Fubar Blog Posts 4

Omg Look What I Found!!!
lol i'm in good mood better than the days before, and really, it's not bothering me nothing now this song made me remember many things omg! i can say the name of EACH ONE that sings in this song hahahaha i'm sure most of you can't even recognize at least 2 of this people singing here, and/or you weren't still in the earth to remember the song... seeeeeee michael jackson when he was still black and wearing the glove with brilliants hahaha ♥ for each one... cindy lauper, bruce springsteen, billy joel, steve wonder, tina turner and all the rest i wont mention haha ... this is just showing that i'm OLD! enjoy :) xoxoxoxoxo (and have a laugh maybe for the oldies)

Gets Me Through
Deep down you know me, I know you do, I try to make you happy, each day I find myself, here without you, it burns into my soul, longing to hold you, to have you here, some day I shall you know? then we will find forever, we will walk hand in hand, you are the one I crave for, the only thing I need, you are the only reason, I still breath, you must keep promise, the pact we made, and we will be together, our plans are made, inside we know the outcome, this is the only thing that, Gets Me Through... Music Video Codes By Music Jesus.com

A Wrong Number
A wrong number..I pick up the call and do not know who it is..the stranger and I talk a few times througout the day..and decide to see each other for cofee at my house....He walked across the driveway and I felt myself stop breathing...just for a moment..he was so breathtakingly gorgeous....blonde hair, brown eyes....and a beautiful 6'2 body....We talked for what seemed like minutes turned into hours. I am not usually nervous but that beautiful face looking at me...He left and asked to see me the next day..I found myslef a few miles south outside his Condo thinking..OK what am I doing..there is no way I am in this Mans league....He opens the door and standing there in just boxer breifs..he plays drums in his free time...I could feel my jaw drop. We watch tv...talk..and suddenly..he leans in and kisses me..That kiss was the one..I waited for what seemed like forever for..he stood above me on the couch beautifully chiseled body..tan..perfect...slid my legs open and ripped my skirt off...

Going Back
Its been almost 7 years aince I visited the place that was once home to me for 20 years of my life. It's been that long since I have seen my bestfriend who just happens to be a guy. He has been the only one that I have kept regular contact with. He is the only one that knows everythign there is to know about me too so it will be really good to see him . I miss him more than I can possibly express. And then there is my brother who I do get to see about twice a year. But I have not seen him down where I grew up. Maryland..it's been a long time! DC clubs. Great Falls. The mountains. Ocean City. Rockville. Champians. Redskins. Private Catholic school. Many memories. Getting drunk at the baldersons in college park. Playing bass guitair with the girl band I was in lol We were so crazy! I dont think we slept much back then or maybe we did It was party tehe night away and sleep all day..I am still a night owl. I still love nighttime. Anyways I am going to VA where my brother lives now and

A-rod Is A Cock
Dude appears to be a textbook narcissist. How else to explain, in a spring where Derek Jeter once again tried to teach Rodriguez how to calm media waters and shut the fuck up, his appearance on Mike and Mad Dog yesterday? At any rate, Rodriguez did appear, and left a series of quotes that can pretty fairly be interpreted as "New York fans need to show me love or I am out of here". Not sure that will have the desired effect, Alex Rodriguez. Somewhere, presumably, Jeter will have heard about this and shook his head in disbelief.

Something I Threw Together...
do you ever feel like your all alone and got nothing at all? even when you got a child calling you mommy, someone calling you sister, daughter or friend. do you ever feel like you life just aint right? Like your missing something, like theres something you should be seeing, doing, or experiancing? ever feel worthless, fat, no good, useless, and stupid even though you have a home, car, family, friends high school education... I feel like the life i thought I wanted and had chose for myself was right for me but i am unsure at this point. I do thank you god for the miricales such as my son and unborn child on the way. however i wonder if there is more out there other then a desk with a computer and phone at home to sell stuff from, or a name tag that says momm, cook, house keeper and all the other things I do. I dont think it's the stuff or people around me I beleive it's just me. yeah yeah sounds like a poor poor me but really it's just thoughts that run through my head I'm sure everyone

Closure
Pretending your way through life With a deceitful grin What a shallow existence you lead Used and abused I fell under your spell Blinded by what was not real I gave of myself And got nothing in return But sorrow and pain An empty shell Left in your path of destruction A shadow of what once was Things are more clear now I can breathe again No longer a victim of fate A pawn in your game no more I move forward to better things A new life begins

Nsfw Should Mean Not Safe For Wussies
This is me ranting. I wanna say that right off the bat. I understand the rules, the policies, whatever. This is me ranting. I'm sure most of you reading this have seen my video default pic with me and the aggressive black censor box that wouldn't go away. I personally think it's hilarious to watch, and apparently, so do soooo many other people. They see it, and just start laughing. They say watching it just made their day better. But all it took today was one overly conservative cry baby to click that little NSFW checkbox and POOF!, goodbye funny default pic. The simple fact that someone thought it was too suggestive or porn-like just drives me crazy. The pics I put up as default are designed to be funny. The only suggestive part of the whole thing is that I'm suggesting you laugh at it. I'm not suggesting you pleasure yourself to it. I want you to get a good laugh out of it, pure and simple. I have seen hundreds and hundreds of photos on CT marked NSFW when they cle

Priorities
What happened in Britain yesterday? - A small selection.. MPs voted to spend 20 billion quid on a new Trident nuclear missile system (with a further 50 billion committed to maintain and administer it). Negotiations to establish a new power-sharing executive in Northern Ireland and sustain the fragile peace reached a crucial stage. The police proposed setting up holding cells in department stores, because their cells are full to overflowing. The OECD condemned the British government for covering up illegal arms trading with Saudi Arabia. 7 British soldiers were acquitted by the courts martial of murdering an Iraqi prisoner in their custody, even though the presiding judge indicated that he considered them to be clearly guilty. The presenters of a popular children's tv program apologised on air for faking a phone call from a competition winner (prize - £250 worth of toys) when their phone lines crashed earlier this year. Which of these events do you think every maj

Bitches On Ct
There are so many inconsiderate dumb ass whores on this shit that it makes no sense. thank you for those that understood my mum that I had posted and this doesn't go out to you but the ones that were being so very disrespectful are the ones that need a fucking life and r the real whores! It's called jealousy bitches. u're just mad cuz ur parents don't love u!

Mcr And Corliss.
i went to mcr last nite.i never been so dressed b4 a concert.i was supose to go with her. but sadly she was in a fatal hit and run feb 19 07. i miss her so much i taught of her the whole time i cried durning sum of the songs we use to sing on blast. everything that nite was for her. to night i'm gonna visit her grave with the confetti form the black pararde. i wish she could of been there.

Ffs
The master: yeah wtfe is right u lill biaaatcch ->The master: WTF ever The master: Not dreaming now u could do it now lil gurl ->The master: in your dreams The master: blow me baby Is this how you treat a lady?

One Of The New Ones
My naughty mind does stir at the thought Of things that to my lust you’ve brought Of how I long to take you in my arms and night And get lost in your eyes and delight In the feeling on you touching me Something about you sets me free To release the beast that burns with lust And must taste you before he bust Take you and lick you from head to toe And dance in your private places for lust to grow Tongue that licks you long and hard and deep Do you know I am your alone to keep Sensual soul I long to give you powerful orgasms And see you convulse with strong spasms And hear you scream my name in desire And be the one to light your fire And slide into you and grind hard and fast And to love you beyond time and unto the last As we dance me in you long into the night I know we both feel this is so right Blue eyes staring deep into my soul You’re the piece that makes me whole Me in you and you taking charge on top We grind together in a rhythm non stop You in control

New License
Attention All Whips & Chains Society Members. I have been asked to design a new License for your members. I worked with Embyr and came up with the license you see below. If you want one of these please private message the following information.... CT #: 1233456 Sexual Perference: staight Position: Dom/Master/Mistress/submissive/slave etc Status: collared or Uncollared is sub/slave and single or taken if a Dom/Master etc.. Signature: Sir Dave.. etc.. and the picture you'd like on the license. I will make them as soon as I can and I will send back the license via a reply to the information you send me.. Thank You Sir Dave

Three Wooden Crosses ---- Ttt----
Yes,,my love there are three wooden crosses,And we both know why,...like the song we would sing,that would make you cry,...I will be wiping away those tears,...They are on the right side of the highway,And I must show you where they lay,... Will you come with me on that day???? ttt.[THE CROSSES]

We Have Reached The Weekend!
It's Friday and I am so very glad it is! It has seemed like a very long week to me, for some reason. I'm going to try very hard not to turn this blog into an ex-bashing blog! Truly, I understand where he is coming from, but I do not agree with him. Taylor, his only child and my fourth, will be turning 16 on April 16th. He wants his lip pierced, badly!! He actually wanted a double lip piercing, but I got him to hold to just one - let's see if he can handle the pain, lol! I have no problem with this at all - the piercing! My soon to be ex has issues. One of the main things I have problems coming to grips with is his need to make fun and denigrate anyone who does not believe as he does. Basiclly, if you don't see things his way, you're an idiot!!! Now this man is 13 years younger than I am, food for another blog, I'm sure, lol!!! I have pictures of him with long hair!! He has issues with Taylor's long hair - it's only to his shoulders, for Pete's sake! Of course, he really had issue

The Poem Of A Battered Woman
I need to feel….. I need to feel the soft stroke of your fingers against my cheek; Not harshness of you fist against my face. I need the warmth of your arms lovingly wrapped around my body; Not the pain of your arms twisting mine. I need to hear your voice tenderly speak the words “I Love You”; Not the hurtful shouts, with words of hate. I need to know your touch in pleasure; Not the feeling of being alone. I need look into your eyes and know the peace; Not the look of disgust that you hold for me. I need to know my heart is safe; Not that has been broken beyond repair. I need a love that is true; Not a love that leaves me battered and bruised. Have you seen of that I seek? © 2007 Phaedra Spencer

Some Pathetic Loser...
Ooh, nice 1 rating from you, loser. Kiss my ass dirtbag. Yeah, some jealous hillbilly rated me a 1. (my profile) Like I care. Message to you, loser: I do what I want. After two years of crawling around the mountains and being shot at in Afghanistan I fear no one, least of all you.

Random Tv Show Theme Song
Just sit right back and you'll hear a tale, A tale of a fateful trip That started from this tropic port Aboard this tiny ship. The mate was a mighty sailing man, The skipper brave and sure. Five passengers set sail that day For a three hour tour, a three hour tour. The weather started getting rough, The tiny ship was tossed, If not for the courage of the fearless crew The Minnow would be lost, the Minnow would be lost. The ship set ground on the shore of this uncharted desert isle With Gilligan The Skipper too, The millionaire and his wife, The movie star The professor and Mary Ann, Here on Gilligans Isle. So this is the talel of the castways, They're here for a long, long time, They'll have to make the best of things, It's an uphill climb. The first mate and the Skipper too, Will do their very best, To make the others comfortable, In the tropic island nest. No phone, no lights no motor cars, Not a single luxury, L

Blue Eyes
Blue eyes Baby's got blue eyes Like a deep blue sea On a blue blue day Blue eyes Baby's got blue eyes When the morning comes I'll be far away And I say Blue eyes Holding back the tears Holding back the pain Baby's got blue eyes And she's alone again Blue eyes Baby's got blue eyes Like a clear blue sky Watching over me Blue eyes I love blue eyes When I'm by her side Where I long to be I will see Blue eyes laughing in the sun Laughing in the rain Baby's got blue eyes And I am home, and I am home again

Does This Make Me Look Fat? Photo Shoot On Sunday
One of my best friends is a pro photographer. He'll be in town on Sunday and called/wants to do a photo shoot. My first thought : "Do I look FAT???" This is Raider. He loves me. He's my pal. He would never do anything to hurt me. but my fears are out of control and I wonder if I will look fat, no matter what I wear. Perhaps, if I "suck in", I can pass for twenty-something. Nah....he knows me. He knows who I am. The truth will out, and you know what? I'm finally okay with it, no matter what happens.

The Online Experience: Reality Check
Ok, first of all, Im going to quantify the forthcoming rambling by saying that this WONT apply to everyone. Those who are exempt from this should know that, upon reading it, and be able to continue with their happy little lives like any normal person, secure in the knowlege that I will still be talking to them tomorrow. Now, for the rest of you. GET A GRIP! No, seriously, run, dont walk, to the much-needed reality check. We are online. CT is an online site. That means its impersonal. That means that you dont really know me and I dont really know you. For all you do know, I COULD be some 350# hairy man (dont worry, Im not, but you get my point). Given that bit of information, you should realize that IT MEANS NOTHING, NADA, ZIP, ZILCH, BIG FAT ZERO, ETC! If I, or anyone else, decides to post photos, naked or other, its our choice. We have our reasons. Trust me on this, THEY ARE NOT POSTED JUST FOR YOU (any one person), SPECIFICALLY. I dont know you, remember. I didnt know you befo

The One Flaw In Women...
The One Flaw In Women By the time the Lord made woman, He was into his sixth day of working overtime. An angel appeared and said, "Why are you spending so much time on this one?" And the Lord answered, "Have you seen my spec sheet on her? She has to be completely washable, but not plastic, have over 200 movable parts, all replaceable and able to run on diet coke and leftovers, have a lap that can hold four children at one time, have a kiss that can cure anything from a scraped knee to a broken heart -and she will do everything with onl y two hands." The angel was astounded at the requirements. "Only two hands!? No way! And that's just on the standard model? That's too much work for one day. Wait until tomorrow to finish." "But I won't," the Lord protested. "I am so close to finishing this creation that is so close to my own heart. She already heals herself when she is sick AND can work 18 hour days." The angel moved closer and touched

Peace Upon Deliverence
Night whispers scream within the night of miles that stretched forth its hand before to me. I see you in the distance wondering in the majestic sunset under the moon, that looks down upon this lonely lost soul screaming from within the prison locked down by the chains of despair, reaching out to the pure soul sitting upon the throne. my love I yearn for your touch the purest of life for my dark soul piercing the light. can the light ever kiss the darkness and can the darkness lick the light? With you the visions I see haunt my soul with the truth. Convicted..... Set this captive free from the bondage of his own mortality and wonders when the day will come when I am face to face with you before your presence. I long for the day that the distance between us is no longer and we are togethor as the stars are yet to be numbered. Embrace me with sovernty of this life as it is hushed with the gasp of lifes breath for will I ever live to die again, another day the ministers come to me wh

My Adopt Lil Sis
3-14-07 Koddah (aka) Dakota died by hangin herself i loved her she was always there for me!!!!! now really need her and shes gone!!!!! I dont ever want to look inside a closet by just the scare of seeing her blue face, bloody eyes, hangin by her throught by a rope!!!! at least i know that i have her watchin down on me...... but im gonna be sad for the rest of my life that since she stayed back last year she didnt even make it to highschool!!!!! she died 23 days before my b-day and i wanted her to come down if i have a party. thats not gonna happen now!!!! i feel sooooo sad and depressed. she was a true friend. That is from my nices here best friend my adopt lil sis hung herself because she got raped and she told her folks about it and they didn't belive her. I will miss you lil sis R.I.P. i see you. I know you will be watching down on us from up above.The thing that hit me the hardest was it happen on my birthday of all things. Your will always be in my heart lil sis no matter wer you

My Sin
The fields of passions are burning, and lying there within. Your naked body writhing, and I see my greatest sin. It is not the lust I'm feeling, churning there in my soul. Nor the burning need for you, that smolders like a coal. It isn't the kiss I gave you, nor the touch of your caress. It was not my finger inside you, nor my lips upon your breast. It was not as you rode upon me, filling your own desire. Nor the way I thrust behind you, fanning hard those fires. It was not the wet upon you, nor the taste of you I crave. It was not the way I licked you, nor ministrations that you gave. It was not way that I held you, nor the crack now on the wall. It was not in how high I took you, nor the way you make me call. It was not your wrists held fast in mine, nor even that I was to rough. My sin my dear, my lover, my friend. Is I never will have you enough. §ir Devl

Surgery Went
Surgery went well on Wednesday, but I have been having a bad time with healing. I have been in so much pain. The glue they put on instead of stitches came off and it's not healing right. I'm going to go see the doctor tomorrow and see if he can stitch it closed or something. Hope everyone has an awesome week!

Public Bitchin Blog
Hi folks, Donnie here from Fubar. Welcome to my, "Public Bitchin Blog." Maybe you'd like to bitch about gas prices, or complain about how hot or cold it is outside. Maybe you'd like to just call me an asshole, because when you got out of bed today you stepped in dog shit or because someone screwed up your whole day. Maybe when you got online today someone rated you all 1's, and then blocked you...and now you're pissed at the entire world because of it. Whatever it may be, and no matter how pissed off it made you, well then you can drop your comment right here. My, "Public Bitchin Blog" is open 24 hours a day...7 days a week. (no reservations required) So,thanks for coming by my "Public Bitchin Blog", and remember folks, I don't wanna make any ratings or fubucks, I just love to hear you BITCH!

Assholes
So last night i went to the Sheraton Hotel and met Kristina for the first time in person. I fell in love with her instantly. We were drinking and having fun. And i gave her friends Mary & Colleen advice on how to deal with the men in their lives who were being assholes to them. A little later in the night, i kissed Colleen, Kristina's best friend. Kristina hates me now. And i dont blame her. I do too. I fell in love and ruined it all in the same night. I wanted to show Kristina that i was good enough to have a chance to be her boyfriend. Instead i proved that i am a complete asshole. I dont even know what to do. I cant stop crying. I want to burn. I want to make things better with Kristina. I want to take back the kiss. I cant do any of that. All i can do is be sorry for it and hate myself for it. At least im doing that right. BlueBy Tommy LeeBestAudioCodes.com

Sucks
every feel like you just want to give up and say fuck it, you think you have friends that care but find out all they care about is themselves and what they have and what does it mean if you walk away from them and say fuck you i don't need you and i don't want you???? where that is where i lay my head tonight wondering if any of my friends are real and if any of them care am i really their friend or just someone they can say that they know... I hope everyone is doing better then me and they know where they stand better then me...Good night

Sad
i had a argument with someone i love and im sad someone cheer me up....sometimes i cant figure out how i can be such a bitch but then agin if your provoked i geuss u feel the need but still makes u feel like shit!! im not that ugly(not beautiful but ill do) surly i shouldnt have to be jelouse all the time and i am its stupid ....well i geuss im done whinning for the night.....xoxox mesha

Rip Pepow Holder I Love You And Miss You 3/30/44-3/18/07
There isnt words that can describe the way im feeling right now but m heart i shattered into a million pieces the only father I have known passed away today. We should have seen it comming from all the years of abuse to his body from either drinking or smoking I cant believe this is happing it dont seem real . I would do anything to have him back Iv lost one of my best friends Im @ a lost of words I dont even know what else to say but I love you and miss you pepow Ill see you again in heaven....

Hangover
Today I am reminded of why I don't and can't drink that often. Cause once I start I don't know when to cut myself off. I have a blast, but then I pass out and miss some awesome f'ing, amazingly good stuff, lol!

Pic Of Woman Involved In Teens Murder
I THINK THEY SHOULD BOTH GET LIFE...BUT WE KNOW IT WON'T HAPPEN :( this one of the peeps involved in the murder of teen boy Teen beaten to death, jury hears Matthew Martins, 16, cornered near escalator bottom at SkyTrain Station Glenda Luymes, The Province Published: Thursday, March 15, 2007 SURREY - Sixteen-year-old Matthew Martins' life ended violently when he was cornered and beaten at the bottom of an escalator in a Surrey SkyTrain station, a jury in the trial of Robert Forslund and Katherine Quinn heard yesterday. Forslund threw the small teen into a Plexiglas wall beside the stopped escalator before stomping on his head 13 times and slashing his throat with a broken beer bottle, Crown counsel Wendy Dawson told the first day of the couple's trial for second-degree murder. Dawson said Martins had encountered the couple earlier that night, when Quinn jumped on his back to steal the cross he wore around his neck. Hours later, police found the cross in Forslund's p

Im Lookin For
i need some people who will be willing to help me in a contest in a week or so. i will give a big pimpin prize to whoever helps me out the most. im not sure what yet so if you wanna help me plz pm me.

Her Heart Just Cant Lie
Just when you thought it was over he storms in through the cracked door with the mission of self destruction. She looks at him and smiles, feeling the tension in his voice. He isnt happy and she knows by the intensity in his eyes. Her heart begins to race with anticpation of the words that will soon follow. She is eager for the first blow and yet he stands there ripping her to shreds with the eyes of what appears to be an angry man. He knows deep down that he isnt the one for her, yet he fights everyday to fill the shoes of a man she holds so high on that pedestool.A man who would never be able to appriciate the true beauty of who and what she is. The fear of losing her has been tearing him to shreds from the inside out and today he has had enough. No longer will he sit back and watch her shed tears over a man who doesnt care for her, nor will he sit back and watch as she slowly dies inside. He has stood there in front of her for what seems like an eternety watching the emotio

My Live Webcam Schedule
In case you're wondering when I am Live on my webcam, I'll provide you with a schedule of when and where. Here's my current schedule: Sunday - 10PM EST (My Profile) 11PM EST (Rude House Show) Monday - 10PM EST (My Profile) 11PM EST (Rude House Show) Tuesday - 10PM EST (My Profile) 11PM EST (Rude Group Show) 3/27/07 11:30PM EST (Rude House Show) Wednesday - 10PM EST (My Profile) 11PM EST (Rude Group Show) 11:30PM EST (Rude House Show) Thursday - 10PM EST (My Profile) 11PM EST (Rude Group Show) 3/27/07 11:30PM EST (Rude House Show) Friday - 10PM EST (My Profile) 11PM EST (Rude Group Show) 12AM EST (Rude House Show) Saturday - 10PM EST (My Profile) 11PM EST (Rude House Show) ***I may not be Live at exactly 10PM EST, it could be closer to 10:30PM EST. It all depends when my kids go to sleep. There also may be a night, I won't b

Love
I hope you know I love you- You shouldn't have to guess. That you're my one and only. My life, my happiness... For all my dreams. My hopes and plans. Begin ans end with you- The one who's touched. My heart and soul. With love that's real and true!

Ethics ?
Currently, at the behest of a of good friend, I am reading a book on ethics studies, and questioning my morals. Do I actually have any? If I knew a friend was going to lose their job would I tell them? What if my boss told me in confidentiality? Well, for me it's not a matter of ethics... it's a matter of survival. If someone is losing their job- you better believe it's not going to be me. If you're drowning next to me, I'm using you like a piece of driftwood. Hey, doesn't mean I don't like you... but if I have to choose- it's going to be ME, every time. However.... if you throw my sister, or my two kids into the mix, I'd slice my own throat and walk over broken glass to keep them from being hurt. When it comes to winning, I'm probably going to do WHATEVER it takes. I've cheated on tests... and slept through the night. I've cheated on boyfriends... and slept through the night. I've ran red lights, kicked a dog, broken into houses, stole a car, did drugs... am I with out morals???

My Idea Of What A Real Woman Is
She would always be kind and considerate of others and their feelings. She wouldn't lie about stupid shit, or important shit either. Story telling like " the mouse was this ( ) big, is fine, not too mention funny. She would be loyal to her husban/fiance/boyfriend/signifigant other. She would never cheat She would always stand up for and protect those she loves. She would be outgoing but no where to draw the line. She has faith in herself and her loved ones. She knows who she is and what she can and should do. She accepts all others for who the are. Wether she decides to keep them around is her business. She is always friendly and polite, unless provoked to protect someone weaker them herself. She will have manners and know how to use them. She loves strongly and deeply . She is kind to animals and all others smaller and weaker then herself. She would never hit her partner NEVER EVER. She would severely injure any one who did She is kind to children She is kind and respe

It's All A Computer Game...
Ok, so here's a hypothesis on life: What if we're all omnipotent immortal beings living in some eutopian world? One of the downsides of living forever and having no hardships is that boredom can really set in. So... a new game was invented.... Anyone who pays top dollar to play gets to be born as a baby in this virtual reality world called 'Earth'. As the game starts all memory of the entrants' real existences are completely wiped and they have to start living their lives from scratch, believing that it is all completely real. ....We are all contestants! The twist is, the rules of the game are never explained to you... they can't be - you don't even know it's a game, but the reality of it is all the while you're on 'Earth' you're constantly racking up or losing points depending on all your actions or inactions. The goal, I think, is not necessarily to be a good and worthy human being, but to gain as much fame (or indeed infamy) as possible in whichever way you see fit a

Love Them While They Are Still Here...
Daniel: I guess we are the left overs in this world. Jasmine: I think so.. All of my friends have boyfriends & we are the only 2 persons left in this world without any special someone in our lives. Daniel: Yup! I don't know what to do. Jasmine: I know! We'll play a game. Daniel: What game? Jasmine: I'll be your girlfriend for 30 days & you will be my boyfriend. Daniel: That's a great plan in fact, I don't have anything to do for the following weeks.. DAY 1: They watched their first movie together & were both touched in the romantic film. DAY 4: They went to the beach & had a picnic... Daniel & Jasmine had their quality time together. DAY 12: Daniel invited Jasmine to a circus and they went to a Horror House.. Jasmine was scared and she tried to touch Daniel's hand but by accident she touched someone else's and they both laughed.. DAY 14: They saw a fortune teller down the road and asked for their future. The fortune teller said: "My darlings

Who Sings This? Just See'in Who's Cool
what the blood clot.... i rap alot.... whatcha goin to do when the beat go drop.... what ya talkin about willis? who the illest? you know my name is adam stop callin me phillis

Youwish Profile Was Rating It Got This Poem
Hello every one I came up with this poem while searching the new memebers profiles. I came across Youwish "85008" profile. Something just clicked in my mind. I hope She is not mad or embaraced. Because of the poem I typed into her profile. I hope also she does not delete it. But for my friends and fans here is the poem. A Midnight hour dream. The lady of faith who I love, Taking the chance of ardent love. The dream is real the love foolish. Yet we travel threw the woman's love. Anthing can take place. Just keep dreaming. One cold winter night one will find truth. I have found and lost woman's love. I know, I will never be apart of your dreams. So face to face we can never say again. Only in the midnight hour of a dream, does it hold true.

