Fubar Blog Posts 4

Why?
Why do some people assume everything is about them? I can't post something without someone assuming I am talking about them and it is driving me crazy!!! I guess some people on here can't figure out that some of us have lives offline too.... I'm not going to point any fingers and I'm not trying to start an argument or anything, but come on... I guess what really aggravates me the most is that I have already had this discussion before.... I'm so pissed right now that i feel like throwing my computer out the door, and I would if I didn't need it for school work.... I do want to get something strait though...I am here for friends...in case some of you don't get it, if I tell you I love or ♥ you, I am saying it out of friendship...I have no other inclinations than that...I am not now nor will be looking for love on this website.... with that said, I think its time to take a break from this site....I am tired of all the bullshit...I may be back, I might not....

Giving Thanks....
I'm back! :D I wanted to say thanks to all my friends... sweet comments, messages, gifts. I am indeed feeling a lot better. I don't SOUND better, but I do feel better. My energy is returning and the fever is gone.:) And please don't make me laugh, cuz the coughing spells last 5 to 10 minutes sometimes. The worst of it though? Let me tell you... try being the only adult in the house, lose your voice and can't even fuss at your 4 year old cuz he thought it was funny... when he whizzed on the carpet!!!! Ack! Again, I say... grrrrr MEN!!! lol I carried a notebook around when I lost my voice, wrote messages for the Kota (10 year old) and he would tell Jesse, "Mama said..." Wow! It's been fun to say the least. (Note the sarcasm.) So, anyway, I've been bad. I think I have bronchitis, but my feelings for doctors keeps me from going where I need to. I keep stalling. I don't like doctors. *crying* I know, I know... set the example for my boys. But, anyway, I will get there eventually.

Another Idiot!
Lifesez: i am calling my uncle who lives at blackjack ranch in somerseville to come inspect the baby before i buy it! Leanna_K.O...: what the fuck you need help ->Lifesez: you started typing to me cause you want to sell your baby to me and see my penis! Leanna_K.O...: fuck you, you are not getting my son now leave me the hell alone ->Lifesez: i want to buy the baby...how much i see where you live and i want to buy it Leanna_K.O...: you will come no where near my baby ->lifesez: i will come to buy your baby!! Leanna_K.O...: go to hell dirt bag ->lifesez: sell me the baby! Leanna_K.O...: what the fuck you are ass ->lifesez: i want to buy your ugly baby...how much for the littlew girl? Leanna_K.O...: fuck you you bastard you are ugly IT HAS REACHED THE POINT WHERE I WANT TO CAMPAIGN AGAINST CHILDREN ON PRIMARY PHOTOS.THEY ARE EVERYWHERE!!

Right Under Your Nose
Deep inside the pain is strong Wanting and longing to be in your arms Sharing feeling but your never ready As with most fear of commintment Scares you away, Scares you of what I say Being loved in a special way We all been hurt in one way or another But don't we all deserve to be loved To be loved you have to take a chance You never know true love Could be right under your nose So when life throws you a hurtful moment Grab it and embrace it for you never know Loves right under your nose You could pass up on the best thing in life Because you scared of love Then you passed up happiness Right under your nose

Different From The Others Today...
When I brought up my kid in the other blog comment it reminded me of the whole conversation I had with him yesterday. We were outside doing some cleaning up and I told him both brothers were coming over and I was going to ask them which one wanted to take him home. We always joke around like this I'm not mean really lol He made a comment that had something to do with me not having a boyfriend. I had to once again tell him it was kind of hard to find one. He asked, and I'm not sure if he was joking or serious, if it was because of him. It made me stop what I was doing. This is the kind of thing that can just break your heart and make you feel bad. So I had to tell him to never ever ever think that it's him. lol I told him it's because most of them around here are jerks and he said "yeah! they're all buttfaces" LOL Then he keeps the conversation going on by telling me "how can they not love you?" lol he said "how can they not love your butt" omg thought I was gonna die! I told him h

Whatever You Want To Call It..
I am gonna put together a folder of my friends pix.If you want me to use a specific one email it to me,if not you are stuck with the one I recognize most from the mumms.Please Nasty comments,input it optional.. Cheers Bitches!

Sexy And Yummy Stuff
CABO WABO MAS TEQUILA cookie recipe: 1 tsp of water 1 tsp baking soda 1 cup of sugar 1 tsp salt 1 cup of brown sugar 1 tsp lemon juice 4 large eggs 1 cup nuts 2 cups of dried fruit 1 bottle CABO WABO Tequila 1 Sammy Hagar c.d. Grab your favorite Sammy Hagar c.d. and CRANK THAT FUCKER UUUUP!!! Sample the CABO to check quality. Take a large bowl, check the CABO again, to be sure it is of the highest quality, pour one level cup and drink. Turn on the electric mixer...Beat one cup of butter in a large fluffy bowl. Add one teaspoon of sugar...Beat again. At this point it's best to make sure the CABO is still OK, try another cup ... just in case. Turn off the mixerer thingy. Break 2 leggs and add to the bowl and chuck in the cup of dried fruit, Pick the fucking fruit up offa thr floor... Mix on the turner. If the fried druit gets stuck in the beaterers just pry it loose with a drewscriver. Sample the CABO to check for tonsistici

A Little Easy
spiralvayn...: aite....gnite.. ->Suga Lips: I'm going to go with GET LOST here, k? spiralvayn...: idk bout tht....bt wud u like 2 try mine.. ->Suga Lips: do I look like I need some? spiralvayn...: need some?..;P ->Suga Lips: um ok spiralvayn...: spunk = cum/jizz/creme de la creme ->Suga Lips: ? spiralvayn...: mmmm..tasty...

Life Is So Precious....
Hmmmm Today was a heartbreaking, heartfelt day. I guess I just wanted to share it. Its a shame I work so much I have no one here at home, friends wise, to share it with. So, you all are stuck listening to me lol Life, its ironic. How quickly things turn around and sometimes its for the better, but sometimes, it kicks ya in the arse. I had something really and truly life changing happen today. I got to work, and there was a Medi-Vac helicopter there. Lifeflight as some know it. I walked into a scene that just still has me going WTF??? A female, regular visitor to the mall, she was walking out to her car, just got clumsy and stumbled on the pavement. But it seems life had other plans for her. Upon falling down, landed on her head. Cracking it open, and because of the sudden trauma, she also had a heart attack shortly after. The EMTs were quick, and revived her. They intibated her and got her on the helicopter to the trauma center in St Pete, Bayfront Hospital. However, there i

In A World Of Pain
NightwishWish I Had An AngelMusic Video Codes By Music Jesus.com ok im doing this to avoid answering the same question all the time . some of you have seen my status as in a world of pain. thats because i have a nerve illness that is destroying the main nerve in my left arm. i am in pain 24-7 its just some days like today the pain is very huge. im use to it i had this ilnedd for 7 years now and waiting for my second surgerry to try to stop it im slowly losing the use of my left arm thats the result of it. maybe this will enlighten a few bless be all

If You Can't Bother
guys... especially those NOT in my friends list yet... please remember, i put these things up for you guys but that doesn't mean you get to just walk in, jerk off and leave. if you have not been added.... if i don't see a rate, a picture rate, a fan, something that shows that you're interested, your request will be denied. if you have been added already and have not done these things, get the hell to it, i'm going to start making lists, and blocking people... locking the albums creates a hassle, but I will do it if that's what it takes. seriously, remember i am a real fuckin person here... i don't go play with myself lookin at your nsfw's and walk away (although some of you might want me to)... don't do it to mine. Say hello (read: HELLO, not NICE PUSSY)... rate something that gives points... leave comments that say more than i wanna do you in both holes baby... seriously... i do what i can to keep you happy, and i ask very little in return... please guys, gimme some love and

9 Words Women Use
9 Words Women Use (thanks Hurley) 1. Fine: This is the word women use to end an argument when they are right and you need to shut up. 2. Five Minutes: If she is getting dressed, this means a half an hour. Five minutes is only five minutes if you have just been given five more minutes to watch the game before helping around the house. 3. Nothing: This is the calm before the storm. This means something, and you should be on your toes. Arguments that begin with nothing usually end in fine. 4. Go Ahead: This is a dare, not permission. Don't Do It! 5. Loud Sigh: This is actually a word, but is a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men. A loud sigh means she thinks you are an idiot and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing with you about nothing. (Refer back to #3 for the meaning of nothing.) 6. That's Okay: This is one of the most dangerous statements a women can make to a man. That's okay means she wants to think long and hard before decidi

Application For Other Staff
Name:(real first and Fubar name please.. What job would you like: ENFORCERS, BARTENDERS, PROMOTERS, or GREETER Are you willing to help out with other things like reposting bullitens and helping out with keeping the lounge talking: Are you willing to listen and not complain about the music the DJ's are playing: Are you willing to be kind, and respectful to other even if you are haven a personal issues with them from another lounge: ARE YOU WILL TO NOT FLIRT WITH OTHER STAFF MEMBERS ? Are you willing to NO promote Drama in the lounge: THESE JOBS MAY OR MAY NOT GIVE YOU THE "MODS" THAT IS A CHOICE OF THE OWNERS IF YOU ASK FOR THEM YOU WILL NOT GET THEM AT ALL!!!!!!!!!

Fantasy Mart
I went to the grocery store and started to go down the meat section and saw you an old friend I havent talk to in a while I went up to u and said hey you turned around surprised and hugged me and said hey I missed talking to you and we talked for a while when we got to your car you asked me if I would like to come over to your house and I said yes we get to your house and get into the door I ask you if you needed help with putting up the groceries and you said please I started to put them up and a bottle of oil spilled all over me I started to cuss then I took of my shirt you looked over and saw me with my shirt off all oily I ask if I could use your restroom and you said yes I went into the restroom and took off my pants I saw that you were in the door way looking at me you walk over to me and start to kiss me you rub your hand on my stomach spreading the oil all over my body I start to kiss you on the neck you push me away you start to take off your shirt and bra I

Jedi Anal
need1more: oh boy ->Psychowolf...: Need1more....I Am Your Father.... need1more: ummmm you might get some of that from your moms ass or maybe some of your ladies ass. i leave evidence everywhere ->Psychowolf...: for they have the same force filled semen of yours in THEM ->Psychowolf...: Or we will trade your Mother and Sister for the same offer ->Psychowolf...: The councils deal stands at this; you give us the force imbued semen in your anus, and we give you two destroyer droids, my lightsaber, and a BANTHA need1more: all come on queer i know you dont quit that easy do ya need1more: i can play your little fucktard game all night. fuck you and fuck them and fuck her and fuck you again ->Psychowolf...: Dont make me put on my robe and wizard hat need1more: council and you can suck my dick. ->Psychowolf...: Master Yoda says the entire council belongs in your anus need1more: been watching to much tv huh. and decided to stick your queer nose into something that

My "leaving Fubar" Status
When I posted that status yesterday, several of you went crazy and freaked out on me asking me why I was leaving and asking me not to leave. I thought I should explain to you all as to why... Well, Someone threatened to kill me tonight.. and he tried hacking my computer.. hit my firewall several times.. spam attacked my Yahoo and my Fubar emails 5000 times within 10 minutes.. and said my ex should have killed me, then he said he will personally do it himself. He also said that if I tried to use any of that in court.. he will lie and say I doctored it and falsified my proof. I sent it all in a report. and when someone tried to help me by sending his own report in because when he tried to ask the man to back off and to leave me alone, my friend got deleted.. Its all bullshit. Then all I got back was the typical "Ignore and block" message. When cyber bullying, cyber stalking, and spam attacks on your emails are against the law. I find it sad.. that when we really need help here on

Comes A Time.....in Life
YOU KNOW THERE COMES A TIME IN LIFE WHEN REALITY IS REAL AND FANTASY IS JUST THAT FANTASY, HOWEVER WHEN THE TWO SEEM TO BECOME ONE, IT MAKES YOU WONDER WHATS REAL, WHATS FAKE? WELL I AM SURE I LIVE IN THE REAL WORLD AND I ALSO LIKE IN FANTASY, HOWEVER, WHEN MY REAL LIFE IS AFFECTED BY MY MAKE BELIEVE LIFE, THEN I MUST END IT. I HAVE RECENTLY COME TO REALIZE THAT FUN IS FUN AND SOME TAKE FUN A LITTLE TOO FAR, WITH THAT BEING SAID I WOULD LIKE TO SAY TO EACH AND EVERYONE ONE OF YOU I WILL NO LONGER BE ON FUBAR EACH EVENING AS I HAVE BEEN LATELY, I MUST LIVE MY LIFE AND UNDERSTAND THIS HAS AFFECTED MY LIFE IN A WAY I DO NOT LIKE. FUN IS FUN AND NO ITS NOT FUN FOR ME ANYMORE, I MAY SOON RETURN AND IF AND WHEN I DO, THEN I HOPE EACH OF YOU UNDERSTAND WHY I HAD TO LEAVE FOR AWHILE, IF NOT THEN OKAY MAYBE YOU WERE NOT MY TRUE FRIENDS ANYWAY, SINCERELY, JENNA

Last Call
The club is empty for the most part. Noone left now but the bartendr and th DJ. Neither one notices her sitting alone in the shadows. The bartendr is wipeing down the bar, finishing he heads into th back. The DJ is alone in his booth straightening up from the events of the evening. He has no idea she has been watching him all night. She had sat there watching the way he moved, enjoying the naughty smile on his lips. Watching him smile an flirt with the ladies, he knows they want him. But she isnt happy wanting him...she is going to have him tonight. She slowly stands, cautios not to make a sound. His back is turned to her. Slowly she walks towards him, her shoes silent as she crosses the floor. She steps into th booth behid him, and before he knows what is happening she has him pushed up against the wall. He is startled and starts to struggle, but she pushes her soft body against him. Her lips so close to his ear he can feel the warmth of her brath. She whisper

"something"
I’VE NAMED MY WEINIS I'V E DECIDED TO NAME MY WEINIS! EVERY GUY DOES IT EVENTUALY,SOME MEN NAME IT AFTER OTHER MEN(WHICH I'VE ALWAYS FOUND KINDA GAY...UNLESS U R GAY.THEN I GUESS IT MAKES SENSE.)NAMES LIKE WILLY OR PETER,JR.OR THE OBVIOUS...DICK. OTHER GUYS CHOOSE SILLY NAMES LIKE MINI ME OR DORK,PUD,CRANK,HAMMER,DODE ETC. ...AND OTHERS NAME THEM AFTER ANIMALS LIKE *LOOK @ THIS PUPPY* OR *THIS IS MY HOG* AND THE OBVIOUS ONE EYED SNAKE. ME I DECIDED 2 KEEP IT SIMPLE AND CALL MINE "SOMETHING" A BEAUTIFUL WORD THAT FITS N2 ANY CONVERSATION OR SITUATION THAT COMES 2 MIND, AND TURNS THEM N2 NAUGHTY ONES. HERE ARE A FEW EXAMPLES: If SOMETHING isn't right...its on the left. If SOMETHING is under the bed...your husband/boyfriend came home early. (also applies 2 SOMETHING in the closet,behind the curtains or couch!) If SOMETHINGS gotta give...it gave @the office,in the elevator,on a plane 2 new york,etc... If SOMETHING comes over you...I apologize , I just couldn't hold out any longer

Love For Our Boys In Camo!
I know that you all are probably here expecting some hot and steamy stories. Today I have to apologize for the lack of such a story as the message I have to deliver today is far different and very somber. Some of you know me well enough to understand that I carry a certain level of anti American sentiment. While I do disagree strongly with the direction the country is headed, I still appreciate the hard work and LIVES lost of our military men and women over seas. I do strongly oppose the war in Iraq, I have from the very moment we started bombing. Part of me still feels Saddam could have been dealt with far differently then the great sacrifice our country has had to endure to remove him from power. A sacrifice that we still suffer even today. This morning as I am checking out this person and that I came across dragon. I do not know this boy but I do know that all of you should stop by and show his family much love. If any of you know someone else out there in fubar let

Fly The Flag For The Right Reason
Incredible, unforgivable and shameful: Read Below NuttinButtSexxy Love him or loathe him, he nailed this one right on the head.......... By Rush Limbaugh: I think the vast differences in compensation between victims of the September 11 casualty and those who die serving our country in Uniform are profound. No one is really talking about it either, because you just don't criticize anything having to do with September 11. Well, I can't let the numbers pass by because it says something really disturbing about the entitlement mentality of this country. If you lost a family member in the September 11 attack, you're going to get an average of $1,185,000. The range is a minimum guarantee of $250,000, all the way up to $4.7 million. If you are a surviving family member of an American soldier killed in action, the first check you get is a $6,000 direct death benefit, half of which is taxable. Next, you get $1,750 for burial costs. If you are the surviving spouse, you get $833

Up For A Challenge ?
OK in 30 minutes we are having a bomb off. There will be first place prize, and a personalized bombing Tag Award, Givin to the strongest bomber over the course of the hour. Other prizes may be givin during the course of the bomb off. Who is up for the challenge ? For This Bomb Off We Will be bombing Pixie! It Will start in 30 minutes. It will be 1 hour long to show your bombing Skills!!! Prizes will be awarded to the strongest bomber !! Who is in ?? Here is the contest Link ...

Pics
BOUNCERS AND ADMIN KNOW YOU CAN NOT RATE.. YOU ALSO SHOULD NOT UPLOAD OR CHANGE ANYTHING WITH YOUR PICS. THE REASON I SAY THIS IS YOU MAY LOOSE THEM, NOT FOR GOOD BUT TILL THIS IS ALL FIXED!! THEY ARE UNSURE HOW LONG IT WILL TAKE. THEY ARE DOING A PICTURE DATA BASE REBOOT! PLEASE SHARE THIS WITH YOUR FRIENDS SO THAT THEY WILL CUT THE BOUNCERS A LITTLE SLACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wtf
Ok, I have just been informed by a new friend that my pics are being used on a profile stating that I was leaving comments condemning soldiers and shit. I first will tell you I am a veteran myself and respect and support the troops and the sacrifices that they and I have made. If anyone else out there among my friends see's this profile would you please pass it on to me. this is the kind of hate and jealousy that is uncalled for and I will deal with them with the support of all my friends. Keith OS2 Navy Vet

Dog For Sale
Dog For Sale: OR free to good home. Answers to the name of Dolly. Excellent guard dog. Owner cannot afford to feed him anymore, as there are no more thieves, murderers, rapists or molesters left in the neighborhood for him to eat. Most of them knew him as " holy sh*t!! " Your help will be appreciated.

Prayers Are Needed For My Love Of My Life Kage And His Mom Ty
MAY GODS ANGELS WRAP THEIR WINGS AROUND YOUS AND PROTECT YOUS ALWAYS : WROTE BY CHERIE AKA WITCHESBREW 3/14/97 PLEASE ALL PRAYS ARE NEEDED TY CHERIE HUGS

More Futardism?
Another cut and paste from a profile. I am in search of a fun,attractive,down to earth white male to have a great time with and to get to know. me im 5'3" short, curvy(but in the right places), med brown hair, brown eyes,brown sugar skin,capitvating smile,and just down right fun to be around. ...and this one's a BLACK chick, so like most forms of stupidity it knows no race, lol! Don't get me wrong I'm all for bi-racial relationships,been in a few myself, but I don't think race should be a key and deciding factor in finding the idea person.

Thank You All
I am so overwhelmed at all the love i have received over past few days, and the last 3 hours have been amazing. I am now a GodMother :D I cant possibly name everyone that has helped me but will name a few that have been here for me today and throughout my Cherry/Fu time, since the end of January when i joined this site i have made some amazing friends, had my highs and lows, and a few people have made me smile again. Anyway enough babbling, i just want to name a few people in no particular order that have stuck by me from the beginning and been with me until now: Dawn-Browneyes Ash-WiKid Paul-One Of Lifes Daz-Just Me Dee-Dee Chris-English Cherry Lyndon-Thunder Jimmy-Jables Gordon-Gordo Jen-TumsFun Wanda-Castiron Glynn-Newton Heath Without these people and those listed below i wouldnt be where i am now x x x x x ................ And now to all those that have been on my page in past few days and got me there, Thank you ThroatFawk Polski FuBob Cappy Cur MishN

Broken Again
yes i lost a great guy today, its my fault, ans i feel like total shit.. thought i finally found my love but like my mom always says i fuk everything up all the time.. i guess im just useless like i've always been told..

Love
I have found that when you least look for the things you want, the quicker they come to you... Although, I found out how easily they can pass you by. This is because you are so busy feeling sorry for yourself, or trying too hard to make it "ALRIGHT" that you do not see what is in front of your face. I met a wonderful man, on the internet...as a matter of fact, here at FUBAR. I almost passed up his friendship and the chance to be happy because I wasn't seeing the whole picture. If it hadn't been for an emergency that arose recently, I think I would not have seen exactly how much this man had come to mean to , not only me, but my children as well. So I ask this ...next time you think that you need or want more or something differeent out of your life...turn around and look ... for your dream, life, and future may be right in front of your eyes... do not give that up. Thank-you Rick. I love you!

You Want One?
I am trying to do some personal salutes, and if you are interested in having one from this hungover woman let me know in a comment here ok? Hugs and kisses P.S. It may be a bit..Takes a bit for me to get the makeup off, and today they are going to be the same pose..LOL

As He Worked
As He Worked He worked furiously on completing the task at hand. I wait patiently knowing that once he is done, my lover will come to me. As he looks over to me with a mischievous look in his eye....I see in my mind what he is thinking. I lay back and remember our last time together, so erotic and sensual I remember his touch on my skin and I shudder slightly I start to imagine my hands are his hands, tracing my breasts and lightly brushing over the nipples. The breeze makes my nipples harden and quiver with anticipation. My mouth lets out a slight sigh and I continue with my fantasy, while across the room - he looks over and smiles knowingly. One hand on my breast and the other trailing down my stomach and to my sweet mound. I let my hand rest atop this sweet mound that belongs only to him. I feel the heat reaching up to my hand and I sigh If only these were his hands.... I start to trace the outer petals of my flower and feel the cool breeze as I part them to feel the wet

Uk Troop Reductions.
Shit like this pisses me the fuck right off. The English News (generally and falsely called the National News) has been bleating on all day long about how the "UK" government are reducing the British troop presence in Afghanistan. What the fuckers DIDN'T mention is that, whilst a shit load of English soldiers are coming home, there will in fact be an INCREASE in the amount of Scottish Regiment troops serving there. HALF of the Scot's Army will be there, almost 1400 young Scottish men and women. So, from a Scottish point of view, where's the fucking decrease? And people have actually asked me why I want Scotland to be independent from the UK. ps. I know that an army of 2,800 may not seem that large, especially to Americans, but Scotland has a larger army than other countries of comparable size and population.

End Of Argument!
->lifesez/*~...: shows how stupid you are again,you got married. WHO WANTS ...: have u seen my pics of me or my hot ass wife no and u could only dream of someone that hot ->lifesez/*~...: this coming from someone with no pic.and i am glad you know so much about my sex life.shows how stupid you are. WHO WANTS ...: your mad case u cant get a bitch to fuck so u have to play with yourself while looking at all these women ->lifesez/*~...: fuck off with your homo fantasys of me nancy boy! WHO WANTS ...: ya i maybe a asshole but you take it in the ass bitch I HATE WHEN THEY STOP BITCHING SOMETIMES!ALL I DID WAS CALL HIM AN ASSHOLE FOR HIS SWALLOW MUMM.

Lifes Changes
My life as I know it has changed. Some of it for the better, some for the worst. For those who dont know me, I have a rare mental disorder called intermittent explosive disorder. I have trouble controlling my temper and impulses. I just got out of the hospital today after attempting police suicide. Me and my girlfriend had a big falling out and I basically snapped. I was hauled off to the psych ward. I'm very lucky to be alive! I'm seeking the help I need to be a better person and to be happy with life. My girlfriend has left me, but I'm hoping to prove myself to her and maybe get my family back together. First I need to focus on myself and address my own issues before I can begin to get them back. It is quite possible that wont happen, but I can only hope both my daughter and my girl will be patient and supportive. I've ignored my problems so long it cost me my family. I'm going to try my best to be a better man and father to my child. The pain right now seems almost unbearable, but I

Help.....would Greatly Appreciate Any Advice Out There
PLEASE, if anyone out there knows any thing about Sciatic nerve, and Lumbar disc damage.....I really could use your advice, support, etc of any kind. I have had sciatic pain since Jan. of this year. Progressively got worse, though I thought it was something that would go away. The last three months, I have been back and forth, with my family physician, a chiropractor, orthopedic.....Last week, had a MRI...basically, I have a Lumbar disc in my lower back, that is deteriorating, and pressing on the sciatic nerve, in my left leg. The pain is HORRIBLE, and constant. My next and only step, after my recent MRI, is a series of three epidurals, in hopes of lessoning the pain, and nerve irritation. After doing alot of reading, and researching, I have found out, that there is a BIG possibility, I may, eventually, have total nerve damage, or, it could take 3-5 years, maybe longer, before, most of the pain goes away, well enough so, I can learn, to DEAL with it. (I'm not used to just "dealing"

Lucky 2 Be Alive(more To The Story)
How did I end up in the psch ward for 2 days? After me and my gf had our big falling out, she went to get the cops. I was so angry I got my rifle out and filled the clip, went 2 the bathroom and waited, shaking like a leaf. The police entered the house. When they got to my bathroom I had already drew down on them. I'm very lucky 2 be alive. God must have bigger plans for me, idk. After a 37 min standoff, I came out in cuffs. The officer I pointed my rifle at told me " You're not going to jail, you're gonna get the help you need. Not many people point a gun at the cops and live to tell about it. I feel like I was given a second chance to do things right and I intend on doing just that.

My Contest And Closet. Does That Go Together? Haha
Oh, what have I started? My bedroom walk-in closet has become a catch all for everything! It was getting to where it was hard to put my clothes away after I washed them. I figured that I didn't do anything this morning and my morning was disappearing, I would actually spend some time doing something like cleaning! I start pulling stuff out. Going through stuff that needs to be given for donation. So, now I can see my closet floor but...it is all on my bedroom floor now. LOL I need to put it in boxes or bags to give away. I still haven't even gone through the clothes that are on the big side now. I really didn't think I would be spending that much time in my closet but I think it has been a couple of hours off and on now. I think I am going to get rid of a bunch of shoes and clothes that I haven't worn in the last year and a half. I figure if I haven't worn then in that time, I never will so why hang on to them?? It is almost 1:00pm and I am still in my pajama's and no

War In Iraq
I am tired of people bashing the war in Iraq. What I hate even more is how people say that this war is about oil. It's not about oil. We are back in Iraq to finish what we started in the first Gulf War. We've been attacked by terrorists. We are taking the fight to the terrorists on their grounds, not ours. we are protecting our nation from terrorist attacks. There is a cost for this war. Like any other war, people die. The men and women who make up our armed forces are unique in this day and age. They all volunteered to serve in our military. Nobody forced them to sign up. They did it on their own free will. They knew that there is a possibility that we could go to war. They knew that there was a possibility that they may not come home alive. The facts in this war is that Iraq harbored terrorists. Al Quada opperatives have been captured in Iraq. Terrorist training camps have been destroyed in Iraq. Iraq had weapons that they were not supposed to have under the terms of the cease fir

This Is A Friend Of Mine
This is a friend and he is BRAND NEW to fubar.....YAY....we all like new faces!!! Please stop by and rate/fan/add him please. He only has one pic right now but will be putting more up so for now just help him get some friends started!! THANKS ALL.....LUV YA & HAVE AN AWESOME WEEKEND!!! MUAHHSSSSSSSSSSS True Felt Heart@ fubar

All I Do Is Bomb :d
i wake up, i bomb:D i go to work...i come home and bomb...i go to sleep :D thats my life at the moment:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D i guess im pretty competitive when it comes to these things :) it does feel oh so good to win tho. not only because of all the hard work ive done, but also because of the friends who come by and show so much love for me...its a great feeling. i thank you all!! i have been keeping a running list of all who ive noticed dropping some comments, and helping me reach almost 25,000 points! all in 7 days...wow! these are the people i would love to thank right now...if ive left you out i apologize! send me a pm letting me know :) i want to be able to personally thank each of you. dazzy - just me clayton charley sphere freak deja lou john h maloney sirvalor1 metal ron lipsofanangel !natas asian cat jiriw wolfen114 belanger39 soupt58 gary-au-shady viper leoline JAMES!! H(in ga!!) kenneth willgummybear shan shan

Morning Kiss
Morning Kiss the morning light entered your bedroom slowly, as the sunlight starts to light up your bed, i see you there on your side, your back to me. i look over and watch as the light catches your blonde flowing hair and makes it shine like gold. your shoulders, arms, back exposed and it makes me sigh - another night of you - away from me. i see we have a distance between us again - as it has been every night since we first met. you to your side and i to mine. i move closer, to arm's length of your back, i want to touch so, you know that i am here. i can feel the heat that comes from your body - i want to touch you so, i feel that heat take over my body. i lean closer and i touch you ever so lightly, your body moves away. 'why...am i still here?' i think to myself, 'why...won't you let me leave?' i want to touch, taste, see you and yet, you seem to move from me. i reach out again and touch your hair, it feels so silky soft. as i start to stroke your hair, my body moves slowly clos

Halloween *need Opinions!!!!*
Ok, well, halloween night i'm going trick or treating w/ the girls... Not sure what they'll be yet, like most kids they haven't made up their minds... I'll go dressed as a mommy... BUT, I need to figure out what to do for 'ADULT halloween' type things... Last year, being the person I am, did the 'swat' thing. since i have the uniform and all... What should I do this year? I debated doin like a show girl or something... i dunno, i wanna do something 'chicky' cuz i always do something 'guy' so to speak (swat uniform? hello? not chicky lol) sooo anyone have any ideas????

