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She Had A Heart Attack Earlier Today
well ,my wife and i were sitting at my sister and brother in law's house earlier ,when my cellphone rang .it was my wife's mother and she tells me that she had a heart attack today and she is calling me from the emergency room .well they care flighted her to another hospital and she has to have open heart surgery (she has blockage on both sides of her heart ) tomorrow at 8 am .she just had a stroke at the tail end of last year :O:O all i ask of you as my friends it to keep her and my wife in your prayers (my wife is absolutely beside herself (her family members have been blaming her for her mother's stroke ):P:P

These Days
Opening the door to the endless chances that awaitI can't wait to have my heart face its fateTo caress the hand who makes my heart thump out of controlwho is without any doubt the keeper of my soulAs where ever we are there is every thought of one anotherhow we represent the essence of the hearts of our motherKnowing that every step is covered with trust and passionno worries can be found in our daily fashionHolding onto only the desires that drive us beyond tomorrowits comforting to know that we won't be the cause of each others sorrowAs each morning would be a blessing if I held her heartand I would conjure ways to entice while we were apartSo take these days we grasp without the netsshow your natural beauty with no regretsCause no way are you alone anymoreno way can you say that you never felt true AmoreOpening my eyes to your precious glowthere isn't a moment I won't give to really showEach glance from you will be cherished like a rain drop of a flowerEach touch will be embraced l

For Jesus 666
I have no idea how to put links in here anymore :( [cries], but my friend Aaron is 600k from Godfather and wants to level. Any little bit helps. I'll post his link in the comment box. Thanks. :) Jesus 666 ~ Owner of Excito Diabolus [666% Metal]@ fubar

Why I Left
I used to dj & Be DJ Manager for the lounge on here called $$The Dogghouse$$. On April 28th of thisyear, I found out that the lounge owner, DJLuckyDogg, was a registered sex offender. I have major issues with any form of child abuse/molestation, regardless of how recent it is or not. Here is part of the conversation between me and him, which happened on the same night (which happened after he had all head staff in a conference where he told everyone about it): Oscar (4/28/2009 10:39:10 PM): I have a question, it's about something you said in the conference. Lucky (4/28/2009 10:39:15 PM): yes? Oscar (4/28/2009 10:39:48 PM): you said that it happened in 1999, but yet you said you were 21 when it happened. Lucky (4/28/2009 10:40:14 PM): i was 22 Lucky (4/28/2009 10:40:25 PM): an i went to court in ** Lucky (4/28/2009 10:40:33 PM): it happened in ** Oscar (4/28/2009 10:41:24 PM): you were born in **** right? Lucky (4/28/2009 10:41:28 PM):** Lucky (4/28/2009 10:41:42 PM): **

Sucks
(CNN) -- A Dallas Cowboys scouting assistant suffered a broken back and has been permanently paralyzed after the collapse of the team's practice canopy during a heavy thunderstorm, the Cowboys announced Sunday. An aerial view of the scene shows the Dallas Cowboys logo amid the ruins of the indoor practice facility. Rich Behm, 33, was one of three Cowboys staffers seriously hurt when the storm struck their practice facility Saturday afternoon. Behm's spinal cord was severed by a fractured vertebrae, paralyzing him from the waist down, the team said in a written statement. "To the Behm family, we extend our love, comfort and the full support of every person and resource within the organization," Cowboys owner Jerry Jones said...." ++++++++++++= shit like that just saddens and pisses me off. Just some dude doing his job he loves, and all of a sudden it all ends in a freak shit like that. Wtf??

Dom Deluise
LOS ANGELES – Dom DeLuise, the portly actor-comedian whose affable nature made him a popular character actor for decades with movie and TV audiences as well as directors and fellow actors, has died. He was 75. DeLuise died Monday night, son Michael DeLuise told KTLA-TV and radio station KNX on Tuesday. The comedian died in his sleep after a long illness. Calls to his agent were not immediately returned. The actor, who loved to cook and eat almost as much as he enjoyed acting, also carved out a formidable second career later in life as a chef of fine cuisine. He authored two cookbooks and would appear often on morning TV shows to whip up his favorite recipes. As an actor, he was incredibly prolific, appearing in scores of movies and TV shows, in Broadway plays and voicing characters for numerous cartoon shows. Writer-director-actor Mel Brooks particularly admired DeLuise's talent for offbeat comedy and cast him in several of his films, including "The Twelve Chairs," "Blazing S

What The Fuck Today!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ok...so my day starts at &;30 with my neighbors dogs bustin thru the fence and comin after us...sooo...that needed the cops and animal control...then it was off to my doc where i got ZERO good news...then I come home to log into fu for some fun and find ot some silly cunt I pissed off last night had marked 15 of my pics NSFW....got them fixed but what a fuckin hassle.....so Yeah great fuckin day. *end rant* and sorry..had to vent..(h) you fuckers ;)

If A Tree Falls...
and no one is there to hear it, does it make any sound?Such are the thoughts running through my mind today. That saying makes me wonder about a person's existence. If one person ceases to exist, what effect does it have on the rest of the world if they know?According to what I found on the internet, the estimate world population in February 2009 was 6,761,600,203. I sat here and thought of it in these terms:Take the entire world population and line them up in rows side by side and have them all close their eyes. Then have a hand reache down and pluck one person out of that 6 billion plus people. Everyone opens their eyes and looks around. Who is going to know that one person of that vast number has vanished without a trace? Well, there are at least three people. The person in back of that missing person and the person on either side would most likely notice them to be missing. The person in front would not know, because they would not have seen the person behind them unless they had tu

Donde Yo Pertenezco (in English)
Where I Belong.. Without a touch You have done so much Your tender words and loving soul Looking in your eyes I can see your gentle heart It is longing to be loved Give me your hand And take me with you Show me what it is like To feel you hold me tight Loving me forever and never letting go Carla K.

My Angel
Sitting alone in the darkscared, frightened and all aloneFelling helpless and lost in the worldJust when all hope was vanishing awaya hand appears in the darkand a deep voice cries out,"Take my hand, and wipe your tears away"Hesitant at firstscared to take a chanceReluctantly i take his handand let him lead the wayHe opened the door to my heartHe opened the door to my soulHe opened the door to a worldI thought didnt exist anymoreJust when I was about to give up on happinessJust when I began to give up on hopeGod answered my silent prayersand sent my angel to my door.Carla K.

Mickey Carroll
ST. LOUIS – One of the last surviving Munchkins from the 1939 classic film "The Wizard of Oz" has died.St. Louis actor Mickey Carroll died Thursday at the age of 89.His caretaker, Linda Dodge, made the announcement Thursday.Carroll was born Michael Finocchiaro in July 1919 in St. Louis, the son of Italian immigrants.He was one of more than 100 adults and children who were recruited for "Oz" to play the natives of what author L. Frank Baum called Munchkin Country in his 1900 book "The Wonderful Wizard of Oz."Carroll told The Associated Press in a 2007 interview that the Munchkins made only $125 a week while filming, followed by decades of recognition.

Ancient Breed
Ancient Breed Seems like many who were raised the way i was have gone or passed. To many times i am told Gentlemen do not exsist, Well i am here to say that we do . I will speak for many we do not honor those who set such bad examples of behavior. 1. beating women 2. Abuse Everyday i see many ladies talking about how they wont trust men or that they have built a high wall due to the past. But ladies is it that fair to judge all do to others ? Is it not the pot calling the kettle black to assume it is just Men who are in that nature .... For us men to have been through trying times in relationships .... Cheating ,lying, abuse People are just beasts in all shapes and forms no person can say they are truly that one person who doesnt do anything wrong it is in our BLOOD the temptation and the need for the rush the flow of power and ANIMOSITY some times overpowers even the most strongwilled person . Men you are no exception to this for we to make many judgement calls

An Answer
..i'm asked often what i do for fun. lol. i dont have much fun anymore. im no longer the free spirit i once was. before my veda came along, sunny days were for eating mushrooms and running thru green fields.. nights were for cold beer and dancing beneath the stars.. following the allman brothers all summer long.. veda has changed my life in every way. i was telling a beautiful man yesterday that i havent read a book in a yr. i havent closed my eyes in the bathtub in a yr. i havent watched an entire movie or listened to an entire album. i havent napped in the middle of the day. i have so little time for myself. that said, im in love with veda. ive never known another human being whom im so completely at home with. no one makes me laugh like she does. no one makes my heart melt like she does. no one makes me happier, more proud, more afraid; no one challenges me like she does. she's my favorite thing in the world. watching her run after a golf disc or wiggle her toes in the grass or

Me
This is my first blog ever so it might just suck ass. This is just some things I have been thinking about. For some reason over the past month or so I have found myself lying in bed staring up at the ceiling not being able to sleep. Now i don't like dwelling on the past but that is what has been keeping me up. I have found myself reviewing my life over and over, wondering what could have been or why I made the choices I have made. Some times I just wish I could change a few things I have done or doing stuff I was to afraid to do at the time. I have made plenty of bad choices in my life. But I also know those choices and there outcome are what made me who I am today. In the past I have trusted people who I thought were my friends that ended up screwing me over big time. but I have also screwed over friends who I now wish I didn't cause the were good friends. I also wounder why every time there is something I want more than anything in the world I can never have it. I wounder why wh

Mother's Day
well it's mother's day here and i am having a really hard time dealing with it. In August my youngest daughter Keira was drown by my sister and I had to bury her. I am spending my mother's day visiting my baby's headstone and wishing she was here to hug and kiss. I miss you baby girl. I think of you 24/7. HERES THE BAD PART MY SISTER GOT 15 MONTHS IN PRISON FOR IT....THAT'S JUSTICE FOR MY LITTLE GIRL. FUCK THE SYSTEM SO IF YOU WANT TO LEAVE SOME NICE COMMENTS OR ANYTHING FOR ME FOR MOTHER'S DAY I KNOW IT MIGHT HELP MY MORE THE BROKEN HEART!

Kissing Test... Oh Well...
Your result for The OkCupid Kissing Test... The Vixen You are 87% Passionate, 13% Romantic, and 87% Experienced! You Naughty Thing! Well, well, well, Ms. Vixen. You've got the highest Passion score among the female kissing types, and you seem to be rather experienced as well. Your scores in Romance aren't as high, which suggests that you're more interested in the erotic and physical aspects of kissing than the emotional ones. You revel in the different textures, tastes and techniques of whoever you happen to be kissing at the moment, and you're a fantastic kisser yourself. You're creative, and like to mix up the makeout with unexpected, flirty moves. You're definitely a committed, passionate kisser. You just might not feel as passionate post-kiss. It's not that you can't get attached... it's just not the FIRST thing you do. And you do that first thing extremely well. We sa

Flames Of Passion Game
Hi everyone, Someone has kindly voted for me in the Flames of Passion game so I thought I'd join in and try and get more votes. Please click on the pic below to read the rules and vote for me. 1 or 100 votes will help, of course the more the better to help me win. If the link doesn't work, I've added it to the comments below ..... Its meant to be secret but if you want me to get you some back, you'll have to tell me you got me some and how many so I can return the fu-luv. Thanks so much in advance for any fu-luv you can give :o)

Scavenger Hunt Info
Scavenger Hunt - Thanks to Electric Xanrose for this contest idea! She rawks! Rules: DO NOT UPLOAD YOUR ENTRIES INTO YOUR FOLDERS!! If you post your pics, people who didn't figure out a clue will get points off of your hard work, if I see one in your folders, the points awarded will be REMOVED! All submitted contest pics must be E-MAILED to me! YOU must be in the pic, and the pic must have my name "DavePinFlorida" HANDWRITTEN somewhere in the image. Here’s a sample clue: "I'm yellow but not a coward, you’ll find me in some kitchens." CLUE 1 (Issued Friday)"I've been called 'appealing' and I'm slippery at times" CLUE 2 (Issued Monday) So if the clue leads you to a banana, you can write "DavePinFlorida" on the banana, or you can hand write a sign and hold it in one hand and hold the banana in the other, or eat the banana or whatever, be creative!!!!! I will issue points based on your entries, and create a compilation of all entries for each item from all entries re

Some People
What the holy, fucking, pus-filled hell? The wicked sick douche nozzle cunt can dish out the doctored pics of people, but when someone does it to her, she goes to runtelldat to the bouncers with a screenshot and they get a stern warning from administration about your content. Can't take the fucking heat, you fucking waste of skin, stay the fuck out of Hell. Don't make pics of others, and they won't make pics of you, it's a simple fucking equation. One more thing...perhaps the Powers-that-be should look into things, not just take one person's word and evidence before handing out detentions. I know I'm not the only person this piece of fucking rancid garbage has done this to, and if you don't know who I am talking about, you don't pay very good attention in the mumms.

Wednesday
So Wednesday I have my appointment for the electrode testing done on my wrists. I am hearing it hurts! I had it done back in 97 but dont really remember what it feels like. Just hoping they tell me something can be done about the carpal tunnel. Lately my fingers have been feeling like they are falling asleep if I am holding something or doing something repetitiously. I will update more later on the housing situation as well. Right now I am just doing the day by day thing.

Packing Up
In about 45 minutes I will be getting ready for work and packing up my laptop. See you all later. Wish I could give you all a date, but even Dell doesn't know when I'll get my laptop back. Don't forget about me!!!!!!!

2
How many text messages are currently in your inbox?55 holy crap! Why aren't you pursuing the person you like?nope Would you take your ex back?not in this or any other lifetime What color are your eyes?depends..they change according to my mood What hurts?nothing at the moment...surprisingly Do you believe you can change someone?nope What was your last thought before you went to bed last night?don't think I had one What was your first thought when you woke up this morning?damn I gotta pee Have you ever tried your hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end?yup Does it bother you when someone lies to you?yup..I hate liars. Do you always care what you look like?nope Who was the last person you went out to eat with?Becky Who was your last text from?Jeremy Have you ever done something outrageously dumb?daily Do you wish someone would call or text you?doesn't matter Have you ever walked on the beach at night? yup..I grew up on an island. Name somethi

I Am Going For Spotlight!!!!!
ATTENTION EVERYONE....As you or may not know... I am the anti fuwhore. I decided to go for spotlight. I strongly encourage you to repost this, send it to your friends on here, your family and crap.... Even show this to your dog.... Every fubuck will count and will be appreciated... STICK IT TO EVERY E PROSTITUTING POINT WHORE ON FUBAR AND EVERY DONATION WILL BE GREATLY APPRECIATED!!!!Thank you all for reading...

Forest Hill Cemetery..
Just wandering about in a light rain and I found myself drawn to an area off to the side. It was one of the older parts of the cemetery. It seemed to be mostly children, babies up to about 16 and all died within 3 or 4 years of each other. A few times I thought I felt something touch my feet when I stood still in the same place. It was near a stone marked with the name Hermina. When I got home I looked the place up on line and they have a data base. So I thought why not look for the names of the children that I was standing near. I stood in front of 2 small markers that had girls names on them. One was Hermina the other Esther. Hermina was born in 1868 and died at a little over 8 years old. Esther was born in 1894 and was nearly 4 at her passing. They were both of the same family name. Judging from the way the hands felt I'd have to say it may have been Hermina who touched me.. I'll have to return and see if it happens again..

Mountains And The Circle By Lanett, Mark, Gail, Zoe, Leeann, & Tom
Mountains and the Circle For sure romantic in the mountains, Where the deer and the bucks run free, The dove flies with the yellow rose, And the river flows out of his banks at times Nurturing the sunning cat and the glorious peacock. Yellow roses are blooming with the sweet smell of romance Deer running high on the mountain top, feeding on the desires of love Dove flying free with the glory of friendship over the… Flowing river that feeds us all with love and hope and faith As the cat looks on and sees all in the dark and light And the peacock spreads her wings with the beauty of love and light… So we all can be as one.

Yes I'm Going To Complain!
Here we go, I have rated literally Thousands of pics since arriving on Fubar, but every time I get close to leveling I get the same 5 or 6 people showing up to rate my pics. Some people claim to give blings for going through their folders but then if you lose your way & forget what folder your on & ask your message is ignored (yes i'm thinking about 1 person specifically). another complaint is people who name themselves something sexually suggestive & have no NSFW pics! Why would you have the word cum in your name & be a prude? Done Ranting, I wonder how many will read this

Blood
Had to have 2 bags of blood last week from internal bleeding got bands put on my throat 4 of them doin lil better ty u all for your prayers got to go back in on june 6th hope its better so im still herere just weak is why i cant get to all my friends! love all u guys tho and ty again love kanan!

Lies
DEEP INTO THE DARKEST PLACE, EXISTENCE IS FADING, MULTIFORMITY IS DEAD. ADVERSITY IS BREAKING ME DOWN. TRADGEDY HAS STRUCK US WITH LIES AND SUPPRESSION. THOUGHTS ARE FILLING MY HEAD. MY MIND WANDERS INTO WHERE I DONT KNOW. TIME MOVES FASTER THAN I CAN. PAIN IS SUCH A HORRID TEMPTATION THAT CAUSES US TO SEEK ATTENTION. WE HURT BECAUSE WE REJECT THE ONES OF EXCELLENCE AND FOLLOW THE ONES OF FAILURE. OUR WORDS WORK IN MYSTERIOUS WAYS AND CAN BE SOME OF THE MOST HURTFUL THINGS IN LIFE. OUR BLEEDING SOULS FADE INTO THE DARKNESS AS VIOLENCE FILLS OUR MIND WITH NEGATIVITY. REALITY BECOMES A TRAGIC STORY THAT WE TRY TO FIX WITH PERFECTION AND GLORY. WE SEEK TO FIND TRUTH IN OUR LIVES, BUT BEHIND IT WE'RE FACED WITH HORRID LIES

Metal Mouth
20 months from now, hopefully, I'll be thinner. Oh yeah. And have somewhat straighter teeth. The reason why I'm subjecting myself to this is not for vanity purposes. I've never had a "perfect" smile. I'm okay with that. However, I'm not okay with constantly chipping teeth. The reason would be from what I've known all my life to be an underbite. I know a lot of people have them. It's really not a big deal. However, in my case, it is a bit of a big deal. It turns out that the right portion of my bottom jaw is longer than it should be. To show you how much it is off, visualize your own mouth. For most people, your back molars line up. For me? My top right molar matches up with my lone wisdom tooth that I actually chew on. I hear the collective, "Oh fuck!" For the most part, it's not really painful except for when I need to have any kind of dental work done. I can't open my mouth all the way without popping it out a bit and then I can only keep it open for so long before my jaw cramps.

A Little Wisdom (to Tell The Tooth)
I just got back from the dentist. The root cause of the problem appears to be my wisdom tooth on the upper left hand side. I made an appointment for Monday to have it removed. Since I have never had one removed, I do not know what to expect. Would it be possible to have it removed on Monday and then be back to work on Tuesday? I am going to give it a shot, I suppose if I feel like I can't make it on Tuesday, I'll jut have to call in, though I want to avoid it if at all possible since I ended up taking off Friday and now Monday as well.

X-ta-c
cum herecum closerclosercloserso close we feel as 1so close our hearts beat n unisonso close our thoughts r da sameso close i feel ur warmnessso close u feel my paincum to mepress ur body close 2 minelet me melt n 2 Utake me awayfar awaytake me to the other side of....X-ta-C

Lmfaoo Ima Skank Now I Guess
"Thank~a~Skank, ok...TY Mz.Dreams!! Nite Fu's" THATS THE FUNNEST THING EVER ARE YOU BLAMING ME FOR YOU DELETEING THIS NEW PAGE YOU CREATED??? IM A SKANK CUZ I TOLD YOU NOT TO MESSAGE ME OR WASTE MY TIME?? SORRY BUT I HAVE NO TIME FOR BS OR DRAMA I BLOCKED YOU ONCES ADDED YOU A 2ND TIME CUZ I WAS TRYING TO BE NICE THEN DELETED YOU CUZ I GOT TIRED OF YOU HAVE 5 YEAR OLD TANTUMS IN UR STATUS MESSAGE HOW YOUR FRIENDS WONT TALK TO YOU SO HEY BIGTAZZ USER# 3005094 IF YOU WANNA CALL ME A SKANK I'LL BE THAT THANK YOU SOO MUCH IT MEANS A LOT LMAO I JUST REALLY THOUGHT THIS WAS VERY FUNNY OH YEA AND THIS IS WHY IM A SKANK THE "MESSAGE"IT WAS WITH A FUROSE FROM THE GIFT SHOP *********READ BOTTOM UP******** YOU HIT ME UP AS IF I REALLY HAVE ANYTHING TO SAY TO YOU YOU DONT NEED TO SEND ME GIFT OR ANYTHING I DONT NEED ANY HELLOS RE FUCKIN READ WHAT I TYPED B4 MAYBE U'LL GET IT THEN=== 'BigTAZZZ' wrote the following at '2009-05-16 23:14:36'..>> Did i really make you that mad at me....im

One Of These Days You're Going To Love Me...
I am in the mood for sappy love songs...anyone got some alcohol and razor blades? Still trying for spotlight...donations or fubuck enhancers welcome and appreciated...

From The Prophet - On Love
From The Prophet - On Loveby Khalil Gibran ... Then said Almitra, "Speak to us of Love." And he raised his head and looked upon the people, and there fell a stillness upon them. And with a great voice he said: When love beckons to you follow him, Though his ways are hard and steep. And when his wings enfold you yield to him, Though the sword hidden among his pinions may wound you. And when he speaks to you believe in him, Though his voice may shatter your dreams as the north wind lays waste the garden. For even as love crowns you so shall he crucify you. Even as he is for your growth so is he for your pruning. Even as he ascends to your height and caresses your tenderest branches that quiver in the sun, So shall he descend to your roots and shake them in their clinging to the earth. Like sheaves of corn he gathers you unto himself. He threshes you to make you naked. He sifts you to free you from your husks. He grinds you to whiteness. He kneads you until you are pliant; And then

12 Oz. What!?
YELLOW RICE CASSEROLE 1 pkg. yellow rice mix, cooked according to directions1 stick butter, seed to rice while warm1 (12 oz.) Mexican1 can cream of mushroom soupAdd Mexican and soup to the rice mixture. Put into greased casserole dish. Top with grated medium Cheddar cheese (about 1 cup). Bake about 30 minutes at 350 degrees. Can add 1 cup boiled chicken or turkey.

Omg My Mother's A "whore" Lol
This story really blew my mind - so I had to share it with you all - I think the fact the "one in twelve" statistic is what shocked me the most :-s A mother of twins has had a shock after doctors revealed that her 11-month-old boys do not have the same father. Twins Justin and Jordan turned out to be half-brothers Mia Washington decided to get some expert advice when she and her partner noticed that twins Justin and Jordan had different facial features. Paternity tests then revealed what had happened - two eggs had been fertilised by two different sperm and there was a 99.99% chance the twins had different dads. Doctors at the DNA lab in Dallas, Texas had never seen such a result. Mia later admitted she had had an affair and got pregnant by two different men at the same time. She told TV channel Fox 4: "Out of all people in America and of all people in the world, it had to happen to me. I'm very shocked." Mum Mia shocked by discovery Clear Diagnostics preside

The Affinity Rocks! Come Join Us Ladies
=== 'The Affinity' wrote the following at '2009-05-18 15:33:35'..>> > > > > > > > > > > > > I've been surfing around the fu for a long while now, looking for a group of people to join. I've visited pages, watched them at work, thus far haven't found a connection with any of them. Not that there is something WRONG with them, but none of them seem to have what I'm looking for.> > So, here are my thoughts. I'd like to be part of a family where leveling isn't the total priority, and where all women that share a few simple common bonds can join together in friendship. I want to be part of a group made FOR women, and BY women, without a care as to what she looks like. I've found lots of female-oriented groups, but they all seem to have a prerequisite for joining based on a woman's appearance. Some are only looking for beautiful women, others are looking for women of a certain size (large or small) and others take members only based on hair color. Not that I have anything against the groups t

Aw Sayaka Sayaka!
Some of you may recognize Venus Da Goddess from around fubar (after all tonight is her first happy hour). For those of you that don't, this is Venus Da Goddess: Here is her profile link: http://www.fubar.com/user/2319853 I'd like to point out a few things: She a level 27 with no salute. Also the only man in her family claims to be her R/L boyfriend. When you view her profile photos they are all professionally done. So why no salute? Meet Sayaka Ando (feel free to google her for yourself): She's a very famous model from miyagi, japan. This is considered her official site: http://www.feather-international.com/ansaya

Wondering Soul
i spoent lots of time on here for the last year, LOts OF MONEY and made manyfriends, first and foremost i thank you for that.....but trials and turbulance does happen. my wife(queenie) is not on here and im not sure when she will or will be back. my friends from fetish lounge have all gone there seperate ways, and i cant afford to keep up with the auto 11s and the bombs. i am a mom 1st and foremost. back when i started i got rated how i still rate people, by friends and by scrolling, i never expect a payout altho i have paid out to people who rate all my pics. I appreciate the bling, mostly i got from toxic, gypsy, sweetest kiss, bug, and alot from tabs whom has been on lockdown for some tos shit, and has tried repeatly to show proof. the fun is gone for me i met people on here then i met them in real life and i love you all. to my sister she knows where to find me but it is time to close this chapter for a good while as life has called me to make other things more important. if you ne

A Different Life Style
I must have missed something in my life when i was growing up. There is this whole other life style out there that i know almost nothing about. its called BDSM,or Master-Slave and i am sure there are other names it goes by but i don't know them. Is this a life style for me? I don't know. Does it interest me? Yes very much so. There are many aspects of this life style that thrill and excite me and there are other parts of it that scares the hell out of me. The bondage doesn't really bother me. The possiblity of extreme pain does. I belive that i am capable of handling a small bit of pain,but would i enjoy it? Again i don't know. I was told that two of my fanties werea small part of the life style, but were mild by compairson to some. I have had the pleasure of enjoying one of my fantasies, but that seems like a life time ago. The other i have not had the pleasure to experince.I have only been able to watch it in porn vidieos (i know prevert), but i have never met anyone who would b

Leave The Pieces
You're not sure that you love meBut you're not sure enough to let me goBaby it ain't fair you knowTo just keep me hangin' 'roundYou say you don't wanna hurt meDon't wanna to see my tearsSo why are you still standing hereJust watching me drown[Chorus]And it's alright, yeah I'll be fineDon't worry 'bout this heart of mine Just take your love and hit the roadThere's nothing you can do or sayYou're gonna break my heart anywaySo just leave the pieces when you goNow you can drag out the heartache Baby you can make it quickReally get it over withAnd just let me move onDon't concern yourselfWith this mess you've left for meI can clean it up, you seeJust as long as you're gone[Chorus]You not making up your mindIs killing me and wasting timeI need so much more than thatYeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah [Chorus]Leave the pieces when you goOh yeahLeave the pieces when you goYeah, yeah, yeah, yeah,Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, Leave the pieces when you go

Bombing Runs And You
So here's the thing. I've been doing some bombing runs over the past month and so and I've noticed a couple of things. So here's what I'm thinking. Now I know it might be mean, but cherry bomb blings are mainly about one thing: grabbing points. Some common courtesies for bombing runs (just my opinion folks): #1) If you're going to spam a shoutbox for a bomb have Autos on #2) If you're going to spam a shoutbox for a bomb, do the person bombing a favor and drop a link, not just a random "hey, how's it going" or some other nonsense. #3) Read the status of the bomber. Chances are you'll get some very important information from that status. #4) One SB spam is fine. You don't have to keep dropping the same link over and over, it gets annoying, and drops your chances of actually getting bombed. #5) Don't pout if the bomber doesn't respond to your SB spam right away, or bomb you right away. Chances are the bomber is so busy bombing, that taking the time to respond would lessen the

Thinking
ok heres the thing, I always enter auctions but never host them. So I'm really thinking about hosting one. If i do the enrty fee would be 50K and will run for 2 weeks. I just want an idea of who would be interested in entering.

