CALL ME, HIT ME ON YAHOO, MSN, OR EVEN THE DREADED MYSPACE I HATE SO MUCH. IN THE UPCOMMING TIME TILL I EXPIRE I WOULD LIKE TO SET SOME PERSONAL GOALS UPON EXITING AND I NEED YOU ALL TO HELP. MAKE IT TO LVL24 GODFATHER AND WIN A SPOTLIGHT THAT’S IT BUT I CAN’T DO IT A LONE. I’M ONLY ONE PERSON BUT THERE ARE MILLIONS OF YOU THAT CAN HELP ME… PLEASE HELP THIS WOULD BE THE BEST EXITING PRESENT EVER. TRUST ME I KNOW IT SUCKS BUT I GOTTA GET BACK ON TRACK. ME LEAVIN

My Special Someone
Someone to share my secrets with Someone to share my world and life with Someone that can take all my fears away With a single word or action to me Why do we bother to continue searching? For that special someone to love and hold When so plainly it seems to be That all we do is hurt others and get hurt in the process? Does that one special someone Who will love unconditionally And make you their whole world Really exist out there somewhere? Or is it just a cruel game played on us By the Fates or Powers from above? Do they like to make us love and lose? Do they enjoy seeing our pain and heaving our despair?? If my one special someone truly exist Please come and find me rather quickly Before I lose my Faith in ever being loved And lose all hope in my life and become an empty shell...... My special someone..... Do you really exist for me.....

Ode To A Spell Checker
ODE TO A SPELL CHECKER by Jerrold H Zar I have a spelling checker. It came with my PC. It plane lee marks four my revue Miss steaks aye can knot sea. Eye ran this poem threw it, Your sure reel glad two no. Its vary polished in it's weigh. My checker tolled me sew. A checker is a bless sing. It freeze yew lodes of thyme. It helps me right awl stiles two reed, And aides me when aye rime. Each frays come posed up on my screen Eye trussed too be a joule. The checker pours o'er every word To cheque sum spelling rule. Bee fore a veiling checker's Hour spelling mite decline, And if we're lacks oar have a laps, We wood bee maid to wine. Butt now bee cause my spelling Is checked with such grate flare, Their are know fault's with in my cite, Of nun eye am a wear. Now spelling does knot phase me, it does knot bring a tier. My pay purrs awl due glad den With wrapped word's fare as hear. To rite with care is quite a feet Of wi

By Alter Bridge
I couldn't sleep I had to listen To a conscience knowing so well That nothing comes form indifference I look inside of myself Will I fond some kind of conviction? Will I bid the hero farewell? Will I be defined by things that could have been? I guess time will only tell I guess time will only tell [Chorus:] So don't let it be Before tomorrow comes Before you turn away Take the hand in need Before tomorrow comes You could change everything I curse my worth and every comfort That blinded me for way too long Damn it all I'll make a difference from now on Cause I'm wide awake to it all Cause I'm wide awake to it all [Chorus] Does anyone care it ain't right what we're doing? Does anyone care it ain't right where we're going? Does anyone dare justify how we're living? Does anyone here care at all? [Chorus] We could be so much more than we are We could be so much more than we are We could be so much more than we are Oh this much I know

So Much For Hillary!
The Pope and Hillary Rodham Clinton were on the same stage in front of a huge crowd. "Her Majesty" and His Holiness had seen it all before, so to make it a little more interesting, the senator said to the Pope, "Did you know that with just one little wave of my hand I can make every Democrat in the crowd go wild?" He doubted it, so she showed him. Sure enough, the wave elicited rapture and cheering from every Democrat in the crowd. Gradually, the cheering subsided. The Pope, not wanting to be outdone by such a level of arrogance, considered what he could do. "That was very impressive. But did you know that with just one little wave of MY hand I can make EVERY person in the crowd go crazy with joy? This joy will not be a momentary display like that of your subjects, but will go deep into their hearts, and they will forever speak of this day and rejoice." The senator seriously doubted this, and said so. "One little wave of your hand and all people will rejoice forever?

Self Love
Not that type you sick-o . We all have things we don't like about ourself, from looks, to emotions, to how we react to situations. We all love ourself and feel down sometimes. This time of year is the #1 time that people kill them self or kill others. So take a couple minutes and if you have a friend thats down go and listen. The best gift of all is friendship . ( being there for them , supporting them emotionally and just saying hello ) You can save a life for all you know by just taking the time to say hi how are you today.

Soulmate's
We met as friends by chance and from the first moment we met there was something special about the other, words no other person would get. We then started a friendship that grew stronger day-by-day We became more to each other more than words can say. Even though we may be apart from the other, we still meet in the sun for when you are soulmates you come together as one.

More Funny Turkish Messages
In previous blogs you have seen my funny messages that I get from users....below is the latest one: from: frk date: 2007-12-19 13:31:07 subject: hi, read receipt: No replied: No block user hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii how are u...........i wanna sex....u? u r to want web cam fucck love each ohter...u web cam? fhera123@hotmail.com come noww

Liars.
i just wanna scream and then puke then get shitfaced drunk and then cry and stab my heart. Why the hell do I trust anyone????????? Trust is such a lie anyways. I cant take anymore. My heart just is so black now, I dont even care if I ever love again. I wish for nothing. I dream for nothing. Since you killed everything inside me, what am I supposed to do now?

New Member
Erin "HOPIGALERIN" (member of the flamming heart)@ fubar As bm310 previously posted we got a new member, so let's make her feel like part of the fam and put her in ur fam :-D (That was fresh) Aight?? Erin "HOPIGALERIN" (member of the flamming heart)@ fubar

Moving Update
Ok, the latest on my move... I will be moving into my new place Saturday, but my internet won't be hooked up until sometime Sunday afternoon, so don't be surprised when you don't see me on line friday or saturday! lol I want to thank all of you who have taken the time to keep up with the saga of my move this last month..it's been hectic, but is almost over, your support and kind words have meant a lot to me. HUGS to all of you! XOXOXOXOXO

Astronaut's Mother Dies While Son In Space
Crash Kills Astronaut's Mom Daniel M. Tani, NASA Astronaut. Image Credit: NASA The mother of a veteran NASA astronaut who is now on board the International Space Station died Wednesday when her car was struck by a freight train in a Chicago suburb, the police said. Rose Tani, 90, the mother of the astronaut Daniel M. Tani, was pronounced dead at a Lombard, Ill., hospital after the accident, the police said in a statement. Johnson Space Center in Houston had no immediate comment on when and how Mr. Tani had been informed of the death. Mr. Tani, 46, arrived at the space station on Oct. 25 aboard the shuttle Discovery for a two-month tour. But the stay has been extended because of problems launching another shuttle. The shuttle Atlantis is scheduled to bring Mr. Tani home, but will take off no earlier than Jan. 10 while the National Aeronautics and Space Administration works on problems with fuel tank sensors. Chief Raymond Byrne of the Lombard police said in

Happy Holidays
OK, I was going to try to tag everybody with this cute little tag I made but Fubar is giving me hassles lol telling me I have no fans and such so IM placing it here for all to see. Happy Holidays to all and a safe new year. Hugzzzzzzzzzz

Visit To A New Park
Our First Visit to a New Park (straight) After a couple visits to the same park, we agreed to meet at the new park, which we had talked about. She didn’t want to go to the same park, too often as a couple, with her being married too. Once at the park, we drove into the park a couple miles. We left our cars at a pull off and walked down a path. The path wound along a creek, for half a mile or so. Seeing a nice big sand bar across the creek, we took off our shoes to wade across. She had brought a blanket, which we spread over the ground. I pulled off my shirt and laid down on my back. She laid down next to me and snuggled up close, cuddling and kissing. After a while, she moved to sit on top of me, at my waist. I reached up slipping her dress over her head. She surprised me, by wearing a new pair of Blue Lace panties, bought just for today. I pulled her face to mine, kissing her. She moved her kissing to my neck, then down to my shoulders and across my ches

So Pissed Off
I have this a**hole that I work with who thinks he is all high and mighty being an a**hole. Now all (well most) of you know that I am not racist but this MFer is pissing me off so bad... he keeps telling me that I don't like him because his black. EXCUSE ME???????? Since when do I not like someone just because they are black? DO YOU KNOW WHO I AM YOU IGNORANT SON OF A BICH? Take a look at my friends... all different races and nationalities... and then this SOB gets loud says this: hey cleaner girl.. i expect the next time you clean to pick all this sh*t up up under here you hear me... referring to under his desk... I am not your fucking personal maid you ass wipe... I have just had it.. my legs are shaking and I need a cigarette so bad right now.. lol.. I swear this dude is gonna piss me off to the point where I am seriously gonna have his ass kicked.. or I will file a suit against him... I am so tired of dealing with his stupidity on a daily basis!

It's A Wonderful Life. (and It Sucks)
[original post from late December 2007] [this was deleted - the people that know, know... the people that don't, can read my minsday blogs - m0ppy.mindsay.com - for the whole sick story. I chose to delete this, because I don't want reminders of how miserable I was last year, on my blogs here anymore, especially things regarding my daughter. I have a hard enough time just seeing her, and I don't need to be reminded all the time of how insane it was back then. We choose our state of mind, and I choose to be happy, dammit. If anyone really wants to know, just ask me, I'll tell you, or show you the blogs - they're saved on my PC.] ♥ Rob

Yeah, It's Been A While
Yeah, I haven't been on again for a while. What is boils down to is that my grandmother passed away at the first of this month. I had to go and arrange things for her and serve as executor of her estate. Believe it or not, I do plan on being back folks, just give me a chance to finish up that, work, and other things going on. I think all of ya'll are great, and I hope to talk to everyone soon. Signing off from the hell that is my life....

The 12 Days Of Fubar.....(to The Tune Of The 12 Days Of Christmas)
THE TWELVE DAYS OF FUBAR Written by: Unchained Melody 12-21-07 On the first day of Fubar Baby Jesus sent to me A Bouncer checking I.D. On the second day of Fubar, Baby Jesus sent to me Two Teddy bears, And a Bouncer checking I.D. On the third day of Fubar, Baby Jesus sent to me Three FU bucks, Two Teddy bears, And a Bouncer checking I.D.. On the fourth day of Fubar, Baby Jesus sent to me Four Cherry Bombs, Three FU bucks, Two Teddy bears, And a Bouncer checking I.D.. On the fifth day of Fubar, Baby Jesus sent to me Five Diamond rings, Four Cherry bombs, Three FU bucks, Two Teddy bears, And a Bouncer checking I.D. On the sixth day of Fubar, Baby Jesus sent to me Six guys to rate, Five Diamond rings, Four Cherry bombs, Three FU bucks, Two Teddy bears, And a Bouncer checking I.D. On the seventh day of Fubar, Baby Jesus sent to me Seven Secret crushes, Six guys to rate, Five Diamond rings, Four

Yeah Well....
anyone and everyone knows i dont really ever write blogs... AT ALL... but apparently i need to... so anyway, i just got off the phone with someone that has been my friend since i got out of jail. pretty much a year... her and i have been there for each other countless amounts of times when others wouldnt and/or couldnt be there. we have helped each other in ways that i cant explain. so anyway... a week or so ago my little brother had a seizure. hes 2 years old so you know i was freakin out. i called her because i needed her. and even though i was totally histerical over the phone losing my mind. she hangs up on me. i try calling her back and i get voice mail right away. she turned her phone off. so now i am really screwed up. the next day she calls me. tells me she had to go and she hung up on me because her kids were around (shes 47). so i am thinking in my head. someone who you claim to care so much about and that cares so much about you; you hang up on them when th

For Those Who Do Not Know What 1488 Or 14/88 Means, Please Read
Fourteen Words From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia Jump to: navigation, search The Fourteen Words is a phrase used by white nationalists, Neo-Nazis and white pride supporters. It refers to the 14-word slogan: "We must secure the existence of our people and a future for White children."[1], and also the 14-word slogan: "Because the beauty of the White Aryan woman must not perish from the earth." Both 14-word slogans were coined by David Lane, a member of the white supremacist terrorist organization The Order. The first slogan was inspired by a statement, 88 words in length, quoted from Volume 1, Chapter 8 of Adolf Hitler's Mein Kampf: What we must fight for is to safeguard the existence and reproduction of our race and our people, the sustenance of our children and the purity of our blood, the freedom and independence of the fatherland, so that our people may mature for the fulfillment of the mission allotted it by the creator of the universe. Every thought and every idea, eve

This Pretty Much Sums It Up!
It doesn’t interest me what you do for a living. I want to know what you ache for and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart’s longing. It doesn’t interest me how old you are. I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool for love for your dream for the adventure of being alive. It doesn’t interest me what planets are squaring your moon... I want to know if you have touched the centre of your own sorrow if you have been opened by life’s betrayals or have become shrivelled and closed from fear of further pain. I want to know if you can sit with pain mine or your own without moving to hide it or fade it or fix it. I want to know if you can be with joy mine or your own if you can dance with wildness and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes without cautioning us to be careful to be realistic to remember the limitations of being human. It doesn’t interest me if the story you are telling me is true. I want to know if yo

Warped & Twisted
Harsh words & violent blows Hidden secrets nobody knows Eyes are open, hands are fisted Deep inside I'm warped & twisted So many tricks & so many lies Too many whens & too many whys Nobody's special, nobody's gifted I'm just me, warped & twisted Sleeping awake & choking on a dream Listening loudly to a silent scream Call my mind, the number's unlisted Lost in someone so warped & twisted On my knees, alive but dead Look at the invisible blood I've bled I'm not gone, my mind has drifted Don't expect much, I'm warped & twisted Burnt out, wasted, empty, & hollow Today's just yesterday's tomorrow The sun died out, the ashes sifted I'm still here, warped & twisted

These Two Need Your Help!
All Spirit Levelers Family And Friends Of Evonne & TisMom05 need 140,000 comments to win a 1-Year VIP, a Happy Hour, a 30-Day Blast AND a Ticker Pack!so Lets All Show Them All The Love You Possibly Can! Just Click The Pic!!! Bombs Away!! "Happy Holidays"

