Fubar Blog Posts 4

Demmit
I kinda hate today....Blake was throwing up all last night so he's all curled up on the couch wanting to cuddle, but his fever is high and he's hot. Tried giving him some Motrin, but he puked that up. Riley's school got canceled so he's wanting to go outside and play with his friends, but i'm a mean mom & said no because i don't want another sick kid to deal with. And....for some reason, people with out salutes are really pissing me off this morning, not the newbies, i can forgive them. It's the level 20s and higher that piss me off, " buy me a blast and i'll show you my NSFWs" i hate people today. Not that sometimes i whore myself out for crap, but most of the time i'm joking. But on the bright side Sarah leveled for her burfday....oh and Jennayyyyyyy has auto's on, but no freaking HH right now....grrr....shit's just pissing me off today!! oh & i hate the phrase "hump day". Thank you come again-Apu

Thursdays Auto 11's
AUTO 11'S RUNNING TODAY. HERE ARE SOME TO START OFF WITH AND WILL BE ADDING AS I SEE THEM. AS ALWAYS, IF YOU HAVE THEM FEEL FREE TO LEAVE A COMMENT IN HERE IF I HAVE OVERLOOKED YOU! THESE ARE IN NO PARTICULAR ORDER. A PAGE AND BLOG RATE WOULD BE MOST APPRECIATED AND MAYBE MY SALUTES? LOL ** PLEASE REMEMBER IF I AM HITTIN YOUR PAGE AND DOING "NOTHING" I AM JUST CHECKING TO SEE IF YOU STILL HAVE AUTOS ON FOR THIS BLOG, IM NOT A BOT, IT'S POSSIBLE I COULD BE BOUGHT BUT I'M VERY EXPENSIVE ROFL!! ♥Delicious RedHead ♥FU-GirlFriend2 Tony♥@ fubar ~*Huggable*Lovable*Kissable*Jen*~ ~*DSC*~@ fubar LusciouslyDelicious4u@ fubar ~Cherrybomb™ ~Owner of BUMP N GRIND~Founder of CIA~Club FAR/Team Love~The Pegasus Project~S.B.G~@ fubar Italian Princess*Fu wife to Dark Defender*Dangerous Curves* Kage's Princess*@ fubar

Educate Yourself Against Ovarian Cancer Ca-125
THIS WAS NOT WRITTEN BY ME (TESS) AND I DO NOT HAVE OVARIAN CANCER, NOR EVER HAVE.. TG! (Even In The Absence Of Ovaries) An Eye-Opener On Ovarian Cancer THIS IS A MUST TO READ TO THE END I hope you "ALL" take the time to read this and pass it on to all you can. Send this to the women in your life that you care about. Copy/Paste it to your emails and send it to every woman you know, it may make a difference for 1 mother, daughter sister or friend~ Years ago, Gilda Radner died of ovarian cancer. Her symptoms were inconclusive, and she was treated for everything under the sun until it was too late. This blood test finally identified her illness but alas, too late. She wrote a book to heighten awareness. Gene Wilder is her widower. Kathy's Story: this is the story of Kathy West As all of you know, I have Primary Peritoneal Cancer. This cancer has only recently been identified as its OWN type of cancer, but it is essentially Ovarian Cancer. Both types

Please Read An Comment
As most of you might know after my annual Icefishing last Sunday.I came down with the worst Flu I have exsperianced in over 20 yrs.I been Deathly Sick Extremely High Fever,Chills,Body Aches,ETC.,but yesterday I did feel somewhat better.I made m'Lady Susan + I some Morphs + Tags.Susan + I will be Fu Married sometime the 1st week of Febuary.An in The Spring her an I will hook up for Real.To our Love for one another.To actually find compatability on this Site called Fubar is a Miracle in it's self. (Thieves,Liars,Cheats,Rapists,Murderers,Hackers,etc.)The Filth of Society is Located on Fubar.The Pathetic thing is These Assholes + Baby J,are pretty much Equals. I am still extremely sick,I have 3 co's (Kanan,Shayla,+ my Beloved Susan)I also have a excellent Family manager in Tammie (TLC).Now Susan has Health concerns,I don't need added Stress placed on her Shoulders.Kanan (silverado)My Longest True friend on Fubar,also has Health concerns.Shayla is still learning.In my absence Silve

Cheap Shot Pussies...
Back Again Guys and Gals! Yea so little back story for this one.. a fellow soldier and close personal friend of mine has recently been getting.. you guessed it "Hater" e-mail! Thats fine and dandy cause we know how to handle that and it ain't shit cause Haters Gonna Hate right? Well his wife just got a new one and I guess now they realize that they can't fuck with he and I so they went for the cheap shot and started talkin shit about his wifes son, WTF!?! This kid is only 6yrs old! I mean seriously how the fuck are you gonna go after someones child just because you can't do shit to his parents or their marriage? I don't give a fuck who you are that is fuckin low. NO-ONE should be allowed to fuck with a kid like that. Especially when they don't have the balls to confront the parents face to face and continuously hide their identity with fake profiles and screen-names. This is some epic fuckin pussy shit... how low is the bottom of the barrel when someone resorts to such tactics? Man the

My Dad
We're heading home to see dad today. I just wanted to take this time to thank everyone for all your thoughts and prayers. He does have lung cancer and he only has a third of one lung left. the infection that he developed is getting better, though that is good news,he is still in the hospital and will probably be there for at least one more week. the antibiotic that they are giving him is working it's just a slow process. He still needs prayers though,and I know that god is listening. Again thank you everyone. I love my Fu Family and Friends. Love; Mare

Pissed Off
I'm sure a lot of you know I haven't been on here much lately. I finally come on here today to find out a certain family member of mine is complaining how I haven't been rating their pics etc. For one there is a reason why I haven't been around here much lately not that I feel like telling everyone about it but a few of you do know why. Secondly if you feel your life is going to be so much better because of a certain rank you'll be or whatever then delete me as I'm not here for points! Fact of the matter is I DO have a life outside of fubar and that comes first before anything!!! It pisses me off to no end that someone thinks they can "threaten" me with being deleted from their list because of this. Like that's going to get them anything from me! I am letting everyone know now that I will be here when I can or want to, but I have more pressing matters at hand and if you want to delete me go ahead.

Fate
Fate. What exactly is it and does it exist? Is there a certain power that holds our future in its hands, manipulating us like chess pieces, and determining whether its check or mate? Is there a path that leads us to a certain destination that was preassigned to us by stars or something else the day we are born? Or maybe it is ourselves and the circumstances that things happen under that determine our outcome? Here is a scenario: a young 18 year old man slams his car into a tree and dies in a fiery crash. Some may argue that this scenario was written in his unfortunately short book of life, and this was the last chapter. Others may say that his demise was brought on by himself, and if he wasnt speeding, or maybe drinking, or paid a little more attention to the road, he would have avoided the accident and continued enjoying his life. Then, if his life is spared, the first group may say that if he could have avoided that tree and stayed alive, it was his fate, and his book of life may

Huuuge Night 2 Night!!!
SHHHH YA WANNA KNOW A SECRET WELL THEN I HAVE THE LOUNGE FOR YOU. THE NEWEST ,HOTTEST LOUNGE ON FUBAR HOSTED BY NOT ONE BUT THREE OF THE HOTTEST FUBAR BODIES . ♠♦DeViLiSh DeSiRe♦Fubar Booty Fugitive& Pegasus Project Member♦@ fubar JOHNNY { R/L B/F 2 {{!Starry!}} }@ fubar **Heaven**@ fubar AND THIS FRIDAY ITS THE PLACE TO BE FOR AUTO 11 BLING WE ARE GIVING AWAY FOUR THATS RIGHT FOUR AUTO 11'S ON FRIDAY YOU JUST MIGHT BE THE WINNER OF A HOT LITTLE AUTO 11. AND YOU HAVE MORE THAN ONE CHANCE TO WIN. SO COME ON AND JOIN THE LOUNGE YOU CAN ONLY WIN IF YOU'RE A MEMBER. SEE YA THERE! THIS BULLY BROUGHT TO YOU BY ONE&ONLY SYCHO~!~ FUBARS RESIDENT PATIENT~!~RATE SPANKERS~!~RATING REVOLUTION~!~CLU@ fubar (repost of original by '

Because I Can
When was the last time someone touched your ass? Last night. Oh and what's your full name? Annabel Churches And what's your friend's name? Claudia. Speaking of names, do you like yours? Annabel-meh..Annie-yup When was the last time you had a Gatorade? I had a powerade not too long ago.. Are your nails painted? Kind of. My right hand nails are pink because of my red hair dye and my left hand nails are purple because of Claudia's hair dye. Don't you hate it when people paint their nails black to act all "goth"? I don't know anybody who does that. I like black nails mmkay? Do you own an iPod? Nope, and I don't ever plan to. What are some of your favorite bands? Flyleaf. Papa Roach. Underoath, etc.. Who do you have a crush on? My penis. It's rather large.. What are you listening to right now? The noise my laptop is making. So who do you love? Who do you trust? I love my family and friends. I trust

Valentines Day Auction
Hey everyone I am in a Valentines day auction...please drop in and maybe place a bid on me...you WONT be disapointed!! Heres my offerings: ALL my 11's for 2 weeks Rate everything you have & RE-rate it all when i can keep u drunk random blings if i have them daily gifts Add you to my family forever pimp you out on my profile as well as blogs and bullys yahoo ID if bid is high enough 1 30 minute SFW phone call if HH is offered THE HIGHER THE BID GOES THE MORE I WILL OFFER ***JUST CLICK THE PICTURE 2 TAKE YOU THERE***

Common Sense
Today we mourn the passing of Common Sense. Common Sense was preceded in death by his parents- Truth and Trust, his wife-Discretion, his daughter- Responsibility, and his son-Reason. He is survived by 3 step-children, I Know My Rights, Someone Else Is To Blame, and I Am A Victim. Please join me in a moment of silence to pay tribute.

Things That Make Me Go Hmmmmmm?..
Ok people, I'm just curious about a few things that I'm constantly seeing on here. For instance status msgs. Ok funny status messages are cool. Hell they'll make me laugh and I'll comment on them. Status msgs letting peeps know you're not there. They're informative...That's cool too. but why put up status messages that constantly say you're God's gift to mankind, that you're leaving FU (and you never leave or ya leave and comeback?..lol..my personal favorite), I can take your man or woman (I mean come on honestly who cares??), msgs that people use to prove themselves to other people with (if you're confident in yourself on the real, you don't feel the need to profess it to the world because honestly that sounds like something someone who lacks confidence would do), or just msgs outright beggin for this and that....You're on the internet....lawd live a little, have fun and enjoy yourself...This aint your job, ya aint making anything but fu money and getting fu bling here peeps...l

A Recent Encounter
Well, let me start by saying I love chatting with people of all kids. I find myself, amused, and, in a way, frustrated. All over this one simpleton. Where should I begin? Hmmmm... maybe the beginning? Let's start there. I was chatting on Fubar, as I usually do, when I have a guy shoutbox me, " Hey There ". I'm not one to turn down a new chat buddy, so I respond, " Hello there, how are ya? " The person then responds " I'm okay, do you have AIM yahoo MSN ICQ any of those messengers so we can chat away from this site? " Let me say this, if I don't know you, or have never spoke to you before I'm not going to chat away from this site or any other site. I then go to respond, " I don't chat with people I don't know or Im not friends with away from site," and he continues on to say " well go to my profile, and read it FULLY and CAREFULLY. You'll learn more about me there, than you would any other friend in a week's worth of chat. " I had every intent to read his profile, when I ge

Cofi
I just read a post complaining about how selfish some people are, and how toxic they are, and how they ought to get over whatever bad things happened to them that caused them to be such self-centered assholes. It would be lovely if that would happen. But it probably won't. Have you seen Amores Perros? If not, and you want to see it (which I highly recommend), please be forewarned: plot spoilers ahead. From the Wikipedia entry for the film: Just as Amores Perros itself is a film triptych, so also does its name present three interrelated interpretations. Among the few Spanish language lines found on the official Amores Perros website are these: Si tu historia acabó bien, explícalo en el canal de "amores". Si acabó mal, explícalo en "perros" (If your story turned out well, put it down to "amores." If bad, put it to "perros.") To the author of these lines, amores is life's "goodness" or "sweetness" as in the Spanish aphorism, Hechos son amores, que no buenas razone

Kick The Bitch Out
Ok Im trying to make arrangements to move to Texas and its not going well. Trying to find a company to move us but thats not going well. Debating on renting uhaul and drive myself or hire someone to move me. Both cost about the same. Thought I would never have to move again but financially there's no choice. On the upside Ill be closer to my granddaughter. Just thinking about stuff.

Application For Fu-hubby/fu-wifey!
I am looking for that special man or woman to be my fu-husband or fu-wife! In our fu-marriage, I will make sure that you are never sober, Give you gifts and always rate your new photos, Give you tickers/other fu-gifts if I can, Put "Fu-Wifey of _________" in my user name, Put you in my family, Put you in my top friends, Give you a SFW salute And other special bonuses!! If you're already fu-married, I am giving out NSFW salutes for VIP/Blasts. In addition to all of the above [minus fu-wifey and whatnot] Boobies only, though... but they're nice! Now it's your turn to tell me what you can provide me!!! It's time for you to sweep me off my feet, so get to it, baby!!

Bitches
I can't seem to get away from them no matter how hard I try one of these bitches always walks by See me I dislike a variation of niggas I can't stand PRETTY ass niggas the ones that spend more time in the mirror than a girl do you would think they want curls in their hair too You can say you dont know about them but you do you have conversations about them too Like the subpar sensitive ECLECTIC nigga that writes poetry spits about revolution but did nothing to support any movement UNLESS it is the movement inside of the woman's hips he creates the oohs and aahs for pretending to be a good guy but really a whore Bitches the ones that tell a woman what they want to hear just so they can feel the lower extremities of that woman drawing near Bitches Lying Niggas that always want ladies to have time for them but when role is revearsed they hanging out wit Craig and them you know the ones I call them Late Nite Do Me's the guys that call you on a weeknight after

Voice Comments
ATTENTION FUGITIVES: We have a NEW feature on our profile called Snapvine. It's located in the interests section, please go to it and leave a voice comment. Or here it doesnt matter!! FUGITIVES PLEASE LEAVE A MESSAGE

My Tires Make A Lot Of Noise
Am I sleeping? from Chris Joseph on Vimeo. You see, your eyes are constantly focusing on what you think you're supposed to be seeing. Sometimes not on what they're actually seeing. This right here, my friend. This controls everything. Aperture, shutter-speed, focus. Focus! (transcribed because it's hard to hear what I'm saying)

Operations Manager/revamped
TLC will try her Best in the Reorganization of The Family.She has excepted my Appointment this morning.Please bare with her all whom remain.Buttrflymom has also been appointed as asst. to tlc in the reoranization of the kingdom.if TLC can pull this off she will be made an Owner an buttrflymom will be made a co. Ty Lord Wolf

Tattoo's And History
a friend made one of these to tell her tattoo story. I thought it was a pretty good idea. I got my first tattoo in Ancon City, Panama in the Panama canal zone. Since I was in the Navy, I figured that I really needed to have an eagle. Since it was before the Internet in 1987, I found a design in a magazine and took the paper picture in with me to the shop. I had this tattoo redone in mid January 2007. I figured there wasn't anything more stereotypical to add to a eagle tattoo than an American Flag so she added that behind it while freshening up the all black design with some brown. The brown has mixed with the black underneath it after 2 years so it isn't as noticeable. I got my next tattoo in the same shop in Panama. I have a large family on my mother's side. With 13 Aunts and Uncles, the oldest were having children before the youngest were out of the house. My oldest first cousin is the same age as my mother. The idiot attended a family reunion and proclaimed that "we have Indians i

Thank You .√iolets.
Very special Birthday wishes for Vixen260. Please show her the love she so well deserves on her day!! ~★~vixen260~★~@ fubar (repost of original by ' .√iolets.' on '2009-02-05 21:07:31')

Forever
My Favorite... and he's coming to town! In my brightest hour Of my darkest day I realized what is wrong with me Can't get over you Can't get through to you It's been a helter skelter romance from the start Take these memories that are haunting me Of a paper man cut into shreads By his own pair of scissors He'll never forgive her He'll never forgive her Because days come and go But my feelings for you are forever Because days come and go But my feelings for you are forever Sitting by a fire on a lonely night Hanging over from another good time With another girl Little dirty girl You should listen to this story of a life You're my heroine In this moment I'm lonely Fulfilling my darkest dreams All these drugs all these women I'm never forgiven this broken heart of mine Because days come and go But my feelings for you are forever Because days come and go But my feelings for you are forever One last kiss Before i go Dr

Mumm In A Blog
I can't decide. I'm so freakin' lazy on the weekends. I have an assignment due tomorrow for my online class. It's not a difficult assignment, I already have over half of the work done. It's just a very tedious assignment. Should I go to the library today and get it all done or just be lazy today and put it off until tomorrow? Another random question, I know I can call and ask. But, I bought the Target brand of the Cyrstal Light powder things. Well I made one last night and it is disgusting. Do you think they will take back the product even though 1 of the 5 tubs of powder is missing?

Regina R.ip...thanx Melinda Xoxox
TODAY MARIO NEEDED TO SAID GOOD BYE TO HIS BELOVED REGINA. AND NEEDS THE LOVE AND SUPPORT OF HIS FRIENDS, SHOW HIM YOU CARE. PLEASE STOP BY AND GIVE HIM A HUG. SOMETIMES THAT’S ALL YOU REALLY NEED, TO LET SOMEONE YOU CARE ABOUT KNOW YOU ARE THERE FOR THEM ♥Mario♥@ fubar MARIO I LOVE YOU

Cunt
->♥D♥ greete...: block me if you don't like it cunt ♥D♥ greete...: no you fuck off muther fucker ->♥D♥ greete...: I get tired of stupid loungers like you spamming their stupid fukin lounges on my page ->♥D♥ greete...: fuck off cunt! ♥D♥ greete...: just fuck off ass wipe dont sb me anymore you could of just been nice about it say i dont want to but u started the cussing ->♥D♥ greete...: you came to mine you fuckin moron! ->♥D♥ greete...: did I want to come to your lounge, dd I ask for an advertisement? it was SPAM, now GTFO! ♥D♥ greete...: stay out of my sb then you dumb fuck ->♥D♥ greete...: what the fuck am I spamming you dumb cunt? ♥D♥ greete...: so y r u in my sb spaming it now ♥D♥ greete...: sorry but wasnt no spam ♥D♥ greeter @ heaven and hell@ fubar

Wtf!?
Well, I decided to pay the extra and get a nice room. I ended up with a suite. It's really nice. I have a fridge/freezer and a microwave. HOWEVER, when I sent my step-dad to go get me some food that I can actually heat up and eat and not have chips....the place wouldn't take my card. I've used it there before and it was fine. WTF is wrong with that? I'm starving. I haven't eaten all day. Grrr!!!

Hardships
I was talking recently to one of the people that stayed at the hotel. He said that Americans are spoiled, hence why they dont care about each other. Hardship really makes humans care for each other. Because politics is not a workplace discussion, I had to bite my tongue. Hardship may make SOME people care about others, in general, it brings out the most primal, basic instincts in humans. When I was little, and there was a huge economic crisis in Russia, people turned into animals. Ugly, selfish animals that would destroy anything and everyone in their path to get a piece of meat thrown into their cage. Every time there would be some food or clothes appearing on the shelves, they would cut in lines, causing fights; swear at each other, accuse each other of vilest things, etc. People were ugly inside and outside, callous and unfriendly. Jealousy and envy were the #1 thing on people's minds, causing back stabbing, rumors, and other shit. The only positive thing abou

Made It Safe
well i got in to joyabaj late last nite everything went smoothly. had to get a new cell phone which i didnñt count on but lil price to pay to have a daily conversation in english. stat workin tomorrow so not sure when i´ll be able to catch the internet cafe open again but as soon as i can i´ll be back to give another update... already got a few pics to add to my collection. was very surprised to see 3 baby german sheppards when i got to the compound i am stayin at. so tehy will keep me company for the next month! love ya all and cyz soon

Douchebag Of The Day Part 5
A chick doucheBag...first one ever. wïlÐ~vððÐð...: what did someone piss in ur damn wheaties today or step on ur lil troll toes boo whooo wïlÐ~vððÐð...: yeah u see i am not new to stalkerish fuckers like u no u r not block my profile is private oh in my polite natured way which comes from being a nurse have a nice day wïlÐ~vððÐð...: dude u need to get a damn life and a clue and take a look in the mirror and is kansas the only place u have ever been it is showing on u very well as if u were trying to get some damn attention

To All Pegasus Members
To all Pegasus Ladies As everyone knows, ~The Pegasus Project~ was founded by a Couple, the couple being Dove Goddess and Wild Horse. While it is true that Dove and Wild have been having some personal troubles in their relationship, these troubles do not in any way disrupt their Dedication and Support of this Family. Accusations have been posted in bulletins concerning the fact that the Salute photo on the family Home Page is now the Salute of a Male and not of a Female. Somehow, in the minds of some, this Male salute has now caused this family page to become the page of some "Pervert" conning women into thinking they are dealing with a female. This all appears to be an attack on our family by people that don't know the Founders of this Family and choose to attack the Family when the Founders have personal issues they are dealing with. We ask that should you be approached by anyone or see any bulletins with any accusations that you contact members of the Council and the Hom

For People Who No Comprende!
The about me is there for a reason my cock size is not of importance to you. The person I am is for now on any perverted first time remarks gets you blocked. I met some great people and friends on here get to know me cause i'd like you to be 1 of them.

Blah Blah Blah :p
According to your ex, are you pretty? >Probably not. How have you felt today? >groggy When was the last time you talked to your number 1 on top friends? >never, fools never asked me for my # Have you ever cried and not known what for? >no What are you wearing? >froggy tye-dye & plaid boxers Do you like your name? >yup Are you happy at the moment? >as happy as any nut on the nut farm could be What were you doing at 10:00pm last night? >trying to talk some sense into my half brother Last person who drove you somewhere? >my ex drove me to the crazy house Are you a morning person or a night person? >both Are you a forgiving person? >too forgiving, one of my worst weakness If you could move anywhere right now, would you?

Uh.... No.
so, my ex-flame's new flame just sent me this detritus: > i just wanted 2 ask ya if u liked dirrrtyboy coz he said u do n i just need 2 know that nothin is goin on with u 2 coz he said he wanted 2 b with me n i dont wanna get in the middle of anything jezus. it's not only drama-causing, but ridiculously worded and spelled. anyway, this shit starts happening to me, it's time for a break. how could i have even been attracted to someone who can like an idiot like that? may be back tomorrow, maybe in a week, idk.

Only On Fu To Chill In Lounge Now Plz Dont Rate Me
To all my friends i just want to say it been fun but things change and i wont be on fubar except for chillin in Devils Angels ,So please dont rate my pics or anything as im done with pic rating ,you can still get me in shoutbox when im around and on yahoo if you have it so have fun and take care.....