Maybe I Will And Maybe You Won't
This poem isn't really about me at all. It is, in fact, just about becoming interested in someone, and all the insecurities that may bring. Thus it fits neatly into my (many) "theoretical" poems - just exploring, pondering. I also think it's rather nifty and sweet. Since I hate 90% of my poetry, this probably means it is. Maybe I Will And Maybe You Won't Wondering what do I mean to youThinking and pondering, sitting as I doI lean and close eyes, invisible fingers at my jawYou, easily the most beautiful woman I ever sawAnd I think of how soft your fingers would feelAnd how warm your lips would taste......and how many worries crop up that I can't quite grasp atBiting my lip as fear rears it's headLittle red demons without hands - pitchforks instead.What if this and what if thatWhat if I mess up and what if I see things that aren't really thereLike the man by the stair.Maybe you do and maybe you don't,Maybe I will and maybe you won't,Maybe it did and maybe it didn't,It's al

Us Congressional Medal Of Honor
Petty Officer II (EOD2) Mike Monsoori, a Navy EOD Technician, was awarded the Congressional Medal of Honor posthumously for jumping on a grenade in Iraq, giving his life to save his fellow Seal. (Notice: Mike was not a Navy SEAL, he was EOD. He gave his life to save a group of Navy SEALS.)During Mike Monsoori's funeral in San Diego, a his coffin was being moved from the hearse to the grave site at Ft. Rosecrans National Cemetery, SEAL's were lined up on both sides of the pallbearers route forming a column of two's, with the coffin moving up the center. As Mike's coffin passed, each SEAL, having removed his gold Trident from his uniform, slapped it down embedding the Trident in the wooden coffin.

Once Thought A Lie Becomes The Truth.
What do you do when what you always thought was a lie is actually the truth? I am angry,hurt,sick and just in pain. How do you hide something so important and then once all is known,act as if everyone should be fine with it? How do you tell your family this and act like it's the best thing ever? Your rationale for what you did is a lie. Devastating your mother. You expect us to be fine,roll with it,be happy for you. This is not something that will happen in days,weeks or months. I think,no,I know this is the last straw. You have more than broken this family. There will never be trust put in you. Your lies,hate and all the pain you have caused has come to an end. There is no turning back now. There is nothing left here for you. Leave before you hurt us more. Leave before there is nothing left.

R
R_______Hot tears fall down my face...All I feel is sadness and hurt from youYou probably don't even careEverytime I try to get closeYou push meAwayYou rip me with your wordsStomp on my heartAlmost as if you like itYou know you hurt meYet seem like you don't careYour drunken wordsThey tear meYour sober wordsUsed to be so sweetMiss the old youWish it was the sameAs years agoWhat happened to that man?Or was he not the real you?Was it just all fake to draw me in?Make me wantLoveDesireOnly you R______Would gladly giveThis broken heartTo youWould you take it?Or is it justYour ego keeping meAnd my heartPrisonerI know you don't love meYet I stayYour willing slaveEternally in painAnd sadnessI love youYet hate youWould give anything to be yoursWould be yours if only you askedBut deep down I knowYou hate meOnly keep me for entertainmentStill I worship the ground you walk onEven though we have never metI love and hate you at the same timePleaseStop lashing out at meLove youHate youTill I find a w

Cancer
Passages to strength Come in many forms and lengths, Survival of the fittest, The biggest Lessons learned Appear only when earned, When fate turns Its back on you, Misconstrued, Subdued With questions of how and why, Will I die? How many tears am I able to cry? The inquiries never seem to subside, Outside, I am a warrior-Braveheart if you will, Yet within the walls of my ivory skin lies a disease that will kill At will With no prejudice or bias, Ready to guide us To our Maker of life Where there lies no strife, Maybe finally a day of peace The heartaches will cease, But my soul tells me to get up and fight It is not my time to go towards the light, The flight That is destined for me Is to be The leader of every community To help them see It is not about you or I – it is about we, I will not be added to the list of the deceased

I Fail....
Once upon a time I had a soldier tell me it was my patriotic duty to show him my boobs, I told him to fuck off.....well today I see someone with this status (ON THE PROWL FOR MY SAVAGE BEAST!nsfwPics4Troo psOnly!) Now I know I failed my country =(

Second
It took Zasch several grueling hours to find what he was looking for in the darkness, but eventually he finally managed to find the trail. The foot prints were unlike anything he had before seen, resembling something like that of a human, and yet, not quite human. It unnerved him, and the tracks reminded him a great deal of something that he had encountered once before. He recalled several of his studies about such similar creatures, and wasn't worried about facing one in the least, having slain a lycanthrope before. He calmly walked along, careful to keep his mind from wandering to his studies, knowing that it would lead to his mind wandering to her, and distract him from the task at hand. Distractions in this field usually lead to an early demise. Zasch had no intentions of falling any time soon. The trail led him through the southern stretches of the forest over the course of several days, certain that he was catching up to his quarry. Throughout the trek, Zasch hadn't yet stum

My Auction
I'm in my first auction Please bid on me..minimum bid is 125kPlease check it out and rate it for mePLEASE REPOSTThanks so much...can you also F/A/R the host?ALSO....I have a 3 and 5 credit bling up for auction....

Facts
1. What are your initials?SLF 2. What is your favorite thing to wear?Jeans and a hoodie3. Last thing you ate?Pizza Rolls 4. One place you will NEVER eat at?I don't know....5. I say Shotgun, you say:wedding6. Last person you hugged?Daniel7. Does anyone you know wanna date you?[shrug] 8. Would you date anyone you met online?I have before, I'm single. Seeing as how that worked out for me...probably not.9. Name something you like physically about yourself:my eyes10. The last place you went out to dinner to?Out to dinner? I have no clue11. Who is your best friend?If I answer this, one person gets mad and then another. I have a few great friends...but to narrow it down to a BEST one...nah.12. What time of the day is it?morning13. Who/What made you angry today?nothing or no one14. Baseball or Football?baseball15. Ever gone skinny dipping?no16. Favorite type of Food?Christmas dinner, lol17. Favorite holiday:Flag Day ;)18. Do you download music:yeah19. Do you care if your socks are dirty?oh y

Can't Have It All, So Will Take What I Can Get
My life virtually sucks... Can't get my way to save my life... So why don't you all donate to me for spotlight and make me smile, pwease??? I accept every kind of help I can get, as long as it gives me the fubucks!

Why Men Get F@#cked In Divorces
I RAISED MY 2 GIRLS FOR 4 YEARS AND GOT CHEATED ON TWICE. I FORGAVE ONCE, THEN IT HAPPENED AGAIN, WELL THAT IS PRETTY SELF EXPLANITORY. WELL I WAS THE STAY AT HOME DAD FOR 4 YEARS AND RAISED TWO AWESOME LITTLE GIRLS THAT STILL WANT TO LIVE WITH DADDY NOT MOM, WELL UNLESS YOU GOT A P@#@SY THAN YOU HAVE NO FUCKING RIGHTS IN UTAH AM I BITTER YES . BUT I HAVE ENOUGH COURAGE AND STRENGTH TO FIGHT TO THE END. I KNOW IM RIGHT. AND IF I OFFENDED ANY OF THE FEMALE GENDER, WELL IM NOT SORRY CUZ IM AN AWESOME FATHER AND A TOTAL MAN:)

5 Minute Cake Recipe
MY BFF emailed this to me yesterday. I just made it. Pretty cool. Although I only have Nestle Quik, so I used that. I used like 4 tbs of it and it doesn't seem to be enough. Kind of dry so maybe 3 minutes is too long. So tweek it out a little bit and let me know how it goes!!TROUBLE This is GREAT for when you crave chocolate cake!! Dangerous!! But sometimes we JUST NEED Chocolate Cake!! A RECIPE EVERYONE SHOULD KNOW The most dangerous cake recipe ... 5 MINUTE CHOCOLATE MUG CAKE 4 tablespoons flour 4 tablespoons sugar 2 tablespoons cocoa 1 egg 3 tablespoons milk 3 tablespoons oil 3 tablespoons chocolate chips (optional) a small splash of vanilla extract 1 large coffee mug Add dry ingredients to mug, and mix well. Add the egg and mix thoroughly. Pour in the milk and oil and mix well. Add the chocolate chips(if using) and vanilla extract, and mix again. Put your mug in the microwave and cook for 3 minutes (1000 watts high). The cake will rise over the top of the mug, but don't be al

Blindfold~story~
She was whispering in his ear as she sat astride him. Warm breath on his skin, her lips brushing the edge, her tongue every now and then flicking to lick it, warm and wet and deliciously ticklish. She twisted in his lap, rubbing his hot, hard cock through the layers of their underwear, trying to make him give in. He didn’t know what his reluctance was, exactly. She wanted to blindfold him, and he wanted her to; but her insistence that it be tonight, that delighted smile, which he couldn’t help but feel was hiding something, her wide, excited eyes – it all made him wary. He had said yes - until he realised that she wanted to tie his wrists too that is, tie them behind him to the chair no less, which had brought his hesitations back again. Damn, though, she felt good. The way she was twisting in his lap was driving him near crazy, but whenever he tried to kiss her, tried to pull her into him, she pulled away, eyes gleaming, biting her lip with ill-concealed misch

I Just Found Out My Woman Is Married.
So, it turns out that Adrianna Lima is married. If you don't know who she is, here's a picture. I had been thinking that we were going to get married, have babies, maybe spend all her money. But, it turns out she married some dude in the NBA who is an ugly dog-face and now I feel betrayed. I'm angry!

Emails From My Dad
I got the boys ready and off to school. Got back on my laptop and checked the weather and my email. It's suppose to rain all day, which sucks. The "high" is only suppose to be around 66. I mean that would be great, if it wasn't raining. The emails from my Dad. I'm not sure what to think of one of them. It's one of those.."do you have time for God"..."if you are ashamed of God, he will be ashamed of you.", type things. I sent it to my Mom. I know she'll pass it on and she complains that I never email her. One of the emails that my Dad sent to me was kind of funny though. It had all of these cute little saying, some of them actually made me giggle. Yes, I said giggle. I didn't exactly laugh. Though I'd share them with you here. Mind you, I'm not adding anything to these sayings. They are exactly how I received them. "Marriage changes passion. Suddenly you're in bed with a relative." "I saw a woman wearing a sweatshirt with 'Guess' on it. I said 'Implants?'. She hit me." "How c

June 5th Update...
Hey everyone, sorry its been a few days since i've blogged ,but i havent been feeling very well... i was doing fine except for things werent healing very fast was all... till 2 nights ago then i all of a sudden got very cold and it was 85 degrees in my room and i was shivering and i had 5 blankets on... and then all of a sudden i got very hot... and i broke out into a 103.7 fever and so they gave me 1000 mg of tylenol and then i all of a sudden got very nautious so they gave me 4cc's of zofran and turned my heat down to like 70 and then put a cold wet wash cloth on my forehead and one on my neck to cool me off and they started me on a new med called Lyrica tonight also. They are not sure why I broke out into a fever so they took a blood culture. I have a picc line in my right arm so they took blood out of that then they had to take blood out of my left arm to make sure it wasnt the picc line causing the problems and then they did a urine culture since i have this nasty cathator in me t

Chi Sono I Clienti Delle Agenzie Matrimoniali?
Nei tempi antici in Russia non ci erano le agenzie matrimoniali, ma esistevano le pronube – le donne, quali potevano trovare un marito o una moglie. Le pronube potevano entrare e in case dei cittadini comuni, e nei palazzi. Loro erano specializzate non soltanto negli affari amorosi, ma anche in diplomazia e nella fusione dei capitali. Le pronube guadagnavano molto ed erano benestanti. Le pronube in Russia non avevano necessita’ di comprare i prodotti alimentari. Loro mangiavano dai clienti. Si era molto onorevolmente di invitare la pronuba alla colazione, pranzo o cena. Perche queste donne erano ben informate di tutti gli eventi, voci e chiacchere. Nessuno osava di litigarsi con pronuba, perche lei poteva rovinare la reputazione ad ognuno. In quel periodo le pronube eseguivano il ruolo di stampa gialla. Ogni anno il tempo della vita si accelera. Storicamente, le condizioni della vita in Russia e negli altri paesi di CSI erano tali che la donna dovrebbe lavorare per mant

Back
ok everyone i am back now. most of you know i was having a rough time before i disappeared. well i had the internet cut off at home for awhile to help out. but things are getting better now so i am back. thanks for all the love and messages wondering what happen to me.

" A Playa"
Well I have to place this blog to have complete closure from this female player... She is nothing that she claims to be, sadly while we were a "item" things didnt add up, you know sending RED flags... So after awhile I finally gave into the fact that she is a player... I didnt want to believe it, sadly for me I thought I was inlove with her... That turned out to be more along the lines that I didnt want to fail at a relationship... So feeling used I hired a private agency to collect information about her... I had a name she gave me, when she came to visit me in California I looked at her name on her licence I.D. so I knew her name, knew what I believed to be her address... So I hired this agency to do some digging.... Her name is as she claimed She isnt a widower, infact her "friend" named "Scott" is infact her real life husband... I recieved her SS#, His SS#, his place of business, her parents home address...

Short Story
bobo, hope you like it; ON THE BRINK I like this place; it doesn’t have any windows, nice and dark even at 11 in the morning. Sunny days just don’t cut it anymore with the mood I’ve been in. So why am I sitting in the Valley of the Sun in Glendale, AZ in a joint called Cactus Willies? It’s kind of a fucked up story but if you have Marie get me another pint of Guinness and a shot of Jim Beam I’ll tell you about it. “Hey, would you reject that friggin song, you know I love Springsteen but I hate this Bobby Jean song” I yelled across the bar to the barmaid. I guess the whole thing started a while ago, a Friday night poker game over a buddies bar. Five friends and drinking buddies at a semi-regular game that was more of an excuse to get away from wives and girlfriends than serious gambling.OK, it was also an excuse to bring in a stripper once in a while, so even if you lost it wasn’t a bad night. “You look like you are about the same age as me, getting close to 50 aren’t you? Tha

On The First Day...
On the first day, God created the dog and said: 'Sit all day by the door of your house and bark at anyone who comes in or walks past. For this, I will give you a life span of twenty years.'The dog said: 'That's a long time to be barking. How about only ten years and I'll give you back the other ten?'So God agreed.On the second day, God created the monkey and said:'Entertain people, do tricks, and make them laugh. For this, I'll give you a twenty-year life span.'The monkey said: 'Monkey tricks for twenty years? That's a pretty long time to perform. How about I give you back ten like the Dog did?'And God agreed.On the third day, God created the cow and said:'You must go into the field with the farmer all day long and suffer under the sun, have calves and give milk to support the farmer's family. For this, I will give you a life span of sixty years.'The cow said: 'That's kind of a tough life you want me to live for sixty years.. How about twenty and I'll give back the other forty?

Compliments
Who doesn't like them?? But for some reason, every time I get a compliment, I get this totally uncomfortable feeling, like I dont want to appear conceited, or needy, or anythin else. So basically, it makes me feel all uncomfortable and weird, not even enjoyable. Weird.

Wtf Do Men Want...really
Ok..sooooooooo, men...i'll never understand them.i'm really at a loss for words with this one. since when does it really matter where ur from or how far u live apart to make something work. I was taught if ya want something badly enough, then u dont stop till u get it. I have never said the word cant or anything negative cuz if i want something...i'll get it...eventually. to me men are jus lazy anymore...and dont seem to put forth much of an effort like i do. I feel like im wasting my time...and people wonder why i'm single.........any longer and i'll be turning to women...atleast we know what we want and need..................................

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Oh, sweetheart, put the bottle down You've got too much talent I see you through those bloodshot eyes There's a cure, you've found it Slow motion, sparks, you've caught that chill Now don't deny it But boys will be boys, oh, yes, they will They don't wanna define it Just give up the game and get into me If you're looking for thrills then get cold feet [I just like the first part]

"third World Penis Shortage"
So, a friend of mine, female, just called me up a little while ago to give me her report on recent sexual escapades. I don't ask her for this info; for some reason she thinks I want to know. On the upside, there's always something hilarious she tells me. Her latest guy "friend" is apparently huge in the penis department. They had sex for the first time last night and she relays to me this. After about a minute of penetration, he starts getting a little rough. She rather likes it rough, but also, like most women, does not consider liking it rough to mean "please bruise my cervix with your penis". So he goes in too deep, she winces, and this is what she told me she said to him in a state of high annoyance: "Fuck! It's not like there's a dick shortage in the third world so you have to feel bad about not using it all!"

First Writing In 16 Years
this cannot happen. how can this be?this doesn't happen. Not to people like me!How could I lose it? When did it end?Can I start over..can I try this...again?it didnt come with instructions, or a little notenot on the net or even a how-to to quote.Do I work too much? maybe work more.Tell me how to tend this wound... this open sore.maybe I'm broken with no hope for a cure.then why do I stay here what the catch? whats the lure?Oh God push either way off the the cliff or to soft groundAnythings better than gagged and boundtossed in the dark with a blindfold of hopeor denial, just a way to cope.Either way I am tired, my reservses are gonebut God knows this, He provides strength..will give me my song"So get up Damn You! Youll never understandThat as long as I have your hand You will be stronger. You will prevail!"Cause it's not about me, I just tell the taleof a weak man who pushed on to give reasonto the next one who goes through this season.I am well with that.

The Birch
birch tree, I see you stand all aloneIn a clearing, so far removed from others.You strive to belong in the woods with them,To be among your sisters and your brothersBut strong roots keep holding you down to the ground,All you can do is tilt your head and flail your armsHoping they will see your struggle, come to you,But they are attached as well, and can't abandon their realmsAs days and nights go by, you hear them whisper in the wind.You want to share your dreams at night, and celebrate beginnings of each day;But distance is too big, and they can't hear;You look at them with tired eyes, and quietly wonder what they sayThe day is coming to an end,The clearing and the forest stand in the darkYour green head is tilted down, you feel defeat,And clear bitter sap is running down your bark.You fall asleep and see the dreamsOf standing in the woods, with theirs your branches intertwine.You feel the wind caress your leaves,And bring your soul a little closer to divine.At night the clouds gathe

9 Words Woman Always Use!!
(1) Fine: This is the word women use to end an argument when they areright and you need to shut up. (2) Five Minutes: If she is getting dressed, this means a half an hour.Five minutes is only five minutes if you have just been given five moreminutes to watch the game before helping around the house. (3) Nothing: This is the calm before the storm. This means something,and you should be on your toes. Arguments that begin with nothingusually end in fine. (4) Go Ahead: This is a dare, not permission. Don't Do It! (5) Loud Sigh: This is actually a word, but is a non-verbal statementoften misunderstood by men. A loud sigh means she thinks you are anidiot and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguingwith you about nothing. (Refer back to # 3 for the meaning of nothing.) (6) That's Okay: This is one of the most dangerous statements a womencan make to a man. That's okay means she wants to think long and hardbefore deciding how and when you will pay for your mistake.. (7) Tha

Random Crap About Me
1 I wear shorts to the beach, no bikinis 2 My last name means "worldly" in old Russian 3 I am very lazy 4 I always look behind me when I'm walking by myself 5 I dont take myself seriously 6 I am kinda hateful in RL 7 I dont like big cities 8 My picture is in the dictionary under "underachiever" 9 Travel is my goal in life 10 I can make my stomach look like I'm 7 months pregnant

What A Night..
Let me start by saying, I love the class I am about to vent about. It is a WONDERFUL class, and I will learn a lot. There are just people in this class who are rude and obnoxious and just ARGHHHH drive me insane. We have a few girls in class who are VERY religious, that is fine, it is their preference, BUT do not preach to the class and do not continually go on about religion and what your church or group does etc. This has been a problem since this class started. Not only myself, but also a few others are quite frustrated with it all. Then sighs… The teacher asked a question and I responded, which led to a few certain class members jumping down my throat. One rule we have in this class is that there are to be no personal attacks. Well to me that rule was thrown out the window tonight. I was so upset that I almost just walked out of class. The main people involved in doing this were people who are close to graduating from our program. Well… I am new to the program and I

My First Time
The first time I had sex I was 15 and going out w/ a boy named Mike. There's not a lot to do in the town I went to Highschool in so we decided to hike up to this waterfall we both knew of. After we got to the top and cooled down he sat me on his lap and we started making out, i loved the feel of his hands as they slid under my shirt to play w/ my breasts, even if he wasn't very good at freeing them from the bra and where he left my bra on me was a little uncomfortable. I'm not sure how it happened but next thing I know he's pushing me to lean back and he's sliding his hand down my jeans under my panties and before I can stop him he's rubbing my clit. When he starts sliding his fingers up and down and grazes my hole I was overwhelmed with the need to have him inside me, mentally begging him to slide into me, my pussy was throbbing inward and aching for it. When he finally did he continued rubbing my clit with his thumb and slid his finger in and out of me slowly, it was wonderful and th

July 2009
July 2009 AT 5 MINUTES AND 6 SECONDS AFTER 4 A.M., ON THE 8TH OF JULY, THIS YEAR, THE TIME AND DATE WILL BE: 04:05:06 07-08-09THIS WILL NOT HAPPEN AGAIN UNTIL THE YEAR 3009!!!(I had a feeling that you just needed to know this - didn't want you to wait 1000 years for someone else to email you about it. Aren't you glad you are in my address book?) ;-)

Life
The saying goes when one door closes another one opens. This Monday one chapter in my life is finally ending. My husband and I have been separated for nearly two years now and I've kinda gotten used to that fact. Never mind that I'm the one doing the filing its a mutual decision we made long ago and one I'm having a hard time coming to grips with. Neither of us wants to be married any longer so no clue why other than the fact that in just over a month would be our 31st anniversary. Such a long time over half my lifetime that he's been a part of my life. He's given me 3 wonderful children and we have 2 beautiful grandsons. We make such good friends too bad we couldn't make such good spouses. The only bright spot is that we remain in each other's lives and are here for our children. I've been told I will be meeting the man who will make me truly happy soon and its funny as much time as I spend on here I will be meeting him in person not online. I've known for over a year I will be meeti

Amazing Alana
So I was at work tonight..not something surprising I know. I sometimes have to lift very heavy things and move them or carry them for customers. part of the job description. We have carts and such for the very heavy things. Vacuums, microwaves, toaster ovens...not so bad. Anyhow it always makes me giggle when short ass me comes carrying out a huge item and the customer says to me..I could have carried that for you. I have already carried it across the store at this point. But tonight I had to carry this box I swear weighed close to 90lbs and the box was damaged so there was no real handles to grab onto. I wish I had a video clip of this I know I looked mostly retarded with this huge box over my shoulder and my neck sideways to carry it. But the guy at the desk was shocked as I lifted it up onto the counter. I think my height is deceptive. I could put half the guys to shame that I work with when it comes to lifting and carrying things. Anyhow my point is that I may be short, but do

Caa #109
A dear friend of mines sister, Sandy, is in urgent need of all prayers. Her liver is failing. She needs all the angel prayers of help, strength, love and healing that she can get right now. Also keep her family in your prayers . Love, Doc

Together We'll Heal
WE'RE WALKING A JOURNEY TO DISCOVER WHO WE ARE WE HAVE A LONG WAY TO GO AND YET WE'VE COME SO FAR A CHILD, VICTIM, PRISONER, SLAVE BEATEN, BROKEN, SCARRED, AND IN PAIN LOVERS, FIGHTERS, MOTHERS, FRIENDS CHRISTIANS, SISTERS, HEALING WOMEN WE'VE BEEN THROUGH SO MUCH WE'VE BEEN HURT AND SCARED WE'VE CRIED AND LAUGHED, HIDDEN AND SHARED APART WE WERE SILENT, NOW TOGETHER WE FEEL SOCIETY DEFINES US BY THE MONEY WE EARN AND SCHOLARS DEFINE US BY HOW MUCH WE LEARN LOBBYISTS DEFINE US BY THE BOOKS WE BURN AND MOST FRIENDS DEFINE US BY HOW MUCH WE SERVE WE'RE NOT SOME STATISTICS JUST STUCK ON A PAGE WE'RE NOT TO BE DEFINED BY THE MONEY WE NAME WE'RE NO LONGER VICTIMS, PRISONERS, OR SLAVES WE'RE NOT GOING TO ACCEPT THAT BEING ABUSED WAS OK WE'RE FINDING WHO WE ARE, WE'RE REACHING INSIDE WE'RE DISCOVERING TRUTH, WE HAVE NOTHING TO HIDE WE'RE INDEPENDENT AND STRONG, YET HUMBLE AND MEEK WE'RE BEAUTIFUL AND KIND, WE'RE HOPEFUL AND FREE AS YOU LOOK AT ME AND I LOOK AT YOU RIGHT

Today When I Woke
Today when I woke Life no longer seems a joke Today I start new Yet I haven't a clue I am sitting here thinking of no one but you We have yet to meet Yet you seem so sweet I want to hold you tight As we look into the night The stars above Are spelling out our love Fate bring us together So we can share forever In your arms is where I long to be Please don't set my heart free. Loving you is what I need So I can let this sadness be freed.

