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A hidden treasure rises from the depths.
When life seems like it is getting darker and darker,
A light appears right in front of you.
Sometimes the best thing in your life,
Is right in front of you.
You just have to look at it from a different angle.
Life plays funny games sometimes,
And you have to play to win.
If you are only playing,
You will lose every time.
Sometimes you have to put it all on the line,
To see the reward at the end of the trip.
It is better to have the love of your life as your best friend forever,
Than to lose them for all eternity.
HONEY... THIS IS FOR YOU!!
Be My Valentine Application
This is the "Be My Valentine Application." Everyone knows there's at least one person on here that you want to be your Valentine. Heres the application for that special someone. Let's see who replys back with the following filled out. Have Fun.
Please provide positive answers.
Do you Drive:
Where do you live:
Single or Taken:
Would You Date Me:
Kiss On First Date:
What would you do if I...
I made a move on u:
I kissed you:
I lived next door to you:
I started smoking:
I asked you on a date:
I was hospitalized:
I ran away from home:
I got into a fight and you weren't there?
I asked u to have sex?
I asked u out?
What do you think about my...
Have you ever....
Lied to make me feel better?
Wanted to kiss me?
Wanted to kill me?
Broke my heart?
Kept something important from me?
You Want To Know...
1)I have never met my birth father
2)I like to dance in the shower(and have fallen more than once)
3)I’m a sucker for designer handbags, and that’s about as far as I go with brand named shit
4)I have had 4 boyfriends
5)I lost my virginity and kissed my first boy in the same year. When I was 18.
6)I used to smoke a lot of pot
7)I one a hula-hooping contest when I was in third grade (45 minutes yo)
8)I have never owned a dog.
9)I killed over a hundred goldfish in fifth grade.
10)Reggie Miller (Pacers) asked me where the batteries were once.
11)I use to clean Larry Bird and Peyton Mannings houses. (Larry Birds daughter is a pig)
12)I have seen the Dave Matthews Band over 12 times.
13)I think I have only really been in love once. (chad)
14)My favorite color is orange.
15)I don’t get along with most girls. So feel special if I am nice to you.
16)I think everyone is a liar. (bad thing to think, but fuck it)
17)I like pictures, way too much.
18)I have 27 cousins on my dads si
Always Remember Poem
Always remember to forget
The things that made you sad
But never forget to remember
The things that made you glad.
Always remember to forget
The friends that proved untrue.
But don't forget to remember
Those that have stuck by you.
Always remember to forget
The troubles that have passed away.
But never forget to remember
The blessings that come each day.
My Self At War....
Outside I sit,
in the pouring rain.
All i can feel,
is pent up pain.
My heart bleeds,
blankets of sadness.
It knows what it needs ,
in all this madness.
Break through these walls,
break through this skin.
of my own deadly sin.
Its what I do best.
I try and put,
this heart to the test.
Can you see,
this hurt building inside me.
No, please, please,
just let me be.
Sometimes this pain,
is all that I got.
I'd rather feel this,
then something thats not.
Theres no sunshine,
in my world today.
All I see,
is this sky of grey.
Just a burnt up haze,
let me fly.
Let me be,
you cannot help, this soul set free.
Some color,some realness,
I need in my life.
If I could just let it in,
I would be alright.
I fight it and yell at the top of my voice,
THIS IS JUST ME I HAVE NO CHOICE!!
Written by: Jessica 01/22/09
feeling alittle on the edge today....
Are You Serious?!?!?
Chizzled Pink Princess is one of the raddest people on Fubar.
She'd love to get the spotlight and I think we should see her there. Don't you?
? Chizzled Pink Princess@ fubar
Fan, Rate, Add, Bling her!Send her your fubucks, because seriously, how many e-drinks can ya buy? LOL!
¤ Chelsea.Smile ¤ FuGF of Ruby ?@ fubar
Blueprints For Future Homes - Norma Jean
Super Run 5k
Race next week! I'm running the Super run 5k, its my first race in California so far. I'm hoping that I won't be as sick like I'am right now.
Why Why Why?
Why, Why, Why
do we press harder on a remote control when we know the batteries are getting dead?
Why do banks charge a fee on "insufficient funds" when they know there is not enough money?
Why does someone believe you when you say there are four billion stars, but check when you say the paint is wet?
Why doesn't glue stick to the bottle?
Why do they use sterilized needles for death by lethal injection?
Why doesn't Tarzan have a beard?
Why does Superman stop bullets with his chest, but ducks when you throw a revolver at him?
Why do Kamikaze pilots wear helmets?
Whose idea was it to put an "S" in the word "Lisp"?
If people evolved from apes, why are there still apes?
Why is it that no matter what color bubble bath you use the bubbles are always whi te?
Is there ever a day that mattresses are not on sale?
Why do people constantly return to the refrigerator with hopes that something new to eat will have mater
Note: originally posted on my myspace page June of 2008
Allright, so the cath went ok. I did have one stent installed in a blocked artery and angioplasty to enlarge another that was too narrow for a stent. Only one real scary thing in the whole deal and that was in recovery when they have to put pressure when they pull out the applicator, which looks sort of like a big syringe. Well I had been laying still for about an hour and was starting to freak out a bit already. I can't stay still for that long on my back. So they gave me loratabs and a shot of morphine. He pulled back and said "uh oh, it's swelling". Not good. Well he put basically his entire frame on my incision and I came out of the bed even on the morphine. So another big shot of morphine and a xanax later and I was ok. Private room for the night with shit hanging all off me and nurse checks for BP and blood every couple hours. All in all it wasn't too bad. I just got the Account summary yesterday. forty f
New And Last Yahoo Id
CHANGING MY YAHOO ID AND IT WILL BE MY LAST.
firstname.lastname@example.org add it delte the neoserenity08 one if u got it love u all miss u. love rain.
To My Family And Top Friends
Sorry that i havent shown any of u any love in the past week er 2 but it has been very hectic for me and i have been very very busy with family issues,so i havent been on fu because of course rl comes 1st lol.. i just didnt want any of u thinking that i was slacking in my fubar luv area .. hope u all are doing great and much luv to each of you!! Everything is slowly but surely going back to normal so i shall return but until then Take care and ttys
One For The Money By Janet Evanovich
Plot Summary: First novels this funny and self-assured come along rarely; dialogue this astute and raunchy is equally unusual. The gutsy heroine introduced here is Stephanie Plum of Trenton, N.J., a recently laid-off lingerie buyer who has no job, no car and no furniture. She does have a hamster, a deranged grandmother, two caring parents and several pairs of biking shorts and sports bras. Finding work with her cousin Vinnie, she becomes a bond hunter and scrounges money enough to buy a gun, a Chevy Nova and some Mace. Her first assignment is to locate a cop accused of murder. Joe Morelli grew up in Stephanie's neighborhood. Possessed of legendary charm, he relieved Stephanie of her virginity when she was 16 (she later ran over him with a car). In her search, Stephanie catches her prey, loses him and grills a psychotic prizefighter, the employer of the man Morelli shot. She steals Morelli's car and then installs an alarm so he can't steal it back. Resourceful and tough, Stephanie has l
I Am A Jerk? This Is What I Get For Being Nice...
read bottom to top. he is no longer on my friend list! but me just trying to be nice and he got all bent out of shape with me.......hahahaha! reading his blogs he always said he wanted a female to respect him SO me....being nice...wrote him today....this is what happened....and then I blocked him and took him off my list...geesh!
SirX: i am bein jerk , well i would not talk ... trust me ...
SirX: nice to me really now ... you are the one who think i want relationship with you ... hell you said it not me ... you can go ahead and assume and trust me .... i dont want one with you
->SirX: you, Sir, are being a jerk and I have better friends I can talk to and they respect me
->SirX: well, I am not going to sit back and let you disrespect me by calling me a vanilla female when I have been nothing but nice to you.
SirX: just like the rest
->SirX: ok, let's just end this here....have a good day, SIr
SirX: did i say anything about you to come into lifestyle NO!
Soft And Warm
All I could think of was she looked even better in person. Face like a doll, body of my dreams, and eyes that make your heart stop. We smiled and hugged, she felt so good in my arms, so soft and warm. She smelled wonderful, good enough to eat. She looked up at me and I leaned in and kissed her. Her full wonderful lips felt so good. We kissed softly at first then slowly deeper, I could taste her now, our tongues danced together. I felt her hips push into me and her amazing breasts smash into my body. We knew right away we needed some privacy. We walked away thinking the same thing. Along the way we slipped into a deserted alleyway. I pulled her close and kissed her hard, my hands moving over her ass cheeks in big circles pulling them apart then pushing them together. I kissed the side of her neck just under her ear and traced my way down. “ I want you so bad “ I whisper. She lets out a low moan. My fingers trace there way down between her cheeks and feel her warmth, it
The snow kept falling and falling. Large, shapeless snowflakes were slowly and steadily making their way to the ground, creating a see-through curtain and covering everything with a sheet of virginal white monochrome. The cold winter sky was blending in at the horizon with a sea of whiteness while looming over the land in a solid layer of metallic gray, completely void of impurities and discolorations, and preventing any futile attempts of sunlight to get through. The trees, which just a day ago were desperately extending their bare skeletal limbs to the sky in a silent plea for vital sunlight, were now comfortably hidden beneath soft, bulky snowcoats, standing in orderly rows along the sides of a snow covered alley. In a complete silence, with which this bustling city was very unfamiliar, the time seemed to have stopped in its tracks, eternally capturing the world in a moment of frozen wonderland. All imperfections-chunky dull gray pavement, bits of colorful litter strewn here and the
Rating To Fast
Why is it that even if you rate slow you get the -rating to fast. ignored!- and now you can actually move to the other pic with out havin to leave a comment to get the bouncer check. but its getting annoying when you rate alot of pics.
As things lose grip,
Dont give in,
Sleep or pain,
You'll be fixed,
Whether it rains or snows,
The tiger watches everybody,
Upon all those disposed,
Via my hand or fist,
My legs or my paws,
Thou shall suffer.
Douche Bag Of The Day Pt. 4
theunforgi...: u know that pic about the dead juggalo baby u can go fuckurself u cunt that was just an innocent baby u can go to hell u fucking asshole i dont care if i get booted off for this that was low what u did man an innocent child and u got no sympathy wait till u meet the dark carnaval u aint going to shangrala for that shit man fuck
All that over a picture I posted in some juggacunt's mumm.
Apparently, this clown (pun intended) doesn't know about punctuation.
Observe, Question, Contemplate - Remix
THE SKY IS FALLING!!!! THE SKY IS FALLING!!!
A MOUNTAIN IS RISING!!! A MOUNTAIN IS RISING!!!
...oh wait, that was just an acorn falling on my head, and a mole hole tickling my toe.
Once upon a time I went to the great city of Miami. There I saw all manner of things I had never seen before. People were standing in the middle of huge, busy streets, running up to cars and offering fruit for sale. Giant ocean waves slooshed in to a gleaming white beach. Coconuts fell off trees into yards, instead of the pine cones of my natural habitat. What a lovely place...
Then I turned down a different sort of street -
"There was a crooked man and he walked a crooked mile. He found a crooked sixpence upon a crooked stile. He bought a crooked cat, which caught a crooked mouse. And they all lived together in a little crooked house."
- which means that within this glorious city of wonderous sites and warm ocean breezes, I met the face of humanity; rather, another of its faces. The face
How I Fucked Up
well ok here we go it started out like this
i was up all night like iam all the time during the night and i started to feel sleepy so i went to bed i got up around 5 am to go to my computer to check what i downloaded from the net well i have a table that is metal in my room and when i went to get up my arm hit it so hard i think i bruise the hell out of it so i wont be on fubar much for thos who care i doubt there are that many who do
also it seems iam unable to post anything since it say i have 175 pics and when in fact i dont so iam not sure whats up with that anyways good night for the real friends i do on here
shannon swallows stole $ 200000 from me
Hope For The Hopeless
Stitch in your knitted brow
And you don't know how
You're gonna get it out
Crushed under heavy chest
Trying to catch your breath
But it always beats you by a step, all right now
Making the best of it
Playing the hand you get
You're not alone in this
There's hope for the hopeless
There's hope for the hopeless
Cold in a summer breeze
Yeah, you're shivering
On your bended knee
Still, when you're heart is sore
And the heavens pour
Like a willow bending with the storm, you'll make it
Running against the wind
Playing the cards you get
Something is bound to give
There's hope for the hopeless
There's hope for the hopeless
Where you are seems to be
As far as an eternity
Outstretched arms open hearts
And if it never ends then when do we start?
I'll never leave you behind
Or treat you unkind
I know you understand
And with a tear in my eye
Give me the sweetest goodbye
That I ever did receive
Pushing forward and arching back
Bring me closer to heart attack
Say goodbye and just fly away
When you comeback
I have some things to say
How does it feel to know you never have to be alone
When you get home
There must be someplace here that only you and I could go
So I can show you how I feel
Dream away everyday
Try so hard to disregard
The rhythm of the rain that drops
And coincides with the beating of my heart
I'll never leave you behind
Or treat you unkind
I know you understand
And with a tear in my eye
Give me the sweetest goodbye
That I ever did receive
Quiet chilly Saturday morning
just the purring of a cat
she is helping my type this
she is a solace in this empty morning
silence hangs in the air
silence who sometimes is a friend
has left me cold and numb
Who created Fu Hoes
Have you ever wondered?
Would you suppose?
Where do they come from?
Who creates the fu hoes?
Well I used to wonder where they came from.
I found the answer and it made me feel dumb.
Hoes are not born , In fact they are raised.
That fact alone should leave you quite dazed.
Call it a calling that the word does need,
As long as we are horny and there is lusty greed.
We will need a world where there are greedy hoes.
We will need them as sure as a face needs a nose.
I found the some could through their mind find success.
Others achieve their dreams through a great lack of dress.
Yet we are drawn to watch and drool with desire.
We pass on the points and in turn feed the fire.
Give us the tease that makes our lusty loins burn.
We give you fu bucks and fu points in return.
And on ward it goes each topping the other.
We look at cleavage deep enough for us to smother.
Never do we tire of seeing more and more.
Let’s face the facts we all love the fu who
It seems that every once and a while in a persons life they feel that they have lost control. But for me, its more often that I do. Since I have built myself up from homelessness, I have lost control of my own home more than once. I get run over. Everyones happiness comes before mine. I can't talk in my own house, nor can I enjoy the simple things that make me happy. When I decide that I want to get on my computer, I never can. Someone else is always on and I have to wait my turn??? Since when should I need permission to get on my computer. When others are watching tv, I cant even talk because they cant hear the tv. So what can I do in my own house. Ive been going to bed earlier and earlier every day and when I wake up, I still cant use the computer. Some one else is still on it. Yes I am not taking my meds, but because I dont have any. Perhaps things will get better after tuesday when I have my shrink appointment and get meds. I dont know. But it seems as if all control
There’s places people never go, yet not all of them are real
Things the soul won’t touch or hold, or ever grasp or feel
And feelings never shared aloud in a whisper or a shout
Because lurking in the shadows is a killer known as “doubt”
There’s lands our eyes will never see, and food we’ll never taste
Times when we decide to crawl, when we should move with haste
Moments we should jump back in when we are climbing out
Blame it all on simple fear and a little thing called doubt
Often love and hope is standing there, just outside the door
But many never heed it’s knock so it passes by once more
And once again we miss the meaning, what it’s really all about
To the victor goes the spoils, and this victor’s name is doubt
But it’s not that hard to beat this foe, if one does it right
Because the one thing that it fears the most is illuminating light
That shows it’s face and tears away the darkness of it’s lair
And then we see that “doubt” is just a small child hudd
Your daily kiss fortune: Your luck is about to change. --- What was elusive will now be available when you are honest with your love, honesty and warmth will come back to you.
Letting Go But Not Forgetting
Due to events in my life in the last few years I have taken a long hard look at things. One of the things that I have been pondering is the statement I have heard from more than a few people giving me advice. That statement is "You have got to forget your past and move on...or You have to let go of your past and move on."
Here is what I have concluded about those two statements. You basically have three options with those two statements (that many people do not see being different from one another). First, you can forget your past. Second, you can let go of your past. And finally you can say that you choose to let go of and forget your past.
The first and third option basically say that to move on you have to forget all that happened. I don't agree with this. It is through our past that we learn how to make better decisions for our future. If we forget what has happened to us, then we take the risk of making the same mistakes again. Like the saying, "Those who do not learn from
NEW LOUNGE JUST OPENED. UNDER CONSTRUCTION. NOW HIRING ALL POSITIONS. STEELER FANS ONLY. PLZ SB ME OR PM ME IF INTERESTED. HOPE TO SEE YOU THERE SOON. WOLHEART PLZ REPOST
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I have heard several times recently that the definition of insanity is: Doing the exact same thing over and over again, each time expecting different results. Someone even attributed that to Albert Einstein. I'm not convinced he said it, but I AM convinced it's a valid observation. And I must be the MOST insane person upon this rock. At some point, I will need to get off the merry go round simply for the sake of self preservation.
I once did a little bit of research and corresponding with an Al-Anon group, strictly for my own benefit. It seems that their main thought is that one must emotionally detach from their addict/loved one in order to survive and preserve their own sanity within the relationship. My thought is this----why on Earth would I WANT to maintain a relationship in which I must detach my heart in order to merely survive? And survive what? Being the lowest priority on someone else's list, if I make the "list" at all? Isn't the entire idea of relationship to share intim
Cradle Of Filth
I'm seeing a Cradle of Filth concert in a while. So excited!!! Been a while since I've been to a concert.... can't wait!!
Why do I get awarded points for been online?
I'm not complaining as it's the easiest points I've ever earned, but it is a bit strange lol. I got awared 105 for been online twice yesterday...
That's all. =]
My Saving Grace
Possible entry for Beyond Paralaxx at my college... Yay or Nay??
Curly hair falls messily across her forehead – dark, soft, untouched. Her bright blue-silver eyes sparkle and her mouth curves up in a mischievous grin as she taps her finger on her upper lip. As I glance away I notice, from the eyes in the back of my head, her fingers shoot up quickly going halfway into her nose as her eyes shift my way to see if she’s been caught. She has. As I reach out to grab her hand she squeals, loudly, and stomps suddenly as she laughs at my “stern” expression.
“Child, what are you doing?” I ask with mock horror.
I grab her belly, giving little soft pinches and tickles up her stomach then across her back, smiling at the laughter and screeches that drift to my ears.
“Spider bite, spider bite!” I scream as she runs, slipping to the ground with a giggle.
My heart swells. I can feel love growing inside my chest, moving up to feed the dopey grin spreading across my lips. As I watch I f
Work In Progress
I stand here in the darkness of the ally as I watch thee from a distance, I watch as the wind pick’s up and blow’s through your dark blackish blue hair; you wrap your arms around each other pulling your leather coat closer, trying to cut the chill away from your body. I can sense your fear raises off your body like steam, it’s radiating out of every pore of your body and I simply stand here and watch; feeling my hunger grow ever more.
I will not take thee tonight for I don’t want my hunger to take control over me as I feed from you and risk draining every last bit of your life essences from thee. For now I shall turn my back and wonder back down the ally and find a poor drunk willing to come back to my haven with me. As I wonder from bar to bar mingling and only acting like one of them for the drink does not warm my blood nor gives me a buzz. Not finding any one to feed on here for they all have family’s, friends, or working in high place’s that if they where to disapper then it wou
Autos On - Returning Love
I just activated my Auto 11s bling at 9am futime. It's my very first time running them. Those of you who know me know that I try to return all love I receive. I watch my bartab but feel free to leave comments or send me a private message so I can keep track and return any love you give me.
Thanks in advance to all who help me out.
XOXO - Support the Troops
Through tears made of crystal drops & smiles shining bright
Nobody can lose what they have
Things we've lost & gained in a powerfull fist
The memories still strongly exist
The stones still stand there ground
past the trees made of solid wood
Through blades of green green fields
If destiny calls one runs fast
Fly through the clouds to my destionation
Up to the skys on stars of gold
Can youy take me Higher
Light still flicker
The doves will still fly
Passing by in Ivory clouds
As the engines roar of a silver beast
Touching on the grey asphalt in harmony
iNTO THE ARMS OF FRIENDS & confides
Nothing that is found can be lost
In company & warmth
FLogs burn upon the fire
Glowing embers rising in gold flakes
The porch doors open slowly
The lanterns burning bright on the wall
The Wolves Howl under the moon
The faint smell of food waves on the breeze
With the Autumn leaves fluttering past
Into the fire as the smoke rises high
They pass out in gentle laughter!
.............just In One Day ..........
I woke early this morning and had breakfast and walked the dog ...came hoe said hi to friiends on fubar had a shower and dressed for work .....Little did I know today would be a day I wish i could errase ...
I have been called to help identify 14 people burt to death in horrific bush fires we are having ....6 they say are in this car ..so in my mind is it a little family is it friends helping each other ...will I remember their names for months to come will I have id for any ...and to me this is my job yet I have tears for these people and i gently remove some jewellery and i look at the design ..i have seen the design before its young and pretty and sweet .Is the owner a teenager - did she have a pro dress to choose this year or is she just starting high school ..the tears roll down my face as i hear the radio saying we have 4 more and we have no access can you get through ....I cant speak I cant even move my lips ...I listen and I breath ..............and I stand up dust the black
The Pot... Tool
And these guys.. I'd sell my youngest to see them!
Who are you to wave your finger?
Ya' must have been out your head.
Eye hole deep in muddy waters.
You practically raised the dead.
Rob the grave, to snow the cradle.
Then burn the evidence down.
Soapbox, house of cards, and glass,
So don't go tossin' your stones around.
You must have been high.
You must have been high.
You must have been.
Foot in mouth, and head up asshole.
Whatcha talkin' 'bout?
Difficult to dance 'round this one
'til you pull it out, boy!
You must have been, so high.
You must have been, so high.
Steal, borrow, refer, save your shady inference.
kangaroo done hung the juror with the innocent.
Now you're weeping shades of cozened indigo
Got lemon juice up in your...EYE!
When you pissed all over my black kettle
You must have been HIGH, HIGH
You must have been HIGH, HIGH
Who are you to wave your finger?
So full of it.
Eyeballs deep in muddy waters
You have a Sexual IQ of 157
When it comes to sex, you are a super genius. You have had a lot of experience, and sex interests you so you know a lot about it. You pride yourself on being a source of information and guidance to all of your friends.
'What is your Sexual IQ?' at QuizUniverse.com
Your personality type:
Warm-hearted, popular and conscientious. Tend to put the needs of others over their own needs. Feel strong sense of responsibility and duty. Value traditions and security. Interested in serving others. Need positive reinforcement to feel good about themselves. Well-developed sense of space and function.