25 Facts About Me! Leave A Comment!
25 factsShare Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it's because I want to know more about you. (To do this, go to “notes” under tabs on your profile page, paste these instructions in the body of the note, type your 25 random things, tag 25 people (in the right hand corner of the app) then click publish.)" 1. I have always wanted to be famous!!! i loved doing acting and singing classes @ Super Star Productions back in the 90's LOL and i always wanted to be on stage or in a movie or singing! 2. I really want to travel... I love different cultures and languages and have always been curious and fascinated about other ways of life. 3. My favourite colours are colours of the Ocean!~Blues and Greens ( JADE OFCOURSE,LOL) and turquoise ect ect..... 4. I was once was bitten by a spider (whit

The Secret To Life..
To those of you that are close friends I'm sure I have already shared this story, but since I have to start a new account I thought I would go ahead and post it on myspace, it may get some people thinking. When I was around 19 years old, I had a history professor that shared a story with me that I have always held on to in my mind. One day in class, during an especially tedious lecture on the industrial revolution, he decided to break the monotony with a story. He told us of a professor that he had when he was about our age. He told us that one day that man walk into the class and told him that as a special gift, he was going to let them in on a secret. On this very ordinary day, he was going to teach them something extraordinary. He was going to tell them the secret of life. My professor went on to tell us that his professor walked to the chalk board and wrote a single word on the board, put the chalk down, and walk right out of the room. Now of course at this point the curiosity

You Know You Wanna...
This is gonna be short and sweet lol.... If anyone is willing to trade 5 Million fubucks for an auto 11, pls let me know...I'm just over 1.7 million to prophet and I'm bustin my ass to get there...Gimme a holler if you want to, or if you know anyone that does...Thanks bunches

Please Keep Me In Your Hearts!
My dearest friends, I don't know how much time I am going to be able to spend on Fubar for a while. I have recently had my children taken into protective custody and the state and my ex are trying to fight to permanently remove them from my cutody and into his. They are going to try to charge me with neglect. It started with concerns over my children's physical and mental development and turned into accusations of neglect and improper medical treatment. I'm not going to share too many details because they are personal but I have plenty of evidence to prove that I have not neglected my children. I am going up against the state and it is going to be a difficult battle but be assured that I am going to do whatever it takes to get my children back. I ask that you please keep my children and myself in your hearts and prayers and wish me luck. Thank you all and I do hope to see all of you again soon. Me "Bad Kitty"

Flippin Hilarious
Things only A Mom Would Know One day my mother was out and my dad was in charge of me. I was maybe 2 -1/2 years old and had just recovered from an accident. Someone had given me a little 'tea set' as a get-well gift and it was one of my favorite toys. Daddy was in the living room engrossed in the evening news when I brought Daddy a little cup of 'tea', which was just water. After several cups of tea and lots of praise for such yummy tea, my Mom came home. My Dad made her wait in the living room to watch me bring him a cup of tea, because it was 'just the cutest thing!' My Mom waited, and sure enough, here I come down the hall with a cup of tea for Daddy and she watches him drink it up. Then she says, (as only a mother would know... 'Did it ever occur to you that the only place she can reach to get water is the toilet?'

Im Really Sorry Ya'll
As Most of ya know I had a Bad motorcycle wreck.. I havent been hitting hardly anyones pages because,Im seriously dope'd up & sleeping most of the time.. Please excuse me for not droppin love n say'n Hi as I really am hurting now.. today I spent 5 hrs at the hospital gettin more X-rays=20 of them & all my staples removed.. I cant wait to go soak in a bath n relax again.. Here in a week or 2 I should be semi Coherent & able to start back being the flirt ya'll love Thanks for lookin Hugs Mark

Llama Leveler Of The Day
Michelle~R/L Wife of Miracle Monkey~Winterhawk~Native American Pride~Member of Llama Levelers@ fubar all Llama Levelers will rate 100 pics. each when done kindly leave a comment below...Thanks

I'm Not Sorry
it's so easy to apologize it's harder not to give a reason to. everyone says it i'm sorry i didn't mean to i never wanted to hurt you i didn't mean to upset you i care about you i love you i'm sorry that's nice. no really, i'm sick of saying "it's okay" because it's not okay anymore before you go and take this personally don't bother it's not personal it's everyone. look around, all the failed relationships all the failed friendships look at the people around you and how sorry they all are too. is it that hard to think before you act or before you don't. is it so much to ask of people to take others' feelings into consideration BEFORE there's a reason to apologize. i'm not sorry. and really, i don't think any of you are either. ~sinamynlee

Fly 86
HEY EVERYONE....MEMBER OF THE WEEK FOR 2/16/09-2/22/09 IS FLY 86....SHOW HIM SOME LOVE PPL.....HE ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS SHOWS EVERYONE LOVE....NOW ITS UR TURN TO RETURN IT..... CONGRATS ON GETTING MEMBER OF THE WEEK FLY...U DESERVE IT!!! Fly 86 Zodiak Levelers@ fubar

Club Mystic Member List
imikimi - Customize Your World! FAITH'S ACCOUNT APPEARS TO HAVE BEEN HACKED, THE ONLY THING SHE IS ABLE TO DO FROM HER ACCOUNT IS FU-MAIL... PLZ RATE ALL OF MERLYN'S PICS THIS WEEK, WE SHOULD BE ABLE TO LEVEL HIM! PLZ PRIVATE MESSAGE ME WHEN YOU FINISH RATING HIS PAGE, I WILL LET YOU KNOW THE SITUATION ON FAITH...SHE MAY HAVE TO DELETE HER PAGE! I HAVE MOVED MEMBERS WHO ARE NOT BOMBING TO INACTIVE LIST....THERE ARE A COUPLE MORE THAT I PROBABLY SHOULD PUT THERE, BUT THESE TWO MEMBERS ARE THE FIRST TO RESPOND WHENEVER I ASK FOR HELP! BUT EVERYONE SHOULD TRY TO BOMB AT LEAST A LIL BIT EVERY DAY... I AM TRYING TO GET JOHNNY TO LET US RATE PICS INSTEAD OF BOMBING...WAITING TO HEAR BACK FROM HIM POINT INCREASES ARE FROM 2/10 - 2/16 PLEASE LET ME KNOW AT LEAST 24 HOURS BEFORE YOU PLAN TO ACTIVATE AN AUTO-11 SO THAT I CAN PIMP YOU OUT! PLEASE STAY AWARE OF HP AND MY STATUS MESSAGES, IT WILL HELP US ALL A LOT! THANKS! I AM STILL EXTREMELY ILL, AND NOT ONLINE A LOT, PM IS T

For Clubmystic
maybe u can answer this,if ur wanting to level should u rate the ppl that level u?i` have less time than any of u and i NOW make the effort.my computer sucks ass.i go to school 2 nights a week.and work 32 hrs a week.i work sometimes till 3 am.AND I MAKE AND EFFORT.to all those who don`t.I GOT 2 WORDS FOR U,JUST LIKE 2 DROPS IN A BUCKET FUCK IT.i`m not rating any of u,ur not wasting ur time. why should I.and i have less TIME than any of u.and any one got any smart ass comments i`m here waiting for u..i`m off all day.

Is It Really Out There?
I am really starting to wonder if there is such a thing as true love! At least for me. In the past few months I have seen what true love is and want that for myself, but does it even exist anymore? I just watched my mom take care of my dad for 2 months until he passed 2 weeks ago. They were married 44 years. Even with his last breath my mom was proclaiming her love and devotion to him and up until the last week of his life he was proclaiming his for her. I've read some mumms about nice guys vs rude guys, questions about what men look for in a woman, about men being romantic or liking romance, but do you men really vote the way they feel or do they just vote the way they think women want to hear? And it's not just men, us women do it too! What do people have to do now to find that kind of love? With everyone having sex on the brain how do you really build a strong lasting relationship on true feelings not lust! Do we all just need to slow down, as the old saying goes "take time t

Kick Ass And Free....wow! Worth Reading!
So....this is the deal.... I am about to give u links to 3 programs....They are FREE...and i know that sounds stupid, but i absolutely swear by these programs for keeping my computers safe..Seriously......By 'safe' I mean....all of ur pics, ur music, ur files, important papers, creations of any type, anything u can think of that is on ur PC....ALL of that will b protected by u downloading these 3 programs.... Like I said they r FREE (they do accept donations)...and u r my friends so I feel compelled to tell u this bcuz it will help us all in the long run... .... U can only use the home versions (the FREE ones) for personal usage laptops/desktops, but any business or company would certainly benefit from purchasing the business versions of these 3 programs, as well....They r user friendly and they kick some serious ass.... and I don't say that about just anything...lol..... This Is important and I hope all of u really are reading this...and u take my advice...It will take very little t

Now Im Confused...
So today in class, everything was a bit rushed to make up for having yesterday off, we zipped through like 4chapters in less than two hours. Normally, this isnt a big thing, BUT its all medical terms and thats a lil harder to soak in all at once. And since we had yesterday off, our test day wasnt supposed to be til Thursday, to give us an extra day to practice and study in class... SUPPOSED to be. We go on lunch and come back, and go to lab where were told we're having out clinical done today instead of Thursday. Now since we work on each other while at school, I didnt get a chance to really practice but for a half hour on Friday. And yesterday Candypants was SUPPOSED to let me work on her... but we lost track of time and next thing we knew it was 11pm. So I didnt get a chance to study or practice at all, so Im a lil nervous about this test. Im taking the clinical part of the test, and much to my surprise Im nailing it all as she's calling it out. I noticed I wasnt doing one thi

Cemetery Escort Duty
I just wanted to get the day over with and go down to Smokey's. Sneaking a look at my watch, I saw the time, 1655. Five minutes to go before the cemetery gates are closed for the day. Full dress was hot in the August sun. Oklahoma summertime was as bad as ever--the heat and humidity at the same level--both too high. I saw the car pull into the drive, '69 or '70 model Cadillac Deville, looked factory-new. It pulled into the parking lot at a snail's pace. An old woman got out so slow I thought she was paralyzed; she had a cane and a sheaf of flowers--about four or five bunches as best I could tell. I couldn't help myself. The thought came unwanted, and left a slightly bitter taste: 'She's going to spend an hour, and for this old soldier, my hip hurts like hell and I'm ready to get out of here right now!' But for this day, my duty was to assist anyone coming in. Kevin would lock the 'In' gate and if I could hurry the old biddy along, we might make it to Smokey's in ti

I've Got A Good One! Lol
LOL I DECIDED THAT I'M GONNA PLAY A PRACTICAL JOKE ON MY BOYFRIEND, I'VE BEEN THINKIN ABOUT DOING THIS ONE FOR THE LAST 2 WEEKS. SO, LAST NIGHT ON THE PHONE, I TOLD HIM THAT I DID SOMETHING AND IT WAS DONE FOR HIM. I TOLD HIM THAT I GOT MY NIPPLES PIERCED! LOL HE'S REALLY GOT A NIPPLE PIERCING AND BEFORE, I HAD TOLD HIM THAT I'D NEVER GET MINE DONE. WELL, I BOUGHT SOME FAKE NIPPLE RINGS! LOL IT WAS KILLING ME NOT TO TELL HIM THE TRUTH LAST NIGHT, BUT I GOTTA WAIT TILL TONIGHT WHEN WE SEE EACH OTHER. HE WAS ASKING ME ALL KINDS OF QUESTIONS ABOUT IT, LIKE WHO DID IT FOR ME, DID THEY GIVE ME STUFF TO PUT ON EM ETC. I COULD TELL THAT HE WAS TOTALLY SHOCKED THAT I DID IT, THIS IS GONNA BE SOOOOOOO FUNNY TONIGHT! I CAN'T HARDLY WAIT!! BTW, HE LOVES TO PLAY JOKES SO THIS WILL SHOW HIM THAT I CAN PLAY WITH THE BEST OF EM LMAOO!

Cooperation, Round Three, Return Of The Spammer.
Not only can I not believe this guy keep contacting people at our company, but he actually contacted me *again.* Enjoy, I'm redeeming myself for that last sad excuse for a tard blog. (11:28:18 AM) Cooperation: hi (11:28:23 AM) Clarissa: Hi, how can I help you? (11:28:36 AM) Cooperation: nice to meet you (11:28:44 AM) Cooperation: i am here looking for cooperation (11:29:03 AM) Clarissa: You have already contacted multiple people at this company, myself included, and we have all said no. (11:29:11 AM) Clarissa: Are you incapable of keeping track of whom you've spammed? (11:29:54 AM) Cooperation: i am sorry ? (11:30:00 AM) Clarissa: I agree. (11:30:05 AM) Clarissa: Have a nice day. (11:30:20 AM) Cooperation: ok (11:30:27 AM) Cooperation: have a nice day

Douchbag Of The Day Part 6
Fuck, I should actually change this one to "DoucheBag of the Fucking Decade" Unlike some people, this retard can't let shit go that was said a week ago. I forgot about it 10 minutes after it happened. ☠Craven Moorehead~R/L fiancee of KCPilar69☠™ said: Majik Man - Proud Papi - fu-owned by Rebecca, the stunning one. said: ☠Craven Moorehead~R/L fiancee of KCPilar69☠™ said: Majik Man - Proud Papi - fu-owned by Rebecca, the stunning one. said: ☠Craven Moorehead~R/L fiancee of KCPilar69☠™ said: Majik Man - Proud Papi - fu-owned by Rebecca, the stunning one. said: ☠Craven Moorehead~R/L fiancee of KCPilar69☠™ said: Majik Man - Proud Papi - fu-owned by Rebecca, the stunning one. said: ☠Craven Moorehead~R/L fiancee of KCPilar69☠™ said: Majik Man - Proud Papi - fu-owned by Rebecca, the stunning one. said: ☠Craven Moorehead~R/L fiancee of KCPilar69☠™ said: Majik Man - Proud Papi - fu-owned by Rebecca, the stun

This Is All Witchies Fault!!
Instructions...... Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird or random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose at least 5 people to be tagged, listing their names . Don't forget to leave a comment that says, "You're it!" on their profile and ask them to read your blog. You can't tag the person who tagged you. 1. I don't drink at bars. 2. I'm my own best friend. 3. I only got pregnant once every 8 years. 4. I only drink Dr. Pepper. 5. I have signed my autograph for more than 10 people. 6. I'm having a steamy love affair with my cat Charlie. 7. I have a big ceramic pig in my room. 8. I own a press pass. 9. I can say Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious backwards. 10. I am a Notary Public for the State of Oregon. Now, who's next?

In A Previous Life......
It's all a memory now...so rooted in my southern spiritual heritage. I rode past a big snow-white antebellum home today. Thoughts exploded; memories perhaps of a previous life? I saw the ornate black shutters, the white imperial columns that held the large balcony atop. Through the grand black double doors leading inside, I envisioned her walking, almost floating about the house. She, so content. She gracefully moves to the window, parting the white lace curtains, and clasping them aside, sees the bright sun beaming down on the greening grass and enormous porch. She smiles, walks to the side French doors, pulls the glass knobs and opens the door to a grand Mississippi afternoon. There I leave her in the front porch swing, rocking slowly, in her pretty pink flowing gown, matching ribbons in her long, auburn hair, and watching two black kittens playing at her bare feet. She is holding three roses to enjoy as she passes a few hours. Maybe she is waiting on her gentleman who will

Tag You Are It
Damn you, Broken Angel! Instructions...... Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird or random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose at least 5 people to be tagged, listing their names . Don't forget to leave a comment that says, "You're it!" on their profile and ask them to read your blog. You can't tag the person who tagged you. 1. I like submissive women 2. I love to sleep 3. I havent had sex in over 2 years 4. growing up in brooklyn with a name like Pierre really sucked 5. prefers to smoke pot over drinking. 6.I like angry sex 7.I talk in my sleep 8.I hate to mix certain foods in my plate. 9. I rarely rarely ever drink, and If I do I get drunk easy 10. I plan on going postal on the next person who tags me. My brain hurts to think of this stuff Im not tagging anyone since my friends dont read my blogs anymore. If you wanna be tagged then please feel free.

Tagged Again By Zombielover
1) I work alone all night, and like it that way. I enjoy silence 2) I am an extroverted introvert 3) I am a black sheep in my fam. Everyone has PhDs, and I have a lazy ass 4) I met my hubby on a red line train in Chicago at 1am; he followed me to the closed parking lot, and I thought he was a stalker. But he was cute, so it was ok. We've been together ever since (7 yrs) 5) I have an anger prob I'm workin on...FUCK!!! 6) Stupidity is my pet peeve, and I distance myself from stupid people. 7) I am a closet nerd 8) I am very careless, which have caused me trouble in the past and most likely will in the future 9) I am extremely down to earth, and will talk to ANYONE. 10) I learned English by watching The Simpsons and Ricky Lake all day long

I Got Tagged By Mistress Of Wolves And Baybay Sunshine At The Same Time!
Instructions...... Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird or random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose at least 5 people to be tagged, listing their names . Don't forget to leave a comment that says, "You're it!" on their profile and ask them to read your blog. You can't tag the person who tagged you. I actually did this several months ago (http://www.fubar.com/blog/227036) but maybe I can still come up with 10 more random facts. 1. I curse at inanimate objects (ok that was on my old one, but it's my #1 quirk). My kids will tell you. If they hear "stupid mother fucker!" coming from the kitchen, it probably means I dropped a spoon on the floor & am berating it. 2. My right toe-nail sticks up at more of an angle then any of my other toes and therefore has a habit of cutting holes into my sock. Once it has a hole I refuse to wear it on my right foot. It becomes a "left foot" sock. Once both socks have a toe hole I chuck t

Fumarriage Proposals
In the past day I've gotten 2 marriage requests. Don'tcha think that's a bit fucked up being as I'm already Fu-married? What makes you think I spent $50 to get married just so I can spend $25 to get divorced then have to pay another $50 to marry you which I'll then inevitably divorce you costing me another $25?? And you can't use the lame excuse "I clicked on it on accident" because when you click to fu-propose it takes you to a screen double checking if you want to fu-propose to that person. So you knew damn well what you were doing. Not to mention why the fuck would you want to marry someone you've never talked to? It just doesn't make any sense! Fubar needs to alter it so when your married you can't be propose to someone that's already married. Or at least give us the ability to deny the marriage proposals we get. When I get the proposals and click on it so i can decline it says i'm already married to ay bay bay. But it doesn't give me the option to decline the proposals.

Missing You...didnt Forget You
As a few of you know..I am in Florida on vacation until the middle of march. Unfortunately the pc connection in campgrounds is awful (for real) I bought an air card hoping it would be the better way to go but never buying one before or doing any research on them proved fatal. If you do not see me on much this is the reason why. took me only 3 days reach the 5gb limit (and $200) So if I am not on thats the reason. I will make up the love when I get home. Italian Princess ..my sister needs help in contest If you`ve read this then you know how much she means to me...please help her thank you all..talk when I can much love, Debbie

Friday, Feb. 20
Totally made up news: Financial matters are in the news again today as the banking industry downgrades Bank of America and Citigroup to junk bond status (not made up). The US treasury has decided to forgo the use of money, and in turn we will be using something that currently has more value than the US dollar: rocks. That's right ladies and gentlemen, pull out your picks because at this rate dirt will be more valuable than our currency before long. Saddle your cows and start hauling the goods. Today in history: In 1792 U.S. President George Washington signed the Postal Service Act thereby creating the U.S. Post Office. Parts of the act establish several foundational rules for the post office, including the rule that they will always have at least a twenty minute wait, and all employees must eventually go crazy. In 1880 the American Bell Company was incorporated. They never made any Bells. Ever. Well, maybe the ones in the phones, but no real bells. Sad day for bells everywh

Freaking Tag!!
Instructions...... Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird or random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose at least 5 people to be tagged, listing their names . Don't forget to leave a comment that says, "You're it!" on their profile and ask them to read your blog. You can't tag the person who tagged you. 1. i NEVER do these things 2. i smoke waaaaay too much 3. i'm a complete smartass 4. my friends mean the world to me.some are closer than family 5. i have to stop myself from strangling people on the highway daily 6. i swear too much 7. i'm completely addicted to tattoos 8. i feel bad when i run over squirrels 9. i think my dog is gay 10. i find dike looking goth girls sexy (don't ask me why)

Tagged
Instructions...... Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird or random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose at least 5 people to be tagged, listing their names . Don't forget to leave a comment that says, "You're it!" on their profile and ask them to read your blog. You can't tag the person who tagged you. 1) I got mistakably arrested in Amsterdam, they thought I had commited a robbery... 2)I can write with my left hand just as good as my right 3)I am addicted to pringles and dip 4) I used to work in a zoo in the reptile section 5) I used to represent scotland in swimming and always came 1st or 2nd 6) I used to teach a french class to primary school age kids 7) I'm a very good ice skater 8) I have a rare blood group and get called to the local hospital regular to give blood 9) I cant go a day without coffee 10) I have read every single catherine cooksoon novel I Tag 1. Randy 2. Hunny 3.

Tag Teamed By Loper And Country.
Instructions...... Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird or random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose at least 5 people to be tagged, listing their names . Don't forget to leave a comment that says, "You're it!" on their profile and ask them to read your blog. You can't tag the person who tagged you. 1. I want so bad to be called for jury duty. 2. The song Blue Moon, no matter how many times I hear it, usually makes me cry. 3. I can hold a spider in my hand but if a bee or wasp gets anywhere near me I just about piss my pants in fear. 4. I detest grooming my eyebrows. 5. I'm very attracted to men with bald heads. 6. I hate talking on the phone. 7. I stutter sometimes when I get really nervous. 8. I don't want to be married but yet am scared to die alone. 9. I am terrified of driving, especially at night. 10. I am sometimes embarrassed by how many shoes/handbags I own. Reverend Kevin Ja

A Second 10
Instructions...... Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird or random things, facts, or habits about yourself. The first 10 took me a very long time to write... I live a near hermit's existence and dicussing the real me is tough. Anyhow a fu-friend said I should reveal more about myself. I thought long and hard and decided the first 10 were hard but it was cathartic so pretending i've been tagged again here's 10 more and I shan't be tagging anyone for these. 1.) I got cold-cocked by George Carlin in the Amsterdam Cafe in NYC back '83 or '84 2.) I've gotten drunk with 3 famous people, Natalie Merchant, Tracy Chapman and Frank Miller not at the same time and yes sitting at a bar drinking and gabbing, Natalie Merchant's a bitch and in the '80s Frank Miller's cigs of choice were Marlboro. 3.) Even though i had become a father 2 years before, in '87 a went to europe and euro trashed it for 6 mos. came home penniless. 4.) I won my first creative e

Has Love Become A Victim Of Instant Gratification?
THIS ARTICLE IS PROTECTED BY COPY WRITE PLEASE DO NOT REPOST THANK YOU Out of curiosity, I recently looked up the definition of the word love on dictionary.com, and to my surprise there were 28 definitions on the subject. The words that appear most in each definition were affection or passionate affection. I realize that today's society is extremely fast paced. Fast food, fast cars, fast women? We've become so obsessed with the "fast" concept, that we now believe love should be fast. Which brings me to the point of this article: Online dating. Online dating has actually become a part of American culture. Why not? You can meet people from the comfort of your own home and not have to worry about face to face rejection. I've seen quite a few women(including myself) fall victim to the instant gratification of online dating or relationships. First I'm going to look at why we do this. The world demands so much more from us now a days that we are so busy with our own lives t

Llama Leveler Of The Day
MISSYBEAR" N.A.P.RECRUITER-OMEGA BOMBER GREETER&LLAMA LEVELER&PEGASUS PROJECT&R.R"@ fubar all Llama Levelers will rate 100 pics. each when done kindly leave a comment below that you have done so...Thanks.

