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Melt Into Me
Feel me inside of you as I explore searching for more than ever before. Within the chambers of passion, saving the explosion for just the right moment. Crash into me and feel me feel you. Relax and let me take your mind on a never ending journey. I am that man, the one that is unique in my own special ways. The one for you. See into my eyes what Im feeling as we melt slowly into one instead of two. Melt with me. Melt into me.

Off To Work!
What a week, lol! Off to work I go. A snowstorm is on the way, or so the weather people are saying! We'll see! Hope to get caught up with my comments, blogs, etc. this weekend. So far, I do not have to work. With a possible snowstorm, I'll get plenty of computer time. As if I don't get enough now, lol! Today is a momentous day for my friend Stacey! Her husband arrives home and is officially out of the military! Don't think they've been together 2 months in the two years they've been married, so this will be an interesting adjustment! Have a great day and a spectacular weekend, everyone! Much love and warm hugs to everyone! Blessings all over the map, lol! Love each and every one of you! Later!

My Tarot
You scored as The Magician. The Magician is about creative genius and talent. He is the master of communciation either through speech or literary means. Being different and an individual means alot to him.The Magician100%The Hermit85%Judgement80%The Fool70%The Moon65%Justice60%The Devil55%The Hierophant55%The Empress and The Emperor50%The Hanged Man50%The Lovers45%

2 Of The Most Wonderful Ladies In My Life!
I just want to say that these 2 ladies are absolutely wonderful and if you don't already have them as a friend or fan them you should! They are absolutely wonderful and mean the world to me and i honstly don't know what i would do without them! Vicki I love you with all my heart u've always been my number 1 since we started talking and u've always been there for me for everything even if u didn't like my decisions u still stuck by me and i love you for that! Can't wait till tonight when i come pick ya up and you get to spend a week with me! Canadas♥BADDEST♥brunette™RATE MY PROFILE AND FAN BEFORE ADDING ME@ CherryTAP Ellie You have become a very dear friend to me and i adore you for that! We haven't been talking that long but you have proven urself to be a true friend and i never want to lose that! I will always be here for you for anything you need anytime day or night you always know how to get ahold of me! Thank you for being a great friend! SillyElliebo

Life
Ok well To let all my friends know I have moved to South Carolina, I had met a wonderful gal on the internet, so I moved here to be with her, I got a job now.....Things seem to be going ok so far..I am loving it here in the south, It was a culture shock when I first got here and it kinda still is, not used to people being so nice and all, I'm starting to pick up that southern talk a little bit...Well gotta go for now talk atcha later

Phantoms
Deep within a dark night of unrestful slumber. I wander down halls that I haven't seen in many years. Lost and confused I turn from this hall to the next wondering why I am here, seeing phantoms from my past. I hear laughter coming from around the bend; I peer around the corner and spy shadowy figures from my past. I stare as two kids share candy, sitting alone on a playground. I watch as they grow to teens, sharing a soda in the school cafeteria. I watch as they hold hands walking under the bleachers at a football game. I stare in disbelief as he took her home one evening after school, and sat on her couch sharing another soda and a kiss. And then, gone, ripped away from each other by a pain that was unending. I stare, unable to take my eyes away from the pain unfolding. I stare into eyes that I haven’t seen in ages, longing for those lips I can never kiss again. Why did she lie to me, tell me she loved me and then walk away like I was nothing. And I watch as these feelings submerg

Lol
Lena was in bed with her lover, Sven, when she heard Ole's key in the door. "Stay where you are," she said. "He's so drunk he won't even notice you're in bed with me." Sure enough, Ole lurched into bed none the wiser, but a few minutes later, through a drunken haze, he saw six feet sticking out at the end of the bed. He turned to Lena: "Hey, der are six feet in dis bed. Der shud only be four. What's going on?" "Nonsense," said Lena, "You're so drunk you miscounted. Get out of bed and try again. "You can see better from over there."Ole climbed out of bed and counted. "One, too, tree, four. Damn, you're right!!!" >

Love
Your Love Type: INFP The Idealist In love, you crave a long term, harmonious relationship. For you, sex doesn't come quickly - it takes time for you to open up. Overall, you are supportive, nurturing, and expressive. However, you tend to be shy and protective of your personal space. Best matches: ENFJ and ESFJ What's Your Love Type?

10-05-04
10-05-04 Splendid grass waving with the wind Soft silence over coming me The presence of a gift shake me Then the memory of your love surrounds me The happiness of the thought of you The craving to see you again That laugh that comforts darkness The unwillingness to ever let go Walk tall as you did here As you should in heaven Always know your loved and missed Always know you'll never be forgotten I love and miss you..........

Loyalty
friendly, loyal and understanding Sensitive, kind and caring secure and true... you are a friend I turn to when my spirits need a lift. you are always there.. You're one of a kind, different from the rest Appreciative, warm and precious like diamonds You'll always be there, I know that is true I'll always be here... always for you.

Family Lists
I would love to know what did I do to everyone to have them remove me from their family lists? I have checked the ones I used to be on and I have been removed.. and replaced with porn look girls.. is that all the kind of people want to be in their families? Do you have to look a certain way to be in your family? WHY? I thought I was good enough.. helped with points and everything else.. I was there when you needed to talk and to listen.. offered shoulders to cry on.. Why can't that be enough? Why does a girl have to have a big chest with massive cleavage showing, ass being flashed, covered in make up to be good enough for anyone?? Why can't the inner person and a great heart be worthy of someone's family?

Hood Ass Nigga Makin Money
->HOOD ASS N...: how bout i show u a fkn cunt and show a butt plug tight up ur fkn ass now fk off HOOD ASS N...: fuckin cunt now the next time u come to my page u fkn goof i will bring the drama back to ur page now stay away from me or u will go home crying ya dumb sack of shit now for anyone else who wants to come to my page and start drama ... im not here for that so either grow up or stay the hell away from my page cause im not a feeble woman at all..and i can give it back twice as hard..now to my other good friends and family..if u dont like my page get off it simple as that..

Dreams Vs. Reality
If I could stay within my dreams and not be forced to live in reality, I could climb the mountains high, touch a star and reach the sky. I could fly with wings unclipped, dream in color to my heart's content, never having to touch the ground, claim each pearl as mine when found. Reality mixed with sunshine and rain and sanity crossing over into insanity. Some dreams fulfilled but others still, remain in life, a bitter pill. In my mind, I live my dreams, travel far and reach for stars. Reality always pulls me back down, placing my feet back on the ground.

Update
Hi all!! Date went very well last night! he showed up alittle late..he has a blow out on i90..i was on the phone when it happened..but its was all good in the end..another date monday..we shall she where the road takes us.

Removing My Stories
I just wanted to thank all my friends who have taking time to read my stories and comment on them. I will be removing them from my bogs sometime this weekend. I hope you enjoyed reading them as much as I enjoyed writing them.. Sir Dave

Impeach07 Campaign Launched
Impeach07 Campaign Launched The impeachment movement is uniting and expanding. Democrats.com is joining with many other organizations to launch Impeach07, a coordinated series of nationwide actions aimed at impeaching Bush and Cheney through widespread public protest, creative dissent, media activism, education, and lobbying: http://www.impeach07.org Bush and Cheney have misled this nation into an aggressive war, spied in open violation of the law, and sanctioned the use of torture - among numerous other offenses. Newsweek reported in October that a majority of Americans favor impeachment, and in January that 58% said they wished the Bush administration were over. "Only a great popular upheaval," historian Howard Zinn said recently, "can push both Republicans and Democrats into compliance with the national will." We need to end the Iraq War and prevent an Iran War, and impeachment is the way we will do it. On March 17, the anniversary of the start of the Iraq war (and

Please Help In Reaching My Goal
I walk in the March of Dimes and your Donations are so needs for the baby's born prematurely or a handicap "help me make my goal" to make a donation just copy and paste the link to your browser http://www.walkamerica.org/personal_page.asp?si=41F8A195-9AE5-4FED-A688-9C235024E23F&w=714935 thank you Pynkcherry fallen angel

I Am Going To Be Straight Up Honest
call me an asshole i am not going to sit here and deny it... so yeah i hooked up with my ex its not like you havent stop loving your ex either cause yes you may find it bullshit of me to do what i did but ill be honest i think its more bullshit on your part to constantley talk about your ex and how much you love him and get all pissed off at me when i would talk to one of my ex's not sorry for being a humanbeing with a heart of forgiving some of my ex's well it was only a matter of time before i got a messages from you saying you were getting back with your ex since you kept hinting at it towards me... so i skiped a few chapters and did it before you... i wish i could say sorry but then ill just be lieing cause i am not its not like your sorry either thats just life... so i will tell you this i wont be bothering of leaving you messages, viewing your page, or even try to compeat of trying to make you jealous... cause honestly it would be a very BIG waist of time on my pa

Here We Go Again
OK well my week pretty much sucked and just got worse today. Week started out with no school on money woohoo all the kids home. Then my mother still cant return to work and is still on oxygen another woohoo. Caiti came down with strep ( stay away lol ) and then today my ex's grandfather passed away and I need to take my over emotional daughter and my other 2 children to the funneral great just what I needed to end out my week.

Someone I Dont Even Know Put A Smile On My Face Today
THIS WAS A MESSAGE TO ME ON MYSPACE, AND IT INCLUDED THE PICTURE WHICH IS THE FIRST ONE IN MY PICS. JUST GOES TO SHOW YOU THAT GOD WORKS BEHIND THE SCENES SOMETIMES: A SMILE FOR SHERI, THX DAVE Body: Sheri, I've noticed for some time you are undergoing some form of recovery. I know it's none of my business and, don't care to make it my business but, I will say this; My heart goes out to you and your loved ones during any trying time you may have. And, I know I may be just a "weed in the wind" in this big world of the Internet but, I'm just a message away. Sometimes we all share a common denominator. You just never know what it might be. I was playing around with a photo editor and a couple pictures tonight. I call the end result "Sheri's Guardian". I thought you might like it: Look closely. Take care and stay strong in everything you do. And yes, you do have friends - friends who don't even know you! L&R Dave read About | FAQ | Terms | Privacy | Safety Tips

Uh
yep ok so im bored an need someone to talk to... i also have the hiccups an they wont go away i have had them for like a hour.... my throat hurts an i want them to go away... o yeah did i mention im extremely bored..... welp i am an grrrrr someone talk to me PLEASE :(

Charlotte--then --daytona
Headed to: CHARLOTTE: March 3rd & 4th for a Memorial Run DAYTONA : March 8th - 11th for BIKE WEEK HOPE ALL OF MY CHERRY TAP FRIENDS THAT ARE INTO MOTORCYCLE SHOW UP, AND IF YOU SEE ME OUT AND ABOUT, COME UP TO ME AND SAY HEY...I DON'T BITE, THO I MAY LOOK LIKE I DO.... SO SHOUT OUT TO ME IF YOU SEE ME !!!!

The Beginning Of The End
It doesnt take a rocket scientist to figure out that everyone is happier with out me. I am a devil and i shouldnt be plaguing everyones existence. A sinner I am not, always true to my word. Loyalty is life to me. Although, I dont know what it feels like to have someone beloyal to me. Cowards are drawn to me, for i am the one who will believe them and lead them. But, a coward I am not. However, I will do anything for someone to love me. Pretty I was...not anymore. Not inside and definetly not out. I am a nobody wasting fresh air for the chosen ones. God please forgive me, please take me and love me..guide me. I want to be born again, into something great..I no longer want to be everyones nightmare causing them strife.....

~~self Cpr ` Very Important~~
Subject: FW: Self CPR - IMPORTANT ALWAYS BE PREPARED IS A GOOD IDEA. What are you to do if you have a heart attack while you are alone. If you've already received this, it means people care about you ... The Johnson City Medical Center staff actually discovered this and did an in-depth study on it in our ICU The two individuals that discovered this then did an article on it .. had it published and have even had it incorporated into ACLS and CPR classes. It is very true and has and does work. It is called cough CPR A cardiologist says it's the truth ... For your info If everyone who gets this sends it to 10 people, you can bet that we'll save at least one life. Read This...It could save your life! Let's say it's 6:15 p.m. and you're driving home (alone of course), after an usually hard day on the job. You're really tired, upset and frustrated. Suddenly you start experiencing severe pain in your chest that starts to radiate out into your arm and up into you

Changes
here over the last few weeks i have been fighting an inner battle. you know the good vs evil. i think the evil is starting to win. i have found myself short tempered, and pretty much down right mean to people. im starting to push people away from me, people i work with, guys i went to iraq with(both times i went). its not something thats new, its just hasnt surfaced in a long time. dont really know what to say or do anymore.im thinking maybe i need to go back over to iraq for a 3rd time. that way im not like this to people i know and care about.

What If ( Poem)
I sit twisting my mind turning it around as though in a drier. Considering nothing, But grasping all Seeing my heart, and ready to bare my soul To give and take to love and cherish to turn the world for a touch of heaven, but I step away and gather myself. Searching the confines of a still beating heart wondering poundering wishing and waiting wanting so much, but not wanting to be turned away. These fears they come like awaiting nightmares Loneliness waits like a hunger lion at the gate, But courage have I. I will strive to win Win a heart and that love for " nothing ventured is nothng gained" You only learn for the things at hand. Take that shot in to the dark give a chance to a freqent broken heart. Because if you just think about it all that shall be left. Is one simple question, and thats what if?

Cam Pictures
I have a cam and want to useit to make my salute photo. my problem is i can never get it to save the picture.I hope some one has some ideas on how i could get one saved so I can make my salute and post it so I can finally level up.

How I Feel Sorry
Everyday is spent with you Every thought is about you Every dollar spent is with you in mind Cause I'm sprung But you don't care you got your girls who don't treat you right Every other weekend your always out You call me when you are done or lonely They left you for a moment making you think they care You raced back to them when they feed you bull shit I'm left in the dust feeling dumb and stuck I'm headed down this road in the end I'm fucked You feel bad for them but you are blind to see All the shit your doing is effecting me, I can't take it Lost in your eyes I can't get away I feel you take me for granted in everyway I'm still around cause I believed in what we shared But now it's different cause it seems like you don't care You can't have it both ways so I'm out Let's see what kind of love or friendship you can find in them I won't be gone but for now let's say i'm out Until the day you realize what love is all about. I'm not right now......I'm Forever...

A Mother's Love
A Mother's love is something that no on can explain, It is made of deep devotion and of sacrifice and pain, It is endless and unselfish and enduring come what may For nothing can destroy it or take that love away . . . It is patient and forgiving when all others are forsaking, And it never fails or falters even though the heart is breaking . . . It believes beyond believing when the world around condemns, And it glows with all the beauty of the rarest, brightest gems . . . It is far beyond defining, it defies all explanation, And it still remains a secret like the mysteries of creation . . . A many splendoured miracle man cannot understand And another wondrous evidence of God's tender guiding hand.

Reinvented
Faith, you gotta have faith... you can be robbed of every material posession and still have your faith. I thank my the most beautiful woman, the love of my life for showing me that. Faith is something NOBODY can ever take from you, unless you let them...So KEEP THE FAITH!

Ten Things Dumbasses Do On Cherrytap
ONE Bitching because you cant view someones private pics just makes you look desperate and creepy-GROW UP! TWO To the people who have like 40,000 friends, are you serious? You're stupid. Go play in traffic. THREE Don't ever post pictures and say "OMG, I'm so ugly" "OMG, I'm so fat" because if you were, you wouldn't post them. And if u do ur a freaking mongoloid. FOUR Nobody cares about threats over the internet. Don't try to act hardcore with the keyboard. Fighting online is like racing in the special olympics; even if you win, you're still retarded. FIVE Quit crying b/c you're not on someons fan list. who cares? ITS CherryTap SIX Who really cares if I don't accept you as a friend? MOVE ON!!! Don't send me another request or message asking "what's up with you not adding me?" I don't want you as a friend, that's what's up fruit!!! SEVEN Fake pics just to booster poi

Do You Love Me Or Not?
Do you love me or not you continue to pull the strings of my heart tugging left then right tearing it all apart your words convey one thing your actions another This strong sista don't need a confused brotha I place no blame cause I'm partly at fault for giving you the key to my emotional vault Either you want me or you don't let's not make this a battle The strong currents never stopped me I continue with a steady paddle Upstream I go I maintain my balance you're obstructing my flow presenting a challenge You're like the iceberg that made the Titanic sink You're like a tumor in the brain affecting the way I think You're like the corn on my pinky toe discomfort from friction like you'll never know You're like the end of the book when I turn the last page In blankness emptiness in nothingness I gaze Don't wrack your brain trying to figure out if I'm worthy of your time Be honest and true to yourself put the

Visiting Ct Members Pages
Hey if you take the time to visit someones profile...why not take the extra 2 seconds to rate them? Does anyone else find the practice of visiting someones profile and not rating them or am I alone on this?

Torn 11/06
I am posting this so everyone knows that life wasnt always a happy thing for me. I use to be dark and depressed on a daily basis. I hated life. Wanted a way out. In the end, I found hope. My happiness comes from a love I never knew was possible. This poem will definitely show where i was and the others put you where I am now. I have went through a lot but where I am now is so much better. Hope you all enjoy. This was wrote in november of last year by the way. Somewhere along the way, I became torn. Like the page from a book, the most important one missing. I became me, who I am today, because of being torn. Is it too hard for you to understand? This is me, a HOLLOW shell that once use to be full of love and joy and happiness. Where did it all go wrong? I ask myself the same question. It didnt go wrong. This was meant to be for me. I am a human. Made to feel what I feel. Its okay. Im okay. NOT really that o

Un Owned Yet Again
You know breaking up in any situation is never easy. And one would think when your not inlove it would be easier, but it isn't. My Master broke the cardnal sin of D/s,, he broke the bonds of trust and now I am once again a free agent. I will take sometime off to regroup,for me the hardest part is that deep emotional attachment that I felt we had when we scened together. Well and of course the scenes themselves. He may not have been the worlds most perfect Dom, but he was good enough for me, and I appreciated everything about him. AHHHHH life goes on. So send me some love and help me get over this emotional speed bump. Hugs and kisses, whips and candlewax to you all. angelmyst

Things I Hate About Ct
I've noticed (in the few short days I've been here) some things that I reeeeeaaallllyyy hate about CT. Ok let's start with the girls who seem to think they need to put alluring words in their nicknames. News flash Cupcake, you look like your mommy and daddy dont feed you, eat a f'cking sandwich you bone then maybe you'll live up that porn star name you're sporting. And then there's the girls who, for some unknown reason feel the need to pose with their fat ugly boobs/ass pressed against the cam.......ok sorry I threw up in my mouth a little just thinking about it. I'm ok now. Your fat boobs and your fat ass are NOT pretty. Put some clothes on and try to show us some personality there Slim. What's on the inside is more important then what's on the outside but c'mon! You're scaring people away.....sorry threw up in my mouth again. =( Ok now seriously, GUYS. What on God's green Earth makes you think that anyone cares how talented your tongue is? Most of the ones who are spewing this VER

Never Been To Me
Hey lady, you lady, cursing at your life You're a discontented mother and a regimented wife I've no doubt you dream about the things you'll never do But, I wish someone had talked to me Like I wanna talk to you Oh, I've been to Georgia and California and anywhere I could run I took the hand of a preacher man and we made love in the sun But I ran out of places and friendly faces because I had to be free I've been to paradise but I've never been to me Please lady, please lady, don't just walk away 'Cause I have this need to tell you why I'm all alone today I can see so much of me still living in your eyes Won't you share a part of a weary heart that has lived million lies.... Oh, I've been to Niece and the Isle of Greece while I've sipped champagne on a yacht I've moved like Harlow in Monte Carlo and showed 'em what I've got I've been undressed by kings and I've seen some things that a woman ain't supposed to see I've been to paradise, but I've never been to me Hey, you

Let It Snow!!
So far, we have a foot of snow! With more on the way, so I am told. I'll have plenty of online time, I see, lol! It is beautiful, though! I'd rather have snow than cold any day. Just have to get out the snow boots again, lol. Can't tell you how tickled I am that my niece finally made it to CT! She is my namesake (her middle name is Margaret) and has inherited my sense of adventure and tendency to get into trouble, lol! Love her to death! And I won't even start on the Divas, lol!! They are my little belly dancing partners; and the ones who practically rip my shirt off to see my tattoos, lmao! They are such smart little sweethearts! I'll stop gushing, now. Hope everyone is enjoying the family/past life companion pic album. I know I am, lol!! Diva and Daddy are also past life companions of mine, wouldn't you just know it, lol! But they have a hard and fast rule of NO RIPPING! I understand and agree wholeheartedly. Just wanted everyone to know that they are included in spirit, if not

The Knock
The Knock Rap rap rapping at my door I wonder who could this be I love no more My heart is dry as the desert sand But could this be she brings rain with a touch of her hand Her beauty is like no other I’ve seen I know what this is it must be a dream But I’m awake I’ve been awake for hours How can this be especially a heart of stone guy like me Ah a mystery…. A woman who can mean so much to me But what shall I do Shall I open the door and chance getting hurt once more Or to play it safe and pace the floor And to love, to love never more

Redneck Love Poem
Redneck Love Poem Kudzu is green, My dog’s name is Blue And I’m so lucky, To have a sweet thang like you. Your hair is like cornsilk, A-flappin’ in the breeze. Softer than Blue’s And without all them fleas. You move like a bass, Which excites me in May. You ain’t got no scales, But I luv you anyway. You have all your teeth, For which I am proud; I hold my head high When we’re in a crowd. Still them fellers at work, They all want to know, What I did to deserve, Such a purty, young doe. Like a good roll of duck tape, Yo’re there for your man, To patch up life’s troubles, And stick’em in the can. Yo’re as strong as a four-wheeler, Racin’ through the mud, Yet fragile as that singer, Named Naomi Judd. When you hold me real tight, Like a padded gunrack, My life is complete; Ain’t nuttin’ I lack. Yore complexion, it’s perfection, Like the best vinyl sidin’. Despite all the years, Yore age keeps on hidin’. And when you get old, Like a ’

New Love
when i look into your eyes i see the reflection of what love should be. not a joke or a lie.. but real love the kind that is sent from the angels above. my love for u is real.. though i only found it just today my darling i am praying that u will never go away. Sexy & Romantic glitter graphics from www.sexiluv.com

This Is Weird
talked to the bf today... well ex bf now. he took it really well and said he had been thinking we would probably be better off working on our problems on our own for a while. so... who wants to be my new boyfriend? shall i have a contest?

Leaving For Indiana
Hey Everyone... I figured I needed to get in and drop you all a quick line, and let you know I'll be gone for a couple of days. We're leaving later to head for Indiana. The funeral for Lee's cousin is on Monday. It will be late when we arrive tonight, maybe even early am, depending on what time we get out of here today. lee is wanting to try and get out early, but just not sure how early, or if that will even be possible. We could be ready to leave by 4, or we may not get on the road till after 7. Either way, it is a very long trip, and it's pouring rain here now, which I hate to drive in. I sure hope by the time we get on the road, the rain has stopped. Blood work is not in, but the coroner has ruled the death a suicide. Needless to say the entire family is in shock. Death is sometimes hard enough to deal with, but when the one you love, deliberatly does something that will hurt the very ones they claim to love, is very difficult to understand. Naturally, everyone

Rawr.
It hurts :( And im not very happy. Rawr. Im hungry. So the pain has eased a little bit, but not that much, i wish it would just go away. I can walk a little bit better with the crutches now, but im not suppose to be doing any movement at all really because it'll just make it worse. ♥ ♥ ♥ Anyway, thats my update for the moment. Rate this blog please :)

Nothing But You And Me
11:40 AM - Hunger For Your Flesh Current mood: indescribable Category: Writing and Poetry Nothing between us but skin Heat pricks at our senses. Your hands within in my hair passion tears down my defenses.Your lips move upon my legs sending shivers up my spine. Even more drugged I find myself on this intoxicating wine.Desire drips from our lips as sweat runs down our backs.Our skin slides against skin.Trembling muscles quake as ecstasy takes control, as whimpers and moans escape my lips as you gently caress my soul.Gentle kisses rain upon my face, as our legs relax and interwine still feeling the effects of being drunk on this sexual wine.