Need Advice From Military
I sort of off handedly mentioned this in my last blog about today being my daughters birthday.My son who is 16 has talked about joining the milltary for a couple years now but I never really took it all that seriously.He originally wanted to be a Navy pilot but due to his eyesight-(he wears contacts) that could never happen.He has been maintaining honor roll and even high honors occasionally since 6th grade.He has several advanced classes and even some college credit classes.He has already had several pamphlets and information sent to him by different school and hes BARELY into his junior year.Has made plans to attend either a technical school for computer programming related studies or electronic engineering type things. He got a job at 15 and pays for his own cell phone, gas, car insurance.Hes very responsible yet lately has gotten a bit unappreciative and a tad disrespectful towards me and my bf. I know I'm babbling but the background is relevant to my questions lol OK so he te

Still Not Here
I woke up this morning from dreaming of you, I sat at the window and watched the sun rise, a world came awake but my heart was froze, we instant message, there is always the phone, but always inside me I'm lost and alone, without you to hold , there is empty cold, darkness and grey, I live for the moment, our eyes first meet, the touch of your skin, tast your warm lips so sweet, only to be with you makes me complete, I cherish you always with unending love, till we meet baby I'll swallow the tears, fight back the pain of you being, Still Not Here...

Who And Where ?????
Everyone has at least one person on Fubar who would LOVE to kiss you. So... repost this to find out who would want to kiss you and WHERE they would like to kiss you. Even if your taken do this!!! 1- Cheek 2- Neck 3- Lips 4- Make-Out 5- Down South (LoL) 6- EVERYWHERE

Wtf?
Ok I just had someone completely new with no friends or anything rip my salute pic, andnow he won't answer why Just be careful and I want to make sure I recorded this in case something funky happens later..LOL MUAH Beware..no reason to rip...:( allen35@ fubar

Still Hurt
U TOLD ME SO MANY TIMES IT WASN'T OKAY TO CRY SO MUCH SO THAT I WANTED TO DIE U TREAT ME MEAN U TREAT ME CRUEL WHY IS ALL I ASK OF U THERE IS NOTHING LEFT INSIDE CUZ U KNOW MY SOUL HAS DIED YOU PUT ME DOWN HOPING I'LL STAY ALL I WANT TO DO IS RUN AWAY THESE TEARS I SHED ARE REAL SO WHY CAN'T YOU JUST LET ME DEAL I DIDN'T MEAN TO CRY BUT ALL I WANNA DO IS DIE THIS IS HOW YOU MAKE ME FEEL MY HEART BROKEN SPIRIT GONE LOOK AT THE DAMAGE U HAVE DONE U TELL PEOPLE I MAKE U PROUD BUT REALLY U ARE IN THE CLOUDS U SCARRED ME FOR LIFE KNOWING SOMEDAY I WOULD BE SOMEONES WIFE BUT YOU DON'T CARE WHY WOULD YOU DARE YOU KEEP HURTING ME NOT HEARING MY PLEA I CRIED TEARS FOR THE FIST TIME CUZ YOU ARE ON MY MIND WISH I COULD SAY I LOVE YOU WISH I COULD FORGIVE YOU DAMMIT MOM I JUST WISH YOU CARED ENUFF TO HEAR ME I WANT TO END IT WITH YOU AND SAY I LOVE YOU BUT I JUST CAN'T I'M SORRY FOR EVERYTHING IT'S OK CUZ IT'S ALL ON ME I SHO

Fear Is Only In Our Minds......
Religion: Believe whatever you want to believe but please do not preach to me that I need to find god or else I am going to hell! How do you even know God exists? Because a book was written 3500 years ago? The first writings were by Moses and then the Egyptians who used hieroglyphics written in stone, and then changed several times till we have this multitude of a book called the Bible. I personally do not care what anyone believes, to each is own, what ever makes you happy, but please please do not push your beliefs on me. Do not assume I am a “bad” person because I do not accept god into my life, I accept one person and that’s me and you want to know why? Because I know what I am and I know what I have to offer and I know myself inside and out and I accept myself and that’s all that matters. You want to discuss other religions and ideas with me, that’s great but do not tell me what I should believe because you will not win and I am not easily convinced. Abortion…….. Yes I do not

I Know
I know it's hard to find anyone smart enough on fubar or myspace to read my profile I know in your little world it's hard to find the time to actually read my profile I know it is asking too much to show me or anyone any kind of respect I know I ask too much from you when I ask to leave me a comment once a week I know when you add me and then disappear and then I delete you you freak out because I am so rude I know I am totally rude when I won't add you because you have 3,145 friends and we all know in the real world you have 3 I know you think it's cool to say thank you for the comment in an email or shout box but I think it's lazy and rude so take your lazy ass to my page and drop some love dumb ass I know you think it’s cool to drop drinking comments on my page because you have nothing better to do but I am cool without that shit I know I could go on forever but is it truly worth it I know most of you will not read this

Returning "the Favor"
Hi There! I rated, fanned, added, crushed, and googled you. I also looked you up on my space and every other social networking site I could think of. I called your house and hung up seven times over the last 2 days, built a shrine in your honor in my bedroom and hired a PI to gather more information on your daily activities. If you wouldn't mind doing the same for me I sure would appreciate it! Thanks & have a great night!!!

My Apoligies
I just wanted to let everyone know something. I have been talking to a few women on here. One I developed real feelings for, but she was far away. I wasn't 100% honest with her. I met someone else on here and met in person. I develope strong feelings for her as well. They now both hate my guts and I fully understand why. I don't blame them for that. You what it's worth, I know I'm an asshole so please keep those comments to yourself. I am a married guy that is very miserible. I am looking to leave and find someone that can respect me. But how can I do that if I cannot be honest to those who mean a lot to me. I just want to apologize to them, publicly and take whatever abuse I will get. I am very sorry for hurting you, lying to you, and hiding. When I said how I felt though, I meant that. I can only hope that one day you can find it in your heart to really forgive me. Goodbye to you. I didn't mention your names. I didn't think that would be right. Anyway I humbly apologize.

Wtf Shawn
read it and weep it. i invited him he took it outta context who here knows me and knows my lounge all i know is we dont beat round the bush in hydaway WE dont need to hide shit YOU FIND OUT REAL QUICK IF YOUR LIKED. but here ya go.. how fucking mature. (part two before he blocked me)

The Idiot Is At It Again
Hi everyone... Some of you know that I have a vicious, mean stalker here on Fubar.. He has sent me well over 7000 emails, 500 revenge and boot bots on my computer... Worse he has done was to say he will kill my family and me.. I have over 25 names of his blocked here.. and he came back today with a new one. With the same threats.. I am sick if this.. This may cause me to leave Fubar for good. Because I haven't gotten any help at all. He has researched me.. and posted my home address all over Fubar. Still when I report him here all I get is the typical "Block and ignore" response. Here is what he looks like and his page... «›-¤•.„.·´G®€w ¤ µÞ ¤ Ã ¤ §¢®€w UÞ`·.„.•¤‹»@ fubar When this first happened.. I called his dad.. which he did nothing... I called his mom.. she did nothing.. but I did find out he spent time in a mental institution there. Which scares the hell out of me. Tomorrow, I am calling the police in his hometown and pressing charges.. Like that will do any

Long Distance Relationship......
Long distance relationships require a special willingness and understanding that can test love like no other type of relationship can. It requires constant communication and a desire to continually create your relationship, using the only real tool you have... your words. In our guide, we've provided everything you need to do this and more from fun games to play to hundreds of romantic ideas to help keep your fire burning no matter how many miles may separate you.

Hostage!!
I didnt wanna write a mumm about this so i will just write a blog.. i dont know if its just me but i cant stand some people on this site..they really think they are the shit..they have pics and hold them hostage like u can only see this folder if you get me a vip..or u can only see this if u get me a blast..is seein someones pics really worth spending your hard earned money on...I THINK NOT...to all u people who do that..u can keep ur damn pics..i really think that shit is really sad..how about you spend ur own hard earned money on gettin ur own shit instead of begging others...ok now that i've vented i'm fine..lol..and if i pissed you off wit my blog..guess what?? I REALLY DONT GIVE A SHIT..LOL..PEACE!!

Read To Know How I Am..
Likes Truth, facts, flirtation, long-time friends Dislikes The superficial, flattery, shallow people, being taken advantage of Love and Sex This is the strongest of the sexualities in the zodiac. Incredibly passionate, the Scorpion takes intimacy seriously. Partners need to be intelligent and honest. Much of the foreplay for this sign happens long before the bedroom through conversation and observation. Once in love, they are devoted and loyal to the death. But relationships can take some time. The Scorpion needs to build trust and respect for a potential mate slowly and thoroughly. Friends and Family Sincerity and truth are strong components of the Scorpion's friends. It can take some time before really close bonds are formed, but once done, the Scorpion will remain dedicated and loyal. Witty and intellectual, they prefer companions who are humorous and easygoing. Full of surprises, this sign will give you the shirt off their backs if that's what you need; yet, once they

Vampire
VAMPIRE I smell your skin freshly bathed a scent like rarest orchids I feel your warmth my lips pressed on the pulse of your neck like an orgasm your essence floods my mouth over comes my mind sates my thirst animates my soul flushes my flesh erupts into my being ecstacy consumes every thought I drink of you hunger for more and more I am done we are one wedded soul to soul my need quenched for only a moment your aroma wafting through me surrounding me touching every cell I need you once again and forever F.M. 10/24/07

The Last Straw
If A Person is going to talk trash about someone that they don't even know, have never spoken too,Never even tried to speak to ....Only by Judging what they see in a picture ... then shouldn't they be open for communication when that person comes to them RESPECTFULLY and without malice to try to understand why it is they would LABEL them a DECEITFUL BAD PERSON??? How the FUCK do you decide you don't like a person by looking at a picture that is not offensive in any way. Just because "YOU THINK" your a psychic. Even those who claim to have the BEST psychic ability in the world ADMIT that sometimes they are WRONG with their interpretation and at least have the GOOD MANNERS to face that and admit it. I have deleted a portion of the persons name Because I don't want this person harassed in any way so please don't ask the persons name. I have nothing against this person, This person has enough on their plate to deal with at this time and I do not wish to add to their distress. I wish

Final Question
I know I have harped over this issue for so long, but since it is running wild on this site.. and it will be my final question about anything that really means anything to anyone.. Hardly anyone cares for REAL meaningful issues here anyways.. It's all about points, leveling or whatever... But... Since I am sick of the pedophiliasm that goes on here.. Someone tell me HOW can a man over 30, 40, and even over 50 ever be friends with someone under 20? 19? and 18? HOW? Besides trying to be in the kid's pants.. why would you want to be friends with someone that young? As I said.. I am dropping all REAL issues here.. Since no one cares anyways. Thank you and say good bye to the serious Cassie.

Black Man; I Underrstand Why You Are Alone In A City Full Of Women...
Black man; I understand why you are alone in a city full of women Because: You are looking for a woman who is strong, but who can submit to you, who knows when to be quiet and communicate without saying a word. A woman who likes you because of your strength but allows you to be vulnerable You want someone who is independent but makes you feel needed in her life. You're looking for someone that you can travel with, take home to mom, and bring around the boys A woman who cooks for you 2 times during the week and every Sunday so you can still have a life, because she is busy living hers as well. You are attractive and looking for a woman who also has style and flavor, who you like being seen with who looks like a real girlfriend...not like a groupie chick that always looks like she is going to the club in the middle of the day... who honestly are only with men who have money or promise. You are looking for a woman who is open to you showing her new things in the

Do You Believe There Are Angels Among Us?
Have you even been down on your luck and out from no where a stranger comes to you and comforts you. Have you been on your last limb and felt so alone. Then a friend calls you that hasnt spoke to you in a long time. Have you ever been on here and had fubar friend comfort you even if you just met. There are angels among us! To all those angels of mine. Thank you. Awesomelilbunny

Love As Poison
Love as poison In the history of mankind, love has been compared to numerous things. Love has been a box of chocolates, love has been a game and love has been a tear rolling down someone’s cheek. It has been the subject of both tragedy and, comedy ranging from Shakespeare’s ‘Romeo and Juliet’ to the same playwright’s ‘Much Ado about Nothing.’ Love consumes us; a fire seeking to devour us whole. But of all comparisons, I believe love is most analogous to poison. Think about it. Many poisons can be commonly found in our homes, our schools or our work-places. It can be the air we breathe or the water we drink. Wherever we look, we can find it. When we think of poison, we think of something that can hurt us greatly. Indeed, poison can inflict great damage upon our hearts and minds. It can make our heart stop or our heads hurt with a sharp pain. We can be left breathless as a result of its tremendous effects. Once introduced into our bodies, poison inevitably spreads throughout our enti

Ghost Commercial
Read the story before watching the video Strange but interesting, this is a car advertisement from Great Britain. When they finished filming the ad, the film editor noticed something moving along the side of the car, like a ghostly white mist. They found out that a person had been killed a year earlier in that exact same spot. The ad was never put on TV because of the unexplained ghostly phenomenon. Watch the front end of the car as it clears the trees in the middle of the screen and you'll see the white mist crossing in front of the car then following it along the road....Spooky! Is it a ghost, or is it simply mist? You decide. If you listen to the ad, you'll even hear the cameraman whispering in the background about it near the end of the commercial. A little creepy but pretty cool!

Just A Question... Any Answers?
I don't bother anyone...I keep to myself for the most part.. An incident happen where my last account was reset...As most of you know, I was a godfather and Legend on that account. I had a difference of opinion with administration and I will leave it at that,I will not get into the whole story again..People assume it was because of cheating..not so! Anyway, why do people feel the need to post shit, when they have no idea what they are talking about? Why do people post blogs about others when they don't even know what happened, why do people try to make a claim to fame at others expense? I am making reference to ~FATSONNY~, now I never bothered this guy, I don't know him and I don't care to know him, but he has taken the liberty of writing a blog on his page about me and my friend Ms. Dallas bashing us for no good reason.. This is like the third blog he has wrote about us, I think he is a little obsessed, if you ask me! He has no clue what he is talking about, but boy

Fugraphics Shoppe
Those that know me, know that I'm always making graphics and images for other people. I've never asked for anything in return for them, aside from that they are rated before they are ripped. The other day, one of our bouncers, Saspanda, introduced the idea of a graphics shoppe. Now that the fupal system is in full swing - I thought I'd give it a try. Here is how it will work: - All of the shoppe tags will be uploaded into a new photo folder, and each tag will be given a number and a fubuck value. ONLY THE IMAGES IN THE SHOPPE FOLDER ARE UP FOR PURCHASE. - Anyone who would like to have an image/tag personalized, simply contact me with the number of the tag, and the name you'd like on it. You can do this through the new wonder of FuPal - and put that information into the comment section, as you send in the # of fubucks that the tag is offered for. For example...let's say that tag #4 is 250 fubucks. You'll fupal the 250 fubucks, and in the comment section you'll type "#4 - Saspa

Aussies, Brits, Canadians, Americans
Aussies: Believe you should look out for your mates. Brits: Believe that you should look out for those people who belong to your club. Americans: Believe that people should look out for and take care of themselves. Canadians: Believe that that is the government's job. Aussies: Dislike being mistaken for Pommies (Brits) when abroad. Canadians: Are rather indignant about being mistaken for Americans when abroad. Americans: Encourage being mistaken for Canadians when abroad. Brits: Can't possibly be mistaken for anyone else when abroad. Canadians: Endure bitterly cold winters and are proud of it. Brits: Endure oppressively wet and dreary winters and are proud of it. Americans: Don't have to do either, and couldn't care less. Aussies: Don't understand what inclement weather means. Americans: Drink weak, pissy-tasting beer. Canadians: Drink strong, pissy-tasting beer. Brits: Drink warm, beery-tasting piss. Aussies: Drink anything with alcohol in it. Americans:

Suspension
He has a bed at home, which He self-built with me in mind. It has four posts with various metal rings on the posts to tie me up in any position imaginable. Above the bed, is a metal ring hanging from the ceiling... Today, when He came home, He was extra nice to me, He made me dinner and ran me a bath, kissing me and holding me, making me feel so loved and alive. He lifted me into the bath, and carefully washed me, starting with my hair, then picking up a sponge and washing my breasts, my stomach, from the bottom of my feet, up my legs, and between my thighs, with a gentle circular motion. After He finished, He picked me up, wrapping a towel around my shoulders, drying my body. He took the towel of my shoulders, ran it down my chest and stomach, drying in between my legs, and kissing my soft skin. He lent down behind me where there is a cupboard, and bought out two scarves and some rope. He ordered me to close my eyes, and kissed my closed eyes gently, putting a scarf against the

Endings
ENDINGS "Verily, the soul has no birth, no death, no beginning, no end. Sin cannot touch it, nor can virtue exalt it; it has always been and always will be, and all else is its cover like a globe over the light." Hazrat Inayat Khan This past weekend the whole family drove down to Virginia. My wife, my step daughter, her two children and I all went together. I had been going to go by myself but we decided it would be a good thing to go as a family so the kids could see a bit of Wash DC. This was a secondary reason. The primary reason for going was to meet my brother and his wife and to scatter our mother's ashes in a park she loved. Readers of my regular blog will remember that my mother died last May and I wrote about it on June 6. A few weeks after that a package arrived in the mail from the funeral home, it was a box containing her ashes. For the next few months this box sat on my desk. Occasionally I would look at it and wonder about my emotions. What did I feel?

Fight
My mom just stopped. I told her how I felt like shit today, fell down the steps, then had a tooth puttled. Then she starts to tell me how I should go see some sort of debt consolidation type place. I was sitting there shaking my head. She says.. why you shaking your head.. I said because I'm not doing it. She says why not.. I say because they'll want me to keep track of every little penny I spend for the next 3 months to come up with some sort of budget. She says yeah? So? I said I'm not doing it.. I don't have the patience to deal with it. She starts going on.. I said mom .. I'm NOT in the mood.. and shit escalated from there and BLAAAAAAAAAAM .. she left after I told her to just go home! FuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuKK *oh and edit to add.. yeah I'm sitting here majorly stressed freakin out and bawlin like a freakin baby !!

Native American Pride
1.THIS IS A DRAMA FREE FAMILY. ANY VIOLATION OF THIS WILL RESULT IN YOUR REMOVAL AND A BULLITEN WILL BE POSTED AS TO WHY. 2.THIS IS A LEVELING FAMILY. EACH WEEK A BULLITEN WILL BE POSTED AS TO WHAT MEMBERS NEED OUR HELP IN LEVELING THEM TO MOVE THEM TO THE NEXT LEVEL. EVERYONE MUST HELP THE PEOPLE ON THE BULLITEN AND SHOW THEM AS MUCH LOVE AS WE CAN. THIS IS FOR THEM NOT OURSELVES.WE WILL BE CHECKING PAGES PERIODICALLY TO SEE THAT THIS IS BEING FOLLOWED. 3.EVERY MEMBER MUST CARRY THE NATIVE PRIDE LOGO ON THE FRONT OF THEIR PAGE WHICH IS DISPLAYED ON THE HOMEPAGE IN THE FOLDERS MARKED N.A.P. TAGS. 4.YOU MUST HAVE THE NAME N.A.P DISPLAYED SOMEWHERE IN YOUR NAME. OR NATIVE AMERICAN PRIDE IT IS UP TO YOU.THIS MUST STAY ON YOUR PROFILE AT ALL TIMES. 5.YOU MUST ADD/FAN/RATE ALL MEMBERS. 6.IF YOU HOLD A POSITON YOU MUST HONOR THE N.A.P GUIDELINES,POSTIONS WILL BE GIVEN TO PEOPLE OF OUR CHOICE. 7. WE WELCOME ALL PEOPLE. YOU DON'T HAVE TO BE OF NATIVE DECENT TO JOIN OUR FAMILY

Almost 2 Weeks!
My name is Angela, and I am a nicotine addict. I have stopped nicotine for 13 days, 7 minutes and 54 seconds (13 days). I've not smoked 260 death sticks, and saved $45.54. I've saved 21 hours and 40 minutes of my life.

Nice Way To Start My Sunday Morning
Why are there such losers sometimes on here? Here is the conversation I just had with a guy in my shoutbox just now. Because I told him that I was not about to meet him for what he had in mind for women he meets online he left me with this message (the top one). Read from the bottom up to see how he is outraged that I would not meet him even after I told him I was happily married for 21 years. And after he left me the final message he put me on BLOCK. Why do some guys need to think that they can control women that they meet online. And if they are rejected they throw a tantrum? Sounds like this guy has some real issues in his life which he needs to see a therapist over. TroyR: U ARE FUCKING ULGY ->TroyR: I CAN READ... and what you want is NOT in my plans here... IF YOU CAN READ TroyR: GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR I JUST TOLD U IF U CAN READ ->TroyR: I chat with guys here all the time... in fact I am chattin

Apprehensiveness And Revulsion In Redlands
The world spins, light hears, sound feels. There is something at the edge of my vision, something menacing and ominous..but it is faster than I. No matter how quickly I turn my head, it moves faster, always at the edge of my vision, threatening me. The music surrounds me, caressing my skin and massaging my bones. Time works differently here, I wish I could go back to when things were orderly and made sense. One second follows another, 60 in a row makes a minute, 60 minutes in an hour, 24 hours in a day. Orderly, sequential...but not here, not in the land of the distorted. I pop a pill at 7 PM, a friendly little blue pill that makes the carpet fuzzy and the walls crawl like myriad ants. I smoke a joint at 6 PM, after the pill, to chill out and relax a little bit. I drink a beer at 9 PM to start my night, take the edge off the day, time works backwards. One minute does not follow the previous, it follows the next or perhaps the one after. People are strange, conversation is difficu

??????????????????????????????
I arrived on this site a year ago,the fact that most of you wanted to presume that I was here under false pretenses,as I very well know Cyberspace has a significant population of lurkers,deviants and people that have basic interaction problems,it can be placed on a great emphasis. privacy is a Vidal and valid concern,please do not take me to be uneducated.I have studied Cyberspace social interaction. The internet creates a setting for anonymity to happen,and 2nd,there is no accountability through this type of communication. The use of deception is not uncommon here,pretending to be someone you are not is misleading to the person you're communicating with.there for you have the misfortune of the internet,allowing people to experiment with their identity,with a few strokes of a keyboard people can change their gender,often gender switching involves men taking the identity of a women. The internet makes what is ahead of me very easy to do,yet very painful in my heart for the fact tha

♥
For my girls ♥ Cara, Claire, Prin, Lorie, Jody, Summer, Denise, Denise(blondie), Connie,Lillian, and Bri (xoxoxo)Sharon too =) beautiful you are and dear to my heart a friendship forged with a wonderful start you lighten my mood with giggles and text who's to say where we end up next dreamy eyed boys or creepy night stalkers virile young studs or men needing walkers alluring to them is just how we are find them we do while surfing this bar moments i cherish too numerous to list gifts you give cause my eyes to mist heart so tender most beautiful indeed a friend you are when I am in need love for you I do have in plenty giggles this week you bring at least twenty squeezes huge with arms not so long my heart sings to you, a delicate song A.Boudreaux 2007

I H8 Fake Friends
OK ITS TIME FOR ME TO VENT ONCE AGAIN BUT I DONT KNOW WHY I BOTHER I HAVE OVER 600 SO CALLED FRIENDS AND I THINK UNDER HALF EVER SHOW ME LOVE UNLESS I DO NSFW YOU WOULD THINK WITH THAT MANY FRIENDS I WOULD BE HIGHER THEN I AM WELL NEWS FLASH NO MORE NSFW TILL I REACH AT LEAST LVL 22 I HVAE A LOUNGE ALSO AND HALF MY FRIENDS HAVE NEVER EVEN COME TO CHECK IT OUT MAYBE I SHOULD JUST HANG IT UP ON HERE ALSO TO THOSE WHO DONT KNOW THIS I GET NO POINTS FOR RATING THE NSFW SO WHY THEY MAKE IT SO YOU CAN RATE THEM BEATS ME I HAVE THEM UP THERE BY POPULAR DEMAND WELL IF YOU ALL WANT MORE THEN HELP GET ME TO 22 IF I DONT MAKE IT TO 22 IN AT LEAST A MONTH I WILL LEAVE FUBAR THIS IS BS THINK WHAT YOU WILL OF ME I TRY AND HIT ALL MY FRIENDS AND THE ONES WITH NSFW I DONT USUALLY RATE THOSE BUT ANY WAY IM DONE RANTING FOR NOW IF YOU WANT ME TO STAY ON FU THEN SHOW ME SOME LOVE AND RATE ANY PICS THAT YOU MAY HAVE MISSED AT ONE POINT OR JUST LEAVE ME A P

I Never Wanted...!!!!! :(
I Never Wanted... As I write these words I realize that I may never see you ALL again, I may never TALK you ALL and I may never SEND YOU ALL hugglez again, but I know that what we ALL once had when me found u ALL was pure and true. We never fought, we never argued, and we only had the best of things to say to each other and there's nothing I wouldn't do for you ALL!!! Something like that I can't seem to let just fade away. How can I be expected to live with that kind of regret!!! I waited for so long just to be able to do those things with you allz, meeting TRUE ppls.... I want, just to be able to look into your eyes and talk with you all and make u ALL see!!!! See what is truely happening that ALL of u are closing ur eyes to!!!! I want, just to be able to look into your eyes and tell you that I will never stop caring for ALL of you. Maybe it seems crazy and maybe I expect too much but, I can't help but feel that there was something between all of us!!!, and I that

It Happened Again This Is The Cause
This is the mumm that caused some whinny ass person to report it and get my ability to post to everyone taken away......what do you think is it fair or just another example of me being hated as a mummer.

Can Anyone Hear Me
Did you go through a period of time (or perhaps, like me ...since day one)that your child seems completely deaf to you. You honestly cannot tell the difference....If it isn't want they want to hear they could have bomb go off in their ear...and not blink an eye...I speak from experience. BUT...what todo about it. I finally found a new way to know if they just aren't paying attention...or they are ignoring deliberately... IT is amazing ...the results you get with this. As soon as I become aware that they have not acknowledged a word of what I have now repeated at least 3 times...I think of something that really catches them...FOR MY DAUGHTER..."Hey should we invite _____over for dinner, would you like that?" Her boyfriend of course is the invitee.... The results would astonish anyone ...for now she has given me her ears, her eyes are on me, and she is now leaning half-way across the room from me... As for my son !!, he is somewhat harder, he knows when and where the MONSTER

Hope Floats
Hope Floats Holding on to hope My feelings overpower me Trudging thru the mire As if my feet were in quicksand Wasn’t expecting ever to feel What I once felt in my youth Programmed fear of rejection My defenses went up To guard and shelter my heart. A heart that has been recycled And mistrusting of others With a wall built to protect And it turned against me. A crack must have been there And something wonderfully powerful Seeped inside and into my blood. Yet so long it had been That I did not recognize it. Realization too late And it slips away. So what value can this have The feeling of a broken heart? To add another layer of iron And never be vulnerable again? Or does this prove that to feel Is to truly be alive? And to not loose faith That sometimes hope floats. Copyright07BEG

I Am In A Contest For The First Time Ever
hey everybody i was asked to be in a contest and since i have never been in one and i would really love a vip i agreed to do it...so i would like to ask everyone if they could help me out and rate and comment bomb me...the contest started today and runs for two weeks...just click the link below and it will take you to my pic....thanks y'all...peace

First Contest....
Im in need of help..I entered this contest for best smile and I need lots of help comment bombing...If you can spare a few minutes a day to help me I would appreciate it...The contest will last two weeks and just started today...thanks to all who have read this and have helped me in this contest...