Van Tagged Me...
Instructions...... Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird or random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose at least 5 people to be tagged, listing their names . Don't forget to leave a comment that says, "You're it!" on their profile and ask them to read your blog. You can't tag the person who tagged you. 1- I have a scar on the top of my foot from where I tried to kick a cat. I missed and kicked the frame of a bed. 2- No one really knows the "real" me. Sometimes I don't even think I do. 3- I hate playing Truth or Dare...only because I'm afraid when it's my turn to ask "Truth or Dare", the person will say truth. I hate asking questions. 4- I regret not going to college and now I'm thinking it's too late. 5- If I could go back to school, I'd study forensic science. 6- I'm a procrastinator. 7- I usually eat only once a day. I know I shouldn't but oh well. 8- I forgive people far too much. Even when they have

Questions
(If you are reading this, you should repost it. I'm curious what others will say! ....At the very least, leave me a comment letting me know you saw it!) ================================================================================================== What is it that you absolutely need sexually? Someone willing to try new things What is something you have always wanted to try? What is something you have never done in bed before? Lots of things im sure! What time of day do you like to have sex? Sex in the am is the best! What do you absolutely need to see to turn you on? How long can you just kiss until your hands start to wander? *smiles* uhhh not very long If someone was in the next room while you had sex would it make you nervous or excited? Umm really to busy to worry about ppl in the other room Would it bother you if your bf/gf got naked at a beach or river? umm .... yah i think so Have you ever faked an orgasm? Yes What Pa

Songs Of Love
SONGS OF LOVE Songs of Love is a non-profit organization that creates unique songs for children and teens with chronic or terminal illnesses. They do it at no cost to you. My grandson got his personalized song in a joy inspiring CD case, and the names my daughter had chosen to use as part of his cancer story theme song included his parents, his big sister, and some of the other cancer patient children that have become part of his family in the hospital. And they continue to care for each other beyond the realms of the pediatrics ward. I have seen this family in action. Three IV poles, all with numerous tubes, all being tugged around a small room by three children of various sizes. All smiling, all living with a gusto that any work worn adult should take note of and emulate. It was one of those stranger than fiction moments when I walked in to that vision of childhood fun mixed with aggressive illness and equally aggressive medical techniques. If you know somebody that needs

Ptsd
WHAT IS POST TRAUMATIC STRESS DISORDER AND THE APPROPRIATE RESPONSE TO IT? An overview of the work of Dr. Judith Herman Lewis By Jim Spencley. Introduction: PTSD is not malingering, dependency, avoidance of responsibility, attention seeking or any of a number of ways of discounting and not believing the sufferer - it is a normal response to abnormal situations. Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) is a relatively new diagnosis of a condition which has always been part of the human experience. This diagnosis first appeared in the fourth edition of the official bible of the American Psychiatric Association - The Diagnostic and Statistical Manual (DSM-IV). Because of the identicy of symptoms of various previous diagnosis applied to different histories, but all sharing some form of traumatic experience, the American Psychiatric Association brought together service providers who had worked with traumatized people from many different social settings, including, political violence,

All Is Well With Mah Nose!
Well, I just got home from seeing the doctor that did the skin graft on my nose. Hard to believe its been almost 3 months since all of that but I wanted to let you all know that things are healed up and looking good. As I told the doctor, its not perfect like one would hope but I can live with this nose. In the beginning he was thinking he may need to do some further surgery to build up where the cancer was a bit deeper but that wont be necessary! I am SO grateful for that. As of today, he has released me. I want to thank you all again for all of your love, prayers, well wishes and support through all of this. Its a true blessing to have the wonderful friends that I have here on the fu. Without you I would have been a worse basket case than I was. Love to you all! You are the best!

My Mom Is A Nut!
first off YES Im pissed! where to start? well lets just take todays incident for starters Due to the switching to a digital signal by the federal government how things get recorded on a VCR around here have changed. you used to be able to record right off whatever channel directly of course. now everything goes through the satellite. Ive explained to my mother for now the 5TH TIME that the TV ABSOLUTELY HAS to stay on channel 3 (the input signal for the satellite) no matter what. I have also explained for now the 5th time that the satellite has to STAY ON in order for her program to record properly. I started to raise my voice because for the 5th time i got the excuse "I just dont get it". How many times does it take to understand TV stays on 3 and satellite stays on? When i started to raise my voice, she started to claim abuse (she does that alot, claiming abuse because someone raises their voice to her). Shes never been hit or truly abuse in anyway..... no one

Secret
Dirty Little Secret - The All-American RejectsLet me know that I've done wrong When I've known this all along I go around a time or two Just to waste my time with you Tell me all that you've thrown away Find out games you don't wanna play You are the only one that needs to know I'll keep you my dirty little secret (Dirty little secret) Don't tell anyone or you'll be just another regret (Just another regret, hope that you can keep it) My dirty little secret Who has to know When we live such fragile lives It's the best way we survive I go around a time or two Just to waste my time with you Tell me all that you've thrown away Find out games you don't wanna play You are the only one that needs to know I'll keep you my dirty little secret (Dirty little secret) Don't tell anyone or you'll be just another regret (Just another regret, hope that you can keep it) My dirty little secret Who has to know The way she feels inside (inside) Those thoughts I can't

My Best Friend
The things that you do to me are things that can't be undone. You've touched me like no one else has. You took a broken heart and made it whole. You've been there in my trying times, my joys, my pains. You've stood by me when everyone else walked away. You've given me the strength to stand on my own two feet, the hand to pull me up when I fall. You're the shelter I run to when the world comes tumbling down around me. You've been the umbrella through all the rain. The friend who's always been by my side. You will always be forever, undoubtedly, most preciously in my heart, for you are, My Best Friend

Mind Fvck Me
Repost of something I wrote awhile back. I always go back to it. Slide inside... My mind's eye. Takes more than the physical to satisfy. Take the time to recognize, I'm more than what I allow you to see. Do more than just scratch the surface. Scratch ME. Leave your mark, make a statement. Let me lie back and let your verbal onslaught delight my soul. Ravage me. More ways than one. Seduce my synapsis, Devour my senses, Ensnare my thoughts. Open is my soul, Pour in your rapture. -REL

The Bullievers
I have gotten many shouts and adds lately from people wanting to be a BULLiever so I thought it time to blog it so people know what that means (if you are one already, you already know). First, here is what the BULLievers are NOT: a train a "cool" tag a leveling group or bombing group decoration for your page an "ad" for me to get rates or for you to use for some sort of credibility. I started the BULLiever tag as a ty for a few people that are my friends. It was a sign of appreciation and I thought it was catchy. I never envisioned that there would be 39 and consequently a family, which is exactly what it has become. If you have a BULLiever tag, you have shown loyalty, honesty, reliability and friendship to me and some of the members. As we have grown, it has been encouraging to see you support each other and I personally would like to see more of it. We are not a leveling group and there are no real mandates as to rating and supporting other BULLievers. However,

Going For Godfather
gonna work on a new godmother/father bully soon ill just add those i see or let me know there going for level 25 Now for our resident BJ queen lol bl0wj0bBeTTy ((zodiaK leveLer))@ fubar This hottie brings a whole new meaning to duct tape (shh dont ask ill never tell) ♦ηιккι♦Greeter@Club Flava!Ownedbyßîg♦ÐâÐdÝ♦Wî££!C@ fubar

My Ex Husband
I know this is long but I could really use your opinion on this...Im torn. Please comment with your TRUE feelings and thoughts after, no matter how brutal it may be. My Exhusband was verbaly and emotionaly abusive for years before I left him last year. He hurt me BAD. For the record we were married for 10 years. My family is still talking and chatting and inviting him to family functions. He shows up smiling and laughing and acting like nothing is wrong with his girlfriend by the way. My question is....is it too much to ask that my family not do that. To stop inviting him, when he picks up the kids...to not spend hours, in front of me, chatting and laughing with him. Last time he showed up to pick up the boys, I was at my moms house, he showed up with his girlfriend and my family spent and hour and a half chatting with him. He managed to piss me off right from the get go and I was in the back yard crying on my fiancees sholder. My mom found me and told me to stop bei

72k To Disciple!!!!
Ok StarShine is only 72k from Disciple!!! WOW!!! Now I KNOW we can get her to that next level! Now lets all cover her in Fu-Love!!!! ~♥StarShine♥~2nd Alarm Hotties~ღCllgegrlღ's Valentine~@ fubar

Pictures
I am uploading up a lots pictures. Tomorrow I am buying a vip, and will be uploading more and when im done up loading I will open my pictures because i will b putting my auto 11's on Saturday night not exactally sure yet.

G.i. Joe Movie
Growing up in the 80s, I was a big fan of the series and toy-line (I still collect Snake-Eyes stuff). I have mixed feelings about them making it a movie, but after I saw the trailer I'm starting to look forward to it more now...

Tagged
Threesomes Share Now, here's what you're supposed to do...and please do not spoil the fun. Start a new note, delete my answers and put in your own. Tag your friends and tell them to tag you. The theory is that you will learn a lot of little known things about each other. Three Names I go by 1. Vicki 2. Vic 3. Idaho Three Jobs I have had in my life 1. Dispatcher 2. Truck Driver 3. Delivery driver Three Places I have lived 1. California 2. Idaho 3. Washington Three TV Shows that I watch 1. Biggest Loser 2. Sober Living House 3. Survivor Three places I have been 1. All over US 2. Mexico 3. Hell Three people that e-mail me regularly 1. Mom 2. Dad (porn Jokes) 3. spam Three of my favorite foods 1. Mexican 2. american 3. chinese Three things I would like to do 1. get married 2. travel to New Zealand 3. Vegas Vegas Vegas Three friends I think will respond 1. ? 2. ? 3. surprise me Things I am looking forward to 1. more vacation 2. m

The Heat
Yeah, most of you 'summer' people are happy that winter is almost over and crap. but dammit.. heat = boob sweat. it's the worst thing ever! ugh, does someone want to take my boobs from me? They're DDDs so make sure you can carry that extra weight around. kthnxbai

Music Madlibs
RULES: 1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle. 2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer. 3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS. HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF Hey Porter - Johnny Cash WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL? The Arms of Sorrow - Killswitch Engage HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY? London Calling - The Clash WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE? Forever Fades Away - Tiger Army IF SOMEONE SAYS 'ARE YOU OKAY' YOU SAY? Kill the Poor - Dead Kennedys WHAT'S YOUR MOTTO? Faithless - Social Distortion WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU? Boot 2 Boot - Horrorpops WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU? More Human than Human - White Zombie WHAT DO YOU OFTEN THINK ABOUT? Post War Breakout - Anti Flag WHAT IS 2 + 2? Ghost Tigers Rise - Tiger Army WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND? Shake - The Creepshow WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY? Joe Grind - The Aggrolites WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GRO

Hehehe...play It Forward...
Your Name: Age: Favorite position: 1. Do you think I'm cute?. 2. Would you have sex with me? 3. lights on or off? 4. Would you have to be drunk? 5.Would you take a shower with me? 6.Have you ever thought about having sex with me? 7.Would you leave after or stay the night? 8.Do you like cuddling afterwards? 9.Condom or skin? 10. Have sex on the first date? 11.Would you kiss me during sex? 12.Do you think I would be good in bed? 13. Would you use me as a booty call? 14.Can I use you as a booty call? 15.Can we take pictures of the act? 16.How long would we have sex? 17.Would you tell your friends about me? 18.Would you want me for a b/f , g/f or friend? 19.Will you post this so I can fill it out for you? 20. One thing that you would like to do to me if you were alone with me?

I'm Sure
So,I have 3 packs of cigarettes left and then I am done.I promised myself and my kids I would quit. Now,I have a massive oral fixation (shut up!!) and I need to find something else to chew on etc etc. Suggestions other than ones manhood would be nice.

Try This One.
It makes you think! Rules: It's harder than it looks! Copy to your own note, erase my answers, & enter yours. Use the first letter of your name to answer each of the following questions. They have to be real... nothing made up! If the person before you had the same first initial, you must use different answers. You cannot use any word twice and you can't use your name for the boy/girl name question. Have Fun! 1. What is your name: Joel 2. A four letter word: Jack 3. A boy's name: John 4. A girl's name: Jessica 5. An occupation: Janitor 6. A colour: Jade 7. Something you wear: Jacket 8. A food: Jollyrancher 9. Something found in the bathroom: John (toilet lol) 10. A place: Johnstown 11. A reason for being late: Jacking Off lmao 12. Something you shout: Jackpot 13. A movie title: Jarhead 14. Something you drink: Jaegar 15. A musical group: Jane's Addiction 16. An animal: Jaguar 17. A street name: Jefferson St. 18. A type of car:

Proposal?!
I just received the following email: -------------------------- SUBJECT: baby Reply back if interested in my proposal of a marital life abroad with me in Paris, in your actual life, only. Roberto (France) -------------------------- I'm packing my bags as we speak...but I'm wondering if the subject of the email is a term of endearment for me or if he wants me to have his baby. My "actual life" is going to ROCK! Please let me know your thoughts so I can plan accordingly!

Sure Why Not
What Color Is Your Toothbrush? Blue and white (home) Purple (car) Orange (desk drawer-work) Name One Person That Made You Smile Today? My boss, he said go home! What Were You Doing At 8 Am This Morning? Sitting in total deadlock tunnel traffic. What Were You Doing 45 Minutes Ago? Going thru todays bartab & eatin barbeechoo. What Is Your Favorite Candy? homemade buckeyes Have You Ever Been To A Strip Club Ive played in a strip club with dancers each side of the band. What Is The Last Thing You Said Aloud? Hey Mr Tightsqueeze..you paid 32k for that car and the fukin blinkers dont work?? What Is The Best Ice Cream Flavor? Pistachio What Was The Last Thing You Had To Drink? Earl gray & rum What is The Longest You Have Gone Without Sl

How We Roll.....
I will continue to repost this with each blog update, as we have so many new members, and it seems that some of the old ones need reminding what Club Mystic is all about! (THIS PROBABLY NEEDS TO BE EDITED A BIT MORE, AS WE ARE NOT AS ACTIVELY BOMBING AS WE USED TO BE, BUT YOU ARE STILL EXPECTED TO BOMB ANY GA'S THAT WE HAVE GOING) WE ARE MOSTLY HELPING US AND FRIENDS LEVEL UP... ...and just for those of you that do not already know, I often type in caps, because that is what I want to do, and I like it! It does not mean that I am angry, yelling, upset, etc. This is the freaking INTERNET, people, if it bothers you, either learn to deal, or read someone else's blogs... HOW WE ROLL..... CLUB MYSTIC IS A GROUP OF FRIENDS WHO ENJOY BOMBING GIVEAWAYS AND HELPING EACH OTHER LEVEL, AND LOVE TO HAVE FUN WHILE WE DO IT! ALMOST EVERY MEMBER MAXES OUT ON PIC COMMENTS ON A DAILY BASIS, AND IT IS NOT UNUSUAL FOR THEM TO MAX OUT ON PIC AND STASH RATES AS WELL! THAT'S JUST HOW WE ROL

Rizer
This time, it was random, and i didnt have to bait... ->rizer: so, now you agree to being a pedophile too? I see your stay on here is going to be long and fruitful rizer: ok ->rizer: Me, a homo? Your the cross dressing pedophiliac who just admitted you wanted me to fuck your ass dress as my mother. Just wait, until others see your faggoty words rizer: homo ->rizer: I must correct you. Its "Faggot", Faggot...now, bend over, and lets get the party started rizer: ok fagget ->rizer: OH!..i get it. You want me to dress like your mom, and fuck you with my penis, JUST like she did!? ->rizer: that makes no sense. Why woudl you call me a name youd use as a term of endearment when addressing your mother? rizer: you wish whore bag ->rizer: Into your ass i go, they said ->rizer: you wanna fuck you said? rizer: stalk you to smash your face not to give you a kiss rizer@ fubar

Darkness Waking - 1
I've got a headache. Pushing open the door to a room filled with laughter and smoke mingled with music doesn't help much. It's too busy here..I should go home. Leaning against the door frame I sigh...nothing to go home to but an empty fridge and an emptier bed. I'm going to stay...even just to pretend that I'm not alone for a brief moment or two. Eyes dart around the room and find an empty stool in the middle of the bar along with the quickest route to it...or so I thought. Dodging bodies..watching thick hands on soft skin...half these women in here wouldn't be getting all their attention if it were a little brighter and the alcohol not offered so readily. I can't fault them though...we're social creatures...even if we don't want to, we crave the connection another human being gives us...the touch..a look..a slight wave of breath on our skin. It carries us to the next moment. I twist like a dancer, weaving through the masses...can't avoid the drunks even when you want to....a

Give It Up?
according to the radio personality, and an online questionnaire conducted, when asked what would you prefer if you were forced to choose between cell phone, internet, or your significant other, the majority of people said they would give up the s.o. before one of the others! If i had to choose between a person, internet or my cell phone... realistically i would choose the person... but after further analogy... i guess my cell phone is a priority because of my children and job... but i could live with out it if i had a land line for communicating. but im assuming its the stranded on an island kind of question. what about you? whats your choice if you had to choose?

Not A Unique Story
A life altering event happened to me recently. While I am staying strong, coping, and facing life, essential I am crushed, and on the verge of death. As my title implies, this story is not unique in any way. It's your typical story of boy meets girl, they fall in love, girl leaves boy. Anyways, I will just start from the beginning.As most of you know, I was married, had 2 wonderful children, then divorced in the most horrible way. In fact, ALL of my actual relationships ended in the most horrible ways. What most of you don't know is, while I may be wild and rowdy, and do lots of things to many different women, what I want most is to settle down, and have your normal 2.5 kids white picket fence house with a dog. Yet the women I always seem to end up with are the wild crazy, party your ass off whores. So between that, growing up fat with a face full of zits, not having a father in my life, and having a mad woman for a mother, I have made some really bad choices. Also with that, I have gr

Today Blew Donkey D
I'm a broke single parent. A TRUE single parent. I get help with daycare through the state so I can work and go to college. I got a letter today saying I no longer get help with daycare starting in a week. So now instead of paying $120 a month I'm supposed to be able to pay $516? wtf?

Gone For A Bit
Hope u all dont think I have abandoned u! been busy trying to get my house back to livable again since the soon to be EX has moved out.... On Mon. the 13th I am taking a much needed little vaction cruise with my sister & neice for a week. Hope u all have a great week... if I can take my laptop with me I will try & stop in and say hello to everyone... love & miss U all, see U when I get back around the 14th!!!!!! Love "Sunshine"

Please Help National Kidney Foundation
As some of my friends know, I have a disease, called Polycystic kidneys. I have inherited this from my mother's side. I am writing to ask for donations . I am in the National Kidney Foundation walk, here in Boston, on May 17th. And, I want to raise at least $500.00 with my team. so please, click on this link, and donate for me? Any and all help will be appreciated. Thank You from the bottom of my heart!

Grrrrrrrrrrrr
TIME FOR ME TO FINALLY RANT..I DO NOT WANT TO HAVE TO NOD MY HEAD AND SMILE ALOT JUST TO BE ACCEPTED GRRRRRRRRRR I have been offline for a few weeks due to computer problems...It has come to my attention that while I was gone I had a few messages and alot of people got aggrivated because I did not add family or group members right away. So therefore I am withdrawing any involvement in ALL of my families and or groups except 2....World Rock Radio and Git-R-Done Family If anybody wishes to remain on my list leave a comment here OR send me a message..All those that do not will be removed..I am sick and tired of having to come on here and deal with shit when I have alot of other problems of my own I know this doesn't sound like me but it is..I try to be nice..I try to be understanding....and No as an answer to all the family questions that I have been getting I WILL NOT change my name and add such and such family.. As long as I have it or Had it somewhere on my profile it should b

Work Can Be Fun
I've spent the last several evenings working on a website to raise awareness about some issues involving capital punishment in general and that also focuses on Robert's case in particular. He's been writing his story and mailing it to me in installments for me to post and I have to say I'm really proud of how things are going. It's a work in progress, but it is definitely a good start. I'm pretty proud of things so far. I think my main reason for blogging about this, though, is to acknowledge in public view that I couldn't have done it without the help of a good friend...Davin. Some of you who read this may know him here on fubar as xaaltriolith. He's been helping with the technical issues I have just about as much as I've been working on the posting and writing the stuff for the site. He's been wonderful. Thank you--you're appreciated more than you know!

Funk
I can not shake this damn funk today... One of those days I feel like either crying or screaming.... but even I can't make up my mind on that one.... sorry to vent had to get it out for the reason I am being so distant.

How To View
Ok i'm sick of being asked 20 times a day how to view my NSFW pics so i'm putting it here. if you want to see you need to pay to get in. Bling packs are always welcome Blast VIP or Happy Hour talk to me first before you buy it. i know a lot of you want to see my pics so once you buy your way in i'll try to keep you in as long as i can Ladies talk to me first and i'll give you a discount on entry to family

To All My Real Friends
I just wanted to say goodbye to all the ones I have become really close too but at this point in my life I feel that it id best that I leave for a while. Those who I consider a real and true will know how to reach me. Much Love SwtChrryPie aka Michelle

Upcoming And Active Auto 11's
Hello everyone i thought id make this blog so that people can post when theyre goin to have autos. that way we can plan ahead and people wont post them all at the same time! if you have an upcomin auto please leave a message in the comments on this blog with the date and time youll be starting them, and one of us will add you to the blog! Thank You Luv Mzbooti2big

Lounge Rulez.....maybe? Lsao
Stormz Rulez to da Lounge Staff n Memberz of Spider Lounge (LURVE U) 1. First and foremost everyone has to agree to having fun! 2. Rule of lightning is that POSITIVELY POSITIVE! If we try over and over to get you out of your funk and you keep saying Negative Crap...you will be zapped by my lightning strikes like thisand then an ENFORCER takes over and reports it or Any OTHER STAFF MEMBER. 3. Let's have fun, this is a FUBAR, not a real bar. NO DRAMA FROM DA MAMA's or PAPA's, I WILL FLIRT UNTIL YOU HURT, CRY, PEE, or OTHA BODILY FUNCTIONZ. 4. MY OWN RULEZ AZ LOUNGE MAMA I don't want ur man, woman, family, and dog...well, maybe.I am reporting myself just now to DJ KYKY aka DJ Kentucky Goldisxilox and DJ DEATH..dont' take my life man keep killin uz with tunez or I will breathe life on u :) . 5.(not professional life) I am a dancer, a rapper, a virtual comedian, and talk TRASH...itz Stormies Stylez don't hate, trash talk back...let's ROX N BANTER.(I do dance and silly rap in real life but

Credit Cards
i would like to know if this has happened to u myself and 3 other close friends, who have their payments auto withdrawn have been double dipped, xtra money on top of regular pmt and when admiting that this was all a misunderstanding offer to give it back to u as cash advance that u get to pay interest on?? please reply and share this question, thanks Camper

Wolf Pack Radio Train
The Member's Of The Wolf Pack Radio Are Proud To Present To You Their Brightest And Best Staff Members So Add Them , Rate Them , And Show Them Some Love ♥~±‡±~M§.ßÁÐÐÁZZ~±‡±~♥ FUWIFE & ENGAGED TO DJSAVAGEBLACKWOLF Owner @Wolf Pack Radio@ fubar DJ SavageBlackWolf~ FUHUBBY & ENGAGED TO MSBADDAZZ~OWNER @WOLFPACK RADIO & DJ@ fubar PortoricanPrincess ~ Co owner of wolf pack Radio & Member of RR crew@ fubar LadyGothicFuWifey of Dj Van Helsing*GM @Wolf Pack Radio@ fubar *** Tiff*** Assistant General Manager@WolfPack Radio R/L fiance & Fuwifey to Lost In The Dark@ fubar And Presenting Their Dj's LovelyLady♥DJMANAGER@wolfpackradio&FUPastorette@ fubar £ost ÍnŤheÐark♦D.J. Mad_Hatter♦Dj & Assistent Dj Manager @ Wolf Pack Radio@ fubar

Can Men Tell The Truth?
ok these questions have just been buggin the ever livin shit out of me for so long, so i am hopin if i put this out there that I can get some real and honest answers... 1. why do guys like gettin a fat girls hopes up and just leavin them hangin? I mean come on guys do you just not understand what that does to a woman's self esteem, and then guys can't figure out why girls are always so down on themselves... 2. you are totally pursuing this fat chick, you tell her she's cute, sexy, pretty, hey wanna come meet me words, the girl gets there with hopeful intentions and instead of talking you figure she wouldn't have just come over to talk so i'm gonna bang her even if she is not so hot cause at least i'm getting my needs taken care of? 3. why do guys even use the old ass line "oh i'll call you tomorrow" or in this day and age "i'll text you" when you have no intention of ever calling her back anyway, unless your hard up for a lay? 4. when guys are gettin laid why do they even bother us

Well..
I won't be on all weekend again. I'm going to my friends house. I haven't seen her in months. So yeah. If you have my cell number, text me. I don't know if I'll be able to answer fast, but I will answer. :) Love you all!! Time for me to get ready for work. I'll probably be late =/

#1 For Agnes
A dear friend of ours is having a rough time. Her mother, Agnes,is in ICU and they have family coming in. Please pray for Agnes and her family. May they all have safe travel and may Agnes get better, all in God's Will. Angels Playground

My Crazy Life...
Hi All, I just wanted to let everyone know I don't know how often I will be online anymore. I am homeless right now, was kicked out of the sober-living house I was staying at and staying on people's couches until I can find somewhere to go. I am using the PC at the public library right now and won't be able to come here too often. So please pray for me and wish me well. My phone has been shut off so I can't recieve or make any calls, but hopefully that will be changed soon. I will try to come on whenever I can. I will miss you all in the meantime. Hey! I'm still sober Marc

The Derek Dude
yesterday this guy made a mumm about no more bombs...twice as a matter of fact! and during my cherry bomb today, this douche asks to be bombed!!! lmfao some people...well here we are in my sb, bottom to top as usual. he unblocked me so i could bomb him...after not accepting his friends request, cus i had a bomb, he blocked me again O'DEREK&CA...: and my friends list is real friends goodbye if not adding -> O'DEREK&CA...: my friends list is elite mummers and people i talk to...i didnt know who you were til ya rated me a 1 yesterday... O'DEREK&CA...: i sent a friends request you didnt except O'DEREK&CA...: will do your pics bro -> O'DEREK&CA...: why did you stop rating? O'DEREK&CA...: did bro -> O'DEREK&CA...: you gonna unblock slave? O'DEREK&CA...: i will ask her when wakes up why some are -> O'DEREK&CA...: well then clear out your blocked list and tell your wife to let you know when she does that O'DEREK&CA...: my wife blocks people aswell so i dont know why some a

Glasses?
I'm wondering, is me wearing glasses a new thing? I never thought so. I mean I've had glasses on in a lot of my pictures in the 2 years I've been on here. But I just got this as a comment on one of my pics.. " March 15, 2009 @ 8:06 pm since when does Per have glasses? " Should I be shocked that people don't really pay attention? lol

Transportation Cervixes
Yeah, you read it right. Some of you might have heard about the import/export class where I got stuck with two Russians asking some shady questions. Well, I was cleaning out my laptop bag today and I pulled out a business card from one of the Russian guys Victor Byaly President Ocean Transportation Cervixes Yup, we'll take your cervix across the world folks! It took me a full 3 minutes to catch my breath after reading his card. I work with people every day that speak English as a second language and still have a better command of the English language than the vast majority of Fubarians. However, I do enjoy a giggle at some of the mistakes here and there.