Would You....
I want my baby...not real sure where he is...but I know hes out there somewhere... Baby~ Would you bring me dasies just cuz Be my one and only luv Would you leave me notes with little hearts Show your love even when were apart Would you hold my hand and walk with me Touch my soul and and feel me breathe Would you tell me dreams of you and I Hold my heart and help me fly Would you love me for the real inside Except the pain I cannot hide Would you lift me up when life is down Be my strength my level ground Would you sing me a song without a rhyme Will your love conquer the test of time Ahhh silly words...but, would you??

I Feel Sick Today...
For a myriad of reasons...today I dont feel well. When my emotions get out of control, I get physically ill. I'm nauseated and just uncomfortable in my skin. I dont like it. Please cheer me up today...or try to.

Vegas Baby!
For anybdy who doesnt know im just about n my way to vegas until sunday!! s if u miss me u can send me a message try not to send anything to my Shoutbox, cuz i probably wont get it.....and then i wont know you were thinking of me!!! So ill miss u all.....but to be honest i wont be thinking of anybody cuz ill be drink most of the time and not be in the right state of mind....hehe BUT I do love ya all and i will miss you!!! Ill see u all sooonnn.... peace out VEGAS BABY!! luvz, ~CINDY ps. dont forget about meeeee `

Answers To Top 5 Questions!
This is what we have been waiting for...the true answers to 5 really important Questions: Q1: WHAT ARE THE SMALL BUMPS AROUND A WOMAN'S NIPPLES FOR? A: It's Braille for "suck here". Q2. WHAT IS AN AUSTRALIAN KISS? A: It's the same as a French kiss, only "down under." Q3. WHAT DO YOU DO WITH 365 USED CONDOMS? A: Melt them down, make a tire, and call it a Goodyear. Q4. WHY ARE HURRICANES NORMALLY NAMED AFTER WOMEN? A: Because when they come, they're wild and wet. And when they go, they take your house and car with them. Q5. WHY DO GIRLS RUB THEIR EYES WHEN THEY GET UP IN THE MORNING? A: Because they don't have any balls to scratch. Now, you know everything you need to know!

Aint It Amazing..
how new folks wich just join...rate yo as low as they can cuz they dont got anything better to do...or there pc dont load a morph at all...so whoever rated me...go and fuckyoselfe....and hey yo need help..i send my lil energizerbunny over...lol..do i mark this now NSFW...hmmmm

Oral Explosions
My husband sent me a text message stating "would you like an explosive round of orgasms tonight?" We planned it all out on our cell phones and it is going to be fun. I just got out of the shower and shaved my legs - all the way up and they are very smooth, all the way up!!! ALL the way up! After the weekend in Oklahoma I can really use some explosive orgasms tonight. We love to plan out these evenings together... it is part of our foreplay and puts us in a high level of excitement for hours before we go to bed. Would you like to know what happens afterwards?

For Your Pleasure.
I approach you as your attention is directed elsewhere; my purpose specific for your pleasure. As I fumble with your buckle, our eyes meet genuine surprise sparks your brown eyes. No words spoken, my lips meet your throbbing cock; my fingers massaging the base gently Up and down, my toungue wraps around you methodically leaving no inch uncovered or dry. Faster and harder my focus is your climax baby; I am eager to taste your seed Your breath heavier each stroke intended to make you squirm and moan in ecstasy driven anticipation. Gripping my ponytail you thrust your pulsating cock down my inviting throat mindlessly fucking my face. I hungrily accept each and every inch of you; patiently awaiting your moment to arrive Our eyes meet at the exact moment of climax while you smile, I swallow…. ~JM~ 2007

Im Trying
I'm trying to love being single but it really does suck. My own mom and my CT mom are slowly not talking to me anymore. I do miss them both even though they are here everyday. I don't know what to say to them honestly. I feel left out in all the CT world no matter how hard I try. I keep thinking to myself what is wrong with where I'm at I wonder that a lot despite what has happened to me so far. Friends feel like sand to me.. they are in my hands than after time they slowly drift away. Its sad cause I feel like I try but it never seems to work out. If you know someone loves you but never shows it. what do you do? i don't know what more else i can do. ive gone out of my way to make myself available. yet people talk to others.. put up bulletins and can't even say hi to me My own sister is in her own world. I had to curse at her cause I couldn't take it anymore. 99.999% of the people i know i have to force to say anything to me. idk what else I gotta do ~~timmy~

Cleavage..
yes, i admit it after we talked i pulled out my cock and jerked off i saw those pictures of your legs of your ass of your breasts of your perfect pink nipples sticking out ready to be licked i thought of your hands reaching down between your legs to rub your clit and wished for just a moment you'd let me lick my way down from lips to neck to nipples to navel along your mound to the top of your clitoris where you might let me climb the mountain to your orgasm ooh yes i do not know you but i want you so badly.

Attention My Freaks....
I will be going out of town tomorrow after work until Monday afternoon. For those of you with my number...feel fee to use it. This trip ia a MUCH needed get away....to see my Sista... PS...last time i saw her i was bad...so maybe if you all pray enough i will be bad again and there will be more pictures...lol Yeah yeah so i kiss girls when i am hammered...get over it...or watch im awe...your choice!

Do Harleyss Rule ?
HARLEY-DAVIDSON Arthur Davidson, the inventor of the Harley-Davidson motorcycle, died and went to heaven.At the gates, St. Peter told Arthur, "Since you've been such a good man and your motorcycles have changed the world, your reward is, you can hang out with anyone you want in Heaven."Arthur thought about it for a minute, then said, "I want to hang out with God."St. Peter took Arthur to the Throne Room and introduced him to God.God recognized Arthur and commented, "Okay, so you were the one who invented the Harley Davidson motorcycle?"Arthur said, "Yes, that's me."God said, "Well, what's the big deal in inventing something that's pretty unstable, makes noise and pollution and can't run without a road?"Arthur was apparently embarrassed, but finally he said, "Excuse me, but aren't You the inventor of woman?"God said, "Yes.""Well," said Arthur, "professional to professional, you have some major design flaw s in your invention:1. There's too much inconsistency in the front-end prot

Why?
why do guys think they can screw around with girls hearts and minds. last night i barely slept a wink... instead, i cried... and when i didnt cry, and i did sleep, i dreamed of him... i got up exausted this morning, both physically and mentally... im all cried out, i cant anymore... im sick of being played as the fool. im sick of crying. sick of being lied to... i just want to be left alone. torn apart and teary eyed, signing off for now... i sure hope YOURE happy!

Song For The Ladies!! Lol
SING THIS LADIES.... LOUD & PROUD At first I was afraid, I was petrified. When you said you had 10 inches, Lord I almost died! But I'd spent so many years just waiting for a man that long, that I grew strong, and I knew that I could take you on... But there you are, another lie, I was ready for a Big Mac and you've brought me a French fry! I should have known that it was bullshit, just a sad pathetic dream Should have known there was no Anaconda lurking in those Jeans! Go on now - go! , Walk out the door, Don't you promise me 10 inches, then turn up with only 4! Weren't you a brat to think I wouldn't find you out!? Don't you know we're only joking when we say size don't count??!! [Chorus] I will survive! I will survive! Cuz as long as I have batteries, My sex life's gonna thrive! I will always have good sex, With a handful of latex! I will survive! I will survive! Hey! Hey! It took all my self control not to laugh out loud, When I sa

Sexual Iq
You have a sexual IQ of 122 When it comes to sex, you are a super genius. You have had a lot of experience, and sex interests you so you know a lot about it. You pride yourself on being a source of information and guidance to all of your friends. Take this quiz at QuizUniverse.com

Sex Complicates Everything
I have recently realized some things, unofrtunately I realized them through a horrible experience, breaking up....that song "Breaking up is hard to do"....well, they weren't lying.....it's awful...especially when you genuinely love someone and you lose them and for once, it's completely your fault...and i will let everyone know, idc, sex ruined my relationship....not saying i had sex with my guy, cause i didn't and i don't wanna ruin him as a person...he is an awesome, great, wonderful, loving guy and i shot myself in the heart when I did the things i did that caused me to lose him....and i will always hate myself for it...i don't think i will ever find it in my heart to forgive myself....it was the dumbest thing I have ever done....if people notice some changes specifically with pictures on here of me...what happened on my relationship is why those changes were made....cause I am starting now, today, this very second, and changing my life for the better....and it's not in an attempt t

Pussy!!!
OK - I am officially fed up with these 20 something ambercrombie whore douchebag fucks with their generic "I eat pussy" pick-up line hitting on me. You're so totally unoriginal and unimpressive. Stop acting like being able to lick pussy is accomplishing something in your shallow fucking lives. Apparently wit, charm and the art of seduction are waaaaaay above your skill level.

Guy's Vs. Girls
A guy's point of View......damn it girls read this shit!!! Current mood: aggravated Category: Life : A Guys Point Of View. We don't care if you talk to other guys. We don't care if you're friends with other guys. But when you're sitting next to us, and some random guy walks into the room and you jump up and tackle him, without even introducing us, yeah, it pisses us off. It doesn't help if you sit there and talk to him for ten minutes without even acknowledging the fact that we're still there. We don't care if a guy calls you, but at 2 in the morning we do get a little concerned. Nothing is that important at 2 a.m. that it can't wait till the morning. ******************************************************* Also, when we tell you you're pretty/ beautiful/ gorgeous/ cute/ stunning, we freaking mean it. Don't tell us we're wrong. We'll stop trying to convince you. The sexiest thing about a girl is confidence. ******************************************

A Letter To My Soul Mate....
IF I COULD WRITE MY FUTURE SOUL MATE A LETTER. I WOULD WRITE IT SOMETHING LIKE THIS.... DEAR ANGEL IN DISGUISE ,I'VE LONGED FOR YOU FOR SO LONG AND I ALMOST AM AT THE POINT OF GIVING UP ON YOUR ARRIVAL....ARE YOU EVER COMING? I NEED YOU RIGHT NOW (IN TEARS) I AM SO LOST WITH OUT YOU..I DON'T EVEN KNOW YOUR NAME......PLEASE HURRY BEFORE I'M AT THE POINT OF NO RETURN..I'LL FOLLOW YOU MY LOVE IN TO OUR FOREST AND LOVE YOU OHH SO DEEPLY.....I'LL GIVE YOU MY SOUL MY HEART MY STRENGTH..I'LL GIVE YOU ALL I HAVE JUST TO BE HELD AND TOUCHED AND EVEN IF YOU DON'T FEEL IT JUST TO HEAR YOU SAY "I LOVE YOU" WOULD SOOTH MY SOUL...THIS IS MY HEART WIDE OPEN REACHING OUT FOR YOU....WHERE EVER YOU ARE...WHO EVER YOU ARE HEAR ME CALLING OUT TO YOU.....I'M WAITING AND HAVE BEEN FOR SO MANY LONG YEARS....I HAVE TO TELL YOU MY BLOOD IS TAINTED FROM THE SCARS OF LUST AND IMPATIENCE AND I MAY NOT BE ABLE TO GIVE YOU ALL YOU NEED IN THAT AREA BUT I WILL SHOW YOU LOVE I WILL HOLD YOU..CARESS YOU.. KISS YOU.

Omg...i Have Some News For You
i found out that.... yup....i found out today because yesterday i took a friend of mine to get a pregnancy test. & as we were talking i mentioned the posibility that i might be...well long story short she made me nervous. i had taken one of those at home ones last week with neg. results but the doctor told me that last week was more than likely too soon for the at home test. so here i am freaking out at my doctor's office. i sent my husband sean a text asking him to call me when he got a chance. when he called me back & i told him the news he was in the mess hall eating his dinner. he was beyond happy & i heard him say, ""my wife is pregnant!!". after he said that there was a lot of hollerin & a few congrats being yelled out. so there we go. im pregnant...omg...im shocked, happy, & freaked out. i can't wait for sean to come home...just 10 more days.

Nsfw
Can someone explain to me why peoples pics are being rated Not Safe For Work? I do not want to hear the yadda, yadda, yadda crap that seems to be the norm. There are no children on Cherry Tap. Not like we have not been naked before or seen someone of the opposite sex. So what exactly is the problem. Even the word sexy as a comment is somehow causing a problem! A lot of times, the word SEXY I use because if I see something or someone that is SEXY, I tell them! I earned my Bach. Degree in Fine Arts, gone to a million museums in my lifetime and seen more revealing or to use the word risky in the museums. I am outraged because a friends photos that she made were flagged NSFW! My friend does BEAUTIFUL work on all morphs, tags, photos and everything she does! None of this makes sense to me copied from a friend

A Love For All Times
Breathless kisses Burning touches Soft-spoken words of love Urgently spoken words of passion. A man and a woman One complete love Since time began Predestined to be as one. We've been together before In other lifetimes We've fought dragons And have been torn from each others arms Yet our love prevailed. We've walked on this earth many times together Perhaps for a moment Perhaps for years But our heart is one heart And we were meant to be. So when our time on earth Once again comes to a close Have no worries my dear For we will find each other again And again And again. For our love is ageless Eternal A love for all time

A Misdiagnosis
I sometimes wonder where some of these doctors get their lisences. I had previously wrote about having yet another ovarian cyst. Yeah, that's not the case. I left work early yesterday with some serious pain in my abdomen and a fever. I was thinking that maybe the cyst I had ruptured or something. I went to the doctor and it turns out that yes there is no cyst. I was diagnosed with PID ( Pelvic Inflamatory Disease ) PID is a bacterial infection of the uterus and causes scarring. When it flares up, it brings pain and fever. Thankfully, this was NOT brought on by an STD. PID comes with some STD's, but I tested negative for all of them.( kinda hard to get one when you arent having any sex ) In any case, what they thought was a cyst is really scarring on my ovary. There's quite a bit of scarring. I am on antibiotics and we will see what happends. I am happy its something I dont have to worry too much about for now. I will deal with this the rest of my life, but that's ok. I know what it is

To Shave Or Not To Shave? Another Myspace Blog Gone Cherrytap Blog :)
And again... Most of this like asking for other people to do this with me is irrelevant to CT people because y'all arent from around my area hah... But just read and tell me what you think... And after you read it, vote on the MUMM Alice had to make for me because Im banned from making 'em hah: http://cherrytap.com/mum.php?id=39175 Thanks everyone! So I had went and was looking at my hair last night and I've been becoming kinda unhappy with how long its getting... And I had this wonderful idea really... To shave my head and donate my hair to the Locks of Love Organization. Its gonna take me a while to make up my mind on whether or not I want to do it, but having some peoples thoughts and opinions on the situation would help tremendously with my decision in the end. I know it would be for a good cause and I’m not just saying that I want to do this because of this whole Britney Spears stupid shit. She's too much of a inconsiderate dickweed to even care about donating her hai

Ron Artest Farts In Pacman Jones' General Direction
Ron Artest is being brought up on four charges by the local district attorney stemming from the incident between him and his wife. 1. Domestic battery 2. Corporal injury to a spouse 3. False imprisonment 4. Dissuading a witness from reporting a crime. Four charges that have a maximum sentence of one year and are all misdemeanors. But we all know that, assuming he has a good lawyer, any jail time will be surprising. Now David Stern gets a chance to follow Roger Goodell's lead and float a rumor about being tough on the criminals in his employ. The job has me in a Python mood today.

I'm Moving....
From 3-23-07 until 4-03-07 I will be very busy moving. I am not going to have much time to get on here. I will have to catch up with all you wonderful guys and gals when I finish...wish me luck...moving is such a pain.

Me
Saturday march 24th at just about 6pm I will be Bapized in the name Of Jesus Christ. Some of you know this already and some do not and whether you are a believer or not I hope that everyone that is considered my friend on here is happy for me and will send the best wished for me.

Wats On Your Mind?? **thought Of The Day** Comment & Rate
"one who seek this pasion of reward shall never abondon its consquences. the truth of love freewill wont set them free but true love of lust will. forever ones heart future will feel haunted if one escape thier past. ones mind becomes maniplated with thoughts and desire but deep down in pasion forever will its enemy be thier true soulmate." everyone who believe in the term "commands of commitment " shall be careful when sensing the future"

Testament *comments Rate Are Welcomed*
"My Reflections can make a an impression of everything that is true" you gotta make a sensual expression when everything engage nuetral. soon when everything is set right your ears spring it all just right you bring you visions of no worries warmth joy and freedom. My leadership may stir others but the followers must see past my point. u on the other hand will always have my path. i am destine to be with and in you always even through the darkest hours but never will our power be corupted by anything superior or inferior. that why my purpose show of creating our decendant inside you by given name Destiny. Your actions are my action when fulfilling our daily pasion for everything. my actions are your action when the outside world of greed and jealousy that would overpower us but the seed of our exposure using both the light and shadow will be in the compacity for worth not for grant. for each days and night wishes and desire i will always be inpregnant by your mind body and heart.

Testament Ii *comments And Rate Welcome*
"Sweet song of youth.. the wise..meeting of all wisdom" Every kiss ends with a smile it rains when u cry the wind blows when your angry it snows when you confused.. But no matter wat your sun will always shine when your calmed. Weather can interpolate each days events by its measure of how u feel. when comprehending stress the forcast becomes storm ranging from or to by hurricane or tornado based on body temperature that measures by its classification. by chance of effectiveness doesnt always summon right away or there after. your true emotions will indeed show cause only measure by the level of seriousness. Evidence that seek answer of cause and effect is hidden but it always respond weather depending if its postive or negative with side effects randomly by status only. "Sweet song of youth.. the wise..meeting of all wisdom" When u become angry the greatest strength above all and beyond inside u called "risk" your shield toward protecting against all threats of endangerm

Ufos
do people belive in aliens and ufos and stuff. you dont have to belive me if you want to. but when i was 13 i saw a ufo, in fact i might as well say the ufo saw me because i was walking on a small road next to a train track, and i saw something about 100 meters above me all i could see is 3 lights following me, i stopped on the spot i was thinking this thing would keep on moving, but no the 3 lights backed away the second i stopped walking, anyway i started walking again, and the 3 lights went above me moving the same speed as me, i stopped again, and the lights backed away the second i stopped, as this point i was starting to panic so i ran, the lights was moving the same speed as me,, than a train came by and the lights started to move off, ive never seen anything like that since then, it looked abit like this.

Testament Iii * Comments Rate Plz*
"Dreams are like bread crumbs...follow its lead all the way home" In this time of dynasty love is fought in battles of many but to embrace its meaning of one thing is to change another. we cultivate its challenge that amend our soul search of justice. our diversity comes from different background but how do we manage to carry out the loads pasions of each differences to determine acceptance and wanting. only in our dream are we able to tell who wat and which is the selectable. Dreams can be evidence of existance if its repeat twice only if u believe it. Dreams have power unlike reality. Dreams can read all the fine things and person we desire in life but cant and wont penatrate in reality without its belief been seen through your mind and heart. it existance is secretive just because u cant see it physically doesnt mean its not there. It not suppose to allow u to know its there but it expect u to hear see and feel its warmth and effect to give u a clue of chance to see if its r

Atlantic Sail Fantasy
Here is another story that was previously posted and is for all the new people who have joined since it was originally posted. (23) ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ North Atlantic Sail by Ms. Cleavage Copyright 2007 I was dining on the deck of my boat and I saw you lying in the deck’s lounge chair sunning yourself in the North Atlantic early evening sun, topless. You only wore the skimpiest of bikini bottoms with white bows of string holding this bottom on your body. Otherwise your body would have been completely nude. What a sight to see on this warm evening. The setting Arctic sun and your loveliness before me were too much for the senses to handle. Your breasts are magnificent. Your nipples are erect with the sea’s air tantalizing them as they are exposed for me and the God’s to see. I walk over to you to offer you a glass of only the finest of desert wines for our post dining pleasures. You open your eyes to see me approach. You offer your hand to re

Record Setting Dummy
Ok, I guess some people really dont read. Well, for those of you who dont and, obviously, that wont be applying to any of YOU because you obviously ARE reading, you just cant blame me for your ignorance. I say this with a point and as a result of a happening from this morning. Now, similar happenings occur on a regular basis. The most common annoyance are the umpteed fist-time messages/shouts from people saying "so, baby, you got a boyfriend or anything?". Well, to those delightful darlings, I dont even respond. Unless they get persistent I do give them the benefit of the doubt that, at some point, they will actually read, catch on that they came off looking like a dumb-ass, and I let them stay on. However, there are a few who get to the persistent/piss-me-the-fuck off point. Record setting start to delete-and-block case in point: Man shouts to me "Hey, baby, you look hot. I think you'd like to hook up with me the next time Im in Florida". I am happy to ignore him, smiling that

The Holly/mistletoe And The Ivy
I realise that this is about four months too late, but has anyone else noticed the fact that the mistletoe that comes from the gift shop is actually holly? I mean, I'm no botanist, but I can tell the difference. Weird. Do you still have to kiss someone, or can you just tell them to fuck off and run away? And does it count after Christmas? I have given this way too much thought...

Cats
Today I was in the sitting room... you know, chillin' out, maxin' relaxin'... and Naboo the cat was asleep on the couch. She was there most of the afternoon. Anyway, it's become apparent to me that whenever a cat's sat about the house like that then everyone who's in the room or anyone who passes through will stop for a minute, stroke the cat, tickle it's tummy, scratch it under the chin, etc, etc. This happens at regular intervals. Well I think this is a bit odd... Not because cats get this kind of special treatment, but because people don't. Yesterday I fell asleep on the couch for half an hour and at no point did anyone come by and give me this kind of a fuss. I dunno... Maybe I just know the wrong people.

Settling In
Moving into a new apartment can always be stressful. I’d been packing and unpacking for the last three weeks and was finally done. It was a Friday night and I’d had the day from hell. Being home, in my new apartment, was something I was really looking forward to. On my way home from work, I had stopped and picked up dinner and a bottle of wine. Since I wasn’t quite hungry yet, the dinner found it’s way to the fridge and the wine found it’s way into a glass. I slipped off my shoes and suit jacket and turned on the jazz CD in the stereo. I walked over to the blinds to close them when I noticed the apartment across the way. I hadn’t really had time to notice everything around the apartment yet. I hadn’t noticed that my patio window looked out across the walk to one of the other apartments. The patio window for the other apartment was open and I could see directly into the living room. What stopped me was the sight of a man sitting on the couch and a naked woman walking towards him.

Does Size Matter { Not What You Think}
so many men are worried about if size matters, cause most men only want one thing lol. But I want to know what you think is more important the size of a mans heart, or the size of his penis. I mean in my experiance have a big heart is more important cause im so popular with woman. tell you the truth only one woman knows anything about me below my belt, again because my heart is so big I never wanted tohave sex i only wanted to make love, to me there is a difference. what is more important to you though a big heart or a big penis? I am interested in what you all think.

My Two Cents......yes It's Back
FIRST OFF I WOULD LIKE TO REMIND EVERYONE THAT THIS IS THE INTERNET. PEOPLE TAKE THIS SITE AND THE GOINGS ON HERE WAY TOO SERIOUSLY. TAKE A MINUTE TURN OFF THE PC GO IN THE OTHER ROOM READ A BOOK, WATCH TV, KNIT A SWEATER. GET A LIFE. ITS EASY FOR MANY TO HIDE BEHIND THE KEYBOARD AND TALK BIG SHIT....BELITTLING, JUDGING, BERATING. MOST OF YOU ASSBAGS WOULD PROBABLY GET SLAPPED IN THE MOUTH IN REAL LIFE....YES REAL LIFE, BECAUSE GUESS WHAT FOLKS???? CT IS FANTASY ITS NOT REAL. THIS IS THE LAND OF MAKE BELIEVE... THE LAND OF MILK AND HONEY. WHERE YOU CAN PRETEND TO BE SOMEONE YOU'RE NOT. FOR THOSE OF YOU THAT JUDGE, BERATE, BELITTLE...GET A LIFE BECAUSE IF CHERRYTAP IS THE ONLY PLACE WHERE YOU CAN STAND ON YOUR BULLY PULPIT AND PASS JUDGEMENT YOU MUST HAVE A SORRY ASS LIFE. YOU ARE NO BETTER THAN THE NEXT PERSON. I'M TIRED OF SEEING DRAMA HERE. ITS OLD. AND I'M TOO OLD TO DEAL WITH IT. IF YOU'RE OFFENDED BY THIS....OOOPS!!!!! I'M SORRY..............NOT!!!