Sexy Single Summers Auction!
IM GOING TO BE HOLDING A SEXY SUMMER SINGLES AUCTION! WANT IN ON IT SB ME FOR DETAILS IT WILL RUN FOR TWO WEEKS ALL ENTRYS AND OFFERS WILL BE NEEDED TO BE IN BY SATURDAY AT THE LATEST! SO IF YOUR SINGLE AND WANNA BE IN IT SB ME FOR DETAILS! 75 K TO ENTER!

Busted Content (updated 7/19/09)
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Me!
I am STRONG because I am weak. I am BEAUTIFUL because I know my flaws. I am a LOVER because I am a fighter. I am FEARLESS because I have been afraid. I am WISE because I have been foolish...and I can LAUGH because I have known sadnes

Girlfriend App..
Name Whats your birthday/age Height Hair color Eye color Piercings/Tats If no, do you want any? Do you drink? Do you smoke? Do you do drugs? What would you say is your best quality? Whose your favorite band? What kind of music do you like? Do you like kids/want any of your own? How do you feel about marriage? Where do you work? Do you go to school? Do you live at home/on your own? Do you prefer cats or dogs? What do you like to do in your free time? What do you think is my best quality? Are you Spontaneous? Are you afriad of commitment? Are you into romance?? Would you make me feel like im the only girl you want to be with? What would our first date consist of? Whats the sweetest thing you've done for a girl? What movies/TV shows do you like? Do you like your family/family oriented? Have you ever cheated? Why did your last relationship fail? Do you like to dance? What do you look for in a man? Where do you see yourself in 5 years? Are you honest? Do yo

Urgh
For the last week or two I've been stripping wallpaper. I hate wallpaper. Not only is it hard to put up/match the lines, but it's even more difficult to remove. The wallpaper I'm attacking is original to the house. It's 7 years old, and outdated in my mind. Pastel floral prints and blue with baskets of apples isn't my taste. Personally, I'd be a giggling fool if the world of wallpaper crashed. To make my dislike of wallpaper even deeper, one of the rooms has TWO layers of the crap. Instead of going about how I have been with the other rooms, I have to ensure that the second layer of vinyl is removed before wetting down the backing. Even further madening, is that none of the walls were primered. Yep, they put up the drywall and slapped on wallpaper. There are 5 rooms and two hallways to remove wallpaper from, primer, and then paint. I'll be lucky if the project is completed by the end of the year. BTW, if you're a wallpaper person, I hate you.

My Panties
so here it goes. if you want a pair of my panites from my recent pictures heres the way to go. private message me and let me know what you would trade and we'll go from there. now anyone posting a hurtful comment just because im doing this will be blocked so please be nice im doing this as a request from quite alot of you. bi bi

I Give Up
i'm sick of being alone. i'm sick of caring, when no one else ever does. i'm sick of his voice ringing in my ears. i'm sick of the fake smiles. i'm sick of pretending. i'm sick of being someone i'm not. i'm sick of hurting. i'm sick of working. i'm sick of school. i'm sick of being here. i'm sick of doing everything, and gaining nothing. I'M JUST FUCKING SICK OF IT ALL! so i give up. i can't take anymore.

Walking The Boulevard Of Broken Dreams
Walking through life alone. Heart broken and torn. No one left by my side. Yet all I want to do is die, Only all I can do is cry. Feel as if I can not breath. Watching as the wind moves me. I look through anothers eyes, To see what kind of torture lies beyond this, Boulevard of broken dreams. All that is seen are dead trees and grass. A small sign of someone once happy that never last. All due to this thing called rules. That has to have some paper document too. That shows that I am free, Yet this might be a sign, That something is not right. That maybe the man of my dreams is still out there waiting for me. Who can accept me for me. And maybe get me off this....... Boulevard of Broken Dreams by: aimeecbuchanan

Currently
CRAP...I ACCIDENTALLY CLICKED OFF OF THIS...THAT SUCKS ASS. CURRENTLY IT IS 7:28 A.M. I WOKE UP @ 6 AFTER ABOUT 5 HRS OF SLEEP OR LESS. I AM VERY FUCKING MISERABLE. I TOOK VICODIN, MOTRIN AND PENICILLIN AND I'M STILL IN QUITE A BIT OF PAIN. I PUT ICE ON MY FACE BUT THAT ONLY LASTED FOR A SHORT WHILE. THIS IS REALLY TOUGH ON ME. I'M STILL INCREDIBLY HUNGRY BUT I'M STARTING 2 DEAL WITH IT A BIT NOW...I GUESS I COULD BECOME ANOREXIC @ THIS POINT IF i WANTED TO. TAKE OFF SOME OF THE LIKE 800 EXTRA POUNDS MY FAT ASS NEEDS TO LOSE. I'VE HEARD ONLY ONE OR TWO HORROR STORIES ABOUT WISDOM TEETH, AND EVERYONE ELSE IS LIKE "OH MAN IT WAS GREAT, I FELT FINE AND I WAS EATING THE SAME DAY"...WHILE I KNOW AS NURSE THAT EVERYONE IS DIFFERENT, WHY DO I HAVE TO BE ONE OF THE ONES WHO HAS A CRAPPY EXPERIENCE? ONE OF THE 1 IN 1,000 PATIENTS WHO SUFFERS COMPLICATIONS RELATED TO THE PROCEDURE? THIS SUCKS. NOTHING GOOD EVER COMES MY WAY AS FAR AS MY HEALTH GOES. I JUST KEEP GETTING SICKER, KEEP G

Relationships - Added More
I have been in a relationship with someone for 4 months i love him very much and he tells me he loves me. Here's the thing it seems like here lately he's been making up excuses not to talk to me and i'm the last person he comments to also i have told him how i feel about this but it still hasn't changed. What should I do? break it off with him or talk to him again and give him another chance ? YAY my boyfriend and I talked about this and everything is going well. I Love Him So Much

I Cant See You
Take my hand and lead the way; tell me all you want to say. Whisper softly in my ear, all those things I want to hear. Kiss my lips and touch my skin; bring out passions deep within. Pull me close and hold me near; take away my pain and fear. In the darkness of the night, be my beacon, shine your light. In the brightness of the sun, show me that you are the one. Give me wings so I can fly; for I can soar when you're nearby. Enter my heart, break down the wall, it's time for me to watch it fall. I've been a prisoner, can't you see? Break my chains and set me free. Strip me of my armor tight; you'll find I won't put up a fight. Release my soul held deep within . . . I'm ready now, let love begin.

101.........
95% of females can't cum from sex UNLESS, they're on top..and they're on top why? so they can stimulate their clit..by doin' their lil snake charm grindin' grab on our pelvic bones..which..really does nothin' for us..so the key is..eat pussy first..make her cum a few times...numb her up..then hammer away or soft and slow with alot of vaginal teasing with your magic stick to build it all up in the end, however u like...... now once ur inbetween her legs..don't just fuckin' dive in there like a bum at a thanksgiving charity dinner...take your fuckin'time I know pussy is nearly irresistable...but don't act like it is.. lick her inner thighs, kiss them..kiss around her pussy lips..kiss the lips etc. etc..finally once u've got your tongue on her clit..this is what u do..(u can use ur hands to spread her lips here if u want..that's all preference...it's easier to make em cum w/their lips spread..so u have easier access to their clit) now...roll the tip and somewhat flat part of your

Take A Bow
Take a Bow (By Ashley Nichole) aka Sexichica88 Why can't you be the one I run to when I'm broken? You're never there when I need you, I have nothing. Who I am is never good enough for your high standards. I don't know what to do. Why can't I be mad at you? All I ever wanted was for us to be real. All that I need is time to heal. It doesn't matter where life takes me now. You've officially hurt me, hope you're happy, take a bow. You say that you've been there from the start. Just drive another dagger in my lifeless heart. How much longer are you going to try? This life is over for me, I'm useless, ready to die. The pain can't grow any stronger. I need you in my life more than ever. One last chance to try to make this right. Or my life will end, I will say good night. It doesn't matter where life takes me now. You've officially hurt me, hope you're happy, take a bow.

Ebb-rb
Dear Robert Browning, …Do you know, when you have told me to think of you, I have been feeling ashamed of thinking of you so much, of thinking of only you--which is too much, perhaps. Shall I tell you? It seems to me, to myself, that no man was ever before to any woman what you are to me--the fullness must be in proportion, you know, to the vacancy...and only I know what was behind--the long wilderness without the blossoming rose...and the capacity for happiness, like a black gaping hole, before this silver flooding. Is it wonderful that I should stand as in a dream, and disbelieve--not you--but my own fate? Was ever any one taken suddenly from a lampless dungeon and placed upon the pinnacle of a mountain, without the head turning round and the heart turning faint, as mine do? And you love me more, you say? Shall I thank you or God? Both, indeed, and there is no possible return from me to either of you! I thank you as the unworthy may…and as we all thank God. How shal

Summer
Summer is here and with the heat and some ice-creams, you tend to get nostalgic to all of the other Summers gone by. Maybe a holiday, a first romance or the first kiss... or simply something that happened in childhood during the hot days! Summer is for making friends, to go swimming, to relax and enjoy life a bit more! I need your help. It would be great if you can give me 3 songs that make you remember a nostalgic summer and, if you are not shy at all, why that would be! Love and peace!

Diet And Exercise
Okay mostly diet because I still have my sciatic pain. Trying an acai cleanse and Zantrex 3 that I bought at the store for around $30. Both seem to be working however, the Zantrex was too strong and I was jittery yesterday and ended up with a headache that lasted all night and part of this morning. Met my girlfriend for sushi last night, tiger rolls and salmon rolls, wore my polka dot dress because it's hot here and it doesn't look like a mumu. Was feeling blah until we went to karaoke and was told I was hot by several guys...yeah it was after 10 and they were most likely drunk but they were cute and I'll take what I can get :P Oh and ran into a customer from the club I used to dance at and he said I looked great and asked when I was going back to work. So it was a good night with the exception of having a headache and spending most the night downing water, diet pepsi and ibuprofen. Taking a break from the diet aids today and just exercise. Hope everyone has a super day! k

Sweet Like Honey
sweet sensual words that spill from ur lips better than the finest wine in all the world. they taste so sweet the aroma is enticing inviting so alluring draws me closer with every breath that i take. so golden so light so fulfilling just hangs on my palate very tasty so enjoyable so sweet. dont care bout anything else at the moment. i just wanna b absorbed into the page b a part of the words to truly understand the meanings of them to truly appreciate them to hang on with every breath that i take. my heart can't take it but i try to hang on my heart is beating fast so very fast i feel woozy i think im gonna fall but i feel myself fallin but i never hit the bottom. something or maybe someone is holding me. i wanna speak but i cant my mouth moves nothing comes out no sound my lips are moving well i think they are i cant feel any thing everything is going on its too much...

Busted Blog 6/30/09
Name: Sexy Vixen Link: http://fubar.com/user/2050399 Look! No Salute! Oh Wait..I found a fake one! You even can find her all over the internet on amateur message boards: * Name: Crystal Link: http://www.fubar.com/user/2371676

Karl Malden
LOS ANGELES, California (CNN) -- Veteran actor Karl Malden, who won an Academy Award for his role in "A Streetcar Named Desire," has died at age 97, his manager said Wednesday. Malden died in his sleep about 2:30 a.m. Wednesday, said his manager, Bud Ross. Malden appeared alongside Marlon Brando in two of director Elia Kazan's classic films of the 1950s -- "A Streetcar Named Desire" and "On the Waterfront." He won the best supporting actor Oscar for "Streetcar" in 1952 and was nominated for his role as a priest crusading against crooked union bosses in "On the Waterfront." Ross said he did not know the cause of death. "It could be a combination of things," Ross said. "He was 97 years old." In addition to his movie career, Malden starred in the 1970s television crime drama "The Streets of San Francisco," with Michael Douglas. Malden was the president of the Academy of Motion Picture Arts and Sciences from 1989 to 1992. In 2004, he received the Screen Actors Guild Life Achievement

Hmm Website??
so i've been debating about this for a very long time..lets say 5 yrs..lol I've been offered a buttload of times to make my own website or to become a porn star...but i was always afraid that my family and friends will find out.so i always said no..with a big "N" lol.. well i was thinking bout it over a period of time..i kinda like the way betty paige did it.. u know how they did it privately..they had clients who would request ideas for what they want to be on the pic and they would pay for that set of pics..wasn't necessarly pornagraphic but more what there fantasy was. and the site and clients would be more private and discrete..to keep the clients identity's at a low...and the pics would be in a tasteful artistic way.. do u think that would work?? and what are your opinions.let me know...lol cause my thoughts are all over the place.

For Gail
For Gail Deserted--A lost dogWandering the streetsWith no direction,All alone.Confused--Not knowing whyYou would run away from your little boy,Leaving me with no father,No guidance.Searching--For you, my father,Who should be hereTeaching me to ride a bike,And tucking me in at night.Frustrated--You harmed your bodyWith hurtful drugs,Triggering you to commit dangerous actions,Only causing more pain.Distressed--Knowing you won't ever come backTo see your boy,All grown up,Losing all hope.Exultant--Learning that you did some right,Changing your life around,Just in time for God to say,'It is your time.'Reconciliation--Finally realizing where you are,Looking down from heaven,As my guardian angel,Now, showing me the way.

About Me
WHO AM I? I am anal-retentive. I am obsessive. I am hard to deal with. I am complicated and hard-headed and stubborn and weird and fun and shy and COMPLETELY crazy. And no one knows this better than me! I am blunt and judgemental and jealous. But, above all else, I am truthful. Because the best way, the only way, is the truth. And now that you're all scared of me, once you get to know me I can be a really great girl. I love . . . well, love. PASSION (it's my favorite word). Anything that can make me feel (because that's hard to do when you don't have feelings. Or a heart for that matter). I love mystery. Anything that begs for an answer. Anything that will drag me in and question my intelligence. I would spend a lifetime searching for the truth. Just for the satisfaction of knowing that I know the truth. And the truth is, I Know Everything!!!

Accepted
Wow, after a few months of calling in weekly to check into the transitional place and let them know I am still interested, and then following through with what they suggested I had to do before being accepted in, they called me this morning and told me welcome on board. I will be moving in there the 14th at 4pm. She told me she would prefer if I got a pt job, and in the beginning to focus on me. To see if I need counseling of some sort, she even mentioned vocational training which would be the awesome. The room is gonna be significantly smaller then the one I am in now, so I wont be able to take too many things, so I will be packing up a lot here. I am scared and nervous at the same time, my life is about to take some drastic changes...... and I just hope they are for the better, cuz I certainly dont think it could get any worse then it has been....

Whoremaster
I don't really have anything to say to him. I know he won't read this, but I want anyone who is a friend of his to realize how great he is and not take him for granted. I miss him like crazy. Talking to him about stupid crap, finding out how Ben and Crosby are, making sure him and Kristy are okay. Anyway...I miss him and I'm sure he's doing fine. I just seen him in the MuMMs and it made me think of this.

There Were More Fireworks Than The 4th! Hehe
We spent the day at Rockaway Beach. Mr. Dreamy trying to get the kite in the air, there wasn't much wind! lol Even caught a fire rainbow! Cuddling, waiting for dusk. Kissin by the fire! hehe Gettin our feets roasty, toasty!! lol Fireworks were just gettin started. We had a WONDERFUL time! Hope you enjoyed the show! hehe Thanks for lookin!

New Poker Site
I switched poker sites because Pokerstars is wack yo. I switched to Sportsbook.com poker. It had really good reviews and is actually just for American players which is extremely rare. I really like it so far... If anyone wants to play(give me their money), my screen name is WhorePoker.

My Name Changes
people have asked why i have serial killers as defaults...well thats just a thing to do i guess but 1 hit home especially and thats the one of westley allan dodd...he was on the loose in the hometown i grew up in..vancouver washington...he killed 2 brothers in vancouver and ironically my dad who was a cop at the time was the one that found the brothers..my brother and i were the same age at the time as the brothers cole and william neer...he was spotted scoping out our neighborhood shortly before he was caught..he was executed in 1993 by hanging because that was how he killed his last victim lee isley....i cant tell you how i actually feel knowing that i or my brother or any other kid in the neighborhood could have been a victim of his...i see it as kind of a "ha ha couldnt get me" type thing

Caa #117
Please send angel prayers of love, comfort and healing for Mare and her family. We just received news her father passed away tonight. We will be away from Fu for a couple of days traveling to Colorado. Thnak all of you. Love, Doc

Come And Worship And Come
“And he said unto Moses, Come up unto the LORD, thou, and Aaron, Nadab, and Abihu, and seventy of the elders of Israel; and worship ye afar off.” Exodus’ twenty-fourth chapter breaks off the LORD’s pronouncement of judgments and commandments that’s occupied the text of chapters twenty through twenty-three with His call to worship Him. Remember, Moses has been hearing all that the LORD has said but so far he hasn’t told anybody. After being told in verse two that only he would come near the LORD, Moses descended to tell the people all the LORD’s words and judgments and get their (likely through their representatives the elders’) assent in verse three: “And all the people answered with one voice, and said, All the words which the LORD hath said we will do.” This will get tested, trust me. Verse four tells us that Moses wrote “all the words of the LORD”, likely what comprises the text we’ve been reading and

No Surprise
I've practiced this for hours, gone round and round And now I think that I've got it all down And as I say it louder, I love how it sounds Cause I'm not taking the easy way out Not wrappin' this in ribbons Shouldn't have to give a reason why Chorus It's no surprise I won't be here tomorrow I can't believe that I stayed till today Yeah you and I will be a tough act to follow But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise It came out like a river once I let it out When I thought that I wouldn't know how Held onto it forever, just pushing it down Felt so good to let go of it now Not wrapping this in ribbons Shouldn't have to give a reason why Chorus It's no surprise I won't be here tomorrow I can't believe that I stayed till today There's nothing here in this heart left to borrow There's nothing here in this soul left to say Don't be surprised when we hate this tomorrow God knows we tried to find an easier way Yeah you and I will be a tough act to follow But I know in time we'll find

Hurt Feelings....or Not... Ugh...
I dont know maybe im taking things wayyyyyy to much to heart but ...here it goes recently my best friend from Wv came to visit... well i thought she had a great time... but now after reading her blogs and what not (due to boredom) im feeling she didnt have a good enough time...granted there isnt much to do around here... and the whole time she was here it was either too hot to go do something (like walk somewhere or whatnot) or it was raining... which really bothered me cuz i wanted to go see the Spooklight but considering it would have been the first time going with out someone who knew where they was going it would have been a total mess and i didnt want to take the chance of going out there and personally getting lost... i guess im over reacting and just worrying to much... i do however that since she has left i have felt totally empty because for once i had someone here to talk to and to just have fun and be silly with... as much as i hate to say it.. she is my ONLY friend that i

Punish
i walk in she knows i mean business have whip n hand...i left with her tied up, legs spread pussy quivering wet with excitement waiting for her punishment. i leave i need to change. puttin on my leopard print bustier slide up my leopard thigh high boots with the spike heels. i put on my mask. she wont b able 2 read my expression keep my voice even no sign of the anger i am feeling the blood boilin n my veins Y? y would u she do that? wat possessed her to do that? still partly clothed with the once sexy now torn up silk lingerie...i like the way the fabric caress her skin how her nipples hard as thorns poke thru the lace front. hmmmm purple my favorite color. she looks good n it. o so good i jus wanna take her n my arms jus wanna hold her. i stop myself. her skin moist from her perspiration sweet smell she looks so beautiful still love her but i still must punish her...she looks up but cant read me. she is shivering can c her body shake under the purple

Update On Mother
Hey everyone just wanted to give you an update on my mother in case you was wondering how she is doing. She went to a home to do rehab about two weeks ago, she's doing so well that she gets to come home next Wednesday. She still needs alot of therapy mostly on her speech but she can get around by herself now with a walker and us keeping close by if she gets tired or gets wabbly! So that's good news She's improved so much since My last update. I hope everyone had a great holiday weekend, I know I did. Kisses friends

What If....
What If…. What if you opened your eyes? Would you see my open heart? Would you stretch forth your hand? Could I be your missing part? What if your hand was in mine? Would take a firm grasp? Would my hand feel like it belonged in yours? Could our future silence the past? What if I pulled you into my arms? Would you dance with me My Fire?

Me
If I was your girlfriend would I be the first thing on your mind when u wake up and the last thing you thought of before going to sleep? Love is kinda tricky it can feel amazing but then hurt so bad the next minute. Why is it so hard to find a good man who shows me the love and affection I think I deserve? Am I not hot enough? Intelligent enough? Men are so hard to fucking understand and I am about over trying. I shouldn't have to beg for a mans attention he should want to give it to me.

The Stars
The Stars When you breathe I breathe When you cry I cry When you laugh I laugh When your sad I'm sad When you love I love When your in pain I'm in pain When you stumble I stumble When you fall I'm there to catch you When I'm without you I loose my breathe When I'm with you I get it back When we are together I am one When were not I am lost If I would have never met you my life would not be complete But I did so I am at peace Love comes in many forms And your love is the only form I know I have never been so happy as I am with you Because now in my life I will never be blue I love you more as I look into the stars And know that two of them were made for me and you. Written by Alexis 01/20/09

True Love
TRUE LOVE Love I have never felt I have been through so much hurt and pain in order to have that fealing of love Just to know that I have found me best friend and lover will complete me To know I can tell that special someone my deepest thoughts and dreams and know that they can do the same To have someone touch me and have that tingle that I have never felt When I go to sleep with that person on my mind and wake up with them in the same place they were When u see that person call your smile just lights up the room When you see them you just want to run into there arms and never let go To anyone who has had all these fealings, you are truly blessed Maybe one day I will, until then I hope everyone finds there true love while I wait for mine. Written by Alexis 01/18/09

Gettin Laid
Perusing the mumms once in a while, I see the hens cackling about "Oh, I wish I could get laid, I have to use the Bob", or "I havent been laid in years, I want it so bad", blah blah blah What they are saying is...I wish I could find a guy that will think my fat ass, obsession with Real Housewives NY, and incessant shopping for purses that match my skin tone are cute enough to consider waiting til the 10th date to have sex. Go to a bar, and wink at any dude. Unless you look like something that crawled out of Oprah's ass and died, you'll have no probs gettin some cock. Unfortunately, byt "gettin some dick" they mean "some wallet and a good job". Pffst.

Crazy Cajuns
Cajun AngelsGabriel came to the Lord and said, "I have to talk to you. I have someCajuns up here in Heaven who are causing some problems. They areswinging on The Pearly Gates, my horn is missing, and barbecue sauce isall over their robes! Ham hocks, spareribs, and crawfish shells are allover the streets of gold. Some folks are walking around with one wing. They have been late taking their turn in keeping the stairway to heavenclean. There are watermelon seeds all over the clouds! They have eatenalmost every animal up here! Some of them aren't even wearing theirhalos, saying it is messing up their hair."The Lord said, "I made them special, as I did you, my angel. Heaven ishome to all my children. If you really want to know about problems,let's call the Devil and see how he is dealing with his Cajuns."The Devil answered the phone, "Hello? Dang it, hold on!"The Devil returned to the phone and said, "Hello, God, what can I do foryou?"God replied, "Tell me what kind of problems you are hav

Typical
"How DARE you not be a stock broker, but a lousy cashier? You told me you worked at a big firm when you approached me at a bar. I am looking for a man of my dreams, to love and cherish forever,and you having a great job would've definitely made me love you for the rest of our lives. We would've had a huge wedding, in which I would've picked out the most expensive dress and flowers to spend your money on; I would've invited all my single girlfirends in case you had equally hard working friends they could share their happiness with. YOu could've been goin to work every day, while I would have spent all your hard earned money to make my nails/hair/skin look pretty. How DARE you be such a lying lowlife??" -Bar Skank woes

What's Your Gift?
Your Gift is Intellect You are a big thinker, and you're always playing with new ideas. You are curious about the world. You enjoy learning and developing new theories. You enjoy researching, analyzing, and solving problems. Thinking hard feels good! You're the type of person who finds most mental tasks to be easy. You love to stretch your brain. What's Your Gift?

6 New Personality Disorders Caused By The Internet
** warning ** this is long. It is from one of my favorite sites and it made me laugh. I could find several people from here that fit most every disorder. No need to comment, I just thought that if any of you were bored it might make you laugh also. 6 New Personality Disorders Caused by the InternetThe Internet makes people crazy. We all know this. The guy on the message board who just called you a shitclown for owning a different video game console than him probably would have been perfectly polite had you met in real life.In fact, we're thinking it's time they updated the psychological diagnostic manuals with this list of new disorders that only seem to kick in once the person opens a web browser.#6.Online Intermittent Explosive Disorder (a.k.a. The Thin-Skinned Rage-o-holic)Like serial killers, these people seem pretty normal at first. For hours or even days, they'll carry on funny, charming conversations in a forum or comment section. But then something, anything, sets him off a

Will You Give This To My Daddy?
Will you give this to my Daddy? As a Company, Southwest Airlines is going to support 'Red Fridays.'Last week I was in Atlanta , Georgia attending a conference. While I was in the airport, returning home, I heard several people behind me beginning to clap and cheer.. I immediately turned around and witnessed One of the greatest acts of patriotism I have ever seen.Moving thru the terminal was a group of soldiers in their camos. As they began heading to their gate, everyone (well almost everyone) was abruptly to their feet with their hands waving and cheering.When I saw the soldiers, probably 30-40 of them, being applauded and Cheered for, it hit me. I'm not alone. I'm not the only red-blooded American who still loves this country and supports our troops and their families.Of course I immediately stopped and began clapping for these young unsung heroes who are putting their lives on the line everyday for us so we can go to school, work and home without fear or reprisal.Just when I thought

This Was Written By A Soldier In Iraq
THIS WAS WRITTEN BY A SOLDIER IN IRAQ - I AGREE!!!. Okay, I need to rant. I was just watching the news, and I caught part of a report on MichaelJackson. As we all know, Jackson died the other day. He was anentertainer who performed for decades. He made millions, he spentmillions, and he did a lot of things that make him a villian to manypeople. I understand that his death would affect a lot of people, andI respect those people who mourn his death, but that isn't the pointof my rant. Why is it that when ONE man dies, the whole of America loses theirminds with grief. When a man dies whose only contribution to thecountry was to ENTERTAIN people, the Amercian people find the need toflock to a memorial in Hollywood, and even Congress sees the need tohold a "moment of silence" for his passing? Am I missing something here? ONE man dies, and all of a sudden he's afreaking martyr because he entertained us for a few decades? Whatabout all those SOLDIERS who have died to give us freedom? All

To Whom It May Comcern.......
well for almost all of my 1st year here on fu I was online atleast 15 hours a day. I lived in the middle of no where & the closest city has so small there really wasnt anything to do once you got there. For the last something like 3 months fubar was the last thing I was doing when I had the time. Over that time I sorted through my entire house. Between cleaning,packing,giving things away & throwing thing away. I've moved to a much bigger city with more things to do that keeps me so busy. My moving is the best thing I could of done. Well.....over this time when I put me & my life 1st I've realized that some people who were stating to be my friends got upset because this time I was so busy making my life better that I didnt have time to come on here & help level people & give all my time to certain people. I'm real sorry but I guess it was good that it worked out this way because I hate being played. I know there are afew that knew I was gone from the computer for a logic reason & when

Purging
In light of yesterday, i'm going to purge myself of some family and many friends, i'm just not very trusting anymore. Sorry folks that knife blade went in deep and twirled like spaghetti. It's this or delete/ So, for some of you... goodbye.