The Power Of The Spoken Word
I Ask You Now What Is More Powerful Than A Action. It Is That Of The Spoken Word. Words Affect Everything We Do. Rather It Be Love Or Hate. Happy Or Sad. Mad Or Glad. Words Can Hurt More Than Bullets More Than Sickness And Can Lead To Death. Wars Are Started And Ended By Words. Mothers Cry Children Die Because Of Words. Love Comes And Love Goes Because Of Words. Just Depends On How You Put It. So End The Hate And Tell Someone That You Care Because Only You Have The The Power To Change Someone's Life With The Power Of The Spoken Word.

My Foolish Heart
so many times my heart has done battle with my head my heart always seems to win knowing the strategies and pattern of defeat my head always pleads lets have a conference, please just listen to me I mean you no harm, in fact my goal is to protect please lets work together but my stubborn heart, it just wont listen it brags n boasts that it knows better that what it feels is real why not wrap myself in what I feel? why should I not revel in the emotions in the high of the moment my head exclaims you are so foolish, you wear no armor and walk blindly into the world and each time you go out you come back wounded when will you learn to put your stubborn ways to rest please, I beg you, listen to me, I know what is best what you so eagerly trust does not benefit us but my foolish,foolish stubborn heart it knows not what it does it sees a paradise and runs unprotected into the unknown not far from the door it is shot down wounded, bleeding and hurt my head runs out and

Auto 11s First Time Ever!!!!
SO I WILL BE RUNNING MY VERY FIRST AUTO 11s ON FRIDAT MARCH 20th @ 4PM EASTERN INTO SATURDAY PLEASE HELP ME LEVEL AND GET UR EXTRA POINTS I AM HOPING THIS WILL BE A EXELENT EXPERIENCE.... LETS HAVE SOME FUN!!! IF ANYONE HAS ANY IDEAS ON WHAT I CAN DO TO MAKE IT ALOT OF FUN SHOOT THEM MY WAY.... U CANT REPOST THIS SORRY SEE BULITIN.... TY MIKE

Shot To Hell
Well I was in a good mood earlier tonight. Now it sucks. I think I'm just going to have a smoke and call it a night. I'll check back in here to see if anyone has anything to say though. Ugh. I thought today was suppose to be a day where people were in good moods?

The Light
falling fast reaching out grasping air never meeting the ground so very lost calling out silent screams never to be found liquid prison waves crashing treading water am I going to drown? quiet surrender surrounding it's everywhere going nowhere but down something stirs inner strength fighting back this is not how it ends light pierces steals the dark calms my mind while this heart mends beautiful light shining strong unexpected too good to be true what is this saving me come to find the light resides in you

A Poem For Everyone Who Has Ever Lost Someone Close (the Way I Felt)
I try to cry but I can't. The pain I feel is choking me. I lost something that is so real, I think I lost the power to feel. No It's A dream, It Can't Be real, Everyone is lying, It Can't be, Why did the phone ring that night, F*ck you don't talk to me. My heart is shattered, I lost the will to fight, I hated God for taking my light. Who can I talk to now, Another candle got blown out. I just want to shout F the World. No reason to be the same as I was. My bro is gone. He was the only one I could trust. So what if he is in a better place I need him here. My life is in shambles it's like a dead rose. The Pain I Feel No One Knows. But Then It Hits Me. He Never Really Left He's Still Here. In My Heart, My Memories, And With The Impact He Left On Others, I Just Have To Know How To Listen, I Have A Angel Always With Me, All I Got To Do Is Talk And He'll Listen, He May Not Be Able To Talk Back Like I Want But He'll Talk Back In His Own Way. So I Breakdown and Shed My Tears But With A Smile O

Why The Woman Always Wins In Utah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
KINDA CORIOUS WHY THE WOMAN ALWAYS WINS. I RAISED MY KIDS FOR 4 YEARS AND NOW THAT IM DIVORCED I FUCKING LOSE MY KIDS AND ONLY GET TO SEE THEM EVERY OTHER WEEKEND. SHE GETS THE HOUSE AND PRETTY MUCH EVERYTHING IN IT AND ALL I GET IS TO LIVE IN MY CAR? I THINK THERE IS SOMETHING WRONG WITH THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THERE IS SUCH A THING AS A GOOD DAD. AND I KNOW THERE ISNT ONE BETTER THAN ME. I FORGOT TO ADD THAT I CALL THEM EVERY NIGHT AND WHEN THEY ASK ME DADDY WHY DONT YOU LIVE WITH US? OH MY GOD WHAT THE FUCK AM I SUPPOSED TO SAY? THAT YOUR MOM CHEATED ON ME AND NOW DADDY HATES HER.

New Skinz 3/18
I've added a couple of new skinz for public use. Previews are below. You are welcome to use any of the skinz that are titled with "PUBLIC" before the name, as the ones marked "CUSTOM" belong to other people. My skinz are best viewed at the highest screen setting (if it doesn't fit the screen, your settings are too low), and will NOT work if you have background images enabled. If you DO have a background set in your photo albums, the background will be replaced and only the banner will appear. To fix this, please disable any photos that you have set to use as background images on your profile. While I was away, I made about 30 public skinz, so keep an eye on my blog if you're interested. I'll be adding them here and there as I have the time. I hope to add several today, so this blog will change. Oh - if you haven't already, can you rate the blog? Thanks! Added 3/18: "Vintage Martini" "Sweet Friendship" "Strawberry Hello" "Release Me" "Pretty but Poiso

Time
9/13/08 1:32 am Slack-jawed, you slowly take a few more shallow breaths. The moment no one waits for and everyone waits for is here. Your eyes fly open, awed by something this grieving, blurry-eyed youth cannot see. Did She come to greet you? Did She take you by the hand and tell you it's alright? Whatever beautiful sight you beheld is gone, and you with it. Now, your flat eyes stare at nothing. The body that betrayed you lays still. Chaos swirls around you, but no longer within you. The moon glows. Flowers bloom. People talk. Everything continues, but in my head, the world has stopped. Moon beams dare not pass the clouds. Petals curl up on their pollen. No one speaks. I witnessed your death, and for the life of me, I shall never be the same. Of all the people I might have known to die, why did it have to be You? Ears are deafened by the sound of hearts breaking. Sorrow chokes the air from our lungs. Waves of longing wash our salty faces raw.

Closed Ty
okay it is simply enough.. if you want bombed. 1. make sure you have 250 pics in a folder 2. if you don't have auto 11's on rate one of my folders of 250pic. I have 11's on 3. leave a comment on this blog so i can easily find you. I will be bombing at 11:00pm central time tonight remember I only have one hour.

On Edge
So on top of all the other lovely thing going on in my life. Like abstentia siezures, gaining and losing 40 pounds of water within a couple of weeks, or my impending visit to the Mayo Clinic. I think maybe I might just be fucking PREGNANT! I've been two weeks "late" twice in my life. I also have two sons. Both of which were conceived at the worst possible time in my life. Of course I wouldn't trade them for anything, and they turned out to be exactly what I needed. The first I was 19 and STUPID, fell in "LOVE" within a matter of hours with a mack. I bought every line hook line and sinker. In fact I was on a date with his roommate. Obviously that didn't happen. I'd been clean for just over a year. We got high as a kite, one thing led to another and conceived a child. He loves to remind me of that night. Regardless that little boy put me on the right track. Then along came the boy I KNEW to stay away from. As super hot, fun, and sweet as he was, he was TROUBLE an

How Well Do You Really Want To Know Me?
So I got hooked up with a new chiropractor, because my last one bled me dry, he's a friend of my friend so he's being sensitive to my needs; no job and serious back injury We're looking at my x-ray and he's talking about how they looked for signs of cancer, arthritis, bone spurs, etc...then calmly assured my nervous self I had none. But then he points to this large black mass all around my spine, to which I start to freak out about wondering what horrible thing that could be and he turns to me and says, "This is your intestines, they aren't usually this dark." I immediately start thinking the worse and he turns to me without skipping a beat and asks, "How are your bowel movements?" And that is when he switched from being my friend's friend to my doctor, or else I would have died of embarrassment. Oh and he put me on a diet of high water content fruit for breakfast, so I'm noshing on grapes and watermelon I picked up from the store this morning. So how's your week b

Landmark Event
There is never quite a milestone in a child's life quite like when they learn to run to the bathroom to throw up. I am a proud momma today. Plus I had a glimpse into the future for when my daughter comes home wasted at 17 and I have to hold her hair back during her hangover. Myspace Countdowns, Fun Countdowns at WishAFriend.com

Want A 5 Credit Bling? Read...
Today I will have my Auto-11 activated. The person that rates the **most pics will be given their choice of a 5 credit Bling. Please Private Message me with the number of pics that you rated. **In the event of a tie, I will pick a number & the person that is closest to that number without going over will be the winner** Have fun & I hope that you level. ~~If you BOMB a folder that counts too, use that count for messaging me.~~ Thank-You all & Have a Great Day!! xoxoxo Please stop by & rate this pic while you're at it

Really Now?
Now I know I haven't made a MuMM in a long time, and that when I do..they are lame. However, I really do try to make it an actual MuMM. What I'm wondering is how can a person that is suppose to be "in charge" of the MuMMs, make one that is clearly a poll? It's not a MuMM at all. I bet you it won't get deleted. I bet they won't lose their MuMM privileges either. I know I could probably comment on said MuMM, but I'm pretty sure I mention it not being a MuMM, something will be done to me..well my account. I'm just venting.

Consistently Amazed
I work for a floral wire service. The biggest one there is membership wise, and no it isn't FTD. I've worked in lots of departments dealing with customers who bought flowers, to flower shops needing computer assistance. So just like I imagine anyone that deals with retail does I've heard a lot of ridiculous stuff and dealt with a lot of people who's stupidity baffled me. Today I had one that made me speechless. Which if you know me is a significant task. The job I currently do is titled Pre-Install Coordinator. Basically what it means is I send people from my company all over to install computer systems in flower shops. I've heard a million reasons why they are mad, or want to send the system back, or the how the system sucks. Today a woman at a flower shop called ma and in all seriousness wanted to return the system because it included COMPUTERS!! She signed a $10,000 loan and was willing to pay it for software alone, but was pissed and wanted to return it over new har

Look Here!
I AM IN A RATES ONLY CONTEST, TRYING TO WIN MY CHOICE OF AN AUTO 11 OR A CHERRY BOMB. ALL YOU HAVE TO DO IS RATE THE PIC BELOW PLEASE RATE MY PIC ALSO PLEASE ADD, FAN, RATE THE HOSTESS AND TELL HER I SENT YOU. SHE WILL ALSO BE RUNNING AUTOS THROUGHOUT THE CONTEST, SO FEEL FREE TO MOLEST HER WITH RATES OR BOMBS. •• . .ΜFĸŋ JÇ. . ••. . §ëЯ. . ••. . P.S. If you bling the hostess a cupcake with my name she will add 5 rates for each one!! TY in advance!

Good News
Sorry it's been so long since i've checked in. I've gone through alot these past few months. I went through 8 days of chemo, 29 external radiation treatments (thw side effects of this were much worse than the chemo), as well as 3 internal radiations that required surgery and a 2 day hospital stay. I have to say all the prayers have blessed me and as of Monday when they did surgery the doctor saw no visible signs of cancer, meaning the tumor was no longer there. He did the internal radiation to try to kill off any cells he wasn't seeing. I don't have to go back to the dr til April and we are quite confident I am in remission. Please continue the prayers that the cancer stays gone. Thanks for being such awesome friends! Much love and respect, Jackie

The Meaning Behind It
My new tattoo means no matter how bad your heart gets broken, how much you get rejected, neglected, or how many times you get screwed over, casted out, or misjudged God and his angels will always be there for you and heal your broken heart and guard it. Trust me, I've been though all on the list

Took Me Long Enough..
I finally got blocked today. And it was because I pointed out something obvious, too bad the truth hurts....Here's the MuMM and my comment. I couldn't post them together..too many comments between to get them in the same shot. Oh, and the reason I said, "let me say it again"...he deleted my comment about 3 times before he came to block me.

One Word
USING ONLY ONE WORD Not as easy as you might think! 1.Where is your cell phone right now? CHARGING Your significant other? GRINS Your hair? BROWN Your mother? BEAUTIFUL Your father? ASS Your favorite thing? KISSING Your dream last night? FADING Your favorite drink? AQUAFINA Your dream/goal? LOVE What room are you in? OFFICE Your hobby? GUITAR Your fear? LOVE Where do you want to be in 6 years? ALIVE Where were you last night? GRINS Something that you are not? CHEAP Muffins? BLUEBERRY Wish list item? STUDIO Last thing you did? BUBBLEBATH TV?

Pics
If you haven't noticed....I enjoy my sexuality and portraying it in pics. However, I try to keep it classy. I'm not all about letting my junk show. I'm selective about who sees my pvt folder as it is. My question to u guys is this...what do u consider classy and sexy? Pin up girls? Suicide Girls? Bondage? what gets u going? Personally, I like to see either great cleavage or a ripped tummy....but the pic is made by the personality of the person in it. Its possible for the classiest of poses to be turned trashy with just a look, or the ugliest person can make a great pic with the right lighting...lol anyways, comment the hell outta this and give me new pic ideas too. I'll consider all requests and try to get all possible and reasonable ones posted.

Setting The Record Straight.
First thing I am going to say is that I am not rejoining fubar, but there has been some things told to me that I feel I needed to tell my side of the story. A certain blog is floating around about me, making fake profiles and going to someone's page and rating him NSFW. First off, I came back one time after I quit to see if I could make amends, knowing they wouldn't be resolved, I said my goodbyes. Was going to try to work things out with my husband, and get things right with my life. School, work etc. Now I come to find out since I've been gone, people are saying things about me. Im not going to play the victim and whine about who beleives it and who doesn't, cause personally if you do, that's on you. I know who my friends are, that I have talked to on numerous occasions regarding this mess, and they have all told me to let it go, which I have. So just letting you guys know, I didn't make any fake profiles, I didnt' rate any pics or leave any harassing comments. I'm better

Help Out If Ya Can Plz-ty
.COM Click on Sweet and Sassys pic and Spank her to Disciple please!She has Autos Activated and she returns the love:)While there Fan/Rate/Add/Bling her just love her shes an awesome friend! sweet and sassy@ fubar imikimi - Customize Your World! .COM This Lovin Pimpout Brought to All of Fubar by:JoAnna

The Darkness Of Hope
what is a life when you are lonely, troubled from the companions, those who call you a lover or friend. dealing with hopeless thoughts of torture, driving you madly to breaking point, then making you collapse in fearful thought. living in darkness searching for the light, through pain scorching your emotions, making normality a strange fictional place. driving a steak into your mind, spearing the last little light from your soul, destroying the life you once had. hope fading dimmer under you heart, developing your fears and twisting them around, creating a uniqe reality where all is to real. yet hope finds a way to make itself brighter, fueling from passion and emotion, lighting the darkness so you can find your way.

My Life
Got a call from an old friend We used to be real close Said he couldn't go on the American way Closed the shop, sold the house Bought a ticket to the West Coast Now he gives them a stand-up routine in L.A. I don't need you to worry for me cause I'm alright I don't want you to tell me it's time to come home I don't care what you say anymore, this is my life Go ahead with your own life--leave me alone I never said you had to offer me a second chance I never said I was a victim of circumstance I still belong, don't get me wrong And you can speak your mind But not on my time They will tell you you can't sleep alone In a strange place Then they'll tell you you can't sleep With somebody else Ah, but sooner or later you sleep In your own space Either way it's okay You wake up with yourself

Following Daniel's Rules
RULE 1: You opened this; you GOTTA take it RULE 2: You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING unless someone messages you and asks! LAST PERSON YOU.... [1] Who was the last person you texted? jed who is also a form of punctuation [2] You were in the car with? evan [3] Went to the mall with? what's a mall? [4] Person you talked on the phone with? R

Who Said This?
And I said, I don't care if they lay me off either, because I told, I told Bill that if they move my desk one more time, then, then I'm, I'm quitting, I'm going to quit. And, and I told Don too, because they've moved my desk four times already this year, and I used to be over by the window, and I could see the squirrels, and they were married, but then, they switched from the Swingline to the Boston stapler, but I kept my Swingline stapler because it didn't bind up as much, and I kept the staples for the Swingline stapler and it's not okay because if they take my stapler then I'll set the building on fire...

Peeves
1) people that don't say "could you", or "please" (ordering instead of asking) I go out of my way not to comply, even at work. I guess their parents should've taught them better 2) People that speak too loudly. That really annoys me, esp since they tend to be stupid 3) People that are too outgoing. They are usually either selfish, or backstabbers 4) People that interrupt 5) People that think doing stupid shit is cool. No, its not. Its stupid...

God Came In An Ufo...
think about it... we were created in God's image... as we had evolved, our pinky toes and pinky fingers had gotten smaller... our brains got larger... more usage of dormant areas... our heads got bigger.... bodies are smaller, more fragile.... one day, we'll be in space, spreading our seeds.... God was an alien!

Sad Ocassion
This is the obituary for my best friend's baby. Her first baby miscarried and this baby was born as a still birth. They claim it was a fluke that this baby did not have any amniotic fluid and therefor did not develop the essential organs, but that has not made the process any easier for her. She was denied by her insurance to have the operation to remove the baby almost two months ago when they found out it would not make it full term because it was categorized as an "elective abortion." She was forced to carry full term until she went in to labor. Could that be any more cruel? [oh and if you don't approve of me posting this then gtfo idgaf] Kyle Matthew McGaha March 28, 2009 - March 28, 2009 Kyle Matthew McGaha Infant son of Kevin McGaha & Nicole Wright passed away on Saturday March 28, 2009 at St. Anthony Hospital. Kyle while only here a little while, warmed up the hearts of all his family. Kyle was preceded in death by Roy McGaha and Della King. Survived by his p

Spring Has Sprung
When my amaryllis stops blooming and the leaves die off, I hide it in the corner beside a bookshelf. The other day, I was cleaning and happened to peek at it. After a long winter rest, my amaryllis is very excited to see me. The amaryllis isn't the only plant that thinks it's spring. My jasmine is spilling out white flowers, carpeting the kitchen counter with fragrant, spent little star-shaped blossoms. The purple phalaenopsis orchid, a gift from J, is slowly becoming less shy, spreading its full, pouty petals to reveal its delicate sex. The oncidium orchid, a gift from me to me, has a small bud, the start of what looks like it will be a robust flower shoot. The white phalaenopsis, always eager to show off her goods, is back in bloom, and the virile white dendrobium hasn't even stopped for a break since November. Finally, though I hadn't noticed any hanky-panky in the corner, the banana tree now has a baby banana sidled up right next to it. (And here you thought no one w

Update On Scorpioqueen61
HEY EVERYONE......AS YOU ALL KNOW SCORPIOQUEEN61 WENT IN FOR HER SURGERY THIS MORNING.....SHE WAS IN GOOD SPIRITS WHEN I SPOKE TO HER ....WE WERE LAUGHING AND MAKING JOKES........I SPOKE TO HER MOM AROUND 1:30 AND SHE WAS GOING TO BE TAKING LYNNE HOME AROUND 3PM TODAY......PLEASE KEEP HER IN YOUR THOUGHTS ........ GLAD YOU PULLED THROUGH FINE BIATCH......JUST SUCKS I COULDNT HAVE BEEN THERE PHYSICALLY FOR YA.........LOVE YA GIRL.....

I Gotta Get It Off My Chest
OK, it's time for me to get this off my chest. Don't you just hate it when everytime you tried to talk to someone on Fubar and they just plain ignore you? I don't know what it is, but it's been happening to me lately. Everytime, I tried to talk to some people on Fubar, they just plain ignore me, well all I'm trying to do is be a good friend to them, well it seems to be one sided. They may think I'm "boring" to talk to or they're just plain stuck up. Well, they don't know me well enough to think of me that way, so they have no right to judge me or call me that, and obviously they want nothing to do with me and think nothing of me. I'm a nice person, I'm outgoing sometimes and I'm fun to talk to, but they steady blowing me off. And if they don't wanna talk to me anymore and keep blowing me off, they can delete me off their list, simple as that, because I have other friends on here that are worth my time, that care about me, and understands me a whole lot better. I'm not sayi

Some People
I hate people. I've said it before..and I really do mean it. The way they think that no matter what they do they are so much better than everyone else. The way they say one thing and then do another. They way they think that just because they SAY they love a person them acting like they do shouldn't really matter. The way that they know how to push people's buttons. The way that no matter how you say something, it's always bad. The way that everything you write or say is about them. The way that one minute everything is fine and the next minute, because of something stupid, you don't know how things are going to work out. Ugh, I'm pissed and I'm sad. I'm an emotional wreck. I want things to be stable in my life....

Smooth Operator?
This past Sunday we had a group of five guys come in to the tux shop to get fitted for a wedding. The groomsmen were hilarious, proclaiming to the groom that they were in the store to get fitted for the groom's funeral, instead of his wedding. After the manager and I got them all fitted, I asked them what they were doing afterward, and the groom responded, "Draaaanking." It made me laugh out loud. They were a bunch of funny dudes. While I was fitting groomsman number three, he randomly asked me if he could give me a hug. I raised my eyebrow a bit, and he said he just wanted to to test the fit of the jacket, and make sure it was comfortable. I let him hug me. It was a valid bit of research I suppose. It didn't come off creepy, just funny, though I seriously doubt he would have tried it on my male co-worker. Either he really was testing the jacket, or he was one smooth operator. Whatever the case may have been, it was nice to have relatively polite and funny peo

One Of Those Days
Today has been one of those days where I've felt like I've wanted to pull out all of my hair. It's just been bad and it has pissed me off more than a person could imagine. Let's see how it went for me. I have to start this last night because that's when I should have known it was going to be bad. I got a call from my boss saying she needed me to open. I was fine, didn't want to do it though. Then later on that night I hear screaming. My Mom and Step-Dad got into it again. Nothing new, I'm use to it. Then I'm being screamed at by my Mother because I say something about not wanting her to fall. Needless to say I was told I "hadn't seen nothing" and that I "didn't care". I knew that her yelling at me was just her being caught up in the moment but there I was sitting on the front porch crying. Stupid really now that I think about it, because not even half of everything else bad had even happened yet. Long story short....she was filling out divorce papers and I was suddenly left not kn

Heading To Gator Country
Tonight is my last night of work for a while, I'm heading down to Florida Friday morning and I won't be back til Wednesday, and I doubt if I'll be online at all. I'm going down to Ocala area to attend a wedding (little Cousin Sara, all growed up!!). Of course since I'll be so close, I'm going to go visit the Don Garlits Drag Racing Museum. Yay. I'll catch up with everyone when I get back until then I wish you all the best. *MUAH* (Enjoy some Hatchet while I'm gone..)

