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Vanessa Carlton
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Questions That Confuse Humankind
Questions that have Confused humankind!! a.. Who was the first person to look at a cow and say, .."I think I..'ll squeeze these dangly things here, and drink whatever comes out?.." a.. Who was the first person to say .."See that chicken there....I..'m gonna eat the next thing that comes outta it..'s butt..." a.. Why do toasters always have a setting that burns the toast to a horrible crisp, which no decent human being would eat? a.. Why is there a light in the fridge and not in the freezer? a.. If Jimmy cracks corn and no one cares, why is there a song about him? a.. Can a hearse carrying a corpse drive in the carpool lane? a.. If the professor on Gilligan..'s Island can make a radio out of coconut, why can..'t he fix a hole in a boat? a.. Why do people point to their wrist when asking for the time, but don..'t point to their crotch when they ask where the bathroom is? a.. Why does your OB-GYN leave the room when you get undressed if they are going to look
Sorry! I'm Bored!!
How far away is the last person you kissed? ---He's on the couch with an earache...I love my Lil Bear Did you get a full 8 hours of sleep last night? ---Nope, waited until midnight Mike's time to wish him Happy Birthday Are you in a good mood right now? ---Meh Do you find the opposite sex confusing? ---Yes...they say we play games...go figure How did you feel when you woke up today? ---Nervous Does the last person you texted make you smile? ---Yupper When is your birthday? ---November 2...I think this is a lot like the last one...hmmm What did you do last night? ---Uploaded all my cruise pictures What have you had pierced? ---Ears Who was the last person that left you a comment? ---BUGSTER Do you want to see someone at this very moment? ---No Who was the last person you hugged? ---Jacob What's the relationship between you and the last person you texted? ---She's my friend What should you be doing righ
For My Daddy!
A Daughters Love Sitting alone without you, long ago memories, love everlasting, thoughts of your smile, the sound of your voice, it will be okay baby girl, missing you, holding on to your love, holding on to the strength you gave me, wishing you were here, yet glad you aren't, memories of the pain in your face, thoughts of you withering away, joy that you are pain free, sending flowers to heaven, my beautiful Daddy, I will once again see.
Heaven Mixed With Hell
Heaven mixed with hell In the best of moments you're so loving, Like maybe you feel the same way, Flirting, cuddling and tickling doing whatever you can to be close, These moments I love soon dissolve, For then you turn stone cold, My day then turns to dark. Late at night there's times when I say goodnight, You say don't go I'll miss you, But then there's others you just talk of her, Your so hot and then cold, Sometimes it becomes more than I can take, Smiles turn to tears as you make my heart ache. Hours and hours a day we talk, Never been involved in anything like this, Don't know what this is, Just how I feel for you, Closing my eyes you are all that I see, Never wanted someone this bad. Your mind games and actions, Put me on edge, Your warmth is like heaven, Then you go cold it becomes hell, Never thought wanting you would hurt so much, If only you stayed warm then life would be a dream, All I want is it to be you and me.
Dissipating Dream
Dreaming of an ocean breeze the smell of a saltwater tide feeling the gritty sand 'tween my toes the cool mist against my face my body batheing in the heat of the sun then waking up to find it all gone Thanks for reading.
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God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference. This is a prayer I say quietly to myself each morning when I awake. It is one I have known since I was a child, but as I get older and wiser it has taken on a whole new meaning. When I was younger I thought I could change anything or anyone. Now I know that I cannot, but I still seem to try. My problem is not having the wisdom to know what I cannot change and accepting things as they are. It is a pride issue. I never want to feel defeated, and in my eyes acceptance is defeat.
Tell me is it all in my head, Or is the age of innocence really dead, Darkness shrouded in hate, Trying to find those pearly gates, And the promise of life beyond life, The hope of eternal light, But my soul needs the darkness of night, These menacing men trying to dictate my path, I inflict upon you your gods wrath, Wrapped in lies, meant to disguise, The truth behind all our eyes, No one knows what happens when we die, So step aside, let me live MY life, Finding fulfillment with my goddess of the night, Your threats are hollow like you a shell of a man, I dont need thousands behind me to take my stand, I'll die alone for the self-determination of this man, So suffer unto me all your wicked ways, I become stronger from experiencing this pain, Dont grow weary scared and run, For i'll chase to the far reaches of the sun, Your destruction will rattle this Earth, And we will awake
Their Plan!!!
The cia is out to get me... Their plan, make it look like a suicidal tragedy.. Many have fallen in the past to this deception.. But my personal make-up prevents suicide as a means of expression.. So if i fall with 2 gunshots to the head... Dont believe i was overwhelmed by the life i led.. Instead know i was murdered by those i oppose... With their twisted desires of dominating the poor.. But until that day comes i'll continue to fight... Tyranny in all forms and the violation of human rights... Our government sits atop that list.. With their exploitation of all the indigenous.. People they have slaughtered in many lands... In the name of corporate profits makes me sick... Our taxes are used for these policies to exsist... In which we arm, train, and fund.... Some of the most oppressive regimes under the sun...
Family Blood!!!
Family blood thats thick as a hair, You never asked to be born into their affairs, And the ones who should be never are there, None of my life with you will i ever share, I fought through all the pain and despair, Now that im better dont even try to act like you care, I have no pity only hate, All these years, all these lies, everything about you is fake, So glad i escaped, Before i fell victim to your condemned fate, Family, i have started my own, Safe from the contamination you have sown, And you's there's no need to disown, See i was never your's from the get go, And though it was a long road i walked alone, Im a better man because so, Salutations saved for those whose care, Erase your memory for i was never there, Just a ghost to prove you were diseased, What a success this test turned out to be!!!! truthsquad 09
Just Where Did April Fool's Day Come From?
Just where did April Fool's Day come from? Posted By Posted 1 day ago Just who set out to make April 1 a day to celebrate foolishness? There are several stories, including this one, from,that states April Fools' Day began when the Christian world adopted the new Gregorian calendar. According to the old calendar, the New Year was celebrated in the spring for eight days (the final day of celebration being April First), but because the new calendar was so different, the date of the New Year was changed to January First. Many of the people who lived in the countryside didn't know of the change for years, and lebrating the New Year during the spring. Those "in the know" thought this was hilarious and started to call the April celebrators "fools." From then on, these people began to go of their way during this particular season to make friends believe something that was false. It's worth noting that many different cultures have had days of foolishness around t
I started college online in February for a degree in Criminal Justice. I will graduate in 2012 with a bachelor's at which time I am going to pursue a career with the Ohio Highway Patrol.
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My Diva Rules!!
It Brings Me Back All The Time.
Well I tryed to get away from Erie. Too bad im not a country girl. I guess im just not made for the quietness. I was in NH for 8 months. 6 out of those 8 months was hell. I was living with someone who was treating me like shit. Than the last 2 months I was homeless. I was sleeping in a gazeebo in the middle of winter. Thank god someone found me and took me in before I got too sick to live anymore. Than I was moved into a shelter. They sent me back here to Erie. Oh lovely Erie with all it's drama and violence. Who knew that at one point I would go from growing up in a relatively safe place to being scared to even go grab my mail. I guess that's life, and it sucks.
Asshole? What does it mean?, and why do people get mad when they are called it?   My whole life people have always called me an asshole! "Hey Fonsi!, your as ASS!" or "Your a Fucking Asshole Fonso!"   Little do they know, this is the path i picked. I've hurt alot of people in my life.... and most of it was for fun. I'm 27 years old and i don't have alot to show for it.... but i can tell you this! Every person i have hurt, made cry, or pissed off will remember me for the rest of there life. What you call being an "Asshole" i call being my self! I am "Metal!" I am "Strong" I am "Asshole"....   I AM SIC-1!!
My Mind........
Whats going on in my mind??   many things! I think about the people in my life i see everyday, and i think about the people in my life i never see, but would love to meet!   I might be a Metal Head! but i still think of love.... Where is it?, how do i find it?, is it out there for me?, am i not ment for it? I have 2 lil boys.... i love them with all that i am!   i don't see them much.... or talk to them much... me and thee mother are not on good terms. That was 8 years of my life wasted! But i still stay strong! As long as i keep the "Horns" in the air i will over come all!.....   Don't cry for me! Don't pray for me! if anything.......Forget about me.
New Outfit For Ggw
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It's Time To Offend Everybody
 IT'S  TIME  TO  OFFEND  EVERYONE       Q.   What's the Cuban National Anthem?  A.      Row, Row, Row Your  BoatQ.   Where does an Irish family go on  vacation?A.      A different bar   Q.   What did the Chinese couple name their  blonde, curly-haired  baby? A.    Sum Ting WongQ.   What  do you call it when an Italian has one arm  shorter than the other?   A.    A speech  impedimentQ.    What does it mean when the Post Office's  flag is flying at  half-mast?A.     They're hiringQ.   Why aren't there any Puerto Ricans on Star  Trek?A.   Because they're not going to work in the  future eitherQ.   What do you call a Mississippi  farmer with a sheep under each  arm?A.   A pimpQ.  Why do Driver Ed classes in redneck schools use  the car only on  Mondays, Wednesdays and  Fridays?  A.   Because on Tuesday and Thursday, the Sex  Ed class uses it.Q.   What's the difference between a southern  zoo and a northern  zoo?A.    The southern zoo has a description of the  animal on
Nsfw Pics?
What is it with people who insist upon posting nude pictures and using them as their defaults. and then they get pissed when someone reports them. I just reported another girl, now she's a baghead. just let her bitch at me for that. She was completely naked and nipples showing and everything. There was another girl who bitched about me reporting her pics nsfw too, and well, she didn't even have the balls to bitch to me in person, lol. Anyway, im not a nice person when it comes to reporting nsfw because I know people who have been reported and they had clothes on!!! well, hagn, ttyl, kthxbye
well tomorrow is my 28th birthday and i'm getting so much closer to being 30 its not even funny!! Soooooooooo bummed out!
My Birthday Today...thank You All...
My many thanks to ALL of you for your very kind Birthday wishes for me. I am so thankful for ALL of you & I am humbled by your well wishes. Grazie!   Bob xoxo
This is a story about four people named Everybody, Somebody, Anybody, and Nobody. There was an important job to do and Everybody was asked to do it. Everybody was sure Somebody would do it. Anybody would have done it, but Nobody did it. Somebody got angry because it was Everybody's job. Everybody thought Anybody would do it, but Nobody realized that Everybody wouldn't do it. It ended up that Everybody blamed Somebody when Nobody did what Anybody could have done.
I Admire...
I admire men who are responsible, gentle, loving, caring, tender, sensitive, and compassionate human beings.
Love And Suicide (based On A Dream)
Her eyes slowly close Tears roll down her cheeks And off the tip of her nose. She raises the blade, Wishing everything will fade! She places it against her wrist, And pulls it towards her Repeatedly doing it till blood flows rapidly. As the blood flows from her wrist The memories of him rush through her head! Slowly the world begins to spin and fade! Her heart beat lessens Her breathing comes to a sudden stop. Alas, she is dead Her limp body slumped in a corner In a crimson puddle She is no longer apart of this world. He kneels down at her side And whispers to her
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Evanescence - Bring Me To Life
how can you see into my eyes like open doors leading you down into my core where I’ve become so numb without a soul my spirit sleeping somewhere cold until you find it there and lead it back home (Wake me up) Wake me up inside (I can’t wake up) Wake me up inside (Save me) call my name and save me from the dark (Wake me up) bid my blood to run (I can’t wake up) before I come undone (Save me) save me from the nothing I’ve become now that I know what I’m without you can't just leave me breathe into me and make me real bring me to life (Wake me up) Wake me up inside (I can’t wake up) Wake me up inside (Save me) call my name and save me from the dark (Wake me up) bid my blood to run (I can’t wake up) before I come undone (Save me) save me from the nothing I’ve become Bring me to life (I've been living a lie, there's nothing inside) Bring me to life frozen inside without your touch without your love darling only you are the life among the
Good News
The camera I have still works, but I need a better quality batteries. So I don't "need" that camera on my wishlist, but if I get it the offer still stands.. I am also going to save up for a car and hand controls.. This will take a very long time, so my GGW money will be used for outfits, ect. The rest of my money will be saved up for the car. I want a VW Beetle.    
Where To Now?
The question is, Where would we be without internet social sites?  Probably stuck in the chaotic world of bars without end.  Let's party! at  It's a world of cool.
Dir En Grey - Obscure
How many hangings under the red moon "..." How deep will it sink inside eating skin that doesn't match? The snake makes way through the sheets and goes inside the uterus. It can seem like a someiyoshino; a cherry blossom petal, that dances sadly. The stain is the moon that's fulfilled, and the vomiting at night begins. Don't you remember? Color of faint... the night begins and people start to awe. Color of pomegranate... sting with the prick and disappear far away. How many secret hangings of the premature baby tonight under the red moon "..." Bloody Baby & Sacrifice Don't you remember? Color of Golden yellow... want to be the spider that stings. Color of tears... remembering the memories. Color of faint... the night begins and people start to awe. Color of pomegranate... sting with the prick and disappear far away.
Social Tarnish
Sometimes, it's difficult being the "older student" at my University.  I look at my classmates who are ten or so years younger than me and I can't help but wonder how long it will be until their convictions about the world as they know it are shattered.  How long will it take for life to force them to reinvent their social ideals and concepts?  When will that "everything is new and shiny" brightness to their persona tarnish?   I've spent the last few months asking myself which social convictions are my own and which ones were drilled into my head by others.  One would think this wouldn't be such a difficult thing to process, but if you peel back more than just the superficial layers of your personality, you have to wonder how you came to be who you are.  What shaped you?  What molded you?  What changed you?    It's been said that no true original thought can exist within the human mind.  At some point, the idea has been pondered by another.  The thought has been formed in some othe
Masochists Of Fate
Is love too much to handle; An ever burning vigil candle… That flames us all deep within, We injure gladly burns on skin, And if we make it through today, Will love stand hurdle in our way? Isn’t it true, fire signifies the love we see, The craze that chains us yet sets us free… For, through the time and all foul ages, Through old books and empty pages, Through the tears and all the pain, Through demise and souls in vain, There was hope and endless love; Our sacred blessings from above Yet beware of things untold Love is not yours to behold… Should you end up right from where you fell, Unto the deepest dungeon of Dante’s hell, Know that that the worse have yet to come, For love is an agitated mistress of the dawn, She won’t concede, love cannot fail, Her cosmic power will prevail, We shall yet be remorseful on her account, With streaming eyes & knees on jagged ground, Begging to spare our lives once more, Oh let us consume the pain we adore, We ar
What Am I To Do?
Laying there beside her I feel that what I’ve been looking for I’ve finally  found.I inch my self closer to her and try not to make a sound.I softly kiss her lips and try to get my feet back on the ground.I whisper that I lover her while she pretends to sleep.I know she hears me but to herself she tries to keep.I tell her the night is over, no longer time for counting sheep. I cuddle up against her to hear her heart beat.When I hear that sound I feel as if all is sweet.With her right next to me, I gently nudge her feet.Waiting for her to wake up and kiss me too.I know her feelings for me are sincere and true.And her smile just picks me up what am I to do?
So I'm awake. That's wonderful. It's just past two in the morning and I have a German test in seven hours. If I weren't already somewhat proficient in the language, I'd be genuinely upset, but it's okay. I am wondering why I'm awake. I've got a few theories. 1. I've got too much energy. 2. I'm too horny to sleep. 3. I'm thinking way too much. 4. I'm too horny and I've got too much energy. Right now I'm leaning towards number four. Good grief. I can't wait for the weekend.
Ginna:This is a report on a very pleasant, but disconcerting, set of experiences which I have been through. As you know, I cannot get it published in any of the respectable journals, but perhaps you will enjoy it. Even though it is out of your field of aeronautics, I know that with your various private interests that you will be able to take deep pleasure from this incident. I also know that you have been among my few defenders as I struggle with this envy-attack from my department head.There is much agreement among the experts that our brains are the most important, influential organs of our sex life. You have heard that said, and you are seeing it in action right now as you fill in all the assumptions and presuppositions needed to make sense of my writing. You know, too, how your brain picks and chooses from old experiences to fill in gaps in new information. [This is awfully basic, I know, but I hope that you won't mind my thinking out loud as I write this. I just have to get it dow
Friday Survey
Do you hide when Jehovah witnesses knock on your door?LOL nope I scare themTell me about your dancing style?post modern chubby flailingDo you have any family traditions?yesHonestly, do you laugh when people trip for no reason?of course its funnyWhat is your most used cuss word?fuckDo you think it looks silly when people wear socks with sandals?yesHow many speeding tickets have you talked your way out of?3 :-)If you wake up late, is the rest of your day ruined?fuck yes!Which side of the bed do you sleep on?my sideName the seven dwarf'sdopey,sneezy, grumpy, bashful, doc, happy, bashfulWhen you bend over, can you touch your toes?yesWhat kind of drunk are you?hornyWhat is the most difficult thing you've ever had to overcome?what I am going thru nowHow do you feel about rainy days?love themDo you think that people mistake your kindness for a weakness?yesCan you cook?hell yeaWhat is your best dish?they are all goodHave you ever eaten anything disgusting for money?noHas anyone of the same sex
first I would like to apologize to women everywhere for all the idiotic so called men that treat you like crap.....please try to remember there are still some good men out there...we aren't all dirt bags just looking for cyber sex and nude pics...just don't ask me to be your boyfriend I am taken right just don't understand how someone can call them self a man yet treat women that like to dress sexy and have fun with this site with their friends like pieces of meat...I think I can speak for real men everywhere...go fucking find a gutter to crawl up in and die you give the rest of us a bad name....again I am sorry that so many women have to put up with that kind of treatment.....
Boring Work Day
Today's 12 hour work day just dragged. i hate it when Rich is playing WoW in the mornings when he has to take me to work because when it's time for me to leave, he won't get off his ass often. So I always have to wait for him whlie looking at my watch. The first hour of work went alright but then everything started to go wrong which made time go by even slower. I was pissed that I forgot my coffee at home too lol So I had to go through work without my coffee...and I don't like works coffee...that's nasty shit. One of my managers asked me if I would make this presentation during our meeting. I have never gotten up in front of my whole work peopls...which is about 200 peoples and I'm hella shy but I said I'd do it anyways. Thirty minutes before the meeting, I went in a room with two other managers and went over some slide show pics and informations. I was nervous speaking in front of everyone but everyone said I did a great  job. Phew....Never again though!!! I've had this stupid sin
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Most Peeps
most people to me are simply like vultures ,if u let ya guard done they grasp with there claws and the more you try to get away the deeper they go. scaryiest thing being ,they themselfs do not even know there doing it or the pain it causes . the reason i feel like this! i guess is because i have no friends as anyone i trusted enough to be a true friend turned out years later to be assholes ,how can i trust anyone ever again knowing that you can live a lie for 13 years and only have that time chucked back in your face . someone you adore and they pretend to adore you back ,sweet pillow talk and a family meals ,picnics and normal family life , just ta be told "i NEVER really loved you"......................
Today was just a blah work day. I worked in a area where I was pretty much on my ass all day. But time went by fast with the people I was working with. One of them is a real sweet guy. No..i don't dig he's 62 years old and always fun to talk with. he has a good sense of humor. He will be retiring in two years. Earlier in the week, I had bought some Easter Eggs and filled them with some candy. I planned on giving them to my coworkers. I thought about that I needed to get mroe so I went out to get more. Randy had given me 2 dollars to help me out. I went to 3 stores and none had any more plastic easter eggs. I bought a bunch of other candy and filled them in easter fun bags. I also placed the other plastic eggs in them...but the ones that don't have a plastic egg, they get extra candy...I filled up 51 bags. See how sweet I am to my coworkers...awwwwwww....bwhahaha  
Enlightened Perspectives
This was sent to me..and just is really good...thought i'd share. I've learned.... That the best classroom in the world is at the feet of an elderly person.I've learned.... That when you're in love, it shows.I've learned.... That just one person saying to me, 'You've made my day!' makes my day.I've learned.... That having a child fall asleep in your arms is one of the most peaceful feelings in the world.I've learned.... That being kind is more important than being right.I've learned.... That you should never say no to a gift from a child.I've learned.... That I can always pray for someone when I don't have the strength to help him in some other way.I've learned.... That no matter how serious your life requires you to be, everyone needs a friend to act goofy with.I've learned.... That sometimes all a person needs is a hand to hold and a heart to understand.  I've learned.... That simple walks with my father around the block on summer nights when I was a child did wond
Her Flaws~ Part1
I used to be a jealous man. I am still in a way, but my perspective has changed on a lot of things. And of course I am still the same pervert I have always been. My girlfriend Lara has never been made love to. She has to earn every single orgasm she gets by serving me and most of the time that is in a sexual manner. She loves it about as much as I do. I am a dominant and she is a submissive. I command and she obeys. The first time we had sex I pinned her down and penetrated her forcefully. Her surprise only lasted about 10 seconds, after that she was begging me not to stop. It was the beginning of a beautiful relationship. She has a real appetite for domination. Male domination that is. When I tie her up, she gets wets even if I don't stimulate her directly. The same goes for humiliation and pain. I discovered a sadistic streak in me I never knew I had merely because she enjoys being spanked, being whipped, being strapped, being cropped and being paddled. Now I always make sure to find
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Why I Have Been Gone So Long The Real Truth!
i left fubar cuz i had a lot of bad shit happen to me i lost all my money i'am still broke.when i lost my money it caused a great deal of depression.i was in rehab trying recover and will im still a little numb. let's see what else happend oo i got robbed my computer and everything nearly got stolen.i lost my jobs so now i'am just trying to get back on my feet.i have been fighting with the government it's like they don't give a shit who they hurt.i had the flu for 2 good thing came out of all this horrible shit is my neice had her baby!baby boy name mason the most amazing thing i have ever seen i love that baby! gives me a reason for living cuz i was at serious point in my life where i was nearly going to kill myself.will thats basicliy all..thanks for staying my friends for those who stayed.
My Week Yo
Got to write a 15 page paper on indian massacres and the oregon trail, one paper on the yakama nation pre-treaty and post-treaty. I have to study for another class and hopefully finish a whole semesters worth of assignments in one week. So my head is gonna be swimming and im gonna be wore the fuck out by friday which I have to drive 3 hours home so I can go to the head doctor. Yes I said head doctor. Yes I am crazy, big deal im  the same person crazy or sane. just one side of me has a warning label.
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Seen From My Veiw
MY pen it writes Pushed only by a fool Knowing how but not what to write My words are not strong not really aware Hidden in time never wanting to care 
Of Broken Hearts
How have I come here, I'm receiver of broken hearts. I don't break them, But they get delivered to me. (NO! I DON'T WANT THEM HERE!) I cannot consentrate into this. No more broken hearts for me. I cannot take others' pain. I have my own pain in my heart already. (Because I love you so much.) And now that you're not here with me, I'm trying to stay sane, alive. My heart can take this, I'm used to it. (Can yours? I can only hope.) This is the truth, Lying here opened. No addons, nothing taken. Truth, completely: I love you, I'm not afraid to say it. Because I mean it.>
More For Her
"A Prayer" I LOVE YOU BABYI can feel it in my heartI can see it in your eyesI can hear it on the windThe moon whispers it to me at nightAnd the sun shouts it to me by dayThe stars twinkle with your brightnessAnd God comforts me in your absenceUnlike all othersBeautifulSereneFunny SmartYou are the one true hope of my lifeThe hope for loveAnd for happinessFor pleasant daysAnd magical nightsAll held in a single smile from youHeart of my heartLove of my loveSoul of my soulYou are the oneI have searched and sought forThe oneFor me
I wish that person would think of me as much as I thought of them. Sometimes it feels like I should just give up again but apart of me doesn't want to let go. But it's not the greatest feeling when you feel like you're being ignored and other things are more important. Maybe it's me? When those bad feelings come, i try to think of other stuff..other certain people... yeah they make me smile....some things and some certain people make me smile real big... Sometimes i feel like i'm just a rag doll...something a child would gaze upon the first time of seeing it. Being held and loved, until something happens...maybe something else gets in the way so then you're tosses on the dusty floor and become old..un-used, forgotten...Every now and then you'd pick up the rag doll....thinking of past life was and could be..... but then you're tossed on the ground again....because you're just a stupid rag doll...
Black And White
I live my life in black and white. Believe me I dream in color vivid real life color. Why I ask can’t I live in color too?
Part Nine~
"Sally, I think maybe our talents are merging or something. I can't explain it, but it seems like our ideals of each other's appearance are becoming permanent."Sally is one confused camper. She reaches up and runs her fingers across my pate. I can tell that she's feeling god-like hair. My fingers join hers up there. I still felt bald. I look over at the mirrored wall at the edge of the Food Court. Yup, still rat-faced, but Sally's reflection is Lisa. Our bodies haven't changed; we're just seeing our ideals in each other."Bill, never mind how this is happening – is this a good thing or bad thing?""You tell me, Sally. Which me would you rather look at?" I realize with a start that I'm thinking about how this will affect us in the long term. Long term?I can see that she's as conflicted as I am. I can read Sally's emotions on Lisa's face quite easily. Me? I want to be a sensitive human being and put all of those prejudices about people's looks behind me, but if I answer myself honest
More From My Soul
   "A Precious Flower"Like a precious flower, is her beauty to mea treasure to keep, in my heart foreverour souls, melding into oneeach time we clasp hands, each time we kisssoftly, sweetly, she gives herself to meas I give myself to her, forever, in loveremember, my beauty, my lovely songbirdkeep in your heart always, my love for you
Sex Without Intercourse
The art of fooling around is unfortunately lost for most of us after high school. Sometimes, though, instead of saying not tonight, honey, you can help your partner get the satisfaction he seeks by recalling those old moves. There are a range of alternate activities that can be the essence of compromise when he wants sex and you don't. Rather than the usual excuses (you're too tired or have your period), get a little creative. Just acting sexy as he self-stimulates can work. Or stroke his chest, snuggle up next to him, and run your hands through his hair. If there is a favorite bra or nightgown of yours he likes, throw it on, too. There are also many manual and oral techniques you can put to use. In fact, taking intercourse out of the equation can refresh your sexual repertoire completely. You may find yourself doing things you haven't done in years ��" and feeling young all over again!