Definite Meh Day
I read a blog by Monica yesterday that was pretty much nothing... 4 lines, with lotsa spaces. I read one today by Witchie that was pretty much as interesting. I'm not complaining, mind you... not really. Just observing a general felling of MEH in Fubored-um, Fubar. So I was thinking, just for today, just this once... I'M DECLARING TODAY, JULY 13th, NAKEY DAY! Throw your clothes in the corner! Let your body BREATH for a day! (leaves clothes in his room) Rock on, my nudey buddies! Shawn Update: It seems that the most extreme way to deal with the blahs is to your screen name. Life short - go all out! :)

Books For Kids
that never got published.... 1. you were an accident 2. strangers have the best candy 3. the magic world inside the abandoned refrigerator 4. the boy who died from eating all his vegetables 5. your nightmares are real! 6. grandpa gets a casket 7. daddy's new wife, robert 8. curious george and the high voltage fence 9. the pop up book of human anatomy 10. whining,kicking,and screaming to get your way 11. what is that dog doing to that other dog? 12. why cant mr. fork and ms. electrical socket be friends? 13. daddy drinks because you cry

Silly Silly Silly Me!
So I took a shower...not an uncommon event, but today I had no hair. I only needed a small bit of shampoo and conditioner. It was the strangest thing I have experienced, lately. *giggles* So to top that off I didnt have to wrap a towel around my head upon getting out of the shower either! Holy hell...its been 2 decades since this has been. So I turn on the curling iron..and blow my hair dry..takes no time at all hahaha. I spent 20 minutes curling it..and it just doesnt look as cute as it did yesterday. I forsee a ton of time before the mirror with all my girly stuff trying to find the simplest cutest way to do my hair..til then haha I will have to pretend I am happy I no longer know my own head....literally. Today is a beautiful day. I hope you all enjoy it!

Home, Home At Last
Sunday's homecoming was delightful. The family renting my hosue was still there when I stopped over, and a little boy wanted to see my chickens. I led him into the barn, where he promptly freaked out. (In all fairness to the kid, my barn is dark and scary.) I got him to be brave and stick with me while I fetched Lola, and then we took her out to meet and greet the whole clan. She stood on a bald guy's shoulder, then climbed onto his head. I'm sure she scratched him terribly, but he pretended to enjoy it. Lola (who is maybe a hen, maybe a rooster) did her part to let a lot of old men hold her and pet her. It took everything I had not to whisper seductively in a lola-holder's ear, "So, you like my half-cock?" Damnit. I really wish I had a rooster. Next year.Anyway, as the family was leaving, the bald guy lingered. He'd just finished showering, was the last to go, and we stood out in my yard, chatting. He asked me about my book project, wondered if it wasn't a cookbook, but

Could It Be????? :o
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Id Be This Boy Friend
Everyone should read this !I don't care if you have a boyfriend or girlfriend right now.I don't care if you are a guy or a woman or Michael Jackson.Just read this, it will make a difference.If only everyone could see this and understand it.When she stares at your mouth,Kiss her.When she pushes you or hits you like a dumb-ass it's because she thinks shesstronger than you,Grab her and dont let go.When she starts cursing at you trying to act all tough,Kiss her and tell her you love her.When she's quiet,Ask her whats wrong.When she ignores you,Give her your attention.When she pulls away,Pull her back.When you see her at her worst,Tell her she's beautiful.When you see her start crying,Just hold her and don't say a word.When you see her walking,Sneak up and hug her waist from behind.When she's scared,Protect her.When she steals your favorite hoodie,Let her keep it and sleep with it for a night.When she teases you,Tease her back and make her laugh.When she doesn't answer for a long time,reass

[let's Kill Some Time While Time Kills Some Us]
Do you hide when Jehovah witnesses knock on your door?I have multiple options here, depending on how annoyed or busy I am.My favorite is answer shirtless with my scars exposed in baggy pants (often with my hooha nearly exposed- or comical boxers)and I leave the screen door shut because I love signaling my dog and having her jump up eye level and pawing and barking at the glass trying to get a piece of peddler.I once answered mormons in the middle of having sex, and had my straw hat over my bits, covered in sweat and claw marks, my ex screaming for me to hurry up and come back.Mostly for the sake of the story.Tell me about your dancing style?Samba.I dunno- I actually have a good sense of rhythm but I'm VERY self conscious when I dance, unless I'm drunk, relaxed, or having a blast- I don't dance. Used to just be the robot the batousee and the monkey- now I kinda got the flow.Do you have any family traditions?Yeah. Mostly running from the cops and listening to banjo music- but also blowi

Well This Should Be Interesting...
Do you hide when Jehovah witnesses knock on your door?I invite them in to witness the weekly goat sacrificeTell me about your dancing style?an epileptic being electrocutedDo you have any family traditions?ummm...does sodomy count?Honestly, do you laugh when people trip for no reason?Doesn't everyone?What is your most used cuss word?dirty cocksucker? Do you think it looks silly when people wear socks with sandals? they should be shot or sterilized. How many speeding tickets have you talked your way out of?A few.If you wake up late, is the rest of your day ruined?I wake up late, I kill people.Which side of the bed do you sleep on?Left side, under the mattress.Name the seven dwarf'sNO!When you bend over, can you touch your toes?Last time I was asked to touch my toes....*shudders*What kind of drunk are you?evil, but in a fun way.What is the most difficult thing you've ever had to overcome?There are way, way too many to name hereHow do you feel about rainy days?Dancing and sex should alw

Porcelain Or Diamonds?
Porcelain or Diamonds? She may look and feel of porcelain... With only one touch, she will capture you. Skin so smooth and flawless and unblemished, undoubtedly attracts that of many a men. Yet so fragile and seemingly helpless, Underneath her bossum holds more truth. She renders strength beyond her doubts, Attempting to whisper yet is only mute. Is she breakable, or made of precious stone? Handle with care or she will be broken. Is her looks so deceiving? Maybe precious inside, bright and strong even! Within her soul all locked away, lying there with sadness. Hidden neatly behind her sultry smile. Fo

Stupid People
well everyone last night here locally we had a fake amber alert for a missing child. the mother sent a msg out on facebook and to the media regarding her child missing. well it turned out to be fake. now how can someone do that. the mother is now being charged. which i think she so rightly deserves. years ago there was a lady that made a 911 call claiming she was in a multi vehicle accident. so 911 sent out the fire department ems police and bandage 1 aka air ambulance, it turned out to be a fake call she was nailed with thousands of dollars, heck having an air ambulance show up is 1000bucks an hour ouch.now why do people do stupid things like that, when they are endangering the lives of other people that need the help for real. what runs through their minds. i just dont get it. me i have been doing first aid for a long time so i have seen alot of the accidents and stuff like that and its not a laughing matter. all they are doing is tying up the 911 lines and that is not cool. so give

It Was An Honest Mistake...
My wife slipped into a coma about 7months ago. There has been little to no signs of her improving, until a few days ago. Her new nurse had called me and said I needed to come to the hospital as soon as possible. When I got to the hospital, she pulls me to the side and says "While I was giving your wife a bath, I noticed her monitor started to react when I was washing close to her genitals. Her breathing picked up, her heart rate and pulse increased, she was responding well to the interaction. Im not sure how to say this properly, so Im just gonna come out and say it... I think oral sex will help wake your wife from the coma" Obviously, I love my wife, so I said I would do whatever it takes to wake her. The nurse said she would give me time, and stand guard outside the door so I wasnt interuppted. And sure enough, heart monitor reacted to it. The thing was beep, beep, beeping like crazy... then it went beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep... She flatlined, the nurse ran in frantically asking w

Perfect Orgasm
How to Give It For Her Ladies, you don't have to suck on a man's genitals or take them deep into your throat to make him feel good. Take your time if you're new to this, and understand that even a little attention to his penis, just a bit of fellatio makes most men crazy. - Take off your rings and such and get your hair out of the way. It does look sexy in those porno movies for that woman to flip her long hair around but in the real world it just gets in the way. - Begin slowly, with kisses — light ones and heavy ones and all types between — on the shaft and on the head. If you're feeling brave, kiss his testicles. - Flick the shaft or head of his penis with the tip of your tongue to get the feel and taste thing over with. Take your time and if that's all you do for this encounter, fine. - Move on to licks, like an all day sucker. Use lots of saliva. Let him lead the way with his moans and purrs. Lick where he seems to like it and you'll quickly find that you enjoy it. -

Advertisements, Birds, And New Furniture
So yesterday we got new living room furniture. I like it, but being short sucks. When I sit all the way back, like you are suppose to, my feet don't touch the floor. But it is really nice. It's brown with some other colors in the pillows on the back. It has memory foam in it so it's really comfortable, lol. I just have to get use to it. Also, a few days ago, we got a bird. I'm not really sure why my parents thought we needed one. We had a dog, and they didn't really do much with it and my boys were afraid of it. It was kind of neat how we got the name of it. I came home from work and there was a piece of paper on the table. I was told to write down two names for the bird. I, of course, chose names from Boondock Saints...Rocco and Murphy. Then I was told to tear the names from the paper and put them in a bowl. I let the boys chose one name each. The name Connor chose was "Jett" and the one that Daniel chose was "Bob". Then I put those names back in the bowl and I chose the name. The

Relax
man o man do i deserve my two hour soak today. today i decided to do my housework, yeah the stuff i have been puttin off for the longest. usually i just turn my head not to see it but not today i turned on the music and just got into it. put on my cleaning shoes and took off everything else. good thing we have the 8 foot privacy wall separating the houses. open up the windows let the sunshine and cool air in. got up to about 85 today. swept the floor first just a hint of sweat sliding down the space between my small breasts. but i am still determined to not put off the cleaning any longer. i start in the frontroom move the stuff off the floor onto the pooltable i just covered with a sheet. first move the pictures and frames that are no longer on the wall. then goes the cds and the dvds by this time there is a steady stream of sweat sliding down my body. with the sun shining in the window my body is glistening. looks so good. o, i have a mirror that of course every so oft

One Year Ago Sunday
One year ago Sunday, my mother died. I still miss her. I still grieve, less than before but still nonetheless. One year ago Sunday I sat by my mother’s side reading her stories, holding her hand, wafting wisps of hair away from her forehead and gently kissing her cheek. She was so frail, so timid and, at the same time, so strong, so tenacious. She held on for days and I don’t know why she did. I’ll be sure to ask her when I see her again. One day I will die too and when I do, eventually, after sobbing tears of happiness in seeing her again, I will ask her. Maybe it’s defiance, a little something I know something about. Maybe it’s dedication, something I am learning about. Or maybe it’s love, something I knew nothing about until she taught me. Either way, I will ask her. This Sunday I’ll be diving San Miguel, Northern most of California’s Channel Islands. It is one of the most difficult dives recreationally. Frankly, I don

Senses Of You
I don’t need to touch you.... To know how you feel.... Your skin underneath .... My fingertips is real.... I don’t need to brush them.... Up and down your arms.... Or make little love hearts.... On the inside of your palms,.... I don’t need to kiss you.... To know how you taste.... To hear your breath quicken.... As your heart picks up pace.... The beating I hear .... Could be your heart or mine.... Or is there a difference?.... When we’re so intertwined?.... I don’t need to look at you.... To see who you are.... I feel like I follow you.... My own guiding star.... I know off by heart.... Each freckle and smile.... You’ll always be home.... Across mountain and mile,.... I don’t need to feel you.... Or see you, or taste.... To know when you’re near me.... My senses; a waste.... I already know .... That you are the one.... Who touches my soul,.... You have been all along,.... The reason I breathe .... And op

Stupid Encounter #17 (read Bottom To Top Its A Sb)
->mikeymyea: yes thats why you casked me for my yahoo and to cam with me cause I'm ugly EPIC FAIL mikeymyea: blog this. youre ugly. ->mikeymyea: yes thats right... lol ignorant fuck mikeymyea: religious nut ->mikeymyea: your just mad that I won't give you my yahoo... awwee so sad... I feel sorry for your wife though to... and thank you so much... now I can blog this convo! ->mikeymyea: lol redneck... south... and you don't believe in God? haha mikeymyea: lol. religion is for the ignorant. go play hocus pocus by yourself. peace out, redneck republican. ->mikeymyea: lol exacully an ignorant fuck... lol I believe in what i believe and you get all mad cause I have beliefs... WOW see God was on my side on this one... don't give that ass a yahoo mikeymyea: lol, bible? whatever. dont waste my time with religion ->mikeymyea: yeah well my man would get pissed at me i respect him to much to do that to him is in the bible mikeymyea: so am i. its just web cams ->mikeymyea: Im married m

My Lot In Life.....
...........is to be alone.....apparently. They say bad luck always comes in three's. ok, so I lost my job, lost my boyfriend..... what's next? fuggit.....maybe I should get back into promoting. I never even thought about dating anyone while I was promoting. All I thought about was my next gig. I truely wish I had better control over my heart. shit :(

Laying Here
I've been laying here in bed tossing and turning..Simply can't sleep.. thinking.. Just wondering why am I not dating material... Am I destined to be just a friend with people.. their buddy, their pal, or what I can not stand the most is.. "Just one of the guys"..I HATE THAT SAYING with a passion.. Am I too strange, too dorky, not feminine enough..are my jokes too hardcore... Am I too blunt.. Am I too direct... Am I too odd... It's gotta be something.. If someone knows....please tell me... Thank you for reading my ramblings.. Anyways, have an amazing Tuesday!

Whats Up With Coot? Im Glad He Is Quiet
To anyone who has wondered, I am sorry if I have seemed distant or just not been around comunicating much. I have been sick off and on for the past several years and this year for a few months it was really severe. No drama here Im starting to feel better, Im not cold all the time and I am starting to eat again. Now I can slowly start to get things done around the house that my poor old wife Debbie cant do, which really makes me happy :) I was going to type a long rambling epistle but My sister inlaw is coming over and I want to cleanup the house so she wont know how we really live :-D David

Whether To Crap Or Go Blind As The Saying Goes.
Well so I'm sitting here messing around on the computer when I hear my miniature pony going nuts outside so I run out expecting the neighbor's dogs to be out there taunting him as usual...no,a bigger surprise, a 1500 lb. horse is out there trying to molest him. Egads so do I shit or go blind,thinking to myself. Luckily I finally got my pony calm so I could put him in his corral and then the other horse starts to stampede my way...what the hell. Thank God my neighbor came out and distracted him and he ran off . Anyway didn't shit or go blind but you can bet your sweet butt I downed a shot or two!!! Gotta love the country life,yee-haw!!!

What A Twat 5
->veronica: oohhh baby i love it when you are so cruel, spank me and use the barb wire butt plug on me Witchie: *Not telli...: good for you sweetie...i'll be over soon veronica: f off you sad as hell defunct jerk keel over and die your a waste of life n need be got rid off ->Witchie: thanks doll Witchie: congrats babe ~♫☆♥DORKS-...: you have to use this http:... ->veronica: oh yes baby, you're really exciting me now, i love cyber sex. don't stop i am nearly there veronica: vermin scum veronica: your toxic and need be incinerated and blown to smitherins ->roxy baby ...: thanks babes roxy baby ...: woohooo - u made the spotlight!!!!!! ->veronica: mmmm maggots, you know they a really good source of protein veronica: u need be layd out to pasture and the vutures and flys swoop in gnaw at your flesh tear u too shreds and pull u from limb to limb till u rot away and are nothing but a carkuss and decomposed and the maggots set in ~♫☆♥DORKS-..

[insert Token] / Boyking.
Aww... switched blog modes again.*sigh*Hang on a sec.Alright. I had to take care of something and it wasn't my rear bleedind dog for the first time today.This is what happens when you write, and don't feel a single emotion.Are you ready?Are you ready for this?BAM! I got nothin.And I have for a while.I find that music is a major part of my inspirational process.Music, and actually being miserable.I'm just broke and frustrated.I'm happily single at the moment.I don't have any unattached crushes.Go ahead and check yourself...Yeah I'm not pursuing you.Weird huh?And I'm kinda winding down altogether on online games atm.But hey- Borderlands comes out this quarter, so don't cry for me virginia, and the fallout 3 expacs.I'm in an unfortunate state of stagnant contentment.Like someone that stopped fighting the current and realised the current was actually kneedeep mud.I really do talk like this people.--------------------------------------------------Western wind smells sweet.Like sun caked dus

Catholicism
The irony, that one of the deadliest, cultlike branches of Christianity is also so popular. After Islam, ofcourse, but we all know how THAT goes. With Catholic church being the most vile thing in the Middle Ages,having the Pope play GOd, bringing fourth the Insquisition and having people pay indulgencies, seemingly intelligent people STILL bow down to the false idols. How sad... Even sadder that because of it, people don't believe in protection, and have gazillions of cunt runts, which overpopulate this tiny world.

Skips A Generation.
I'd tell you all about it, but there's a pebble bein kicked down the road.Say's he's mine. I don't think it to be possible.He knows nothing of the bombardment of vulnerabilitythe stockades of just as well.Fit that square boy.No sir.Then let's play with frogs and strum on the po'ch.Every day should be an adventure.A new discovery, an avalanche of crazy questionsand my granny's scrambled eggs, and gampa's bologna sandwiches.Where the air smelled like cold mist, and the rocks never quite skipped right.But there was crackle on the drive up when company was cominand old dogs chasinor dozin at my feet like big lovin slugs.Where its coyote lullabiesand crowin rooster wakeup callsgeneric coffee, and a good day everyday.Losing streak on the radio. Bad lamplight to read by.Shooteven had a woodburnin stove.Now that's the life.

Journey Of The Soul
I used to sit and listen to the sounds of the ocean. Listening to the waves as they brushed the sandy skin of the earth. The gentle rasping sending soothing vibrations to the soul. The feel of the water brushing my legs feels like the carress of a lover. I lay back and close my eyes and dream as the water slowly washes away the stress and worries of the hectic life around me. The cycle of the ocean's gentle carress lulls me to a timeless sleep where my soul floats in an endless sea of emptiness. Opening my eyes I see the world with a new sight. The darkness is washed away as the vivid colors leap out at me. I am able to see the world for what it truly is and not what we are made to see it as. I can truly see for the first time the unlimted possibilties that lie before me. I stand and smile, looking out over the ocean of my soul. Feeling at peace once again, i turn and walk back to the darkness that man has created. The light of my soul keeping the darkness from touching me for yet

What Decade Fits Your Personality
What decade fits your personality 1970's You have a great taste in music and a particular love for rock. You love to chill and party with your friends, and most consider you the epitome of "cool" because of your rebellious nature and sense of adventure for life. You're trendy in style and have strong opinions about religion and politics. You are against "the man" and the injustices of the world and tend to have a guard up with people you don't know very well. But you save your deepest emotions and romantic side for that special someone.You have a lot of inner convictions and beliefs, but definitely come across as extremely easy-going and flexible. You are actually a good mixture of the two, but once in a while you let your laziness get the best of you. You're all about having a cause and having even more of a great time...sometimes TOO great of a time ;)

Pain
I cry all the timeFor reason not knownI search for that girlThe one that is home grownI dream of how she would beAnd how great she will actOne day i will find herI know for sure thats a factI know that when i doAway will go my painUntil that day happensI continue standing in the rain

All Is Lost
when the sky is grey no sun in sight and u feel like nothing is right what should u do ? who should u turn to ?when u feel all is lost all u want is some of what u lost u want to the sun to shine to make u feel something is right but til the sun sun shines all is wrong with the fight and streangth u have in inside all will be alright so smile bright to the sky and say ALL IS FOUND

Bored?
Cna yuo raed tihs?Olny 55% of plepoe can.I cdnuolt blveiee taht I cluod aulaclty uesdnatnrd waht I was rdanieg. The phaonmneal pweor of the hmuan mnid, aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy, it dseno\'t mtaetr in waht oerdr the ltteres in a wrod are, the olny iproamtnt tihng is taht the frsit and lsat ltteer be in the rghit pclae. The rset can be a taotl mses and you can sitll raed it whotuit a pboerlm. Tihs is bcuseae the huamn mnid deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef, but the wrod as a wlohe. Azanmig huh? yaeh and I awlyas tghuhot slpeling was ipmorantt!

Well Im Here
i made it ok even though we were 2 hours late getting in....its stormy and humid and crappy here but i will make do...but im ok and doing good...will be on later maybe if i dont pass the fuck out :)

Limbo
I am still in waiting in limbo about the grant to recieve counseling.... I have met with my caseworker here, trying to map out goals and things, and the first thing of course is counseling so I can get my mind back straight, or at least attempt it. I have an appointment tomorrow to find out if they think my felony can be expunged, which in the long run would cost me $200 but would open a lot more doors for me. The felony was a drug charge from 2003. I am also gonna do an application to volunteer at the cop shop so it can take some of my time and I would be giving to the community... I hope that goes through, the lady mailed me the application today. Next week on the 4th is 6 years clean for me, I am very proud of that!! Not a whole lot going on in life right now besides the waiting in limbo so I can get a jump on that. I have been reading a lot, read 3 books in under 2 weeks and am on my 4th now, so thats a positive change for me :) Ok enough babbling!

To All The Fu Gals On My List
you taught me you taught me to be myself you taught me how to smile again you taught me to open my heart up again you taught me to laugh again you taught me to live life to the fullest you taught me to care about myself and others you taught me not to be blindsided you taught me not to be afriad you taught me to be more me you taught me to hold on to the special one you taught me to love again bedrock ps i love you

On The News...and Grrrr
Ugh...WV CPS are stupid. They just had on the news that this little girl was visiting her grandparents. The grandparents seen bruises and called the police. Come to find out, her father was beating her with a belt. She told the police that she'd went to get food and he beat her "like a horse"..those were her words. I don't think spanking a child is wrong, over food..yes. And I'd NEVER use a belt. But that's not what is making me think that WV CPS is stupid. They said on the news, that that's not the first time the child has been removed for child abuse. They didn't say "alleged"..they fucking knew that child had been abused and they let the little girl go back to her father? Ugh.

Today...
Ok...so today has sucked beyond all imagination... I'm at work, minding my own business, and all of a sudden this song comes on. I haven't heard this song in like..1oo freaking years, and it brings back so many memories. My mom used to sing it to me when she would tuck me in at night, and whenever something was bothering me. I don't know if many people remember it, but it goes, "You are so beautiful to me" Old stuff, but its an amazing song. Well. I cry the whole way home, and even about an hour after I get home. Well...after that I meet up with some friends, and we are talking about the death of our friend who died this past saturday, and they are going into great detail about what happened with the car accident, and were getting very visual about them sewing her head back together, and having to just lay her legs in the casket because they were sliced off, and they had to fill the back of her head with paper because the back of her skull is missing, and that is just the beginni

Pet Peeves
People asking me what my Yahoo Messenger screen name is. It is on my profile are you unable to read my profile, because it is there and I know the font size is pretty big. People asking me if they can add me as a friend and/or if they can rate my pictures. This site was made to see how many people you can become “friends” with and how many pictures you can put up and which ones you can get the most rates on and the highest rating. Asking me if you can see my web cam. Yeah I have a web cam, no it no longer works and no I will not see about fixing it just so you can see, and no I will not go buy another one. Opening an IM with “Sup,” “S'up,” or any other way you can spell it. We are adults talk like one. I am not saying you have to have the correct spelling of all your words, just don't use short hand. People who tell me that we talked before and keeps going on about it, even after I tell them I do not remember. If I told you I do not

A Statement Or Stuffs
http://fubar.com/mum.php?id=566753 As anyone can read in the above mumm, I had problems with the poster. Having logged out so I could actually do the job Im paid for, I missed his last comment about me. Logging back in and reading it, it irked me, but I thought Id be a beter man and ignore it. Then the gin kicked in and I thought fvck it..... I have never once blocked a person without them blocking me first. If they deny me the right to comment on their mumms, and in many cases revoke my right to defend myself, then I wont allow them the same privelage. Kinda oetty, I know, but fvck it, just wanted to set the story straight on that.

Please Forward Answers To My Mail
CITY OF EAST LOS ANGELESHIGH SCHOOL MATH PROFICIENCY EXAM Name: _____________________________ Gang:___________________________ Jamaal has an AK-47 with a 40-round clip. If he misses 6 out of 10 shots and shoots 13 times at each drive-by shooting, how many drive-by shootings can he attend before he has to reload? Jose has 2 ounces of cocaine and he sells an 8-ball to Jackson for $320, and 2 grams to Billy for $85 a gram. What is the street value of the remaining cocaine that he doesn't cut? Rufus is pimping for 3 girls. If the price is $65 for each trick, how many tricks will each girl have to turn so Rufus can pay for his $800 a day crack habit? Jerome wants to cut his 1/2 pound of heroin to make 20% more profit. How many ounces of cut will he need to reach his goal? Willis gets $200 for stealing a BMW, $50 for a Chevy, and $100 for a 4x4. If he steals 2 BMW's and 3 4x4's, how many Chevys will he have to steal to make $800? Raoul is serving 6 years in prison for murder.