I'll Be There
I'LL BE THERE.. ♥-When no one is there for you ♥-When you think no one cares ♥-When the whole world walks out on you ♥-When you think you're alone ILL BE THERE.. ♥-When the one you care about most could care less about you ♥-When the one you gave your heart to isn't ♥-When someone throws something in your face ILL BE THERE.. ♥-When the person you trusted betrays you ♥-When the person you share all your memories with cant even remember your birthday ILL BE THERE.. ♥-When all you need is a friend to listen to you whine ♥-When all you need is someone to catch your tears ILL BE THERE.. ♥-When your heart hurts so bad that you cant even breathe ♥-When you just want to crawl up and die ILL BE THERE.. ♥-When you start to cry ♥-Or when hearing that sad song ♥-When the tears just won't stop falling down ILL BE THERE.. ♥*So you see I'll be there un

Lake Tahoe Storm
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Lake Tahoe Storm By Ms. Cleavage Copyright 2007 The scent of winter fills the air of our cabin as I light the fire in our massive stone fireplace off in the corner of the living room. The floor is all hard wood except for the deep rugs about the room and the occasional large pillows stacked in the corners for more comfort while lying on the floor. Through the window I can see the lights shining off of the silvery snow for the night skiers at Heavenly Valley ski slopes. They are skiing the slopes of the Sierra Nevada Mountains and I have visions of your slopes in my mind. At this moment I long for your mounds over the ski trip that we have come to enjoy. Our leather chair and couch is very large and cushy. Paintings of the wilderness around us are mounted on the walls to keep the ambiance of nature within the walls and not just outside. Our cabin is totally rustic in every way. Wood is the natural surroundings that we enjoy insi

I Won
THANK YOU SO MUCH TO ALL MY WONDERFUL FRIENDS WHO HELPED ME SO MUCH ON MY CONTEST I DID WIN FIRST PRIZE I WON A HAPPY HOUR!!! I WILL KEEP YOU INFORMED ON WHEN I WILL BE HOSTING THE HAPPY HOUR. I HAVE SO MANY PEOPLE TO THANK. THANK YOU SOOOO MUCH MY WONDERFUL FRIENDS!! LOVE YOU ALL MINA

Snitches, Cowards And Crybabys!
STARTING NOW: ===================================================== I WANT TO KEEP A RECORD OF THE LAMES THAT TALK SHIT AND BLOCK - RATE YOU LOW AND BLOCK. REPORT YOUR ACCOUNT, FLAG PHOTOS AND COMPLAIN TO SITE STAFF BECAUSE THET HAVE A DIFFERING IDEA OF HOW THE WORLD SHOULD WORK OR VOTE A DIFFERENT POLITICAL PARTY - MAYBE THEY SHIT AND WIPE WITH THE SAME HAND THEY EAT WITH? *or maybe their mommies didn't hug them enough when they were little? -----------chicken - shit - cowards--------------- whatever their trip is...they can't be happy unless everyone else is miserable... =================================================== 11.11.2007 some cow{ard} calling herself: "susie is evil - co-owner of under...(dunno)" with a user #1001010 came on my page - rated 1 photo a 1 then blocked me! nice to know you susie! come on by any time! would my friends and family please return the favor to this fine and upstanding FU-citizen? or not...

R U F'in Kidding Me????
How the case .. You are beautiful and magnificent beauty, I think you have a good heart .. I look for you a long time ago .. please give me the chance and only one .. I admire you greatly and wish to be servile servant in you only you can provide help me .. I am a person without a degree I would be ... I just wish to give me the Emill address for you please ... please ... I am Osamah State of Jordan lies in the Middle East 36 years old .. Never-married .. Height 180 cm and weight of 80 Kg ... I work in the field of sports, especially tennis Sport .. I am also in the time of the night Chief of the Division of Environmental Protection .. look beautiful woman and a good heart like you love life .. I admire your many wonderful beauty .. You .. Please, if there is any interest can be kzaaz99@yahoo.com or asooomh999@hotmail.com thanks osamah This is a friend request I received today...wtf?? Is this a joke?

The Hits Just Keep On Coming !
So there I was in Walmart this eveing with my kid and we decided to get the little dog some treats, we buy some milk bones and wag them ALL the way home. She brings the dog inside and tries to feed him one of the treats, NO DICE! He ain't trying to hear that noise. He leaves the treat laying on the floor, as he jumps up on her bed I tell her to try to give it to him again. Still nothing. This is starting to get me hot, I spent all that money buying the damn treats and the dog loooks at me like I'm on crack for wanting him to eat them. I tell the dog Scooter ( yes I talked to the dog!) I tell him " I bet if I rubbed one of those treats on yer ass you would eat it!" I tell the kiddo " reach over there and rub one on his butt and see what he does". The little bastard ATE IT! I was sitting there in amazement... I tell her to try it again, same results.HE ATE IT! I wanted to throw up in my mouth a little... that was just gross. So yeah, I just had to share a little of my day with you folks,

To My Friends And Family
I just wanted to let you know, I am not very well these days. So it can be I am not really here all the time to give your rates and comments back as I get them, though you see me online. I aprecciate all of it very much and I will give all back as soon as I can. Thank you so much for thinking of me! Luv y'all! Annie

Who Me Bitter ?? Nah
I'm 36, I have no girlfriend. I'm nice to women, but all women hate me. Everything on TV sucks. I can't go anywhere or do anything without seeing some asshole wearing those baggy pants (with stripes down the sides) around his ankle, like he's hauling around a load of shit in his pants. Everyone is buying those ugly-ass yellow glasses because they think they'll be cool once they have them. I can't go one day without hearing about the Titanic. I work full time and go to school. I have no time for fun. When I get free time to do anything, there's nothing to do. I live in Georgia: It blows. Georgia is closed on Sundays, and everything is illegal here. Why don't we just secede from the union? We might as well, since state ordinance is considered supreme law. My university sucks. I always get the last registration period for classes. The day after my registration period, open registration begins. So I always get screwed when I have to pick classes. I can't sleep because my room is to

Ok Heres The Deal
Ok. I'm so sick of people being on my list and me not talking to them or them not talking to me. I dont want to be a B*tch but look either talk to me or delete me from ur friends list......please than thanks and if ur gonna talk to me dont do it thru my shoutbox i get to many ppl sendin me messages on there. I cant read half of them please and thanks

This Is To Have Succeeded...
My friend Lizzie passed peacefully this weekend surrounded by her family and pets. She was able to choose her leaving in a way that honored herself and all of those around her. I am told she left us with a smile on her face. Sometimes we meet people that take our lives, turn them around and show us that we are greater than we ever would believe. Lizzie did this for me. She not only showed me my worth, she turned me upside down and shook me for every little bit of pocket change that I didn’t know I had. If I could be so bold as to ask you to call, write or email one (or many) of your friends and tell them how much they mean to you, it would mean a lot to me. For me Lizzie's greatest message was always that we need to value ourselves and each other. Once we have that baseline of self-worth and respect we can work to create a better world. Have a good day my dear friends

My Shoutbox
haha, a lovely friend on here created me this fabulously funny "outgoing message" for people trying to reach me in my shoutbox (which, yes I know, is family only). So I just wanted to share it with ya'll. Next time you're trying to send me a shout, remember this lol: McLovin: "Hi, you've reached the Shoutbox of Joylyne. I'm sorry I can't come to the keyboard right now, I am currently having phone sex with my incredibly hott ass Marine boyfriend! I may be able to get back to you after my third orgasm. But it will depend on how much he wears me out. So, please leave a message and I'll get back to you as soon as I get out of my hot shower."

Grrrr......
There's this one factory worker that comes in every morning and kisses me on top of my head and says good morning to me. I've told him a few times to please stop kissing me on the head; i'm not a touchy feely kind of person. I think what it's going to take for him to stop is for me to stab him thru the throat with a pair of scissors!!!!! *exhale* Sorry. It just aggrevates the shit out of me when he does it.

This Should Be Good For A Few Laughs...
If you read this, if your eyes are passing over this right now, (even if we don't speak often or if you are a random reader) please post a comment with a COMPLETELY MADE UP AND FICTIONAL memory of you and me. It can be anything you want - good or bad - BUT IT HAS TO BE FAKE. When you're finished, post this little paragraph on your diary and be surprised (or mortified) about what people DON'T ACTUALLY remember about you..

Feet?
I'm addicted to looking at photos... I'm a "photo-man-whore." I've come to notice that lots of women have pics of their feet. Most of these pics are labeled "As requested." Hmmmm... now a woman can certainly have pretty feet, but I don't really get that much satisfaction from seeing foot photos from every angle. So, are there really that many guys on here that are REALLY into feet? Or is it just one that really gets around? Makes me wonder...

Ppv
wow...this is the 5th pity party blog...I am such a dork 8-p this isn't totally a pity party...more of an epiphany..but my head is still up my ass so to speak...cuz otherwise that'd just be gross LOL I find myself all twisted up inside..over a silly man...there is no reason I should get all twisted. All indications are that I am retarded and putting emotional energy where it most likely is unwanted. So what the hell am I doing??? Who knows...its insanity most likely and perhaps I should seek help..LOL To understand why I do what I do it would take a damn novel to explain myself..and in that I would be as lost as anyone trying to follow it from start to end. I cannot start at the beginning...it all loops and turns and I never see it from beginning to end..more in the reverse kinda sorta..whatever I am confusing myself again. My non-friend boss told me something last night that kinda irked me...yes sometimes we have serious discussions...more to just get it out than anythi

Photos
After reading people's profiles and chatting to them, I have found there are some terrific people on fubar. Some of these I spoke to before uploading a picture of myself. I have wondered how much we all actually rely on a photograph of someone. I was rated a low number this evening by somebody relatively new that still had a bag on their head! I asked them how they could rate and hope they would be rated with no pic. Not knowing me, they didn't understand the humour. They were certain that when their pic is uploaded it will 'knock my socks off'. That ended the discussion. Does everyone on fubar take everything at face value or do they 'check out' profiles and have chats? Makes you wonder why fubar is classed as a chat room.

New York
Sam stopped by my office today. As we sat, chatting about the impending dissolution and/or implosion of his marriage, another friend, Heath, walked in, handed Sam a wad of cash to cover some gambling debt. Heath leaned against my office wall, hung his head, wiped his face with his hands as if washing off some mortal stain. I assumed his troubles were related to the latest vagina he'd impaled; to the best of my knowledge, the vagina belonged to a woman in New York. "Ugh. Sug. You really need to teach woman lessons." Sam and I looked at each other, started laughing, both acknowledging the absurdity of such a statement. Sam turned to Heath, "You know, Sug's crazy. The others are normal." "No! NO!! That can't be. They're crazy. Sug's normal." More wiping of the face, additional exasperated sighs. As Heath said last week, the morning after his encounter with the girl, "New York? Probably pregnant."

My Dad
My dad is in the hospital right now. He has many health problems, at age 27 he had polo, but over came it and Served his country in Vietnam. He also suffer from High blood pressure and heart attacks. He has been on high bolld pressure med since his 30's. He has since due to his high bloood pressure meds, is on dyalsisis, his polo came back, its now called post polo, and his knees have given out. He has 4 stints in his heart. He can't walk. I see this strong man, who is a graduate of West Point and a retired LTC, my heart breaks. He been in the hospital for over 2 weeks now, due to get him ready for a knee replace, this was done Tuesday. now he still has the polo leg also to deal with. He has soo much. sorry I am just so down over everything. I cam home from PA yesturday, we finally find him a good place to go after leaving the hospial, what was offered to him I would not put my dog in!!! But my mom and I just went out on out own and found a place. So remember my dad in your thoughts t

For Carrie
Earlier, she felt I was being quiet and I told her I was watching a video, just didn't want to say what kind.. It has been a rough week for us both and hope it gets better. I will say, if this is looked at, as a negative message, that was not the intent. I knew this was one of her favorite songs when we first met and with all the happenings, I wanted to use it instead of another one. Hope you like it Carrie.

The Fool's Circle...
i guess i've never really gotten out of this circle...but just twirling inside... i've never asked for ppl to come into my life...i've never done any harm to anyone...i've never asked for sweet talks...all i did is registered in here and just talk...get away from real life for awhile... but i keep somehow...let ppl pushed their ways in...maybe i feel sorry...maybe i want to believe in the goodness of ppl...i don't know...this is a never ending story...but i managed to let my guard down..and exposed my vulnerability to ppl who has no qualms about hurting other ppl...just because they can do it hiding behind the monitor screen...menouvering their ways into my lifes...gained my trust than shoved it in my face... just need to get this off my chest... wondering why i'm still here??? i do meet some really nice ppl...ppl who are honest...sincere...i just won't let the other jerks change my mind about the goodness of ppl...i really do have nice friends in here...sam...stephen...phil...to n

So Can I Get An Honest Opinion?
Okay so I would like to get some of your thoughts on this subject please. If you are reading this and have even the smallest thing to say please do so.. Alright so I love my BLOCK button, I use it when I feel my profile is at risk of down raters/haters. I have also used it for personal reasons as well. But this is my questions, Whether you block someone or are the one being blocked, Would you unblock them to go look on their profile and make sure they knew you were there? Just to re-block them? And how would you feel if someone did that to you? They Block you then come to your page while you were Online almost to see if they can get a reaction out of you. And then they RE-BLOCK you... ????? Whats the point? Myself, I think its confusing. If I Block someone for personal reasons it would be totally inappropriate to wander around their page and all but WAVE at them and then hit the BLOCK button again. But I have also been told I sometimes take things the wrong way. An

To My Dearest Friends
I AM NOT TALENTED TO MAKE PICS FOR YOU LIKE YOU DO FOR ME, I DON'T ALWAYS SEE WHAT YOU WROTE IN MY SHOUTBOX, I DON'T ALWAYS RESPOND AS SOON AS I SHOULD, BUT THAT DOESNT MEAN I DON'T APPRECIATE YOU! YOU ALL KNOW WHO I AM TALKING TO, ACTUALLY IT'S TO MOST OF YOU MY DEAR FRIENDS. SO PLEASE DON'T EVER FEEL YOUR KINDNESS GOES UNAPPRECIATED. BECAUSE IT NEVER DOES MUCH LOVE FROM ME TO YOU

My Bar Tab
This is fun to do. The only catch is that you can't ask the person who posted it anything about it! :) Just read the "offense" and if you've done it, you owe that fine. Keep going until you've read each "offense" and added up your tota l fine. Title your bulletin "My Bar Tab is$........" You don't have to confess your answers, just the amount of your fine. Smoked pot -- $10 Did acid -- $5 Ever had sex at church -- $25 Woke up in the morning and did not know the person who was next to you-- $40 Had sex with someone on MySpace -- $25 Had sex for money -- $100 Ever had sex with the a Puerto Rican -- $20 Vandalized something -- $20 Had sex on your parents' bed -- $10 Beat up someone -- $20 Been jumped -- $10 Crossed dressed -- $10 Given money to stripper -- $25 Been in love with a stripper -- $20 Kissed some one who's name you didn't know --$10 Hit on some one of the same sex while at work-- $15 Ever drive dr

Warning
It seems we have a total hater on fubar. As i posted in my bulletins last night I was told of a woman who put a good friend of Mine in a folder titled "losers". When i went to look myself, i changed her rating to a one and blocked this page. She immediately came after me under a 2nd account and ripped my default pic, a family photo of me and the kids, she then reripped the photos to her main account. This 2nd account of hers is being titled as dagwood,, the same as I use, she is gonna try to disguise herself as me. So for my real friends i am taking the bombing crews off and my title will be THE REAL DAGWOOD so all of you can tell,, be warned, the false account only has 4 pics and is only level 7 or 8 ,, i am at level 20 and have over 240 pics The woman doing all of this is BBG

First Place In The Rockin Rack Contest!
Thank you sooo much to all that came and voted on my bewbs! I came in FIRST PLACE!! YAYYYYYYY!! I ♥ my friends!! And look forward to getting to know the new friends that I have met in the course of the contest! I do have to say though....FUCK YOU to the dumbasses who when i woke up this morning were all up in my shoutbox calling me a liar cuz I didn't have my NSFW folder opened up yet as promised once the contest ended! Excuse the fuck outta me that I didn't wake up extra early this morning just to open my album up for you assholes to jack off to! And again, another BIG THANK YOU to those of you who were patient and just didn't assume the worst of me...I ♥ you guys! AMber

Amazing
My Angels, you are the reason I can find the will to get up each day when all I feel like doing is giving up on everything, you always find a way to lift my spirit and make the pain more bearable and you each hold a very special place deep in my heart and soul, although we have never met and our lives travel separate paths, I can always count on you and I hope that you know just how much you have all helped me through some really unbelievable shit in my life, I may be going in to the hospital again soon, just can't seem to get any better, after all these operations and I can't just keep going like this, I'm becoming a person I don't even know anymore myself, I find myself getting upset over things that should never bother me and taking it out on the ones that mean the most to me and living in constant pain and bleeding inside all the time is just getting the better of me. Want you all to know that no matter what happens or how things turn out I will never forget how you have touched

Update
so ive been away for the last week on courses ... i now have a diploma certificate in massage aromatherapy cosmetic tanning and indian head massage ... heading back up there tomorow and will be back sunday with diploma certificates in nail art nail extensions manicure/ pedicure facials and bodywraps .... dont mind saying or sounding big headed but im well poud of me for finally getting my finger out my butt and doing something with my life.. lol.... so oncei get back i have plenty work to do to get my assesments sorted to get my nvq's and then im proper qualified to start up my salon !!! yay !! all exciting wish me luck xxx

Thinkin Of Takin A Break
I find it so unbvelievable that people on here have nothing better to do with their time other than be fake and harass other people. Too many people see Fubar as their life. It isn't f*ckin real people, get a grip! Am thinkin of takin a break from Fubar, so any of my friends that are true friends and wanna stay in touch, send me a shout or e-mail. Am not leaving Fubar, just taking a break, well, unless the bullshit stops any time soon. Take care everyone and Happy Holidays. I will still be here for a day or two.

Damsel In Distress
I have never known how to play that role. I don't know how to ask for help. I don't know how to be weak. When I was little I played mom to my brother and cleaned up after my mother. I had no choice but to be strong and take care of things. I spent two years out of control when I was seventeen. I got pregnant at 19 and it was time to step up again. I have consistently found myself in relationships where I was the support system. I take care of everything, that is no ones fault but my own and I know that. Of course with Wes it was different. Very few people have ever seen the weak side of me. Maybe one person on this whole website, and even in real life I don't open up. I hate it I wish I knew how to change. I wish that I could open up and not just play the role that people need. I miss intimacy, not sexual intimacy, just the intimacy of having another person to talk too. I feel myself crumbling and there's no one to catch me.

Taylor
Sunday about 10 minutes after the packer game my daughter Taylor fell down the basement steps while playing w/ the small crutches in the house (i had told her to put them away) within 45 minutes she seized in the living room in Randys arms........stopped breathing and the ambulance took her to the trauma center. She stopped breathing on my living room floor. I watched 5 paramedics race to put an air way into my 6 year old daughter. after they stablized her at the hospital i was allowed to see her for only a few minutes cause they were breathing for her and had to take her right to CT.....when the dr finally talked to us......he said If in 1 hour she has not started breathing on her own, she would be flown to Rochester Mn, because they are not equipt for Pediatric ICU.........My Bugg she started breathing on her own, 15 minutes before the chopper was to take her. It was a long horrible tear filled night, w/me laying right next to her, waking every hour with her and holding her as s

Gone 22nd-25th
Just wanted to let everyone know I wont be around Thanksgiving or the weekend. Were goin outta town to visit family. Ill be back sometime Sunday nite. I hope you all have have a wonderful Thanksgiving!! Also if anyone wants to add me on myspace let me know and ill send ya my info xoxo- Cotton

I Am Not As Sick As I Say I Am???? Hmmmmmm
#1.... I don't go around telling people how sick I am...... I have been on this site since mid July of 06... and I don't advertise the fact that I am disabled or terminally ill.... those that do know are people that have taken the time to read my blogs... that have been there since day one... because I have never believed in hiding the fact... or people that I have gotten close to or that I have tried to help. #2...... If you don't believe I am as sick as my blog says.... you try to get declared disabled....by ANY state.... try it... have fun..... I know several very sick people that are still trying... I know how hard it is.. it took me three years.... Anyone that knows anything about autoimmune illnesses they know that they are called "invisible illnesses" (I do thank god for that... because lets face it.. to some degree.. we are all vain... at this point in my illness - I am only being attacked internally.. unless you count my hands...) Thankfully, the Disabilit

R.i.p Dad
Well, my dad passed away today, Thanksgiving at 3:25 P.M. I am thankful that he was saved and knew he would be going to heaven. And am thankful that he is no longer hurting or sick. He is better off than any of the rest of us at this moment. However, I am human so am very sad to have lost my daddy. Thanks to all who have been here for me and supported me the last few weeks. Luckily it was just that, a few weeks instead of months or years of suffering. One last thing I am grateful for is my friends who kept me going through all of this. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.

Bitch Ass Dummies, Come On!
This was the comment I posted in Juggalo News....come on, hit me with your best shot, I have ALL the answers!!!! I need to ENLIGHTEN on all the juggalos of the world on something. Number 1. If these PSY artists believed in GOD (aka goin' to Shangri-la) They would NEVER X-out Christ's name on their Christmas shirts. They talk about how they wanna be or are about being in Shangri-La (which is Heaven) then ACT more like it!!!! I don't care if you are against me or not.....this shit is stupid and lame. My man lost his fuckin' camera at a show cuz of me, and no idiot/asshole came forward and handed that shit back. Now I am a SLAYERHEAD and my "family" is stronger than that. I'd NEVER lose that shit even if it's only bootleg. If anything, Tom Araya HIMSELF would have returned my shit for me. Slayerheads are and have always been family from the beginning WITHOUT bumming fuckin cigs from J and Shaggy at a fuckin CD RELEASE Party!!!!! ARE YOU FUCKIN STUPID?????? They just wanted to chill

I'm A Hacker!
Bahahaha people are dumb on live me and my hubbie just won a game and 2 little kids *they hacked cause they won* wtf.. now that you win a match your a hacker.. wow! omg.. fracken stupid kids haha that was a good laugh! Oh oh and I love it when you lost by just like 2-3 kills and then they say "you suck!", "assholes".. like omg its a fracken match and you won by what.. 3.. woooo 3! not such a big thing is it. now if it was say like 10 kills or something then yes you might have more skill then me. Gah... just wish this sore throat would go away! :(

Whata Goober.
Soooo my boyfriend is silly and randomly attacks my face[or whatever else]. Well he was like gnawing and sucking on my cheek and I told him to be careful not to leave some weird hickey. Sure enough that night I look in the mirror.. and I have a hickey on my face. Rawr @ him. haha he felt all bad tho.

*looks Behind Him* Well, Monday
It appears I missed only one day ... cool! Took a week off Although I popped in by force of habit the other day & thought I'd read some mail & such :) Thank You for the nice Holiday Greetings -and- 8-p The sweet miss you/welcome backs :P Sometimes its good to take a break, Then when you return it's not as stale & Gives you time to put things in prospective. Yeah, I left discouraged with the bouncer checks every message/comment given ... But -fubar- isn't my problem and certainly there wasn't anything that a web site did to cause me to seek solitude & isolation for a few days ... -But- I also don't need a site to complicate my day any further with trivial frustrations such as the aforementioned above. So, With said time, I cleared my RL head -and- Concluded that until the getting bouncerized ... I'll just limit my daily hello's to my friends who take time to say hello to me... (after all, they go threw the same brutal task as I - in delivering g

Just Words
In through the out door and back again. Dancing around and around in circles. An oracle of light and darkness slamming against the outer walls bouncing inward towards the truth of what is and what should never be. Holding two beings together so tightly that it is only fitting for one to break free. To much to deal with, smothering, confusing, breeding resentments, regrets ,guilt and every other emotion good and bad until the truth, the reality sets in. To each one of us the reality is different. But the reality is where the truth lies. For one can turn there back on reality, but the truth we can never hide. My reality, my truth is in the love I have for you!

Child Killers And Molesters
i was so damn mad this morning when i heard about the little girls body being found in a trunk. after being thrown in the river. what is wrong with this society we live in . how can a person hurt an innocent child. and then you have these stupid people saying that the injection they give these killers are inhumane. what the hell about our children that are being sexually abused and murdered .i say hang the bastards that are doing this to our kids .i wonder if it was one of there kids that was brutally rape and murdered if they would feel the same way .no they would want justice just like everyone else i say kill the bastards

My Amazing Oldest Son!!(they Are All Amazing!)
JUST HAD TO SHARE WITH EVERYONE.... NOT ONLY IS MY SON BEING RECRUITED TO PLAY HARVARD FOOTBALL AND FOOTBALL AT WASHINGTON UNIVERSITY..BUT.. HE APPLIED TO BAYLOR UNIVERSITY..I TOLD HIM HE NEEDED LOTS OF OPTIONS... AND.. HE GOT ACCEPTED TO BAYLOR UNIVERSITY WITH A $40000 SCHOLARSHIP!!! WOOHOOOO!!!! WE ARE HOLDING OUT TO SEE WHAT HAPPENS WITH HARVARD AND WASHINGTON BUT OH TO HAVE THESE CHOICES IN LIFE!! GUESS I DID SOMETHING RIGHT!

My Final Star Message
Stars apparently no longer have any substance. They shine, they twinkle, they push their pinpoints of liquid luster against my window, but they’re just stars now. And, it brings to mind the poem I learned as a child, but with a different ending. Starlight, star bright, First star I see tonight. I wish I may, I wish I might But now I see only the cold blue light. It’s truly sad how quickly this star faded. It was my doing, I made the twinkle fade. And someday, I’ll learn to not wish upon a star. What will I learn? A star is sometimes too far away to reach. I can’t hold out my hand and cup one between my warm palms. So, I fear there will be no further star messages. The light that used to warm me now hurts me, and that’s not what stars are about. Stars are about love, about infinity; it’s best I leave them that way.

Can Sum1 Please Explain This To Me???????
so ive been randomly rating pics lately in the "bored" section and been reading sum comments along the way... i alwayz manage to come upon a bunch of comments of how "sexy" these gurlz are... now these arent no small anorexic gurlz either... i mean, omg! i know im not skinny whatsover, but damn! i just dont get it! so do i hafta gain 100 lbs or more to be "sexy"?????? will sum1 please explain this to me?????

Wtf
I NEVER RANT ABOUT EVERYTHING . I AM THE ONE THAT PEOPLE ALWAYS COME TO WHEN THEY NEED SOMEONE TO TALK TO . I AM ALWAYS THERE FOR MY FRIENDS AND WHAT DOES THAT GET ME . STABBED IN THE BACK OVER AND OVER AND OVER AGAIN . I WAS WITH A WOMAN ON HERE FOR A WHILE THINGS WERE GOOD BUT WE SLOWLY STARTED TO DRIFT APART AND SHE WAS ALL TRYIN TO MAKE ME DECIDE IF I WANTED TO BE WITH HER OR NOT ON A DAY THAT I WAS SICK AND WAS HAVING MIGRAINS SO BAD THAT I COULD BARELY SEE . SHE GETS PISSED OFF AND ENDS IT THEN BLOCKS ME FROM EVERYTHING AND FROM WHAT I CAN TELL HAS TOLD SOME OF MY FRIENDS A BUNCH OF SHIT TO WHERE THEY WONT EVEN TALK TO ME ANYMORE . I HAVE TRIED TALKING TO SOME OF THEM BUT I ALWAYS GET THE COLD SHOULDER . I TRIED TALKIN TO HER TO SAY IM SORRY FOR EVERYTHING AND WOULD STILL LIKE TO BE FRIENDS AND I GET BLOWN OFF AGAIN . I USED TO WORK FOR A LOUNGE WICH I WILL NOT MENTION THE NAME BUT I WAS THERE G.M. AND DJ . I DJ'D ON THE AVERAGE 12-15 HOURS A DAY EVERYDAY I DID EVERYTHING

Thinking About...
I was thinking.. since I got hurt so bad.. and have been hurt so much by men.. and since I am bi.. I might be giving up the bisexual life and go totally lesbian..who knows.. it could be less painful.. and my heart can't handle anymore pain.. my body literally hurts from being alone.. Just a thought.

Not So Quick Fubar Rant
PART ONE ok, so I have been on this site awhile now and it never seems to amaze me on childish mentality of people on here. Maybe I am not getting the full FUBAR experience because I refuse to pay money to this site. Maybe it is because does it really matter if I am a FUBAR FRESHMEAT or a FUBAR FUBERLORD? What do you get in the end besides a lighter bank account? Everyone keeps telling me (like I don't already know) that I need to do a salute to level up. DUHHHHH!!!! If I cared about all of this and wanted to level up I would have done so months ago. I have my face pics private for a reason (see PART TWO for more on pics). Why would I want to do a salute and put it out there? Come on people get over it! Why don't you actually try to get to know the people on here instead of begging random stangers for "Bombing on your contest pic" The winner gets what? A FUBAR keg? Whooo freaking doooo! Unless someone is delivering a nice frosty cold keg to my front door, I could care les

Hansen's Can
God has a sense of humor. This morning I was doing my dailys (my daily devotionals consisting of reading and praying) and right as I finished asking God to allow me to be of maximum service to Him and His people (a far cry from my old prayers: “God, give me this.” “God, give me that”) my phone rang. It was my friend Jen. She just got a final written warning from work and asked if I had a sec. She was in tears and she needed to talk (this seems to be happening alot lately [which is amazing because people never used to call me when they were hurting] and I couldn't be happier because when I'm talking to someone who's hurting, I'm not thinking about me. I'm thinking about them and anytime I'm not thinking about me is great. A friend of mine is fond of saying "My life would be perfect if I weren't in it" and that certainly applies in my case). I said I would be right over and we’d make the noon meeting. “Just let me hop in the shower. Is that okay?” She laughed through the tears and said:

New Plan
So originally I was moving into my exes for a bit since I have to be out of where I live by Dec.31st. I've spent the past few days around him a lot and can clearly see that we would drive each other crazy if I stayed there. He's an alcoholic who apparently needs beer to handle being around me (pffft, I'm so easy to be around)and I in turn can't handle being around him when he's drunk (he makes me want to smash my head against the wall). So anyway, for those of you who know about it, I can't move back to the mainland until I get things settled here. I have to rent a place but there's a 6 month minimum so I'm going to do that. (at least I'll still have internet..YAY!) I had a trip planned in December but had to cancel that. That's now happening in Feb/March; just to be sure I really want to make this big life changing move for one and to meet a couple people I've come to know online. I can't wait..yay! :D That's all for now...back to packing...ICK!