Careers that could fit you include:
Home economics, nursing, teaching, administrators, child care, family practice physician, clergy, office managers, counselors, social workers, bookkeeping, accounting, secretaries, organization leaders, dental assistants, homemakers, radiological technologists, receptionists, religious educators, speech pathologists.
i know shame on me for not being on here its to nice top sit in the house. and if you were on my family list and yoour not now, dont take it personal, i took everyone out the other night for a few and havent been on to put people back on so quit sending butthurt messeges or i wont add you back, its just fubar people....
ok ill be back when im back
I know I haven't really put up an update recently so I thought I would add one. My first set still goes up on March 9 and I have another going up on April 11.
Right now it is basically a big waiting game for me. I am trying to get to know as many people as possible and make friends before my sets go up. Other than that there isn't a whole lot to do as far as getting in. As soon as my pics are posted on the site on March 9 I will have more informative updates hopefully!
Other than that I am working a lot, always planning my next shoot and looking for some paid work modeling if possible. So if you know anyone who is legit, needs models and will pay then I'm so in! haha I am also trying to relocate to the Ft. Worth area or possibly somewhere on the beach in FL. but I am still trying to get my thoughts together on all of that. I'm mainly looking for jobs at pools as a manager, swim coach, swim lesson instructor, things like that but I am also about to start taking cla
The wind blows hard the night was a quiver, the water flowed down a silent river. The moon shone bright on this darkened night the evilness was about
To take flight. They flew across this darn filled sky, their winds flapping; their eyes open wide, searching for something to fill their stomachs, fresh skin fresh meat sound so tantalizing.
A lonely women walks down a lonely road, but doesn't realize what’s about to unfold, their shimmering cries fly around her head, her time comes now, to a bloody death.
They swoop down to the bushes and trees, and hide in the grass so they can't be seen. The woman walks unaware of her fate, but the evilness lies, the evilness waits. The wind gets strong on this quivering night, the screams echo has the time draws by. Their eyes start to glow, their teeth shinning bright. Their stomachs getting their feast in sight.
The woman walks till the end of the road; she quivers for she is not alone. A warm breathe shudders around her neck, a sharp feeling s
I had been crying and crying for weeks
How'd I survive when I could barely speak?
Barely eat, on my knees
But that's the moment you came to me
I don't know what your love has done to me
Think I'm invincible
I see through the me I used to be
You changed my whole life
Don't know what you're doing
To me with your love
I'm feeling all superhuman you did this to me
A superhuman heart beats in me
Nothing can stop me here with you
I feel so superhuman
I feel so superhuman
Since I been flying and righting the wrongs
Feels almost like I had it all along
I can see tomorrow
Where every problem is gone because
I flew everywhere with love inside of me
It's unbelievable to see
How love can set me free
You changed my whole life
Don't know what you're doing
To me with your love
I'm feeling all superhuman you did this to me
A superhuman heart beats in me
Nothing can stop me here with you
I feel s
Lost In The Unknown
Could you have been the one I wanted
Your life could have sank
I have traveled this life alone
If only I'd have found you sooner
Maybe you'd have found me saner
Now I'm lost in the unknown
I want to fly away with you
If I had crosses to bear then
I'll accept being there
It was all For you
But if the damage is great
Maybe you were too late
I will Just keep drifting through
Traveling on until my life is gone
You could break me like no one could
I want to fly away with you
I want to fly into your sky
Much love to all of my friends old + new .
can't help but get pissed off at non-giving a sh-t kids . 2 of the 3 I have seem to not care
about anything but thierselves . I understand more about how teens are but damn !!
"Friends" don't seem to so much , ones who actually "know" my situation do . Yea , I'm kinda mad . oh well . I'll just be fake n play happy .
Winds Of Change
I once had friends
to talk to every day
but then the winds of change blew
and took them all away
I once had a lover
to see me through times of gray
but then the winds of change blew
and we went our separate ways
I once had a joyful heart
full of merry and gay
then the winds of change blew
and took my heart away
I once had innocence
as pure as the month of may
but then the winds of change blew
and corruption's here to stay
For when the wind blows
it blows hard its true
but when the wind blows
what can we do?
I once had a friends
I once had a lover
I once had a joyous heart
I once had innocence
I have these things no more
For the winds of change blew
Flowing through and through
I am not who I was, unto the nevermore
Clouds bellow in the distance
Burst of wind ravages the meadow
Uprooted, tossed away --Rewind
On the edge, a tree stands tall
Flourished in beauty; strucked
Slanted, falls -- Rewind
2 Squirrels play along side a tree
Jaguar in the shadows strikes; swipes
Echos, avalanche -- Rewind
A honey bee makes its rounds
"Buzzzz", Flying; Dodges leaves
Spider web, caught --Rewind
You and I, camping trip
Lost of Direction; Arguments
We split into different paths
Tao Of Cajun
Pulling yesterday while holding on to today as I reach for tomorrow
Standing in one spot in three different times
Pulled three different ways
Smile as yin and yang swirl in a sphere inside of each other yet completely oposite
Let go of yesterday push away tomorrow
Today right now breathe
Hold your hand in front of your face
See the hand of god.....
A Test To See Who Likes You And Who Just Thinks You're A Statistic...
Here is an irrefutable argument to find out who genuinely likes you in the Lounges and who just thinks you're another statistic for their lounge…
If you’re like me and just prefer to visit lounges rather than join them, this may be your situation too…
you've been going into a certain lounge as a visitor for a while but not showing any inclination of actually joining - you just go in and chat to the regulars.
After so long (when they realise) they seem to ask you to subscribe to their lounge. They usually say something like "We'd love to have you as part of our family" and they sometimes even post the link for you...
If that sounds like the situation you're normally in, just say to them "can't I just continue to be a visitor seeing as it makes no difference regarding my visiting of the lounge anyway?" and take not of what happens! If they ban or eject you for it or try to argue with you about subscribing you then have your answer!
You know that they don't actually thi
Unknown Love And Destiny Pt 10
Giving him a weak smile, she stepped inside. Looked around at the buildings inside and the grounds. Staring at the monks, she leaned
towards Michael. "What are they doing?"
"Praying and welcoming you in their own way. They have devoted themselves to serve you. I have worked with them before" he lead her
down the path between the monks to one of the rooms in the back.
"Serve me? Oh.. because of the prophecy thing. Right. Is this where I am staying?"
The room was small and boring, a simple bed and a old dresser was all there was. "Yes, I am sorry it's not up to your usual standards" he
lead her inside.
"Well, I didn't mean it that way. It's just small and I don't exactly have much stuff anymore, do I." Gasping. "Gods, please tell me there is a real bathroom here."
"Yes, they have that at least. But it's only got a toilet in it" he answered.
Groaning aloud. "You must be joking. How am I going to stay clean?"
she asked as she flopped onto the bed, causing dust to rise
No Sleep For The Truly Wicked
this wicked heart takes its toll on the body
i have become a donor.giving seems proper in light of it all
will i bleed out and fade away
will i make myself the victim of my own recurring fate
can one die and rise like the phoenix of myth
time passes,hints catch my eye like gold flecks on the edges of a well woven tapestry....
time passes,idol hands take there toll on the crown jewel of hope
time passes,unoccupied thoughts lead to paranoid assumptions
are misleading thoughts ones denial and repression
can ones thoughts lead so far askew that the hunter becomes the haunted
like a disease this fire spreads throughout this vessel
from the center out to the farthest reaches
this wicked heart takes its toll on the body
i have become a donor,is giving proper in light of it all
is the phoenix dying to ascend
or is the heart merely rejecting the vessel
is the answer the true treasure or the unending burden
There was a little dude and he walked into an elevator. standing next to him was a huge dude. The huge dude turned and said to the little dude .. " before you ask me any quesitons im just gonna tell you the answers to what people usaully ask me .. im 7'2" 375 lbs 2lbs left testicle 2lbs right testical 15" penis and my name is Turner Brown." then little dude looks at the big dude in horror and the big dude says " whats the matter? all i did was tell you that im 7'2" 375 lbs 2lbs left testicle 2lbs right testical 15" penis and my name is turner brown." and the little dude says " oh! thank god! i thought you said turn around!"
Every Girls Dream
Every girl dreams that one day she will find a guy that does these things for her. even the smallest action can have the BIGGEST impact in someone’s life.
give her one of your t-shirts to sleep in.
leave her cute text notes.
kiss her in front of your friends.
tell her she looks beautiful.
look into her eyes when you talk to her.
let her mess with your hair.
touch her hair.
just walk around with her.
FORGIVE her for her MISTAKES.
look at her like she's the only girl you see.
tickle her even when she says stop.
hold her hand when you're around your friends.
when she starts swearing at you, tell her you love her.
let her fall asleep in your arms.
get her mad, then kiss her.
stay on the phone with her even if she’s not saying anything
tease her and let her tease you back.
stay up all night with her when she's sick.
watch her favorite movie with her.
give her the world.
let her wear your clothes.
when she's sad, hang out with her.
let her kno
Chasing Your Dreams
There's a weary young boy swimming lap after lap
On a cold windy day after school;
But the grandstand is empty, there's no one to clap
When he finally climbs from the pool.
But his mind remains focused, he blocks out the cold,
And he thinks of a future that gleams
With a brightness reflected by medals of gold -
He's a boy who is chasing his dreams.
There's a waitress who works in a run-down cafe
In the town that she always called home,
And she dreams, as she's clearing the dishes away,
About London, and Paris and Rome.
In the evenings she works in the pub, serving beer,
With no time to herself, so it seems;
But she cheerfully strives for a goal that is dear -
She's intent upon chasing her dreams.
On a street in the suburbs a young couple stare
At the house they are hoping to buy.
It is old and neglected, but what so they care?
They are young, and their hopes are set high.
" A Gift Box "
Inside this tiny box, I have carefully wrapped and placed four special gifts just for you. I did not borrow them or purchase them, they were gave to me by God to share with you.
"Faith", was the first one I placed in the box, because I have Faith in God he will protect you to keep you safe from harm.
"Hope", was the second one I placed in the box, because Hopes are made of prayers that your journey thru life will bring you much joy, laughter and peace.
"Happiness", was the third one I placed in the box, because with this your heart can smile and you can shine your light so bright for others to see.
"Love", is the fourth thing I placed in the box, because it took, Faith, Hope, Happiness, to place it gently in my hands to give to you.
This gift box is like our friendship, it does not carry a pricetag.
Pennies From Heaven
My father died in July of 1999. I was living in Tennessee at the time, and got THE call from my brother. He only calls me when there's bad news.
I boarded my flight and headed back to the Bay Area to assist in the arranging of burying my father.
Now, my family is the poster family for dysfunctional. Before I even thought of getting on that flight, I was at my doctors office getting some mothers little helpers for this gathering I was so not looking forward to. Thank God for Xanex.
So, there I am with my brother, having an extremely difficult time with this. Issues between us are surfacing, without my permission I might add, and getting through this ordeal is even harder than I expected! Even with the wonder drug in my hot little hands!
So within minutes after the funeral, I am back on the plane, heading home. He and I arranged to have my fathers ashes divided into three parts. One for him, one for me, and the last for the urn to be placed in the niche we chose for him a
A hot smokey beautiful blonde
With another blonde
Give each other a kiss
As the room get's hotter
When the light go down
The clothes come off
For their beautiful bodies
To fragrance the heatness
An the smell of their bodies
Breasts pressed against eachother
With each moan
That the bond grow's
To a cold shower
They go for more fun
Broken Dreams - Track 4 - Fools Rush In
None of the characters in this story are real and any relation to anyone dead or living is pure luck. I apologize for any wrong use of United Kingdom English because I am not that familiar with United Kingdom slang. Any input would be welcome and any flaming will be ignored. This is the sequel to my story "Bad November". If you haven’t read that stop then please read it first.
Also if 2 male characters being romantically involved sickens you please don't read. If you're still interested please keep reading. One last note, if anyone wishes to copy my story please get permission first (Not that I think that will happen but who knows).
Lyrics from Fools Rush In
Not sure where I was going/ Not sure if you knew where to lead/ Woke up before the disaster/ Now I wish I was dead/ Only fools rush in
Track 4 – Fools Rush In
The conversation with my parents lasted for hours. After both sides talked all we could about the topic we were emotionally drained. Yet th
The Box, By Abercrombie Lascelles
Once upon a time, in the land of Hush-A-Bye,
Around about the wondrous days of yore,
They came across a kind of box
Bound up with chains and locked with locks
And labeled "Kindly do not touch; it's war."
A decree was issued round about, and all with a flourish and a shout
And a gaily colored mascot tripping lightly on before.
Don't fiddle with this deadly box,Or break the chains, or pick the locks.
And please don't ever play about with war.
The children understood. Children happen to be good
And they were just as good around the time of yore.
They didn't try to pick the locksOr break into that deadly box.
They never tried to play about with war.
Mommies didn't either; sisters, aunts, grannies neither
'Cause they were quiet, and sweet, and pretty
In those wondrous days of yore.
Well, very much the same as now,
And not the ones to blame somehow
For opening up that deadly box of war.
But someone did. Someone battered in the lid
And spilled the insides out across the fl
What Do I Do With This?
DEAR BLOG IM WRITING IN UR BULLSHIT PAGES BECAUSE MY FRIENDS ARE CRAZIER THAN I AM THEY THINK IF I CAN WRITE THIS DOWN THEN IT WILL HELP ME GET OVER IT. I MEET A GUY I KNOW NOTHING ABOUT LIVE OFER 2000 MILES AWAY AND YET COULD STILL HAVE THE POSSBILTY OF LOVE AND WHAT DO, I OF COURSE DO WHAT I AM GOOD AT FUCK IT UP LIKE I DO EVERY RELANTIONSHIP BUT I THINK THIS ONE MEANT SOMETHING DIFFRENT BECAUSE I NEVER THOUGHT I COULD FALL IN LOVE WITH SOMEONE OFER THE INTENET AND I DID SO NOW I HAVE TO FIND AWAY TO MOVE ON AND GET OVER IT WOW NOW THAT IS SO MUCH EASIER SAID THEN DONE ISNT IT GET OVER IT LOL IF IT WAS THAT SIMPLY I WOULDNT BE WRITING THIS IN HERE NOW WOULD I .I HAVE HONESTLY SAY THAT DRAMA CAN HAPPEN ANYWHERE U ARE.
i dont normaly talk about my child hood but it explains alot about me and who i am and why im the way i am. this will be a bit hard for me but i guese take a deep breathe and get it over w and i swear to god none of you better feel sorry for me. i was born in californis my mom was in the airforce and so i was always at a baby sitters. all my babysitters were physicaly abusive according to my mom the only thing i remember from that early inmy life is when i was four i was at a babysitters and she was curling my hair. she took a knife out and told me that if i didnt gfet in my moms room shed kill me. so i ran but my mom had locked her door. she took me by the hair and sat down and said well your going to well you guys can get the picture i was forced to give her oral. my mom says she took me to therapy and they said i was to young id never remember well i did. my mom was pghysicaly and emotionaly as well as verbally abusive pretty much my whole life as well as her partners. ive h
Remember The Good Ones
I just got off the phone with my dad, he was telling me that my great uncle passed away yesterday. He was a really cool guy, a World War II vet, part of the 101st Airborne. He was part of the invasion on D-Day, he flew a glider behind enemy lines and was there for some time.
He was also one of the members of the Louisiana Hayride, the precursor to the Grand Ole Opry.
Only purpose of this is to let you know to remember the people in your lives who have come before you. Take time to hear their stories, learn about their pasts. They slip away from us every day, even when we don't want them to go.
This Will Make Ur Ass Laugh
Arcelor-Mittal Steel, feeling it was time for a shakeup, hired a new CEO.
The new boss was determined to rid the company of all slackers.
On a tour of the facilities, the CEO noticed a guy just standing around and
leaning against a wall. The room was full of workers and he wanted to let
them know that he meant business. He asked the guy, "How much money do you
make a week?"
A little surprised, the young man looked at him and replied, "I make $400 a
The CEO told him, "Wait right here." He then walked back to his office,
came back in two minutes and handed the guy $1,600 in cash and screamed,
"Here's four weeks' pay, now GET OUT and don't come back."
Feeling pretty good about himself, the CEO looked around the room and asked,
"Does anyone want to tell me what that goof-ball did here?"
From across the room came a voice, "Pizza delivery guy from Domino's."
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A Roomier American Dream And Wrecking My Paper News
“While some people are struggling to keep their homes, the vast majority of Americans still have plenty to be thankful for when they walk through the front door. In 1950 the typical new American house had one floor with 1,000 square feet, two bedrooms, and one bathroom – and even that bungalow was beyond many people’s means. Nearly half of Americans didn’t own their homes, and more than a third of homes lacked complete plumbing facilities.
Today, more than two thirds of Americans own their homes, and the typical new house has two floors, at least three bedrooms, two and a half baths, and more than 2,200 square feet of space for the family.”
And in our “typical new house” (I don’t know what the square footage is, but it’s considered two and a half floors since we also have a basement doubling as living space) I have a sick son who threw up for the second night in a row – his aunt Mary told me yesterday when she called me at work that Jeffrey said his bed sheet was “icky” from wh
Last night at 2am I was outside smoking at work, when I heard this terrible barking noise, like 2 dogs are getting hit or something. Then they were howling. It completely freaked me out, since it sounded just a coupla feet away in the woods. They were goin nuts, and I called the cops. Thats when they said that those were...coyotes. I was freaked out that those things would come into the lobby (it already happened once) in a pack or something, so the cops said they would send in the patrol car to check it out. Since I'm typing this, I wasn't mauled or anything But I was expecting to.
Whats worse than coyotes? A pestering guy that wouldn't leave me alone at work. He is from India, and is super nice and funny. But it gets stale when he comes up to the FD when I just get there, then tries flirting for hours. Dont you get the hint that I dont feel like talkin when I'm messaging to my friends on yahoo and not even lookin at you??
Last night he asked me out to an Indian res
Angry And Yet Hopefull
Never in life have I been a vindictive person usually just let stuff roll right off my back and chalk it up to a lesson learned and a mistake I won't let happen again. Going through divorce is really testing me . I have two constants in my life right now first I love my children , and second I truly love a man that came into my life at a time I least expected it . So many things are out wieghing my constants that some days I am so over whelmed and fighting off anger and being miserable . The soon to be X husband swore he would never take the kids away from me , but hell he swore his vows too and fucked them all up one by one . Hard to trust anyone after being with someone 16 years watching your youth fly by and over time hating yourself more and more . Being a firm believer that no matter what you are going through someone else is going through something a bit worse I find myself sitting here pushing on and pushing foward. The kids have been sick and on "his days" have been left for me
So I have joined an Urban Explorer group on meetup.
They go and explore Chicago, its abandoned buildings, historical monuments, etc. Right up my alley.
I really hope it wont be a fiasko, like the Ghost Hunting group full of kooks.
Our lips touched
The sparks flew
The lights in the sky
They glow for me and you
With each candle light dinner
Each rose and candy too
Every poorly written poem
These things I do with you
All too often my words get lost
And sometimes I forget
To say how much I love you
With each moment since we met
My Deepest Apologies
I would like to take this time and write this blog to apologize to everyone that i have ever hurt, lied to and pissed off. My sincerest apologizes. i know a lot of the time i can be selfish and narrow minded. I admit i jump the gun quite often and this is not a good thing. So in order for me to keep the friends i have and once had i need to be more open minded and less judgmental. I don't expect the friends i once had to come running back, but to just let them know that i am sorry for the wrong i said and did and hope for their forgiveness. Thank you for taking the time in reading this.
Not Leaving Yet
WELL. MOST OF YOU KNOW I WAS SUPPOSED TO FLY TO SOTHERN CALIF ON SUNDAY AFTERNOON TO START MY DRIVER ORIENTATION ON MONDAY WITH WERNER ENTERPRISES. BEEN PLANNING THIS FOR OVER A MONTH NOW...GAVE MY EMPLOYER NOTICE AN THURSDAY WAS MY LAST DAY THERE...LEFT ON REALLY GOOD TERMS TOO..HAD MY PLANE TICKET TO ONTERIO CA. DID SOME SHOPPING FOR THINGS I WOULD NEED FOR THE TRIP AND AT LEAST 2 WEEKS ON THE ROAD BEFORE GETTING HOME. HAD IT ALL PLANNED RIGHT TO THE TEE.
SO I GET A CALL THURSDAY FROM MY RECRUITER AND HE TELLS ME DUE TO THE LACK OF TRAINERS IN THE AREA THE ORIENTATION HAS BEEN CANCELLED FOR NEXT WEEK...DON'T KNOW WHEN THEY WILL RESCHEDULE..
NOW WERE TALKING ABOUT A TOP 5 (IN THE COUNTRY) COMPANY AND THEY DIDN'T KNOW SOONER THIS WAS COMMING????? I WAS FLOORED...NOW I HAVE NO JOB,,,,A USELESS PLANE TICKET AND WAS JUST BASICLY PISSED OFF AT THE WORLD.
SO ME BEING THE WAY I AM I WAS ON THE PHONE AT ONCE TALKING TO OTHER COMPANIES WHO HAVE SHOWN INTEREST. I WILL HAVE ANOTHER PLA
U Make Me Want To Thow Up.
your face makes me sick.
your voice makes me sick.
every thing about you makes me want to thow up.
yes u make me want to thow up...
i feel soooo sorry for the next one....
As I lay here,
I sit and think
About yesterday, today and tomorrow.
All I can do is think.
About abuse, love, hope, pain distance and loss.
I can't help but feel alone,
living in a world of faceless people.
You think you see a face once in a while
But its a mask. An image of who they want you to see.
They look at you and never actually see you for who you really are.
Our faces are not even who we are deep inside
We are sad, vulnerable, weak, jaded and alone.
In the end, that's what we are inside; totally alone.
Sure you let people in, but we are vacant and unoccupied.
Just an empty vessel of mankind, eager and wanting to be filled with love or any ounce of joy or happiness.
Trapped in an empty house with no one around, no family, no love.
As I lay here,
I sit and think.
I think I am alone.
By: Rosalinda Solis
When Do You Say 'i'm Done'?
Sometimes, you have to ask yourself when enough is enough. It pretty much applies to everything, I guess. Food, beer, relationships...at some point you have to decide if it is worth the pain, annoyance, or irritation. Some people say that we're a generation that gives up too easily, and I say that's bullshit. After years of Go, Go, Go, a person has a right to ask himself if he's actually getting anywhere. I've seen marriages end after 40 years, and while I have NO idea how that can happen, I can understand why it happens. At some point, you have to ask yourself if it's really worth it all. You gotta know that when you die - like we all will at some point - whether it was worth it. A lot of people think that it's just the way things are, but I think we make our way in life. I think you gotta just let it go when it's eating you like a cancer inside. Otherwise, it's just slow suicide.