Wow ... Want A Job? Lmfao Idiots Again :p
Usually i sit and rant about the assholes on here, but honestly i think this one speaks for himself... ghost and i were sittin here chillin and in my shoutbox pops up the following... (as per usual, people, read from the bottom up) ... btw, if you click the screenshot, it will not lead to the asshole this time, fuck him he doesn't need page views, it leads to an enormously long tongue referenced in the ss) love ya's, ~sin p.s. atlantic city fucking ROCKS

Shames
Hello all SILK'S wonderful freinds. This is her husband, I just wanted to let everyone know that SILK & I became proud parents once again. Shames Orin B. was born was born @ 8:49p.m. (M.S.T.) on April 2nd He weighs in @ 8lbs 4oz & is health, & doing well. For those of you that know my wife & the health issues she has been dealing with through the last couple mounths, she too is doing well exausted & resting quietly. When I asked Shames his thoughts on the days events he I got a blank stare & a garggling noise. If you would like to check my profile out & congratulate me you can find a link below: DJ~SATIN~a.k.a~CAPTAIN~DRAGON ☠Drunken Pirate Casino ☠ {Pirate King}@ fubar Here are a couple pics of my new Boy: P.S.: Yes we do realize his initials are S.O.B. lol.

Die, Pee Wee! Die!!
i would like to think that i'm a tolerant, open-minded person. i try to accept everyone for who they are - even if they rub me the wrong way. but try as i may, i cannot grasp this juggalo thing. maybe it's my aversion to clowns, or maybe it's their mindless adherence to a pop culture fad. i dunno. either way, i'd love to take pee wee's hatchet and shove it up his ass.

A Mothers Pain
A MOTHERS PAIN Current mood:DESTROYED Category: Writing and Poetry HAVE FELT ALOT OF PAIN THROUGH OUT THE YEARS, BUT THERE IS NO GREATERPAIN THEN WHEN YOU HAVE TO STAND BY AND WATCH ONE OF YOUR MOSTPRECIOUS IMPORTANT THINGS IN YOUR LIFE (MEANING YOUR CHILD) SLOWLYKILLING HIMSELF. i FEEL LIKE MY HANDS ARE RESTRAINED AND THERE ISNOTHING I CAN DO. i HAVE TRIED EVERY THING, TEARS, BEGGING , PLEADING,ANGER, LOVE ACCEPTANCE AND NOTHING WILL HELP. OFFICIALLY AN ADULT NOWALL I CAN DO IS PRAY THAT MY PRECIOUS CHILD GETS HELP AND HIS LIFETURNS QUICKLY BECAUSE THE PATH HE HAS CHOSEN IS DESTROYING THIS FAMILYAND BRINGING US TO OUR KNEES. I SIT AND ASK WHAT DID I DO WRONG > IHAVE NEVER SAID I WAS A PERFECT PARENT BECAUSE NONE OF US ARE, BUT I DOKNOW THIS I HAVE LOVED, SUPPORTED AND UNFORTUNANTLY ENABLED MY CHILD TODO SOME THINGS, AS MY PARENTAL INSTINCT WAS TO PROTECT. LESSON LEARNEDTHE HARD WAY.. I HAVE CHOSEN TOUGH LOVE AND MY FOOT IS FIRMLY PLANTEDAND WILL

Single And Hateing It
http://www.fubar.com/user/661119 Single and...:will you watch me cum? ME->...: eww No Single and...: y not? im hard and its big ME->...: Bye Single and ...: no sexy im straight Me-> ...: thats BI .... when I say BYE means leave me alone Single and ...: god baby im about to cum to your pics!!!!! damn your fine!!!

The Boss
love that could never be the love you said you have for me i tried to make it right and go at it again but u blew it away linke sand in the wind i'm not someone you can bend or mold i'm very simple just want someone to hold someone thats there and treats me right someone i truly love morning noon and night no yelling and screaming about the past or friends no telling me its over that this is the end thought perfect far from am i at least you have to admit i try for all the sadness and the tears we coulda had many a wonderful year but you chose to throw it away i was just a game for you to play but you did teach me alot none of which will be forgot but the truth you cannot see i am so am so much better and stronger than the because you threw me out like trash into this big pool of life with a splash discarded like yesterdays news like old long forgotten shoes i am so much better you will see im not just what and who you want me to be im so much more than what

Men... Help Me Figure This Out
This dose not go for all men just most of them... Why the hell do you all feel like you need to lie to us women... I have never lied to a guy once and there are times that i probly should have... And should we call you out when we know you are lieing? What is the best way to deal with you when we think you are lieing... I have this guy I am in to and use to think he was equaly in to me. After we finaly met things changed and he told me that he was not sure i really liked him cause i didnt talk all that much. Then while we are talking about meeting up again I find out he has a GF she contacted me and was like i know you are my BF's friend and all, i told her that i didnt know he had a GF... I was going to be done with him for lieing or at least not telling me he had a GF.. But he still wants to see me and i am not sure what he is looking for... He gets upset if i talk about finding a guy (looking for a real BF), or if i go out with another guy. He claims that he is now singel but he h

Top 10- Or 11- Redneck Pickup Lines
1) Did you fart? cuz you just blew me away. 2) Are yer parents retarded? cuz ya sure are special. 3) My Love fer you is like diarrhea . I can't hold it in. 4) Do you have a library card? cuz I'd like to sign you out 5) Is there a mirror in yer pants? cuz I can see myself in em. 6) If you was a tree & I was a Squirrel, I'd store my nuts in yer hole. 7) You might not be the best lookin girl here, but beauty's only a light switch away. 8) I know I'm not no Fred Flintstone, but I bet I can make yer bed-rock. 9) Yer eyes are as blue as window cleaner. 10) If yer gunna regret this in the mornin, we kin sleep til afternoon. AND.. the best for last! 11) Yer face reminds me of a wrench,

Relationships Really Blow Sometimes!
OMG I am so sick of people telling me they love me then fucking ripping my heart out of my chest, cuttin it up into millions of pieces throwing them on the ground & stomping on them. Why are men like that? Most Men I have an interest in turn out to be players or someone who thinks its fun to play with your emotions. I'm so done with it all. Don't you ever tell me you love me unless you mean it with all your heart or i'll tell you right where you can go & how to fuckin get there. Sorry just had to fuckin vent!

Need Some Help Here!
Ok so my AWESOME Girl Fiesty got a late start in this contest! So I need you guys to go love her hard! http://fubar.com/photo.php?u=1826462&albumid=1610998&i=2077497181&idx=0 Go rate and comment the hell out of her pic PLZ!!!

A Little Surprise
So today I desided to take the kids out for lunch. while there they say that they would like to go to Wal-Mart to get new coloring books. So after our nice little lunch of to Wal-mart we go. So we are in and out which is pretty new cause i could spend hours with the kids there. (not a big shocker) So off on the long drive home we go. we live out in the boonies pretty much. While we drive down the wooded road i see a lil thing run across the road. I slam on my brakes trying to avoid what ever it is. Then I pull off to the side of the road cause I don't want anyone else to hit this little animal. To my surprise it was a baby kitten who has lost its mommy. She could be no more than 5 weeks old. I look around on both sides of the road. there was no mommy and no more kittens. So being the animal lover that I am I scoop up the little gal and bring her home. Of course the kids see her and fall in love with her and to my next surprise the dogs love her to. My other cat hates he with a

~little Dick ~
Little Dick Murphy little dic...: hahaha.so your the guy that buys 30 day blasts for chicks on here who are actually guys posting pics of chicks from porno sites.lmfao.you're a bright one guido..: it'd would be great to know who they are....and thx for the insight....it's hard keeping up with everything sometimes....and ur right...it's not that bright if that's happening...thank you. This is what I signed on to today...I came on with hopes of helping My Precious Friend "Black Widow" with her Happy Hour but missed it by one hour...sorry C. I only try to help and never ask anything in return...if I have sent gifts, bling, blasts, etc to someone posing as something other that who they really are then that is more a reflection on them then on me. I'm not here for Tits and Ass...I'm here for friends and sometimes flirtations. "Little Dick Murphy" sent that message to me...I don't know him from Adam and if he knows about a fake poser then he should step up and expose them to keep thi

Once Upon Good Friday
And there he sat, stone rolled back, and an angel sat upon the floor and there in the corner lay the wrapings neatly rolled in the corner. Upon entering the tomb, the woman bowed down. and the angel said unto her. "Woman, Peter Cottontail doesn't work this side of town." The woman raised her eyes and looked upon the angel. "But how can this be, as I do not know the touch of credit cards. I am but a handmaiden and yet, with the right marketing even this lame spiritual occasion could take off..." And the angel was delighted and joined by a heavenly host and they chimed as one... " Only with the power of Macy's" And then it was as if the earth did open and from it i ssued children and they tossed into the pit the chocolate bunnies of their parents and bellowed forth for the nifty technological devices of today. And the stores saw that they made money and that it was good and the parents smiled for they had what their forefathers had not, another day to spend cash. And somewhere, l

Crazy Bitches
My status says "Go Rape Sho's 11s" I get this in my shoutbox from (http://fubar.com/user/610579) right before she blocked me. Read bottom to top, of course. ❤HORNY ANG...: maybe it says rape thats the word im talking about but i have more pull around here than u so have a good one lmao maybe u will get raped one day❤HORNY ANG...: good way to weed out the weirdos though... i guess the normal ppl dont use the term rape as in taking by force... when speaking of rating-> ❤HORNY ANG...: maybe you need to re-read my comment, it does not say go rape sho, it says go rape her 11's..❤HORNY ANG...: but maybe u havent been raped❤HORNY ANG...: well for almost 3 yrs i see a few ppl say it but WE dont usually play with a serious word like that-> ❤HORNY ANG...: that's what we usually say about going to rate all the pics for someone with 11's.❤HORNY ANG...: then what.....❤HORNY ANG...: nice word to use-> ❤HORNY ANG...: yes❤HORNY

Saturday
My daughter just called and invited me up to my grandma's for an early Easter dinner tonight. I am hesitant on going because all of what is going on with my family, but I am going to go for my daughters sake. I am the outcast and totally the blacksheep of the family, they have never forgiven me for my past for the most part, even though it has been 6 years. I am a nervous about going, I am going to be walking on eggshells even more then I am here. I have a feeling my mother told my sisters about the situation, who I know have big mouths and will tell the rest of the relatives. I wish I could just curl up and forget life for the time being, but I know I can't which makes it all harder. This stress is tearing me up, I haven't been on here a lot and been doing a lot of sleeping, waking up with horrific nightmares.

They Have Laser Surgery For That
Can I just stab every wanton, whorish, skank in the eye? Please? Put some fucking clothes on, ffs. It's fucking old. Just like your tore up girly parts. You give it away with coupons. Shits hangin, almost touching the floor. *FAP FAP FAP* That's not a dude gettin off on your fish taco, that's the sound of your bat wings tryna take off for flight. Meat curtains. Gaper. Axe wound. Close it up!! -REL

Yim Love
A little bit of insight, to those who have wondered how our conversations go daily. This was our most recent convo, over YIM, while she was at work Kara Peregrine: I haz a mouth vag? scorpiofire: hah...way bettter though Kara Peregrine: Way better why? scorpiofire: well, cuz i can grab your ass, and hips...and fuckin pound into it...and cum inside you...i try that with your mouth, youll choke and bite me ween0r off Kara Peregrine: Pretty much... But then you'd have your dream of being a chick fulfilled. scorpiofire: fuck no..i want chick tits, not bitch tits...My names NOT robert Paulson Kara Peregrine: You wouldn't have to tuck it anymore for your nude pics if I bit it off scorpiofire: Im blogging this conversation, lmao Kara Peregrine: Go for it.. You're the one who will look ghey. scorpiofire: i know.... Kara Peregrine: Not like you haven't before though... scorpiofire: i look ghey all the time, woman Kara Peregrine: I know. People even t

Loss Unexpected
Sometimes we really need to stop and think, "DO the people in our lives really know how we feel about them". Yesterday I recieved a call from a friend I haven't spoken to in five years, he called me from the hospital, barely able to talk. He wanted me to know that he was admitted for an overdose and wasn't feeling too great! He had called me a while back and I was too busy to call him back. Dustin was my friend, my first kiss, my first boyfriend! He meant a lot to me, he was by my side through all my years of foster care and was always there to hold me when I cried. How could I have been too busy for someone who dropped their world for me? He had the worst parents you could imagine, I think they actually hated him! Last night we only talked about five minutes but it was heart breaking. He sounded like and 80 year old man, all out of breath and weazing! I held back tears as I told him I was soooo sorry for ignoring him! I told him I would call him back today, well he didn't make it to h

Kids Today...
Honestly, WTF is wrong with parents today? Theres this little bastard in my backyard right now playing with my son and the damn kid has no fucking respect. My kids may act like little assholes to me somedays but I know that if they ever go to someone else's house that they are respectful and kind to them. Its ridiculous. The kid is about to get a major ass whopping from me.

One Slighty Used
Uterus!!! I have no use for it. I am not in the market to produce anymore spawn! I am also happy to sell any eggs left in the freaking oven also. Man,it was supposed to be a very lovely night of sex. Yes,God hates me and Aunt Flow is loving me. I think My bible thumping cross loving angels all over her room Aunt has cursed me! I swear everytime there is a slight possibility of sex I get screwed and not in the way I was hoping for! :(

For All Parents
Someday when my children are old enough tounderstand the logic that motivates a parent,I will tell them, as my Mean Mom told me: I loved you enough to ask where you were going,with whom, and what time you would be home. I loved you enough to be silent and let youdiscover that your new best friend was a creep. I loved you enough to stand over you fortwo hours while you cleaned your room,a job that should have taken 15 minutes. I loved you enough to let you see anger,disappointment, and tears in my eyes.Children must learn that their parents aren't perfect. I loved you enough to let you assume theresponsibility for your actions even when thepenalties were so harsh they almost broke my heart. But most of all, I loved you enough to sayNO when I knew you would hate me for it. Those were the most difficult battles of all.I'm glad I won them, because in the end you won, too.And someday when your children are old enough tounderstand the logic that motivates parents, you will tell the

Lol You're Not So Bad
So I'm a bit riled up since last night and tonight I get this little crybaby punk wanting to start stuff about me. Last night he's sending people messages claiming how I'm not helping someone who helped me in a contest. Okay for starters MORON I wasn't ONLINE most of the day. Just because my account is signed on does NOT mean I'm near the computer. Maybe you sit at your computer 24/7 staring at the screen hoping any chick will hit on you and maybe make your pathetic life mean something for 2 seconds but I don't. This pansy is one of those who thinks he's such a badass. He's the bad boy of Fubar because his account got locked. Um dude...PLENTY of people have gotten their accounts locked. It doesn't make you a badass. It means you did something stupid. But I've had to laugh. This pathetic punk HATES me because I made a mistake and kind of got in the middle of something. Long story to that but regardless that issue is over and done with. Anyways he decided to pick sides o

Update On Playboy Party
So hard to come up with $1,000 in less than a week! So I spoke with the exec. director of the charity and he was grateful for my support of our troops so he's making a deal with me and he's also allowing me to make a down payment, as there were only 14 tickets left when we talked so I need to secure one now. I'm trying to get my back healed so I can work before the event to raise the money for flight and hotel...oh and maybe food! If you want to donate you can go here Charm Your Karma and click on the About link in the top right corner. Let me stress that donating is not directly contributed to the event, but to me to get to the event. For those who don't know, my trip to the Playboy Mansion is for a good cause...I know, I know...open bar, gourmet buffet,, live dj and beautiful half naked women BUT they have parties there all the time, this one is special because it's supporting wounded soldiers. My plan is to network with the wealthy philanthropists in attendance in order to secur

Obsession
I fucking love the movie Fight Club. No, I have not read the book. Yes, I realize that makes me an epic failure. No, I don't care. Anyway.These are some of my favorite quotes from the movie. Tyler Durden: Man, I see in fight club the strongest and smartest men who've ever lived. I see all this potential, and I see squandering. God damn it, an entire generation pumping gas, waiting tables; slaves with white collars. Advertising has us chasing cars and clothes, working jobs we hate so we can buy shit we don't need. We're the middle children of history, man. No purpose or place. We have no Great War. No Great Depression. Our Great War's a spiritual war... our Great Depression is our lives. We've all been raised on television to believe that one day we'd all be millionaires, and movie gods, and rock stars. But we won't. And we're slowly learning that fact. And we're very, very pissed off. Tyler Durden: You're not your job. You're not how much money you have in the bank. You're not the

Big_daddy
HEY EVERYONE....IF YOU ALL HAVE TIME....PLEASE GO HIT THIS GUY UP....SHOW HIM SOME ZODIAK LOVE.....HE IS ONLY 35K AWAY FROM LEVEL 16.....HE DOESN'T HAVE A TON OF PICS SO IT WON'T TAKE LONG TO SHOW HIM SOME LOVE...... Big_Daddy@ fubar

What Ice Cream Dreams Are Made Of Part I.
Lilly in Wonderland said: Gah, I'm so bored. Read me a story? ❤Omnia Vincit Amor❤ said: once upon a time... in a land far, too damn far away like over the hill through the meadow, and 23345.3059 more miles away.. there lived a beautiful princess named hmmm..named lillywiththeprettyface haha but this princess was unlike any other! some would say she was a bit....hmm obsessed yes thats it! obsessed with old gray haired men with big man meat! Lilly in Wonderland said: ......this princess, on her quest for the ultimate in old man meat, stumbles upon a beautifulsexiness princess named, Ms.BobbiBretsassaicecreamyummyness. She too was obsessed with the unattainable. ( But let's face it, if these princesses put their heads together and showed some thigh, could totally score.) They made a bond of friendship, and totally mocked every fu-tard in the land.... ❤Omnia Vincit Amor❤ said: one day lillywiththeprettface and bobbibreatassaicecreamyumm

Ian
Tonight, I get a call from my son Ian, asking me to come and check out his tux that he's wearing for prom. He's only a Freshman, but is dating a Junior, so he can "legally" go to the prom as long as it was her that asked him. Ok..I'm gonna get long and a bit sappy here. So bare with me. When I got to Mom's house, he said, "Hold on Dad, I want to make a grand entrance" and went upstairs to change into it. As I stood there waiting for him, I talked with my ex, and Neil and Nevin. Then Ian, comes walking down the stairs, with this white tux on, black tie, and a white fedora, his dark brown hair jutting out from the sides of his hat.. I immediately envisioned the day I saw him come into this world...I was the first to see his head crown. The memories of me holding him, literally, on the length of my arm, and rubbing his nose try to get him to go to sleep. Him swimming naked in the kiddie pool as I ran video tape. All of us laying in bed together playing the ABC game, when they had

Porker
I REALLY need to lose some fuckin weight for the summer, so I have started running...twice...and that was it. My fat ass is just unmotivated enough to go every day, and I always expect instant results. Like if I go once, I expect to lose 15 fuckin lbs. I wish I could go to a bootcamp or somethin. I have no discipline at all... I have great agility and muscle strength, but otherwise shamu, here I come. ughh... /sadz

Only True Friends Knew Him
This world can analyze and size you up and throw you on the scales They can I.Q. you and run you through Their rigorous details They can do their best to rate you And they'll place you on the charts And then back it up with scientific smarts But there's more to what you're worth Than their human eyes can see Oh, I say the measure of a man Is not how tall you stand How wealthy or intelligent you are 'Cause I've found out the measure of a man God knows and understands For hel ooks inside to the bottom of your heart And what's in the heart defines The measure of a man.

Everyone's An E-cop
Okay further to my blog on Scarred. Let me advise that I am not aware that Scarred has returned in any way shape or form..... I have not spoken to him and quite frankly, if I did, I wouldn't be telling anyone about it. I, like many, am an online friend of Scarred. Nothing more. I have had contact with green accounts ... but they could be anyone. I know of a number of people that were out to tarnish his name and reputation, due to the fact they didn't get what they wanted from him I will no longer answer any questions from anyone about Scarred. I have blocked Jaded Angel and DJ Icepick or whatever his name is ... due to the fact that they pop in and pop out at their leisure seeking information from what is going on in my profile. If this doesn't cease I will report to Fubar Admin, and claim harrassment. Leave me out of it. Now eff off and find another dead horse to flog. With Love Xena

Please Read Everyone-ty(help Needed)
imikimi - Customize Your World! imikimi - Customize Your World! Click on my pic to take ya to the contest linkall help is appreciated!Comments dont count just rates:)Please show the Host some Love while ur there if ya would!

Synecdoche, New York
Possibly Kaufman's most nuts yet, and yet certainly his most beautiful. Pretentious, yes. Tedious, in places. But one of the more breathtakingly original movies I've seen in years. PSH is on top form, and supported by an amazing cast. Loved, loved, loved this movie. GO SEE IT! Kins said so.

Make Out Music
Back in the 90's (college days) Journey had the cd for making out. I think this decade belongs to Sondre Lerche. Yeah - ya prob never heard of him - but type his name in to youtube and try 'my hands are shaking' So -what do ya think?

Reckless
Nowadays, there are millions of advice on how to keep safe from predators, online or in RL. Most of that advice targets women, being under assumption that only women are prone to become targets of violent crimes, psycho behavior, etc. I guess Aileen Vuornos doesn't ring a bell. While women are extremely cautious to meet new people from online, due to a hype that every outsider is a predator, men are always eager to hook up with any strange flooze out there. Its not too hard for a woman to lure a man in, then attack him with mace/knife/gun. More often than not, she might have an accomplice, which would carry out the deed. There are alot of psychotic women out there, nad its sad that men completely disregard this fact, and that all those warnings are mostly for women.

Ughhh So Annoying
ok so i have a new pet peeve.. not really new but its been like rediculous lately. I swear i hear " What do you do for fun?" like 80 times a day! that is sooo anoying. first of all im not one for small talk. I just dont like it, and second of all how the hell are you supposed to answer that question anyways? so for all of you 18 million people who ask me this daily.... I dont!!! I have 2 children and a goddaughter and a grown ass man (RJ) that i take care of daily. I am a stay at home mom and thats exactly what i do.. stay at home lmao and im perfectly happy with that... Fubar is my fun hence why im in the top 10. anyways end of rant lmao. xoxo--- NeaNea

Swine
Several years ago, I worked at a child care center, and there was a nasty hateful Muslim woman working with me. SHe would always spew varius crap, and it was gettin old. SHe always brought in her stinky soup, and put it in a fridge for lunch. I had some Wendys bacon bits, and into her soup they went. WHen it was time for her lunch, I watched her eat the soup with bacon in it. I was waiting for her to maybe melt, or puke, but nothin...I wonder if she wont gt her virgins now...

The Boot Tree
Some of you may know, but I'm afraid of heights. This all began for me when I fell out of a tree as a kid. Before that, you couldn't find anything that I was afraid to climb. When I was in the Army, at my first duty assignment (Berlin, Germany) the department I was assigned to required a security clearance, and mine had not come through yet, so as a result, I was temporarily assigned to "casual status", along with losers who had lost their security clearance because of illegal activities and stuff like that, and of course other people like me who were new soldiers and just did not have one yet. We had all sorts of interesting jobs; painting yellow stripes in the parking lot, cutting grass, cleaning up the dayroom, etc. Any kind of bullshit job that needed a few bodies to do, you grabbed a couple of soldiers that were on "casual" status (see my blog about cutting up power cables for example = http://www.fubar.com/blog/259107/931933 ).Well there is a tradition in the Army, when your time

Untitled
I AM NOT THE GIRL NEXT DOOR I HATE APPLE PIE CHEERLEADERS SUCK ID MAKE THEM CRY I WEAR MY DRESSES SHORT MY HEELS HIGH IF YOU DON'T LIKE WHAT YOU SEE YOU CAN CLOSE YOUR EYES I LOVE ATTENTION I FIGHT, I SCREAM I CAN BE YOUR WORST NIGHMARE OR BEST WET DREAM NO STRANGER TO HANGOVERS ALCOHOL IS MY BEST FRIEND ILL DRINK WHATEVER'S IN SIGHT THEN WATCH AS THE ROOM SPINS IVE KISSED GIRLS HAD MY WAY WITH BOYS I LIKE TO PLAY ILL MAKE YOU MY TOY

That Time Has Come...
OK So I thought it was kinda that time...Time for me to leave and get in with the real things in life, like looking for a job...My profile will be locked down so no one can view it...It's been a good 2 n a half years. I've made some amazing friends, met my amazing other half and all round it's just been my get away from the harsh realities of life...Now it's time to focus on the real life things instead of shying away from them...I know many will try and talk me out of it but my mind is made up, I spend far to long on this site to the extent it was all I done, it made my depression worse now it's time to get out of that rut and start afresh... I guess at some point I could come back after some time away but I just don't know...I need to put myself first instead of a site, I know I won't be deleting because as forementioned I've met some amazing friends and my other half so its kinda like my reminder that good comes out of the online thing...I'll still have my yahoo for those who have t

Intruding
I left my cell at work, but want to go over to my dad's (he lives above me, down the hall). I am thinkin of just goin over there, but worried that he might be "doin it" with his wife. And that would be traumatic. grrr..