One Flaw
This was sent to me in a comment by "Anti-Cupid" and I am very happy to share it. While I do not believe that I am really all of these things, for the women who I think are..This would be for them. One Flaw In Women Women have strengths that amaze men. They bear hardships and they carry burdens, but they hold happiness, love and joy. They smile when they want to scream. They sing when they want to cry. They cry when they are happy and laugh when they are nervous. They fight for what they believe in. They stand up to injustice. They don't take "no" for an answer when they believe there is a better solution. They go without so their family can have. They go to the doctor with a frightened friend. They love unconditionally. They cry when their children excel and cheer when their friends get awards. They are happy when they hear about a birth or a wedding. Their hearts break when a friend dies. They grieve at the loss of a family member, yet they are strong when th

Icestorm 2007
Due to the huge ass icestorm we are getting, I keep losing power. So dont think I am ignoring you. It just means Im sittin here with no electricity. Man, the shit we take for granted. Iowa is a fun state, dont like the weather?..wait 10 minutes, it'll change!...Love ya all!

The Side Bar
I keep all my thoughts Every feeling I earn It is all Written down On pages And napkins Or envelopes Whatever happens To be around You will get to Know me Understand All that I Think As soon as you Learn To decipher Invisible Ink

Life And Love
well here i sit all alone once again wishing despitley to know when the blanket of sadness is going to come off for good! looking into the dark wondering if your ever going to come home..... when you do i sit in pain with a tear streamed face and a smile pressed firmly on my lips afraid to show to much... will i ever know whats it like to be happy or am i doomed to be here forever.

My Feelings
ok i don't understand ppl i ran in to this one guy on here and i was checkin out his pic's and he had a whole bunch of white power nazi pic's and i checked out his profile a lil more and this guy had all kinds of rap music like 50 cent,jibbs,and alot more so i desided 2 shout him just 2 ask whats up and all he could say is who said i was a racist but he had a pic that said parental advisory fucking racist and he had a pic of a gorilla with a red banddana a blunt and a beer with thug life writin across it's chest i don't know about the rest of you but that seems kind of racist 2 me well anyways he proceded 2 tell me that he is a equal oppertunity racist but 2 me that just sounds like a cracker that is guilty about how he feel's or one that is afraid of ppl knowing the truth im no racist by no means (well just racist agienst racist ppl)but if have the ball's 2 put up white power and nazi pic's u shuold have the ball's 2 admite your a racist cracker so everyone knows were your coming from

Update On My Pa
well news as it is is that my father is going in for radiation in the next week or two....apparently five days for five weeks.......grrrrrrrr why does bad always happen to the good...says he don't want nobody commin up till things are a lil more settled, which yeah i can understand, not like he don't have fam up that way to help him out but sure wish i cld b there through the tough times to help....guess all i can do is hope for the best for now *pouts*

Catholic Girls
Catholic girls in heaven ........ A train hits a bus filled with Catholic school girls and they all perish. They are in heaven trying to enter the pearly gates when St. Peter asks the first girl, " Tiffany, have you ever had any contact with a male organ? She giggles and shyly replies, "Well, I once touched the head of one with the tip of my finger." St. Peter says, " Okay, dip the tip of your finger in the Holy Water and pass through the gate." St. Peter asks the next girl the same question, "Jennifer, have you ever had any contact with a male organ?" The girl is a little reluctant but replies, "Well, once I fondled and stroked one." St. Peter says, " Okay, dip your whole hand in the Holy Water and pass through the gate." All of a sudden, there is a lot of commotion in the line of girls. One girl is pushing her way to the front of the line. When she reaches the front, St. Peter says, "Reeva, What seems to be the rush?" The girl replies, "If I'm going to

Animated Gif Tutorial
How To Make An Animated Gif Like Mine! I made my animated Gif using Ulead Gif Animator 5.05 which I got as part of my purchase of Ulead's PhotoImpact 10 a couple of years ago. Link: http://www.ulead.com/ I still like Ulead Gif Animator 5.05 because it does all I need it do and more. But if you just beginning and want something to play around with there is a Free option available! Beneton Movie GIF 1.1 Link: http://software.benetonfilms.com/Beneton_Movie_GIF.php Once you've got Beneton Movie Gif downloaded, installed and started up – all you need to do is add pictures, set the delay times and save your animated Gif! Here are the pictures for my animation: Click on “Add frame(s) from a file” and add your pictures one by one: Until all your pictures have been added to the animation: Now set the Delay timing for each Frame by Right-Clicking and selecting “Change Delay”: Timings are set in 100ths of a second so a setting of 100

Spring.
Spring mean a new beginning and end to winter's cold a rebirth to all the beauty that Mother Nature holds They say that love grows new in spring I hold that is true and a new love comes along in the form of you I'd take you by the hand and without uttering a sound throw you on the bed and make love to you passionatly and loud Wake you in the morning with a soft and tender kiss and look to see the smile on your face as you awaken from you peaceful bliss.

Once Again...
For those of you kind enough to have read my 'deleted' blog of late last night, I thank you for taking the time to read, comment, console, bitch at and generally MAKE my mood a bit better. My connection is a bit spotty this evening as a few tornadoes have hit the state and even my cell service has been interrupted. Hopefully the bad weather is over for now. There are about 500 National Guard troops heading to the affected areas and soon should have things under control. Soooooo, that's me in a nutshell I guess. (and by the way... my mood HAS improved considerably. I've even started watching the cartoon network again which provides me with some much needed, mindless entertainment-thank you my friend:P)))))))) G'night all.

Canceled
We were going to go to the swing club last weekend, but decided we'd rather go to the Mardi Gras party there tonight. They had a pipe burst in the building, so the party tonight was canceled. Then we decided to go see the sneak preview of the movie Wild Hogs at our local theater. After forcing our way through the rain and traffic we found that it was sold out when we got to the ticket counter. It's going to be a slow weekend...

Her Smile
I can't remember the color of her hair sometimes her voice gets lost in the echos of my mind the beauty of her eyes fades again with time the tenderness of her touch eludes me more each day that taste of her kiss gone too the smell of her perfume lost in the wind hoping someday to smell that smell again But the is one thing etched into my mind a beauty everlasting as wide as a mile for the one thing I remember is the beauty of HER SMILE.

Dont Ya Hate
when you hear a song , and you CANT stop listening to it?? I think Ive been listening to this song pretty much every time Im on my computer ..and Its all Quicks fault ..damn you , thanks for introducing me to it :p I think its the lyrics that got me hooked "A day To Be Alone" By "One Less Reason" She said I wonder when it'll be my day 'Cause I'm not too far from breaking down And all I got are screams inside But somehow they come out in a smile And I'm wondering if I'll always feel this way, this way Tell me about those nights you stayed awake Tell me about those days you hated me Tell me how you'd rather die alone Than being stuck here with me And maybe you've fallen down And maybe you took the long way home But baby you could never love you like me And one day this will fade away In the mirror you'll see a smiling face And standing next to you will always be me, be me One day you're gonna see things my way You gave me so much room that I can't brea

Wtf Is Wrong Tonight... Grr
Something is wrong with me tonight and I have to talk it out in writting in order for me to make heads or tales of whats going on in my head and why I feel so very sad tonight... this happens from time to time and it really suck! Some people have everything; a job/source of income, a great family, friend galore, and people that really love them. I have none of that it seems! I have no job and I really want one because I hate being bored and stuck at home all the time; my family is disrespectful 90% of the time and even though I care about them there are times I just wish they wouldnt open their mouths; my friends don't exist, sure I have people I talk to on here but to call them friends I wouldn't; and I really don't feel as if anyone loves me or ever will, like nobody cares to show it untill I go beyond the point of needing, like past the need of help! My life fucking blows! There are people in this world that need to learn what the word NO means! So I had an unwanted unneeded un

Why???
WHY IS THIS HAPPENING TO ME NOW?? WHY COULD U NOT HAVE BEEN HERE BEFORE? NOW I HAVE U COMING AFTER ALL THIS TIME KNOCKING ON MY DOOR.. BEGGING TO COME BACK INTO MY WORLD BEGGING TO COME BACK TO MY HEART. GOD TELL ME PLEASE WHAT DO I DO? THIS IS TEARING ME ALL APART. I HAVE SOMEONE.. HE IS MY WORLD HE IS THE PRINCE OF MY HEART NOW U COME TO ME TRYING TO MAKE A NEW START? WHY DO U LOVE ME? AFTER ALL THIS TIME.. U LEFT ME FOR ANOTHER WITHOUT REASON OR RHYME. U THINK THAT I WILL FORGET? U THINK THAT I WILL COME BACK? I HAVE A MAN IN MY LIFE NOW.. HAS UR TRAIN JUMPED THAT TRACK? GO ON WITH UR LIFE.. FIND SOMEONE NEW BECAUSE THERE WILL NEVER BE ANYWAY THAT I WILL COME BACK TO U.

Fuk Those Bitches
All those chicks that are scamming off of welfare those hoes with 8 kids complaining about not getting any when they treat people like shit those bitches who never call when they don't care ones who have brothers but they don't even say hello when they cut you off in traffic and don't even give a shit on the cell phone with you and can't even give you the time of day when your in line at the store and they say they are in a hurry and go in front my ex girlfriends who left cause im not ready the ones on drugs who blame it on society who have my messenger and don't write to me who are too busy but are on here who don't give a fuck and skip my blogs the ones who like attention but don't give any who wear those big sun glasses in the middle of winter who think paris hilton is a trend setter fuck em all ~Timmy~

Just A Note
hold your breath stop and stare looking out there at who knows where.... hold on tight the ride has just begun life if wonderful and full of fun but just a note don't go to fast or you might get hurt take it slow...... and guard your heart for boys will break it from the start trust them you must it's the only way but don't be mad at the next one that comes your way he could be the one who show you that love can be fun... so walk little one never run and if you should fall just remember i will there to help you stand up and stare out in the world to who knows where

.............
*sigh* hours and hours im delete people on my friend list and I still am doing it.. meh I am not here to contest to being popluar. I am here to make friend but seem no good .. if you want me keep you.. message me or I will delete you in less 3 - 7 days... you may hate me cuz I am bitch but look at mirror

Loves Blade
I wrote this a couple weeks ago and every word is true. When life's pain is so overwhelming, and there's no where to turn, something that makes the pain stop, can almost take your life. It's too intense, so much pain It slices deep, just above the vein Emotional tourment, fills every space Physical discomfort, takes it's place For just one second, all is right Pulled from the endless darkness, night And yes, I was pulled from the endless darkness. I don't know why or if I'm happy or mad that I was. Everything is raw and numb right now.

More Stalking (nsfw) From: You Dont See Me (by: Graceli Kopanyi)
I stayed late tonight because it seemed like a good idea at the time. After all, I did get everything done that I had set my mind to. But as I was walking to the parking deck in the middle of the night, I found myself questioning my judgment. Each step I took echoed in my head as well as in the parking deck. Feeling more and more uneasy by the second, I rushed to the elevator, the feeling of indescribable panic had me refusing to enter the darkened- well poorly lit anyway- stairwell. Ashamed of my paranoia I entered the empty elevator and rode up the four floors that I knew I could have easily walked. As the doors opened, I saw my car immediately, it was, after all, the only one left on this level. I assure myself that there was no one out there, that my unease was due to living in the city. This was a really nice area, not once had I seen an unsavory news story about a woman being attacked in this part of town, well except for what Diego did to me, but he was locked up, no one wan

The Last Day.....
Ok, so here I am at 4:22 A.M. on Cherry Tap, writing about my feelings! Right now I feel pretty crappy. No actualy I would have to say it is more like pretty shitty! I just came home from the last night of my club being open. I kept thinking we could make it work, but there just is no way. I will miss it alot. It was my dream..... I do not know if it is better to have a dream and actualy get a taste of it and to feel that dream, or to never have known what it was like at all. I will miss Midnight Blue so very much. I will miss the regular faces that started to become a "family" to me. I will miss all the good, and the bad. I had my dream.....if only for a little while.

All The Small Foods (remix To All The Small Things - By Blink 182) By Dj C51 Girl Aka Jo Jo
All the small foods, that tast so good! I'll take one bite, it tastes so right. Chew it, Swallow it in my tummy... its a good thing. Eat it, then shit, better than, eating clit. Say it ain't so, I will not starve. Turn the oven on, make muffins in my thong *CHORUS* (repeat x2) Nu, nu, nu, nu, nu, nu, nu, nu, nuffins! Mu, mu, mu, mu, mu, mu, mu, mu, muffins! Late night, so stoned. Work succed, you know. She left me muffins. by the stairs. Surprises let me know she cares! Say it ain't so, I will not starve! Turn the oven on, make muffins in my car. (*CHORUS*) *BRIDGE* Say it ain't so, I will not starve. Make some good muffins, standing in my lawn. Keep your mouth chewin' At the dining room table. And eat muffins, all day long!!! (*CHORUS* & *BRIDGE*)- (Repeats & Overlaps)

I Wish You Enough
I Wish You Enough Recently, I overheard a father and daughter in their last moments together at a regional airport. They had announced her departure and standing near the security gate, they hugged and he said, "I love you. I wish you enough." She in turn said, "Daddy, our life together has been more than enough. Your love is all I ever needed. I wish you enough, too, Daddy." They kissed and she left. He walked over toward the window where I was seated. Standing there, I could see he wanted and needed to cry. I tried not to intrude on his privacy, but he welcomed me in by asking,"Did you ever say goodbye to someone knowing it would be forever?" "Yes, I have," I replied. Saying that brought back memories I had of expressing my love and appreciation for all my Dad had done for me. Recognizing that his days were limited, I took the time to tell him face to face how much he meant to me. So I knew what this man was experiencing. "Forgive me for asking, but why is this a forever

Does Anyone Really Care? Haha
I am scared of dying. I am scared that I will never be as thin as I want to be. I am scared that I will never quit smoking. I am scared of being hurt. I am scared that I will never accomplish anything in my life. I am scared that I will always be broke. I am scared of anything that can sting me. I am scared that no one will ever love me the way I want them to. I am scared of confrontation. I am scared everytime I get into my car that I'm going to get into another accident. I am scared of being a disappointment. I am scared that I will never find true happiness. I am scared of being forgotten. Things I hate: Being cold, getting cut off in traffic when there's absolutely no one behind me, peas, the word jot, spiders, most pork products, being this close to finishing my shower when the water turns into ice, Phil Collins, most rap music, loud children, the fact that I'm not a size 7 anymore, snobs, scalloped potatoes, doing dishes, being hungry half an hour after eating Chinese food,

Naughty..naughty
She whispered "will it hurt me?" "Of course not" answered he "It's a very simple process, You can rely on me." She said "I'm very frightened, I've not had this before. My friend has had it five times And said it can be sore." It was growing rather painful Tears formed in her eyes It was hurting quite a bit now It must have been a size. "Calm yourself" he whispered "His face filled with a grin "Try and open wider So I can get it in." "It's coming now" he whispered "I know" she cried in bliss Feeling it deep within her now She said "I am glad I'm having this." And with a final effort She gave a frightened shout He gripped it in anguish And quickly pulled it out. She lay back quite contended Sighed and gave a smile She said "I'm glad I came now You made it worth my while." Now if you read this carefully The dentist you will find Is not what you imagined It's just your dirty mind!!

Married & Commited Men Read This.
if you're married or in a commited/serious relationship. please, please don't call me sweet little names and try to hit on me. don't try to talk to me in any other way than as a friend. it pisses me off. i don't fuck with people's boyfriends or husbands. i show women respect. the same respect that i would like to be shown. i really hate to be a bitch or sound like one, but i can't help but to feel strongly about this.

Cinderella
Cinderella wants to go to the ball more than anything.(you know the story) So all the sudden the fairy God mother appears and says she will make it so cinderella can go to the ball. The fairy god mother says to Cinderella "the only thing is you have to be back home by midnight or i will turn your pussy into a pumpkin!" So cinderella agrees and goes to the ball, she is having a great time and loses track of time. Before she knows it, its after midnight. The fairy god mother appears and says "cinderella i told you what would happen if you werent back my midnight....so POOOOOOF! all the sudden cinderellas pussy turns into a pumpkin.....The fairy god mother turns to cinderellas date and says "What do you think of that? He replies thats ok because im peter peter the pumkin eater!......HAHA

This Week Is The Worst
my mom called me crying last night saying that dad threw away her medicine (she has a bad back) and then dad got on the phone (in tears) saying that mom had a prescription to zanex that was filled the other day and is gone.... 60 pills... and that she has been acting goofy... like she fell over 3 times friday... and all day yest she was yelling at dad all day like she was going through withdrawls... so i told her i was gonna come down there and get my little brother (who is 13) cause her and dad needed to work this out and he didn't need to be around it and she told me that if i did that she would never talk to me again... but i went down there and got him and last i heard her and my dad were at the er. I just don't know what to do anymore. I know how to help someone with an addiction but this is my mom... This is the worst I have ever seen anyone. i don't think this week could have been any worse

Thanks 2 A Sweetie In My Life
I wanna Say Thanks to someone who means so much to me..... not only for the silver motorcycle, or the ring or the rolex or the other lil things... But just for being here when i need her...sure we have our days but oh well we manage to get through.... but i wanna thank u for being my friend and more... and for those of u who would like..stop by and thank her for an hr of happy hr yesturday. i am sure she would be thrilled.... thank u sweetie... yur the best....... tongue......

Fallen Angel
screaming crying twisting turning slowly dying passions burning fall to my knees on the cold ground as my soul bleeds my voice has no sound tear off my wings wounds start to seep pain starts to sting my heart starts to weep in a world full of lies i am searching for truth forgetting the cries of my innocent youth as i search for release your eyes shine bright and i finally find peace as your arms hold me tight

Husband Wanted
A lonely widow, aged 70, decided that is was time to get married again. She put an ad in the local that read: HUSBAND WANTED: MUST BE IN MY AGE GROUP MUST NOT BEAT ME, MUST NOT RUN AROUND ON ME AND MUST STILL BE GOOD IN BED! ALL APPLICANTS PLEASE APPLY IN PERSON. On the second day she heard the doorbell. Much to her dismay, she opened the door to see a grey-haired gentleman sitting in a wheel chair. He had no arms or legs. "You're not really asking me to consider you, are you?!" the widow said. "Just look at you ... you have no legs!" The old gentleman smiled, "Therefore, I cannot run around on you!" "You don't have any arms either!" she snorted. Again, the old man smiled, "Therefore, I can never beat you!” She raised an eyebrow and asked intently, "Are you still good in bed??" The old man leaned back, beamed a big smile and said, "I rang the door bell, didn't I?" The wedding is scheduled for Saturday.

My Friends
I have such great friends that care and see that if i am in trouble come and help me when i need them. And I couldnt make it without them. To all my friends this is for u... Dionne Warwick Videos | Music Videos | San Antonio Homes For Sale

My Song
Pledge Your Allegiance [Louiche Mayorga/Mike Muir] ST... ST... ST... ST... I never said I don't like religion, I just don't like TV You say I got a bad attitude, around you that comes naturally You say I need more compassion, I can forgive, I just can't forget You say control my temper, but when I feel like shit, I feel like shit Cause I was born to be-ST! And it'll always be-ST! Don't get down on me-ST! Cause I'm down OG-ST! Why can't I ask any questions of what you say is true Am I supposed to believe anything or just everything said by you? And how can you call me stupid when you don't understand what I say And how can you call me evil, have you spoken to God today; and what did He say? Cause I was born to be-ST! And it'll always be-ST! Don't get down on me-ST! Cause I'm down OG-ST! Not afraid to die-ST! Just you promise me-ST! You got to carry on-ST! You gotta carry on-ST! As long as your heart beats...pledge your allegiance! ST... ST..

Weekend
Quiet weekend since David was not here. Friday nigth Satmorning I felt sick so kinda laid around doing nothing. Cleaned the house Sat afternoon and went to bed early. Sunday.. church and then home before the snow got too bad. Of course the storm was a flop..lol. Guess I will do some work tonight. Exciting life huh? Feeling like everything I do or say is wrong lately. So I have been leaving and going off to think without saying bye. Sorry if I was rude to anyone. I need a nice long vacation.

What Color Is Your Aura?
cellspacing=0 cellpadding=2> Your Aura is Orange You're a bit of a loner, but you're never lonely. You know how to entertain yourself. Whether you're trying an extreme sport or a new weird food, you always live on the edge. The purpose of your life: testing limits - both physical and mental... and then telling people about it. Famous oranges include: Timothy Leary, David Blaine, Tony Hawk, Carey Hart Careers for you to try: Snowboarder, Circus Performer, Undercover Agent What Color Is Your Aura?

$100 For The Happy Hour?
are they for real? I can't believe people are actually dishing out money for this. I can't believe it really costs $100...but I guess people are stupid enough to waste their money on something so worthless. I can't believe they can jump from the prices of the blasts to $100 for ONE HOUR either. I keep thinking it's just a typo...guess not.

Tattoo Contest
HELP ME OUT EVERYONE!!! I'M IN A CONTEST FOR BEST TATTOO!! COMMENT BOMBING IS ALLOWED AND GREATLY APPRECIATED!!! I ALWAYS TRY TO HELP OUT OTHERS SO I'M HOPING I GET SOME LOVE BACK!!! http://cherrytap.com/viewimage.php?u=298532&i=136258788

Pussy Playing With Pussy!
This is how happy I am! I just wanted to thank Lady D for the 7 day damn Blast...good God woman! Want to say hey to the new Cherries that has recently been added. Hey, you asked, now you have to deal with shit like this. Or untill you remove me...all good! Again, thanks Lady D and more ramblings coming soon, or when something or someone pisses me off!

Away
TO ALL MY FRIENDS, I WILL BE AWAY FOR THE NEXT WEEK, MY FAMILY HAD DEATH THIS PAST FRIDAY, THANK YOU TO ALL HAS SHOWED ME AN MY FAMILY MUCH LOVE , THATS MEANT THE WORLD YOU HAVE REALLY TOUCHED MY HEART HUGGES AN KISS RUBIA THANK YOU

Rate, Fan And Add
Well, i am posting this to my friends. Do to the fact i have some ROCKIN people on my list. My wife is falling into the I hate CT because its full of fakes or stalkers. LOL Or most of her friends are never on. So if you can hit her up shes a nut case like me! http://www.cherrytap.com/user/628967

A Saturday Night With Miss Cindee And Wimsey . . .
Oh what an interesting night it was clubbing with Wims last evening! The night started with my phone ringing constantly while I was trying to get ready. Wims asked “Why do you answer it”? My answer – because as much as I love my friends, they can be annoying and it is like they know when I am home and when I am not and they will keep calling until I do answer. Prime example, my friend Jenn who called to say “I wish I could go out with you guys tonight. This sucks! Have a good time!” I spoke to her on Friday and she said the same identical thing! Bald spot from ripping my hair out! It also was one of those “I hate my hair! I hate my make-up! I hate my clothes!” nights . After 7 top changes and deciding that it was too cold to wear the strappy, open toed heels I was going to wear, I chose a pink, lower cut top (actually, it is the one I am wearing in the one pic of me on here, with my head to the side) and the most uncomfortable black vinyl ankle boots I own, because yo

Reflecting
JUST SITTING HERE TODAY AND REFLECTING ON THE PAST YEAR OF MY LIFE.. SITTING HERE SEEING HOW IT HAS CHANGED ALL FOR THE GOOD... BEEN THROUGH A LOT IN MY 35 YRS OF LIFE BUT I BELIEVE I FINALLY HAVE CONTROL ON WHAT, HOW AND WHERE I WANT MY LIFE TO GO...WELL AT LEAST I HOPE... AM I HAPPY? SURE MOST DAYS... AM I SAD? SOME DAYS DAMN STRAIGHT I AM..BUT, I FINALLY FIGURED OUT IT'S WHAT MAKES YOU WHO YOU ARE...IT'S MADE ME A STRONGER,BRIGHTER,SMARTER AND A MORE FRIENDLIER PERSON... I'VE MADE TONS OF NEW FRIENDS THIS PAST YEAR AND I AM HAPPY THAT I DID...THERE ARE SOME THAT WE CLICKED RIGHT OFF THE BAT AND IT'S LIKE WE HAVE KNOWN EACH OTHER FOR YEARS INSTEAD OF DAYS,WEEKS OR EVEN MONTHS BUT, I WOULD NEVER TRADE THOSE FRIENDSHIPS IN FOR ANYTHING IN THE WORLD...YOU GUYS ARE THE ONES THAT MAKE IT EASY TO BE ME...AND THAT'S ALL YOU HAVE EVER WANTED AND IT'S THE ONLY THING I COULD/WOULD EVER GIVE... SO IN CONCLUSION ALL I WANT TO SAY YES, I'M ANOTHER YEAR OLDER AND ANOTHER YEAR WISE

Wtmf!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WHAT THE MOTHER FUCK!!!!!!!!!! Some asshole just swinging by my page and rating my shit a 1. If that asshole reads this, I hope to God that your whole fucking family dies, and you are left alone for the rest of your miserable fucking life. Keep rating, you discarded foreskin, you'll get yours soon enough.