Flu Is Not The Biggest Danger ... It's The Vaccine Part 2
There are subsidiary networks of secret societies in every country that answer to the 'Spider'. Their job is to control their country's politics, banking, business, military, media, medicine, and so on, and introduce in their sphere of influence the global agenda dictated by the 'Spider'. Those on the inner levels of this structure are collectively known as the 'Illuminati'. This is how they coordinate between apparently unconnected governments, corporations, media groups etc. The Rothschild and Rockefeller dynasties (the same bloodline) are fundamentally involved in this, as I have long exposed, and they dominate pharmaceutical medicine and government 'health' policy worldwide. The web controls governments, the pharmaceutical industry, or 'Big Pharma', the World Health Organisation and public heath 'protection' agencies like the Centers for Disease Control and Prevention in the United States. In short, they control the entire medical system. The Illuminati cabal established globa

So...
I partied with these guys tonight BOOYA! They are JUST as good live as in the vid! Awesome show! Another GREAT band to listen to if you can find their music is WISHBONE. They also have a Myspace. The lead is my best friends brother :D Had LOTS of fun tonight!

I Feel A Sin Coming On
I have you right where I want you, there is no turning back I have the tools that I need to keep your mind on track oh, yeah I've got what you want, but you better work to have my attention I've the means to please and others not yet mentioned Ohhhhh, now, I've got you where I want you Ohhh, now you see all fear is gone Ohhh, free yourself from what affronts you 'cause I feel a sin comin' on You think you've got what it takes to resist my calling You may think that youre gaining ground, but youre just falling I've got you wrapped around my fingers now, your mind is sinning Oh baby, you aint losing nothing now, youre just winning Ohhhhh, now, I've got you where I want you Ohhh, now you see all fear is gone Ohhh, free yourself from what affronts you 'cause I feel a sin comin' on

A True Friend
Heather, I feel like I need to write this and don't even understand why myself. In ones you meet many people you call friends. But you only have one best friend and one soul mate not usually one of the same. You have a way about you that pulls one in, making everyone that knows you want to be that one and only in your life, to be able to share what you have and experience what you do just to be a part of your life. I can tell your holding back on your own happiness to make others around you happy, but it's time for you now to be the one in your life that is happy and I think I know just the person that can take you there. If your looking for a soul mate I'm looking for a best friend and I think we both know what the other is truly looking for. The wall you have put up is not to keep every one out but to see who loves you enough to climb it, see you on the other side. Jeff

What I Am Doing
So, I have decided I need a break from fubar! I have things I need to take care of, in my real life. Priorities etc!!! I was going to delete, but decided not too, after all the work ive put into the page and those of you that have helped me! Im not on as much lately, but I just wanted to let people know that as of this weekend I wont be on here for a while! I just need a break and need to figure some things out in my life! also need a break from the wierdos on fubar, and the annoying fu's LOL I will also be making my shoutbox family only, for now, and for when I come back! For those of you who have my email~ keep in touch~ i will be checkin email!.Take care everyone! Be back soon

Women And Their Sexual Desires
this is how i feel when i am with a man i can teach them how to make me cum 95% of females can't cum from sex UNLESS, they're on top..and they're on top why? so they can stimulate their clit..by doin' their lil snake charm grindin' grab on our pelvic bones..which..really does nothin' for men..so the key is..eat pussy first..make her cum a few times...numb her up..then hammer away or soft and slow with alot of vaginal teasing with your magic stick to build it all up in the end, however u like...... now once ur in between her legs..don't just fuckin' dive in there like a bum at a thanksgiving charity dinner...take your fuckin'time I know pussy is nearly irresistable...but don't act like it is.. lick her inner thighs, kiss them..kiss around her pussy lips..kiss the lips etc. etc..finally once u've got your tongue on her clit..this is what u do..(u can use ur hands to spread her lips here if u want..that's all preference...it's easier to make em cum w/their lips spread..so u have easier

People On People
why in fu or any other site. do people rag on others by calling them hurtful names,is it a game to make those fell far superior toward others..or are they in need of a real life? me ,myself i comment in my own manner and none of it hurts,it heals..so why cant some seem to feel for others too..i view others sites not only see..i speak in an honest tongue..

Marijuana Ingredient May Reduce Tumours: Study
http://www.vancouversun.com/news/Marijuana... The active ingredient in marijuana appears to reduce tumour growth, according to a Spanish study published on Wednesday.

Just Talkin
at times i wonder why i open my mouth, nothing i say seems to come out right. theres days where i feel smaller then the dust on an old picture frame and other days where i feel i rule the world. some days i am a complet goof bal then the next day i feel like hiding from the world. i wish i could control the way i feel. maybe one day i'll figure it out. Mr. Sunshine

Poetry * The Master, Mentors
Ok, well this isn't for everyone. It was inspired by a few people.. dedicated to mainly two. At any rate, I hope you enjoy... I may add the video voice over later The Master, Mentors. (Clears throat, and hones voice's serious tone) You ache, you beg, you’ve plead to be freed, From those troubles, woes, & insecurities. Hush .. lend your ear… Now, listen to Me, As I explain the methods to sate your needs. Take My hand, I ll lead, down the path to liberty Yet you must follow, obey, and trust Me to see. Relax, let go… meditate… breathe. Purge the mind, be cleansed… if you desire to achieve. You’ve sought my guidance, Well, here it is… so, try this. Your way hasn’t worked, Time to reflect and be silent… First, plunder your subconscious for internal realizations… (Now transition) To singularly weeding through your existing aberrations… (For transmutation) Then excavate those roots of entrenched implications… (Evoking transfiguration) Discarding to the win

...
I hate when people talk about committing suicide. Other than the obvious reason that I don't want someone that I care about to die it irks me to hear that they have nothing to live for. If you're living on the streets in a cardboard box because you have nothing and are dying from maggots infesting your body you've got reason to commit suicide(even then it's a horrible thing to contemplate for me). My mom passed away when I was 16 after a 7 year battle with cancer and I have missed her every day since. She more than anyone I've ever known deserved to live a long and happy life with her family. My mom was the most beautiful person I've ever known and I loved her more than my own life. She didn'tget to see me or my younger brother finish high school or her grandchildren be born even though she fought with everything in her to beat the cancer that was destroying her body. She wanted to live and the choice was taken from her, and yet people with reasons to want to live would rather contempl

In Honor Of The Late ...great Mr. Hughes
Iona (Pretty In Pink) You are a super cool chick, baby! You own an awesome record shop and can catch shitty teenage shoplifters from the back of your head and turn on them with a staple gun. You have an amazing vintage style and are probably on a first name basis with The B52's. You just need to stop getting involved with bad boyfriends who leave you tyed up in the back of their car.

Kevbo... By Kevin Hill
Kevbo This is about me! What up my name is Kevbo Haven't tried the yay-yo I smoke weed with my homies Forgot how much money people still owe me When I was smaller my dad made me holler He would hit me so hard I turned into a bawler I have a lot of friends But none of them are rich enough to own a Benz All of them trust me like a brother

A Little Update For My Dear Friends...
Stopping in to say hello to everyone & tell you how much I miss you all! My heart is so touched, my dear & wonderful family of friends. I really appreciate all the love, caring, concern, support, thoughts & prayers from each & everyone of you. I want to let you know my brother in law is well on the road to a full recovery. He is awake now & there are no signs of brain damage, thank God. He is still healing & having physical therapy for his bodily injuries with hopes of coming home soon. It has been a long journey for him & all of us but life is getting back to normal again. I am so grateful for all of you & just want you to know how very much it means to have you in my life & especially in my heart. I hope everyone is doing good & I look forward to being here with you again soon. Heartfelt hugs & love from my heart to yours ~ Loey

About Me 2
I GUESS YOU THINK IM STUPIED WILL YOU GOT ANOTER THING COMEING IM NOT YOU DONE LIT A FIRE YOU DID NOT WANT IK WHATS GOING ON AND I CAN TELL YOU IT AINT GOING TO HAPPEND NOT GOING TO GO BEHIND ME AND DO THIS TO ME IT NOT RIGHT NOR FAIR TO ME OR MY FAMILY HOW CAN YOU SAY ONE THING AND DO ANOTHER THAT MAKE YOU 2 FACE AND I DONT LIKE 2 FACE PPL I CANT STAND TO BE LIED TO JSUT OT GET WHAT PPL WANT IN LIFE YOU KNOW I THOUHGT THERE WAS FRIENDSHIP BUT I GUESS NOT BECAUSE IT JUST SLAP ME IN THE FACE I SAID THE BITCH WAS GOING TO COME OUT WILL IT IS AND YOU JUST SIT AND WATCH IK AND ILL FIND OUT I ALWAYS DO CAUSE IT WILL BIT YOU IN THE ASS SO HERE A POME YOU NEED TO READ BOSS BITCH YOU TRY AND PLAY ME BUT IT DOSE NOT HURT I ALREADY KNOW THAT ALL GUYS AND GIRL ARE ASSHOLES AND BITCHES YOU LIKE TO PLAY OUR MINDS YOU LIKE TO STEAL OUR HEARTS BUT NOT ALL GIRLS CUS SOME ARE JUST TO SMART YOU THINK YOUR A ASSHOLE AND BITCHES IT COULD BE TRUE BUT KARMA A BITCH AND IT

There And Back Again - My Trip To Iowa, Part Two
This is a multi-part blog entry, so it'll be easier to read... Saturday we got up, got breakfast at a greasy spoon familiar to Julie, and went to see the Field of Dreams. Yes, they really made a baseball diamond near the farmhouse next to the cornfield af someone's farm - that of the Lansing family, who really are corn farmers. If you're in the Dyersville area area and just want to see some silly things, you should add this one. There isn't a lot to it - it looks pretty much like in the movie. There are no organized games there, but when we got to the site there were about 30 people who brought baseball paraphernalia and had a spontaneous practice and scrimmage. If anything I had ever seen drives home the message Terrence Mann (he was James Earl Jones' character in the movie) stated at the end of the movie, it was watching those 30 or so dads and kids play catch and hitting and running into the cornfield. Also, a twist on the first message Ray Kinsella (Kevin Caostner's character) got

Friends
Not that i ever had a whole lot of friends i finely finished cutting the list down from 352 to 277, which still seems like too many... I'd like to whittle it down more but need some criterea... so i'm asking for ideas... meanwhile family grew to 11, an all time high... Thanx for any input... DP

Michaeal Jacksons Death, A Soldiers View
Got this in my Email from a friend and boy was this trooper dead on. read it and think. Do we have something wrong with our priorities or is it just me and this Brave G.I. THIS WAS WRITTEN BY A SOLDIER IN IRAQ. I was just watching the news, and I caught part of a report on Michael Jackson . As we all know, Jackson died the other day. He was an entertainer who performed for decades. He made millions, he spent millions, and he did a lot of things that make him a villan to many people. I understand that his death would affect a lot of people, and I respect those people who mourn his death, but that isn't the point of my rant. Why is it that when ONE man dies, the whole of America loses their minds with grief. When a man dies whose only contribution to the country was to ENTERTAIN people, the American people find the need to flock to a memorial in Hollywood , and even Congress sees the need to hold a "moment of silence" for his passing

[the Best Part Of Waking Up]
ask me about the last 12 hours- no really, go ahead.Between one of my cousins mouthing off unantagonized and me having to once again check it, ANOTHER dream about running from my ex and friends betraying me, and my dog waking me up incessently (I insist on starting the day with a good dream so I keep goin back to bed, specially my days off) and then PISSING ON MY BEDROOM FLOOR WITH A GIANT FUCKING CIRCUMFERENCE yeahI'm gonna be a little pissed off- so I jump out of bed and yell at her to stop- it scares her into pissing harder, I splash into piss and actually slosh it into my eye- its acidic, its also now extra scented cuz she's scared, so I bop her a couple and threw her ass out.My alarm goes off 3 minutes after that.Three fucking minutes and I would've took her out and not spent the last fucking thirty on cleaning a GIANT piss puddle with an extra hint of ass juice and amonia from her scent gland.So I threw out a pair of my socks, washed my eye repeatedly and have now put the third c

Friends Or Not?
All who look, and click away Soon will be done, in the same way If I add you, I think your cool If you ignore me, then your the fool I do not add because you have asked I add because your attention I've grasped I will not keep you, if you don't talk For those, I draw a line of caulk I'm not a collector of friends you see I dont know why thats thought of me If you want me as part of your collection You have made the wrong selection Friends I seek just so you know People to get the chance to know If I have sparked and flamed your intrigue Then get to know me and I'll join your league Speak to me, write to me try to get to know me But do not ignore or fail to approach me Given a chance, and given the time I kept those who shown me a piece of their time I deleted those who did not show care I kept them till now, but obviously they weren't there What i have left in my friends list you see Is people who share the same Ideas as me I add those who want to get to know me The others c

Illogical
(Katie’s tired and ranting) Just because I don’t worship YOUR god does not mean I have no morals…. I’m really tired of people who assume they know my beliefs and then decide to go on telling me what I believe. I enjoy even more when they point out my so-called beliefs are wrong. Honestly few people know what I may or may not choose to believe in. I think religion and such are very personal and should remain that way. I respect you and your views so respect mine. I take issues with people who pick and chose what part of a religion they will use/believe. Ok I will take this and leave that, ignore this and fuck that. Before you go on a crusade to condemn me get your shit together. People are often confused when they throw scripture at me and I can have an actual discussion with them. I am willing to listen to you and although you may not change my mind I will listen. Now if you just want reassurance or to fight about inconsequential drama im not your g

Hemp: The Fabric Of Our Lives?
http://www.fastcompany.com/blog/ariel-schw... Hemp is one of the fastest growing biomasses in existence, uses less water than cotton, and requires minimal pesticides to thrive. Yet it is still illegal to grow under U.S. federal law due to its relation to marijuana. That hasn't stopped hemp fiber from making headway into the mainstream consciousness, and now even Hanesbrands--one of the world's largest consumer apparel brands--is getting in on the action.

Babbling
Hopefully when feeling down or like I cant do it I can look back on this and get some inspiration back. Over the last few weeks, its been pretty hectic. Ive been exhausted but a good exhausted. Last year, after a few months of my separation I began learning the dynamics of domestic violence on both male and female victims. I then got asked to speak at the university as well as host a vigil for a close friend of mine and her son who were brutally murdered two years previous. That got stemmed basically out of politics. Seems when someone of 'higher rank' in society dies gets remembered and honoured better than just your 'average' citizen. A lot of people just shrug and say "It's just the way it is there is nothing you can do about it" I say bullshit! This infuriated me! I thought to myself she may not have been a civil servant but she was SOMEBODY just as important to many lives that are considered ordinary deemed by society. Meanwhile, I was struggling to learn more and more abou

Boob Question
This is a completely legitimate question: is it possible for birth control pills to make your boobs bigger? I'm serious now. Maybe not bigger, but fuller, bouncier or perkier? Its weird but I like it!

Win A Ticker!
WIN A TICKER! HOW? GUESS MY ALL TIME FAVORITE PIC! LEAVE A COMMENT ON IT SO THERE WILL BE A RECORD OF WHO WAS 1ST TO COMMENT. SOME HINTS: IT IS SFW IT IS NOT OF ME I DID NOT MAKE IT OR RIP IT GOOD LUCK! YOU MUST HAVE AN ACCEPTABLE SALUTE TO WIN.

Hhmmm...wondering...
I had a naughty thought today. If anyone ever says-"threesome" to me, I think 2 girls, 1 guy. Normally I consider 2 guys, 1 girl to have too many sausages in the room. Today I had a dirty fantasy about 2 guys. They are guys from Fubar too. I am not gonna tell which two I was thinking about. Maybe it was you...

Arguing With Myself
Just so much! So much pain! So much hate, anger, lust, love. Passion hidden. Life lost. Love not found. Everything wanted and it's at your fingertips that retract. Always wanted, but fear holds us back. Even me. I am scared. I am petrified of losing. I am petrified of winning. Letting go. Life still spins. The search stops yet still goes on. So CLOSE!!! So far away. Is this to be it? So many ages passed. It's all gone, but infront of my nose. Chasing shadows in the dark. Where are they? Looking for the contrast of white on white. I see it, but where is it? Time still slipping. Gotta catch it. Have to catch time. Have to find the shadow. Can't see the white........... You can't see the white because you're not supposed to. You're not supposed to find the shadow. The answer is in the rant, let go. There is no spoon. There is no secret, there is no secret ingredient. There is nothing but everything. You're not supposed to get it. Life is chasing shadows in the dark. The only real que

Sarah
Sarah sarah comes home. nobody is there.daddy pulls into the drive and then comes her scare.mommy is home from the bar, hurt and anger is in her eyes.can't you hear sarah's cries?she gets knocked to the floor by daddy's hard fist.all she wanted to do was show him her christmas list.she is laying there, unable to move.mommy starts to yell, she wishes she would soothe.daddy takes the gun, now its too late. by the terror in sarah 's eyes, she now sees her fate.someone heard, but too afraid to call.i wonder if they had, if little sarah would've had to fall

Things I Hate:
women that cater to man's every word vain people stupidity teenagers slow drivers onions oversexed people prudes ignorants peoples' kids political correctness women that lfaunt their boobs, then complain about staring (see Prudes) junkies welfare people that ask if I was a mail order bride

Is It Just Tension...
Like everybody, I have a certain taste in the opposite sex. Theres a woman in class who is in NO way my type, but we spend a lot of time in class together... and Im finding myself REALLY wanting her. Is that normal? Is it just because we spend so much time together that that is happening? Especially since if I saw her on the streets or somewhere else I wouldnt give her a second look?

Missing My Friends!!!
Well hello my friends I miss you all so much!!! Life has been wonderful and I have never been happier, I am not on as much anymore don't have internet and my Aunt took my PC so that is the story about that I have a wonderful man in my life and I have never been happier he treats me so good!!!! Any ways hope all is well with all of you and I will try to get on when I can love and miss you all!!!!

Msnbc Pimp: Trust The Government And “get Your Damn Vaccine”
Dr. Nancy Snyderman, billed as chief medical editor at NBC News, says when the HHS bureaucrat Kathleen Sebelius speaks, we have to listen. Snyderman tells the talking heads on MSNBC that we should all line up and take our eugenics soft kill H1N1 vaccine. Sebelius is a member of the globalist Bilderberg Group. Bilderberg advocates modern eugenics and plans to eventually reduce the world’s population by 80%, as called for by the 1974 UN Assessment on Biodiversity. The H1N1 virus is a big deal, Snyderman pontificates, and it will “cut a swath” through the population. Distrust of the government and big pharma, she warns, may be fatal. “I can’t tell you what to do,” she adds, “but I can tell you what you should do, and what you should do is get this vaccination.” There is the small matter that this virus outbreak is far less deadly than the normal seasonal flu, but that does not stop the editor from claiming that if you don’t get the

Idiots At The Unemployment Dept.
I'm on unemployment....which I call unenjoyment. I have applied to have my checks automatically deposited into my bank account FOUR fucking times!! Twice by mail and twice online. So I go out to my mailbox to get my mail and what do I find?? Another fucking check!! GodDAMMIT what do I have to do?? How fucking hard is it to push a few fucking buttons and have my check direct deposited?? Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr k, rant over, resume lives.

Waken To Nothing
Ok... I wrote this just a moment ago i dont know where it came from.. but all i know is it hurt me to write it and i have only just stopped crying.. yes.. i cried ... this story hurt me far deeper then anything i have writen todate... Stretching gently I rise to my legs looking around I sniff the air and right away know something is missing, where could she be? Why did she leave me? I walk to the kitchen and my bowl is empty, why is it empty? Doesn’t she love me anymore? Where is my mistress??? Walking through to the lounge room I see a note walking slowly to it I peer at it curiously but I can’t read human words, what does it say? Why is it here? What’s going on!!! Getting worried, I walk through the hall to the stairs peering up I see the gate is open, she never leaves the gate open, I’m not allowed up there... but I am frightened... Did I do something wrong? I slowly walk up the stairs frightened that I will hear her yell but hoping I do hear it.

Sides
Let me begin this rant by stating I am THOUROUGHLY pissed that i am wasting daily rants on fubar events... I meant this blog for polotics (one of my passions) and societal issues. But as it seems we're all STUCK in a quagmire of childishness I'm stating my positon once and for all. I am friends with nearly anyone who will take my sorry ass in and I frankly do not give a good god damn who you are or aren't friends with... I'm tired of trying to please people. Yesterday I was deleted from a friend for 'lieing'... I don't even know what I lied about!!!!! I actually fretted over this... until it occurred to me... It's a computer!!!! why spend the mental energy? Understad this about me... because FUBAR is an online computer thing, I do have a certain detatchment to it. I do too often treat it like a game and forget there are people attatched... sorry, I do treat flesh and blood folks different from online. Secondly, I am a drunk!!!, (don't know how to get rid of these italics) It's n

Finally Taking Control Of My Life. Time To Work On My Horrible Social Skills And Be An Adult. It's About Time!!!!
I'm finally taking control of my life. I finally talked to my parents about them holding me back and not letting me grow up and making my own decisions. That's why I don't know how to talk to or deal with people or women my age in general. I think that's why not many women on here wanna talk to me. Either I have nothing in common with them or not socially knowledgable (or socially bad overall). So I just basically talked to my parents to let them know that I'm not a kid anymore and let me do my own thing, and let them know that I felt that they're holding me back. I felt better talking to them about it Today's my first day of going to my business communication class at South Suburban College. Hopefully it'll help me fix up my bad social & communication skills and strengthen it. It'll take me a while to make some progress so wish me luck!

"mmm Beer" Or "what You Should Know Before You Try To Chat Me Up"
Ok So I recently joined the ranks of the single woman. After 14 years, I am more than rusty at the whole awkward meeting someone new thing. But when I got married I was 18 and it was 1994 ... so flirting went something like this: Boy: Hey Girl: Hey Boy: So ... you like Pearl Jam? Girl: Like yeah ... who doesn't? Boy: Cool. Wanna go get some coffee? Girl: Yeah Alright *lights fade on two teenagers making out in a car in the coffeehouse parking lot* So imagine my surprise to learn that despite being in my thirties, nothing has really changed. Don't get me wrong ... the above scenario (including the music check) is still my prefered way to meet boys ... I mean after all if they like Blue Oyster Cult I know it will never work out. What truly disturbed me today was this lovely little gem from an admirer: "The only reason I would kick you out of bed would be to fuck you on the floor." Oh yum! I mean what girl wouldn't go shave her entire body and put on her best heels for this line? Y

My Softer Side...
well the day is here ac/dc is playing here in Vancouver tonight is been soldout for awhile but the other day i got a couple of tickets and was so happy i was going untill.......yesterday my sister was over and told me about a co worker at work age (39) who is dying of cancer and is a ac/dc fan my sisters asked if i could get here a t-shirt. well during the night i thought i can do better i'm giving her my two tickets to the show. might be her last .and i can always see another..so see i do have a soft side...have a great weekend everyone

The Red Headed Spic
This creature appears to be full blooded-souless-ginger,but is actually closely related to the lantinus peepolus. Excercise caution as he is easily aggrovated (Edit) He is also a master in the smithing of poop...

I Have A Naughty Fetish.
Hi friends this is about a Fetish I have besides the fact that I have snakes for pets, I get alot of flack as it is about the fact that I do have snakes for pets. This is a very kinky naughty fetish I don't post nothing about it because alot of people think is gross and weird, I have been into this sence I was a kid now I pay to watch it online or to see it in person I know it would be very hard to find a woman into this it's all good to me I am fine with it. But the fetish that I have don't keep me single like the fact that I got pet snakes lol. but if anyone would like to know what the fetish realy is please feel free to contact me via my yahoo or e-mail ok. jaykoons@yahoo.com and please don't treat me bad or like im some kind of freak because of this ok or even befriend me ok. Thank you for your time.. Jay

Stains
So...I have this metal spray bottle. And...it accidentally laid in a left over from a silver cleaning liquid. Now it has dark brown stains all over it, not sure if it corroded, or pxidized, or what. Any ideas on what happened and how to get rid of it? :(

What Kind Of Communicator Are You?
You Communicate Honestly You don't mince words. You are to the point and all about the facts. However, you are charming enough to tell people the truth yet still not offend them. It's likely that you have a hilarious, no holds barred sense of humor. And you sure tell an entertaining story! You're also quite open. People can ask you anything, and you don't shy away from controversial conversation topics. What Kind of Communicator Are You?

What Keyboard Key Are You?
You Are "enter" Some people might try to say you're impulsive and rash. You like to consider yourself decisive and committed instead. You don't have a lot of trouble making very final decisions. You trust your instincts, and you don't waver. You just go for it! What Keyboard Key Are You?

Love
LoveLove to me is like the morning dew clinging to the leaves of the liningtrees of a mossy brook. A beautiful, heavenly feeling, that lingers insilence, only to disappear at the warmth of the sun. It causes you to wantto experience it more and more, morning after morning, until it becomespart of you.

Update On Co-founder
Dear Members, As we know Joanna went in for surgery on Tuesday August 25, she was released on friday. Due to complications she went to the Emergency Room and was there for 7 hours on Saturday. She is resting comfortably as the writting of this at her moms home and will update me as things go on. She misses everyone and thanks all for your kind prayers. Thanks, Dave Founder

The Haunting
This morning, a REALLY fucked up thing happened. I was finishing the last 2 hrs of my shift, and delivering receipts at around 5am. All of a sudden, I walk by rm 106, and hear an older man yelling at a female. He is calling her names, while she was crying. Man: "How come you didnt call?! You know you are supposed to call!" Woman: "No, I'm sorry, I didnt know, I swear" M: "You always yap on your phone; I dont know why I am with you; with such an asshole. You are stupid" then there is a sound like he is slapping her. Screaming continues. M: "Let me see your hands! You know you were supposed to call!" Then, I hear a sound like he is taking something out of the kitchen drawers; something metal. I completely freaked out, thinking he is trying to get a knife, and cut her hands or something. Then it stopped. The whole time I was standing with my ear to the wall, listening. I ran to the front desk, and checked the system to see who is in that room. ANd...nothing. The room showe

Hyppocrites
Don't ya hate it when people post this in a mumm: "NSFW because I am not afraid to hear what you say and not afraid to say what is on my mind." and yet i am blocked because he did not like what i had to say.. goddamn hypocrites I tell ya.