Thank You
thank you goes out to all who rated my pic. if i did not rate yours let me know and i will loves to you all
If I Could........
If I could catch a rainbowI would do it just for youAnd share with you it's beautyOn the days you're feeling blue.If I could build a mountainYou could call your very own;A place to find serenityA place to be alone.If I could take your troublesI would toss them in the sea,But all these things I'm findingAre impossible for me.I cannot build a mountainOr catch a rainbow fair,But let me be what I know best,A friend who's always there.
I Like The Way
I like the way..I like the way he makes me feel.When he holds me tight by his side.And the way he smiles when he looks my way.He has the cutest little dimples.I like the way I can look him right in the eyes.And when he kisses me his lips are so soft and sweet.And the way he thinks about me.I like the way he knows just the little things about me.That no one has ever seen.And the way he knows me sometimes better than me.I like the way he looks deep into my eyes.Like he is trying to see me deep down inside.And the way he is so soft to my body.Like when he wants to know if he is hurting me.And how soft he is when he rubs my skin.Like he wants to be my man.I know I am just a friend.Maybe it will stay that way because I never want to lose someone like him.
Cherry Bombed
there is no way in hell i can get that many pics to be cherry bombed sighsssssssssssss :(
Hauted Eyes
A vision in the nightCascading downSurrounded by the fragmented skyA glimpse of hopeDancing on the horizonSpeaking softlyCaressing my emotionsLeads me onwardMoving towards the musicI am spellboundI found a gypsyWith yellow and green rosesTied in her hairHer haunted eyesHold theFading sunlight thereConfiscated emotionsThey linger stillHeld hostage by a touchThe gentlest breathThat grazes my fleshLost in fantasyMy soul is searedSacred temptationsClose my eyes againForever boundI found a gypsyWith yellow and green rosesTied in her hairHer haunted eyesHold theFading sunlight thereI sit for hours waitingI long for hours hatingI dream for hours dying
Warren Haynes, the Allman Brothers Band guitarist, routinely plays with the surviving members of the Grateful Dead, now touring as The Dead. He's just finished a Dead show in Washington, D.C. and gets a pop quiz from the Huffington Post. Where does 420 come from? He pauses and thinks, hands on his side. "I don't know the real origin. I know myths and rumors," he says. "I'm really confused about the first time I heard it. It was like a police code for smoking in progress or something. What's the real story?" Depending on who you ask, or their state of inebriation, there are as many varieties of answers as strains of medical bud in California. It's the number of active chemicals in marijuana. It's teatime in Holland. It has something to do with Hitler's birthday. It's those numbers in that Bob Dylan song multiplied. The origin of the term 420, celebrated around the world by pot smokers every April 20th, has long been obscured by the clouded memories of the folks who made it a phenome
wanna play!!!!!!!
Thoughs Fro The Day
   ***Zen Sarcasm *** ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ 1. Do not walk behind me, for I may  not lead. Do not walk ahead of me, for I may not follow. Do not walk beside me either.  Just pretty much leave me alone.   2. The journey of a thousand miles begins with a broken fan belt or a leaky tire.   3 It's always darkest before dawn , so if you're going to steal your neighbor's newspaper, that's the time to do it.   4. Don't be irreplaceable. If you can't be replaced, you can't be promoted.   5. Always remember that you're unique. Just like everyone else.
MADNESS   I open up my heart to you Let you in my soul Fill me with your love Look deeply in my eyes See me through, see me through Take control over me Kiss me with your tender lips Caress me with your finger tips Indulge into the sensation Make me yours, all yours
You did exactly as I told you. You were naked before me with the black fabric tied securely behind your head to obscure your sight. As I kissed your lips, I could feel the want in you as your tongue swirls around mine. I carefully lead you towards the bed as I reach for the ties on the corner of the bed. Soon, I had your back on the bed and your right arm tied carefully to the post. As I assured you what I was doing, I slowly made my way around the bed to tie off your right ankle, your left ankle and finally your left wrist. You looked comfortable on the bed awaiting the treat I had set for you. I leave the room so that you would have no idea of what treatment you would be in for. As I watch you squirm on the bed, I basked in your beauty in your helplessness. I then walked into the room with our guests as I hold my finger over my mouth to indicate to them to be silent. I had one of our guests take a position between your outstretched legs. You could feel our guest's tongue slide gently
Rob Pattinson: Eclipse Director & Release Date Confirmed
Rob Pattinson: Eclipse Director & Release Date Confirmed We previously reported that Eclipse with Robert Pattinson (Cedric Diggory) will be released in theaters on June 30, 2010. Summit emailed us a confirmation of this date along with the announcement that David Slade will direct Pattinson and his co-stars in the third film of the Twilight series.Currently, Pattinson is still in the process of filming New Moon which is directed by Chris Weitz. New Moon will be released in theaters on November 20, 2009.Thanks to Summit Entertainment for letting us know.
Age From When I Was Turning 40 Ugh
things that change as u age ............ my face has changed -- i begin to see in the mirror someone akin to a basset hound instead of the firm faced beauty of my youth ... im not terribly vain yet this is disconcerting....this woman who said wear ur age like a medal and forget the plastic surgery deal ....... ponders how much each individual surgery and the cost factor would be lollllllll ..... my my how times have changed.... i never had acne be4 yet all of a sudden lil blemishes r coming out .. sneaky like ... each day i wake and go well hells bells ... so i go purchase meds for it hoping that something will stop this madness......... they rnt numerous yet they r unsightly and i wonder if they have been laying in wait till my genetic material said come out and play........ since during my youth i had no such issue ....... if only my strength of character would protect me from the snow ball effect loll my breasts r no longer the mounds of perky happy woman hills but ya know this i
Chaplain Fired ...
Chaplain discharged after rulingBy Leo Shane III, Stars and StripesWASHINGTON -— A Navy chaplain who claimed he was punished for praying "in Jesus' name" at public military events was formally discharged from the service Wednesday. Lt. Gordon Klingenschmitt, who had served as a Navy chaplain for 16 years, said service officials delivered his discharge papers Wednesday, just hours after a federal appeals court lifted it order to delay his separation.I've lost my military career, I've lost a million-dollar pension, my family has been evicted from military housing, my family lost its health insurance," he said. I'm obviously disappointed, but I would do it all over again to stand up for what I believe."Read entire article here: MY RESPONSE i have read the articles ... and yes hes a man who stands firm on his priciples however as supportive as i am of anyone standing up for their beliefs is also a chaplain
Falling For You~
Speak now or forever hold your peace, Do you want me out of this place? Cuz you're throwing words back and forth, Do I have you to look foreward to? I'm built for sin, But I'm so pure when you're near. Nothing crosses my mind But white doves, and holy words. My soul, once shackled, Gives in to your kind words and sweet phrases. My body, so strong, Is now awakened by your tenderness. Is this forever, Or is it now and never? Your eyes may catch me, But your arms might turn away. Terrified of your redemption, I want more. You are my most deadly sin, But my most alive happiness. "Dedicated to Joy" ~W.H.~  ~2009~
Your "new Friends" Go Public! me a good laugh...Moo just added : Longslowlicks and another friend just added : bigblackone   Hahahaha 
The Morning After
Addiction Clouds tangled greyA body of silkThe delicate templeTumbleweeds to a desert in droughtMistreatedBitter tasteDry mouthPurple majestic cheeksStorm aloftRed moon violinsAboard grapevine tabletopsFists of furySeek revengePowder mothsCedar bark altersThorns of a crossSilk into polyesterButterflies and angels swoop downassault
He's Just Not That Into You
Great movie...go and watch. If you haven't learn a thing or two about dating/relationsihps then it again. If it hasn't changd your perception about dating/reatlonships WTF you're just a loss cause.   Why do us women psycho analyze situations? Why do we make up excuses for assholes? Is it because we're trained that the guy who picks on you is the one who likes you....aka the asshole....why do we make up excuses? "If a guy isn't going to call you, he doesn't want to call you." "Exceptions........some women/men are exceptions, but other times we're the rule..most of the time......  
2nd Chance
This song really has opened my eyes to a lot of things I've been thinking about and what I do believe - Sometimes you have to say goodbye and let go to move on.  My eyes are open wideBy the way I made it through the dayI watch the world outsideBy the way I'm leaving out todayI just saw Halley's comet shootingSaid "why you always running in place?Even the man in the moon disappearedSomewhere in the stratosphere"[Chorus]Tell my mother, tell my fatherI've done the best I canTo make them realizeThis is my lifeI hope they understandI'm not angry, I'm just sayingSometimes goodbye is a second chancePlease don't cry one tear for meI'm not afraid of what I have to sayThis is my one and only voiceSo listen close, it's only for todayI just saw Halley's comet shootingSaid "why you always running in place?Even the man in the moon disappearedSomewhere in the stratosphere"[Repeat Chorus] Here is my chanceThis is my chance[Repeat Chorus]Sometimes goodbye is a second chance!!
My Name
Imagine living for over a quarter century and answering the same question every single day. Kind of like the movie Groundhog Day, minus the suicide attempts and Bill Murray. It's not a question whose answer greatly impacts anyone or anything. It's just a simple question asked by curious people. But it's never-ending. Welcome to my life. Every day, almost without fail, I am asked about my name. What is your name? Is it your real name? What's your middle name? How did you get that name? Are your parents hippies? Were they on crack cocaine when they named you? Did they yell into a canyon before they named you? All of these questions and more on a regular basis. Quite honestly, it gets a bit tiring having to answer the same questions all the time. And I understand that people are curious - I'm probably one of the more nosey people you've ever met. But it's just getting old now, after almost 31 years. So let's set the record straight and get it all out once and for all. My name - yes,
The Song Matters Not It's In The Freedom Of The Expression
What do I do?     I dance . the songs are my emotions & their expression is in my movements ;which are an expression of my soul..............I need no audience for all are there. I need no direction because it results from my thought process. The dance that starts out fun & flirty often turns into a passion play of movements ranging from sensual to seductive to romantic grace in true art form . The others that start out needing comfort in expression can turn into the most soul releasing journeys. I guess in this it has taken me many years to fully understand the true joy I had with allowed me to be free to feel the entire gamut of emotions & never feel censure...My opinions were expressed.... I am so glad to have found my joy again through dance... I guess the funny thing is that all those years Ms.Ginger was right as we get older something inside ourselves changes we let life & conflict kill the drive for dance.... we let schedules & finances & other obligations take our lo
Big Daddy Punk A$$ Scammer
¨^»BÌG·ÐÁÐÐY«¨a™@ fubar   This fine example of what should have been tossed into the wastebasket at a sleezy motel owes a friend of mine 75,000 fubucks for picture rates from 2 days ago. I know that 75K is not a huge amount of fubucks but I also know that alot of time goes into rating over 400 pics in one setting. So maybe we can show this scum some appreciation for his lack of effort to pay his debt.   Much luv to the haterz and even more to my friends,   REFORMED STAFFER X
I can't believe I'm still awake. I guess it's just because of my mind running wild with someone running through it. At least he's handsome! lol
Ms. Pms
If I've told you once I'll tell you again Leave me alone Or you'll be sorry my friend I ain't in no mood To be messing around And if you keep it up It's your body they would've found What! You say that I'm mean Well, whatever then No wait, you know, you're right 'Cause I can't stand you men Walking around all your life Not having to feel my pain And then you say I'm crazy Nah bro', I'm insane So you better watch what it is you say And sure enough watch your back 'Cause eat you up and spit you out Is what I'm about, Jack And when you see me walking down the street Don't let me be the cause of your stress Just recognize and tell the other guys "Watch out ya'll, there goes Ms. PMS"
All Italians Will Love & Remember This....
Sunday Dinner for Italians:   Italians have a $40,000 kitchen, but use the $259 stove from  Sears in the basement to cook.   There is some sort of religious statue in the hallway, living room,  bedroom, front porch and backyard.  The living room is filled with old wedding favors with poofy net bows and  stale almonds (they are too pretty to open)..   A portrait of the Pope and Frank Sinatra in the dining room.  God forbid if anyone EVER attempted to eat Chef Boy-are-dee, Franco  American, Ragu, Prego or anything else in a jar or can (tomato paste is the  exception).   Meatballs are made with Pork, Veal and Beef. We are Italians, we don't care  about cholesterol.  Turkey is served on Thanksgiving, AFTER the manicotti, gnocchi, lasagna and  soup.  If anyone EVER says ES-CAROLE, slap 'em in the face -- it's SHCAROLE.   If they ever say ITALIAN WEDDING SOUP, let the idiot know that there is no  wedding, nor is there an Italian in the soup. Also, the tiny meatballs must  be made by hand.
Shitty Deal
I wish when people looked into my eyes, they could tell what I was feeling. It would save a lot of miscommunication...
Bestmoviestar News Letter Of April 2009
Newsletter   -BEST-MOVIESTAR   Newsletter Hey Everyone, Welcome to bestmoviestar newsletter . I'm Jackeline Dalton your host from -best-moviestar with the best news on the moment.      ♥ 3D CAMERA                               You will think I am sitting at your lap. NEW 3D HOSTING Announce   AnnouncementiFriendsV2, the first in the world to deliver the most intelligent experts to your home, and the first to wire the world's most gorgeous women and handsome hunks directly into your fantasies, has done it again. With low-cost, easy-to-use 3D, "being there" takes on entirely new meaning. It's the next level of video chat excitement and stimulation! Have you ever seen a 3D movie? Then you know how re
Slow Dance
SLOW DANCEHave you ever watched kidsOn a merry-go-round?Or listened to the rainSlapping on the ground?Ever followed a butterfly's erratic flight?Or gazed at the sun into the fading night?You better slow down.Don't dance so fast.Time is short.The music won't last.Do you run through each dayOn the fly?When you ask How are you?Do you hear the reply?When the day is doneDo you lie in your bedWith the next hundred choresRunning through your head?You'd better slow downDon't dance so fast.Time is short.The music won't last.Ever told your child,We'll do it tomorrow?And in your haste,Not see his sorrow?Ever lost touch,Let a good friendship dieCause you never had timeTo call and say,"Hi"You'd better slow down.Don't dance so fast.Time is short.The music won't last.When you run so fast to get somewhereYou miss half the fun of getting there.When you worry and hurry through your day,It is like an unopened gift....Thrown away.Life is not a raceDo take it slowerHear the musicBefore the song is over.
Please Don't Leave Me
Da da da da, da da da daDa da da da-da daI don't know if I can yell any louderHow many time have I kicked you outta here?Or said something insulting?da da da da-daI can be so mean when I wanna beI am capable of really anythingI can cut you into piecesWhen my heart is....brokenDa da da-da daPlease don't leave mePlease don't leave meI always say how I don't need youBut it's always gonna come right back to thisPlease, don't leave meHow did I become so obnoxious?What is it with you that makes me act like this?I've never been this nastyCan't you tell that this is all just a contest?The one that wins will be the one that hits the hardestBut baby I don't mean itI mean it, I promiseDa da da-da daPlease don't leave meDa da da-da daPlease don't leave meDa da da-da daI always say how I don't need youBut it's always gonna come right back to thisPlease, don't leave me[Please Don't Leave Me Lyrics On ]I forgot to say out loud how beautiful you really are to meI can't be
I Am This Man
I AM THIS GUY!!!The guy who will text you every single morning and tell you good morning and every single night to tell you sweet dreams.The guy who will hold you when you're crying and wipe away your tears.The guy who still thinks you're beautiful with no makeup on, wearing sweats and a big t-shirt.The guy who won't pressure you to do things you dont want to.The guy who will show up at your house with soup and a movie when you aren't feeling well.The guy who kisses you on the forehead.The guy who'll randomly tickle you just to hear you giggle.The guy who doesnt kiss and tell the guy who actually listens to you when you talk.The guy who's excited all day because im looking forward to our date that night.The guy who is content to just be able to hold you and wants nothing more.The guy who can't help but smile when you walk into the room.The guy who'll say i love you first because not afraid to say it.The guy who's perfectly content with staying in and watching movies and cuddling.The gu
The Rainbow Bridge
Rainbow Bridge Just this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge. When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge.  There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together.  There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable. All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor; those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by. The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind. They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. His bright eyes are intent; His eager body quivers. Suddenly he begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster. You have been spotted, and when
What Is Love?
Beethoven To His Immortal Beloved :)
 Good morning, on July 7 Though still in bed, my thoughts go out to you, my Immortal Beloved, now and then joyfully, then sadly, waiting to learn whether or not fate will hear us - I can live only wholly with you or not at all - Yes, I am resolved to wander so long away from you until I can fly to your arms and say that I am really at home with you, and can send my soul enwrapped in you into the land of spirits - Yes, unhappily it must be so - You will be the more contained since you know my fidelity to you. No one else can ever possess my heart - never - never - Oh God, why must one be parted from one whom one so loves. And yet my life in V is now a wretched life - Your love makes me at once the happiest and the unhappiest of men - At my age I need a steady, quiet life - can that be so in our connection? My angel, I have just been told that the mailcoach goes every day - therefore I must close at once so that you may receive the letter at once - Be calm, only by a calm consideratio
Ace's Wild
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Come Meet Me Rosealie Hale
About me: I was born to a middle-class family in 1915 in Rochester, New York. My father had a stable job in a bank while my mother was a housewife. My parents were social climbers and I was the ticket they needed to reach their social aspiration. I was clearly the favorite of my parents, with two younger brothers. While growing up, I dreamed of a lavish life--a life with a rich husband and children as beautiful as I was. My parents influenced my want of material things, which made me vain and conceited. I wanted a big house that someone else would clean, with a large lawn that I would play with my children on. In Rochester, where I grew up, there was only one family that had what my parents wanted--the Kings. Royce King owned the bank my father worked in. His son, Royce II, saw me for the first time and began dating me. It was a quick courtship and we were soon engaged. The engagement went too quickly and wedding plans were made. I couldn't help but feel something was missing from
All Parents Read This Carefully
Tampa, Florida - Deputies say the man who kidnapped his ex-girlfriend's baby son and threw the boy from his car as he drove along Interstate 275 early Tuesday morning has been caught not far away. The baby did not survive. Not long after 9 a.m., police say someone spotted Richard McTear, Jr. on or around Arlington Avenue near Tampa Heights. Officers say McTear was taken into custody without incident. As officers led McTear into a sheriff's office holding area, he shot profanities at journalists. A reporter asked "How can you throw a baby out the window?" He replied: "It's a dirty game." He paused, then repeated himself: "It's dirty game." Hillsborough County Sheriff's deputies have reopened all lanes of I-275 after closing two of the highway's three lanes about 1/4 mile south of Fowler Avenue as they investigated. McTear was already wanted for a past kidnapping charge before this morning's incident, according to the Hillsborough County Sheriff's Office. McTear and his ex-girlfrie
In The Shadow
abandon me bewilder me my heart is lost without you a dark and lonesome seed without the warmth of your smile void of the light in your laughter sinking deep within the soiled earth to hide to hibernate so lost without you the darkess grows around me and spins a tangeled web so cold so sheltered a wimper and a cry for all that I have lost for that which I cannot reclaim withered here and weak in just the shadow of your name
Since my days on Fubar I have been easily confused or some might say lost in translation. Here are a few that now actually make sense now I know. If you have anymore let me know, I won't feel so lame when I have to ask in future!   English Bold - American unbold AArse- Ass, Advert- Commerical, Autumn- FallBBoot (of car)- Trunk, Biscuit- Cookie, Box- BoothBarrister- Attorney, Bin- Trash Can, Bungalow- Single storey house, Bum bag- fanny pack, Bar maid/man- BartenderCChips- fries, Crisps- potato chips, Casualty/ A&E- ERCaravan- Trailer, Cupboard- closet, Candy floss- cotton candyCanteen- Cafeteria, Crumpet- English MuffinChemist- Drugstore, Car Park- parking lotDDummy- Pacifier, Double yellow lines- no parking zoneDressing gown- robe, Dinner jacket- tuxedoE - Cant think of any!FFag- cigarette, Football- Soccer, Fire brigade- fire departmentFather Christmas- Santa Claus, Flat- apartmentFlat mate- room mate, Film- MovieGGay- fagHHoliday- VacationIInsect- BugJJelly- Jello, Jam- jelly, Ju
Here Without You.....
A hundred days have made me older Since the last time that I saw your pretty face A thousand lies have made me colder And I don't think I can look at this the same But all the miles that separate Disappear now when I'm dreaming of your face I'm here without you baby But you're still on my lonely mind I think about you baby And I dream about you all the time I'm here without you baby But you're still with me in my dreams And tonight it's only you and me, yeah The miles just keep rollin' As the people leave their way to say hello I've heard this life is overrated But I hope that it gets better as we go, oh yeah yeah I'm here without you baby But you're still on my lonely mind I think about you baby And I dream about you all the time I'm here without you baby But you're still with me in my dreams And tonight girl it's only you and me Everything I know and anywhere I go It gets hard but it won't take away my love And when the last one falls, when it's all said and done It gets hard b
Flyleaf- All Around Me
My hands are searching for you My arms are outstretched towards you I feel you on my fingertips My tongue dances behind my lips for you This fire rising through my being Burning I'm not used to seeing you I'm alive, I'm alive I can feel you all around me Thickening the air I'm breathing Holding on to what I'm feeling Savoring this heart that's healing My hands float up above me And you whisper you love me And I begin to fade Into our secret place The music makes me sway The angels singing say we are alone with you I am alone and they are too with you I'm alive, I'm alive I can feel you all around me Thickening the air I'm breathing Holding on to what I'm feeling Savoring this heart that's healing And so I cry The light is white And I see you I'm alive, I'm alive, I'm alive I can feel you all around me Thickening the air I'm breathing Holding on to what I'm feeling Savoring this heart that's healing Take my hand I give it to you Now you own me All I am You said you would neve
Soulja Boy Tell Em- Kiss Me Thru The Phone
Soulja Boy Tell 'Em Baby you know that I miss you, I wanna get with you tonight But I cannot baby girl and that's the issue Girl you know I miss you, I just wanna kiss you But I can't right now so baby kiss me thru the phone, I'll see you later on Kiss me thru the phone, see you when I get home Baby I know that you like me, you my future wifey Soulja Boy Tell 'Em, yeah You can be my Bonnie, I can be your Clyde You could be my wife, text me, call me I need you in my life, yeah all day everyday I need ya And every time I see ya my feelings get deeper I miss ya, I miss ya, I really wanna kiss you but I can't Six, seven, eight, triple nine, eight, two, one, two Baby you know that I miss you, I wanna get with you tonight But I cannot baby girl and that's the issue Girl you know I miss you, I just wanna kiss you But I can't right now so baby kiss me thru the phone, I'll see you later on Kiss me thru the phone, see you when I get home Baby I been thinking lately so much about you Everyth
Ever Wonder
do you ever wonder why we are put in the situations we are put in, i do all the time, why we are who we are where we are and feel the way we do about things, i really dont know. sometimes i feel lost like i dont know who i am, there are times where i am happy when things are going on i start to feel like i know but when im not i still feel lost, i just wish i could keep that happines around, but how do i find that permenant fix
Closing Shop
Walking into the mist leaving all in a stream as I stop and cross the bridge No more words stories or poems nothing just the howling abyss guiding my thoughts and my soul Wandering in the dark but strangely feeling at home Numbness is not bad at all no pleasure no pain nothing clean nothing that carries a stain Given it all i got but still cannot depart it has burned so hot in my soul i swear there are blisters on my heart  
My Favorite Poem
Sacrifice YourselfDont Let my mind destroy meFrom Breaking in againPlease save me from my conscienceWhen it comes rushing in Oh please come be my hero Or maybe my heroinYou can brand yourself my saviorYou can call yourself my friend Show me light unto My darkness
well he tells me he doesnt like to send flowers cause they die .... i figure meh so much for flowers ever but didnt matter cause ya know i love this man ... well yesterday i got lillies delivered to my house ... look in the pics yall dd good ... i mean really good ...they fil the house with that heady scent and are opening some each day so that its a total surprise each time i get to see them ...i will press them in my bible when the time comes ... baby i love you so .. thank you
Ahh Another Thing!
I'm sure you've all heard this and or read it in my last blogs however I've gotta wait at least 6 weeks before they can do a CT scan on me to make sure they have gotten it all in which case I hope like hell because I've already told John that if they haven't just to load the gun and pull the trigger, I can not go through what I've been through again it's painful, not only does it hurt you but the loved ones around you, anyways wish me well and the best of luck cause I sure will need it!