How Rude
You know i will never understand some people. You contact someone on here and talk then all of a sudden your blocked," what is that". Do these people not even have the common curtosy of telling the person hey i thought i might be interested but it did'nt work out so i would prefer not to chat anymore. No they just go in and block you without saying a word sorry but in my book this is'nt going to make you many friends, Come on people lets show a little more respect for others than that. Maybe not a big issue to some people but to me it is i mean if you don't want to talk, or your not interested, or whatever your reason just tell them we're all adults here sure we can take it. Thanks for letting me get this off my chest. xxxxooooo Angel

Racist On Ct
HotCollegeChick@ CherryTAP ALL THINGS SAID ARE SWORN TRUE AND THE CONVERSATIONS ARE ACCURATE TO THE BEST OF MY RECOLLECTION. HotCollegeChick, AKA Diane Morningstar, as she claims is her name. (She claims its a Native American last name, but I found her to be lying, she doesnt know shit about Native American culture) She sent me a private message. Claiming that she only gets on once a week, she left me a phone number. Well, I don't do so well with long distance since my cell craps out in my apartment, and the house line doesn't do outgoing long distance, so I left her my number back. A few days later, she calls me. The following conversation is not a lie at all. Most sayings are approximate, however accurate, due to the fact that I was so mad by the end, I could barely see: HCC: So, you're in the military? Wolf: Yes I am. HCC: Do you like it? Wolf: Yeah most days. HCC: (this is literally the third question out of her mouth) How many girlfriends have you had? Wolf:

Live Like You Were Dying
there comes a time in peoples lives when they must face the enevitable and they think "am i ready?"it doesnt matter about age,race,religion or wealth.when its time,its time.usually you dont ever get to know just when that time is,that can be a blessing or you can spend your whole life worrying when that time will be.then there are those who know when that time is comming,at least within a certain window of time.that to has good and bad points.you can plan and get things ready,true.you can do things youve always wanted to do but never had the nerve.you can say your good byes.the bad thing is everyday hangs over you.you become super sensitive of what others thought of you.you are afraid to meet new people.you are doubtful of your friends thinking,"well they know im dying,they cannt wait" or you take every thing to heart and your feelings are always being crushed.you cry inside yet you try to be brave and go on as though there was always tomarrow.the inner termoil is cruel.why me god,im n

The Tom And Jami Bs And Why I Boycott Their Happy Hour
OK , SO SOME OF YOU MAY OR MAY NOT HAVE SEEN MY RANT ON THIS.... JUST SO YOU KNOW WHAT IT'S ABOUT.... I CAME ON ONE MORNING (LIKE IN DECEMBER)TO SEE SOME SCUMBAG HAD LEFT ME SOME NASTY COMMENTS ON MY PAGE AND PICS AND HAD DOWNRATED THEM .... SUCH AS C*NT, WH*RE, ETC. ALTHOUGH I DIDN'T WANT TO, I WAS URGED BY MY FRIENDS TO MAIL SCRAPPER SO I DID... HERE IS HIS RESPONSE You just got to ignore it. Delete the comments and don't sweat it. Block the person and do not communicate with them. === '*HELLCAT*THE CONTEST IS ON!' spewed forth the following at '2006-12-22 05:01:53'.. > > Hi Scrapper > I awoke to some nasty comments left on my page today calling me a wh*re, c*nt, downrater (which I am not). Anything you can do? Thanks for your time. > HELLCAT SO, I LEFT THE COMMENTS, I FIGURED I'D LET EVERYONE SEE WHAT AN A$$ THIS GUY IS. OF COURSE I WENT TO HIS PAGE TO LEAVE A COMMENT BUT THE PU$$Y HAD ALREADY BLOCKED ME. YOU CAN STILL SEE THE COMMENTS HE LEFT ON MY PICS THAT I PUT "MAR

"in Your Dreams"
I am the knight that come's to you in the dark. I am who you see in your dreams,I am the cause of the sinsation just before you wake. I am what makes you want to rush back to sleep; in hopes that I will finish what I have started. As you fall asleep; It is your lust for me, that keeps you from satisfying yourself. the way i touch you makes your rivers flood,and your gasp for air,are only pleas for more. Your heart beats faster and faster and sweat soils the sheets beneath your thighs... with a manly force, I turn up the heat from the inside out. And in my final trust,your fingernails embeded in the sheets- and my explosive release. is what causes you to scream... As you take a deep breath, you open your eyes only to look into mine, and hear me say... I love you. Pheonix

Don't You Axe Me One More Twig!
them question-airs is retarded. us all knows that. it’s for dumbos who not know what else to make mention in theirs blog. i cannot for the 9 lives of me read all them neverending questions being axed froms peoples. and them answers is like yup, nope kinda darned. having jected that, I must say i found this one cutsy. it axe 52 questions. one for each weeks of the year. not that i will be ables to take this shit for a wholes year. nor wills you! 1. Sex is best in the morning, afternoon, or night? can’t we just terminate this sentence after “best” and make it a (wet) blanket assertion? 2. What side of the bed do you sleep on? i tend to sleep much better on the top of the bed. I hate clinging to the bedframe. 3. Pork, Beef, or Chicken? women tend to be insulted when their gina is compared to meat. and no, it doesn’t all taste like chicken. 4. Have you ever had to pull over on the side of the road to puke? don’t you just hate it when the fucking cop stick a finger in you

The End Of Time
The End of Time Time waits for no one. Live each day as if it were your last. Today, I took the kids to visit my Gram. My mom called me earlier in the week and told me that Gram’s doctor has diagnosed her with Congestive Heart Failure. She said to my mother the other day that she knows her heart is wearing out, and she’s preparing herself for the evident. It broke my heart to hear that. That woman means so much to me. She is a major part of who I am. When things within my own family were falling apart around me, she and my late Grandfather took me in. They gave me a home. They gave me stability, perspective, and most importantly, the ability to be a kid and grow, something my own parents couldn’t do. My Grandparents understood me more than my parents and my sisters did. And I always valued their opinion. I never looked at them as knowing nothing because they were too old and not with the times. I looked at them as the voice of experience and reason. They were

Story No.5
Just thinking about walking in and finding you blindfolded in front of me in some sexy lingerie, i lead you upstairs and bend you over the bend, quickly i tie your legs apart to the bottom of the bed and repeat the process with your wrists. next i stand up behind you, you can feel my hard cock against you I reach round infront of you and start to pinch your nipples with one hand, rolling it in between my thumb and forefinger making it hard, with my other hand you can feel me teasing my moving my hand up and down the shaft, you feel the tip against your anus and then i pull away. You moan softly as i release your nipple, i pick up a flogger thats laying by the the bed bend, you moan as the leather wraps around your very sexy arse, i do this a few times and again you feel me behind you, this time i take the handle of the whip and slowly push it inside your very wet pussy, i move it in and out you moan everytime one of the ridges of the handle goes inside you or gets pulled out, i bring y

New Pics!
If you haven't already discovered them, I posted a number of new photos. They're all the result of a photo shoot with my friend MikeNinja. (If you're interested in more photos of beautiful women, check out Mike's page. Also check out my friend CinDee's page, because he photographed her a couple weeks ago. The resulting photos are great!) Please, please, if you are not in my family, do not ask to be in my family. The family-only photos are family-only for a reason. And my family slots are basically full up. In other words, begging, pleading, or demanding to be in my family will only piss me off. Thanks to those who've shown me soooo much love over the past couple days so that I could level and post more photos. That includes jerjerjer, panthers84, Ace is Kinky, crazy bitch, mikeninja, blackhrses, Visions of Forever, Just Bill, buck_satan, Lee, boo, Brodie, and especially Kenneth, who seemingly rated everything possible on my page, including my entire stash and all of my ph

Why I Am On Probation
Many of you don't know the pathetic human being Opona aka Mouchy. So this blog won't make much sense but it does explain why i have 2 years probation. To all that know him will probley say to me "ya should have known" and i agree i should have. With about 8 years from talking to that prick you forget that he was a compulsive liar. Anyways, here we go. It all started when I had got an apartment with my so called Friend Sean Williams (of 12yrs). He kept in Touch with Opona and Opona was telling Sean his Hard luck story about having been fired from his job and haveing no where to live. So since i already helped Sean get back on his feet with a job and a place to live i thought i would pass this good deed on to Opona too. So i told him he was welcomed to come live with us rent free for 2 months with utilities included and that i would see about getting him a job. Well it took me about a week to get him a job at food lion. that may not sound like much but hey for a guy who ha

New Friends And Fans
Thanks for becoming either a friend or fan today! I got overwhelmed with requests and people rating my site. I can't currently keep up and will try to get to everyone ASAP. As for my NSFW I will open it up sometime tomorrow and will send out a bulletin letting you know. I've had way to many requests to let all of you in at once. Thanks and much love! XOXO Jackie

Now Flag This *ish Nsfw!
Yesterday I wrote a blog about a guy why whining about someone on my list giving them 1's....I took out names, and links when I posted it...I think some of you may have read it. Anyway, it was removed for NSFW content.....Bullish! It's not secret that at one time I was a bouncer and this is NOT a hit at the bouncers at all. Many of you may not understand all of what they do but it's not easy and I respect the position. HOWEVER!!!! Just because a member reports something as NSFW or offensive doesn't make it so. You are supposed to use your own judgement about if something is truly offensive or "if borderline, err on the side of caution"...worst case scenario...ASK another bouncer for a second opinion. Hell if you really have a question...ask ME ....LOL...*rollin* Those bouncers who have a handle on things and have been around a second Kudos to you! Some of you new one's...need retraining. Flaggins SFW pics, telling people who flagged them and all that ish is just out of

Anger
Dark, cold, bitter, desolate, venomous you are You push away everything good, you posion anything pure You feed from my pain like a leech, always there.....waiting for me to fuck up so you can feed As much as I try to deny you, your never far away, waiting for just the right moment. Much as I dispise you I need you. Yeah I said it, I fuckin' need you! For as much as you cause me great pain, consume my being when I allow you, bleed my soul of any pleasure in the moment........I need you. Over and over I try to deny you but you always eventually get the better of me. I hate you so much but without you I would be but a pathetic shell. Much as I wish you gone you keep me aware, sometimes focused, other times lost. If I cannot drive you from me then I shall embrace you, become the fed instead of the feeder. Make you do my bidding for a change. I will love you and cherish you and eventually control you. You WILL submit to me because you shall no longer co

I Am............
pregant... i found out friday. went to the docs yesterday and he told me yes you are about 5 to 5 1/2 weeks... i am so happy. told ya we were going to have fun while he was home on rnr...lol....this will be our sencond child...i go the 17th of april for an ultra sound. i will put a pic up then.. i am hoping all goes well threw this one..joey is really happy, but then again he does not have to push the baby out lol...we are hoping it will be a boy this time, then we will have a girl and a boy..and be done lol..i am glad the way it worked out cuz joey will be home before the baby is due, so he will get to see the baby born. just have to make it till sept when he gets home.

Quick Vent
you think I'm untrusting? can't imagine why. perhaps the countless times I gave all and was just stabbed in return? "you'll get over it. there's plenty of fish in the sea." yeah well fuck you! show me one that's worth being loved by me.

Why
Our inner being tells us if it’s true or not But do we listen? We cannot my a sound choice When our inner feelings Are battling the world of reality Sometimes we find refuge in our soul To hide from all the evil doers around us But……. Do we have some sort of gravitational pull? That seems to attract exactly what we don’t need in our life Is it that we have a sign somewhere on our person that states… “Wait until my defenses are down to hurt me” Cuz for some reason it just seems to go that way. We all have our types and it’s not easy to know if a person is full of it or not People nowadays have mastered the art of show and tell with their feelings and emotions The wolves in sheep’s clothing are more abundant each day I cannot fight the demons of the past I am not here for that I didn’t create them therefore it’s not my responsibility to vanquish them Your demons and skeletons are all yours. We both have them but we need to both put them aside if this is going to work

Players
Players The anticipation continually grew in my body as I stepped foot on the field. All geared up and ready to go. Mask pulled down over my face, marker in hand and extra paint in pods. I was ready to hunt the one who was hunting me. Or rather find the one who was somewhere on the vast field awaiting my arrival. I had a general idea of where he was, but the woods are big. But I knew I was determined to find him and let “OUR” game begin. There was only one other obstacle in my way and that was the other 400+ players. So I was going to have to fight my way through the woods to my goal. I knew I would have to survive at least 3 field base battles and who knew how many through the woods before I would find my lover. The sounds of my first battle were getting closer and closer with every cautious step I took. A paintball went whizzing by my head. I turned to look in the direction it came from with my finger tentatively hovering over my trigger. I didn’t see anyone t

Scissors :p
If you know someone with small children or you are a teacher, you will love this! Do you have a pair of scissors like these? I can certainly imagine seeing this one proudly displayed on the mother's fridge at home... Quote from the mom: 'This is my kindergartens' artistic rendering of a pair of scissors.' I wonder what his teacher thought. I allowed myself just a small smirk when I saw it. I waited until he was out of the room before I started crying, from laughing so hard.'

Me And My Feelings
WHY DOES IT SEEM NO MATTER HOW HARD I TRY, HOW HARD I WORK THAT ITS NEVER ENOUGH FOR ANYONE, WHY IS IT NO MATTER HOW NICE I AM OR HOW MUCH I TRY TO HELP ALL I EVER DO I HURT THE ONES I LOVE, IS IT MY DESTINY TO BE A FAILURE IN ALL ASPECTS OF LIFE.WHY IS IT NOT MATTER WHAT I SAY OR DO I ALWAYS GET TOLD YOU DONT BELONG HERE OR THIS ISNT THE PLACE FOR YOU OR YOU DONT BELONG GO BACK TO YOUR OWN KIND. HOW CAN IT BE SOMETHING WRONG WITH EVERYONE ELSE WHEN IM THE ONLY ONE THAT HEARS THESE THINGS . IT HAS TO BE SOMETHING WRONG WITH ME. I MUST BE THE PROBLEM. WHY MUST I ALWAYS BE THE ONE EMOTIONALLY IN PAIN WHY MUST I BE THE ONE WHO CRIES HERSELF TO SLEEP EVERY NIGHT. IM TIRED OF BEING THE ONE THAT ALWAYS FUCKS UP ALWAYS HURTS EVERYONE IM TIRED OF THE PAIN IM TIRED OF THE CRYING IT WILL ALL GO AWAY IF I JUST DISAPEAR.

Will This Person Please Identify Themselves!!
I've decided to take this public, to a certain degree, as it could cause me a real problem, lol! One of my past life companions is sending me energy the past couple of days, in the morning, my time - that's Central Daylight Time! This morning it hit between 7:15 and 7:30 a.m., WHILE I WAS DRIVING THE GUYS TO SCHOOL!! Yesterday, I received this energy around 10 a.m., again WHILE I WAS DRIVING, alone this time! The reason this is an issue is the particular type of energy I'm being sent - it is overtly sexual in nature!!!! I would not mind at all, although I would like to know who this is - I can't seem to figure that out; too many past lifers have made their presence known to me!! The problem is THIS OCCURS WHILE I AM DRIVING MY CAR!!!!! I was inadvertently hit with a blast of this flavor of heat last Fall and just about ended up in the ditch! Yeah, it is funny!! After the fact! WAS NOT FUNNY while it was occurring. Once the individual was made aware, and I strengthened my shields

Think Before Speaking
OK NOW THAT I GOT UR ATTENTION LISTEN UP. I AM SICK N TIRED OF HAVING PPL TELL ME TIME N TIME AGAIN THAT I NEED TO STOP BEING SERIOUS OR THAT I NEED TO GIVE THEM A CHANCE. FIRST OF ALL I AM 25 YRS OLD. I MIGHT BE IN A WHEELCHAIR BUT THAT DOESNT MEAN SHIT FOR THE SIMPLE FACT THAT I AM SINGLE N ON MY OWN... AGAIN I AM SINGLE... DO I LIKE BEING SINGLE? NO. BUT ITS MY CHOICE CUZ ALL GUYS NOWADAYS WANT TO DO IS MEET U FOR SOME FUN. I AM TOO DAMN GROWN FOR THAT. IF YA WANT TO GO SLEEP AROUND THEN GO AHEAD BUT DO NOT THINK IM GOING TO SLEEP WITH YA. I HAVE WAY TOO MUCH RESPECT FOR MY BODY. IF YA CANT SEEM TO RESPECT THAT AND ONLY WANT SEX OR SEE ME NAKED THEN GUESS WHAT DELETE ME FROM UR LIST CUZ IT WILL NEVER HAPPEN! GOT ME! CARMEN... PS. I CAN CARELESS WHO IS OFFENDED WITH THIS MESSAGE... IF YA DONT READ IT THEN U R NOT A FRIEND N ONLY WANT SEX.

Keep The Love Going
BAD NEWS THEY ARE PUTTING ME BACK INTO THE HOSPITAL TODAY.... MY LEGS TURNED PURPLE OVER NIGHT & MY LEFT HAND WENT NUMB.... I DON'T HAVE MY LAPTOP TO TAKE WITH ME THIS TIME... I ASK ALL OF YOU PLEASE KEEP THE LOVE FOR ME GOING... I DON'T KNOW WHEN I WILL BE GETTING OUT.... I WILL HAVE MY DAUGHTER OR MY HUBBY KEEP YOU ALL POSTED....I WILL CATCH UP WITH ALL OF YOU WHEN I GET HOME, AND AS SOON AS I HAVE A ROOM NUMBER & AS PHONE NUMBER AT THE HOSPITAL I WILL HAVE HUBBY OR DAUGHTER POST IT FOR YOU ALL WITH THE TIMES YOU CAN CALL ME.......... I LOVE YOU ALL XOXOOXOXO VELVET

Thanks 2 All & I Mean All Of The Awesome People/friends On Ct
I have made such awesome people on CT and CF.... It just really stinks that I have no way of meeting all of you.. I really wish that I could meet, shake hands and hug all of you.. But, alot of you live so far away and some/alot even in other countries.. which makes me wish I would / could win the lottery so I could actually travel to meet you all... So many of you have been so nice to me it damn near makes me cry thinking about it.. Thank you all for all of the care and respect that you have shown me .... It really means more to me than you could ever imagine!!! THANK YOU AGAIN ALL OF MY AWESOME FRIENDS AND FAMILY ON CT & CF ... Oh and THANK YOU TO THE CREATORS OF CT N CF WITHOUT YOU IT WOULDNT HAVE BEEN POSSIBLE!!! LOTS OF LOVE AND RESPECT TO ALL OF YOU FROM ME!!! JOE

Underwear Pt. 2
So I finally wore underwear today. Why? I dunno. But someone made a comment about it, asking me when was the last time I wore panties. LMAO It used to be a treat to skip the skivys from time to time...but now it's a treat to actually put some on. Also, I love bras. Pretty ones. Expensive ones. If you are lucky enough to see my bra, trust that its because I'm flaunting it. But today, well all week, they've been especially...um...gravity defying. So I decided to break free of the bra too. I'm an odd girl.

Snoop Dogg Is Not An Actor Damnit!
What the hell? I don't know the name of the movie I'm watching, however....stopped on BET, and Snoop Dogg is some supernatural, back from the grave guy. It's like a bad version of the Crow. There is a ton of blood, but it all looks fake. The acting sucks, the script is weak, the special effects suck. Grrr...Snoop Dogg is NOT an actor damnit. This is wrong on so many levels. And of course it's on BET, so every curse word is replaced...it sounds pathetic with every 3rd sentence containing you mother ducker, or flucker, or something of the sort. I swear I think it exchanged crazy cracker for crazy whacker too...unless whacker is some sort of slang term now?

Things To Think About
What I Am Learning I've learned that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is stalk them and hope they panic and give in. I've learned that no matter how much I care, some people are just assholes. I've learned that it takes years to build up trust, and it only takes suspicion, not proof, to destroy it. I've learned that you can get by on charm for about fifteen minutes. After that, you'd better have a big willy or big boobs. I've learned that you shouldn't compare yourself to others – they are more screwed up than you think. I've learned that we are responsible for what we do, unless we are celebrities. I've learned that 99% of the time when something isn't working in your house, one of your kids did it. I've learned that the people you care most about in life are taken from you too soon and all the less important ones just never go away. Appreciate it Maybe something good will happen. If not, tough shit. Life Hap

Jason
February 13th was Jason’s birthday. It snowed the night he was born and all day for the next two days we almost got stuck at the hospital with him. Joe was so excited when he was born since he was the only one there with me, for Zach and Haley there were other people there with me as well as Joe. March 21st was the day he died. As far as we all can tell it was SIDS. I feel so guilty, how could I have been sleeping while my son was dieing. And I also have been thinking a lot about how this will affect Joe and I. I’ve already lost my son I don’t think I could take losing him too. I’ve had him cremated I wasn’t ready to have him buried yet. We will bring his remains home today. I’m still in shock a little; I’m not sure how I should be dealing with this. I’ve become very depressed, but I guess that’s what is supposed to happen right now.

Wanna Continue!
................cont. My hands like silk run across her bodies desire My breath on her back setting her passion on fire The warmth of her moisture on my wondering hands She tries to caress my body then i take command Her hands pinned over her head none said to start Stoking her breast and feel the beat of her heart She shivers as i glide down kissing every spot Tasting her sent until she tells me to stop Back up her body as i begin to start to please I slide it in a little she likes it when i tease Breath to breath eye to eye i see she wants me in Her true climax i will reach to please i do begin cont...........................JW

Bitches Aint Shit But Hoes And Tricks....
So... for all of you who haven't heard me bitch about it yet, I was forced to move about half of my pictures to a NSFW folder because some hatin' bitch decided to tag them all. I'm leaving that folder public because, in my opinion,none of those pictures are in any way innappropriate. SOOOOO Have fun, take a peek, drop some comments if you haven't already... and rest assured new pics are on their way... xoxo Kristin

Gotta Escape
Fucking Fucking Fuck!!! Okay, there's this dude I don't like, well I fooled around with the person I thought was his ex (turns out not to be the case) and he comes after my blood. After years of me declaring me hatred after his being interested in women under the age of consent and his constant setting of my friends against each other by the controlled spreading of bullshit, I do something with someone I didn't know to be with him and he has the gall to declare a death threat against ME! Anyway this bastard shows up at my house at 23:30 to the irritation of my parents, who banned him from the house, and me, who was happily talking to friends online. I'm pretty enraged at this point but he fucking tells me that my words are worthless and he wants to beat me into the ground and if it wasn't for my friend he'd have killed me already (my friend is there being a middle man peacemaker). Trouble is this dude may talk shit but this stuff is to the point where I can take him seriously (an ac

New Endeavors...
I just wanted to share this via a blog because it was something that absolutely made my day today! After going through living hell for the past year and a half almost and its most certainly not over, things are slowly but surely turning around. As you read this email im gonna post I know some of my detractors on here will laugh at the amount I will be paid for this shoot but then again they don't understand the significance behind it or the premise of what I'm trying to do. Ya gotta start somewhere right? The coup here is if i get this job modeling the 2007 spring line for Bellacurves is not the money at all. It is the opportunity to actually do it and have other doors of opportunity open up. Ive struggled most of my life but am so hopeful that 2007 is gonna be my year to shine in all aspects of life. Money is not everything but it sure helps, friends and people I love im the wealthiest woman i know. I intend to have some fun with this and who knows? Ya may see me somewhere e

Morning After...
Morning After It is the morning following a wonderfully long night of love-making that ended far too soon. Having awakened before you I've been able to leisurely shower and dress before I begin to brush my teeth. In the process of this you walk beside me and catch my look in the mirror. I smile, despite the toothbrush in my mouth, and you smile back with a bit of a bold, slightly naughty look in your eyes. You say "I want you to undo your pants and slide them and your panties to the floor, don't step out of them, then put both hands on the counter, and keep the toothbrush in your mouth." I have no idea what will follow but I trust you completely, so I do exactly what you say. Keeping my gaze at all times through the mirror you tell me that seeing the toothpaste on the corners of my mouth reminded you of seeing your cum in and on my mouth. Right now you want me to use my imagination to expand the toothbrush to be another man's cock, that my mouth is filled with your cum but acce

No Title
Theres times when I feel like breaking down. Looking to the sky to only say goodbye. One last time. All the pain washes away. All I want is to feel free. To be me. Happy. A smile thats worthwhile. One Im proud to show. Instead Im riddled with inconfidance. The anger builds and I realize Im stuck. A situation I wasnt expecting. Kindness fucked me in the long run. Now Im trapped with no way out of this black hole. Save me with all you are. Its all I will ever need. These walls must come down. I must stand my ground. A distance that seems to settle. It brings a loneliness without her. Im here and shes there. You have what it takes to makle this go away. One day soon we will be everything we have always wanted to be. We will be it together. This rut is temporary.

A Must Read
WOULDN'T IT BE GREAT TO TURN ON THE TV AND HEAR ANY U.S. PRESIDENT, DEMOCRAT OR REPUBLICAN GIVE THE FOLLOWING SPEECH? My Fellow Americans: As you all know, the defeat of Iraq regime has been completed. Since congress does not want to spend any more money on this war, our mission in Iraq is complete. This morning I gave the order for a complete removal of all American forces from Iraq . This action will be complete within 30 days. It is now time to begin the reckoning. Before me, I have two lists. One list contains the names of countries which have stood by ou r side during the Iraq conflict. This list is short. The United Kingdom , Spain , Bulgaria , Australia , and Poland are some of the countries listed there. The other list cont ains everyone not on the first list. Most of the world's nations are on that list My press secretary will be distributing copies of both lists later this evening. Let me start by saying that effective immediately, foreign aid to th

Why Do I Feel This Way
why do i feel this way why wont the hurt abide why cant i just stop feeling would not feeling make it any easier? the thoughts that go on in my mind, take me back to another time. When days were carefree, and i never wanted for anything. but someone to call my my own, and do my own thing, Life is complicated, and so is this thing called love, When did it become so so hard Just to say " I love You"

Young Love
What ever happen to young love where we used to hold hands and think that was all we had to do we didnt expect anything out of one another, We lived today for what it was, we live like there would never be a tomorrow. Now that young love is gone. Theres to many factors. Like how much one loves the other. and who loves who more. its not like we were in grade school. where a note meant that you would be together forever. Nothing last forever, we find that out as we grow up. Love is supposted to make the heart swell, but in most cases it lets us down. Most of us wear our hearts on our sleeves. but that means when we do that we open ourselves to be hurt. Can anyone tell me what happened to Young Love?