It's A God Damn Joke Folks
for the few of you that have went bat chit this last week over my default pictures not being me. Or your the ass monkey who went through and marked damn near ever photo that wasnt boring nsfw. Get the hell over it. The girl with the bouncing boobies is a joke and will end when the two blast i have end. They kind of go hand in hand with the joke. Now that we got that out of the way. It has amazed me during my time here the things that get marked nsfw and the ones that just slide on by. I dont have a problem with the slide on by stuff. I say let it all hang out for the world to see. As long your prime pic and default folder passes the bouncers everything in the other folder is fair game. My personal feeling is that your prime picture no matter what you use should be in your default. this is the one folder that we all understand is meant for "non NSFW" pics. past that its "VBW" Viewer Be Warned. Or "EAYOR" Enter at your own risk. Hell I don't care what you call it. I would like t

Scary Stuff
Well this one isn't a Cam Whore but she stated that she was from Ghana which many of the 419 scammers from Nigeria have been using as a base of operations. I got a kick outta this idiot. You know she was up to no good. Please try to report these people if you think anything is suspicious such as asking for credit card information. If we show these people they are not welcome here they will not keep trying. (Read from bottom up): *POOF* ->PieDaDDY: hello?? ->PieDaDDY: t do you do for a living? ->PieDaDDY: I work for the Federal Bureau of Investigation for the United States but I work in London right now investigating cyber crimes princela: what woprk are you doing ->PieDaDDY: Oh thats nice princela: no its near to togo ->PieDaDDY: chillin out what about you? princela: what are you doing there ->PieDaDDY: oh is that near Nigeria? princela: Ghana ->PieDaDDY: sure...where are you from? princela: can we continue ->PieDaDDY: really? wow Im surprised. are youon

Right Brain Vs. The Left Brain Test..
The Right Brain vs Left Brain test ... do you see the dancer turning clockwise or counter-clockwise? If clockwise, then you use more of the right side of the brain and vice versa. Most of us would see the dancer turning counter-clockwise though you can try to focus and change the direction; see if you can do it. LEFT BRAIN FUNCTIONS........ RIGHT BRAIN FUNCTIONS uses logic........................... uses feeling detail oriented............."big picture" oriented facts rule.......................imagination rules words and language..............symbols and images present and past................present and future math and science.............philosophy & religion can comprehend......... can "get it" (i.e. meaning) knowing.................................. believes acknowledges...........................appreciates order/pattern perception........spatial perception knows object name............knows object function reality based........................fantasy based

Omg Thank You!!!!!
What else can I say but thank you to ALL of my family and friends and even friends of friends for helping me get to godfather!!!!! This is a SUPER birthday present five days early! I have said many times that I have absolutely the BEST FRIENDS ON FUBAR!!! This is so sweet...thank you all so much again!!!!

As Of Today,i Am Fu-angaged
For the people that I have been talking to and the ones that know this special lady.Show us some love and support,myself and onesxybrat are now fu-engage.She even took the time to alter her name to say that she is my fu-fiance.Taht's right her new anme for the time is onesxybrat..fu-fiance to Jsarge316.So what I am asking of all that read this send us your support wish us the best of luck.Thank you

Christmas
"Chrissy"mas 2007 Firstly let me wish you and yours a very happy holiday season before i begin my yearly blog of reflection. As i sit here thinking about things over the past year one thing comes to the forefront of my mind time and time again. My friends. If any of you have known me long enough to know my life (and some of you know alot) you will know that this past year has been one of trial and continuous change. For me it has flown by so fast its been a blur. But the one constant in all this are the people who stand behind me and beside me no matter what, through all the bs in my life. Lending and ear to listen, a shoulder to cry on, a kick in my ass when needed and so much more that i cant even begin to think of except for much love and laughter. Donna...you are my rock and my sister and my bitch! and a life friend. You are articulate and funny and caring and one of the finest people i know....i love you and i say that without hesitation...you are family! Steph

Worst Xmas Ever
My grandma died on Christmas eve. I have an infected tooth that puffwed out my cheek and has me looking like a chipmunk and i guess has to get pulled... all i know is its the most painful thinga of my life and has been going on for like a week now. I don't know what i'm doing on new years, oh yeah, attending my grama's funeral, but i swear if i don't get wasted that nigjt i'm goinjng insane

Feel Good About You
I am passing this on to you because it definitely works and we could all use a little more calmness in our lives. By following simple advice I heard on the Dr. Phil show, you too can find inner peace. Dr. Phil proclaimed 'The way to achieve inner peace is to finish all the things you have started and never finished.' So, I looked around my house to see all the things I started and hadn't finished, and before leaving the house this morning, I finished off 23 Miller Lites, a bottle of Absolute, a package of Oreos, the remainder of my old Prozac prescription, the rest of the cheesecake, some Doritos and a box of chocolates. You have no idea how freaking good I feel. Please pass this on to those you feel might be in need of inner peace.

Drama Here At Work
So, here we are getting warned about this strange old homeless guy who was trying to get into our secure office. Next thing I know, I'm out smoking and there are 3 police cars in the tunnel. He was getting arrested and resisting. We stayed until it was all done and the cars pulled away. The old man stuck his tongue out at us all and laughed.

A Salute??
Who Is Willing To Make A Salute That Says Sarge's Bad Girl ? Can Either Be SFW Or NSFW ..Your Choice..Also You Do Not Need To Make One..But It Would Be Appreciated If You Did..Thank You In Advance Sgt. Raider (Promoter Of Sarge's Bad Girls)

Falling Angel
have fallen from sky, Fallen to the ground, I am the angel of sadness, Angel of lost hopes, Angel of lost dreams, I am the fallen angel, Fear me not, I am here for reason, That reason is to have a second chance in life, That life I was given for a reason, They took my wings, They took me apart made me human, I was the fallen angel, But that fallen angel had one chance in life that she was given, This angel won’t make the same mistakes she made before, This angel will go down the right path that has been chosen for her, This fallen angel know what she has to do to be forgiven. a good freind wrote this for me and i love it ty very much hun

Now Accepting Applications
1. Your Name: 2. Age: 3. Fave Color: 4. Birthday: HERE COMES THE FUN ... ... ... 1. Are we friends? 2. Do you have a crush on me? 3. Would you kiss me? 4. Would you enjoy it? 5. Would you ever ask me out? 6. Would you make a move on me in a movie theater? 7. Would you take care of me when I'm sick? 8. Do you want to tell me something that you couldn't before? 9.Would you walk on the beach with me? 10. If you heard a rumor about me, would you defend me? 11. Do you/have you talked about me? 12. Do you think I'm a good person? 13. Would u take a nap with me? 14.WOULD U LOVE ME? 15.Do you think I'm cute? 16. If you could change something about me would you? 17.Would you dance with me? 18.Would you come over for no reason just to hang out? What Do You Think Of My? 1.Personality: 2.Eyes: 3.Face: 4.Hair: W0ULD Y0U... [] go out with me? [] give me your number? [] kiss me? [] let me kiss you? [] watch a movie with me? [] take me out to dinner? [] d

New Year
I just want to wish all my family and friends on here a Happy New Year!!!! After the first, I will start my process in deleting my fubar account.. If you're a true friend and want to stay in contact with me, I will give you my yahoo and myspace.. Everyone else I hope your journey in this life leads you to where you want to be!!!! ~Miss TeRe~

A Place To Hide
I need someplace to run to. I need somewhere inside. No doors or open windows. I need a place to hide. I need to learn to be quiet. God knows that I've tried. No way for them to see me. I need a place to hide. I need a place of refuge. Where I can just step aside. I need the walls around me. I need a place to hide. I weary of all the pain now. I feel that I just might slide. I need to be alone now. I need a place to hide. I need to let go of hope. Forget the blushing bride. Love is not forever. I need someplace to hide. I need to keep on walking. Pushing anyone else aside. Make my way without question. I'll find my place to hide.

Crash
My Report on crash between Carlsbad and Hobbs on 12-27-07 5:30 PM I was on my way to work when i drove onto the scene of a very bad wreck, 2 semi trucks were involved a Swift truck heading toward Hobbs had been struck when a Water truck was turning into midway station, as i drove closer to the scene i could see people in the road running in diffrent directions and some people on the side of the road waving ther hands, checking my rear view mirror to see if i was clear to slow down i applied my brakes and pulled over, set my hazzard lights and called 911 i informed them that there had been a wreck at mile marker 62-65 and to send EMS, after i hung up, got my hazzard bag that i got when i started this job out of my truck and ran toward a group of bi-standers, the driver of the watter truck was on the ground with a head full of blood, all i could think about was the training video and CPR class, there was a lot of trafic on the road heading toward our direction very fast

Overcome And Adapt
I just want to say something about the curve ball life likes to throw sometimes. You may be delt a card that you didnt plan on and it just might put a stick in the spokes of your bicycle of life. I want to say something about my own life that I hope will inspire you when you are delt an undesireable card. I play the bass guitar with a paralyzed left hand. A stretched brachial plexus nerve from a severe car accident caused my fingers on my left hand to be paralyzed. I played bass guitar for 13 years at the time of my accident and just ordered my first 6 string bass online which came in while I was still in intensive care. Doctors told me that I may never play the bass again and that put me in a downward tailspin real fast. A friend of mine had a dream of me playing with the bass in my lap and wearing a slide on one of my fingers. I immediately went to Norman Music and picked up a slide for my pinky finger. I started teaching myself to play again and it sounded like crap.

Online Players...
What makes a guy go online and try to hussle as many women as he can? I don't understand what someone would get out of it. Its not like they're getting laid or anything LOL. Tell me what you think guys!

Djs
This is going to be a mini rant.. Don't want to read it.. so be it..Just move on. What is with the 100s of DJs popping up here on Fubar lately? 99% of you aren't DJs... Just people that click on some songs and thats it.. A real DJ talks.. interacts with the listeners..Actually around when someone wants to request something.. but alas.. you aren't.. I guess you all think it is "HOT" or "SEXY" to put "DJ" in your names.. I only know of MAYBE 4 real DJ's on this site.. because they actually TALK on air.. and not click on a few songs and that's it.. YOU AREN'T DJ's... YOU'RE CLICKERS.. Nothing more. If you actually talked to people on air.. then you can call yourselves DJs. EXHALES!! Thank you for reading this.

How
How can I trust someone if that someone has broken my trust, My heart is empty, Its cold as ice, As it reach to break, It leaks out of water, That water drips and slips away, That trust, That moment, All within those you have broken, I may not trust you or your friends but that don’t mean we can’t be friends, Just friends without that trust, You have to work your trust with me, You have to make me understand why should I ever trust you again, You have to repair that broken trust, You have to work hard, That don’t mean be hateful towards me, Just show me that I can trust you once more.

Sex: Good For You... So Give Me Some
I saw this survey on sex. I thought I would share the stats with you and a few of my not so humble opinions. Please notice that I make more sense than Dr. Phil... and I can say "fuck". 1) 94% of men lie about their penis size. According to condom manufacturers, only 6% of men use extra large condoms. The smart ones under promise and over deliver. Thats why I say mine is small all the time! Only a tool says he is bigger than he is only to leave a girl disappointed. 2) The average man is 5 inches long when erect. This is the exact reason I never sleep with a girl who has been with black men in bed. Because they are not average. They are swung like donkeys. Yeah I just made a stereotype. Black men everywhere are patting me on the back for it. Ladies... If you transistion yourself from NBA groupie to Fubar blogger groupie... I am closed for business. 3) 80% of American men are circumsized. Thats number needs to go up. A guy who isn't cut looks like he has a deflate

Winter Classic
for anyone who doesnt know,,or may not follow hockey,,,tuesday jan 1 , buffalo will play pittsburgh in an outdoor game at the buffalo bills stadium,,outside...here is a link that will show what they did to make a rink out of the football stadium.....http://sabres.nhl.com/

I Still...
I still wake up thinking of you, and I still fall asleep dreaming of you I still get lost in memories I still ask myself a million "What if's..." and countless "Maybe's" I still look at your pictures I still see you everywhere I go I still know it's not you, but I still wish that it was I still wish things were different I still wish it was the same as before I still think that you're perfect I still cry cause you are I still remember the first time I still thank God that we met I still love you more than you know I still wish I had said it I still try to forget you I still try to move on I still wish that I could I still can't force myself to let go I still remember the nights I still remember the days I still remember the good times I still justify the pain I still know that tomorrow nothing will change I still can't accept I can't have you I still wish... I still wish...

Fubar Etiquette
MOST OF THIS BLOG HAS BEEN TAKEN FROM HELLCAT AND I STOLE IT BECAUSE IT APPLIES TO ME AS WELL AND WELL BECAUSE SHES MY BITCH AND I CAN :p IF YOU ARE IN A CONTEST, HAVING A CONTEST, OR JUST BORED AND FEEL LIKE HELPING SOMEONE SHES THE ONE TO GO TO! CHECK HER OUT! HELLCAT O'NINE TALES ¿HøøDY¿'S Ho@ fubar BEFORE YOU ADD ME AS A FRIEND THESE ARE SOME THINGS YOU SHOULD KNOW ........ FIRST AND FOREMOST, IF YOU WANT TO ADD ME, I ASK YOU RATE MY PAGE AND FAN ME WHICH I WILL RETURN. THAT IS SIMPLY FUBAR ETIQUETTE!SEVERAL TIMES I RANDOMLY RATE AND FAN NEWBIES AND SOME VETERANS AS WELL. IF YOU THINK THIS IS TOO LONG FOR YOU TO GIVE A CRAP TO READ THEN DON'T WASTE OUR TIME. IF NOT, PLEASE READ ON :D IF I AM A VIP AT THE TIME, THOSE WITH SALUTES GET AT LEAST ONE 11. (UNLESS I HAVE RUN OUT) HAVING A SALUTE IS AN INSTANT ADD :D IT IS IN YOUR BEST INTEREST TO HAVE 1 .. MORE AND MORE PEOPLE ON HERE ARE REQUIRING A SALUTE BEFORE ADD. I VERY RARELY DENY REQUESTS UNLESS YOU ARE JUST OUTRIGHT C

2008
For me, 2007 sucked! There were a few good points, but a lot of bad too. I have high hopes for 2008. I just know it will be a better year and that I will get things in my life ironed out that have been pulling me down. Unfortunately I have a feeling I have some more bad to get through before I can get to the good. Happy New Year, everyone and here's to 2008!