F.o.o.d.
Ok so my friend Andy ("Spreethang" on FUBAR) and I were talking and have come up with a new club, F.O.O.D this stands for FUCKED OVER ONLINE, DAMNIT! Please comment if you'd like to be part of F.O.O.D.! This is for anyone who has ever had an 'online' relationship and then it didn't work out, for anyone who was talking to someone and the other person turned out to be totally opposite of who they said they were or lied in general, or anyone who had people talk shit about them online (probably because they were just jealous of you anyways).....so please feel free to tell us your experience or just say ud like to be a joiner hehe, Peace and God bless. Thank you, Founders Andy & Linda

Nsfw Or Discrimination??? Fu Is Crossing The Line!
Ok this is the third time in a month my fully clothed body has been marked by some Bouncer as NSFW! This is rediculous!!!!! Of all the naked boobs and peters wandering around... all the risque pics of pants and towels just above the pubic area ... my long hair, arce, and T-shirt shot are being once again attacted. Should I take this as a compliment, jealousy or just plain descriminsation??? Please tell me!!

Mrs Robinson
Mrs Robinson Here's to bewbs Mrs Robinson, Wolfie loves them more than you will know God bless your bewbs Mrs Robinson What a great place to put a peen Wee hee hee I'd like to have a little taste of them nips When you are near my zipper always unzips Look at all of us pervs we are starin at your breasts Let's take off that bra and show they are the best Here's to bewbs Mrs Robinson, Wolfie loves them more than you will know God bless your bewbs Mrs Robinson What a great place to put a peen Wee hee hee No I don't just like your bewbs I truly dig your face I'd like to shoot my load there just to watch you taste It's surely no secret how hot you surely are Wolfie wants to bend you over the hood of his car Here's to bewbs Mrs Robinson, Wolfie loves them more than you will know God bless your bewbs Mrs Robinson What a great place to put a peen Wee hee hee Lounging in Cooter's lounge on Sunday afternoon I really wish you were here and I was in

Its Not U Is It ??
ITS NOT U IS IT ?? Its funny how in life u think u met the one for u the one that will make u happy to the day u die the one the will never hurt or leave u and u see everything with them but then u turn around one day and they r gone they leave u and hurt u so bad u get sick and cant sleep at night u roll over looking for them they next to u but they wont be every again because they don’t want u everyone start comes around saying its him not u but its hard to u think that it has to be u somewhere right u hair, how tall u r, the way u look, something u said once to them but was sorry for but don’t even remember saying it u go crazy trying to come up with something in your hand show it was u that u did not them because u don’t want to see they did they ask for it to be over not u they got over u but u in away will never get over them u love them yes that love has change now because of what they have said and done but its still there and nothing or anyone will ever make it go awa

Comments
ok NOW HERE THIS.... If u slack jawed.. humped backed.. pole smoking.. fudge packin.. leg humpin mutts .. can not be more respectfull w ur comments I WILL NOT allow her to post any more NSFW pics of her sexy azz.. BTW.. hate me if u want.. Take a # and get in line...lol, but she is mine..LMMFGDAO.. and u tools wish u had her.. I am being very easy going about her posts ..BUT will not TOLERATE DISRESPECT AM I MAKING MYSELF CRYSTAL CLEAR.. U KNO NOT WHO U DEAL WITH.. U wanna KNO check out MY page GIRLS.. so if ya don't like what I just posted... HIKE UP UR SKIRTS.. PULL UP UR PANTIES ..suck it up and get over it.. cuz I just don't GAF... be nice and the NSFW will continue cus I kno she is mine and what she can do..LOL Sadly u mutts will never kno her or her love...LOL OUT

My New Job
Thanks for all the good luck wishes for my interview. I did get the job today, however My other job called and asked me to come in and fill out paperwork since i'd passed my drug test. Well when I asked her about taking the other job and accommodating the other hours, she said no cuz she was giving me full time hours in about two weeks. YAY me...i'm so happy! Finally things are coming together. WOO HOO Have a wonderful day all :D

Of Mice And Men
OK, here we go.....confession time. I had a mouse in the house. A pretty, chocolate brown fellow. How I first found out he was living in sin with me? I'd find crumpled up Dove chocolates foil, on top of the stove. He was a chocolate lover like me! I left out peanut butter and cheese....he only wanted the Doves! I was amused at having my first mouse, being a big animal lover and all....but as time went on, he became bolder. He raced across the floor in front of the TV while I was watching it. Cooch, being as arthritic as she is, just whined and gave a small "ruff". Rattling pans in the kitchen cabinet, while I was in the next room! But the straw that broke the back, was one night as I lie reading in bed...didn't he scuttle into my room, and under the bed! A few years ago, squirrels had gotten into the crawl space in my parents home. At first, it didn't bother me. But I was working late hours and would hit the sheets about 8am. Exactly at the time I laid down to get some sleep

1 Person Can Make A Difference!
Last Thursday I was in line at my son's school awaiting to pick him up. In front of me was a newer Ford Focus, and in that car was a little head bobbing all around the back seat, and poking up through between the front seats. I could tell this child was no more that 2-3 years old. I was enraged, it brought back memories of 10 or so years ago, when I saw a toddler get ejected from their vehicle and land on their head a good 30-40 feet from the vehicle. So I sat in my truck contemplating should I get out and reprimand this mother who is allowing this.. Well, I did get out and go to her window, gave it a knock. She was a mid 30's Hispanic woman, her child was more than eager to poke up to the front to examine me as well. I said to her, ma'am you need to have your son in a car seat. Not only is it incredibly unsafe, but against the law and the police are usually here at the school looking for unsecured children to give out $400 tickets. Her response was "nodding her head, with

Need To Have Surgery
OK WENT TO THE DOC OFFICE TODAY AND THE NEWS IS NOT GOOD!!!!!! i am going to need surgery on my shoulder sometime yext year , they are going to go in and repair my labrum in my shoulder and take out the tenderious and bictious and fic my torn rott cuff i am not sure when i am going to have it yet but i will keep u posted. thanks lisa

Posers...
I don't know how this happened. I mean I do. I put pictures of myself on the internet that people enjoyed... But what I don't get, is how that enjoyment has turned into pretending to BE ME. It's been brought to my attention by various people that some douche on xpeeps.com is using my pictures. Claiming to be 21, single, and "looking for lesbians and bi men." Come ON. So, besides emailing support over at xpeeps I'm left not knowing exactly what to do. Setting aside the fact that the site is a giant porn house, I'm hoping they have a decent management staff to take care of this. Just not cool. Any bi guys or lesbians out there want to try and "woo" my alter ego and then punch them in the face? :P Then today, I was sent a message by the loverly Jasper here on fubar. He sent a link of someone on HERE pretending to be "me" from Bulgaria. I politely told her that if she wasn't my long lost twin the profile should really be deleted. And it was, which was great. But, this is just silly.

Immersing In My Virtual World
Today I was reminded that I live my life in a virtual world, and am nothing but a point whore with too many tit shots. So I figured why not just immerse myself in the Fubar world, I do love instant gratification. So boys and girls I ask you to fan me, rate me, add me, comment me, and if you're feeling really generous my birthday is Dec. 19th and I could use a blast, happy hour, ticker or whatever. Help me become the point whore that I so long to be. My gorgeous and wonderful friend Jon has bought me a VIP for two months now just because he's amazing and I want to publicly thank him for always being there for me, with or without the gifts ;) There should be more cleavage and smiles posted shortly since apparantly that's all I'm good for.

Just One Rate
All I need you too do is rate the picture below.Just 1 rate..Not too much to do. No comments needed. She started this contest a day late. Help her out..Thank you everyone:) If you are not a friend of Sadistic Stop by and Fan,Add and rate her. She returns all love back ...Shes one person everyone should have as a friend. §AÐI§TI© LIGHT ~Ånarchy §kulls Mistress~ GrØw ®oØm EñTìt¥@ fubar

What I Want
the things i want Current mood: depressed i find what i miss the most about being in a relationship is having someone to curl up with at night, someont to hold softly and keep cozzy and warm, someone to whisper goodnight to after they have already fallen asleep, someone i can lie next to and listen to her breath, someone i can wake up in the morning with a kiss after i have made her breakfast in bed, someone i can take care of when shes sick, someone who will make me sigh when we kiss, someone who will steal my hat just because she wants something of mine while we r apart, someone who will call me @ 2 am just to tell me she misses me, someone who will wrap her arms around me while we r out and kiss me deeply for no reason at all, someone i can lie in a field with on a warm summer night and look up at the stars with, someone who will tell the world that she is mine and that i am hers, someone who will give me her whole heart, someone who will take mine and treasure it, someone

Watch Out For This Guy!
Just wanted to give all of you on here a fair warning of people to watch out for here on Fubar. FOR YOU WOMEN!! THIS GUY HAS AT LEAST 3 PROFILES ON HERE! Please watch out for him. He's the type of guy your parents always warned you about. Trust me. It's one thing to call us women hot or sexy or whatever, but he takes it way past what he should and gets pissed if you tell him to quit. These are the only 2 profiles I can link because he's blocked me on the 3rd. JUST ANOTHER MAN@ fubar Ohio State #1 LSU #2 Jan 7th 2008 **** SBG Bombers***@ fubar Please watch out for him, he's a major creep and we need to put him in his place!

Murphy's Law
If something crappy is going to happen it will for sure happen to me. Last night I went to the gas station for cigarettes and treats for the kids. The plan was to come home, get the kids to best, and by myself a month long birthday blast. I'll be 31 on the 19th. Unfortunately for me my $9 charge on my debit card was declined. I got paid Friday so this is not acceptable. I checked my bank online this morning and I was -&861.77. See a problem here? I have not received a single notice from the bank, and I have been in the negative repeatedly since the beginning of November. I have incurred more than $1000 in NSF fees. So I panic immediately and cry, it's 7 am, I call my mother. At 8 I call the bank, they tell me my mail has been returned for the past couple of months marked Recipient Moved No Longer At This Address. I have lived in the same house for five years. I call the post office, they assure me they have not been returning my mail. So the bank and the post

My Wonderful Friends
I want to thank each and everyone of you. I was, and still am, overwhelmed by the all the beautiful messages and comments. Leaving love, support and comfort, during this sad and traumatic period in my life This maybe just a web site, to many folks here, but I feel honoured to have met some of the most wonderful, caring and loving friends that I could ever have wished for. You have shown me what true friendship is, and everyone of you hold a special place in my heart.

Who Wants Fu-bucks????????????????
WANNA EARN SOME FAST AND EASY FU-BUCKS????? LADIES AND GENTLEMEN ITS TIME TO SEE IF YOU CAN BE THE WINNER. IT MIGHT BE YOU OR ONE OF YOUR FRIENDS!!! YOU WANNA KNOW ??? CHECK THIS OUT: I'M HOSTING A FU-BUCKS GIVE AWAY CONTEST: FIRST TO REACH 25,000 COMMENTS WILL RECEIVE 500,000 FU-BUCKS FIRST TO REACH 35,000 COMMENTS WILL RECEIVE 750,000 FU-BUCKS + A RIDE ON WILDCAT TRAIN FIRST TO REACH 45,000 COMMENTS WILL RECEIVE 1,000,000 FU-BUCKS + VIP CART ON WILDCAT TRAIN WITH 2 GUESTS. CONTEST WILL LAST 7 DAYS,IT WILL START WHEN I HAVE 15 OR MORE CONTESTANTS ۞WÌLÐÇÄŦ۞® @ fubar THE RULES WILL BE 1~ NO NSFW PICTURES ARE ALLOWED TO ENTER THE CONTEST OR TO BE POSTED AS A COMMENT. 2~ COMMENT BOMBING AND SELF COMMENTING ARE ALLOWED. 3~ NO DRAMA OF ANY KIND,ANY DRAMA STARTER WILL BE ELIMINATED FROM THE CONTEST. 4~ GOOD SPORTSMANSHIP IS A MUST!!! IF YOU WISH TO JOIN PLEASE SUBMIT THE LINK TO YOUR PHOTO YOU WISH TO ENTER TO MY MAIL,JUST CLICK

My Daughter
My daughter fell on her knee in athletics today...its looking worse then I thought so I am on my way to take her to ER ....wish us luck...I hate hospitals...lol the wait alone is enough to make you ill ...lol I will fill you in when I get back Huggsssss

Goodbye For Now!
Hey everyone! Many of you know what has been going on in my life for the past several months. It has been nothing short of a constant struggle, and it has taken a huge toll on me, physically, mentally and emotionally. I have done my best to keep my head above water, yet I always feel in one way or another I am getting drawn into my own personal hell. I know that life and time wait for no one; it will keep going, even if I do nothing or I am not here...life goes on! So I know I have to deal with my issues and all I am going through before I become consumed by them. With that being said, I feel the need to say goodbye for now, as I will be taking a break from being here! I do want to say to those who know me and have been there or at least tried to be there, "Thank you from the bottom of my heart! It means the world to me to know that I am cared for and loved so much my so many!" To those who have not had the chance to get to know me yet or those I have spoken to but do no

Add Her Please
Ok This is the time for all of you that have not added my Girlfriend to add her if you don't want to then remove yourself from my page.Sorry if this seems harsh but it right on my profile to add her if you add me. For you that have thank you very much for those who have not you got 2 days thank you.Here is her link TENEEKA FU WIFE TO WINDUPTOY...MEMBER OF THE ALL CANADIAN KREW@ fubar

Am I Wrong For Being Pissed Off??
Okay, I'm a pretty nice person, right? I try to go to everyone's page that visits mine and leaves me any kind of love. Even if you vote on my mumm, I'll rate your profile. (Although, if you act too ignorant in there, I won't! ha!) Anyway, I don't bother anyone, I act civil, do not stir up drama...right? If you know me in any way, you know I am right! I try to be as compliant as I can be with Fubar's policies. Sometimes, someone is quicker than me for marking NSFW pics. :P But when I know they are NSFW for sure, I always try to mark them immediately. Granted, sometimes, my IE or Vista or just the daggone cable acts up and I can't there before someone else does but I get there. And if I do have something that should be marked NSFW, it's just an honest mistake. Hey, I never said I was an angel....an angel with horns is all I ever claimed! ;) Anyway, enough of all this explaining. Let me get to the dirty deed that was done to me tonight. You might say harmless but put yourself in my sho

Mental Hospital Phone Menu
MENTAL HOSPITAL PHONE MENU Hello and thank you for calling The State Mental Hospital Please select from the following options me nu: If you are obsessive-compulsive, press 1 repeatedly. If you are codependant, please ask someone to press 2 for you. If you have multiple personalities, press 3, 4, 5 and 6. If you are paranoid, we know who you are and what you want, stay on the line so we can trace your call. If you are delusional, press 7 and your call will be forwarded to the Mother Ship. If you are schizophrenic, listen carefully and a little voice will tell you which number to press. If you are manic-depressive, it doesn't matter which number you press, nothing will make you happy anyway. If you are dyslexic, press 9696969696969696. If you are bipolar, please leave a message after the beep or before the beep or after the beep. Please wait for the beep. If you have short-term memory loss, press 9. If you have short-term memory loss, press 9. If you have short-te

To All My Real Friends
just a little note to say my goodbyes as im leaving fubar. can't delete right now due to VIP but when it's gone my acct will go with it... Squirt- i love ya girl...from mumms to men drama to sex talks...damn we had alot of fun you're a star babygirl! Drunken- you've always been there when i needed someone the most. you're truly an example of a 'real' person here in fu-land. ellie's a lucky girl to have you. much love ryan!!! lsd-shell- girl you crack me up, and even though we haven't spoken much lately know i got much love for ya! Will- oh what can i possibly say bout you...you've always been there to try to bring me up when i was down, and i appreciate that. Southern bi- MY TUB BUDDY!! we haven't talked much since i left AH but you know i got tons of love for ya! please make sure you keep in touch on yahoo. Sultry- steph girl i love you to death. you've made me laugh when no one else could, i wish nothing but the best for you! Drew- you've always had my back when

Wow...face Shots...
Ok. I don't mind rating people's pics when they have alot...but one thing I hate is for someone to have TONS..and that's IT!!! Man, if I wanted to see your damn face that many times I'd ask for your hand in marriage! Mix that shit up a bit! I'm not going to sit up and rate over 200+ face pics and all you have is 8-10 other pics of yourself. What in thee HELL is that all about? I'm pretty sure there is something else you can do in your spare time other than take 50 pics of your face and post them on Fubar. Like I said before...MIX IT UP PEOPLE! There is nothing wrong with showing anything other than your face....unless people who do that suffer from insecurities...and that can be a bitch. Long story short, it sucks, don't expect me to rate them, once I see about 6-7 of them, I get the point. Sheesh...at least show your dog or something. And don't get mad if I come by and only rate 4-5 pics when you posted over 500 face pics...wow.

What Is This Site Coming To....
Well now i'm pissed. Went to watch a bit of TV tonight and came back here to a message from the fubar shop...yup you guessed it, some moron had them mark one of my angel pictures (that I got off google images) as NSFW. Winduptoy and I are having pics marked by some coward who won't show their face because of being anal. When I started with this site, it was a fun site to be on, better than any other site out there. Since the introduction of Communistic rule here this site has become a severe downer. It seems like you can't have anything on this site anymore because some anal person who doesn't know art when they see it has to complain to the staff like a little 2 year old...wait let me rephase that, even a 2 year old could appreciate art. The way I look at it is this folks, if they want to have Communist rule here I think it's about time that we leave this site for another one. I have recommended a different site to a lot of my friends on here and they are there having a blast. It

My Phantom Love
YOU I lie here alone, Night after night, feeling my fears, feeling my fright, But I dream of you, and my fears are gone, For you are beside me, for I,ve waited so long.... Yes, This is but a dream, It feels so real, I reach out my hand, it's your body I feel, I feel your touch, I feel your heat, Your love is real as our lips meet, in my dreams we love each night, I'm lying here alone, but you're in my sight, In my heart I truely feel, That someday, together,, it will be for real... Untill that day, That "someday" true, I'll have to accept, This Phantom, of you... Until the time, we're no longer apart, I'll keep this image,, of you,,,,in my heart.

Frozen
Its late. A warm summers breeze blows from the west. It blows my hair back over my shoulders. The moon is high and full casting a silvery light over everything. The Ground is flat, lush, and green. I can see for miles, in the distance i can see the highlands my heart longs to go. But my feet are rooted to the spot. I can not move. Im stuck in the most beautiful place I can think of, but i dont want to stay. I want to move on but something is holding me back. The breeze becomes a cold wind, I shiver, its time for me to go, but I still cant move. The ground has become hard and brown. The moutains are snow covered, everything is dieing. I want to leave, but i still cant move. I will surely freeze to death. I look around alls I see is ice for miles. It all goes black.

Win $100.000 Fu-bucks!
Another promotion contest using fu-bucks this time! $100,000 a good amount and money will build as the lounge comes alive! This is a great lounge great music with no staff and so on to help make it into the best lounge on FUBAR! Send everyone to the lounge and have them subscribe and then leave a message at the bottom of the lounge! All these have to be followed to be tracked! Lets get this going! $100,000 fu-bucks at stake!! 12/12- 12-16 now til sunday at midnight eastern time!

What Are You Made Of?
Do we ever really know who we are? We can think we know. We can say things about what we like or don't like, or will do or won't do. But, we can't really guarantee that we'll do anything, When it came right down to the snake, the tree and the fruit, Eve probably figured she knew herself too. Look what happened to her. So we make a show of being WHO we are, but maybe we can't be all that certain. When it comes down to the nitty gritty, we want to think that we'll perform, we'll take the lead maybe, we'll save the day. We like to believe that we'd save the child from the oncoming train, stop the guy from firing the killing shots. We would DO something to help, to aid, to save lives. But most of us can't say what we'd do in a crisis. The female security guard at the church who took out her weapon and faced down an assailant, she found out what she's made of. She shot him. What else could she do? He was firing at people and she faced a terrible decision. She took him down, but t

What Is Left?
I've Fallen, and Fallen hard I have. I sit and wonder, where is This to go, What is This to be? A warm Fuzzy from the depths of it all. And I wonder, What is the Depth of This? Do I risk it? Can i open myself more to the possibility of bein hurt? It is a Conscious decision I must make. It's hard, it's nerve racking. Do I risk another scar, to see if there is more? Do I step back, walk away quietly, and forever wonder what could have been? All to protect myself from a POSSIBLE Scar? I will not, Patience I will have, hold fast, stand my ground, my past says all odds are against me, but only the future knows the future.... Take chance, risk a scar, don't be selfish, don't be gaurded, give it a chance to really flourish, Nothing to lose, everything to gain... Patience it will take, patience I MUST have. And for This, I take the chance, I face the risk, All for This. What is to be will be and This will never stop.

Very Own Head Pimpette Own For 24 Hours
Ok guys up for bidding Tesha our very own head Pimpette :D she will fan rate add u, rate all pics and stash crush u for 24 hous put fu owned by whom ever a salute to u sfw 1 hour cam on yahoo added to family for 24 hours! Bidding starts at 8am till 9pm bids can be place in fubucks, vips, big pimping gifts, and or blasts anything well be accepted for bids! Winnings will be paid to Tesha and she is not urs until u have paid her! any questions plz ask and guys bid away who wouldnt want this sexi lady!!! so let the fun began :D

Philosophy
Philosophy There are to many cliches in the modern world about love. Most of them never capture the true spirit or meaning of what it is to truly love. Many of us live in the paradox of striving to maintain our individuality yet at the same time there is the deep seeded feeling from deep within that all alone we are just incomplete. The human need to seek out the simplest way and simplest explanation for things leads many down the dead end roads of believing in "fairy tail" love or even the dubious "love at first sight". While these things are interesting or even desirable in my opinion they do not foster the enviroment for true love to prosper. The true love that I speak of is a decision much more than it is a feeling. It is a goal , if anything, when an individual arrives at the conclusion that a life spent without the target of there affection is a lesser life than one without. However, once the decision is made it morphs into a feeling a deep emotion which drasticall

Epic Battle!
i just had an epic battle with this hoity toity calculator that thought it was the shit by eating the calculator tape and then REFUSING to give me the scraps..... I got so angry I kinda tore the top off and had to put it back together afterwards. lol. I dont know if that part was supposed to come off, but it's removable now. :D I rule. p.s. I need anger management.

Lost By 1 Vote :(
man i hate losing!!!! ahh well it was all in good fun :P thanks to everyone who voted; you guys rock! as for me i have the whole weekend off, so ill be around...shout me or pm me :) love you guys!! **muah**

My Bday
well..today is my 23rd bday. your supose to be happy on your bday but im not. Im terribly upset. I dont have anyone to spend it with. This is gunna be a HORRIBLE DAY ..thank goodness for my bday bash in centerfolds tonight. hope ya'll can make it UPDATE..MY BDAY TURNED OUT TO BE PRETTY AWESOME. I GOT TO TALK TO MY BABY LOTS AND MY FRIENDS THREW ME AN AWESOME BDAY PARTY :)

Pork Cheese
Wandering around the market Saturday morning, doing the weekly food shop, and I was moved out of curiosity to purchase some "Pork Cheese" at the Butcher's stall. It was recommended to me that I put it on toast, and I have to say, once you get over the fact you're eating something that both looks and smells like dog food, it's actually good eatin'. For some recipes for "Pork Cheese", go here

Leaving
Due to some r/l drama, and some online "heartbreaks," for the lack of a better word, I'm taking a leave of absence from Fubar. How long? Probably forever, the way things are going... Met some good peeps here and some assholes too, but it's been... an experience.... Going to focus on my kids more, seeing how their mom finally admitted that she doesn't want them, which most of you know... And I'll be focusing more on my art instead of fake life online... It's pretty much the only thing I have left, that's mine and mine alone... and... "J.C."... I am sorry... for everything

For All Who Care
I spent most of the day today in the hospital and the doctors office. I'm stuck in a wrist brace for 6 weeks. Seems I have a couple of fractured wrist bones that have pinched a nerve in my right hand... bad pert isthat I'm right dominant...also I have carple tunnel in it. My thyroid is underactive and I'm scheduled for more tests in January. So i'll still try and do pics but it's gonna take awhile since i have to do the left handed and I'm slower with that hand. Love to All.

Kiss
we've not yet kissed but i feel like i've done it a thousand times your lips are so soft and inviting the taste of love is upon them to not yet kiss you is to invite madness in my dreams, i've kissed you often like rose petals your lips are so soft the ardor of our love intensifies with each new kiss, it grows stronger i never knew love could be so powerful the day i first kiss you will be the first day of my life i will have not lived until i see your eyes gaze longingly into mine then close, as we share our first kiss

Knife In Me
Ok so the past few weeks..I had 3 deaths. They were so painful I still cry at times. To add insult to injury, I had a work function with a grab bag thing. I have not had a drink in over 7 years. I ofcourse pull out a big bottle of Grey Goose. No one trades with me and I have a panic attack. One woman finally traded with me. Literally shaking in my office I break down in tears and can not stop crying. I get home finally after being so upset at work I was crying about it I ofcourse have a fight with my 13 year old. I come online to get a little rest and read something to make me laugh when.....I look and 19 of my pics have been NSFW. Ok..just shove a sharp stick in my eye. I try to flag the guy doing it and he's a Bouncer in training.He doesn't respond when I shout to him. Ok..so not the end of the world but gimme a break. 3 deaths, problems with my landlord, feeling uncomfortable my BF dying of Bone Cancer in Texas, Family 1000 miles away and something as simple as someone getting powe

My Christmas Cookie Fiasco
OK so this is my Christmas cookie fiasco story. This year for Christmas I am really trying to get into the Christmas spirit. I bought a tree and put it up, lights and all. This is a first. But tonight takes the cake. So my son and I decide that we are going to make Christmas (chocolate chip) cookies tonight. We have it all figured out, Christmas cookies then a viewing of the classic, Christmas Vacation. Sounds like a wonderful evening right, wrong. Well at least for now. So we run up to the local grocery store and pick up a bag of chocolate chip cookies and I read on the back which other ingredients I will need. I am lucky to have milk in the house, non less vanilla extract and brown sugar. Although I did clean out the cupboard today and noticed I had some baking soda. That would be put to use later so no need to pitch it with the rest of the junk that was collecting dust. Ok so we go through the checkout and the girl, rather observantly, says "awwww, you guys are making Christmas

Coming Clean.....
So as I think about what I want for christmas i have decided i know exactly what I want.. my confession..LOL I want a grocery store with single available men all neatly lined up by emotional/physical/sexual/mental traits height would be like a bonus sorting that isnt required...but you know.. I think if it were that simple more ladies would flock to the market on a daily basis til the store was completely out of stock...like with any great toy on the store shelf...SOLD OUT..sorry no rain checks I'd want to be the only shopper in this store though...:P yea I know i am dreaming...but tis a truly nice dream. Again merry christmas to all of you :) I am off to browse the sexy smart finacially and emotionally stable aisle.

The Eve
My favorite X-mas song ... For you to 'PLAY' Happy Christmas Eve my fu-friends! My page probably looks as if someone puked holiday decor all over it ... lol Sorry, just have today and tomorrow to try to use up some gifs ... (wouldn't want me "re-gif-ting" now would you)? So what your take on the Holiday Decorations? I know its been pressed for local government agencies to be more 'PC' in selecting their festive decor - wanting it to be more non-demoniacal in theme. I understand that, I really do! By no means should a government office have all Christian faith decor. "Winter Season" which covers all faiths should surface. As for what people say: That's entirely different story though!" I've worked with the public all my life, So it's rather natural for me to say: "Happy Holidays" or "Seasons Greetings" It's part of working with the public & respecting other peoples beliefs and/or traditions. I read that peopl

Sensual Amber
My ispiration came from a bottle of bubble bath that I use at night called Sensual Amber. SENSUAL AMBER I am sensual amber, Warm and delicious, Sinfully sweet, Yet wicked and vicous, I am sensual amber, Come drink of my liquor, Become drunk from my beauty, and die even quicker, My skin is vanilla, Lips cherry red, Eys soft and green, And hair cinnimon red, My warmth beckons you, Gaze into my eyes, Melt into me love, My flames hypnotise, I am dripping molasis, Sticky and sweet, Come taste of my pleasures, And get burned by the heat, I will scrorch your soft flesh, But you'll love how I burn, I will boil your blood, And cause you to yearn, I'm a little of heaven, and a little of hell, I have you entranced, You Are under my spell, For I am sensual amber, Warm and deliciouS, Sinfully sweet, Yet wicked and vicous, I am sensual amber, Come drink of my liquor, Become drunk from my beauty, and die even quicker. The End

All I Want To Know Is Why.......
I just want to know why I put so damn much of my heart into everything I do, and always end up with a broken heart. When I am with someone, I do whatever it takes to make them happy. But here recently, I feel like I have ben putting so much in, that I don't have much left to give. While I am extremely patient, even my patience runs out or short. And yes, I have been on my guard lately due to recent events. I just get that way when I feel I am not getting all I am putting in back. It's like, I am putting in all that I am, and I am not getting any of it in return, and in any relationship, both have to fight, or you do nothing more than defeat yourself. I am just tired of getting my heart broken time and time and time again. I just hate when I cater to others, and my feelings don't seem to count for anything. Not saying that is the case this time, but I just hate it. I just don't know how much more this poor ragged heart can take before it breaks for good.....