The Bouncer Maffia Do It Again
I really went through a great effort to take these pictures. I created a card with my screen name and user name, I place my screen page in the back ground and took the best pictures I could all on my own, but it was not good enough since the background was not showing... I assume that is what happened since the assholes didn't even care to tell me exactly what was wrong with the picture, they just sent the impersonal rejection note. I send them a very nasty comment, which I doubt they will care to read, but if I am no longer here tomorrow you will know why. See my pictures for yourself on my default folder and judge, thank you for listening to my angry rambling, Carlos

Cast Your Votes For Nikki
HELP A FELLOW CHERRY TAPPERS' DREAM COME TRUE!!! VOTE for me, Nicole Haines at Maria's Angels Model Search. NO Registering, NO E-Mail address, & NO Comments NEEDED. Takes about 1 minute. VOTE now, Contest ends March 1st. Please VOTE EVERYDAY, EVERYDAY, EVERYDAY... Click on the BANNER right below & VOTE for Nicole H. THANK YOU!!! (repost of original by '~ Nikki H ~' on '2007-02-25 19:02:42')

To My Sexy Cowboy
~I think about you at night~ I think about being wrapped in your arms, feeling you holding me tight. Crawling under covers, lights go out exploring with hands feeling every part of your body Lips replace hands, soft kisses follow Feeling you tremble, seeing you smile hearts beating faster, knowing its time kissing, touching, tempting, joining stopping to look, seeing the love moving slowly, not wanting to end going faster, not wanting to stop short of breath, sweat dripping grabbing, holding tight ultimate release touching, smiling, loving

Most "mummers" Are Turds
This will come as a shock to you... but not every mumm can be about you, or meet your criteria of what a mumm should be. Because you're a turd. Really. A large turd. You're not clever, interesting or amusing. You're just angry and mildy retarded and you smell weird. Hell, even this blog entry isn't about you but you will think it is or should be.

On The Horizon
I see Darkness ahead I'm getting scared. You know me,I DON'T get scared. Not easily,at least. The Seals are breaking, The world is dying. I'm almost awake now. God,help us all. I DON'T want this! I don't want blood on my hands. Mother,why must I kill, To save a world? I keep hearing the dead. Before they are dead. All of ye,I see cold,and still. Maybe I'm dead,too. What does one do, When the hero is YOU, Yet you've already fallen, Fallen to the Darkness? I DON'T want this! I don't wanna hear the screams anymore. Father,I'm not a weapon. Right? Someone save me, Save me from myself. Save me from what I'm becoming. And by doing so,save yourselves as well. The dead tell me things,you see. They tell me of wars on the Other Side. Of how not even death is a sanctuary,not anymore. God,save us all. I CAN'T stop this! We're all damned,damned in flames. My love,why can't I be a healer? What the hell AM I? I see Darkness,everywhere now. Not ev

For All My Friends
Sexy & Romantic glitter graphics from Sexi Luv.com it seems i messed up with a recent contest i was in i some how though i had to go to 10 000 pts to win a contest but im told i go to wed now and well i am not sure how i got that 10 000 pts to win so i have made a mistake and all my friends backing me and helping me out omg thank u so much i love u all for that it was awesome...it was a lil crazy just commenting like that haha..and to RAE ur the bomb girl u and ur recruits..now dam it i owe u some real dam drinks..cant wait to hit up the peg..wahooooooo and i cant believe i am over the 10 000 pt mark now wahoooooooooooo lol haha so i just keep winning in my own dam head lmao IMAGINE THAT A BROWN GIRL STILL WINNING THE CONTEST...

I Found The One
I have been on ct since dec. 26th and finally met the girl of my dreams. She took my heart the first day I met her nd no one else is going to take that away. She has a heart of gold and I knew right from the start that it would be forever when she first said hello and me and her have many things in common as well and I will be with this person till the day I die. I love her so much that there are times i cry my self to sleep wanting to be by her side but cant right now but will be soon.

I Dare You
And so it came to pass, I was not the first, I was not the last. I came with my army of flame, And burned the gold of god’s wall, For I was one who held no blame, But glory was not enough, I wanted it all. My army scorched the angel’s homes, And set the fire to the sky, And with my hands I broke God’s bones, And then I watched him die. But heaven was not that great, And so I rode to hell, My legions following through Lucifer’s gate, Then this story was born to tell, For it must have been coincidence, Satan rode out towards me, And I did not ask forgiveness. And my army was driven to the sea. And avenging angels, joined their might, They had survived the burning fire, And then killed me within the night, And burned my body on my pyre. Then after Heaven cried with sadness, At the death of their saviour, And I was condemned to madness. Forever on my best behaviour. Satan returned to flame, And I watched with glee, You my friend shall

All Of You
All of You It's you to me, in whole, I ask you give. When you feel like screaming, I want to hear. You can tell me when you no longer wish to live. Tell me what you feel when life brings you tears. When you need love, take me into you. Let your tears fall on me when you cry. When you're tired, drag me down, too. When you're blind, close my eyes. Hurt me when you feel pain, kill me when you are dead, walk with me in the rain, and remember every word I said. In life and in death give me all of yourself.

My Ct Hubby, Oifsapper (roger) Is On His Way!!!
Sometimes, people just "click" and then they want to see what happens next. Roger is probably the best thing that has happened to me in a long while. Ever since I started talking to him, I think we both felt a special connection. He's a very sweet, kind and thoughtful person - that special someone that we all wish we could have in our lives. Fortunately, for me, he's in my life. We have been talking for some time and we have both found that we have more in common than any two people could possibly have. Tuesday, Roger will be leaving MN to come visit me here in FL. I am truly excited about meeting him and seeing what our reaction to each other will be. We hit it off on here, so after much conversation, we decided we wanted to see where this friendship could lead. Who knows??? :) Personally, I can't wait to find out.

Pretty F*cked Up Weekend
Seeing as how no one will prolly read this, I'll quickly summarize my weekend: I got a stomach virus, my printer took a crap, I threw up twice, me and one of my friends got into a fight, I nearly killed myself, I got like two hours of sleep last night, cops came knocking on my door, and I woke up this morning to someone rating my profile a 1. Yeah, I say my weekend sucked. How was yours?

Lost Heart
~~Lost Heart~~ THE PAIN I H0LD iNSiDE IS UNBERABLE I TRy T0 H0LD BACK MY TEARS I TRY T0 H0LD BACK MY FEARS, BUT AT THE END 0F THE DAY WHEN THE R00M IS DARK AND ALL ARE G0NE I FEEL THE EMPTINESS INSIDE... LIVIN THESE LIES AND GIVING THE FAKE THE SMILES I FEEL W0RSE EACH DAY ASKIN MYSELF H0W I CAN BE THIS WAY...I FEEL AS IF I HAVE N0 HEART, 0NLY AN EMPTY SPACE...S0 IASK IF MY HEART IS F0UND PLEASE RETURN IT BACK BECAUSE IT HAS AN 0WNER THAT IS L0ST WiTH0UT iT...

Words Vs Meanings
It can be The hardest word To say Because it only means What they hear No matter what Your intentions It rarely defines Itself clear It is more Than what is spoken Gestures, delivery, tone Timing Belief Faith These elements And more Come into play The hardest of All apologies Is I’m sorry That you feel That way Not much else You can do there And it is all You can say

Unloading
Double standards!! How can you ask someone to do this or that, yet you do whatever the hell you want. Of course, I am always the nice one who keeps the peace and holds up her end of the bargin. Crazy!! My cell phone went off at 4 am this morning. Fun fun. I roll over to answer. I keep running into a former friend. Someone I dated for a hot second. Basically after a multitude of lies,$3,000, his violent temper and his sleeping with a bunch of skanky women, I was finished. I felt he was owed no explanation. I have known him for over 13 years. You think you know someone. Early this morning, I get a call. Barely awake, I hear someone pleading and asking for forgiveness. Hell I didn't know who it was. Finally I ask, who is this and I hear his name and recognize that voice. I apologize and hang up. I can't believe he had the nerve to call. Praying for him is all I can do. Group projects in class. I hate them. I work hard in school and yep I am a nerd. I make the deans list

Why We Are Still Here
Most people in the United States hear some dreadful news everyday when they flip on the television. In the back of their heads they are saying,"Why dont we just turn that place into a parking lot?" There are many reasons why, and I will speak briefly on each reason. The first reason is what the president is saying. If we were to just up and leave this hellhole, we would be in for a world of trouble when they regroup and gain their balance. Right now in Iraq, there are a lot of people that need us and actually work WITH the coalition. The Jundi's of the Iraqi Army are clamoring to learn the ways that we run our military to do a better job for themselves. They need us to train them up better so they can work more efficiently. The next reason for not leaving Iraq is because we have too many foreign interests within this country to just jump and run like scared bitches. There isnt much to explain about this one. The last reason we cannot leave this country is simply this.

Some Days
Some days are better then others I like the rain its raining today the sound of the rain and the garbage truck makes this day sound and look ok, Garbage truck you think, well they pick up the trash and the hood is clean again, then I get to see the rednecks trailer across the street normally roof high in beer cans and bottles his yard is clean again and it makes where I am living a fine and wonderful shit whole yet again. I have always hated Mondays they are a start of something, that can make or break you for the whole week, if you call in sick people leer at you, if you make a mistake then people jump all over it and that mistake seems to follow you until Wednesday , come in hungover and the whole work place yells and screams HEY HAVE FUN THIS WEEKEND...oh fuck off then... I think this country would be better off starting its work week on Tuesday that way people can re cope after the weekend Mondays suck.

What All Happened This Last Week
I am soo glad to be back at home :) last Sunday i finally when to the docs to find out i had strep GRRRR! then Tuesday i had to take my girl into the hospital for surgery. well while under surgery her asthma stared up on her :( so they had her on oxygen when i finally got to go back and see her but she seamed to be doing great she was talking, laughing and just having a good o time. well they keep her up all night Tuesday giving her meds plus treatments and they did an x-ray in her bed that night but she quit talking on Wednesday and she breathing was soo bad they had oxygen at 8. so we when and did some more x-rays on her Wednesday and found out her left lung collapsed. and at this point i was really freaking out. so finally they started dropping her oxygen down on late Thursday afternoon and we finally got her off oxygen 2am Friday and we got to bring her home late Friday afternoon. and now that she is back home she has been eating finally bc she hasn't ate anything in 2 weeks.

Wyoming And Me
It turned ugly that day Tried to hide my heart And run away Will it always be this way I can't see the future No way to say You're beautiful but you're flawed You're desperate but you're strong You're lonely but never alone You're empty, like Wyoming and me It's the nature of things Tried to leave a little Of what you bring Let's all join hands And form a ring Cross your fingers Then we will sing You're beautiful but you're flawed You're desperate but you're strong You're lonely but never alone And you're empty, like Wyoming and me You're beautiful but you're flawed You're desperate but you're strong You're lonely but never alone An you're empty, like Wyoming and me Wyoming and me Wyoming and me Wyoming and me Wyoming and me

Mondays
I think that whoever had the workweek figured out had it backwards. We should work 2 days and have off 5. :) Got an agreement sent out to a client with the changes they wanted, so that should be signed soon with a check coming with it. Sent out a proposal to a second client as well. Finished up one site last night. I should be able to wrap up the changes on 2 others today if all oes well. Busy busy busy. Seems like I am always on here.. But I always have the second computer going making changes there too.. unless I am on the phone. I make too many typos when talking. Have ribs cooking in the kitchen. They are smelling pretty darn good. Should be ready around 6:00 tonight. :) Pluto keeps heading out to see whats smelling so good. Ankle is sore and a bit swollen again today. Kept me up a lot last night. Guess I should go find something to eat for lunch now.

What Poem Are You?
Which poem are you?Jabberwocky by Lewis CarrollOh, you're silly! People probably think you're a bit kooky, but those nuts just don't realize that you've got a language all your own. But hey, you always bring a smile to people's faces.Click Here to Take This QuizBrought to you by YouThink.com quizzes and personality tests.

Liars Suck !!!!
TO THOSE OF YOU WHO WANT TO PICK ON ME, I HAVE NO USE FOR YOU PPL IN MY LIFE AND YOU WANT TO CAUSE TROUBLE AND BE COP CALLERS AND DRUG USERS AND WHAT EVER ELSE IS OUT THERE FOR U TO GET INTO IS NOT MY BUSINESS, BUT IT IS MY BUSINESS WHEN U COME AROUND AND START CALLIN ME NAMES AND GETTING INTO MY BUSINESS .... DO YOURSELF A FAVOUR, STAY OUT OF MY LIFE AND GET ON WITH YOUR OWN ... YOUR A LOSER AND UNTIL U CHANGE THAT ... DONT TALK TOO ME

Well They Have Gone And Done It I Have Been Proven Crazy
fi yuo cna raed tihs, yuo hvae a sgtrane mnid too Cna yuo raed tihs? Olny 55 out of 100 plepoe can it. i cdnuolt blveiee taht I cluod aulaclty uesdnatnrd waht I was rdanieg. The phaonmneal pweor of the hmuan mnid, aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy, it dseno't mtaetr in waht oerdr the ltteres in a wrod are, the olny iproamtnt tihng is taht the frsit and lsat ltteer be in the rghit pclae. The rset can be a taotl mses and you can sitll raed it whotuit a pboerlm. Tihs is bcuseae the huamn mnid deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef, but the wrod as a wlohe. Azanmig huh? yaeh and I awlyas tghuhot slpeling was ipmorantt! if you can raed tihs forwrad it. ONLY FORWARD IF YOU CAN READ THIS!!!!!!!!

Wanted To Share This With Everyone
Did you know that it's Beautiful Women Month? Well, it is and that means you !!! I'm supposed to send this to FIVE BEAUTIFUL WOMEN, and you are one of them !!! (Of course I sent this to more than five). Below is a wonderful poem Audrey Hepburn wrote when asked to share her "beauty tips." It was read at her funeral years later. For attractive lips, speak words of kindness.. For lovely eyes, seek out the good in people. For a slim figure, share your food with the hungry. For beautiful hair, let a child run his/her fingers through it once a day. For poise, walk with the knowledge that you never walk alone. People, even more than things, have to be restored, renewed, revived, reclaimed, and redeemed; never throw out anyone. Remember, if you ever need a helping hand, you will find one at the end of each of your arms. As you grow older, you will discover that you have two hands; one for helping yourself, and the other for helping others. If you share this with another woman, something good w

My Desire Has No Mercy
Enveloped by your embrace Entranced by your scent, your taste My desire has no mercy. Arching beneath you The hands fisted in my hair are my tether to this world The emotions in your eyes are the anchor to my soul As I am being driven screaming towards oblivion's edge Exploding around you Scattering us like seeds in the Wind To which we have thrown all caution and thoughts of Fate.

Anal Adventure
It had been a few days since I heard from Sally. Our initial sexcapades had been intense. I was getting hard just thinking about them. My wife had to head out of town to finish a contract with a customer, so it left me alone. The pool was nice, nude swimming was a favorite on mine. The phone woke me out of my daydreaming. “Hello.” I said. “Hey! What’s up?” Mark said on the other end. “Not much, just hanging.” “Linda gone?” He asked. “Yea, for a few day.” “Well, Sally and I were thinking of stopping by and having some fun in your pool. Do you mind?” “Not at all. I have a few beers in the fridge. Come on over. There is plenty of space.” I answered back. “Sally suggested we pack and overnight bag. I have to head to the office for a few hours tomorrow, but I can come back. Since you and Sally are off, maybe we can make a weekend out of it?” “Sure… Sounds good to me,” I said before I thought about it. “Great, we’ll be over in an hour.” Mark said hanging up the phone. My mind was running. Th

Ayeyayeyayayayay
i need surgery on my shoulder. this sucks because im already having a pretty shitty day and the doctor just called me. what a way to spend my work day. and i didnt even get my fuckin lunch cuz the dumb ass it dudes cant get the computers working right. but i need shoulder surgery. not very interested in it seein how itll be my third on this shoulder since 1999. i hope this doesnt mean that my shoulder is eventually gonna fall off or be useless. but ill be good. im just askin everyone on my friends list to just keep me in your thoughts and hope i come out the same way i went in. well, with a better shoulder. im goin under the knife july 17. i need a drink

I Love You
the following was written just because. 3 years ago i buried 2 of my best friends within 60 days.... i never got to say these things. this is my attempt to do so to everyone else. ____________________________________________________ what happens when the time to live has past what happens when tomorrow has come at last when do we decide that love is enough and we give up on all that other stuff what happens when the truth is no longer evident what happens when we try to be less decadent when do we get back the time we spent rebelling against things that no longer have meaning i love you.. i needed to tell you before tomorrows sun i love you.. i just had to tell you in case tomorrow i die what happens when that last drink is too many what happens when you can't say goodbye when is it too forward to just say 'stay here' and to hold the ones that we love near i just wanted to say i love you.. i needed to tell you in case tomorrow i die i l

Untitled Poem For A Friend
We are good friends Even though we just met each other I think about you And we will be until the end And I think our friendship is one that is so true I had adream About me and you We were having a picnic next to a mountain stream And we watched the clouds in a beautiuful sky of blue We enjoyed the together time I gave you some flowers and a hug dear And I looked into your eyes and told you I would be there for you at a drop of a dime Also that you had nothing to fear I hope you can tell what I say is true And comes from my heart You are there for me and I'm there for you And it has been like that since the start We are good friends Even though we just met each other I think about you And we will be until the end And I think our friendship is one that is so true

My Other Work
I am sure I will scare off a few friends with this. For many years, I have been doing shibari and bondage work. I have been trying to get much better at my ropework. IT takes many years to get good at it. What started as a hobby.. became something interesting. I have always been into photography, since I was 12. I am critical of my work, and like many artists, I am always afraid to show it to outsiders. In the past, I have had websites set up to show some work. I have helped some friends in the adult business with their work. I have always stayed away from that, as I want to show it as art. Someday I will show more.

----- For ----- A Poem.
----- For ----- for she gave of her self, her love to share, with a Man whom she knew, for whom she did Care, withal, the tempest, the passion and flare: yet stayed she by, His need for her clear, and in His turn, yet knowing thus, remained He yet as ever, Aware, her need for Him as plainly bared, For Love that is enwound in two: Unbreakable, and ever Dear. ^Uyraell^. For My beLoved nikki, ^tainted]M[love^ 02/25/2007. Feb 25.

Smart Rednecks Lol
Hello, is this the Sheriff's Office?" > > "Yes. What can I do for you?" > > "I'm calling to report about my neighbor Virgil Smith. He is hiding marijuana inside his firewood!" > > "Thank you very much for the call, sir." > > The next day, the Sheriff's Deputies descend on Virgil's house. They search the shed where the firewood is kept. Using axes, they bust open every piece of wood, but find no marijuana. They sneer at Virgil and leave. > > The phone rings at Virgil's house. > > "Hey, Virgil! This here is Floyd. Did the Sheriff come?" > > "Yeah!" > > "Did they chop your firewood?" > > "Yep!" > > "Happy Birthday, buddy!" > > (Who says rednecks aren't real bright??!)

Da Joy Of Pussy
PUSSY PUSSY PUSSY DAMN PUSY IS A CRAZY THING IT HAVE US MEN GOIN WAY OUT DA WAY JUST TO GET IT SHIT IT HAVE FEMALES DO IT IT YES IT DO YES I SAID IT LOL BUT MY ???? IS HOW DO U LIKE YOUR PUSSY DO U KEEP IT CUT OR IS IT JUST MAD HAIR ALL OVER OR DO U JUST GOT DA LIL L LOOK TO IT LET ME KNOW

The Contest I Am In
I think its bullshit that someone runs a contest then doesnt like that a brown girl is winning so she helps another one to win a male and i could not figure out how he would pass me in points so easily..just goes to show that contests here are bogus...screw the contest and im going to post this blog around..its too bad u cant just win without the person running the contest deciding who should be the winner..no more contests for me..i love cherrytap though cant get rid of me..and i won anyways lol cant beat me by cheating..i thought it was strange u offering me more prizes if i took the points higher..all my friends u have been great thanks for helping me out..as for the one running it..kiss my brown ass girl..i wonnnnnn a long time ago because i have made some real good friends on here..bite me b-----

I Hate It
I really hate it when something doesn't work!!!! I just tried to upload a folder of pics from my twins 1st birthday but it keeps telling me that the pics are all to big to upload. I checked they are only about 4 KB on average!!!!! GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!! Now I am pissed off!!!!!!!!!!! I need to beat something (someone)!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Where is my paddle and bullwhip at!!!!!!???????!!!!!!!

Power Outage !
Sorry all, I haven't been on for a few days cause we've had a snow/ice storm and have had loss of power...it is back on now, but i am getting things ready for the next bit of weather we are expecting in a few days... so i won't be on for a little while like i usually am...don't forget me :) xoxo Ryan

Car, Rain, Getting Dark... What A Fucking Day.
My car is in the shop. It make a ka-thunk sound Friday night when I started the engine, and has been handling badly since. They just called and said they found nothing, which bothers me a lot more than paying for any repairs that might need to be done. The other bothersome part is me needing to walk down there to get my car back. It's been raining off and on all day, and now it's getting dark. I had better get to it.

Can I Be Anymore Fucked Up Than I Am Already!
i have to learn how to let go...i have to learn how to say goodbye...i must leave what will never be...regardless of how i feel...i must train myself not to give in...it's not worth it anymore nor is it healthy...how i forgot who meant something to me...she's 10 blocks away from me and always was my bestfriend...my soul mate...and i'm finally reunited with her...but is it enough i question myself...am i satified fully...or do i want more...do i need more...my problem stems from deep with in...how i become bored with what i have after i've gotten it...the whole chase until the catch is what keeps me going and then it fades...maybe i'm crazy and need therapy...i'm forgetting how to love again...maybe because i've isolated myself so much over the years...i've dehumanized myself...i wish i couldn't feel anything any more and even maybe never meet the people i have recently....i use to say better have loved then never to have loved...i'm beging to think that's a bunch of shit...then again m

Jeff Foxworthy: Upstate New York
Jeff Foxworthy: Upstate New York If you consider it a sport to gather your food by drilling through 36 inches of ice and sitting there all day hoping that the food will swim by, you might live in Upstate New York. If you're proud that your region makes the national news 96 nights a year because Saranac Lake is the coldest spot in the nation, and Syracuse gets more snow than any other major city in the US, you might live in Upstate, NY. If your local Dairy Queen is closed from October through May, you might live in Upstate New York. If you instinctively walk like a penguin for six months out of the year, you might live, bundled up, in Upstate New York. If someone in a Home Depot store offers you assistance, and they don't work there, you might live in Upstate NY. If your dad's suntan stops at a line curving around the middle of his forehead, you might live in Upstate New York. If you have worn shorts and a parka on the same day, you might live in Upstate New York. If y

Geeks=alicia Renee :p
Anthony says im a geek because i can remember all the html color codes, and pretty much a lot of other things, like making layouts, and inserting images etc. :( He says ima geek -sniffle sniffle- And i swear he named this blog that title, argh mean man. I swear it. LOL Not really, i love him like woah beans. =] Any whoot. My ankle still hurts. :( ♥ ♥ Guys do me all a favor, make sure you rate my page and fan me :) =p Oh and please rate this blog for me, id appreciate it :)

Moments Of Time. (poem)
You wanted me Like I wanted you a dozen roses and chocolates for you. Oh so cliche' Would not you say. So typical of a male. Lets change the typical, and do something rare. How about a stroll in the evening Beneath a carpet of stars. How about the sea with crashing waves. Into the water. Our feet to bathe. How about a caress. A simpel hold. No more no less this is the desire. How about your words upon my ear. Just because your voice I long to hear. the time is all I wish to have. To share moments of time here with you.