My Secert
my lil secert is............................................................................................................................................................................................................ for Chris... babe I love you!! kisses...... ok I finally told my secert

A Little Love Goes A Looong Way
Hey friends.... Can you PLEASE go visit my Fu~Godmother Sassie Laurie and show her how awesome she is! She is trying to improve her stats! RATE~FAN~ADD~CRUSH HER......She has lots of AWESOME pictures and stash for you to check out! SHOW HER THE LOVE PEOPLE!! ~♥~THANK YOU ALL~♥~ ~/~ Sassy Laurie~/~Club F.A.R.~The Sisterhood~D&DC~Ind. Fam.~Co-Mng. Fu-Sistas~Fu-Ownded By Squirt@ fubar

New Year Seeds And Plantings
Sometimes, some people get too busy to remember that someone cares, someone listened and that, that someone took his or her time out to do so. When we lose sight of the important little things and we end up missing the big things that count also. Those little things, that don't count for much in the moment, help water and maintain the seeds we plant in each other. Whether it be a friendship, a romance, our significant other, or with our children. Each one represents a seed we plant in them and they within us. We all need to be like a farmer, remember that the planting of the seed is but one small part, that the seeds need water, good soil and sunshine to help them grow. The soil, the beginning of these relationships. The seed, our interaction through respect and consideration. The water, our tears that we may shed out of joy or sadness. The sunshine is the joy, our time with those special people we plant our seed in. The comfort comes from knowing that someone is ther

A Pretty Good Joke
A small town was having a problem. Squirrels had invaded four churches in the town. Each church tried different ways to get rid of them. The Baptists decided to wait until the squirrels wandered into the baptistry and then they would close the lid and trap them. But the squirrels were too fast for them and they ran away only to return the next day. The Methodists decided that they could not do anything to harm God's creatures and so they did nothing. Squirrels overran them. The Presbyterians decided they would catch the squirrels and take them out into the country and release them, whicn they did. However, a few days later the squirrels found their way back. The Catholics took a different approach. They baptised the squirrels and made them members of the congregation. Now they only see them on Christmas and Easter.

Happy New Years
Tonight will be a most special night for me..:) I will be bringing in this new year with the man I love. He is very special to me and I hope he will become a very permanent part of my life! For all of my dearest friends I really would like to thank you all for being here for me through my hardest days and for sharing all of my happy days too. No this isn't someone new in my life...i have known him for some time and I am enjoying the best part of all in the newest stages of love and if I happen to be absent alot or not here enough I am so not sorry!!! My life is going in a very positive direction and that is something awesome!!! I will do my best to keep up with all of you...again if I fail..well you can e-spank me LOL Ok all of you be safe tonight and do have a wonderful time bringing in the new year...and bill...here's a kiss for your new year!!! hope you won @ the casino...so you can buy me coffee soon!!! LOL many hugs n such... Alana

With All My Love & Gratitude...xoxoxo
******************************************** I just want to thank each & every one of you...my dear family & friends...for making 2007 such a wonderful year for me. You are all so loving & giving...and I so appreciate you! Thanks again for being there when I needed support & understanding...& for always bringing a smile to my face....& especially my heart! I'm so looking forward to spending 2008 with you...God bless you always! Much love & hugs...Loey

A Lil Something About Me
HI YALL I THOUGHT ID TELL YA A LIL ABOUT ME. MY NAME IS MICHELLE BUT EVERY1 CALLS ME SHELLY. IM 34 YEARS OLD. IM A MOTHER OF 1 GIRL, JESSICA, 12 AND 1 BOY, MIKE, 13. I AM FROM ROSEVILLE, CA BUT IVE TRAVELED EVERYWHERE AND LIVED IN ALOT OF DIFFERENT PLACES. I FOUND MY SOULMATE, JAMES DELANEY, ON POGO.COM. HE LIVES IN ALASKA WICH ME AND MY 2 KIDS ARE MOVING THERE IN JUNE 2008 AND WE ARE GOING TO BE MARRIED IN OCTOBER OF 2008. I HAVE LOTS TO TELL YALL ABOUT ME BUT THEN WHAT WOULD WE TALK ABOUT WHEN WE BECOME FRIENDS. ALL I ASK IS PLEASE DONT ASK FOR NUDE PICS OF ME I HAVE WAY TOO MUCH SELF RESPECT TO BE POSTING CRAP LIKE THAT ONLINE. HOPE TO MEET MANY MORE PEOPLE TO CHAT AND MAKE FRIENDS WITH SOON.

God Bless Them
TO ALL THE MEN AND WOMEN WHO HAVE SERVED MY COUNTRY Current mood: grateful Category: Writing and Poetry THE LETTER TO WHOM IT MAY CONCERN, IF YOU ARE READING THIS LETTER I GUESS IT GOT OVER THERE I WAS SURE HOPING YOUD GETTER ITS SENT WITH LOTS OF LOVE AND CARE. NOW I PRAY FOR YOU GODS SPEED THAT HE WILL KEEP YOU SAFE AND FULFILL YOUR EVERY NEED WITH THE DAWNING OF EACH NEW DAY. IM JUST AN ORDINARY MAN YOU SEE A HUSBAND AND A FATHER AND YOUR OVER THERE FIGHTING I BELIEVE FOR MY WIFE, MY SON, AND MY DAUGHTER. THEY DONT EVEN KNOW YOUR NAME AND YOU WOULDNT KNOW EM IF YOU SEEN EM BUT STILL JUST THE SAME YOUR WILLING TO DIE TO PROTECT THERE FREEDOM. YES SIR HONOR,GLORY,AND PRIDE ARE JUST A FEW QUALITIES YOU DISPLAY IM GREATFUL FOR THOSE WHO HAVE FOUGHT AND DIED FOR ALL OF US HERE IN THE U.S.A YOUVE PROBABLY LOST FRIENDS OVER THERE WHO HAVE GIVEN THIER LIVES FOR THE U.S.A AND BACK HOME WE ARE WELL AWARE WE THINK GOD FOR

A Prayer
A PRAYER FOR OUR TROOPS 'Lord, hold our troops in your loving hands. Protect them as they protect us Bless them and their families for the selfless acts they perform for us in our time of need. Amen. ' MAY GOD YOU ALL

The Kitchen
Your at the kitchen sink doing dishes I walk up behind you and wrap my arms around you tight kissing your neck you tilt your neck back so I can kiss and nibble on it. Running my hands up your front undoing your buttons, letting your shirt fall to the floor. Caressing your breast lightly as I kiss you. You turn to me I take you in my arms we kiss passionatly.I lay you on the table and begin removing your jeans. As you lay there I blind fold you. You hear the fridge open the next thing you feel is an ice cube on your lips, then I begin to trail it down your neck. As I pass to your cleavage, I begin kissing and nibbling your neck, wispering in your ear how much I want you. I begin cicling your breast with the ice then your nipples till they harden .I lean in you feel me bite them,lightly at first then harder 1 then the other. Caressing and fondling them. Then you hear me walk away. I come back and you feel it a thick liguid I pour chochalate syryp on your breast and trail it down you

Hospital
i been fighting off what ever i got i was told i have bronchitis if i spelled it right all they gave me was these cold pills that dont do shit and coughing mexs that put me to sleep i been pukeing alot running a faever very hard time to breath and other things that iam not going to list i thought it would stop and it did not so iam going to the er so i wont be on and i may not be on tommro if they keep me

Friends
So how many of you truely think you have friends on this site? I mean I use this site to unwind from the day to day life here in IRAQ and then out of the blue fucking drama smashy the fucking internet world. Why do ppl feel the need to care who you have as friends on your page and what they say to you. I hate the fact that ppl judge you by the friends you have. If you dont like the friends I have then fuck off and I didnt need you as a friend to begin with. Cuz life is to fucking short to give a fuck about others. If you have a grudge or a complaint take it somewhere else cuz it aint worth the headache that comes along with it. If ppl here think im immature or whatever. Fuck it, cuz I still collect my paycheck at the end of the day, I will still keep the friends that are dear to my heart. And Im still going to have fucking fun while Im doing it. If you dont like it, you know where the block and delete button are.

Life Isn't A Fairytale; Life Is Hell.
I swear people should sue Disney. As a child we are fed these movies that talk about "happily ever after" and Prince Charming rescuing the fair maiden. These movies holding very little truth about the reality of the world around us. The fact that life is cruel, lonely, and most people are cold, self-absorbed assholes. In Disney movies the fair maiden has her fairy-tale wedding and lives for all of eternity in a castle with her prince. In reality its surprising how some men view marriage. For example: A manager at my work that is planning on asking his girlfriend to marry him; when asked if he was scared; he replied with "why would I be? the only thing difference is that now she will come home with me every night and we will pay bills." What the hell? Where is the romance? What about being excited about the fact that you get to wake up next to this person for the rest of your life knowing that they wouldn't want to be anywhere else in the world except in your arms?

Supporting Your Military.
ok, i blog when stupid things piss me off. today someone told me that they support the members of the military who enlisted BEFORE the war...but not those who enlisted after it began. stupid people like this really aggravate me. how can you stand behind half your military and pretty much say screw the rest who joined the military to go to war and defend their country? i mean is there anyway this person's point of view is even remotely logical? you hear a soldier dies...does that mean you have to stop and find out how many years of service that person had before you decide whether youre sad for the person and their family, or whether you dont care because he only enlisted after the war started? i am obiviously proud of my husband, and i stand behind him even though hes never home, and his life is more or less in constant danger every time he deploys, but you know thats his job, he does his job because he loves it. he would lay his life down for this country any day of the week. it makes

Omg I Still Owe Salutes Guys Im Trying Bare With Me Here They Are Coming
MY OWNER I OWE HIM A PAPER SALUTE TOPLESS WITH JUST PANTIES ON AND THEN I OWE HIM A VIDEO SALUTE AND THEN A HAND WRITTEN LETTER SNAIL MAILED TO HIM WITH THE SAME PANTIES I WORE IN THE PAPER SALUTE TO HIM.. i1269/ PROUD OWNER OF MIZZ SHADY/RATE/FAN/ADD@ fubar THESE I OWE PAPER SALUTES FOR COMPLETING THE COMMENT AND RATE ALL PIC FOLDER FOR A SALUTE.. Slowey@ fubar misterfeet@ fubar sarah 's fiance@ fubar _______________________________________ WOW JOE IS NEXT.. Joe@ fubar billyki1973@ fubar trebor42~Alabama Swamprat@ fubar REALXTREME1269@ fubar hobbes68@ fubar Metal Ron@ fubar jackdemosley@

Odd ... Disturbing ...
Last night I went to the mall with Chris. As we passed a group of guys one of them started yelling, "Hey you in the blue. Excuse me! HEY!" That's so not how to get my attention so i kept walking. Whilst we were outside smoking and having a conversation of epic proportions, I noticed this one kid standing directly across from us staring at me like he's never seen a girl before or something. Finally, sick of being stared at, i stared him back in the face and he smiled and dropped his cigarette. Me and Chris went back in after we were done smoking... and the kid went over to his gf but turned to stare at me as we walked by. Odd because I looked like hell last night. Disturbing because I hate being stared at/watched.

Chinese Astrology
The Chinese astrological cycle begins with the year of the Rat; consequently those born within this category like to be first, pioneers, at the forefront of the action. Because of this, they tend to see themselves as a cut above the others. Restless and inquisitive, those born under the influence of the Rat are active, both physically and mentally, and tend to lead busy lives. Challenge is essential to them for they love the thrill of living dangerously, adapting easily to different environments and surviving against all odds. With clairvoyance, intuition, perspicacity and an eye for detail, Rats are formidable problem solvers, finding workable solutions to the knottiest problems. Travelling is one of their favorite pastimes. They have a natural talent for the arts, specifically writing. The Rat possesses attributes ranging from charming and humorous to honest and meticulous. The Chinese say those born in these years make good and wise advisors, yet they can never decide for themselv

A Shame
It's ashame when someone contacts you on here and then tries to rate all your pic's a 1 when you try to be nice and say... NOT INTERESTED. Wife was contacted by " da sox " and he got kinda rude with her. Why are poeple like that??? GEESH!!!! How the hell would he feel if people rated HIS a 1??? Isn't this suppose to be for fun?

Being Reborn
Being Reborn Is there a such thing as being reborn? Well, I think not. You will always be who you were from the start. If you ever done wrong one day in your past. There are those humans who will make it last. This is a human world no matter what you may say. Cesar stands around just waiting on your pay. From the ache in your back to the pain in your feet. You fight through a day you never defeat. Payday comes around and you finally get home. Only to find bill collectors calling you on the phone. You bow your head and fall to your knees. While Cesar lays claim to your hard earned deeds. You pray to the Lord asking what must I do? To survive in this life that we all must go through?

Please Help Need 50,000 Comments By The 28th Of This Month To Win A Happy Hour
Just click on the pic below and bombs away :D ty to those who are helping & will help :) It says differently underneath the contest pic, but I had it changed I need 50,000 comments by Jan 28th to win a happy hour.

Bottled Up
i keep waiting for something to happen, maybe its time i just moved on, I don't know. Thats the problem I don't know anymore. I had a nervous break down in October of 97. I went into the hospital cause I knew if I didn't get help I wouldn't be here for my son. I was diagnosed with manic depression and generalized anxiety disorder with suicidal tendencies. I was placed on medication for these problem and have been on it for 1 yr3 months now...it helps but I still feel like theres no-one there for just me. I can't talk to my son he's only 12 and has to deal with the hell that he was put through by his x step fathers and he don't need my problems added on...he's just a kid and thats how i want him to be, not loose his childhood. I guess thats why i write so much and draw, and make pictures. Its an outlet but it don't work for everything. I was fired a year ago Christmas. This is a small town and since I told the boss he needed to grow some balls....well lets put it this

This Is Very Sad....
My 8 year old daughter and the rest of her third grade class made Christmas cards. They made them for wounded American Soldiers spending the holidays as Walter Reed ARMY Hospital. 2 days ago ALL the cards were returned. The card were rejected by the hospital, and NEVER given to any Solider. I think the ARMY should be ashamed of itself. I think These kids deserve an apology or at least an explanation from the ARMY. If you think so too the address is Walter Reed ARMY Medical Center 6900 Georgia Ave. NW Washington, DC 20307 - 5001 C'mon people let them know what you think!!!