Being There For You
Being There For You My love for you it will be forever I promised you to work out the problems together If you ever need me I'll give it my all And work out the troubles be they big or small I'll hold you when your down And from your face I'll take your frown I only wish to make you see I'll give you nothing but honesty My goal in life is to make you smile And as for that I'd walk more than a mile If you ever need anything all you need do is ask Because I feel that's an easy task I really do love you so There is nowhere I wouldn't go I'd cross deserts and mountains and even the sea Because with you is where I should be When I'm with you there's nothing to say Except I promise to love you each and every day Nothing could be more important to do Than just being there for and loving you.
So....i'm Completely Done
I"m freakin' sick and tired of guy who play the "OMG I like you so much..." game.. and playing it with every FUCKING female that's around them.  I"m smart enough to realize that most guys(99.9%) are like this, but seriously.. when the FUCK are you guys going to grow up.  I've always been a one-man girl.  I"ve always dated one guy, and only had eyes for him.  I never looked, never admired, never once sought the attention of someone else because I was happy being with the person I was with.  Why can't guys be the same way?  Is one pussy not enough? Do they just need female attention every freaking minute of the day?   God, this pisses me off.
Your Mine!
For years I have been practicing forms of magic. I've learned a lot about spells and potions that can bring you good fortune or completely obliterate another man's life. As I became more familiar with these spells and was able to do them successfully, my mind shot in 10 different directions. There were so many things I could do with this kind of power. As my skills progressed, I moved past the petty spells that I had started with. All were temporary, so if I used one to take care of my money issues, I always found a way back. Unfortunately, the magic never lasted long enough and it was becoming apparent to me. Interest began to wane in my studies until I saw her. Eva Perez was a curvy Latina with breasts that seemed rather large considering her height. The black hair flowed all the way down to her ass and it was impossible not to stare at her. She was absolutely stunning. Right away, I knew I had to have her, one way or another. Any time I'd pass by her or see her somewhere I'd say hel
Warmest Memories.
She would stir in her sleep, her hip rounded by the sheet, her warm back or belly held tight against me.  I would put my fingers in her dark, silky Italian hair, trace them down her shoulders and back and along the sensuous curve of her waist.  I'd kiss the soft skin and the moles just above her navel.  I'd kiss her breasts and stomach and mouth and eyes, then slip her close against me, burying my face in the warm embrace of her hair. When she made love, she did it without stint or reservations or buried resentments because of a cross word or real or imagined slight.  Her charity and smile followed her into our bed, and in the morning her perfect skin gave off a warm fragrance just like the flowers in her gardens.  In the blueness of the dawn I would hear the steady rythem of her breath in my ear while the woman next door called to her black cat, and I would start the day with the near absolute knowledge that no evil could hold sway in our lives...That is what it means to be alive. To
2 Yrs
For two and half years...I fought and epic battle called love...of mythic proportionsI have had a friendship based on love and a hatred based on friendship. I learned one thing,  that if one is scarred bad enough one no longer feels the pain."(a slight smile)I always say, if chaos is inevitable, why keep order?“You see, sometimes in life, we make our own choices. Sometimes, a choice made for us. But sometimes, there is no choice,at all But I let my self down and now i understand. See, no one respects the flame quite like the fool who's badly burned I realize one thing. That it's better to have a condemned soul, than no soul at all.They said things would be different when I got older, but they lied. In high school, I was despised, I was hated, and I was attacked for being different. It's no different now.I'm still hated, I'm still despised, and I'm still being attacked on a regular basis, whether it's any another representative of society's norm. Well, what about me!! What ab
25 Reasons I Owe My Mother
      25 REASONS I OWE MY MOTHER 1. My mother taught me TO APPRECIATE A JOB WELL DONE . "If you're going to kill each other, do it outside. I just finished cleaning." 2. My mother taught me RELIGION. "You better pray that will come out of the carpet." 3. My mother taught me about TIME TRAVEL . " If you don't straighten up, I'm going to knock you into the middle of next week!" 4. My mother taught me LOGIC. " Because I said so, that's why." 5. My mother taught me MORE LOGIC. "If you fall out of that swing and break your neck, you're not going to the store with me.." 6. My mother taught me FORESIGHT. "Make sure you wear clean underwear, in case you're in an accident." 7. My mother taught me IRONY "Keep crying, and I'll give you something to cry about." 8. My mother taught me about the science of OSMOSIS. "Shut your mouth and eat your supper." 9. My mother taught me about CONTORTIONISM. "Will you look at that dirt on the back of your neck!" 10. My mother tau
Ya Can Delete Ya Self...mmmmkay?
You all know who you are! You can just delete yourselves from my friends list! What you all sent me in my e-mail was just nasty!   Ya nasty fucks,stay the fuck off mah page,and stop sending me ya nasty ass shit!
To All My Fu Friends( Please Read)
Hello all I just wanted to let you know that I am deleting my fubar account I cant deal with the drama anymore. I do not want to lose the many friends I have  made so. If you would like to keep in touch with me please send me a msg  with your phone number and email and/or add me on myspace U can also find me on facebook by searching Erin Neville. I will be deleting my account in 48 hours. I love you all.   ~Irishgirl(Erin)~
Mariah Carey Berry Ver One~
Mariah Carey Berry did two more steps before the music stopped and she looked around to make sure every dancer was in their place and not off the mark. She nodded in satisfaction that rehearsal was going so well before stiffing a little. She tossed the mike to a standby and almost ran to her dressing room. Shutting the door, she raised her dress and slipped two fingers under the panty to remove a slim plastic object from behind the material. She flushed with excitement and saw the sparkle in her eyes as she flipped the phone, raised it to her ear, and said 'hello' as she smelled her own aroma. There was no question in her tone, there was only one person who even knew the phone existed, let alone had the number and she never missed the calls, no matter where or when. He watched as the girl got into her car after school. He had been admiring her for several months but she had barely acknowledged his existence other than to let him know that he was annoying just being in her sight. Her fr
Mary's Diversion Part Two~
Jim's hands finally reached out to his prize. He gently encircled her globes with his hands squeezing as he did and feeling her firmness, her flesh, her ass...just as she requested. Each movement would get a little bolder than the one before it. When the time was right he pulled her cheeks slightly apart to see his reward and what he saw caught his breath. She hadn't wiped! She was dirty there! What luck! What sweet luck! He locked onto that image of first discovery, intending to keep it in his mind forever. He knew he would be masturbating, stroking his rock hard cock, many times thinking of this adventure. He pretended not to notice and carried on with his gyrations, taking in the odd innocent glance now and then. She obviously wasn't aware of it and he didn't want to startle her too quickly. If she was too surprised or embarrassed, that might snap her out of trance with disastrous results. He hadn't finished yet swinging her around to his way of thinking. There was just a little mor
A Child's Love
Ones The Stay And Ones That Go
It's kind of funnyWhen you think about itThe people that walk in your heartThe ones that stayThe ones that goSome encounters are so quickAnd others stay for awhileThe impact may be smallSo that you don't even notice a differenceBut others you can't forgetBecause they changed your direction on the roadThere's ones that you may welcomeAnd hope they make a homeThere's ones that make holesBut from that you learn and growFrom my life what I have gatheredIs there are two people I will knowOnes that stayAnd ones that goSo, my heart will remain openAnd what you choose is up to you
Sadie Sings Lose Your Way
I have no confidenceAnd I can’t see why I shouldBut I could do most anything for youAnd you know I wouldI try too hardAnd then I give up way too easilyI'm the runner up inside of youAnd you’re the winner inside of meLose your wayAnd I will followHere todayAnd here tomorrowLike my freedom I knowI’ll never let you goI still wish on the evening starAnd I s’pose I always willEvery child loses somethingA whole life can’t fulfillAnd when you cry I feel the skyBurst open in my veinsIf loving you makes a slave of meThen I'll spend my whole life in chainsLose your wayAnd I will followHere todayAnd here tomorrowLike my freedom I knowI’ll never let you go.Walk the lineI’ll walk inside youChange your mindLet your love decide youIt’s the reason I knowYou’ll never let me go
I may be wearyI may be tiredI may not show myselfBut I do have the desireI want to see your faceIn the morning lightI hope to see you near me.And hold you with all my mightPerhaps we could take a walkTo find some peaceAs this world is going crazyAdding problems with their friendsI wish to see you in my dreamsAnd hope it will be a realityThat one sweet day we could find ourselvesHolding eachother in eternity.
Missing You...
I miss your eyes I miss you lips the ones I always and still long to kiss I miss your voice I miss your arms the soothing sound and all your charms I miss your chest I miss your hands begging for your touch, You understand all of these things I miss a lot Everything I remember but you forgot...  
I'll Miss Me Lovah's L0l :p
I won't be on as much.*not like it will make a difference* :p I'll busy with me oldest babies graduation,and movin and all that fun stuff. Come June I'll be back on to terrorize everyone of ya,sooooo don't forget.*evil laugh* :p   Nuhtiiiing to with this BOOOM!BOOOM! Firepower!   *minty kisses* fi all who deserve it,and a huge pffffffffft to the rest! =)
Do You Like To Work Out Or Feel You Have To Work Out To Look Good?
Hi it is me, listen earlier today I had this guy comment on me, basically he inferred that you can't look that good and be real. Ya know what really gets my goat is the fact that some of us actually enjoy getting up everyday and working out. I run 3 miles every monring. i teach three classes at the gym. Kickboxing, Step aerobics and yoga. For all who do work out or who have friends who work out hello, once you start that kind of regimine program you have to keep it up and keep toned or you will lose al you have worked hard to achieve. anyway food for thought.... some people like to work hard and we all choose to make different choices.. we all should be open to make our own choices and start down on our own paths... Life is what you make it... embrace it, love it and live it.. I try my best not to judge others because i myself do not like to be judged. so lets rember peoples feelings before we mumble or say something we may not be able to take back
Princess Beakers (2nd Time)
She constantly goes above and beyond to be so kind to me. I have no clue why!? She is just a splendid, splendid woman! Really, go love her and hopefully youll see what I see   I am Pedro
A Little Too Much Sun
Erica and Keith walked onto the beach.  They were a good match for each other and made a nice couple.  They were both tall and had long legs and arms.  They both had blonde hair, his short and hers long.  They both worked out and hat fit, tone bodies.  And both of them were quite tan.  They quickly set up thier spot on the beach, laying down blankets next to each other.      "Hummm...feel that sun," says Keith, as he quickly laied out on his towel, and closed his eyes.      "Yes, well, don't forget a little lotion, " Said Erica, "The sun is hot today, hot enough to melt you away!" she laughed a bit at her bad joke.      "Don't be a baby," siad Keith, "I'll put some lotion on when a start to feel the burn."      "If you say so tough guy." she said, "Ill be right back, I need to use the little girls room."      Keith gave a slight nod and watched her walk away.  Then closed his eyes and let the sun just beat down on him.  He got quite hot, quite quickly and just as quickly dozed off
Hit Me Up
Heading To Bed Alone ... Again ....
I am melancholy tonight if yall  havent noticed ... damnit I need to hurry up and get mah arse to california ... being away from Him is killing me slowly ... i need to get it all in perspective and just suck it up ... he will be here soon to stay for a while and get a chance to bond some with the kiddos ... ugh ... God knew why the man i was intended to be with for the rest of my life is 2400 miles to the west of me ... loll never cared bout leaving NC ... planned to eventually but now omg i have to get the hell outta the south and get to where he is .... where he is is HOME and its honestly making me kinda sad when i have no business being sad ..i have the love of a lifetime ... im lucky as hell .. im spoiled by him and miss his smile ... his laughter ..... we talk on the phone all the time .. text ect or black berry messenger ... but erm i have a void till i am with him ... ok sucking up ... ill try to do funny or informational blogs from here on out loll .. sorry yall
going to see my regular for a checks up today. been battling the toughest case of depression i've ever had, but im doing better. i hate how they play their games, there is no reason for me to see him today, just yep uh huh you're doin okay. okay, $15. waking up at 7 o'clock ain't my gig anymore either!   *edit* everything went very well, gaining back lost weight and feeling good!
The Feel Of Rain
Well it has been a nice day so far the rain pouring down on the earth. Kissing the moist ground with it wet lips, the rush that moves threw me as I go out into the storm. Feeling its power around e, curessing me with the wind as my hair blows around. The touch that feels as if it is lovers gental cureses. My hopes and dreams are flying on the wind into my heart and into my head.    
Pirates Online!
Copy this banner! Check this online game! Is fun! Pirates for the hunt of gold and many fun this more!  
'm sorry that I never knew you I guess I'll never understand. See since you've been here, I was blind to the truth. My real dad left, gone far away but here you still are twenty years to this day my "father" knew me for so short but you've never swayed you loved me from the start. you yelled and criticized so i thought you hated me now that i'm on my own I've learned what you wanted: The best for me Unfortunately I travel my own trail though I may be blind,you know where I'm going I realize you don't like it and it might be my ruin I dont know what else to say but that i love and appreciate you more and more each day
Sorry that I made you sad, but being a fool I made things complex. I never meant to make things bad, by taking words out of context. Wrong wording at the wrong time, not how they were supposed to sound. Now i fear you wont be mine, and it drills me deep into the ground. So here I sit in my sulking pool, realizing that i truly am a fools' fool.
Lost Child
Up and down,Up and down the never ending see-saw goes a child on one side a lost man on the other cries of joy and screams of pain fill this park of life so many pieces of people left behind the field cluttered with debris the child looks to the man "what has happened to the park?" The man has no reply though he knows but how do you tell a child of misery? "why is there so much trash here?" the child asks glowing of innocence. "when will the questions stop?" things the man to himself for the man knows there's no trash everything from the red shoe to the broken bat all have different meanings. they're all parts of memories though scattered none forgotten though painful none regretted "its not trash" the man replies "you see all these things are what has turned you into me, these are why i protect you" the see-saw stops, the man cries as the child fades
No Promises...
      Hey baby, when we are together, doing things that we love. Every time you're near I feel like Im in heaven, feeling high I dont want to let go, girl. I just need you to know girl. I dont wanna run...  
Anti Aging Products
The evolutionary anti aging products now come through the face of flavored water with either pomegranate or acai berry. Pomegranate extracts and acai berry contains trans-resveratrol, providing one of the most advanced and fruit supplements designed for cellular protection and maintenance.  As the human body ages, physical and psychological changes happen. Muscle mass decreases, bones become brittle and immune system become weaker. Hearing, eyesight, reflexes, as well as many other bodily functions starts to falter. Anti aging products, however, hold solutions for slowing the aging of the body and maintaining a healthy longer lifespan. Supplementing person’s diet with vitamins, minerals and herbs will significantly increase his or her number of year.             Anti-aging supplements address and prevent any possible deterioration in the cells that may accelerate the aging process. But the absorption of vitamins and supplements become harder as one ages. So fiber diet like fru
Memorial Day‏
all my tomorrows are mine cause someone gave up his whats the best way to thank the heroes in the military
Fake Salu
Does anybody realizes how many fake ass people is on fubar.Come on Fubar is letting people move up in the ranks because the are VIP's.Take a look at there site and they made a salute with there computers.Is there any site that really takes having real people talking to real people.To see what I'm talking ,do asearch under names and search for freedom.should be on the second page.Rank disciple.Not one real salute.These people are ruining FUBAR for the rst of us.If more people complained to the admin's we would have a better experience
Uhf - A Cinema Classic   Enjoy!!!
"come Back"
Come back little raven and bite my face I've been waiting, endless waiting Come back and bite my face Come back little raven, descend your home This is not then, it is not now Come back, descend your throne I think you realize what I've done Well, on a corner slept my horrible corpse I'm not alive for anyone I think you realize what I've done You gotta come back You gotta come back You gotta come back You gotta come back Come back little raven, here by my face I've been waiting, endless waiting Come back and bite my face I think you realize what I've done We're on the corner, slashed my heart for fun I'm not alive for anyone I think you realize what I've done You gotta come back You gotta come back You gotta come back You gotta come back You gotta come back, come back, well, come back Right back to me You gotta come back, come back, come on back Right back to me You gotta come back, come back, come on back Right back to me You gotta come back, come back, come on back Right ba
When life gives you lemons make lemonade or make the best of what you got... and don't take life for granted... by the time you realize what you had your time runs out faster then you want it to.
A Real Man
1.) A REAL MAN respects his mother and places his family first. 2.) A REAL MAN RAISES HIS KIDS, not JUST out of pocket either. 3.) A REAL MAN supports his woman to develop herself. 4.) A REAL MAN doesn't worry about what others depict as a real man. Walk in his shoes first and then tell him what makes him A REAL MAN. 5.) A REAL MAN doesn't Break Promises 6.) A REAL MAN calls you beautiful, not hot, sexy, or fine as fuck. 8.) A REAL MAN CALLS YOU on a daily basis - NO MATTER HOW BUSY OR TIRED HE IS. 9.) A REAL MAN looks past what he's heard about you or what his friends think of you. 10.) A REAL MAN wants to spend as much time as he can with you & won't get sick of you. 11.) A REAL MAN comes over just to watch movies with you. 12.) A REAL MAN kisses you on the forehead just because. 13.) A REAL MAN doesn't tell you what he thinks you want to hear. He tells you what's real. 14.) A REAL MAN should be treated like one. 15.) A REAL MAN doesn't ask questions when you say you nee
I am soooooooo fucking tired of being treated like shit because I am fat. I'm trying to get rid of it. I'm walking 40 minutes every day, water aerobics, and belly dancing. I'm drinking less soda and caffiene. Cutting back on the foods that are bad for me.I actually enjoy my belly dancing class. I have alot of fun. I went to the beach to buy one of those coin belts because the class requires students to participate in wearing parts (or a whole) costume.I look through the belts and this fucking skinny, over tanned, leather faced barbie with plastic boobs looks me up and down with disgust, notices the coin belt I am holding, then tells me I need to get extentions to fix my "ratty ass hair" (her words, fucking bitch) and that I need to do the world a favor and gets some "goddamn liposuction".You know what FUCK HER! FUCK THE REST OF YOU BASTARDS WHO ARE LIKE HER!I'm trying to do this shit right with diet and exercise so give me a fucking break. Jesus christ!!
First Timer~
Amber was nervous when her mate knocked on the door and led her into the suite. "I hope you wore your good underwear," Aaron joked quietly as he shut the door behind them, though even he wasn't quite sure whether he was serious or not. His friend Jamieson Cutter was in town for three months, an old university mate who was now apparently a business man- and bondage master of some kind who was looking for a slave for his stay in town. Amber had been appalled when Aaron had tentatively asked her if she'd consider meeting the man, but something about the idea had struck a chord and she'd agreed with a great deal of curiosity. And now she had entered his private apartment in the city, dressed in a sensible shirt and skirt ensemble with hands that only shook slightly.He was a tall man, perhaps thirty-five years of age, and nothing of his outward appearance screamed anything other than 'business man'. However when she looked into his eyes for the first time she shivered, and sat down on the c
You Have Your Mothers Eyes
something in your eyes hints to me that if you have not already acknowledged the power that spans lifetimes and culminates within you it will soon present itself to you and reveal its name, your true identity, embrace it, and your destiny will unfold before you and you will do all things with complete certainty and not even death can then touch you until you call her name. i have infinite resources at my disposal but nothing can i stress more urgent lest you already know, ever will you walk down the black path folding in upon yourself touching nothing, no-one will you know, no one will you see, darkness will be your only identity, and only once the warlocks essence makes it home in your heart will it occur to you that you have lost your identity in this life an all others before and the real truth, gods energy expired long ago, the universe is not expanding, and a warlock is one who works in human(hybrid) begin the work of the mad, call upon azag thoth master
Do You Care If A Soldier Dies?~
  take a man put him all aloneput him 12000 miles from homeempty his heart of all but bloodmake him live in the sand and mudthis is the life I have to livethis is the soul to god I giveyou have your parties and drink your beerwhile our men are dying over heredo you care if a soldier diesdo you even have to wipe your eyeswhen you turn on CNNtell me whats going through your headdo you know what those numbers meanone less neighbor from across the streetone less hero silent from our eyesdo you care if a soldier diesplant your signs on the white house lawnsaying 'Get out of Iraq', were goneuse your signs and have your funthen refuse to pick up a gunthere's nothing else for you to doand I'm supposed to die for youthere is one thing you should knowand thats where I think you should dodo you care if a soldier diesdo you even have to wipe your eyeswhen you turn on CNNtell me whats going through your you know what those numbers meanone less neighbor from across the stree
God Letter To Woman
When I created the heavens and the earth, I spoke theminto being.When I created man, I formed him and breathed lifeinto his nostrils.But you, woman, I fashioned after I breathed thebreath oflife into man, because your nostrils are too delicate.I allowed a deep sleep to come over himso I could patiently and perfectly fashion you.Man was put to sleep so that he could not interferewith the creativity.From one bone, I fashioned you.I chose the bone that protects man's life.I chose the rib, which protects his heart and lungsand supports him,as you are meant to do.Around this one bone, I shaped you....... I modeledyou.I created you perfectly and beautifully.Your characteristics are as the rib, strong yetdelicate and fragile.You provide protection for the most delicate organ inman, his heart.His heart is the center of his being; his lungs holdthe breath of life.The ribcage will allow itself to be broken before itwill allow damage to the heart. Support man as the ribcage supports the body.You
Just Another Poem Of Thoughts
i sit here accross the room look at your beautiful face day in day out wondering why did i do something so stupid to hurt the one that holds the ket to my heart you are my being for living i go to sleep thinking about you and your the frist thought of my day you have always and will be always the light of my life my reason for living my reason for breathing it just is hard to see my love sit accross from me knowing i cant hold you in my arms kiss you and tell you i love you at night as you go lay your head down to rest i sit up in tears wishing i was laying with you holding you in my arms i cry untill i can't cry no more cry even more after that untill i fall asleep then i see your face in my dreams  
This One's For You
The Japanese Attack on Pearl HarborDecember 7, 1941 Remember Pearl Harbor!!   On Sunday, December 7th, 1941 the Japanese launched a Surprise attack against the U.S. Forces stationed at Pearl Harbor, Hawaii. By planning his attack on a Sunday, the Japanese commander Admiral Nagumo, hoped to catch the entire fleet in port. As luck Would have it, the Aircraft Carriers and one of the Battleships were not in port. (The USS Enterprise was returning from Wake Island, where it had just delivered some aircraft. The USS Lexington was ferrying aircraft to Midway, and the USS Saratoga and USS Colorado were undergoing repairs in the United States ). In spite of the latest intelligence reports about the missing Aircraft carriers (his most important targets), Admiral Nagumo Decided to continue the attack with his force of six carriers and 423 aircraft. At a range of 230 miles north of Oahu, he launched the first wave of a two-wave attack. Beginning at 0600 hours, his First wave consisted of
Hey everyone,    I am Jackeline Dalton a host from -best-moviestar video chat room.    For years I has been dreaming to open a website like that, and be able to bring a little more of this incredible world where I hang out.    Every beginning of the month, I choice few people to be here, they are choice by their personalty, help improvement, ability in videos and photos.   During the currently month you can cast your vote for who you like the best.    The winner will give me an exclusive interview that will be post at begin of the next month.The Competition ends always in the last day of the month at 11:59pm.   You don't need to be a member for vote. CLICK HERE FOR VOTE:XOXOXO BESTMOVIESTAR
Lily Miaw From Hotty_ice
Had been asian invasion all over the site.She had been bring so much happiness and delightful fun in all our hearts.As the Winner of interview of the month for March/2009, it’s been an honor to have she here today.Please welcome Lily, From HOTTY_ICE video chat room.I admire your sweet personality but I have few kinky questions for you. (^_^) hehehEverything you write will be exactly posted for my audience, so here we go...Questions:1) Now that you have been on iFriends for a while, tell me if the site makes you change? How?-I am a fun girl who is always hyper, curious and full of energy! I am ready to try anything that is new and exciting! When my innocent self first started I thought, "OMG! Ifriends is such an amazing tool to SHOWOFF!!!" lol! I've become even more sexual and great thing is IFriends brought out my dirty energy so that now I commit less crime LOL!2) I heard you have a cute dog. Tell my audience a little bit about him.-YES 6PACK (my dog's name lol) is the cutest an
Nela Jackson From Nela-cam
April its definily one of my favorite months on year, just because the snow start to melt and the end the winter make me believe the sun its coming back.Also happens to in april the two of my friends to be participated for the interview of the month.And You wouldn't believe what happens.... For the very first time in the history of my fun polle. A Tie, so big that last 4 days people vote from boths sides and it keep tie and tie... head to head.. Was an amazing experience to see so many people willing to have those girls here...Well today  she is here for show a little more....Please welcome to Nela Jackson from NELA-CAM VIDEO CHAT ROOM.Nela you have an amazing beauty,and a personality that shines all over the site.You start your life as host working in one studio... Many people are against to studios many are in their sides... So just for start the heat up... Let me start asking u this........(hot topic)1)How was for you work in one studio, and Why did u leave ?(NELA ANSWER) :  Before
Are U Real
We’re lost in a dreamworldJust you and INo one else in this private placeWe talk, we listen and we make loveI feel your lips moving over mineYour hand touching my faceJust you and I in our own little space. I may never look into your eyesI may never know your touchBut you’ve filled an emptiness insideThat I needed Oh so much.We met by fate, We loved in dreamsWas it really real?But I can close my eyesWhen ever I want and pretendIt’s you I feel. Your eyes, your touch, your kissThese I’ll never knowI keep them hidden deep insidewithin my very soulWhat ever else we may have hadYOU have made me whole
Dont Know Why . . .
dont know why why i care or why you mean so much to me   all i wanted to be was your everything is that a crime   dont know what i was thinking   cause i wasnt thinking at all my heart took over
Still no contact. I wonder what happend ?  