This Was Wrote For Me Today..i Love It
written by my friend bigboy http://cherrytap.com/user/48303 For me thank u so much i love this..keep them coming oh oh i made a pun lmao wahoooooooooooo Sherry, Please reply with your comments. I love the feedback: Sherry is a girl I had only seen her a few times with my friends. I found Sherry a distraction at times because she had a sexual aura about her as well as a dynamic personality. She had a very sexy look to her that made me excited every time I saw her. She had this killer body that made it hard for any man to resist. You see, she had long, beautiful hair surrounding her stunning eyes and this really cute face. She would look good in anything but when she would come over in a tank top and shorts she had all of my attention that I could give without me drooling like a puppy dog. Sherry had a natural, flirtatious style about her that had me spellbound, yet I had kept my distance out of respect. The news came that she was selling her house and moving 200 miles aw

Friends
BESTEST FRIEND ! When I cry you help me out When I'm happy you hear me shout When I grin you know I'm really mad because you are my best friend You can tell when I'm sad You're there in thick and thin You're my best friend You hear me out when I want to talk You help me out when I get mad You are the bestest friend I've ever had So hear me out when I say You're the light in my day You are the moon in my night You shine very bright You are the bestest friend I have and I miss you

Public Encounters
written for me by bigboy Public encounters can be very erotic. Especially with someone you just meet. The shopping mall I go to has a parking garage where you get a ticket and then pay when you leave. All summer I would happen to come up to the ticket booth where this really hot woman was working. She would flirt with me from time to time and I always made sure I paid my ticket at her booth. Well one day I was at home watching a few erotic videos and having some steamy hot chat conversations online. I was really horny and needed to get laid. That's when I thought about my friend, Sherry, at the mall. I went down there and parked on the top level away from other cars. I then went to the booth where she was working. She said she couldn't really talk to me since cars would pull up every couple of minutes. So I got into the booth and crouched on the floor so the cars could not see me. She thought I was crazy but since it was so boring to sit in the booth all day, she was glad to

For The Haters
yea it is nice to get rated..but for the people that know im going under the knife and want to bad mouth me. get a life.unless the people who have want to tell my kids why daddy came back from war but died in sergery..screw you all..goes back to the fakes i put up beffore and was told was nsfw.to people who have kids over seas you may undersatand to all others screw u all

Will He Walk Away?
Are you afraid of what some may say? Is that why you will walk away? Are you afraid of what’s in front of you? A love very deep, real, and true. Do you see the woman and wish she was a girl? That way all would be perfect in your world. She is everything you needed and wanted Her beauty and being leaves you haunted. You long to stare into her eyes But knowing if you do she will cry. Her lip trembles as she searches your face With her finger your jaw line she will trace. Her cry is screaming in her mind Knowing she will say I love you for the last time. Her heart is breaking to its very core Leaving her feeling battered and sore. As she leaves you sitting there She will turn and into your eyes she will stare. With tears burning her beautiful green eyes Softly she will cry… I am sorry that you are afraid of what’s right in front of you…

Can You Read My Eyes?
CAN YOU LOOK INTO SOMEONES EYES AN FALL FOR THEM? CAN YOU TALK AN KICK IT TILL YOU CANT STOP THINKING ABOUT THEM? CAN YOU NOT NO WHAT YOUR FEELIN BUT NOITS SOMETHING IN THE MAKEIN? SHOULD YOU SET BACK AN LET IT GO AN SEE WHERE IT TAKES YOU? SHOULD YOU STOP IT BECAUSE YOU DONT NO WHAT IT MAY BRING? WHAT DO THE EYES REALLY SAY ? CAN YOU READ MY MINE?

A Perfect Way To End A Shitty Fucking Month
Okay You want to hear why this is a shitty month, I have lost the love of my life, my so called fucking friends cant be there for me because they have better fucking things to do then be there for me when i fucking god damn need them. My hopes and dreams are gone, I am as good as fucking dead. All I ever fucking wanted was to be loved, thats it, grow up get married have kids come back to a cute little house with white fucking picket fencing. And A dog, not a ankle bitter or knee knocker something between i could be happy with, A Wife who loves me and who WONT FUCKING CHEAT ON ME. Guess the fuck what... THIS WOLF IS FUCKING DONE. The most important women in my life have all cheated on me, On the exeption of one i hurt because i was blinde stupid and dumb. Emily... The girl i lost my virginity to, Cheated on me Mandy - Fucked all my guy friends while i was risking my ass over seas Ashleigh - Couldntt spread them fast enough because daddy didnt like me Sheena - T

Moonlight (poem)
Moonlight Dropping down to her knees She cries out to the stars Underneath the moonlite sky Her tears flow freely to the ground Her sobs shakes her body As she tries to regain control Her heart in shambles Refusing to let go So much hurt and pain Her soul feels broken beyond repair She calls to the moon above "Help me move on!!" She grabs his picture, a candle and match Asking of the Gods and Goddesses above "Erase from my heart this pain," "Show me there is nothing to gain" She stricks the match and lights the wick Taking the picture and wraping it quick Digging a hole in the earth She buries the picture in the ground "Out of sight, out of mind" She tells herself as she cries She wipes her tears and blows the flame Thanks the Gods & Goddesses above Her heart knows that it will forget his name and she hope one day she will love again.

Despair(another Poem)
I fall into the pit of despair as I realize, at last, you’re no longer here I knew you were mine no more but still I held on to a little hope The hope that one day you would come to me and tell me that you were wrong and I was the one The only one that your heart truly wanted and longed to love again. But as I sit here and finally understand your love was never really true. What I felt for you was what I needed and your love was my imagination running wild Still I would like to think that there are days in which you hurt and wither in pain In knowing that you hurt the only person that loved everything about you Can you feel all the pain? the pain I have felt for too long It made all I had go insane to realize that you are the pain The pain that you swore you’d protect me from how was I to know that I need protection from you You were the world, my soul, the very air I breathed now I finally realize my heart is better off without your kind of pain.

Love Of My Life
Hello all I've been gone for awhile. On Saturday February 10th, my husband told me to leave and never come back. We have been together for 9 yrs and I dont see how he can just throw all that away. He said he was having feelings for his best friend. I don't know what to do I still love him very much. I have a step-son and he is stuck in the middle of all this, and for awhile I was allowed to talk to him. But now my husband won't let me talk to him and it is killing me I dont know what to do. I cant eat or sleep all I think about is my husband and son, what am I supposed to do, How do I get through this I want my husband back I know in my heart we belong together, so what do I do? Please help me understand what is going on because I am dying inside and can't figure out how to fix this! My husband says he needs some space to do some deep soul searching but I know he has slept with his best friend since we have separated, but I still want him back, am I crazy or what?

Seven Deadly Sins
Seven Deadly Sins Survey Wrath Who did you last get angry with? Really angry? My dad. Mildly annoyed? Damian. What is your weapon of choice? Open hand or missile conveniently on hand for throwing Would you hit a member of the opposite sex? *cough* *blush* Yes. How about the same sex? Haven't, but I probably would. I have a horrible horrible nasty violent temper. I know you're thinking "Not Tanya," but seriously, I do. I just hardly ever lose it. Which is good for everyone involved. Who was the last person who got really angry at you? My dad. As far as I know. What is your pet peeve? Ohh... so many! People who talk on cell phones when it clearly affects their driving. Large SUV drivers who don't need an SUV. People too lazy to use proper English. Do you keep grudges, or can you let them go easily? I'm reasonably good at letting them go. People who are genuinely contrite and understand they hurt me... I can let that go easily. I have more troub

Below The Blue
A thankless job you toil through Day in, Day out below the blue No thanks from folks along the street No open arms or hugs that greet But tirelessly continuing on Working from the dusk until the dawn For countless days, months on end Our freedoms from below they defend Tall or short they are burrowed in Locked inside a metal skin Long at last to the surface the rise A hero in so many eyes So soon again the world rushes along and down into the below they go on Some I care about have served there too Protecting freedom from under the blue.

I Wish
i wish that you would open up to me. I wish that you would not shut me out. I wish that you would let me get to know you. I wish that you would let me show you that i can be there for you. I wish that you would let me show you that i want to be yours for all time. I wish that you would let me show you that this i say is true.

To My Husband
This is to the guy that I fell in love with. The year was 2000. When I was a homeless woman. And he the same. yet he was with another at the time. Years went by and I was with a man who was a cheat and a lyer. We soon split. Come Oct 31 is when the man who I met way back then came back into my life. We got married July 25 of 2003 and have been together going on 4 years this July 25th. He will never know how very much I am for changeing my life and makeing me feel wanted. So Baby this is for you and all that u stand for. xooxooxooxooxoooxxxxx .Words seem not to come to mind on how else to explain to u how I really feel. I just Love u that much. Me Kate.

Brittany Loves New York
My New York trip. Just met friends, had a photo shoot, did some shopping pursue, shoes, and sun glasses and broke my Jimmy Choos. This is the way to travel First Class from New York, then to Miami. Drank at the airport and on the plane. I saw the movie Marie Antoniette. That was a fucking gorgeous movie. I must get the dvd, it was so hot. I stayed at one of New York’s finest hotel. The Palace. Pictures taken from Palace Hotel site* A badget in the bathroom, a giant flat screen plasma TV, two walkin closets and a button for everything and everyone on their knees to serve you.. You also get business cards with your own name on it. It also has one of the most comfortable beds. The next day after I got in I ordered some scrambled eggs, wheat toast and orange juice for breakfast. Room service brought be scrambled eggs bigger than pizza. I could only eat ¼ of it. I almost had a heart attack as I took the battery out of my sidekick and all my contacts g

Life And Love Nichole
This Poem Is Just Something I Threw Together...Needs Fixing But I like It Heart's A Flutter. MInds A Blur. To Far In To Turn Back Now. He Cares About You. And You Him. Doubt In The Head. Ssh Listen, Don't You Hear That Sound? It's Your Soul Trying To Break Thru. Yelling, Fighting SO Hard TO Be Heard. It's To Faint To Make Out. Screaming Inside. Don't Make A Sound. You Feel That? It's Your Heart In Your Throat. Take A Deep Breath. HOld It In. Shocked And Amazed At What Your Soul Is Trying To Reveal. Eyes Full Of Fear. It All Becomes Clear. Minds Awake. Soul Released. Bursting With Life. You're Free. Suddenly You Know What To Do. You Knew All ALong. Feel It? I Feel It Too. Look In Your Heart. It's Loves Song. It Calls To You. Give In. Drown In The Ecstacy That Is Life, Love, Laughter. And Most Of All, Bear Your Soul And Sip The Sweeet Nector Of Love. It Yerns To Be Tasted. Give In. It's Your Destany.

Ugh...
So I met this guy. Well, I met him a while ago and we went to school together but we finally went out for the first time the other night. I had a really good time and I'm looking forward to our next date. He likes me because, as he put it, I'm happy and pleasant haha. He thinks I'm cute and my smile puts him in a good mood :P He actually thanked me for my company! My God! I don't think anyone has ever done that before. Needless to say, he kinda makes me squishy inside. My problem is that there is this other guy I kinda like. We've hung out a couple times and I had a really good time with him. In reality, though, there is no chance of any kind of realtionship there that is more than what it is. I know that's not what he wants and I'm not sure it's what I want. When I'm with someone, that's it. I don't mess around on people because I wouldn't want that done to me. I also don't sleep with more than one person at a time, even if I'm not in any kind of relationship with the person I

He’s A Heartache
Well, you can’t deny how good he looks Couldn’t find another on the cover of a book Believe me Well, I’ve almost loved him once or twice But don’t be fooled by his innocent smile He’s clever as the devil and just as wild He’s crazy But a little crazy’s kinda nice He’s a heartache Lookin’ for a place to happen Lookin’ for a little action Livin’ for the moment not for lovin’ He’s a heartache Lookin’ for a place to happen Temporary satisfaction If you try to hold on he’s gone Well, I might as well tell someone else I know I’ll never have him to myself Not likely But I wouldn’t mind just one more night If he wants to hold you, let it be Don’t pass up the opportunity To know him You won’t forget him all your life But whatever you do be wise enough Not to fall in love Cause he’s a heartache Lookin’ for a place to happen Lookin’ for a little action Livin’ for the moment not for lovin’ He’s a heartache Lookin’ for a place to happen Temporary sati

Mind Flatus
Another ritual Has come and past Something I do for me It will not Make sense to you Or mean anything There is no need For understanding Don’t try to Figure out My ways Even if you do Get it The meaning Will not be The same I lay here alone Visions dance In my soul I concentrate On reality While I fantasize Your roll I know what I Should say Exactly what To do It is just Wasted energy None of these Thoughts Come true One piece Is always missing Sharing the moments With you

Different, Original, Cool "about Me"
Thanx Wims, I love doing these (as long as it is not written by a 15 year old!) Different, original, cool, new "About Me" Basic Info Name: Cynthia (CinDee) Age: 34 Race: Whiter than white (Amen Sister!) Sexual Preference: Bi / straight preference Religion: Wiccan Birthday: 11/21/72 (Last Day of Scorpio Baby!) Shoe Size: 10 Hair Color: Dark Brown Eye color: Pale Blue Gray State you currently live in: Pennsylvania Favorites! Color: Crimson Red, Emerald Green and a new found love for all shades of Pink. Type of Vegetable: Lettuce or Green Beans Song: Right now - Feels Like Tonight by Daughtry; All time - I Melt With You by Modern English TV Channel: A & E, Court TV, Discovery and History Radio Station: When I listen to the radio, 105.9 the X Animal: Pussy Cats Day of the Week: Saturday Shoes you own: My Go-Go Boots (Not the torture vinyl ankle boots I wore last Saturday, that's for sure!) Cell Phone/ Pla

Hi Too All Our Friends/fans/ & Family..
Hi all,i was away for about 3 weeks visiting my fiancee in Michigan..my appolagies for the delay in sending out comments and rating pics...Melissa's(KinkyScreams) computer is down at the moment.until she gets a new sound card,her puter will be off...She will be visiting me for 3 weeks,next month.as of the 3'd too the 21st or so... so if anyone would like too chat or send Melissa some comments ,np.she will be able too check them out next month,and reply from my computer.. tc and ty.(she and i ) will get back too you...(Raphael/Melissa,kinkyscreams)..Lo & Lette Lover's

The Way I See It #215
Your body is a whole, all of its parts connected. Your body wants to be healthy. Every lifestyle choice you make has a profound impact on how you live, feel, age. Only a true understanding and appreciation of your body will enable you to live long and live well. -- Andrew Weil, M.D. Author of Healthy Aging and director of the University of Arizona Program in Integrative Medicine.

Time To Get A Clue!
You know who you are! I didn't choose you and it's time for you to get a clue and just LEAVE ME ALONE! I have blocked you everyway I can and yet you still try to contact me? WHY? Do you think your going to make me regret not picking you by fucking stalking me? This just shows the reasons why I didn't choose to be with you! I am happy with my boyfriend and have started my life here with him and not you!! If you think by emailing my friends and telling them lies that your going scare them off you have another thing coming. If your going to make up lies atleast make up something good. If they delete me because of what you say they weren't my friends to start out with! And having your friends IM me to tell me how happy you are doesn't mean shit to me. Here is a big news flash... I don't care about you or who you are with. Be a man and be with them and leave me alone! If your so happy with her then why do you continue to bother me? Tell your friends what ever you wa

Needing Help
I have one question...How come when someone says that they are to good for you they dont even approch you..dont you think that you should at least get the courage to give that person a chance.. Happens all the time men say they dont have a chance well how do you know if you dont give yourself enough courage to go up and say something to her..i see it all the time excpecially at bars on the weekends..it funny because the girl can really like you and think you are hot..and yuou wouldnt even know.. so in conculsion men you have to grow some balls and go after what you want..dont give up because then you are a quiter..and quiter are not sexy..quiters are just chicken shits and well if you read my other blog then you know how i feel about chicken shits..women need someone that is not going to be afraid to go after what they want..women love when a man chases or really goes after something. i need some comments on what you guys think and why this happens..

Celebrate Today
I was reading last night, I do that often, and came across this statement. I hope you enjoy it. "The best use anyone can make of any day is to enjoy it---and then spread that joy to others. Let us celebrate today!" John Kremer Keep smiling..

Ya Mama.
Ya mom is so fat (how fat is she?) Ya mama is so big and fat that she can get busy with twenty-two burritos, but times are rough I seen her in the back of Taco Bell with handcuffs The sad fact (what?) ya mama smokes crack (what?) She got a burning yearning and there's no turning back Her knuckles drag down to the ground when she walk Spit comes out that bitch mouth when she talk Naked on a mountain top, tootin on a flizoot Ridin on a horse drinking whisky out a bizoot She's got the wings and teeth of an african bat Her middle name is Mudbone and on top of all that: Ya mama got a glass eye with the fish in it. Ya mama, ya mama, ya mama.

Ct Families
Ok so all these cherrytap families right? A few of us are gonna start one for those of us who are square pegs. Gonna call it CT Freaks and Geeks...We will support eachother in all our freaky geekiness! Whatever that may be!

My 2 Cents: Media Whore Britney
Ok. So what is going with Britney Spears lately? What the hell is wrong with this one? Ok. I understand that she is one of the biggest media whores next to Paris Hilton, but this dumb bitch is definitely taking the cake. First she goes running around in Vegas, marrying some dope and divorcing him 24 ours later, then she and K-Fed get married and has a really retarded reality show which could hold for less than a few months, next she gets knocked up by him, divorces him, runs around with Paris by not wearing any panties and finally shaves her head and keeps going to rehab and escaping. My theory is this: ever since Anna Nicole’s death has generated more media attention then her failed marriage to that flunky husband, she became desperate for attention, just like Paris. If this jackass keeps it up, she’ll end up losing her kids.

Before He Cheats
To all my Girls Right now he's probably slow dancing with a bleach blonde tramp, and she's probably getting frisky... right now, he's probably buying her some fruity little drink cause she can't shoot whiskey... Right now, he's probably up behind her with a pool-stick, showing her how to shoot a combo... And he don't know... That I dug my key into the side of his pretty little suped up 4 wheel drive, carved my name into his leather seats... I took a Louisville slugger to both head lights, slashed a hole in all 4 tires... Maybe next time he'll think before he cheats. Right now, she's probably up singing some white-trash version of Shania karoke.. Right now, she's probably saying "I'm drunk" and he's a thinking that he's gonna get lucky, Right now, he's probably dabbing on 3 dollars worth of that bathroom polo... And he don't know... That I dug my key into the side of his pretty little suped up 4 wheel drive, carved my name into his leather seats, I too

A New Drink
As most know I am not a big drinker,,,, but I found a drink that is really good and easy to make... It's called a Madras fill glass with ice 2 oz. of Vodka Equal parts of Orange juice and Cranberry juice. A good drink that is not too girly!

Well
I am not a well spoken person. There are lots of things that interest me and things that don't. I have fun at every opportunity that allows for it. The thing is I don't get much love on my page. I get some but not much. I am not very good at expressing myself or writing things about myself but here we go.

My Grrr
I am such a hateful little bitch sometimes, I surprise myself even. One of these days my temper is really going to get the best of me and I'm gonna be in lots of trouble for it and maybe lose something I don't want to. Not that things don't sometimes deserve a good beating but depending on whom has upset me, if I really would just stop and think sometimes, I would remember the special things they do for me that really really mean a lot to me and that they would never hurt me on purpose and that there may be more to the story or a good explanation for things. It really takes a strong well adjusted person to deal with my attitude sometimes lol Anyhow I feel like a pigs butt now.

Love Bridges The Distance
I love you With all my heart And I hope you do too I have from the very start Even though we're miles apart I think about you Because you are in my heart I am probably one of a few Right now I am a friend And you are mine too I will be there until the end With every day new I always now say You are in my heart And you hopefully will stay Even though we are miles apart All I know Is that you are in my heart And all I can do is think about you Even though we are so far apart You know I care about you Do you care about me? I hope you do Because in my heart I can see I love you With all my heart And I hope you do too And I have from the very start

Poem - Sex Vrs Love
Sex Versus Love Love brings sadness all the time Sex brings self esteem and joy and longevity to life. Love is morbid and stressful Sex is humorus, kinky and easy going. Sex is something up-beat Love is plummeting down Love is larger than life Sex is life itself. Sex is like saving money Love is like spending money. Love is a game of hide and seek Sex is a game with many positions. Love is nothing but words that confuses the soul Sex is body language that rejoices the soul. Sex is exchanging energy Love is wasting it. Love is hell on earth Sex is heaven on earth. Love is sleepless nights Sex is sweet dreams. Sex is a torrid interlude Love is the chill of the wind. Love is a narcotic dependence Sex is detoxication. Love is solitude and desparation Sex is a party with large circle of friends. Love is Spartan and redundant Sex is simple and quintessential. Love is commitment and chastity Sex is friendship and reminiscene.

Poem - Sex
Mission for a missionary Missionary quite contrary How does your garden grow A sixty niner is always finer Come on lets go, dont be slow Diggy doggy, bend over And i'll do you, real slow, no really slow We both stand up you pretend Youre looking over my shoulder For a four leaf clover We both pretend that we dont know We sit up and face each other We'll just sit till the cows come home I'll lie on my back, you pretend your at the track You saddle me like you would a colt Ill just lie there try not to bolt Sex, sex, sex, sex, sex, sex [again not me but hella hot :p]

War Wagon
This is the "War Wagon" it is a bike that my great uncle and my dad built back in the early 70's. Yes it's a Knuckle. This thing is vicious. It has two 350 chevy pistons in it, and the valves are out of an old flat head licoln. For fun the two of them used to set up chairs with a cooler of beer, and watch friends kick `er over. On the compression stroke it would throw them over the handle bars. Becuase there is a special technique to start it, to this day only four people know the technique. The bike started out as a 1932 Harley Davidson Lighting. Now it sports a coffin gastank, chrome out the ass, and a sword down the backrest. Oringinaly the sword was removable,but it had to be welded before the sheriff would sign off on the title work. Not to mention all the other metal work. This is an awesome bike, I just wanted to share it with all the gearheads out there. Raynes77

Question Of The Fuckin Century Part Ii
In regards to my former blog entitled, "Question of the Fuckin Century," I have some follow up. Just recently, I started to develop an online friendship with a man, who shall remain nameless. I'll just call him Mr.X for now. Mr.X was very sweet, very kind, very romantic. He said all the right things. Made me feel more special than I had in years. We talked on the phone and online everyday. Then, one day......nothing.......nada....zilch....wtf? He wouldn't answer the phone or return messages. I kept asking why? No answer. Then I finally get a message. It's him! I open it up to see, "It's not you, it's me." HUH???? WTF???? That's it??? That's my explanation?? That's ALL I get?? Wow, I thought, this brings that old question right back to the forefront once again. Why am I single?(please refer to aforementioned blog) Well, NOW there is a man out there who absolutely knows the answer to that pesky question, AND HE WON'T FUCKING GIVE IT TO ME!!!! Maybe, just maybe, Mr.X will read my

Overwhelming Surrender
Overwhelming Surrender I hide behind this misconception, misunderstood, bewildered that I have not disappeared altogether having made myself so small and unimportant that people walk right by me never having seen me at all. My pain is like a glass sheet cut into different shapes to fit whomever might happen by, that they might show compassion if I have any meaning or value worth appreciating should I live or die. Having all of the earthly needs a person can buy my soul shrieks of loneliness, wondering where the whole is of which I am just one small part, my other half, the piece I am missing the balance, symmetry of my other. companion-less, deserted, left alone to float in this sea of unappreciative people who come together and separate like they have no concept of what real longing for a joining with the other part can truly be. So curling up into myself, I, my soul, freeing my heart from any hopeful alliance, afraid that I in

Working For A Biznatch
I was going to mumm about what happened at work tonight, but the story is a bit too long when us mummers have the attention span of a golfball. At 6 pm I was asked to go cover for the 2's room. When I got down to one kid, I took him down to another room where everyone else was. Myself, 8 kids and 2 other teachers. My 2 kids were in the room. My youngest, Emily, came up to me telling me she was sick. I felt her and she was definately warm. I took her temp. 102 degrees. Well, I figure instead of calling out in the morning I would just go show the director that Emily was sick, and discuss my options for tomorrow. When I got up to the office and showed them it was like I had just told them the worst news ever. The assistant director rolled her eyes and began to tap her nails on the desk. I said " I am sorry if my sick daughter upsets you" she said " Honey, I am off the clock, I can say and do WHATEVER I want". ( what the hell is she thinking?) So I said " well then you just stay off th

A Friend
A friend. A friend is loyal, loving, caring A friend is all about non judgment, sharing A friend is someone who never puts you down A friend is someone who never makes you frown A friend loves unconditionally always brings you smiles A true friend is one who will be there awhile A friend never ridicules, downs, talks behind your back A friend never gets jealous and never attacks A friend will never think of you as a lower than they are. A friend will always think of you like a star. A friend is going to be there no matter what the case may be A friend is one who's love and caring is free. A true friend is one that never uses you to see what they can get A friend then becomes a foe there easy to forget A true friend will never step on ones toes A friend never tells you well that’s just how it goes A friend is one who can keep your darkest secrets and not tell A friend is one who never tells you go to hell. A friend is one who is true in th

Forever
I stepped up to you Not knowing or caring why Loving unconditionally Instantly To show you real love To make you whole And in my mission To heal your soul I've pushed aside My passions To make room for yours I'll always love you ALWAYS and FOREVER And ever and ever Darling, I love you Unconditionally Faithfully Forever

Pre-booty Call Agreement!
PRE-BOOTY CALL AGREEMENT This pre-booty call agreement (hereinafter referred to as the "Agreement") is entered into on the _____day of __________, 2006, by_______________________, between ____________and______________. THIS AGREEMENT SHALL COVER THE FOLLOWING RULES AND PRINCIPLES: 1. No sleeping over - unless it is very good and we need to repeat it in the morning. 2. No meeting in public except for dinner or drinks before the events of the evening 3. No calls before 9 PM - we don't have shit to talk about. 4. None of that "lovemaking" shit - only sex allowed. 5. No emotional discussions (i.e. Where are we heading with this? Do you love me?) The answer is no, so don't ask. 6. No plans made in advance - that is why you are called the "backup, " unless you are from out-of-town, then it's only a one-time advanced arrangement. 9. No calling each other "friends with privileges" we are not friends, just sex buddies. 10. Calling out the wrong name during sex is OK - don'

Seduction....love And Sleep
Love and Sleep Lying asleep between the strokes of night i saw my love lean over my sad bed, Pale as the duskiest lily's leaf or head, Smooth skinned and dark, with bare throat made to bite, Too wan for blushing and too warm for white, BUt perfect coloured without white or red. And her lips opened amorously, and said- I wist not what,saving one word-Delight. And all her body pasture to mine eyes; The long lithe arms and hotter hands than fire, The quivering flanks, hair smelling of the south, The bright light feet, the splendid supple thighs And glittering eyelids of my soul's desire.