I've stood on the edge of quitting it all a few times, and I keep looking at falling on the si
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Trying plenty ways to get laid, all memories of past acts never fade.
Every time the same trick or trade, innocent fool the mistakes been made.
In six months I went through a whole lot,and now I can say I was well taught.
Maybe every emotion wasn't really saught, but then again I gained what can't be sold nor bought.
Chances and regrets make life sort of rough, with strengths and thoughts I've become more tough.
This happened yesterday and I can tell I have had enough, too much pain has taken place need a man-made love buff.
People take turns in command its push and shove, my belief helps me view friends above.
Still through out this life experience reveals love, even if you figure your self protection starts with a rubber glove.
Foolish is what I was and can be, but have a heart when you turn from me.
Feel Me Up
Day by day you allow me to feel great, my words are actually questioning fate. I don't know what path to choose, late at night I wander with blown mind and fuse. Can't love again, frightened of loss and pain, maybe I could heal when I notice my gain.
Suppose to do so much alone, just favors asked because I worship the bone. Not many offer help so they can't see, they aren't here for themselves or me. Need a lifetime partner or mate, to raise my spirits with love not hate.
Hear me I feel you can listen, I want you to know your one in a million. See me I don't want the same, my heart sunk when I found out its a game. He is my only evidence of lifetime love, gonna look for feeling again even if its only from above.
I am not angry just down and sad, feel me up because I don't have what I had.
DATE OPPONENT TIME (ET) Location Result
Mon, Sep 22nd, 2008 at Toronto 07:30 PM Air Canada Centre L (7 - 4)
Tue, Sep 23rd, 2008 at Montreal 07:00 PM Roberval, QC L (3 - 2)
Sat, Sep 27th, 2008 Toronto 07:00 PM HSBC Arena W (3 - 2)
Sun, Sep 28th, 2008 Minnesota 07:00 PM HSBC Arena L (2 - 1)
Wed, Oct 1st, 2008 at Minnesota 08:00 PM Xcel Energy Center L (3 - 2)
Thu, Oct 2nd, 2008 at Columbus 07:00 PM Nationwide Arena W (5 - 2)
Sun, Oct 5th, 2008 at Detroit 05:00 PM Joe Louis Arena L (3 - 0)
Fri, Oct 10th, 2008 Montreal 07:30 PM HSBC Arena W (2 - 1)
Mon, Oct 13th, 2008 at NY_Islanders 02:00 PM Nassau Veterans Memorial Colis W (7 - 1)
Wed, Oct 15th, 2008 at NY_Rangers 07:00 PM Madison Square Garden W (3 - 1)
Fri, Oct 17th, 2008 Vancouver 07:30 PM HSBC Arena W (5 - 2)
Sat, Oct 18th, 2008 at Atlanta 07:00 PM Philips Arena L (3 - 2)
Tue, Oct 21st, 2008 Boston 07:00 PM HSBC Arena W (3 - 2)
Thu, Oct 23rd, 2008 at Minnesota 08:00 PM Xcel Energy Center W (4 - 3)
Oh everyone's a little nutty, it's plain if you let yourself see
everyone's a little nutty , maybe as nutty as me
everybody's a little bit nutty if you're black or white or grey
everybody's a little bit nutty it's why we're here today
everyone's a little nutty if you're straight or Bi or gay
everyone's a little nutty no matter what you think or do or say
everybody's a little bit nutty if you're hard at work or play
everybody's a little bit nutty it's easy to be that way
everyone's a little nutty it's survival of the fittest
everyone's a little nutty the nutty tend to do the best
everybody's a little bit nutty if you're fuzzy or hairy or bald
everybody's a little bit nutty no matter what you're called
the world is a nutty place, you have got to be a little nutty or you're just not living.
You gain strength, courage and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. You are able to say to yourself, 'I have lived through this horror. I can take the next thing that comes along.' you must do the things you think you cannot do.
Fubar Does Not Equal Life.
I just want to make it known, that I am on fubar for fun.
I'm on fubar to be rated, added, fanned, blinged...what have you.
I will add anyone, and request anyone, because I enjoy the random shout conversations and random gifts...etc.
I wasn't on here to meet people although, I have became friends with people, and I met somene whom, I will be starting a relationship with.
Most, if not all my personal friends don't even have a fubar, and we hang out all the time...
Fubar is fun...I get on daily...although I'm not always active on it.
Fubar is NOT my life...I have alot going on in my personal life right now...and the biggest is getting into my career...and school.
so please. Just know that FUBAR is FUN.
save the drama for your mama...cause I aint dealing with it.
A Special World
A special world for you and me
A special bond one cannot see
It wraps us up in its cocoon
And holds us fiercely in its womb.
Its fingers spread like fine spun gold
Gently nestling us to the fold
Like silken thread it holds us fast
Bonds like this are meant to last.
And though at times a thread may break
A new one forms in its wake
To bind us closer and keep us strong
In a special world, where we belong.
Before I Forget ~ Slipknot
Stapled shut, inside and ouside would and I'm
Sealed in tight, bizarre but right at home
Claustrophobic, closing in and I'm
Catostrophic, not again
I'm smeared across the page, and doused in gasoline
I wear you like a stain, yet I'm the one who's obscene
Catch me up on all your sordid little insurrections,
I've got no time to lose, and I'm just caught up in all the cattle
Fray the strings
Throw the sheathes
Hold your breath
I am a world before I am a man
I was a creature before I could stand
I will remember before I forget
BEFORE I FORGET THAT!
I'm ripped across the ditch, and settled in the dirt and I'm
I wear you like a stitch, yet I'm the one who's hurt
Pay attention to your twisted little indiscrestions
I've got no right to way, I'm just caught up all the battles
Locked in clutch
Pushed in place
Hold your breath
I am a world before I am a man
I was a creature before I could stand
I will remember before I forget
Is This Right
How the hell do you be married and lonely at the same time...always wondering if this is the right thing or not...shit ..i got laid more when i was single and was never board...always had company and now its like i am married and alone all the time..this cant be right ...willing to listen to advice
Happy Birthday Piedaddy
Please lets everybody take time and show some love to PieDaDDY for his Birthday 02-28 !!! If you know him ya luv him! He is the best and will help anyone, so lets show our support!! Thank You
Love was the former owner, but quiet is renting Our house
It seizes my lips from speaking, but forms a sarcastic smile
Suspence now raised one of your eyebrows, you ask me if there's someone else
I replied yes, hell yes
You asked me if it's another man, I say no
You laughed and say is it a woman, I say yeah
Surprisingly you asked for honey's name,
And her name is me,
And she loves me more than you'll ever know,
And I finally see that loving you and loving me just don't seem to work at all,
So patiently, she's waiting on me to tell you that she needs love,
And to choose between you two,
you know if I have to choose, I choose me
And she told me to tell you to never to hurt me again,
Cuz if you haven't heard she's a badass chick, eventhough I havent been,
I'm leaving don't try and stop me,
I'm late and she is waiting,
My love for me is too much so I can't stay
Cause shes actually formin' a threesome, and I'm happy that I can join them, and
The Unknown Soldier
The unknown soldier,
I'm sorry, I don't know your name.
How do you handle your stardom ?
Cope with anonymous fame ?
We owe you so much,
have so much to be thankful for,
you gave your life for us,
fighting someone else's bloody war.
And I try to picture you,
teenaged and full of spirit,
I don't believe you would have questioned,
the war, and why you was in it.
So you would have said farewell,
to your family, maybe a friend,
never thought about not coming back,
didn't imagine your journey's end.
You went straight into battle.
Blood, guts, shells, gas and noise.
Just can't imagine the destruction,
caused by the distant generals' toys.
You were struck your mortal blow,
I can see you bloody and dying,
maybe thinking of your loved ones,
maybe even crying.
Maybe you would have been scared,
maybe glad your war was done.
But your pride and spirit wouldn't have faltered,
to the end you were your country's son.
Because you knew what you was fightin
.i Dont Like You, Michael.
blah blah blah bla blah
You were everything I wanted.
You were everything a boy could be.
Then you left me brokenhearted
Now you don't mean a thing to me
All I wanted was your
Love love love love love love
Hate is a strong word
But I really really really don't like you
Now that it's over
I don't even know what I liked about you
Brought you around
And you just brought me down.
Hate is a strong word.
But I really really really don't like you.
I really don't like you.
Thought that everything was perfect
Isn't that how it's supposed to be?
Thought you thought that I was worth it
Now I think a little differently
All I wanted was your
Love love love love love love
Hate is a strong word
But I really really really don't like you
Now that it's over
I don't even know what I liked about you
Brought you around
And you just brought me down
Hate is a strong word
But I really really really don't like you
Now that it\'s over you can't hurt me
Where I Stood
I don't know what I've done
Or if I like what I've begun
But something told me to run
And honey you know me it's all or none
There were sounds in my head
LIttle voices whispering
That I should go and this should end
Oh and I found myself listening
'Cuz I dont know who I am, who I am without you
All I know is that I should
And I don't know if I could stand another hand upon you
All I know is that I should
'Cuz she will love you more than I could
She who dares to stand where I stood
See I thought love was black and white
That it was wrong or it was right
But you ain't leaving without a fight
And I think I am just as torn inside
'Cuz I dont know who I am, who I am without you
All I know is that I should
And I don't know if I could stand another hand upon you
All I know is that I should
'Cuz she will love you more than I could
She who dares to stand where I stood
And I won't be far from where you are if ever you should call
You meant more to me than anyon
Romeo And Juliet
Well ashes to Ashes.
Love to dust.
Sure as the sun will shine,
And I was lost in lust.
Now I am looking in your eyes,
So black and so cold.
Your words don't mean nothing,
This game is so old.
Now my world is spinning faster and faster.
No drama instead,
Your words go over my head.
Let's stop hurting each other,
So we can be alright.
You're so perfect in bed,
But still you're fucked in the head.
Everything you say,
I can't take your lies.
I can't take your lies.
This is just another Romeo and Juliet.
I swallowed my pride.
And way too many times,
I left my heart wide open.
Now I can't take no more.
Now I guess some things
Are just not meant to be - like you and me.
Now my world is spinning faster and faster.
No drama instead,
Your words go over my head.
Let's stop hurting each other,
So we can be alright.
You're so perfect in bed,
But still you're fucked in the head.
Everything you say,
I can't take your lies.
I can't take your lies.
The first time we touched it scorched my soul, my fingertips lightly traced your lips. My soul is lost without your touch. The strange thing is I have only touched you in my dreams. Just a glance at your sexy silhouette sent shivers down my spine. If only I could show you what heaven is like, only you don't even know who I am. The love I could show you is beyond this mortal world. Our first kiss would last eternity. If you knew what I was you would never love me but I could make you if I wanted to.
By: Dale Wesley Jr.
The moon slowly breaks the horizon, softly pushing back the velvety shadows of the night.
I stand in the soft glow, drinking in the beauty, bathing in the light.
Around me I hear the sounds of the children of the night waking, hunting, watching,
And like those children, I come alive,
Blooming in the pale soft light.
One with the night.
Come join me and I'll show you how,
To loose yourself in the warm, soft glow,
And become one with the nightly show,
That so many miss,
And others diss,
As they scurry to and fro.
But just take my hand and you too will know, the joys of becoming one with the night.
My eyes reflect the pale soft light,
As I gently touch my lips to yours.
Together we join in the natural symphony of the night,
With a song of pure extasy.
As we bath together in that warm soft light,
We soon produce a glow all our own.
Moving as one,
In a dance all our own,
Now forever one with each other and the night.
Fubars Biggest Player!!
So last night. I found out that this girl who is friends with my boyfriend and keeps comin to page was actually his fuck buddy and then i get the following email from this girl.....
Hello babe i know u dont know me and i dont know u but u seam like a nice girl an i want u 2 know that jared is blowin smoke sorry babe but he calls me on my cell like 2 or 3 times a week and tells me he loves me and wants me 2 come to texas to b with with him so he can sweap me off my feat. I already went through this with another girl and im not gonna do it again so i just wanna warn u and hope u will think about what i said. I have no reason 2 lie babe i have 2 kids of my own and dont need anymore drama fr him if u want 2 know anything else hit me up on yahoo XXXXXXX and im sorry babe i just dont wanna c another girl fall 4 his shit again but its ur choice. B happy what ever u decide.
BTW when u tell him i mesged u he will say im just causin shit and im not bc he said the same thing 2 me when some
This Stupid Economy
the president isnt helping it at all come on there is no need to spend 11 billion dollars on 28 marine choppers for his private use.
Where Evil Goes
once again i am dryin my face
from a night of tall tears
once again i am thinkin of my nanay
i am once again so close of losing
i feel the past evil crawling up on me
my prays are not to be answered
cause this heart is full of evil again
will i lose my dear friend to this folly
the room is dark i feel the rhythm
a constant thump thump thump
and the pressure of weight of a body
the evil i feel is overwhelming the pleasure
as my long lost love is rhythmically
pounding in the pleasure to please me
i dont feel pleasure thinking of
my dear friend in such pain
can not think of erotica
as being performed above me
as i never did before pretend
to be aware of the attention i demand
i do not feel part of this story
as it is a movie performed on tv
but as i stare at the tv screen
the pornstar in this movie is me
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Something incredible has arrived!
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Membership is free and every member automatically becomes a shareholder in me2everyone Limited. Personally I have 1000 shares in the venture I
Change For Better Or Worse You Tell Me
I'VE LEARNED THAT THINGS CHANGE,
PEOPLE CHANGE, AND IT DOESN'T
MEAN YOU FORGET THE PAST OR
TRY TO COVER IT UP; IT SIMPLY
MEANS THAT YOU MOVED ON AND
TREASURE THE MEMORIES. LETTING
GO DOESN'T MEAN GIVING UP,
MEANS ACCEPTING THAT SOMETHINGS
WEREN'T MEANT TO BE
this is so true but acceptin this is what is the hardest and movin on is so scary you get so set in a routine that to leave it for the unknown is inconcievable and terrifying
i look for the silver linin in everything the beauty in everyone but there is one person i am struggling to find anything that i luv it makes me feel like a horrible person for not luvin them or wanting them anymore
to all my fufriends out there for being real and wonderfull thank you for everything
i need to escape this cruel world for awhile i need to find the beauty in it again
my soul longeth for its other half for completion my heart aches to be luved for all and eternity by one who truly knows me and understands me i
Update On Comment Issue
...update: nope, apparently I've lost comment priveliges. I can't even delete my own comments. :/
Reason: "Please see our Terms of Service. You were asked to not post nsfw comments. The status was also nsfw. Come back in a week."
I think the status in question was:
"I'm so famous it's developed an event horizon that sucks itself off."
Um. Guess fubar doesn't understand black holes?
And what nsfw comments. I still don't see what nsfw comments I've made. I've deliberately not posted anything involving breasts (except ASCII - I was specifically told "no html images", as in actual pictures) since I got bitched at. :|
The black vinyl stuck to the porcelain sink Cat was leaning over as she carefully lined her eyes with dark makeup. It was nearly Halloween, and therefore she had an excuse to be a tiny bit gaudy. She added shiny silver glitter around her eyes and cheeks then closed the jar with a loud "snap." She put it down on the sink and picked up her bright red lipstick.
Delicately, she filled in her bottom lip with the deep color. The shade was glossy and inviting. Slowly and deliberately she then filled in the right side of her upper lip, then her left side, which was more difficult because of a tiny scar from childhood that the lipstick covered differently.
She returned to her bedroom and replaced the makeup in her drawer, except the lipstick, which she stuck in the black clutch she'd borrowed from Jessica. She straightened herself out and went to stand in front of her full length mirror.
On her feet were black maryjanes, with swirly contrast stitching. She had contemplated wearing heel
After A Week . . .
I am really happy to be here. In my life I have good friends and family and this site is a really cool addition.
I have met some really nice and very interesting people here. It takes a long time in the real world to establish a level of intimacy where you can trust enough to share. So many people are looking to share, looking to trust. For me, I think some of my urge is a form of exhibitionism. I loved getting naked in public as a teen. I love revealing secret parts of me now. I admit, it's a turnon.
But it's not all about being turned on. Some of the people I have been messaging and chatting with are fun and cool and just very, very nice. I hope to hear from a lot of people and keep in touch over the next few weeks. One or two I would love to kind of peel back the layers of their personality as much as I would love for them to peel away mine. The process of discovery and revealing is sometimes erotic, always interesting. I'm not looking for a date or the love of my
Our time is short, it's flying quickly by
Carpe Diem, the rest of our lives.
We can't ever sit down, we just might die.
Push on forward, learn to fly.
Entirely different shadows cover our souls.
We know we can only do what we know.
We speed down the road, missing the signs.
Too much space keeps us from looking behind.
Empty cavities will soon be filled,
Bulldozers will have flattened all of the hills.
Get anywhere in a second, without knowing where you've gone.
Driving harder. We're losing song.
All In A Drive To New York
i cant take it any longer
i thought we were stronger
we linger in the room
while the snows on the ground
we did drive slow while the snow falls
we are bound to the same old thing
on the drive i see the signs to niagara falls
its the same old sexual fling
we drive really slow as to lingers
while it slips through my fingers
it feel really sticky as i cling
all i want to do is make him fell like a king
the world slows down
but my heart beats fast now
i know this is the part
where the end starts
i know he asked me to hold on
and carry on like nothing's wrong
but there is no time left
i see sunset in his eyes
cant be what it looks like
just to be sympathetic strike
he just drove it deep with his spike
i know the end of his hunger strike
Please Pray For Brian
a very good friend of mine.. my best friend from hs in fact... was in a serious car wreck on feb 28th. he's has severe brain injuries and has had surgury to try to help. he's been in a coma but this morning is beginning to wake up. he's very confused and has a long recovery in front of him. so please if you pray... lift him up. he's an amazing person and this world just can't be done with him yet. thanks
ok so i've been talkin and just listening to people around me and what they have to say about my relationship or about there problems and things that are going on with them in life. I have noticed that there are a lot of people that are not trusting them selfs and wut they want in life. everyone can give someone advice but do they take it? Many can give others advice to drown out what is going on in their life. I know i am one of those people, i love to help others with what is going on with them just so that i can forget for a few mins about what bad things are going on with my life. Everyone has that one person they can tell everything to, i just find myself talking to everyone around me about my problems cuz sometimes its nice to see what others have to say. then also i find myself talking more about friends problems and the more and more i sit and listen to what they have to say the more and more i remember that what a relationship is supposed to be made up of. your supposed to be
German School Gunman 'kills 15'
Fifteen people have been killed after a teenage gunman went on a rampage in south-west Germany, officials say.
Most of the dead are thought to have been pupils at the Albertville secondary school in Winnenden, north of Stuttgart.
The gunman, a 17-year-old former pupil, is also dead, police say.
The teenager, who was said to have been wearing black combat gear, was chased by police after fleeing the school into the centre of town.
It is unclear whether the gunman was shot by police or killed himself. Earlier reports said he had been arrested.
German Chancellor Angela Merkel is to make a statement on the shooting at 1600 (1500 GMT), a government spokesman said.
Nine students, three teachers and three passers-by are thought to be among the dead.
The chief reporter of the Stuttgart Journal newspaper, Kevin Latzel, told the BBC that there was a lot of confusion at the scene of the shooting.
"It's very horrible... the parents are crying, the pupils are crying and a l
Update On My Gram!!!!!
Well She's in a private room now. Her blood pressure is good and she's breathing great on her own. She is right full of stage 4 cancer though, it started in Her colon and now its every where. I just wish we could have gotten her to go to the doctors a couple of years ago or so. But she's too stubborn & wouldn't go .
Plz keep prayin.
So, I'm In An Auction
Wanna own me for a month? YOU KNOW YOU DO!!!!
Click this link...and make a juicy bid for me...I need the help!! Everything listed, and perhaps alil more with the right bid..so get to it!
Need Help Leveling?? Shadow Levelers Are Here To Help!
Are you close to leveling and would like some help? We would like to help you get to the next level.
Do you have less then 20K to level, have 150 pictures non ripped and over 50 stash? You are required to fan, rate and add all that help. You must be online to get help.
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3.13.09. I Added Some Rules And Reg And Interests 's To My Profile. The Text Is Also In This Blog Read. React. Respond.
OK FOLKS.... THE WHOLE LONG STORY FOLLOWS...
My name is Jacques. DO NOT CALL ME JACK. that is one of the easiest ways to get me in a fit. Some people in the lounges style my name as "Jac" and that is perfectly acceptable as it is simply an abbreviation of my full name. You will notice there is no "K" in Jacques.
Rules and Regulations and Other Stuff.
1.) I RATE WHO I WANT, WHEN I WANT. DO NOT ASK ME TO RATE YOU. If you rate my pix and would like me to return the love, alls you got to do is send me a shout or message saying you rated my pix and i will definitely rate yours.
2.) I add everyone. I am indiscriminate when adding. If I added you and you really arent adding people, dont get your feet in a knot, just dont accept the request. Quite simple I think.
3.) About Instant Messaging: Everyone may feel free to add me to their yahoo instant messengers. my s/n is jamiller200306 PLEASE STATE YOUR NAME AND HOW YOU KNOW ME!!! I make it a point to refer to everyone by name and if i
Just A Thought
So i was thinking....How many of you believe that country boys are just a little better in the sack? No im not talking about the midwestern farm hands that have relations with livestock...Im talkin about the good ol' southern country boys. What do ya'll think?
Fuck U Blind
"Fuck U Blind"
I'm on the brink I wonder what u bitches think
like Madonna walkin round like you ship doesn't stink
No class jack ass bitches actin like a burro
dressed in black head to toe thinkin you're so fuckin euro
Tryin to act Manhattan when you're from some little village
In a Public Enemy shirt and it's all for your image
Cuz any other rap you think it's crap fuckin trash
Bitch talk your shit just never let me get that ass
I'll fuck u blind bitch
I'll fuck u blind bitch
I'll fuck u blind till you just can't see no more
Back in school I knew this chick her name was Sara Bolerdies
and she thought she was the shit becuz she dated older guys
Dumb bitch fuckin whore always wanted to get laid
but never gave the pussy up to anybody in her grade
Played me like a sucker
like a bitch like a punk
that little pussy lickin finger fuckin ho ass cunt
Never once did she speak to anybody in her class
so one day I told her never let me get that ass
Compatibility Information for Aries
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When it comes to love you are aggressive, domineering, energetic and restless. You are impulsive, imaginative and dynamic, a doer, however on can never be sure what you'll do next. You can drive your lover crazy if she isn't accustomed to high energy excitement. You look for spontaneous and imaginative partners who can hold your interest and keep up to your fast pace. You can be a bed bouncer but you always expect complete loyalty from your mate. Although your temper is short lived you will explode if you become suspicious of your lover. You get jealous quickly and you need constant appreciation and reassurance in order to feel secure in your relationship.