Ha Ha Ha This Is The Shit!!!!
Don't mistake this blog for perpetuating drama........I am in a sharing mood and think this is funny as all hell!! As you probably know, it's been Stang's Haters On Parade today and I am super afraid that I'm not afraid of clowns. Actually, I'm flattered and amazed that I've managed to infiltrate the minds of my haters today because they have blogged...and created...and even visited my Myspace trying to come up with something worthy...this is their latest effort....Thumbs up for the photoshopping....*Busts Out Laughing* I don't know about most thinking people but there is no way in all hell that I'd spend this amount of time on someone I claim to dislike........I'd damn sure not want them on my page in my images but that's me. Maybe the truth is they enjoy staring at my winning smile but just won't admit it....LOL. If they do enough of these, I'll create a slideshow............ha ha ha ha Maybe one day when I give a shit, I'll get upset but until then, I'll post th

Finally
well, went back to the doctor again yesterday. I'm so sick with a terrible migrane, god... been throwing up all day and night, not good...... ........but if you like some good new, i think i may finally have some. even though, i still am a little scared. See, they said all my tests came back fine, i even had another ultrasound and the cyst is shrinking... ............. can i really believe this, and the mammomgrams came back negative, so far..... i just don't know how to take it. i am still in a lot of pain, dr said i prolly just have an infection from surgery, gave me the biggest damn pills i've ever seen, at least 3/4" long, lol... no kidding. so hopefully i'll start feeling better, if i can ever shake this freaking migrane, who knows... so, can i believe it, or still be skeptical? ttys, suzy muah, xoxoxo

Perverts
I now have a whole new respect for the women on this sight, oh but first things first, I'm not a women, that's right douchebags, you have been attempting to get a guy to watch you jerk off and look at your dick pics. I had no idea that there were so many fucking crazy ass pervs on this goddamn sight. Ladies I tip my hat to you all. Its crazy that all I had to do was put up a pic of a girl with big tits and the pervs came flocking. The fucking guys on this sight are fucking pathetic and I would have to say that about 60 percent should just end it all right now. HAHAHAHA have a nice day darlins

Never Say Goodbye
One of our sister Diva’s will be leaving us soon due to personal issues that arose here on fubar. Diva Blackloona is one of my personal friends and we have discussed her reasons and of course I asked her to stay, but her reasons for leaving are valid and I can understand them. She has stated that she knows who her true friends on here are and loves them as so. She will be here for about another week so let’s show her some Diva love and respect her decisions. I would love to see her stay as all of you would too, but this is a decision she has made and I have chosen to stand by her knowing that she knows what is best for her. We all should be careful to what we tell people on here and how close we let ourselves get with these people. Just know that there are mean vindictive people in this world and anyone can pretend to be anyone on the internet. Please do not take anyone at face value on here… just not fubar but on the internet and real life. It is sad that we all have our gua

Booty Call
Ok so heres my question to everyone.. its more of a question reason why i am not MuMMing it.. ok here goes.. Whats the difference between a "Booty Call" or "Friends with Benefits" heres what i think, I think that a booty call is someone that u just met and comes over fucks you and leaves right? but if its a friend with benefits should the couple be friends... and go out and do stuff???? like a drink or a movie or even brunch and then me for desert... But it seems like all men want is just to come over cum and go.... then become assholes and preach about a female wanting for just because they wanna go out for a drink... i mean come on its 2008 what makes you men think that maybe us women just want to use you guys for some freaky hot kinky sex only... can anyone help me figues this out please!!!!

To All The Women Of Fubar (fellas Can Read It, Too Lol)
I haven't been much of a "mumm" person on here, but I have been one to observe all that goes on here on Fubar. The bulletins, the blasts, the blogs, and what-not. And I'm not a fool, I know that this place is based on visual perception as the core principle of social interaction. In other words, the "hotter" you are, the more likely someone (especially of the opposite sex) will want to get to "know" you. And yes, physical appearance and looks are very important to first impressions in life. But after a while, you have to have some kind of substance. A curvy ass and great tits can only take you so far. But I'm seeing more and more women on here taking that angle to get more "popular" or more interaction . And we're all adults, more power to you if you feel that it works for you. But at the same time, these same individuals moan, whine, bitch, and complain about how so many people only ask to see their private folder, and make little to no attempt to get to "know" them. So you mean

Grrrrrrr @ Best Buy
A year ago today.. exactly, I bought an Xbox360/w/extended warranty and a JVC camcorder @ Best Buy in Findlay. The next day we had to exchange the xbox because it wouldn't work, and I also exchanged the JVC Camcorder for a Cannon mini DV one. Well yesterday when we were in Findlay we went to the BestBuy to exchange the xbox because its f'd up .. well they didn't have any.. so I asked them to check if Toledo BestBuy did.. they did. So today I called them told them to hold one because we had an exchange. We get there and the bish says oh yeah, we can't hold them and its been exchanged out all ready and no we don't have anymore o.O I said "Ok I'm trying to remain calm here, its not MY fault that your guy didn't know that and didn't tell me that" so then they start trying to figure out how to make it work out. Well we decide to do a store credit thing so I can then order it online and have it shipped straight to us. Great right? Nope when she is trying to figure out the receipts to do th

Mumms
Love me or hate me, I'm still going to do what I want to do when I want to. The Mumms will forever be inundated with {CC}. The same senseless bullshit that I have posted in the past will be the exact same senseless bullshit you can expect out of me until...the end of time. To all who love me: thanks. I am glad you can appreciate my low-brow humor and often hypocritical actions. To all my haters: thanks. Your whining bitching has made me more famous than every "ha ha" comment combined. To all those indifferent: you must not mumm.

The Wife And The Girlfriend
ok people, especially ladies... i'm putting this up here for moments of weakness women may have while dating married men... here goes.... HE IS NOT GOING TO LEAVE HIS WIFE !!! it's just not gonna happen. AND!! if by some cosmic chance the guy does leave his wife, why the hell would you want to be with someone that you KNOW is gonna cheat on you!?!?! and don't give me that "but it's diffrent with us... his wife blah blah blah bad stuff blah blah blah" ok, first off, he's married... so at some point in time he proooooobably was sweet talkin his wife. telling her how much he loves her and blah blah blah.... now second, what' he telling you? NO WAIT! DON'T ANSWER THAT! let me do it for you.. "i love you, i want to be with you and only you, things will be diffrent soon... all i have to do (before leaving his wife) is... [insert bullshit statement here]" he's lieing, well, part of him is telling the truth. it just happens to be the part that he's always pestering you about..

"a Real Boyfriend"
When she stares at your lips [ Kiss her ] When she pushes you or hits you like a dumb ass cuz she thinks shes stronger than you [ Grab her and dont let go ] When she starts cursing at you tryin to act all tuff [ Kiss her and tell her you love her ] When she's quiet [ Ask her whats wrong ] When she ignores you [ Give her your attention ] When she pulls away [ Pull her back ] When you see her at her worst [ Tell her she's beautiful ] When you see her start crying [Just hold her and dont say a word ] When you see her walking [ Sneak up and hug her waist from behind ] When she's scared [ Protect her ] When she steals your favorite hat [ Let her keep it and sleep with it for a night] When she teases you [ Tease her back and make her laugh ] When she doesn't answer for a long time [ reassure her that everything is okay ] When she looks at you with doubt [ Back yo

Her
It seems when we least expect it, that's when we find someone who will turn our entire world on its axis. That's what happened to me. On an ordinary day, when nothing special was going on, my world turned upside down. After that, I can't remember a better day in my life. What happened? My dreams became reality. Here's my story. I was sitting in a corner booth at my regular hang out, having a drink to unwind from the stresses of work. I had said hello to all of the regulars, but wasn't really getting involved in their conversations about which sports team was better and which pop culture star had done the most shocking thing in recent events. I was occasionally interjecting a comment here and there to seem interested, but I really wasn't. I simply wanted to unwind and do a little self reflection. As the time drifted slowly by, I drifted more and more out of the chatter and into a sort of haze. I'm sure I must have had a blank stare on my face as I drifted into oblivion, but no

Why?
WHY IS IT YOU STILL LOVE SOMEONE SO MUCH EVENTHOUGH A PIECE OF YOU FEELS LIKE YOU KNOW THAT PERSON IS EVENTUALLY GOING TO BREAK YOUR HEART? WHAT A FOOL SOMEONE AS KIND AND GOOD HEARTED AS ME CAN BE.....AND PERHAPS WAS.......

I Want To Host A Contest!
I always see contests about who is the hosttest and best body parts. So overrated! So0o I want to host my own contest....Something I haven't seen before and something that really interests me! CARS!!! I wanna see everyone's cars. If you are interested in entering this contest then let me know so I can put it all together!

On Being Naked...
I watched a new show this week, "How to look good naked". It's about women who are insecure about their bodies and helps them to accept themselves as they are. The first episode was about a woman who’d been trying to lose weight for 20 years (since she was 12). The show focused on helping her see herself as others do and making her more comfortable with her appearance. By the end of the show, she did a nude photo shoot. The show is on commercial television so if you’re thinking that they showed her in all her glory, wrong! It was done very tastefully. The show made me stop and think about how I felt about being naked. I was very conservative when I first joined Cherrytap (Fubar of 9 months ago). As time went by, I became more comfortable with my body and my photos became more revealing. No, I still don’t have plans to go naked on here but as you can see I’m a lot more comfortable with less clothing than I was in my older pictures. My point is that my friends on here have made me fee

Attention.!!
Hello i am going to be starting a FU newspaper blog, and tabloid so, If you would like to be apart of this, plz message me or comment here, In the Fu News there will be the usual updates, on fu changes, and with the fu court room the out come of the charges brought up against the guilty, and then some.. (idears are welcome) In the Tabloid, there will be the usual .. Celebrity Breaking News who's with who, who is tryin to get the next "top member" who the new "top scores, n top blasters are" ect.. sound fun.. (i think so.. hope you do too, ) i also need some reporters. that can write things, up.. ect.. blah blah blah.. who can track down current affiars like current contests.. current cheats..(that last one goes inthe tab)

What's Up?
I wonder how I begin to describe what the past few weeks have been like for me? It truly is not easy, especially since right now I know I am not dealing with my usual self. Not only dealing with all the after effects of surgery, but losing one of my best friends of the last 12 years and not knowing where the ones I call my "best friends" are. I guess with some I was blind when it came to some friends and with others I was ignorant. I truly don't know what has become of me. I do know that a lot of the changes has to do with the surgery. The cancer was all over my cerebral cortex, thus that is where they had to perform the procedure. Now for those of you who do not know, the cerebral cortex is the behavioral center of the brain. With me, having a cancer crawling all over it and then having it cut into during the procedure, an effect on my personality was almost inevitable - it changed my behaviors in many ways. My neurologist has noted I may act like a 12-year-old instead of a

Almost Destroyed The Tv.
Yesterday I was bowling on my Wii trying to get to pro, which by the way I did. Anyway I like to "throw" the ball with conviction and I kinda threw it at one point with a little too much conviction. I wound up letting go of the remote. THANK GOD I had it strapped to my wrist, otherwise I would've been a sad panda last night when it came to TV time. lol

Many, Many Thank You's
For all of you helping me level..I'm greatful.I m trying my hardest too return the love.But on dial up is very hard too get too you all. Please if I dont get you back now Ill be there when you need too level up.Just shout me and say I need help leveling and you know I'll be there as soon as possible. Thank you all for all the rates and love you have shown me..Have a great day..Im off too work ill see ya tonight..

Passionate Kisses
You walk into our room already lit with candles, satin sheets outline my voluptuous body, ready for you to take in your arms...you hear me moaning already and anxious to know why, You get closer and as you see my nipples aching for your lips, you stand there staring at me...my body in rhythmn with the background music...you lean over and kiss me, you take me in your arms and you let me know how much you wanted this day to come....as I whisper your name in your ear, you can't help it any longer so you reach down and feel my warmth, my delicate sweet pussy already in heat, fire coming out of it, waiting to erupt with pleasure with you inside of me... We kiss with intense passion, our bodies shaking and our hearts beating rapidly....I get on top of you, oh yes I want to suck on your throbbing cock but I can't take it anymore, I want to feel you, I've waited for so long, I get on top of you and I see your reactions....To see your face in pleasure is a big turn on to me, as you see

Ladies Please Read
if mr cooter eater bugs ya he is harmless and a perv...sorry if it alarmed any of you...i will speak to him tomorrow bout it....you can do as you like with his friend requests....as its not my concern hahaha...xoox my special girls!!!!

**first Ever Fubarnews Paper.**
This paper is going to be a very complicated, piece. so i hope bare with me, it is the first FU NEWS PAPER! Well first off there will be just like in a real paper, a couple of diffrent pages.. 1)The REAL FU news!. 2)Lounges? and the owners.. EXCLUSIVE stories 3)The FUCOURT verdicts 4)obituary & birthdays 5).Selene's Entertainment corner.. 6)News paper Cartoons., for those who like just the funnies 7)Classifieds (looking for work on the fu) click the pic below to come to the News Room. if you have a Story or an Idear for a Story

Men Who Don't Want Kids
I am asking a simple question. If a man doesn't want children, ever, should he get fixed or not? Suppose you are a woman who thinks she can't get pregnant but for some freak moment your body changed and you woke up one day and took a pregnancy test and you were pregnant. You tell the father, even though you know he didn't want kids, and he chooses to avoid you, what would you do? I would like to hear what men have to say on the subject because so many of them think the woman is responsible and they think that they can just walk away free and clear when the woman gets pregnant. Weren't there two people there to begin with? Why does the man think he doesn't have any responsiblity?