Women
I found this on my friend's 360 page and had to steal it... knowing you won't mind, Faye! ;) Thank you! Women have strengths that amaze men. They hear hardships and they carry burdens, but they hold happiness, love, and joy. They smile when they want to scream. They cry when they are happy and laugh when they are nervous. They fight for what they believe in. They stand up for injustice. They don't take "no" for an answer when they believe there is a better situation. They go to the doctor with a frightened friend. They love unconditionally. They cry when their children excel and cheer when their friends get awards. They are happy when they hear of a birth or a wedding. Their hearts break when they hear that a friend dies. They grieve at the loss of a family member, yet they are strong when they think there is no strength left. They know that a hug and a kiss can lead to a broken heart. Women come in all sizes, shapes and colors. They'll drive, fly, walk, run or

Kids
Too Smart A first-grade teacher, Ms. Brooks, was having trouble with one of her students. The teacher asked, "Harry, what's your problem?" Harry answered, "I'm too smart for the 1st grade. My sister is in the 3rd grade and I'm smarter than she is! I think I should be in the 3rd grade too!" Ms. Brooks had had enough. She took Harry to the principal's office. While Harry waited in the outer office, the teacher explained to the principal what the situation was. The principal told Ms. Brooks he would give the boy a test. If he failed to answer any of his questions he was to go back to the 1st grade and behave. She agreed. Harry was brought in and the conditions were explained to him and he agreed to take the test. Principal: "What is 3 x 3?" Harry: "9". Principal: "What is 6 x 6?" Harry: "36". And so it went with every question the principal thought a 3rd grader should know. The principal looks at Ms. Brooks and tells her, "I think Harry can go to the 3rd grade." Ms. B

I Wont Be Onlien For A While
my husband are having some problems .. and i am not going to be here any more..not sure when i will be back online but ty all i will misss alot of you.. those who are close knwo how to reach me smooches lday kaos

This Is Crazy
Cheers to the Truth! "Where is the G-damn f**king flag? I want the G-damn f**king flag up every f**king morning at f**king sunrise." (From the book "Inside The White House" by Ronald Kessler, p. 244 - Hillary to the staff at the Arkansas Governor's mansion on Labor Day, 1991) "You sold out, you mother f**ker! You sold out!" From the book "Inside" by Joseph Califano, p. 213 - Hillary yelling at Democrat lawyer. "It's been said, and I think it's accurate, that my husband was obsessed by terrorism in general and al-qaida in particular." (Hillary telling a post-9/11 world what a 'great' commander in chief her husband was; Dateline, NBC 4/16/2004 ) "I have to admit that a good deal of what my husband and I have learned [about Islam] has come from our daughter." (TruthInMedia.org 8/8/1999 - Hillary at a White House function, proudly tells some Muslim groups she is gaining a greater appreciation of Islam because Chelsea was then taking a class on the "religion of peace"

Beautiful Words
Someone worth having is someone worth waiting for! I love you not because of who you are, but because of who I am when I am with you. Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have. A true friend is someone who reaches for your hand and touches your heart. The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can't have them. To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world. Don't try so hard, the best things come when you least expect them to.

Superman
I'm trying to be brave for the world, Show them that I'm not just some girl. I can be strong with a heartach holdong me down, All it takes is to know how to get back off the gound. To stand up and then rebound at fast pace, To forget all around the different faces. To know when to guard the heart, And stay away from the dark. To learn the difference between boy and man, To find someone to hold your hand. So when things get scary and your confused, And your heart is broken and bruised. He'll be their helping you out, Showing you what love is all about. He may not seem like much to everyone else around, But he is your superman helping you off the ground.

My Wedding!!!lol
You Will Be a Traditional Bride! You're the type of girl who is feminine, old fashioned, and totally traditional. You've been dreaming of your wedding day since you were young And you can't wait to be a princess in your big white gown. It's likely that you'll have a big family wedding and take your husband's name While a huge affair will be fun, just don't go all Bridezilla about the color of your napkins! What Kind of Bride Will You Be?

Avarice
Avarice From your chemical confine, Here come the whispers no one can hear, Blinded by my own fate, I feel I may be dying here. My face, painted and powdered with deceit, Concubine of Truth, is the Lover of Lies. Wretched absence, Eternity of desolate wandering, My heart rots within it's flesh encasement, And I backslide into the abyss, Enveloped by darkness, Beat all hallow, He'll be the one who betrays you. Desecrate this Vanity Fair and Break up the artless, Amputate the weak, this savage counterfeit will be bloody. Upon a pike his head will be, Strewn out and bloodied before me. Do you know what have you taken from me? From your chemical confine, Here come the whispers no one can hear, Blinded by my own fate, I feel I may be dying here. My face, painted and powdered with deceit, Concubine of Truth, is the Lover of Lies. To leave behind an untorn playmate. Bring forth beauty and balance, I yearn for coherence, I shudder at humanity. Leave

Help!! Do You Know What Bell's Palsy Is??
Well, where do I begin? Yesterday was such a surreal nightmare. My husband (Rob) woke up feeling funny..you know that feeling when you have gone to the dentist and the novacaine stars wearing off? He decided to head to work anyway. A few blocks down the road the feeling got worse and he looked the mirror at himself and noticed half his face was not working! He came back home and needless to say I rushed him straight to the ER. Well, on the way there is decides to tell me that he had 5 (yes fuckin 5!!!!) Redbulls on Saturday and had felt some pressure in his chest. Well, now I am in a panic thinking, Fuck...is he having a Stroke?? Well we get to the ER (around 10am) and walk up to the front desk. Some jackass nurse (who probably had been working a double shift, bless her bitchy heart) does not even bother to look at us and hands us a paper to fill out. Mind you, we live in Miami where your typical waiting period is about 12 ro 15 hours unless your dyeing. (which even that does not guara

Terminated (polite Way To Say Your Fired)went To Work Last Friday
Went to work last Friday..Make a long story short the boss chose to terminate my employment. In a way it was a big relief. Now the realization that I'm now jobless set in really sucks. Depression is bangin hard on the front door of my brain. I now understand how people feel that have been in the same job for years and boom it's gone. What really bites is I don't have a clue of what I'm going to do.

To Let Go
To Let Go does not mean to stop caring, it means I can't do it for someone else. To Let Go is not to cut myself off, it is the realization I can't control another. To Let Go is not to enable, but to allow learning from natural consequences. To Let Go is to admit powerlessness, which means the outcome is not in my hands. To Let Go is not to try to change or blame another, it is to make the most of myself. To Let Go is not to care for, but to care about. To Let Go is not to fix, but to be supportive. To Let Go is not to judge, but to allow another to be a human being. To Let Go is not to be in the middle arranging all the outcomes, but! to allow others to affect their destinies. To Let Go is not to be protective, it is to permit another to face reality. To Let Go is not to deny, but to accept. To Let Go is not to nag, scold, or argue, but instead to search out my own shortcomings and correct them. To Let Go is not to

The Time Has Cum
Not exactly what you're thinking from the title... but I thought it was easier to write this as a blog than to try to tell so many different people individually. Part 1 - I officially have a new home in Ohio as of yesterday. I've been down here in Ohio for a week looking for jobs and places to live.. and atleast one half of that search has been successful. So yes, I am finally moving back home, back to shitty ole Dayton, Ohio, USA... the birthplace of aviation... the southwestern shithole.. take your pick. But it is home. I will be surrounded by family, and be near a great hospital for the kids. For my Michigan and Canadian friends, if I never got a chance to meet you, I am sorry. If I DID get a chance to meet you, I am sorry that I am leaving. But, unless further instructed, my CT account will remain... so I will always be here to chat with; though over the next few weeks not as often as I used to. Gotta do all that packing and moving bullshit. Part 2 - Some of ya may have cau

Dear Kotex
Dear Kotex, I recently noticed that the peel-off strip of my pantiliner had a bunch of "Kotex Tips for Life" on it. Annoying advice such as: Staying active during y our period can relieve cramps. Avoiding caffeine may help reduce cramps and headaches. Drink 6-8 glasses of water a day to keep you hydrated and feeling fresh. Try Kotex blah blah blah other products... Obviously the individual behind this was someone who has never possessed a functioning set of ovaries. Go ahead and tell a menstruating woman that drinking 6-8 glasses of water will help keep her feeling fresh. Like we need more fluid inside our bloated bodies from hell...but go ahead...I triple-dog-friggen-dare-ya... See what happens and report back. I'll wait. While you're at it, dump out the coffee at work and remove the chocolate from the vending machine. I garan-friggen-tee that the first responders will be females who just ovulated. Staying active will relieve headaches & cramps...well guess what, the only activities t

What Is Love???
A group of professionals posed the following question to a group of 4 to 8 year olds: "What does LOVE mean?" The answers they got were broader and deeper than anyone could have imagined: °When my grandma got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and paint her toenails anymore. So my grandpa does it for her now all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That's love. Rebecca- age 8. °When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. You just know that your name is safe in their mouths. Billy- age 4 °Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on shaving Cologne and they go out and smell each other. Kari- age 5 °Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French Fries without making them give you any of theirs. Chrissy- age 6 °Love is what makes you smile when you're tired. Terri- age 4 °Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK. Danny- age 7

Time After Time
Always thinking of you, wondering how you are, hopeing you are happy, wishing you was not so far, I've laid awake so many nights, with you crossing my mind, thinking of the things we shared, how did we cross this line? I always make the same mistakes, I geuss I'll never learn, same actions lead to same outcomes, Time After Time... Ozzy Osbourne - Time After TimeMusic Code provided by Song2Play.Com

One Of Those Nights
yep its one of those nights or early morning now where sleep just won't come to me so i sit here at cherry tap at 4:30 in the morning venting and whining ........ knowing that in a couple of hrs i have to be up again and will need a lot of energy to get through tomorrow grrrrrrrr don't ya just hate nights like this ..... oh well guess i should go lay down and try some more perhaps try reading again see if it helps this time

Chicago
Chicago was great...I met alot fo really cool people ...chilled with Kane Hodder for a minute and Ari Leehman took time to tell me about his band and new flix...Christie Hemme KEPT coming over to talk to me (well kept running into one another and we both had a table at the convention) I have really good news but I want to wait until THEY announce it before I do...but I assure you..its taking me to the next level..I'm so happy

The 10 Rules For Cybersex....lmao (repost
1. Before becoming involved in any kind of cybersex, please make sure your spouse, boyfriend, kids, etc. are out of the room at the time, (preferably out of the house and not during a major holiday when your in-laws are also present or at a time when all your relatives are in attendance). It really gets difficult to explain the moaning and groaning, while the buzz of various "toys" can be heard. 2. For men, before you begin, please check that your modem protector is on, along with the splash guard for your keyboard. It will stop the future embarrassment of telling the computer technician that your keys are "stuck" and you have no idea why. 3. For women, no matter what you are truly wearing, such as: sweatpants, sweat shirt, torn bathrobe, slippers, t-shirt with stains on the front, bloomer underwear that could cover a car or be used for a parachute, always tell your potential cyber partner you are wearing a thong, garter belt with black stockings, and your best Wonderbra (the one

Another Ct Wedding
Mandy & Xero CT WeddingPimp My Profile | View Show | Create Your Own Your invited to the CT Wedding of Mandy and Xeromancer666 this Friday March 2nd. It will be broadcast LIVE on Cherry Rock FM @ 9pm est. Come and join in the fun and to congratulate the Happy NEW CT Couple. Music Codes - MySpace Layoutscustomized bulletin by ~Mystikal~

The Sensual Touch (poem)
Your succulent lips melting me soon as ours met The warmth imprints a cascading trance that flours flesh Powder drenches your skin as I begin calmly motioning Moisture builds and fills and spills out openings Slowly whisking aside the many struggles of your day Writings on the wall illustrate the pains being brushed away Sputtered waves make you break the silence, moans escapin' Piercing sounds of pleasure, enhancing my motivation Lotion graising my palms before applying the final touch Climbing your spine to your shoulders that were so tight you jumped Tensing muscles clenching mercilessly, now left relaxed in Comfort once again, and finally endulged in passion Result is alluring, while you're lying still, eyes closed gently And I kiss your cheek, say goodnight and think... so tempting..... -- Snipe

Don’t Believe Everything You Read
This has been driving me crazy, don’t believe everything you see on the news. Remember that the media is a business; as much as they blab about the public’s “right to know” they exist to make money. The big man is clear so OPSEC is no longer an issue. Yesterday there was an explosion at the front gate. It killed a lot of people and wounded a bunch more. This is not the first time it happened here, and I doubt it will be the last. However since an important person was here, and I am sure he travels with a press corps, it hit the news very fast. Within 20 minutes it was on one of the 24 hours news stations. Because such an important person was here, they threw in his name to attract more viewers. Even though he was as safe as you can be in this country, they had to throw in his name and say that he was safe. I can’t tell you the levels of security this guy had, mainly because I only know of some of them. So with the severe levels of security, the response time of the people here,

Love Lost...
So I never made my flight. Never went to Detroit. Never got to see the girl that I love so much that I'd do anything for. And she slipped away from me. It's a funny thing how everything goes perfect, you find the perfect girl, would have been the perfect life. At least I would have thought, then it goes to shit. It always does. I should have been ready for it because I know thats how things usually end up for me. But I didn't want to think that, I wanted this to work so bad. And I would have fought for it as hard as I could if it was any other reason that broke us up than what it was. Krystle, I love you so much, but I don't want to be the cause of breaking up a family now. I'm not going to make that choice. But I will always be here, and I will always love you. I wish the best for you.

Sometimes
S O M E T I M ES Sometimes... when you cry... no one sees your tears. Sometimes... when you are in pain... no one sees your hurt. Sometimes... when you are worried.. no one sees your stress. Sometimes... when you are happy.. no one sees your smile . - - - - - - - - - - But FART!! just ONE time... And everybody knows!! Gotcha!! You thought it was going to be one of those heart-touching stories! Send this on to your friends and make them laugh.

Half The Women On This Website Make Me Puke And Guys Stoop To There Level Men You Really Are Fucking Stupid Everyone Of You That Do This
You know why fucking women are always on top of the internet world its because men are so fucking stupid to make them that way alright allow me to explain im not a fucking idiot I understand fully whats going on on this bull shit site geeks and nerds see all anyways so women have on there profiles oh add me fan me rate me before you add me to my fantasy world and men fucking stoop down and do this its no wonder why women are oh so popular on this fucking website you dont see any popular guys except the muscle heads because its simple really I dont care if I loose friendship involving this I know for a fact this is pure 100% real ....so fuck you and your popularity enjoy it its the fucking internet wake the fuck up you dumb bitch.......im a man who speaks up and has balls not stick my tail between my legs and walk away....Now ill admit some of you have nice game but ehhh whatever I find the effort making me go home with a hurting brain so I quit...

"love Has No Limits"
Love Has No Limits................ Love Has No limits to anyone in love Love has no limits when your man has done you wrong. Love has No limits so let it be. Love has No limits Because part of this quote has to do with those three letter words tattooed on me Love has No limits when your man turns the other way with another woman. Love has no limits when you are to stand up and say the hell with him he isn't worth it cause I'm going to keep on living. Love has no limits when you fall down and can't get it together. Love has no limits when you just look in the mirror and say you don't care about yourself because its just whatever. Love has no limits when you feel as though you have nothing. Love has no limits because at that point a real man knows your worth something. Love has no limits when your always sitting there because he keeps having you crying but love ha

Busted
http://www.cherrytap.com/user/487901 this girls real name is holly she is from the UK she stopped posting pics around 7mths ago and by the looks of things has taken a e-break if you google the name you will see links to old vids pics and more of the real girl and the guys/girls that fake her http://www.fakersbusted.com/database/females/ref00242.html the fakersbusted listing http://www.fakersbusted.com/members/forums/index.php?topic=14006.0 and the thread to prove it you may have to join to view the thread but it cost nothing any fakes or suspect pics send em my way ill check them out and post here

Follow Up
Yes I was an a abusive relationship but I have dealt with it and have rose above what he tried to do to me I am healed yet I am of course scarred but I am stronger than I have ever been and I wont ever let ANYONE EVER treat me even one iota wrong again I am BEAUTIFUL. I am a good person. And I can kick your muther fng butt if anyone messes with me again lol I just want women and men out there to know if you are being abused..get help..and ..get OUT YOU can do it. And there is a better good life just waiting for you so please see the signs and leave before it is too late. Before it escalates to physical abuse. IF ANYONE talks to you direspectfully..calls you names (not in a joking way) if anyone disrepects your wishes and boundaries they are abusing your rights as a person.. If you feel uncomfortable and violated trust your instincts..even if noone sees it or believes it.. YOU are in charge of YOU and thus need to be your own best bodyguard. so take care of YOU luv Simmer

Blonde Joke
A blonde goes into the police department to apply for a secretarial job.The Chief wants to ask her a few questions.... Chief: What's 2+2? Blonde: Ummmmm... 4! Chief: What's the square root of 100? Blonde: Ummmm... 10! Chief: Good! Now, who killed Abraham Lincoln? Blonde: Ummmm... I dunno. Chief: Well, you can go home and think about it. Come back tomorrow. The blonde goes home and calls up one of her friends, who asks her if she got the job. The blonde says, excitedly, "Not only did I get the job, I'm already working on a murder case!"

If I Disappear My Numbers Are
hey everyone im having interenet problems this morning it took me an hour to connect so i just wanted to let everyone know if i disapear i will miss you all and will be back on as soon as i can... if you need to get in touch with me my cell number is 423-310-6090 pls only call after 9:00 pm est time or if you have cingular you can call anytime... i also still have my verizon phone for a short period cause its prepaid. so if you have verizon you can reach me there for a short time at 423-716-4173.. pls keep your fingers crossed lol i dont wanna leave lol.... hope to talk to you all soon hugs embyr

Save A Horse Ride A Cowboy
hello to everyone that is enjoying life . i think we are here for a reason. to make new friends .love are familys and live like it was are last the world is going crazy. live 1 day at a time always have god in your heart.. and a angel on your shoulder.... god bless

Broken
Ive been broke in 2 again this is a poem that is for the man that hurt me the way he did... Ya know how damn hard it is to say to someone that ya love them and then they really dont mean it at all? Why is love so damn complicated? Why I ask myself? I feel like i have cried my last tears but they just seem to continue to flow more and more. The pain i feel is like ice cold water that is runnin thru my veins. The knife thats sears into the skin. The knife that pierces my heart. Or even the feeling of havin ya heart as glass and then dropped just as ya would a plate fallin to the floor and shattering. You promised to me that ya would never hurt me but thats just what ya did. Ya said I was ya one and only and no one elses. Ya asked me to marry you. Ya loved the way I had told ya about the kids being mine. Ya loved everything about me and then ya just kicked me away the dirt on the street. Ya say Ill find someone new....Ya have no idea how bad I just want it to be me and you not me and s

Lmao
A little boy walks into his parents' room to see his Mom on top of his Dad bouncing up and down. The Mom sees her son and quickly dismounts, worried about what her son has seen. She dresses quickly and goes to find him. The son sees his Mom and asks, "What were you and Dad doing?" The mother replies, "Well you know your dad has a big tummy and sometimes I have to get on top of it to help flatten it." "You're wasting your time," said the boy. "Why is that?" asked his Mom, puzzled. "Well when you go shopping the lady next door comes over and gets on her knees and blows it right back up.

Big Butt
A man and his wife were working in their garden one day when he looks over at his wife and say: "You're butt is getting really big, I mean really big! I bet your butt is bigger than the barbecue." With that he proceeded to gt a measuring tape and measure the grill and went over to where his wife was working and measured his wife's bottm. " Yes,I was right ,your butt is two inches wider than the barbecue!!!!!!! " The wife chose to ignore her husband. Later that night in bed, he is feeling a little frisky. ------He makes some advances towards his wife who completely brushes him off. "What's wrong????????" he askes!!!! She answers" "Do you really think I'm going to fire up this big-barbecue for one little weenie????"

Remember
Hello again. I have a question for ALL the people here on CherryTap.I would like to know why it is when the women of CherryTap post bulletins about honoring the veterans and the military families people usually go and read them and repost, but, when a veteran posts a bulletin they only get 2 or 3 views and no repost. If you want to honor the veterans and their families, past and present then you should at least read the bulletins and blogs posted BY veterans. I am a veteran of the Vietnam Era and I posted a blog last year about veterans, past and present, and I think I only got 3 views.I apologize to everyone that did read it and commented on it , but, I am not here as a points whore, I am here because I don't get out much anymore to socailize, so, I have turned to my computer for friends. I have a song on my profile that I think all would like. It is the first song Called Daddys girl.The name of the song is wrong, it is not. JUST LISTEN TO IT PLEASE.

Media Whore Paris, Again?!
Ok. So Paris got ticketed again because that dumb blonde decided to drive around without a license, and her publicist says that she wasn’t aware that her license was suspended? How can this idiot not know that her license was suspended and yet she was caught speeding while being intoxicated? Even better question: Does the judicial system of California have at least one ounce intelligence when it comes to a celebrity committing crimes and getting away with it or is a figment of my imagination? My @ cents: Everyone knows that this media whore here is willing to do anything to be in the limelight and upstage anybody for popularity.

Lets Vibe.....
walk with me until my topics seem -DROW1 just short of your dreams dreams can be the damnedest things just short of obscene observe the obscenities and discern from pg-13 if its not clear to be seen it seems the vail suceeds in shrouding obvious scenes the sum of all fiends forever finding its way inbetween what we want and dearly need is it in ones abilities to sift amongst these bitter things and still without our earthly dreams and led be not by earthly scenes.....and judged be not by earthly kings the ins and outs of everything the can or could of every being bein of or off of grandous schemes, our dreams, our wings -M. love our selfish things that we epiphany that we are free to think free to drink upon this eathly sight that blinks us into oblivion obsidion in the the black abyss of hyperions skies that hollow our hearts becuase our want and our need are what we proceed for wake up for wake life for and struggle in famine in obscene sin and he

Office Oral
Everyone seemed to head out the door as soon as the clock struck 5:00, except for the two of us. We sat together talking about this and that; being silly, flirting. I was waiting for him to make a move, give me some sign. He didn't. I decided if anything was going to happen, it was up to me to get it going. I stood up and said, "Follow me; there's something I need to show you." He looked intrigued and followed me into the small conference room. I shut the door behind us and locked it. I kicked off my shoes and removed my socks. I watched his eyes carefully as I slowly unbuttoned my blouse, letting it fall off my shoulders and land on the floor behind me, then unbuttoned and unzipped my pants and slithered out of them, revealing a black velvet bra and panty set. He leaned back against the conference table directly in front of me, smiling, enjoying the show. I went to him and pressed my body against his, putting my arms around his neck. "I can't wait anymore." I said softly. "I

What Men Really Mean
WHAT MEN REALLY MEAN "I'm going fishing." Really means..."I'm going to drink myself dangerously stupid, and stand by a stream with a stick in my hand, while the fish swim by in complete safety." ________________________________________ "It's a guy thing." Really means...."There is no rational thought pattern connected with it, and you have no chance at all of making it logical." ________________________________________ "I can't find it." Really means...."It didn't fall into my outstretched hands, so I'm completely clueless." ________________________________________ "Uh huh," "Sure, honey," or "Yes, dear." Really means....Absolutely nothing. It's a conditioned response. ________________________________________ "It would take too long to explain." Really means..."I have no idea how it works. ________________________________________ "I was listening to you. It's just that I have things on my mind." Really means..."I was wondering if that redhead over there is wearin

So, Its A Bit Lame
Your Heart Is Orange Love equals unbridled happiness for you. You enjoy the wild ride of falling in love. And while the ride is fun for a while, you always get off once the thrill is gone. Your flirting style: Hyper Your lucky first date: Anything you need your passport for! Your dream lover: Is both daring and well grounded What you bring to relationships: Energy What Color Heart Do You Have?