You may appear to dislike men due to your extreme independence. However, nothing could be further f
Virgo Profile Description
Receptive, Logical & Thoughtful
August 23 to September 22
Virgo personality: "put me to work"
About your self:
Virgo is a very analytical sign, seeking the inner meanings of others. Associated with the planet Mercury, you size people up. You can be a shell; beautiful and expressive, yet withdrawn. You have quiet charm and exuberance. You want to be in the middle of the action, yet don't always want to be affected by the outcome. You are an earth sign, and are extremely practical. You could be health-conscious to the point to being fanatical with fads, vitamins, etc. You can go from one subject or person to the next. You would choose trouble over boredom. You take a serious view of life and are concerned with the philosophies of great persons; your own being the most important to you. You often become involved with people who aren't as serious as you wish they would be. You are taken advantage of because you unconsciously invite it, because of your innate
Aquarius Profile Description
Mystical, Aloof & Enduring
January 22 to February 20
Aquarius personality: "live and let live"
About your self:
More people are born from Jan 20 - Feb 18 than during any other period of the year. You are not alone!! You are a Fixed sign; meaning you will change your ways and beliefs for no one. You are an Air element; you are a sign that depicts the unusual, the unique, and the eccentric. You give the impression that you have a "subtle secret." You always seem to be listening to your own private thoughts. You can be surrounded by people, but you refuse to follow the crowd. You should never take the advice of others against your own tuition or judgment. You desire the real thing, not the simulated. You are sophisticated, but retain enough childlike wonder to be fascinated by the new and the strange. You have a high sense of adventure. While others are contemplating a move, you are already in action. While others consider, you discover. You seek for some
Obama's Gun Ban List
Alan Korwin - Author Gun Laws Of America
Here it is, folks, and it is bad news. The framework for legislation is always laid, and the Democrats have the votes to pass anything they want to impose upon us. They really do not believe you need anything more than a brick to defend your home and family. Look at the list and see how many you own. Remember, it is registration, then confiscation. It has happened in the UK, in Australia, in Europe, in China, and what they have found is that for some reason the criminals do not turn in their weapons, but will know that you did.
Remember, the first step in establishing a dictatorship is to disarm the citizens.
Gun-ban list proposed. Slipping below the radar (or under the short-term memory cap), the Democrats have already leaked a gun-ban list, even under the Bush administration when they knew full well it had no chance of passage (HR 1022, 110th Congress). It serves as a framework for the new list the Brady's
Need A Break From Reality.
things have just been really tense lately with EVERYTHING. i feel like i'm walking through hot coal on my tippy toes. i just want a break from life in general. i wanna get away. actually, even though my mom and i had a shitty relatioship in the past, i want a hug from my mom. i don't care what anyone says. there is nothing like a mom hug. i have to find a new place to live by the 15-30th of april, and it's hard because of shit that's going on. not to mention that my fiance and i have work schedules that often conflict. My dad is on my ass all the time about things that he has no business talking to me about. my college classes are getting harder, work is getting strenuous due to people being idiots in the mall, and i haven't been able to just take a breather and relax lately. i'm just not really that happy anymore. i don't know. maybe i'll be happier when i find a new place. i sure hope so. cuz i don't think i can take much more of this bullshit, especially from my dad. i literally wan
wonderin why i am playing with fire? it is our tradition here to jump over the fire on the last tuesday of our year' we will be celebrating new year on thursday... hahaha, am not crazy yet'... tell u more about it later guys, see ya.. heading to play fire again, lol, am bit cooler now.
wish me luck!
Tuesday March 17 2009 was my new day. If you like me, one of the two million that suffer from bi-polar disorder, you fight everyday to survive in everybody’s normality. I am currently attempting to rebuild my life off of several events that’s My thrown reality in my face. My son is my everything, anyone that truly knows me would testify to that. I’ve gone from his primary caregiver enjoying the daily dose of Sponge Bob, to only having him four days a week. I understand that I need time to recuperate from my recent hospitalization, but in May please guarantee that I will fight at the next divorce hearing.
Beyond the loneliness of not having Jordan, I am now sane. A weight has lifted off of my shoulders. I have this beautiful optimistic look out on life now. All this is brought on by the help and the words of my family, my lawyer, my doctor, counselors and music. I am becoming healthier mentally, physically and spiritually. I am now waking up smiling, my nails are growing, I’m losing
My Story - Boredom
Survey about me
My story - Finish the sentence:
Hi, my name is:
My eyes are:
My status is:
relationship status or my mood?
I want to have kids:
um...no more than the ones I have
I wish I was:
In NY already..I need a break...among other things
Currently I am:
Tired..fuck these stupid drugs they have me on
I love:a very select few...I do not us the emotion or the words lightly.
Never in my life have I been to:
My favorite animal is:
My favorite color is:
My Pet Peeve:
stupidity, liars, and Denver drivers
Right now, I am listening to:
my neighbors dogs barking...per usual.
If your gonna talk smack about me:
I highly doubt I give a fuck
The one person who can drive me nuts:
in a good way or a bad way?
When I'm nervous:
My stomach hurts
The last song I listened to was:
Dead Memories - Slipknot
If you were to get married today your mai
hey guys im thinking about breaking from here for awhile but if u like to contact me u can at myspace.......
http://www.myspace.com/hotsexyjamie03 or u can add me on yahoo....at hotsexyjamie03...just be sure to tell me who u r...lol
What Chakra Are You?
You Are the Navel Chakra
You are confident and assertive. You have the self esteem to stand up for yourself and what you believe in.
You are persuasive and intuitive. You are good at leading a group, even if its members don't get along.
You are inspiring. You understand when people need encouragement or nurturing, and you're able to give it to them.
You have a lot of will and are very determined. You are able to see tasks through, and you have the courage to aim high.
What Chakra Are You?
For All The Ppl Is In Fubar
if u have any ? let me know just let me know at my sb or my privit message or just go in lounge of mine is called the devils back bone
the devils back bone @ http://www.fubar.com/lounge/65782 from DJ Devils at the devils back bone i am the owner and if u r looking for a job this is the place to come to for a job and we r open for all shifts just let me know then ill get back to u then ur talk to u then
I feel so unsure
as I take your hand an lead you to the dance floor.
As the music dies
something in your eyes
Calls to mind a silver screen and all its sad goodbyes.
I'm never gonna dance again
cause guilty feet have got no rhythm
Though it's easy to pretend
I know you're not a fool.
I should have known better than to cheat a friend
And waste the chance that I'd been given.
So I'm never gonna dance again
the way I danced with you.
Time can never mend
the careless whispers
of a good friend.
To the heart and mind ignorance is kind.
There's no comfort in the truth
pain is all you'll find.
I'm never gonna dance again
cause guilty feet have got no rhythm
Though it's easy to pretend
I know you're not a fool.
I should have known better than to cheat a friend
And waste the chance that I'd been given.
So I'm never gonna dance again
the way I danced with you.
Tonight the music seems so loud
I wish that we could lose this crowd.
Maybe it's better this way
People Falling - A Montage
People Falling - A Montage The only thing better than watching a person fall is watching a bunch of people fall.
You tell me you love me?
You say I am what you live for?
How can such lies be spewed forth so easily?
Every word from your mouth is a falsehood.
A corruption of god and man.
There is no love.
You are a lifeless soul.
Living in an even deader world.
Your touch is a curse.
Your voice makes me sick.
Your eyes are unfilled voids.
Your heart is coal to all emotion.
Every time you look at me.
Your gaze tears my heart asunder.
Your kisses are poison.
The very reflection of you makes me recoil.
You have caused all this.
This pain belongs only to your mark.
Albatross18 Aka Pangya!
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Just A Matter Of Time
thinking every day how things will be the next time the sun comes up and wondering will it be better or worse ? we cant always make things happen the way we want but hell we sure can try !
even tring becomes hard to do ,your self confidence becomes low and your self worth is even lower ,the pain isnt physical but emotional it most cerntenly is , we cant or at least we feel we cant do anything bout what is going on in our lives inside we scream out at our selves wanting things to get better but it seems that we become lost and cant find our way around and just when you think things cant get anyworse THEY DO ! the darkness sets in and there is no way of seeing any light from anyone or anything..... we ask our selves what the hell is going on in our heads? why are we going through this shit?! why cant we make it stop? and why cant we do it NOW ?!
now look i know im no different that anyone of you that may read this but just as you im not sure what to do and DAMN THIS SHIT HURTS
Just gonna let everyone know If ya dopnt see me for awhiole Im having surgery again this Friday march 27 @ 11 am ......
if its not msn its avg. an if its not them windows virtual mem is too low....argh!
if i didnt love the net as much id smash it lol.
so today was a borin as day. i got woke up at lunchtime with my friend phoning and then i stay up til bout 9pm and have a nap. i point out the fact that allllllllllllllllllllllll day i had to put up with tna wrestling, not that i mind but im sick of hearing about kurt angle and sting...its boring now lmao
anyway spoke to ma baby so im happy at least
Theres No Pride
There's no pride,
In the tears they've cried
For the ones they've tried,
So now they hide,
From the world outside.
Away from all they've said.
To live for the hatred,
That they feel inside.
They live their lives with desire
To see what hides inside.
It sets their soul on fire
To learn what people hide
To see a liar
Trapped without his pride
The liar tried, to hide his fire.
With no more pride, he can hide.
He has cried, for all he had lied.
Rules Of Engadgement
RULE 1) approch the woman with ease and smiles
RULE 2) say hello
RULE 3) dont be like the joker comeing up behind them, bending them over, and rapping them with music
RULE4)reach out with your right hand and greet your self to the other person
RUL5)dont be like the joker reaching your hand out with 100$ bill and asking for a one night date
more rules will be on the way for "rules of engadgement"
Story after story, lie after lie
Bit by bit, it's just another reason to cry
You think you got it, you think you know me
But the only truth you get, is the truth I let you see
My deepest n my darkest, are hidden in my chest
And I'm not tellin, n I know you'll never guess
Take your opinions, n shove them up ur ass
Your never gonna get with me, no you don't stand a chance
You can try to own me, but you'll just get dismissed
In my little world, boy you don't exist
nowhere to run,
no place to hide...
the pain in your heart starts to subside...
hopes turn to fear,
like days change to night,
knowing there's no end in sight...
closing your eyes only makes things worse...
wondering why your stuck with this curse...
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If you've ever visited the site http://postsecret.blogspot.com/ then you know that people send in post cards with their deepest secrets written on them .. Well here is mine , When I was little my mother continually went from bad relationship to bad relationship . Once she dated this guy Named Burl and when my sister and I did something wrong he'd make us stand on our tip toes and reach for the celing ...I know you're thinking wtf Rob what's so bad about that ? well the reaching part wasn't the bad part it was what he'd do when we were reaching that has left me scarred for life . He'd take the wire end of a fly swatter (back in the day they were wire all you to young to remember ) and he'd strike us with it accross the legs and back . One time I went to my Mother about what was going on and she confronted him with me there and he lied about doing it ...the next day he hit me so hard it drew blood accross my legs and back . I will never forgive him for hitting my little sister ... if he
The Broken And Booted
Avalonia - The Broken Promise
The Sham reached its apex with the creation of Avalonia. I don't even play Avalonia anymore because the last time I took her out for a spin she was so out of control that she needed to be dropped off a cliff into a bog of eternal forgetfulness.
The name was given to me, created for me. The features specified. The class, race, alignment. Frankenstein's monster but perfection, not a conglomeration of misaligned pieces and parts. Frankenstein's mistress.
"The Love Doctor...."
I didn't want an online marriage. I wanted a friend. A very intimate friend. Closer than a husband because there would be no financial/material/social responsibilities to drag down the energy levels. It would be an unconditional exchange of voltage. What a dream.
I was told that this character name would become a wife. Shaman knew that I hated to sit in the tavern, I loved questing. The first thing he did to take myself away from myself and put himself into the position o
Vampire Queens And Cheated Kings
Ascension of Ensaneti
Ensaneti was a manifestation of pain. She began her life in my heart and head as my "sham" of a relationship with Shaman was being taken away from me. Grinning and bearing it is my least favorite thing. I'd rather shriek and rip and rend and gnash. Ensaneti was my formal announcement to myself and the world that I was not in my happy place.
Around the time that Ensaneti was just starting to pick up the pace of a deepening depression, Nosferatu and the Wampir guild was born in the mind of Zack. This was a very special person. Tragedy struck his life and he found solace in the world of Yserbius. He asked me if I would be Queen to his King. I agreed with a ragged grin and burgeoning fangs.
Ensaneti wasn't a very regal Queen. She was quite insane. Knitting odd garmets with the bones of the unfortunately truly dead was a favorite hobby of hers. She had moments of burning glory and inspired thought. Mostly she was a very bad Queen to a King that deserved bette
Bones Of Humanity
(This was written in response to the Amish community's embracing of the family of the killer of their own children October 2006. Such a standard to try and emulate.)
I watch the world with wonder. We all carry out our little lizard brain directives of feeding, fucking, fighting, and fleeing under the warmth of the same burning sun and the silvering of the same mysterious moon.
Some of us rise above the atavistic impulses and bring the Divine just a little closer into the world. Its all a matter of choice and free will.
The milkman's baby daughter died 20 minutes after she was born. He was filled with rage and hatred towards a God that would let him suffer such a loss. Nine years later he went into an Amish schoolhouse and killed innocent little girls, then himself. Two of the girls offered their lives freely to sate his rage, hoping mercy would be shown to the others.
In Columbine two boys took aim and killed classmates. One asked a girl cowering under a table, "Do you be
Stuck In My Fuckin Head
all i got
need more coffee
anybody got a donut? i NEED a dunkin donuts apple fritter
Heat Of My Desire
In the still of the evening
Without sunlight to intrude
I see the twilight's in your eyes
As the moon sets up the mood
Playing music soft and low
While romance fills the air
I can't help but feel aroused
The very moment you come near
You submit to my embrace
While candles flick their flame
And the smell of sweet perfume
Seems to drive my lust insane
As I look into your eyes
And run my fingers through your hair
I taste the sweetness of your neck
As I nibble at your ear
I then whisper words of love
As you answer with a sigh
And in a very sexy way
Your sweet body comes alive
Your the heat of my desire
As we slowly come undress
I then start to lay you down
While you welcome my caress
With your luscious sexy curves
You have a taste I can't resist
And your breast show some response
When I touch them with a kiss
As I soak inside your love
To a sexy love condition
Feeling passions start to rise
While making love in all positions
You give me so mu
Have you ever woke up screaming?
Have you ever woke alone?
When the walls around you won't stop laughing
Where do you go?
Sweat seeps in your eyes at night
And you realize
That no one understands you at all
Well I was bound to have a nervous breakdown
Should've seen it coming from miles away
So I packed my bags and started running
My brains been shaking since yesterday
But there's only so far that you can run boy
There's only so far to leave your problems behind
'cause when the problem's yourself you start thinking
No matter how far
You'll never leave it behind
No one uderstands me at all
Now I'm still here with still no clue
Of who I am or show I'm supposed to be
I know it to you it sounds funny
You've got it worked out like it's a fuckin' disease
Started asking myself do I fit in?
Where I belong
Could this really be me?
Been feeling downright ugly
Tell me is this the way it's supposed to be?
So what's the difference?
You're doing fine
The clock keeps ticki
Long ago when the gods we young and virtious they created man and woman as one complete being, one life one, one soul. The pperfect beings were happy and content with the way they were and live happily for a very long long time. The gods looked down on their craetions with geat joy at their happiness.
As time went on the gods started to become jealus of the happiness that they had created with their creations, they became angry and spiteful. As time wore on the anger began to become unbearable. So in a fit of jealousy the gods rained down blots of lightening at their creations.
When the smoke had cleared, the once happy creation of man and woman were seperated into 2 different beings. They were scattered all over the world and looked and talked different. Their curse for being so happy was this.
Now as 2 lives, 2 souls they were doomed to search the earth looking for the one that would make them complete.
Well, seeing how I have never been a father. I do want to point a few things that I find funny.
Kids are empty vessels waiting to be filled with knowledge. But damn, where is the leak and how do you plug it up???
Kids make you feel like a referee in a L.A. street riot! And all this before 7am in the morning.
Kids teach you the Love Hate thing really well.
Kids are like fire and forget missiles. You send them do something, they go and when they get there, they forget what to do and you blow up.
Kids never make good garbage people. I don't know how they get good applicants in the profession of garbage collecting???
Kids make you feel like YOUR DAD!!! Cause all of a sudden you realize what he was trying to pound into your brain. And Yes, You start sounding like him!
Kids are magicians... Cause leave it to kid to make anything disappear. Chips, Soda, remote controls, you're favorite shirt, toilet paper, shampoo, ETC..ETC...
Kids make you realize forgiveness, they will br
Just recently I hit what I thought was a road block in my life. I wondered if my life was really going in the direction I wanted it to. I questioned everything about myself and my life and realized something... I am OK! I am who I am... That is not a bad thing. Like I said in my last blog, Love me, leave me, or both! That hurt that you feel way down deep in your stomach does go away eventually. I have felt it before and I am sure I will feel it again, but it will not stop me. I live my life every day to the best of my ability. That is all any of us can do. Sometimes people want to be a part of it and sometimes they don't. You know what I have learned about people walking out of my life... That is just an opprotunity for others to walk in! As long as I am thankful for the ones that have been a part of our life and I learn from them I will become a better person for having had them there. I am a better person than I was before and everything is going to be okay.
The Fool, Dear Brutus, Is Not In Our Stars But In Ourselves
That line from William Shakespeare's play "Julius Caesar" should be fault, not fool, but I'm taking some liberties with it. I did that with the title of a prospective novel of mine as well that still sits three-fourths done on my computer from three years ago too. I honestly thought the line was "LIES not in our stars but in ourselves". By the time I found it didn't it still made a great title. Perhaps that should be one of my projects this year; I certainly relieved Pastor Gerald at my church this morning by taking responsibility for writing a short presentation we'll deliver Palm Sunday when the procession carrying a cross around Minot makes its third stop at Bethany Lutheran. Once I've played Pontius Pilate and Pastor Gerald's played Caiaphas and our as-yet-unnamed narrator has spoken, we'll be proceeding with the cross to our next stop.
The Red River in Fargo is actually down from its high point as of this morning, but the snowfall expected there this weekend could still ca
Not Gonna Be Around Much, Don't Ignore Me, Lol
Okay so just a heads up, I will be hit and miss for the next week and completely gone Wed-Sun....
My daughter has passed all qualifications for the Army BCT...and we are attending graduation in South Carolina, and then driving her to her AIT post in Alabama... I am one VERY proud Mama...and the few days I get to hold her and see her will make up for these past 10 weeks...wow,,,but these next five days will be spent preparing for that trip and getting everything together...I joined Fubar to get me through the days she was gone, and found many GREAT friends here that mean the world to me...THANK YOU!
So until Tuesday April 7th (Nik's B-day, happy birthday baby)...I will be hit n miss, but please don't forget me whie I'm gone, cause come April 13th I'm back with a whole new lease on life and a refreshed vengence!!!!
I love you Phuckers, you really are a family I have come to cherish, love, and depend on!
Tony, Rick, and Michael...the three best guy friends a girl could ask for.
Ensign: What If God Was One Of Us?
All ye inhabitants of the world, and dwellers on the earth, see ye, when he lifteth up an esnign on the mountains; and when he bloweth a trumpet, hear ye. Isaiah 18:3AN ENSIGN ON THE MOUNTAINS 3 April 2009
[I wrote this message last year, but in light of the approaching Holy Week in the church where we commemorate Jesus' triumphal entry into Jerusalem, His crucifixion, and His resurrection, it seemed appropriate to present it again now. How can we expect to relate to God and accpe Him into our lives if He doesn't know, through Jesus His Son, what it's like to be one of us? -- David]
Last weekend I had the opportunity to re-read "Flatland", a late 19th century novel where all the characters are to our eyes two-dimensional figures like squares, circles, and triangles. The main character, A. Square, was elevated by Lord Sphere, a visitor from the third dimension of Spaceland, to see his own land from the Sphere's pers
Death Before Dishonor ~five Finger Death Punch
[V1:]To the haters, the takers, the liars, all the vultures and the bottom feeding scumThe FCC, the FBI and every tin god with a badge and a gunYou talk and talk, you preach and bitch but your words don't mean a thingYou get what you give, you give what you getJust the way it's always been[Chorus:]I choose death before dishonorI'd rather die than live down on my kneesBury me like a soldier, with my dignity![V2:]You imitate the ostracized, put your head beneath the sandYour cup it runneth over, must be rough to live so grandYou reap what you sew, you pay what you owe unless you bathe yourself in greedYou rob and you take, your world is fakeThere's no honor amongst the thieves[Chorus:]I choose death before dishonorI'd rather die than live down on my kneesBury me like a soldier, with my dignity![Pre-Chorus:]Fuck!You're self righteous, self pretentiousYour ways are not for meYou're deluded, so confusedYour world is not for me[Chorus:]I choose death before dishonorI'd rather die than live d
i show alot of love to the ladies,if u dont want to return the favor thats cool, i will find somebody that will. if u did i thank u, i thank u especially skyeyes, i no she is a true friend, help me , i help u, but make no mistake i will not beg or ask 4 anything n return, except use sum manners.
When I look at your eyes, I see your true self. I see you're sweet, and caring. I see you're giving and forgiving. I see your love for me. When I look at your eyes I stop myself from crying When I'm alone and think about your eyes I cry. I can't stop thinking that one day I'll never see those eyes again That I'll never see the love or the sweetness Or the love that makes you who you are. One day you'll be gone - gone from me. Gone from this world. No matter what happens, those eyes will one day close And forever rest in peace. But you'll never be completely gone, Because every time I close my eyes, There you will be.
Well the day has come when I get kicked out. The (hopefully very very soon) ex wife, has finally pissed me off. She told me, that if I leave, not to come back. So fine, im moving out. I have found someone that makes me smile and shows me love and affection, which I was not recieving for numerous years. I now realize what is is to feel loved. For sometime now, I thought love was being belittled and lied to. I was blinded by what I thought was love on my part. What happens from here on out I don't know. But wish me luck as I start a new journey in life........ to be continued
An 69-year-old man goes for a physical. All his tests come back with normal results.The doctor says, 'Will', everything looks great. How are you doing mentally and emotionally? Are you at peace with God?' Will replies, 'God and I are tight. He knows I have poor eyesight, so he's fixed it so when I get up in the middle of the night to go the bathroom, poof! The light goes on. When I'm done, poof! The light goes off' 'Wow, that's wonderful,' the doctor says A little later in the day, the doctor calls Will's wife, Sue, and says, 'Will 'is doing fine, but I had to call you because I'm in awe of his relationship with God. Is it true that he gets up during the night and poof, the light goes on in the bathroom, and when he's done, poof, the light goes off? 'Oh, my God!' Sue exclaims. He's peeing in the refrigerator again.