Hrrr goFhuck what you thinkFheelin less then what I am not to give a damn fheel afraid. Fhuck urself fhuck you go die get urself laid. Nothin left better to do then just talk ur shit think ur it. Not one to prowl go against the grain grew up insane. Try to make myself fheel part of this society then try bein less in reality. Never really felt how I was suppose to be thinkin how shit wouldGoLeftin me out of my mind goin blind where goes show to follow. I fheel so hollow seemin hard to swallow all shit that comes with not knowing where am i goinI don't knowLeave me leave me alone hate follows see it through ur inside. Shit fhuck what you think of me. Could care less How you fheel Fhuck you fhuck urself fhuck ur opinion fhuck this world fhuck everything inItFhuck you fhuck me fhuck this fhuck all the shit that comes that goes no one knows my life was never meant to be a partOf meMe me meGod doesn't want me to be god doesn't want me to be God doesn't want me to be fhuck all of world's soci
God(cycle Demo)
IntroLordPlease forgive meFor the sins that we commence in for all things we doGod (Doesn't want me to be)God Doesn't want me to beWhy try to save the world. When we can't why try to save the world. When we can't.Everything is a mistake shit is all I take. Seein myself givin never known. Fhuck with me & it's on better get urself gone be home play with ur bone. Distaste see right throught ur face find urself in a misplace Cuz god doesn't want me to be. God doesn't want me to see. God doesn't want me to fheel. God doesn't want me toBeI am nothin to be. God doesn't want Why try to save the world when we can't. Why try to save this world when we can't. No point no means of it. All is lost i'm so lost in this dark place losin my mind so losin my own fhuckin mind so bored drained so dull n I don't know I never know I never fhuckin know. I never Know.God doesn't want me to be god doesn't want me to fheel god doesn't want me to see god doesn't want me toBe
W.ords O.f E.xpression
This rhyme I write despite insight lite weight height. Shit itzo kick with phat flow think this a jhoke. Fhuck no so here I am here I is don't like it then drink a full mount of piss It's kriss. Ain't no one you ever heard like this explode into analysis. Fhat kick-ish with that wack sit back & relax rhymin over fhat tracks stack like fhat backs break like vertebre. Watch with what the shit you say I don't play. Crazious as to rhymious poundin groundin choppin necks. I exact infact beat ya dead with whole bunch of thumbtacks. I metaphor better yet I murder ya no one ain't heard of ya much disturbia. It's shit I elit highlight I write with Fhattest ish don't worry bout wear it starts rippin out motherfkers hearts no breathin leavin none left beatin ya to death. Fhuck with me your ass bee like starch you'll be stomped in the march. Pity pat pat It's like woah shit's bound to blow. Excite kickin with rhyme witty flow car crash ash stick like stash. I'm hidden good ridden I'm in & in ning
No Style
I ain't skitso not frantic or in a panic you sink like the titanic don't understand it smashin through oceans like the atlantic. Tick tock just don't know my flow so ya know how it goes. I'm rainin down insane pain drain acid can't passed it. I wreck a rock a rhyme spittin with what you not gettin I'm as real as ill hard like steel kickin with ish you can't fheel. Rhyme wreck a kris it's get's no harder then this have yo mouth full of piss. Can't no one fhuck with this get's no better kickin the latter shit clatter's break's glass have yo ass dead buried beneath the grass way deep down underground. I ain't the one to be fucked around boom comin/kickin with the sound puttin 5-4 hollow tips as you trip get a kick shit I spit is so sick like my mind fuck what you think you make me tick. I'm sick of bein  be dizpleazin. Wordz of an extract of a calibur don't let me have to be the to bury ya i'm iller fhresh. Not like the rest on his way to be the best.You just like less what I kick is so f
Crimson Roses
If i was there for the taking would you do it even if life depended on it Its not always crimson roses but baby it will be But the tears keep falling from these blue eyes like dew drops in the early morning you never have to worry about being alone but its not always gonna be crimson roses
Eating You Out!
I have this great technique that I have to share. Just wondering if any of you ladies have had this done. To make a long story short, I start by sucking on your pussy lips and ever so lightly sliding my tongue in and out of your pussy. Working lustfully up to your clit and back down. Once you're all dripping wet I slide my tongue deep inside and thrust. Rubbing your clit with my upper lip and tweaking your nipples all at the same time to make you moan and scream. What do you think?
What- The-fuvk-ever
Sitting here wondering what the hell I am doing and what I am going to do just realize that this situation that I am in now is not the best that's for sure. I'm not happy I miss my angels and I miss you know who. This is all being faked by the both of us and I know he is sitting here thinking ((When is this bitch going to go home)). You tell me you love me damn it A but whatever dude it's not true and I don't really care
yea i dont believe in life but deaths not a game id like to play...hmm the thought seems kind of interesting but heck what good is that to me.ill be in a pine box with my answered questions but no solution when all i really want is to find a tiny resolution but its okay but i dont even care im comfortable here with my corpse and my fear and ill lay here quietly much like i did when i was alive the only difference i am that scary thing called alive and that pine box is my life and im just sitting around lookingtrying to figure out why im still looking for that piece of substance to keep me afloat so i sang and i praise while you set there and gloat because your doing fine with yourperfect little life unbeknowest to you i paid a small price my agony and pain will be avenged upon you in a nice little word i call strife nicely gift wrapped and sent with love to you.
What To Do?
I wish there was a way to make him see how truly sorry I am but over the last year ive come to see that no matter what I say or do and regardless of how hard I try he will never believe me. I beg and plead and for what just to feel used. I made a mistake im only human. As if he is perfect and never made a mistake in his life. What about all the things he did to drive me away. I never meant to hurt him all I wanted was to love him and be the best wife I could be but not feeling like im loved in return only pushed me away. And I tried repetedly to tell him this but he refused to listen. I torture my self day in and day out just to keep him in my life in any way I possibly can except our son. Just for the hopes that one day we will beable to work things out and be happy again. I know in my heart we can have what we once had but my actions well over a year ago turned him cold and so to speak heartless. I say im sorry till im blue in the face and it still does nothing. Night after night day
This Is How It Begins~
She was beautiful. But it was more than surface beauty. The inner beauty showed in her eyes... those eyes that he kept going back to. When he looked over his shoulder as if trying to spot someone, or when he gazed into the mirror behind the bar.But, what was the point?She was with someone... and both of them were wearing wedding rings. No way was he going to get involved with a married woman again.Besides, he'd reached a time in his life when he was comfortable with himself... comfortable with his own quirks and habits. There just didn't seem to be room for someone else.Oh, who was he kidding? He gestured to the bartender."Can I have a piece of paper... and a pen." He wrote his number quickly, and added, Call me... I have to know what's behind those eyes.While he was the folding the paper to the size of a stamp, he looked into the mirror and saw that he was in luck. Her male companion... her husband... was leaving the table. Wherever the man was going, he had to be quick.He stood up an
Reality Bites.
What is love?  Is it akin to the Shakespearean explanation of the value of a name?  Does the word itself mean nothing?  Or does it mean everything?  It's all a matter of perception, is it not?  Some associate love with the feeling of light headedness, eupohoria, and that cloud nine sensation.  Some equate it with the physical act of sex and the back-arching, spasmic, undulating release that goes along with it.  Others equate it with stability, loyalty, and steadfastness.  Still others equate it with sadness, pain, and regret.  So many different experiences, so many different ways of viewing it.  All over just one little four letter word. What do I believe?  Does it matter?  I like to think that I've found this elusive, undefinable thing.  I've experienced all those above qualities, and still--I wonder if I've ever really, truly, completely been in love.  Don't get me wrong.  Every time I've said it, I've meant it.  But I've always felt like something was missing.  Something left me wa
As Clique As It Is Love
there is a reson i like iced lemonade message if you want to know "iced lemonade" so i found what i really want siping iced lemonade on the porch swing little ones running around the backyad my head on your shoulders and my heart in your hands and oh the distance kills me and i know it kills you too but until that day we can be together i'll sip my iced lemonade dreaming of you waiting for that fairytale ending the unlikely girl and the unsuspecting prince they make it through wizards and dragons wicked stepmothers and posion apples too so i know we can make due just promise you'll dream of me too i know it's a little clique but i've found what i really want sipping iced lemonade on the porch swing your fingers running through my hair your head on my shoulders and your heart in my hands     yeah i know it sucks and so does the guy it's about he was a ass
I Wrote This Last Year, But It Sums Up My Political Beliefs Well.
Today I was a soldier.   This message deals mostly with the men I have encountered lately.  But women, if any one can demand more, it's you..      I was in Dublin Ca. on military business.  So I was in uniform, and as usually happens, I got a some questions about my political beliefs.  But Sadly this day was not too different.  In fact it was all too similar.  Usually there is a good mix of what I think of the war and the candidates as well as...Get this.  Gay people...In the military, getting married, and any number of other gay topics.         All up the state, From the Bay area to Chico.  Everywhere i stopped I got the question.  "So what do you think about the new gay marriage law?"      If you didn't know, Today California started allowing gay marriages.  Bam! There it is.  Yes you can.   So some how, as a man in uniform I became a historical point of interest. (Thanks Darc.)  Everywhere I went I could not avoid the question.  "What do you think?"     Well, here it is.  I think;
Ee Cummings
  i carry your heart with me      i carry your heart with me(i carry it inmy heart)i am never without it(anywherei go you go,my dear; and whatever is doneby only me is your doing,my darling)i fearno fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i wantno world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)and it's you are whatever a moon has always meantand whatever a sun will always sing is youhere is the deepest secret nobody knows(here is the root of the root and the bud of the budand the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which growshigher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars aparti carry your heart(i carry it in my heart) ee cummings
2 More days till my VIP expires, an I haven't even gotten some really good pix of my newer self up O'well it's all good maybe once daddy (HUSBAND) and I get our shit str8 I'll be able to get another VIP.......
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Techniques For The Child Interview And A Methodology For Substantiating Sexual AbuseBecause of the central role played by the child interview in substantiating sexual abuse, it is addressed in greater depth than some of the other aspects of child sexual abuse practice.IntroductionAs noted in the previous chapter, child interview data may be gathered in one or more interviews, depending on the particular child, the professional conducting the interview, and the safety of the child's living arrangement. The interviewer must initially spend time getting to know the child. This allows the interviewer to learn about the child's life circumstances and possible context of abuse and to ascertain the child's developmental level, modes of communication, the child's affective or emotional state(s), and overall functioning, including the child's competency. With young children, this part of the assessment usually involves play activity with some questions. With older children, the interviewer is l
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Thanks Everyone
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Psychoanalysis Of A Penguin
Body: Psychoanalyze Yourself; Don't read ahead, just copy and paste the following into a NEW bulletin BEFORE you read my answers. Then answer the following questions one at a time WITHOUT LOOKING AHEAD with the first thought that comes to mind. Then read what each answer means at the end.1. You are walking in the woods. You are not alone. Who's with you?the love of my life ... Harley 2. You are walking in the woods. You see an animal. What kind of animal?Why the hell am I in the woods? I'd see a deer3. What interaction takes place between you and the animal?the deer would stand there as long as i didnt move and wed watch each other 4. You walk deeper in the woods. You enter a clearing, and before you is your dream house describe it.its a victorian house  ...old but  modern and with huge windows -- beautiful and open 5. Is your dream house surrounded by a fence?Nope6. You enter the house. You walk into the dining room and see the dining table is covered with?flowers and homework stuff
Greatest Movie!
Check this out...If u like Shaun of the Dead and The Lost Boys this is the movie for u!
My mom and I used to go out to lunch every Friday. I would drive down to her work, wait in the parking lot, and revel in the sight of my mom walking out of that building dressed all spiffy, her heels clicking across the parking lot. Sometimes I would drive, or sometimes I would unlock her car with my spare key and wait in the passenger seat.Sometimes she would pay, sometimes I would pay, but no matter what, it was always a good time. I would fill her in on my latest drama, she would give me advice, or get on me about texting too much...which I actually miss.Sometimes we would go to the mall to look around, and end up eating Auntie Anne's pretzels instead of an actual lunch. Then we'd eat them in the car and she'd get on me when I'd get salt all over the seat.We'd get back to her work, I'd say goodbye, drive home...And I'd already be on the phone with her, ready for another conversation. Sometimes we'd talk for quite awhile, even though we had just seen each other.My mom and I used to c
Help Me Please!
I need some major help people! I just found out I need $1000 or I am going to jail for back child support can anyone help me raise this money? Any donations would be great ty!
Im Back With Another Name
im back with another name if u want to add me u can add me if u want and i would like to make NEW FRIENDS  on here so add me and fan me i dont care
Property Part1
She is over my knee, naked save her collar. I am still in my work clothes, shoes, tie and all. I haven't had time to shower yet. My pattern was disrupted when I came home and found my sub breaking the rules.M, my pet, gets off work thirty minutes before I do. We have established that she has plenty of time to come home, shower, start dinner, and be waiting for me, naked but for her collar, on her knees inside the front door. Sometimes I need to be sucked off when I first walk in the door, other times I just pat her on the head and send her into the kitchen. Once in a while I'll have her bathe me, or strip me and give me a tongue bath (only in those instances when I'm feeling particularly demanding and evil).But when I came home she was on the phone with her friend. When I entered she looked at me, her eyes wide. She was sitting on the counter, legs crossed at the ankle. Her legs were smooth and pale white, very nice. Her body was supple and freshly scrubbed her pubic area cleanly shave
Some times life make you forget how great something was.  That happened to me with work and the other things I forgotten how great a band STP (Stone Temple Pilots for those who do not know).  I hope to see them now that the lead singer is back after a stint with Velvet Revolver.
 Addiction I see you here,Each day to day,You rise above us all,You rise so powerfully.I remember it all,Your side eyed glances,Your crooked smile,Your bright eyes.All of that,Comes back to me,All returns,To the source.Too bad,You see,You will never be,Like me.But it's alright,I will still fight,You're my cigarette on a cold morning,You're my addiction.
Poem 2
      Come and take my hand and never let go Lets both hold on until time stops And let our love forever shine, let it show Until the stars, clouds and sky drops   You and only you could tame my soul With the first smile that you gave me That first glance made me whole It was all I need to set my pride free   That moment my heart was yours forever And it has always been beating for you It will be until the very ends of forever and ever With the flame you started, burning so true   My life’s never been the same without you And I’ve lived with your love always inside me It gave me strength and pulled me through Your love opened my eyes it made me see     Without you, there is no me………   Sitting here alone, looking at your photos Because it’s all I have of you right now I can feel my love inside as it still grows And I wish that I could make you feel it somehow   My
Lmao And Shes Still A Hussy She Says
now i lay me down to sleep i pray the lord my shape to keep please no wrinkles please no bags and please lift my butt before it sags please no age spots please no gray and as for my belly please take it away please keep me healthy please keep me young and thank you lord for all you have done       five tips for women 1. its important that a man helps you around the house and has a JOB.  2. its important that a man makes you laugh 3. its important to find a man you can count on and who wont lie to you 4. its important that a man loves you and spoils you 5. its important that these 4 men dont meet each other loll one saggy boob said to the other saggy boob; "if we dont get some support soon - people will think we are nuts" omg she is too cute at 80 years old i swear
Branded A Downrater Lol.
Its so damn funny that I make a mumm asking how others rate and then telling them how i Rate and then i was told that I'm trying to make people believe the way i do.lmao.far from the people actaully try to read mumms wrong to pick a fight? there life really that damn boring rotflmao.Seams to me they come on here to make friends then get bored with it very quick & think fighting is the best thing to do to keep them entertained.they seem to not be happy in their everyday they try & bring others down.boy, are they barking up the wrong tree with me lol.I'm to sexy & happy with myself to be affected by strangers.So Now I'm branded a down Rater for telling others in my Mumm that i use the other 9 numbers as well.well pop my ass & call me sally lol.I'm guilty as charged.theres some weak ass people on this site that lets something as little as a rate control their emotions.if you can't take the BAD with the GOOD then you really don't belong on the net at all.Something to
A Slut Not A Whore~
a slut not a whore sensualsultrysexualslutswe serve and we dancechores galorewe tease and delightsluts not whoresfur bunnies sicken usthe whores a borea slut for a fewa whore for allsly winkssubtle swaysbouncing breastscreamy thighsslave oils leakng and poolinga small stream delightfula great river distastefulfew Masters dip their wicksa nice treat for someall Masters samplingthe goods diluted and polluteddo you know what you area slut or a whore?if not maybe you should think about it more?! ~W.H.  2009~
A String Of Pearls~
You are naked, except for a string of pearlsWas ever such whiteness set against white –Like the lace of your discarded brassiere,Like cherry blossom tinged with nipple-pink,Like snow in springtime, snow on clouds?I love the pearl beyond all other precious jewels.I would throw any other stone away; but thisSpeaks of our secret femininity – just think –A priceless thing kept hidden, deeply sacrosanct,In folds of yielding flesh, only lover-tried!Oh I too would wear pearls against my neck,Their milky imperfection only serves to showThis shameless bite-mark, lately suffered!Let me walk the streets with this – let all seeAnd call me whore! I take that joyfully!Whore I am, and whore I always was, my love.Slave to any girl who bought me with a kiss.See these hips? How many others rocked them!These shoulders have the scars of bites, scratches,And hands galore have tanned my nether cheeks!You think me Little Miss Vanilla-two-scoops?Well you’re wrong! Treat me like a
Deb, One Of The Best! A Good Friend?
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This Weekend
This weekend has been filled with trials and tribulations.  Oscar and I went and got my 6 year old niece on Friday and we went out to eat with Steph, Lusty, Spike, Madussa, and Lusty's lil one at Lone Star.  The company was great, but the service and food were lacking terribly.  After dinner we were all exhausted so off to home we went to get tucked into bed.  (Along the way Friday some things were said and feelings were hurt...) Saturday it was up at 7 a.m. and down to Battle Creek's Largest Breakfast Table by 8 a.m.  The kids were able to eat breakfast, get pictures taken with various team mascots as well as Tony the Tiger, the Keebler Elf, The Taco Bell Taco, Smack, etc.  The kids were also able to see a possum from the zoo, The Army, get spray on tattoos, face fainting, and much much more.  It was exhausting for this old woman walking up and down those streets.  LOL!  Saturday afternoon it was getting my nails done along with my 6 year old niece and shopping, shopping, shopping t
How's Norma?
HOW IS NORMA?--A sweet grandmother telephones St. Joseph 's Hospital. She timidly asked,"Is it possible to speak to someone who can tell me how a patient is doing?"The operator said, "I'll be glad to help, dear. What's the name and roomnumber of the patient?"The grandmother in her weak, tremulous voice said, " Norma Findlay, Room302."The operator replied, "Let me put you on hold while I check with the nurse'sstation for that room."After a few minutes, the operator returned to the phone and said, "I havegood news. Her nurse just told me that Norma is doing well. Her bloodpressure is fine; her blood work just came back normal and her physician,Dr. Cohen, has scheduled her to be discharged tomorrow."The grandmother said, "Thank you. That's wonderful. I was so worried. Godbless you for the good news."The operator replied, "You're more thanwelcome. Is Norma your daughter?"The grandmother said, "No, I'm Norma Findlay in Room 302. No one tells meshit."
Away   If I died today will all my pain go away ? Will the thoughts fade away ?Then the pain can rot away When the day my life is wasted away. If awake another day Will my pain stay in play My addiction will be great When I awake to face my fate
The New Bride
The New Bride   Watched you for years don’t you remember me we met at johns wedding I stood next to you as your sister went down the aisle I smell your sweet your hair.I brushed up on you when we tossed the rice. Ohh don’t cry honey your with me now all tied up and looking so pretty. Mmmm you look good with this lip stick on. I cant wait until you turn. Do your remember when your dog ran way I am sorry for that he got in my way.hes in the freezer wanna see. I watched you sleep at night after that I touched your hair as you smiled in your sleep I kissed your neck as you drem about me I knew you did didn’t you. Ohh l ove you so much honey…… wake up !!!!!!!!!!Don’t go right now we need to have our honey moon …….mmmm after I feel u go cold as I make us complete I will put you with your dog you will like that right……right!!!!!!!!!! It will be all over in time we are going to be one at last.I will keep you this way after you
Biker Rally In Leesburg
The Leesburg Rally was held on April 23 - April 26, 2009 in Leesburg, Florida. Next to Daytona Spring Bike Week this is the one of those that really kick of the Spring biking season for our northern biker brothers and sisters. This town really puts out the red carpet and all the bars and clubs look foreward to us bikers coming down and spending our hard earned money at their events. Some of the happening places are: Frank's Place, Sports Time Bar & Grill, Kickstands Saloon, Zellwood Pub & Cafe, Shea's, Jalopy Joe's, The Frosy Mug, Big Dog Saloon, Oasis Saloon, Pirates Pub, The Hideaway and many others. Check out the Leesburg Bike Fest at: See you there next year. Future dates: 2010-April 23,24,252011-April 15,16,172012-April 27,28,292013-April 26,27,28 2014-April 25,26,272015-April 24,25,26
Starke Biker Festival
The festival this year was held on June 5 - 6, 2009 and had a smaller than usual biker crowd, but it was due to the horendous weather we have been getting in Florida for the past month. It rain a good portion of the fest, but everyone who attended took it in stride and still had a good time. Good food, drinks and bikers still keep up and even had a good bike show contest. I hope next year the rain will hold off and the festival will be bigger than ever. Check them out at:  
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I Had To.........
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I Wish You'd Stay-brad Paisley
I talked to my sister in Memphis and I told her you were movin 'to townHere's her number, she said she'd be glad to show you aroundWell, I left a map on your front seat just in case you lose your wayBut don't worry, once you reach Sallasaw, it's all interstateI know you need to goBut before you do I want you to knowThat I wish you the best and I wish you nothing lessThan every thing you've ever dreamed ofAnd I hope that you find love along the wayBut most of all, I wish you'd stayI figure right about sundown, you'll be in West TennesseeAnd by then maybe I'll understand why you had to leaveWell, I know that you've done some changin 'I know there's no changin 'your mindYes, I know we've been through this a thousand timesAnd I'm sorry for still holdin 'onI'll try to let go and I'll try to be strongAnd I wish you the best and I wish you nothing lessThan every thing you've ever dreamed ofAnd I hope that you find love along the wayBut most of all, I wish you'd stayYes, everything you've ever
On Ocean And Man
I took some time to walk on the beach at Cape Disappointment on the coast of Washington State a few days ago. I watched the waves and the sky. I admired the picturesque lighthouse on a hill above the water. I drank in the beauty and serenity that surrounded me.   As time passed I began watching the waves that broke out in the ocean, away from the shore. They were impressive out there, so powerful and awe-inspiring. I decided to follow one large breaker as it made its way to the shore. As it came closer to the barely perceptible incline of the beach, it began to flatten. It calmed and slowed, and finally washed up into the embrace of the warm sand of the shore, gently covering my toes with incredible softness. It was hard to believe that this ripple was the same raging wall of water that had begun many yards away.   The picture was perfect. Pristine.   My mind began to slip into thought, and I wondered. Was this the way God had intended man to be? Majestic, impressive beyond word
Lounges Treating People Unfairly
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Fuck Love
The Cane Is Coming
Something New And Exicting Is Coming Very Very Soon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
My Another World" Lol
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We all need it, we all want, and we all deserve it in one way or another. I have been asking myself this question though, is it an illusion?   The first is the unconditional love, the love we feel for our children (if u are a good parent and realize that children are a gift) No matter what they do good or bad, we will always love them. I would hope that my children would take responsibility of any bad thing they do against another and to also understand, no matter what they do, I would always support them.  The next is parental love, although our parents can be judgemental at times in the decisions we make, they always have the best in mind for us in thier minds. There r times we have to learn just to respect and accept them for who they r and what they try to offer us.  Than we have the love we get from our brothers, sisters, and friends. I put them in the same place, because a good friend could be just that, as a brother or a sister. My best friend is more of a brother to me than my
Girls Girls
An Outline Of Love
An Outline of Love   First the experience about to unfold And then enrichment at being so bold The joust of two characters feeling their way Announce the beginning of this erotic play   He said, she said banter at best Eclipsing the point above all the rest Others intrude upon the dulling couple Inciting resentment counting double   Ah, but emotions erupt and then do flare Bringing to surface the truth that they care Animal instincts tug and push Convey the lust and heated blush   A mistake in statements makes it hard
To My Friends
To all of mine and Heart Of Golds friends if you would please take a moment of silence and pay your respects to Heart.She passed away during the early morning hours on Fathers Day (6-21-09) in her sleep.We were supposed to have been fu married on 6-28-09.Thank you all that read this.