Key To My Heart
Key To My Heart I had closed the door upon my heart and wouldn't let anyone in I had trusted and loved only to be hurt but that would never happen again I locked the door and tossed the key as hard and as far as I could My heart was closed for good Then you came into my life and made me change my mind just when I thought that tiny key was impossible to find that is when you held out your hand and proved me wrong inside your palm was the Key to My Heart You had it all along. Amy Pierce Copyright ©2008 AmyPierce

The Birthday Girls
I want to wish a very happy birthday to two of my best friends here at Fubar. As you may have noticed, the birthday alert has stopped at December, so unless you have a phenomenal memory, most of us will have forgotten all about them. I will probably get into trouble for this, but I would consider it a personal favour if you could please pay them a visit, and wish them both a very happy birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO BOTH EJ AND LOEY. Big hugs and lots of love. your friend Adam...aka chains301 Ej...1st January Loey...3rd January

Private My A$$
ok, lets see who i can piss off with my first blog of the year. what the fuck is with all of these people who post hundreds of pics allow one or two to be seen and label all of the rest of them private. bullshit, if you wanted them to be private and only for certain people then just send them to certain people jackass. what? i should feel honored that you choose to let me see your pics by "letting" me be youre friend? if thats the case mr and mrs god complex at least make them fucking good pics, not pics of your ugly ass petting your homely dog, i wanna see pics of you getting ramrodded so hard i can see the backs of your teeth through your asshole, after all these pics are so important you cant show the general public, only those you deem worthy. twat

Saving Me
Im so sick and tired of damn drama. so from this day on... IAM watever u want me to be! You think ima slut..ima slut. You think i make bad choices i do. But let me tell you it is my life. I choose to do wat i want..i have no one to answer too ive been on my own since i was youg YOU damn screen names cant put me down anymore...cuz thats all u are another screenname... so watever u think or want to believe i am I AM.. i dont care..im just gonna have fun. Thanks for talking about me btw... *winks* didnt know u were that bored!

An Open Letter To The 2008 Presidential Candidates
I've been following the election campaigns for the 2008 Presidential hopefuls - probably more so than the average American (though probably equally to those of you who actually read this). I've seen nothing worth voting for in any candidate. All I've seen is slander, ad hominem attacks, talk of religion and ethnic background, and a general try for a popularity contest. What I have still to see is a real platform of relevant current issues. Where are the candidates that want to bring the American government back into the hands of the people? Where are the candidates that want to address the severely flawed health care problems in the US? Where are the candidates that want to address the suffering education of our children? Where are the candidates that want to end this senseless war and bring our troops back home? Where are the candidates that want to restore this country to the free nation it once was? All I see in these candidates are war mongers, willing to carry on the Bush plans

Late Entry!
Hey guys! I KNOW I said I wasn't going to do another contest, but hell, I couldn't help it. I entered a sexiest mummers contest. Yeah, I know, far cry from sexy, but anyway. It's rates only, so if you could go and just give it a rate or something... you KNOW I would appreciate it :D It's hard to pick just one too, so rate as many as you like. There are LOTS of sexy mummers in that folder!

Pleasuring A Woman
My friend had this posted as one of his blogs & I felt it needed to be shared to all my friends. It is a GOOD F*CKING READ! Ok, this is a little different than my usual rants, but I had a friend today complain about his girlfriend's repeated requests for oral pleasure. This is a detailed How-To and may offend many of you, sorry. For those of you that find it helpful...great! Be warmed, this goes into intimate detail. Going down on a woman is about the most wonderful thing you can do for her. It makes her feel loved, admired, sexy, and of course it makes her cum like crazy. Many women prefer it to intercourse, and for most, it is the easiest way to cum with a man. You may have the littlest dick on the planet, but if you give great head, you will be appreciated as a fabulous lover. Yes, it's that important. Besides, lots of women expect it these days - you might as well know what your doing. First off, guys seem to have a strange love/hate relationship with women's genitalia. Gu

Furfilling Desire
How do i love thee? Let me find a way. slowy, with a hint of roughness, showing i want to play. How can i be rough and you not call it rape. by spanking that ass like that man in the cape. Eating your pussy like it was cake. Sucking up the juices like like it's Welches Grape. Fullfilling desire is my #1 thing, so bring your sexual tension and i will make your ears ring. Pleas feel free to comment written by sterling carroll(skeebo)

There I Go Thinking Again
There I go thinking again, of a beautiful young lady that's way more than a ten. Pretty as can be and has a good heart. She says in my life she wants to be a part. I am falling deeply in love with her, warmth in my heart is starting to occur. Tingles and jitters and all those good things. Even the bells are starting to ring. Should I let this beautiful lady in my life? Or is she just being so damn polite? Because she knows that we are so far apart. And she does not have to feel what she is doing to my heart. There I go thinking again, hoping that this time maybe I’ll win. Keeping in touch with my feelings inside. Praying to God she is not out to destroy my pride.

My First Poem
Lilac Fields Take a deep breath, Inhale the beauty of me. Trace me along your flesh and feel my softness. Close your eyes forget all else . . . lay down. Let the soft breeze tickle your skin. Let the sun warm your heart, let my scent and touch soothe your soul. Breathe deeply, lose yourself in the soft scented moment. I will put a smile to your lips and leave you with a memory you shall never forget. Lisa Maria Tekula Copyright ©2008 Lisa Maria Tekula

New Song Completed Written By Melissa Jade
What if you could wish me away What if you spoke those words today, Wonder if you would miss me When I'm gone. So come back please and release me I will leave before the dawn, But for tonight I stay here with you. Yes, for tonight I'll lay here with you, But when the sun hits your Eyes through your window. There will be nothing you can do- { chorus } of the piano. { chorus } of the guitar. { chorus } of the violin. What if you could here this song, What if I felt like I belong- I might not be leaving for So so soon, I might not be leaving To the moonlight, so for tonight I will Stay here with you. Yes for tonight I'll lay here with you, Hold my hand as you pull me in When tomorrow comes Wonder if you would miss me. I could have treated you better than That, as I place this song in your letter. But one day I will see your face we will meet Again and remember Those words you spoke today So for tonight I will stay here with you Yes for toni

Freinds
I'm so sick of ppl addin me and just wantin to see my pictures or just been point whores and not talk to me if you want to be my friend be my friend if not take me off of your list....................if you have any comments leave them here dont shoutbox me with bull

Past Drama On Fubar
Ok..if you have read my ABOUT ME, then you know that this is my 2nd attempt on fubar. The first time I was on fubar, I met a guy that totally turned out to be a headcase. He wasted a lot of my time and caused me much emotional stress! His name then was JJ..NOW, he is back on fubar as 'Sexy Daddy Jason - Fu Hubby to Sexy Bi Angel' His yahoo is JJ Alexander or Jessie Jones.. dragracer_from_hell@yahoo.com or midnitesoulz (something like that..he uses the other one more) He told me he had a daughter named Ashley..but i never heard her in the background any of the times that we talked. Also..when he calls you it will always show up "withheld" or "private caller". He told me he had a daughter that died. Of course, he told me a lot of things that just never added up. He sent me lots of pictures that i am going to post in an album..so ALL YOU LADIES can know that I am not lieing. This guy has mental problems and tries to manipulate females. And I don't want you to go thru the emo

Want To Be In My Family? Some Ideas
OK - A lot of people are asking how to get added to my family. There are no guarantees but here are the ones that stand a chance. 1. Be original. I know I have a nice ass - that's not original. 2. Make me laugh Women like men who make them laugh. 3. Buy me lots of gifts. I'm shallow. Bigger the gift the better the chance. 4. Comment my pictures. Nice comments may result in an add. NSFW methods are detailed elsewhere in the blog - look for them.

Can You Hear My Heart Break
MySpace Codes & MySpace Layouts As you walk right by me Without a single touch or word the aching in my heart becomes far from absurd How can you say you love me Without a care in your mind except for you selfish complications and self endulgence that you find How can you even look at me And not see what others see I am still the same person you married Mean while you act like you are free How can you say I have changed When I am still right here Watching you become this other man And watching the man i married, disappear. In these words that write with tears running down my face My heart is now completely broken and now all i have is an empty space So tell me, how does it feel to be the one that causes such pain To take my heart and completely destroy it as tears fall out like rain Does it give you more justice knowing that I truely loved you for the first time in my life i thought that this would be seen through. So now that you know I

To The One Who Has My Heart
You brush your hand across my face and wipe away a single tear, Soft and light your fingers trace my wanting lips. Gazing into eyes of the purest blue I feel safety, comfort, and reassurance held tightly in your strong supportive arms. As you press your lips to mine our bodies in a love embrace, The rest of the world stands still and time stops. Peace and happiness fill my heart as you whisper "I love you" lightly into my ear and melt my soul. I can see our future as clear as a reflection in a mirror and there is no other place I want to be.

Own An Angel For A Month !!!!!!!!!!!
You could own me for a month!!!!! CLICK PIC BELOW TO BID !!!!!!! ¢¾Angel ¢¾ Bad Girl¢¾~Head Bartender @Club Adrenaline~FU-GF to King of Boriquas~@ fubar CONTEST ENDS JANUARY 20TH

What Happened To My Friends?
Ok, Im going thru my list of friends to see whos online in here now , and I send out a kissing tag to those who are online , I think I sent it to at least 20 people , probably more. Well I only got 2 back . Thank you to Passy and Cajun Cherry. Are the rest of my friends that busy in here , they cant return a comment ? Thats why Lisa's not in fubar as much any more doing what I did before. Fubar seems to have just went down hill now. I have some in my family that I barely even hear from , even tho Im trying to stay in touch with my friends . Whats going on I wonder . Guess I'll be deleting friends again soon & keeping true friends who talk to me & stay in touch. Rock on - Lisa

My Desires
i sit here with my mind wondering i sit here with my heart pondering and as i contimplate all that i have done as i recount all i have desired my dreams come into focus and i begin to relize just as the blue sky touches the blue sea there is always hope and wonder in the unknown and to me all time and all distance is shortened to within inches as i hear your voice in my ear all that i contimplate my desires, my wishes, my dreams become focused on one image the image of all i have ever wanted to give another and in that moment i see a truth the truth of what may be and what may come to be as i hold you in my arms for the first time and share a kiss destine before i was born and my heart stops pondering and begings dreaming my mind stops wondering and begings planning for the woman i have sought for so long to share all i have with and i fall asleep with a sad heart because i am unable to hold her as i sleep but a smile is on my face for i know she desi

Cant Figure It Out
Okay so here is the thing.... i need help. Or more like i need some opinions. I have been 'talking" to this guy for about 6 months now and at first we were spending a lot of time w/each other and all that good stuff (mostly just sex), then all of a sudden he stopped coming to see me and stopped askin me to come over... i asked him what was goin on and he said that things were just getting to serious and he got scared... so i backed off a little and then he started coming around again. Not as much as before. Well spending time w/someone and having relations with them makes you close to that person and can cause you to have feelings right? Well i started catching feelings for him. And he goes back and forth. One moment saying he is in love with me and the next he states that he just doesnt have those feelings for me and that my feelings are way to deep?? So i tell him that we just need to stay away from each other and he agrees... but then a few days later he is coming back hugging and k

Test
Well as a few of ya know I had to take my mom to the hospital this mornin for some test. She wont get the results back till Friday so keep ur fingers crossed everything comes back clear! Ill keep ya all informed on whats goin on. I do wanna say I am sorry for ignorin alot of you. I have just had alot on my mind with all this goin on plus with my uncle who passed away on new years its just been alot of stress! Everything always happens in three's and now with my mom havin problems its just really puttin a toll on me. I really dont mean to ignore anyone I just try and find things to do to keep my mind from goin crazy. I appreciate all the love and support I have gotten from my friends and I really thank yall for it. Not sure what I would do with out ya's. If I dont answer back any comments or shouts please dont take it the wrong way I just havent been in much of a mood to talk and ive been doin my best to keep a smile on my face and be there for all my friends that need me. Anyway thanks

Thoughts From A Father!
It takes a lot from a man like myself to express himself in the form I'm about to do before your very eyes, so please bare with me..! I've sat here today wondering about life, love and most importantly my son. Lately, I've been in a funk, what for is beyond me, maybe its the weather change, who knows? Well, today it hit me as I was sitting here cleaning my son's room and looking through pics. For the first time its' really hit me, I'm actually a dad! Now I'm sure like I did most of you are like well duh!, but I mean it all sank in this little precious angel is part of what my God, gave me the gift of helping create! Then it came to me, I'm afraid! I'm scared I will fail this kid! I'm so scared of not being the man he now looks up to. My son is my life and if anyone that knows me, they know I'd give my life for my son and would cut my throat to give him the world! Now to my point, where did I get this emotion from? Was it there all along and I didn't know it ? Or is it a gift in the for

01-18-08 -quick
F R I D A Y Just wishing you a great weekend! Sorry, just have had so much to do today ... You all get a break :) Mucho -luv- to all! The Question So Any plans for the weekend I think I'll take Lexy to the movies myself. About the comment Just an oldie, I picked it for the bright colors ... Slightly retooled Here it is: I T ' S Just wanted to drop by Give ya something to 'Smile' about! Enjoy

Rules For Ŧ.m.Ä.Ғ. ( Ŧhe Mortal Ängel Ғamily)
I RECEIVED TOO MANY QUESTIONS REGARDING THE 4 LETTERS I HAVE NEXT TO MY NAME.WELL HERE IS THE ANSWERS AND IF YOU FEEL OR LIKE TO JOIN OUR FAMILY HERE IS THE RULES: RULES FOR Ŧ.M.Ä.Ғ. ( Ŧhe Mortal Ängel Ғamily) THE MORTAL ANGELS FAMILY THIS FAMILY IS ALL ABOUT SHOWING LOVE AND RESPECT TO EACH OTHER AND TO HELP PUT A SMILE ON SOMEONES FACE... THE MORTAL ANGELS FAMILY IS ALL ABOUT LOVE,CARE,RESPECT AND SUPPORT. HERE IS THE HEAD RULES,IF ANY OF YOU HAVE ANY SUGGESTIONS PLEASE SUBMIT THEM SO THEY MAY BE DISCUSSED. ANY UPDATES OR NEWS REGARDING THIS FAMILY WILL BE POSTED AS A BLOG FOR ALL MEMBERS. 1~A SALUTE PICTURE: MUST BE SENT TO ME IN A PRIVATE MESSAGE IF ITS NOT ON YOUR PAGE. IT WILL NOT BE DISPLAYED TO THE PUBLIC.IT IS FOR CONFIRMATION PURPOSES SO AS NOT TO ALLOW FAKES INTO THE FAMILY. 2~N.S.F.W PICTURES: NAKED PIX OF YOURSELF OR OTHERS MUST BE CLEARLY LABELED OUT OF RESPECT FOR OTHER MEMBERS. 3~FAMILIES: a)MEMBERS CAN NOT BE IN TWO

01-19-08 (concerts)
S A T U R D A Y Sorry So late ... I hope this finds you enjoying the weekend thus far. Been a pleasant Saturday for me, Spent it with my little one ... She wants to go to a concert. I took her older Brother to a few when he was 13, They were heavy rock the first couple in small venues. Eventually I took him to a couple Ozzfest. It influenced him to start playing the drums & played in one of the hotter local bands. She Wants to go see "Hannah Montana" But IDK @ - 10 years old? At lease it would be more of a family affair. What do you think? Should I take her?? Keeping with the concert theme ... Today's Qustion: What's your favorite concert ever attened? Mine has got to be "RUSH"... It was my first "big" concert, I was only 14 and went with a bunch of Jr & Sr High Schoolers. It was an amazing experience and influenced my love for live music & great shows.

Finally
Over the years of friendship, feeling had arisen and faded on multiple occasions. Even though it had become painfully obvious that there was never going to be an ‘us’, some feelings would never be completely cast aside. This was never more relevant than it was now. When my phone rang, I expected it to be a wrong call or my mother, since those were the only two calls that I ever received. Almost all communication in was done via text messaging or email. A call will almost always throw me for a loop, and seeing your picture come up was most unexpected, but never unwanted. I couldn’t remember the exact number of times you had called me prior, but it was easily in the single digits, and never unprompted. I knew something must have been wrong. Fearing the worst, I answered and hoped it was nothing. Your voice shook as you spoke, but you didn’t sound like you were crying any longer. “Can you pick me up from work, I don’t think I can drive right now?” you asked. “Of cours

Is There Intelligent Life On Fubar??
Okay...so here's the deal: ~I have seen all these people cry about the mumms, saying things such as "You need to blog this";"We dont wanna discuss politics/religion/anything deeply debatable in the mumms...";etc... ~Well, this is a test. Let's see if I can get some intellectual conversation from a blog. ~For lack of anything else on my mind at this present moment, I'll open this for discussion. Here's my first question: *** DO WE REALLY NEED TO HAVE HOLIDAYS, SPECIFIC MONTHS, ETC... HONORING THE BLACK CULTURE??? *** my position: I feel that in these days of tolerance, equality, equal opportunities, and such, these events (MLK Jr. day, Black History Month, etc..) only perpetuate the thought that there is some sort of difference that remains in our society between "African-Americans" (most of which couldnt name the country of origin that their ancestral roots began from) and Caucasian-Americans. Isnt this counter-productive? Doesnt this undermine the very equality and

Storms
I like the sound of distant thunder as it rumbles across the earth. I love to watch the lightning as it streaks across the sky in glorious flames ripe with passion and promise. I love to stand in the sound and fury of the storm with the rain washing over my skin, bathing my body in the freshness of sweet abandon. I love the drenching wetness and the cool calm as the raindrops gather to embrace me. I love the erotic slippery slide of every drip that caresses my cheek, slipping down and down and down to pool at my feet. I love to stand with arms stretched wide, reaching for the passion of nature's release, embracing the pure raw energy that crackles in the air, filling my senses with the smell of wet earth and ozone and satisfaction.

To Love ...or ...not To Love
"WAS SENT TO ME" To love is to share life together to build special plans just for two To work side by side and then smile with pride As one by one, dreams all come true To love is to help and encourage with smiles and sincere words of praise To take time to share to listen and care In tender, affectionate ways. To love is to have someone special one who you can always depend To be there through the years sharing laughter and tears As a partner, a lover, a friend. To love is to make special memories of moments you love to recall Of all the good things that sharing life brings Love is the greatest of all. I've learned the full meaning of sharing and caring and having my dreams all come true; I've learned the full meaning of being in love by being and loving with you. Would you send this to the one that you love? - or- You Dont Care That Much. "Please Comment"

On Being Fake.. (lame)
I HATE DRAMA, ITS COMPLETELY RETARDED AND A WASTE OF TIME AND UNNECESSARY AND SOMETIMES UNAVOIDABLE BUT... INTERNET DRAMA IS RIDICULOUS, I MEAN SERIOUSLY FIND SOMETHING ELSE TO DO WITH YOUR SPARE TIME INSTEAD OF SLANDERING OTHER PEOPLES NAMES. IM TIRED OF LITTLE JEALOUS GIRLS SPREADING RUMORS ABOUT ME BEING FAKE. IM TIRED OF GUYS WHO WANT TO SEE ME ON CAM AND WANT ME TO HAVE PHONE SEX WITH THEM OR GIVE THEIR PERVERTED ASSES THE TIME OF DAY WHEN THEY ARE COMPLETELY DISRESPECTING ME, WELL IM TIRED OF THEM SAYING "OH WELL YOU ARE A FAKE BITCH BECAUSE YOU WONT LET ME SEE YOU NAKED" OR "OH THEN YOUR FAKE SINCE YOU WONT GIVE IN TO MY PERVERTEDNESS" ITS LAME AND IM TIRED OF GIRLS ON FUBAR SENDING MY GUYS FRIENDS SHOUTS AND MESSAGES TELLING THEM THAT IM FAKE BECAUSE THEY ARE JEALOUS BECAUSE IM GETTING THEIR ATTENTION... WE ARE FRIENDS, IF YOU WANT THEM THAT BAD THEN HAVE THEM AND LEAVE ME OUT OF THE DRAMA AND KEEP MY NAME OUT OF YOUR MOUTH . hmm.. what else?! OH LAST BUT

Oh No Another Blog
so here is how its gonna be..I blog...very few read. I am done going out of my way. its that simple you talk to me or i don't bother. I am over it. the fine line between reality and internet has become fine and defined. the reality is I care more than I care to. Call me a fickle bitch or what not but it is what it is. If I ignore you, I don't want to talk to you. You have hurt me in some way. Otherwise I respond as soon as I see a message or alert. Do have a great weekend all that do read what I post. Even those of you that don't...see there is that caring...blah! Names on lists...some very cool people...some just there...some disappear? who knows I am done with my tantrum now.

Downraters & Haters Of Fubar
i've decided to make a blog and list all the members who downrate me. it's upto u if u want to go block them before they get to u or to just ignore them. i will rate them what they rate me and block them. feel free to keep coming back and checking my list. if u want to make people aware of your downraters too, leave a comment with their link and stating what they rated u ;o) so here goes ... · reconscout rated your photo a '1'! reconscout ___________ · I'M HER SPICE rated your photo a '1'! I'M HER SPICE and her girlfriend so she can't come and rate me lol butchbutgentle ____________ this level 27 prophet didn't downrate me, just left a comment on my page calling me a fat ass, very mature NOT, so he is now blocked DEMONS UNDER MY BED ____________

Contest Update! Week 4
Happy Sunday all! Ill make this short and sweet :D here are the standings as of 5am central time. 1st place ~ PebblesInAz - 1349 2cnd place ~ Misterfeet - 1292 3rd place ~ EZ 2 FU - 813 4th place ~ TheBully - 747 5th place ~ prettygreeneyes - 526 6th place ~ Kristen Victoria - 417 *************************************************** *************************************************** angeleyes - 330 dan727 - 280 Alice In Wonderland - 250 perfectly imperfect - 223 jiminycricket - 204 Mrs Robinson - 187 Twoforyou - 179 Joe - 165 bi-suzy - 162 punkin - 159 Captain Cooter - 152 Drew - 150 514xOr - 148 LaughinGgirL - 147 Papercut Kisses - 143 porch monkey 4 life - 142 Deity - 142 cubby - 142 theGSDlady - 142 Wonder Willa - 141 el crow - 141 Ms Mojito - 140 Havok35 - 139 the original broken angel - 131 Arkham - 126 wolfie - 125 Mistress Fallen From Grace - 121 superman231 - 120 Pe

Fingers Crossed It Is A Good One
Hi, i have my 2nd time infront of a photographer on tuesday. Im very nervous about it, normally hubby takes all my pics. Im doing a artistic nude shoot with another female who is a good friend which makes it better. Lots of nice arty pics with hr should be nice. I cant post new pics here til i level up..... Wish me luck. Kylie..x

Goodbye For Now.
Hello everyone! As some of you know I'm in the process of moving back to Florida. Because of that my internet bill will not be paid for this month. So I will be losing my connection either tomorrow or the following day. And after that I'll be moving down in about 6 weeks. I'm not sure how soon I'll have my connection back once I'm there.. it could be as soon as I move in or a couple months later. So I'm more or less writing this so when I finally get back I don't hear a lot of "omg where have you been??". If you want to keep in contact with me while I'm gone leave me your phone number and good times to call in a private message. ^.^ Though I can't promise I'll be able to. Alright.. I'll miss you guys. Well.. I'll miss some of you. XD Ja ne. Oyasumi! P.S. Large possibility of a lot of new pictures upon my return.

Military!
Well.. I have Finally Had to make the Biggest Decision Of my Life! I don't want to be the Big Loser, With Nothing going for me.. I'm Finding myself Fall into that Category.. And I'm not liking It.. A week ago, I was out in Lakewood, And Decided to Go To the Army Recruiters.. Well, There's Still a lot I have to do before I actually Can Join the Military.. I want to Make something of myself, and Show My Family I'm not a Pathetic Loser... I want to show Myself I can get Myself in a Better Life and Situation.. I know There is a War going on, But I need to do Something, and This way Will be the Only way for me to get over my Fear Of Guns.. And get me More Active.. Sorry if this Makes No Sense... But, That's How Confused I am right now! lol.. I don't know what to do! Please Help Me!

Move On
Sitting in the morning twilight, thoughts dancing through my head, I wonder what I have become, am I alive or already dead, the pain is always constant, the one thing that keeps me sane, it tells me that I'm breathing, it's real not just a dream, so much in life I've let slip past, never took the time to see, all that should matter most, is now so far away, I know my time draws near, it's a fate that I must face, standing alone without you, just when I need you most, how I wish it could be different, we had a whole new chance, to share our love together, not just online by chance, I feel inside you love me, never have I doubted it's true, I hope that all I've said and done, has proven my love for you, you will forever be with me, I'll carry you safe inside, and we will someday be as one, for true love never really dies, I hope these words you will remember, should they be the last I share with you, you have been my guiding light, showed me the way and gav

Meaning Of Flag Draped Coffin
Meaning of Flag Draped Coffin All Americans should be given this lesson. Those who think that America is an arrogant nation should really reconsider that thought. Our founding fathers used GOD's word and teachings to establish our Great Nation and I think it's high time Americans get re-educated about this Nation's history. Pass it along and be proud of the country we live in and even more proud of those who serve to protect our "GOD GIVEN" rights and freedoms. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I hope you take the time to read this..... To understand what the flag draped coffin really means..... Here is how to understand the flag that laid upon it and is surrendered to so many widows and widowers. Do you know that at military funerals, the 21-gun salute stands for the sum of the numbers in the year 1776? Have you ever noticed the honor guard pays meticulous attention to correctly folding the United States of Americ

Where Did Things Go Wrong?
It seems like it was only yesterday when I held you in my arms, free from any pain, Safe from any harm. I loved you with all my heart, and I hoped you'd be my wife, you took what was once a shell of a man, and brought me back to life. But life can be funny, like some kind of strange game, and when you walked out on me, life was just never the same. I don't know who's fault it is, whether it was yours or it was mine, I really don't want to know, I don't want to cross that line. I wish I knew what happened, why did things have to change? life for me without you seems a little strange. Now no-one ever said life would be fair, and yet still every time I turn around I hope that you are there.