Joyous Bliss
its in your desire that excites me longing, wanting its in your touch that i quiver under feeling, caressing its in your kiss that draws me near soft, tender its in your passion that drives me to love, happiness when you touch my body in such a way that i shake but when you touch my clit i lose all control and quiver under your spell when you enter me with your hardness and the passion you but into it how can anyone not have love and happiness for you cum with feeling and sing out in joyous bliss written by Mary McGlinchey

Fuck Fubar
So I log back in today to find tha ALL of my comment privis have been suspended...I can comment NOTHING..not even my own blogs Tho I have no fucking I dea why...So FUCK this shit..guess I wont be on for a while. I cannot comment back on this..so just wanted to say bye to everyone..I have no clue for how long (h)

Hcv National Summit Wash.dc 9-10&11
National Summit on Viral Hepatitis to be Held September 10-11 in Washington, D.C. Politicians, Medical Experts and Community Advocates Will Gather for 2-Day Conference to Develop Action Plan to Combat Hepatitis B and C in the United States WASHINGTON, Sept. 1 /PRNewswire/ -- WHAT:

Am I Doing The Right Thing?
The hospice nurse has come and gone...She affirmed what my gut instinct had already told me...Altho she says she has been wrong...She expects my dad will go sometime before or by morning...And my own heart had already told me that The watching and waiting has been hard...Harder than it ever was with my grandma or grandpa...because they both went so quickly...And going thru each and every stage and set back with my dad has been harder than the next...Becuz I know there is only one ending in sight...And my mind is saying that it just can't be.... He's only 63...He should be here to see Ricki's baby born...His grand daughters and grandson graduate, get married...I was so proud to think that he would see Stef graduate from college...The first person in our immediate family on his side to do that... And no I'm sitting here hoping that I am doing the right thing...To be honest I feel like Dr Kevorkian...A local celebrity of sorts...He was housed here at our prison and it is the one he was

86nr86rnrt
Came home from work early last monday, found my GF packing a uhaul full of her shit and moving out. I showed her the engagement ring that i was going to give her tomorrow, but no dice. no negotiating. she finished loading and left. I was supposed to come home to an ampty apartment, and never hear from her again. but she still has to pay 1/2 the lease agreement, in this case, an end lease fee. I lost my job 2 days later to make the week even more awesome. I'd say its time to pack up the california adventure and go home for a while, and just work on myself and whats best for my life. K

Letting Go Of The Pain And Torture In My Mind
taken from a recent message to a friend...i've been sitting here thinking of how to put into words what i went thru the last few days...and it just started flowing onto the page...i'm posting it just to get it off my mind...a confessional of sorts...but also a source of comfort to anyone else who may have went thru this same experience...or for someone who may have to in the future: well he was the one that calmed me down yesterday...i still have it in the back of my mind that i killed my dad...it's a feeling i can't shake...the last day all i did was feed him morphine and adavan and later hallidal to keep him out of pain and calm...his breathing was shot...the pain was torture and he had asked weeks before to be kept out of pain and stress free and to just slip away...which is what he did...one minute he was there and the next he was gone...nothing dramatic..just stopped breathing and it was over...and i was there with him...the only one awake...it happened so fast that i didn't have

If You Feel The Need
If you feel the need to let off some steam I suggest you do it on this man: He was my best friend and love of my life and then went off and cheated on me with a stripper... who dates a stripper when you got a sexy nun at home? Stupidity I know... to glorify the stupidity it would only be right to kick their asses! He's a lier and the fact that he and I never met cause he was to much of a pussy to sit there and come to Arizona to meet me after telling me the whole time that he was saving up money to come be with me is a very unkind and stupid thing to do to anyone... who spends 10 months non stop on the phone with someone to just end it all because they pussy out? Immature stupid people thats it... PLAYER! Anywho he called me a stupid bitch... haha pretty funny coming from someone who works at Dunkin Donuts... hello I have my own business! So anyways heres the link: Go rain fire and vent you deserve it! † ✡ S51™ SK8 BOY† Surreal ♌ ~ C51's Hubby/ Co own

Family Move
So, tonight my aunt, uncle, and cousins are moving to Israel, to one of the more dangerous settlements- Shilo. They have turned pretty religious lately, and see it as their calling in life. She is a fuckin moron, so I'm sure it was his stupid idea, and she just went with it. At any rate, I wasnt aware of this move til like 4 days ago, and didnt realize it was this soon. My mom thinks her sister is crazy, and won't talk to her. She is going to Israel in 5 days, to visit her ailing aunt, but doesnt want to see her sister there. Which makes my grandpa totally heartbroken. family drama, yay!

Go Ahead, Answer If You Dare!
> > > The ULTIMATE NAUGHTY QUIZ! Fill it out and send it to me in a message, and repost to see what people put for you!> > > > > > 1. Your Name:> > > > > > 2. Age:> > > > > > 3. How often do you maturbate?> > > > > > 4. Favorite position ?> > > > > > 5. Do you think i'm hot?> > > > > > 6. Would you have sex with me?> > > > > > 7. lights on or off?> > > > > > 8. Would you have to be drunk?> > > > > > 9. Would you take a shower with me?> > > > > > 10. Have you ever thought about having sex with me?> > > > > > 11. Would you leave after or stay the night?> > > > > > 12. Do you like cuddling afterwards?> > > > > > 13. Condom or skin?> > > > > > 14. Do you give Oral pleasures?> > > > > > 15. Do you like to recieve Oral Pleasures?> > > > > > 16. Have sex on the first date?> > > > > > 17. Would you kiss me during sex?> > > > > > 18. Do you think I would be good in bed?> > > > > > 19. Would u have a 3-some with me?> > > > > > 20. How many times would you like to cum?> > > > > > 21. Would you us

Juicy's Auction
October Own Me its my Birthday Month! Your name in mine for 30 Days Own Me Your name in mine 1 Pimpout Daily Keep Shitfaced (random drinks) Random Pic/Page Comments 1 customized image 4 u Random Big Pimping gifts 1 NSFW Salute/1 SFW Salute 100 11's a week if I have VIP still Random Bling if packs given YIM If more than 100 cash spent Will take personal photo shoot of 12 images with your name in random places from paper to skin! 1, 30 second video of me telling you how sweet you are and flashing my titties! 1 custom image sent to walmart near you so you have personalized photo of me (your choice if u want photo or not) Bidding Starts at 1Mil Starts Now! Ends Sept 23th 11:59 futime! Opening bid starts at 1mil to bid please post amount bidding here on this blog below Once a cash bid is made bucks cannot be bid alone! Bid Below! Birthday Month for me woohoo who gonna be my owner!

He Is Teh Awesome
I'm pink!!! YAY!!! I will be shutting the fuck up now. :D Pleeeeeeeeeeeeeease go rape this guy, he is one of the most awesome, kick ass people you will ever meet; I swear. I've talked to him almost as long as I've been on here (probably the only person I still talk to since starting the site.) Buy him drinks and whatever else you want! Fu-own him, spank his ass! I don't care! Love you, Kevers!! KevinJäymz™ ℵReverend and Spiritualistℵ@ fubar

Another Contest
So yeah...I have entered another contest and would really love it if my wonderful fu friends and family would please go vote for me. I love you all and thank you for taking the time to at least come read this! http://www.fubar.com/photo.php?u=1152094&albumid=1840482&i=3693757115&idx=13

Wow
I just found out that one of my closest friends in high school was just diagnosed with breast cancer ..... she is 6 months pregnant.. they are going to have her baby at 34 weeks and 3 weeks later she is having a DOUBLE mastecomy. I am in a bit of a shock right now... her salon and some others in my city are doing a fundraising event in October, cutting hair with all proceeds going towards helping her... plus there is a bank that is accepting donations for her. I am going to hold off on getting mine cut until then. I am in so much of a shock right now

Our Hh Tonight
So our happy hour is next PK and I will be on even if we share my account.I have a cherry bomb,I dont know how to use it,but PK says I can rate a bunch of shit @ once.If you want me to rate your shit let me know.I will be doing random fam members anyway.LET ME KNOW SOON.

Go Ahead...
I can't understand why you don't like me Can't fathom why you deny me Do you fear what I am Thinking if you touch me you wil burn You go right ahead and hate me Love or hate me, atleast I know I'm on your mind When you look at me do you see what you'll never be? I can feel you trying to chew me away You wanna blame all thats wrong with you on me and my kind Touch too long and you'll be scarred for life I may be a monster, a devil, a freak I might be all that you fear and loathe Atleast I can smile and know it's real I can, I am, I do....

09-11-01
09-11-01 was a dark day in american history. Our very freedom and sense of security and safety ruthlessly came under attack that day. Husbands were suddenly left without wives, wives left without husbands, children left without mothers or fathers, and some cases both. It was in my opinion a brutal heartless cowardly attack on innocent men, women and children. Some called it a Holy war, purposely killing unarmed civilans is murder not war. Hence we never forget or drop our gaurd any in the least. If I have offended anyone in any way with this then so be it, I am red, white, and true blue american through and through, and have a right to my opinion just as much as anyone else does.......... John

Could You? Would You?
MY FRIEND NEEDS JUST 1 RATE FROM YOU FOR A CONTEST IF YOU HAVE JUST A MINUTE TO CLICK THE PIC LINK AND RATE IT I WOULD SUPER APPRECIATE IT! LINK IS BELOW IN THE COMMENT AREA JUST CLICK AND RATE IT A 10 AND THAT WILL ROCK! THANKS SO MUCH!

Traffic Ticket
So I was on my way to a friend's house last night to go to the karaoke competition and I was pulled over by a CHP. Why do they always ask you if you know why they pulled you over? Are they hoping you'll give them more to stick you with? "Well I imagine you pulled me over because I was talking on my phone, eating dinner, failed to use my turn signal, expired registration and no insurance...Oh and the warrants!" "Actually you didn't stop back there but rolled right through that stop sign but hey, thanks for giving me all that!" I couldn't believe it, I'm really anal about following the rules, well for the most part, I do speed from time to time but not through residential or schools or anything like that. As a matter of fact, I'm always complaining about people blowing through this four way stop on the way to my house...not a 'California stop' but driving straight through. I can't drive without my seat belt, I use my turn signal every time...it's just second nature. I told him t

Results!!! (these Are Final, No Arguing, Or You Gets Nuffin!!! O.o)
All entries were based on a scale of 1-10 in three categories: WTF?!?!?, Funny, and Sexy Points were then scaled. I know you don't care, but I DO, so :P AND SO, WITHOUT MUCH MORE FANFARE EVEN!!! THE RESULTS ARE!!!!!!! ... wait for it :D (evil lil shit, ain't i?) #1 Queen Candace score on Submission 2 of 25 #2 Rascal MFKN Rabbit score on only Submission of 22 #3 JT Scrore on only Submission of 21 #4 Blessed score on only Submission of 19 #5 Everyone else, because it REALLY got too hard to keep finding flaws while i had to pee! THUS!!! everyone entering will get slightly better prizes! Thank you all for making this one of the best times I've had :) I love ya all :D

Fashion Statement Titled Surpise!!
->Eric Maste...: LMFAO!!!! wowzas.. very gentlemen like yanno? I would prob cut it up into little beaded like sections and make a necklace outta it for you too sport Eric Maste...: suppose u are in a bath room stall smoking a cigarette suddenly a penis comes through the hole and the voice on the other side says "surprise me" what would u do? ->Eric Maste...: giver.. Eric Maste...: question for ya I dont get em too often, but when I do.. whudda hoot! By hoot I mean cocksnot... Later days.

Spotlight Run (fu-owned Style)
A dear friend of mine (Klover) will be running for spotlight. I am placing a donation, BUT there is gonna be a little twist.... My donation to HER spotlight is gonna depend on how high fu-land can bid on me and bring my fu-owned amounts up.... I will donate to Klover's spotlight run, ALL of the 10 percent proceeds I receive from people buying me, so buy me up!!!!!!

Salutes
Im gonna do some.Some of you are gonna get one if you like it or not,some wont.Some of you dont want one and please use this to let me know if you do or dont.I dont take normal salutes,so they wont be done tonight.I have to think of ssomething good for this round.Cheers

Hey Yall...
just lettin yall know that i'm not gonna be around very much if at all next week tuesday-saturday...possibly longer. my nephew is having open heart surgery and we're going to new orleans to be there for him. if yall could keep him in yalls thoughts i'd really appreciate it... thanks

Come Join My Gay Cult...
Im not a racist or a bigot or a think a certain sex is beneath me. But I dont wanna join your gay cult. I dont think gays should be married. I dont think most heterosexuals should be either let alone given the right to reproduce. I dont think the girl scxouts or boy scouts or the salvation army needs your unique fashion sense. I dont think churches should be forced to hire or accept anyone that they dont like... (most people fit that catagory) I dont think my child needs to educated to learn to accept your lifestyle. last time i heard Chini wasnt beating our kids in gay history. I dont think ya need special protection. Quit doing shit in public that pisses people off. I am not impressed that your gay. I dont think your cool for going against the norm. If you wanna be gay thats fine. im cool with ya being gay. But you dont need my approval, my acceptance nor my attention. I am an equal oppurtunity dickhead.

Twisted Disney
Cinderella wants to go to the ball, but her wicked stepmother won't let her. As Cinderella sits crying in the garden, her fairy godmother appears, and promises to provide Cinderella with everything she needs to go to the ball, but only on two conditions. "First, you must wear a diaphragm." Cinderella agrees. "What's the second condition?" "You must be home by 2 a.m. Any later, and your diaphragm will turn into a pumpkin." Cinderella agrees to be home by 2 a.m. The appointed hour comes and goes, and Cinderella doesn't show up. Finally, at 5 a.m., Cinderella shows up, looking love-struck and **very** satisfied. "Where have you been?" demands the fairy godmother. "Your diaphragm was supposed to turn into a pumpkin three hours ago!!!" "I met a prince, Fairy Godmother. He took care of everything." "I know of no prince with that kind of power! Tell me his name!" "I can't remember, exactly...Peter Peter,something or other...."

So It Seems
that every other thing I do here,I get bouncer checked.Is this BJ's way of telling me I need to buy a vip?Or is it that I am just enough of a douchebag that he thinks I deserve this?Personally I think he is mad b/c of my other account and is butt hurt. OR It could really have nothing to do with myself or him.(which is higly unlikely b/c we all know how awesome I am) Either way Im not buying into that shit and will just continue to bitch about it. CHEERS

Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
it would be nice when someone says consistently they are gonna call you in a few that they could POSSIBLY........... just MAYBE........ call you when they say they will......... 3 hours later and NOTHING.......... what a friggin joke........

[what Happens When You Cross The Streams?]
I get pretty fucking loopy, pretty fucking easily as it isdrinking on top of anti-hystamines may not have been the best plan, but there's no NCIS on right now, and there's a stupid "protection mission" on AC4FA.I'm in no mood to protect anyone.It's past time to start another chapter, a new story, the person I even christened this blog for is ... gone... but I guess I was dragging my feet hoping to get a few thousand more views seeing as how my original blog has the fewest posts, and still the most views... weird.The theme and sentiment died a long time ago...I'm reluctant to christen the next page in her name, as ... I have less of a shot with her than any others in the past.Sure people have affairs, sure I've lured women from their boyfriends before, this one seems... bigger, but it could all be in my head, and for the life of me I couldn't tell you what I'm feeling.Still a big broad nothing reallysensations experienced without her are getting less intense by the day... I'm being drag

New Poem Writen By Me..
I hate they way i fall so easy I hate the way I care I hate the way you make me feel I hate the way I can get you out of my head I hate this Jelously i feel I hate that i can't tell you how i feel I hate that you don't even know i exist I hate that im not what you want but most of all I don't hate you i just hate that i can't get you out my mind or heart...

Stuff
Somtimes I am thinking; ok, ALL the times. And the recent mind wretching cognitive spasm was targeted towards "being good" I feel like I get too many good things in life that I totally dont deserve. Without gettin into further details (and curious cats will get their claws dulled), I have a most wonderful hubby that I find to be too good for me. I have friends that I find to be too good to me. My health is not too fucked up yet, as opposed to some people that actually deserve to be in good health but aren't. It strikes me as shit when I see people who REALLY deserve all the good stuff get fucked over...and OVER... I'm not sure what it is...I find the whole Karma premise to be a load of crap, since I see worthy people get shat on all the time, manipulated, played with , etc. While people like me have a ball in their ballpark. I dont get it. I guess my bigest punishment for being me is ...being me, which is a hard thing to pull off. I dunno, I'm just bored and rambling...

Fast Sex
Fast sexEddie wanted desperately to have sex with this really cute, really hot girl in his office... But she was dating someone else. One day Eddie got so frustrated that he went to her and said, 'I'll give you $100 if you let me have sex with you...The girl looked at him, and then said, 'NO!'Eddie said, 'I'll be real fast. I'll throw the money on the floor, you bend down and I'll finish by the time you've picked it up.' She thought for a moment and said that she would consult with her boyfriend...So she called him and explained the situation.Her boyfriend says, 'Ask him for $200, and pick up the money really fast. He won't even be able to get his pants down.' She agreed and accepts the proposal.Over half an hour goes by and the boyfriend is still waiting for his girlfriend's call. Finally, after 45 minutes the boyfriend calls and asks, 'What happened...?' Still breathing hard, she managed to reply, 'The bastard had all quarters!'

I Feel Like Shit
So, I don't really feel like talking to many people on here right now. I have my special people that I love to death and speak with, but others just lookin for their whores or whatever, I really could give a fuck less about. Tomorrow, pending the doctors orders, I will be going into the hospital. I do believe they said it is for 3 days. I have 5 pinched nerves and God knows what else going on in my back. It hurts so bad that I can't just lay here. Especially, since I am trying to pursue modeling and have shoots lined up. I will miss the ones of you that seriously care about me, if they do not have the net. Keep me in your thoughts. And don't forget..you can still rate me..and PLEASE message me..it's always good to know someone cares.

It's Not You...it's Me
So you ever have someone tell you this? Of course you have! Don't lie, it happens to everyone. Can you imagine a world where you are meant for everyone you come into contact with? Yea it wouldn't be so much fun to juggle them all ;) I don't mind hearing that someone isn't interested in me. It definitely isn't the end of the world. I do however dislike the pussy ass way some people have gone about saying it without saying it. And yes, I myself have done just this. I am just as much an asshole as the next person. It's also true that I am very nice and that I can be extremely forgiving. But not in every instance. Sometimes I am blunt and rude, maybe even harsh. Overall however I don't sugar coat much. I have made a new rule for myself. I am the worst at following rules, but this one is a good one. I won't be polite if someone offends me. I will say it like it is. I will not mince words and make it easier for someone just because I am nice. I will say what I am thinking and if it's not

Remembering Whitney Jo
Some of you knew her as Kept In Corsets, Shini, Whinnie... She was my Italia and my Weewa.... my Whitney Jo. Tomorrow is September 23rd 2009, marking the one year that our dear friend left us behind and joined the angels. Do not mourn, she would not want that. Celebrate her memories, the good times, the positives. True, she was taken much too young but as they say - the good die young, and she was truly the epitome of good...no... great. She was a WONDERFUL mother to her son and a FANTASTIC friend to all she met. So tomorrow, say a prayer. She'll be closer than you could ever think. My heart aches because I cannot believe I have survived one year without my best friend, the one who knew all my secrets, the one who loved me no matter how much I completely fucked up, the one who trusted in me to take care of her son and love him as her own. To my sister, best friend, lover, confidant, and angel, I miss you each and everyday. But you know that. Please lettin

Thought I'd Share This With All Of You.
HOW TO KNOW IF YOU HAVE A FRIENEMY.... ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ #1 They are jealousy of you. #2 They weren't there for you during an important event. #3 They are draining you emotionally. #4 They are nice to you, but mean to others. #5 They burden you with their secrets. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I know a few people here who have been struggling with this issue and i thought it might be usefull to them. You know me, I always try to find words of wisdom to get me through things. To know me is to know that I'm always trying to be there for my friends!!! I hope that it helps you find your way my friend. ;) ~Much love, respect & peace~ ~Loves~

♣s♣e♣x♣
This is fun to do. Just read the 'offence' and if you've done it, youowe that fine. Keep going until you've read each 'offense' and Added up your total fine. When you are done Title your it 'My fine is $........' You don't have to confess your answers, just the Amount of your fine.Smoked pot -- $10Did acid -- $5Ever had sex at church -- $25Woke up in the morning and didn't know the person next To you -- $40Had sex with someone on MySpace -- $25Had sex for money -- $100Ever had sex with the a Puerto Rican -- $20Vandalized something -- $20Had sex on your parents' bed -- $10Beat up someone -- $20Been jumped -- $10Crossed dressed -- $10Given money to stripper -- $25Been in love with a stripper -- $20Kissed some one who's name you didn't know -- $0.10Hit on some one of the same sex while at work -- $15Ever drive drunk -- $20Ever got drunk at work, or went to work while still drunk -- $50Used toys while having sex -- $30Got drunk, passed out and don't remember the night before -- $20Went sk

Taking A Break
ive decided to take alot of time to work on myself and stay away from here in the process. i come here everyday but it seems to serve little purpose other than to waste my time. i am taking this moment to look deep inside to see what will truly make me happy and work to achieve it. for those of you that have been nothing but a good friend, i will miss u. i will get on yahoo when i can..as i will not have internet for awhile. but when i do, those who have it and say hi i will respond. but i simply can no longer expose myself to the things that only hurt me in the long run. my happiness and the happiness of the person who means everything to me, my daughter Cassie, are what i will be focusing on. I wish you all the best of luck and all the happiness in the world. Im sure ill be back...hopefully a changed person for the better..so until then, save my seat at the bar. Neil

[because I'm A Whore]
Last people you hung out with?uuuuh my dog? .. wait people... I hate people.When's the last time you were surprised?When someone told me they were 19 and not older >> God I'm old.What is the last non-alcoholic beverage you had?Tap water.Do you prefer pasta, salad, or coleslaw?Pasta, because I know how to cook it you fucktwits.If you could have one wish what would it be?Giant robots sounds pretty good... but more money than I need to research dev and build said robots is goodester- but then again, so is control overtime with control over aging. ... hey its time related. Could you go for the rest of your life without drinking alcohol?Probably, but why would I? In fact... *pours a drink*Who's bed were you on last?Mine.When was the last time you changed in front of someone?Fuck, its been about 2 years.Would you rather love one person or have many short relationships?I'd rather be in love, but if I didn't die alone... and I'm fucking supermodels like Hef, who's to judge?Last person you had

Naughty?? Please Rate This Pic
AM I NAUGHTY?? OR A NICE GIRL?? IF YOU DON'T KNOW AND WANT TO FIND OUT, YOU CAN STOP BY THE NAUGHTY OR NICE AUCTION I AM CURRENTLY IN! THIS AUCTION IS ONLY GOING FOR 4 DAYS SO HURRY AND GET YOUR BIDS IN!! YOU CAN OWN ME FOR 2 WEEKS. ALL BIDS CONSIDERED. AUCTION WILL END THIS COMING MONDAY **NOTE** ALL I AM OFFERING DID NOT GET LISTED ON THE AUCTION PIC. I WILL FOLLOW UP IN MY BLOG WITH MY COMPLETE OFFER. IF YOU ARE NOT INTERESTED IN BIDDING WILL YOU PLEASE JUST RATE THE PIC? THE PERSON WITH THE MOST RATES @ END OF AUCTION CAN WIN A PRIZE. THANKS!!

- Haikuatical Ramblings -
An empleasured pain So strong as to nare’be Hate Is dichotomic Love. ~~~/~~~ The sight of her smile My heart breaking with pure joy An angel is she. ~~~/~~~ Tall is the old tree Its leafs no longer full green

Think Its Kind Of Rude!
Why is it you rate their photos and when they come to rate you its usually to rate your profile pic.. and that be all but yet we all bust our butts to rate theirs. But we are only worth a profile rating of 11 or a 10.??? What about the rest of our pictures? When usually they are just as good but Only a 10 lol... Confussed I think its kind of rude they do this, when you have less than 100 pics and they can't take time to rate your pics. ? Shaking my head. Maybe its just me or maybe its not I don't know so why do we take time to rate theirs?? Is the level that important or is it what we've been trained to do on fu?

"your Basic Guys Weekend"
Guy 1: What'd you guys do over the weekend? Guy 2: Not much. Shopped. Guy 1: For what? Guy 2: (pauses) Jenny wants to get new curtains for the powder room. Guy 1: Huh. Guy 2: (pause) It's more challenging than you'd think. Guy 1: Is this before or after she got you a lobotomy? -- Overheard in: Commuter Train, Harrison NY --

Fall Auction --- Sweet Temptations
ATTENTION ATTENTION THIS IS A FU-NATIONAL SERVICE ANNOUNCEMENT!!!Damien Darke and his Darke Angelz have decided to pitch in and host our FALL AUCTION we have aptly named SWEET TEMPTATIONS. This is an auction that we will begin preparing for on Sept 28th... so seek out Damien .. the buy in for this auction will be 75K fubux - no exceptions - the minimum starting bid we are setting at 150K fubux so if nothing else your buy in covered. Damien will be putting together the auction tags from Sept 28th thru Oct 4th... the Auction will open Oct 5th - that's a Monday @ 9am est and will run thru Oct 17th at 9pm est ... There you have it ... its been a while since the DarkeMan has hosted an auction so come on down and put your sexiest(sfw - or nsfw that I will make sfw) pic up on the Auction Block

Auction :)
Okay, So heres what's up! Ima keep this real simple being as this is my first auction and quite frankly, I dont feel like getting all technical n shit.:P 1.)100k to enter 2.) Send me in a PRIVATE MESSAGE the pic link you want me to use for your auctiona and what you are offering. 3.) Cash bids override fubucks! 4.) Auction will start Friday 10-2-09 and end Thursday night! That gives me all day Friday to tally up stuff and Friday night you will be notified If you win :) 5.) Have fun and Happy Bidding!!! 6.)What do you have to lose? 100k to enter,100k for someone to bid on you, get your money back and more!!!! All entries must be in before Thursday night so I can get this stuff all organized!!! Thank you for looking!! Muahz!