A Lonely Road
A Lonely Road It was an early spring day, when Jenny decided to skip work and take a long drive in the country. She had been really busy at work lately and felt she deserved a day to herself. A few months back, she had bought a convertible, she was eager to put the top down for a relaxing day of driving some back roads. All she had known for the last 8 months, was just the freeway and downtown traffic. She puts on shorts and a sleeveless top and tennis shoes, then headed out the door. At the edge of the city, she stopped off to fill up and grab a map. Once she was about 50 miles out of the city, she took the next exit she came to. The map said it was a scenic highway for about 60 miles or so. She pulled over and put the top down, tucking the map under the other seat belt, so it would not blow out of the car. Being a weekday, there was little to no traffic that far out of town, at least compared to what she has dealt with these last months. She has been cruising

Big Thanks To Everyone!!!
I would like to thank all my friends, fan and family for making this birthday the best, I didnt realize that I had that many friends that cared if I turned another year older, I want to say thanks for the new adds, fans the blasts that a few of you got me and one ticker as well. Hugs Love you guys, and a special shout out to nite for going to bingo with me tonight. We didnt win but we had fun trying

Fill In The Blanks
Because I'm bored & so very tired.. I____ Angel Baby. Angel Baby is____. If I were alone in a dark alley with Angel Baby, I would _______. I think Angel Baby should ___________. Angel baby needs _________. I want to _________ Angel Baby. Angel Baby reminds me of _______. Without Angel Baby, I would _______. Memories of Angel Baby are __________. Angel Baby can be ______. Worst thing about Angel Baby is ________. Best thing about Angel Baby is _________. I am ________ with Angel Baby.

Please, Meet Holly!!!
Hi ya'll!!! ... You've all been such amazing friends .. I'd like you all to meet Holly! ... sixtwobbw@ fubar She's funny .. and witty .. and wonderful .. and a "real life" friend of mine! ... I just dragged her in!! . . Show her some love!!!! .. Thank you in advance!!!!! ... "G" aka .. "Maid"! ...

Touch
Touch A touch can say so many things. It can be a voice with no sound it can be filled with heated passion it can leave you breathless it can make you quiver A touch can heighten your senses to the point of no return it can intoxicate you it can make you burn it can be as soft as a warm summer breeze or it can be as brutal as the blazing sun Without touch, one cannot feel, embrace it, cherish it, hold it dear. Good or bad, you will always want to feel. A gentle touch can make you heal. Lisa Maria Tekula

Missing My Princess
Missing my Princess ___________________ My sweet and precious Princess, so close and yet so far, I always have you here with me, Inside my heart you are. Yet, if so close you do reside, then why isn't it enough? You feel it too, deep down inside, the Need to Touch, ... it's tough. Funny how, the closer we get, the farther our distance becomes, I long to hold you so very bad, I cant even write, I'm all thumbs. As I sit here and you sit there, I stare into your face and eyes, and dream of the day we finally meet, My Princess, you are my greatest prize. No greater gift could you give to me, than a tender heart-felt kiss, and even though we've yet to meet, it's your loving touch, I miss. You give to me your heart and love, and I give to you the same, yet so much more I want to give, and these desires I must tame. I never thought long-distance love, was an easy thing to bare, but how much simpler things would be if I was over there. So as I

My Son[r.i.p] 7-14-07 This Was Written
For those who dont know and there not many that does except for some close family i had a son.He was born Aug.22,1998 and he was named after me and that made me very proud and to be a father made me very happy.I can remember holding him and watching him smile.watching him move his little arms and feet i couldnt help but to smile and thank god for what he gave me.It was best feeling in world to look at someone and know they a part of you.But my life changed on Dec.11,1998.I got a phone call from a woman at the hospital it was about 7 am in the morning and she said i need to come to hospital and i keep asking her whats wrong is my son hurt and i keep asking for like 10 min. but she would never say,but i know in my heart they was something very wrong so i went to hospital and thats when my life changed in so many ways.I walked in to room and i seen about 20 other people one his mother and mostly nurses and all was screaming and crying.And then i seen his mother holding him saying to him w

Dad At The Mall
DAD AT THE MALL. I took my dad to the mall the other day to buy some new shoes. We decided to grab a bite at the food court. I noticed he was watching a teenager sitting next to him. The teenager had spiked hair in all different colors: green, red, orange, and blue. My dad kept staring at him. The teenager would look and find him staring every time. When the teenager had enough, he sarcastically asked, 'What's the matter old man, never done anything wild in your life?' Knowing my Dad, I quickly swallowed my food so that I would not choke on his response; knowing he would have a good one. And in classic style he did not bat an eye in his response, "Got drunk once and had sex with a peacock. I was just wondering if you were my son. "

Hate On Me Haters ! A Morning Message For My Gurls! Ilu All :d
I have been M.I.A. recently for a few reasons. I was getting a little worn out by some things happening on the site but more importantly, I have some real life stuff that needed to be tended to. That said, I woke up with the sounds of Jill Scott in my ear. Jill Scott is a woman who just oozes with positivity and self esteem. On cold morning, that I laid in bed trying to decide if I was going to call in or not, I found this song peeling back my blankets and reminding me that "I got this....". I don't usually blog a lot of video's but I really dig this one, so take a minute, listen and read the lyrics.......I hope you get a lift from it all too. Have a great day. Jill Scott - Hate On Me lyrics Artist: Jill Scott Album: The Real Thing Title: Hate On Me If I Could Give You The World On A Silver Platter Would It Even Matter You'd Still Be Mad At Me If I Could Find In All This A Dozen Roses Which I Would Give To You You'd Still Be Miserable In Reali

Read Me.
1 - Do not think because you rated, commented, or fanned me, I will feel obligated to friend you. I will look over your profile, and if I feel that we could even begin to have a conversation, I will consider it. 2 - If you are a member of stilleto girls, Then DO NOT BOTHER. I have my reasons, but I would rather delete my profile then be friends with even one of you. 3 - Blank friend requests, or the word hello, are almost like begging me to deny you and block you. Say something beyond hello, and you may just get my attention. 4 - Posting pics of yourself on my profile with the admittance of your "hope u accept" is about as close to warranting a death threat as you can get. 5 - Promoting a lounge on my page, ditto. 6 - Complementing me, ditto, yet again. I know everyone else loves to have their egos fed, But I am not everyone. Try actually speaking to me.

****no More Time****
If I had no more time No more time left to be here Would you cherish what we had? Was it everything that you were looking for? If I couldn't feel your touch And no longer were you with me I'd be wishing you were here To be everything that I'd be looking for I don't wanna forget the present is a gift And I don't wanna take for granted the time you may have here with me 'Cause Lord only knows another day is not really guaranteed So every time you hold me Hold me like this is the last time Every time you kiss me Kiss me like you'll never see me again Every time you touch me Touch me like this is the last time Promise that you'll love me Love me like you'll never see me again

If You Can't Do Adult.....back Off
Warning*****If you don't like the words then click yourself away. No Spell Check this time...too upset. I woke up this morning to all kinds of shit on my page. Remember those houses you saw with toilet paper all over the trees? Well think of this as the virtual version. This is a toned downed version of the ass chewing I was about to give and that is thanks to two individuals that calmed me down.....and one took the brunt of my anger for the asshats that really deserved it. I apologize to that person. Now....click your ass away before I start if you can't take the heat. If you can't run with a Big Dawg stay on the porch. Unfortunately, I feel the ones that need to read this will not and the kind friends I have will. Yes, I'm venting. I'm pissed and I hate the fact that I am emotional when I pride myself on being calm and pushing for peace. First, I keep myself private but will on this one occassion tell of my private life. I work my ASS off every shift I work. 30 units for 3 million

Nsfw Or Tacky?
After getting a salute marked NSFW that I made for a friend, I am typing this blog. It was in an album for family only and wasn't viewable or viewed by anyone that day even. It is a heart placed above my heart with that friends name written in there my face is in the picture and I am fully dressed even if my cleavage which is inevitable is exposed, and my face is slanted down.Someone's pettiness was the cause for its flagging and of course its not who you know but how hard you make their dick I suppose. Or how well you float their boat supposing they are without a dick that is. Point is in my opinion there are countless photos on this site that are peoples default photo that are more NSFW in nature and its perfectly ok for them to have them, right...because they are in red or support the site through various means, blasts, tickers, memberships, happy hours, you name it. Take todays spotlight winner for instance. her face isn't very clear but her ass in her panties is. How screwed

Pics
I wanna know why people insist on taking a bazillion pics of themselves is basically the same pose? Is it because they have no imagination? Are they lazy? Think it looks cool? I just dont get it. Why would you wanna have 100 of the same pic up? Add some imagination. Spice it up. Do something. I refues to rate more then one pic if they all look the same. I love variety.

To All My Family And Friends
Yea one that i can enter.... lol Reminder...a few days left to get ready!! !The FU's Hottest Bald Man Contest! Contest to start Jan 20th 12pm est time... Ends Jan 30th 8pm est time! http://fubar.com/user.php?u=212051&friend=212051 I will post more as I get it....

Hand In Hand
Laying underneath the stars, On a warm silent night, Your arms are wrapped around me, And everything feels right. You kiss me sweet and softly, I feel your warm gentle touch, You help me feel protected, Under the sweet, night-sky rush My world before me is perfect. There's nowhere else I want to be, Except laying underneath the stars Hand in hand, you and me. Just when everything is perfect, And you seem so delicately sweet, A rush of wind comes past me, As I'm swept beneath my feet Nothing could be more right, There's nowhere else I want to be. Let's take a walk, my only love, Hand in hand, you and me

Hope
It is only through darkness that the light can be seen Encompassed by darkness we reach for our dreams Reach for the light, go to it You'll find that the darkness will fade just a bit And eventually it will all go away And not darkness but love will guide your way... Java Jan/2008

Granny Panties
so I decided to go surf some lounges on the bar.. and i came across this lounge. the name "Granny Panties" at first SCARED me away but i sat back and observed I realized that it was one of the most laid back lounges on the fu, The owner has his own way of doing things some of his staff calls him a loon,but I see more of an in visionary He's your usual whacked out hippies you see on the bar.. with a couple of twists that just makes him SO MUCH more,This lounge offers nothing but good times old fashion Oldie Rock and new friends you will never forget, Well i could ramble on about him and his staff but I personally think you should go and see for yourself, so click the link below and join the fun

Phone Call A New Poem
"Phone Call" It's amazing the differance a phone call can make, and how much it causes your lifestyle to change. This time it's a guy and he wanted to say " I really like you, can we go on a date?" You knew he was cute and he seemed real nice, so you agreed to go out friday night. The relationship goes well and he asks for a bride, it started with a phone call and now your his wife. It's amazing the differance that phone call has made, you couldn't be happier and you life's going great, you've gotten real comfortable, you want nothing to change, but when you least expected it the telephone rang. This time it's the doctor he's calling with news to congratulate you cause your eating for two. A tear starts to form and your jaw hits the floor, you'r husband is happier than hes ever been before. But you don't have much money, it's not that you're poor, But your husband knows he needs to make more. So while he's looking for jobs and you're picking out names, yet agian you

For Those With Love And Prayers!
Well, the colonoscopy is done. Now its another waiting game until Feb.6, 2008. I have been dealing with pain since before Dec.17,2007. So far 2 pregnancy test, a by annual exam, 8 vials of blood work, 2 x-rays, 3 sonograms, 1 cat scan, and a stool sample drop off and so far nothing. The Dr. did remove a polyp today and is sending it out for a biopsy to make sure its not cancerous. In the mist of all this going on I happen to do a breast exam on my right breast last night due to being uncomfortable and it seeming real sensitive. I have felt a lump. So I'm a little emotional,and as far as the Dr.'s still coming up empty handed is frustrating. The fact that I have never had sensitivity with my breast at all for me is a new can of worms.. I have stretch marks from my pregnancy over a year ago. When you push down on them they are very sensitive and feel almost like a beaded necklace. They are on my stomach and my breast. I have had the Dr. today tell me I should go to a dermatologist. Now

A Few Idiots Create A Rant!
So, in my last blog I was criticized for writing about a conversation I had with my dick, and then after the blog was over, I get private emails with bullshit like; Do you and you dick really talk, Do you do and talk about this shit in front of your little boy! I take a lot of shit. But this is where I draw the line. For one, lets talk semantics. The blog was about a conversation I had with my dick. (1) I did not have my dick out and converse with it while my son was in the room. He was nowhere near me or my fictional conversation with my dick, He was sleeping, when I posted it. (2) While the things my dick said were vulgar, in all actuality, my dick cannot speak. It just pees, and gets hard at all the wrong times. If there is one thing in this world I am proud of, and secure about... It is my relationship with my son. We are amazingly close. So because of that, should I be less abrasive about what I write about? Because he is a child, should I be mo

When I'm With You
When I'm with you, eternity is a step away, my love continues to grow, with each passing day. This treasure of love, I cherish within my soul, how much I love you... you'll never really know. You bring a joy to my heart, I've never felt before, with each touch of your hand, I love you more and more. Whenever we say goodbye, whenever we part, know I hold you dearly, deep inside my heart. So these seven words, I pray you hold true, "Forever And Always, I Will Love You." Please leave comment

Greenbay
This was read to us at church today by our minister (with tongue in cheek) Our Favre Who are in Lambeau Hallowed be thine arm The bowl will come It will be won In Phoenix as it is in Lambeau And give us this Sunday Our weekly win. Please give us many touchdown passes But do not let others pass against us. Lead us not into frustration But deliver us to the valley of the sun For thine is the MVP, the best of the NFC and the glory of the Cheesheads now and forever. GO PACK. Mimi

The Past
I looked for you But U were gone in a fraction of a moment I was alone and empty Insignificant and empty all I had was memories of a false happiness of a life untrue It was over I was dead inside for a longtime I cried thousands..No Millions of tears for a false love, a fantasy then one day I woke up.

Where Is My Spot?
Inquiring minds would like to know, Well I'll tell you, its way down below, Somewhere between a rock and hard place Life's proven difficult with the color of this face We lived well under the poverty line But never to bed hungry, God kept us in mind Living with a saint, a drug addict, and alcoholic This house is where Reality TV could have started To get to my spot blinders must be removed Judgments left at the door also among the rules I invite you to come if you've never known strife You will leave with pain that will haunt you for life.