Birthday
I was lying naked on my bed, all my toys within reach, all alone, complete solitude, and ready to play my evening away. I started with just running my hands all over my body. I loved the feel of my skin, it’s always been so soft, and with each erogenous zone I passed I reacted with shivers. I lingered on my breasts, pulling and pinching my nipples, bringing them to attention, like little pebbles. I stopped to take a picture with the digital camera of how hard they were. This is something I often did while playing, and it always got me hot. It was like someone could see what I was doing. Then I picked up my silver nipple clamps, and placed one on each nipple, with the delicate chain dangling between my breasts. These didn’t hurt, but caused me to feel constant pressure on my nipples, which in turn had a direct effect on my pussy. I knew without even touching it was wet, as nipple play always brought on instant wetness. I reached down and glided my fingers along the outer lips of my puss

Cybersex (lmfao This Is Funny)
Online computer users often engage in what is affectionately known as "Cybersex". Often the fantasies typed into keyboards and shared through Internet phone lines get pretty raunchy. However, as you'll see below, one of the two cyber-surfers in the following transcript of an online chat doesn't seem to quite get the point of Cybersex. Then again, maybe he does.... Wellhung: Hello, Sweetheart. What do you look like? Sweetheart: I am wearing a red silk blouse, a miniskirt and high heels. I work out every day, I'm toned and perfect. My measurements are 36-24-36. What do you look like? Wellhung: I'm 6'3" and about 250 pounds. I wear glasses and I have on a pair of blue sweat pants I just bought from Wal-Mart. I'm also wearing a T-shirt with a few spots of barbecue sauce on it from dinner. It's smells funny. Sweetheart: I want you! Would you like to screw me? Wellhung: OK Sweetheart: We're in my bedroom. There's soft music playing on the stereo and candles on my dresser an

In Memory Of Sts-107 Columbia
The Columbia STS-107 mission lifted off on January 16, 2003, for a 17-day science mission featuring numerous microgravity experiments. Upon reentering the atmosphere on February 1, 2003, the Columbia orbiter suffered a catastrophic failure due to a breach that occurred during launch when falling foam from the External Tank struck the Reinforced Carbon Carbon panels on the underside of the left wing. The orbiter and its seven crewmembers (Rick D. Husband, William C. McCool, David Brown, Laurel Blair Salton Clark, Michael P. Anderson, Ilan Ramon, and Kalpana Chawla) were lost approximately 15 minutes before Columbia was scheduled to touch down at Kennedy Space Center. Today, the 5th Anniversary of that tragedy,I would like to dedicate this page to their memory. We will never forget you, our Columbia 7. Rear (L-R): David Brown, Laurel Clark, Michael Anderson, Ilan Ramon; Front (L-R): Rick Husband, Kalpana Chawla, William McCool. It is hard to read but the inscrption says: "

The Laundromat
It was an average night we always liked going to the laundromat at night it was usually dead at that time and we had free run of the place. So picking the machines you took the dark, I took the whites. Loading the cloths I noticed you have your play cloths in them garters thongs stockings. I started remembering the night before The fun we had Making Love over and over the playful bites and kisses. You glanced over at me and saw the grin I was wearing and you saw your things in my hands. You smiled saying be a good Boy. I laughed and we went back to doing the cloths. After loading the Machines we sat around talking and I leaned In to kiss you you looked so beautiful sitting there . I kissed you softly and you reached your hand around my neck pulling me closer to you. Biting my lip gently yet a light pain shot through me. You asked me what I had been grinning at I told you I was remembering our love making and it made me smile. You smiled and said to me Well we have never h

What The Fubar
I hate being up this early ever much less Saturday morning. Actually I should still be rollin and tweekin my ass off chained to some bed at an after party.......BEING THE AFTER PARTY. So far this weekend has sucked. I did have the dream about the stalker again last night. Damn he is a presently little fucker......I like that in a guy, especially in a STALKER. Some how now he has a key to my house, the alarm code. One part in my dream last night he found my 2 stun guns. What do you think he has planned with those now? What would you do with them? Would you like be go through my room when I wasn't home? What is the number one thing you'd hope to find? Luv u Ta

Fate
Fate. What exactly is it and does it exist? Is there a certain power that holds our future in its hands, manipulating us like chess pieces, and determining whether its check or mate? Is there a path that leads us to a certain destination that was preassigned to us by stars or something else the day we are born? Or maybe it is ourselves and the circumstances that things happen under that determine our outcome? Here is a scenario: a young 18 year old man slams his car into a tree and dies in a fiery crash. Some may argue that this scenario was written in his unfortunately short book of life, and this was the last chapter. Others may say that his demise was brought on by himself, and if he wasnt speeding, or maybe drinking, or paid a little more attention to the road, he would have avoided the accident and continued enjoying his life. Then, if his life is spared, the first group may say that if he could have avoided that tree and stayed alive, it was his fate, and his book of life may

Crying
Why do guys always turn out like jerks? seriously i dont understand.. all they want is sex right.. but in order for a guy to really respect you and want to be with you for more than sex, you cant act like a whore.. but the only girls that get a lot of attention on here..DO! we have to show our tits... have nsfw pictures.. be "hot"... in order to get the guys attentions! and if youre skinny that helps.. so if you arent you have to show off those tits more so that they will notice you. the self esteem issues i have etc... its not like you understand.. but im sorry if YOU are going to be mad about me having to show myself. how about you tell me how to get their attention. over 1/2 the guys on here are just here cuz they want some or they are completely old and ugly and have never had anything in their life so the net is all they have. i just want to talk to someone who doesnt care that i have nsfw pictures and just wants to talk to me and get to know me.. and is my type of co

All About Steven
All About Steven Lots of people have asked what was Steven like, so I thought Id try and write down a few things. Steven was born in Germany and didn’t have the best start to life. He got stuck in the birth channel and several attempts by one of the junior doctors they realised that he couldn’t be born normally and Gail was rushed down to have an EC. Waiting outside the operating theatre seemed to be a lifetime, but eventually someone came out to announce I had a son and both mother and baby were doing fine. Again I had another wait till they cleaned both of them up. Gail was groggy when I went to see her but pleased that she give me my first son, although she told me I had to go and see the sister as there was some concern over his foot. The reason Steven was stuck during birth was one of his feet had been stuck in a rip. There was a slight deformity of the foot but we were reassured, it was nothing to worry about. Every day I visited the hospital even though it was a round 3hrs

What Is This All About?
I don't know if I give off bad impressions or not, but I'm beginning to notice a pattern here! It seems that I think people are gonna be in my life for a long time, I meet these people, we have fun, and then they don't talk to me anymore. And the sad part is NONE of them tell me what it is all about! What am I, cursed or something? I bring this up because in an entry I did over the weekend ("Going Above And Beyond The Call Of Friendship"), I talked about someone whom I was at the time calling a new best friend. Now she seems to have just become another statistic in that regard with me...not something I wanted or am happy with. In the past several months, I have met a number of people from this site, we'd hang out, have fun (or so I am led to believe)...nuff said! Now the majority of people that I have met, people who said they would NEVER want to lose my friendship, don't seem to wanna talk to me anymore, not even here, and for the life of me, I don't understand it! Why? W

I Am Nothing
i realized that i am nothing and am worthless. no matter what i do its not worth squat. i walk thru this life alone and empty. everytime i speak no one listens or takes the time to hear what i have to say. i feel i am destined to follow a path of darkness with no light to guide me. no one cares and no one ever will all i am is a worthless shell with no soul and no matter of thoughts and feelings. i feel i will do the world a favor and just stop existing and everybody will be happy. i have nothing to lose and nothing to gain. all i feel is eternal pain and misery and i guess that is what i deserve.

02-06-08 (blurred)
February 6, 2008 As though he appear from nowhere, from out of the darkness he whisked in ... His presents felt as though it were impact of a blow from a falling cinder block. For his attentions were - for the first time in her fuzzy thoughts -- clear. Although still burred with apprehension ...

Tag! You're It! :)
So here's how it works: Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird or random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose at least 5 people to be tagged, listing their names. Don't forget to leave a comment that says, "You're it!" on their profile and ask them to read your blog. You can't tag the person who tagged you. 1. im allways worrying 2. i haveint eat sold food in 7 years 3. i hate number 4 and 13 4. I feel im a werdo 5. I cant stop bying cds 6. I hate being alone 7. I miss my x even no i hate her 8. I hate fubar 9. I think people put up with me 10 I am in love with sumeone on my frends list they dont see it and i dont no how to fix it

Cool Bunch Of Peeps :)
I have been on Fu-bar for well over a year. I have met alot of cool people here. Alot of them have became friends with my wife as well. I finally got my wife to join last Nov. This is a very good thing.. it has helped her to come out of the shell she went into after she got sick. LOL now I have me a Fu-aholic lol. The friends that I have made here are good friends. I am very thankful to have met them and have them in my life. Thanks all!! :D

Why Why Why
Ok, here's the situation. I ask a friend of mine to set me up with this girl here in town. All our mutual friends are saying, you two would be good for each other. I have the inside track on everything. Her roommate tells me,"she says that you 'fit' her", and "she finds herself thinking of you at work". We hang out a few times. The first time, I'm up front and honest about everything. "Hey, i like you, I think we should go out". I find out the next day, she doesn't like direct and forward guys. So I'm thinking ok, i'll back off. so we hang out again, and I back off, but she steps up. By the end of the end of the night we're hand-in-hand, and kissing. So I ask her out on our first offical date. The night comes around. I stop at the store, and buy her a flower. I pick her up from her house, I lean in for a kiss. She puts her hand over my mouth and says "I'm being stubborn". (Oh Boy!! here we go). We go to the car and I open her door. The second her ass hits the seat

My Best Friend Brandi
On November 3, 2003 I lost my best friend because her own father killed her. He walked into her and her husbands home shot her husband, then her and went to his own home and killed himself. No explanation just did it! Her own father! Do you think she would have let him in that day knowing he was going to kill her? No I think not, so before people start blaming Sporks for being involved think about what you are saying.....we aren't mind readers we never know what's going to happen because we think we know someone.

10 Things About Me ......... Hmmmm...
Instructions...... Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird or random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose at least 5 people to be tagged, listing their names . Don't forget to leave a comment that says, "You're it!" on their profile and ask them to read your blog. You can't tag the person who tagged you. This is really hard.... so i'll try to get 10... if not.. f that.. you'll get what you get. :) 1. I'm friggin obsessed with my kids (weird.. maybe) But..okay... they are the best. 2.Where the f to begin?? Let's start with my habits. I'm a creature of habit..so don't f up my schedule in anyway whatsoever or my day will be screwed up, and someone is gonna pay for it. *big ass smile* 3. I'm completely obsessed with Football...from Thursday night... to Monday night!! Doesn't matter who's playing...you can't make plans with me during football season! Okay...I may squeeze you in if it's worth my time! *wink* 4.

Survey Says
100 questions 1. What time do you get up in the mornings? 5 am on days and 5 pm on nights 2. Have you ever had a one night stand? Yepper depper 3. How do you take your coffee? I dont drink coffee...it taste like beaver piss 5. Do you eat breakfast? Sometimes 7. Do you prefer sleeping alone? yep..im a loner by nature. I do alot of stuff alone and love it. I make myself laugh, so im cool. 8. Do you smoke cigarettes? negative 9. Have you ever burnt your hair? nope..im not fucking micheal jackson 10. Do you sleep with a pillow? Yes 11. What were your habits as a child? i have a slight ocd problem with some things..haha 12. Do you want kids? dont want anymore..gonna go get snipped really soon 13. Are you an only child? hell no..1 sis and 5 bros 14. Do you like road trips? i love em.. 15. Who are your 6 best friends? not sure 16. Do you brush your teeth in the shower? i have 17. Do you eat leftovers? Yes 18. Do you prefer being s

It Can Happen To Anyone!
This bulletin is going around about spousal abuse and domestic violence and I felt compelled to share a little of my story with you. I am not going to get into details because well, there's just too much. BUT IT CAN HAPPEN TO ANYONE AND HAS HAPPENED TO ME. I spent ten years married to a MANIAC. He sought help from time to time so like a "good wife" I stuck around. This was last February, 2007. He is currently incarcerated for trying to kill me that night. I am not asking you to repost this bulletin or to have pity on me. You don't have to "awwww" or tell me how sorry you are. But if you know someone who is a victim, stand by their side and support them. Let them know how important they are to you and how much more they deserve for themselves. They won't get help til they are ready but it will help to know there are people that care. xoxo PebblesinAZ Think its OK to boss a girl around? Slap her around a few times and teach her a lesson? She'

Oh My God...
let me tell you what i have finally realized today... so bj's 'baby' conner was born on dec 28th, and he told me he cheated on me the night i left him last january, which he showed up 6 hours later and talked me to going back home with him to wv. if that was so, the baby would have been born in sept or oct, right? so for this baby to be his, so he says, he would have had to sleep with her in feb or march, in which i was there, in wv, with him, married, living as married, doing the married thing... so i was there, he was fucking some little 18 year old wv hillbilly bitch, and i know her. she has been to my house with her mother. looked me in the face, gd... and on top of that, i talked to bj's cousin for about an hour today. yeah the whole damn town knew what was going on, him running around on me, knocking her up, and him abusing me worse to get me to leave (so i think)... now he is down here, supposedly to get his taxes done with me. that never happened, and he ripp

Security Officer
PLEASE WELCOME DJ_TEXASCOYOTEMIKE AS OUR NEW SECURITY OFFICER FOR THE GIT-R-DONE REBEL BOMB SQUAD IF YOU DO NOT KNOW HIM PLEASE GO AND INTRODUCE YOUR SELF DJ_TEXASCOYOTEMIKE ~GIT-R-DONE REBEL FAMILY ~'OWNER OF REBELS BAR@ fubar

It Never Ends Does It?
omg, i don't think i will make it through the remainder of this day, which is not long, without totally unleashing all my fury onto somebody or something... i have been dating around here and there with someone i met off fubar, thought we were really good friends... i logged onto my myspace to check my mail there and accept some friend requests and low and behold there was a message from some girl i didn't know saying on the subject line "there is something you should know" omg, of course i had to check it out, even though it was probably a 'myspace virus', i just gotta know (sorry mom)(no it wasn't a virus) the email stated that this person (who shall remain nameless at this time seeing he is on fubar) has a 2 month old son, and pushed her and the baby out of his apartment... saying that he is trying to sign over his rights, blah blah blah so i confronted him about it, just thought for some insane reason that this shit was untrue... yeah right, lmao he said it was a

I Might Be Getting Rid Of Fubar.....
I DUNNO, IM JUST TIRED OF BEING PATHETIC AND HAVING TO MEET GUYS ONLINE CAUSE I CAN'T GET ANY IN REAL LIFE. PLUS I JUST HAD A GUY RATE ALOT OF MY PICS A ONE AND LEAVE A BAD PIC COMMENT. BUT YEAH, JUST WANTED TO LET PEOPLE KNOW THAT I'LL PROBABLY GET RID OF FUBAR BY THE END OF THE WEEK. HERE'S MY PAGE IF U WANNA SAY GOOD-BYE OR WHATEVER.... Tennisgirl1987 -- 2nd Alarm Hotties Member.... PLEASE READ MY PROFILE!!!@ fubar

Advice Please
During my nightly meditation last night , a strange thing happened. Instead of the normal rambleings of my head , a strange apparition continously blocked all other thoughts. It began as a streak of purple that slowly took form into an eye. Not human, more of a beast. Normally if this happens I invoke a circle of light, helping to get rid of anything negative. When I tried this I got the feeling that i was being laughed at, disgustingly. The shape never took full form, or I just couldnt see it clearly. It was as if it was only inches from my face. I could hear it breath, and feel the breath upon my face. It felt as if this thing was playing with me, taunting me to get rid of it. In the end, all I could do was sit up and look around, even had to get up and move around to rid myself of the feeling of being watched. Any Ideas of what this was?

Tagged
Instructions...... Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird or random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose at least 5 people to be tagged, listing their names . Don't forget to leave a comment that says, "You're it!" on their profile and ask them to read your blog. You can't tag the person who tagged you. 1. I was in a bad car accident this weekend, and spent the weekend in the hospital.. is that random enough? 2. I'm a medical scientist, and i talk to my animals. 3. I have played every known sport at one time or another. 4. I have been kicked out too many sporting events because I was too obnoxious (imagine that, me obnoxious!?!?!?). 5. I want to live by myself in the mountains...somewhere, anywhere. 6. I love driving in the snow, unless I'm about to get hit by a drunk driver. 7. Yes, I smoke... sue me. 8. I almost got married once... glad I didn't. 9. I'm going to go back to medical school to be an E

We're Getting Married
YES THATS RIGHT,NO YOU ARE NOT ON THE WRONG PAGE,I'AM TO WED THE MAN I LOVE ON THURSDAY FEB 14,2008 AT 2:00P.M TO ALL MY TRUE FRIENDS THANK YOU FOR YOUR LOVE AND SUPPORT FOR THOSE OF YOU THAT DON'T LIKE THIS IN SOME WAY PLEASE FEEL FREE TO REMOVE YOURSELF.KRIS

Tagged By Soul
I will try to write 10 things about me ok?? 1.- I´m a Gemini 2.- I have a 22 year old son 3.- I like chocolate 4.- I ADORE music 5.- I love movies too.. 6.- I like dancing 7.- I love my friends..and they can count on me always.. 8.- I am mexican 9.- I don´t like cameras..(in fact, I hate them!!LOL) 10.- I especially hate talking about myself..LOL

New Recruits
ANY NEW RECRUITS HAVE TO COME TO THE HOMEPAGE TO BE ADDED. THEY CANNOT HAVE ANY MEMBERS BLOCKED AND THEY MUST HAVE A SALUTE POSTED. IF YOU HAVE NEW MEMBERS TO ADD PLEASE LET THEM KNOW THESE THINGS. AND LET ME KNOW WHO THEY ARE. I HAVE 3 NEW RECRUITS MYSELF..PLEASE ADD THEM AND WELCOME THEM TO THE FAMILY...TY:)STUPID~GIT-R-DONE-REBELS BOMB SQUAD@ fubarzach~GIT-R-DONE REBEL FAMILY BOMBSQUAD~'@ fubarhellsprince HUSBAND OF TAMMY TAMSTER92574~GIT-R-DONE REBEL FAMILY BOMBSQUAD~@ fubar

Cooch Gets Car Insurance
I've been out of the loop the past 5 days. Cold and flu symptoms....really brought me to a stand still. I've done nothing but sleep and try to recoup. I was doing better. Then yesterday I got the bill from my December foray to the ER with my toe incident. After reading the bill and the letter accompanying it, I felt sicker when I saw the bill, but started laughing when I read the letter. The bill explains why health care is so expensive in the US. A broken toe has cost me a grand total of $779. The breakdown of these charges help explain the insanity of it all....or so the hospital would like to make it seem. Post Op Show or Cast Show 79.00 ER Level III Care 296.00 Xray of ONE toe 225.00 Pain shot-non narcotic 82.00 Cost of nurse to give me injection 27.00 Pulse Ox (apparently tells them I am alive) 54.00 U

Sick
will it never seems like i can get good news when i go to the dr's offices. 2 weeks ago after i did a MRI on my neck, shoulders and arms and hands ( couldnt use my arms or hands after surgery in OCT) the results were i hav bkundging disk in my nack and hav a hernia from the colon cancer i had in 06. I had ptscan last week and the rusult was i still hav cancer cells in my lungs on both sides and there were many. they told me i will be doing chemo for the rest of my life. they can not remove it all so they are going to try and contain what i hav from spreading again. i will and cant work again while i am in the army and most likely for a very long time after that. apply for SSI and they told me it will be 5 months be4 i get approve if i even get approved. The army is stil working on getting me out on a medical retirement and thats gonna take 4 to 6 months.

I'm Going To Be In An Auction...
For the first time in my fu-life, i'm going to be in a Auction. I'm a little nerveous, cause i don't even know if anybody would give a damn about owning lil ole me? But here's what i'll do for you if you own me. i will rate all photos and stash with 11's give them a personal salute to whoever owns me i'll put up their photo on my page saying this person owns me for a month i'll also put their name in an "owned name" for a month add them to my family (if you ain't already) if you already are a part of my family, i'll do something more special to show my thanks. i will also make 1 or 2 personal effects on a picture of yours each week. last but not least i'll personally crush them. Do you think it's even worth my time and effort, or should i just not even do it? Is it fun? Is it a heartache? Give me the lowdown before i dive in head first? Should i offer more to give a lil more incentive to vote for me? Oh woah is me hehehe

Well Whatever
so you know i have been having all kinds of problems, especially with my ex bf and soon to be ex hubby.... here's an update on the ex bf situation, lmao I broke up with craig when one of his best friends called me and let me know he was screwing his ex down in myrtle beach, yada yada yada... and everyonce in a while he talks me into seeing him... he told me he wanted to take me to gatlinburg, tn, for valentine's day... then it got pushed to the weekend, and i never really committed to going, just kinda kept avoiding the subject cause i was a little torn about it. well seeing as he is not my bf anymore, of course i went out a few times... last night too. he called while i was getting ready and said that he decided not to work all night and to hang out with me, i told him i had other plans, and he asked what then i told him i had a date... that i couldn't lie like he does (and i was hoping it would push him away... thought it was working there for a while) oh he flew off the

Contest Thru March 1st Please Help!!!!
COME HELP MARI WIN!!! RATE & COMMENT BOMB! Hey y'all i'm in a contest (My girl Jamma is in the same one so show her some love too!) so stop by and rate me & leave comments pretty please!!!!! Thanks so much! Here's the link:Mari Please take a few minutes of your valuable time and help me win! My birthday is next Sunday the 24th & I'd love to finally be in the lead as a birthday gift. Thanks for reading!

How I Try Not To Suck In Bed
I think women have no idea the pressures that befall a man when it comes to sexual performance. Lets face it, men are fairly easy to please. Surround the penis with a preferred orifice, choke it till it spits, and you are the winner. But, as I have said before... The pussy is like a snowflake. No two are ever alike. Every time a guy sleeps with a new girl, its like a rubix cube that is shaped differently and has different colors than the last one. Women all have different kind of orgasms, and alot of guys have such a hard time finding the clitoris, some have mistook a pinky toe for one. It's a lot of fucking pressure pleasing a woman. Mainly because us men are fully aware that you will gossip to your friends about how bad we were, and chances are, we might want to fuck one of your friends too. In an effort to save every man from this humiliation and to help them score with his girlfriend's friends... Here is what I do to avoid sucking in bed. Rhythm- I get a song

Why You Should Smile In A Picture!!
OK, Here is the Question for you people. This guy wants his Money Back for the wedding Pictures because he says they didn't come out good. The photographer told him to smile but he didn't. So should he get his money back? If he would have listened and smiled... You would have been able to see him. Who's fault is it? The Photographer or the Tux getting Married :s

Help
i feel fat but yes i no iam not iam trying to gain the weight i lost back i was at 160 pounds but since i had alot of thigns happening my weight was lost very quickly and i was down to 120pounds i finaly got to be somewhere from 140 to 150 pounds i try the wieght gain shakes they dont help today i had 5 hotdogs with chile then i had 2 eggs with bacgan then i had a hambuger now iam eating a bowl of chile is ther anyway any one can think of gaining wegiht fast

Better Than Me By Hinder
I'd have sworn I wore this song out by now... I think you can do much better than me After all the lies that I made you believe Guilt kicks in and I start to see The edge of the bed Where your nightgown used to be I told myself I won't miss you But I remember What it feels like beside you I really miss your hair in my face And the way your innocence tastes And I think you should know this You deserve much better than me While looking through your old box of notes I found those pictures I took That you were looking for If there's one memory I don't want to lose That time at the mall You and me in the dressing room I told myself I won't miss you But I remember What it feels like beside you I really miss your hair in my face And the way your innocence tastes And I think you should know this You deserve much better than me The bed I'm lying in is getting colder Wish I never would've said it's over And I can't pretend... I won't think about you when I'm old

Death
this morning at 2am my lil cat die he or she was in bad health we could hear its lil body begen to cough i was hopeing it be diffrent from the other 3 that did die i was wrong i did everything i could think of the wose part was i was thinking of killing it be crushing its lil head in so it could pass quickly no more suffering but my heart could not do it so i jsut sit there helplys watching waiting i took the lil kitten and put it on my shoulders and just peting it to let it no i do care and love it whats even more wose is i dont have my ex or my roomate to dig the grave i have to be the one and i dont think i can i was up half of the night jsut crying i dont think ill have any more animals ever again

Tagged
Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird or random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose at least 5 people to be tagged, listing their names . Don't forget to leave a comment that says, "You're it!" on their profile and ask them to read your blog. You can't tag the person who tagged you. I am not sure why I am actually doing this so you best appreciate. lol 10. I procrastinate terribly.. (I was tagged days ago) 9. Being late makes me feel physically ill. (yes you would think the two dont mix yet somehow they do) 8. I hate all tomatoe sauces yet love raw tomatoes. 7. I bite my lip or my lip ring pretty much constantly. 6. I was raised on a farm in Alabama until I was 5, yet still managed to overcome it and become a dorky little street punk by the age of 9. 5. i am terrified beyond reason of needles, yet addicted to piercings. 4. I have actually published poetry and sold my own paintings though I no longer paint o

I Am Always Considered A Stripper By Appearance Rather Than Who I Really Am.
I posted a mumm, regarding a higher job position in a law firm in Vegas and almost everyone that commented the mumm thought I was a stripper...because I didnt mentioned the type of job position. I didnt mentioned the job position just too see how shallow-minded some people are when they go by first appearances...and just because I look the way I look everyone thinks I must strip for a living like I never went to college or have a real profession...and I see it being done to so many women which is sad cause women are stereo-typed too much and that really sucks. I never worked in a strip club and never will. I worked at Hooters when I went to college...to help pay my tuition for college...but now I work as a paralegal and even now I get mistaken for a stripper or worse a porn star...at first I took it as a compliment cause it show that I had the looks and body for it but now it's gotten way out of hand...and no one seems to have any respect...and treat me like a Im not a woman but a s

Man If This Isn't Some Fuckin Irony
This is the FAKEST Bitch I know... although she has salutes and shit.. she is a FAKE friend.. and she owes my friend money for a plane ticket.. Now correct me if I'm wrong but isn't this cunt stain pretty fake herself using pics from 10 years ago and what not? Yeah.. you just got served bitch.

Act 1
Insired By This Song Please Play... He Starts: Warm and gentle is my hand, holding close to neverland You can feel me on your thighs. reaching for your sweet surprise. It's the way you bat your eyes that keeps me looking mezmorized I'm so glad you took it there, Cause I got nasty things to share. Her Response, Shhhh....let me stop you right there I can take you anywhere... got me throbbin all inside, looking for that long ride.. to your spot so nice and slow, long and wide I'll lick it. so don't think that you're all by yourself, Cause I can freak like no one else. He Says: Show me all that you can do, afterwards I'll show you too. Let me rub your shoulders down, while I take you around the town Elevator, 3rd floor, up behind your bosses door. we can always take the stairs, or just use your working chair.. She says: See, that's what I'm talkin bout. Makin plans then work it out. We don't have to hide the truth,

A Letter To My Daughter
There is soo many things i never got to tell you. Things i would've loved to share with you when you got older. You were the best thing to ever happen to me. Everyday you lit up my world. You never knew it but you saved my life. You were my reason to live everyday i woke up and seen your smile i knew all the struggles were worth it. i would give my life to see your smile one last time you gave me a reason to live a reason to smile and most importantly a reason to love again. everytime i heard you call me daddy my heart was touched cause i knew in my heart you were the only thing that mattered i wish you got to meet your mother. i miss you every single day i think about you everyday i dont get to visit your grave as much as id like to. but i miss you more than anything in this world. i wish it was me who got cancer and not you. i wish i had died and you had lived. i know you see me everyday and your up there watching me i know you wouldnt want me to hurt like i do but i cant stop the p

A Most Unique Spotlight..
So I was thinking its about time to see a fresh face in the spotlight and I'm thinkin this one bird would be great I'm talking about O'rly how about we help him out and get him into the spotlight just click his link and donate some fubucks! Hopefully it won't be long from now when we see an owl in spotlight. And I couldn't agree more...lol Orly? The Official FUBAR Owl ~@ fubar This creation that was way too awesome not to be blogged made by: ~*~Princess Pink®™'~*~Fu Owned By ReNeGaDe@ fubar

The First
You were the first to make me blush at the thought of your gaze on the back of my neck Tried not to turn, did my best at that sassy I don't know you're looking game You were the first who made me forget what to do with my hands They moved of their own accord, twisting and turning in loss and in need You were the first to kiss me We fell over that chair and I wondered if I was doing it right Took another long gulp from the bottle You were the first I traveled to find And the first to make me grovel The first time we took it further than the kiss you'd already found tired Has colored the firsts with all others after You were first a great friend, then a first lover Soon to be the first to leave me for another You were the first friend made lover, lover made friend The first in that line of full circles A list of firsts to pull my memories behind You are the first piece of news I hear of today Your death caught in my throat and sits there still This the

Circle Of Friends......
WE LAUGH AND JOKE, WE CRY AND HOPE. WE SING AND DANCE, WE SEARCH FOR ROMANCE. WE HAVE HEARD THE RUMORS AND LIES, WE FEEL FOR EACH OTHER INSIDE. WE WATCH AS PEOPLE COME AND GO, WE HELP EACH OTHER TO GROW. WE HAVE A DIFFERENT SET OF BELIEFS, WE SEE EACH OTHER THROUGH OUR GRIEFS. WE KNOW OTHERS CAN NEVER UNDERSTAND, THAT WE ARE A SPECIAL CIRCLE OF FRIENDS.

Whatz's Up Babes From Biker Brat
THERE ARE ALOT OF PEOPLE I WOULD LIKE TO THANK FOR THERE SUPPORT DURING THIS TIME IN MY LIFE. THESE PEOPLE KNOW WHO THEY ARE AND I LOVE THEM WITH ALL MY HEART. I JUST HAVE ONE THING TO ASK DON'T PITTY OR FEEL SORRY FOR ME I DON'T NEED IT I AM STILL ME AND ALL I WANT IS YOU TO KEEP FUCKIN ROCKIN AND TREAT ME THE SAME WAY YOU ALWAYS HAVE. NO MATTER THE OUT COME KEEP IT REAL AND AND HOLD ON TO THE MOMMENTS THAT LAST. OX ^5333333333333333 ^5333333333/444444444444

Break Time.. Kinda
To those that read this... I'm probably gonna be fairly quiet on Fubar for a bit.. just losing the desire (and time constraints) to continually rate, comment, etc.. also breaking from the occasional drama that occurs.. It doesn't mean thoughts aren't appreciated, or that I won't be checking in.. just that I may not respond to everything.. just too much going on.. and I know my level probably isn't gonna get past where it is... so there's no use point collecting.. Just know that y'all are appreciated and in mind, even if I don't express it

Mommy Dearest
My mom locked herself inside a running car once. Don't ask me how; she doesn't even know. All I know is that I got a call from my mother right around lunch time to let me know she was going out to eat with a colleague. Next thing I know, it's 3:30 and mom is NOWHERE to be found. She didn't answer her cell phone, she wasn't in court. She wasn't in the office. Her appointments were lined up in the lobby. I wasn't exactly worried, because I figured she couldn't get into too much trouble, since they only went across the street for lunch. She comes walking into the office around 4, giggling and talking on her cell phone. My first thought was "DON'T want to know". She comes into our office and tells me that she and her friend Liz were locked inside the car for the past 2 hours. Yeah...INSIDE the car...while it was running. All she could tell me was that they couldn't figure out the locking mechanism on the door. At least she wasn't kidnapped by the Chinese Mafia.