Changing The Game
I've been away from fu for a while but I've been back on recently more often and in my time back I've noticed that it's time to change the game with how I treat others on here. The one thing that I've noticed is the lack of gratitude on here has dropped to epic propportions and in saying that I DO realize that this is fubar and unless You're a dude that can make cool graphic pics for people on here or CONSTANTLY buy people're a female with big tits and flirty personality for the MOST part you will get little to NO attention on here at all. That seems to be the case almost throughout fubar save the people that are in my family list THOSE people are really cool people who do return love whether I was here or not,I'm tired of buying people drinks,tored of reaching out to people that are having bad days buying them gifts and leaving words of encouragment,rating their profiles and fanning them and not even getting as much as a fucking THANK YOU in return,so now its time to
The person who tries to live alone will not succeed as a human being. His heart withers if it does not answer another heart. His mind shrinks away if he hears only the echoes of his own thoughts and finds no other inspiration. ~ Pearl S. Buck Looking back, I have this to regret, that too often when I loved, I did not say so.~ David Grayson There is more hunger for love and appreciation in this world than for bread. ~ Mother Teresa You come to love not by finding the perfect person, but by seeing an imperfect person perfectly. ~ Sam Keen What the heart has once owned and had, it shall never lose.~ Henry Ward Beecher I have loved to the point of madness,That which is called madness, That which to me, Is the only sensible way to love.F. Sagan It is best to love wisely, no doubt; but to love foolishly is better than not to be able to love at all. ~William Thackeray You can't buy love, but you can pay heavily for it.~Henny Youngman We can only learn to love by loving. ~I
Older Stuff
A little boy inside screaming to be free. Not knowing what he's become. Not knowing of the man he's already grown to be. Trapped inside, death his only way out. Yet he stays inside trying to shout. It's a great pain that refuses to let go. A great burden thats begining to show. His soul weakens tearing him down. In this pain he begins to drown.
Twelve Visions Party Of New York State
Over the course of the past 6 months I was convienced this guy was perfect for my older sister to date hell he had me so blind sighted that i thought he was the best guy she had ever been with and then the lies started.. first with stealing meds from my elderly grandfather then with faluse charges and fake e-mail account with girls he said were his true friends through anything... then i found out he is one sick individual becuase my grandmother asked him to leave her home and when we were cleaning the room up we found blankets covered in blood.. tensor bandages tied to the head board for bondage.. used condoms with-in my young child's reach... and he was rude verbally abusive and just down right lower then scum.. on his way out he almost knocked my daughter out cold by hitting a door and clipping her with his knee so she fell and hit her head against the heavy door... not to mention my older sister who is developmentally challenged who feel for this sick prick is now to my understandi
The Lesson Of Fu
Once upon a time, I was a fu-tycoon.  Almost oracle level and owned more than a dozen people.  Had millions in the fu-bank to give away.  Blinged everyone in sight, could level someone twice in one day, and often did.  I know i moved a couple of people over a dozen levels in one or two turns.  i was spending almost $1000 a month "loving" my friends.  I know there were some who became friends through the process and never expected anything from me.  But there were others that I have learned, who are just here for the game.  How do I know this? Well, this time around, I came to fu land with one thing in mind......not spending a dime on anything or anyone.  I came back for my friends.  Nothing more.  I just wanted to see who my friends were.  So as I did, I began to see my old acquaintances online and reconnect with them.  And as I did, I learned that I'm not quite as popular as before, LOL.  As a matter of fact, I rarely have anyone even talk to me now.  So, I am going to be content w
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Pimpin it!
for every day there is no answers but yet if you look deep down there is an answers for everything i know being so left alone bet standing so tall holding your head up up so high putting on that fake mask to show every one that your ok on the out side but your dying on the inside you so despretaly reaching out but no one to reach out to so i die each day slowly each breath each heart beat im not sure what to do in life i know i need to be strong i have some strength left but not sure how much loner its going to last im trying so hard my little ones i never new how hard it would be but each day i will live each dying breath i will struggle on there are 2 things in my life that are keeping me alive an they are my girls i wish i could say more to that but my hopes and dreams were broken maybe someday it can be mended someday
The Big Party! Night 3
I will be out enjoying the big party!  Back on 7/6.  Those of you in Skee- town - I might see ya there.  But if I don't have a blast!       Night 1- Burn Halo -- Pop Evil -- Saving Abel................................ I got an Autographed CD, and drum stick!   Night 2- Loverboy -- Joan Jett & the Blackhearts                              hung out with a great friend!   Night 3-  Vaughn Anthony -- John Legend              It was so HOT as in SEXY  -- I thought people were goin' to get it ON!!!!!!   Me is tipsy!      
   Love is everywhere,yet elusive at the same time it is  basic,yet complicated. For those who find it,in its purest form,cherist it,care for it. For those who continue to look for it,strive to stay perceptive.and never settle for anything less than the real thing!!!
the witness is funny yes your honor it is why/ well because who said the witness was real that he knows waht he is saying that he speaks the truth at all huh who said oh because hes happy he smiles he thinks its cool t obe him or cool t obe happy oh ye of lil fith of unknown thought and you say you see the truth i object you see nothing but waht you want t osee you are obvioulsy blind blind blind to the hurt and pai nand sadness of n0!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! but why its just a word i witness you t osee the rights of passage the rights of you as you and he as he and she as she and thme as the mad n...hmmm shall i go on or do you understand so i leave the witness your honor no further questions for him i decline i observe i sit and reserve the witness may rest.
Random Musings Of A Disturbed Mind...
   here i sit on this muggy blasphemous sunday morning, the air is so thick you can gargle it. the communist weatherman is calling for thunderstorms. i haven`t mowed my lawn in a week and a half and it`s dense enough to be considered a protected wildlife preservation area... SO WHERE`S MY TAX EXEMPTION?! my coffe has grown cold and vulgar to my sences but it`s too early to drink. i never could abide by consuming alcohol this early in the day, not to mention the fact that my wife will be home from church soon. myself with beer on my breath and my wife have never been a good combination. much like mixing buttermilk with southern comfort and pretending that it`s palletable, hmmmHA!    in a totally wretched state my house is! the detritis of the weekend littering every corner. FOR THE LOVE OF CHRIST! THERE IS A CAT TIED TO THE CEILING FAN BY IT`S TALE!!! THIS IS NOT NORMAL! NOT EVEN BY MY ECCENTRIC STANDARDS! i`m begining to rethink my "no a.m. drinking" rule... i need a good binge to bri
The Loss
The Loss   What sorrow sweet victory it is When I sit here in front of the mirror And see not the person I want to be But the person I least want   I have learned a difficult lesson Time and time again I refused To acknowledge my own Duplicity to myself   Not the ones that where in The line of fire it seems But Me, I hurt the most Condemning myself to loss   These so called friends Are they here for me now? The real ones are
Hope Ya Had A Nice Weekend
hi everyone especially all my friends and fansid like to take this minute to dedicate to ya my love and thanks for putting up with me this past week i accept now in my heart my son carl dennis banghart issitting at the great table in heaven im shcked now though he was taken so early in lifeagain if ya havent done it yet or ya have friends  donate to either cause in his memory thanks again  love benjamin franklin banghart sr
What U Think?
its 6:30 am sitting on the porch smoking a ciarett. sipping on some coffee watching the sun rise. thinking about my husband.woundering were we will be in the future. the realness of the sun beating down on me.makes me realize how life is so short. how much i think about the kids wanting to give them the best of this world. knowing at any given second it could be gone in a blink of a eye. i think of all the little stupid things that schouldnt be important. and focus on the bigger and outstanding thoughts that race in my head. to make things better.i wake up to a beautiful and given world that god created so that i can reflect all that he has offer to me. i am so lucky to be a stronge women. for i am the one who needs to give it all. the best that i can do to make my family and i have the best time of our lives!!
How To Make A Voodoo Doll
How To Make A Voodoo Doll New Orleans Voodoo Doll Basic Materials: 2 sticks, Spanish moss, feathers, scrap material ( Cloth ) in power colors, brown natural twine , imagination and intent. yellow - success white - positive red - power purple - spirituality green - money blue - love black - repelling negative energy       Make your doll in one of the 7 Power Colors. You pick the color for what you need. You make a cross with the two sticks. Apple Wood (natural not processed ) works best as this is believed by many to be the tree of life. Once you have made the cross fasten it together and tie it tight with twine. Now take the spanish moss and build the doll a body. Tie the moss to the sticks with your twine. Now you can get as elabrate as you want to. Make your doll clothes in the power color you need. You can make your doll a head out of cloth and moss or buy you one already made. Its really best to make it yourself for it to have the most power. If you have fingernail clip
He Is So Sweet To Me :)
Scott is so sweet to me, I can't believe it. He treats me really good and treats me with respect. I couldn't ask for a better boyfriend. Scott is everything I have ever looked for, he is the apple of my eye, and he is someone I could see spending the rest of my life with.
R.i.p Mawmaw
i miss seein you in that chair...sometimes i feel you near...i loved your beautiful hair....i still wish you were here....why did you have to go...thats one thing we will never know...we all loved you...and we all still do...we know your in a better place...with gods love and will always be in my matter how long we are apart...i still hear your voice...i still see your smile...and that makes living life worth while...
Hard Knowing Your Gone
its hard knowing that your gone and i cant just call you and hear your voice. its hard knowing that you wont ever be up at the mall to talk to its hard knowing that i cant just talk to you and hear your advice its hard knowing that your really truely gone its hard knowing that im alive and your gone why does god take all the good people why did he have to take you i know its selfish but i wish you hadnt died i wish it was someone else in the car i know its wrong but i wish someone else had gone and not you why does god have to take all the good people we have left. why cant he take the bad people who hurt others why cant he take the people who cause animals harm. why did he have to take you its just hard knowing your gone. i miss you so much. sorry i never called you back sorry that i took time for granted. i just never imagined you would be gone and that there wouldnt be time to call you back. i miss you.
July 1st 2009
ok- daughters birthday is today, she is one year old now.  She made it this long woohoo for both her and me :).  She got a free donut today and was happy about that, flirted with the old men at the donut shop and talked to the old ladies there.  It was cute!   It seemed that she was a bit grouchy today, just for the hell of it...but I knew that she was tired, cause mama got her up instead of the other way around lol.   Things went pretty well, and then I get a phone call from my husband, saying he got   I may not be on as much as I would want to, cause I'm going to the boss to let them know...that if they need me for any shift, I'll take it.  Which means I'll have to stock up on some 5 hour energy shots, cause I don't think I'll make it through a midnight shift. I'm not quite sure on how to take everything right now, it's still sinking in...I bet I'll know by the time the end of the month comes up...with being over my head with bills... So I guess tha
Brain Surgery
In the hospital the relatives gathered in the waiting room,where their family member lay gravely ill. Finally, the doctorcamein looking tired and somber. "I'm afraid I'm the bearer of bad news,"he said as he surveyed the worried faces. "The only hope left for your loved one at this time is a brain transplant. It's an experimental procedure,semi-risky and you will have to pay for the brain yourselves." The family members sat silent as they absorbed the news. After a great length of time, someone asked, "Well, how muchdoes a brain cost?" The doctor quickly responded, "$5,000 for a male brain, and $200 for a female brain." The moment turned awkward. Men in theroom tried not to smile, avoiding eye contact with the women, but some actually smirked. A man, unable to control his curiosity, blurted out the questioneveryone wanted to ask, "Why is the male brain so much more?" The doctor smiled at the childish innocence and to the entire group said, "It's just standard pricing procedure. We have
Fixing The Mistakes
Mistakes are made by all of us. Some are worse than others. We look back on the things that we have done and think , how could we have been so blind. We think about the people that had tryed to warn us time and time again. At that moment you thought you knew what you were doing was right. It seems like the more they push you one way the more you pull the other. One day you wake up and your life is turned upside down and twisted all to hell. You realize that because of your poor choices people in your life are suffering. You just pray to God to forgive you for all the wrong you have done and to be with all the people your poorchoices has affected and caused pain too. Have faith in God and he will be beside you while you are fixing the mistakes.   By: Andrea   6-29-09
Darkness Untold
Darkness chases me through barracaded nightmares,skin running cold from leering stares.Heart faultering from screaming voices,cursing myself for horrible choices.Running forever through a mind untamed,I don't want this no more, I didn't like this game.Being chased from an invisable force, in the beginning, this was never my course.A voice that was whispered is now loud enough to hear,all of the sudden, I'm no longer in fear.Turn left it tells me, I did and I knew this voice wouldn't flee.A light appeared that seemed devine,warm against my skin, I was sure this was a sign.The voice was in front of me, hand on my cheek.You're safe now, please speak. So I did what she said, in the comfort of her arms, I was finally safe, comfortable in her arms.The nightmare was now a dream.Sewed up even at the seems. Promise me my love. You were my angel, sent from above.I never want to wake, unless you're the one to wake me.You saved me from my own darkness.You saved me from myself.I no longer lay awake
Am I Ready?
Have you ever been stuck between a proverbial rock and a hard place?  That's how I'm feeling right now.  I have so many things in front of me and I'm not sure if I'm ready to accept the responsibilities and deal with the changes. How do you prepare yourself for such a life altering change?  I want to take the next step and make these changes, I just don't know if I can handle it.  It will not only change my professional life, but it will also change my personal life as well.  This will dump a whole new level of responsibility on me. I know that it will be a good change for me, I just don't know how to prepare myself, or if preparation is even possible.  I usually just jump into everything head first and worry about everything else later, but I'm a little worried that I might be taking on too much, and that I might not be able to handle it.  I've always been very independent, but this change makes me re-think my stability.  Maybe I am just secound guessing myself and I need to just sh
Ways To Keep Relationships Working....
Wayz to keep relationship working… 1. Luv each other 2. Don’t lie 3. Keep communication open 4. Stay sweet 5. When u got hurt, juz 4giv and 4get 6. Never talk about break-ups 7. Never say it’s ok, even if its not 8. 4get about pride 9. F u say sori, mean it 10.Don’t compare ur past 2 ur present 11.Don’t talk about ur s2pid ex’s 12.Give and take process 13.B aware of her/his feelings 14.When u had fyt, don’t let d day pass w/o being fine 15.Don’t be perfect 1, be d right 1
Just for one chance to say hiJust for one chance to say byeJust to see you smileJust for you i would walk the mileJust to taste your kissJust to know what i would missThese are things i want you to seeThe better part of me
A Plea
What is love, As I see to define it, A tingling inside, A warm fuzzy feeling, The heart grows bigger, And nothing really matters, But I have known true love, I have played in her eyes, To have felt her warm and loving embrace, Her soft gentle kiss, There was no mistake, Yet all that has left me, It has been flushed down the drain, No more the air of a mystical place, No more caring hugs it has all turned cold, The true love I felt is in paradise above, All of my joy gone no heart's desires, No kindling there of passionate fires, What did I do to deserve this life, If nothing gets better, I shall say goodbye to life.
Life Is What We Make Of It
Life if what we make of itWhether it is what we want or notGood choices, bad choicesIt's all what we make of it Open your eyes and your heartListen to the tone and rythm of lifeSlowly the turns will comeWith a light breath of lifeMay not come with a flash of lightningWith smart and wise choicesWith open eyes and a bright outlookLife may become what we wantAnd so life is what we make of it. ~Jes
Love My Sweetie
i am so in love with my sweetie she means everything to me
Ha Ha Another Survey
RULE 1: You opened this; you GOTTA take itRULE 2: You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING unless someone messages you and asks!LAST PERSON YOU....[1] Who was the last person you texted?my best friend[2] You were in the car with? Taco [3] Went to the mall with?Taco [4] Person you talked on the phone with?Mandy[5] You messaged/​commented on Fubar?PieDaddyT/F Only answer with True or FalseQ:Kissed some one on your top friends?trueQ: Been searched By Cops?falseQ: Been suspended from school?falseQ: Sat on a roof top?TrueQ: Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on?TrueQ: Broken a bone?FalseQ: Have shaved your head?True/ just the under side of the back of my headQ: Played a prank on someone?TrueQ: Had/have a gym membership?falseQ: Shot a gun?TrueQ: Donated Blood?falseWOULD YOU RATHER:[1] Eat or drink?eat[2] Be serious or be funny?funny[3] Go to the beach or mountains?beach[4] Die in a fire or die getting shot?ShotANSWER TRUTHFULLY:[1] Sun or moon?Moon[2] Winter or fall?Fall
Kindness In the quest to create a gentler, more loving world, kindness is the easiest tool we can use. Though it is easy to overlook opportunities to be kind, our lives are replete with situations in which we can be helpful, considerate, thoughtful, and friendly to loved ones and associates, as well as strangers. The touching, selfless acts of kindness that have the most profoundly uplifting effects are often the simplest: a word of praise, a gentle touch, a helping hand, a gesture of courtesy, or a smile. Such small kindnesses represent an unconditional, unrestricted form of love that we are free to give or withhold at will. When you give the gift of kindness, whether in the form of assistance, concern, or friendliness, your actions create a beacon of happiness and hope that warms people's hearts. The components of kindness are compassion, respect, and generosity. Put simply, kindness is the conscious act of engaging others in a positive way without asking whether those
Snow Angel & Snow Boarder ;p
This year, I’ve decided this island girl is tired of waiting for her Canuk friends to grow a pair and come out in the snow and play with me, so I’m heading to the hills for some R&R alone.  Throughout the day, I keep noticing a very tall, broad stranger.  A snowboarder... never tried that, but damn I’d like to try him! All I can see is his lips, and a teasing smile every once in a while, but I’ve been waiting for him to take off the goggles so I can see his eyes... then, I’ll know.  At the end of the night... I decide it’s time for a little soak and a little steam...  I’m lucky, I stayed on the slopes just a little too long and there are only a handful of people in the hot tub. I notice he’s one of them. I’ve asked around, his name is Patrick.  I have a few choices... one tub has 2 couples, the second has two pretty hot young men, but the third one...hmmmm... Patrick.  I smile.  No brainer.  I head over to the hot tub with the hott
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Notice M E
Notice Me... Here I stand Waiting patiently for you to come hold my hand Trying to make you understand No need to make a demand For I am here...your wish is my command Notice Me... My heart aching from all this pain Yet my Love for you will sustain With time I know our Love can attain With our trust and strength we can obtain I promise to keep our house, our children well maintain No matter what happens in our lives...I will do my best to have our family retain Just believe in me, in us...I have nothing to lose but gain.
My Daily Grind
Since I have retarted doctors who cannot seem to diagnose why I have pain 24/7. I have to pick and chose my battles everyday like sitting here now I will pay for it tomorrow but I try to get online as much as I can.
Metaphore.. ((black Diamond))
…it’s seen rear by the naked eye.. yet, its sheer beauty holds no disguise.. workers dig for its hidden values without knowledge of what they seek.. wealth.., greed.., riches.., breed deceit.. dismantled from self knowledge they steady their dig.. this diamond holds aged beauties at eyes view, its true.. an old age seasoned, discovered for all.. meaning me and you.. dark not clear as a windowpane but..,  sparkles reflecting light from its darkness.. what revelation could deny.. many have died for seeking, without return.. less their greed.. I am what those workers seek, I am of thee creations truth which is lead by the words of natures creation.. sought vengefully, plotted upon from rage full currencies.. the rays shine endlessly, black diamonds focal stands.. threw out hymns of enemies hands… 
There After
"right Here In My Arms"
She is smiling like heaven is down on earth Sun is shining so bright on her And all her wishes have finally come true And her heart is weeping. This happiness is killing her. She'll be right here in my arms So in Love She'll be right here in these arms She can't let go [Repeat 2x] So hard she's trying But her heart won't turn to stone... oh no She keeps on crying But I won't leave her alone She'll never be alone She'll be right here in my arms So in Love She'll be right here in these arms She can't let go [Repeat 2x] [bridge] And she'll be right here in my arms So in Love She'll be right here in these arms She can't let go [Repeat 3x and fade out]
Until We Meet
Until We Meet gl Until we meetMy nights will be a little colderMy days a little shorterMy heart will beat a little less rapidUntil we meetI know that my arms will be emptyMy mind hurting from the constant thought of youMinutes will seem to be hoursHours will seem to be monthsWhile months will seem like eternityUntil we meetThe stars in the sky will not affect me with its gleaming sparkles of lifeUntil I am gazing at them in your armsAnd the food that I eat will not be as fulfilling and nourishingUntil it is you that I share the my food withAnd Until we meetI will not feel wholeMy world will seem incompleteUntil that wonderful dayWhen our eyes make first contactAnd our bodies and souls collide in blissful whirlwindThe words will roll off my tongue like a sweet love song"Hello, my love, I couldn't wait to meet you."                        
Whoring Myself So I am bored on the Fu and decided I would tru something new at least once. I've whored myself in an auction. Yes this is a shameless plug for bids.    Thanks for listening ,       Patchy  
Beauregard-keyes House
Beauregard - Keyes House     The Beauregard - Keyes House Location: Can be found across from the Convent of Ursula in the French Quarter. Address: 1113 Charles Street, New Orleans, Louisiana. History: This grand mansion, built in 1812, is a strong candidate for being the most haunted house in New Orleans. A General Pierre Gustave Toutant de Beauregard lived in this house until 1869. General Beauregard was the commanding officer of the southern troops at the bloody battle at Shiloh. * At 2:00 in the morning, on foggy, moonlit nights, General Beauregard and his troops materialize out of the wood paneled walls along the hallway near the ballroom. The living are treated to the clattering footsteps of his entire phantom troops. All the soldier apparitions and the General appea
There Are Times
There are times i could scream. No one sees the pain. There are times i could cry. No one sees the tears. All they see is me. There are times i just want some one to hold me. No one is around. There are times i just sit alone. No one can see how much i hurt inside. What they do see, is me.
If Tomorrow Starts Without Me.....
If Tomorrow Starts Without Me.....If tomorrow starts without me, and I’m not there to see, If the sun should rise and find your eyes all filled with tears for me; I wish so much you wouldn’t cry the way you did today, while thinking of the many things we didn’t get to say. I know how much you care for me, and how much I care for you, and each time that you think of me I know you’ll miss me too; But when tomorrow starts without me, please try to understand, that an angel came and called my name and took me by the hand, and said my place was ready in heaven far above, and that I’d have to leave behind all those I dearly love. But as I turned to walk away, a tear fell from my eye, for all life, I’d always thought I didn’t want to die. I had so much to live for and so much yet to do. it seemed almost impossible that I was leaving you. I thought of all the love we shared and all the fun we had. If I could relive yesterday, I thought, just for a whil
Poetry   Poetry is the voice of my heart Speaking to your thoughts Causing you to feel Whether you want to or not   It tells the story of my life From beginning to end Expressing my thoughts in words That you may comprehend   There are only a few among us That can make a picture with words However, we go on speaking Until each feeling is heard   It gives you my passion The key to my heart Open the door, unlock it Experience my form of art   Melissa Lay September 1995
For The Heart's Sake
How? did the heart turn from physical to emotional? The huge muscle at the center of it all of everything. Maybe what had happened was the first heartbreak was akin to cardiac arrest. Its like the foods one ingests can cause good health or blockage. For the heart's sake eat healthy love those who love you.. 'Cause toxins poison Love strengthens.
The Dark Swallows
Gustavo Adolfo Bécquer   The dark swallows will return their nests upon your balcony, to hang. And again with their wings upon its windows, Playfully, they will call. But those who used to slow their flight your beauty and my happiness to watch, Those, that learned our names, Those... will never come back!
The Things I Come Up With In A&p Lecture...
The Progress of Obsession Mutual attractionA meeting of the mindsLeading to seductionOf thoughts intertwined Wrestling with a conscienceMarred by self-hateClouded judgment clearingLife wanted to take Hating the controlSomehow they gainedClearing now the skiesRevealing a psyche maimed Words sharpen the biteOf wielding mind's bladeGun at a knife fightA soul unjustly slain Possession become impossibleA bloody oath swornSince he cannot have herSoon everyone will mourn   As yet Untitled... Curiosity brings a certain interestA desire to familiarize the unknownWith proximity come comfortThus the seeds of attraction are sown Mutual wants convalesceThe fibers of two lives together weaveFinding in each other solaceFrom the real world comes reprieve Each has their own colorsFlaws and secrets spiralA delicate dance unfurlsDemons released so feral The gates have been openedBy the mingling of the threadsOne longs for her with hope andThe other for him tears shed Together only in dreamsIn
What Would You Do?
If you had 24 hours left to live... What would you do?   What i would do is see how much i can accomplish, push myself to the limits that can never be reached any other time in a person's life. I would love not what is of material things, but of those who are around me. It's not too often that i find love in my heart anymore, aside from the kids. I wouldn't know what to do without them. They are my world. They are my everything. Leaving them would not be an option, if i had any other choice. Another thing i would do: Not live a moment that i have left with regret. Life is too short to regret things. Mistakes happen. If one was perfect, life wouldn't be life. It would be dull and meaningless. The best times of your life are when you do stupid things. That's what i think  anyways. Don't know if anyone else agrees with that or not. But the stupid shit that i did.. I wouldn't have it any other way. I wouldn't be the person that i am today. I would enjoy going to see my haters as well,
I'm Back, Baby.
So after quite a long Hiatus, I'm back. I'm utterly wow'ed out, even though if I don't keep trucking along with Vorel then that asshole Meriph will catch up to my gear... >.>     I'm taking this moment to say that yes, I AM in a relationship. With the most wonderful man. Seriously, I... i can't find words to describe brad. he's just... perfect. In every way. and I love him. ^^ I'm happy.     Also, with the weight gain, i haven't been into taking pictures of myself. But i have a TON from disney world, and the zoo, and some other events if you'd like to see them, I'm gonna try to follow in my aunt's footsteps (she used to be a photographer).