Its Time For A Change
hello fubar fam...i hope everyone is having a good year so far...so far my year been ok ....but lately i been goin to thru.. some things...that made me realize that maybe im the one changing.....to those who knows me im sorry....it will get better....to my queen....im sorry....ill try to do better......i know it hasnt been easy but we will make it....it will takes time.....i know i havent been on here much..b/c i lost the luv for fubar....its not the same....some good ppl had left b/c of drama and perverts and playas.....im not perfect but i try to be a good freind and loyal....but i cant say the same for some of yall....some of yall know im part of ther latina family.... an senior advisor and protector...once call one the best group on here...know its just a name...my freind loco...left to deal with things and get her self striaght..she told me and a few others....to hold down the forth to she get back....well being her freind and homie i try my best...i carry

Helpget It Done
I wanted to give a big thanks to everybody who helped me get my giveaway done you all are awesome and thank you thank you so much. these are the people that I can remember if i forgot you im sorry but thank you also for your help Ðá Mäinê MÁn®@ fubar sabbath...the maddman back,lol.@ fubar Jables@ fubar $ P.I.M.P $@ fubar Fubars*Most*Hated*@ fubar BURG

Why, Why, Why...
Hello Pplz!!! I just have a question maybe some of u can help me understand this shyt cus i damn sure dont kno the answer to it...Why is it that the ppl we care bout most or that claim they care bout us, are the ones who hurt us the most? I mean shyt if u care or luv someone in my eyes i would think u wouldnt do anything to hurt them if possible. Maybe, Im wrong? Someone hurt me a few days ago then told me....They arent ready to talk to me yet! Like i had hurt them or something... I mean im like what the hell. The shyt just dont make no sense to me. Well maybe some of u can give me some advice on what to do in this situation because i damn sure dont even know what to do at this point. This person and i used to be very close, or atleast i thought we was. I really dont see how they can hurt me then have the nerve to say they arent ready to talk to me YET? Shyt, if anything it seems i should be the one sayin it but im not. I care for this person dearly and really dont want to lose them in

For Sale!!!
Ok here is my thought. If you had to advertise yourself to make some one want to buy you, What would you say to make the sale. Also what would be the price you would put on your tag. I'm gonna give it a try myself..lol! Yes I am bored and being goofy!! OUTRAGEOUSLY PRICED ANTIQUE Top of the line older model. Used not worn and extended warranty included in purchase. Body manageable and enough body temp to make an igloo melt. Hot tempered at times when ran to hard and purrs like a kitten when pampered and spoken nicely to. Domesticated on even the most difficult days. Quick to apologize and move on to bigger and better things. Likes the most simple of the materialistic world. Can have double standards but the door always swings both ways, now doesn't it? Opinionated to the core but not judge mental. Sometimes my highway or no way. Honest, real, sense of humor, raw, will drive you up the wall any given day and enjoy it, and most of all the biggest PITA you will

My Oldest & Best Fubar Friends Ever!!!!!
THIS EVENING I WAS TALKING WITH AN OLD FRIEND HERE AND THE IDEA STRUCK ME TO CHECK ON MY OLDEST FRIENDS HERE, THOSE WHO HAVE BEEN WITH ME THE LONGEST, THRU THICK & THIN. THOSE WHO I HAVE TALKED TO ON A PERSONAL NOTE & GUESS WHAT...THEY STILL LIKE ME, LOL. ALTHOUGH I HAVE QUITE A FEW FRIENDS PIMPED OUT ON MY PROFILE, I FEEL I OWE A SPECIAL TRIBUTE TO THOSE WHO ARE VERY SPECIAL TO ME. PLEASE SHOW THESE PEOPLE LOVE AND ADD THEM TO YOUR LIST. IF YOU DO, I SWEAR YOU WON'T REGRET IT. THEY ARE SWEET CARING PEOPLE, ALL SPECIAL IN THEIR OWN RIGHT. ~~~My Fubar Hubby, Kenny~~~ Added January 3, 2007 kenny the concert man@ fubar ~~~FlaPlaya561~~~ Added January 10, 2007 FlaPlaya561@ fubar ~~~My favorite bouncer, Mr. Cuervo~~~ (Except when he hides with his status set to stepped away, LMAO) He helped me by showing me the ropes and how to avoid the "drama" Added January 16, 2007 MrCuervo ~~~Hammerhead, Jimmy Redman~~~ Added January 23, 2007 HAMMERHEAD@ fubar ~~~E

Date Me Application.
Over the years, I've had quite a few bad relationships. Way too many, in my opinion, most of them not even being my fault. I just seem to be destined to date women who treat me like crap. While I may be a sarcastic smartass, I hardly think that makes me deserving of such a miserable (and pretty much nonexistent) lovelife. So to help myself with this problem, I've decided that whenever I'm about to start a relationship with a woman, she'll have to fill out an application. It's not a lengthy or difficult application. There's no essay questions or problems involving long division or triginometry. It's more like a prenuptial agreement, but for the relationship, protecting me against women who will intentionally or unintentionally hurt me. For you women with overprotective fathers, I imagine this application will remind you of the one your father wanted to give to your first date, except my application consists of more than just the question, "Do you own a van? If yes, please leave and

It Hurts Dont It?
Does it really piss people off So bad to recieve a bad rating? Because Im not like everyone else .. Im sorry if i dont feel your a 10 Im not gonna give you a 10 .. and If your like 21874198247 yrs old and fat and ugly do you honestly think they really think your a 10? uhhhhhhhhh nuh .. Not unless theyre like 1289471892347 and Fat and ugly too ..

Control
After the excitement of the rest area we decided to get a room. We found a hotel and stopped for the night. We entered the room and found a nice posted bed you smiled at me knowing the fun we would have. You stood across the room doing a teasing dance as I sat in the chair and watched. Slowly you swayed to the music teasing me you began to do a strip tease for me. First the shirt you didn't bother undoing the buttons you ripped it open exposing your beautiful breast to me. Teasing by covering and uncovering them to me. You moved closer to the chair teasing me with your hair. As you came to me you reached out your arms pulling me to my feet, then striping me first my shirt then my shorts reaching down you played with my shaft leaning in you whispered how you were in control kissing me and pushing me back to the chair. Teasing and dancing you then took me to the bed where you smiled and blindfolded me. Laughing i heard you unzip a bag and walking over towards me. You took my h

Sids : Rip My Beautiful Grandson
My first grandson Jackson passed away from Sids at 2 months old Dec 28,2005. These are some of the pictures I took of him the 2 months we were blessed enough to have him in our life. Only The Best A heart of gold stopped beating Two shining eyes at rest God broke our hearts to prove He only takes the best. God knows you had to leave us But you did not go alone For part of us went with you The day he took you home. To some you are forgotten To others just part of the past But to us who loved and lost you The memory will always last

Please Help Out Guy"s And Gal"s
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Man Test!
This is a man test. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Ask yourself: Am I Gay? 1. If you are over forty, and you have a washboard stomach, you are gay. It means you haven't sucked back enough beer with the boys and have spent the rest of your free time doing sit-ups, aerobics, and doing the Oprah diet. 2. If you have a cat, you are a Flaaaaming homo. A cat is like a dog, but gay-- it grooms itself constantly but never scratches itself, has a delicate touch except when it uses its nails, and whines to be fed. And just think about how you call a dog... "Killer, come here! I said get yo ur ass over here, Killer!" Now think about how you call a cat..."Bun-bun, come to daddy, snookums!" Jeeezus, you're fit to be framed, you're so gay. 3. If you suck on lollipops, Ring-Pops, baby pacifiers, or any such nonsense, rest assured, you are a Gaylord. A straight man only sucks on BBQ ribs, crab claws, raw oysters, crawfish guts

Back From The Void!
I just wanted to thank my friends that stopped by while I was stuck in limbo “Tech Hell” and out of touch for a while. My hubby and I were sharing one comp till we could get a new battery supply for his and unfortunately wound up with a nasty Trojan we did not want to share with anyone so I have been spending the last 2 weeks wracking my brains on taking care of this issue and had resorted to installing a new hard drive, salvaging what I could from my old drives (8 of them each over 150 GB) , installing Windows and all the drivers, and programs I had to only encounter inability to connect to the internet because I could not find the ISP’s installation disk and finally got a tech out to fix the problem today. Please be patient with me as I attempt in vain to catch up with everyone that I missed and hoping all are well and keeping warm. Miss ya and will be in touch real soon! {{{Hugs}}}

Unblinded Eyes
You say that you love me But you are not sure For you even doubt your own feelings From within your Heart and Soul You live in this world Letting your mind control Over your Heart and Soul Not truly living at all it seems The very mind you have Can lie to you all the while Unlike that Heart and Soul Hidden deep within your very being Come and see what I mean To live with your Heart and not your mind To truly be free and blessed Within this world and realm Granted living as I do now May cause you some heartache and pain But in living life this way You are no longer clouded and blind Open up your Heart Let it see past your mind Threw renewed eyes and light To the purest joys of the night Rejoice in this new found happiness For that is what it is and will become A life with out anymore lies A life to live to the fullest of times.

If U Wanna See My Nsfw Pics...
IF U GUYS WANNA SEE MY NSFW PICS U HAVE TO BUY ME A VIP OR A BLAST IF NO ONE IS WILLING TO DO THIS U AND EVERY ONE ON FUBAR WILL BE OUT OF LUCK ON SEEINF ANYTHING... SO DO WHAT YOU MUST BUT KEEP IN MIND PEOPLE ON FUBAR WILL BE VERY PISSED SO HELP EACHOTHER OUT!!!

What Tree Did U Fall Under
What tree did you fall from? (I’m a Maple) Find your birthday and then find your tree. This is really cool and somewhat accurate, also in line with Celtic astrology. Dec 23 to Jan 01 - Apple Tree Jan 01 to Jan 11 - Fir Tree Jan 12 to Jan 24 - Elm Tree Jan 25 to Feb 03 - Cypress Tree Feb 04 to Feb 08 - Poplar Tree Feb 09 to Feb 18 - Cedar Tree Feb 19 to Feb 28 - Pine Tree Mar 01 to Mar 10 - Weeping Willow Tree Mar 11 to Mar 20 - Lime Tree Mar 21 (only) -Oak Tree Mar 22 to Mar 31 - Hazelnut Tree Apr 01 to Apr 10 - Rowan Tree Apr 11 to Apr 20 - Maple Tree Apr 21 to Apr 30 - Walnut Tree May 01 to May 14 - Poplar Tree May 15 to May 24 - Chestnut Tree May 25 to Jun 03 - Ash Tree Jun 04 to Jun 13 - Hornbeam Tree Jun 14 to Jun 23 - Fig Tree Jun 24 (only) - Birch Tree Jun 25 to Jul 04 - Apple Tree Jul 05 to Jul 14 - Fir Tree Jul 15 to Jul 25 -Elm Tree Jul 26 to Aug 04 - Cypress Tree Aug 05 to Aug 13 - Poplar Tree Aug 14 to Aug 23 - Cedar

Barak Obama
Never will I sit idle while many, especially the young, are led like sheep to vote for anyone promising "change" who, at the same time: - refuses to take an oath on The Holy Bible - was raised as a Muslim (Bin Laden promised he would get America from the inside. Hmmm...) - belongs to a church that is committed to Africa, not America - refuses to honor our American flag during the National Anthem - refuses to pledge his allegiance to The Flag of The United States of America DOES THIS SOUND LIKE AN AMERICAN PRESIDENT TO YOU? This country was founded on a profound, undeniable belief in God and by the Grace of God we have enjoyed the blessings of prosperity and growth. Those who remember that can make a difference. Are we going to stand up or what?

Nice Guys Dont Finish Last!!
A really nice guy send this to me...Do you Agree???...Leave comments and tell me what you think!!! January 21, 2008 @ 12:25 am 20 23:25:16 I know way too many really beautiful girls who think they don't look good... It hurts... because it's our fault, guys I mean. We make girls feel like they have to be perfect. You know what I mean, flat stomach, big boobs, round booty, long legs, sexy lips, and on top of all that, they have to dress like a whore, and be one as well... nobody can measure up to that... and its not fair... because nobody should have to. The little imperfections are what make people special. If everyone was perfect the world would be so boring, variety is what makes life interesting. So guys, stop making girls have to live up to your, I'm sorry, our... deluded fantasy visions of perfection. Stop acting like boys and start being men... realize that women don't exist to fufill our sexual desires. Stop talking to them solely to get with them, be nice to them because

Auctions
Tired of those auctions that make you pay to enter????? Tired of those auctions you keep half of the winings??? Tired of those auctions that are open for a week?? Then join my auction!! Once i get 20 contestants It will be open for 2 weeks... The rules: entry fee 1 fubuck (optional) Donations will be accepted (not required) Send the link to the pic you want to be used (sfw) The things your offering to do once owned... ~*~auctioneer wont be held reliable for anything~*~

Home For The Holidays (bi-guys & Straight)
Home for the Holidays (Bi-Guys & Straight) It was our third year at University of Virginia, when my roommate “Jeff” asked, if I wanted to come home with him for Christmas, since he knew my family would be overseas this year. Jeff said there is always room for friends and will be plenty of food for everybody. I figured anything would be better than hanging around the empty campus and eating in the cafeteria. So when Friday came, we packed his car and headed out. He said it would be about a five hour drive to his folks house, in northern Pennsylvania. He called his folks and told them, his roommate “Frank” was coming home with him. His car’s heater was pumping strong, so we were just our jeans and t-shirts. After an hour or so, Jeff told me to reach over the seat and grab that gym bag. When I opened it, I see a wide collection of adult magazines, typical for guy away at college. He tells me he always brings them along, for long drives. He likes to pull off wh

Death In My Family Today
Please say a little prayer for my Uncle Jerry. My mom got a phone call at 5am this morning that my dad's younger brother died in the middle of the night. He had a fever and the start of pneumonia. He hasn't been well for a while; the doctors couldn't figure out if he had Lou Gehrig's disease or Alzheimer's, but he won't suffer anymore. There is a bunch of family craziness that is going to go on here in the next few days as we try to figure out funeral plans. (He has a crazy 2nd wife that nobody talks to, and his kids are in Ohio, he was in PA, his wife was in NJ, we are in NJ!) YIKES!! I told you it's complicated! Anyway, please forgive me if I don't get back to you right away, I am not avoiding anyone, just dealing with family stuff right now. RIP UNCLE JERRY YOU WILL BE MISSED! XOXOXO

Prayer's Needed
HELLO EVERYONE....MOST OF YOU KNOW THAT I CARE FOR MY SPECIAL NEEDY GRADAUGHTER...I FOUND OUT TODAY THAT SHE HAS A VERY SERIOUS PROBLEMS..SHE HAS TO HAVE SURGERY SOON TO FIX IT OR IT COULD KILL HER.......SO PLEASE PRAY FOR HER... THANKS