Through A Rapist Eyes
Good information! Through a Rapist's Eyes (No Joke)When this was sent to me, I was told to forward it to my lady friends, but I forwarded it to most everyone in my address book. My men friends have female friends and this Information is too important to miss someone.Please pass it along and share it with your children.A group of rapists and date rapists in prison were interviewed on what they look for in a potential victim and here are some interesting facts:1) The first thing men look for in a potential victim is hairstyle. They are most likely to go after a woman with a ponytail, bun, braid or other hairstyle that can easily be grabbed . They are also likely to go after a woman with long hair . Women with short hair are not common targets.2) The second thing men look for is clothing. They will look for women who's clothing is easy to remove quickly. Many of them carry scissors around specifically to cut clothing.3) They also look for women on their cell phone, searching through

A Single Red Ribbon
We walked hand in hand on that moonlit night Disapeared into the darkness just out of sight I stared into her eyes and held her close to my chest Her captivating beuty seperating her from the rest As I held her close she pulled a single red ribbon from her hair She handed it to me and said take me if you dare For this ribbon is symbolic it doesn't stand here to boast It is for those who have touched my heart and whom I loved the most It is the color of red because it comes from my heart So hold on to it tighly never let it fall apart If I can trust you with my ribbon then we might just have a chance But be careful of the evil that will try to break your stance Temptation is on every corner and will be calling your name But Hold on tight to this ribbon and don't ever fall for there game The years have past now and she has become my wife Yes I still have the ribbon for it has defiened my life

"mfkn" Auction!
WHAT YOU NEED TO KNOW..... THE PURPOSE FOR THIS AUCTION IS TO GET FAMILY SOME NICE FUBAR STUFF, A VIP, SOME BLING, A BLAST HECK MAYBE EVEN A HH OR 2..... AUCTION WILL START AS SOON AS WE GET ENOUGH ENTRIES AUCTION WILL RUN FOR 1 WEEK AUCTION IS AGAIN OPEN TO ONLY MFKN FAMILY AUCTION ENTERY FEE IS 50K FUBUX OR A 1 CREDIT BLING THAT GOES 2 SWEETS FOR DOING THE GRAPHICS. WHAT YOU NEED TO DO....... YOU NEED TO PICK A PICTURE YOU'D LIKE TO BE USED FOR THE AUCTION YOU NEED TO DECIDED WHAT YOUR GOING TO OFFER IN THIS AUCTION ONCE YOU HAVE DONE THAT YOU SEND THE INFORMATION TO SWEETS IN A PRIVATE MESSAGE HER LINK IS BELOW.... Sweets@ fubar IF YOU HAVE ANY QUESTIONS HAVING TO DO WITH THE AUCTION OR YOU NEED IDEAS ON WHAT TO OFFER, PLEASE FEEL FREE TO ASK ME I'VE ENTERED QUIT A FEW AUCTIONS SO FEEL FREE TO ASK ME FOR HELP IF OU NEED IT!

What Kind Of Eggs Are You?
You Are a Poached Egg You are a competent and successful person. You are obsessed with making sure your life is well organized and scheduled. You have an incredible sense of focus and determination. You don't let yourself make many mistakes. You are a high achiever. You like to challenge yourself, and you get great satisfaction from being the best at something. While you have high standards, you aren't really all that competitive. You only compete with yourself. What Kind of Eggs Are You? Blogthings: Our Quizzes Weren't Written By Bored 12 Year Olds

Auto 11 Or Bomb
I HAVE AN AUTO 11 OR A BOMB YOUR CHICE STARTIN BID IS 5 MILLION Auto-11s(35 credits) Give someone immunity from down-raters! When activated, EVERY photo and profile rating is forced to 11 for TWENTY-FOUR (24) hours. All actual 11s during this time are double the points for both the giver AND receiver! Selected Cherry Bomb(35 credits) Bomb a photo album! When activated, you can rate up to 250 photos in a single album an 11 with one click for ONE (1) hour. You can Cherry Bomb one album per member and you will have unlimited 11's when using your Cherry Bomb. Bombs away! Select

Birthday Girl. Lemme See Your Birthday Suit!
It's a special girl's birthday today. It's my Best Friend's birthday today. Someone whom I adore, respect, cherish and love. Someone who's been there for the past SIX YEARS! Thick and thin, boys and bullshit. She's been through it all with me And vice versa. Just like Chucky said: "Friends till the end!" tee hee Happy Birthday, Mama. Love you! -REL I owe you a damn Birthday salute, I know!

What Room Are You Most At Home In?
You Are Most at Home in the Living Room You're the type of person who always feels relaxed at home. In many ways, it's where you're at your best. You love to chill out at home. You are not the biggest homebody in the world, but you appreciate the time you spend there. There's nothing like having a few friends over to watch a movie or just talk in your living room. You are proud of the home you've created, and you love to share it with others. What Room Are You Most At Home In? Work is Hard. Time for Blogthings!

Haha
come on people lets get real i will keep this simple i am not fake ok ive never kept the fact i have my own site duhhhhh ive never hid who i am so just for u one more time my name is kari sweets i hav my own site for anyone who thinks im fake u have one option goodbye i have my own pics on here to but there privete becouse people use my pics all the time if u were in my family then u would no that haha to all them narrow minded people that dont take the time to speak to me ooo and just for though go and report me to my site and get the number on there and when u do you and ur stupid comments can stay the fuk of my page so one last thing if u continue to harrass me i will delete the page and when someone fake does use my pics haha to you ur such losers

I Know I Will Not Be Popular For This!
This makes you think all of you Obama Lovers...Look at the damage he has done already. Some people think President George W. Bush was "the dumbest president ever" (and, amazingly, many of you still do), please note that political blogger Josh Ray has this message for you: If George W. Bush had given Prime Minister Gordon Brown a set of inexpensive and incorrectly formatted DVDs, when Prime Minister Gordon Brown had given him a thoughtful and historically significant gift, would you have approved? If George W. Bush had given the Queen of England an iPod containing videos of his speeches, would you have thought this embarrassingly narcissistic and tacky? If George W. Bush had bowed to the King of Saudi Arabia , would you have approved? If George W. Bush had visited Austria and made reference to the non-existent "Austrian language," would you have brushed it off as a minor slip? If George W. Bush had filled his cabinet and circle of advisers with people who cannot seem to keep cu

An Exerpt
Skipping the beginning for personal reasons... Además de felicitaciones, me gustaría decir unas cuantas cosas más a la clase. • Nunca dejen de aprender. Todo la vida, segan aprendiendo • Nunca digan lo siento por hacer su trabajo • Nunca renuncien su integridad Nuestra integridad es todo lo que tenemos. Nuestra integridad es lo que defiende el honor del Servicio. Sin integridad, no tenemos nada. La verdadera prueba de la integridad es su negancia a ponerse en peligro. Nada, absolutamente nada, en este trabajo vale su vida. Llege a casa, cada día, sin excepciones. En cuanto a esto, hay otra cosa en que pensar. Con este trabajo llegara peligro. Es la verdad, podemos morir en el trabajo, pero esto es cierto en toda la vida y no podemos tener miedo de vivir nuestras vidas. No le tengan miedo a la vida, el fin de la vida viene y no puede ser evitado. Clase, Tenga valor en lo que haces. Séan furetes y poderosas fuerzas no vistas vendrán a su auxilio. y cierr

Scrolling
Here is my thought on something random before I leave for work. I always though a picture of you flipping off the camera was NSFW, yet someone has it as their primary and they are scrolling. Hrmmm Anyway, off to work. I love my friends!!!!!

Dream Girl
Who is my Dream Girl? Who is made just for me, Who is only such girl made by Thee, Who is no less than an angel, She is my Dream Girl...She is my Dream Girl.The moon and the starBow down in honour, Seeing the beauty marvelShe is my Dream Girl...She is my Dream Girl.The 'Goddess of Beauty'Who is titled In the bible, She is my Dream Girl...She is my Dream Girl.Not only for her gorgeous nature, But also for her beautful heart like a shinig mirrorWho is worshipped in templeShe is my Dream Girl...She is my Dream Girl.Who is as purifiedAs the innocence of a childFrom mind nad body, heart and soul, She is my Dream Girl...She is my Dream Girl.Who is innocent of angerWhose sweet voice can never be heard louder, In front of everyone who is always humble, She is my Dream Girl...She is my Dream Girl.Whose eyes so resplendentExpress every feeling hidden, Who is so much adorableShe is my Dream Girl...She is my Dream Girl.For whom I am the only one, Who makes me feel like Heaven, For whom I am so spe

Rambling....
Who are all these people? Why do we call each other friends?If I met you on the street would you say hello? Doubtful at best but maybe some would what the hell do I know! I was reading some blogs recently one was all sex and fantasy stories another rambled on about politics and blah blah blah!My favourite was the people I hate one about how she hates the beautiful people,It's kind of sad that you would hate someone even jokingly because they have perky boobs or a pretty face.I have found some of the ugliest people are the "beautiful" ones.But that's just my opinion and in the big world of Fu bar who really gives a damn about my opinion or yours. Do you ever wonder what people would think about you if they knew the real you?Not the Fu person but the person who is sitting behind that computer right now! Scary isn't it? Yes I am bored I have been staring at Dr.Phil and watched the View and Oprah and my mind is numb filled with a bunch of useless info now!I Do have a life out side this

Move
So we are puttin up our condo for sale, which may result in moving in back with my mom for a lil bit before we leave. Hubby and I are selling our place, and takin a hike-around the world trip, with a base in Moscow, with my gramps. If everythin goes smooth and we are not devoured by bears, it will be about a year long. Hopefully I get a job at a hotel in Moscow, since I have my Russian passport renewed and I was born in that city. The plan is to hike from Norway to Russia, then go to Midle East (we are gonna live in Israel for about 5 months), going to the Mediterranean part of Eastern Europe. When we'll get back, we are moving from this shithole of a city (I REALLY hate Chicago, and IL in general) I am going to blog my stuffs while I'm gone tho, so...

Not Always Right | Appointment With Stupidity
Me: “Service Center, how may I help you?” Customer: “I need to make an appointment to get my oil changed.” Me: “Oh alright. Well, just so you know, you can come in whenever you are available during the week.” Customer: “So, Monday through Friday?” Me: “Yep!” Customer: “So, wait…we don’t need an appointment?” Me: “Nope, just come right in!” Customer: “So, what your saying is we don’t need an appointment?” Me: “Yes, ma’am.” Customer: “I dunno about that.” Me: “About what?” Customer: “Not having an appointment.” Me: “Well, do you want me to put you down for an appointment?” Customer: “You just said I didn’t need one!” Me: “Well, so you’re not so confused, I can put you in whatever slot you want.” Customer: “No, I’ll just go somewhere else!”

As Of Today I Have Changed My Opinion Of Voting
there were close to 30 people who voted on my mumm... and if you have seen it that speaks wonders for their dedication... i admire such dedication... in fact i wanna be just like them... so from now on i will vote on between 1 and 3 mumms a day... (y) that is all

Hurt
I am having a really difficult time tonight, totally in tears, I need to blog just to get it off my chest some. My close friends know my situation. My son who is 18 lives with his dad and grandparents outside of town. My contact with my son is few and far between although I do try to call him or text him. My situation hasnt allowed me to do anything for him for xmas or his birthday this past year so I am sure he has some resentment for me. I havent seen him since Aug of LAST YEAR! Well my daughter asked me today if I knew that he was crowned homecoming king. I was like no way, and she was like it was all over his myspace pics with the crown and all. So I got onto myspace to snag the pictures, as soon as I seen them I broke down in serious tears. This is stuff a mom is suppose to know, this is stuff that needs to be shared and its not. I am so proud of him yet I feel like I failed as a mom worse then ever. Luckily I was able to savage my daughters relationship with the bad choices I hav

Got Him!
Well he finally got a hold of me today. He was in the hospital for a week. Poor thing. I'm so glad he's ok. But when it comes to him I can be so selfish. All I worry about is that I can talk to him. I never think something bad could happen. Anyway, I gave him the news about Jason giving up half the money for a ticket. I told him he just needs a one way ticket because when he gets here, I'm not letting him go. He's really excited and is gonna get the money as fast as he can. I can't wait. He's what I've been waiting for my entire life. And hopefully soon, all my dreams will come true.

When You Have Lost Your True Love.................
This topic was a mumm last night.I didnt get to share my vast knowledge because I was blocked for whatever reason. The answer is NO.It doesnt get any better. You dont cry in public for no apparent reason as much,you learn to find a more private place.Then one day your tear ducts dont betray you and now you can feel all the emotional release of a good cry while joking and smoking with the boys.NO it doesnt get any better. You dont bury your face in the cloths she had wore and left behind.With just a hint of her perfume,or her favorite bath soap.Just the rite amount of Downey.No you dont pile them in the bed and try to sleep with your face buried in them.You finally wash them and put them in the Cedar chest at the foot of your Daughters bed.You know how fashion 360's.NO it doesnt get any better. You know she's in a better place doing more important things than baby sitting your evil ass,when you realize she never left.Oh no she turned the reins over to someone mu

Diabolical Ways
Rules and Guidelines: 1) You must have a salute to prove that you are who you say you are. 2) You need to have at least 100 photos uploaded, Vip is useful but not recommended. 3) Our spotlight member of the week will be pimped out bulletin style UNLESS we have a member that is an Oracle with Angel abilites to pimp them out, all we ask is that you repost the bulletins and show them support as you would anyone else. 4) We would like for you to add the founders/officers to your Family and Friends, we do not have to be in your top, as long as you can get direct access to us in case you have a problem it's easier. 5) Our assigned officers will be your guides, only come to TX and I if it's a dire emergency and you can't locate any of the officers. 6) You do not have to place "Diabolical Babe or Diabolical Stud" onto your name, just please have it located SOMEWHERE on your profile that is in plain sight so you can get bombed for leveling purposes. 7) Please be on your best behavior w

What Is Fibromyalgia?
What is Fibromyalgia? Fibromyalgia produces widespread pain, disturbed sleep, and exhaustion from head to toe. Fibromyalgia means pain in the muscles, ligaments, and tendons—the soft fibrous tissues of the body. Although the muscles hurt everywhere, they are not the only cause of the pain. Instead, the diffuse, body-wide symptoms are greatly magnified by malfunctions in the way the nervous system processes pain. Regional muscle pain not related to arthritis or the nervous system also occurs in the majority of people with fibromyalgia. Patients describe this as firm knots in the belly of muscles, often causing restricted movement and radiating pain. These muscle nodules are myofascial trigger points and some researchers suspect that these painful areas overlap with the tender points used to diagnose fibromyalgia. The symptoms of fibromyalgia are unpredictable and most patients are frustrated by their physical limitations and inability to make plans. You may feel as though you

I Surrender
I am so fucking sick of men's bullshit - yea I said it - I surrender. You all come with the same grandeur spitting out the bullshit lies to win the prize - professing to be all that we need and so much more. I am so sick of the cloak and dagger game with men. I have spent the past couple months getting yelled at and ridiculed by a person that professed to love me. Mind you I haven't done a thing wrong... I am not a cheater - a liar or otherwise and although I cannot say the same for him - I am the one getting the shit end of the stick. I love my children more than anything in the world and I want so badly for them to have a good and positive role model in their lives but I think I am going to just have to give up on that too. I have serious doubt that I will ever find someone that can fill my dreams with reality and not build them up with lies that they cannot live up to. I lay in the tub trying to leave the stress for only a moment and try to regroup a bit only to listen to him ran

My Sexi Doll's & Gents
Well To All of my sexiest. I have a folder that i would love to put your beautiful and sexi Mug's in (lol).. Well here is the deal. I want to steal ur pic.. meaning.. not rip it... so If i can have that honour of My sexiest Fu's then leave a comment saying i may have the picture. That way i know its ok to STEAL ur pic. For those of u who allow me to do this TYVM and Spank u Very Much. There will be a profile link to ur profile with the pic.. LIXXXX , BITES HUGGLES AND KISSES BEAUTIFULLY CHAOTIC

Enuff. (public Service Announcement #2)
i appreciate the well-wishes -- i really do. my friends are top-notch. however, i won't abide anymore Nuff-bashing. we argued, yes, i fu-divorced him, yes, b/c i felt i had to -- not cuz i wanted to (fyi, it's been three days, the transaction was successful, and still, no divorce -- pretty cruel, Fubrass, pretty cruel). he is NOT declass like Tim was. he is top-notch, right up there with MOST of the men i've liked/met on here (Damian, Michael from Dallas, Johnny Red) and MOST of the men i've dated irl. i still love Erik. i didn't discover he's some nefarious demon. the reasons we didn't work out are the saaaaaaame reasons i knew we might fail. but i'm an optimist, i took that chance. i am flawed, too. it's not all E's fault. Erik treated me very, very well, online and off. if you think i'm to be pitied -- you don't know me at all. but please -- enough w/ the "oh, sorry the big bad wolf was so mean to you, you deserve better." it's not only inaccurate -- it's just gross. thanks for und

Birthday Party
gonna get ripped with friends this whole weekend possibly...either jager or patron, or ketel one..or maybe even some sam adams octoberfest...it'll be a good time, regardless!! pics will be posted...stay tuned

Replaced!!
So last night at work I turned from the time clock to go back on the floor when I heard this pop and then my foot felt odd. Don't panic it wasnt a bone LOL! It was the button. A little button that held the strap of the shoe in place. Rendering the shoe absolutely useless. I had bought them less than two months ago. So I attempt to reattach this button for what seems like too long when I finally get it back together. I put the shoe on and POP goes the button and the elastic band that was holding it on. (laughter here) So I have this epiphany... I bought the shoes where I work. I know I dont have my receipt with me but they can research it. So off to shoeland I go...find the same shoe same size...try it on. Yep they will do. I call for the manager to approve this transaction and head back to customer service with my replacement pair. It turned out to be a simple even exchange. :D YAY!! I worked the rest of the night in my new shoes. The moral of this story is NOTHING. Have a great we

What's Your Best Trait?
Your Best Trait is Creativity You may seem like you're a bit flaky or flighty, but you're really just deep in thought. You are the artistic type, no doubt. However, you are also highly analytical and logical. You are able to solve problems in unique and interesting ways. Your ideas are unpredictable, but they always end up making sense. You are picky and sometimes downright critical. You expect the best of yourself, but others are not prepared for your exacting standards. What's Your Best Trait? Blogthings: We Have a Quiz for Almost Everything

Comments
You know...I have a comment for a particular member's blog. It won't be approved, so I'm putting it here. I have an idea...instead of asking us what we want, why not just take more things from Facebook/Myspace? I mean that's where we are getting our ideas from. I also think you should try to be original. Yeah..I don't see that getting approved. =/

'wax On, Wax Off" Duct Tape!
Love the stuff, great for fixing wiring and other handyman jobs around the place but best of all to shut women up so as i 'the man'...can have the last say or even get a word in. the duct tape on here = the block button!

Angel And Dj Calendars
I'm making a 2010 Exotic Angel calendar and Dolly's making a 2010 Exotic DJ one. Reply to this blog if you want to be featured in either and let me know which one you are, a DJ or an Angel. Submissions will end on Oct 31 at midnight so let me know here ASAP. DON'T MISS OUT!

Commercial Shoot Today
What a blast! Did the 1-800-Safe-Auto thing today.We had the actual jingle all rocked out revved up and ready to go, and when we mentioned that we'd been jerkin around with some of our covers made into jingles, they said "Let's hear some." So we did and AC/DC version, Red Rider, Tom Petty, Golden Earring, etc and had a blast making up the lyrics as we went. They want to do the AC/DC version I think. Anyway, there was talk about flights and real sets and maybe some L.A. or NYC action in the future so cross your toes for us.

How To Post Your Comment As A Comment
If you want one of these custom BHR comments let me know send me a SB or leave a comment on this blog! First save your picture to your computer Upload it to a photo sharing site like Photobucket.com or Tinypic.com Get the direct link: Examples Photobucket Tinypic Take the direct link and paste it in where it says DIRECTLINKHERE below After replacing the link copy the entire box above and post your comments! Simplify your life by saving your comment code to MS Word or Wordpad on your computer for future use.

1 Week Without Weakness.
It's been, one week since I looked at you.... 7 days, going on 8 currently. My sleeping habits have changed, my eating habits have stayed the same, and my attitude has never been more indifferent. The only substantial difference I see since having retired from smoking, is the way people have acted toward me. The non-smokers, and the reformed smokers(I still don't like those people), have accepted me with open arms. As in both cases, I am now one of them. But the smokers, those who i've left behind, have acted as if what I've done was a move against them and them alone. I have not treated ANY of them any differently, but have had numerous comments made toward me, and for what? For choosing to not do something with MY body? Why does this offend them? Do they hate me because they can't do it, but want to? Or because the can, but don't want to? Either way, envy is the bastard brother of hate, and he's bringing him along for the trip. As the looks of anger I've gotten from pe

The Ranting Blog Part Deuce.
Let's see where should I start.. Well there's one thing I'd like to rant about but Im sure 90 % of fubar would get their feelings hurt. So we won't go there cuz I'm actually nice. Least I think so :P *cough whores cough* Here's something I noticed. If I'm the only guy around and there's a guy in front of me in line and there happens to be a female cashier..He'll say something dumb about women. It's like I have or some other guy HAS to be there because one, He's a dumbass and is checking with me if he said the right words. (its usually jibberish. Like. "Haha. Women.Housework.lawwwl.") Or Two. He's not brave enough and knows that any woman could kick his ass in 2 seconds flat. Look I never understood the whole Women vs Men argument. We both take a shit and piss in the same place in the end. *shrugs* K here's a story. A guy at my dad's work is 22, same age as me. He's going to go to jail now for a long time. He had been arrested before and was on probation. Well this fucking idiot d

Why Fingernail Paint Is Important
There seems to be two types of people who are in the crazy waiting room. The first is the lethargic, schmeh, everything is horrible people who mope around with their heads hung through imaginary nooses that they’d wish were real ones. The other type is the super hyper, mile a minute, medicated conversation starters that see something about you to which they can relate and attempt an in depth conversation in the narrow space between arriving at the office, and being called to talk to your therapist. One of the latter accosted me today and shared with me her thoughts of my lobes with the phrase, “You’ll look like an African soon, tripping over your ears.” Indeed, crazy woman; my goals of becoming African are in fact nearing. Before you know it, I’ll be hunting lions, winning gold metals in the Olympic Games, and being sold to other countries for rum. I have always been fascinated by the swelling trends of aesthetic. What is ironic about these trends is

New Conspiracy Theory Songs
My band has been together for just a little over 2 months and we already have a formidable playlist. (51 songs at last count) These are up for consideration. Arrange the following songs in the order which you like them, favorite to least favorite please. Rebel Yell White WeddingGodzillaSaving GraceFree For AllBreakdownJumping Jack FlashMidnight RendezvousSuffragette CitySex Type ThingAin't Talkin' Bout LoveDirty White BoyPlushMony MonyInterstate Love SongTurn The PageBorn To Run

Torn Heart
My heart is torntorn in twoI am not sure whatto do.should i run to or awayfrom what is true.Someone please tell mewhat i should do..we have talked of dreams and plans butthey are on shifting sandMy torn heart saysi should runand hide along withthe changing tide.Can a torn heart everbe mended. given enough time? or shall it be brokentil the end of time.

My Last Blog Entry
This is Matt a.k.a. Surreal and this will be my last blog entry. Theres a lot of things i need to get off my chest. First off. To all my true friends on here....you all have been so great to me and I have nothing but love for each and everyone of you. You all have always been there for me when I have needed you and vise versa. For that I am truly blessed and thankful. Now theres a few reasons I am leaving this site. First off I have seen way too many ppl lose sight of whats more important in thier lives. When you spend more than 12 hours on a web site I'm sorry to say to me thats a waste of your life. Theres so much more to life than fubar everyone. Take a good hard look at what everyone is doing....this should be a past time if you are bored or something. Not a place to where you HAVE to be on it all the time. This does not apply to all and for those that get offended by what I am saying.....well there you go. This should not offend anyone that doesn't feel like you are one of these

Genghis Kahn
Last night Matt and Julia from BBC's 'Countryfile' were travelling round the world as part of the BBC's Children In Need 'Round The World In 80 Days' challege, and right at the end of the show they went to this statue of Genghis Khan that's the largest equesterian statue in the world, and it's fricking ENORMOUS. And utterly amazing...

Some Peoples Children,
So I have had a great day thus far,got to spend time with my sister(she was wondering where abouts on her lower back she should get her tramp stamp done....sigh) found out my orientation for school is next Tuesday..which im excited about and yet nervous at the same time. Took Harley Quinn for a much needed walk thru our neighbourhood dog park and watched her run around like shes never seen or felt grass before. found a toonie WOOT! chased down my dog that yet again got into my purse and decided too help herself too my yogurt covered pretzels...bitch. Finally came home,jumped on into fubar and found a marvelous little picture comment for my default. truly I believe it to be one of the best picture comments I have got too date, im sure it took this fine young fellow forever too think of something so pleasant too type out,the kinda guy that would make his mother proud :D "WASSUP!!???4 hrs ago-- 5 of 5Yo baby I was asleep dreaming of me and my friend double teaming you !

Power Over A Man.
Ladies if you want power over men you need to keep your clothing on . A woman's power over a man is the mystery of whats under her clothing . Think of yourself as a finely wrapped present . The fun is taking off the wrapper to see what is underneath . If there is no wrapper there is no mystery . No mystery no power. .. ..........

Sarah Remembers Mamaw Lives Far, Far Away On A Hill
Martha found out last night that she was having an extra day counted on her paycheck than she had expected, so after she dropped Mary off at work this morning (I would have done that, but I have been sleeping late the last few days and didn’t get up until eight-thirty) she stopped at McDonald’s and picked up breakfast for me, Sarah, Jeffrey, and herself! Sarah and Jeffrey split a big breakfast between them (and still didn’t eat it all, it’s my lunch at work because I hate to waste food), I had a big breakfast with coffee and Martha enjoyed a breakfast bagel with a caramel cappuccino. And she complains about my caffeine “fix”; the irony in that is that Fix is my wife’s maiden name. After breakfast, I called my mom in Kentucky whom I hadn’t talked to since Sunday when she was still in the hospital to receive some blood and treatment for pneumonia. When I was in the living room speaking to Mom with the others in the room, I mentioned wha

A Letter
Dear Cancer???? You pick on weak people ....... Why do you do that does it make you feel stronger???? You take loved ones away from the people that love them.... Does that make you feel some love you are lacking???? One day it will catch up with you one day we will have the cure for all the horrble ways you take people away from us......... One day we will be the one beating up on you and all I can pray for is that you go through as much pain and suffering that we have....... I hope and pray that you will let my AUNT Donna go in peace let her have the last coulpe months pain free that is the least that u could do..... I dont think that is asking to much........ After all she would have had a chance if you would not have thrown the spine cancer on her too crap wasnt double lung cancer enough for u...... I was taught not to hate anything in my life always give it a chance....... SO I dislike you more then anything I ever known in my life.... F@ck off and I hope you reali

^5
Ahh gotta love the rustle people get into for Halloween, I being one of them due too being the mother of 3 youngins. Specially when my youngest informs me that his costume is torn right outta the bag,which might I had I have spent 3 years looking for!!! *puffs bangs outta eyes* Also this brings us too day number 2! I cant wait too see what some err few have prob already written down on the palm of the hand with a sharpie :D or not.... 1.My cat desided to show how much she loves me, with the gift of a baby bird early this mornin, which I might add flew around my house for about 3 hours..while I went running and screaming out my front step..followed by my kids laughin at me. 2.Got a new costume for my midget,figures hes gonna be a skeleton,so he can match my skeleton socks. 3.iced cap..yay!!! 4.having a half tank of gas on a Friday,this is a special occasion. finally 5. after running around like I was losing my mind getting ready for my kids costume parade at school, seeing

Not Always Right | An Abundance Of Nuttiness Part 2
Customer: “Where is the bulk smooth peanut butter?” Me: “Oh, I’m sorry, we’re all out of smooth–” Customer: “No, that can’t be! I need smooth peanut butter!” Me: “Well, do you have a food processor?” Customer: “Yeah, so?” Me: “You could always buy some crunchy peanut butter and make it smooth at home.” Customer: “I can’t have crunchy peanut butter! It has peanuts in it! Are you trying to kill me?!”