Asian Panda Death Flu
Apparently, I caught the Asian Panda Death Flu (as explained to me by Vlos). I've had chills, sweats and a high high fever. Also, I've coughed so much my throat is raw. Which led me to sound like a chipmunk on the phone with Julie. She was highly amused. Its subsided to just malaria today. Still have a bit of a fever, but no chills. Still sweating a bit. Eww. That explains why I've been kinda away from the site.

Anybody Have These??????
I have the neighbors from HELL. I could do a whole standup comedy bit devoted to them. You want to talk about beggers and borrowers (oh wait, they never return anything so that would just make them TAKERS). Over exaggerating, I think not. Example: (this is only one in a slew of examples, more to follow....hehehehe) Let's discuss the onion. Onion, you say. How could there possibly be a story behind an onion? Read on: I have lived at my residence from approx. 2 years now. When I first moved in it was a husband and wife that lived next to me, well low and behold they have 5 kids (the youngest three being in someone else's custody, if you get my drift). Well after living next to them for about 4 months, the kiddos came home. Up until then my home life with the neighbors had been uneventful. Then the TAKING began. Anything from sugar to toilet papter and everything in between. Then came the day on of the kiddos ventured over (on a Monday evening) and asked if they co

Yay Yay Yay
Well, some of you know I had surgery last week...for those that don't...I had my gall bladder removed...ra....ra ra ra...quack quack! Anyways, in order to undergo surgery, I had to remove all the metal that I wear...hmmm...which really isn't alot...but so... I had to take out my earrings...whatever.... I had to take off my toe ring...kind of a big deal....I got it in August '95 and I've never taken it off since it.... And, I had to take out my eyebrow ring...which...the damn thing has been pierced three times all ready and I just didn't wanna deal with it again...apparently, I have eyebrow issues...who knew they even existed? Kind of like license plate lights...until I got pulled over for mine being out...I never knew they existed either... So, I took off the earrings & I removed the toe ring...much to my dismay...but I refused to take the eyebrow ring out. So, they taped it. And everything went well... but...the purpose of this YaY YaY YaY message is to tell you that

Im Going To Tennesseeeeeeeeeee
Were gonna take a lil road trip to check out where sis will be living & browse around the UT campus. Cant wait, I havent been there in years...oh did I mention im a huge VOLS fan? Anyone know where to go to have a good time? Kids are going to babysitter for a few days and were going to P-A-R-T-Y! Hit me up if youre in the area, ill let you know more information!

It Feels Good
It feels really good to be back home..my stress level just goes away...At home, I dont have to worry about if I'm treating anyone a certain way or is this person mad at me or did I rub someone the wrong way...Fans are fickle sometimes too...I'm just content when I'm home..I leave that bullshit on the otherside of my door..this i smy sanctuary

Seperation
I live in a daze. A permanent shadow Has cloked my heart. Every thought, Every memory Is of you. When your life was stolen, Part of me died with you. You took my heart,My love, and all My live's happiness With you to the grave. Our time together May have been short, But it was the best time Of my entire life. Now I'm alone. Trying to live my life The best I know how. Until we meet again. April N. Purdy 6-27-99

A Friend Sent Me To This!
It's 2AM I like both of them though they only go by one name A single voice Offers the choice Will it be your place or mine? Of course Either is fine And if you drive Divine Cuz I ain't Steering tonight I wake in my bed With an ache In my head I can tell something Ain't right She musta mixed Gasoline With her Astroglide And I went along For the ride Now there's a fire Not brought on By desire I reckon it's Something I caught I am all shaking Not from Fear But from itching I think my Wood has termites I would be fine Except that My vine Is all Purple And bumpy After much thought I will change His name Now I will Call Buford Ol’ Mumpy Of course I’ll find a Cure Then something Demure And act all in love Just right quick You can cook You can clean You can do Anything You win a man’s Heart Through his dick

For Him
Princess He saw me from afar Came up from behind Whispered in my ear “Hey Princess will you be mine?” I turned around So sexy This Irish man Blue eyes Had a swagger about him His style His attitude He knows who he is Who he wants to be He looked into my eyes I met him half way He didn’t make any promises He made me smile His confidence led him to the kiss Leaning in Slowly As to ask permission He paused He looked at me I leaned into him I held my breath It wasn’t for real His lips met mine Soft, simple He pulled back I opened my eyes He opened his I smiled He asked “Will you be my Princess?” ¡Mi corazón irlandés!

Weather... Apparently
You Are Lightning Beautiful yet dangerous People will stop and watch you when you appear Even though you're capable of random violence You are best known for: your power Your dominant state: performing What Type of Weather Are You?

Love
No matter what i do to try, i can't find it, i cant find it at all and it hurts. Is there true love anywhere in this world? Is there any left? I have been looking for it for some time now, i have been wondering what its like to be loved and cared for, but i cant find none of that. Because im not loved, only by family (which doesn't count), and im not cared for by anyone. Heh, am i one of those last few people who just wants love and doesn't care about anything else....I guess so. Now and days, Love is just a word, it doesn't truly exist. The only thing that i think does anymore is a thing called Lust. Which of course is one of the 7 deadly sins but still. All of whom i have been with said that they love me, but didn't really mean it. Does anyone even know what love actually means???? I guess not because now and days, people use it so loosely. I know i am still kinda young and i have my life ahead of me still, but truly, i don't think that i will ever find it, as w

The "fuck" Disclaimer
The Fucking Disclaimer If you are offended by the use of bad language fuck off now! Don't read all of this page and then say it annoys you. Uses of the word Fuck FUCK is an international word. It doesn't matter where you are in the world, everyone knows exactly what you mean when you say "Fuck Off". It's the atmosphere it creates, that's why you will never read something like: "Fuck off", he hinted. Grammatical Usage In language, "fuck" falls into many grammatical categories, making it one of the most versatile words in the English language. It can be used as a verb, both transitive (John fucked Jane) and intransitive (John and Jane fucked). It can be an active verb (John fucked Jane) or a passive verb (Jane was fucked by John). Or an adverb (Jane is a fucking bastard) and a noun (Jane is a terrific fuck). It can be used as an adjective (Jane is fucking beautiful). Further Structures As you can see there are few words with the versatility of "fuck". Besides its se

This Is The Real Me!
Ok, this one is all about me! Who i am, what i am, how i am etc... Why wont i put it on my main page?????? I dont even know myself....but o well lol. Ok about me....Hmmmmmm....... I am Kind, im nice, im loving, im caring, im loyal. I love to have fun, and i am willing to try anything. I think about others more than myself, and i try to help others. To me, i think that im unimportant, my main focus is to make other people happy. I give to charity whenever i get a chance, and i also give to the homeless whenever i can also. Well you can say that im one of those rare kind of people that thinks about others more then their selves. I am a martial artist, and a martial arts enthusiast. I am in to Drifting, and imports(for you all that do not know, imports are basically tuner cars.) I plan to start drifting. I love all types of music except country (sorry all you country lovers) country isn't for me. But any other type of music, If i love it, i'll listen 2 it regardless of o

A Testament
BLESSED TO BE AN ALCOHOLIC GROWING UP IN THE LATE 60'S AND 70'S THERE WAS AN OLD SAYING, TUNE IN AND DROP OUT.AT THAT TIME IN LIFE, I WANTED TO BE IN THE IN CROWD. I DIDN'T SEE THE HARM IN DRINKING AND DRUGGING. MY WILD WAYS OF PARTYING BECAME A WAY OF LIFE. MY LIFE HAD BECAME A COUNTRY MUSIC SONG. THERE ARE VERY FEW PEOPLE THAT HAVEN'T HAD THEIR LIVES ALTERED BY AN ALCHOLIC. YOU CAN BE AN ALCOHOLIC, YOU CAN BE MARRIED TO AN ALCOHOLIC, PARENTS, KIDS, BOSSES ETC.FORTUNATELY, WE'VE COME ALONG WAY IN THE TREATMENT OF ALCOHOLISM. THE TWELVE STEP PROGRAM HAS HELPED MILLIONS OF PEOPLE. I HOPE, IF YOU ARE HEARING THIS, THESE WORDS CAN HELP. I DIDN'T GROW UP SAYING I WANTED TO BE AN ALOCHOLIC.THOUGH, MANY OF MY FRIEND'S JOKED ABOUT ME BEING A DRUNK. WE SEE ADS ON TV AND MAGAZINES ABOUT A LIQOUR PRODUCT MAKING IT SEEM SOPHISTICATED. MILLIONS OF DOLLARS WERE SPENT THIS YEAR ON THE SUPERBOWL, MILLIONS MORE WERE SPENT ON THE DAMAGE ALOCHOL HAS CAUSED. IT IS THE DELUSION FOR AN ALCOHOL

I Am Retracting This Apology
i dont know what kind of apology u want from me. i had no right posting what i did about u. the not sure if this is what u wanted. i guess u just wanted to see what kind of control u have over me. it made me sick to do ..I HAVE NO APOLOGY FOR LILLY THE BACK STABBING BITCH I KNOW I AM CONFUSING ALL OF U. BUT THIS IS THE END OF IT ALL......I AM RETRACTING THIS APOLOGY. TO TALENTED TONGUE. HE THREATENED ME AND GAVE ME AN ULTIMATIM...I AM TAKING BACK THIS APOLOGY. TOMORROW......I WILL GIVE IN DETAIL....AND THEN THAT WILL BE THE END.... SO TALENTED TONGUE I KNOW LONGER HONOR THIS APOLOGY...

Are You A Friend?
I thought I had met a really good friend on here. I talked to this person pretty much everyday. I always enjoyed and even looked forward to talking to this person. I know some things have happened, but wtf? This person had prided themself on being there for their friends, well since this person has decided not to talk to me anymore I guess I wasan't really considered a friend. That hurts. I guess its true about the internet.. ppl are fake. Now I know that I can't trust anyone or believe in anyone. I have learned my lesson. And thank you for teaching it to me. If you ever decide that I am worthy of your friendship.. you know where to find me.

Friends....hmmm...or Not
Doesn't it just suck when you always have to be the one to initiate contact with your friends? I have several friends like that. Or are they just not even my friends and ignoring me? I know that I am guilty of it too, but not really with those who I talk to often. I'm officially on strike as of now. If you want to talk to me, you know where to find me. Not meant to be bitchy or anything, just a sucky reality. Sorry for venting, if this rubs ya the wrong way then move on to the next blog, lol.

Lost Faith...
So i am sitting here... I know i said i wasnt going to cry again.. but i am, i listen to that song unansered prayers... And i wish to god that it was that was for me, because i dont understand why i can go threw this, No one out there loves me and wants to be with me. And i dont love anyone like i love my ex, the song says thank god for unanswered prayers... But i wish to god he had of answered mine. I dont understand, i have served my country and been almost killed i dont know how many times and yet i am still suffereing... Why me? for the love of god why me... what is so wrong with me that no one wants me... and why no one can or wants to commit to me. I am starting to think i was meant to be misurable. Cause that is all that makes sence anymore.

Dangers In Mumming Drunk.....
Well I went and put my foot in it big time last night. After several hours and a 6 pack, I posted a mumm that was taken down in about 60 seconds. Today my Mumming priviledges are gone. *SIGH* And I so liked asking stupid questions in mumms... the pics of bridges I got...the pics of food, the disgusted comments... so let that be a lesson to you boys and girls, and don't mumm drunk! rob

As If Anyone Cares
have to pick up my pieces somehow But they are all over the floor I have to get myself together now I cannot get out my front door My medication is insufficient At poetry I seem quite proficient Does anybody really care? I am neither here nor there but nowhere And now I wonder what to do I used to be someone but I forgot Who maybe you I never knew What hit me what fit me or who I was I only wrote these lines because I wanted to reach out to you

People On This Site Need To Calm The Fuck Down.
what is wrong with you people?!? do you really have that big of an inferiority complex that you have to bash on everything i do? get over your self pity, and leave me alone. to the others out there that aren't like this-- i enjoy having you as friends, and hope you aren't as easily influenced as some of the morons on this site. I'm a 20 year old woman. girl. female. it shouldn't matter. we all have the same problems and y'all need to calm your shit down. that's all for now. bye.

What The Fuck Ever
to all whom it may concern im sick of this you think you know a person and then you wait a min and then you figure it out its all a fucking lie im sick of putting everything n the line and in the end throwing it away i hate the way you all think you know me when in fact only a few do know a small part of me thngs you all should know about me i fucking hate shit talking and shit talkers i fucking hate DRAMA with a passion i fucking hate how people think they know me i fucking hate the way i get put in the middle i fucking hate how i deal with dram and come here and get another dose of it i fucking hate ATTENTION WHORES i fucking hate fake ass friends and people i fucking hate solving others issues i fucking hate back stabbing bitches i fucking hate life in general i fucking hate not haveing money i fucking hate the way i feel right now i fucking hate people who feel the need to start shit to feel like there the bigger person(your not) i fucking hate the way i help every

To The Ladies
Thank you for everything you do everyday. Thank you for making a drab world more beautiful, for brightening up the day. Thank you for all the comments, all the pictures, and all the wonderful conversations. Thank you for sharing your beautiful bodies, for sharing everything you are, inside and out. Thank you for showing me that I am not the only one with desires, for showing me that I'm normal. Thank you for being beautiful, for being sexy, for being amazing. Thank you for being you, and sharing yourself with me.

The Votes Are In!
congrats to all the contestants! you're all winners in my book! :o) remember that all ratings count as 2 points and each comment as 1!! heres the final verdict of the "sexxiest man of UK contest": 8 ratings and 17 comments= 33 points for UK's Sexy Male 8 ratings & 44 comments= 60 points for Batteries Included 8 ratings & 149 votes= 165 points for Rabbit999 10 ratings & 180 comments= 200 points for Soulsinger 16 ratings & 230 comments= 262 points for The Dragon Slayer 21 ratings & 1103 comments= 1145 points for I love my sexy girls on tap 41 ratings & 4424 comments= 4506 points for Fatz in 3rd place: 109 ratings & 8224 comments= 8442 points for Rev in 2nd place: 78 ratings & 14454 comments= 14610 points for Staz in 1st place: 90 ratings & 14819= 14999 points for Badraven

And This Is Why I Stopped Shooting Girls In The Cleveland Area...
its because of them and and their boyfriends...long story short, I shot this chick last Jan or so... it was a starter shoot as SHE wanted to do her own personal site... and she got paid for the video so I have all the releases and legal crap to go with it... well the video goes public and the local scene has a SHITFIT... (mostly guys that she turned down now are up her ass becuase they got denied and are giving her shit)... ok so being a nice guy I take the video/photos down and give her 6 MONTHS to payback what I paid her and then i'll give her the videos and rights back... I dont give a fuck... but as I already got dicked out of time, and extra $$ in trying to set her up with her own personal site I was just really irritated with the whole deal and just wanted it done...well months and months go by... not a single dime, not an email or contact saying "here's some $$ can you hold off?" or even in seeing her at shows did I even get a single mention or even a "sorry about that, here hav

Just A Futile Blog
Theres an emptiness that weve all felt at one time or another in our life.Everyone has a desire , a need to love or to feel love , its funny to sit back and hear people try to deny it.Its human nature to want , long for , and yes need human companionship.So why then are so many people afraid or ashamed to admit? As a mother I have the greatest love anyone could experience. The unconditional love that everyone seeks in a romantic relationship. I think to my self that should be all the love I need , I dont need a lover , I dont want one , yet I still find my self crying for whats missing in my heart.I find myself laying in bed at night and just crying for what I want , yet believe is impossible for me to attain.I know I can go the rest of my life without a man , or with that love , but isnt it strange , that for something we claim that we dont need we morn so greatly ? I also think its funny how I always manage to set myself for what I cant have .I guess that saying holds so true f

~ If I Knew ~
If I knew it would be the last time That I'd see you fall asleep, I would tuck you in more tightly and pray the Lord, your soul to keep. If I knew it would be the last time that I see you walk out the door, I would give you a hug and kiss and call you back for one more. If I knew it would be the last time I'd hear your voice lifted up in praise, I would video tape each action and word, so I could play them back day after day. If I knew it would be the last time, I could spare an extra minute to stop and say "I love you," instead of assuming you would KNOW I do. If I knew it would be the last time I would be there to share your day, Well I'm sure you'll have so many more, so I can let just this one slip away. For surely there's always tomorrow to make up for an oversight, and we always get a second chance to make everything just right. There will always be another day to say "I love you," And certainly there's another chanc

Sex
She hadn’t expected it to turn out the way it did. At first it was just another night at home, but soon enough, it turned into much, much more. They had been dating for 9 months now. Jamie and Kyle spent 6 hours a night on the phone at first, and by now, they knew so much about each other, they thought there was nothing left to hide. The night started off with a few bottles of alcohol and a couple of friends over. Jamie had always found Kyle’s best friend, Mike, very appealing, and tonight was no different. The small group of friends played drinking games, joked around, and laughed into the wee morning hours. The party had dwindled down to just Jamie, Kyle, and Mike. Not ready for bed, Mike sarcastically suggested they play scrabble, but to his surprise they were up for it! “Drunk scrabble? Hell Yeah!”, Jamie was all about it! After the first few turns, Mike spelled out clit, Jamie followed suit and spelled cock, and the group continued with their now erotic scrabble game. As Jamie s

Knitwear Two: San Marcos.
my knitwear collection inspired by basilica di san marcos was a huge success! i got rave reviews and was told it was best in the class. the only downside? i got to school yesterday to find some fucking douchebagcuntrag had placed a bleached out thumb print in the fucking middle of my rendering. how is that possible when it is so damn high up on the wall? someone must really hate me. either way, thee vivienne westwood is coming to my knitwear class on sunday! holy shit dude. i have to re-render my drawings now. FUCK! she better actually come or else i will be pissed that i re-rendered my work just for her! SHITPOOP!

Knitwear Two: Butcher Bunny.
this is day two of my knitwear collection inspired by mark ryden's "the butcher bunny". this is the sickest painting ever! and i say "sick" as in really fucking kickass! check it: today was a seventeen hour day at school. i am sofa king bazausted! BUT i knited a swatch of a raw steak! haha!

2010 Vancouver Olympics - Q&a
I love Canada and I love Canadians. Never has one country produced such a large amount of intellectual smartasses. Of course, Canada is a nation that values brains over bombs. Enjoy this list of questions sent to a Vancouver newspaper from all over the world and the reporter's hysterical answers. 2010 Olympics Now that Vancouver has won the chance to host the 2010 Winter Olympics, these are some questions people the world over are asking! Q: I have never seen it warm on Canadian TV, so how do the plants grow? (England ) A. We import all plants fully grown and then just sit around and watch them die. Q: Will I be able to see Polar Bears in the street? (USA ) A: Depends on how much you've been drinking. Q: I want to walk from Vancouver to Toronto -can I follow the Railroad tracks? (Sweden ) A: Sure, it's only Four thousand miles, take lots of water. Q: Is it safe to run around in the bushes in Canada ? (Sweden ) A: So it's true what they say about Swedes.

About Me
I have worked fairly hard trying to make a nice profile page. However, this person I am married to chooses to make more out of the things I have said or the images that I have added than what they really are. He is looking at is as an invitation if you will for whom ever. This was not my intentions and no one who has read it has commented that way either. I will occasionally get an "Hey great profile"! I was looking at is as a form of therapy such as something to do to occupy my mind for one and also to maybe perhaps get in touch with my self through examining the things that make me smile or happy. It has been enjoyable searching for images that represent meaning of some shape, form, or fashion to me. I thought this was why it was called the about me section. Things about me I wanted people to know. I never thought it was wrong. Maybe I need to redo it and put all sadness on it. It is hard to live in a world where you can't be the real you.

What Is Wrong With Some People
This is more of a vent that a blog.. Some People on here and you know who you are have got some serious pyscho issues.. Call me I'll hook you up with a good shrink. Hell I'll even pay if your ass will just go.. Later!!

Never Ending Pain
I Lay On The Floor Just Staring At The Ceiling Pain, Hate, And Sadness Are What I'm Feeling I'm Blamed For Things I Did Not Do To Me This Is Nothing New I Cut My wrists And Watch The Blood Flow All Of This You'll Never Know You Have No Clue what I Go Through You Don't Even Know What To Do I Lay Here Thinking About My Life Must The Pain End With The Knife A Quick Slash Here A Crimson Line There My Arms Are Covered With These Lines I can't Remember Any Good Times Happiness, I Cannot Find Can't You even Try To Be Kind? I Go Through This Pain Every Day Suddenly My Life Starts To Fray My Life Is Broken And Torn My Biggest Mistake Was Being Born I'm Emotionally Abused I Feel I'm Nothing But Used I'm Unwanted And Not Cared To Love Me Was Like A dare My Pain Will Never End Suicide Is My Only Friend I Lay Here dying I Start Crying Once I reach The Heavens Above I'll feel Cared And Loved Until Then I Lay Here Waiting As My Life Is Slowly Fading As I Die You Find

Am I Alone?
I Get This Feeling It Comes From Deep Inside. I Get Mad Angry, Wanting To Go And Hide. My Doctor Calls It Depression, My Dad Says Its Just Me. But The Thoughts And Feelings, No One Will Ever Be Able To See. Some Call Me Psycho, Some Call Me Just Weird. It's Like I'm A Different Person, And The Old Me Just Disappeared. I Get Really Edgy, Wanting To Commit Suicide Real Bad. Then I Get A Headache, Followed By A Feeling A Being Sad. I Wish I Could Get Help, I Wish It Would Go Away. Maybe If I Keep Praying Maybe It Will Some Day.

Have A Good Week!
BY SINCERELY ADMIRING BEAUTY, YOU BECOME MORE BEAUTIFUL. WHEN YOU TRULY APPRECIATE THE CREATIVE WORK OF OTHERS, YOUR OWN CREATIVITY GROWS STRONGER. ACT WITH RESPECT TOWARD OTHERS, AND YOU'LL DEVELOP A DEEPER RESPECT FOR YOURSELF AND YOUR OWN POSSIBILITIES. BE GENEROUS WITH THOSE AROUND YOU, AND YOU'LL FIND THAT LIFE IS MORE GENEROUS WITH YOU. SPEND TIME IN PEACEFUL SURROUNDINGS, AND YOU'LL CONTINUE TO CARRY THAT PEACE WITHIN YOU. LISTEN TO THE WORDS OF SOMEONE WHO IS FILLED WITH POSITIVE PASSION, AND THAT PASSION WILL FIND A PLACE IN YOU AS WELL. THE WAY YOU LIVE CAN HAVE A GREAT INFLUENCE ON THE WAY YOU ARE. YOU CARRY WITHIN YOU LASTING ECHOES OF THE PEOPLE, THINGS, PLACES AND EXPERIENCES TO WHICH YOU HAVE BEEN EXPOSED. THE CHOICES YOU MAKE IN THIS MOMENT CAN AFFECT YOUR LIFE LONG AFTER THIS DAY HAS PASSED. SO FILL THIS MOMENT WITH BEAUTY, LOVE, FRIENDSHIP, ACCOMPLISHMENT, ADMIRATION AND PASSION. PUT YOURSELF IN SITUATIONS WHERE THE GOODNESS OF LIFE WILL BE ABLE TO

Bad Habits
Breaking the Habit of Feeling Bad About Myself When I was very young, I needed to be taught As all children do How to choose wisely. And so I was taught That when I chose badly Or made a mistake To feel bad about myself. The teaching was successful. By so many criteria I did indeed Choose wisely. But every decision No matter how wise Included a bit Of feeling bad That never went away. It just built up over time. And though I did well My unhappiness grew No matter what I did. If I'd been unable To learn other ways To define choosing wisely, I would have begun Choosing very badly When the unhappiness Became intolerable. Then one day Someone told me Feeling bad about myself Only gets in the way Of choosing wisely. At first I didn't believe, But the more I tried it The more I was convinced: We do our best And decide most wisely When we feel good About ourselves. A horrible mistake, Or a s

Life
To whom do i call on when everything i know, i question? "For everything and anything, i gave my all. My heart and soul and you left me broken." Still i fight for it all????? Never understand where i went wrong. To whom do i call on when everything i know, i question? For in the moment, i lost everything. "For everything and anything, i gave my all. My heart and soul and you left me broken." Where did i go wrong....and why must i feel as if i still have to fight? To whom do i call on.............. "I shall allow no man to belittle my soul by making me hate him."