Prequel
..i have a twin sister who is the yen 2 my yang. She has a beautiful soul but her mind is sick; her spirit is crippled & is, there4, fundamentally bad. I love her but do not like her. I, too, am mentally ill. DON'T BE SCARED! I function well most days & have the know w/ all 2 stay the hell away from the world when im not. Its the nature of the beast; it runs deep n my mother's family & affects mostly the women. I am not lost because i know that a sick head is chemistry. My soul is wise & my heart is happy so there is a perpetual belief that theres a cold beer & a hug on the other side of my hell. It makes the crawl thru much easier 2 toler8. Does that make sense? I hav an xtremely low self esteem but am selfless by nature so it doesn't diminish the quality of my life. I'v never had an enemy. Every1 i have evr known has loved me & does love me still. I fall in love easily but without pain and it is forever. I am happy when sum1 i love falls n love w/ anothr. love isnt a possession. ..

5 Reasons Why You Should Date A Fat..err..voluptuous Girl Now!
Bored and somewhat in denial of the long lists of tasks that I had to accomplish yesterday, I slipped into my age-old habit of seeing what was out there on cyberspace. Interestingly enough, I came across this blog post - a discussion of sorts as to why geeks make good lovers.It seems that girls are always hesitant on the geeks, no? This launched my own thoughts on what kind of girls guys are always hesitant on. And then it hit me- Fat chicks..Uhhh..I think the more politically correct term would be Vertically challenged OR healthy. Anyway, as an answer of sorts, I’ve compiled my own reasons on why Healthy Chicks make better lovers! In no particular order, they are:1. Big girls are nicer to hug and cuddle with. A girl of skin and bones proportion would be nothing but hard edges and planes. Ouch! That’s sure to give you a bruising, especially with all the activities you’ll be doing in bed! Compare that to a voluptuous girl, and its like comparing a rock to a pillow! No

Why Does Age Have To Be About Age?
As i grow older each year Time becomes more dear The heart starts to feel more And comes from deep within the core As we get older guys tend to become younger And the heart is pulled under But why does Age have to be about age ? It is just another book with more then one page Noone can choose who the heart loves It is just something that it does Sure love hurts and that is why walls are built To protect the heart that is like silk If I had just one wish

My Nsfw Pics
If you want to see my NSFW pics, SEND ME A 25 BLING PACK and I'll automatically open it. If you'd rather send fubucks, then send me a Private Message and I might make a deal. =] (Offer in the millions) Also a 7day blast will do. (YOU DONT HAVE TO MESSAGE ME FIRST, IF YOU JUST BUY IT YOU'LL IMMEDIATELY BE LET INTO MY FAMILY TO SEE THE PICTURES) For those of you that don't know how to get me a Bling Pack: Go to my page, click "bling me", then at the bottom right it says "Give someone Bling Credits" click that, then click my name in the list of people and send me a 25credit one. Also offering personalized NSFW salutes for a 25 credit blingpack. **This is seperate from the nsfw pics** Send me a blingpack with your email address and what you want the nsfw salute to look like/where you want me to write your name or anything like that, and I'll email it to you within a day or so.

Mr Loser
->Tongue2Swe...: and I bet you have a lot of suck-sess with women->Tongue2Swe...: I cant lose more than you did when you were bornTongue2Swe...: block me slut beause u won't win here->Tongue2Swe...: lmao, you are the one that looks like a bloated crab in your defaultTongue2Swe...: well hun you are fat and ugly like all the women here but you think you are nice because of the wimpy guys that make a big deal about you....in my book your a ugly tramp cunt ....abd fat->Tongue2Swe...: it would be nicer if you could put that cap up your assholeTongue2Swe...: would u like it better if i shaved my head and wore a baseball cap backwards like the wimpy guys your age?->Tongue2Swe...: its not the age, its the faceTongue2Swe...: don't let age fool u dear->Tongue2Swe...: i doubt itTongue2Swe...: 2 inches on a good day hun but you would like it

My Beautiful Wife Is The Best
Mary you are so loved.........Luv Jesse, Skyler, Mandy, Logan, Autumn, and Brooklyn. I love you so much baby I am the luckiest husband alive and I will never forget that. Go show my wife some luv for mothers day please and tell her that her husband said she is the best.She is my number one in family and friends. I just wanted to say a few things to my beautiful wife. You are everything to our beautiful daughter and I. You keep us smiling when we are down. you make us cry when you cry. You are the best mother a daughter and son could have. All your kids light up when you walk in a room. I light up when you touch my hand and my heart pounds like on the day we got married. You are worth more to us then anything. We need you more than ever and we want to hold you when times are tough. On mothers day we just want you to know that no matter what we will never give up on you. We will always make you proud. We feel safe in your heart and your arms. You're love gives us all hope for the f

*snorts*
hey babe yu are so sexy is ther anyone in your life cuz i would luv ya lol so wht r u lookin for on here im tryin this out for fun ^^^this dude claims to be the CFO of a major corporation *giggles uncontrollably*

Donde Yo Pertenezco
Donde yo pertenezcoSin un toqueusted ha hecho asi muchasSus palabras tiernas y mirar amoroso de almaEn sus ojos yo puedover el corazon apacibleEs el anhelo paea ser adoradoMe da su manoy me toma con ustedMe muestra lo que su quiereA le cayo me tieneAdorar aptredome para siemprey unica soltandoCarla K.

Bad News
"There may have been some speculation about what this meeting was called for, and I hate to be the person to have to verify that your fears were correct. The Provost's office has come back with budget figures for next fiscal year (July 1 2009) and ICAPP funds have been withdrawn." Translation: Due to economic hardships, tax revenue has declined, the governor’s office is facing a much tighter budget and your jobs have been sacrificed to make the bottom line black instead of red. “The Dean is working really hard with the Provost to come up with some solutions, and this may not really be the end all, something may come up. But really, the best idea is if you start looking for new jobs.” Translation: There isn’t crap we can do about it. “I’d really like for you guys to get me your resumes so I can see if there is some place you might be able to go here. We are going to try really hard to find a place for you guys, but I can’t promise anything.&

Need My Friends Help!
I was just sent a link by a family member to a profile that was created yesterday, by someone using my pictures as themself. I went to support but was told there was nothing they can, or will, do. "there isnt anything that we can do .. block the member or ask them to remove your pics hun .. TOS 7 .. Member Disputes. You are solely responsible for your interactions with other fubar.com Members. fubar.com, Inc. reserves the right, but has no obligation, to monitor disputes between you and other Members." I don't consider this a dispute, but guess that's just my opinion. Maybe if my friends let this person know, that they know the "real" person in the pics, I'm hoping she will add her own real ones?! Not asking for any trouble, just a simple comment letting her know, you know that is not her! Thank you friends! Hugs, Cindy Darlene@ fubar If that doesn't work here's the page link http://fubar.com/user/3022546 UPDATE She deleted the profile after friends left co

The Real Me
You say I'm strong I say you're wrong I'm actually quite weak inside You have no idea how often I've cried You say I have lots of determination Can't you see I'm full of frustration? You say I have a beautiful face Please, the way I look is a disgrace You see many wonderful qualities within me I'm sorry, but I have to disagree Everything you see is just a front I only let you see what I want I don't see me the way you do Oh, if you only knew For I fear if I really let you in You wouldn't like what you see within It's taken many years to build these walls You can't wander my mind's inner halls If you're lucky you may get a small peek Of the inner me that you seek Just don't be suprised at the view you get It's not very pretty, this I will admit For inside this beautiful, strong outer shell There is a frightened little girl living in hell

Rollercoaster Out Of Hell....
"Here I am, first foot of the climb, watch me go!" Ever since I got out of a 9 year relationship, I find myself doing the most random fricking stuff. Last Sunday I had ice cream and cake with a friend of a friend who is hot. We were talking about it on facebook messenger, he asked when we could meet up to get some ice cream, and I said, "How about now?" Yesterday at the bank, I panicked for a moment because the male teller was hot and I didn't have any make-up on, but I calmed down once I saw the fancy band on his ring finger. I refuse to go to work unless I have on a great push-up bra, just in case I get the chance to fit any hot guys. I watch porn. I did that before I broke up, but it seems more of a necessity now that i don't have a guaranteed lay... I started playing video games again. I'm 18hrs into FF12. I put a profile up on yahoo personals, even though I don't want a new boyfriend. I stated that I'm only looking to date. We'll see if it flys. If I get bored with it, t

Osho About Love
Osho about Love Love is the secret key that opens the innermost treasures of our being, that makes us aware of who we are. Love is an open sky. To be in love is to be on the wing. In love life comes to its ultimate peak. Love is ascension, love takes you to the heights, love can take you to the Everest of your soul, love can open the gates to heaven. Love opens up new horizons, new dimensions of joy and richness, love opens up a new sky where you can spread your wings and fly. Through the ages love has been identified with the pure, with the sacred, with the Divine, for a good reason; love is a spark of the Supreme. Hate separates, love unites, true love is the highest union. Of the seasons, love is the spring, love makes you blossom. Love makes you more vibrant, more alive, love is the dance of the heart.Love is alchemy, pure alchemy; it transforms everything that it touches. Love is the key to unlock some of the supreme potentials of life, it unveils the beauty in the heart of ever

Once Upon A Time...
...I was bored at work, and went on myspace. There I met some dude from my area, who couldn't sleep. We BSed, and I told him to come to my work to keep me company, since I was bored shitless. He did, and we hung out in the lobby, smoking and being retarded. After that, we talked several times on yahoo, and that was it... He never expressed a desire to hang out with me again. Hmm....

Rl Friends
So, I have a good friend. A year ago, she moved to CA, and we havent seen each other in a while. She came to visit Chicago 2 months ago, and out of 10 days that she was here, we managed to hang out once. When we hung out, unexpectedly she had some major issue at work, and was totally devastated and crying about it. So I offered her a shoulder to cry on, and told her to let me know how it resolves. She goes back to CA, and nothin. I call her the next day to find out whats up, and she tells me she'll call me back later. That was 2 months ago...

:d!
HI BITCHES :D So as of right now, the only way I can get only is if a neighbor is online and I can steal their internet lmfaoooooooooo. So I am on right now, and the connection is slow. But I guess beggers cant be choosers right? :P

Returning "love"
here's the deal, i've already explained this shit in my blog linked in my profile but i'll reiterate because i'm still getting add requests that say "fan me i'll fan back" ... those and the ones that say "give me access to all" are the only ones i deny. i actually prefer the blank ones, they didn't spend time trying to piss me off. Fanning people: i don't fan unless i know something about someone and i'm actually a fan of it. i don't rate back unless i'm really really really bored, or your nick was interesting. i have my bartab set so i can't see who fans me. i can't see who "stopped by" or whatever the hell it says. because i don't care. returning rates: i DO return LOVE - no i do really, ask my boyfriend, my friends, my family, my ex husband. i do NOT return rates and comments. i do NOT think those statements are contradictory. i don't care if you think it's common courtesy. i'm not courteous. i'm not common. common courtesy isn't common either. GET over it. i actually have nothing

Fumarry Me?
ok nows the time for me to finnally get fumarried so anyone interested leave a comment with your bid.highest bid wins.... you will get your name in mine as fumarried and #1 friend/family spot for as long as fumarried

Of Mice And Men
Oh how i love baseball!I watch every game of The Cardinals i can on tv, but now and again they have a day of and sometimes i get lucky and the local double A affiliate of the Oakland A's are playing in town. Today was one of those days. Last night i checked to see what time the game started and to my shock, it was an 11 a.m. start. Cool i thought! Watch a day game, fewer kids, shorter lines at the concessions and enjoy the day. :)WRONG!!!First off, it's only in the mid 50's here at game time. Add in the 30 mph winds and it makes for less than a desirable afternoon of balls and strikes. Not to mention that it was misting on the drive there. Still, i was determined to see a game. It would be fun. I've done next to nothing just for myself this year.Field trip?As i meandered my way through the sports complex, past the hotels and football stadium i saw no less than 50 school buses. Then i got out and heard the basting PA for the pre game. Louder than i had remembered before and as i made my

Mother's Day Poem
This is an original poem written by my oldest son Jacob. He is twelve and this is the best gift he's ever given me. My mom is really awesome She really loves me We always hangout She loves to drink tea My mom is very smart She is very bright When I need help with math She always gets it right My mom likes to sleep My mom likes to read My mom likes to talk My mom likes to breath My mom loves me She is my mom She loves my brother She is the bomb My mom is beautiful My mom is sweet I'm lucky to have her I enjoy rubbing her feet

Can You Pass This Drivers License Test?
Idaho Drivers Application Last name: _________________ First name: (Check appropriate box) [_] Billy bob [_] Bobby-Sue [_] Billy-Joe [_] Bobby-Jo [_] Billy-Ray [_] Bobby-Ann [_] Billy-Sue [_] Bobby-Lee [_] Billy-Mae [_] Bobby-Ellen [_] Billy-Jack [_] Bobby-Beth Ann Sue Age: ______ (if unsure, guess) Sex: _____M_____F_____Not sure Shoe Size: _____Left_____Right Occupation: [_] Farmer [_] Mechanic [_] Hair Dresser [_] Waitress [_] Unemployed [_] Dirty Politician Spouse's Name_________________________ 2nd Spouse's Name: _________________ 3rd Spouse's Name: _________________ Lover's Name: ________________________ 2nd Lover's Name: ___________________ Relationship to spouse: [_] Sister [_] Aunt [_] Brother [_] Uncle [_] Mother [_] Son [_] Father [_] Daughter [_] Cousin [_] Pet Number of children living in household: _____ Number of children living in shed: _____ Number that are yours: _____ Mother's Name: ___________________ Father's Name: ___________________ (If not sure, l

My Boyfriend
Despite 3000 miles of being apart i meant this guy that i like alot. But it might all come to a end due to a honest mistake i made. It is tearing me apart because i really like this guy. I want make it work despite the distance. I know it can work if me and him try to make it work. Part of the reason i know it can work if me and him try is i know people that have meet on Fubar and have made it work. The only huge factor for me and him is the distance and my ex.

Overnight Male
Let me be your mailman and I'll always come through. There's no denyin’, come rain or shine, I'll deliver my love to you. I do things by the letter, you can put your stamp on me 'Cause there ain't nobody better for a special delivery. Like a pony express in the wild, wild west I'll ride hard all night long. And I can saddle up fast, get you there first class Long before the dawn. You know your mail's gonna get to you Come snow, rain, sleet or hail 'Cause I'm a top flight, hold-you-tight, Get-you-there-by-daylight, do-you-right overnight male. I know your heart is fragile, so I'll handle it with care. There ain't no doubt, I know love's route, So baby let me take you there. I'll bring you cards and flowers, but I know just what you need. Just give me 24-hours satisfaction guarantee. Like a pony express in the wild, wild west I'll ride hard all night long. And I can saddle up fast, get you there first class Long before the dawn. You know your mail's gonna get to you Come snow, rain,

Poem For Me By My Fu Wifey :)
Walk with meShhhh…If you listen you might hearThe sweet sound of loveBeing whispered in your earThe warm soft kissesLaid gently upon your skinOpen your heartAnd let love come inHold it tightWithin your embraceA new day is comingFor you to faceSo take my handAnd walk with meFrom dawn to duskTo our destinyTogether we will make itAnd others will seeI was meant for youAnd you were meant for me.I love you Andy!Straight from my heart to you!!

For Her...
like a cat wound too tight i await in the shadows watching - THUD THUD THUD the clock ticks in near silence the waiting, the pain the sad and lonely quiet... shunning the day, shunning the night... watching - THUD THUD THUD my heart beats in almost imperceptable silence... we're ethereal, ghosts... untouching phantoms oh to reach out and with one thrust... SHATTER the miles... i would TOUCH you STROKE you... and in that act.. become the beast with two backs... to writhe, to liftandfallandliftandfalluntilallatoncebeone! THUD

Whats With Women
whats with you women? you cry, bitch and complain about guys being assholes or jerks. but every nice guy you meet you walk all over. then when your done wiping your feet you toss him aside, you always say where are the nice guys at? is that a rhetorical question, cause we know its really the bad guys that get the women, or are you just curious because you want to hurt someone the way you got stepped on? ive been a nice guy all my life, i always try to respect women, ive always tried to be considerate and understanding. yet i was 23 before i was able to get laid for the fist time and that was when i finally started talking to a girl like she didnt matter. weird huh, the only way i get attention is to be an ass. i found that sexual experience rather dry and unfullfilling.not to mention i didnt like what i had to do to get laid, hell i cant even remember her name. so i went back to being the nice guy. it was 2 years later when i finally got another girlfriend, a 2 year drought. but then i

Ute Lemper
"Another coup for NNF09! Ute Lemper makes a rare UK appearance, performing a programme that showcases the full range of her unique musical talent. Through her acclaimed interpretations of Weill and Brecht, the poetic universe of the French chansons of Piaf and Brel, and a selection of tracks taken from her recent album Between Yesterday and Today, Ute will leave you in no doubt why she is regularly hailed as one of the world’s great song and chanson divas." Envy me now, bitches, that's my Saturday night sorted. (Y)

The Unwritten
"Written by Mike Carey ; Art by Peter Gross ; Cover by Yuko Shimizu Everyone's read the Tommy Taylor books, the popular series of novels turned pop culture phenomenon about a boy wizard's adventures. And everyone knows about Tom Taylor, the boy the novels were based on, whose life was so overshadowed by his Dad's fictional epic that Tom's become a lame Z-level celebrity at best and a human viral marketing tool at worst.But what if the resemblance goes even deeper? What if Tom is the boy-wizard of the books made flesh? And if that sounds crazy, why is it bringing him into the crosshairs of an ancient faction that has never been named in any book or text?To discover the truth about himself, Tom must search through all the places in history where fiction and reality have intersected. And in the process, he'll learn more about that unwritten cabal and the plot they're at the center of –– a plot that spans all of literature from the first clay tablets to the gothic castles w

Choose Friendship - Destiny Or Chance?
A Stranger Or A Friend? Stranger, our paths may have crossed by chance, or perhaps destiny has brought us to a point in our journey that requires us to meet, If I should fail to raise my hand and greet you, will I have closed the door to the opportunity that you may have shown me the path that will lead to my destiny? Will walking away from you deny you information to guide you on your journey? If we crossed paths by chance will it harm me in any way to smile and say “Have a Nice Day”. Or could it be that by walking away from you, I have just walked away from my own Destiny… The only strangers in my life today are those people I have yet to meet, The friends in my life today were at one time considered strangers by me until we took a chance by simply saying Hi…. Will you be the stranger who crossed my path today that I may greet and then consider renaming as my Friend? “My journey to a destination unknown to me has taken me down many paths

Only Xk To Level When X < 10
seriously, if you're under 10k to level, and you need to level that badly, go find someone with autos on and rate them. if you're determined to do it through good old fashion rating and returning from friends, stop putting it in your status. it gets old. so you're being annoying, lazy or annoying and lazy either way... can we please stop? as a side note - i want a fucking blast. or autos. and yes, i am perfectly good being annoying and lazy. love ya! ~sin

Ubblicious
Before I put my youngest niece in the tub, I asked, “Do you want some bubbles?” A look of fear crossed her face. She backed up toward the door, pouty-lipped. Near tears, she said, “I on’t ike ubbles.” OK. No ubbles, then. I lifted her up and put her in the bath, and, ubbles forgotten, lip un-pouted, she splashed and played with foam letters and rubber duckies. To her delight, we discovered that the pink one is capable of squirting you in the face. After her fingers wrinkled, I toweled her off, dressed her in pajamas, fed her a snack, and rocked her till her eyes drooped. Then I remembered I had to put a heavier diaper on her before she went to bed. She was sleepy as I changed her diaper, so I spoke softly. As I adjusted the flappy things around her legs, I explained, “I have to put it on right, or your mom will make fun of me. She thinks I don’t know what to do with babies, which is mostly right. I don’t have a baby, so how

Running Time Fatal Plug In Error
Ok im not sure what the heck it means but I cant do anything on fubar without this Java virtual machines, stupid fatal error thing popping up! Does anyone know how to fix it? its been going on for a few weeks and is messin with Fubar and now I cant get on Yahoo IM either so I cant talk to anyone & its makin me mad, so please everyone dont think im ignoring you I just can figure out how to fix my stupid computer!!!!!!! love & miss U all "Sunshine"

Brought To Tears
Brought to tears by fears and pain, no matter what It won't be the same. afraid to talk afraid to breathe.its pointless no one listens to me. surrounded by what I thought was real, reality sets in its soo surreal. no where to search no where to find, that something i had was all in my mind. Missing what was, realizing it wasn't. life sucks sometimes and sometimes it doesn't. Debating now on which road to follow. are they both fulfilling or is one of them hollow? brought to tears by fear and pain, no matter the outcome it won't be the same sooooo I never write anymore but i was inspired to do so today. sorry if it is depressing and whatnot.. it was what i was feeling. thanks for taking the time to read it. and i guess leave feedback

Oh Boy When Will People Learn
Ok So we all are used to Jessa Rant or Jessa Black list this fooker blogs right? heres another one!!.. Ok So today boys n girls We have more drama oh you know it! It is Fubar high after all So for those lounge owners Who like To keep up with these and use them to auto ban Drama go ahead n ban me too if u need to but Im here to #1 yet again Clear my name. and reviel the truth yet again As you can clearly see He saod he had ben banned so i couldnt of followed him.. heres my side n proof on how i followed him Now.. who's the liar? that desicion is up to you Now yes there is pro0f that i have called myself a liar n then some.. ill even post it i dont deny it. But one thing i always admit is if im doing something sneaky Ill be the first one to tell you so heres where i said i was a lair but i ask you why would i post this about myself If imma sit back n lie to someone else? why.. cuz im not. If i was to be accused of stalkin anyone it shoulda been drake. being it was him I

May Holiday
Going on holiday for a week from Saturday (23rd). Taking the family to stay in a cottage down in the south west of England. Staying not far from Taunton in Somerset. Never been to that part of England before so will be something different. The cottage is part of an old rectory, has a churchyard close by so the neighbours should be quiet Planning on spending a while researching more of my family tree which is why I am staying in Somerset. Will take loads of photos and will upload them when I get back once I have renewed my VIP. I probably won't be on much this week. Taking the kids to a special tour of the new enlarged Great North Museum on Wednesday evening. I am sure that nothing there comes alive at night. On Thursday taking the kids to see Night at the Museum 2 at the local cinema, something that they are getting excited about. They don't know about the museum trip so that will be a surprise for them. Will be packing for the holiday on Friday night. Aiming to leave

My Love
I lay awake last night,Thinking, what would it be like,To have you here beside me?My love for you is so strong,I know nothing could go wrong,And I hope you feel the same about me.Because my love is everlasting,It could never go away,My love will be forever,No matter what you say.So, tell me that you love me,And forever is the way.Because I love you yes I love you.More than words can say.When I finally fell asleep,I tasted you love so sweet,And there's nothing in this world that can compare.The nights have been dark and lonely.In my heart I've longed for you,To show me a lasting love,That's forever and true.