 "Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep... wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you' re just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have YOU... The one who turns to his friends and says, thats her..."   " If you love me, let me know. If not please gently let me go."   " Some of the grater things in life  are unseen thats why you close your eyes when you kiss, cry, or dream."   " If you love something, let it go. If it comes back to you, it's yours forever. If it doen't, it wasn't ment to be."        
A Note To My Friends
Hi and good morning friend... it's in the middle of week already hope your day has be wonderful so far... .. Life is about change... Sometimes it's is a Painful Sometime it is Beautiful Most of the time it is both. .. Just open ur eyes & see that Life is Beautiful!!! .. Sometimes people come into your life and you know right away that they are meant to be there they serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson or help you figure out who you are... .. have a Awesome & Happy Hump day and a Good & lovely week!! .. .. Hugs & Kisses
They’re At It Again, Pa
Yup, that’s right. Those puritanical, right wing nutjobs are trying to take down porn YET AGAIN. You’d think they’d have learned to keep their noses out of other people’s bedrooms by now. Apparently, even with as prudish and snobish as the Bush administration’s stance on pornography was, they are DEMANDING even more from the Obama administration. WTF? FULL BLOG POST HERE
Staind "tangled Up In You"
 You're My WorldThe Shelter From The RainYou're The PillsThat Take Away My PainYou're The LightThat Helps Me Find My WayYou're The WordsWhen I Have Nothing To SayAnd In This WorldWhere Nothing Else Is TrueHere I AmStill Tangled Up In YouI'm Still Tangled Up In YouStill Tangled Up In YouYou're The FireThat Warms Me When I'm ColdYou're The HandI Have To Hold As I Grow OldYou're The ShoreWhen I Am Lost At SeaYou're The Only ThingThat I Like About MeAnd In This WorldWhere Nothing Else Is TrueHere I AmStill Tangled Up In YouI'm Still Tangled Up In YouHow Long Has It BeenSince This Storyline BeganAnd I Hope It Never EndsAnd Goes Like This ForeverIn This WorldWhere Nothing Else Is TrueHere I AmStill Tangled Up In YouTangled Up In YouI'm Still Tangled Up In YouStill Tangled Up In You
Wash & Wear Hair: 4 Cuts Even A Hair Klutz Can Handle
With the right cut and a few key products, you'll get a good chunk of your life back—and look genuinely gorgeous.Curly summer hair; Photos: Fernando Milani; From O, The Oprah Magazine, July 2009Your Good Fortune: Bold, vivacious ringlets come naturally to you. While some of us struggle to inject our hairstyle with a bit of an edge, you make rebellious cool look easy.Your Challenge: Like teenagers and kudzu, curls can be willful and take on a life of their own if you don't set some boundaries.Your Ideal Cut: A style that dusts the shoulders lets curly hair strike the perfect balance between wild and soft, explains hairstylist Sebastian Scolarici of New York City's Serge Normant at John Frieda salon, who masterminded the cuts on these pages. (If you want to move more toward the wild side, go shorter.) Layers should be very long—no shorter than six inches—except for a few in front to frame the face. Sebastian cut our model's hair dry so he could see how each snip affecte
Without You
Being without the one that you love is a pain worse than death. It is a slow aching need that develops into a diseased poison coursing through your veins.Your arms are empty and ache to hold him, your voice shakes as your surf on the wave of tears that are sure to come as you say goodbyes. There is that awkward moment where you just look into one another's eyes and you seem frozen there; you just don't want to turn and walk away, though you know you must.A cold chill rushes over you as the love fire slowly smolders to barely a warm ember, you can still feel their simple kiss upon your lips and feel the strength of their grasp but with time it seems to pass some and so the cold sets in. The darkness of loneliness you now wear like a burial shroud and you retreat into the solitude of the world without them.You know in your heart that you must let them go if ever they are to return to you and that where your lover goes you cannot always follow; but somehow it is still not a comfort to you
Things I’ve Noticed Since I Moved To The Woods.
Choosing a roommate you like is important. Being able to stand yourself is essential. The fog wafting through the trees is as lovely as the morning sun streaming through them, in its own way. The mist collecting into clear drops of water at the end of branches is lovelier than jewels. A dog inside a house always wants to go out, and a dog outside the house always wants to come in. Quiet is a weird sound. Nice—but weird. A wood stove is a lot warmer than central heat. Pick-up trucks are NOT brand new shiny toys used just for showing off your manhood. Getting the mail requires hiking boots and a walking stick. Curb side garbage pick-up is a luxury most people take for granted. Worn out, ratty blue jeans are NOT a fashion statement that one pays $75 for. They get that way from actual work. The number of “friends” you have drops dramatically when they have to make an actual effort to see you. Waiting for nice weather to do roof repair is not an option. Nei
Feared Run
Feared RunWe all Fear!We all run! Why?Unknown reasons! Are we scared? Yes !! Of the unknown. Why do we run? Unknown Knowledge. What do we run from?The fear of the unknown
I never ment to hurt youI never ment to make you cry.I would rather have to diethan make you cryPlease don't hate As it seems it was to lateTo make a date.I never ment to hurt you.I couldn't if I triedIts not something I dothe pain was just too muchI never ment to hurt you no I'm not that kind
Taco's Theory's Ii
To make the consumers feel better about purchasing a used car there is CarFax. To this idea I ponder--- Is there a girlfriendfax?*   *Twiggy not included in this theory!*
Taco's Theory's Iii
It has alwys been said, "Never trust anyone farther than you can throw them." Where does the catapolt come into the equation?
Taco's Theory's Iv
If you lick a rubber dart, it will stick to the wall. This fact is true If you lick a pussy, will it stick to a wall?
How is trust measured? do we simply use instinct, trust someone, them blame them if we get shit on? If thats the case then its really not THEIR fault........its as much ours for giving so much trust to them in the first place. By nature there are always going to be elements of selfishness because by nature humans have a huge survival instinct, whatever it takes to survive, in general, is what we will do. The downside to being human is setting boundaries or beign ABLE to know WHEN to set boundaries. If someone hurts us, many of us immediately blame the person for doing so, HOWEVER if we had set boundaries in the first probably wouldnt have happened. There are evil people, there are selfish people, and there are people that will accept anything just to be loved or feel better. in reality? which is worse? just a thought for the day
Well since I have had a terrible case of the Mondays today, it is great to see the Yankees still playing the best baseball they have played in about a decade!  11-3 in the top of the 9th...  10 out of 11 isn't too shabby...   let's keep this tear going!!   goodnight to all and always.... GO YANKS!!
Por Tí Volaré
Cuando vivo solosueño un horizontefalto de palabras.En la sombra y entre lucestodo es negro para mi miradaSi tu no estás junto a mí . . .aquí.Túen tu mundoseparado del mio por un abismo.Oyellamameyo volaréa tu mundo lejano.Por ti volaréespera que llegarémi fin de trayecto eres túpara vivirlo los dos.Por ti volarépor cielos y mareshasta tu amor.Abriendo los ojos por fincontigo viviré.Cuando estás lejanasueño un horizontefalto de palabras.Y yo sé que simpre estás ahí, ahí, una luna hecha para mí,siempre iluminada para mí,por mí, por mí, por mí . . .Por ti volaréespera que llegarémi fin de trayecto eres túcontigo yo viviré.Por ti volarépor cielos y mareshasta tu amor.Abriendo los ojos por fincontigo yo viviré.Por ti volarépor cielos y mareshasta tu amor.Abriendo los ojos por fincontigo yo viviré.Por ti volaré . . . 
Whats Inside
Whats Inside   So I walk this path alone, no one I can ever trust The pain of so may trials has drawn me to the darkness I claw at my skin…the cuts ease the pressure deep inside I feel the blood drip from me, each drop is another torment gone But for each torment gone another one arrives…deeper inside   So little rage for so much pain You keep it inside yourself Baptized by fire you will see it through Fix every ones pain…but not your own Kill the sickness…kill yourself   You see the ropes, the ledges all the pretty little pills You’ve thought about them all, how they would make you feel Every little pain adds more of a push, that seductive whisper You know it would help but you always resist…always break down What’s one little life in this world…no one even sees the pain deep inside   So little rage for so much pain You keep it inside yourself Baptized by fire you will see it through Fix every ones pain&helli
This Really Gets Annoying
I hate it when i get messages asking if im single...Does everyone just look at pics?! I mean come the fuck on it says "in a relationship" so NO i'm not single. and this doesnt just happen on here, it happens on myspace, collarme, and yahoo. its so fucking annoying....please read the fucking profile before you ask if im single so your not wasting my time or yours.
give me a nickname
The Defiler
I laugh at your painI rejoice in your agonyI revel in your shameI am giddy with your lack of visionI have taken my timeWaited and waited, patientlyWatching, observingListening, and sniffing the air for weaknessThe moment has comeYou do not see meI strike like a virus, unbiddenInfecting you with the impurities of this worldYou no longer have directionEvery decision you make is wrought with idiocyYou lash out at others, thinking they are the reasonYou fool, you think you are in controlI will bleed you dryAnd revel in the stink of your decayI will make you sufferAnd mock you while you wallow in self pityI will make you hateFill you further with the sins of this worldI will make you my puppetAnd take your free will like a thiefYou will become the hatedYou will vomit volumes of illegitimate babblePeople will become disgusted with youAnd those that take pity on you, will soon see you are not worthy of itYou inbred offspringYou waste of spermYou now have nothing to offerYou are nothing to beg
have any of you ever seen "alice"  its a movie that is based on alice in wounder land.   but it is very demented.   im just not watching it for the 1st time.   it seems very well very demented
The Rain Falls Down Quietly
The rain falls down quietly...Soothing and calming my restless spirit...Releasing the pent up energy....Driving away the madness...Til all that's left is silence.Trembling in anticipation...Wound up with eagerness....Desperate for any kind of release...Driven mad with depression...And the rain comes down.Lightning and thunder strike...The rain begins to pour....My blood no longer boiling....My thoughts no longer racing...Finally I am at ease.The clouds drive away my sadness...As easily as they take away the sun....Sounds from the sky bring me happiness...Soon my soul will be set free...The rain falls down quietly.
You Know You're From Pennsylvania When...
The first day of Buck season and the first day of Doe season are school holidays. You own only three spices "salt, pepper and Heinz ketchup." Driving is always better in winter because the potholes are filled with snow. Words like "hoagie," "crick," "chipped ham," and "pop" actually mean something to you. You can use the phrase "fire hall wedding reception" and not even bat an eye. You constantly refer to Pennsylvania as "PA" (pronounced Pee-ay). How many other states do that? You know that Blue Ball, Intercourse, Climax, Bird-in-Hand, Beaver, Moon, Virginville, Paradise, Mars, and Slippery Rock are PA towns. Your idea of a traffic jam is ten cars waiting to pass a tractor on the highway. You measure distance in hours. You know several people who have hit deer more than once. You often switch from "Heat" to "A/C" in the same day. You carry jumper cables in your car and your girlfriend or wife knows how to use them. You can actually eat cold pizza (even for breakfast) and kn
You Know You Were Born In The 1980's If...
1. You ever ended your sentence with "psych" 2. You solved Rubics peeling off the stickers 3. You watched the Pound Puppies 4... You can sing the rap to "The Fresh Prince of Bel-Air" 5. You wore biker shorts under your skirts and felt stylish 6. You yearned to be a member of the Babysitters Club and tried to start a club of your own. 7. You owned those little Strawberry Shortcake pals scented dolls 8. You know that 'Whoa' comes from Joey on "Blossom" 9. Three words: M.C. Hammer. 10. You thought it would be great to have a friend named "Boner" 11. You can sing the entire theme song to "Duck Tales" 12. You played the chipmunks Christmas album all year long! 13. You Remember reading Kool-Aid man comics 14. You ever watched "Fraggle Rock" 15. You had plastic streamers on the handle bars of your bike 16. You remember when it was actually worth getting up early on a Saturday to watch cartoons. 17. You wore a ponytail to the side of your head 18. You saw the original Teenage Mutan
Master/slave Part Three
Put another way, “a slave has no rights” is equivalent to saying, “the slave must at all times be obedient, even if the Master’s orders oppose something the slave thinks s/he is entitled to”. Seen this way, the “rights” issue is an aspect of the larger meta-issue of obedience, which I think is easier to discuss in particulars anyway. So, to return to Lenora’s comments: "...and when you say that a slave has no right to make any decisions about their work/finances etc..." I didn't say that. A slave may in fact have a “right” (ie, the authority) to make decisions in these things, if the Owner has given the slave that latitude. "...well-...[my partner] wants me to be a full, well rounded person, not a door mat who has no rights or input to affect my life." I think I have addressed the “no rights” issue above, which leaves this concept of a slave
April Rain
Why does it always rain when I cry? The blossoms turn pink in april bringing color to the dull life of winter April showers bring May flowers they say The lighting comes down from the sky when it feels the tention in the air the Rain washes away all the sins Every Thursday the Earth knows I dont want to go The winds race to pick me up and bring me some other place Why does it rain on the month I was cursed Why dont the sins wash away with the April Rain? I look around and something is missing, but I had to do the right thing otherwise nobody will learn A crash of lighting pounds the ground shaking the earth shaking my heart Shaking my head back to where it should be I will not reenter that place Why does it always April Rain
Penis Facts
Penis Facts Average length of penis when not erect: 3.5 inches  Average length when erect: 5.2 - 6.4 inches  The Longest: 13 inches  The Smallest:  5/8 of an inch  Largest penis in the animal kingdom: 11 feet (blue whale)  Actual amount of semen per ejaculation: 1-2 teaspoons  Average number of times a man will ejaculate in his lifetime: 7,200  Average # of times he will ejaculate from masturbation: 2,000  Average total amount of lifetime ejaculate: 14 gallons  Av Sperm li
This Is Disturbing
BRIDGEVILLE, Pa. – George Sodini seethed with anger and frustration toward women. He couldn't understand why they ignored him, despite his best efforts to look nice. He hadn't had a girlfriend since 1984, hadn't slept with a woman in 19 years. "Women just don't like me. There are 30 million desirable women in the US (my estimate) and I cannot find one. Not one of them finds me attractive," the 48-year-old computer programmer lamented in a chilling diary he posted on the Internet. For months, he also wrote vaguely about using guns to carry out his "exit plan" at his health club, where lots of young women worked out. On Tuesday, Sodini put his plan into action. He went to the sprawling L.A. Fitness Club in this Pittsburgh suburb, turned out the lights on a dance-aerobics class filled with women, and opened fire with three guns, letting loose with a fusillade of at least 36 bullets. He killed three women and wounded nine others before committing suicide. "He just had a lot of
Morning 'would'? - Part Ii
This brings us to Wednesday. After having the same encounter 2 mornings in a row, I found that I couldn't stop thinking about it or what I wanted to do about it. I mean, there really isn't anything I could do about it except push myself to make a move in one direction or the other. If I was wrong about everything, I didn't want to seem pushy or freaky, but there was only one way to find out. And if I had just imagined what was going on, I would just have to start smoking in the garage from now on to save myself some MAJOR embarrassment. So I positioned myself as usual; waiting for her arrival. Just as before, seeming it hadn't happened, she slowly strolled over to make the drop. At this point, everything was the same, so I changed the order of things. First, I made sure that my normally declining and rubbery morning hard on was more firm that the other mornings. Not that difficult for me. And instead of waiting for her to get inside, I stood up and turned toward her before she started
Fubar Censors Speech
I'm deleting my account because Fubar censors speech, if you still want to get in touch with me send me a shout for my yahoo..
King Blaze
Amazing Friend that has given me real frienship And lots of things on the Fu ♬DJ☠MFKN☠KingBlaze@ fubar
Undertow   Gone under two times. I've been struck dumb by a voice that speaks from deep beneath the cold black water. It's twice as clear as heaven, and twice as loud as reason. It's deep and rich like silt on a riverbed and just as undisturbing. The current's mouth below me opens up around me. Suggests and beckons all while swallowing. It surrounds and drowns and sweeps me away. But I'm so comfortable... Too comfortable. shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up you're saturating me. So how could I let this bring me back to my knees again again again under for the third time. I've been baptized by your voice. it screams from deep beneath the endless water and it's half as high as heaven and half as clear as reason. it's cold and and black like silt on the riverbed. But I'm so comfortable. Far too comfortable. Why don't you kill me, I'm weak and numb and insignificant, and I'm back on my knees. lost in euphoria. I'm back down. I'm in the undertow. I'm helpless and
Schism I know the pieces fit cuz I watched them fall away mildewed and smoldering, fundamental differing, pure intention juxtaposed will set two lovers souls in motion disintegrating as it goes testing our communication the light that fueled our fire then has burned a hole between us so we cannot see to reach an end crippling our communication. I know the pieces fit cuz I watched them tumble down no fault, none to blame it doesn't mean I don't desire to point the finger, blame the other, watch the temple topple over. To bring the pieces back together, rediscover communication. The poetry that comes from the squaring off between, And the circling is worth it. Finding beauty in the dissonance. There was a time that the pieces fit, but I watched them fall away. Mildewed and smoldering, strangled by our coveting I've done the the math enough to know the dangers of a second guessing Doomed to crumble unless we grow, and strengthen our communication cold silence has a tendency to at
A Beautiful Lie
Lie awake in bed at night And think about your life Do you want to be different? Try to let go of the truth The battles of your youth Cuz this is just a game It's a beautiful lie It's the perfect denial Such a beautiful lie to believe in So beautiful, beautiful it makes me It's time to forget about the past To wash away what happened last Hide behind an empty face Don't ask too much, just say 'Cause this is just a game Everyone's looking at me I'm running around in circles, baby A quiet desperation's building higher I've got to remember this is just a game So beautiful, beautiful...
A Blind Eye (act 3)
Everything seemed to be going in one big circle for Jeffery. From the time he had gotten into the Force, allegations against him haunted him. The death of one child lead to a year long hell in which he was under the heat for displacing evidence. He had a feeling that his own partner had something to do with that. "You need to take a break, Jeffery." Elizabeth seemed to have some kind of sympathy in her heart. Of course she had been the one to befriend him when he got on to the force. "This case has been rough on you..It's been rough on all of us. Maybe you need to take a few days off.." "- I can't. I won't.. I don't think i will be able to." He shook his head, "I'll be fine. Just keep Douglas off my ass and i'll be able to do what i have to do." His eyes met with her's for a moment. He was tired, but that had been from the drain of the day when everything just piled on top of one another. There was a time when he found himself in peace. Once. Now his own demons were chasing him every
When World's Collide
  (written years ago, since then I continue to be amazed.) "Come here little kiddes, guess who's back. Ahh ahh ahh ahh ahh!" What a perfect song to have on while I write about my day. A conglomeration of childish sounds and grown up ideas. My little girl, a fifth grader who takes pride in her ability to inspire the fear of a good beat down in boys much bigger than she is by virtue of her fearsome energetic personality alone, went on her first "date". She likes a boy from her class and he likes her. When I asked her what she liked about him she told me that he was "clean". I took the opportunity to expound on the joys of hygiene and wonder aloud why I still had to almost make it a direct order to get her in to the tub to enjoy some hygiene herself. (Instance ONE of world's colliding). Sparkling Boy and Bouncy Daughter wanted to see the new version of Charlotte's Web. After some intense negotiations with Protective Daddy, it was agreed that this could be accomplished if I provi
My Fuhubby/rlbf
August Rains
August. I remember so much. Beginnings and endings, births and deaths, love and loss. What is it about this month that is inextricably entwined with my life? Today is the 10th, Several things happened on or near to this day over the years. 15 years ago it was the last time I saw my best friend alive. I am still grateful that she did not die without knowing how much I loved her. In 10 hours, it will be 15 years to the minute from the time that the aneurysm in her brain burst and the beloved friend I shared so much with slipped away from us. 10 years ago, I got my R.N. license, and screamed so loudly that I think I burst my mother's eardrums and startled the entire neighborhood. 6 years ago, I got the job of my dreams. I was on my way, and I knew where I was going. 4 years ago, I met and fell madly, deeply and permanently for the love of my life. Unfortunately, I wasn't the love of his life. But life is like that. No one ever promised me that it would be fair; but it does g
Backing Off.
These last couple weeks, I'm been a real ass.  So there for, I'm back off.  I'm not going to bother with things.  Not going to worry about whats happening else where. I'm not going to drive myself mad.  How far, I back off?  That depends on the other party.  For now, I'm going to allow them to live thier life, and I'm going live mine.  I feel like she's dieing in my arms all over again.  This time, I need to let it go.  I'm not going to pursue any matter.  I'm not going to worry.  I have my friends (what little there is) and I have my job.  Between the both those, I should be able to make it.To all the people I've hurt, Since I"ve said I'm sorry so many times, I'm just not going to say it anymore.For those that wish to talk to me when I'm home, I work 6am-6pm  Generally I leave here at 4am.  If you have my messengers that is one way to communicate.  Providing on several factors, I will have a new cell phone here by next week.  I will provide those who wish to know the number the number
Mom's Bday
I hung out most of the day with my parents. We went to Target to pick up some photos that dad had when they went to the Phillpines earlier this year. He also made some photo cards for mom's birthday. She turned 58 but looks like she's in her late 30's.  One of Robbie, who is their newest pet and a memorial card of Cocoa that passed a few months go. Real sweet. Went up to the casino. I hadn't been to that casino in the longest time. They changed the buffet there. It was actually pretty nice, they had italian, chinese, seafood..etc different selections to choose from and it was really big. We didn't win any money but we all had fun still. Did some shopping and they took me home. I didn't stay home long and headed out again. Went over to see how Kari and the others were doing and hung out for a while. Did some cleaning and omg...the downstairs bathroom was just soooo fucking nasty. I swear he needs to fucking aim when he pisses. He never cleans the bathroom or I get the nasty
watch your thoughts, for they become words. watch your words, for they become actions. watch your actions, for they become habits. watch your habits, for they become character. watch your character, for it becomes your destiny... also, the total effect of a person's actions and conduct during the successive phases of the person's existence, regarded as determining the person's destiny...  .
What Is Love?
hmm, where do i start this? love..ok well i guess i'll just throw things in at random. have you ever abused the word love?  sometimes when i hear someone say the word 'love' , i think of it as an overused term like 'lol'.  i mean think of it, whats the most overused word or term on the internet? its 'lol'. well anyway, that fuckin word has got my life so jacked up. out of every person i've ever dated, i can only think of one that i actually 'loved'. but i really fucked that shit up, and i really think i had the hole buried when i started dating this other person. however, i think i covered that fucking hole AND sealed that bitch when i married this other person. anyway, does anyone actually know what 'love' really is? could it possibly be putting every fucking ounce of care in your life and devote it all to just that ONE other person? possibly. could it possibly mean putting every once of care in your life and devote it to multiple people? absolutely not. that was my problem in certia
C-4 Band
If any of you guys are around Raleigh, N.C., come join us at Locked & Loaded on 70 hwy in Garner, N.C. to hear this C-4 Band. they will ROCK YOU! They will be there September 20th, 2009 from 2-6pm. Better yet go into, and check them out for yourself. They will ROCK YOU!
100 Questions Survey
Cause I'm bored... 1. Last beverage→ Diet Dr Pepper 2. Last phone call→ Nick 3. Last text message→Nick 4. Last song you listened to→Not sure 5. Last time you cried→Not sure HAVE YOU EVER: 6. Dated someone twice →I don't know? 7. Been cheated on? →Yes 8. Kissed someone & regretted it?→ Yes 9. Lost someone special?→Yes 10. Been depressed?→ Yep 11. Been drunk? → Been a very long time LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS: 12.Black 13.Red 14.Blue In this last year: (note the changed category title) 15. Made new friends → yes 16. Fallen out of love → yes 17. Laughed until you cried → I dunno 18. Met someone who changed you→ Yes 19. Found out who your true friends were→ I dunno 20. Found out someone was talking about you→ Probably? 21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list→yes 23. How many kids do you want to have→2 24. Do you have any pets →2 furry children 25. Do you want to change your name→ Eh
Took The Best Part Of Me ....left Alone
I'm still open but I guess you were hoping we'd fail So you could sail away from me And return to your open sea where I guess thats you need to be . But I know you were always free Free to be the best part of me I'd have loved you endlessly with my heart and soul eternally A love the way a love should be ain't that the way a love should be? You are free, free to give back the heart ...of me and replace all the misery Since you took the best part of me And left a hole where my heart should be Where my heart should be So you could sail away from me..
*erased (just Another Pretty Face)
I've heard this all beforeThe sky gets dark,as the rain begins to pourAnother memory of youYou fade away,your face begins to blurHow many times should I bring you upAnother blade,another cutYou think you've got to the best of meI'm just getting startedJust wait and seeYou're just another pretty faceBehind all the makeup you're a fakeI've had as much as I can takeJust watch as you become erasedAnd I can see through your disguiseWith every promise,and every lineWhat you create,you cannot hideI won't fall for another lieYou think you've got the best of meIt's a battle of wordsJust wait and seeYou're just another pretty faceBehind all the makeup you're a fakeI've had as much as I can takeJust watch as you become erased
Om Nom Nom.