My friends who know me well, know that me showing anger is about as likely as Florida getting snow in July. Or the Cubs winning the World Series. Or the Mets not choking and losing the NL East to the Phillies (thats for Brandi and Ari lol).
Today, after growing frustration with my business partner, I had a mini meltdown. :) Between the 2 calls, I think I dropped the F bomb at least a dozen times... hung up on him.. and threw the phone lol. And it was a well deserved meltdown too.
But for me to show it? Watch out!
It is actually quite a breakthrough for me. After my divorce, I went through therapy for awhile. (It's been a LONG time.. so I am quite sane now actually lol... I think) I had so much bottled up inside, so much hurt, so much anger. And I had kept it inside so long, I forgot how to show it. My therapist wanted me to go home, take a baseball bat and beat on the bed to help me find a way to release anger. I've had friends try to get me to scream or yell about the th
Angels & Animals Arise
Collapses under a blanket of rolling waves's,
The Moon Shining on my comatosed head,
Ready to float on a pillow of soft white fluffy clouds,
Rolling over hues of green & blue to lands anew.
Take the Wooden wheel upon your gritty hands,
Let the flags do there magic, Fluttering in the sand,
Theres a few special people upon this island reaching out there hand,
Laying out sheets of gold, The translucent purple pearls.
The Dolphins cruise by in echoes of the past,
Across the gritty seabeds filled with rotten mush,
A Mermaid is one not many see only in a glimpse,
Keep your beady eyes open for that scaly feminine fish.
She rises out the water, Trident in her hand,
Expelling all that has harmed her & her sand,
Withing some people there exists much power,
To rise above the mist, Glowing in translucent mists.
The Clouds open wide to expose the blue above,
Angels & Animals form in mists of dust,
To rule this mighty orb open to there trust,
Letting out there echoes o
So I am sitting here thinking. It's been a month since I lost my mom and my life has been such a rollercoaster. Some days I just want to crawl under a rock and hide. Since I lost mom I have learned who truly cares about me and who was just using me. I have also looked at my life long and hard. I am 26 and my life is going nowhere fast. I have two kids who I love more than life itself and I have let them down in so many ways. So I packed my shit up and moved back home. Where I should have been to begin with. I know now what I should do and what I should have been doing to begin with. I realize now that I have been selfish in so many ways. But I am going to turn things around and make it right by kids if its the last thing I do. To my mom.... I love u and I know we said no regrets but I have so many.
Im A Big Dummy
WELL I HAVE MADE A MILLION MISTAKES IN MY LIFE. I HAVE MADE LIFE HARDER ON MYSELF MORE THEN MOST COULD EVER EVEN IMAGINE. BUT THIS TIME I MADE ONE THAT AFFETED EVERYONE AROUND ME. I WENT ON A WHIM AND TRUSTED SOMEONE THAT ABUSED THAT TRUST. I AM 27 YEARS OLD... I SHOULD HAVE KNOWN BETTER, I MEAN I AM A MOM FOR CHRIST SAKES. I SHOULDNT HAVE TRUSTED SOMEONE I DIDNT EVEN REALLY KNOW. NOW MY DAUGHTER AND MY SISTER WILL BE PAYING THE PRICE WITH ME. I HAVE NEVER BEEN SO STUPID. I HAVE ALWAYS HAD WALLS AND BOUNDRIES AND FOR SOME REASON.. THIS TIME I LET THEM ALL DOWN AND LET SOMEONE WALK IN AND TURN MY LIFE UPSIDE DOWN. I SHOULD HAVE KNOWN BETTER THEN TO TRUST HIM. I SHOULD HAVE KNOWN THAT PEOPLE WILL FUCK YOU IF THEY CAN. ITS NOT HIS FAULT THOUGH ITS MINE. ITS MINE BECAUSE I ALLOWED MYSELF TO BELIEVE HIM. I DONT KNOW WHY I BELIEVED HIM. I HAVE BEEN ASKING MYSELF WHY FOR 2 DAYS NOW AND THE ONLY ANSWER I CAN COME UP WITH IS IM A FUCKIN RETARD!!! ALL THAT MONEY.... ITS GONE AND NOW I HAVE NO CH
Saw This And Thougth It Was Cool
The longer we live, the more we realize the impact on attitude on life. Attitude is more important than facts. It will make or break a company. The remarkable thing is we have a choice everyday regarding the attitude we will embrace for the day. We can not change the inevitable. The only thing we can do is play the on the one string we have, and that is our attitude. Life is 10% what happens to us and 90% how we react to it. We are incharge of our attitudes.
With you I feel safe And with you I will stay Your loving strong arms Will keep me so close When I’m panic-stricken and frightened When I’m pale as a ghost Keep me with you forever As you hold me so dear Tell me you love me Whisper it in my ear But don’t break my heart For what will fall apart Is the life that I live in And I’ll love you too I’ll always be loyal I’ll love only you So our relationship won’t spoil Love and protect me Through all of my fights Our love will blaze as a fire I’ll keep it going with all my might As we whisper in the dark And our bodies become one I see right that moment This isn’t just fun We’ve made a connection Through our bodies and minds As for the emotions we feel There are many kinds Love, fear, regret These are all present Yet our spirits stay still Eerily pleasant I lay on your chest While in my sweet mind The montage of memories are messed Is this really happening? I ask in my head Is this j
Ensign: The Good Black Friday
All ye inhabitants of the world, and dwellers on the earth, see ye, when he lifteth up an esnign on the mountains; and when he bloweth a trumpet, hear ye. Isaiah 18:3AN ENSIGN ON THE MOUNTAINS 10 April 2009
Especially at this time of year, Christians ought to be shouting from the rooftops that Jesus is alive! Jesus' return to life after three days dead is THE signature event of Christianity -- but it couldn't have happened without His death. In a culture that often seems more concerned with feeling good and not growing up, the idea that rejoicing has to be preceded by suffering is uncomfortable. Like the aphorism, success only comes before work in the dictionary. And work takes sacrifice.
Like all of us, Jesus didn't want to suffer; indeed, when He was alone in Gethsemane, "he fell on his face, and prayed, O my Father, if it be possible, let this cup pass from me: nevertheless not as I will, but as thou wilt." (M
she is His everything His slut His bitch His whore His cunt His wife His she belongs to Him and Him only she is His everything He see's what He owns His slut His bitch His whore His cunt His wife He is her everything she lingers for His touch, for His lips,for the crack of His whip across her ivory skin He lingers for her wanting,craving desire for Him,for her mouth around Him To hear her cry's and plea's for Him To come to Him with desire She is His Everything
I just wanted to wish everybody a Happy Easter. Whether you celebrate the holiday for what it is or not. I hope that you get a chance to have sometime with family and friends. People that you love and that love you back! Much love to all my family and friends! If you happen to read this and I don't know you well much love to you as well! Happy Easter All
Someone Wants The War!!
Has anyone taken the time to figure if almost everyone says they don't want the war that in fact can change things but we have to over run the military. We can revolt against this hardship if we unite. Too many people are lazy and not educated enough to go and plan the next manover.
The reign of sex alcoholic presidents and president that take our freedom away. If we were to unite and over throw all the people, not just the wrongly elected, we could and probably start something better. But there are too many that don't have the balls. It can be done. They say they'll bring home the soldiers. But thats so they can send more away.
I say just do something they don't think possible. Put down your guns and learn to love and abide by the one truth. Its not fight or be killed its live and let live. If we kill them they are wanting and sometimes killing us. Treat others as you yourself want to be treated. The world maybe dieing more each day. How about we live a safe life
Happy Hour At Your Favorite Bar
What's your favorite drink?
Mine is, Tom Collins. Only had a few times in this life time, but it's a good drink to have. Mostly like a good beer, like a Japanese beer called: Sapouro or Guiness.
not really, you wish...
I am so fuckin bored AND tired. I finally brought my fave plaid flannel shirt to work, its WARRRRM.
Stuff That Sucks...
now i am not trying to step on toes or piss people off but ya know what sucks.... I love fubar hanging out on here and stuff but it seems like you have to have money on here to be good friends with anyone.... I am just sayin..... I am by no means super rich nor will i ever be, but it'd be nice if twenty million people didn't want things that cost like all kinds of money who has the kind of money half the stuff costs... anyways just wanted to get that off my chest I am almost better now.. I have been really pissed off at the world lately and if this blog comes off the wrong way oh well.. I am sorry.
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Missing 4-3-97 Help Please
Endangered Missing CHRISTINA MARTINEZ DOB: May 10, 1981Missing: May 3, 1997Age Now: 27Sex: FemaleRace: HispanicHair: BrownEyes: BrownHeight: 5'4" (163 cm)Weight: 120 lbs (54 kg)Missing From:PHOENIXAZUnited States Christina's photo is shown age-progressed to 27 years. She was last seen at home on May 3, 1997. She has not been seen or heard from since. Her ears are double pierced.ANYONE HAVING INFORMATION SHOULD CONTACTNational Center for Missing & Exploited Children1-800-843-5678 (1-800-THE-LOST)--------------------------------------------------------------------------------Phoenix Police Department (Arizona) 1-602-262-6151 picture is in issing folder thanks everyone
To the living, I am gone.
To the sorrowful, I will never return.
To the angry, I was cheated.
But, to the happy, I am at peace.
And to the faithful, I never left.
I can not speak, but I can listen.
I can not be seen, but I can be heard.
So as you stand upon the shore.
Gazing at a beautiful sea-Remember Me
As you look awe at a mighty forest
And its green majesty – Remember Me
Remember Me, in your heart, your thoughts
And your memories of the times we loved.
All the times we cried, the times we fought.
And the times we laughed.
For if you always thi
Someday's It's Just What I Need
With one gesture make the pain disappear.
Hold my face in your hands and wash the hurt away.
Wrap your arms around me and stop the tears from falling.
Press me close to you and push the problems out of my mind.
Hold your lips against mine and make me forget it all.
Never let me go so I won't feel the sadness anymore.
Turning The Other Cheek Will Get You Kicked In The Ass
Hey folks, sorry it's been a while since I blogged it up. I'm not in NY anymore so I'm not the "Starbuck's Guy" right now. I'm chillin' at my apartment , well not really chillin' more like packing in a huge rush and getting distracted. I'm going to Iraq in a few days and I have so much to do. Had some adventures since the last time I posted so I'll just bring y'all up to speed on all that.. My last night in NY was somewhat uneventful, as far as I went out to "Hogs and Heifers" which is that cool biker bar in West Village in which I was the only biker there. There were lots of foreigners and I almost got into a fight again. If I had known it was against NY state law for a bouncer to rough somebody up, I would've DEFINATELY gotten into a fight that night. Some yuppy frat-boy went in there with the wrong attitude and was talkin' disrespectful to the lady bartender; my breaking point was when I heard him call her a "Cock-sucking bitch". That made my blood boil, she kicked him out
dammit my computer is messin up! try to upload photos and it wont let me! having other issues with it too. give me a few days and i will have my profile set!
Her Feeling's A Song
i never thought the song she played and playedwould be a fav of minethe melody brings back memoriesand tears to my eyesi bought the song and made it my ownand i play it like she did when i'm alonewhen she was mine....listento the song she sings it maybe just for youshe maybe pouring her heart outwhen she's in love or doubtnot able to say anything to youyou might fightor be too proud to heartoo much she cannot get nearso listen to the songit tells her moodeven if you dont like the tunewhenever i want to talk about her nostalgicallyi dont have to say a thingi just turn it onremembering how sweet we were togetherand the times when things went wrongshe went to the roomor her car had it in the radioshe played it hoping i would knowthat she feels that wayso i wont let her goand never figured outuntil the song came onwhen she was suddenly gone.listento the song she sings it maybe just for youshe maybe pouring her heart outwhen she's in love or doubtnot able to say anything to youyou might fig
Giving Up Your Control
Being submissive in bed can be highly erotic. When you actively surrender to your partner, sex becomes sensational. You're at the mercy of your man's touch " and not knowing what's next can make sex more intense and exciting.
Your arousal is heightened when you give up all the control " especially if you've ever fantasized about being taken charge of in bed. Set the scene: Close your eyes and imagine being ravaged by your partner, a sexy stranger, anyone " just get lost in your own delicious fantasy.
Then let your partner in on your secret. Of course, don't tell him if you've been fantasizing about someone else (that's for your own personal inspiration), but do tell him you want to be totally under his control. Believe me, he'll be thrilled with his new authority! You can lay down some ground rules if you'd like. Will you be tied up? Should he tease you? Think about what you want out of the experience and then let him take the wheel. Even better, let him surprise you right from the
Conversation With A Fool On Fubar
unknownapx: ya now fuck ur self........ Ur wife is getting fucked........ ->unknownapx: what nothing to say? what you thought maybe my wife would hide it from me? can't read english?
what is it? live to close to pakistan and can't tell a cow from a camel? well neither can most of you dot heads. unknownapx: Go to hell Have I talked wid u???? U r just stranger..... I m gonna fuck ur wife....... ->unknownapx: Hey ya lil turban wearin pig fucker, My Name is Lazarus I am Seven blackthornes Real Life husband
and I do not appreciate you telling my WIFE that you want to fuck her.
the term forever seems to be a stretch of ones wants. when in reality nothing can last forever...unless your onea them bible thumping people who think there is eternity and heaven and hell which seems to be the trend these days
But in reality i dont see forever actually happening cause who can tell you what really happens after you die? no one. and most typically all those who say they will do something or be with someone forever are those whom never last doing or claiming to do or be with whomever or whatever they say will last forever
I just see it a damn shame so many peoples judgements and reality perception is clouded by wants
Ok so today the head gasket blew in my car. I made it part way to work and it just died on me. Waited about an hour and it started again so I turned and tried to make it home. Got about two miles from my house and it died for good. Now I'm stuck. If I get someone to change the headgasket (Or attempt to) and it's more than that who knows how much I will end up spending. GAWD I'm hating life right now!
Food & Drink
The French are in a huff about a European Union proposal (expected
to be ratified in June) that would lift a ban on “blended rosés.”
Traditionally, rosé has been made by briefly macerating red grapes,
but the E.U. believes that allowing producers to make it cheaply, by
simply blending red and white wines, will help countries like Spain and
Italy get rid of overstock (it’ll also even the playing field; non-
uropean blended rosés are already permitted). Even though the E.U.
proposes to distinguish blended rosés from “traditional rosés” via
labeling, an organization of 750 French vineyards is nevertheless
rigidly opposed, and the French government is barring the practice
within its borders. A rep for the CIVP/Provence Wine Counsel says, in
a press release: “This proposal will destroy the true wine’s hard-
earned image and undermine a time-honored tradition of production
excellence.” Not to mention, it’ll take money out of
So a friend of mine is a reporter in Colorado Springs...my hometown...and Dog The Bounty Hunter was shot at there but is ok...I only take great amusement from this in the fact that I have watched is show a few times..and he is always downing dancers in it...yet heand his fat bitch wife used to come to the club I worked at all te time..even got some dances from me....so yeah the hypocrisy makes me giggle.....and Tak wondered why I laughed?? Hmmm maybe next time the shooter will have better aim...
And So The Bus Adventure Begins
Ok so now I am reduced to riding the bus for a while (It should be the shortbus but isn't) Anyway I met two crazy people today. The first asked me for 2 dollars then told me about the Govt. messing up his life. The second talked to the first scared the first aways. Walked up to some guy who was reading pulls hi paper down and then see he's reading about the Orlando Magic and starts singing at the top of his lungs "I love My Magic..I love My Magic" for about ten minutes straght as he's singing he takes off his coat throws it into a tree then fights with the tree to get it back. Beats on a bus sign. Then sits (Still singing) sees a bird find an empty beer can (The bird is about 30 yards away) he kicks the can and it lands 3ft in front of him. Picks up the can and drinks from it. Crushes it then throws it at the bird (Lands now 5ft from him). Another bus pulls up this man takes off his jacket and uses it to "Clean" the windows. Then he yells at the bird "If Tiger Woods doesn't get you I
ITS AMAZING TO ME THAT THE PPL U WERE CERTAIN WERE UR "FRIENDS"
R NOTHING MORE THAN A SCREENAME .....IF UR NOT SINCERE....DONT BOTHER...REALLY..
NOTHIN MORE THAN A MERE AQUAINTANCE...PATHETIC
GIFTS AND MONEY R MATERIAL...MEAN NOTHING TO ME
When You Said I Love You
When you said, "I love you,"I went over the moon.My heart sang its glory,The stars sang in tune. As when with a wordGod brought forth light,So with these wordsYou ended my night.
So with these wordsYou made something new:A bond of devotionBetween me and you.
How powerful wordsTo shape who we are!We ponder in silence;Our words cross a bar.
Your words crossed a thresholdAnd entered the past,Yet they have createdA world that will last.
How I Feel When Im Around You
It's amazing how I feel when I'm around you,How my heart pounds when you come into a room.I look at you and think: My God! How lovely!And everything I am bursts into bloom. I feel as though you must, you must be mine,Not as a possession but a goal,Something almost unimaginable:The free devotion of another soul.
As though I were about to enter heavenOr just within the hour condemned to die,My mind with one fierce thought keeps running over,With you, and only you, the reason why.
Pippi Longstocking, Stuart Little, And Enjoy Modern Life Through Modern Packaging
Nine years ago …
Has your brain ever felt like it was tuned to one of those classic rock radio stations? I don’t mean classic as in old necessarily (no Benny Goodman), but classic as in one station in this area that touts, “the best of the 70s, 80s, and 90s.” Well, today’s title [from "Enjoy" onward, it was a 2000 journal entry] comes from the line of a play from middle school that I was in (darn, I need one of Clothahump’s perm. ink spells … but more on him tomorrow). And the date of my performance in “The Dazzling Diamond Caper”? I say, in my best DJ groove, “April 25, 1986.”
Jesus hung from a tree, I just woke up from a nap under one. Anyway, the point of what I’ve learned today is very large. Crescent City [Florida, where I grew up] IS a mission field, and right now I’m being watched, even when I don’t believe I am. From staying with David right now when Connie and Raymond have left to ge
She's so close to leveling... help her out.
Ruby Cairo > ETid, LP, FuGF of Chelsea@ fubar
What To Do, Where To Go From Here...
What to do, where to go from here. I might not have the perfect life but its perfect enough for me. I have great friends and a wonderful family that supports me in all that I do. I'm recently single and looking for that special somone. I thought I've had that special someone many times but I was wrong. I'm looking for someone to compliment me and someone that I can connect with on a real mature and romantic level. Someone to share the same interests with but still have a competitive edge to things. I love variety but at the same time, having a routine that works is good enough for me. Lately I've been running into old friends, making new friends and having my past come back to make me think about things going on in my life. The new friends that I have met, some think that I'm like the best thing that has ever happened to them while my other old friends that have come back, old feelings have come back as well. The new friends, new feelings have come up that I never knew existed. I want
IM TRYING TO MEET NEW PEOPLE SO COME AND CHECK ME OUT IM NOT ASKING NO ONE TO FALL IN LOVE OR NOTHING BUT IT BE NICE TO SHOW ME SOME LOVE LOL
Dead To Me
DEAD TO ME
to the point
of no return...
as i see
you're dead to me
in the past
OK so someone went on a flagging spree, and guess what? I'm sick of it. Red names can hold fingers over their nips and have their whole effing bewbs hanging out, but my CLOTHED photos are a no-no. LOL. Eff you Fubar, you gd prudes.
The gd newsletter with their slut of the month makes you think Fubar is all about nudies.
Soo all future GGW teaser pics, or just "forbidden" photos will NOT be posted on Fubar, because won't someone please think of the children?!
Fetlife.com is way better. And free!
I should lock all my non-default albums to family only. At least they can be trusted
Been in a few of these. Before. You know, I wonder if people think this is all I do all day.
Which Zodiac Sign Are You Most Compatible With? Scorpio From Facebook
You are most compatible with SCORPIO! I'm sure most of your friends are Scorpions! Together you're going to rock! Scorpio’s are strong, deep, mysterious, complex, and also secretive. One trait of the Scorpio personality is that of an achiever, striving to succeed, and do well in life. They are often an influence of leadership and play important roles in the lives of people surrounding them. They may appear to calm and self controlling, but in reality they are actually very emotional individuals.Scorpio’s are considered to be gifted. Their high striving minds are often incapable of accepting failure.Thus, Scorpio’s are often more likely to succeed in their goals and dreams. Scorpio’s prove to be excellent friends. They are loyal and committed to their companions and are often vital roles in the lives of the one’s who love them.
My Mom got the same thing which is my dad lmao
When I have no one to turn toAnd I am feeling kind of low,When there is no one to talk toAnd nowhere I want to go,I search deep within myselfIt is the love inside my heartThat lets me know my Angels are thereEven though we are miles apart.
A smile then appears upon my faceAnd the sun begins to shine.I hear a voice, so soft and sweetSaying, 'Everything will be just fine'It may seem that I am aloneBut I am never by myself at all.Whenever I need my Angels nearAll I have to do is call.
An Angel's love is always trueOn that you can depend.They will always stand behind youAnd will always be your friend.Through darkest hours and brightest daysOur Angel's see us throughThey smile when we are happy, and will cry when we are blue..
Thanks for being my Angel my friendI will be there for you until the end.
If You Are Surrounded By Angels
Angels are the guardians of hope and wonder,The Keepers of magic and dreams.Angels watch over you wherever you go,Keeping each day perfectand promising a bright new tomorrow.
The motto of all angels is"It is a wonderful life."
Wherever there is love,An angel is flying by.
Angels help you carry the ball,carry a tune, carry your weightand carry on!
Your guardian angel knows you insideand out and loves you just the way you are.
Angels keep the world safe for hummingbirdsand butterflies and rainbows in spring.Angels keep it simple and always travel lightAngels love whispering secretsand whistling in the darkWhenever you hear music,an angel is speaking to you.
Remember to leave space in your relationshipsso the angels have room to playYour guardian angel helps youfind a place when you feel there is no place to go.
Keep a spare angel in your pocketAngels carry high-beam lightsto help you through the darkest hoursWhenever you feel lonely,a special angel drops in for tea.
Every time yo
Everytime I Think....