Broken Things Inside
The poem your about to read is 100% factual.I was greeting all the pplinside the velvet kittyLaughing and joking and pretending to be a man that truly wasnt meThen in walked Spirit, attitude with class and beautybut as trained Marine I quickly saw throughI seen that she glowed and there ismore to this woman than i ever knewI knew right away she was more woman than I was manBut her presense I couldnt resistit consumed me I couldnt understandThen she called my name and withmy fear hidden answered this maidens callWe began our journey with just nothin but small talkAs we talked the more in depth our convo began to growI suddenly told her theres something you need knowMy outside appearnce is wellas you can plainly seeBut deep inside there are many broken thingsThen I felt her courage and compassion that Ive only felt by a fewAs she said ricky to fix your broken things it will take not 1 heart but 2I instantly went back to a day gone pastWhen mom called me to her death bedto tell my future

Blah
I need to snap the hell out of this funk. I still can't concentrate on much of anything and that part is driving me insane. Tomorrow I have the appointment for the transitional place, I just hope I am not a blubbering mess there and actually make sense of my answers cuz I am not making any sense to myself right now. The connection I am on today sucks bad, but I can actually shrug that off since my attention span is so shitty. Just kind of in the mood to shut everyone out, cuz in my mind I don't feel like anyone really understands everything I am going through. It just keeps adding up and getting worse when I didn't think it could get anyworse.

Losing Someone You Love More Than Once
It's difficult to lose someone you love. There really are no words to describe how it feels. I know many of you have lost someone you loved and I'm sorry that anyone should ever have to go through the pain, but I guess it's just a part of this journey we're on that we call life. I lost my father more than once, (In different ways than actual death, I lost him twice) The first time I lost him, I was just six years old. He was everything to me, and we were inseperable. One day as he was driving home from work, he got behind a semi truck without flaps, and a 4 1/2 lb rock spun through the tires, and flew through his windshield, and smashed his head. We found him over 8 hours later. Apparantly he had been lying in a wheat field for the 8 hours, but then sat up and drove himself (with a shattered windshiel) back to where he worked. I was sitting in the car with my mom, and when we pulled up alongside the truck, he looked over at us and smiled. He was unrecognizable, and he should have di

Why Me?
I don't understand how hard it is to like/love someone like me. I'm not at all full of myself but I know I'm pretty and I know I have a great personality. Every guy I've ever been with has come crawling back in some way or another. In my mind though, once you've lost that chance its over for you. Why can't I see that a guy is leading me on? I'm told by lotsa girls and guys that he's really not interested but when he says otherwise, I let myself believe him. I guess I just fall into the trap time after time after time. Everyone has their issues, this I know. Yet another question to ponder, how the fuck can a guy choose video games over me?!!!!!!!!!!!! Yes VIDEO GAMES. I'm a total nympho, I'm always cooking and cleaning for my man, and I do whatever the guy wants me to. I always get stuck in the convenient girlfriend zone and then we break up. Why is that? What is it about myself that is sooooooo negative that no one wants to really get to know me and love me for me? I'm tire

Stars & Stripes Event @ Playboy Mansion 5/16/09
So this will be quick but I'll come back and add as I have time. First of all, the Playboy mansion is beautiful and huge...well the outside at least, they didn't let us inside. I walked all around and got more pics to post soon, like the zoo, very cool! The people there were amazing, so sweet and supportive of the charity, Wounded Warrior Project, the auction made a lot of money and if a soldier didn't have a model on his arm he had lipstick on his cheek! I met my personal idol, Metal Sanaz, and after my 'fanboy' moment told her about the concert and she offered to get us a guitar for the auction, also for WWP, from Dean Guitars! Then she gave me her phone number! :D I also spoke to the west coast contact for WWP who was very excited about the upcoming concert and thought I was the coolest, which seemed so silly considering what they've been thru and what they do and extremely flattering of course! My other feel good moment was when a wounded soldier asked me why I paid to ge

Family
So, my mom and I just went for a walk. She feels really awkward around me, and doesnt really talk, so I usually have to initiate all convos. And then suffer through her unresponsiveness. Ironically, we had a great conversation today, in which both of us finally had something in common: our mutual hate for her sister (my aunt). Funny how families are...

Officers(plaid Mafia)
Josh[myself] (Founder) http://fubar.com/jboogie23 Lauren (Co Founder)http://fubar.com/laurenelizabeth DragonFairy (Manger of Members)http://fubar.com/bisexualwiccan they don't really mean anything just people who have shown lots of support. more people will be added. so please don't feel left out. make sure you add these awesome people!

Keep In Touch
I never claimed to be perfect in an un perfect world. Ihaven't been happy for sometime. It's been a year since my mom has passed. An people expect you to get over it like it's no big deal..... these people don't know what it's like to have lost someone so close.she's the women who gave birth to me. If not for her I wouldn't be here . So to get what I made this blog, my home life. I'm going to take a vactation from this place aka fubar.. I will miss my friends an people who have really touched my life.. For you that would like to stay in touch please leave a comment here of leave me a private message... thank you again all Rae

Lounge Staff(plaid Mafia)
as plaid mafia grows memebers seemed to push for the idea of opening a lounge. so we did it. it will take a lot of hard work and dedication. Lauren's YIM: Missymoo83706 Josh's YIM: Plaidmafia23 i ask if your staff to sign this aswell as the member blog on josh's page if i i don't have it already i would like your yim

Unreal
Hi Im bored but I do know what would help amuse me... MEN, are you brave enough to wear pink and salute me? Its been a while since I got a man in pink salute... Please :D And I offer nothing but a smie in return lol

I Must Share The Hilarity
A pastime of mine is watching public cybersex on IRC. Why? Because it's fucking hilarious, that's why. Here is an excellent example. This chick - who is so amazingly bored (she is telling me so privately) - is tied up by a couple of guys currently. And this is what made me laugh so hard I almost fell off my bed: suck my cock u slutty fucktoy * cossette loves the sound of her face being cockslapped, the wet smack making her cunt clench harder around Shadowlover's pulsing cock, her tight little holes pushing back against him now making the tape around her ankles strain, humiliation at having her face abused by someone too lazy to type the word you making her blush ................... .................... *roflfits some more*

Off The Road!!!!!
so today i delivered in san francisco....my last delivery. decided that the road was not my friend..will start to look for a local gig . don't know if it will be driving or not. only time will tell. maybe a walmart greater or a chef or who know, maybe i should just sell drugs,,,,that appears to be where the big bucks are...and the woman...oh my...but done with the road. so i will let you know what the future will bring...i had on my status this past weekend...life is short....so many people wrote me to agree..they were right,,,,it is short. to short to waste running all over the country doing a job you hate. so on to the next adventure. my new tat will giude me...l...lol...so wish me luck. in this economy i will need it..big cali hugs..marty

Exodus Tyson
(CNN) -- The 4-year-old daughter of boxing legend Mike Tyson died Tuesday, a day after she was injured in a treadmill accident at her home, police in Phoenix, Arizona, said. Exodus Tyson was prounounced dead at 11:45 a.m. local time Tuesday, said Sgt. Andy Hill, a Phoenix police spokesman. He gave no other details. The girl was found by her 7-year-old brother on a treadmill in the Phoenix home Monday "with her neck on ... a cable" attached to the machine, police said in an earlier statement. The mother "took her daughter off the cable" and called authorities, and Exodus was taken to a hospital, according to police. Former world heavyweight champion Tyson traveled from Las Vegas, Nevada, to Phoenix where his daughter was on life support in critical condition on Monday, police said. ************************ Most of the obituary is about the freak Mike Tyson. Nothing really about the child.

Paper Gangsta
Midnight rush with a pen in my hand. Dinkin, linking, sanscript with a fan. Remembering me before we began. Sometimes I feel so def in the jam. But the ones who loved me told me to stop. Like homegirl cant catch shit if it drop. A superwoman chick you know that I am. Some shit dont fly by me and the man. 'Cos I do not accept any less than someone. Just as real, as fabulous. Don't want no paper gangsta. Won't sign away my life to. Someone who's got the flavor. But don't got no follow through. Don't want no paper gangsta. Won't sign no monkey papers. I don't do funny business. Not interested in fakers. Don't want no paper gangsta. Oh Ohhh Don't want no paper gangsta. Oh Ohhh Don't want no paper gangsta. Got something so shiny to start. Want me to sign there on your Range Rover heart. I've heard it before, yeah the dinners were nice. Till your diamond words melted into some ice. You should have been rapping to the beat of my song Mr. California paper gangsta raw. I'm looking for love, not

Considering Surgery.....
Well here goes it. I have been losing weight and those of us that have weight issues know that afterwards there are areas of the body that just need fixed. This is all new to me, the fixing me up part so I am not sure where I should even begin. I am not a gorgeous woman nor am I very pretty. (these are my internal thoughts) I have really let myself go over the last 6 years. Maybe I have done so due to depression, unhappiness or I have just lost my way along this journey. Any way that I look at it I really need to make some serious changes. I am not happy being overweight. I have become this jealous monster inside. I have begun to hate who I am. The thoughts of dying cross my mind daily but I can't follow through with them because of my children and the man I love so deeply and passionately. BUT then again this part of me that is "sick" inside thinks it is the answer to how I feel inside and out. So where do I begin? ONE: I need to change my internal thinking. How do I do that?

Blech
I don't know if its just me or not, but the prednisones that the dr put me on yesterday for my hand and stuff are making me feel totally blech. They put me on a big dosage, or so I think, I have never taken so many pills in one day :( Yesterday and today I have had a total of 16 10mg pills and YUCK! I can't tell if they are helping too much or not cuz when I take off the thumb/wrist splint to type or do something I get the pains again, guess I can't expect overnight miracles. With the muscle relaxers he gave me with these, I can be taking one up to 3 x's a day, but I am not sure I want to be taking them with the way the others are making me feel. Just venting.... muahz all

Fubar Is Serious Business Apparently....
Okay so I rated this persons page and they returned the rate. Which is good right? Not in this case... They decide to send me a friend request with an order of fan plzzzzz. Now everyone handles Fubar a different way, in their own way. So is their really a Fubar way? As in Add/Fan/Rate or some version of that. Since everyone has their own way of doing the FU as I will put it, Should those who think that you have to Rate/Fan/Add every page you go to is necessary? Some people care about ranking etc... Others don't. Some people care about leveling as soon as possible others don't. As I said above everyone does Fubar in their own way. If you really think about it what is the rush? Is there a big prize once you reach the top level? Some people spend money on Fubar as they have it to spend, others beg for things or are gifted things. I have met some really cool people on FU they know who they are. I do know I help entirely way to many people and little in return. T

My Precious Moon...
My Precious Moon… Memories of time Of ages, long past gone In the midst of my mind I have, always come to know, That you were the only one… To make me believe Of setting, my wings free For with power you have chained my soul In a dark, secret, pit Follow the lilt, of a siren song, Here I am, Let me reach you through time Conceal your bright wings And come back t

Admirations Voice
Do you have someone like this??? I bet you do and you just havent opened up your eyes to see This friend is a true well wisher. With this persons friendship personified to the last letter. This persons speech gives strength to sagging morale. This person is all ears to any kind of tale. To flatter or be insincere this person does not know. Dislike to hypocrisy, attitude does show. Taking in or talking nonsense is not this persons style. For illogical and foolish talks, this person will not give bail! This person thought process and modus operandi are robust. Their clarity stands out and distinguishes this person from the rest. Blend of practical approach and emotional support in this person, is awe inspiring. This persons wit and repartee with humor’s touch is amazing. The profile of this perspns character does not limit to any punctuation! Not a character in its words bears an iota of exaggeration. If you have this person in your life.. feel free to sha

Not Your Girls Fault
RULE 1: You opened this; you GOTTA take it RULE 2: You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING unless someone messages you and asks! LAST PERSON YOU.... [1] Who was the last person you texted? my brother in law [2] You were in the car with? My Kids and brother in law [3] Went to the mall with? the mall? really? damned myspace [4] Person you talked on the phone with? gabriella [5] You messaged/commented on Fubar? Cant sleep clowns will eat me T/F Only answer with True or False Q:Kissed some one on your top friends? False Q: Been searched By Cops? True Q: Been suspended from school? True Q: Sat on a roof top? True Q: Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? True Q: Broken a bone? False Q: Have shaved your head? True Q: Played a prank on someone? True Q: Had/have a gym membership? True Q: Shot a gun? True Q: Donated Blood? True WOULD YOU RATHER: [1] Eat or drink? Ea

Fantasy
I was lying down, somewhere between asleep and awake, waiting for you to come to bed. The book I'd been reading was resting beside me, when at last you walked in the room. I smiled, ready to cuddle with you, breathe in your scent and drift off together and opened my arms for you. I don't know what it was, but something was different in your gaze as you approached me. Curiosity got the better of me, and as I sat up, I softly asked what was on your mind..The slow grin spreading across your face was anything but innocent, piquing my interest."You," you whispered, your lips scant centimeters from my ear. I shuddered at this, and turned to kiss you.We'd kissed before, and kissed often, but there was an x factor present tonight that took my breath away. I knew you loved me of course, as we'd been together almost a year and you constantly found ways to show and tell me so, but physical intimacy just hadn't happened yet. You were still a virgin, and I respected that, so I never pushed the i

From May Inpatient - Guide
you're still the guiding forcebehind my decisionsi'm still afraid of you leavingof you giving up on meyou're the reason i don't dig my nails inor jab my pen into fleshi try to be my own higher powerbut the truth isyou demonstrate a powerfar greater than mei love you like the darkestmost treasured secretsomething i want to sharei'm afraid to sharesomething i want to keepforever to myselfI love you ~Sinamynlee

[sigh]
So I'm sitting outside on my front porch messing around on here. [I seriously had to fight the urge to capitalize porch.] The rain has stopped, for now. It's been raining here pretty much every day for the past week. I'm getting pretty sick of it actually. I don't know how much more of it I can take. It always makes me sleepy. The MuMM I wrote earlier, about my cherry bomb, I'll probably end up waiting until I'm a little closer. Double checked my level status and well, I'm actually closer to 3 million. I'll get there eventually, lol. Maybe I should go rate people until I have no more rates left. I wonder how long that would actually take? I'm pretty sure I don't have the time for it. I rarely have time to do much on here anyway. I'm too busy catching up with my friends. How in the world do point whores have real friends on here? I'd think all they would have time to do is rate and buy bling. [shrug] I'm thinking about buying a new phone. I'm having serious issues with the one I have

My Weekend
Just sitting here in reflection over the past few days. Decided to take a trip to see my baby Sunday. It was a fun road trip. The weather was perfect. It was sunny and cool with a slight breeze. I listened to the radio and drove fast. It was soothing to my soul for sure. I spent the whole day with my baby in the mountains. Check out my pic and see what beauty I witnessed. I was so peaceful. The air was cool and clean. Their were butterfies and birds. I even seen a Ostrich! Don't ask! In the evening I was outside with my baby and seen stars! They were clear and twinkled. He saw shooting stars and made a wish. I was in awe of this little sleepy town. It was so quiet and cool. I felt like I was in another world actually. I met his family and was floored at how kind they were. How welcoming they were to me. I was completely blown away by this place. Its peace and quiet. Its simple beauty. I came to realize something. That taking a chance and following a dream is the biggest gift you can

Too Many
iam getting tire of some of the people on my list unlike most i never beg for someone to rate me or bling me i see no point that sad when you have to do thigns for them and iam too good and respect my self too much to do some of the things others would do just to get them however when it come to the point that they dont even talk to you when they check you out that is like the finally straw so if you want to stay on my list pm me and or leave a comment and ill keep you if not ill just delete you like so many others i did

Rip Koko Taylor
A distant memory... concert on Mac field... opening act Mojo Nixon, headliner Koko Taylor. Odd combination. At sixty or more she could SING the blues. I will never forget that show, one of my all time favorites. Also probably my first ever blues show.

[i Stole It From Kins, Who Stole It From Jai Who Stole It From Nicole
The person you have feelings for shows up at your house, what do you say?"If a Tree comes into my house, do we have sex?" Everything happens for a reason?Nope- the natural state of the universe is chaos. Who was the last person of the opposite sex you had a conversation with?Tree. Have you ever liked someone who all your friends hate?Yeah, and I found out after we broke up that she was quite hated. What can you say about the first girl on your top?>> Don't have a top, but I do have a fams list, uuuh... She's probably interesting/crazy/somewhatarty Where's your phone right now?Hey! ... right next to my coffee mug and general purpose eatery bowl. Name something you are doing tonight?Taking a piss. Brb. Is a best friend or ex pissing you off at the moment?My ex was stalking me again last week, and I think about any time I mention her in a blog now, she

Um That Thing Is Huge!
So, my hubby is away for awhile and I need to "fill the void" he's left behind without cheating on him. He told me to get a new toy to play with in his absence. I ordered one from an online supplier and they said it was back ordered. (must be good eh?) This was in March. A couple of weeks ago I get an email that they tried to charge my credit card but there was a problem and could I call them. Well, sure. Since March, I had changed the reward program @ my bank, so I got a new card- hence the problem they had. I call customer service, a man answeres. GREAT! "um, hi, yeah I had an order with you in March and I got an email saying you're having a prob running my card. I have a new number since then." "I'd be happy to update that for you, oh, it looks like that item is on back order again." "How can that be? I just got the email today that they were getting it ready to ship when the prob with my card came up." "It is a popular item. It looks like tentative arival to the

I Was Bored
Well, hubby and the boys took off yesterday for the weekend...I at first, though weeee, yaaaay me, but after about 8 hours I got really bored...I went to bed early last night, got up at a decent hour, then decided it was time to take an early nap, took one...I got a bite to eat & I forgot what a hot meal tasted like lol...I got even more bored, so I took an afternoon nap, woke up and hated my hair *rolls eyes* so I decided to get it cut...I took off and went and got 22 inches cut off it...I actually love it, it feels so much lighter, go figure lol...Yes, I got bored and felt the need to tell you all...So sue me lol...BTW, I'm going to donate it to Locks for Love...That is all, the end!!!

Unlimited Auction
I am doing auction for everyone this time... You will pick who your owner is.You say when it ends. there is no time limit on it. There is a 50k entery fee but the bids start out at 100k and go up from there. So if you would like to be in it let me know and i will put you there. I have great friends and family that like to bid on people and with yours it should go up there. There will be a pic up of me so you can look at and get some ideas of what to give the highest bidder remember of your choice. you can refuss any bid by letting me know. That pic will be in the auction for everyone folder. So let me know if you would like to be in it. Thank you and God bless our troops

He Did It!!!!
YES! HE DID IT!!! I THINK I WAS MORE NERVOUS THAN HIM.... HIS TEACHER LENDS A HELPING HAND! -she's so sweet! 250 GRADUATES! CLASS of 09 I AM VERY PROUD! WHERE DID THE YEARS GO? WE ALL HAD SUCH A BLAST!!!!!

You All Mean So Much To Me
I just wanted to take the time and thank everyone for all the well wishes. I did end up going to the hospital last night and sadly they found some abnormal test results. I will now have to take massive amounts of steroids again and will be seeing a specialist. It truly warmed my heart last night/this morning to recieve all the sweet words and thoughts sent my way. I love all of you guys and don't know what I would do without my fu friends. It just proves what I have said all along, there are so many wonderful people out there. I am truly blessed to have each and every one of you as a friend. I may end up having to have surgery to fix some of my problems and will keep you all informed. Hugs to you all!!! Amity

Close Your Eyes
Close Your Eyes I could see the weariness in your eyes Another long day for My Fire I wrap her in my arms her head on my chest Her in my arms I am inspired I take her by the hand lead her to a hot bath I slowly undress her and she steps in The heat of the water begins to melt the day As My Fires spirit softens within Candles light the room a soft glow Exposed skin reflecting in the light I sit My Fire up wetting d

Under Your Spell
You take my breath awayEach and every single dayYou let me know just how special I am You let me know our love isn’t a shameYour touch is so sweetYour kisses are neatYour touch is soft when you massage my feet. Your touchYour kissYour smellThese are the things that put me under your spell. Our love is as pure as a doveThat is a match that can only be made from aboveGod sent you to meSo you could set my heart freeI chose to be with youSince then I haven’t been blue Your touchYour kissYour smellThese are the things that put me under your spell. Our lives are far from simpleBut we treat our love as if we were in a templeYou taught me to careAlthough I didn’t think it was fairI was hurt in the past, But you have shown me that my future will be a blast. Your touchYour kissYour smellThese are the things that put me under your spell. I love you dear Whether you are far or nearYou show me that with you I have no fearAlthough now and then I still shed a tearI know you ar

As I Sit Here I Think Of You
As I sit here I think of youI know our love is trueI know our love will holdFor our love is truly boldWe have been apartThat is the hardest partI know you must goBut soon I will followNothing will keep me awayOur love is here to stayI see you sleepingI want to hold you dearAnd I feel like weepingI know the time is nearJust remember I love youI will be faithful and trueI sit and look forwardAs we move towardThe long life we have aheadI love you my dear.

Bombing..i Was Upset When I Did It.
You know for the butthurt people who are mad I didnt bomb them..you can go fuck yourself first of all.Second,I only bombed about 15 people and didnt finish my bomb.I had a family crisis and my mom was very upset calling me crying and it was a little hard to deal with.So before you be a bitch to me try reading a person's status.Im sitting their saying Im upset and not finishing my bomb and I continue to have people beg me to bomb them.I dont mind a friend asking.I dont mind but try not to be a such a point whore for 5 seconds to stop being a dickface to someone upset.I swear I find some winners on this site.I love points..We all do but being an asshole isnt going to get you far.Then in the mist of being upset and writing this blog I get a dumbass "friend" trying to guilt trip me into to showing him my nsfw pics.If I want to show someone I will.I understand your in iraq dude and I respect you for serving our country but telling me I dont support the troops because you cant see my tits i

Author's Note.
And that's just wot this is too, gentle reader, lol.This, is to distinguish between my rants(other blog set) and the attempts to hone again the blade of words.It is what it is.No political rants, no "State of the Union Adress" here.Just me, you, and words.Call it rehab for hack writers if ya will, lol.Gas tank's full, and I have no idea where I'm going, but there's room in the back if ya wanna ride with me.Just be warned, this machine's not always easy ta steer.But if it were, why that'd take all the fun out yes?

A Summer Day
It was a hot, steamy summer day. The temperature had to be near 100 degrees. I was lounging in the pool, and getting hungry. I figured I could run inside, whip up some mac n cheese and bring it back out to eat while still enjoying the cool water. So I got out, wrapped a towel around my thong-clad body, and went inside. I boiled the water, cooked the macaroni, then while it was draining, went to get the butter and milk out of the fridge. Shit, no milk. I didn’t feel like getting dressed to run to the store and thought of the new neighbor I had seen move in a week ago. He might have milk, and I only needed a little bit. So I threw on a skimpy top and a skirt over my thong, and went next door. His car was in the drive, so I knew he was home. I know I looked like a hussy, barely dressed, but it was so freakin hot out, I was sure he would understand. I knocked tentatively on the door and waited, sort of hopping from one foot to the other, because the porch was blistering hot. The door

I'm Going To Do It...
That's it..I'm officially going crazy. And I don't mean the fun to be around crazy. I mean the I might kill someone crazy. I love being accused of shit that I KNOW I haven't done. Liars make me sick. Karma will get YOU in the end. I really wish people weren't so delusional. Seriously, all of this before my birthday? I'm fucking done. Hello changing everything. I hope you all answer texts from weird numbers, answer emails from weird addresses.....because I'm changing it all today after I get home from work.

Couldn't Do It =(
OMG! I am such a wimp!! I went in for the c spine MRI this morning, and as soon as they put me in the damn machine, I could not do it!!!! I never thought in this lifetime I was claustrophobic!!!! I have to call and reschedule for an appointment, I need to be sedated so I have to have a driver, they wont even let me take the bus.... weird!