I just had the best idea EVER.     Deep fried candybars, right?     Well, instead of a cake batter mix.... BAM. Brownie mix.     I made myself hungry D=
Origami For Your Penis The koki is a little paper costume or adornment that wraps the penis in preparation for him to offer his special gift to his lover. Kokigami is the practise of wearing a Koki to enter ‘The Play’ or practise of interactive theatrical presentation. Some men like to put their koki on themselves and surprise their lovers, but many find their partner’s involvement in this delicate stage helps overcome any initial awkwardness. This plays an important role in gift giving, where it is considered most discourteous to pass an unwrapped, unconcealed gift to another. In the past, Japanese men of the upper classes would wrap their penises in layers of cloth before going to bed with their wives and mistresses. This was because the more complex a man could make his wrapping, the longer his wife might take to unwrap that “gift”—thereby prolonging the pleasure.
Ahhh, Yes The Search Goes On
Did I Ever Tell You About These Scars?
You see when I was a child, my mother, she had this flower garden, they was her pride, she loved them even more then me. Well one day I couldn't take it anymore, so I took a knife out of the kitchen drawer, and cut them down. Well mommy didn't like that, not, one bit. She took the knife from me, and put it in my mouth like this /. Then she said, you made my flowers ugly, now we have to make you pretty, a nice pretty smile...
How Sexy Is Your Zodiac Sign
Big Beautiful Momma took the How Sexy is your Zodiac Sign? quiz and the result is Sagittarius-The Sexy one Spontaneous. Horny. Freak in Bed. High appeal. Rare to find. Great when found. Loves being in long relationships. The one. So much love to give. Not one to ...mess with. Very pretty. Very romantic. Nice to everyone They meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and sweet. Have own unique sexiness. Most caring person you will ever meet! Amazing in Bed..!!! Did I say Amazing in Bed? Not the kind of person you wanna #### with you might end up crying.
Wedding Photographers Bristol
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Help Him Level Up
Hey everyone My Hot friend Michael Wakely needs help to level up. He is a wonderful friend and has helped me out alot so in return I want to help him gain more points and level up so check his profile out and do what you can to help him for me PLEASE!!!  
Things I’ve been pondering…. Why would someone put up a picture of some beautiful woman and then you click on them and their 100 years older that the pict on their page or they are a 110 pounds heavier. Now I’m not that much into looks, just makes me sad that someone thinks they have t use a shinier lure in order to attract people, or that they do such just to attract people at all. Be happy in who you are. People with 5,123 friends… yea they are hot, but do they actually converse with the 5,122 other friends on a regular basis? Or are they accumulated just to be worshiped?  I know with this attitude I’ll never level, but I hardly have time to say hello to the small amount of friends I have amassed so far! Fu-Marriage- Really?  I proposed to two people lately just to see what happens.  But, I don’t know, is it just a way to get more points? Or more Bling? Which I need to do... I need more bling, so maybe I will have to do more of the things I d
Jesus Freaks
  "Galileo, DaVinci, William Shakespeare, Martin Luther, John the Baptist.  These are the strange ones who challenged society with a different way of thinking.  They were the rebels and heretics of their day.  But if history is told correctly, no man has caused the worldwide stir that Jesus Christ did 2000 years ago.  So many people today portray Jesus as weak, the out-of-date aritfact hanging on a church wall or in a stainedglass window hoping for a brighter day.  But Jesus was the non-conformist of all time.  He took the conventions of religion, tradition, and love and turned them upside down.  He face political and religious leaders of His day and spoke thruths they had never before.  He walked in our as the human voice of God.   When I think of the boldest leaders and thinkers of our world, I believe that Jesus stood above them all.  He changed everything, and, by sacrificing His life, He changed they way I look at my fellowman.  He is the one true reason I have a relationship wit
You Rock
Very few people on this planet will ever be lucky enough to come across a person in their life that can truly be their "rock". Ive been lucky enough to collect a handful of people i consider to be my friend.  Ive been lucky enough to have the chance to experience a lot in a little time, and have even been able to meet an enormous amount of people in my short lifetime who have taught me things, shown support, and shown me how to love and be loved... But ive rarely met those who I consider my rock. Being a "rock" to someone is exactly that.  An actual rock doesnt go anywhere, even when times get rough... A rock stays strong  regardless of how much its been rained on or whether beaten...A rock doesn't really change - aside from its surface evolving - its core always remains what its always been...Much like all things derived from nature, rocks don't criticize or judge you..A rock is what it is - what you see is what you get!!In fear of coming off like some wierd-o hippy-dippy, I'll get t
Steel In My Heart: Numb.
Showing you the workings of my never so easy..when all i the decay of love..breaking into dust and sand..nothing but a memory..i can not be at this tragic ending of romance..todays that of cancer..eatting at your soul..the bitterness of it all..the liers..the cheats..the fakes..all have left me..with a cold heart..a steel heart..cold to the touch..but so heavy to bear..i grow numb..from all the death around being killed say..i love you..without feeling..eyes cast a gaze upon me..for making this claim..but its not them i have to answer to..upon the gates of heaven..or i have my judgement..i walk the cold corners of your heart..the battlefield that is endless..i ease through your life..and shead a tear..for the love a evil unlike any other..with head held low..a tear will flow..the winds would blow..and the storms would roll in overhead..painting a dramatic love scene..cue rain..i leave the pages o
Here I am getting ready to work on my day off...ok..well I'm siting here typing this out and drinking my V8 V-Fusion Juice..what??? No Coffee??? I'm saving that for my break at work. Dunno what I'll do after work....I don't want to be home when the "guy" is home...It's not that fun being home alone with him...even though when he doesn't talk much.... His presence just makes me real uncomfortable.  
Get To Know Me
Do you work for what you want or is it given to you? Use to be given but im trying to earn it What do you think of country music? I like some of it Is it awkward when you run into your last ex? not really he's an ass so I pretend I dont know him How much cash do you have in your bedroom? not much like 15 bucks in change Are you currently tanned? natural Have you ever gone to court? no. Have you ever played spin the bottle? Yes Who is the first person you call when you wake up? Whoever called me while I was sleeping Do you have an unusual name for a pet? They are named after cartoon/movie characters If you could change your eye color, what would you change it to? I love my eyes Do you have a deck at your home? no What would you have been named if you were born the opposite sex? Charlie thank good ness I was a girl even tho I dont care for Tatiana Besides your house, where did you sleep last? the beach Are you currently wearing anyth
I want... Someone who will love me for me,faults and all... Someone who can't fall asleep without being his last call... Someone who wants to be my last goodnight and my first hello... Someone who will hold my hand and not let go... Someone who... means it when he says i will leave you never... Someone who looks into my eyes and sees his forever......
Self Esteem.
it's taken the words of a few friends to make me feel better about the situation. Yes, the word of my Liebe helped too, but I'm paranoid when he says it because I'm scared.     But, they're all correct.     I'm sexy as hell, I'm an amazing tank, I'm fun, I'm imaginative, and, if he's staying with me, then I'm doing somethign right. if he wants to talk to her for 6+ hours a day and call her sexy and hot and tell her how happy he is when SHE calls him sttractive, and if she wants to talk about how much she wants him, fine, whatever. I trust him. words are words, actions are actions. He's here with me except for when he's at work or the night he goes to karaoke, so I know he's faithful.     And i have to be doing something right if it's me he holds every night and not her.
Your Body Is My Map
Don't get me wrong, it's not that I can't live without you. An unfamiliar sun will still rise and set, etcetera. I will make a living, I'll laugh and make jokes, I'll make love, I'll have children who have something of me in their features and something foreign too. The sky will often be blue, though it won't be my sky, and the trees will somehow remind me of other trees, not these trees. I can live my whole life without you and very likely will; it's just that you are my home. It's not that I think you are faultless; it's not that you are the most beautiful, the wisest or the best; that is, I wouldn't know. I can't judge. It's just that everything else is exile. New landscapes surprise and delight me, maybe even more than yours; but it's your body that is my map; is, was, will be.
Life Can Be
"The world is a cold, nasty place and it will beat you to your knees and keep you there if you let it. If you know what you're worth, then go get what you're worth. It's not about hard you can hit. It's about how hard you can get hit, and keep moving forward
Where All The Fun Is
Do I??
Baby, what are we becomingIt feels just like we're always runningRollin' through the motions every dayI could lean in to hold youOr act like I don't even know youSeems like you could care less either wayWhat happened to that girl I used to knowI just want us back to the way we were beforeChorus:Do I turn you on at all when I kiss you, babyDoes the sight of me wanting you drive you crazyDo I have your love, am I still enoughTell me don't I, or tell me do I, babyGive you everything that you ever wantedWould you rather just turn away and leave me lonelyDo I just need to give up and get on with my lifeBaby, do I?Remember when we didn't have nothin'But a perfect, simple kind of lovin'Baby, those sure were the daysThere was a time our love ran wild and freeNow I'm second guessing everything I seeDo I turn you on at all when I kiss you, babyDoes the sight of me wanting you drive you crazyDo I have your love, am I still enoughTell me don't I, or tell me do I, babyGive you everything that you e
Yesterday is gone even though I only remeber it as today.Today, is the here and now. I live it.Tomarrow, never seems to come, everytime I open my eyes it is today.So if it is always today and tomarrow never comes, Why the do I keep getting older?
Things To Do For Z-squad Members
Hey guys! Hope everyone is doing good! I haven't been on as much as I usually am because of my illness and all which most of you know about so I did'nt want you guys to thing I'm leaving you out there hanging LOL. I'll be off and on the next few days got a TON of cards to make,just got another.....7 ppl to join which will make our group size in membership to 15! I'd like to thank all that have joined and hopefully together we can get things shaking on here. Alright for you newbies,rate each other up,rate the other members up,the quicker you get your card pics up the quicker I can make a ripped folder where you guys can get to each other quicker. And if you run out of rates for the day you newbies you can practive whats's called "comment bombing" here on fubar,all you have to do is go to my pics,click leave a comment and then type the letter a,then go to the next pic,click comment and type the letter b,and so forth and so on. Thats how you comment bomb so get your practice in on my pa
Follow my lead. You aint got it? I'm dead and you murdered me. Congratulation my poor ol' friend. The devil did you one better. Join me. Norio                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                         &
Heat Wave
Heat Wave outsidepale blue valley air sizzleshazy, ripples over city streetsbusinessmen in business suits wade up-stream through downtown heat like hip-deep waterwilting grandmothers fan themselves on rocking-chair porcheswhile gleeful children dance in sprinklers on lush green lawnsand the family dog is panting heavily in the tree-shadeinsidemy hands caressss, squeeeeze her thighsyielding beneath rough denimfingers explore the folds and seams of her jeans, slowly searchinga junky, straining to hold back frantic desire - needlusting for a desperate fixbelt whipped from the loops cracks the hot still airzipper torn openshirt button lostlacy panties pulled over soft round assfall to the floor as time falls breath on hot breathmouths lick - bite - kisssoft, wet, yinhard, hot yangflesh collidesbeings mergebodies joinboundaries loststeamy weldfluid joint liquid metalthrowing whitehotsparksand soft ex!plo!sions!...deep ... breath...limbs ...intertwined...sweat ...intermingledpool
hello all my fubar friends will u sign my guestbook thanks
Hmm, Brain Storm
If I sold something what would people buy?   What would you all...or just people generally, buy? i really dont want to go the perverted route and sell my used panties, haha But hmm...what can i do, that i cant make money off of? Any ideas?   (and no hooking, sex is to be enjoyed not to be sold, although Dan calls me a prude for that)
Good Quote
Over the years, the United States has sent many of its fine young men and women into great peril to fight for freedom beyond our borders.  The only amount of land we have ever asked for in return is enough to bury those that did not return.  - Sec of State Colin Powell
Official Night Shifter
I finally got the schedule I have been hunting for..2 weeks pay in one weeks days on..7 days off.. but I am working over nights right now, Im adjusting , the up side is I can have a full time social life again,*yesss* This is my first week off..very nice i might add, after binging on sleep the first night I am revved up for the weekend, I have friends coming up to raise Caine, and fun things to do as well, thats a win win for me;) Ive been asked for pin up pix from a couple of you..forget it, if your not on my dance card..dont ask..okay? cool, have fun, and know ill never tell you to be good;)                  ~Stormy Soul~
How do you kill a knight?  Simple just a little sunshine I should know having done it enough times.....
Hate your enemies with all your strength and if a man strikes you on one cheek, you tear off his cheeks, smash without mercy, for self-preservation is the highest law.... Those who offer the other cheek are cowardly dogs.........3 .- Can the torn and bloody victim to love the bloody jaws that cut up limb by limb?.
Catch A Cold Catch A Fever
For My Lady Friends
If A Man Wants YouIf a man wants you, nothing can keep him away.If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay.Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior.Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.Stop trying to change yourselves for a relationship that's not meant to be.Slower is better.Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy.If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deservethen heck no, you can't "be friends." A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend.Don't settle. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is.Don't stay because you think "it will get better." You'll be mad at yourselfa year later for staying when things are not better.The only person you can control in a relationship is you.Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women.He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant,Why would he treat you any differently?Always have your own set of friends separate
Think Geek
hey everyone  i just updated my player on my profile im a big 80s fan and some of the music you may know and some you may not  take a trip back and see if any of them brings back memories for ya   take care all my fu friends and enjoy  and any positive feedback would be greatly welcome :)
Staying Out Of The Mumms
Ok, I need to wise up and stay the hell out of the mumms.  Inevitably I just get pissed off at the stupidity of others.  Last night I got into a little with a woman because she called Obama a socialist.  As usual, she has almost no basis for this claim.  I say "almost" because when I asked for evidence of his socialist status she provided me with a link: Her evidence is an article from a conservative think tank written in February 2008.  The article makes no direct connection to socialism.  Basically it's like linking Bush to Neo-Nazis because they vote republican.  But here's the highlights: Some of Obama's staff workers displayed a flag whe Che Guevara Obama eulogized Saul Mendelson who was a socialist 1996 Obama received the endorsement of the Chicago branch of the Democratic Socialists of America He campaigned for Bernie Sanders in VT. Here's where it gets funny. This is a quote from the
Michigan Beats Notre Dame!
The atmosphere at the Big House was A-MAIZE-ING! If anyone watched the game you probably noticed a block-letter 'M' in the student section of the stands. This is where you could find me...somewhat under the influence and cheering on my team. There was over 106,000 people there and most of us we're standing up for the entire game! (That is why there was no wave this game :P) The air was charged and the level of excitement was unreal! Everytime the music came on people were trying to start mosh pits and a few were even crowd surfing! I'm a sophmore and I went to every home game last year and I have to say this is BY FAR the loudest, most exciting game I've seen! The only bad part about yesterday was the fact that I lost my M-card somewhere in the sea of maize. But I quickly forgot about it after the last drive :) I love Tate!!!! This team makes me exceptionally proud to be a Wolverine!   GO BLUE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Angelina's Erotic Story Cd
check out Angelina's erotic sory CD!for a copy, send $20, check/MO to Axis One Commmuniations, PO Box 1975, Stephenville, Tx 76401 HERE IS A SAMPLE
Leukemia & Lymphoma
I will be joining my labor union's team and thousands of others in the Light the Night Walk on October 10 in Washinton, DC, to help raise money and awareness for Leukemia and Lymphoma.   Right now, more than 900,000 Americans are living with blood cancer.  By making a small donation, you can help find a cure and assist patients with their expenses while they are getting the treatment they need to fight their cancer!   You can do so by clicking on my link:  Remember, this is a tax deduction, and you will be sent a receipt!!  If you would like more information on their patient services visit or call the Information Resource Center at  (800) 955-4572.  The Information Resource Center (IRC) provides accurate, up-to-date disease and treatment information. Their information specialists are master's level social workers and health educators. They are available to speak with callers Monday through Friday, 9 a.m. to 6 p.m. EST
Healthcare Reform Rant
For a longest time I have been a Republican, voting red as much as I could. Well, those days are over, and now I dont have any party affiliation. I believe all politicians are corrupt greedy scumbags that deserve to die.   Bush hasn't done shit for this country, besides waging some pointless war to free a backwards buttfuck country full of animals, wasting billions of dollars, and sending money to terrorist countries.   Now we will see wtf Obama is doing over there. I hear people scream that his healthcare reform is a sham, a terrible thing, a rip off.   But frankly, I am at the point where...anything will do. I am sick and tired of paying hundreds of dollars for labworks that cost 5 bucks to perform. Doctors' fees that are up the ass. Being paranoid that my insurance won't cover my ailments, etc. Something HAS to be done. Maybe if we spent the $$ we spent on helping out those Muslim fucktards on healthcare, it would've been different.    
Wasting Time
I'm tired of looking in the mirrorDisgusted with what I seeA face full of painAnd eyes full of deceitTired of lying to myselfJust to make it through another dayI have so much I want to screamBut not much to sayI fake a smileJust to string you alongDeep inside it's killing meI really don't want to go onWhat I did to deserve thisI'll probably never knowI'm trying my fucking bestTo let none of this showSo here I sitAnother poemAnother lineAnother failed attemptOf wasting time
Californians... Lol
  Totally Love you Corey!!!   Californians So as not to be outdone by all the redneck, hillbilly, and Texan jokes, somebody had to come up with this: You know you're from California if...1. Your co-worker has 8 body piercings and none are visible.2. You make over $300,000 a year and still can't afford a house.3. You take a bus and are shocked at two people carrying on a conversation in English.4. Your child's 3rd-grade teacher has purple hair, a nose ring, and is named Flower.5. You can't remember . . . is pot illegal?6. You've been to a baby shower that has two mothers and a sperm donor.7. You have a very strong opinion about where your coffee beans are grown, and you can taste the difference between Sumatran and Ethiopian.8. You can't remember . . . is pot illegal?9. A really great parking space can totally move you to tears.10.  Gas costs $1.00 per gallon more than anywhere else in the  U.S.11.  The guy at 8:30 am at Starbucks wearing a baseball cap and sunglasses who looks like
Personal Bodyguard
if anyone is looking for a personal bodyguard, let me know.
Bubba And Jr
Bubba and Junior were standing at the base of a flagpole, looking up.A woman walked by and asked what they were doing. "We're supposed to find the height of the flagpole," said Bubba, "but we don't have a ladder." The woman took a wrench from her purse, loosened a few bolts, and laid the pole down. Then she took a tape measure from her pocket, took a measurement and announced, "Eighteen feet, six inches," and walked away.Junior shook his head and laughed. "Ain't that just like a dumb blonde! We ask for the height, and she gives us the length
Slow Dance
Have you ever watched kidon a marry-go round??Or listen to the rain??Falling on the ground.Ever flollowed a butterfly erratic flight??          Or gazed at the sun in the fading light??You better slow downDon't dance to fast!!Time is shortThe music wont lastDon't run through each dayWhen you ask "How are you"??Do you hear the reply??When the day is done,Do you lay in your bedWith the next hundred choresRunning through your head??You better slow down,Don't dance so fastTime is shortThe music wont last.Ever told your child,We'll do it tomorrow??And in your hasteNot see his sorrow??Ever lost touchLet a good friendship die??Cause you never had time to say "hi"??You better slow down.Time is short.The music wont last.When you run so fast to get somewhere,You miss half the fun getting there.When you worry and hurry through your day.It's like an unopened giftThrown away.Life is not a race.Do take it slower.Hear the musicBefore the song is over!!
Now Accepting Applications
Sometimes I just wish I had a man i could tie to my bed when i wanted and pamper me when i needed. Lets see who has the best to offer!Copy and past into an email to submit(Tip: dont take it seriously its all in fun.) Name:Age:Birthday:Location:How tall are you?What is your ocupation?What are your living arangements like?Do you own a car?  if so what kind?What is your dream car?What is your favorite drink?What is your best physical quality?What is your best non physical quality?What do you think my best quality is?What is your biggest turn on?What is your biggest turn off?Do you have any tattoos?Do you have any piercings?Do you like to bite?Do you like to be bitten?Whats your favorite sexual possition?Whats the kinkiest place you've ever had sex?Whats your sexual fantacy?How old were you when you lost your virginity?How often do you masterbate?How often do you like to have sex?What is your favorite holiday?What is your favorite color?Whats your favorite movie?Whats your favorite band/g
I Really Want To Know What You Think Of Me...
POST THiS iF YOU AREN'T SCARED TO SEE HOW PEOPLE THINK OF YOU: 0 = ewwwwwwwwwwww!? 1 = Definetly not attractive 2 = Decent 3 = Cute 4 = Fine as hell! 5 = I'd do you 6 = Pretty damn sexy! 7 = Lovable, I LOVE YOU!!! 8 = I wanna make you mine I would really like to know, please comment with your response. Ms. K
How Every Woman Should Be Treated
To every guy that's said, "Sex CAN wait"To every guy that's said, "You're beautiful."To every guy that was never too busy to drive across town to see her.To every guy that gives her flowers and a card when she is sick or down.To every guy who has given her flowers just because thats how he rolls.To every guy that said he would die for her.To every guy that really would.To every guy that did what she wanted to do.To every guy that cried in front of her. ....To every guy that she cried in front of...To every guy that holds hands with her.To every guy that kisses her with meaning.To every guy that hugs her when she's sad.To every guy that hugs her for no reason at all.To every guy who would give their jacket up for her.To every guy that calls to make sure she got home safe.To every guy that would sit and wait for her for hours just to see her for ten minutes.....To every guy that would give his seat up...To every guy that just wants to cuddle.To every guy that reassured her that she was b
How Not To Be A Whore At The Usmc Ball
Remember that while your Marine is happy to have you on his arm, this function is about the Marines.  It's their birthday.  Happy birthday to THEM.  Try to keep your pre-flight to a minimum, if any, so that at best you will arrive smelling like perfume and at worst you won't smell like Jager bombs. Try to follow the intended dress code.  Google it if necessary. Remember that the laws about indecent exposure apply, even within the closed doors of your ball's venue.  Attempt to wear shoes you can walk in.  There are any number of things which can require you to need them. No corsages.  Refer to number 1 above. Try not to be too judgmental of other ladies.  Some of us don't spend hundreds of dollars on our hair and nails.  We just may not care as much about the packaging.  But we're people, too. Smile from time to time and say Hi to people.  They won't bite and they usually like it. Do not attempt to teach your Marine (or his friends) the correct way to do the Electric Slide.  Tha
I Just Don't Get It.
No matter who says it, no matter how many times i hear it, I just can't see myself as beign attractive. Especially not with half-naked perfect skinny model-looking girls plastering the scrolling parts of the pages. Girls with no stretch marks, no scars, perfect skin that's all the same color, perfect hair and beautiful eyes, getting fawned over. Not a touch of acne, no fat on their body except for their perfect, perky, round tits (tits aren't perfectly round, fyi). I mean, i feel cute until I see another woman, and then whatever scraps of self-esteem i've mustered up go Kaplut. I know, most of my weight right now is from being pregnant. and once I have the baby, george offered to bring me to the gym with him when he gets his membership. which will help. and since it'll be after he gets off work, there won't be any perfect-looking dolls there to make me feel bad (24 hour gyms ftw). And the 40d super-tits i'm packing right now don't make me feel as good as I had expected. Sadly. *s
I Stole This From Evyl
Name something you dislike about the day you're having?my sink is still broken.   When will your next kiss be?when I tuck Ian in bed   Who was the last person to smoke a cigarette in your presence?JarrodAre you dating the last person you talked to?noWho was the last person you talked to in person?sonAre you happy right now?sure   What are you sitting on right now?My reclinerIs there someone who you instantly smile when you receive a message from?Oh yeah!!! Have you ever wanted someone you can't have?NoA random person yells to you "aybaybay." You say..what?Who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night?my familyWhat were you doing last night at midnight?watching TVWhere is the shirt you are wearing from?north carolinaAre you a mean person?yesDoes anyone hate you?lol, probably       Do you think relationships are even worth it?SomeCould you go out in public looking like you do now?No. Do you usually tell people when you're mad at them?Yes, it's easier t
What In The Blue Fuck?
Today's moment-of-pause has been brought to you by Wal-Mart and the city of Peoria, Az. Apparently, some photo-clerk vigilante, diligently on the lookout for child pornography, saw photos of kids during bath time and decided to call the cops, according to a story on Good Morning America.Next thing the parents of these kids knew, the children were removed from their home. For an entire month. Mom got suspended from her job for a year and both -- Anthony and Lisa Demaree -- were added to a list of sex offenders. The judge in the case said the pix were harmless."I don't understand it at all," Anthony Demaree told GMA, with his wife by his side. "Ninety, 95 percent of the families out there in America have these exact same photos."Now they've got another shot to take. This time it's directed at Wal-Mart and their hometown.   Here we see another failing of the American educational system. This family has FOREVER been scarred by the actions of some jack off working at Wal-Mart for 8 bucks
Do Be Do Be Do
Since all I can do here is blog (thanks to that script spam), dropping in to tell everyone read previous blog if you want to get in touch.
My Poem
If i could catch a rainbow I would do it just for you.. And share with you its beauty On the days you're feeling blue. If i could build a mountain You could call your very own; A place to find serenity, A place to be alone. If i could take your troubles I would toss them in the sea, But all of these things i'm finding Are impossible for me, I cannot build a mountain Or catch a rainbow fair, But let me be what i know best, A friend who is always there....