Addendum!
Forgot to mention I'm entering The Big Mike's Dragon tattoo contest. Don't usually enter contests of any kind but I thought I'd do this one! Don't know all the particulars yet. I'll pass it on when I know! There are so many absolutely stunning Dragon tattoos out there! Can't wait to see them all in one place, lol!

How To Install A (redneck) Home Security System
1. Go to a second-hand store and buy a pair of men's used size 14-16 work boots. 2. Place them on your front porch, along with several empty beer cans, a copy of Guns & Ammo magazine and several NRA magazines. 3. Put a few giant dog dishes next to the boots and magazine. 4. Leave a note on your door that reads: "Hey Bubba, Big Jim, Duke and Slim, I went to the gun shop for more ammo. Back in an hour. Don't mess with the pit bulls -- they attacked the mailman this mornin' and messed him up real bad. I don't think Killer took part in it but it was hard to tell from all the blood. PS - I locked all four of 'em in the house. Better wait outside.

What's Your Sexual Syle
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Cleaning Out Friends List
To all my friends,i was thinking about quiting Ct,but instead decided if was'nt fair to my true friends..I leave comments on your pages out of goodness or love.I don't mean anything by some of the dirtiness or bad things..It's just a computer and i don't act like this in peron..For you all that know me.i'm a loving person and would not hurt a soul on here.I try to be humorous and funny to make ya'll smle or laff..But some have taking it a bit further by not coming back to my page..I'm truley sorry.And for the ones that think i don't have time for them..Well i do care and i try to make the time to chat..But Many of you that are my true friends and family know what i went through and have over come..I read ya'll profile's and ya'll say life is to short..Well my friend no one would know that better then myself..I love everyone and when i say that it's from the heart,not being dirty..You see computers can be decieving when u see things on here,so it makes you think someone is a bad person

Grab A Tissue Cuz U Gonna Cry!
This is what happened When she was alive... Her dad was a drunk Her mom was an addict Her parents kept her Locked in an attic Her only friend was a little toy bear It was old and worn out And had patches of hair She always talked to it When no one's around She lays there and hugs it Not a peep of sound Until her parents unlock the door Some more and more pain She'll have to endore A bruise on her leg A scar on her face Why would she be In such a horrible place? But she grabs her bear And softly crys She loves her parents But they want her to die She sits in the corner Quiet but thinking, "Please God, why is My life always sinking? " Such a bad life For a sad little kid She'd get beaten and beaten For anything she did Then one night Her mom came home high And the poor child was beaten As hours went by Then her mom suddenly Grabbed for a blade It was sharp and pointy One that she made She thrusted the b

Another Day In Paradise
OK...so most of you would not say Alabama is paradise but you have to make the most of what you've got! :) So here I am, posting pics and making comments and I find myself addicted to this place and it's only day 3! LOL

Chat And Update On Poll
Below is a chat converatsion I had with an internet friend today. We've been chatting for about a year now. So she knows my obsession with my penis size. We've dicussed it many times before. So yeah she knows. Not that's the only thing we chat about, but anyway. So I asked if she voted in my poll, http://www.cpoll.com/poll?id=2669707 or here. In it I ask women to compare my penis size - 5.75" long, 4.5" around, and 1.5" wide - to others they've personally experienced. It's not intended to be what women think of my size, or for them to tell me white lies. I need honesty. Using my friend as an example. The average she's experienced has been 7.38 inches, 1.63 inches bigger than me, yet she voted me average. So far I'm suspect, because I doubt she's the only one. I don't necessarily want to be smaller. It's not my want to be humiliated. Yes I kinda enjoy it at times. I simply want the truth in this poll, and yes, I can handle it. lol Please see chat and the results below. sm

Fantasies
Lately I've been having a very vivid fantasy. I spy a strange woman in a seedy bar. She is a newcomer there, unknown to myself or the regulars. I watch her, fingering a small package that I have been carrying with me for weeks. She rises and heads to the restroom. This particular establishment is very dirty, and has one unisex bathroom with multiple stalls. I follow her in. She chooses the second stall from the left. My luck is with me. I move into the stall next to her. Has she noticed the large hole in the wall next to her? If so, she says nothing. I slide the package under the stall. "Open it," I say. At first, she does not comply, but her curiousity gets the better of her and I see her hand descend to grab the parcel. I listen breathlessly as the plain brwon paper is torn away from the box. There is a small gasp as she surveys the contents: A leather blindfold. Slave collar. Handcuffs. She says nothing, but her breathing has quickened. "Put them

Litterbug Batman!
Batman thwarts the evil litterbug but doesnt help the little people out being mugged on the streets. Stay tuned to the final episode of batman until the next ones are put up at the same bat time and same bat station!!! Misemeanor Batman-Litter BugAdd to My Profile | More Videos

Women's Bumper Stickers...
WOMEN'S BUMPER STICKERS... 1. SO MANY MEN, SO FEW WHO CAN AFFORD ME. 2. GOD MADE US SISTERS; PROZAC MADE US FRIENDS. 3. IF THEY DON'T HAVE CHOCOLATE IN HEAVEN, I AIN'T GOING. 4. MY MOTHER IS A TRAVEL AGENT FOR GUILT TRIPS. 5. PRINCESS, HAVING HAD SUFFICIENT EXPERIENCE WITH PRINCES, SEEKS FROG. 6. COFFEE, CHOCOLATE, MEN. . . SOME THINGS ARE JUST BETTER RICH. 7. DON'T TREAT ME ANY DIFFERENTLY THAN YOU WOULD THE QUEEN. 8. IF YOU WANT BREAKFAST IN BED, SLEEP IN THE KITCHEN. 9. DINNER IS READY WHEN THE SMOKE ALARM GOES OFF. 10. I'M OUT OF ESTROGEN-AND I HAVE A GUN. 11. GUYS HAVE FEELINGS TOO. BUT LIKE...WHO CARES? 12. NEXT MOOD SWING: 6 MINUTES. 13. AND YOUR POINT IS...? 14. WARNING: I HAVE AN ATTITUDE AND I KNOW HOW TO USE IT. 15. OF COURSE I DON'T LOOK BUSY...I DID IT RIGHT THE FIRST TIME. 16. DO NOT START WITH ME. YOU WILL NOT WIN. 17. YOU HAVE THE RIGHT TO REMAIN SILENT, SO PLEASE SHUT UP. 18. ALL STRESSED OUT AND NO ONE TO CHOKE.

Hilarious
Sex :) Abe Lincoln: When an unconscious person gets jizzed on their face, gets their pubes cut and applied to their face to form a beard, then adorned with a top hat. Angry Dragon: While a girl is sucking you off, right as you are about to cum, you grab hold of her head and pull her mouth as far onto your cock as possible. She proceeds to gag from the cock unexpectedly being rammed down her throat, but since your cock is blocking her air passage, her cough (and your cum) exit through her nose. The cum dripping out of both of the girl¡¦s nostrils, resembles a dragon¡¦s snout - and after pulling a stunt like this, you can be sure she's going to be an angry one. Angry Abe Lincoln: A combination of the Abe Lincoln and Angry Dragon. When getting head and nearing climax, shove your cock into her throat, making the cum and her cough come out of her nose. The cum will run down her upper lip and chin. Proceed to throwing your saved stash of shaven pubic hair onto her face, creating a f

I Love This Stuff Yum!
Sexy & Romantic glitter graphics from Sexi Luv.com It was autumn in all its glorious splendor. The hills and valleys of home were a fantastic blaze of color, vibrant reds, oranges, yellows and greens creating a breathtaking landscape. Sitting on the deck of my buddy’s country cottage, I was glad I had accepted his offer to use it to get away and unwind for a few days. Nothing would energize me more, i thought, than some quiet time alone. Of course I hadn’t yet met Cheryl. On my second day at the cottage I decided to explore a nearby nature trail. I had been hiking for a good hour, slowly but surely making my way up the mountain, when I was startled by a female voive shouting, “Nikki, get back here!” Curious, I left the trail and started into the woods, eventually coming upon a rustic cabin with a girl sitting outside on the deck and at her feet is a small dog or two. “Hi,” she said when she saw me, unfazed by my sudden presence. We exchanged names as she got up ans excused

Rant.
its early...but im agitated none the less dear icp fans/juggalos/lettes, where were you in 1997? when riddle box come out? icp is fucking retarded and havent made a decent record since then...theyve capitalized on taking your moms welfare money so you can see 2 idiots from ypsilanti,(not detroit like they so proudly proclaim) michgan try to "speak on some real shit".youre all fools...and make me laugh continually everyday...did the 6th joker card come out yet? why hasnt the world ended? and why havent they toured? dear orange people, im not impressed with your finely cured nails...mystic tan...or your wide array of overpriced clothing that you bought at hollister.do you even know where hollister is?...i can tell you one thing...i know for a fact that dont dress like a grease monkey who passed out on hunington beach. just because its expensive doesnt take away from the fact youre a shallow retard...please suck on exhaust pipe. dear XXXimsometalihavexsaroundmynameXXX, distu

News Pt. 2
Sorry I deleted the damn blog on accident. Ok...well, my day started Wednesday at 0400. I got up got my shit together and went to wait for the bus. I arrived at MEPS at around 0500. Went through the whole deal. (Long Story Short) 12hrs later I completed all the areas I needed. And sat down...sat some more...sat a little bit more. Anyways...at about 1830hrs I was sworn into the US Armed Service...Branch: United States Marine Corps. I ship for bootcamp March 12. Bootcamp is about 13 weeks long or 3 months if you will. Just wanted to let the peeps who read my shyte know. L8tes everyone...Im goin to bed. In 45mins I will have been awake 24hrs.

For Love.
I had an interesting little chat with my ex last night. He was telling me he lost interest in his girlfriend, his girlfriend he cheated on me with, his girlfriend whom is pregnant with his child. As I’ve stated before, I never realized how much of a coward he is, until lately. This morning I came to a realization, he was a good friend to me for awhile at least, but nothing more. We met at a time in our lives that we both needed a good friend, someone to listen and lean on. We misinterpreted that and assumed we needed a relationship. It is sad to look back on this and see the fact I never really knew him. He told me once “You don’t really know who I am”, saying this after we had been together almost 3 years. As I looked deep in his cold blue eyes, I almost shivered. I didn’t know this person looking back at me. I was in love with someone who did not exist. I was in love with an illusion he created for me, someone I wanted and needed at the time. Love makes us do strange things…

I Am Not Going To Lethim Get To Me
AS SOME OF YOU KNOW I AM HAVEING TROUBLE WITH THIS LITTLE CANADIAN BOY ON HERE BY THE NAME OF DARYL HE WANTS TO START SHIT WITH ME WELL I AM NOT GOING TO LET HIM GET TO ME I AM BETTER THEN THAT. I WILL NEVER STOOP TO HIS LEVEL.I AM HOPEING THAT WAHTEVER FRIEND'S OF MINE ON HERE WILL JUST IGNORE HIM AND HIS FAMILY TOO.

Post By Drill/ Semper Fi Salute To A Fallen Comrade! Please Read!
Thank you Semo_MCDad from MarineParents.com for allowing us to use this wonderful example of the meaning of Semper Fidelis you have written. Last Sunday as my son prepared to return to his MOS school from liberty an old WWII Marine friend of mine asked us to follow him to the final resting place of a young Marine who lost his life in Iraq. This young man had two great loves. The Marines and Harley-Davidson motorcycles. Both are remembered on his stone. I want to tell you about it. It is a beautiful black granite stone. On the front is the young Marines dress blues picture engraved into the stone with startling detail. To the left of the picture is the EGA, the symbol of the Marines, with USMC engraved beneath it. To the right is a full rendition of this young Marines H-D Heritage Softail, with Harley etched into the stone beneath it. Along the face of the stones foundation 'Do not grieve for me, for now I am free, I am following the path God laid for me'. On the back of the ston

God Is Like
GOD IS LIKE COKE.HE IS THE REAL THING. GOD IS LIKE GENERAL ELECTRIC.HE LIGHTS YOUR PATH. GOD IS LIKE BAYER ASPIRIN.HE WORKS WONDERS. GOD IS LIKE HALLMARK CARDS.HE CARES ENOUGH TO SEND THE VERY BEST. GOD IS LIKE TIDE.HE GETS THE STAINS OUT THAT OTHERS LEAVE BEHIND. GOD IS LIKE V05 HAIRSPRAY.HE HOLDS THROUGH ALL KINDS OF WEATHER. GOD IS LIKE DIAL SOAP.ARE'NT YOU GLAD YOU KNOW HIM?DON'T YOU WISH EVERYONE DID? GOD IS LIKE SEARS.HE HAS EVERYTHING. GOD IS LIKE ALKA SELTZER.TRY HIM,YOU'LL LIKE HIM. GOD IS LIKE SCOTCH TAPE.YOU CAN'T SEE HIM,BUT YOU KNOW HE'S THERE.

Words Of Advice As I Hit The Road Yet Again....
I took a much needed break yesterday into today, and hopped online to check out my closest CT people, and say hello and thank you to any new people I meet. And I did have a couple great convos and I do appreciate that. However, I have seen sooooo many bulletins and what-not just spoutin' and spreadin' BS. Now everybody goes on and on about all this hate, and how they're gettin' low ratings and mean comments, hell some of em are gettin' death threats!! (Gettin' killed via Cherry Tap...I'm sorry, that's some funny shit LOL). And honestly, we all have to be realistic and just get our priorities in order. First of all, YOU WILL NOT GET EVERYBODY TO LIKE, LUST, OR LOVE YOU!! Second, SPREADING BULLETINS AROUND ABOUT YOUR ENEMIES JUST GIVES THEM THE SPOTLIGHT AND REACTION THEY WANTED FROM YOU IN THE FIRST PLACE!!! Now isn't the job of a hater to hate? Instead of whining and crying about these one or two people, concentrate and shine the spotlight on the ones who are showin' you luv!!!

~ The Final Inspection ~
THE FINAL INSPECTION The Marine stood and faced God, Which must always come to pass. He hoped his shoes were shining, Just as brightly as his brass. "Step forward now, Marine, How shall I deal with you? Have you always turned the other cheek? To My Church have you been true?" The soldier squared his shoulders and said, "No, Lord, I guess I ain't. Because those of us who carry guns, Can't always be a saint. I've had to work most Sundays, And at times my talk was tough. And sometimes I've been violent, Because the world is awfully rough. But, I never took a penny, That wasn't mine to keep... Though I worked a lot of overtime, When the bills got just too steep. And I never passed a cry for help, Though at times I shook with fear. And sometimes, God, forgive me, I've wept unmanly tears. I know I don't deserve a place, Among the people here. They never wanted me around, Except to calm their fears. If you've a place fo

Frustration
So, obviously we have all had "one of those days" Why do I get them more frequently? Why is it when I am so into him, and worry constantly he's not into me? Hate the past that binds me into lack of trust and scared to move forward. He is the best thing that has happened to me in a long time, and it's so cool he is just like me, from his sarcasm, to his sweetness. Is it too much to believe in? Dare I say he's perfect? Hmm.. damn well close to it(even if he's a flirt.) Maybe the issue is I am just insecure and think he is too good for someone like me. Ugh... I'm gonna rip my hair out.

Just Blab No Comments
ok im just so sick of stupid ppl ok a person (you know who you are) talks shit about my mom becuz the person put a hole in my wall and my mother owns the place i live and he is pissed off cuz its gonna cost him 200 dollars to get the two walls replace becuz he punched his fist throw the kitchen wall and into my lil girls closet and my mother dont want a shitty job done on it i have never done drywall and have no clue yet yet he can talk shit about my mother call her a bitch and every thing else and exsepct me not to blow my steam about his memow well there is alotta more then what i told him that u could say i think it is time for him to grow up and be a man he need to take responsibility for his own actions and not xspect everyone else to do it he want everyone else to find him a job he wants everyone else to do it all fo him but why shuld anyone else have to do it when he is the only one that does it to himself i didnt punch the wall i didnt get fired from my job i didnt walk out of

I Made Someone Angry - Are You Shocked?
I love how a picture of me in a tshirt and cotton underwear gets NSFWed. Of course, all these are just fine: http://cherrytap.com/user/447697 http://cherrytap.com/user/452502 http://cherrytap.com/user/153560 But I report a comment left here: http://cherrytap.com/user/169542 that is absolutely disgusting and racist, and nothing gets done about it. If it's gone soon, then good. I just reported it to six more bouncers in hopes that someone will have the sense to delete it. -EDIT- they got it deleted. Yay, the system works sometimes! I only had to message a total of seven bouncers. ;)

The Day For Lover Bathed In The Color Of Night
when i said roses are red and violets were blue, i should have know it wasn't good enough for you. For you, it's all about image and looks. superficialness and self- centerness is what is about you. Love is a empty emotion for you. i don't believe you have truly felt it..save 3. I guess showing you Love was a bad thing or these words would not be spoken. you were my all, an I was......??what was i to you???besides a friend?No drama you said.you hated it you said..but why did you do what you did when you did??I can not believe i allowed you to take away almost everything that made me me..i threw myself out there in a attempt to heal all the wounds that were not mine..i guess i threw myself out there to far, for i had a hard time finding my way back to me..what a skeletal wreck i was when i finally found me..so ashamed of myself for being what i had become..i was so destroyed that i started having thought i swore i would never have again..i was at the brink of self destruction..so close.

Tepid Lava
The mess Inside Our heads We Create Always a Day short And a Dollar late The murky Cranial tide We activate It’s easier To fall In hate Our karma We just Masturbate Over wishes We salivate Of who we Pretend we Were Instead of Who we Are

21 Things I Want In A Lover
I've been reading all these bulletins about "I WANT THIS GUY/GIRL" lately. Well, I've been with that girl and i've had that guy. Obviously it didn't work. That being the case, I've decided to post what I want. Flowers aren't in my top 10. :) Anyone who I end up with should: 1. Understand that I have kids. That means you will NEVER come first. Can't handle 2nd place? Leave. 2. Be HONEST..with me and yourself. 3. Be FAITHFUL. 4. Be drug/disease/mental illness free. These ARE deal breakers. 5. Have a sense of humor. 6. Know how to do laundry. 7. Be able to find joy in the world around them. 8. Have a job (i'm not supporting your ass and i don't want u to support me.) 9. Understand that i'm not your ex or your mother. I don't care if i have something in common with them. I'm NOT them and that should be enough. 10. Know when to be serious and when to be silly. 11. Leave me alone when i'm pissed. 12. Know that if i was pissed @ u, i'd tell you. 13.

I Hate Being Sick!
Can I just mention that being sick SUX! Big time! But being a sick phone sex operator can either work for you or against you. Sometimes you get REALLY lucky and get that sexy deep throaty sick voice. The other half of the time you're coughing and gagging (ok.. that can work too) or you just lose your voice completely. Basically I'm just waiting to either get "deathly" ill or feel better. At this point I really don't care which I just hate this in between stage that I'm currently at. Not really feeling well enough to do a lot of stuff. Kinda run down but nothing that a nap doesn't usually cure. Anyway... I'll stop whining and hope that my voice hits that deep throaty sexy voice tonight for all the guys who are hoping to get off to my moans and begs.

Ugh
got to love a job where u get yelled at cause they believe the clothes u wear are gonna be a saftey hazard.. LOL bull fuckin shit.. I got yelled at tonight at work, cause I had chains on my pants and my pants came close to coming over my shoes.. I can fall over my pants and get hurt.. and ummm The chains can get stuck on something and kill me... wtf man I have never in my life meet such a bunch of morons.. all cause two of my supervisors don't like how I dress so I get in trouble.. well they call all kiss my mother fuckin ass now... They will see when I find a new job.. LOL woohoo I hate that place.. ok I am done bitching for the moment..

Lmao! Who's Smarter Here???
When girls don't put out!! This was written by a guy... it's pretty damn smart. Girls -- Please have a sense of humor! I never quite figured out why the sexual urge of men and women differ so much. And I never have figured out the whole Venus and Mars thing. I have never figured out why men think with their head and women with their heart. FOR EXAMPLE: One evening last week, my girlfriend and I were getting into bed. Well, the passion starts to heat up, and she eventually says, "I don't feel like it, I just want you to hold me." I said, "WHAT??!! What was that?!" So she says the words that every boyfriend on the planet dreads to hear... "You're just not in touch with my emotional needs as a woman enough for me to satisfy your physical needs as a man." She responded to my puzzled look by saying, "Can't you just love me for who I am and not what I do for you in the bedroom?" Realizing that nothing was going to happen that night, I went to sleep. The very ne

A Lil Game For You All
Ok lovelies lets play a lil game of mine tell me who wrote it and what its from and whoever gets it first I'll love forever maybe ..... yeah maybe "If we shadows have offended think but this and all is mended that you have but slumbered here whilst these visions did appear and this weak and idle theme no more yielding but a dream"

Lately
well, it seems to me lately that every1 has someone. im so happy that they r happy but im still wondering when itll be my turn. i mean there is someone who i am really interested in right now but the distance is a killer. alot of things have gone on lately and i think ive personally done alot of changing and there might be an even bigger change coming to my life... we shall see i guess. much love Krys *hugs and kisses*

Dead Tomarrow
Dead Tomorrow All so Hollow Dead tomorrow You gave me this pain. You can’t take it away. Flies will lay their eggs. A crooked smile Hollow eyes So long, so many lies. A victim of our demise Glass, I have become. All so hollow Dead tomorrow I never wanted this. Cold was our last kiss Nothing, I have become. Love it when I bleed. Watch me beating me. Broken, I am. Drift away In a world of decay Dead so long Hollow stayed Torn inside With a crooked smile Hollow eyes Dead again Full of sorrow Dead tomorrow Killed what you can’t fix. I loved you, I love you. Look what you did Never, never wanted this. Suicide Saints Music 2007 Lyrics by: Brandon Fordosi

Says It All Besos Para Tu
MOST IMPORTANT: I'm not into head games Do not do DRAMA Do not want to see your privates nor do I want to show you mine. I do not need a slave nor do I want to be one. Something to think about. As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a NEW LOVE for things an OLD one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back. Don't be afraid that your life will end, be afraid that it will never begin. Life is too damn short and most do not realize it until it is to late. I'm here to meet new peopl

Taken A Break........for How Long.......no One Knows
Well ya know I had sat here from time to time and I thought about leaving for a while. Well tonite Ive decided to take my own advice and do just that. I understand that this site is just for those who love to flirt and then its also a site to meet new people and make friends as well. Well at times when I come on here, I say to myself "Why do I even bother?" I try and talk with people on here but it seems that either 1. they are too busy doing other things 2. Either they dont wanna be bothered Either way, I totally understand, even though I rarely talk with some of the folks who are on my list and those who I do try and talk with, just to say "hello" and "how was your day" or "what are you up to?"........I get no response at all. But I find it funny that after I leave and all, I get a response when I come back to check my messages if I get any. But like I said, Im takin a break from Cherry Tap.....cause I'm honestly tired of feeling like I'm not wanted or anythi

Hey To All My Friends
To all the friends of mine that signed my guest book i like to ty and u all r some great people and friends i hold dearly to my heart...... and to all my other friends that haven't yet u may add yourselves to it i love it so much...this is what i feel for all u that r my friends and fans and my fans as well....if i do not talk much to u i am sorry i try my best to talk to u all and stuff so plz forgive me plzzz..here is a poem i saw and it reminds me of all of u ...love stacie

Poem
Waterfall Under the waterfall I sit and I feel the water caressing my tender heart. The water is your love so gentle and so real, be we together or be we apart. The soothing water that pours from your soul and takes away all my pain and my sorrow has gotten me reaching for lifes very goal to be with you each and every morrrow. I walk to the waterfall and I drink the heavenly nectar that is your love. I delve in it and then finally sink into the eternity I have been dreaming of.