Life
I guess thats it bob will be gone i cant seem to find anyone to wanna hang out with me or go out with me or just talk, I used to be on my space but nobody there would talk to me, So I thought cherrytap was the answer but i guess not I have been to damn near every, personal, and friend network page and still cant find someone who like me so i will be deleting my profile, and just sit in my lazyboy chair and waste away I hope everybody has a great and full happy life. Not like anyone is reading this, if you are you probaly made a mistake. Farwell, o'sweet cherrytap.

My Son
I know sometimes my blog becomes a place for me to express my frustrations with life... and share the drama, the obstacles, the crossroads that I stand at trying to make decisions. So this time I will write about my son.. the happiest part of my life. David will be 12 on April 14th. Last time I measured he was 5'3", and that has been awhile. He has always been big for his age, being 23 1/2 inches long when born. He does great in school. All A's the first 2 marking periods. He plays violin and sax. Tomorrow he will be playing his violin in a District Orchestra. :) He sings in the choir as well. He plays soccer in the spring and fall. He isn't an athletic kid, but he tries and loves to be out playing with the other kids. Soccer season starts in a few weeks and then I will be seeing him every weekend. I know it means a lot to him that I go to the games, so I make the trip for every game, even scrimages. He prefers playing defense to offense. He is the type of kid th

In Case You Were Wondering...
AIGHT HAVEN'T BEEN AROUND. GOT INTO A HARDCORE CAR ACCIDENT THIS TIME. BROKE MY LEFT ARM AND COLLAR BONE. WAS IN THE HOSPITAL FOR A BIT FOR THAT. ON TOP OF THAT MY VIDEO STORE GOT BROKEN INTO MAJOR DAMAGE AND HARDCORE LOSE OF MERCHANDISE. THEN SOME FUCK HACKED MY FUCKING CHERRYTAP ACCOUNT, BECAUSE THIS SITE IS RUN BY FUCKTARDS AND THEY MAKE IT VERY EASY TO DO SUCH THINGS. SO I'M IN MASSIVE PAIN, HURTING BAD ON FUNDS CAUSE INSURANCE COMPANY IS TRYING TO SCREW ME, AND SOME LAME FUCKER WAS ON HERE AS ME SENDING BULLSHIT EMAILS TO PEOPLE AND MANAGED TO SPEND ALL MY BANK ON SHIT FOR PEOPLE I DON'T EVEN KNOW. NOT IGNORING ANYONE JUST REAL PISSED RECENTLY. SO HOPE EVERYONE IS DOING BETTER THEN ME, AND WHEN I'M UP TO IT I'LL BE BACK WITH A FURY NEVER BEFORE SEEN ON THIS FUCKING SITE. PEACE OUT AND SHIT.-BILL. P.S. NAKED AND BROKEN!!

Dahlia 'n' Ken
His position is really that of a teacher within the company. He's not a manager, but is within the "inner circle". Often he must ask a secretary to help him. Often he teases with them. He is not unpleasant to look upon, and has wonderful caring eyes and a nice smile. All the girls in the office enjoy him, and feel safe with him... hoping that they will be the recipients of his shoulder rubs. Dahlia is a tall, slim blonde. She is a nice young lady with her sexual drive in over drive... and under drive... and drive me against the wall drive. She usually gets any man in the company she wants, and she could have any of the men she wanted as well. Yet... "he" somehow escapes her. How can he resist her whiles? It as if... "is he gay?" she wonders. "Dahlia." He steps into her office. Her eyes rise slowly, appreciating the profile of his buns as he hangs on the door frame. "Dahlia, I've got some papers to get ready for the next training class. Do you have time to help me?" "One conditi

Wanna! (conclude)
I slide back down for one more taste For all the juices I will not waste. I tell her its time that she can touch And this is the moment she wants so much Lift both her legs up and pull on her hips Ready to taste those soft pink lips Shes holding my head and pulling my hair Im eating her right shes starting to swear Hips start to move up,down and side to side Im sticking my tounge way deep down inside She begins to shake and her legs sqeeze so tight I making her cum and this will last all night I said im not gonna finish til she is done Moving back to her kiss so she can taste her cum We begin to make love, our bodies start to sweat She hits her climax once then twice, not done yet

Have Tissues Ready!!
She jumped up as soon as she saw the surgeon come out of the operating room. She said: "How is my little boy? Is he going to be all right? When can I see him?" The surgeon said, "I'm sorry. We did all we could, but your boy didn't make it." Sally said, "Why do little children get cancer? Doesn't God care any more? Where were you, God, when my son needed you?" The surgeon asked, "Would you like some time alone with your son? One of the nurses will be out in a few minutes, before he's transported to the university." Sally asked the nurse to stay with her while she said good-bye to son. She ran her fingers lovingly through his thick red curly hair. "Would you like a lock of his hair?" the nurse asked. Sally nodded yes. The nurse cut a lock of the boy's hair, put it in a plastic bag and handed it to Sally. The mother said, "It was Jimmy's idea to donate his body to the University for Study. He said it might help

Sup
Time Understands Love Once upon a time there was an island where all the feelings lived; Happiness, Sadness, Knowledge, and all the others......, including Love. One day it was announced to all of the feelings that the island was going to sink to the bottom of the ocean. So all the feelings prepared their boats to leave. Love was the only one that stayed. She wanted to preserve the island until the last possible moment. When the island was almost totally under, Love decided it was time to leave. She began looking for someone to ask for help. Just then Richness was passing by in a grand boat. Love asked, "Richness, Can I come with you on your boat?" Richness answered, "I'm sorry, but there is a lot of silver and gold on my boat and there would be no room for you." Then Love decided to ask Vanity for help who was passing in a beautiful vessel. Love cried out, "Vanity, help me please." I can't help you", Vanity said, "You are all wet and will damage my beautiful boat." Next, Love saw S

'nuff Said!
A United States Marine was attending some college courses between assignments. He had completed missions in Iraq and Afghanistan . One of the courses had a professor who was a vowed atheist and a member of the ACLU. One day the professor shocked the class when he came in. He looked to the ceiling and flatly stated, "God, if you are real, then I want you to knock me off this platform. I'll give you exactly 15 minutes." The lecture room fell silent. You could hear a pin drop. Ten minutes went by and the professor proclaimed, "Here I am God. I'm still waiting." It got down to the last couple of minutes when the Marine got out of his Chair, went up to the professor, and cold-cocked him; knocking him off the platform. The professor was out cold. The Marine went back to his seat and sat there, silently. The other students were shocked and stunned and sat there looking on in silence. The professor eventually came to, noticeably shaken, looked at the Marine and asked, "What the h

Some Days Suck
Ok, so sometimes things suck for the Van-Man. And other times...they suck worse. Yesterday was one of the semi-suck days. Work is horrid. One of the busiest days I've ever encountered. Customers everywhere, phone ringing off the hook....agh. Then I have some tournaments to prepare, phone calls to make...the cable's acting up, one of the maintenance crew members has the sprinklers on the 5th fairway on at 11 am...AGH!! It's one thing after another, I had a pile of shit to do that would take 3 days if I wasn't busy....and then the chef cuts her thumb off. Great, throwing bloody frosting on a cake made out of shit. AHGH!!...but then I'm off work, which is cool, because I'm gonna hook up with a slut..right? Welp...that doesn't work out, so I go for a fallback. I MAY be able to score, but it's worth a shot...(the thought process of all men, why not try?) It winds up being a loss...and now I'm semi-drunk and bored by 8 pm...day is a total washout. On the plus side I went to a friend's

Stalker
I HAVE DEBATED RATHER TO SHARE THIS WITH EVERYONE BUT IF I HAVE BEEN A LITTLE WEIRD LATELY ITS BECAUSE I AM BEING HARASSED BY SOME IDIOT WHO IS STARTING TO FREAK ME OUT. I BLOCK HIM ON CT AND YAHOO AND HE KEEPS COMING BACK WITH A DIFFERENT SN. SO IF YOU HAVE ASKED ME FOR MY YAHOO ID LATELY AND I HAVE BEEN RELUCTANT TO GIVE IT TO YOU THEN THIS IS THE REASON. BUT I HAVEN'T HEARD FROM HIM IN A COUPLE OF DAYS NOW SO MAYBE HE GOT THE HINT AND WENT TO PLAY IN THE SANDBOX OR SOMETHING.

My Great Love
You were my one great love But now you belong to another I broke up our relationship But I'm the one hurting. How I miss your scent And your bedroom eyes I miss your kisses I miss your hugs I miss you I long for the days long ago The days when we couldn't get enough of each other I thought we would marry and have our own home But when I told you I wasn't ready to marry You became disconnected and distant You are happy now You are at peace I will always carry you in my heart Please don't forget me Remember how much I loved you Stay happy Make your dreams come true Goodbye my love Always and Forever

Still Hurt
For those of you who don't know, I was engaged last year and due to be wed on last Halloween. Things didn't work however and now I am stranded with only the faint memory of happiness and thought of what could have been. Heather is her name (hence the name of this blog) and she is a wonderful woman. Her and I met the night of my sister's birthday, January 2nd 2005 at which time heavy flirtation transpired. I don't know how drunk she was but, I was fucking trashed! Anyhow, We flirted all night, in spite of the fact that my then girlfriend was sitting right there watching, and some point during random touching I used my right index finger to mark her chest with the wiccan ruin symbol for love, I wasn't a practictioner at the time so I thought nothing of it, and at the end of the night went our seperate ways. Now here is where things get complicated, my then girlfriend and I broke up and Heather called me out of the blue to have me come fix her computer, which needed to be completely resto

I'm Prepared To Give My Life For This Or Any Other Country
by Curtis Stalbank The Onion March 28, 2007 http://www.theonion.com/content/opinion/im_prepared_to_give_my_life_for As a true patriot, I would gladly die in battle defending my homeland. I love my country more than my own life. But I would also be more than willing to give my last breath in the name of, say, Mexico, Panama, Japan, or the Czech Republic. The most honorable thing a man can do is lay down his life for his country. Or another country. The important thing is that it's a country. Like those heroes who spilled their blood fighting for independence against the British Empire, I, too, would forfeit everything to win for my countrymen the right to be governed by politicians in our own capital instead of in a capital located further away. Nothing is more profound or more sacred than to die for one's country, an adjacent country, or some other, foreign country. The truth is, there are a lot of countries, each of which is the most noble cause possible to die for. I onl

I'm Pregnant!!!!
I just found out I am having a baby and I am so excited...That's just what i need to bring some excitement back into my life!!!!!I am going to be getting married too..I AM SO HAPPYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!! I hope you all are happy for me too!!!! MUAH!!!! Michele P.s. Yeah Right..April Fool's !!!

Need Prayer
hello all my family and friends i am really needing alot of prayer.. My uncle who was only 55 passed away this morning he was like a dad to me and well i been getting sick.. so please all give me the strength to get myself through this i love and care for all my family and friends here .... so i come to you all ... just to say ty all you the best

Haze
I've been sitting here, trying to write something, all the while in a weird Ambien CR induced haze. I've not been entirely successful. I spend so much of my time lately just writing, but it all just turns out to shit. No good. My brain is way too muddled with the ridiculous book I have been doing for the AZ guy. It has mostly been transcribing from his audio recordings. That doesn't make it exciting at all. I slap in the CD, put on my head phones and I get to writing. I worried at first, before I started, that I would have a hard time with the transcription. In person, the guy talks too fast and he mumbles quite a bit. So, when I agreed to the job, I requested of him that he speak slowly into the recorder, with an even voice. So, now, I get monotone. No inflection, no excitement. That makes it easier to follow along for transcription, but, damn...it freakin' puts me to sleep. As of now, I have transcribed 212 pages. We are only up to his 30's. He's 73. I fear I have a lo

Please Repost...
Evelyn Hackett My Great-Grandmother, and second mother to me.... one of my most favorite persons I have ever known.... and what an honor it was to know such an amazing person.... Sadly..... she started going downhill in the nursing home last week.... she had a bad infection from not being able to get out of her bed, and she couldn't handle alot of meds.... We got a call from my real mother saying that my great-grand mother was asking for my grandmother.... and right away panic set in. We all rushed out there right away.. well, when i got there she wasn't able to speak, probably from the painkillers they gave her for her leg... She really started to go downhill from there... for once all of our family, my uncles, cousins, everyone... we were actualy all together... We didn't get many responses from her.... well not many people did... She knew me right away man.... despite all the meds and pain, I was able to see how happy she was when she recognised me.... lol...

The Cremated Husband Roflmao!!!
The Cremated Husband Martha recently lost her husband. She had him cremated Picking up the urn that he was in, she poured him out On the Patio table. Then, while tracing her fingers in the ashes, she Started talking to him.... "Herman, you know that dishwasher you promised me? I Bought it with the insurance money!" She paused for a minute tracing her fingers in the Ashes then said, "Herman, remember that car you Promised me? Well, I also bought it with the insurance Money!" Again, she paused for a few minutes and while tracing Her fingers in the ashes she said, "Herman, that Diamond ring you promised me? Bought it too, with the Insurance money!" Finally, still tracing her fingers in the ashes, She Said, "Herman, remember that blow j ob I promised you?" Here it comes...

Now That's A Brithday Present!
I've been working in State prisons as a Correctional Officer for over 7 years now. I started that career at the Kentucky State Reformatory in La Grange, Kentucky on January 7, 2000. When I moved back in December of '06, I'd planned on putting in my 2 weeks notice and drawing whatever retirement I had to live on while I job hunted, as I was moving almost 200 miles away from where I worked. Talk about a commute! Personnel had a different idea though. They'd asked me how long I'd been in, and upon hearing that it would be seven years, commented, "We can't lose THAT much experience!" (More likely, they just didn't want to pay out that much retirement, if I want to be cynical about it.) Their counter-offer was to transfer me to Northpoint Training Center, another prison, located outside of Danville, Kentucky. "Do you know where Northpoint is?", they'd asked. "No", I replied. "Do you know where Danville is?" "Vaguely", was my answer. It's still a killer commute for my wallet. I'm cu

Pullin My Hair Out
WHY IS IT THAT WE FEAR CLOSENESS AFTER A LOSS OR BEING DUMPED OR WHATEVER THE FUCK WE WENT THRU..I AM AT A LOSS AND I AM TIRED OF FEELING LIKE I HAVE TO THROW MY HOPE ASIDE AND WAVE THE FLAG OF SURRENDER TO CONFORM TO THE NEGATIVE PEOPLE OUT THERE THAT BOTTOM FEED ON A PERSON'S SELF ESTEEM AND SELF AWARENESS SLOWLY BRAKING THEM DOWN. WHY DO I HAVE TO FEEL LIKE I CAN'T HAVE MY OPINION OR FEELINGS ACKNOWLEDGED? THEY ARE MINE I OWN THEM..THEY ARE PART OF MY CORE VALUES AND I WILL NOT ALTER MYSELF TO BE MORE POPULAR OR TO HURT SOMEONE OR FOR ANY OTHER KIND OF GAIN...IF YOU DONT LIKE ME YOU DONT...I REALLY DONT GIVE A FUCK..I LOVE ME..I AM GENUINE AND I BELIEVE IN LOVE AND I AM BETTER OFF BEING ALONE IF NEED BE..PEOPLE WILL TRICK YOU INTO THINKING YOU ARE NOT WORTHY AND LIE TO MAKE THEMSELVES FEEL BETTER BECAUSE THEY ARE SO BRAINWASHED AND HAVE NO SELF ESTEEM..THEY ARE ALL ABOUT PLACING BLAME INSTEAD OF OWING UP TO THEIR SHIT AND PROJECT HATRED ...THEY ARE SO PISSED THAT THEY CANT PULL T

A Trip Down Memory Lane!
DO YOU REMEMBER WHEN...? All the girls had ugly gym uniforms? It took five minutes for the TV warm up? Nearly everyone's Mom was at home when the kids got home from school? Nobody owned a purebred dog? When a quarter was a decent allowance? You'd reach into a muddy gutter for a penny? Your Mom wore nylons that came in two pieces? All your male teachers wore neckties and female teachers had their hair done every day and wore high heels? You got your windshield cleaned, oil checked, and gas pumped, without asking, all for free, every time? And you didn't pay for air? And, you got trading stamps to boot? Laundry detergent had free glasses, dishes or towels hidden inside the box? It was considered a great privilege to be taken out to dinner at a real restaurant with your parents? They threatened to keep kids back a grade if they failed. . ...and they did? When a 55 Chevy was everyone's dream car...to cruise, peel out, lay rubbe

Feeling Sad
Just how I feel tonight... The most difficult thing to say is goodbye You try to go on but all you do is remember and cry You will not forget the good times we had Miss me you will and make you sad I am sorry to be blunt and point out this But even now you crave for my touch and a kiss You think how cruel this word can be But it did allow you to fall in love with me I hate to dwell on the things of the past An impression I made on you that I know will last Throughout the rest of your life My words cut you like a knife One day take a moment and think of me The poet, the lover, the man I used to be

Down Rating
ok, man period time again. lately i have noticed that random people have been rating my page. which has been cool, i like some unexpected exposer, lol. but now an then ill get a 9, or 6, or a 1. hell, i bet some of those fuckers would rate a zero if they could. it seems im not the only one getting down rated here. however, my argument remains the same. why do we have them if we arnt supposed to use them? it all boils down to this, i dont give a shit. i remember in high school, getting called stupid. was i stupid? no. did being called stupid make me stupid? no. so, why do people here make a big deal about it. it seams like all the petitions going around to put a stop to it, only feed it. go about your daily lives like nothing happens, soon they will get bored and find some other way to make their tiny penis hard again. im not a 10 anyway. ok, man period over. toodles.

Family Coming
Hey yall! Just thought I would let everyone know that as of Friday I won't be on here as much for like a week. SOME of my family is coming to visit from Michigan so I am gonna be spending time with them. I will be on from time to time to leave some love and all just not as much. They are stayin till the 15th so I am hoping we will have some fun when they are here!! Hope everyone has a GREAT Easter! Love you all!!

Liarrrzzz
Meh is sikk n tired of deh fukkin liarz and sneeekz here on ct yarly. dere are too manie now fo meh to pwnd alone fo sho! Help meh pwnd sum liarzz and sneeekie n00bz on ct fo sho! Comment deh blog wit yer thoughtz on deh issue yalry and add yerself to tell every1 to stop bein a piece of fukkin crap yarly. Itz gettttin old fo sho! Music Video Codes By Music Jesus.com

Ex-wives
I am divorced with 2 kids a 8 yr old daughter and a 6yr old son. We hae joint custody of the children. My son was born with brain damage and mentally is mentally at the level of a 4 4 1/2. He goes to public school but of course the work is modified. My children and I hae a very good relationship and they are truly the lig of my life. I et lunch with them at school at least once a week sometimes more. I go to every practice or performance they have. MY sons class had a school program this morning at school and no one ever told me about it. I missed it. His teacher called me this afternoon saying he was crying that his daddy wasnt there. I had no idea it was takign palce. The teacher informed me that she had sent a note home and had included an extra copy home askign their mother to forward it to me. I was so sad for my son and extremely preturbed with my ex. She didnt tell me because she and her new hubby (that she met when they were both patients at a mental hospital and she knew t

Default Pic
AS you can see I have changed my profile picyure as I am fed up of the losers how are contantly downrating my other pictuer and I have also made my pics only availible to friends and family only..such a pity to have to do it but you can thank the losers for making me do it....I for one have never given less than a 10 for any ones pictures and have given a thumbs up to anyone's stash apart from 1 mistake and I did accnowledge that it was a mistake..this rubbish has got to stop but whats the point in saying anything to the guy at the top......mail him and he does not reply so it looks as if the losers feature is here to stay!!!!!!!!!!. ok you can go back and do what ever you were doing now....CLASS DISMISSED.........LMAO

Runs In Family
george bush sr and george bush jr was talking one day. When george sr told george jr i see you made a big mistake like me. George jr said explain it to me dad n george sr ok son i will. george sr said see your mistake is you didnt pull out of iraq soon enough and my mistake was i didnt pull out of your momma soon enough......lamo

Mr. Confidence
first let me say - this is the darkest most negative little 'poem' ive ever written - it was written a couple years ago - and now i give you 'mr confidence' ------------------------------------- i am like... a billion fucking people youve never ever met i am the upper 1% the eschelon of human brokenness... i am the hallmark of intelligence used for its most ignorant ends i am mr. confidence i do not censor i dont remove i worship the purity of the crude i am an absolute mistake a wasted truth thats developed and grown more warped and wrong each and every day and i am a carbon copy thats degraded faded into a black and dirty smear as worthless as anything else youre likely to have the misfortune of hearing here and i... will fuck you for the joy of knowing i fucked you for the joy of knowing i will never love you i will never be the one that wakes up in the morning with a smile on their face i will only be the one that wants to escape

Did You Know Tihs?
that many of the people on your friendslist on here are sooo somewhat for useless, because they even don't think that they are worthy to talk to you? it's a fuckin fact... they say they are "too busy" but most actually don't bother their asses to reply on messages and such... and let me tell you puppies ... you "to busy" people... you suck!

What I Do!
THIS WAZ 4 A FEMALE THAT I WAZ TALKIN 2 BUT WE DONT TALK ANYMORE & SHE NEVER GOT THIS, IT WAZNT 4 ANYTHING JUST GOT IT 4 HER BECUZ THATS JUST THA THINGS I DO!"ALL I WANT IZ 2 LOVE U 4 THA REST OF MY LIFE..2 WAKE UP EVERY MORNIN WITH U BY MY SIDE, KNOWIN THAT NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, I'L BE ABLE 2 COME HOME 2 YOUR LOVEIN ARMS. ALL I WANT IZ 2 SHARE EVERYTHING WITH U..2 TALK 2 U ABOUT OUR IDEAS, DREAMS, THA LITTLE EVERY DAY THINGS THAT MAKE US LAUGH, & THA NOT-SO-LITTLE THINGS THATWE CANT HELP WORRYIN ABOUT.ALL I WANT IZ 2 GIVE U MY LOVE..AZ A PLACE U CAN ALWAYS CUM 2 FOR ACCEPTANCE OR THA SIMPLE COMFORT THAT SILENCE BRINGS WHEN THINGS LEFT UNSPOKEN CAN STILL BE UNDERSTOOD.ALL I WANT IZ 2 GROW OLD WITH U..2 WATCH OUR LIFE UNFOLD, OUR DREAMS, ONE BY ONE CUM TRUE. ALL I WANT IZ 2 LOVE U 4EVER!

Another Ex Wife Drama
Wow two days and two problems with the ex wife involving my kids. Besides a school program for my son that I was not told about by the ex my son also had a Special Olympics track meet yesterday that I was not informed of. He won two first place ribbons and I missed it because no one told me about it. I could understand if the ex intended to attend this event but she didnt even go to it either. SO my son had no one there to share his two gold medals of glory. I dont know what else to do. The school has been no help. I went to talk to my sons teacher today about this and this is what I ws told. " Mr. Hollenbeck there, _ _ _ has told us that she doesnt know if the kids will be dsafe with you coming to the school. She said you were abusive! This just blew me away. She had tried to claim this in the divorce and had even taken a restraining order out against me claiming abuse. SHe even swore an affidavit of an incident of abuse but upon cross examination on the stands she could not recall he

Rating
I had to laugh this morning when someone (no idea who) rated my default pic (which is currently my drawing called Posiedon) a one. Now if they really thought it would up set me they were wrong. Now had they the balls to rate it a one and tell me why they rated it that way it may have carried some weight. But in all reality unless you tell me why you down rate my art it makes no difference to me if you rate it less than a ten. This is the internet and I probably won't meet most of the people I talk to on a regular basis so why would I care if some anonymous person down rates my work? I do have lots of people who love my work and should one of them tell me that a piece of my work in not up to par that I would take note of. So if you think down rating is upsetting me your so so wrong. I actually hope you enjoy it cuz that is all your getting from doing it.Ok done with this rant now LOL I am having an awesome day how about you?

How Rude
Error: you're not allowed to do this. I get that anytime I try and comment on ANYTHING! that means mums and pics stashes including my own shit..I;ve been very careful not to rate or comment to fast now this..well fuck you! I wrote the help longue thingy now just waiting for a responce...I can't even comment on my own fucking blog Fucking Hell!

Thank You....
to those few that wished me a early Happy Birthday yesterday....Its much appreciated.... And for the rest...Im hurt by the apathy you have shown me.... Im sorry if Im not a dirtbag like Fat Sonny or a wanna be like Bobbi Doll....Im just me... If you dont like that then please remove yourself from my friends list because you really ARENT my friend in that case... Thanks.. PS. TODAY is my birthday...lol..

A Little Bit More ...
LOVE: i love having sex doesn`t matter if it`s with a girl or a guy or both, sometimes i love it when i have people watching me have sex( but not all the time) love laying out by the pool or on the beach tanning, listening to music, playing pool, or just being lazy while hanging with friends DISLIKES: men who r perves all the time or who think men r superior to women, girls who r bitter and bitchy who have nothing else to do than to put others down to make themselves feel better, liars, cheaters, bad drivers and most of all insecure people

Happy Saturday, Everyone!
I survived my night out with my nieces and their friends! I haven't done tequila shots in years, lmao! And Sarah introduced me to Jager Bombs, what fun, lol! Danced alot, refused to sing, was dragged from one bar to the next, lmao! And a good time was had by all! They did make me spend the night on Sarah's couch, just to be safe!! Haven't had that much fun in quite a while! Love you, Sarah; and Happy Birthday, sweetie! Taylor is a happy camper! A couple of the guys he knows at the high school asked him to join their newly formed band. He is so very pleased and I am happy for him! Just wish he could get his grades up, lol! I think I may need to take a nap today, lol! Not used to those late hours anymore! Have a wonderful Saturday, everyone! Much love and warm hugs for one and all! Have a lovely Easter!! Blessings, all over the place, lol! Later!