My Girlfriend: The Terrorist
I know other fuckers have done this before me, but let's be honest I'm way funnier than that twat that wrote "Men are from Mars; Women are from Venus". This will get me hate mail, but I can laugh at cause it's true - this is some funny ass shit. If you don't like this: you're wrong. Guys vs. Girls. Girls are smarter, no doubt. Guys want sex...so what. Fuck it. Do you think girls have boobs to feed babies? Nope, it's to get guys to bone them. See - a guy's brain is like a guided missile. It's consistent, it's direct, easy to figure out, and its sol existence is to dump its pay load in the enemy's hideout. A girl's brain is like a cluster bomb. It's all over the fucking place. Unless you understand the laws surrounding probability, you can never hope to predict what will happen, other than knowing it will randomly blow up. Girls think like terrorists. I'm scared of what they might say and do. Girls don't ask questions the same way guys do. A guy will say "Do yo

Honor
Honor Is One Of The Biggest Words That The Dictionary Has In It. Or Should I Say Carries One Of The Biggest Meanings To Me. It Is One Of The Things We Have That No One Can Take From Us But Ourselves. It Defines Who I I'm As A Human Being. I Live And Die By My Honor. I Would Rather Be Hated For Who I I'm . Then Loved For Who I I'm Not. Treasure This Gift That Is Ours Because We Are The Only Ones That Can Take It From Us.

Letter To A Friend
Dear friend, hey there how are u hows life been treating u.Just want u to know im happy to have u as a friend.You make me laugh when others make me cry,u pick me uwhen others knock me down,your my voice when im voiceless,the shoulder i can lean on when i feel weak.Your what a friend is supposed to be a true friend a friend for life a friend who does and doesnt just talk you show your friendship by doing. So with that said i wanna thank u for being a friend and to me a friend u will always be.I dedicate this to all my friends new and old near and far and to all the friends i have yet to make.

Its My Birthday Tomorrow
IS IT IMPORTANT HOW MUCH GIFTS YOU GOT(DRINKS)...NO IT IS NOT IS IT IMPORTANT TO KISS MY FEET...NO IT IS NOT IS IT IMPORTANT TO HAVE SOME GOOD FRIENDS...YES IT IS IS IT IMPORTANT TO HAVE A GREAT FUNNY CHAT ...YES IT IS ITS MY BIRTHDAY TOMORROW SO I INVITE YOU ALL TO THE MILE HIGH CLUB ...TO HAVE A LAUGH AND A DRINK... LISTEN TOO THE MUSIC AND ENJOY YOUR STAY .... SO PUSH THE BANNER BELOW AND SUBSCRIBE TO THE LOUNGE.... ADRENALINE RADIO 24/7...PUSH THE BUTTON BELOW THE RADIO AND A DJ WILL TAKE YOU CALL..... AND WE GOT THE BEST CREW YOU CAN IMAGING ...SO WERE YOU WAITING FOR JOIN USE THE BEST LOUNGE ON FUBAR XXXX THIS BULLETIN IS BROUGHT TO YOU BY HENNIE AKA SHAUNY32 OWNER OF THE MILE HIGH CLUB..

Congratulations Counrty Girl
TAG CREATED BY CHIEF DONNIE CHIEF DONNIE AND I WOULD LIKE TO TAKE THIS TIME TO PRESENT TO YOU OUR SECOND MEMBER OF THE MONTH ¢¾CONGRATULATIONS COUNTRY GIRLS LOVE COUNTRY BOYS¢¾ FAMILY LETS SHOWER OUR MEMBER OF THE MONTH WITH LOVE , SHE HAS GONE ABOVE AND BEYOND TO SHOW THE N.A.P. LOVE EVEN THOUGH SOME OF US HAVE NOT YET MADE IT BACK TO HER PAGE , SHE IS OUR SECOND MEMBER. WE DID NOT HAVE MUCH OG AN OUTCOME FOR THE FIRST ONE SO FAMILY PLEASE LETS DO OUR BEST TO SHOW OUR LOVE AS WE WOULD HOPE FOR THE SAME IF IT WAS OUR MONTH . ¢¾Country Girls love Country Boys¢¾NAP Family¢¾Heart of Fires Fu¢¾Angels¢¾@ fubar COUNTRY GIRL DONT FORGET TO GET WITH DONNIE AND MYSELF FOR YOURE TAGS AND I WILL MAKE YOUR MORPH OF WHAT EVER YOU WANT .FAMILY LETS SHOW COUNTRY GIRL WHAT N.A.P. LOVE IS ALL ABOUT

Uh?.hellooooo?????
I was on vacation in November, 2007...i met someone the 2nd to last day of my vacation, but did see him before i went home....... of course after a considerable amount of time, he was forgotten and the high wore off.... THEN?...in February, 2008, he sends me a "card" indicating he is "..thinking of me..".... .who does this sort of thing?..someone who just brok up with his gf or someone looking for sumthing on the side??????????..OR are guys just really that slow? wondering what i should do about THIS one...

Sad Sad News
ummmm where to start. i am writing this with a heavy heart as my husband has passed away. no i am not jokin it is the truth. he had surgery yesterday and had a hard time in recovery but they still let him come home. and today he took his pain meds and layed down and never woke up. i tried to bring him back and so did the paramedics and the dr's at the hospital but it was to late he had been down for to long. i will be leavin his account open till the end of the month then i will delete it but i will still be here. goin to end this now thanks for readin this i guess i just don't know what to do right now. thanks berta lynn 13's wife

Face Eater!
he's my dog ♥ best nickname ever ♥ anywhoooo muttboy decided to eat a whole freakin' pack of gum today. bubblegum dog farts aren't as pleasing as you'd think is it bad when a dog rips one, wakes himself up, and has to leave the room? chyeah r a n c i d!

Ok Here It Is... Bold And In Your Face
i have been learning alot these last few weeks or so...so here i am laying it all out for my friends and others who happen try stay along , i hope my words find a peace that resonates in them... i am not a crusader, i am not trying to make a point, i struggle each day, with everday life... i find comfort in music and poetry and music... here are some of my personal experiences... i am prior service,,, that means yes i know what guns are, i can break down, clean, put back together , , reload, and fire w not heart burn...i have faced the fact that uncle sam has little or no value to my life, therefore i have to hold it in high value or esteem, it come down to how much do i value my life abouve them.. I worked with many a vet, and my heart pours out more for them as each one crosses my path, to see a hugh kind heated man or woman who was used for uncle sams own needs... yes i portary a dark hearted person in my pics, simply because i do not fear my own darkness, and j

Last Words
Is it normal to have to always have the last word in everything? My life might just be a whole lot simpler if I weren't so damn stubborn. I loathe being wrong. It happens, more than I'd like, or even like to admit, but I'm not perfect. I think I lack the correct wiring path in my brain that adheres to the logical little voice in my head. I think she's called "Reason". This voice tells me to shut my freakin' mouth. Usually, she's about .5 seconds too late with the command. And, usually, I'm left with having to either spit my foot out of my mouth before I can continue the conversation, or I have to apologize all over the place for whatever moronic misformed thought that just fell from my lips. I don't know if the wiring thing is a lack of motor skills, or some social retardation left over from spending my formative years virtually alone. Either way, unless I'm completely comfortable in the situation or with the person, I stutter. Not terribly, mind you, but it's still some

Support In Tough Times
THANK YOU TO ALL MY WONDERFUL FRIENDS ON FUBAR IN A VERY TOUGH TIME,I DEEPLY APPRECIATE ALL THE SUPPORT.ILL TELL YOU IT IS VERY HARD TO BURY ONE OF YOUR KIDS IT JUST ISNT RIGHT NOT NORMAL.EVEN THOUGH HE WAS MY STEP-SON ( A PHRASE I HATE) CAUSE STEPS ARE MADE TO WALK ON.I RAISED HIM FROM THE AGE OF 6 UNTIL HE WAS ON HIS OWN.TO THE LAST TIME WE TALKED HE STILL CALLED ME DAD AFTER MY DIVORCE FROM HIS MOM SO THERE WAS A FATHER SON CONNECTION. AGAIN THANK YOU TO ALL......JIM

Wtf?!?!?!?!?!
WELL GOOD MORNING PPLZ! I HOPE UR SUNDAY STARTS OFF BETTER THEN MINE! IS IT JUST ME OR IS THERE SOME REALLY DUMB AZZ MEN ON THIS SITE? I SAY THIS BC THERE HAS BEEN THIS 1 MAN WHO I HAVE NEVER EVEN SPOKEN TOO THAT HAS CONSTANLY MESSAGED ME, NEVER BEING RUDE UNTIL THIS MORNING...SO I NEVER BLOCKED HIM JUST IGNORED HIM *lol* WELL THIS IS THE CONVO THIS MORNING... AFTER LEAVIN THE FIRST COMMENT...WHICH I DIDNT RESPOND TOO, HE WENT TO MY PICS IN WHICH I HAVE A PIC THAT STATES...DESCRIBE ME IN 1 WORD...THE WORD HE LEFT WAS "FUCKABLE" :| Don: I say such a shame if someones not benefiting from that sexy and seductive woman! Ch3rrY: wow did u have to leave such a rude comment :| Don: I am not the one sticking my tongue out baby what did you expect Don: thats whats wrong with women like you they tease and never please just a joke huh Don: may be rude to you but a woman would take that as a compliment Ch3rrY: women like me ??? my pics are sensual not sexual by any means...but u don

Don't Understand
Don’t Understand By: Deborah Boyd I just don’t understand Some people these days Who play with emotions In a heartless way They think you are blind Desperate and such To believe you’re naïve To realize so much You give them a chance To prove yourself wrong In hopes they are truthful So you can be strong But the gut feelings you get Are yet again there Telling you to be careful There is something to fear So trust in your heart Believe in yourself And life will go on Never doubt how you feel It will never lead you wrong.

New Rule**please Read----friendship Circle
ALL MEMBERS PLEASE READ! For the benefit of any new members I will repeat the ONE rule we have after you have fanned/ rated profiles/add a friends to all the other members. "The rating system is a MUST. When you join the Circle, any past problems with another member are to be left in the past. All members will rate the very MINIMUM of 30 rates (more stashes as they are not worth as much) per week. You may rate more days and more rates as you wish. You can even pick the days you want to rate. NO MEMBER IS TO BE SLIGHTED." I will repeat NO MEMBER WILL NOT BE RATED BECAUSE YOU DON'T LIKE THEM!! I am adding a new rule, THERE WILL BE NO BAD MOUTHING OTHER MEMBERS. We are all diverse, have different ideas and qualities. IF you have something to say you will come to one of the Founders and voice your complaints. We will mediate and try to solve whatever problems you have with the group. Almost all of you have been doing a great job and I am very proud of you, keep up the good wor

Christianity Is Good For Them
We don't need to justify being atheists any more than we need to justify eating and drinking; But the religious ones need to justify their irrational cause over and over and over and over and over..overrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr I find it amusing and painfully frustrating that those people are incapable of understanding what a fairy tale is. That is an ELEMENTARY thinking skill I dare say. Three year olds understand what a fairy tale is without sounding the alarm of concrete reasoning and logical attempt. Atheism is a necessity only so long as religions exist... and so long as religions exist, some of their members will inevitably become disillusioned by their bullshit and corruption, and become outspoken atheists P.S And I'm tired of being educated about Jesus Christ this and Christianity that - I don't even want to hear about it- I just wish it would go AWAY

Are You Not Concerned?
People on fubar, can I just point out that pedophiles are murderers and must be killed, much like those who take lives of innocent people? Just yesterday at lunch, one of my peers made the comment that pedophiles should all just be killed because there is not any way to cure them. It just amazes me that there are people who do not hold these opinions. I have no sympathy for men or women who are sexually attracted to kids. Most of us manage to keep our sexual desires within reasonable limits and don't force ourselves upon unwilling parties, especially someone as defenseless as a child. I can not help thinking that anyone that callous does not really deserve to live. To brutally trample over the wishes of another person, especially a defenseless child, takes a certain kind of person. I am sure you feel the same that such person should cease to live. In the end it just comes down to the degree of punishment that we think is appropriate, and I think killing them is appropriate...

Men Are Studs... Women Are Sluts
Have you ever been pissed about the fact that your brother or sister got away with shit your parents would bust your chops for? It pissed you off didn't it? Why should they get to do stuff you weren't allowed to do? The reason, is that your parents were assholes and applied a double standard. Well guess what, life is an asshole too, and if you are a lady, you are on the short end of a HUGE double standard. How come those jerk offs at bars can sleep with as many girls as they want and get nothing but pats on their backs from their buddies and even more girls to bang in the long run? How come if a girl does the same thing, she is hated by other girls and never taken seriously by guys? It sucks doesn't it? Well boo hoo for you because guess what ladies...its mostly your fucking fault There are real reasons for this double standard, and here they are. -Sex is a bigger deal to women than it is to men: The first time a woman has sex with a guy she feels like it is the start of so

Ass Sticking Problem
Authorities are considering charges in the bizarre case of a woman who sat on her boyfriend's toilet for two years — so long that her body was stuck to the seat by the time the boyfriend finally called police. Ness County Sheriff Bryan Whipple said it appeared the 35-year-old Ness City woman's skin had grown around the seat. She initially refused emergency medical services but was finally convinced by responders and her boyfriend that she needed to be checked out at a hospital. "We pried the toilet seat off with a pry bar and the seat went with her to the hospital," Whipple said. "The hospital removed it." Whipple said investigators planned to present their report Wednesday to the county attorney, who will determine whether any charges should be filed against the woman's 36-year-old boyfriend. "She was not glued. She was not tied. She was just physically stuck by her body," Whipple said. "It is hard to imagine. ... I still have a hard time imagining it myself." He t

Ugh! Help Me!!
My sophomore year I had a crush on a friend of mine. Well, I still had a crush on him into my junior year, his senior year. I never told him how he felt because he never seemed interested in my like that. Not to mention he was telling me about having a crush on another chick. He left and I never really thought anymore about him. Then out of nowhere he IMs me tonight and starts chatting with me like we were best friends. I haven't talked to him in ages. AND then he tells me that he has moved back to NC and is working in a nearby town. Now all of a sudden all of those "crush" feelings are coming back. UGH! I don't know if I should tell him or just forget about it. I leave NC in less than 5 months, so what's the point? UGH!! I don't know what to do!!! :( HELP ME!!!

Bombfest Tonight 3/12
We will once again have a 2 hour bombfest this Thursday evening from 8p - 10p central time or 9-11p Eastern time. THAT'S TONIGHT. Lets all try to SAVE OUR COMMENTS Thursday and show up for this thing. We don't want to get beat again. I expect every1 who can to show up for this please. It is a way to VIP one of our members in a 2 hour time period. And if we bomb hard and make it worth Earl's while he may do it more often for us. :-) Anybody else interested in doing that as well let me know and we can arrange it. It will cost you the 20 bucks to VIP someone and you would need to get other entrants besides us to make it worth your while to so it. If you are saving your comments for tonights BOMBFEST it would be a good day to rate family members pictures, stash, and blogs to help us all level faster. ***ALSO, we have been cleaning house of inactive members and still have more to go so we need to do some recruiting..lets try to each bring in 2 new members this week, who are level 5

Sexual Snacks
I have been hungry all day, waiting for you to bring me my snack giving me your feast in your special way, not one morsel of sweetness do you lack. You can be my cookie, submerge yourself in my milk, I will have you saying oh, sookie, sookie as you touch my skin that feels like silk. I find myself unwrapping your Mr. Goodbar, for a oh so sweet tempting treat, I like how its packed full of nuts, none compares by far, filling my cravings with each nut I eat. We have now each had a snack, we have ravished the rack of sweets, we just cured our daily sugar attack, now we just kiss and snuggle as our bodies meet. (c)MadCurves

We Never Met
I don't think we should talk anymore I'm falling way too fast My heart is oh so fragile As delicate as glass We need to face the fact We're never going to meet This "cyber love" is perfect But my heart's left in defeat We're seperated by miles And the oceans are too wide But I can't pretend I don't care My heart I cannot hide That's why I think we should stop Before this goes too far Because the last thing I need Is another break in my heart Don't take this the wrong way You did nothing wrong But I can't wait forever Because forever's too long And if you're reading this I hope you understand We can never be together Because I can't hold your hand Falling for you I don't regret It's just the fact We never met...

Bullshit Drama
IM THINKING OF LEAVING FUBAR CUZ OF ALL THE BULLSHIT DRAMA ON HERE. PEOPLE NOW A DAYS JUDGE PEOPLE BY THE OUTSIDE NOT THE INSIDE OF A PERSON. IM TIRED OF IT. IM A NICE PERSON ONCE U GET TO KNOW ME. I HATE IT WHEN SOMEONE GO BY MY LOOKS NOT WHAT ON THE INSIDE OF ME. IT JUST BULLSHIT WHEN PEOPLE DO THAT. AND WHEN THEY KNOW U R SINGE THEY R NICE TO U. AND U TELL THEM AT THAT POINT OF TIME U DONT WANT TO DATE ANYONE BUT IT MAY CHANGE WHEN TIME GO ON. WHEN THAT TIME COME AND U START SEE SOMEONE THAT OTHER PERSON GET ALL MAD ABOUT IT CUZ U DIDNT PICK THEM IT FUCKING BULLSHIT DRAMA.

A Special Place
A Special Place By: Deborah Boyd There is a place Where we all go A place in our minds Where our dreams may flow It may not be much But its ours to keep A place in our hearts Where we all seek It could be a pasture Filled with flowers and musk With rays of sunshine That soon turns to dusk It could be a mountain top Trees crested with snow Where Bambi and Thumper Just go with the flow It could be the ocean Where the Seagulls play The sounds of the tides Beckoning you to stay But no matter where it may be No matter the day All that is important Its ours to stay

A Man Named Dan
A Man Named Dan By: Deborah Boyd There once was a man Who's name was Dan He lived life with a nose bleed Until he was lead They lead him to the doctors And nurses and such In hopes to find a cure In hopes of so much He blamed others for this But they all knew for sure That the problem with Dan Was from not eating healthier So take my advice And follow the lead Don't end up like Dan With a nose bleed

Secrets
There are secrets that we keep, Hoping that no one will try and seek. Secrets that are buried so very deep. Those are the secrets that we will do anything to keep. Secrets are private as some must stay, We keep them with us both night and day. Why should we tell what are some of our deepest thoughts and fears, Where as if we do it can affect us for many years. You can tell a secret to someone you trust, knowing they won't use it to hurt you, or twist it because of their own lust. Secrets are sacred, Not to be used against the keeper for hatred. Secrets are our choice if we choose to share, But sometimes to tell them is more than we can bare. So secrets we must keep close to our heart, The secrets we keep we will never will part.

To My Friends, Family & Fans
I just wanted to post to say thank you to all of my wonderful friends, family & fans! Everyone has been so kind to me on Fubar... I really have enjoyed my time here so far and hope to make many more friends. Thank you for all of your wonderful fans, rates, photo & profile comments. I try to post on each one of your profiles, read them and rate them... may each day put a smile on your face. Just a little bit about me, I grew up in the midwest. I'm just a girl that loves computers, reading, and art. Photography & Music are my passions. Please dont ask me to webcam or share in instant messengers. I'm here to have fun and make new friends along the way. P.S. Since music & tv shows are fun & enjoyable to me, I'll be experimenting with My Stash collection and some blog experiments. Please rate them if you get a chance... Hugs! Luv, Jess

Update ...thank S
To All my friends and fans......,the pouring of love and well wishes that i have received has been huge. Can't take the time to answer everyone individually because I just don't have the time right now. Please know that Yari is so appreciative and great full that you all have taken the time to pray for my grandma and/or send me your best wishes. It is a difficult time for my family, especially for my mom, its never easy to see a love one suffer and/or watch them as their end nears. My grandma like most of you know by now is critically ill. My mom is not ready to let go, and I understand her and support her decision to keep fighting for the woman that god used to bring her into this world. The end is near for my grandma, and we all know it, its just a matter of hours maybe days, so I spend most of my time in the hospital and/or picking up family members at airport that are flying in to see my grandma before she passes. It is an extremely difficult time in my life but when

Day 1
yeah...i pretty much sucked today. spilled a whole till at work...all that effin change on the floor...had to pick it up..recount it...then i rented movies...left them in the office...pretty sure im gonna get hit with late fees. drunk guys hitting on me...wait..ugly drunk guys hitting on me.. working at a grocery store...sucks the big one

Wake Up People If It Looks Acts And Sounds Like A Duck
On her way to work one morning Down the path along side the lake A tender hearted woman saw a poor half frozen snake His pretty colored skin had been all frosted with the dew "Oh well," she cried, "I'll take you in and I'll take care of you" "Take me in oh tender woman Take me in, for heaven's sake Take me in oh tender woman," sighed the snake She wrapped him up all cozy in a curvature of silk And then laid him by the fireside with some honey and some milk Now she hurried home from work that night as soon as she arrived She found that pretty snake she'd taking in had been revived "Take me in, oh tender woman Take me in, for heaven's sake Take me in oh tender woman," sighed the snake Now she clutched him to her bosom, "You're so beautiful," she cried "But if I hadn't brought you in by now you might have died" Now she stroked his pretty skin and then she kissed and held him tight But instead of saying thanks, that snake gave her a vicious bite "Take me in, oh t

Mooooo Baby, Mooooo
Ok so a few days ago this guy left this comment on a pic of me in my friends' wedding: March 15, 2008 @ 7:35 pm no dont do it worst mistake I left him a comment telling him that my friends have been married for 8 years and have 2 beautiful children; and that I've been married almost 6 with 2 beautiful children. That his comment was rude, ignorant and thoughtless. He just sent me this message: subject: u know what im sorry fat cow received: 03/18/2008 06:27 am i dint know you were goin to get so mad ps fat cow I went to write him back and he blocked me. LOL I say if you're gonna leave someone you don't even know a moronic comment, you should be able to take the ass kicking. I'm sure it made his brain hurt to think of that comeback...took him 3 days to do it. :)

An Emotional Day
first it is a wonderful day, even though it is raining cats and dogs.....today my baby turned 32..when she was born she weighed on 2.13 lbs. the doctors gave her three days to live. and here it is 32 years later... she has three wonderful kids.. so today is a day to celebrate.. then again on this day 17 years ago. my dad decided he was going to take his own life as well..my day comitted sudicide on her b-day. i am sure it wasnt plannned that way. but he did..even though it has gotten easier over the years. it is still there not as bad but there.today i am missing him alot. i lost my best friend... so if i seem alittle out of it today or slow in responding this is why.......thank u for reading this. hope all of u have a wonderful day lots of hugs and kisses to my dear friends vickie

Baz Luhrmann 'sunscreen Speech'
================================ Baz Luhrman - Sunscreen Speech ================================ Ladies and Gentlemen of the class of ?9...Wear sunscreen If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be it. The long term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by scientists, whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable than my own meandering experience. I will dispense this advice now. Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth; oh never mind; you will not understand the power and beauty of your youth until they have faded. But trust me, in 20 years you�ll look back at photos of yourself and recall in a way you can�t grasp now how much possibility lay before you and how fabulous you really looked...You�re not as fat as you imagine. Don�t worry about the future; or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubblegum. The real troubles in your life are apt to be

Introduction And Statement Of Intent
Introduction: I had promised many fine Fubarians that this day I would attempt to post into this blog that which I had promised them. This is my proposal. I welcome all of you, be your friends or passer-by (read that please as 'friends I've yet to make'), to comment on what you find here. It is my goal, my hope, to find some way in which to implement the base ideas that will be stated below. The primary challenge which I have so far had has been critical critique, input to challenge and to tear apart this idea as much as possible and to tell me exactly how it CAN NOT work and to then offer me suggestions on what may be done to ensure that it DOES Work. I developed this idea in full from scattered thoughts roughly around 2002. Before then I, like so many others, had wished and hoped for a ways and means with which to ensure the legalization of Cannabis (Hemp). I had long known and deeply studied the history of it's Prohibition. I had watched with first delight and then despair as

Fubar Drama Club
Fubar Drama Club By: Deborah Boyd Please don’t go I beg you to stay You’ve become a part of me Each and every day. I can understand The reasons you go Drama isn’t a virtue As we all know That is why with some of us here We don’t do crushes Or Wedding Who cares All that I know Is you’re a friend indeed One I enjoy seeking And commenting as need So take to heart My words I do say And please don’t go I beg you to stay

I Did It!!!!
Well I mdae it into Indiana State University. I recieved my acceptance letter yesterday. I am on such a natural high right now. This is the second greastest thing that has ever happened to me. Things are finally starting to look good for a change.

03-23-08 (catch Up)
March 23, 2008 Hello I really don't have a subject matter or any "theme" going on here today. I thought I'd just catch you up on some turn of events & happenings from my RL while away from Fubar. No worries, nothing too deep or gory details but life altering none the less. But I'll spare you any of the soap opera drama that I call life. I do have some new live-ins ... Which doesn't really bother me, but it's changed my daily routine a good bit. My 21 year old daughter & 20 month old grandbaby are here on the part-time bases with I do find delightful! I cant say I'm surprised that her marriage fell apart I think both side are more surprised that it lasted as long as it did. But you know teenagers KNOW everything & there was not stopping them from getting married back when they announced it to everyone surprise after knowing each other for all of 2 months! But there is always a bright side: I got a granddaughter from it. I now get to see h

Just Thinking
Well it is Easter ... the holiday that represents the Crucifixion and Resurrection of Christ. I am far from a holy roller, but I have a new appreciation of the holiday. Some may say this is sacrilege but Easter has a whole new meaning for me. Some that may know me or know about me but others have no clue. I was in a relationship with a person who I thought was my Anamchara (It's the Celtic word for "soul friend") at least that is what he lead me to believe. In this relationship he contributed very little ... now if it was because he couldn't or didn't want to I am not sure. All I know is now he is gone and I am left to wonder. So on to how this reminds me of the Easter season. Well I my love life was basically crucified when I found out that we did not share the love that would make us grow and be happy. So we parted ways in a somewhat amicable fashion (at least I don't hate him) Now I am left to wonder will there be a resurrection of my love life ...

Subs
A friend of mine wrote this, it just seems to be the words I have never been able to find. Dark and evil are not conducive to trust and honesty. A sadist by his very nature has within him a dark and evil thing. Be sure the sadist you seek recognizes this within himself and has learned to control it. This lust can become a Dom's master to the sorrow of all, or it can become a strength when tempered with compassion, honesty and will. The laws of good and evil are written within our hearts. As a sadist I can see the laws but my desire burns hot within me. Am I to walk the earth for the rest of my days as a starving man when the only food I could eat will damn my soul? What will be my way? How can I feed the beast within yet save the man without? The answer is Choice. Were I to kidnap a girl, take my pleasure and leave her in ruins, I will have fed the beast but I will also have killed the man. Should I practice my evil upon someone like you, with your submission freely given, the limit

Read Me. (new)
So ya, I don't think anyone really noticed but I'm really not on fubar anymore, I come online once every couple of days to check my email and that's about it. It's for alot of reasons, the main one being that I am back to work and severely busy...I'm actually out living my life again and I consider that to be a really positive thing. One of the other reasons is this: I Really do cherish the good people I have met on fubar and some of them have become my really good friends (You know who u are) but people take this place a little bit to seriously for my tastes...Sometimes it's fun, but sometimes it's just plain creepy and sometimes it's fucking downright scary. (And it's not like the staff does anything whatsoever) They do whatever they fucking feel like... and one day, when they fail to delete a known sex offender or fail to delete someone who threatens to kill someone.....Someone is going to make good on their threats and they are going to be held legally partly responsible. esp

Deception And Disgust
I started talking to a man on here and this morning I get up to find in my shout box a link to a web site followed with "something you should know about your buddy" I usually don't follow links that are left like that but curiosity killed the cat and I did. I found out that this man was on the National Sex Reg for sex with a 10 year old. This was not that long ago. Anyone who knows me I have a soft heart against people and am forgiving as long as you are up front about something you have done. BUT one thing I find too hard to forgive is a sexual misconduct especially when you are any age and she is 10!!!!! Well actually there is never any excuse or right age to do it. Granted if you are 18 and you are dating a 17 year old and her dad finds out and gets you arrested for rape that sucks but you should have thought right? But it made me realize how easy it is for sick people to make their way into innocent people's hearts, minds, and house. So in effort of that kind person who left me a m

5 A.m.
Usually arrives with the sound of my neighbor hacking his lungs out. I can't tell if he is a smoker and, at 5 a.m., he is coughing up all kinds of gunk from not having smoked for the however long he had been asleep, or if he brushes his teeth to the point that he gags. Well, either way, really, you would think he has morning sickness. And it's EVERY day. At the same time. It's disgusting. I thought at first that he just gagged himself with a tooth brush, but after having seen him, I'm leaning towards the smoking theory. All was peaceful before he moved in...sigh. I don't know if I should say something to him, or just let it go.