Death
i never realized how much a death could affect you. i am a different person since the death of my dad. in some ways good and in some ways bad. it's funny though, i can't think of one good thing right this second. maybe i just can't see it myself. the last time i saw him, may 1, 2007. i came home from work. he was sitting on my couch. we always touched hands as i walked by him. this time i wouldn't let him touch me because i was so filthy from work. i didn't hug him when he left. dammit!!! why didn't i hug him? at about 3 am may 2, fl. highway patrol knocked on my door to tell me there had been an accident and my father didn't make it. he had a heart attack while driving. they say all wounds heal with time. who the hell are they anyway? lol i'm not sure this wound will heal. it's been almost 9 months and i'm still a basketcase!!! sometimes i feel so lost, walking around in circles, not sure what to do. and i am angry a lot of the time. then there are the times i find myself sitt

The Man Is Not There
He came back to his home Decorations upon his chest Telling of his battles And how he had passed the test He wore his uniform with pride Same as he fought in battles too Doing what was asked by others He did it for me and you He would not speak of his time That he had served in lands afar He would not tell of the medals Asking us to take them for what they are At night he could be heard crying Even shouts he would release Still the sound of battles he fought Inside him would not cease He would stoop and cower When sudden movement he did not know These were pains inflicted in battle When looking at our hero did not show He would walk around in silence Unsure of what was around him there This hero that has done his duty These ugly scars he was forced to bear When a gun shot he heard aloud FLashbacks filled his mind complete Unkowing to all of us that saw him He lived nightmares that each day would repeat Then the word came to us all Our hero was no longer in

Game?
When I walk in to the bar you instantly catch my eye I think to myself what a sexy guy! I notice your scent as I walk past you I order my beer and decide what to do. You walk to the pool table and our eyes meet So powerful and mesmerizing, I melt in my seat. You know I am interested so you begin to tease Your body language is saying that you are ready to please. Rack 'em up baby and grab your stick You hold a long one that is hard as a brick. You crack those balls with one hard shot Your every move is making me hot. I finally decide on how to make a pass When you lean over I grab your ass. You look up at me and ask my name They call me Kat, how about a game? You give me your stick, I hold it firmly in my hand I gently stroke it while in front of me you stand. In a deep sexy voice, you want to make a bet Then you ask me what prize you will get. Tell me straight up what you desire Will you be able to handle the heat of my fire? You have never had sex on a pool tab

To Join Or Not To Join
In the 80's I joined the Army after my freshman year in college. For the next two years I was in ROTC. I got to do alot of cool stuff in that time. I was selected as one of fifty-two cadets in the country to go to Germany and be assigned to a unit as a platoon leader. I got to be assigned to the 10th attack helicopter batallion as C company attack platoon leader. I was 19years old and was in charge of 7 cobra attack helicopters for 6 weeks. I saw alot of Germany from the air. I also got to go to Airborne school and after three weeks of training at Fort Benning Georgia became an Army Paratrooper.I became a lieutenant at the ripe old age of 20. Now twenty years later I'm considering re-enlisting as a sergeant. I don't know what I want to do in the Army but I know that I want to serve. I would love to be infantry or go back into armor but combat arms are for young men. Maybe I'd like to go into the legal field and be a paralegal or something, I'm just not sure. What I am sure about i

Keno's Kos
HOT! HOT! HOT! Join this new HOT GROUP! Im still looking for new officers such as promoters, recruiters, and small workers to help me run this group smoothly. HOW TO JOIN? 1. Send me a private message inquiring that you want to join. 2. You will be givin an application form that must be filled out and sent to me via fubar mail b4 u are approved. Ive had too many members join and jus want certain things or join and then concentrate on others groups so this time ima make sure i pick the right members. 3. YOU MUST EARN YOUR MEMBERSHIP CARD!! This will ensure that you are not jus trying to join for a membership card. 4. There will b 3 folders dedicated to the KO girls. (1) for the membership cards (2) for the members (3) for newbie members that must graduate into the main members folder This is group is no different from any other fubar female group. Its basically a group of the hottest ladies on fubar. Different events will be held such as small raffl

Nsfw Galleries, And Other Crap That Pisses Me Off!
okay so this is pretty much a rant about a couple of different things... 1)what the hell is the point of females putting NSFW pics that say either "do not ask to see" if you dont want guys to ask, dont put those kinds of pics up! 2)telling guys if they wanna see your pics they have to buy you either a vip membership, or blasts. I know personally I will never use my own money to buy something of that sort. It's kinda like paying for sex. and if you guys pay for that, than that is pretty sad... 3)i am probably one of the only ppl who reads the "about me" part of a user's page and when you say you like to talk to and meet new ppl and then i send you a message in either your shout box or send you a message via your mail box, and you don't respond what is the point of saying that shit in your profile... sorry for the rant these things have just been bugging me for a while so i thought that i would finally say something about it...

Meditation.
As I step to my workbench, putting my dydidium shades on my face, my thoughts dissipate from the day’s or week’s experiences and feelings. Everything, every thought, exits the “building” of my brain as the process begins. I organize my tools, for accessibility, I lay out glass rods and color stretchers with no anticipation of any specific desired goals-only to have everything in comfortable range. I pull a pack of cigarettes and lighter out of my pocket, savoring the last nic fix prior to my day’s meditation. Then as the last drags cease to calm my nerves, I turn the dial to release the propane. That smell… the smell of suffocation, and fuel, explosiveness and creation. I love that smell. It signals the entrance into my meditation. My lighter strikes at the head of the torch, and with a whoosh-a soft bushy orange flame appears in front of me. Adjusting the dials, tweaking the oxygen and the propane just right, until the whistle of a perfect flame begins to emerge. The ambient

Crystal Dejondice Aka 'naughty Bisexual Hottie!!!
Crystal Dejondice aka 'NAUGHTY BISEXUAL HOTTIE!!! fubar page http://www.fubar.com/user/1535737 FAKE FAKE FAKE FAKE FAKE FAKE This one is a little scarey. We actually think this person BELIEVES all the different women pictures they post are of them. We know one of the faces VERY well but can not place a name on it. We will update this when it comes to us. This person claims having surgery... from the top of their head to the bottom of their feet and a height adjustment too we imagine. When viewing their posted pictures no explanation is needed. Clearly this one is Busted a FAKE.

Love
Sometimes you never really know what you had till you lost it. Im hoping my ex bf realizes that as he hops from girl to girl. Amazingly he never really loved me the way i loved him ....i guess...alot of drama was created by girls who liked him and lived nearby him...and before they even took time to know me they told him it w/n work cuz of distance and cuz we did meet online (stop laughing)....For once in my life and against my better judgement i used my head instead of my heart. A few of his ex gf's messaged me on myspace to tell me he would do the same thing to me he did to them...naturally i figured i would judge for myself. I gave him my heart..my love..and ridiculously enough i still love him. I hope this sadness leaves me soon cuz i want to be happy again. After I left him i did a terrible thing....i messaged a new face on his myspace...and talked to this girl a little..amazingly enough she asked me if he called me sweet pea like he did to her and a few other similarities

Its A Nyha Pimpout!!!! And A Too Hell With The Sisterhood And The Cunt That Owns It!!!!!
NYHA DESERVES LOTS OF FU LOVE FOR ALL THE BULLSHIT LIES THAT HAVE BEEN SPREAD ABOUT HER NOW IF U HAVE A MIND OF YOUR OWN, AND I SURE HOPE YOU DO, U WILL ADD NYHA TO YOUR LIST AND MAKE HER YOUR FRIEND, AS YOU HAVE DONE FOR ME BUT IF YOUR GONNA LISTEN TO THAT CUNT SANDI'S LIES, THEN TO HELL WITH YOU AND YOU CAN BLOCK ME TOO, NYHA DIDNT START SHIT AND SANDI DONT DESERVE NYHA AS A FRIEND AND IF YOUR GONNA FOLLOW SANDI LIKE A FUCKIN LEMMING, THEN U DONT DESERVE NYHA AS A FRIEND EITHER TO GIVE NYHA SOME REAL FU LOVE PLEASE CLICK ON HER NAME BELOW NYHA

The Lost Cherry Scrolls
A long time ago in a galaxy far far away.... Oops wrong scenario... A long time ago on a site called Lost Cherry, A time when kindness, manners and friendship ran rampant. There was a discerning sense of ethics and etiquette. Now as the site has grown many of the old ways have become a thing of the past. Making way for a much more “ME” orientated atmosphere. Luckily a lone internet scavenger stumbled across the dead cherry scrolls while rummaging through archives in a hidden data base. After hour upon hour the scrolls have finally been translated. Baby Jesus said unto the people of Cherryland...... This site is my gift to you, go forth my children, make friends, rate, fan and add in the name of love. I give you 10’s and 11’s for which to award our fellow brethren. Give them freely and give them often. The 1 through 9’s are of no use and only there to fill space, using them may result in hurt feelings or a rash of 1’s tossed right back at you. (rather damaging to your rating if

Welcome Home
Welcome Home She'd carry out the spiralled vase -- To its fluted lip piled many a penny, As much candy money as I could count, But soon it seemed I hadn't any -- "Jesus will take me to see your Gran'Dad," But when I cried she agreed not to die, A treat and a pat to soften the blow, Was a prelude to "Goodbye." The crystalline tumbler caught the glow, Gin & Tonic sparkling within, She sat on my lap and gave me a kiss, To go with the mischeivous grin, "Now we're adults, that's how we'll behave," So while in night's tender embrace, we did lie, But the truth was a note read in morning's light, Another prelude to "Goodbye." The champagne bubbled, we toasted our joining -- With white satin wrapped 'round black wool, Gold rings and degrees projected success, But waning fortune saw passions grow cool -- "Just hold me tonight so I won't be afraid," Then good news brought relief with a sigh, Miraculous profits could stave off no loss, In the next prelude to "Goodbye

Just A Little Hope...
No effort gives you nothing. A little effort gives you a gleam of hope. A bit more effort and the hope is more evident. Strong effort means things may work out. ... all I want right now is that gleam...

New Family Member Rules
So you want to join the family... Below is the rules we live and breathe... PLEASE READ CAREFULLY! 1) NO DRAMA WILL BE TOLERATED!!..We will not put up with any drama from anyone. There will be no exceptions to this rule! You disregard this rule and you will be dismissed from my family! Act your age, if u cant then please do not waste our time! 2) No one but upper management will be allowed to blog about Leveling..unless you have been given the ok to do so. This will only be to minimize confusion in the family! If you have a candidate you would like to level let one of our

Youngstown Ohio, A Nice Place To Live, Lol
You know you're from Youngstown if... -You're more worried about the Brown's quarterback's health than your own. -Your high school football games draw more fans than most college games. -You design your Halloween costume to fit over a snowsuit. -You say you are from Y-town just to sound cool. -You actually thought the legal drinking age was 18, until you made a trip to the bars in Cleveland and they wouldn't let you in. -Your friends from out of town get scared when you go throught a red light, but you reassure them that it's scarier when you stop. -You find yourself randomly checking on your car while at bar. Who knows at what time you have to report it stolen. -You spend all your money at the bars, just so you won't have to give any to the guy that jumps you. -There are no speed limit signs, because speeding is the last thing on cops' minds. Unless of course you're in Poland. -When someone says their at a "Party on the Plaza" you know where to find them.

Sts-51l Challenger
STS-51L CHALLENGER The Challenger shuttle crew, of seven astronauts--including the specialties of pilot, aerospace engineers, and scientists-- died tragically in the explosion of their spacecraft during the launch of STS-51-L from the Kennedy Space Center about 11:40 a.m., EST, on January 28, 1986. The explosion occurred 73 seconds into the flight as a result of a leak in one of two Solid Rocket Boosters that ignited the main liquid fuel tank. The crewmembers of the Challenger represented a cross-section of the American population in terms of race, gender, geography, background, and religion. The explosion became one of the most significant events of the 1980s, as billions around the world saw the accident on television and empathized with any one of the several crewmembers killed. Today, the 22nd anniversary of that tragedy,I would like to dedicate this page to their memory. We will never forget you, our Challenger 7. Back row from left to right: Ellison S. Oni

Wheres The Respect
ITS SCUMBAGS LIKE THIS AND THE REASON THEY ARE ALONE AND LONELY BECAUSE THEY DONOT KNOW HOW TO RESPECT A LADY.. AND GET TO KNOW HER WITHOUT APPROACHING HER LIKE SOME DAMN SEX OBJECT OR A PIECE OF MEAT ON THE INTERNET LOOKING TO GET LAID THIS IS THE SECOND IN TWO DAYS ..READ FROM BOTTOM UP horsemansaloonmemberoftheukfamily@ fubar >~ItsUrAngel~: You wil help yourself Dear .. I really dont want to block you so PLEASE RESPECT ME horsemansa...: I jus cant help myself when you look so sexy ->~ItsUrAngel~: and ty for the compliment .. ->~ItsUrAngel~: ty For respecting that : ) .. horsemansa...: a pretty one at that horsemansa...: you are horsemansa...: indeed sweety ->~ItsUrAngel~: Uhmmm excuse me .. Im a lady .. Can we have a little respect?? Im not just a piece of Meat on this site looking to get laid .. horsemansa...: you causin my pants to bulg here sexy lady ->~ItsUrAngel~: uhmm ok horsemansa...: awsome horsemansa...: baby you make me so hot here ->~ItsUrAngel~: tyvm

Carless
So I remembered where I left my car last night. I parked it about a mile from my place, in front of a friend's apartment. This wouldn't be a big deal, but for the fact that we both live in the ghetto. Thus, if I want to collect my car, I have to walk a mile through the ghetto. I'd planned to do that yesterday afternoon. But then I fell asleep, and when I woke up, it was already dark. I'd planned to wake up early this morning and walk - in my work clothes and sneakers - to my car. But then I woke up TWICE this morning. First, in bed, and second, slumped against the side of my bathtub, with Mauberly peering in, wondering what the fuck was wrong with me. I may have forgotten to eat. Alas, I'm going to eat, then figure out how to get my car back. I called in sick to work today, only to find out that all the people I work for are sick, as well. It seems that Jack the Germ was making out with girls at prom.