Actually About Hair
Some time ago, I had to come to terms with the fact that I was going bald. Despite the reassurances of my family ("your hairline's always been there", "It comes from the female side of the family and you're Grandad had a full head of hair until the day he died") I knew that the gap between my hairline and my eyebrows was expanding. I don't have a problem with this. I shave it very short and women I barely now ask if they can rub my head. This is a good thing. As well losing hair, getting older also seems to involve GROWING hair. Primarily in places where it seems less than necessary. Nostrils for example. What happens later in life that means you need longer nasal hair? Part of the reason I grew a beard was so that if I was feeling lazy, I could let nose and upper lip merge (this is a joke). The beard is also a bit strange now. I've had it one for or another for 8 years, and it's A) getting curlier and B) going grey. Fantastic. All of these things I can cope with. The thing th

Writings
What would I do without you? I woulden't be the man I am today. The dreams I have woulden't exist. The pain and anger I felt in the past would still be there. My heart woulden't beat as strong as it does. You woulden't see the smile on my face like you do. What Would I Do Without You? I coulden't Love and feel Love the way I do....Without You. I'm just a simple man..... Without you I'm nothing.......

Thank God For Friends!!!
I sit here with a pounding head and all I can think about is the two greatest women that have yet to come into my life. Blondierox and Cricket. You two ladies amaze me with your strength and courage, and have helped me through some pretty tough times over the last couple months. From advice on losing my brain dead doctor, to when to get checked out, you two really give me an idea what friendship is all about! The two of you know more about me than anyone else online at the present time, even though I do share a lot of my life with my friends, you girls know a bit more personal stuff than the others. I don't know how many times I have thought about picking up the phone and calling one of ya, but I don't want to become a bother or a pain in the butt and bug you and make you dislike me. (I tend to be paranoid about that sort of thing lol) I know you guys have your own problems, and I don't wanna add my problems to your problems as well, but when I do talk to ya, you guys always l

Jealousy Makes Me Giggle Gets Me Off Actually Wahoooooo
this is the nice shout out i received this morning from this lovely lil girl jazzy@ CherryTAP jazzy: WOW Can u say boob job this was my response ->jazzy: sorry but my boobs r real so bite me but im sure lil girl if u drank more milk ate more protein and maybe got some sun your boobs would grow and maybe become woman size...so hopefully that advice helps u...dont hate me cause i pack a full meal in my boobs..and if u see the ink on my bood hellllo big sign that they are real and did not pop when the ink was put on..Happy Easter Sunshine..xoxo

A Night For His Taking
He did not remove the blindfold until they were inside. She had no inkling of where they were, this city and this country were strange to her. Blinking she realised she was in a large room. Most of it was cast into shadow. Looking around she saw her lover checking the slip of paper in his hand and finding the controls. The lights rose, slowly at first and she saw something that was strangely familiar. Frowning she went closer and could not stop the gasp as she saw the distinctive spider symbol. A slither of delicious fear slid down her spine like an icy finger. He turned to look at her, smiling at her shocked but still eager expression. Kissing her softly as he came to her side. "You said you would let me do as I pleased to you if we ever came here," he said quietly, his smile growing wider as she nodded, biting her lower lip. Her eyes were wide and darker than usual. "I remember Master Darius," Jade whispered. "Was it an idle promise?" he asked, going very still as he waited

I Want To Tell Them Lies
I want to tell that little boy his Mom will be just fine I want to tell that dad we got his daughter out in time I want to tell that wife her husband will be home tonight I don't want to tell it like it is, I want to tell them lies You didn't put their seat belts on, you feel you killed your kids I want to say you didn't ... but in a way, you did You pound your fists into my chest, you're hurting so inside I want to say you'll be OK, I want to tell you lies You left chemicals within his reach and now it's in his eyes I want to say your son will see, not tell you he'll be blind You ask me if he'll be OK, with pleading in your eyes I want to say that yes he will, I want to tell you lies I can see you're crying as your life goes up in smoke If you'd maintained that smoke alarm, your children may have woke Don't grab my arm and ask me if your family is alive Don't make me tell you they're all dead, I want to tell you lies I want to say she'll be OK, you didn't t

What Is Wicca? What Isn't Wicca?
I ran across this explanation....and take NO credit for it except for finding this...the best answer I've managed to come across...everything I would have written had one smarter, wiser and craftier than I had not done so FIRST! What Is Wicca Contrary to what those who choose to persecute or lie about us wish to believe, Wicca is a very peaceful, harmonious and balanced way of thinking and life which promotes oneness with the divine and all which exists. Wicca is a deep appreciation and awe in watching the sunrise or sunset, the forest in the light of a glowing moon, a meadow enchanted by the first light of day. It is the morning dew on the petals of a beautiful flower, the gentle caress of a warm summer breeze upon your skin, or the warmth of the summer sun on your face. Wicca is the fall of colorful autumn leaves, and the softness of winter snow. It is light, and shadow and all that lies in between. It is the song of the birds and other creatures of the wild. It is be

"cherry Photos"
MANY HAVE SHOWN THEIR CONCERN INTO THE MATTER THAT THERE ARE ACCUSATIONS THAT CT IS LETTING THE GENERAL PUBLIC VIEW OUR DEFAULT PHOTOS ON A "SISTER SITE", CHERRY PHOTOS. AFTER LOOKING INTO THE MATTER INSTEAD OF SPEAKING FROM IGNORANCE, I HAVE DETERMINED THAT THE SITES ARE ONE IN THE SAME.... When I put cherryphotos.com into the addy bar, (being completely logged off ct), it takes u to see 6 diff photos in a row of members to rate. No login page, and these photos are not shown in the traditional manner in which we view other ct'ers photos from their albums. I rated all 6 of them 10, but these rates do not show that they have counted....see, after u do the 6 photos, u automatically are redirected to ct's regular sign in page. So when u are back on cherryphotos.com, it just gives u only the same 6 photos and ur rates never apply to their current averages. On cherryphotos, there is no homepage for the site at all. It all appears to still be the same old cherry tap. It lists the same n

Well, I've Torn My Acl Playing Paintball~;(>
I was playing paintball last week and hyperextended my knee, holy shit it was painful. I went to the doctor the next day and they sent me to get an MRI. Today (a week later) they finally let me know what is wrong. I tore my ACL which is pionted out here. So now I have to let it heal for three weeks and then I guess they are going to do reconstruction with a graft from another tendon, they basically drill a tunnel through my bones and slide it up in there. Then they bolt it in place, yep sounds like fun, right~;)> Can't wait~;)> Then I need to keep it clean and go through alot of phisical therapy. Hopefully I won't need a brace everytime I paintball, but maybe it would be a good idea to have one. They're like what those front linemen in college football wear on there knees with the metal hinges. I like this one. Well, wish me luck.

Shadow
i call her shadow ,she moves like one,she cannot be caught and yet she is always there,she will do my bidding,cannot be destroyed,she shys from the light and gets lost in the darkness her presences is reassuring her absence is unsetteling. she came to me out of the darkness calling me master.I have felt her presence all my life but like a shadow she has remained just out of touch.Her gift is sublime she gives herself without thought only wanting to please her master and yet she is here by her free will i own her soul and she mine.the trust developed is like no other.....So take hede my gentle reader,the trip i will take you on from here out would only make sense if you can comprehend your own shadow ... she sat in the candle light soft music playing in the background face demure she sat on her knees and heels,eyes downcast,hands palm down on her leggs she waits for me she waits for my instruction,my desire ,my firm hand if need be.I sit beside her in my red wingback gazing u

Yay! Luck Shines Upon Me.
I seriously had a really good day. First this customer from my old work came in.. Luis.. and I wasn't sure if I should say hi or not but I always was fond of the guy, or maybe just saying his name but.. He finally caught my eye and I waved and told him hello. I figured he wouldn't try to talk to me a whole lot (which I hate) since he didn't speak much english... but he gave me this coupan for two free burritos at his work. (Chipolte) I was nervous about bringing it in cause I always feel bad getting stuff for free but.. I did. Turned out it DID expire last month but the guy still gave me the stuff. So I got two burrito's, homemade chips and guac and 2 rootbeers.. for free! AND my friend Alanna at work invited me out this friday for her friends birthday.. I rarely go out anymore. Oh AND Matt and I are going to fly kites. Ah... I love coming out of a dark phase. It's great. ^^

Boring Or Hot?
I grab you and take you into my bedroom. There I get on my knees and slowly undo your pants, being ever so gentle with your big dick. As you sit on my bed I take your cock into my hands and kiss the head. Then I lick from the tip to the base and back to the tip. Once you are nice and hard I put your cock in my mouth. I take you deep in and out, over and over. I push you back onto the bed and undress myself. Then I climb on top of you and put my pussy in your face. While you're licking my pussy and playing with my clit, I'm making sure you didn't lose that great erection of yours. Each time I take you deep into my mouth I thrust my pussy harder on your face. Up and down, in and out. I want you to put your 2 fingers in my hole while you are licking my throbbing clit. I'm cumming, ohhhhh..... I'm not forgetting about you... I'm still blowing your mind with your cock in my mouth. As I'm sucking and stroking, I'm massaging your balls. When I feel like you just can't take anymore and

Losing Your Best Friend To War
This is my last attempt at sanity, I guess. I lost my best friend Joey Cantrell to a roadside bomb 4 days ago. Joey was known to everybody as "Metro" because he primped himself and plucked his eyebrows. This didnt take away from what sort of soldier he was, and what kind of friend and brother he was. You see, I grew up without a brother. Joey took me under his wing and made me his brother. I was so happy when Joey would call and say," Hey Dickhead, get dressed, we are going to the bar." I loved hanging out with him. His personality almost commanded respect to a degree that is unimaginable by most. Now Im stuck here in Iraq. Completely alone with my thoughts. No hope for tommorrow, and only memories of what I had yesterday. I was engaged to be married as of last night. I drove her away. I was grieving so bad that she couldnt help me. Every offer of condolence she had just seemed to piss me off even more. Nobody knows how it is over here, unless you have been here. Nobody knows th

Byu Scandal. Lmmfao!
And if you were not clear before now, know that BYU will NOT tolerate water balloon shenanigans. Or, at least, angry reactions to water balloon shenanigans. The story: Football player's girlfriend hit with water balloon thrown from balcony of an apartment. Aggrieved football player and football player's football playing friend, decide to defend her honor, apparently impugned by the water-balloon, by finding the water-balloon tossers. The finding involved kicking in doors to locate the water-balloon tossers. The players kicked in the wrong door. Ooops. As they finally kicked in the correct door, and were closing in on the water-balloon tossers (who had retreated to a back bedroom), the police arrived. The players and the wet girlfriend arrested and charged with burglary. The water balloon tossers charged with criminal mischief. And the BYU players suspended from spring football activities. BYU coach Bronco Mendenhall's statement about the suspension? "This is a matter

What Is Considered A Work Of Art Or Something Offensive!!
TO ALL OF YOU, MY FELLOW CHERRIES!! I WISH YOU A DELICIOUS & WONDERFUL DAY!!!! Right now, I'm so mad that I can almost spit.. I have a beautiful ID Card, that was made especially for me, someone complained that it was offensive, plus it had been in my photos for a while, then all of a sudden, this thing happened.. But I put it in another folder, so whoever want to see it can, go look at the folder marked NSFW (In my pics/photos)and tell me what you think.... (People going around showing partial nudity and stuff, NO ONE GIVES A DAMN! I think it's a work of art......

My Invisible Heart
ONCE AGAIN A LIFE GONE/SHOWN ALL I COULD SHOW BUT STILL NOOOOOOOOOOO/I OPEN MY HEART BUT IT CLOSES ON ITZ OWN/WHY...BECAUSE OF THE LOVE IT WAS SHOWN.../ITZ NOT MY FAULT THAT MY HEART DOESNT SHINE/ BUT IT WILL BE FINE IN TIME/I GUESS ITZ A MESS..../SEE IF U DONT KNOW LOVE CANT SHOW LOVE/ SO DONT HATE ME WHEN I CLOSE UP/HELP ME DONT RUN/SHOW STRENGHT AND COMFORT/SHOW LOVE AND UNDERSTANDING.../ITZ NOT MY FAULT THAT THE SCARZ AND PAIN PUSH U AWAY/ITZ NOT MY FAULT THAT THE TURMOIL INSIDE MAKES US BOTH CRY.../YES I CRY..IM A MAN WE DO/ITZ A PUNK MOTHERFUCKER THAT CANT BE TRUE////BUT GUESS WHO HURTZ /THE REAL ONES THAT CAN ADMIT IT/SHOW IT/BE REAL WIT IT....NOW THINK ABOUT THIS BEFORE U JUDGE A HURTING HEART......TO BE CONT.................

What The Random?
So I'm sitting here..minding my biz..doing the mom thing, watching a little Curious George with the short one and I hear this noise. Not just a noise .. but ice cream truck music noise..and not just ice cream truck music noise but a Christmas medley of Silent Night and Oh Christmas Tree. What the random? Is this someone's idea of a sick joke? On the top ten list of things that make Neo's blood pressure skyrocket are Christmas and ice cream trucks. It's like the Universe said 'Hey, I know..let's mess with her head today..and give her *both*' ...sigh...

When Life Drags You Down
WHAT DO YOU DO WHEN YOU LET YOUR LIFE LEAD YOU, INSTEAD OF LIVING LIFE? WHAT DO YOU DO WHEN YOUR SURROUNDING PEEPS ARE STABBING YOU IN THE BACK? WHO DO YOU TURN TO WHEN LIFE GETS YOU DOWN? WHEN YOU FEEL LIKE EVERYONE AROUND YOU, IS AFTER SOMETHING? THIS PLACE WAS MADE TO HAVE FUN!! AND PEOPLE ARE SUPPOSED TO BE GROWN UP!! WHAT'S UP WITH ALL THE BULL?!?!? WHY IS IT THAT PPL CAN'T BE REAL ON THIS SITE?!? PPL HIDING BEHIND OTHER PROFILE.... MAKING STUPID REMARKS BEHIND OTHER PPL'S BACKS.... WTF?!?!? IF YOU HAVE A FRICKEN PROBLEM, GROW UP AND SAY IT TO THAT PERSON AND NOT SOMEONE ELSE! DEAL WITH THE SHIT AND MOVE ON!!!!!!! I CAN'T STAND PEOPLE THAT DO THAT! HELL, MY SON IS MORE MATURE THEN SOME PEOPLE I MEET ON HERE!! AND HE'S 7! I'M SAYING A LOT OF THIS STUFF TODAY, BECAUSE SOME PEOPLE ARE JUST GETTING UNDER MY SKIN! I WAS ABOUT TO LEAVE BECAUSE OF YOU F**KERS!! LMAO! OMG WHAT WAS I THINKING?!?! I'M HERE TO HAVE FUN, WHILE APPARENTLY SOME PEOPLE ARE HERE SEEKING DRAMA! I HAVE ENOUGH DRAMA

So Answer Me This
So who wants to peek at my private album today I'm sure plenty guys and gals out there wanna take a peek so lets see how many and maybe I might open it up for a short time I like to see ya beg tho it turns me on!

First Correct Translation Gets A Gift
ale jdìte nález mne do èlen urèitý muèení byt flákání se FIRST TO CORRECTLY TRANSLATE THIS GETS A GIFT here is the translation its in czech COME FIND ME IN THE TORTURE CHAMBER LOUNGE

Funny
This was written by a guy... it's pretty damn funny. Girls -- Please have a sense of humor! I never quite figured out why the sexual urge of men and women differ so much. And I never have figured out the whole Venus and Mars thing. I have never figured out why men think with their head and women with their heart. FOR EXAMPLE: One evening last week, my girlfriend and I were getting into bed. Well, the passion starts to heat up, and she eventually says, "I don't feel like it, I just want you to hold me." I said, "WHAT??!! What was that?!" So she says the words that every boyfriend on the planet dreads to hear... "You're just not in touch with my emotional needs as a woman enough for me to satisfy your physical needs as a man." She responded to my puzzled look by saying, "Can't you just love me for who I am and not what I do for you in the bedroom?" Realizing that nothing was going to happen that night, I went to sleep. The very next day I opted to take the d

Ratings
I am getting so tired of childish people downrating my pics i never rate anything less than a 10 even if the pic deserves a 1. Last time I checked this site was supposed to be for adults and yet most of you act like two year olds. You guys are always ranting and raving over rules and all the stuff that happens on this site I think yall all need to grow up. I am only 24 and I act more mature than some of you older peeps i think yall all need to get over yourselves and stop rating peoples pic anything less than a 10.

I Was Fired This Morning
So my car died last night, it's sitting dead in a church parking lot. My boss called me this morning and told me he was letting me go...life could not suck more than it does right now! I'm not asking for anything, but I just wanted to let you all know.

Well I`m Back
after 8 long days my internet company came out to fix the broken wife, i signed into a 1 year contract and seen like i was put on the shit list for a repair. no worries i`m back so dont every one think i was being rude or if i forgot about my friends. have a great day mike

Give It All
Give It All If I had a choice, I'd give it all to you, My love, my life, My heart, my soul, If I knew that it was true, I'd give it all to you, My wishes, my dreams, My hopes, my fantasies, If I knew that you were the one, I'd give it all to you, My past, my present, My future, my memories, But I don't know if you are the one, So let's just wait & see as time goes by, See what happens between you & me, Our dreams might change, Our lives will proceed. And then we'll see our dreams come true, And hope that they're of me & you.

Jokes...
A recent scientific study found that women find different male faces attractive depending on where they are in their menstrual cycle.For example, when a woman is ovulating she will prefer a man with rugged, masculine features. However when she is menstruating, she prefers a man doused in gasoline and set on fire, with scissors stuck in his eye and a hockey stick shoved up his Ass.

Dear Dad
Dear Dad, This feels a little funny writing to you right now, you've past away 2-1/2 years ago but here are some of the things I wished we could have talked about. First a little background. I was your typical fat kid growing up. I had 3 younger brothers who were all normal ( skinny ). Being a fat kid really sucked, because it's easy to pick on the fat kid, all your faults are on the outside for everyone to see. Most normal ( skinny ) kids faults can be hidden from all the other kids. Not the fat kid. You can't hide behind anything ( no pun intended ). You can't even hide from comments your own father says about you. Remember dad when I was about 10 and you asked me to go look in the closet for your slippers. I do. Like it was yesterday. I yelled out "I can't find them dad" and you said in front of my brothers so you guys could have a little chuckle if there was a roast beef sandwich in there you'd find it. I did not hear this comment. I came back into the room with all of

Enemas And Ice Cream
So today one of our neighborhood junkies comes in for, *SURPRISE*, syringes...however she had some other purchases to get along with them, just to make it look good. I watch with amazement as I'm ringing up syringes, a twin pack of enemas, personal lubricant, and a pint of ice cream...WTF?!?!?!?! Just looking at this eclectic conglomeration of items had me shaking my head. All I could think was there was about to be one hell of a hootinannie in the hood today! At what kind of fucked up party is someone gonna be yelling, "WOO-HOO! Enemas and ice cream!" THEN she had to stop for beer and cigarettes on the way home...this was 11:30 in the morning!!!! Just needed to share that.

New Tappers 4-11-06
I’d like everyone to meet and greet some of my friends Most have just joined today All are level 1 to 3 Please show them some love onesxybrat@ CherryTAP Narcissist@ CherryTAP nickers@ CherryTAP Daily@ CherryTAP marie@ CherryTAP stunnahbitchx3@ CherryTAP luvs2photograph@ CherryTAP M/ kIMMIE@ CherryTAP Rayn@ CherryTAP dave@ CherryTAP xtigerchickx17@ CherryTAP Miss Imperfection

Saying Goodbye To The Best Dad Ever.
Kenneth Duane Brush Monday, December 31, 2001 Kenneth Duane Brush LEXINGTON -- Kenneth Duane Brush, 62, died Sunday (Dec. 30, 2001) at the Good Samaritan Hospital at Kearney. He was born Dec. 12, 1939, at Stockville, to Myron and Luella (Halley) Brush. He graduated from Curtis High School. He served for three years in the U. S. Naval Air Force. He married Darlene Carter in El Cajon, Calif., in 1961. He was employed by the City of Lexington at the time of his death. He was preceded in death by his parents. Survivors include his wife, Darlene of Lexington; two sons, Wayne and wife, Mary Brush of Austin, Texas, Nick and his wife Patti Reynolds; two brothers, Ronald and wife, Ella Brush of Texas, Jerry and wife, Jean Brush of Holdrege; two sisters, Cheryl and husband, Darrell Dockweiler of Eddyville, Shirley and husband, Ron Atkinson of Curtis; and four grandchildren. .."

Just A Silly Rant.
Sometimes stuff gets on my nerves, stupid stuff. Sometimes I have really hard time containing my displeasure, which is kind of a bad thing since I am a waitress, lol. I'm just supposed to smile and be sweet..... no matter what. I have gotten pretty good at that, but.... I sure have some days of falling short. In the last few weeks there have been some issues for me that are pretty nonsensical (yeah, I can admit that) but this stuff just PISSES me off. Some of these things are particular to being a waitress or being in retail or some job where you serve the public...... and they are in your face, in all their stupidity and self-centered glory. I HATE INCONSIDERATE PEOPLE! It puzzles me as to why they come into a public place and do the following things....... When you come into a restaurant, turn your damned cell phone off, at least until you have ordered your food. It's someones job to bring you what you want, but they cant if they don't know what that is, because you

Show Some Support To This Young Lady
Please Rip the "Blessed Be" Photo and make it your primary in support. Just click the photo link below and rip from my page. thanks guys...and please *I never ask this* repost this! Jessica on my wifes request here is a detailed update she has a very bad lung infection attacking her heart she needs emergency surgery to remove a hernia and to repair a tare in her abdomen and they found spots on her liver witing for second mri to confirm or deny several asked how was my wife well now you all know with her permission maybe some will spare a couple minutes to pray for a couple min so she may get better and come back to her love ones i m not asking much just 2 min of your time to help some one get better and back to her kids and family thak you to those taking the time to pray we need all the help we can to get tru this bless you all every one PLS do repost so others may help ill be posting this as a blog as well to print and give my wife all the get we

Women
lately i have had women putting me down the way i look and i am sick of it. i know i not the greatest looking guy in the world. but listen ladies if you dont like the way i look then dont even freaking talk to me ok. i am the nicest caring guy you can talk to. but i guess there to dumb to relize that

I Will Be Away For A While....
Last night my mom past away in her sleep. No one is for sure how and why. We are having an autopsy performed to help understand the reason she is leaving us so soon. For this reason, I will not be on here as much for a little while. It is time to visit with my family, arrange dates, and mostly for me... to cope with all of this. I want to thank everyone who is my friend on Cherry Tap and appreciate your kindness. To my close friends ~ thank you for being there for me and being someone I can talk to. :) (XOXOXO Rose and Sam) To Brian ~ You have no idea how much you mean to me. Thank you for letting me release my emotions so early this morning. I will keep in close touch of what is happening. I love you with all my heart baby. Thank you everyone and I will see you guys soon. Lots of love from me and my family, XOXOXOXOXOXOXO ~Kirsten

I Want To Be
I want to be exstatically, unconditionally, unforgettably,accidentally,anxiuosly, awkwardly,wildly,passionately,unexpectedly,truthfully,foolishly,tenderly,surprisingly,in love. I want my last thought before i sleep and my first thought when i awke to be of my love. I want to feel a loving hand grab me and hold me close that we become one. I want a love that doesn't have to be said to be known but felt. I want to look into my lovers eyes years down the road and know that he still neds me and wants me as much as he did the first day. I want a man who would be proud to have me on his arm and let the world know that i am his. He wouldn't hesitate to kiss me just because he felt the need to. I want a love that would hold me when i was scared, comfort me when i was sad and laugh at me when i said something stupid. and totally of track. What do you think? To much to ask for?

Why
WHAT IS UP WITH GUYS COMING TO MY PAGE TO GIVE ME A 1? WOW ........A 1 ON MY PAGE.... OH I THINK I AM GONNA JUMP IN THE LAKE. LIFE IS OVER. WOW.....A ONE AND WHEN I TELL THEM THANK YOU, THEY DONT TALK. PURE PUNKS.....!!!!!!

Top Ten Things That Sound Dirty At The Office But Aren't
TOP TEN THINGS THAT SOUND DIRTY AT THE OFFICE BUT AREN'T: 10. I need to whip it out by 5. 9. Mind if I use your laptop? 8. Just stick it in my box. 7. If I have to lick one more, I'll gag! 6. I want it on my desk, NOW!!!!! 5. Hummmm...I think it's out of fluid! 4. My equipment is so old, it takes forever to finish. 3. It's an entry level position. 2. When do you think you'll be getting off today? And the number one thing that sounds dirty at the office but it isn't: 1. It's not fair...I do all the work while he just sits there!!!

Snippets 10: Hermaphrosnippet.
Courtney says: oh my gosh, so I think you and the guy who knows the girl with the balls would be good friends Courtney says: let me type this text msg that he just sent me, to you Synthetic Humanoid v4.0 says: Courty? Synthetic Humanoid v4.0 says: -Think- about what you just said.