Everytime I think...It feels like your in my head with an eraserErasin all my thoughtsAs if you wanted to control meControl my thoughts...Control my words...Control my actions...Please put the damn eraser down and get out of my damn HEAD!!!!FRLW 3-16-09
Dare We Use The S-word?
by Scott Tucker via truthdig.com, May 1, 2009
...now that we’ve got the son of a Kansan mother and a Kenyan father presiding in Washington, the right-wing guttersnipes have gone back to an old game. They have set up Barack Obama for target practice as a socialist.May Day, 2009 is therefore a good day to remember Obama’s repeatedly stated faith in a capitalist economy. For the true believers on the right, that is not good enough. Obama sometimes suggests that freedom should not be reduced to the free market. Likewise, he has suggested that big banks and big business require public oversight and regulation. These deviations from four-square gospel capitalism are sufficient for the heresy hunters on the right to find reds in the White House beds.
she was almost crying, but muttered out a "yes omg yes!"
I told her I have had many and all had a portion of what I was looking for, but she was complete, Im such a lucky person to have met her...
We went onto take pics of the Hollywood sign....
snuggling talking about the future what it intails, a lot of things need to happen, and all will happen, Im to go and help her move with her kids, set up a new home in Perris California...
Set up work office, get the kids schools handled, but as strange as this may sound...
Im so looking forward to being happy, I havent been for so long...
I find myself daydreaming of her, smiling at the things we have done...looking forward to the things we havent done...
When we arrived back at the hotel, we made arrangements to stay in watch a movie... she snuggled, and omg! she crashed on me..lol
I woke her up and we whistled dixie for about three hours, then went to bed...
mmmm I love her 3am touch Master time....
Went to Hun
Do it! Do it! What good are you anyway? "No, stop! Tomorrow can be a better day."
Do it! Do it! Haha! Your fucking weak! "Shut the fuck up! I will not settle with defeat."
Do it! Do it! Seek out the blade. "I feel relief after, but cringe at the scars I have made."
Do it! Do it! What are you waiting for? "My life, I want it. I hunger for more"
Do it! Do it! Releif now, what more could you ask for? "Control of my thoughts. Control of my mind. Give me time I'll leave you demons behind."
I hold back my tears, I don't want you to veiw me as weak.
I want to scream, but I can barely speak.
I want a clear mind, so many thoughts racing through my head.
I want to live, but my mind obcesses about death
I want to be beautiful, looking in the mirror I see fat.
I want to feel loved, but who wants to love someone like that.
I want to breathe, theres a elephant sitting on my chest.
I want to be normal, let my mind rest.
The Opperion Of Your Mind
I was talking with an old friend about religion, she is a devout church person. But I have been thinking, is it all real??? I am still not sold. Don't get me wrong I grew up in a church family, and went to church on every Sunday, I did the youth group thing as well.But as I have gotten older and looked at things in the world, especially in what’s called by many as the holly land. Every major religion known to man seems to lay some claim to that patch of dirt. They have killed each other for centuries over a mound of dirt and rock, and I wonder is it worth it? Is the Muslim Moosic as holy as the Jewish Temple? Or the Calvary mount? Honestly as one man I am not sure, but is it worth the loss of life and the constant blood shed. The state of Israel was created after WWII too give the Jewish people there own home after the horrible atrocity that occurred in Europe under the jack boot of the Nazi’s, another stain on mans collective soul? If you take a historic look at the b
03 May 2009
Validation of my thoughts will come from my words.
The Friends I Were Talking About Are Back Stabbers and She's A Phycotic Troublemaker. Her Fiance Sticks Up For Her When She's In The Wrong Which Is Why He Doesn't Know The Whole Truth. She Messed Around With Another Guy While She Was Here And Her Fiance Was At Work. They Blocked Me On Here,But Oh Well Cuz What Goes Around Comes Around And Bites You In The Ass.
Friends Of Kelly Ann
Kelly Ann has been having some health issues lately...She had a heart catherization done this morning, and had to have 3 stints put in...They also found out she is a diabetic...So any of you that have had to deal with any of these know that she's going to have to dramatically change her lifestyle...The Dr. said no more smoking, and has to avoid sugar & fats...This is going to be a dramatic change, one of them alone would be rough, but 3 at one time is going to really suck...Those of you that know her, pls go show her page some love, let her know you're thinking about her...Those of you that don't, you really don't know what you're missing...Her and I have been best friends for over 10 yrs now and she's an awesome person to have on your side, so PLS stop by her page and let her know that you care...I appreciate you taking the time to read this, and pls repost it so that it gets out for all to see...Thank you so much Natural Witch AKA Tina...Just click her pic and show her some fu-love
Its my problem, not yours
Its my pain, not yours
Its my sorrow, not yours
Its my depression, not yours
Its my story, not yours
Its my worry, not yours
Its my stress, not yours
Its my frusttration, not yours
Its my bullshit, not yours
Its my fucked up life, not yours
Have You Ever Wondered? Ponderings Of A Pissed Off Old Lady!
Have you ever wondered, that with all the drama out in the real world, that we escape to the net, only to find and create more drama?
Where is the fine line that each person draw's for reality and the "what if's" the internet creates for us?
Do you think that there is really a chance you can find happiness in the pants of another person you are talking to, via the net, who lives a half of a world away?
Have you ever stopped, just sat back and realized that the interenet is the biggest meat market in the world?
Do you really beleive the grass is greener on the other side of the fence?
Will it truly taste sweeter after you realize that the grass is exaclty the same as what you left your pasture for?
Do you ever think that maybe sometimes, we find that "special" someone out here in cyber space....and build them up to be someone they really aren't, then them up on a pedistal....if only in our own minds? Then to find out that they cannot be that person... they cannot live up to o
The whole world is my enemy - and I'm a walking target Two times the devil with all the significance Dragged and raped for the love of a mob I can't stay - because I can't be stopped Eat motherfuckers alive who cross us I know you're all tired of the same ol' bosses Let me tell you how it's gonna be I'm gonna kill anyone who steps up in front of me Welcome to the same ol' fucking scam Same ol' shit in a dead fad Everybody wants to be so hard Are you real or a second rate sports card? They all lost their dad or their wife just died They never got to go outside - SHUT UP Nobody gives a fuck it doesn't change the fact that you suck (We are) The anti-cancer (We are) The only answer Stripped down, we want you dead But what's inside of me, you'll never know (We are) Bipolar gods (We are) You know what we are My life was always shit And I don't think I need this anymore Now I'm not pretty and I'm not cool But I'm fat and I'm ugly and proud - so fuck you Standing
I'm Expressing My Feelings To A Girl By Poem.
I see her everyday
she usually walks my way
I want to talk to her but I don't know what to say
shes the prettiest girl around
I am love bound
I thought I didn't have feelings for her no more
but I realized that my feelings for her were stronger than ever before
and if the reader of this poem happens to be the girl of my dreams
you are my will to live without you I have no reason to breathe
Being A Mother To Me!!
A mothers hands.. As I embarked apon the days of motherhood I thought not of the changes that would happen, the feelings that would wash away the old me and create the lady I am today. As his little fingers are in mine as he was so small and needy, and his little smile reached across that little face, I would often cry and thank the gods above for the gift that has so blessed my life. As his days go by and his dreams become life, I realize now how my life has meaning and forever on these special days I will be blessed with alittle boy like you. The Memories of your first steps still sit in my mind as if it was yesterday, I guess all of your first are as they were yesterday, and I long to keep them tight to my heart and mind. So gifted you were with all the things you do, your power is strong I peacock thinking your all mine !! Throughout the years of watching you grow I count again the blessing of motherhood for all its done for me...I thank all the days forever more for being a mom
so, I have court at 1 30 (its 11 25 now)
should I sleep for an hour? before I have to go?
Ive been up since 4 30pm yesterday
silently she sighs,
Withdrawing into herself,
away from reality,
away from the callous,
cruel remarks of her peers,
for the day she can rise,
spread her wings,
and be reborn,
like a phoenix rises from it's ashes.
Good Enuf Follow Up
I am having the worst day of my entire life ... i am sick to my stomach and cant eat .. preggers you ask ... hell no if only ... i am lost and i am feeling not good enuf ... do i make enuf money ... am i trying hard enuf ... will i be able to take care of things quickly enuf ... am i worthy ... maybe doing my own thing is the answer was the answer - not of my choice ... maybe i am not good enuf to be the one... maybe i am just wishing and hoping for that unconditional thing ... is it really there or did i just see a glimpse of it ... made me want more ... made me laugh and smile and sing again ... am i capable of being the person i am and sharing it ... without hurting him or being consumed with need and want .... i feel like a part of me is actively dying ... and i want it still ... sad pathetic demented ... i dont want or need to speak of this again ... pls dont ask me ever... i just felt the need to scream and still i want and need and love ... maybe i am good enuf but can i be l
A Story..i Wrote Awhile Ago
I had a dream a girl handed a boy a ring. He didn't say anything just looked at her. She looked away turning her entire head. "It could never work, you want something that would have to last forever and it could never be."Still he said nothing just looked at her. His face was emotionless. She looked back at him in anger."Say something!" She shouted. She was irritated with his silence and thought he should be saying something in return.Tears built up in her eyes. "Speak to me please." She said as her fists and jaws clenched. "This was just a promise ring anyways, it's not like you fucking proposed to me!" she shouted loud enough for the crowd around them to look and watch in sadness.The pressure of all the people staring started to build stress on both of them, the boy by embarrassment, the girl from the nosiness. He finally broke his gaze and looked down at the ring. "Your right it is just a promise ring...a promise that I wanted to keep. To be with you for the rest of my life in happi
To Help With Saving A Child
May 12, 2009 - Tuesday
please write to these people and voice your oppinion of the injustus of what is happening to the little girl in my las blog please if you care write if not do nothing at all thanks to all
Media and Political Contacts Indiana
Elkhart Truth -- HeadquartersWebsite: www.etruth.comPhone: (574) 294-1661Fax: (574) 294-3895Address: PO Box 487 Elkhart, IN 46515-0487Goshen News -- HeadquartersWebsite: goshennews.comPhone: (574) 533-2151Fax: (574) 534-8830Address: 114 South Main Street Goshen, IN 46526South Bend Tribune -- HeadquartersWebsite: www.southbendtribune.comPhone: (574) 235-6161Fax: (574) 236-1765Address: 225 West Colfax Avenue South Bend, IN 46626WBND (ABC-57) -- HeadquartersPhone: (574) 243-4316Fax: (574) 243-4326Address: 431 East Colfax Avenue, Suite 120 South Bend, IN 46617WNDU (NBC-16) -- HeadquartersWebsite: www.wndu.comPhone: (574) 631-1616Fax: (574) 631-1600Address: PO Box 1616 South Bend, IN 46634WSBT (CBS-22) -- Headq
It's almost 5 am and I can't sleep. Mother's Day morning. Always has been hard for me. As I sit here in the dark I reflect over the past year. So much has happened. So much has changed. A year ago today we went for breakfast with my mom and sister. Now my sister is in Kuwait, and you... pretty much don't exist anymore.When you are in my life, it's nothing but drama and turmoil. Everytime I hear from you, my heart races. I came home to see my mom for Mother's Day. I don't know that I can give her the happiness this weekend that she's looking for... The drive was horrible. It usually is. It gives me too much time to sit and think. Seems as though that's all I've been doing lately... sitting... thinking... waiting... waiting for something inside me to change... waiting for the pain to go away. I have people in my life who love me and support me no matter what. I have realized that and appreciate them for everything they have done for me... yet something is still missing. What is it? It
Can You Combine Work And Fun?
So many people are trying to find the perfect job. Is there a such thing? I mean, how many actual jobs are there that you can work and have fun at the same time? Me personaly, I enjoy fishing though I dont get to go as often as I would like because i work all the time. So I am thinking about owning a fishing charter company so I can fish anytime i want while i am working.
What other jobs out there can you work and have fun at the same time?
I wish I was a better looking man cuz then I could have sex with the lights on the women keep telling me to TURN OFF THE FRICKN LIGHTS and its starting to hurt my feelings but maybe its just me does anyone else have this problem????
Mini Dave Goes To The Moon, Alice, Saying Paige Is Crazy
No, my weeklong hiatus from the online missive of my life was not prompted by my search for the craziest title! Hello, everybody! Martha, Sarah, Jeffrey, and I got back just after four in the afternoon yesterday from a week we spent visiting my brother Garry in Illinois and my mom in Kentucky. For those who can see the photo with this, that’s the five of us in the photo taken the day after Mother’s Day.
Also it’s the one time my mom actually dressed to go out while we were visiting; ever since last September when she was given an oxygen tank to use, she has largely been a homebody due to her repeated hospital visits with pneumonia and blood donations. But when we left Tuesday, we came with the good news that Mom didn’t need another transfusion then and her hemoglobin levels were perfect – way to go, Mom!
Our principal stop before arriving at and on our way home from Mom’s was in Poplar Grove, Illinois where my brother Garry had moved with his
Local Dj Banned
Hey All,About a week ago a local country music radio DJ got banned from Facebook just because he was using his DJ name. So there is a group that has been put together, on Facebook, to support him and his caused.The DJ's name is Shotgun Jackson, he is on Kbull 93, here in Utah, and while he was on Facebook, if you wrote on his wall asking him to play a song he would get it on for you faster then any other stations. He also would give out stuff every now and then if he were on his friends list and sign onto Facebook while he was on air.So what I am asking for EVERYONE who has an account over there to do is go search for the group, “Bring Back Shotgun Jackson,” join and leave a post on the wall yelling at Facebook telling them you want him back. Mean their claim is “Everyone can join,” so why not a radio DJ?Thanks!!!!!P.S. If you could please share this, that would be great! :)
The Long Good-bye
She moves a lot slower now. She can’t hear us. She can barely see us. She walks with her back hunched, and she sits and lies down slowly as if her every joint aches. She stopped eating. She rests her head on my lap and looks up at me, and her eyes are tired. We can see it. Sydney is gently, slowly moving on.
She’s been part of this family for 9 or 10 years. She has been mine for 2 months. I don’t know if her going is because of grief or just her old age. Maybe some of both. I swear she cried as much as I did when her family left. She wandered through the house with her head hanging for weeks. She has stopped that now, but her fatigue is obvious.
She still perks up and plays when we are up in Camas. She is happy there. In less than 3 weeks it will be home. I like it that she will live out her days in the place she seems to love so much. There is a beautiful spot near the old orchard there that she will finally rest in, close to her friend, Sam. She will li
Marriage is it just a game or is it real?Marriage is suppose to be real not a game. If u and someone takes that step its real and if its fake it wont work.
So before u take them vowes make sure that it is real and not just for the love because love is not everything. So the games and the bullshit has to stop love them one ur with not the one u want.
High Island Beach. 5.17.09
I'll be heading down about 5 in the morning. After I get loaded up. Got plans on getting up at 4:00 Its going to be a short night. Got some friends coming down but your more then welcome to come by and say hey or what ever. Went and picked up a prepaid T-mobile phone. 409-454-9138. Hope to have a great report. Black Ford F-150 Supper Crew 4X4 6 1/2' bed. I'll be flying a TKF BTB flag. I'll have plenty of rods out so you shouldn't be able to miss me if you swing by. Camo pants and a lime green long sleeve shirt.
A Blog For My Good Friend Paul"
i hate to see u leaving fubar, but i know it will be for good reason,, so i am happy , even if i know i will miss you here badly"
although we spent a very limited time on here , but i think those were precious times, because they made us close together as friends.
we talked about our lives, problems a our bad days and good days', and even when there were times that we dont talk or visit each others page, i know that we are always connected as friendsi always feel your silent prescence.. and your kindness, when you feel something is wrong with me".you never failed to ask". i thank you so much for that, they are very special act of friendship.
i know that you are busy and still you always find time to remeber me" specially when i am feeling down".
now that you are leaving, i know i will miss you here".but i will keep you in my heart and all the fu memories that we have".
i will always include you in my prayers, and i wish you so much happiness, good health and success, .. to
I watched the sun set today
It set upon sweet lips
I watched as the moon rose
It rose upon cherished hips
Sitting upon this shore tonight
Hearing her soft voice call
Fantasizing of tasting paradise
Desiring to breach her honey walls
Would she hear my passions?
Would she grace me in the dark?
Would she desire my touch?
Hospice has been called in and the nurse was there today. It's so sad to see such a courageous beautiful person become feeble, weak and slowly lose his self pride. My mothers heart is breaking and mine breaks for them both. Pardon my postings on here, but somehow it helps me.. I think. I dont know what the coming days or weeks will bring, but I shall be tending to my family and trying to take care of any needs. Ciao for now.
I've held others before,But it was never like this,Where my body inhales youAnd quivers with bliss,Where my senses are reelingFrom the strength of desire,And if I can't have you soon,I'll be consumed by the fire.
All Of Me
----------------------Patterns change---------------- Can my heart rearrange -------- These strange emotions swirling inside?--For time has revealed a love that won't be denied -What passion conceived when two thirsting souls collide ----------- All that I own, I now give to thee-------------------- All I shall ever be --------------------------All of me
Ty czyniæ coœ do zrobienia mi
(you do something to me)I think!
To my stranger in the night, my Prince in my dreams. One word, one gift makes it easier to slip into the darkness of my slumber to where I will find you, and wake into the void of the sunlight to make it so much brighter. It’s Almost a juvenile feeling during the brief moments that we speak can I be perfect without flaw knowing, you know no better. Dreaming and writing of perfection I am not even sure of:
It’s a Magical, Poetic need, a desire to know your soul and your truth. For now I wait for the night to set in when my desire turns to dreams, you’re on the beach next to me as our sun falls to the depths of the ocean…
This Is A How Sexy Can You Be Auction And All Can Enter.
Auction with prizes being held on Sunday May 31stAll pictures for auction need to be in no later than May 29th at midnight
Prizes included are the three top highest bids at end of auction will be:1st prize-Your choice of one month V.I.P or 7 day blast and 25 credit blingpack2nd prize-3 day blast with a 10 credit bling pack3rd prize 1 day blast with a 10 credit bling pack
Please make these pictures unique to get the highest bid for you.
I do believe this site is turning into a popularity contest. All I see is rate me fan me add me etc, instead of people actually wanting to be a friend. When I first joined this site it was a fun place to be. Now it seems like all anyone wants is to bling or whatever its called...I could care less really, I just like making friends.
Is it to much to ask for to have real friends on here, someone to come talk to when I'm alone or just needing someone there for me?
I even have the nude pics that women love to see as much as us men like seeing yours lol so please come get to know me, quit turning this site into a popularity contest, and get fubar back to way it used to be.
Hate Him Now......
I HAVE LOST EVER BIT OF RESPECT I EVER HAD FOR HIM TODAY...
HE YELLS AT ME BECAUSE HE HATES WHO HE IS...
DEEP DOWN I KNOW IT HAS NOTHING TO TO WITH ME...
BUT HE IS THE ONLY MAN IN MY WORLD THAT HAD ALL OF MY RESPECT...
THE ONLY ONE I COULD CALL IF I WAS IN TRUBLE....
I THOUGHT FOR 21 YEARS THAT HE WOULD ALWAYS HELP ME!!
I SEE TODAY THAT HE DOESNT EVEN COUNT ME AS BEING ANYTHING MORE TO HIM THEN A PERSON THAT JUST HAPPENS TO BE AT HIS FAMILY GET TOGETHERS...
NOT HIS FAMILY...
SURE AS HELL NOT HIS SISTER!!
THIS IS TO YOU MIKE MY ONLY BROTHER!!
GO TO HELL YOU FAT BASTERD!!
I HAVE NEVER LOST SO MUCH RESPECT FOR ONE MAN SO FAST!!
THE THE WOMAN YOU NEVER WANTED AS A SISTER!!
By Nickle Back...
This time I wonder what it feels likeTo find the one in this lifeThe one we all dream ofBut dreams just aren't enoughSo I´ll be waiting for the real thing.I'll know it by the feeling.The moment when we´re meetingwill play out like a scene straight off the silver screenSo I`ll be holdin’ my own breathRight up to the endUntil that moment whenI find the one that I'll spend forever with`Cause nobody wants to be the last one there.'Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares.Someone to love with my life in their hands.There`s gotta be somebody for me like that.`Cause nobody wants to do it on their ownAnd everyone wants to know they´re not alone.There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere.There`s gotta be somebody for me out there.Tonight, out on the street out in the moonlightAnd dammit this feels too rightIt´s just like Déjà VuMe standin’ here with youSo I´ll be holdin`my own breathCould this be the end?Is it that moment whenI find the one that I'll spend forever wi
i miss under stood her i under apreaciated her and now its to late my heart is empty my soul is broken but still shes better off than me.shes known true love and the touch of a better man and i cant compete.if not for our child id end my pain but we arnt all lucky like that
I came to wake up beside your sleepy form, After the love we made, After the sweet caresses of your skin, After the kisses that we shared… We walked into the bedroom together, We never left. We let our bodies mesh together as one, We let ourselves go free. I gave it all to you, I gave you all I could, I gave this all to you, With no questions asked. You opened your heart to me, You opened your arms to hold me, You stared into my eyes without hesitation, I stared into your eyes without apprehension. I laid you down gently, I took your clothes off—slowly, Sensually, I took my time with you, To make you feel complete. When your clothes were off, and you were comfortable with your nakedness, I became more than just a man, I became a part of you, and you became and extension of me, When I decided to explore you, you let me in. I took one of your long legs, caressed them with kisses, And I did the same to the other. You shuddered with delight, As I made my d
Goal accomplished. I have laid on the floor of my dining room, pressing my nose to the glass so that I could exchange glances with the raccoons that come to eat the treats I put out for them and whatever critters want them, for at least two weeks. I started talking to them a week ago. They got used to the sound of my voice, the look of my face, and the treats on the porch. I really wanted to feed one a shelled nut out of my hand. YES!!! I just did it!!! I slid open the glass door fractionally, while the two raccoons growled at each other. Apparently there is some raccoon hierarchy for feeding that has to be kept to - only one raccoon on a step at a time. While they were busy keeping each other on the proper steps, I got the door open enough for two fingers to slide out. The raccoon on the top step turned back, and I rolled a peanut out the door. He took it. I rolled another one. He took it. The next one I held in my fingertips and he took it! My fingertip touched his cute little nose.
I find myself falling back into that horrible unyielding place of sorrow. i feel as if my so called wonderful life is actually my downfall. it is only societies view of me, only an impression of happiness and humbleness to which has to true meaning of who i really am. my real person lay deep within a consuming shell surrounded by a cloud of deception. that deception only to keep the real truth inside. the truth that keeps me who i am, keeps me sane and gets me through each day. to know my truth would be to know a dark seceret, a seceret so painful that it was ment for me and noone else.
So i drag this unrelenting sorrow through my daily up and downs of life. but i keep it locked away in the southern most abyss of my soul. where it will lie until it forces itself to the rippled surface of my dark ocean of emotions
Psychology Self Test
http://www.psychologytoday.com/pto/self_tests.php a cool site my psychology teacher sent us....