Wtf
DJ Renegade: i hope you and your new club vengance gets things a going mattie snyder: why do u insint on bothering me DJ Renegade: how does it feel to keep being bother over and over again mattie mattie snyder: i never bothered u DJ Renegade: bullshit mattie DJ Renegade: i ask and your friends will tell you that i ask for a few days off DJ Renegade: and you know why i didnt call you last sunday mattie snyder: no i do not and u kn0ow what i am done with the bullshit mattie snyder: go play with ur STD two face bitch u guys are a match made in heaven DJ Renegade: now mattie they aint no name calling here mattie snyder: like i said i do not exist to you to poof be gone DJ Renegade: well i didnt exist to you and you calm we was friends mattie snyder: io was a friend DJ Renegade: mattie did you call me and tell me that it was a snowing DJ Renegade: knowing i was coming up to see you mattie snyder: your coming up wioth every excuse mattie snyder: I was at work and my job

Help Him Level
AUSTRIAN HAS 16,450 TO GO TO LEVEL He's leveled TY ALL so very much :-) ♂ Ãù§t®¡åñ îñ §©ø†£ãñð ™r/l boyfriend of Hêãthë®@ fubar ANY HELP WOULD BE APPRECIATED AND ALL LOVE WILL BE RETURNED BY BOTH. HE'S A GREAT/AWESOME PERSON. PLEASE LEAVE A COMMENT IF YOU ARE ABLE TO HELP. THANK YOU, HRTOFGOLD

Final Update
I know alot of you have been praying and sending me your best wishes and sympathy cards, most of you have been there for me thru my time of need and i just want to say thank you! Fubar has been the one thing that has kept me away from the sorrow cause even if there are some pervs which I block immediately I have made some good friends. I loook forward to reading your messages and I may not respond right away cause my family needs me and I am busy but I do read them and appreciate them. My grandma was suffering beyond what we expected and it was painful for us to see her that way, upon a family decision they agreed to take her off life support monday (yesterday) at 3:pm and she past away at 3:12 pm. So it's been very hard for me the past few days but I know now she is in a better place. Thanks for your love and support. xo yari

Beautiful - India. Arie
The time is right I'm gonna pack my bags And take that journey down the road Cause over the mountain I see the bright sun shining And I want to live inside the glow Yeah I wanna go to a place where I am nothing and everything That exists between here and nowhere I wanna go to a place where time has no consequences oh yeah The sky opens to my prayers I wanna go to beautiful, beautiful, beautiful, I wanna go to beautiful, beautiful, beautiful, I wanna go to beautiful, beautiful, beautiful, I wanna go to beautiful, beautiful, beautiful, Please understand That its not that I don't care But right now these walls are closing in on me I love you more than I love life itself But I need to find a place were I can breathe I can breathe I wanna go to a place where I can hold the intangible And let go of the pain with all my might I wanna go to a place where I'm suspended on ecstasy Somewhere between dark and light Where wrong becomes right I wanna go to beautif

My Brother's Wife's Sister's Babies Daddy!
HA! It's not quite that Springer...but check this out! This is me... ~PebblesinAZ~I Luv My Tappinit (Bf and Owner)~Owner of Silent Lizard, Blairmare & Cherry Eater~@ fubar This is Tappinit... tappinit ~~ Proud Owner of PebblesinAZ ~~ Humbly Owned by Blairmare@ fubar This is Blairmare... &hearts Blairmare &hearts{ OWNED BY PEBBLES IN ARIZONA}@ fubar OK...now that you have met the players are you ready to keep up? Tappinit is my boyfriend and also my owner. Blairmare won Tappinit in my auction tonight and is now his owner. So, Blairmare owns my boyfriend. I won Blairmare in that same auction and now I own Blairmare. So I own my owners owner! Confused yet? Ready for the quiz? Eh, instead just go Add/Fan & Rate Tappinit and Blairmare and leave them lots of fu love and you get an A+! Tell them PebblesinAZ sent ya! xoxo

Part 2
I start to kiss down the right side of your pussy ever so close, but not close enough and start to kiss and suck hard on your right inner thigh as my right hand is so ever lightly rubbin' your pussy lips....... Lightly run my fingers over your pussy lips and just so ever lightly flick my tounge across your clit.. Just enough to tease you and make you want more... I slide myself back to the ankle of your left leg and start kissin' and lightly lickin' my way up your calf, your knee, your thigh until i reach your left inner thigh again.. I lightly lick and kiss your pussy lips and ever so gentle lick and kiss your clit, and slide myself back down and start kissin' and lickin' my way up your right leg. Lightly nibblin' and kissin' and lickin' your calf, the sides and under your right knee, your thigh, until I reach your inner thigh again.. This time I run my tounge ever so softly from the bottom of your pussy all the way up to your clit and so ever lightly lick and suck on your

Mp
You my brother from another mother u know that i will always be here for u just like kaliko u know i got ur back and i know u got mine and u know if u need me and u know i will need u so i love u too always and for life big bro and if i would ever leave this earth just know that i love yall to the heart. To You My Big Bro MP I will always look up to You too

He Needs Love......
BIG P!!!!!!! DO YOU KNOW THIS GUY? IF YOU DON'T YOU DONT KNOW WHAT YOU ARE MISSING! GO GET TO KNOW HIM,HE IS A GREAT FRIEND! HE ALWAYS STOPS WHAT HE IS DOING TO HELP SOMEONE OUT PLEASE GO SHOW HIM MAD LOVE!!!! RATE/FAN/ADD/CRUSH/ THIS GUY ╚╚»♠Big P♠«╗╗@ fubar LOVE YA P!!!!!!!!! ~KARMA~

Bunny Ribs...
First of all....I made this on Easter Sunday THis recipe is for beef ribs... No bunnies were harmed in the preparation of this heresupper.. WHat ya need.. RIBS... DUH 1 can o pineapples crushed 1 bottle of BOb Evans WILDFIRE sauce 1 Shot of Capt Morgan Some (no i didnt measure) WOREKCHENCAHIRE Sauce.. MINCED GARLIC jack daniels Mesquite marinade Mix it put it in the fridge for however long you want a couple few hours overngight.. COOK AND EAT AND GET LAID and SLEEP.

Boredom...
Ok maybe it'e me but fu' is gettin' a lil' stale lately I can tell because Im on it less and less. My personality-type has the flaw of gettin' easily distracted and bored real fast so I travel light and keep it moving thru life!Im taking a break I think I don't even know if I will be back!

Little Treasures
Little Treasures By: Deborah Boyd I walk softly With Heavy steps To a place unknown And Time unspent The World stand still All Quiet and dark As I creep further in Oh God show my a spark Please lead me the way I know not how to go I give you my hand In hopes for you to show I see a light So far away Should I go further Or remain where I stay I step a little closer Its lighter with ease When soon I come to realize My fears they have ceased It then comes to mind What I had feared the most Was nothing at all Just my own little Ghost. So without life’s little journey No one will ever know Could be Gods little treasure He wanting to show.

Everything
I THINK THAT LIFE IS WHAT WE MAKE OF IT, AND WE HAVE TO TAKE THE GOOD WITH THE BAD NO MATTER WHAT..I LOVE MEETING NEW PEOPLE, BUT I HAVE BEEN MARRIED AND I HAVE NEVER BEEN IN LOVE, I KNOW NOW I JUST WANTED MORE BABIES SO BAD THAT I SETTLED FOR THE MAN I HAD MARRIED, SEE I AM FROM NEW YORK AND I HAD A LITTLE GIRL WHEN I WAS 17. 20 DAYS BEFORE MY EIGHTEENTH BIRTHDAY I HAD SIERRA UNTIL SHE WAS 4 YEARS OLD THE 2ND NIGHT I LET HER SLEEP IN HER OWN BED I WOKE UP MY BABY GIRL WAS GONE...SOMEONE HAD COME INTO MY APARTMENT IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT AND STOLE MY LIFE..SIERRA WOULD BE 12 ON MAY 5.MY BABY WAS NEVER FOUND...SO WHEN I SAY IVE BEEN THROUGH ALOT AND I CHERISH EVERYTHING AND EVERYONE.THANK YOU TO ALL WHO DROPS BY AND TAKES TIME TO READ MY WORDS.LOL MALISSA

People Like Me.. Who Cares?
People Definitely Like You You are very well liked, and many people admire you. You are friendly, well mannered, and fun to be around. Of course, you're not perfect... but that's okay. Your friends are usually willing to accept you for who you are! What People Don't Like About You: People don't like that you secretly are annoyed by them. You may think they can't tell, but they can. What People Like About You: People like that you give them complements. You make people feel good about themselves! People like that you take the them to get to know them and make a connection. You make people feel important. People like that you don't gossip or talk poorly of others. They trust that you will speak positively about them too. Do People Like You?

Poetic Image
the thought of happiness could it really be to know someone for such a short time an yet to fall in love to think of them each night an day never able to consintrate enough to pull them away from your mind the possibility of such happiness that one could bring just from a simple smile or a short hello but yet to have that one belong to another an in your heart you know it may never be always wanting them to be the happiest they can your heart flutters with every mention of her name an yet just a friend is all you can let it be.

I Have An Imp
This guy just came to my profile and stole my pic. http://fubar.com/user/1735260 He is now using it as his own so just giving everyone a heads up that if you see me, read carefully, it might not be me. We all know there is only 1 Fitfreak anywayz

Cleaning Friends..
Decided to post this to see what friends I have.. If I see you read this I will keep you on if not, then I will delete you. I have been accepting requests and trying to be nice( going against my profile) of cours eit has bit me in the ass. SOOOOOOOOOOOOO lets see if I have any friends after this one.. At least I will know for sure. For those I talk to regularly please still say something, maybe it will show the others what a friend is.. thanks for your time. I will give this a few days just for people who might not get on that often. I know we all have lives, but still ya could stop by once in awhile...

Changing My Life........again!
I havent blogged for a long time been so up to my ears in the day to day shit that has consumed my life here as "manager" of this establishment i call home. I love this place...being by the salt water...the people...tenants and guests and the neighborhood and ambience of this navy town. What i dont love is my tyrannical, crazy, cokehead boss. This past week was telling for me. I woke up Monday not wanting to go to work...and I didnt. I called in sick. For the past year I've worked 60 hrs a week and been only paid for 40. I get a free room at the inn to share with my 17 year old son and cat. No privacy. Then I spend countless hours on my only day off...Sunday..showing this man's empty and available apartment houses. All for $10/hr...net $321.47 a week. I am verbally abused on a regular basis..(You fucking piece of shit this, fucking bitch that), accused of stealing his money/property or whatever it is that week he feels he can threaten me with. I could go on and on the

Speak Out!
One of my sons serves in the military. He is still stateside in California and called me yesterday to let me know how warm and welcoming people were to him and his troops everywhere he goes, telling me how people shake their hands and thank them for being willing to serve and fight for not only our freedoms, but that others may have them also . He also told me about an incident in the grocery store he stopped at yesterday on his way home from the base. He said that ahead of several people in front of him stood a woman dressed in a burkha. He said when she got to the cashier she loudly remarked about the U.S. Flag lapel pin the cashier wore on her smock. The cashier reached up and touched the pin, and said proudly, 'Yes, I always wear it and probably always will.' The woman in the burkha then asked the cashier when she was going to stop bombing her countrymen, explaining that she was from Iraqi. A gentleman standing behind my son stepped forward. Putting his arm around my

I'm Int The Rate Only Contest,help Me Please! Tyvm
☀RATE ONLY CONTEST☀ I'm one of the contestant of Rate Only contest of " Wishful Thinking ~ Owned by LilBamaGirl ". Please friends,Drop by and RATE my PIC! Just Click My Pic Below: For other INFO,Click the Pic below: Wishful Thinking ~ Owned by LilBamaGirl~@ fubar Or,Read her Blog: http://fubar.com/blog/201632/746807 ☆~THANK YOU VERY MUCH~☆ IN ADVANCE and ~♥♥~ I L♥VE Y♥U ~♥♥~ ☀☀Asking your HELP☀☀ ★~S☆Y~★@ fubar Muahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhs!

Why Is That
why is it that every time everybody is trying to talk bout what u do or what u dont? they dont even know half but keep putting ur name in their mouth... i just wanna say thank u to everybody who talks bout my personal life ya dont know shit so shut the fuck up friends wonder why i dont even say hi nomore well my friends ya can also say thank u to the people who try to talk bout me and my life no matter what ya fuck up my life anyways so now keep on searching for the next lil reason to talk and to fuck up everything ya can not kill me nomore i dont live anymore ya got it this time i really thank for that all i ever wanted in my life is to be happy and all what ya do is keeping me down as soon as i am a lil happy ya put me down again but if it makes ya happy well have fun but dont wonder if i get all quiet and dont talk at all nomore if its that what all of ya wanted well ya got it

Broken Heart
Would you wipe away my tears Would you refute all my fears Would you stay with me If I needed you to see Would you hold me tight Would you kiss me good night I want to feel you next to me Instead you just let me be Would you tell me what I need to say To make the sadness go away You won't even hold my hand Emotions recoiled like a rubber band Would you kiss my cheek Dealing with pain week after week I'm tired of the tug of war games And with you calling me names Ripping and tearing my emotions down Again I pick my heart up off the ground Tired of fighting with myself to not give in Playing a game I just can't win I'm tired of trying to keep a fake smile on my face Tired of feeling like I'm wasting space To care for someone who doesn't care about me To express my love for an empty sea As though that's what it would be Would you lie to me when you say you care When tomorrow you will taunt me with an arrogant stare I will give in because I hate to fight Will th

Yea..and?
Your Wrath Quotient: 62% Everyone around you pretty much fears your wrath... which is probably what you want. But just remember, there's a very thin line between fear and hate! How Much Wrath Do You Have?

Ranting About Tards..
Yup me ranting.. go figure... actually this is pretty repetitive because i say it in the mumms a lot.. All of you bastards who can't think of anything to bash on other than saying someone is fat.. you should be shot or stabbed in the face with an ice pick. DO YOU NOT THINK WE KNOW WE ARE FAT?! we are the ones that have to look at ourselves in the mirror every day. Do you not realize what you do to people? I don't like leaving the HOUSE anymore because of what idiotic, childish, assholes have said to me in random places. "oh look at the fat chick" by some random jerk at a bar. "BEEP BEEP BEEP watch out shes backing up" from people in school (when i was a size 12 and 14 at that) People.. seriously grow up. If all you can do is bash on someone by saying they are fat... get a fucking life. It is ridiculous that you think you are better than someone because you are skinnier than them. hell half the time it is a bigger man bashing on a bigger woman. Any of

Missing You Is The Hardest!
In memory of my mother, Catherine Ann You were a precious gift from God above, so much beauty, grace and love. You touched our hearts in so many ways, your smile so bright even on the bad days. You heard God's whisper calling you home, you didn't want to go and leave us alone. You loved us so much, you held on tight, till all the stregnth was gone and you could no longer fight. He had called your name twice before, you knew you couldn't make him wait anymore. So you gave your hand to God and slowly drifted away, knowing that with our love we will be together again some day. R.I.P Mom, Love Dani

Fake Ass Friends
People are too fake on here. They only want pic comments, or to see how many friends they can get. So let's see who will actually repost this. This is to see who's paying attention. This is a test to see how many people in my friends list actually pay attention to me. Copy and repost in your own bulletiLet's see who n. the true friends are and I think I know who you are... Repost this if you are a friend...Don't reply... just copy and paste this in a new bulletin as "fake ass friends"

Poetic Image
BEHIND YOUR EYES BHEIND YOUR EYES I SEE SUCH A GREAT PERSON WITH A HEART OF AN ANGLE AND THE BEAUTY OF A GODDESS WITH JUST ONE LOOK YOU MELT MY HEART FROM THE LITTLE THINGS YOU DO JUST TO MAKE ME SMILE AND I KNOW WITH JUST ONE TOUCH I WILL BE YOURS FOREVER FROM THE HOLD IN YOUR ARMS TO THE LOVE FROM AFAR MY HEART WILL BE YOURS AS I DREAM OF YOU AT NIGHT I FEEL SO WHOLE ON THE INSIDE IT HAS BEEN SO LONG SINCE I HAVE HELD SUCH A GREAT PASSION FOR LIFE AN I NEED TO SHARE MY FEELINGS FROM THE INSIDE AND LOT YOU KNOW JUST HOW YOU MAKE ME FEEL I HAD FELT FOR SO LONG LIKE I HAD LOST MY LIGHT NOW THAT YOU ARE MYING MY LIFE FEELS SO COMPLETE AND I WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT MY LOVE WILL ALWAYS BE FAITHFULLY JUST FOR YOU

True Friends
OK IT HAS COME TO MY ATTENTION THAT MY SO CALLED FRIENDS ON HERE ARE LYING TO MY FACE...BEING TWO FACED. SO DO ME A FAVOR IF YOUR FAKE, IF YOU TRULY DO HATE ME...TELL IT TO ME...NOT BEHIND MY BACK I'M SICK OF PEOPLE LYING TO MY FACE ABOUT STUPID ASS SHIT...FACE UP BE A MAN/OR WOMAN AND TELL ME THE TRUTH. THANKS

Ctgirl - Luv Ya Like A Sis
After this heartfelt pimpout by CTGirl...I am sitting here in tears...I am amazed every day at the amount of love CTGirl and the rest of the fu luv family gives me...I love you guys soooo much and just because I am not riding your butts about bombing doesn't mean you are far from my heart. So if you haven't already done so please go fan/rate/add this wonderful family...they have to be the most loving family on fubar!! Luv you guys!!! THANK YOU!!!! For always being a friend first!!!! I love you very much and wish u all the best!!! I am always here for u and u know that!!!! Thank you from the family for all your hard work angel!!! Couldn’t have done this without u!!! Stop By Add , Rate and Fan my sexy friend!! She will return the Luv!!! Shes a great person and deserves some Fu-Luv!!! Lots of Love and Kisses from your East Coast Sister!!! ADDICTIVE

No Move So Sad
Well here I am having a moving sale and get a call this morning that I will NOT be moving anytime soon :(. Buyers financing fell through. So wish me luck on finding a new buyer. We upped the price on the house to cover legal fees and HOPEFULLY give me moving money.

Gah!
Ever have one of those headaches, the ones right between the eyes? I think I woulda rather been dead today, lol. Woulda hurt less. But on a brighter note, I think I passed my first exam yesterday so if I pass the one tomorow i'm a security guard/door supervisor :D Pending licence that is.

Yadda Yadda...yeah Yeah...
Your Sensitivity Score: 57% As far as sensitivity goes, you're a lot more in tune than most people. You can't help but be touched by what's around you - good and bad. But when things do get really bad around you, you are strong enough not to break down. Are You Extremely Sensitive?

April Is Autism Awareness Month - Spread The Word!
April is Autism awareness month, I like 1000s of others know how dibilating autism can be ... to be locked in your own world as the sufferer is one thing but often the families are forgotten. It is heartbreaking when your own child won't even cuddle you or look you in the eye or show love because they don't know how to or the idea of seeing how others live find the whole thing scary. I have a nephew with autism and he is now 13 still very much in his own world, gets very upset when he wants to get his view across hates cuddles There are no cures for autism only by spreading the word and making people more aware will others not stand staring at the 16 year old having a paddy in a busy shop because he doesnt want to leave, he isnt being naughty he is frustrated, angry that no-one understands him and what he wants to say. Others will know that my son is on the autistic spectrum with PDD (aspergers ) and whilst you may all be thinking thats not as bad as autism i can tell you it i

Final Move Update
Weeeeeeeeeeeeee I'm moving on my birthday the 17th. I've decided to go ahead and move even though house hasn't sold. I NEED to see my grandsons I miss them a lot. And since I don't have the money to pay my utilities gonna just say fuck it and move :). Thank you too all who have wished me well on this.

More Guys Needed
Jenni has 10 people to start the auction, but she needs more guys!!!! Ok guys...go hit her up. It's only 5k in Fubucks to join. And you can have more than one owner ya know. Don't make me fu-stalk you!!! Click for the auction here!

Eye Candy 4 A Month
EYE CANDY 4 A MONTH Here's how it works: 1) Make an Eye Candy Salute 2) Load the pic and send it to my fu mail 3) Entries can be both male or female No discrimination 4) Once a month I will gather all entries my managers & I will vote who wins 4 the month 5) The winner gets "Eye Candy of the Month" In the lounge above the player (coming soon) 6) Winner's pic will be linked to their profile From all the staff at Eye Candy This is our way of showing member appreciation

Stalker Much?
Out of nowhere this "person" appears in my shout box, we exchanged witty conversation, then she rates me a 1. I can feel the love =D Bottom to top kiddos jelly: bye bye ->jelly: why does it matter to you if I comment on every mumm? Seems like you have no life if you're keeping up with what I'm doing all day. jelly: TALENTED... with a pic like you got... yehhh right ->jelly: I'm just talented enough to do RL stuff and mumm jelly: do you have a life? you comment on every mumm SADDDDDDD

Punk/harley...want You To Be There!!!
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Life In The Us (my Bio, Read At Your Own Risk) Part Ii
Finally, March 1st came-the day of our departure. Carrying all the possessions in tow, and leaving everythin behind, my mom, dad, grandma, and great aunt went to the airport. The 20 hr trip really sucked, including having a lay over in NY, where we almost missed our flight and stayed there, probably forever. Since it was a Russian airline, I celebrated my b-day with beer and more beer. Finally we arrived to Chicago and met my dad's relatives. When we steped out of the airport, I was met with a blast of icy wind and snow. Whoa, so much for a beach weather! Me: "Where the fuck are we? This is not the place, right? Another layover?" Turns out it WAS Chicago. They drove us to an appartment they found for us in a shitty neighborhood across from a mental institution. The apt was on a 14th floor of a building with a permanently busted elevator, which made living there oh so much fun. The hooker living next door and doin her business along with occasional drug induced fight right behin

A Big Thank You!!!
SUPERFLYCHICKEN.COM I CAN'T BEGIN TO PAY BACK THE KINDNESS AND LOVE THAT YOU HAVE ALL SHOWN ME TRYING TO MAKE GODFATHER AND THE SPOTLIGHT...I'VE GOT NO CLUE AS TO HOW TO MAKE THE PRETTY BULLY'S SO THIS IS THE BEST I CAN DO... THIS IS IN NO PARTICULAR ORDER...I'VE HAD FUBUCKS SENT TO ME, BLINGYS, AND RATES GALORE TO HELP ME OUT...EACH AND EVERY ONE OF YOU MEAN MORE TO ME THAN I CAN EVEN BEGIN TO SHOW... ♥ Cherokee God Mama ♥ Owner Of Club F.A.R. #1 Family on FuBar ~ d.s.c.@ fubar ~~The Watcher~~Shadow Leveler~~@ fubar ~MysticFaerie~@ fubar #●Mölly●Cö-Öwnër●Öf Clṻb F.A.R●#@ fubar Mr 7,000,000...OWNED by Molly.co Owner of Club F.A.R.Club FAR TEAM CPT--DSC--I.B.I.C.--FuAngels--Lollipop Gurlz@ fubar TinkerbellMN84 (MY ACCOUNT GOT DELETED PLEASE HELP ME GET BACK TO FU-KING)@ fubar cindragon~IBIC~ShadowLeveler~Rider of many trains!@ fubar ~♥~MommaTasha~♥~DYLONS DIVA MAFIA~♥~@ fubar

Please Take A Few Minutes To Read This!
'MERLYN' THANKS TO ALL OF MY FRIENDS WHO HELPED US GET MERLYN'S VIP!! YOU ALL RAAWWWWKKKK! 'Khandy{"Belongs To Tree Top Flyer"}~~Spirit Den Staff~~Member of Spirit Levelers~~' UPDATE UPDATE UPDATE!!! NOW AT 12,800 COMMENTS!! DEADLINE HAS BEEN LIFTED!!! SHE WILL GET THE PRIZE AS SOON AS SHE HITS 50K COMMENTS!! MY AWESOME FRIEND KHANDI NEEDS 50K COMMENTS TO WIN $1,500,000 IN FU-BUCKS! I WOULD REALLY LIKE FOR US TO MAKE A REAL EFFORT TO HELP HER REACH THIS GOAL! COME ON AND HELP A GREAT GAL REACH THAT GOAL! OTHERS IN GIVEAWAYS THAT NEED OUR HELP ARE AS FOLLOWS: THESE THREE LADIES EACH NEED 7,500 COMMENTS TO RECEIVE 10 FU-BLING!! THERE IS NO TIME LIMIT ON THIS GIVEAWAY, BUT OF COURSE THEY DON'T WANT IT TO TAKE FOREVER! DROP THEM A COMMENT WHEN YOU CAN, PLEASE!! cindragon~IBIC~ShadowLeveler~ CLICK DA PIC.....GOT ENTERED INTO ANOTHER ONE.... MORE BLING FOR ME AND MY GIRLS!!! '***V*I*R*G*I*E*** DRAGONPHYRE NEEDS 14K FOR TWO BLING PACKS AS WELL!

Death Of The Booty Call......
The booty call is dying... There are times I enter a physical relationship with someone I am attracted to knowing that there is no hope for a future. The girl may be fun, good looking, what ever, but she just doesn't either fit into future plans, or doesn't do it for me entirely. One of two things happen. You say good bye and move on, or become fuck buddies. For the latter, I always say the following BEFORE HAND: "I think you are awesome, and this could be great, but I don't want to send mixed signals. We can take this for what it is, but if it is going to confuse you, we should stop." Two things amaze me. (1) How that honest admission lands a shit load of tail. (2) How women completely forget it was said the moment they want more. Now I am not stupid. Every fuck buddy I have ever had is basically some girl trying to fuck her way into my heart. I'd like to say that I fire out that little speech to keep her from going batty. But... I know she is going to go fucking batty

Izbig Part 2
So this douche has be blocked right, because of another conversation we had where I refused to look at his pics, or basically do anything for him. So he hits up my shoutbox tonight and calls me a "cunt". Anyone up for a good shoutbox convo tonight? Here's his link: http://www.fubar.com/user/685342

Club Story
I was going to one of those “alternative lifestyle” clubs for the first time. I was nervous, since I was going alone. I had planned what I would wear for weeks, trying to achieve just the right look. I had bought a new black skirt that was a soft suede material. I chose a red halter, which was cut down to the waist in front, and totally backless. I had on new lace topped black thigh highs, and my favorite black “come-fuck-me” heels. In this club there was no worry of being dressed too risqué. I checked out my appearance in the mirror before leaving the house, and was satisfied. The drive to the club took a little over an hour, but I listened to music on the way, and the time passed quickly. When I arrived, I parked and walked to the door. There was a doorman checking I.D., and taking money for the cover charge. Since I was a woman alone, it was only a few dollars to enter. I made my way inside, found a seat at the bar, and ordered a drink. I looked around, taking in the

Totally Freakin Awesome
Im not even sure how too put this into words.. But Shadow Levelers you freaking ROCK!!! The last few days I sit here and think WOW!!!! I just want you all too know we make one heck of a team and im greatful too all of you for the team work I have saw. What I saw you all do yesterday on leveling all the levelers and not stopping until everyone was leveled even when you was maxed.. Thats AMAZING!!!!! Thank you for all the love you show too everyone every day. I just want too say a personal thank you from me for always being there too help and stopping whatever you are doing when you see a level up. Many, many thank yous and as always if you need anything just let me know..

The Brbbears
I am gonna start a new craze to compete with the LOLcatz... Its called the BRBbearz....I made 2 so far. More on the way....I made them with microsoft paint so ya the Font needs to be better....these are just tests. Lemme know what u think...

Oh Boy.
Well Sherry is at it again. In her quest to make me a Godfather she has put my milky ass up for sale in Wet Dreams action. Its a one day auction that closes at 10PM EST tonight. So if you need a little Cubby luvin. I guess you can just buy it. Lmaooo Here's the link.. http://fubar.com/viewimage.php?u=1201563&albumid=974911&i=656347320&idx=14# And heres the Bully with all the details. http://fubar.com/bulletins.php?b=2926886046 Lmaooooooooooo I've lost my mind. :P

Stranger In The Moonlight
Lovers of the night The quality of the dream Always been free flowing Always to be victims of the night Suck and drink my life blood of love To feel your touch upon my silky skin When I open my eyes I find it is only my hand Which is touching my smooth skin In my mind I’m begging for your touch In a forever embrace locked together Was I hypnotized might very will be possible I feel the sharp sting above my nipple Notice drops of blood rolling down Into my cleavage from two delicate punctures See no one around that could have cause that I feel such desire now. The aroma of my blood Smells so sweet, I wipe the blood and lick from my finger

Hope It Quits Raining!
Finally we are moving! I can't wait to get out of this house! Probably won't be on much tomorrow, SO I will tell ya all see ya later, tonight! Hopefully I will be back on Wednesday..if not it will be soon! I will miss you all!