If Ya Got Something To Say
I AM IN A STATE OF CONFUSION HERE.....THIS SITE HERE IS A GAME AND A PLACE TO HAVE FUN ON....OF COURSE THOUGH THERE ALWAYS HAS TO BE A FEW THAT ARE GONNA HATE AND TALK CRAP ABOUT YA. WHY, CAUSE YOU CAN'T FEEL GOOD ABOUT YOUR OWN SELF SO YOU GOTTA TALK ABOUT ME CAUSE I'M CONFIDENT IN MYSELF....WELL ALL I GOTTA SAY IS FU*K OFF AND STOP HATIN IF YA GOT A PROBLEM WITH ME OR WITH WHAT I DO THEN SAY SOMETHIN TO ME ABOUT IT...I WOULD RESPECT YA MUCH MORE DON'T SAY IT BEHIND MY BACK.....CAUSE MY BELIEF IS THERE'S ALWAYS GONNA BE PEOPLE THAT TALK ABOUT YA SO YA MIGHT AS WELL GIVE THEM SOMETHING TO TALK ABOUT RIGHT....IF YOU'RE MY REAL FRIEND YOU WOULD TELL ME, AND IF YOU AREN'T THEN JUST FU*K OFF.........

Excuse Me Miss
Excuse me miss, but if your not too busy I don't want to take up your time I just gotta be honest, your looking very pretty And I would like to get to know you over some wine.... I'm twenty seven, single and no kids Down to earth, funny and caring I'm into poetry and music, with a little showbiz And can be a little wild and daring... So if you ever got any free time I wonder Maybe you and I can go out Just give me a call, here is my number And we'll have a great time, no doubt... -Nemesis the Nazerene-

Tied And True...again
He lays spread-eagle on the bed. Legs and arms tied to the bedposts. She is hovering over himInitially, she had started as the dominant, but her desire has gotten the best of her. She wants him inside her more than she wants to impose her will on him. She is still in control, but barely. He stares into her eyes and her nipples harden at the desire she sees. Untie me he states calmly. N-no she stammers, looking away. He continues to stare Untie me, he repeats Or you wont get what you want. Her glance at his erection gives her away She has had him in her mouth and now she wants to feel him between her legs, inside her, but she wants to complete what she startedTo make him beg her. P-pleaseLet me finish she begs. No, his answer leaves her no choice, Untie me. With shaking hands she moves to untie him, first his hands then his feet. He lays calmly while she goes about releasing him. When she is done, she sits quietly on the bed head bowed He gets off the b

Born To Suck
Kate couldn’t help it! She wanted to stop but something inside her wouldn’t let her! Kate was from all appearances a normal eighteen year old junior in high school. Average looks, average grades, nice friends, good parents, nothing to worry about. Well not exactly, you see Kate was addicted to oral sex! She would suck anyone, anywhere, at anytime. She couldn’t be exactly sure of why, but all she knew was that she had a burning uncontrollable desire to have her mouth around a hard cock or her tongue buried in a hot warm pussy! Walking home from school, Kate stopped off at the store to buy some school supplies. The lady salesclerk was a fifty five year old spinster who probably had never had it from anyone before, but she had heard about Kate from one of her bridge partners. When she recognized her she decided to see if what she had heard was true. “Come with me,” she said to Kate, and the led her to the store room at the rear of the store. Not sure if she should try it, the older la

Yay For Snow
It's snowing! IN APRIL! Damn weather. I went to bed around 11:30. Watched a few episodes of house and slept a lil better than usual. Kids are on springbreak this week and tuesday is the 1 year anniversary of my grammas death. Not much else to report that anyone will care to hear. "There is one pain I often feel, which you will never know. It's caused by the absence of you."

Here's The Update You Are Seeking
don't think of it as me being a bitch, so much as it is an opportunity for you to take your time in communicating with me... clearly, some of you have not shown the ability to communicate in real time with a woman and show any amount of respect. you can now send me a PM or you can hit me up on yahoo if you have that. here are some helpful tips for you: -When i say 'no', or in any way shape or form, say that i don't want to talk about it.... that DOES NOT MEAN that you can ask me five more times. -My name is not 'shawty' 'hottie' 'babe'...nor is it bitch, slut or cunt.... Just because your preconceived notion of me is your naughty, slutty sex slave does not make that a reality.... i don't call you 'frumpy, short dicked loser who stalks women online' when i first meet you... i dont dump my preconceived notions on you, please don't do the same to me. -stalkers, haters and fucktards...i actually like the shoutbox to an extent because it usually shows me who is, and isn't, an

Bored
I am thinking about taking my CT page down and just hitting the road again to Lord knows where. Maybe I ride all the way up to Nova Scotia and see the other side of the Ocean; who knows maybe I’ll make a few friends along the way. Ride around the Great Lakes and freeze my butt off, again…lol Hell, I am so bored and must have something to do.

Read This....it's Very Important!!!
I POSTED THIS IN A BULLETIN 4 TIMES...AND NOONE IS PAYING ATTENTION...THIS IS PATHETIC!!! Recently, a very serious problem has been brought to the attention of several members of cafemom. It is a very heinous website called www.puellula.com. This website is a safe haven for pedophiles. The heading on their main page reads, "A Celebration of the Splendor of Little Girls". This website includes links to pictures, or "art" as they call it, of little girls, confessional blogs, a directory of resources for pedophiles (for "both boylovers and girl lovers, as well as anybody else looking for information about pedophilia and consensual child love"), as well as many other links. This site has a manifesto, stating demands to the government to legalize pedophilia. The most disturbing, though, is a link to a page title Sugar and Spice that is specifically for little girls who have "fallen in love" with a pedophile. This site is set up to draw in little girls. It looks like any other fun li

Issues With The Site:( My Legs Are Sexually Offensive Apparently
yet again, for the umpteenth time, my pics have been rated NSFW, no, not the ones you gotta be on my friends list to see(which ARE NSFW, and are marked as such) but the ones that are showing nothing sexual or offensive, same thing been happening to hubby's pics, we are both sick of it, we have only been members for 10 days and have sought help from bouncers, support etc, but have had no help recieved to either of us(one bouncer said he would investigate it to hubby and we haven't heard back).I appreciate that folks are busy, but i think its a bit ridiculous that we still have heard nothing back, days later....and you can't sent support a pm if you have no profile pic, well everytime i put a pic up someone feels the need to mark it as NSFW and its removed...hence i can't send message to support......well, that NSFW thing works eh??????? PMSL, maybe they should review the pics before tagging them as such......anyways, if this shit doesn't get sorted we will just leave, if we feel this wa

I Don't Know How Many More Blows I Can Take . . .
As if losing my friend Zeb as horrifically as he died last month wasn't tragic enough, I got a phone call last night from my friend Amy telling me that another friend of mine, Chayla, decided to blow her brains out over the weekend. She was 26 years old. How many friends is one person supposed to lose tragically in ones' lifetime? This is the 9th friend I have lost over the past 10 years to tragic, less-than-natural circumstances, and the 2nd in one month and one day. I really don't know how to feel right now. I am SO F*#&ING ANGRY, in addition to the hurt, and I am pretty much numb. She had so much going for her - just got engaged back in February, a wonderful man, a great new career . . . all gone . . . Forgive me if I just don't feel like talking to anyone right now . . . but I am just struggling real hard to try and understand the cards that life deals us right now . . .

Im Sorry Im A Terrible Person
So I sit here and I keep wondering , why am I such a terrible person? I try to please everyone but myself .It kills me to see my friends and the people I care about sad ,or hurting , yet sometimes , its I that caused them that pain.the last thing in the world I ever wanted to do was hurt or mislead anyone, but it seems Im doing a bit of that these days. Why is it always the most unstable one in the bunch has be the thread that pulls it together , or feels the most compeled to try and fix every one and everything. Alice , I love you with all my heart , you were my first real friend on CT , you are my best friend.I am so sorry I let you down , Im sorry I upset you , and Im sorry I failed you as friend. To those that hold on to a hope , I am sorry I have mislead you in any way . I value our friendship , though I see you hope for more , I can not offer any more then friendship. I am NOT looking for anything outside of that relm . Im sorry , for making you think I wanted mo

Thinking...
What do you see when you look at me? I often wonder how much my eyes reveal. Do you know what I'm thinking? Without a whisper of a spoken word, can you tell? Look closer, can you see the hell my eyes have witnessed? Do they express the love I have to offer, or the knowledge I have gained through my life experiences. Would you see as much if I closed them...? I wonder...

Another One.
it seems like i am having bad nights more and more. I feel awful. I know its pathetic and really my own fault and i have no idea why i have the urge to post it on here for everybody to see. I dont need anybody out there knowing my problems. Yet here i am. Spilling my guts to you. I know most of you could give a rats ass about me. Most of you are here for the ratings only and could actually give a fuck about actually being friendly. But I am a friendly guy, and not the type of friendly you have to worry about. I have been seperated (divorce is $$$ i dont have right now) for two years. I have been alone that entire time except for my daughters. Any of the people I talk too will vouch, i am flirty but i do not come one to people or make them feel uncomfortable. I believe only a very small fraction of a percentage of people who meet online, make that right connection. So, while i may flirt i have no intentions of trying to be anyones boyfriend on here. I am here for friends. Wow, got a li

Health Concerns
Some of my Great an Wonderful Friends know I haven't been Fealing to good.I just got off the phone with my doctor.Since I don't have Transportation into the city.He basicly Orderd me to get to the Emergency Rm.in the Town where I Live.I'm in the process of getting dressed now.Hopefully I'll be back. God Bless my Sweet Friends,you all been so Kind + Sweet to me.I care about a lot of you.An Love some of you as Friends.I Hope an Pray to return later today.Peace + Rock On.Many Hugs

This Needs Said
If you are my friend and you cannot respect my opinions then you can kindly go jump off a cliff for all I care. I am a leader not a follower. If you wanna call me out or make snips at me in bulletins rather than say it to my face then you are a chicken shit. At least people on here know I am real. People wanna quit getting shit about the fake pics then perhaps they should quit using them. I know I know its all about the game. But seriously the game is tired and so am I. Be yourself for christsakes. All the people who use the fake pics aren't ugly or unworthy and they need to realize it. I dunno I am just sick and tired of being hated for my opinion and since I AM THE ONE WHO VOCALIZED it in the first place I am gonna guess a few bulletins I have seen are referring to me. Anyhow if you have a problem with me..REMOVE FRIEND and REMOVE FAN. Oh We're Not Gonna Take It no, We Ain't Gonna Take It oh We're Not Gonna Take It Anymore we've Got The Right To Choose And there Ai

Is This Muthafucka Serious??
Ok. This is some shit that might end up getting someone killed. If any of you know me and my blogs you know I can never write a short one. I have to give you the full story or else the shit wont sound complete. I will try to take out some of the details so it doesn't be too boring, but my logs are for me to vent so however long it is...it just is that long. My sister is going through some shit with her soon to be ex husband right now and I am mainly pissed because I cannot be there to help her out. She is living in Texas wit her 3 kids basically all by her lonesome. And with that said, this muthafucka is fuckin with her every chance he gets. Everybdy thought this muthafucka to be cool and sft spokes, but as many of you know, a few of them are some silly muthafuckas. And, well...yeah...he is one of them. He is one of them young dudes that can't hold his alcohol. He gets drunk and then becomes violent. This was prven when he got drunk, laid hands on my sister, and tried to forc

The Rain And Pain
In parts of this country yesterday and today many have seen rain. The rain we have seen and felt is not just rain, but the tears of the fallen. Fallen soliders and the fallen VT students. They weep not in sorrow but for the loved ones left behind. They weep for the pain that is on this earth. They weep for us. Evil one the battle yesterday it might win another day, but it will never win the war. Bless the soldiers fighting for us and bless the fallen VT students...Even the one that did the shooting.

My Fuckin Foot Hurts
So the day before Easter i hurt my foot...it hasn't really gotten any better... So finally today i called the doc... Gotta go in the morning for x-rays....wish me luck Did i tell you all i am thinkin about contacts? I went and had an eye exam...and they ordered me a trial pair...if they ever come in i will get to try em out for a week... I have never worn contacts...kinda worried...lol so once again wish me luck... I also need you guys to cross your fingers that my car gets fixed fast... Thanks guys....*hugs n kisses*

I Just Need To Vent
I JUST GOT HOME FROM WORK , WHEN I WENT ON MY LAST BREAK AT 915 PM I NOTICED SOMETHING AS I WAS SITTING OUTSIDE SMOKING ...........MY TRUCK WAS ALL DENTED AND SCRATCHED , I DONT KNOW WHO DID IT , HAVE NO CLUE , CALLED THE COPS MADE A REPORT ....BITCHED SCREAMED AND BITCHED A WHOLE LOT MORE , THERE IS A BULLET MARK IN THE WINDSHIELD , MY TAIL LIGHT IS BUSTED 2 CRACKS IN MY REAR DRIVERS SIDE WINDOW , AND VARIOUS PUNCTURES, AND DENT MARKS AND SCRATCHES ALL OVER THE ENTIRE PASSENGER SIDE...THE COP ASKED ME IF THERE WAS ANYONE I HAD PISSED OFF RECENTLY BLAH BLAH BLAH ..HE SAID MIGHT OF BEEN A KID .... ANYWAYS WHEN I FIND OUT WHO DID IT OR IF I THINK THEY DID I AM GONNA PAINT THE PAVEMENT WITH THEIR ASS SO BECAUSE OF SOMEONES ANGER OR STUPIDITY I NOW HAVE TO GET THE DAMN THING FIXED ... BIG DEAL I GOT INSURANCE ,,BUT WHAT THE FUCK IS WITH PPL TODAY FUCKING UP SHIT INSTEAD OF BEING MAN OR WOMAN ENOUGH TO PUT IT ON THE TABLE AND TALK ABOUT IT OR BEAT THE HELL OUT OF EACH OTHER!!!!OK NOW I AM D

The Rules
1 ADD EACH OTHER 2 RATE EVERYTHING ON THERE PAGES WHEN U GET A CHANCE 3 EDIT YOUR USER NAME 4 PLEASE SEND THE LINK TO CONTEST SO I CAN ADD IT TO THE LIST.. 5.HAVE FUN 6. JUST HELP EACH OTHER TO WIN IF WE CAN.. LET ME KNOW WHAT U THINK..

Well Time For Another Update
alright, well it's official i suffer from extreme anxiety, and chronic depression... haha as much as i joke it's hard to believe but it's true... well smoking and drinking are now the least of my worries... i didn't go to school today cause i woke up and felt like shit ran over twice... i ended up going to see my doctor because he had a walk in today and my leg is still shot and just how i felt today so we did a stress test and well guess what... i failed with fling colors... so if i don't seem myself lately it's because i'm going to be starting a mental stress pill... the chronic depression is thought to be a side effect of the stress level... so yay once again i feel like yet another failure in life... time to go sulk, on the bright side i'm going to get trashed this weekend... i really haven't had a really good day of drinking since i turned 21, i had two days were i was really drunk but nothing like i was hoping... so i'm trying to look forward to that... yes i know these are rando

Why Overlook Us Because Of Our...
Why Overlook Us Because Of Our.... Why overlook us because of our wrinkles.. Why overlook us because of our droopy bottoms... Why overlook us because of our hair is greying... Why overlook us because of our breasts are uneven and one maybe smaller than the other.. Why overlook us because of our weight.. Why overlook us because of our glasses.. Why overlook us because we aren't a size two... Look At Us For Our.. Look at us for our character... Look at us for our caring.. Look at us for our nurturing.. Look at us for our pride.. Look at us for our personalities.. Look at us for our ways of kissing boo boos and making the pain go away.. Look at us for our HEARTS. Normal real women have imperfections which make us perfect in our own way! Just look into her eyes and you can see the real beauty that lies within... Just remember...a woman doesn't have to be a size two to be beautiful.. There are all kinds of shapes and sizes of beauty...!!! (I just wrote thi

Being Honest
You know...Cherry Tap has become one of my favorite places to be. I never signed up hoping to find Mr. Right or to be Ms. Popularity or any thing like that. I came here to meet people and have fun... and I am too. The one discouragement I find when I'm on here is at how dishonest people can be about themselves. Don't get me wrong there are some GREAT people on here, but I have also met people who come across as the nicest person I've ever met and yet I find them lying about things they do or don't do. I also find them lying about why they did or didn't. (if that makes any sense!?) On of the things I see a lot is when you shout at somebody who you think you know really well...someone you have grown to admire and trust and they completely ignore you. You won't hear from them for quite a while and when they finally contact you they are overly sweet and tell you some story about this or that. Yet when you go to their page, you realize they've been online all the time and chatting with lot

Hmm
Hmm whats new with me?..ABSOLUTLY nothing..I must have the most boring life on this planet. I sit at home 95% of my time and umm...Im ALWAYS on cherrytap..Not saying thats a bad thing because i love it here. Hmmm im trying to think of at least ONE thing i can talk about in here..My blogs are usually short and pointless but i like them :D. I woke up this morning....no thats a dumb story. Ummm...Yeah...no ideas...sorry. (_8^(|)

The Most Important Things In Life
not necessarily in this order.. just as i thought of them 1) blow jobs 2) music 3) freedom 4) money (see #3 = freedom) 5) a high speed internet connection 6) silence -- i enjoy vast amounts of time by myself 7) coffee 8) did i mention blow jobs? 9) friends? 10) love and cuddlin (odd how that one comes last) hey im drunk.. thats the only time i update this blog.. and if you asked me right now if i want love.. or head.. the answer is simple =) im thinking pretty surface level tonight - nothin deep - this was thinkin outload with lux

How?
Never say I love you, if it isn't really there.. Never talk about feeling, if you really don't care, Never hold my hand, if your going to break my heart Never say your gonna, if you never plan to start, Never say hello, if you really mean goodbye, If you really mean forever, then please say you'll try Never say forever, because forever makes me cry... *************************************************

Wanted: Marriage Material!
Instead of my usual delightful banter, I am cutting to the chase! WANTED: Unattached Polyamorous Bi-Sexual Submissive White Female Sex Fanatic! Age: Not as young as my daughter or as old as my mother Height: Tall enough to reach what she needs or willing to ask for help when she cant. Weight: Not so skinny your bones clacking sounds like yhatzee, not so fat you cant function easily in bed. Hair: Yes please Eyes: Two please. No more, no less. No Druggies, Drunks or Drama Queens need apply! Still here? HOLY SHIT! Ummmmm lets find some more ways to thin the herd a bit... No Animal Allergies - Including Dogs and Horses. No Smoking Allergies - Actually a smoker would be preferred. No Psycho Ex Lovers, Husbands, Boyfriends. Kids are okay but I did my diaper duty, you gotta do yours. Still here? Okay Ummmmmmmmmmmmm.... No Neat Freaks No Slobs No ADD / ADHD bullshit No Bi-polars without meds! No Depressed basketcases without meds and a clean bill of health from MY d

I'm A 5...hahahahaha
Some woman who happens to be a level 10, so I know she isn't new to CT, rated my pic a 5... Soooo I went to her profile and took a look... I wanted to see if it was our typical rude person trying to piss me off or if it was a fake profile or someone new to CT... Wellll.. she looks real... isn't new... so I guess I must really be just a 5... I will now go to my corner and feel shame... If ya wanna check her out her name is Spank Me! ... and if she is better looking than me..then.... SHOOT ME...HAHAHAHAHA... Love to all.. Peace...SPIN

Help
hey everyone i am so close to level will you please come by and help me out...i am maxed out oh photo rates right now but if u leave me a comment on this blog and help me by commenting or rating i will return the love as soon as i can rate again...thank you so much Danielle

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WELL ITS TIME AGAIN FOR ME TO SHARE MY THC CLOUDED THOUGHTS AND MEMORIES...AND HAPPY FUCKIN 4-20 TO EVERYONE! JOINTS, BLUNTS, PIPES, HOOKAS AND VAPORISERS....I DONT CARE HOW YOU CHOOSE TO SMOKE AS LONG AS YOU SMOKE...LOL...ALSO I WOULD LOVE PICS OF ALL MY FRIENDS GETTIN BLAZED ON THIS WONDERFUL DAY.... I MYSELF AM PLANNING ON ROLLING A 15 GRAM BLUNT....THATS A TOTAL OF 4 WRAPS BEING USED....2 WIDE AND 2 TALL....OVER A HALF OZ OF KENTUCKY KRONIK IS GOIN IN...WISH ME LUCK ALL. OK TODAYS STORY... THIS IS ONE OF MY FAVORITES...I WAS HAVING AN INCREDIBLY SHITTY DAY AND WAS OUTTA MY SMOKE ....WELL MY DEALER AT THE TIME WOULDNT SEEL ANYTHING LESS THEN A QUARTER...WHICH WAS 5O BUCKS...I HAD 10 TO MY NAME....WELL I DECIDED TO SEE IF I PAYED HIM 10 BUCKS IF HED SMOK E ABLUNT WITH ME TO JUST GET THE EDGE OFF....WELL AFTER HEARING ABOUT MY DAY HE AGREED TO DO JUST THAT...AND PROCEEDDED TO ROLL A 7 GRAM BLUNT...HELL YES! I WAS SO FRIED OFF IT THAT WHEN I LEFT TO GO BACK TO MY STEPDADS HOUSE

What's The Kinkiest Thing You've Ever Done Sexually?
Compared to some things I've seen and heard in the past year, I don't think anything I've done would be considered kinky.... unless you're a fucking nun. So I'm just asking, what's the freakiest, kinkiest thing you've ever done? Comments are welcome! Me? Well... hmmmm... er..... mine are pretty tame I think.... But I will say this: Lifeguard chairs = fun barbers chairs = fun whirlpool tubs = fun sex tapes = fun as long as no one can see your face because if you ever become famous that could be rather embarrassing. Getting your toes sucked = fun chocolate syrup on body parts = fun And the rest is nunya. :oP

Some Of You Care...it Touches Me
Ok, I'm going through bad times right now. First off let me apologize for not being my cheerful uplifting self. I truly wish I could be my normal joking self and help you all out with your woes...however right now I'm a little stressed, worried, and scared. Some of you know some of it..some more than others. A few of you know almost the entire story. And, not to be rude, but I'm tired of repeating myself, it's a tangled situation, so I'll just post a blog and refer anyone who asks to it... So...back in November I was arrested for a DUI. My dumbass fault, I swear I was sober..I only had 4 beers. But anyway, I made a mistake and it was completely my fault. I went to court, got my car out of impound, called for DUI classes, set up my fine payment plan, and got on with my life. Everything was good until Tuesday night...when I got pulled over. Well, apparently my license was suspended because my payment plan was set up incorrectly. So, I missed ALL my payments, I have a bench warrant to

Ass-rod Fails To Win World Series Again
Will someone please take A-Rod aside and teach him the true meaning of clutch? He still doesn't get it. Yesterday the Yankees are in the middle of a rally in the bottom of the ninth inning with two outs against the Indians. Ass-Clown comes up with two men on base, down by one run, and proceeds to hit a three-run walkoff home run to win the game 8-6. What the hell is he doing? David Ortiz would've settled for a double to win by one run. That's clutch. Hitting a jack to the black bleachers in dead centerfield to win by two runs? What a flashy showoff. LOL, just because.

Leavin' On A ... Passenger Train...
So today is our last day all together for awhile. Jim took yesterday and today off since he figured he wouldn't be taking any leave while he is in San Diego for work the next few months. He has pretty much told them he wants to work as much as possible and they were just fine with that. It already looks like the whole crew will be doing six tens... meaning ten hour days, six days a week. Right now, he's out taking care of some errands like getting supplies for kitties and crabbies (since they are heavy and he doesn't want me lugging them in... aaaw) and paying off bills so that I won't have to worry about it. What a good guy. Though he did make me cry yesterday. We were snuggling on the couch and I said, "Don't go." I just meant that I would miss him but he got pissed off for whatever reason. I think he was really just more frustrated and sad that he was going to miss us, too. But it didn't quite come out right. He apologized and got me a Frappuccino, his version of flowers.