WhyAm i always a victim to your shit. Stone all in out thinkin what the fhuck you kno life's about. I don't need you urself or ur shit. Matter fact i don't wanna even see ur face you make sick go fhuck off die choke a dick. Life never wasn't really nothin to begin with. Everyone just gets on my fhuckin nerve. Fhuckin racist ass lucky i'm not close. Or i would've fhuckin punched ur lights out. Fhuck you n urself you lazy down beat ho you don't fhuckin know. Never really got why the fhuck i'm such a target to this world. Fhuck how to spell like it fhuckin matters. Hope you die n ur brain scatters. Blood drippin from ur mouth. Had to pick on me for no reason. Why cuz i'm black can't get urself up from a heart attack. Ur lifeless ain't shit you fhuck you stuck cuz youSucSuc suc suc suc sucCan't take my life away no you won't won't take my life from me no you won't. Think that you can cuz ur less then in an. Find you dead in a garbage can with ur chopped body parts all into pieces diseased
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Took To Prescreen For Anesthesia Today...
took him today and they kept him...his blood pressure was 218/141..stroke stage...they want to get his blood pressure down b4 the surgery tuesday....also did a chest xray that showed more spots....now i am scared....please pray for him ....
Children Are Like A Plague.
I have had it, I think I just need to pack up my laptop and a few clothes and get into my car and drive away. Between having Lola five days a week, and when her mom gets her she doesn't help clean up the place, and now Sonya and Brian are here with their three kids making a mess, I might kill someone.I was never met to be someone's maid, I pick up after myself when I am in the rest of the house, and here and there in my room, but to pick up after four sometimes five other people is just messed up!What really has drive me over the edge is the fact, that Sonya and Brian, like 90% of the parents in todays world, had no idea where their son was, and I have always been one of those people that believe it is the people who gave the child life to know where they were ever second of the day. Well Dakota went into my mom's room got her baby power and then brought it into my room pouring it EVERYWHERE! Yes I mean EVERYWHERE, on my radio system, my ex-hard drive, all over my bed, which had my
Latinos Are People Too
I bet you thought this was going to be a rant about Rush Limbaugh and how he said America does not need the Latino vote. WELL IT IS NOT - BECAUSE HE DID NOT SAY THAT...
People seem to have alot of trouble stepping out from behind their own perceptions to hear the words coming from others in the spirit in which they were intended to be delivered.
What Rush Limbaugh meant I am not even going to attempt to speak. He speaks for him. But I will tell you what I heard. I heard that what the dream is - from our Founding Fathers to Martin Luther King Jr. right on down to me is this - We want the AMERICAN VOTE.
I WANT THE THINKING PERSON VOTING. THE PERSON THAT CAN PUT ASIDE THEIR GENITALS, THEIR SKIN COLOR, THEIR ETHNIC SORT OF CELEBRATIONS AND VOTE FOR WHAT IS GOOD FOR AMERICA AND UPHOLDS THE CONSTITUTION.
So I was sorta disappointed when I saw a hispanic man of power talking on some pundits show, saying WELL, HOW DO YOU THINK THE REPUBLICAN LATINOS FEEL WHEN RUSH LIMBAUGH SAYS THE GOP
James Nosworthy, 32, of Tracy died Sunday evening from burns suffered when he lit gunpowder on fire in his backyard. The man's wife called police 5:45 p.m. Sunday to report her husband was "fully engulfed in flames" at a backyard barbecue pit on the 100 block of Arezzo Way, police logs show. A second caller reported two people were burned. The wife was too upset to talk to police, but Nosworthy got on the line and said he burned himself badly when he tried to ignite gunpowder and it exploded. At 7:49 p.m., an employee at Sutter Tracy Community Hospital called police to say Nosworthy had died from his injuries. He had second- and third-degree burns on his head, torso, arms and legs, said police spokesman Sgt. Tony Sheneman, and three witnesses were present. Nosworthy had gunpowder on hand because he reloaded his own ammunition, police said. On his MySpace.com page, Nosworthy described himself as a man who didn't shy away from danger. "It seems to be a tragic accident," Sheneman sai
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Long Long Weekend
So as some of you know, I went to chicago this weekend to spend time with my brother and old friend from grade school. I have not had that much fun in a long long long time. I look forward to the next gathering. Now lets jump to on the way home. We almost ran out of gas, which thankfully made it to a gas staion just in the nick of time. As I am about 2 minutes from home, I get a call from a friend that my ex wife needs to talk to me about something extremely important. Naturally I was reluctant to do so. But my brother said hey dude, just talk to her and find out if it is about the kids. So I agreed to meet her and talk to her. For the first time in a long long long long time, we got along and got a lot of rumors cleared up that both of us were hearing about the other person. Some of the suspicions I was having she confirmed, others she didnt deny nor confirm. She agreed to spend time with me as I am moving here in 2 weeks, and wont be able to see her at all after that. I as
New Photos & Edits
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The Passion Inside
I have walked threw the shadows of the valley of death, and feared no evil.
I have been guided by the light in the darkness with truth and honor.
The very sacrifice of my doomed soul is the price am willing to pay for the safety of the ones who don't know my name
Medals of Valor under lock and key. My reward is my priviledge to serve sitting the recesses of my mind.
The Years past by and the world changes and my convictions stay the same. I am an outcast to the society and people I protect. But with even the ever changing times I have no regrets. for I lived my life with the passion of my calling.
So now I pass the torch to one so young and full of spirit. with the same passion and commitment.
For me this is not the end. but the beginning. For life has changed its course. For me to sleep in comfort knowing that the new guard sits quietly and unrecongnized to his call of duty.
So now I am able to live the dreams, that I fought so hard to protect. And by the grace of God. He has b
The Perfect Man For Me
Well first off...there's like no such thing as a perfect person....
Looks aren't important, but the type that usually get my attention are the punk, rock, goth type...and dudes that aren't skinny...love men with meat.
apperciates who i am
wouldn't neglect me
give me attention
helps around the house
sex is great but it's not that important
if we were to have sex...i don't care what size you are or whatever..just as long as we're having that special moment together...if you complain that I can't get you off....well fuck off...
i know that this one could never be true...but i'd wish for that person to never lay their eyes off me or look at anyone else.... that i was the only imporant thing to them...
responsabilty is always good...
someone i can trust..even though I have a had time trusting people
having things in common would be nice...but not everything otherwise it could get boring.
love someone that likes to get out...like with nature, not alway sittin
eveybody plz pray for blackwolfs dad hes in the hospital with luekemia!plz pray for him!tyvm and god bless!
Song in my head...
Feelings Nothing more than feelings Trying to forget my Feelings of hate Imagine Beating on your face Trying to forget my Feelings of hate Feelings For all my life i'll feel it I wish I'd never met you You'll make me sick again Feelings, oh oh feelings Of hate on my mind Feelings Feelings like I never liked you Feelings like I want to kill you Live in my heart Feelings Feelings like I wanna deck you Feelings like I've gotta get you Out of my life Feelings, oh oh feelings The hate's in my eyes Feelings, oh oh feelings You're not very nice
He Is Coming Yay
i am waiting ... today marks 10 more days ... and he will be here ... bonding with our children in their environment ... i have been all strange feeling like i have no heart .. like i left it in cali loll ... hard to express feelings this strong in IM and text and even over the phone and often frustrations hit us both and it becomes difficult and upseting even at times ... soon we can relax again with each other .. closer to the time i can move there ... the other day i had had a rough day and wished he would move here to northcakalaky.. but that isnt possible ... i will love cali im sure cause where he is is home ... i love him so much id move my kids and i across the country to be with him... i will give up family and friends and not regret it ... one day he says we can move where ever we want ... once the kids are grown up a lil more ... i have that to hang onto .. prolly wont wanna move at that point ... we will be settled and i will have had years to adapt loll ... he has put that
Grain Of Salt
my face shows far less than i would have it.i desire to be hardened more quickly then life permits.there's a comfort, a softness, some happiness left.visible lessons i still need to be taught.now, then hurry up and teach me. for uncertainty slips by too slowly and satisfaction can't find its way to my head. please let me grow wiser, take the gleam from my eyes. so that the dim shallow spheres, may match my insides.
Apparently I look like this chick
Giving And Not Recieving
I am wonder why people ask for so much stuff then when you get something for them like say a bling pack they don't even send you one. I am not whining so i dont wanna see any bs comments. It seems everyone is out for themselves. Wouldn't common sense dictate that maybe when someone buys you something you should at least return the favor or send them something. Well anyway it seems there are alot of selfish people on here who just want want want and dont wanna give in return. Like i said im not whining im just seeing alot of it on here. Anyway i dont know if anyone will read this but who knows. I like it here but it seems its turing into a nsfw myspace. Well thanks for taking the time to read this. Have a great day everyone.
All Alone I Sit And Wait
All alone I sit and wait,As I stare down the road at fate,You know that I am here,For that you have no fear,As I sit here blue with sorrow,I know that we will have tomorrow,Your love has made me whole,And for that I have paid the toll,You asked me to wait for you,I do that for you with hopes that you will be true,For when we said I do,I knew I was meant for you,The happiness of our love,Has surely been sent form god above.I love you todayAs I will tomorrowBut nothing comes close to what I will feel forever.I love you my dear,And that will last throughout the years.
I couldn't get much sleep last night. I think I fell asleep sometime after midnight. Had stuff on my mind. Woke up around 3am, way before my alarm went off. Heard Rich come home and he was making some noise down stairs. I tried to call back asleep, but my mind kept traveling. Ya know how you can sometimes cry yourself to sleep, I think I woke up crying. That's only happened a few times.
I thought about some things that could make me smile, but then I think of other things that goes with that thought and just makes me sad again. Heard Tigger in the bathroom scratching at the litter box. I don't know why he can't just cover up his shit. He doesn't even touch the damn litter but he's gotta wipe his paws on something...I yelled at him a few times to have him stop..he finally stopped and ran down stairs. Then I smelled his dookie and said "Fuck, now I'm up"
Came downstairs and Rich said "Wow you're up early, Did I wake up?" I said..Yeah, sorta, but it's okay. I've had stuff on my mind. I'
It's been a long day At the bottom of the hill They say she died of a broken heart She told me I was living in the past Drinking from a broken glass I'm Alone Now I turn to face the cold I'm Alone Now I turn to travel home I walked down To the other end today Just to catch those last few rays I held out my hands and slowly waved goodbye I turn my eyes to the sky Chorus She'll come back to me I held out my hands to the light and I watched it die I know, that I was part to blame But I've done my time And I Never want to spend my life alone
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Trinity Saij & Mizbehaven Reunion
Trinity Saij came out to see me in the beginning of April. Although we did have so much naughty fun together during her stay we didn’t get to do much because she had gotten sick. Since that happened, Trinity and I decided to schedule another meeting in August, only this time I’m flying down to see her in the US. In order to make this happen I’ll need to save up at $500 for the trip. If you would like to see this hot reunion happen, please send a donation. All the money I make are going towards this trip. Trinity and I have so much more hot and horny things we want to do to each other and would really appreciate your help. Thank you !
Last weekend I saw something at Larry’s Pistol & Pawn Shop that sparked my interest. The occasion was our 15th anniversary and I was looking for a little something extra for my wife Julie. What I came across was a 100,000-volt, pocket/purse-sized taser. The effects of the taser were supposed to be short lived, with no long-term adverse affect on your assailant, allowing her adequate time to retreat to safety….?? WAY TOO COOL!Long story short, I bought the device and brought it home. I loaded two AAA batteries in the darn thing and pushed the button. Nothing! I was disappointed. I learned, however, that if I pushed the button AND pressed it against a metal surface at the same time; I’d get the blue arc of electricity darting back and forth between the prongs. AWESOME!!! Unfortunately, I have yet to explain to Julie what that burn spot is on the face of her microwave. Okay, so I was home alone with this new toy, thinking to myself that it couldn’t
For a while, I've been having these weird muscle spasims or whatever in my lower back leg...calf..or whatever you call that area. I had actually gone to the doctor about it becaues it was driving me nuts. She told me to try this certain pill and get back to her in a month or so...I haven't yet... but anyways...i would get this weird tingling feeling in my leg...like I have to stretch it out. The last few days, I've been trying to massage it on my own...the muscles are really sore for some reason...
Okay, so I was sitting in the office looking over some papers. My legs were bugging the hell out of me so I tried stretching them out while looking over my papers. I then decided to sit somewhere else to where I could lay my legs out.
I sat in this chair at this table and across the table, I had put another chair there so I could rest my feet. I sit down, and put my right foot into the chair infront of me...now these are odd chairs...it's one that you can adjust the level of your seat.
I go into the bathroom and light 4 candles. Just enough light. I turn on the water and pour some vanilla bubble bath. I take off my shirt and jeans. I take my bra off, and last my panties. I stand there and look at myself in the mirror. Looking over my body, I start to think about you. I wait for the tub to fill. I turn off the water. I grab a towel and set it on the counter. I ease myself into the bath. The water is hot, not too hot but just right. I lay down till the water is at my neck and lay there for a minute. I close my eyes and think of you. I can see you standing there looking at me. You are naked. I am lying on the bed and waiting. Your cock is hard. I smile and lick my lips. You walk closer to me. I am wearing a black corset and black thongs with my boots. I have placed handcuffs on the night table.
I start to rub my breasts. I take my nipples in my fingers and twist gently. I rub them. I sit up so that the water is not covering my breasts. The water runs down my chest. I g
Sitting Here I Look At The Day
Sitting here I look at the daywondering what the world might say.What once was cold and grey.Has finally gone away.I can't thank you enoughFor helping me with this stuffYou know just what to sayTo brighten each and every dayA touch of your handWill help me standNow we walk togetherLooking toward foreverFlowing like the sands of timeWe take each day one moment at a time.
Men Of Power And Faith And Their Penis Divining Rod
Comic Sans is the only font proper for this blog. Sans meaning NOT in french. There is no comedy to me in the slew of men of power and supposed powerful faith that think with their dicks.
What the fuck. (INNUENDO, PUN INTENDED). I want to know exactly what point in time things were going soooooooo well with the areas these men were supposed to be guarding for the safety and salvation of WE, THE PEOPLE - that they had time to play with winky. Free Willy. Get the Knob Slobbed. Play Hide the Sausage. (insert (INNUENDO, PUN INTENDED) - sexual code phrases ad infinitum...
You know, I do not care if the guy down the street that is not in charge of anything that really matters to me, that was not elected by me, that does not tout his pristine faith to me, that does not judge me, nor judge any part of society of which he is so loftily above - screws the neighbor or his wife, or his dog, or his perfectly holed ash tree. I DO expect people of power, that gain goods and services and access to
3 Kinds Of Ppl.... Pussies Dicks And Assholes!!!
Pussies don't like dicks, because pussies get fucked by dicks. But dicks also fuck assholes: assholes that just want to shit on everything. Pussies may think they can deal with assholes their way. But the only thing that can fuck an asshole is a dick, with some balls. The problem with dicks is: they fuck too much or fuck when it isn't appropriate - and it takes a pussy to show them that. But sometimes, pussies can be so full of shit that they become assholes themselves... because pussies are an inch and half away from ass holes.
Caught up in this madness, too blind to see Woke animal feelings in me Took over my sense and I lost control I'll taste your blood tonight You know I make you wanna scream You know I make you wanna run from me, baby But no, it's too late, you've wasted all your time Relax while you're closing your eyes to me So warm as I'm setting you free With your arms by your side there's no struggling Pleasure's all mine this time Ooh, you know I make you wanna scream You know I make you wanna run from me, baby But no, it's too late, you've wasted all your time Cherishing those feelings Pleasuring Cover me Unwanted clemency Scream 'til there's silence Scream while there's life left vanishing Scream from the pleasure Unmask your desire, perishing We've all had a time where we've lost control We've all had our time to grow I'm hoping I'm wrong but I know I'm right I'll hunt again one night Ooh, you know I make you wanna scream You know I make you wanna run from me, baby But no, it's too late,
Well once again something has to go wrong. Last month I found a lump on my pups leg. So i called the doctor and wanted to know when i could get him into the vet. Well she told me things i could try first at home to see if it will go away. That way i wouldn't have to spend any money.
Well a month has gone by and he has gotten worse. The lump is huge and I am thinking it is a tumar. Not only that it has turned black and has gotten hard. Also it has also moved to his inner thigh. which is now all red and also kinda hard.
I have made him an appiontment to go to the vets on monday. But to be honest i don't think he will make it till then. He has gotten the shakes and he is always sleeping now. He is also wheezing in hie sleep. I would hate to have to put him down. Hopefull they tell me all he needs is to go under the knife to get it removed.
I feel so bad for him. And i have done everything I can to make him comfy till monday. I just hope he will make it till then.
Where Are The Mumm's
Remember when Mothers day was getting close? Hell, Remember when it was still 2-3 weeks away? There was a fucking deluge of MUMM's.
Second class citizens again.
Holliwood's Salon Adventure
So today in preperation for leave, I decided to go to the Salon and have a few beautification things done. WOW! What an experience! First obviously being a Soldier, I needed a haircut. After the haircut I got a manicure! That wasn't too bad. She made my thumb cuticale bleed alittle and the middle finger on my left hand, but like I said not too painful. Then came the "FACIAL"! Started off enlightening! I was enjoying it actually, to the point to where I fell asleep. I was abruptly woken to the shear pain of a metal object scraping away at my nose. I couldn't tell what she was cutting me up with because I had some type of cloth covering my eyes and stuck to my temples. To my surprise I was not bleeding or cut at all! Intense pain that was shooting through my whole head! WOW! All that just for black-heads! To top it all off I had my back waxed! Compaired to the FACIAL that was cake! It was alittle uncomfortable but had to be done! Ladies! I give you props! You go through alot to stay sexy
Understanding The Illusion
At least for me and I do believe others are the same way. I told myself I was in love so I would not be lonely and needing that partnership with another. It has been that way all my life, not to say I wasnt in-love by no means. I just find now that I really couldn't understand or express that love until I was able to truely love myself and to be a partner to myself. I am finding now after 43 years, that I have made myself be in-love because I didn't want to be alone. I did care for both my ex-wifes, but I might have short changed them for the fear. I am alone once again as we all find ourselfs from time to time and this time, its okay....I rather enjoy just being with myself, its a good feeling. Yes the animal lust is still there, but that of course is just the phsyical need. So we create the illusion so we don't have to face the fear of being alone for to long of time. Did we care for that affair that lasted shortly or did we brain wash ourselves into thinking we were in love to escap
i don't no why people complain when someone Else's live there life there own way
people are fucking stupid you cant help who you fall in love weather they be white black or polka dotted green or the gender rather they be male female or transsexual or age str8gay or bi
you might not like there choice that they made but its there life
same with parent's they cant accept there boy or girl is going out with someone they don't accept
same thing with religion
who care of you believe in god or not it does not make you a bad person its just a personal choice as long as they don't try and convert you or force you to believe or love then why should you care its not ur life
and if you don't want anything to do with the person becuse of there personal choice's then its your lost not there's
also i want to point out another fact most people care if the person does drugs or not ok well ill be upfront yeah i smoke pot there nothing wrong with it pot does not kill no on
Come bid on me...all offers considered..Auction running from Sunday June 21 at 11pm est till June 28...Auction being held by The Big Mike..Check out his page..
i confess i wish i felt half as pretty as people tell me i ami confess i wish that i could find a guy to love me i confess that i wish i dont feel like such a screw upand that i wish people would stop letting me down i also confess that i put on a front around people i act like i'm always happy but i'm not. i wish i could be as happy as people think i am. i confess i'm so tired of being fake with people and pretending to be something i'm not. i'm sorry im not a size 5, and i dont have big boobs and that my butt is to big. and that i eat. i'm sorry that i dont have blonde hair and blue eyes. and that i'm smart and i'm not afriad to show it . i'm sorry that i can have a "blonde" moment or two. i'm sorry that i'm not perfect. some more confessionsi confess that i'm sick of people pretending to be something they're noti confess that i always think people are lying to me i confess that i wish i was another person sometimesi confess that i'm a bitch, and i push people away but i dont mean to
Ratings And You
Some of you have been rated by me and have a grievance against the rating I chose. I find this resentment perplexing, as there is no standard by which ratings are based leaving me to create my own standard(s). For example, what exactly am I rating? Photo quality? Personal appearance? Your fubar profile page?
I don't know most of you and therefore my ratings are not personal. So if I give you a one (1), it's not because I think you suck, I just don't have enough information about you to make an educated rating. If you think a one (1) is a personal attack against you, then you're an idiot.
So what constitutes a higher rating? I've adopted my own standards for giving out ratings. Pictures of women lying around in their bra and panties IS NOT an automatic ten (10), nor are the showing of one's muscled physique. You're in shape, so what? You want a ribbon or something? Pictures of babies, pets, and kids will not "awe" a ten (10) from me either.
I admit to being biased. My real-life frie
Why It Is Every Politician Do Not Went To Tell The Truth
Politicians in Illinois can not tell the truth as to where the money has been going. They say the state is saw far in the red not even raising taxes will help get the state in the green. Why is that? Here is something that they do not want the people to know about on where the money has gone do to the fact they had a part in it as well. Two former governors as well as state representatives have used the office they held to make money off from the people they represent. The people that the state of Illinois elected into office are so crept that they can no longer tell the truth in fear that they to will be removed from office like the former governor. These state representatives want the people in the southern part of the state to think that it is all Chicago felt that there is no money, do to the fact it takes so much money to keep it going. These representatives what the people in the south to think that if it was not for Chicago and the Chicago Machine that there would be more
She watched as transparent whirls of smoke slowly danced in a crisp winter air upwards towards the sky, changing shapes and patterns like ghostly apparitions, until finally disappearing into eternal nothingness.She took a drag from a cigarette, and heard a light crackle as the amber tip lit up and let the smoke fill her lungs. She exhaled, letting out a new batch of smoke. The moon emanated its cold mysterious glow, making the snow covered field drown in an ocean of pure white.She stood there, spellbound by this creature that was looking back at her, and her only, with its featureless round face, so many light years and miles away, so distant and yet so close, keeping her company at this lonesome hour.She could sense it sending its lunar incantations into the air, pulsating with waves and invoking the spirits of the forest that stood like an inpenetrable fortress along the shadowed edges of the field.From the safety of the lit up entrance of the hotel, she wondered what creatures might
We Are Not Forever
If you luv your SOMEONE so hard to the core and you know this and they love you so hard back to YOUR core and you BOTH know this, You better love EACHOTHER as hard as you possibly can - We dont last forever and tomorrow DOES come~~~
Green Light, Kid! We Did It!