Not Always Right | Sorry, Scotty & Spock Haven't Been Born Yet.
Tech Support | Boulder, CO Customer: “Hello, is this Tech support?” Me: “Absolutely, is there an issue I can help you with?” Customer: “Yeah I want you to take over my computer and tell me what’s wrong with it. It’s all crazy.” Me: (Thinking about how “all crazy” actually constitutes as a good description of a problem in most cases) “Okay ma’am well I assume you’ve had us remote control your machine again, so go ahead and open the program for me and I’ll try to connect. What’s the IP address?” Customer: “No, you can’t have my IP.” Me: “Well it’s impossible to help you without it. Don’t worry, I’m not going to do something to your machine.” Customer: “No, you don’t understand. My ISP or whatever stopped giving me internet so I need you to do it some other way.” Me: “Ma’am, without internet I can’t ju

Hmmm
I work at a hotel, at the front desk, and in almost three years have never been yelled at. Unlike all of my coworkers. People say I have a bitch face, and look like Ima stab someone if they keep talking shit. Which I would. I have a method: If someone says something stupid, or starts laughing like an ass, I just stare at them. Right in the eyes. Until they shut up and realize how stupid they are. What are some other methods?

Just Curious
Ok...To all woman.and men if you like to comment.feel free to do so Now I am curious that when woman are on thier menstrual cycle.. Do you get hornier ? Or loose interest in sex.... With me.I get hornier..

Bluetesseract
Wtf? To BlueTesseract: or are you full of shit and trying to fuck with me?To BlueTesseract: so you are gonna disgrace yourself and your uniform and country?BlueTesseract: well since we invaded them first i'm trying to help improve their morale by seeing a troop in a different light.To BlueTesseract: why did you disgrace yourself, your uniform and your country like that, if any of this is even true?BlueTesseract: i basically handed it over to them on a silver platter. they were all laughing. they tossed me a burrito to eat off the floor and they laughed watching me try to eat it.To BlueTesseract: I won't ever willingly submit to being degraded.BlueTesseract: that's true. i guess that's the difference here. i'm willingly submitting to be their butt. when my face is on the floor and my ass is in the air they entertain themselves by spitting on it, slapping it and making me apologize for being such an ass in the first place.BlueTesseract: i couldn't stop them after they told me to drop

2 Weeks To Win This Contest!!!
Help i'm in a contest to try to win a cherry bomb. I only have 2 weeks. I need the most comments and rates. http://www.fubar.com/photo.php?u=1603220&albumid=1897065&i=728381285&idx=0#2320328277

The Missing Tile
Lost in your eyes, I don't know how to go. With you by my side, So easily it all flows. Everyone says it'll never last, But our love will never end. They call it rash, Just because we don't know what's around the bend. You've brought back my smile, You've made it all right. It's true that you were the missing tile, The tile on the table of my life.

All The Cool Kids Are Doing It
What color eyes do you have? Brown How tall are you?5'7 Right handed or left?Right Your Heritage:German irish mexican spanish Your job::| Do you like your job? haha love it Any tattoos/piercings? Tongue,labret,monroe Star on my forearm butterfly on my chest chinese writing on my leg What underwear are you wearing right now? boy shorts What shoes did you wear today?Chucks Do you play video games?yes Have you ever broken someone's heart?Idk probably not Have you ever had your own heart broken?Yes by a friend Favorite car: Audi A3 Favorite animal: Dog Favorite soda: Coke Zero

Feelings
Pain is a feeling that cuts to the bone. Pain does not discriminate. Pain does not care about gender. Pain is something that a person never truly gets over. Life is so full of pain that a person doesnt want to live life to it's fullest. People like to play with other people's feelings and emotions to inflict pain on them. I believe this is to make them feel better about themselves. I am tired of all the games and lies that people present as opposed to being real. I am tired and too old for stuff like this. I am going to not be on here much other than to play fumafia. The real people who are my true friends already have the other ways to get a hold of me. I am a real person and I just wished you would have been real with me as well. Thanks for all the good times.

Rant 9/11/2009
Well Hi all... it’s me I know it’s been a long time since I wrote a RANT properly huh... well I guess I will start from the start I moved back to my home town that’s the most important thing but I have noticed that I cannot fully enjoy a whole day. Something always happened that simply pisses me off! Well here we go... *Takes a deep breath* this rant is for everyone and no one, take it as you will! Be offended, get mad... throw a hissy fit... whatever floats your boat as my Fu-mum says ^_^ Firstly, don’t you dare question my loyalty! You have neither the right nor the respect to even think my loyalty could falter! I refuse to use names in this rant since it is not, NOT for just one person! But for all as a whole, I’m tired and hot, I really fucking hate heat it makes me touchy and aggressive really fast! Sadly that means I have a really short fuse. I do try to keep myself under control but sometimes something will happen that irks me and that just sets

Join The A2mc-toe Society
Welcome all to the A2MC-Toe Society! I would like to extend this invitation to everyone who would like to be a part of this new, exciting Fubar group! Of course with any group, we are going to need a list of rules and requirements for all who wish to join. 1. To be voted into the group, you must submit a boobie, c-toe, cock salute or a2m video to a current member.. but only after asking if they want one. 2. Must buy a Founder at least 2 drinks and one "spicy" gift 3. Must profile rate each member daily 4. Must rate at least 100 member pics daily 5. You must shit talk each other on the quarter hour. 6. Must write one MuMM a day professing your love for A2M or C- Toe 7. Must be blocked from no less than 5 MuMM posters 8. Must show proof of calling someone a cunt in your shoutbox. 9. Must capture scrolling A2MC-Toe mafia members 10. You must show the founders daily "fulove" and then immediately go masturbate. AND OF COURSE YOU WILL BE REQUIRED TO PUT A2MC-TOE MAF

How I Fuck Up. Let Me Count The Ways.
1. I'm an impatient brat. Sorry. 2. I'm selfish. I blame that on being an only child. Sorry. 3. I trust no one. It takes time for me to believe what you say. Sorry. 4. It's okay for me to be a flirt, but not you. No fucking way. Sorry. 5. It only seems as if I try to find things to argue about. Ugh. Sorry. 6. I'm a cry baby. Sorry. 7. In fact, I've been on the verge of tears all day. Not sorry. 8. I do the superior dance a lot. I'm good at it, but it doesn't make it right. Sorry. 9. I apologize, only to turn around the next day or minute, and be a dick again. Sorry. 10.I'm hard on you, but I am much harder on myself. Very sorry. This day is teh suck. I keep asking, WTF is wrong with me lately? This is a few of the things I came up with. It's difficult to look in the mirror and admit your faults. Hope you hold on.

You
You wipe the tearsyou calm the fearsyou hold my handand my heart.You take my breath awaywith out even trying.you do it throughthe many miles thatdevide us.You make me quiverwith a look or a smileyou make me, forget to thinkYou make the timethat seems to crawlgo by fast, seemswith effort.You make me forgetto look at the clockwhen i must get upin a few hours.you make it hardto hang up the phone,because then again,i would be alone.you make me dreamof a life that i never thought I'd live.and make it a reality.you make me want youand only you.forever...

Always I Will Love You
ALLWAYS I WILL LOVE YOU ----------------------- Everytime you look at me Then i know i'm right Every time i think about you Then i feel i'm home You save me from my worst nightmares Your love leeds me through the night If something might happen to us Know i'll be waiting for you Because my love Always i will love you I can't excist without you Always i will love you I can't be go on without you A heart that says " I need you" That says "I love you" Such kind of heart makes words unnecesairy And i stay loyal to it You make the sun shine back in my life you're my passion and my power If you'd dissapear one day Know i'll be waiting for you Always i will love you I cant go on without you...

I Know, I Know...
I know that I said I was making salutes a few nights back. I really had every intention of doing it. But things got super busy. I haven't forgotten. Work has been crazy. I think my boss is on drugs...really. What normal person makes people scrub walls with hot water and vinegar....while using a toothbrush? Or makes people clean little vents with warm soapy water using q-tips? This woman NEVER does anything at work. She's probably one of the most laziest people I know, yet yesterday she cleaned a machine for 2 hours using q-tips. Today at work she had people cleaning bowls that were already clean and scrubbing the floor with mildew remover..no mildew on the floor at all. I only had to make hotdogs all day. Which normally is fine, but today was killer. I had to open the place and my boss was late, like always. I was rushed and on top of the things I already had to do, the woman that opened yesterday didn't do everything she was suppose to do...I had to do that too. I come home from wo

Learned Today
Today was one of those days where bits of wisdom and not so great things were said/learned. I thought I would share them with you. 1. When it's nice outside people will eat an ungodly amount of hotdogs and ice cream. 2. I want those people to choke. 3. When those people are around, I tend to swear a lot more than usual. 4. I can't stand the voice of a woman at work. 5. For someone that looks busy all the time, she sure leaves a lot of shit unfinished. 6. I work with a pudgy faced goat walker. 7. I only like about 6 people I work with. 8. Some men are pussies. 9. Some women talk like they are afraid for their life 10. For the first time in my life I FEEL old. 11. Pudgy faced goat walker and whiny bitch that does nothing at work are NOT the same person. 12. When I don't get much sleep I'm rude. 13. I never got breakfast and when I got home this evening I finally ate. I'm sure the chili sucked, but I was so hungry I didn't care. 14. I wanted to ask my boss why she was so stu

A Good Joke
This guy staggers into his house, exhausted after playing golf, and drops his clubs on the floor. "What a day!", he exclaims. His wife asks what happened. He responds, "Well, there we were on the first tee, when George had a heart attack and died." "Oh, how awful." "Yeah, the whole rest of the day it was: Hit the ball ... drag George ... hit the ball ... drag George. ..."

Confessions Of The Sinner
Somethings happening here. What it is ain't exactly clear. There's a girl with a bun over there. Telling me you got to beware. It's time we stop, children what's that sound? Everybody look what's going down. Ok..so I changed some settings on my photos and completely took the bread and cheese off the shelf. I don't have VIC or P or VD...haha so my family list stays as is. If you aren't in it, I am sorry. No more room at the inn. I'm barely here any more and I so appreciate everyone who has been there, no matter how much. it totally matters TO ME! Not that many of my "friends or family" will come read this, the ones that do will know. I am unplugging come December. The computer that is. It will be hard for about a week, kinda like quitting smoking. Until you replace it with something else you will make yourself crazy. I'm ahead of the game there though, I am crazy ;) So you can try the old fashion approach and call. I may not be able to answer but if I can I will return the call

Friendships
I got stuff to say and I wanna remember to get this out. um I got things to do so this probably isnt going to be much of a blog. hmm, maybe I can sum things up. If you are a friend of mine, I probably appreciate you and hold you with more significance than I act. There are a lot of changes that I want to make and hope I will be friendlier soon. ah more later. thank you to all that stick by me through it all, guide me, and show me that friendships can exist do exist and will be there giving me more positive hope and outlook on life friends myself and you.

Procrastination Has Bitten Me In The Ass Once Again!
So, I hate doing schoolwork that holds no interest for me. I'm yet procratinating once again to write a blog. Go me! Yea... I have a 10pg paper due at the end of this week that I haven't even started researching for, all my assignments due on an online class that I haven't really done but 2 assignments for (with 23 days left to do them), a group project due after Thanksgiving break that I haven't even talked to my group about, and 2 other small papers due for an english class. OH! Can't forget that I have to re-write a midterm in order to pass it! I hate writing papers. I despise it. I destest it. I loathe it! I never even did the 10pg paper I was supposed to write to gradute from my Catholic high school. Good thing I was never a trouble student. I passed that class with a C-, teehee! The online class is gonna be interesting to due the work for since I can't use my computer in my room anymore, it won't conncet to the internet anymore. I may have to move it back out to the living ro

Music Monday 6
1. In the Sun - Joseph Arthur2. At First Sight - Jay Brannan3. Question - Rhett Miller4. Sex on Fire - Kings of Leon5. Percussion Gun - White Rabbits6. Shadowplay - The Killers7. Shadowplay - Joy Division8. Megalomaniac - Incubus

Weirdness Central
Don't remember this one perfectly, but I remember waking up and saying what the f*ck was that...out loud. First up I remember I was walking around a high street, in my usual attire of shorts and t-shirt. This guy stops me, points out we're wearing the same style shorts and how nice they are. Next thing I remember is being in a shop looking for another pair of these shorts, but end up mesmerized by this $200 pair of jeans (yes, I remember it being dollars). I'm trying to work out why the hell they cost that much. Next on the agenda, I'm strolling around either in a park or by a river, a car pulls up, someone I know gets out (don't remember now who), and claims that loads of people are looking for me, thinking I'm suicidal and that I've taken drugs and been boozing, whilst I deny everything. Last, but by far least, I'm in a house full of people, a roaring fire and we're all preparing a feast of... wait for it Snake and crocodile. Now you know why I said wha

Nutella Is Your Friend
Let's start off blunt, have you done anything sexual in the last 48 hours?Depends on what YOU classify as being "sexual".... Your phone rings, it's the person you fell hardest for, what do you say?SHouldn't you be workin??errrr,I mean I love you :) Where is the person you have feelings for?Probably under a car. What color are your eyes?Take a look and find out for yourself. Do you like the snow?bah, I do like it..I just hate cleaning the crap off my car when I need to be somewheres in a hurry, or I cant pull up my driveway(starts on a nice little hill) due to the SNOW..and being called snow blower thru high school didn't help either. Have you ever slept on a couch with someone else?Yuppers. Which did you discover first, myspace or face book?myspace. What/who woke you up this morning?My grizzly Bear,gotta get my mornin smooches before he leaves or im cranky all day.Swear. Where did you sleep three nights ago?In my bed

Two Kinds Of Zombies Today
Fast-Dumb ZombieType UndeadVery high speed (Sprinting)Extremely low intelligenceWeapon of Choice Biting to turn others into Zombies, Eating Your brains, outrunning youThese are somewhat trickier. While they still just go in a straight line towards you, they are able to run like fucking tri-athletes. These zombies are caused by, what scientists call, "Mysterious Forces" that randomly beset people and cause them to desire eating human flesh (especially Brains.) But they are as dumb as the Slow-Dumb zombie, and doing something like shutting a door in front of them will baffle them.Trying to outrun Fast-Dumb Zombies is almost a sure fire way of being killed, as not only are these Zombies able to run at superhuman speeds, but they have unlimited stamina. So even if you managed to run fast enough not to get caught, the moment you run out of puff, you are a goner. Fast-Dumb Zombies tend to gather in ever-growing swarms around whomever they are attacking, so don't ever be lulled into a

Just A Lil Note
Come by and see if ur in my family cause each time i get a bomb i will bomb my family 1st then My Top Friends... then if u bomb me now or any time.. then i will keep ur message in my box until i bomb u back i have always done that i pay back to the ones that helps me.. like that old saying goes ...Fair Is Fair .. U Help Me i'll Help U I Like to Be Treated as I Do U ... Its Not Much 2 Ask 4 ... Showing Luv 2 Me Is The Best Way 2 Get In Fam ... Like Comments , Few Rates Here n There ,Bling Me Time 2 Time ... Yes i Have Seen Couple People I Bombed And They Haven't Bomb Me Back So If They Ask Me This Time I WONT...And If Ur In My Family U Will Always Recive A Daily Comment And Profile Rate ....And The More I See U Helping Me Out U Will Be Added 2 My Family....I Luv Helping Out As Much As Getting Help ... So Plz If I Do Stuff Just Dont Take Avantage Of Me Or I Will Block Ya .....Oh Want 2 Say I Dont Get Bombs Much But I Do Something If U Bomb Me ..Like.... Rate Ya :):) MuahXOXO

11/18/09
Well, here is what is going on in my life. I am currently without a running vehicle. I am have to pack up and try to find someplace to live by this weekend. I will probably not be back on here for a while after tonight. I have found some really good people here I can consider to be my friend. Thanks for helping me understand some of life. Talk to you all hopefully soon.

Looking For "a" Woman
Let me start by saying, "God Bless the big girls and their willingness to show their beautiful breasts" But why don't the smaller girls ever seem to do so? I think small is equally sexy and beautiful. Sometimes even more so. Are they out there? Is it just me and my lack of game? LOL Just some food for thought.

Gentle Hands
There have been men in my lifethat I believed to be so gooduntil I grew to know them very well,I consumed their weaknessesinto my soul until it weakened meand filled me with the knowledge of hell.I need a man in my lifeWhom I believe to be goodeven after I grow to know him very well,To offer me a new dance, take a chanceThen I will no longer have to rhyme with hell.So I can allow him to hold my weary soulin his ever so gentle hands. Poem By Tammy C.

C51 - This Is How We Fu
Hey Fans and Fus... heres the new Vid! The first one is the real one and the 2nd I did first but... I fucked up on it so its a blooper! Hope you love them PLEASE COMMENT!!! Want to add me to your YouTube Favorites? Heres the link: http://www.youtube.com/user/C51CREATIONS Blooper With More Dancing:

My Trip To The Er
UPDATE: I am finally home(Friday), Dr came in and told me everything... so Tuesday night i had a migraine coming on so i took my imitrex, well about 30 minutes later, i started to get shooting pains in my head and my jaw locked up and my chest started to tighten up. well i didn't think anything of it.. (yea stupid me) and i just went to bed. well the next day the pain was still there... so i went to the er (Wednesday).... they admitted me asap... they thought i was having a heart attack SO.... they hooked me up to an iv.. gave me morphine and nitro and had to inject me with blook thinners so my blood wouldn't clot and put me on a 12 lead EKG. the morphine wasn't working so they had to go stronger.. and they had to take me to xray... at this time.. my BP was 168/116 and my heart rate was 125, i had a fever. they had to give me a bettablocker.. if i spelt that right... well they got my heartrate down BUT it also got my blood pressure way down... tooo low ... it was 78/54. and at this tim

Tag?
Instructions......Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird or random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose at least 5 people to be tagged, listing their names . Don't forget to leave a comment that says, "You're it!" on their profile and ask them to read your blog. You can't tag the person who tagged you. 1) I once played in an international soccer tournament when I was 12. We won and I scored the winning goal. 2) I have an ecyclopedic knowledge for movie quotes. 3) I've been reading books/stories by myself since I was 6. Best memory is my mother reading to me The Lion, The Witch, and The Wardrobe. 4) My grandmother on my mom's side died when I was 10. She introduced me to my love of horror. 5) Sarcasm is a second language in my family. 6) I'd rather go out and do something random with a friend than have to spend money to go do something.

Facebook Request
Someone obviously did not read my page. This message was sent to me on FACEBOOK after I repeatly denied a mans friend request: "Do you feel special enough to keep deleting me? Do you feel that you can pick and choose your friends? That was so fucking rude of you. You are not that special. You can't pick and choose your friends. Since I am not special enough to be on your friends list here, you are not special enough to remain on friends list on Fubar! Fuck you!" LMAO. Seriously? Don't we all have the right to choose our friends and who has access to what pages? omg. lol My family and CEO for the company I work for are on my facebook. There is nothing interesting on there. If you want the "goods" fubar is where its at.

Buuhuu
lord , som ppl seriously blows my mind. last couple off days i been named called, cus of a game. lol like imma sit in a corner n cry cus somone callin me names. wont happen. i dont give a shit, if me helpin my friends, n doin somthin gd for somone makes me a bad person, then hell, then im hella bad. get it straight i dont give a shit, call me wut ever u wanna call me, but seriously grow up, its like bein back in high school, sheesh , those who know me, knows who i am, they know i am a nice person, dont do drama, just cus i dont sink down to theire level dosent mean im weak n dont know how to fight back, just lazy at times, lmao but seriously keep the shit comin, n il show ya how big off bitch i can be, n il do that with a smile on my face :) *gets up n dances, n sings* keep on hatin keep on hatin ur makin me famouse :D:D:D peac out

Seeds Of Love
I thought I could write a book About how great you are To my surprise It seems I can't find the right words Everytime, I scribble something on a paper I'd think its not good enough You are simply more than that I felt like any love stuck person All I can write about is love But you are more than The mushy lines I used to write in my writings You are a person, No, a thingy That jump into my life Turning it upside down Before I could take a breath And fix my hair To understand what is going on You pulled me into your arms And fly so high All I could do is To grasp you tight So I wouldn't fall I'd call you superman But you don't wear Your underwear outside I'd call you the man of my dreams But I want you to be In the realms of reality I want to be awake beside you I'd call you the present and the future Because, you do not belong in the past You reside in my present And my future, will be the garden Where the roots of your future grows To an everlast

What Comic Book Sound Are You?
You Are "BOOOOOOOOOM" You're the type of person who would be a very moody superhero. In fact, you'd walk the line between superhero and supervillain. Blowing up a whole town or planet wouldn't be out of the question for you if you felt angry enough. You are naturally a justice enforcer. Sometimes there is so much wrong with the world that it really gets you down. You can't help but want to punish everyone who's evil. There's nothing that makes you matter than criminals who are allowed to walk. What Comic Book Sound Are You? Blogthings: If Quizzes Are Outlawed, Only Outlaws Will Take Quizzes

Standing In The Rain
Standing here in the rain I just want to hide the pain I should've known it from the start that you would only break my heart You told me that your love was true and yet I'm standing here feeling blue I gave you the best of me yet you found it so easy to let me be Here I am with my heart in pieces all the while your love for me ceases (unfinished)

What The Random...?
I adore the name Ransom as a girl's name. Yesterday it was my ass cheeks. Today, it's my hands AND my ass cheeks. 32 is NOT a significant birthday age. Kinda like turning 27. Warm beer is actually ok when it's 30 degrees out. Use strawberry marshmellows when making S'mores. Trying to put 100 balloons in an '84 Cutless is pure comedy. I kinda hate my HTC Hero. Girls. Fake nails? Don't pick your nose while driving over a speed bump. Blood everywhere. Shaving your legs during the cold winter months should be outlawed. Rel should never be put in charge of a Baby Shower. Never again. -REL

New Auction! Come See What You Can Get!!
HERE IS WHAT I OFFER KEEP YOU SHIT FACED DAILY RANDOM SHITFACE OR BUZZKILL OF YOUR CHOICE (YOU GET 3) SFW SALUTE (BLING CREDIT OFFERS MAY GET NSFW, WE'LL TALK) RATE ALL PICS DURING AT LEAST 3 HAPPY HOURS (WELL AS MANY AS I CAN IN 1 HOUR) YOUR NAME IN MINE AS FU OWNER FOR 14 DAYS PIMP OUT ON MY PAGE FOR 1 MONTH ADD TO MY YIM FAMILY ADD FOR 1 MONTH RANDOM GIFTS (RANDOM BLING IF I HAVE CREDITS) SPECIAL PICS TAKEN, OF YOUR CHOICE (CERTAIN CLOTHING, INDOOR/OUTDOOR, POSES ECT...(NSFW SAME THING BUT WITHING REASON! LOL) COMMENTS FROM ME DAILY ON YOUR PAGE FOR 14 DAYS

Why Im Not Always Online
i have some people on my friends list that have gotten quite upset at me for not always being online ...well apart from having 6 kids ....only 5 living at home now...a granddaughter, all of who are my life and i totally adore i also have some health issues i am dealing with too.....i have listed them below so my true friends can understand ...please dont be allarmed by it all i am on all the right medication and have regular checks to keep me going lol...im not looking for sympathy either just understanding..... fibromyalgia Fibromyalgia is widespread pain in the muscles and soft tissues above and below the waist and on both sides of the body. Fibromyalgia is a syndrome—a set of symptoms that happen together but do not have a known cause. In this syndrome, the nervous system (nerves, spinal cord, and brain) is not able to control what it feels, so ordinary feelings from your muscles, joints, and soft tissues are experienced as pain. People with fibromyalgia feel pain and/or

Safeword
Romeo is sitting in a chair by the fire watching Juliet read. Romeo: Come hereJuliet: Yes SirJuliet closes her book and walks over to him dropping to her knees, her hands in her lap. She peers up at him through her lashes, a quick flash of amber before she respectfully drops her eyes.Romeo: I want youJuliet: I'm yoursRomeo: No, i want to possess you, command you...Juliet: I'm yours my love. Do as you wish.Romeo: No, i don't think you understand. I want to do vile things to you, things a good man should never do to a woman... He rakes his hands through his hair in frustration...Romeo: Look at me.Juliet looks up at him this time giving him the full weight of her gaze. She looks so fragile to him eyes so innocent yet knowing. How can she both... Her throat so delicate so breakable the sight of her makes his blood boil and slam through his veins. Those lips... so plump begging to be kissed, to be bit. He grabs her by the hair and yanks her face to his kissing her hard. His teeth bruise her

Lets Do Alittle Ranting... Just Alittle
Ok, been awhile since I ranted on anything so I'll update you on some shit that's got my brain of fire.One... Verizon is fucking scamming me like a politician scamming the American people. They nailed me with some bullshit charges and I'm fighting tooth and nail to get them to take that shit off my bill. I hate big business with a passion.I have tried to reason with them but it looks like I'll have to tell them to fuck off and not pay. So if anyone has tried to call my house number and got some recording that mostly tells you that its not working, you now know why.Two.... I really really am starting to feel that every woman I try to start a relationship with is either fucked in the head, or just fucking retarded. If I ever hear the phrase "Lets just be friends" I will go off and tell the dumb cum dumpster to fuck the friendship thing cuz why in the fucking hell would I be friends with a confused, immature, game loving cock tease? Lets either date or just let me blow a nut in your face