Jan 29th
Today was Monday, but I woke with the thought - I was going to be happy not matter what! After a full day at work - I was, even knowing what tomorrow brings. I was happy I talked with Holley on the phone and well that always makes me happy, chatted with Shawna and that Smartass Texas B**** here on fubar their great peopl,fun friends - then I posted a status on yahoo messenger that read "Sex on TV can't hurt- unless you fall off" all in the fun of things being I was happy feeling fun.- then I got a message about my status and how I have kids and I was participating in pornography?? for a humorus status?? ok Well the emotions that I was tring to hind now hit me like a brick wall! Happy was gone! reality was here! January 29 was comming like or not!! for years it's been just my dads birthday good times for many years - fishing trips, strip joints many good times, but now my father is sick and this will more than likey be his last birthday - but even with this - at 76 his life has be

Loves Distance
We all seek that which we dream of looking high looking low seeking falling failing yet it is not the dream that is wrong it is the road we travel muddled in pain and ravished with difficulties The distance great the heart sad we seek that which makes us glad we ponder what we did we seek that which we loved we look high we look low for that perfection Few ever will see or feel true loves touch few ever will see or feel the joy of a womans touch few ever will see or feel the joy of pure love given few ever will give that which the seek It is the distance that makes us strong the road hard the road long yet it is the road that leads us to the path the path of love and happiness and the journey is short once we find that which we seek Pure undieing love Pure undieing trust Pure undieing compassion Pure undieing romance For the journey of a life is not started in one step but taken down several roads of life eternally and the final path leads t

Wanting To Know More
Been awhile since I've done a blog in here. Thought I would give it a shot again and see if I get any responses. If you could have an all expense paid trip to anywhere you wanted to go, where would it be and why? Come on, give me details. Looking forward to reading your responses. Have fun! Mary

A Love That Is True
A warm hand caresses my skin A single finger traces along my face Arms open wide, inviting me in I fall into a love filled embrace Soft lips fall sealing against mine Our tongues dance against each Warmth of her smooth skin seeps in A growing warmth deep inside I reach My hands slide along her smooth body Gentle curves I trace so slow Upon her thigh I stop my travel A burning quest inside me I feel grow Our kiss becomes deeper as passion soars Two lovers laying here in an embrace Moonlight floods over us now Displaying the love that we now face Her hand slides against me now Feeling the arousal that has grown I hear her breathing heavier now Fueling passion we both have known Our bodies become one in the night Completely now I enter her as she lay Traveling as one along a lust filled path Locked in this passion we long to stay Suddenly our passions gate now open Our nectar of love flows so free This night another memory has been born This is how true love is

Contentious, Useless, Narcisistic, Terrorists
I spent some time, wondering if I should post this but, post this, I must! This is not meant to be directed at any one gender but, since I am only attracted to one gender, it may seem as if it is. I apologize in advance. There are people that seem to have found a "niche" that they use to attract people to whom they're attracted. They pretend to be these sweet, hurt, tortured souls that need to be protected. Because of the kind of person that I am (please see: Explanation of a "Daddy Dom"), these kinds of people seem to find me and "get under my skin" all too easily. They are so bent on their own needs that they don't understand the damage that they do. Either that or they're so narcisistic that they just don't care. They seem (and sometimes, even sound) like the sweetest, most inoffensive beings on the planet but, they are not. They seek (whether they realize it or not) to asuage their own needs at the detriment and, sometimes, even ruin of others. They're emotiona

Fade
Staind - Fade I try to breathe Memories overtaking me I try to face them but The thought is too much to conceive I only know that I can change Everything else just stays the same So now I step out of the darkness that my life became 'cause I just needed someone to talk to You were just too busy with yourself You were never there for me To express how I felt I just stuffed it down Now I'm older and I feel like I could let some of this anger fade But it seems the surface I am scratching Is the bed that I have made So where were you? When all this I was going through You never took the time To ask me just what you could do I only know that I can change Everything else just stays the same So now I step out of the darkness that my life became 'cause I just needed someone to talk to You were just too busy with yourself You were never there for me To express how I felt I just stuffed it down Now I'm older and I feel like I could let some of this ang

Hey There
NEVER JUDGE A BOOK BY ITS COVER CUZ YOU DONT KNOW WHAT YOU GOT UNTIL ITS GONE EVEN IF YOU NEVER MEET OR BEEN WITH THE PERSON IT COULD BE THAT RIGHT PERSON FOR YOU SO STOP AND THINK ABOUT IT BOFOR ITS TO LATE

Most Of You Know.........
Most of you are aware that I had surgery last Friday...well had to go to the doctor yesterday for a couple of blood tests and stuff. Well a couple of weeks before the surgery I was having radiation treatments well....radiation tends to kill or weaken your immune system...well it has mine and now I have pneumonia...I have been doing breathing treatments and antibiotics....but just feeling miserable...so comments and ratings maybe few and far between for the next couple of days...I do apologize before hand and I will make it up to all of you guys I promise. Hope all of you are having a good day! :D

Our Brave
OUR BRAVE Upon the sands of far away…. Our troops bravely led… To march and fight and die for us.. Their free native land… We sit and watch as tracers fly… As our guys crawl the dunes… And in our hearts a constant hum.. “Oh Beautiful”, Sang out of tune… We clinch, we fear, we shed our tears… Their safety for we pray… That angels wrap them within their wings.. And bring them home one day… Our Brothers, Sisters, Moms and Dads.. Children, Friends… all… Remember them, within your hearts… Those who answered the call… ego

Words That Should Not Have Been Said "eternal"
He speaks unkind syllables, spiteful words, harsh sentences; Wounds are sliced deeply within the pain. He speaks again "I'm sorry", "I didn't mean it", "Let's forget it happened"; The band-aid applied to the uncleaned injury. Promises forgotten familiar syllables, more spiteful words, repeated harsh sentences; Bacteria breeds in the never closed wound. Expected apologies kisses and hugs, maybe even a gift, a larger band-aid used; Infection permeates through all the layers. The days move on "I love you" fades, "I cant stand your hateful words" screams inside your mind, "Good-bye" rips the bandage; Hot flowing tears reveal the venomous truth. In tormented self-denials, he dares to ask "How did this happen?", "I always said I was sorry", "You always forgave me"; When will he learn ... Apologies can never heal a heart Physical scars heal, Wounds can be cleansed and bandaged But ones heart and mind are et

For Mom ! "ocean Of Tears"
I have lost her… How I long for the warmth of her smile The sunshine that comes with the sound of her voice The blanket that her love was Keeping me warm, guarding me… Against the cold breath of the world. Long ago I was flying We were flying together Today the rain came.. Once I was so proud and haughty; Now all that is left is this ocean This ocean of tears

Sister
I was browsing a friends' blogs and was reminded of something... I lost my sister Julie in 1996 to a 5 year battle with Multiple Myeloma. She was 34. Married to her teenage sweetheart. Two awesome kids. She was the nicest person you'd ever meet... in all her life, I can't even remember her ever cursing, except for once... and that was quite justified... She'd never say anything bad about anyone. Ever. She was the one person in the family that always gave me the benefit of the doubt when I'd mess up as a teenager... She was the one I got along with, when the rest of my family was... well... just not very accepting. During her fight with the cancer, I held a fund-raiser for her at a local club, and my girlfriend at the time and I donated platelets and blood weekly (yes, I know you're not supposed to do that, but in my sister's situation... well... they let it slide). It turned out that out of all the people in my family that donated, the only person who's platelets her body didn't reject

The Storm
The Storm The roar of the thunder; The flicker of the lightning. Dark emotions put us under. Good and evil always fighting ! Light and dark! Day and night! Danger hits it's mark. Over the horizon,it shines so bright; Violent waves crash into the rocks. Hurricane's, tornadoes, Come hell or high water! Mother nature's angry with her father. Soon there will be nothing left. With violent strikes she lashes out, Feeling her, as she shifts. Showing no sign of compassion, as she shouts. She has now taken her deadly course; Winning the struggle with great force! Valarie A. Laboy aka Sapphire Jewel Copyright © 2006

When The Hours Seem Long...
When the hours seem long and the world seems wrong, when your spirits are low and theres no inter glow, may the thoughts in here bring you laugher and cheer enlighten your days and em brighten your ways, dark shadows fall into the lives of us all but through it all we learn to grow and stand tall, the more we endure with the patience and grace, the stronger we will grow and more we can face, there is always two sides the good and the bad, the sad and the glad.. If we can but keep on believing what we know in our heart is true..The darkness will fade with the morning and this will pass on to you.. god never sends the give of winter, with out the joy of spring..Today my heart will cry for tomorrow my heart will sing... Keep Smilin... Holley Bess

Wanted To Share This With The Family A Good Friend Of Mine Catch & Release Left This Comment On My Page
After messing up with my first two wishes: facefull of kittens & tiny headMy Gennie and I are excited about this one: Good as: The value immeasurable Forever like a diamond Rewarding A true treasure Cause I ended up on YOUR page ... (repost of original by 'Catch & Release' on '2008-02-01 11:18:20')

Thoughts Of You
Thoughts of you bring sunny skies, when i look up at the sunny skies, i take a moment and close my eyes, as the sun beats down upon my face i smile as i picture your face, up in the clouds in the sky both of us are flying high and as we land upon a distant cloud we hear an angel speak out loud saying he was sent by god above to tell us what we have is not just love that we are amongst a very few that experience what others never do..and as that angel flies away i open my eyes to a sunny new day... Holley Bess

For Bidders And Entrants!!!
OK so due to the latest things occurring on fubar (blasts have been taken away for stupid reasons that i wont mention here bc i may end up losing my stuff for badmouthing the site... can anyone say hypocritical capitalist?) ANYWAYS... Mark and I have been thinking and we want to know from both the bidders and the entrants what they think about our idea. What if we make it so that the person being bid on can decide if they want the FU gift (blast, VIP, HH etc...) or just the cash equivalent? So if a person bids a 7day blast, they can instead ask for just 20 dollars sent to their paypal or a gift card in that amount to some store they like etc... We arent saying all gifts must be in real money instead of FU related items, just that the entrant reserves the right to choose which they prefer. Please leave comments or messages with your opinons! HAPPY BIDDING! -Mynda!

Night Screams
running too slowly looking over one shoulder faster, through the bog something coming feet sticking, heart pounding it's coming pain is just one heated, fetid breath away heart lurching, lungs screaming legs burning no escape, can't see where it is knowing it's coming tears of frustration adrenaline surges steps coming slower hands grasping trying have to outrun now! go! faster! please! hot, rank exhalation on the back as.... suddenly... sitting up a choked off scream echoes through the dark sweat soaked sheets knotted around the bed eyes flicking from one darkened corner to the next. a nightmare... again... heart begins to slow respirations uneven but steadier oh well, no more sleep tonight. might as well get up on gelatin legs and start a new day. D. R. Hyden yeah, yeah, this one sucks, but i am just waking up, and write as i feel. HUGS!

Ex's...and What Not...
Ok, I just had to carry this one over from my myspace....so take it as it is!! Ok, this has gotten out of control this relationship bullshit going on in todays society, this little bitch session may or may not pertain to you so dont object cause it only shows your guilt or you failed to read this wasnt for everyone, but hopefully it will make you think or take a better look at oneself!!! Just as woman like to know what a guy feels or wants there are some men as well who feel the same way. They prefer to know the direction in which the relationship is going. Women always say for the most part they want to make sure they do the right thing because usually in most cases there are children involved. Well, hello some men have children too and respect the well being of their children. We as men usually get blamed or labeled as "players" , but i've noticed over the past 7 years since my divorce the women no matter of age are just as bad if not worse. A man such as myself get's involv

This S*cks ...
Soo, I had this thing planned out for my 1st blog posting about me winning auctions and my birthday arriving soon. Unfortunately I have to post something else - Thursday morning I was taking care of something when I got a call about magazine subscriptions. I was talking to the guy and only half listening while I was doing other stuff. I purchased the subscription and went about my business. Later that day I went to buy a late lunch and gave the counter person my card. It was declined. I called and found out Fraud Protection had frozen my card since someone had tried to charge me for almost 7000 dollars. Yep, those darn magazines. They canceled my card but I won't be receiving a new one until next week. So watch next week for my next post when I get to talk about something fun...

Why Do They Use Your Kids To Try Andhurt You???
why must they use your kids to hurt you.keep them from you.and use them to get what they want when they want it.its not fair to me are my lil girl.if she dont get what she wants from me it just more hurt and more time from my daughter.and i try to give her what she want just to see my lil girl,but it shouldn t have to be like that,why cant she grow up and see she is hurtin more then me in all of this.i just wounder if there are any women left at all that wouldnt do that to get back at someone,deep down i know they are but cant be many left.

Listen Up!!
Before we go any further ..lets get this straight...I love Fubar..I really do....But What made me leave last time..was all the freaks and assholes that come out of no where just trying to get off..and the point whores...so im gonna say this now... I am an Intelligent woman..In most cases more than you are...I dont need the bullshit and I dont want the bullshit..Ill pack it up and go instantly..gone..again for the final time. Do not ask me to add you or rate you or come to your fucking online club...If however I want to do this ..I will..I dont need the beggers....I am not here for relationships or an online fuck...I dont need this either... I am here...for conversation and have a little fun....so ..if your not looking for the same..DO NOT bother to come back to my profile!! You will be blocked!! Wow now that thats out of the way...To my friends..I LOVE YA...You know me..you always will :)...TY

Tagg Your It !!!
Instructions...... Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird or random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose at least 5 people to be tagged, listing their names . Don't forget to leave a comment that says, "You're it!" on their profile and ask them to read your blog. You can't tag the person who tagged you. 1.) My son and husband are my life 2.) I am very straight forward, so if you don't want the truth then don't ask my advice 3.) I love to sing (can't carry a tune, but who cares?) 4.) I am very loyal to my friends, unless lied to 5.) I love deeply and passionately, when you are in my heart it is forever, even if we part ways 6.) I am moody at times 7.) I am a good judge of character 8.) I love animals 9.) I have been called a Dear Abby, on a site I used to belong to I had a colum in the forum ppl. would leave questions and I would answer and give advice 10.) I am a wild and crazy lady...in a good w