Are You This Guy???
These are just a few questions I get on a daily basis. Also included is my standard answer to these questions. Just thought I'd share. LOL Q.Wow yer sexy! Do you have a cam? A.Yes, I do, read my profile first. (my stand on chatting and camming is stated VERY clearly on my profile) Q.No way, yer not 48?!! A.Yes I am, if I was gonna lie, I would say I was 35!! Q.Do you have yahoo or msn? A.Yes I do,*rolling eyes* read my profile first. Q.Yer 48?? Wow, you look great!! A.Yea, I know, ain't it cool? Q.Are you single?? A.*sigh* Read my profile. Q.Hey! I can't see your private folder??!! A.Yer right, you can't. Q.Got any private pics you can send me? A.*hand on forhead* Read my profile. Q.I'll put you in my family so you can see MY private pics!! A.No thanks, seen one cock pic, seen em all. Q.You like younger guys?? I'm 19 and ready!! A.*laughing hysterically* Um...no thanks. Q.Oh baby, you soooo sexy, I want you!!! A.Get in line. Does any of this sound familiar to

(kinky) Well What Can I Say Lol
You scored as Blind Folds. Your turn on is the blindfold. When you can't see, that makes your other senses more aware... including your sense of touch. So who wouldn't enjoy being blindfolded???? Sex isn't sex without enhancing your sense of touch.Blind Folds100%Chains/Handcuffs83%Bondage83%Whips67%Biting50%Blood0%What's Your Kinky Turn On?created with QuizFarm.com

Top 17 Country Songs
Top 17 Country songs 17. I Hate Every Bone In Her Body But Mine 16. It's Hard To Kiss the Lips At Night That Chewed My Ass Out All Day 15. If I Can't Be Number One In Your Life, Then Number Two On You 14. If The Phone Don't Ring,You'll Know It's Me 13. How Can I Miss You If You Won't Go Away? 12. I Liked You Better Before I Got To Know You So Well 11. I Still Miss You Baby, But My Aim's Getting Better 10. I Wouldn't Take Her To A Dogfight 'Cause I'm Afraid She'd Win 9. I'll Marry You Tomorrow, But Let's Honeymoon Tonight 8. I'm So Miserable Without You It's Like You're Still Here 7. If I Had Shot You When I First Wanted To, I'd Be Out Of Prison Now 6. My Wife Ran Off With My Best Friend, and I Sure Do Miss Him 5. She Got The Ring and I Got the Finger 4. You're The Reason Our Kids Are So Ugly 3. Her Teeth Was Stained But Her Heart Were Pure 2. She's Looking Better After Every Beer And the Number One Country Song ---

About My Pics
OK if one more of you asks why my pics are angled etc. imma bitchslap you. There are dead on pics. Perhaps if u looked thru you would find them. Secondly..if you don't like the pics...dont look. I never claimed to be gorgeous or skinny so plz dont insult me. Kthx

Are You A Real Person?
Have you ever noticed that when you finally except people for who they are, that's when they start showing their true self? The one thing I want more than anything in the world is to know people for what they really are. Not the plastic,"I want to inpress you", mask that hides their true self. How can friendship ever grow if you aren't learning about the person on the inside but instead accepting the actor playing the role on the outside. I have always prided myself on being an honest person and I have learned the hard way that I sometimes hurt people with the things that I say. Then I stop and think about the course of my life. Do I want to spend MY whole life having people tell me what I WANT to hear or what I NEED to hear. While it is sometimes hard to accept that we NEED to hear things that may hurt...In the long run it helps us grow as individuals. Many heartaches and many tears over the course of my life have left me searching for REAL people. So many times I found myself tru

Poem: In Nature's Own Way
This is my dream that is only for you and, only you must touch,smell,taste,see and hear. You'll find that I'm apart of nature where everything is real. This special place is in me an also in you, and only you and I can go beyond its limits. As a gentle wind blows and you can smell, sweet honeysuckle that comes within my spirit. You close your eyes and open your arms to, embrace the wind as it gives you a new sensation. You then allow your heart,mind,and soul, to open so you can feel my presence. Just when you think its safe to open your eyes, a lite breeze presses softly against your lips. Leaving them moist with the sweet luscious, taste that comes from my kiss to you is given, in nature's own way.. Sign: Raymond Starns Dated: 12/98'

Poem: For You Too
Love!, you can see the motive, of my heart and why it's so, vitally important to give, everything I've got from the start. Honestly I want to show you , all my intention and hold up for it, now. What will it hurt an it may even, give your broken heart all the, strenght and support it has been seeking. Being able to look at your picture, everyday make me smile and have inner feelings, that are deep within my heart just as in my mind. When I think back to that day our eyes met the, emptiness in my heart was filled with you. Everything changed and then I knew it was you a, necessity to see the intention of my heart. Urgently I follow upon my reaction and I, see my heart not only beats for me,but for you 2. Sign: Raymond Starns Dated: 11/98'

Sexism
I realize that I can just go on and on about women's rights, but most of us can point out many examples about sexist attitudes towards women. I, however, am going to explore the topic about the sexism towards men. Here are some examples of how the our society is sexist towards men: -Females are now allowed to wear pants, which they weren't allowed to do back when. Yet, society norms do not allow men to wear skirts or dresses unless they call it a kilt. -Males are looked down upon if they wear make-up to enhance their features or hide their flaws, yet women have the right to. -Many bars and clubs have 'Ladies Night' allowing the women to enter freely and giving them special discounts that the men do not receive. -In court order, women usually win custody of the children, even if the man can provide and be a more loving/caring parent for the children. -Men are more likely to get jobs that damage their physical health. -Homosexual or bisexual women is viewed as positive,

Another Year Older
well here goes another year down the tubes. yep friday i'll be another year older , omg. yeah i sit here and wonder what my day will be like, probably like anyother boring as hell around here with nothng to do and no money to do it with. i wonder if my friends will even remember that its my birthday? it will be a greta day i suspose no matter what. as im very lucky to be alive, from the things that have happened in my life i take each dayand treasure it as it were my last. if your reading this then you are probably one of my frineds

Moving On
Well to some of my close friends, you may have noticed that i havent been around much. Cause I've been out of town, in Maryland. Well I have to make some changes in my life and I've met the perfect person to help me do just that. I will be leaving everything that I have known my whole life, but I will be making a better one. I will be moving to Maryland in 5 weeks.I will be in Cambridge. So during this time I wont be on much, but mark my word, I WILL BE BACK!

For My Dad...
Most of you know i received the dreaded middle of night call from home. My Dad has had congestive heart failure for years. His heart is currently pumping at 15% of capacity. I flew home with intention of staying a few days, i was there for a week and a half. Dad wants to go home. They put him in a nursing home. I swore as a little girl, promised him he would never wind up in a nursing home. I set up a meeting with hospice and they are evaluating him Wednesday so that they met set his home up so that he may go home. I have returned to Florida to get my kids through the last three weeks of school here, and then will return to California to care for my Dad until..well..whenever...I'm scared something will happen before i get there, i am fighting time. I apologize for not returning your comments and love, please give me a couple of days to catch up, figure the next life changes ahead...give your Dad's an extra hug tonight...time is not our friend...i love you all and thanks for your suppor

Pathetic....
Ever wonder what the expression "stuck on stupid" meant?Well here is an example: The grinning idiot clinging to Je$$e Jack$on is Cindy Sheehan... the sob sister protesting the war at Bush's ranch, who lost her son in the war, the same son she gave up in her divorce when he was 7 years old. And by the way if you wonder why she has so much free time ... she is going through another divorce right now and guess what? She is giving up custody of another son. As Forest Gump once wisely proclaimed, "Stupid is as stupid does."What Is This Picture? Obviously, it's a picture in a cemetery. What cemetery and whose grave? Sadly, it's the grave of Casey Sheehan. After two years, and a DoD payment of $250,000 to the "Peace Mom", Cindy Sheehan has not had the time or bothered to have a headstone placed on this young hero's grave. And, she doesn't even have to pay for one, the DoD will provide one: "The Department of Veterans Affairs (VA) furnishes upon request, at no charge to the applicant, a g

Ichi
it's like waking in the morning to the sickly sweet smell of flowers overcoming my senses. almost too sweet. teasing me. toying with me. i'm feeling ever so yellow today... and when i open my eyes i know that the bombus ternarius kept their promise, to trace me in pollen. protect me with the after effects of their neverending chore. the statues are all lined up now. like little soldiers with their broken limbs and missing parts. one by one standing... staring. some with too much shading in the wrong places... their faces blackened and nothing but bright eyes and crooked smiles. to them i am the sun when they beg for cold, and the moon on a crisp winter night. you don't understand what you do to me, sir. and sometimes i wonder if you even care. your words bite into me like no lust filled mouth has ever done. you leave me gasping for air... ready to explode into a mess of strawberry flavored blood. i think you should get away... start driving to clean up the mess.

One Day It Might Happen
Online friends are people we may never meet.... We see pictures, we see cams...It isn't the same.... We grow close...We care and love one another.... One day we may not hear from one another.... Our hearts will break... All we see is a name on messenger but the person we don't see anymore..... We pray....."Please come back".... All I ask is you remember me in the good times we had..... Keep me close to your heart....Friends forever... Pass this on to all your friends....If I get it back.... I know you care ( To a very special friend I have made on here. One day you never know if we will ever meet. Lets just pray we might )

Daddys Poem..thanks Drill
Daddy's Poem Her hair was up in a pony tail, her favourite dress tied with a bow. Today was Daddy's Day at school, and she couldn't wait to go. But her mommy tried to tell her, that she probably should stay home. Why the kids might not understand, if she went to school alone. But she was not afraid; she knew just what to say. What to tell her classmates of why he wasn't there today. But still her mother worried, for her to face this day alone. And that was why once again, she tried to keep her daughter home. But the little girl went to school eager to tell them all. About a dad she never sees a dad who never calls. There were daddies along the wall in back, for everyone to meet. Children squirming impatiently, anxious in their seats One by one the teacher called a student from the class. To introduce their daddy, as seconds slowly passed. At last the teacher called her name,

Ted Nugent's Veiw On The Vt Massacre
I 100% agree. WACO, Texas (CNN) -- Zero tolerance, huh? Gun-free zones, huh? Try this on for size: Columbine gun-free zone, New York City pizza shop gun-free zone, Luby's Cafeteria gun-free zone, Amish school in Pennsylvania gun-free zone and now Virginia Tech gun-free zone. Anybody see what the evil Brady Campaign and other anti-gun cults have created? I personally have zero tolerance for evil and denial. And America had best wake up real fast that the brain-dead celebration of unarmed helplessness will get you killed every time, and I've about had enough of it. Nearly a decade ago, a Springfield, Oregon, high schooler, a hunter familiar with firearms, was able to bring an unfolding rampage to an abrupt end when he identified a gunman attempting to reload his .22-caliber rifle, made the tactical decision to make a move and tackled the shooter. A few years back, an assistant principal at Pearl High School in Mississippi, which was a gun-free zone, retrieved his legally ow

To Be A Marine
Some people think we came from hell, others think we should all go there. Then there are the wise ones who are glad we are around. So what does it take to be a Marine? I admit, you have to be a bit foolish, a little daring, somewhat adventurous, looking for a challenge and according to most parents-crazy. Why? Because we are special. We train differently, we act differently, we think like no others, we take chances where others never would, we do more with less, we are overflowing with pride. We wear our uniform with pride, we hold our heads up high with pride and our families are proud of us. Our country respects us, there are those who are not fond of us and the enemy fear us. So, unless you've been a Marine, no one really understands us or what it takes to be a Marine. We are damn proud to be called "Marine". You can find a former Marine in all walks of life. People say we're dummies, stupid, crazy, obnoxious, animals. THEY JUST DON'T KNOW!!!! I have met former Marines who are law

Butterfly Kisses
ummm how about some butterfly kisses! Tickling your neck... then I move down your pretty chest with my hot mouth leaving a line of wet kisses down your tummy! Hmmm... Well I am at your tummy and you are already squirming around pushing your hips up a bit making your impatience known! I rub my hands over each of your thighs using a bit of pressure! I spread them as far as they can go hearing the moist echo of your wet lips spreading apart... Ummm I am looking at you perfect swollen clit... It is glistening with your juices.. It is begging me to suck it! I lick circles around it flinging it back and forth with my tongue... I ram two fingers in your hot cunt and curl them to your g spot! You let out a loud moan as you start to drip! Now I am suckling your clit and you are thrusting you hips up harder!... I want to make you cum… soon my tongue replaces the work of my fingers... I drive it deep into you pussy! And start rubbing your tender clit with my finger tips! I want to be as close t

What A Shame
It's a shame when some lonely, unhappy, butt kisser, just to gain points because they're a wannabe...has to report a t-shirt of mine that says, "If heaven doesn't have chocolate, I ain't going". Along with other t-shirts I have. I see plenty of primary pictures that should be flagged, but they never are. Not that I care about those. I say live and let live. I thought this place was supposed to be about fun. Not childish high school garbage. It's getting pretty sad here when anything can be reported. And there's not much that can be done because that person has their nose stuck up a certain person's butt. Some people need to grow up and get a life and leave people alone. What goes around eventually comes around...maybe not here on CT, but in some form someday. Ok...I'm done venting for now!

Very Sad News....
well today i took my son to the hearing doctor and he gave me the bad news on my son.. His left ear has some damage and might be able to be fixed but not sure and his right ear the damage is so bad that he is going to have to have a hearing aid..all of this is from getting hit a month ago.. please pray as he needs it... have a great day

Wtf!
I'm so tired of fake ass people that pretend to be you friend but in truth they don't even know the meaning of the word of FRIENDSHIP. Sure when everything is good they are there by your side. But as soon as things start to get bumppy they bounce. There are obviously some people that don't understand what this concept is so if you don't get it then leave me the F*** alone. To my true friends I love you much and I'll always be there. XOXO

The New Shop!!!!
Wow!! I'm amazed that this has rolled out so smoothly!! The new shop, Tanuki Tattoo, will be opening VERY soon! The address is 13016 Palm Beach Blvd, in Ft Myers FL. Wish us luck & come get tattooed!!! Jason

Blasting Holes In The Holy Grail
Just got through making my bdsm blog..now i have plenty to say in this one. I have some opinions about the goings on and inconsistancies of other religons,so if you dont want to her them,then dont read. I got a bone to pick about the following... *People who come to my door and try to sell their beliefs to me...you know who i am talking about...the christians and jehovahs witnesses...dont they know how WRONG that is,how it cheapens their spirituality down to the level of girl scout cookies or a vaccum?WTF...spirituality is not something you sell to other people door to door..if a person is really meant to learn about a certain belief they will seek it out on their own,without pressure...you sure dont get any brownie points from people like me trying to snooze in extra on a sunday...waking up a sleepy witch is SOO not a good idea. *The bible...ah,yes the holy book.I got ALOT to say about that....first of all,theres supposedly alot of things god actually said....but no doggon

No One Cares
this just gives a voice to those who think about it not me To whomever is listening- to whoever cares, I have given up on life because no one cares. And if no one cares Then, why should I? My life is a joke. Why was I born? I guess to bring only misery and dispair To whomever I love or meet So, why should I go on? The thoughts of suicide run through my head So, if you are really listening to my words, then tell me Why should I go on? cain

Mourning
Yesterday day at 6 am my mother found my step father dead. This really sucks. He was more of a father than my own. Can't really say it out loud yet. I didn't really like him that much and I don't get why it hurts so much. I need a hug.

What's Goin' On??
Okay, so I got fired like a month ago. I should have signed on to the dole (Jobseekers' Benefits) a looooong time ago, and I should DEFINETELY have a new job by now. I just haven't been assed really. This is the stupidest thing I've ever done, because I have lots of bills to pay and animals to feed. Anyway, that's not what this blog is about. The whole point of this is that things seem to be going from bad to worse, but I'm still smiling! I mean it's not really getting to me at all! Now in the past the smallest thing would get me down for days at a time, because frankly I hate living in this country, and sometimes my whole being would get me down. So I lost my job. Then one of my closest friends stopped speaking to me (still isn't), then I found out my ex-boss had been telling people I was ON DRUGS when I was in work (which i was NOT! I was a manager, I'm more professional than that), THENNNNNNNN me and my mum had a huge falling out, THENNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN one of my pet rat

Love Is On The Way
Lonely sidewalks Silent night Bring the evenin' Deep inside Hold me darling Touch me now Let the feelings Free tonight Love is on the way I can see it in your eyes Let's give it one more try tonight baby Love is on the way I can see it in your eyes Let's give it one more try tonight Time of season Wipes the tears No rhyme or reason No more fears All the dreamin' Is far behind You are here now Everythin's alright Love is on the way I can see it in your eyes Let's give it one more try tonight baby Love is on the way I can see it in your eyes Let's give it one more try tonight And in the morning I'll be gone away All the things are left behind If you need me I'll come night and day Let's stop the hands of time Love is on the way I can see it in your eyes Let's give it one more try tonight baby Love is on the way I can see it in your eyes Let's give it one more try tonight baby Music Video Codes

Is My Superman Real?
And if he were real He'd love kids as much as I He would be the guy that would have just as much fun playing board games as he would going drinking He'd tell me if I looked good at any point in the day without me wondering if he really noticed or not He would accept my flaws and embrace my differences He's help me change the things I WANT to change about myself and my life He'd let me into his mind without me begging him to open up a little He'd understand that sometimes mommies need an extra hand if available He would love me unconditionally. He would know damn good and well he could never want to be without me. He would know the little things about me and tell me all the little things about himself He would surprise me with cute little romantic gestures for no reason other than to show he cares. He'd be my everything and I'd be his. I want to be married again someday, but I never want to divorce again Where is my true superman?

My Knight (poem)
You're my man, my mighty king, And I'm the jewel in your crown, You're the sun so hot and bright, I'm your light-rays shining down, You're the sky so vast and blue, And I'm the white clouds in your chest, I'm a river clean and pure, Who in your ocean finds her rest, You're the mountain huge and high, I'm the valley green and wide, You're the body firm and strong, And I'm a rib bone on your side, You're an eagle flying high, I'm your feathers light and brown, You're my man, my king of kings, And I'm the jewel in your crown.

Cancun
The wife and I are leaving for Cancun tomorrow. We're driving to Georgia first to leave the doggies with her sister, then we're flying out of Atlanta Saturday morning for Cancun. We leave Cancun the following Saturday, and we'll be back home on Sunday. I hope y'all have a great week!

How Many??
OK so how many people really do read peoples profiles? Do they just browse around and add people with out reading what they are all about? They see ya and add you and then hit on you...OR they make a comment like "so whats it gonna take to get to see the other folder?" or "ill trade your folders" or "so wanna see my cock" "can i see your tits" that kinda shit.. If they took the time to read what people have to say and read what i want they would see there isnt a chance in fucken hell that i am gonna let you see UNLESS i want you to...I have added some people to see that folder and they are ones who got to know me..They think that there is pics of me in there that are dirty...NEWS FLASH THERE ARE NO PICS OF MY NAKED BODY IN THERE...and if you read my profile you will see that i will not post them on the internet for millions of people to see...When you post something like that only a few doesnt see it becuase LOTS see it...If they took the time to read my profile again they woul

Insanity
Madness. Insanity. I often wonder whether I'm going insane or not, or if I have something inside of me that will one day be triggered, pushing me over the edge into insanity. Today, in our overly politically correct world, we used the term mentally ill, but the real word is insane, crazy. There used to be insane aslyums, now there are mental health facilities. It makes me wonder, have we come any closer to helping those that are crazy, or are we just making it easer to ignore them, to "adjust" them to daily life, drugging them into a sort of tranquility that makes it easier to deal with them, or to tolerate them. There was a time of electroshock therapy and lobotomies, now there are "miracle" drugs. But do they really help? Do they really make the insane not so crazy? If I were to lose my mind, would anything bring me back? There are days where I feel that I've lost control over my mind somehow and other days where I feel just fine. But in the back of the recesses of my mind, there is

Little Johnny's Dinner Story
"Little Johnny's Dinner Story" Little Johnny watched his daddy's car pass by the school playground and go into the woods. Curious, he followed the car and saw Daddy and Aunt Jane in a passionate embrace. Little Johnny found this so exciting that he could not contain himself as he ran home and started to tell his mother, "Mommy, I was at the playground and I saw Daddy's car go into the woods with Aunt Jane. I went back to look and he was giving Aunt Jane a big kiss, then he helped her take off her shirt.. Then Aunt Jane helped Daddy take his pants off, then Aunt Jane........" At this point Mommy cut him off and said, "Johnny, this is such an interesting story, suppose you save the rest of it for supper time. I want to see the look on Daddy's face when you tell it tonight." At the dinner table, Mommy asked little Johnny to tell his story. Johnny started his story, "I was at the playground and I saw Daddy's car go into the woods with Aunt Jane. I wen

If Your Walls Could Speak
If Your Walls Could Speak If your walls could speak, Would they talk about us And the things we've done, As silent they've stood witness? Would they tell of how You've anxiously turned me to face them, Impatiently shoving against, As soon as I've stepped through your door... Your left hand holding my neck firmly, The right dropping my defenses to my ankles, Fingers exploring realms, Soaking in delight? Would they express how you've made me squirm, And burn with an uncontrollable desire; How I've moaned for you to go deep inside, With swelling lips begging to be hushed? Would they disclose how you force me to the floor, Down on all fours, While I've whimpered and writhed, Like a dog, begging for more? And of how I've pleaded with you, To drive in from behind, As they've watched without a sound, Us imitating two animals in a mating ritual? Would they voice how you've raised me from the ground, Thighs straddling your waist, As you slipped inside,

Life Again
Alright day 2 of separation from the husband. I feel much more strongly about it today. I packed up a bunch of his stuff last night and I wasn't sad about it at all. Was kinda relieved in a way. I'm still confused though. I know this is something I've wanted but now its so weird to me. I haven't been single in 6 years. Will be weird to move on to my new self.

I Am The Wolf
I am the wolf howling in the night, I am the wolf winning the tough fight. I am the wolf with eyes as cold as steel, I am the wolf Nipping at your heel. I am the wolf The devoted friend, I am the wolf There until the end. I am the wolf taking care of my pack, I am the wolf Never looking back.

Anatomy Of Love - All 4 Poems
"I Wanna Fall" I wanna fall in love on a warm breezy day. I wanna feel it rush over me like a soft summers haze. I wanna look in her eyes slowly losing my way and feel my blood race as her touch brushes my face. I wanna hear her laughter everytime I close my eyes, to know with our voices we'll be telling no lies. I wanna know in my mind and believe with my heart, we will never part, our love will never sway no matter what's coming our way. I wanna feel her beside me on those long lonely days and feel her curl against me on those bleak wintry nights. I wanna know that everything will be all right, knowing we have each other with no lonliness in sight. I wanna fall in love on a soft breezy day. It's just a dream now, but maybe, just maybe ....someday. F. Wayne Johnson January 29, 1998 Miki "The Feel Of Love" Within the mirrors of my mind, I see the face that I adore. I hear the padding of her feet moving softly cross the

Taken In Hand (the Books Glossery)
Most readers have never heard of “CP”, “domestic discipline” or “BDSM” or “vanilla” and I think it would be better if posters here did not use these unfamiliar and potentially misleading terms, but they do, so what follows are some quick definitions for readers who are floundering. For a much better understanding of these terms, from those who associate themselves with the terms as opposed to from my outsider's perspective, simply do an internet search for the term and read some of the websites listed. Feel free to link to these definitions. BDSM BDSM (bondage, dominance, submission, sadism, masochism), also called “kinky”; refers to a number of different ways of interacting sexually, and/or relationship styles, from very ritualised, stylised modes of interaction to more subtle, evolving relationships like Taken In Hand ones. Some BDSM relationships involve sexual scenes and role-playing in a particular style (such as master-slave or dominant-submissive) but outside the sexual a

Havin Surgery
I will be away for a few days due to have surgery on April 30th.. Am prayin that all goes well and would hope all my friends and family would do the same... Please continue to leave me messages and ratins and I'll return as soon as I can

How Good Are You In Bed
How Good In Bed Are You?Congratulations, according to our experts, you scored : 100% which makes you ExcellentYou are an expert in the bedroom. You know how to please your partner and keep them coming back and begging for moreHow Good In Bed Are You, find out at NaughtyQ.com

Stupid Cunt
so i wake up to the phone ringing this morning. i haul my ass out of bed and answer it. its tiffacunt's mother calling to inform my mother that tiffacunt is 10 weeks pregnant. I had made the decision NOT to tell the family until I was convinced the kid is mine. but apparently MY decisions in MY life mean jack fucking shit. ive got an aunt in the hospital, and a mother whos under so much stress that shes damn near had a stroke 3 fucking times, but they cant respect my fucking decision not to in form her until im satisfied that its my kid. I FUCKING HATE TIFFACUNT! im so fucking pissed that im shaking. i want to fucking break something. and i know Tiffacunt is gonna read this, so, FUCK YOU BITCH! this is fucking bullshit. now i hafta drop this news on my mother when shes stressed as hell and dealing with all this other shit because itll be less stressful coming from me. thanks a fucking lot whore. i really,, honestly want nothing to do with that bitch ever again. i mean, shes fucking usi

The Pain Thats In My Heart And In My Body
i just want every1 to know who cares to read this that i have a hard time gettin on this thing anymore. my body wont allow me to sit here for as long as i use to. i have been diagnosed w/ mialfasha which i cant spell it or even care if im close. lol. but what it is, is just like fybermyelga if any1 knows what that is. its like arthritis to the joints and muscles. so im in a lot of pain sometimes and those doctors wont give me anything good for it, damn it. lol.. i had a bone scan done of my entire body which shows my skeleton. it shows im covered w/ arthritis all over my body which makes things even worse. my hip joints and spine are all thinning out already. well theres more but u get the point. if u think im on, my comp maybe just connected so i can check whats going on from time to time. this pain is so hard to bare but the worst part is im having a hard time w/ my son and he spends a lot of time w/ my parents. i see him a couple days a week he stays some nights but a lot of times i

H♥llieh♥ttie™'s ~insane Asylum Rejects~ {i.a.r.} Fan Train Is On The Move.
HollieHottie'S ~Insane Asylum Rejects~ {I.A.R.} Fan Train. If you would like to jump aboard please follow a few simple rules. CLICK THE BANNER BELOW TO JOIN... Note: This is not a bombsquad, just a fan train so anyone may join. Plz don't post bulletins asking I.A.R. to help bomb your contest. YOU DON'T HAVE 2 BE IN THE BOMBSQUAD 2 RIDE THE TRAIN Want 2 join Insane Asylum Rejects Bombsquad? Click banner below... I will be ripping TRAIN RIDERS default pictures from this page... ~Insane Asylum Rejects FanTrain Family Page ~ to add to the fan train album, so if u would like me to use a different picture please let me know. That is all... Have fun! =o) ~ Founder of I.A.R. ~HollieHottie ~Insane Asylum Rejects~[Founder of I.A.R.]No Fan = No Add ~Co-Founder~ .:Lµ¢¥:. Ðĵ Çã§ђs CT Wifey {Co-Founder of I.A.R.} __________________________________________________ Click on the banner below to check out the lounge...