What Is It With Cliques On Fu
Well.. I'm done. I thought I was working with some good ppl. Snake Eyes Radio. Working my fuckin ass off. Doing shit that wasn't even my job. All day I run around in RL to get things done early so I can take air. Then after running around.. had my computer set up to take air. All of a sudden I hear on the air, that Lucky was stealing air from me. They didn't even tell me. Shit I was the DJ manager. They just fuckin ignored the fact how rude it is to steal air from someone. Specially from someone that is not an active DJ. SHit I should get a lounge owner for a fu hubby. I would be jackin air from everyone. So I got DRUNK and kick a few ppl off the air. I admit.. and I'm proud. Alittle bit of what was dished out to me. I thought it was funny watchin ppl on cam while I did it too. HAHAHA!!! The faces Wes and Celt made were fuckin priceless. Don't get me wrong.. there are some great ppl at ser. I just guess I'm not cool enough in the to get respect I deserve.

To Set The Record Straight
So I have realised that Fubar ain't the place for me. Before I delete my account I feel I have to set the record straight on a few things that have been said about me. Apparently a few people decided to stick their noses into my business and put dirt on my name. I have no idea why they would do this....jealousy I guess. So with that I will get to the point. I want to clear the air on a few things. First off whoever decided to spread the runors around that I beat the shit out of my ex-wife and daughter....that was a classic one. Couldn't be further from the truth. The time frame this would have happened in my daughter would have been a year old and I would have killed her. She's 8 now alive and well. Never laid a hand on her. This was a good one.....whoever made this one up....yeah it stuck and has fucked me up. Ok now another rumor being passed around. That I'm a drug addict. LMMFAO....yeah sure....I smoke weed thats it....barely do that anymore....I don't even drink. Ag

Make 100k Rating My Pictures
PLEASE READ ENTIRE BLOG!!! SO NO MISTAKES ARE MADE! This ONLY COUNTS WHEN MY STATUS SPECIFICALLY SAYS MAKE 100K CHECK BLOG IF IT SAYS MAKE 150K CHECK BLOG U NEED TO CHECK THE BLOG FOR MAKING 150K.................... IF MY STATUS SAYS IT AND IMMEDIATLY CHANGES ITS AND ERROR AND WILL NOT QUALIFY FOR THAT OFFER................... MY STATUS WILL USUALLY STAY THE SAME UNLESS I'M NOT PAYING FOR RATES THEN ITS RANDOM STUFF. DO NOT RATE ALL PICS AND MESSAGE ME EXPECTING TO PAY YOU A MILLION DOLLARS ITS NOT GONNA HAPPEN U NEED TO PM ME AND TELL ME THAT YOU WANT TO RATE 1000 PICS CAN U AFFORD THAT FOR JUST ME. CAUSE YOU ARENT THE ONLY ONE RATING THERES USUALLY 4 OR 5 GOING AT A TIME. SO PLEAS ASK FIRST OR ONLY GET PAID WHAT I CAN GIVE U OVER THE AMOUNT OFFERED FOR RATESLIMIT IS 400 PICS NO MORE THAN 400 PICS CAN BE RATED AT THIS TIME! A MAXIMUM OF 200K WILL BE PAID FOR THIS OFFER IF 400 PICS ARE RATED!!! RATE 200 PICTURES AND MAKE 100K THIS DOES NOT INCLUDE NSFW PICS THIS DONT NOT INCLUDE

My Pleasure
I go into the bathroom and light 4 candles. Just enough light. I turn on the water and pour some vanilla bubble bath. I take off my shirt and jeans. I take my bra off, and last my panties. I stand there and look at myself in the mirror. Looking over my body, I start to think about you. I wait for the tub to fill. I turn off the water. I grab a towel and set it on the counter. I ease myself into the bath. The water is hot, not too hot but just right. I lay down till the water is at my neck and lay there for a minute. I close my eyes and think of you. I can see you standing there looking at me. You are naked. I am lying on the bed and waiting. Your cock is hard. I smile and lick my lips. You walk closer to me. I am wearing a black corset and black thongs with my boots. I have placed handcuffs on the night table. I start to rub my breasts. I take my nipples in my fingers and twist gently. I rub them. I sit up so that the water is not covering my breasts. The water runs down my chest. I g

Gd
MY PIECE OF SHIT FOR AN EXCUSE OF A LAWNMOWER FUCKIN STALLED OUT ON ME AND WONT RESTART!!!!!! THIS IS THE ONLY DAY I HAVE TO CUT THE FUCKING GRASS!!! I HATE THAT PIECE OF SHIT!!! AND DON'T ASK IF THERE IS GAS IN IT I'M NOT THAT RETARDED!

Salutes (must Read)
Salutes seem to be a hot topic of discussion around here lately. I've come to the point that I feel the need to rant about it. So a blogging I will go. According to the fubar bible "a salute is a candid photo of yourself (showing your entire face, unobstructed by sunglasses, etc.) holding a HANDWRITTEN sign with your screen name, member ID, and fubar.com proving to the world that you?re the real person behind your fubar profile. Members often write their information on their hands, feet or other body parts. Please do not submit NSFW salutes. You will NOT be able to move up past level 20 without a verified salute." This means that with or without a vip you will not make it passed level 20 without a verified salute. Obviously this is a new rule as we have seen many users passed level 20 without a salute. "Salute requirements according to the fubar bible: 1. Your SCREEN NAME, 2. Your Member ID number, (which is located in the end of your URL address; www.fubar.com/user/22)3. AND

It Ain't Me, Babe.
I haven't posted a song in a while. Video in the comments. Lots of people covered this song...but I love the Johnny Cash and June Carter version a whole lot. :) It Ain't Me, Babe Go 'way from my window, Leave at your own chosen speed. I'm not the one you want, babe, I'm not the one you need. You say you're lookin' for someone Never weak but always strong, To protect you an' defend you Whether you are right or wrong, Someone to open each and every door, But it ain't me, babe, No, no, no, it ain't me, babe, It ain't me you're lookin' for, babe. Go lightly from the ledge, babe, Go lightly on the ground. I'm not the one you want, babe, I will only let you down. You say you're lookin' for someone Who will promise never to part, Someone to close his eyes for you, Someone to close his heart, Someone who will die for you an' more, But it ain't me, babe, No, no, no, it ain't me, babe, It ain't me you're lookin' for, babe. Go melt back into the night, babe, Everything inside is made of sto

Hmmm
Hmmmm...... went to the doctor yesterday to get the referral for the psych eval, have that all taken care of and scheduled for the 29th. The doctor that seen me yesterday ordered blood tests as well, she said she wanted to make sure that there wasn't an underlying medical condition. The MA tried to take blood in two spots yesterday digging around in my arm and hand and couldnt get a vein. I warned him before hand that they ALWAYS have problems getting blood from me cuz my veins are very small, and they move easy. After he tried for about 20 minutes he gave me a referral to get it done at the lab. WELL I went to the lab today to get it done, told the lady the same thing, she played with the needle in my right arm not getting anything. She then switched to a butterfly needle and hit a surface vein with a syringe to get the blood. WELL, when she said she had the minimum amount needed she said piss we just blew the vein.... this was on my upper arm.... I am a human pin cushion :( The doct

Wine Vs Water
For those who wish to have a glass of wine...and those who don't...this is something to think about: As Ben Franklin said: "In wine there is wisdom, in beer there is freedom, in water there is bacteria." In a number of carefully controlled trials, scientists have demonstrated that if we drink one liter of water each day, at the end of the year we would have absorbed more than one kilo of Escherichia coli, (E.coli) - bacteria found in feces. In other words, we would be consuming one kilo of crap. However, we do not run that risk when drinking wine and beer (or tequila, rum, whiskey or other liquor) because alcohol has to go through a purification process of boiling, filtering and/or fermenting. Remember: Water = Crap; Wine = Health Therefore, it's better to drink wine and talk stupid, than to drink water and be full of shit. There is no need to thank me for this valuable information. I'm doing it as a public service.

Thoughts About My Life
I was reading a friend's blog earlier and find myself relating to it in ways I'd rather not. I've looked back on my life and seen that there are so many things i wanted to accomplish and haven't at this point. I'm 22 years old and when I see friends all around me graduating from college it makes me realize how badly I let my life slip through my fingers. I hear from family members how I don't shape up whether it be physically, financially, emotionally or otherwise. Basically I've become a screw up in every way that counts to them. Alot of people know that I fell off the track that I had set for my life when my mom passed away. At 16 I lost sight of what I wanted to accomplish and since then haven't worked really hard to get it back because I realize it never really meant anything to me. People I know with alot more heart to succeed and become something have failed so what made me think I ever could. I used to think I was smart and capable of anything, until life tore out my heart

Sexy Men Contest Open
OK! THE SEXY MEN CONTEST HAS NOW OFFICIALLY BEGUN! MY APOLOGIES YOU HAD TO WAIT, BUT YOU REALLY DO WANT ALL PICS TO BE UPLOADED @ THE SAME TIME IN A RATES CONTEST. AGAIN, THIS IS RATES ONLY. THE AMOUNT OF RATES IN TOTAL AT THE END WILL DETERMINE THE WINNER. THIS CONTEST WILL END NEXT SATURDAY @ MIDNIGHT CENTRAL TIME. WINNER RECEIVES THE 25 BLING PACK. IF YOU HAVE NOT BEEN IN A CONTEST BEFORE.... YOU FIND YOUR PICTURE IN THE FOLDER, IN THE ADDRESS BAR ON THE VERY TOP YOU CAN COPY & PASTE THAT TO FRIENDS VIA YOUR SHOUTBOX. YOU CAN ALSO CLICK ON YOUR PICTURE AND YOU WILL SEE AN OPTION TO "LINK PHOTO". YOU CAN CLICK ON THAT AND THAT WILL SHOW 2 DIFFERENT WAYS TO LINK YOUR FRIENDS. ON THE LEFT IS A PIC LINK AND ON THE RIGHT IS TEXT LINK. THESE ARE GOOD FOR MAILING THEM OR LEAVING ON THEIR PAGES TO ASK THEM TO RATE YOU IN THE CONTEST. I THINK THAT IS ABOUT IT FOR NOW, SO HAVE A SWEET DAY AND PLEASE NO DOWNRATING!

A Symphonies Last Note
A Symphonies Last Note I stumbled across a beautiful riddle She is hiding in plain sight Standing there for the entire world to see A dove simply waiting to take flight Intelligent and filled with wit She shows many different sides Waiting for someone to unlock the secret Of the restless soul that in her resides Dancing by the light of the moon Her song seeking an audience Whispering to see who will pull close Screaming to see who will climb her walls so immense

I Win
Hubby and I had a bet for a dollah that MJ will die when we saw the news about him goin to the hosp. I won! Now I can afford a taco at a T Bell I had no idea about Farah Fawcett dying from asshole cancer, but this is like a 2 for 1 week. Schaweet!

Texas 2sum
HAPPY FREAKY FRIDAY FROM THE TEXAS 2SUM! WE ARE FIXIN TO FLIP THOSE AUTOS ON AND GET THE PARTY STARTED! A SEXY BLONDE AND HOT REDHEAD! WHAT MORE CAN YOU POSSIBLY ASK FOR? OH BLING? IS THAT WHAT YOU WANT? THERE WILL BE SOME BLINGIN' SOME BOMBIN' AFTERALL WHEN WE DO SOMETHIN' IN TEXAS WE LIKE TO DO IT BIG!!!!!!! SO, STOP BY OUR PAGES, HAVE A DRINK, SIT A SPELL, ENJOY THE VIEW AND MOST OF ALL, HAVE A GOOD TIME! SOUTHERN HEAT@ fubar ~Tiger~Goddess~Lady~~Impossible to forget...But Surprisingly, hard to remember....~Tiggz~~@ fubar

What The Fuck?
Ok..so I am going to put this out there to all you motherfuckers out there on my friend list. I will NO LONGER be tolerating your spam from other websites in my shoutbox. I WILL not even go look. Now I just received some bullshit link from somebody and I am afraid to go look. If it has anything to do with her being naked I would just barf all over the fuckin place. Any more of you fuckers do this again and your asses will be terminated off the list. If I have said anything that offends that's too fuckin bad because I just don't give a fuck about you and your feelings.

Breaking The Fuaddiction!
No, I'm not leaving Fubar, however I need to seriously cut down time spend on here! Some of you know I was on layoff and had the time to waste, however I've found a new job over a month ago and now that I past my state exams and started working I need to spend more time earning my keep! I'm a spoiled bitch, I like my new house, want a new car and love hot tubbing. To bad Fubar doesn't pay the bills! My new career is strictly based on commission, so spending all these hours on here directly affects my income. Now that I have reached level 31 and Fubar has decided to only allow 1 person a week to level to 32 there is no challenge left. I'm at the top, the chance of me ever winning spotlight is 0. Not with everyone at 31 trying for the same thing just once a week, fruitless effort and a waste of my time. No I'm not upset about that I'm hoping now that the challenge is gone, I can break this FuAddiction! I've met some awesome people on here, I hope they stay in touch! I'm not leaving,

So Into You
When I’m into you I’ll do more than listen to your desire I’ll for sure glisten that fire Taking nothing for granted with each breath I won’t wait for fate As I’ll pull more than my weight When I’m into you I’ll do more then understand your concerns I’ll make sure it will be no more as the world turns The last days won’t be lived with regret As we’ll look back on the sun That was, that still is because I’m so into your mind, body and soul All your thoughts , all your curves , all your energy The way you make me laugh , the way you walk, the way you set my mind at ease I’m so into you , into you I’ll find our shore splashes onto eternity There in the midst of night Our bodies retrieve the outer limits of ecstasy

Leveling Requirements
A lot of people are not aware of the requirements for each level after 30, so I am posting them for easy reference. I will do ANGELS first, and then DEMONS. At the bottom of this, I will also be putting the Level 31+ User Agreement. ANGELS Level 31~ 105,000,000 Points Must have had 100 ability points spent on you. Must have been added as family by at least 50 people at time of levelup. Level 32~ 120,000,000 Points Must have at least 25,000,000 fuBucks at time of levelup check. Must have won the spotlight after reaching level 31. Level 33~ 140,000,000 Points Must have been rated 11 by fubar family. Requirement must have been met within the last two weeks and after reaching level 32. Must reach the weekly top score in 1 of the top5 arcade games after reaching level 32. Level 34~ 165,000,000 Points

When Life Kick's You In The Ass....
Have you ever had one of those days.... Where you feel like life has just kicked you in the ass? The good things you do...go unappreciated.... You try..and you try....to be a good karma person... And nothing changes? Yea...that's where I am.... How does one make a change...in their life...and ensure that the one's that are most affected by the change will be ok? I'm at a loss as of 4:34 CST....

I Wanna Rip My Fucking Heart Out
Keep pushing me Ill get sick on you The bile you cant remove penetrating your skull like a last chance but you wont take it hit me so you can feel better lazy, bitch, cunt, liar, whore I wanna rip my heart out and destroy it

Want A Salute??
Want a Personal Salute From Me?? Heres Your Chance!!! Highest Bid Wins!! Auction Ends July 1st @ 4pm Fu-Time!! So Hurry Up and Bid!! Winner Gets 1 SFW Salute.. Your Choice of What it Says and Even the Color of Shirt I Wear!! Place Bids in Blog Comments!! You Know You Want a Piece of Me Sooo What Are You Waitin for Place Your Bids Now!!! xoxo

Eyes
Innocence. When people look into your eyes, they see pure innocence. Your eyes sparkle and you like to flaunt them, and often use them to manipulate people. You're a kind-hearted and intellectual person that loves being loved and getting attention, but others don't see that you can sometimes be defensive and aggressive when you don't get your way. You're really not as innocent as some people think!

Woman Left Newborn In Portable Toilet, Police Say
CNN) -- A 44-year-old Maryland woman faces charges of child abuse after police say she gave birth in a portable toilet and dropped the newborn into the waste tank. After exiting the portable toilet in Long Wharf Park in Cambridge, Candy Vigneri got a cigarette from a construction worker and sat at a picnic table, police Lt. Wayne Bromwell said. As she sat, a male passer-by approached the toilet but Vigneri warned him, "Don't go in there, I just had a baby there," police said. The man immediately called 911. Vigneri returned to the toilet and retrieved the newborn from the foul liquid at the base of the tank. The baby was unresponsive and covered with a blue antibacterial chemical agent when emergency responders reached the scene, police said. Vigneri told officers that she didn't know she was pregnant. She was arrested Wednesday on charges of child abuse and reckless endangerment and is being held on a $50,000 bond. The baby is in stable condition at Easton Memorial Hospital. Do

Ta Crystal
... so i can see your eyes, their light,so i can ask the love, and the sky sand you for me,so i can know a star, that come on heart to talk with me,soi can kiss your lips, touch your hands, take in my heart,like a done with a divine form, i love you, divine creature, that show to me the real sense of the dreams,and like the dreams appearsi can see you,peace for my eyes !! http://marcovasselli.spaces.live.com/ tp Crystal

Ways To Die
Can someone tell me ways to die???? I can't deal with stuff anymore... my friend Holly is in the hospital....my breast cancer may have come back.. i dont see my daughter....i am losing my friends..all of them.. i just don't want to go through all this pain anymore...so.. pleaseeeeee help me.

Lmfao
How do you decide who to marry? "You got to find somebody who likes the same stuff. Like if you like sports, she should like it that you like sports, and she should keep the chips and dip coming." Alan, age 10 "No person really decides before they grow up who they're going to marry. God decides it all way before, and you get to find out later who you're stuck with." Kirsten, age 10 What is the right age to get married? "Twenty-three is the best age because you know the person FOREVER by then." Camille, age 10 "No age is good to get married at. You got to be a fool to get married." Freddie, age 6 How can a stranger tell if two people are married? "Married people usually look happy to talk to other people." Eddie, age 6 "You might have to guess, based on whether they seem to be yelling at the same kids." Derrick, age 8 What do you think your Mom and Dad have in common? "Both don't want no more kids." Lori, age 8 What do most peo

12 Days Of Hell.
Right now, my daughter is on a plane. And it's making me crazy. I already miss her, I'm worried, I'm sad, I'm proud, I'm...well...I'm a lot of things. She's never been on a plane before and she's flying alone...all the way to St. Louis, where she's going to be staying with her paternal grandmother. She refused the offer to stay at her dad's. I'm glad of that, because he has no right to have her. Not when he's never paid a dime of child support and he's broken just about every promise he ever bothered to make to her. After 14 years of doing all of it on my own, struggling and scrimping, I begrudge him any moment that he gets to spend with her. Why should he get to enjoy her? Why should he get to take her to a portrait studio to get family photos taken together when I can't even afford to do that here? Why should he get to whip a snapshot out of his wallet and show her off to his buddies when he goes to the bar to play darts? He hasn't had a hand in raising her. He's had nothing to do

Wooohoooo
Well FINALLY, my favorite holiday is upon us again! This holiday really means the most to me, and it sets my heart on fire!! It's hard to describe, but something like that. Tomorrow is going to be soooooo DOPE! My unit, A CO 1/141 INFANTRY (L) 36th INF DIV (TXARNG) is tasked to be the honorary Grand Marshals in the Schertz, TX Fourth Jubilee! We originally were going to march (in true Infantry style), but it was better decided to ride fire trucks. I don't ride fire trucks in battle. But, better than humpin' it. lol Our family members are to be on the floats, and it's gonna be cool (I think). I've never done anything like this in my career. What's especially awesome is I get to celebrate the holiday here. I've missed more than a few of them overseas already, and will celebrate the next one again overseas. My battle buddy Stockton drove out to San Antonio tonight from Houston, where he lives. It's about three and a half hours away. He came to go to the parade, and also invited me to go t

Contemplating Thoughts On My Lists
Most of the time I listen to the radio while I drive and a few of my local radio stations play really awesome songs. I came up with this idea to write down all the songs I listened to throughout the day. I started writing them down on a piece of paper then dl or copying to notepad once I was home. Right now, I need some work done to my computer. Instead of downloading thousands of songs then wiping them out{yaya I know*rollseyes*, no. really, I know}, I figured writing the songs online would be a great start and it gives me something to look forward to if I need a smile. That's all for now, I need to rest{not feeling well today}. There may be a list when I get back here. Yes, I did turn on the radio today already. Sadly, I only listened to one song before I got too dizzy and had to walk around. It was one of my George's so Im happy. Rebel Girl

Auditing Weekly Top Game Scores For Start Of Week 7/5 - 7/11
UPDATE 7/7/09 - Requirement has been changed from Top Weekly Score in one of the first 5, to Top Daily Score in *any* game. This is not retro-active to previous scoring, so go get your top dailies and level up! UPDATE: If you are not in the below list of user ids and you also qualified to level up to 33 -- please bear with us. We'll be re-examining the gaming requirement to decide if (and how) this should change, given the reliability of the company that hosts the scores for us. That's all that can be done for now! Continue to play as you will, but know the risk might be that your score isn't 100% gauranteed to be recorded and nothing will likely change with this situation until some time on Monday. As for thos ethat I've been able to find logs for -- level 32 fubar users that have been trying hard to place in the weekly top scores, sorry for the mishap but we've manually run through all scoring from 12am PST through right now and here is the list of users that have obtained week

Liars N Cheats On Fubar Oh My
It amazes me how many people on the net live several lives~~you have "THE SUCESSFUL MILLIONAIRE" Oh baby I'll cange your life 4ever and give you the world~~ Then you have "MR ROMANCE" Baby I don't have much, but my heart 4u will be more than you will ever need ( yet their heart is all over the place) Then you have your "MR IM SINGLE AND LOOKING 4 MY SOULMATE" Oh baby you are perfect 4 me and you are all I need in my life, yet they are telling that samething to 10 others lol Or the BEST one yet " THE ONES WHO HAVE 4 SCREEN NAMES and play 4 differnt people on them" Can we say Sybil? LMAO This isn't me capp'n on men~~Trust me women are worse!! Women tell men daily "I LOVE YOU" Then @ night they are in bed w/ theyre husbands~~ Are people on the net that desprate 4 attention, addicted 2 lying, bored, needy, or just game players that bad that they have to toy w/ peoples emotions??? I feel 4 the FEW people who are honest, continue to be honest that will shine thru~~ Bull shit ALWAYS SME

Idjits
I'm not sure which is more amusing: having trashy brainless fucks put random nonsense they come up on their own in Blast messages, AKA "TANKS 2 MY LUV VAPIDDRAGON 4 DE BLAST I LUV YA BABY; R/F/A/ AND SEE MOR OF ME; WICKEDLY DELICIOUS" or Have these dimwitted semihumans put pasted quotes by R Emerson, Socrates, Einstein, O Wilde, etc, in hopes for other dimwitted idiots mistake them for someone with half a brain. For realz, yo

Unreal, But True
When I was 5 and had just moved into a new place (AGAIN), I was playing in an abandoned parking structure. I looked around and could swear I had been there before. How could that be? That was impossible, I had JUST moved there and there was no way on earth I could have even seen this place before. I had to be dreaming. Trying to shake myself out of it I said to myself "I know, I'll pinch myself and prove to myself that I'm dreaming". So I pinched myself till I left a bruise. It didn't hurt. So next I took a stick and said the same "If this hurts, I'll know I'm not dreaming". I hit my arm so hard it left a welt. Still, it didn't hurt. So, I then found a glass bottle, chipped off the top and said to myself "This HAS to work!!! If THIS doesn't hurt, I'll KNOW I'm dreaming". I took the tip of the bottle and stick it into my skin, all the way down to the bone. It was bleeding alot, but did NOT hurt. I went home, cleaned it up and thought that it was fine bc it was just a dream and I'

The Man...the Myth...
I just watched the Michael Jackson memorial on television. And while I am a little put off by the media sensation surrounding his death, this service was beautiful. I can understand the need these people felt to memorialize him...to emulate him...to celebrate him. So much of the media hype that's surrounded him throughout his life and now in his death has nauseated me. But this...this gave me hope for humanity. So many people coming together to mourn and celebrate the life of one man...ONE MAN. The world united in a common grief. We can still work together after all. Anyone who frequents the MuMMs has seen much of what I have to say on this subject. I am very vocal regarding it. I've sat on this site watching people make horrible jokes about this man and call him a pedophile. And, it's sickening. Whatever you believe he did in his life...whatever wrongs you attribute to him...he is a man who never had a moment's peace while he was alive, and now that he's gone, he still doesn't get