Ok IDK how to start this but I need some advice... I met this incredible guy rescently. As soon as I met eye to eye with him the my heart started beating faster. Couldnt believe my eyes! Was it love at first sight? Anyways he seemed to connect to me the same as I did with him. The way he looked at me and kissed me the way he held me tight it just all drove me wild and made me melt. Never had a man give soo much attention and love to me EVER. He treated me like his queen and I loved every minute of it. Then all of a sudden out of no where he completely stopped seeing me and completely ignored me as if I dont exsist anymore. I'm very much confused with that. Not even an explaination from him. Did I come on to him too heavy? That's where I'm confused because he was the same to me as I was to him. All I know is I am sooo hurt and confused. So I stopped talking to him seeing he was ignoring me anyways. What else am I going to do. I know for a fact Im not gonna smother him and beg. I w
New Love
Ive found a new love in my life.He is everything I could and would ever want.He makes my sun shine brighter andmy stars twinkle with new zest.My heart bubbles over with my new found joy.I quiver at the very sound of his voice.I find myself longing for the day when we shall look into each others eyes.My head tells me "be prepared this is just a dream.You will soon wake". It constantly reminds me that promises and hearts can and will get broken.THe question I am left with is do I follow my heart of listen to my head?
Cobra Lipstick
she doesnt want to play  along been so long since i have been wrong so long very long   she snaps pictures by herself or perhaps there is someone else behind that flash she looks so long so  so  so very long since she has been wrong   venom dripping from my fangs venom running down from my eyes want to lay right between her lovely thighs blood dripping from my dipstick TIME TO PUT ON COBRA LIPSTICK   memory memories running through my mind works we spoke  so unkind glass mirrors  thinly lined intwined   wonder if she feels like i do wonder if she sleeps the day through wonder if i will change at all i wonder if i do change will she change too   my life could be so so long and simplistic or maybe TIME TO PUT ON COBRA LIPSTICK  
Cat With A Hat
A cat with a hat tempts my dreams This creature with a unique feature was everywhere In the light he radiated with a might Like a tiger he ripped through me like a fiber My blood was like a flood filling this place Hidden in the trees, this place was forbidden Not wanted, I was haunted by fear With a scare, I could not bear this dream Nothing but a dream, I still was not clean I awoke with a fright to the sight of the might of blood spattered about my room This was nothing but a dream, right?
If god could give me wings, I'de fly up to heaven and bring you back to us ... Miss you babe..
I am in prison, but this prison not steel or rock, This prison, the one that was given to me on the day of my birth, The weak flesh and bone tell not who I am the many scars I carry both Outside and in build the backbone of the book that is my life. Though they Do not tell who I am, As It ages the walls of this prison crumble and crack And turn to dust. The Warden of the prison is a cold and tattered thing That for its pleaser would put you in a hole and dangle the one thing, the Apex of your desire just out of reach, and if by some chance you were to Get ever so close to it would yank back and belt out in glee HA. For Life without Love is... is a more painful sentence than death, so here In my prison I wait for you, the one who holds the key.
I am going to say something, If you have been erased from my friends list, its because you weren't communicating with me. I am not trying ot be mean but I think that if you are going to add me you should want to keep in touch, so the ppl that were erased I felt there was no need for you on my friends list, if you werent going to keep in touch. So if you are going to add me at least keep in touch ~peace out   ~Jasmine
Creeping Into The Night Shift
I have been pushing to get the over night postion because it is 7 days on/ 7 days off..12 hour shifts..but it squeezes 2 weeks into one!! perfect for someone that wants to live;) this is my week ends this Sunday..Monday will be day one of seven. So if your trying to figure out when I can come and you know:)If you dont have my number message me, you know who im talking to;)
I See Myself...............
I see myself holding you close to me,Squeezing your body tight.But for all I see as I daydream-I know I'll get tenfold tonight.Running my palms across your breast,As you tremble and bite your lip.Feeling your hands upon my chest,The softness of each fingertip.Tasting your neck so sweet, so soft,And slowly lowering my kiss.Over pert nipples, across your navel,And finally into pure bliss.Looking upon your face from below-As you tilt back your head.Feeling your fountains begin to flow-As you ease back on the bed.Your "innocent little devil" look-Crying insatiably with the sensation.Lip to lip lapping up every drip-From the well of your creation.The way you pull me up by the hair-To the heat of your mouth, on fire.No other thoughts, no other cares,Just the quenching of mad desire.Riding the tide of passion,Pushing my love into you.On the waves of your emotion-In slow motion, so sweet and true.Pulse pounding in resounding rapture,Taken to the hilt, then just past.Rhythm growing, faces glowi
Oh dark my day,To be alive,I write this poem,As my heart is to thrive,There once was a man,So happy he be,With his lovely wife,So young you see,But one day,He left for awhile,Traveled for his job,Much more than a mile,She was sad,He had to leave,And hoped for the best,Hoped not to greave,His job pained her,But knew he was right,He was in the army,He had to go fight,Letters shed receive,From him every week,At times happy,Good news always to seek,She sent him a letter,Pregnant shed be,With their loving daughter,Aura lee,And he was astound,Couldnt wait to come see,When his loving wife,Gave birth to thee,But he never made it,They wouldnt let him go,So he hoped she wouldnt be sad,Oh say it isnt so,But she was so grateful,That safe hed be,She always prayed for him,Aura lee to see,But on the day,Baby turned six,Such sad news,A heart not to fix,Daddy had died,While coming back,They found some things,Hidden in his backpack,Aura lee so young,Just couldnt see,why had daddy,Left me?But on the fune
Pearl Jam - Alive
Alive lyricsSon, she said, have I got a little story for youWhat you thought was your daddy was nothin' but a...While you were sittin' home alone at age thirteenYour real daddy was dyin', sorry you didn't see him, but I'm glad we talked...Oh I, oh, I'm still aliveHey, I, I, oh, I'm still aliveHey I, oh, I'm still aliveHey...oh...Oh, she walks slowly, across a young man's roomShe said I'm ready...for youI can't remember anything to this very day'Cept the look, the look...Oh, you know where, now I can't see, I just stare...I, I'm still aliveHey I, but, I'm still aliveHey I, boy, I'm still aliveHey I, I, I, I'm still alive, yeahOoh yeah...yeah yeah yeah...oh...oh...Is something wrong, she saidWell of course there isYou're still alive, she saidOh, and do I deserve to beIs that the questionAnd if so...if so...who answers...who answers...I, oh, I'm still aliveHey I, oh, I'm still aliveHey I, but, I'm still aliveYeah I, ooh, I'm still aliveYeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah
In You
You wake from a deep slumber to find me there before you the moon casting a soft hue of light like a dream or yet some fantasy The darkness plays it's tricks As i move ever so near Calling out to you wanting... needing your touch Soul yearning to be released to shed the chains and find solace in your embrace A simple kiss turns to firey passion entwining us into one i moan for you as calm my madness Only to spark my desires When it all fades and d
Kenny Chesney - Me And You
Ordinary no, I really don’t think so Not a love this true Common destiny We were meant to be Me and you Like a perfect scene from a movie screen We’re a dream come true Suited perfectly for eternity Me and you Every day, I need you even more And the night time too There’s no way I could ever let you go Even if I wanted to Every day I live I try my best to give All I have to you I thank the stars above That we share this love me and you Every day, I need you even more And the night time too There’s no way I could ever let you go Even if I wanted to Ordinary no, I really don’t think so Just a precious few Ever make it last Get as lucky as Me and you Me and you
Forever Love
As I sit here waiting for you, the tears never ending hope is all i have left hope that a part of you still loves me promises made of forever needing to feel your arms around me once again holding me but for now all i have is my dreams believeing now that you are my soulmate, the distance crushing please dont toss our love aside like yesterdays trash remember the good times as i have forget all the bad in every relationship there are trials that one must endure but if love is truly there then those trials become a thing of the past and love awakens hope so as i sit here waiting the tears always in my eyes please remember your promise remember why you loved me and please come back to my heart.
Meant To Be
As I sit here in silence drowning in my thoughts only one image comes to my head visions of you in all you splendor your beautiful eyes the way your hair always falls just right your warm lips pressed against mine oh to feel your strong arms wrapped around me that would truly be bliss how blind i was before never thinking, never knowing. in my dreams you are always there beckoning me to you holding out your hand to take mine leading me away from all this pain and agony no longer suffering just yours the dream starts to fade and i wake up once again cold and alone and dreary so i keep my head held high and continue waiting for the day when you realize we are meant to be
26 lbs of punkstarchik gone. Yay!!!
My Mother And Insanity
Little girl lost Who's only five. Where is my mother? They sent her away, Insanity robbed her they say. With so many children what could she do? If only she had known she had everything to lose  All the demons she has to fight will she remember the little girls plight. Not even a card not even a letter The little girls asks why? They say she's better.   The years roll by, The little girl don't remember of her mother she lost in sixty-five of December. She calls her one day and says we can make this better. Her mothers reply, When they sent me away I lost my children that day. So go on now I am busy today. I'm sorry to hear that was all the girl could say. She hangs up the phone and turns to cry for the mother she lost in 65. Little girl lost What will she do? I don't even think she has a clue.
When words are uttered from your fingertipsmy cloudy days go awaysunshine lightens my lifelove, warmth, the impossible happensA smile alights my faceI feel like im floating on a cloudThe impossible suddenly doesnt seem so hardthere is hope in my life once againmy heart overbounds with lovethen the words go awayterms of endearment and words of love no longer spokenuncertainty returns with a vengenceworries fill my mindbut patient i must beif ever there is hope for you and i againso i will continue on with this cloud hanging over me.waiting for the next rays of sunlight to warm my day
Toys For Women
For Having Orgasms With: Vibrators If you're female, or have a female partner, a vibrator is the toy most likely to make the biggest difference to your sex life. Many women have their first orgasm with a vibrator, and most women find it easier to reach orgasm with a vibrator then by any other way. Furthermore, most women cannot reach orgasm through intercourse alone (not through any lack of appreciation or love for their partners, and not through any failing at all on their partner's part, rather just through how the female body is constructed), so if you're a male with a female partner and think it would be sexy and hot for her to have an orgasm while you're having intercourse, a vibrator could be the best present you could get. Note that in this section we're just talking about vibrators that are meant to stimulate the clitoris, i.e. which are used externally, rather than inserted into the vagina. Regardless of what image may pop into your head when you hear the word
why is it that you must judge me??that perfect woman you are looking for....dose not existcute in the face?thin in the waist?apple bottom?extenions down her back?laid back, drama free?she dose not exist!!!!what will happen once her looks fade?what will happen once her waist expands?what will happen once her apple starts to sag?what will happen once she start to loose her hair?what will happen once her breasts loose their firmness?start all over again?will the next see "your" true beauty?"you" think "you" got it going on....will she?"you" think "you" are the man...will she"you" think "you" can put it down...will shewill you be able to satisfy her?you'er older than she is....I THINK NOT!!!!!I don't feel it necessary to show my goodiesi shouldn't have too for you to like mealthough i may not be pretty in the facemy heart is beautifulalthough my apple might not be roundmy soul is deepwhile you are judging me...someone is judging youseeing "your" flawsyour imperfectionsso....fucc that bulls
Chasing Pavements
So...I'm usually not too serious about these things, but tonight...I just feel like I could go on and on about the shit going on in my life right now. But..I wont bore people to death with's not my style. I've been listening to this song... Chasing Pavements by Adele...Like Non-stop for the past few days. It pretty much explains everything I'm feeling right now. I'm pretty effin' confused, and I don't know what to do. CHASING PAVEMENTS: I've made up my mind, Don't need to think it over, If I'm wrong I am right, Don't need to look no further, This ain't lust, I know this is love But if I tell the world, I'll never say enough, 'Cause it was not said to you, And that's exactly what I need to do if I'd end up with you, Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements Even if it leads nowhere? Or would it be a waste even if I knew my place Should I leave it there? Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements Even if it leads nowhere? I build m
Still The Same As You Fade Away
Change direction one more time. Change your looks and change your mind. I don't believe a single word. You're not a part of what I love. We would be better off if you just leave. Watch them fade like you know it had to be. I'll still be doing the same old shit that I was yesterday. Fade away cause we knew you couldn't stay. We see it all the time so we'll sit back and watch you fade away. I've taken my bumps, I've taken my falls. I've been knocked down and through it all this one thing always stayed the same. I've seen them come, I've watched them go so I'm just trying to let you know this is for the ones that still remain. Where are you gonna be tomorrow? Where did you lose yourself today? Watch them fade like you know it had to be. I'll still be doing the same old shit that I was yesterday. Fade away cause we knew you couldn't stay. We see it all the time so we'll sit back and watch you fade away
I barely got any sleep last night...I just kept tossing and turning. When 3am came around, I gave up and got myself ready for work. I have a smoke and notice that the car is missing so I texted Rich to see if he taken the car. He said he did and he would be back home soon. Been almost a hour now and I will be pissed if he's not here soon, otherwise I will have to walk to work, which is about 45 minutes away and I work in a hour. He must of had to take back the car he borrowed from his coworker...and I thought he said he would have that car for a while? Dumbass...and he said he was suppose to help find me a car since he fucked with mine...He can't even afford his own damn car payment all the time.. I didn't do toooo much this weekend. Did a bunch of exciting. My friend's birthday was on Tuesday so I hung out with her for a bit.   Bah...I don't wanna go to work....Wish I had a sleeping pill so I can go back to sleep.
How Men Think
How Men ThinkA woman was in a coma, she had been in it for months.Nurses were in her room giving her a blanket bath.One of them was washing her private area and noticed thatthere was a slight response on the monitor when she touched her.They tried it again and sure enough, there was a small, recognisable movement.They went to her husband and explained what happened, tellinghim,"As crazy as this sounds, maybe a little oral s * x will do the trick and bring her out of the coma."The husband was skeptical, but they assured that they wouldClose the curtains for privacy.The husband finally agreed and went into his wife's room.After a few minutes the woman's monitor flat lined, no pulse, noheart rate.The nurses run back into the room. "What happened!?" they cried.The husband said, "I'm not sure, maybe she choked".
To All My Friends....
I just wanna 2 say that noone knows when thier time is up, so live your life  Like theres no tomorrow. But before I go I just wanna to let my friends know that I love you, and i am glad that we are friends.. Each and everyone of you has a place in my heart!! And I am glad that we got to be friends and that we have spend sometime together!!! We are friends cause we chose to be, we did not have to be!!!! All of my friends that has been in and out of my life, YOU NEVER BEFORE GOTTEN!!! Love by your friendMARY BRIANNA COX!!!!FRIENDS FOR LIFE!!!!
Wicked Notion
Insane rips losin grips sippin sipps. Goin on a mind trip with what i rip. Don't fuck with me. I'll bust your fuckin lip. & hit with shit you can't get with. Here i here i am kickin with the wicked shit that's tickin. Bustin through riffin what you a dog you lickin. You ain't stickin or gettin what i'm kickin. Rhymes ain't all in what you callin fuck with what your stallin. I'ma no good peice blackwood. That never had somethin in his life that i once thought had. Everything went good to bad. & now i feel like nothin nothin nothin. I feel like nothin nothin was as it ever seems. Nothin was as it ever seems nothin nothin nothin nothin. Fuck it fuck it fuck it fuck it fuck it. I never was never fuckin was I never knew to feel or how to be fuck it fuck it fuck it fuck it. I grew from a little tyke to a toddler then try to find my way up this world like a squirrel. Now i feel my life i'm livin in a fuckin twirl fuckin twirl a motherfuckin twirl. Don't try to tell or misjudge me. Nothin you
F*ckin Camwhores
you gotta love these camwhores     My Shoutbox amber: can i invite you to my own video chat room so we can have fun chat while im on cam..?? ->amber: what kind of fun amber: are you up for fun? ->amber: nothing amber: what are you up to? ->amber: 23 amber: how old are you? amber: ok.. ->amber: los angeles amber: where you from? amber: i see ->amber: nope amber: anything.. you have yahoo? ->amber: bout what amber: hi there..
 I know this much I need to get my medicine as soon as possible or I would really would hate to see what would or will happen .  I have been without my seizure medication for well over two going on three months, and I am starting to feel the effects of not having it . What people really do not understand is if I go without it for to long I could and might either slip into a coma or I might die .  But I know alot of people who I thought were close that would love to see me out of the picture , that isn't going to happen anytime soon I guarntee you that .  My immediate family is concerned I know ,but there ase others like I said would love to see me gone , because they think I am going to leave them something , how wrong they are .
Chapter 17
  How long had I been lost in my thoughts before the sound of the curtain blowing against the window seal finally caught my eye and made me come back to the present only to find that I was better off being in my own dream world were everything was fine and nothing was going wrong for me. I had everything while I was lost in this world of mine where we were all walking and laughing in the warm sunshine and none of us were afraid of it. The warm touch of the sun dancing and playing upon my face felt so real that when I heard the wind I had tears running down my face which I hadn't had since the babies were born and I knew they were health,or at least at the tinme they were healthy now my Daughter is being plauged by something of this world and I have no idea what it is that has made her so ill. Why would anything or anybody want to harm my Daughter this innocent soul who's not even old enough yet to be taking a life to be called a sinner and yet something is making her very ill. She get'
Missing You
The days have past and I miss the conversation,Waiting for you I put these letters to words,The last time I saw you was in my dreams,But my biggest mistake is when i wake,Your pretty face drifts off in the distance,Reaching for images I cannot grasp,Looking for an answer to be with you,But all the answers are behind locked doors,Unluckily the key is my heart and you have it,I'll let you hold on to it from now til' forever,As long as you promise to share it with me,Until then I'll be sitting here dreaming,Of moments we can have together,You are my world, my sky, and my air,I cannot live without your existence.
This Is A Poem/song I Wrote, Tell Me What You Think
Two young people sitting in a room Loud and noisy its a high school He sits next to her and she notices him She pulls out a peice of paper and this is what she wrote She said what's youre name I'll tell you mine He said its alright everything is fine She said I feel so lonely He said so do I And the note came to these final words Hey how are you? And later yes, I DO 10 years later sitting in a room waiting for the doctor to tell him the news holding his breath waiting for his wife he hears her crying and she's almost hurled and a newborn girl is brought into their world Their baby is now all grown up Sitting in her boyfriends pickup truck she walks into her parents home at last she finds their old no
Fall asleep boy.Dream the nightmares you dreamWatch as everything is taken.Taken from your grasp.Your not going to have anything.Your life will forever be empty.HA HA HALook at your strugglingYou want to save herAH but the chains of the pastThey hold you back.Your sorrow internally screamingAn everyday fight.Until it consumes you, becomes you.You have no life.And thus I now take.Maybe, before you die, she just mightSave you and bring you back.Breaking point, what will happen.AWAKE UP!
Dead Within
HelloWhere am ISitting in this roomCrying the tears of painWanting to simply just pass away.WantingFor someone toTake me away fromThis world that means nothingTo me anymore this time again.IDont want toBe in this painThat you have casued meSo let me die alone now.TimeTo leave thisWorld without you aroundThis way I can be deadBecasue I am Death Within a shell
What I Want
i want a woman, who wouldnt mind me taking care of her, who wouldnt mind me picking up the check for dinner or the whole date, who loves to dress up for dates but at same time doesnt mind getting dirty...someone i can easily talk to, and someone who accepts me for me...I want a woman who can sing but if she cant loves to sing, a woman who can play an instrument, loves to read, loves poetry, has an inner geek, a spiritual side, a lamb but a lion as well, someone who isnt afraid of saying whats on her mind, someone who'll give anything at least one try....intelligence, loves music, loves kids...but i think i might be reaching too high, im feeling i am asking too much
Please Check Out
Hey everyone i'am trying to start a business selling stuff online, and i what yall to look at my site if yall what to an tell me what you think of it the site is sing up on my site and i'll give yall a $10 gift card to use on an order of $30 or more. ty
A Little Verbal Birth Control?.... Read
a little verbal birth control?.... READ NO ONE EVER ASK THE RIGHT QUESTIONS BEFORE CONCEPTION        Explain to me the urge to have children? Do you really want to be responsible for bestowing your massed knowledge and morals on a genetic bundle of shared chromosomes?(that may or may not murder you at some point)      Sooner or later that little shit machine will develop an opinion of his or her own to match that ass hole they have been crapping your hard earned dollars out for at that point 13 or so years (only five to go...if your lucky) And talk all you want about how cute kids are... Sure those moments of pride and even shame perhaps, come and go, ask your self (before you make a baby) is it all really going to be worth the amount of time you lose just making sure you, and they obey the law? By that I mean your and their legal obligation by United States law...        They force you to make that person go to school, not do drugs and stay fully clothed in public places! and in o
Just A Peak At The Locked Room.. Carefull The Door Is Starting To Bow Out Fromt He Pressure...
    Another night sleepless and wandering.  Wanting what it seems I can never have.  A steady image fills my mind at this point though. A small part of me that huddles in a corner of a dark room.  Padded like the solitary room at Rockford.  I sit the corner one second waiting and trying to maintain a sense of calm.  The next I stand screaming at the source of light.  Letting out a stream of resentment and fear.  A single sound that emanates from my chest as I try to shatter the one bulb that lets me see where the shadows are. I pace the room.. the light swinging the cotton wall linings seeming dingy and yellowed with the exception for the parts marked brown with old blood.  This is my room, a place I keep a part of myself that i don't let anyone see.  Even this glimpse isn't going to be a complete one.  I keep myself here.  Locked away so that when people come to me needing to talk to me, to vent to me, to have a post to lean on, I can be as dispassionate as any rock.  I can the ground
My Progress
It has been a few months now that i have been introduced to a new lifestlye, one that i have been looking for for quite some time. What my Daddy has shown me and what he has to offer was beyond my wildest dreams. Over the past few months my whole life has changed for the better because of his love, understanding, wisdom and guidance. My opinion of myself has taken a full 360 from where i was to where i am today.  Today i see myself as being a hot sexy slut slave gf lover and hard working mom who is not afraid to show my diversity in my life, and i am proud to be all of those personas to the people in my life.   A few weeks ago i was with my Daddy for a few days, and i experienced the best sex i ever thought possible. In my past relationships the men in my life could never come close to satisfying my needs. Today i consider them as being smallcockboys who only thought of there needs before mine and when finished just got up and walked away. This is not the case with Daddy. He took me
George Strait, Today My World Slipped Away
We made it final today. I gave you all I had, you made your getaway. All the love we once made turned to memories today. I left the courtroom and went straight to the church. I hit my knees and told God how much I hurt. Nothin' left of my heart; It's gonna be so hard to make a new start. 'Cause today my world slipped away. We buried the plans that we made. And tonight I'm alone and afraid. 'Cause today my world slipped away. All my friends say I'll make it alright. I'll recover and start a new life. But that'll be so hard to do 'Cause livin' ain't worth livin' without you. 'Cause today my world slipped away. We buried the plans that we made. And tonight I'm alone and afraid. 'Cause today my world slipped away.
Behind The Smiles
I'm the one who hides behindThat pretty face and those empty eyesThe one who puts on a smile so no onehears my criesFeeling so empty day after dayNot knowing how to make this pain go awayThis pain i've known for so longIt's hard to tell where it all went wrongHow can I show how I truely feelWho I truely amWhen I am not sure myselfThese words and these walls,tearing at me everydayFeeling like I don't belongMy smiles and my laughter just for showSo no one knows the inner tormet and despair I feelReaching the deepest deapths of my soulWhere I have no controlWhere I sit with my head in my handsRocking, cryingWaiting for it all to end
A Mother's Love
I hold you close at nightLooking into my own eyesThe miricle that you areI can never get overLittle one you are my worldFor you I w0uld do anythingI would give you the worldI would sacrifice my ownTo see that smile To hear that laughFor you to knowI love you
Slender beams of moonlight enterthis darkened chamber as I kneel,always alone, always lost,frozen here,waiting.Tortured forms wrought in panes of glass loom asdust dances in the air,forming an image in my mind,rending my darkened soul.Terror on a lover's face.I raise my head, now crying out forthis oblivious darkness.©DS 1975
Nice Quote
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that frightens us most. We ask ourselves, 'Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and famous?' Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that people won't feel insecure around you. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in all of us. And when we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."   Nelson Mandela (part of his inaugural speech)
Two Choices
Two ChoicesWhat would you do? make the choice. Don't look for a punch line, there isn't one. Read it anyway. My question is: Would you have made the same choice?At a fundraising dinner for a school that serves children with learning disabilities, the father of one of the students delivered a speech that would never be forgotten by all who attended. After extolling the school and itsdedicated staff, he offered a question:'When not interfered with by outside influences, everything nature does, is done with perfection.Yet my son, Shay, cannot learn things as other children do. He cannot understand things as other children do.Where is the natural order of things in my son?'The audience was stilled by the query.The father continued. 'I believe that when a child like Shay, who was mentally and physically disabled comes into the world, an opportunity to realize true human nature presents itself, and it comes in the way other people treat that child.'Then he told the fol
Not Yet Done....5
Darkness Overcomes us as hearts flow togetherLovers embrace lips partedAs we hold one anotherSweetness that is youfeels my life with meaningI lose control of myselfmy sences wildly screeming
Animals Are More....
Just Rantings From A Stressed Out Woman!
My week has already started out bad. Had little money to buy food, and now two days later find out we have no money for even that. I have to find a way to feed my kids, get my husbands medications, and not go crazy at the same time. My car has broken down, and I can't fix it for a long while. My husband will be unbearable to live with without his medications, and I am supposed to go to parent teacher conferences this week! I am trying to make life better by going to college, this is the only way to get any job around here. With little options for work, I am a stay at home mom. I have tried too many work from home jobs, and lost more money than I can begin to explain. I am desperate, at the end of my ropes, and extremely stressed out! I WANT TO SCREAM!!!!!!!!!!

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