It Is Love
It is Love that gives us purpose Keep Our Souls Nourished, Grow & learn. It is Love that Guides us on the Right path and Helps us choose Each Turn. It is Love that gives us Courage to stand against our Fears; to open up our Hearts , to let us see each other's Tears. It is Love that gives us Trust and hope when little things go Wrong. When distance stands between us, it is Love that keeps us Strong. It Is Love Which makes Our Lives Bloom By Taking Away Our Gloom It is Love that offers Harmony and a friendship that is True. How wonderful that I can share a Friendship like this with You! Big friendships to u

I Just Woke Up .....
the first thing i thought about is how stinkin proud i am of my niece and nephews. My niece was inducted to the National Honor Society last night...i swear i was so proud i coulda bust the buttons right off my shirt. All 3 of my nephews play sports....and are good at em...so lemme just say....when those kids are rich they better remember Aunt Sheila...lol Plus my 2 adopted nieces are smart as hell too...so i think i should be in the lap of luxury later in life cause all the kids will be rich..:) Now the next thing i thought was what the fuck am i going to wear to work today?? 3 choices....PLEASE help me put lol 1. Grey bermuda shorts that have white and pink stripes running down with a pink button up shirt and white tank under...with white flip flops. 2. Plaid bermuda shorts that are white background with olive blue and pink in it...with a blue 3/4 length t shirt and white flip flops. 3. Dark denim bermuda shorts with a pink button up shirt and a brown tank....brown flip flops

Makes Ya Think
Month One MOMMY I am only 4 inches long but I have all my organs. I love the sound of your voice. The sound of your heart beat is my favorite lullaby. Month Two Mommy today I learned how to suck my thumb. If you could see me you could definitely tell that I am a baby. I'm not big enough to survive outside my home though. It is so nice and warm in here. Month Three You know what Mommy I'm a boy!! I hope that makes you happy. I always want you to be happy. I don't like it when you cry. You sound so sad. It makes me sad too and I cry with you even though you can't hear me. Month Four Mommy my hair is starting to grow. It is very short and fine but I will have a lot of it. I spend a lot of my time exercising. I can turn my head and curl my fingers and toes and stretch my arms and legs. I am becoming quite good at it too. Month Five You went to the doctor today. Mommy, he lied to you. He said that I'm not a baby. I am a baby M

Fubar Point Values
I still don't get the point value system for FuBar, can anyone help me out? Exactly how much do you get for rating photos, stash, fanning, adding etc.... So far this is what I've gotten...please correct if wrong and add to where I don't know yet... I don't know why they don't have this stuff already listed in the FuBar Bible. Anytime I get more info on this, I will update this bloq, so keep checking if you're interested. Thank you!!! ~PROFILE~ 1. rating a profile gets you ~6 points {if you rate their profile a 10} ~ they get 12 points 2. they rate your profile, you get ~5 points 3. commenting a profile gets you ~4 points~ they get 12 points 4. they comment you ~5 points 5. you fan them ~5 points 6. they fan you ~23 points 7. add a friend 8. accept a friend ~ 12 points ~PHOTOS~ 9. uploading photos~ 2 points 10. you rate a photo ~2 points {if you rate their photo a 10} 11. you comment a photo ~ 2 points ~ they get 12 points 12. NSFW photo comment ~0~ points 13. NSFW photo

Letting Go
Wow....where do I start. I have met a lot of interesting people since I have been on Cherry Tap. Some good, some bad. In my time here I have also met people who mean the world to me and yet others that can't seem to take no for an answer. It amazes me how easily people can get there feelings hurt and become enraged by other people. There have been a choice few on here who have won my heart over in friendship and one who has won it over completely. I guess what is really concerning me is the degree to which some people will go to ruin another person's happiness. Why is it...when you finally find happiness in your life...other people try so hard to hurt you and to destroy that happiness. I sit here and I watch catty people slither their way through other people's profiles in order to "check up" on them or to try to catch them doing something wrong. How pathetic that this is all these people have to live for. Come on people...this is a website...There IS a REAL world out there, filled wit

Ur Bed
IF U SAW ME IN YOUR BED.....!!!! =)If you woke up n da middle of da night and saw me in your bed what would u do? Give me your opinion!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 1) go back to sleep 2) slap me 3) cuss me out 4) jus tell me to leave 5) climb on top of me and cuddle 6) fuck me so good... details please! 7) give me head 8) make me breakfast 9) ask me my name (lol) 10) call the cops 11) make love to me until we get tired 12) say damm u look good_ howd u get here?

Sneezing
A man and a woman were sitting beside each other in the first class section of an airplane. The woman sneezed, took out a tissue, gently wiped her nose, then visibly shuddered for ten to fifteen seconds. The man went back to his reading. A few minutes later, the woman sneezed again, took a tissue, wiped her nose, then shuddered violently once more. Assuming that the woman might have a cold, the man was still curious about the shuddering. A few more minutes passed when the woman sneezed yet again. As before she took a tissue, wiped her nose, her body shaking even more than before. Unable to restrain his curiosity, the man turned to the woman, "I couldn't help but notice" he said, "that you've sneezed three times, wiped your nose and then shuddered violently. Are you ok?" "I am sorry if I disturbed you," she replied. "I have a very rare medical condition; whenever I sneeze I have an orgasm." The man, more than a bit embarrassed, was still curious. "I have never heard of that condition be

I Am Leaving Cherry Tap
I HAVE THOUGHT ABOUT THIS ALL DAY AND I HAVE DECIDED TO LEAVE CHERRY TAP. I HAVE MADE SOME GREAT FRIENDS AND WILL MISS YOU ALL. CHERRY TAP HAS GOTTEN OUT OF HAND AND IS NOT FUN ANYMORE. I AM TIRED OF ALL OF THE DUMB ASS MESSAGES THAT WE GET SAYING THAT WE ARE COMMENTING TO FAST OR RATEING TO FAST. WHEN THERE IS A PROBLEM AND YOU CONTACT SOMEONE FROM THE CHERRY TAP SUPPORT ABOUT IT THEY TELL YOU TO JUST CHILL OUT AND TALK TO THEM THE NEXT DAY ABOUT IT. I PAY FOR A VIC AND EXPECT CUSTOMER SERVICE (NOW THAT IS A JOKE). THERE IS ALSO SO MUCH BULL SHIT AND DRAMA ON HERE THAT IT IS SICKENING. WE ARE SUPPOSE TO BE ADULTS AND NOT TEENAGERS BUT YOU SURE CAN NOT TELL IT BY THE WAY SOME FOLKS ACT. NOW I AM OFF TO DELETE ALL MY PHOTOS. SO TO ALL I SAY GOODBYE. YOU WILL BE MISSED. ALSO IF YOU HAVE MY SPACE YOU CAN FIND ME HERE http://www.myspace.com/wvnative

Just An Update 5-2-07
Well lets see here, I'm a little behind on things, so I'll try to encompass everything. First, to any of those keeping score, no I still haven't found a job, I still have some hopefulls, and my desperation idea also. I'm hoping not to have to do that, 6 months away at a time doesn't sound to good to me, but you know, I'll do what I have to do. Second, anybody who will actually read this, thank you, you guys have helped me raise through the ranks of this site really quickly and it has helped my self-image a lot just to know that there are people who didn't know me a month ago who are caring enough about what's going on in my life to check my stuff out on occasion, that's pretty cool. Now, if you are curious about the pictures of the band. I went to a show the other night and saw a band called Project Jones. They actually put on a great show, a few too many cover songs, but that wasn't their fault, the bar demanded it, and they do what they have to to make money, but all in a

Nsfw Creep Raters
Do the past few days of someone marking my NSFW folder pics, NSFW and causing hassles. I am going through all the peeps on my friends list and if you haven't kept intouch, I will be removing you. If you wish to be re-added then contact me directly! You have this NSFW Creep to blaim for this... Sorry to all, but there's always one to spoil it all for everyone!

The Vacatin For 2 Contest Is Closed
diamond gems@ CherryTAPWON A BRAND NEW IMAGINARY COPY OF CT FOR DUMMIES FOR GETTING THE ANSWER WRONG.... FOR FLASHING HEARTS SENT TO YOU R SOMONE ANONYMOUSLY HOW MUCH IS +3+4+2+4+6+4+6+7+5+8+9+0+=

Ok For A Gold Rolex ...willbe Paid During A Hh
if a plane is tarvelin at 300 mph and is supposed to land at 8pm in canada..but crashes on the borderline between usa nad candada...what country gets to bury the survivors 1st person to answer right gets a rolex...wrong answers gets an imaginary copy of reading is fundamental

Lol
diamond gems@ CherryTAP has been giein a clue from the cherry shop....for her commet...:fine donbury the surviors..let the animals eat em...lol for shiny hearts sent to anyone anonymously how much is 3+4+2+5+6+4+23++6+7+5+++7+8+9+

Ct Scan
Well tomorrow I go in for another CT scan to make sure that I am still cancer free. I am kinda nervous, I always get really sick from the barium solution that you have to drink before the test. So please wish me luck, say a prayer or whatever. I'm going to be a little out of it tomorrow for a while, so just take care of yourselves. MacStrong LiveStrong

New Rules To Keep Integrity Of The Game No One Wonthe Last One The Letter Was B
everone who guesses wrong will immediatly be told the answer.but will be immediatly eliminated.....plz dont cheat...im a detective take 3 guesses letter from a to z for a plat cherry

Band Aid In The Bronx
As reported a couple days ago, maybe someone should look at the new training staff in the Bronx as a possible reason for the Yankee injuries. Well, Brian Cashman, who hired and defended the new crew up until yesterday, decided to fire them: "Though the rash of similar injuries possibly could be explained by bad luck, Cashman determined that cause and effect could not be ruled out. Sources say Miller's methods were not popular with the Yankees, and the players were in near-revolt over the situation. Miller's approach included a de-emphasis of running as a way to build leg strength." Not running to make legs stronger? When keeping it contrarian goes wrong. Steinbrenner will not be pleased with the Cash Man for this one.

One Voice Makes A Difference
My charity, and I am so proud of this letter: President Signs Animal Fighting Bill Into Law Dear Michelle, I wanted to be the first to share with you some fantastic news. Today President Bush signed the Animal Fighting Prohibition Enforcement Act into law. This is the culmination of an almost six-year campaign by The Humane Society of the United States and our allies to enact meaningful federal penalties for animal fighting. The law takes effect immediately. It provides felony penalties for interstate commerce, import and export related to animal fighting activities, including commerce in cockfighting weapons. It will make it much harder for criminals who engage in dogfighting and cockfighting to continue their operations. Each violation of the federal law may bring up to three years in jail and up to a $250,000 fine for perpetrators. We are fortunate to have had steadfast Congressional leadership on this issue. But this campaign would not have been a success without y

Free For All Bomber Competition
OK.. I HAVE ENTERED THE FAMILY IN A BOMBER FAMILY COMPETITION... WE WILL HOPEFULLY BE BACKED BY SHADY, KMA, AND THE C,C,B, UAO, AND ELITE.. I HOPE!! WE WILL WIN THIS!! SO PLEASE.. ADD THE MAN.. AND GET READY TO GO TO WORK... IF YOU DONT HAVE A SALUTE..YOU CANNOT BOMB..IF YOU DONT ADD HIM YOU CANT BOMB... IF YOU CANT BOMB...WE CANT WIN!!! SO COME ON.. WE GET A 30 DAY BLAST AND A 7 DAY BLAST!! Jokers_Wild - Diary Of A Mad Trucker ‡± You Dont Have To Like Me But You Will Respect Me‡@ CherryTAP THIS IS STR8 FROM THE CONTEST HOLDERS BLOG... The Contest Will Start at 7 PM Central on May 12th Thru May 19th 7 Pm Central The Bombfest Family List are as follows. 1. RAWR Family 2. ALLEGIANCE Group ( Confeds and Patriotics ) 3. TEXAS Bombers 4. GIT-R-DONE REBEL FAMILY BOMB SQUAD 5. BOMBSHELL&GRENADE LAUNCHERS POSSE Prizes Any family with a minimum of 2000 WILL Receive a 3 Day Blast for participating to promote Their Family, The Winning Family will Win a 30 Day Blast Inste

Mom
Well yall sorry i anit been on, but we had to call the ambulance fer my Mom wedsnday right before lunch. Well they says she has a mass uti and bladder infection and 2 compressed discs. They let her come home today, n i told my customers until further notice my shop is closed. So if i anit on very much , thats why. I will be able to come out here some after she takes her meds n goes to sleep after 10 or so. But i still check on her every 30 to 45 mins. But dont worry shes getting better n going to a bunch of specialist next week. I'm just glad we got her to the damn docotor. She was very pissed to begiun with, but realises it was fer the best. Shes exteremly pridful, in fact shed only let me help her up at the hosptial, did want anyone seeing here struggle with pain. But shes just like that, n shes gonna be fine.

Bbw Sexiness...
Another spammy blog but this site is too awesome not to share. Obviously, I am a BBW and that means that a lot of you, my friends, are BBW lovers. One thing that I face as a big girl on sites like this one or Hot or Not are fat-haters who somehow find it enjoyable to make insulting comments and downrate us. So I was very pleased to come upon a site specifically for BBWs called RatingBBW. Even better than the rating, however, is the community. And all the incredibly gorgeous big girls. I have been drooling over them for the past couple of days and now it's your turn. ;c) P.S. I just want to make it clear that, as far as I can tell, I get nothing from you signing up. I truly just wanted to share. I think the referral link just helps you find me once you are on the site.

On A Tangent...
I am writing this because I came across something quiet disturbing today. I was browsing profiles and catchin up on comments and mail. I also read blogs and comment on them at times. Today I came across a story that was originally mine. It got posted on a blog of a friend of mines...if u wanna call that a friend. I was never asked if it was okay to post or anything. In other terms its called plagerism. I am not happy with it at all. I will say this though and everyone can take it for what its worth. You do that to me, it lands you off my friends list and blocked. I get pictures made for me, poems written and all, and give the credit where it is do.. To me it is a shame that someone cannot give the same courtesy back. Whats even funnier is to get points and ratings from chicks on something you didnt even create. To me thats just effn lame. So now that I am done with my tangent. Remember all you have to do is ask. I am passive and laid back and dont mind sharing thi

Hmmmmm.....
Well, the kids and I spent the whole day (friday) together and that was good since I have'nt gotten to see much of them all week...this week I worked a lot of overtime and well, jacob started to get a bad whiff of it on Wednsday when he started to cry when I left him and sammy at the sitters. He had never done that before, so I think I had better cool it on the overtime work for a change. I would actually call at the sitters from work to see if jacob would talk to me or sammy but with jacob it is "no" yet, with sammy, she will talk to anyone at times. It seems quite different for the kids when their daddy calls, however. Jacob tells me that he doesnt like his daddy and wont talk to him, sammy on the other hand will talk on the phone with him, and I think that at least lifts up my ex's heart at times. Oh, but I believe that it is because jacob just doesnt want to talk on the phone is the reasons....But I can understand why jacob does not love his father and it is because he does not

Sexual Healing
YOU SAY,YOUR GONNA ROCK MY WORLD!SEND CHILLS DOWN MY SPINE,MAKE MY TOES CURL.YOUR LIPS KISSING MY NECK,YOUR TOUNGE,CARESSING EAR LOBES.MY BODY'S READY,TO EXPLODE."WHOA" BIG DADDY.THAT'S MAMA'S WEAKNESS.THE SECRET TO THE FREAKNESS.BETTA PEEP THIS..THROBBING WITH ANTICIPATION FOR THIS SWEET SENSATION.NOT A MINUTE PASSED,WHEN HE GRABBED THAT ASS.(HAD TO LET HIM KNOW)BEFORE YOU GO,UNLEASH THIS FREAK.BETTA 'CUM' WIT YA BEST TECHNIQUE,AND NO MATTER HOW 'HARD' YOU TRY,MAMA'S GONNA 'RIDE OR DIE'.MAKE NO MISTAKE,I CAN GIVE AS GOOD AS I TAKE.FROM HEAD TO TOE,MAKE YOU SAY 'OH'.MY NAUGHTY FANTACIES,LEAD TO YOUR ECSTACY.WITH EVERY POSITION,PLAYING IN YOUR MIND,WATCH ME WHILE I 'SLOW GRIND',POPPIN THIS P*SSY,WHILE YOU LOOKIN AT ME,READY TO GRAB ME,PULSATING WITH JUICES,READY TO DO THIS......IF YOUR NOT LIKE THE REST,TELL MAMA,WHAT TO DO NEXT........'KISSES'

For 500
as it stands official bitch is the champion..to become champion u have to win 2 times in a row..the number 1 contender is blueyes..but im going to predict 1 of these 2 wins the blast..i could be wrong..any bets?lol...anyway after reading all this bullshit to throw you off...1st eprson to drop a comment wins official bitch 1300 blueeyes 1300

Sexxi Bbw Contest
Hello Cherries.I am Going To Host A SEXXI BBW Contest.This Contest Will Start Sunday,May 20th And will End on Sunday June 3rd.This Contest Will Start At 3:00 EST.The Prizes will be as followed.PLEASE MAKE SURE YOU READ ALL RULES!!!! POST ALL RULESIN YOUR BULLETIN.MUST BE ATLEAST LEVEL 5 TO VOTE IN THIS CONTEST!!!! Sexy & Romantic glitter graphics from Sexi Luv.com 1st place= Rolex 2nd place= Diamond Ring 3rd place= Diamond Earings The Rules will be 1st..Comment Bombing will be allowed.Even you can comment your self. 2nd...You Must be a level 5 or above to enter. 3rd...You must be a level 5 or above to comment on this contest. 4th...No Downraters or Putting Down Other Contestants.We Want A Clean Contest! Those That Want To Enter Please Contact Me With The Pic You Want to Use And I Will RIP It. smokingbibbw(sign my guest book)@ CherryTAP Get More at COMMENTYOU.com Get More at COMMENTYOU.com Here Are The Contestants So Far.Will Be Taking 20 Con

Stairway To Heaven- - Poem
STAIRWAY TO HEAVEN Although I have never met you face to face we have such a very special bond.... These things are our hopes, our dreams, and our hearts that will forever go on. We both know the hurt and the pain of missing that special someone we once had here with us to love.... And I know now the two of them must be watching down on our friendship from above. There comes a time when God calls his children home and for what purpose of time we may never know.... But I know God intended for us to meet and to help each other to grow. Comforting words of friendship are spoken as I read your every line.... I never knew another person who I had so much in common with and your life sounds so much like mine. A long hard path ahead of us is now what the two of us must roam.... But I know one day we will see them again when God decides to also carry us home. And if I were to come to the end of my lives path and reach 'The Stairway To Heaven' before

12 Types Of Black Man.. Ladies You Be The Judge!! Lol
1. MR. THUG LIFE Advantages a. Real good at making love b. Fun and exciting c. Makes you laugh d. Has your back, will fight and protect you Disadvantages a. Usually drinks and smokes too much b. Always got drama c. Stays a thug forever d. In and out of jail 2. MR. NAW, I DON`T HAVE A GIRL Advantages a. Will take you out in the beginning b. Will introduce you to all his friends c. Compliments you all the t ime Disadvantages a. Has a girlfriend who hes been with since the 2nd grade b. Will not get rid of her c. He tells you about her after youve fallen in love with his *bleep* 3. MR. BIG BALLA Advantages a. W ill give you money with no questions asked b. Has alot of style to him c. Will show you some of the nice things in life Disadvantages a. Never returns your pages b. Feels he can come to your house at any given time without calling first c. Loves to be around his boys more than you. 4. MR. I`M IN THE INDUSTRY Advantages

No More
I have decided I might not do anymore blogs... Why should I? When I have to point them out.. and no one reads them.. or hardly comments on any of them.. I beg for people to read my stuff here.. I wont do it anymore.. I see other girls post blogs and get a lot of people reading their stuff.. and commenting. So as of now.. I will either NOT post anything here.. or post it for my eyes only.. usually that is who is seeing things anyways.

For 1000
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Pain Of Disspair
i look around for u, but i dont see u there i try so hard to find u don't u even care i turn behind me and look i think your standing there oh yes i look behind me right into the face of pain of disspair It's coming over me now And i don't know what to do i cling to something solide In high hopes that it is u It stares back at me and chill's me to the bone its stares right at me tell me i am not all alone i feel the chill come upon me and i kick and scream and fight i start to feel sick so i curle up in fright it set's there and waits i hate what i am about to do it sit's there and hate's tell me this isn't true. i sit there and start to cry i sit there all alone all the sundden i start to feel it there is no way to start over again i start to feel the pain of disspair within

Snow Queen
The fairy tale "The Snow Queen" was written by Hans Christian Andersen. I've always liked the story, and I've been meaning to do a portrait of the queen for a few years now. She's a strange character, living alone in an ice palace, and she kidnaps a boy named Kay, and brings him to her palace to live. In the middle of the vast, empty halls of snow, was a frozen lake, cracked into a thousand shards. She tells Kay he can never leave until he is able to spell out the word "Eternity" using the shards of ice. As she is driving him to her palace in her sleigh for the first time, she kisses him on the forehead, a kiss colder than ice, which went straight through to his heart. "Now you must have no more kisses," she said, "or else I should kiss you to death." ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I want to dedicate this to My Boys. With whom have tolerated my downer moments lately and there have been many. Suicidal moments to be exact. My two main issues my looks and abo

Rated A 4
You know, I can understand someone not liking the way I look. Hell, most of the time I don't like the way I look. And if it had been a picture of me and got rated a 4 I'd have said 'Uh, alright.' and moved on. But the picture of my eyes?!? By a chick who makes me look as skinny as Nicole Richie and as pretty as Nicole Kidman?!? I mean COME ON! I know she was just looking for attention so I didn't give her any beyond looking at her page, which was filled with comments about how she had done the same thing to others. I just don't get it. If I don't think someone is a 10 I just don't rate them. Is that hipocritical? Should I do what she did? What do you guys think? Comment and let me know.

Words From Somone Dear (poem Dedicated To My Nana)
The child gazed apon the old woman as she spoke these words Live like everday is new, because today can always be your last Look apon those you call friends like treasure, then you will see you are truly rich Seek apon the new,because the old is gone and faded with yesterday Remember the teachings of the past , because they will help build your future Know your self and be humble to yourself, throughout all of what you loose you will see only what you have gained Most importantly live your life with love in your heart a song of joy apon your mind and hunger to find all the good in life no matter where or who it is there will be good and always be yourself. As the woman finnish the child huged her and said I love you nana. She said to the child you may not understand what i mean in my words and in this lesson but one day you will. The child was me and the old woman was my nana I still love you nana and I finnaly understand your words and the lesson R,I,P y

Man There's A Lot Coming Up....
Well this coming weekend, my little girl will be moving up to the next level in Girl Scouts. Right now she is a Junior Girl Scout, and this Saturday, the 12th, at 10 a.m., her service unit is having a bridging ceremony to move the Juniors that are ready up to Cadet's. She is sooooooo excited and so am I!!!! Then on Wednesday of the next week (the 16th), since Sunday starts a new week LOL, she will be 11! I'm so happy but so sad at the same time. She's not my little girl anymore. We're not doing anything special as we're having a surprise party for her in North Carolina. My Aunt and cousin are putting it all together and they are sooooooo excited. I'm just excited to be getting out of here for 2 weeks! Friday, May 18th, her school is having the awards ceremony. Basically the graduation. *Sniff* My baby will be graduating the 5th grade. I'm not sure I'm ready for this LOL She's managed to get straight A's all year so I'm really looking forward to this ceremony. I'm so proud of h

I Am Pure Evil, I Dont Deserve Life After This
Ok some of you know my ex, and how things were horrible with me and him. And well hes a junior so he was going to junior prom which is this weekend. He hurt me really bad, and i wanted him to be miserable more then anything. Some of you also know im Wiccan. Last night, i concentraited on him having the worse day of his life saterday and I just wished his life was a living hell. I received a call that his father died last night in his sleep, and they dont know why. The funeral is set up on the same day as prom. I feel like the worse person in the world i never EVER would of wished for ANYTHING like that to happen. I didnt want anyone to get hurt or anything i just wanted just his date to blow him off or somthing stupid. I feel so horrible =(

My Heart
Longing for the day your mine, I think true love is something I will never find, I always long for the day our eyes meet, That would be my hearts only defeat, I wish you were there to wipe my tears, Tell me everythings ok when I tell you my fears, Your touch I want to feel, Your the only one that can make my wounds heal!!!

So I Couldnt Help Myself...
i just felt like sharing because i am slightly intoxicated... so, i saw joey lawrence in a club in LA last month, and when i saw him i could NOT help myself from saying, "WOAH!". baaaaahahahahahaha! Co remembers. i called her and we shit ourselves laughing together. werd.

Talk To The Cock
You Communicate Like a Man When you communicate, you like to get to the point. You're not afraid to say what's on your mind - and leave it at that. Talking about your emotions drains you. You rather keep them to yourself. You prefer solving problems to wallowing in your sorrows. Do You Communicate Like a Man or a Woman?

For Lestat
And I walked out in a towel for James to see....hair wet with water dripping to the ends on to my skin.....as I slowly walk over to him my towel slowly falls to the floor. All my woman hood right there for him to see. As he stood there staring with wondering eyes I slowly teasingly bent over to pick up the towel.as I pick it up I toss it aside and then he grabbed my hand pulled me close and lightly kisses my lips with lustful passion.as he kisses me my hands wonder to the bottom of his shirt.I pull it up rubbing my soft round breast on his chest and then he took over and finished taking of his shirt.....I wrap my arms around his waist starts scratching his back as my lips part to touch his I move my hands to his chest and slowly move them down putting one hand just a lil in his pants and pulls him closer walking to the couch backwards leading James...falling down onto the couch I unbutton his pants and tugs the zipper down noticing his man hood through his pants throbbing and ready for