10 More People Need For The Contest
NEW CONTEST!!! Okay so a lot of contests have already been done! They are all just a popularity contest. Well I am starting a contest for the least popular picture on cherrytap. That’s right the least popular So here is the deal The picture with the least number of comments in a 7 day period starting 24hrs after I get 20 enteries will win a 7 day blast. That’s right the least number of comments

Why Parents Drink
A boss wondered why one of his most valued employees had not phoned in sick one day. Having an urgent problem with one of the main computers, he dialed the employee's home phone number and was greeted with a child's whisper. "Hello." "Is your daddy home?" he asked. "Yes," whispered the small voice. "May I talk with him?" The child whispered, "No." Surprised and wanting to talk with an adult, the boss asked, "Is your Mommy there?" "Yes." "May I talk with her?" Again the small voice whispered, "No" Hoping there was somebody with whom he could leave a message, the boss asked, "Is anybody else there?" "Yes," whispered the child, "a policeman" Wondering what a cop would be doing at his employee's home, the boss asked, "May I speak with the policeman?" "No, he's busy", whispered the child. "Busy doing what?" "Talking to Daddy and Mommy and the Fireman," came the whispered answer. Growing more worried a

I Just Got Ct Married!
Well as you can see everyone else is doing it! I got cherrytap married to someone I have been friends with since I started cherrytap. I hope everyone is happy for us. Take care everyone and I hope to still talk to everyone...after all this is JUST a internet marriage...lmao...Amber!

Love Torn By Miles
MyHotComments / HotFreeLayouts Our love is torn by miles, not by choice. Soon, soon, my darling, I'll be coming home. At night I play your body and your voice, But soon the hands and cries will be your own. I want to love you all the hours we've missed, And do the things I've fantasized for you: Kiss you all the places my mind's kissed, And put you everywhere I've wanted to. My only fear's desiring you so much That dream will overwhelm reality; Time, for both of us, must temper touch So love can once again be slow and free. My mind's already half insane with pleasure; Soon, soon my body will consume its treasure.

Disasterpiece
It's somewhat amusing, but at the same time slightly repulsive. People make me sick. Maybe it's because I don't have a dick, I just don't understand... or maybe because they have dicks they are to stupid to realize... who knows... Maybe it's a little of both. Yeah I know nothing is making sense, it does to me, and that's really all that matters. I've been waiting for something... to long really... but soon, not soon in the sense that it will be shortly, but soon as in sooner than later... I'll be walking. People tell me I am crazy... that I am... but not that kinda crazy... crazy because I care a little to much. It hurts, constantly. Not because of the crazy entirely... but from everything. The little things... The little things people say and do... not every person, but specific ones... the little things matter most, the little things make and break with me... the little things people don’t think matter, well bitch, they matter the most. There's so many times I just

I Often Find Myself Fantasizing About You
Lying here in my bed and an images of you comes into my mind I find myself getting lost in so much pleasure and wanton desire Without hesitation I feel my luminous landscape flooded in tremors of strong fire getting hot and excited for you... Lying here with my eyes closed I can feel how masculine and rigid you are to me I then gently trace my hands across my breasts shuddering wave coarse though me and my nipples hardened as I think of you My warm breath leads me down To trace the outline of my hips Exploring the inner soft of my thighs I am lead by my rigid breath author:?

Gigglepiss.
a poem FOR Mel. fart brains. butthole stains. jiggle juicy nuts. french fries in yer eyes. coming out yer butt. penis fringe. nose hair singe. vaginas taste like salt. earthquakes. belly shakes. quick! hide in the vault! W3RD! BEEEYOTCH!

Who I Am Test
Your Dominant Intelligence is Logical-Mathematical Intelligence You are great at finding patterns and relationships between things. Always curious about how things work, you love to set up experiments. You need for the world to make sense - and are good at making sense of it. You have a head for numbers and math ... and you can solve almost any logic puzzle. You would make a great scientist, engineer, computer programmer, researcher, accountant, mathematician or truck driver.What Kind of Intelligence Do You Have?

14 What To Do When You're Sore?
If you're going to exercise you are probably going to overtax your muscles. When you overtax your muscles they let you know that you did just that and life isn't as nice as it normally is. Is there a way to avoid it? Not if you want to keep getting better. Is there something to be done about it? There are some things that can make it easier. In order to develop your body the equation is simple but not easy. 1. You tear down the muscle with exercise (essentially you cause a minor injury). 2. You provide nutrition for the muscles to metabolize and restore what you used in step one as well as heal and grow the muscle. 3. You rest the muscle so that the nutrition can take effect and the muscle is repaired and made stronger. This process is in effect for most of us every time that we work out. Some people aren't able to do this but that is because of different injuries and diseases that effect them. The vast majority of us has it working very nicely though. The way to

Maga!!!!!!!!!
Choose life, Choose Magaluf, Choose bein pissed everynyt 4 6mnths, Choose mingin blokes, Choose liver pains, Choose Vodka Red Bull and the odd cheeky vimto, Choose the walk of fame and shame, Choose gettin up every day at 6pm, Choose jumpin in the Iberostar 2 sort ur head out, Choose goin 2 bed wiv a fit bloke an wakin up wiv a minger, Choose Burger King, Choose Papis til the nxt afternoon, Choose Cha Cha, Choose Absyinth, Choose the back corner in Boomerangs, Choose the same 3 chat up lines, Choose kebabs 4 breakfast, Choose Charlie, Choose red sick after Pirates, Choose messy after parties, Choose best m8s, Choose amazin memories, Choose....SAMBUUUUUCA! Choose MAGALUF!!!!!!! C0ME ONNNNNNNN!!!!!!!

More Rehab...
this morning i went again to rehab... who said it doesn't hurt of course this guy is nice and tries to not hurt me, but oh well lol doctor yesterday said it's not necessary that i need more rehab, that is ok i finish with those 10 sessions and then just go to swimm in a club, so i get my leg stronger you could be surprised, after a week raining like if it was the end of the world, now if sunny, a clear sky, and cold (50F this morning)... it's friday and tomorrow i wont be able to go to the MoonPark (another electronic party like south fest or creamfields, but smaller: like 15 K person there only)... well this stupid leg wont let me able to go to dance in sometime lets pray i can buy a ticket to go to the Pet Shop Boys concert next march 23 :) anyways, i feel like listening oasis i'm sleepy, is there anyone that can hug me a bit? :)

Walking Through Fire
If you're going to try, go all the way. Otherwise don't even start. It could mean losing girlfriends, wives, relatives, jobs and maybe your mind. It could mean freezing on a park bench. It could mean jail. It could mean derision. It could mean mockery, isolation... Isolation is the gift, all the others are a test of your endurance. And you'll do it, despite rejection and the worst odds. And it will be better than anything else you can imagine. If you're going to try, go all the way. There is no other feeling like that. You will be alone with the gods, and the nights will flame with fire. You will ride life straight to perfect laughter. It's the only good fight there is. Charles Bukowski - Factotum

Quote For The Day 3/2/07
“Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.”

First Nerve....
This was originally a bulletin, but think it more apt as a blog. Here goes: Now check this out. I add a comment to this persons page who had just yesterday, requested to be my friend. Here's the pasted shoutbox exchange: http://www.cherrytap.com/user/704935 ->jadeXxX: yes don't worry - i have better things to do than speak to potty mouth ho jadeXxX: fuck u ugly dick head theres better people 2 talk to ->jadeXxX: no - just curious how "you rock" equates to "I want you" ? jadeXxX: arrh u upset now dry ur eyes mate ->jadeXxX: i'm NOT looking for you jadeXxX: sorry mate have a look 4 sum else jadeXxX: sorry i didnt think i did ->jadeXxX: you added me as a friend so I was commenting jadeXxX: please i not into old men ->jadeXxX: wha? jadeXxX: leave me alone Hillarious eh? Brad

Let It Go
A grain of regret Can weigh like a stone down inside of you And doubt is an anchor Fear is the rope that you're tied to Let It Go Let It Go Let It Go Join the dancin' in the streets Let It Go As the music sets you free Yeah, Let It Go Feel the rhythm of release down in your soul Let It Go Let It Go Life is a parade The banners are raised and it's marching past They're throwing out candy And Mardi Gras beads but you're holding back Let It Go Let It Go Let It Go Like the fireworks in the sky Let It Go There is magic in the night Yeah, Let It Go Trust yourself to get it right and make it so

A Thank You
MyHotComments / HotFreeLayouts I'm going thru some real not so happy times. Like in the photo a hug and reassurance is all it takes to help someone in the moment.. Know someone who needs a hug a genuine hug, give it. It just might save someones life. To all who have given me that HUG, I thank you. You just might have saved a life.

True Friends
Ok I'm gonna be blunt about this. If all people want to do is Increase there ratings and not help others don't bother rating mt page, pics or any thing for that matter. I post bullitins but does any body read them. I think not. People rate my pics but could they become a fan. I think not. To me this seems self-less of them. I'm here to make friend and cumminicate with my friends if all people want is pictures start making a collage with pictures cut out of magazines. I hate the fact that when I send a message or comment I get nothing back but yet You call yourself a friend. Thats funny. So Once again if I'm not good enough for you to fan me or add me dont waste your time or mine becouse that takes away from my real friends. Oh have a nice day to all my friends you know who you are.

5 Love Variables
Your Five Variable Love Profile Propensity for Monogamy: Your propensity for monogamy is low. You see love as a gift that you should give to many. It's hard for you to imagine being with one person at at time... Let alone one person for the rest of your life! Experience Level: Your experience level is high. You've loved, lost, and loved again. You have had a wide range of love experiences. And when the real thing comes along, you know it! Dominance: Your dominance is low. This doesn't mean you're a doormat, just balanced. You know a relationship is not about getting your way. And you love to give your sweetie a lot of freedom. Cynicism: Your cynicism is medium. You'd like to believe in true and everlasting love... But you've definitely been burned enough to know better. You're still an optimist, but you also are a realist. Independence: Your independence is high. You don't need to be in love, and sometimes you don't even want love. Havi

Writting
Questions and Answers So where to begin…hummm…ah yes there we go. It’s late I know you’re coming over and though we sit and talk we both knew what is going to happen, why you have come to my house, but we sit ever so polite and talk. Then finally one of us makes a move and we know where it is going to go from there. The way you touch my skin so light so soft it sets my body on fire. You takes your time, this is not a quick fuck, this is more. More intense, more erotic, just more. Your kiss starts slow using your tongue you slowly works it in and out of my mouth, making me hungry for more. You run your hands though my hair, over my shoulders, I lean into you, my body so hungry for you that I can’t keep my hands off of you. You shiver…hummm. I slowly run my tongue up the side of your neck nipping along the way. I move to your ear running my tongue along your ear, nipping as I go. Shiver. You brings your hands up to message my breast, god it feels like I have been waiting for your t

The 5 Variable Love Test
Your Five Variable Love Profile Propensity for Monogamy: Your propensity for monogamy is medium. In general, you prefer to have only one love interest. But it's hard for you to stay devoted for too long! There's too much eye candy to keep you from wandering. Experience Level: Your experience level is high. You've loved, lost, and loved again. You have had a wide range of love experiences. And when the real thing comes along, you know it! Dominance: Your dominance is medium. You tend to be the one with more power. You aren't a total control freak in relationships.. But of course you don't mind getting you way! Cynicism: Your cynicism is medium. You'd like to believe in true and everlasting love... But you've definitely been burned enough to know better. You're still an optimist, but you also are a realist. Independence: Your independence is medium. In relationships, you need both "me time" and "we time." You usually find it easy to be pa

What Time Of Day Are You?
You Are Midnight You are more than a little eccentric, and you're apt to keep very unusual habits. Whether you're a nightowl, living in a commune, or taking a vow of silence - you like to experiment with your lifestyle. Expressing your individuality is important to you, and you often lie awake in bed thinking about the world and your place in it. You enjoy staying home, but that doesn't mean you're a hermit. You also appreciate quality time with family and close friends.What Time Of Day Are You?

Today Is No Fun...
So, today it took me one hour and ten minutes to unburry my car from underneath all of the snow that has recently accumulated. I was 20 minutes late for work because, and since I've been at work I've had nothing but jackass customers asking me to do things that are unrelated to my job. They then proceed to get pissed off at me and tell me that I'm providing shitty customer service... I hate almost all people.

R.i.p. Dave And Jeff
It's almost the 2 year anniversary of our accident so, I just need to vent. Monday, April 30th, 2007 will mark the 2 year anniversary of one of the worst days in my life, along with many of the people I care about. Monday the 30th at 3:30pm is exactly 2 years since our accident and the death of my fiance Dave and my friend Jeff. These past 2 years went so fast and there hasn't been 1 day that's passed that I dont think about it, talk about it, cry about it or miss Dave with a passion. As I go through all of my pictures of me and Dave and what was once our "old gang", I can only comfort myself by remembering how happy I was and how happy and in love Dave was with me. In his eyes I guess, his life couldn't of gotten any better because we were together and were going to get married and build a family. He would have done anything for me and instead he was killed in the car accident that we were in together. :( "Dont take anything for granted" Yes, it's a cheesy saying but, you'll ne

Well.. Hmm. Thats Life For Ya.
you know how sometimes you are just idling and life isn't so bad. nothing is going on.. or maybe you are just cruising along at a certain speed and you are sure that you will get to your destination... well what if all of a sudden, one day, everything just changes for what may seem to be the worse. now it only seems that way because of the tremendous weight that has been put on you... right now I'm shaky under all this weight. there is a lot of pressure. a lot of people crack under these kinds of situations and just let themselves go, they lose what they have attained and forget that they need to fight for it... that's what i am going to do. it has already required me to change some gears and shift into a higher momentum. but that is whats required of me. there will be a lot of sacrifices that will have to be made in order for me to make it and i mean a lot... most of you will think I've changed. most of you will think you don't know me any more. but if thats the case than

A Random Thought
**Before you begin this note that this was just a random thought as I sat here at the computer one night** The thought was that of these two men being here with me. There aren't many things that I fantasize about anymore, most of it has been done ya know. This wasn't quite a fantasy either really . . . I guess because it's possible that it could happen. I shouldn't go into details . . . I really shouldn't. How bad does it make me sound that I am sitting on my couch at 3:30 in the morning thinking about having sex with two men? Ok, well if it didn't before it does now huh? Fuck it like I really care that much . . . Guy number 1 is sitting on the loveseat looking across the room at me and guy number 2 on the couch. Guy number 1 is much better at turning me on, with the chills and all so I walk over to him and sit next to him for a minute. He leans over and bites my neck in just the right places causing me to shake and moan right away. After this guy works me up I go back over to g

Another Xxx Dream
** This one was written quite a while ago as well ** So, I was sleeping earlier, due to this damn headache and I had this dream that I figured I would share it with you . . . I was laying in bed, almost asleep, in the foggy area between sleep and awake, when he grabbed me and flipped me over. I don't know who he was, I couldn't see his face, all I could see was his hair pulled back in a pony tail (oh that narrows it down to only 75% of the guys I know). But he flipped me over and pushed my face down into my pillow and pulled my hips up toward him. Before I even knew what was going on I was moaning with pleasure as he was going deep inside me. I had no control, I was putty in his hands, he had to keep his hands on my hips just to keep me up, else I would be in an orgasmic heap. I recovered myself though, I came back to myself and leaned back enough to where I was then on top of him. He was on his knees and I was moving up an down as fast as I could. I couldn;t see

You Know You Want To Know
Alright now I know all girls get this same question from men and I am sure that men get the same damn question, I am just sick of hearing it right now. I am sick of people finding my profile and automatically thinking that I am going to open myself to them fully and tell them everything and then hop on my cam and give them a fun little show. Damn, people people people, think for a damn second before you open your tasteless little mouths alright? I dont mind the question as much if I talk to you first, dont make it the first thing you ask me or the only thing you ask me for that matter. So what is this question of which I speak? What Turns You On? Well, let me sum up some of this for the people who are going to read this and save you the trouble of asking. 1- Men in eyeliner turn me on like you would not even believe 2 - Long hair is a huge turn-on there is just something about having that hair to pull 3 - Watching people 4 - Hearing people gett off 5 - Having my

Thank You
I want to say thank you to all service men ,women firepersons. and Police to my freedom and rights... Thank my God.. sometimes I love him..sometimes I curse him.. but always believe in him, for giving me a great county to live in.. a loving and wonderful husband for a short while to hold and love.. 2 great kids and 5 grandkids.. I thank my husband.. for standing by me..never giving up on me and loving me no matter how hard it was at times.. I want to thank friends and family for praying and standing by myself and my family.. I know it was hard at times to stand me.. I just ask give me more time... I lost the one person in the world who loved me for who I was no matter how I was.. I want to thank My kids .. God gave me a special gift when I had you two.. I will always love you and be proud of you My Daughter .. Badgirl My son..

We Are So Happy
Well as alot of you all know me and my future hubby.....Eightiezjunkie.....are due to get married in a few more months. I know that of course will be a big day. But I have even greater news. For a while we have been trying and now it is offical. WE ARE PREGNANT!!!!!! We are so happy. Shaun has never had a baby. So this will be his first. I have an 8 year old so it will be started over... but it will be well worth it

Wicca
There is so much nonsence and disagreement regarding Wicca that I post this, an excerpt from a free online reference. It does not mean that I agree with everything shown, but it is a good introduction to Wicca. As you will see in reading there is much controversy regarding it. It certainly it has come a long way from the few naked people dancing in a secluded area in the West country of England to help in fertility, crops etc. A form of worship of the Mother earth, the Goddess Wicca. ..well I hope you the reader find the following helpful...bright blessings Wicca From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia Jump to: navigation, search For other uses, see Wicca (disambiguation). The pentagram within a circle, a symbol of faith used by many Wiccans, sometimes called a pentacle. Wicca Portal Wicca is a Neopagan religion and a religious movement found in various countries throughout the world. It was first popularised in 1954 by a British civil servant named Gerald Gardner[1] af

Woohoo
Easy. Wanta do something fun? Get that picture to 500 comments and ill give you a vic gift get it too 1000 and ill give you 2 vic gifts get it to 2500 and ill give you 3 vic gifts and a big pimpin gift and a pimp out bulletin. get it to 6000 and ill give you a REAL prize, ill send you a cd, up to 20 dollars. Of your choice off of bestbuy.com :) Repost please.

I Am Cancer...lol....
What Are You? Once you have opened this, there's no turning back. Below are true descriptions of zodiac signs, with traits from a book written 35 years ago by an astrologist predictionist. Read your sign, then forward in a new email with your zodiac sign and label, or you'll get bad luck for the number of years stated in your sign description. This is real. Try ignoring it, and the first thing you'll notice is having a horrible day starting tomorrow morning - and it only gets worse from there. VIRGO:. The Virgin Dominant in relationships. Sexy. someone loves them right now. Freak in bed. Always wants the last word. Caring. Smart. Intellectual. Attractive. Loud. Loyal. Easy to talk to. Hard to forget Love at first sigh t. Everything you ever wanted. Easy to please. The one and only. Ultimate sexiness. 7 years of bad luck if you do not forward. SCORPIO:. The sex addict Can be mean. EXTREMELY sexy.

Things I Just Don't Get...
There's things that confuse me, and other things that piss me off. A few trends really do both. 1. Why do people save you as a friend, but never talk? It's like that on myspace... like they add you to boost their friend count. I usually get the impression that people with ridiculously high friend counts dont have much conversation, though I could be wrong... since it's more or less a popularity contest. High School 2.0 I suppose. 2. Sassy girls. A lil spunk is cool, and so is an independent attitude. But sassiness sometimes goes beyond cute into that domain called chicken-headedness and shallowness. Seriously, women I work with tote it like it's what men want, but then get dumb in the face and upset when men play with their emotions or pass them for someone else. Well... men won't normally take someone seriously unless they're genuinely themselves. The "sassy sista" routine is just as bad as guys using the "pretty boy" or "bad boy" routine, each one is cookie cutter

Hey Ladies !
I am totally new to this place, so be gentle ladies,as I can only view so many Hot pictures of you ladies at a time-before I reach "condition overload " (smile) I'm like a kid in a toy store at Christmas time, when I go through some of you Gorgeous ladies pics,and like that little kid on Christmas Morning- I find myself wanting to "Unwrap" things like "Right now"! Yes, life can be a very beautiful torture sometimes huh ? Anyway, I hope you will all send me an E-mail to say Hi and introduce yourselves, as I've seen quite a lot of ladies that I am dying to get to know already ! ..and sooner or later I will get around to all of you hot women out there ! Feel free to comment o my pics as well ! Bye for now !

3/2/07
March SUCKS. Other than St. Patrick's Day this whole month blows. Not only do I not have ONE day scheduled off of school but it's just an icky time of year. I hate the weather...one day it's cold another day you want to go out and play frisbee...I dunno. Who else is fucking tired of hearing about Anna Nichold Smith? My god. Let the poor girl rest in peace. That whole situation is just screwed up. All this crazyness over some gold digger. You know that none of those people give a damn about where she gets burried or the baby. It's all to get her money. Her family is pathetic. Just take a damn paternity test and leave the woman's body along hot damn. I'm so sick of hearing about this bullshit. There's more covered of her than what's going on with our damn country. People who actually contrubted things to the world don't get weeks over coverage when they die. But they also didn't have huge tits I guess. Lame. Living in an apartment sucks. Especially when you're on the ground floor

March 2nd 2007
spring time is around the corner. I felt it in the air while the sun was out. I went to see my sister at the coffee bar. its weird seeing her work cause she only works like twice a week. anyways its another weekend. the week wasn't too bad. I am using my new computer. Its got that windows vista on it. I know almost 0 people have this operating system. I'm pretty happy with it so far. Nothing to compain about. The only thing i really hate about windows is all the excess that is on it. I'm a pretty basic person and I get tired of the updates. Speaking of updates I never get any updates from people. Most women i've met are married or with kids.. or both. I don't really have any squabble with anyone right now. I don't expect too much from people. I don't think anyone should. Just worry aboutmyself and get through whatever needs to be. I had to redownload all my IM's so that is always a trip. Im gonna be good and not download any porn on here. Just keep it PG ..

My Birthday
So in 20 days~~~March 22 for those who cant count...I am turning 32 first let me say, GAHHHH I'm old!!! Now that you all know my birthday I expect to be lavished in gifts and worshiped....ha ha ha just joking a happy birthday will be great!!! just wanted to post that I am getting older

My Mom
i wanted to do something for my mom who is no longer with us... and i did not know what to do so i ask a good friend one here if she could help me and she came up this something. there is no words to tell her how much i love it.my mom left me in 2004 and im haveing such a hard time with it i know in time it might get easer but right now its not but im doing the best i can.. you knwo the hardest thing was telling my kids there nanna was gone. but they still talk about her which is good there is a song i would love to find and put it with this but can not find it it is by mark wills the ballon song my kids say when they get a balloon they want to write on it and sent it to heaven for there nanna but any wyas this is for my mom I LOVE YOU MOM AND MISS YOU SOO SOO MUCH WISH YOU WERE HERE WITH US....

Friends
PEOPLE COME INTO YOUR LIFE FOR A REASON I am sending this to you to see how many actually read their comments.Your response will be interesting. Pay attention to what you read. After you have finished reading it, you will know the reason it was sent to you. Here goes: People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person. When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. W

Rolling Around With No Where To Go!
Today was a sort of lazy day for me. No shooting, not really working. Just lounging around. Since I didn't have much to do and Aiden had to drop off the master of Odd Jobs to Evil Angel, I decided to join him for the ride. I actually had one thing to do and that was to do a final (final) interview with Stephen Dark for the Salt Lake City Weekly story he's doing on me and the adult industry. We talked for about 30 minutes before Aiden yelled at me to hurry up! So I called him back on my cell and continued while on the road. At Evil Angel, I finished the interview and went in to talk to the VP, Chris Norman. I asked him if I could use the scene I did with Aiden last week on the DVD because neither Aiden nor I had a valid AIM test during the time we shot. So he said Yes as long as John Stagliano is okay with it. So I'm hoping he is! I also talked with Xtian at DVDemon. He does the DVD menus for all our movies. He had to talk to Aiden about the menu design for iODiNEGiRL. They also talked