This phrase from the beginning of every episode of the 1979-1980 TV series “Voyagers!” was a sign that history was “back on track”; that is, that the title characters had done their job and made sure history continued to flow the way most of us have learned it. I was eight when this show debuted and I also saw it on reruns the following year on Saturday mornings; you learned a lot from it, and the public service announcement at the end of the show – “If you want to learn more about (whatever historical figures were featured on the show), take a voyage down to your public library. It’s all in books!” – was probably a bigger motivator for me than I admit. Before I’d ever heard of H.G. Wells’ “The Time Machine”, probably the smallest such device I’d ever seen appeared on the show, an Omni that was the size of a pocket watch.
Back then I didn’t think – nor did most of the civilized world, I
What Does You Name Mean?..
J: Easy to have fun with
U: Gets blamed for everything
S: bad Kisser ( im a great kisser)
T:Great In Bed
I: Loves to laugh
N:Can Kick Your Ass
A:Drop dead gorgeous
A:Drop dead gorgeousB: Loves peopleC: Really easy to fall in love withD: Is great in bedE: Fuckin' beautiful eyesF: People wild and crazy adore youG: Never let people tell you what to doH: Easy to fall in love withI: Loves to laughJ: Easy to have fun withK: Really sillyL: BEST SMILEM: Makes dating funN:Can Kick Your AssO: Has one of the best personalities everP: Popular with all types of peopleQ: A hypocriteR: Good bf/gfS: bad KisserT:Great In BedU: Gets blamed for everythingV: Not judgmentalW: Very broad mindedX: Never let people tell you what to doY: good kisserZ: Lives life for fun
Eve was unique. She's the only gal who didn't have to go through puberty, peer pressure, or pimples. When she and Adam met, she didn't have to wonder, is this the right man for me? No mother-in-law or father-in-law conflicts. A romance, marriage, honeymoon and home life that was made in paradise. Eve had it all... well, almost all. Why is it we aways want what we don't have?
To all I have met here it has been a pleasure & lots of fun. I got to know many of you on a personel level & shared many of lifes dissapointments & blessings for that I am grateful. There comes a time in ones life to move on to the more important things in life. It is my time to move on. Thank you so much each everyone in the words of Jimmy Hendrix "If I don't see you again in this world I will see you in the next one & don't be late" God Bless
Please Be My Friend
I need some friends please. I have so much to say and no one to say it too. :(
What Does Your Address Say About You?
Your Address Says You're Friendly
Right now, you are enjoying your life as it is. You wouldn't change a thing. You feel happy for what you have. There's a lot to be thankful for. At your best, you are welcoming and outgoing. You have a lot to give. At your worst, you are a bit too giving toward other people. You need to think of yourself first sometimes.
What Does Your Address Say About You?
Could I ever be alone? Does this feeling ever fade?The whispers from your kiss cry slowly over my soul,I feel them pass through me and faint under their grace,The peace inside my heart you have given knows no bound,With mercy and love you call for me, miles apart, but never to far, I feel you always in my heart,I am always with you, I am there by your side,my arm always there to hold you up, to give you strength, to cherish your smile when no one sees,To kiss away the tears that no one ever hears.We share, in each other, that thing something rare,A balance that few will ever know or feel,A love, beyond the frailty of this life,My life will never be the same, it will always be yours
wtf is with the format of the comment/stati? Are there any other changes that I haven't seen yet??
Ensign: The Lord Hath Not Spoken By Me, Part 2
All ye inhabitants of the world, and dwellers on the earth, see ye, when he lifteth up an ensign on the mountains; and when he bloweth a trumpet, hear ye. Isaiah 18:3 AN ENSIGN ON THE MOUNTAINS 3 July 2009 When I was going through the teacher education program at Stetson University (I graduated fifteen years ago? That’s still weird to me), one of my instructors let us know up front that she wouldn’t tolerate any instance of sarcasm directed at a student in the classroom. Dr. Dershimer – with all due respect, she looked like everybody’s grandma and seemed the LAST person who’d do this – said she once had a student kicked out of the program for that very thing. Even though the words of Scripture don’t convey the tone the speaker uses most of the time, one can’t help but believe that Micaiah, the prophet of the LORD we met last week in 1 Kings 22, was being sarcastic when he
Where do I start,
A wonderous thought,
Dreams come of light,
To begin again tonight,
A hero's tale of olde,
A faith man's journey,
A hermit's venture,
Deep inside his mind,
To believe is hope,
For long the trip,
I wander free around,
Searching for life,
Daydreams ease my mind,
Hope surrounds me,
As I step forth,
Entering the world,
I believe in me,
While I Waited
While I Waited
Where My Fire was I could not be
Though she was close enough to touch
To bask in her sweet scent
May have been for me too much
Could my eyes have encompassed her beauty?
Could I have breathed in her passion?
Would my weak limbs shake too much?
Would she be more than what I imagined?
My thoughts would drift to My Fire
As she sat by the setting sun
While waves silently were jealous
Of this most beautiful one
Friday will mark the 3 year anninversary of my dad dying. It has never been easy on me being the last of 4. I spent my life with him when my mom and dad divorced, so this makes it even harder. He and I did alot together, and they say it gets easier as the time passes. To that I say bullshit, it has not gotten any easier. It still hurts as much now as when I heard the news and seen him on the stretcher. The day we buried him I had amazing grace (his favorite song) played at it but the version I had played was on the celtic bagpipes. Try listening to that WITHOUT shedding one tear!! So as the days get closer to that date, I get more and more distant. If that certain someone that I hurt for some chance happens to see this, I am very sorry for what I did, time is to short not to tell that someone one last time "I love you". I never had that chance with my dad......
Member Of the Day
will be chosen at random each day
please do all you can to rate this one member at least for FABA love
MOD can be found in daily bulletins
and daily pik uploads in MOD album incase u miss someone and wanna go back
Somebody Plz Get Me Drunk
i am new here and i need as many friends as possible and maybe a fu engagement i also need to get drunk so plz show ur love and buy me some drinks or some bling
Happened To California's Economy
Joel Kotkin wrote a great article about what happened to California's economy.
"The whole article is too long to put on one blog so for now Im only going post a part of it.
Let me know what you think.
So if we are to assign blame, let's not start with the poor, old anti-tax activist Howard Jarvis (who helped pass Proposition 13 and passed away over 20 years ago), but with the bigger culprits behind California's fall. Here are five contenders:
1. Arnold Schwarzenegger
The Terminator came to power with the support of much of the middle class and business community. But since taking office, he's resembled not the single-minded character for which he's famous but rather someone with multiple personalities.
First, he played the governator, a tough guy ready to blow up the dysfunctional structure of government. He picked a street fight against all the powerful libera
Fubar Is Getting Old
It's been forever since I last blogged anything, so I am going to do now. . .It has been out of work for five (5) months now, and between hanging out with the family and searching for another job I have been spending way too much time on Fubar. I have come to to realize that most of the guys out there in Internet land are just plane stupid, and I'm sick of it all.My stat message, when I am going to be away from the computer, normally reads “[Out] Yahoo Message me.” Now if you even take five seconds to read my profile you would see right below my music video in light bright blue is my Yahoo Messenger screen name. Now is it really that hard to read a profile?Also I have been getting tired of people asking me if I am single or how my boyfriend is doing. Again if you take five seconds to read my profile you would see that I am single.What else. . . Oh yeah again thing I am sick of is people using “S'up” and/or “Sup.” Hello really? Are we not all
My Theme Song
So sick of the hobos always begging for change I don't like how I gotta work and And they just sit around and get paid I hate all of the people who can't drive their cars. Bitch you better get outta the way Before I start falling apart I hate how my wife is always up my ass She always wants to buy brand new things But I don't have the cash. I hate my job, all of my rich friends I hate everyone to the bitter end. Nothing turns out right, there's no end in sight I hate my life! How come I never get laid, nice guys always lose. How could she have another headache There's always some kind of excuse I still hate my job, my boss is a dick "I don't get paid nearly enough To put up with all of his shit" I hate my job, all of my rich friends I hate everyone to the bitter end. Nothing turns out right, there's no end in sight I hate my life! Yeah! I hate that I can't tell when a girl's underage, You know, I tell her she's a nice piece of ass, Then her daddy punches me in the face So if
Lately I'm gettin tired of swoopers. Those are people on your friends list that swoop down on occassion into the SB, say hello, then disappear. After about 5 hrs they reply to you again.
Soo...I just stopped responding to all the pointless hi's, hows it goings, etc cause its a waste of my 5 seconds :)
Not tryin to be a bitch, but why should I reply to you in a first place?
I remember when I was gettin my green card when I was 15, I was asked if I wanted to change my name to somethin else. I said yes, to Alice Cooper, but my mom totally flipped and told the dude that no, I'm not changin my name to anythin.
Later, gettin my citizeneship when I was 22, they asked me the same qn, and I wanted a more American name. But hubby was like WTF no,lol
Should I oficially change my name (Natasha) to Russian Foxx?
When It Rain's It Mother Fucking Pours...
ya know. there are so many quotes involving lifes trials and trivulations but they all mean one thing...life is shit. so graba spoon and start eating cause its never gonna go away. and no a pfa is not another way of saying i love you. it means you're an idiot and i'm not dealing with it for another minute. 4 years mother fucker. 4 fucking years. and you still have your head in your ass with 2 additional kids that you cant take care of. bitch please. i am not holding your hand for nothing no more. GROW UP!! keep your head out of your ass and your dick in your pants and maybe JUST maybe people wont call you a loser worthless piece of shit. just maybe. but i am now going to get DRUNK. cause i deserve a break from reality with my boo. peace out FUCKERS!
Words On The Brain
*Sitting my mind shiftingDreaming my body drifting*
Like the proud Oak in the woodsDead but standing strongMy body growing tiredMy will is staying strongComfort me and care for meBut coddle me notA friend for me, and my heart to theeDon't let this moment be forgotCary on and strive for allYour world is all you've gotYour your own brothers keeperBecause you'll never be weakerThen you are when you need it the mostFall back on yourselfBe open and trueTake advantage of your friendsThey want to be there for youMy thoughts are at randomMy mind is a blurBut one thing I knowAnd one thing stays trueI have love in my heart..... and I have it for you!
Things In Boxes
Face to faceso we canslowly erasefrom thisplace to placeso God can never hear me.So you could defineor you could be fineDONT JUST WHINE!!!
Eveyone And Everybody
Everyone has their answers. Everybody has a wish. Everybody has a childhood dream that they gave up on and often miss. Everyone has a hunger for something beyond what we know. Everybody has a route they take, a direction that is safe to go. Everyone gets frustrated and shaken, at times when they're in distress. Everybody likes to criticize others, when it's their own lives that are a mess. Not everyone can understand me. Not everyone can understand you, but everybody can understand, that an understanding isn't necessarily true. Everyone has to make some changes, in this age of uncertainty. Everybody can come together, to redesign our reality. Everyone has a job to do. Not everybody knows their part, but everybody can work together, if we all just listen to our hearts. Then everyone can live together, instead of dividing ourselves up in groups. Everyone can act like humans, and we can quit sending off OUR troops. Everyone may die of cancer. Everybody may die tonight. At least I know tha
A First Visit
AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!!!!!!!!! My mama raccoon that I have fed so devotedly through out her gestation, and in the bright light of the day her kits were born, and every night afterwards - brought her babies to visit tonight. She has three.
There is a fire fly looking for love in all the wrong places - my living room. I think its attracted to the bright glow of the fairy sitting on the cusp of the moon night light. My beautiful Fae gave it to me, knowing that I would enjoy the sight. Glow worms do too...
Tomorrow night I shall invoke the power of the Spongebob Squarepants pillow case and hug it tightly hoping it will give me a modicum of the comfort that my husband and my Fat Russell terrier does when its time to sleep. This time, though, I shall be wired and without both man and dog.
Perhaps I can command my brain waves to act as an Etch A Sketch and write I LOVE YOU, HARPER in the mists of the lands of Possibility.
I will try.
St. Louis Cemetery
Saint Louis Cemetery
HAUNTED PLACE: St Louis Cemetery Number 1
499 Basin St, New Orleans, LA
St Louis Cemetery Number 1 can be found just northwest of Basin St, and just 1 block west of N. Rampart St, which is the furthest inland border of the French Quarter. It is 8 blocks from the Mississippi River, being the riverside border of the French Quarter. St. Louis St. borders the cemetery's eastern side, while its western and northern sides have the Iberville public housing as its neighbors.
NOTE: Because of its closeness to the Iberville public housing, which in the past has housed a few people who like to rob tourists in the narrow alleys between vaults, there is a high wall surrounding the cemetery, and the cemetery closes at 3:00 sharp. It is strongly recommended that tourists visit via a tour group. When the gates are locked, the cemetery is left to the restless spirits who walk its paths.
Tom and I took the Haunted Cemetery Tour, ru
C.e. Byrd High School
C.E. Byrd High School
C.E. Byrd was built in 1925 and is Shreveport's oldest high school. It's currently a popular choice for 8th Graders ready to finish their last four years of high school. In 2006, Byrd was the most populated school in the area, and it quite possibly may still retain that title. But C.E. Byrd has a dark side that is unknown to some, but shared by many.There are two tales that continue to float through Byrd, shared by both students and faculty. For students that have attended Byrd, many have been told of the swimming pool that used to be in the school's sub-basement, known around campus as "the Catacombs." The swimming pool was closed sometime between 30's to early 50's. There reason for such a time gap in the closing is that I've heard several different dates on the actual closing. Two factors may have played a part in the pool's closing, that being the scare of spreading Polio and Smallpox through the water, and since Fair Park wanted a pool as we
Survival Of The Fittest
So what does it take to survive the rigours of the mums.
pathological desire to kill/hurt/dismember
desire for attention whether it be good or bad
no sense of humour
You Move Me...."
Like the ocean moves with it's continuous waves.....Like wind in the sail's of a ship that moves with ease......Like the upwind caught in an eagles wing's..........you move me!
Like a river's current, a leaf adrift.......Like the sand's of the shore by the ocean's tide, may lift......Like the wing's of a sparrow, that move's agile and swift.....you move me!
Like a feather caught in a summer's breeze..........Like a rustling of autum's fallen leaves........Like a savior healing my broken hearts needs....You Move Me!
Like the words that you whisper, that fall from your lips....Like the fire which exhilarates from your fingertips....Like the gentle embrace while your coddled within my hips.......being there, it's known you have moved me!
Soo, my 19 yo niece went to a tattoo shop today. Her mom (my sis in law) is always playing that responsible concerned mother, yet...
There is no fuckin WAY my teen daughter (if I had one) would be gettin a nasty tat. Well, the mom got herself a butterfly tat herself, so I guess she cant be talkin.
I am dumbfounded by the desire of some people to mark their bodies for LIFE because of some on a whim decision. Esp shit like names, flowers, skulls, demons, other stupid garbage they will regret later on for sure. Jsut dumb
The return of someone on here today got me thinking, i call her a name that probably very few would be able to get away with, without the wrath being brought down around their ears.
I have an aunt whose real name is ethel, she detests the name so much she uses her middle name of joyce. i am the person in the family (which is waltons type fucking huge by the way) that can call her ethel and she takes it from me.
Are there certain people that just by their very nature can say or do things to other people (not abuse of course) and get away with them where others wouldn't.
What is that thing about them that sets them apart like that ?
The One Who Has My Heart!
Will you walk with me, the path of life,to explore every bend of the roadEnjoy with me the beauty of life,along its wonderful wayFind comfort with me, in each other's arms,when grief crosses our pathFind strength with me, in each other's strength,when despair lies in waitLaugh with me, a single true laugh,to enlighten another's distressCry with me, a single true tear,to understand true happinessCherish with me, the wonders of life,as they need to be preservedRejoice with me, in the mysteries,of what is yet to beFind peace with me, in each other's souls,when the world has gone insaneFind love with me, in each other's hearts,until this life has been fulfilledAnd when the path comes to an endI hope we can say from withinWe've known the beauty of true love,our love came from within
Russian Vs. Redneck
Russian vs. RedneckA Russian and a Redneck wrestler were set to square off for the Olympic gold medalBefore the final match, the Redneck wrestler's trainer came to him and said 'Now, don't forget all the research we've done on this Russian. He's never lost a match because of this 'pretzel' hold he has.Whatever you do, do not let him get you in that hold! If he does, you're finished.'The redneck nodded in acknowledgment.As the match started, the Redneck and the Russian circled each other several times, looking for an opening.All of a sudden, the Russian lunged forward, grabbing the Redneck and wrapping him up in the dreaded pretzel hold.A sigh of disappointment arose from the crowd and the trainer buried his face in his hands, for he knew all was lost.He couldn't watch the inevitable happen.Suddenly, there was a Long, High Pitched Scream, then a cheer from the crowd and the trainer raised his eyes just in time to watch the Russian go flying up in the air.His back hit the mat with a thud
my bloody brain is gonna bang. its crawling outta my ears.
fuck bollock meds are just making my head hurt.
A Slight Detour Through Maryland
A 250-Year-Old Boogey Man pt. 3
A Slight Detour Through Maryland
"Don't worry sir, your chances of catching a disease from this inoculation, is less than 1 in 10"-A well meaning orderly, to me -1990
So, here I am, and I'm in Ft. Detrick, Maryland. I'm 20 years old, and I'm on my way back to Africa.
Since I'm going to a little known (at that time) segment of Zaire (today the Democratic Republic of the Congo), the government wants to keep me safe. You never know what these foreign duty assignments can give ya. And, even though I don't know where I'm going, exactly, I'm still looking forward to it.
In fact, I'm gonna be assigned to a place called the River Ebola.
Yeah, that EBOLA.
Don't worry, ‘cause I didn't know what it meant at the time either.
So, I'm at Ft. Detrick, the headquarters of the United States Army Medical Research and Materiel Command (USAMRMC). In other words, the United States Chemical and Biological experimentation ward. I'm 20 years old, I'm
Killing Time... :)
Are you ready for some questions that you barely find in other surveys?Bring it on..
You're locked in a room with the person you last kissed, any problems?Not at all.. Good times a go ;) we always have fun together
Have you ever caught a fish?Plenty o' fish
What was the last beverage you had?ICE.. yeah im addicted to ICE
Are you someone who worries too often?Not worries... but over thinks too much yeah
Could you go out in public, looking like you do now?ummm nope.. i would have to put pants on
Did you wake up before 8am this morning?hahahaha yeah.. around 6 am.. GOOOD morning
Do you wear eyeliner?yes i do
Do you get mad easily?not at all
Have you ever felt like you were not good enough?at times yes.. but i KNOW that i am in the end
How do you feel about your hair right now?its messy and dirty...
Have you ever slept in the same bed as your friend?yep..
Truth or dare always turns sexual, doesn't it?only the fun games do.
Where is the person who has your heart?Many people hav
Why Don't You Let Me Love You
Nobody wants to be lonelyNobody wants to cryMy body's longing to hold youSo bad it hurts insideTime is precious and it's slipping awayAnd I've been waitin' for you all of my lifeNobody wants to be lonelySo whyWhy don't you let me love you
Girls And Guys
30 THINGS GIRLS WANT GUYS TO KNOW
1. We like sex, but only when we get pleasure too2. Comparing us to your ex's is NOT a turn on3. A hug is sometimes 1000 times better then something from the store4. When we buy you something, we are also asserting OUR independence5. If you want to be pampered when you come home, your ass better have a job to earn your self the pampering.6. Your friends are only cool when there not making you act like a Dick7. Don't leave your shit on the floor and then complain about a dirty house8. You don't like the way we cook, your ass can pay for take out9. WE LIKE GOING TO THE MOVIES, take us for just the hell of it10.If a gay man walks into the room, don't go spastic unless you yourself are having doubts about your own sexuality.11.Your car, my radio12.You don't like going to the doctor, we don't like gett
Making It Up
The rain falls in the darkness of my mind
in the depths nothing but darkness I find
the pain shatters the window of light
The tears I do need to fight
yes I do there is no trying
unless I choose to keep crying
Mindless Self Indulgence stays in thought
you "stupid mother fucker" I should have fought
what demeants drove me to think you were good
then you pulled some shit from the hood
steal my soul and break anothers heart
for tour own passion attempt to tear us apart
I love him more than my infatuation
I put myself in the situation
but you know better than to touch
right now I hate you so much
I shattered his heart and trust
making it up to him is a must
I'm getting tired of this. The needless drama that surrounds my own family. One uncle dying, people get stressed out about it, I'm unemployed, no real hopes of college, single, and living in my parents basement. I can honestly say that if i were to vanish, there wouldn't really be any significant difference in the lives of those who surround me. I have no point. The only person who seems to have a want for my presence I'm not sure I really care about anymore, and I've seen women, rare though they may be, who I truly desire, but I have no chance with. I'm a lost soul... and i don't even know if i want to be found anymore. My thoughts turn more often to my leaving. No word, no notice.. just absence. Leaving a small void in the lives of my friends and family that could just as well be filled with a new pet. I've nowhere to go... though if I had a chance to be somewhere else I'm sure I should take it. I've just moved around so much that all places seem the same to me. T
Thats a big thing for me and truely harder to give than it used to be. I used to trust everyone, had no reason not to (well there were tons of reason not to which goes all the way to my childhood past) but I still believed I had to give the doubt. Now, not so much, not so much at all. Now I can trust, that trust will be proven wrong once again. Giving trust has become very disappointing and continuely shown me I was better off not too. I guess my biggest fear is looking a fool again...being played again. To believe in something that just never was and when that happens, I slowly become something else....dont like that part of myself, because I start trusting in things that are not really good for me (we've all been there) but they r just to easy to do and over a time, u start liking it more. So thats the rub, trust and be disappointed and possibly revert...or just don't and be happier in myself and safe and sound. I think I like the latter at the moment, but it sure sucks when talking
Lippy Threes And Boxcar Sixes
As my coworker Kathy and I left the open our payday loan offices today, I mentioned that on Thursday night Martha, Mary, and the kids got home after I did with some groceries as well as prizes Mary had won at Kmart. Everybody got to carry something in, and Sarah was designated to hold the door. It took them all two trips to get the assorted items in, and I was bringing something else we’d nearly forgotten and I called from outside for Sarah to open the door for me. She walked/stomped to the door muttering, “How many times do I have to open the door?” It was funny the way she said it; Kathy deigned to inform me that I was getting into the “lippy threes”. I didn’t know what came after terrible twos anyway, and I don’t like labeling my kids with that expectation. But Kathy’s got two children in their early twenties now, so I listen.
Last night after I got home by a roundabout route – I was told Sarah and Jeffrey would be at my i
Loneliness ... A Poem
I play the role of the unknown, Watching joyful familiar faces, I often bear a stranger’s tone, In countless well known places
My cheerfulness is affected, Concealing wounds I often attend, My false demeanour’s perfected, Genuine glee I often pretend.
Tomorrow too will be marked, By my wishes gone amiss, Tomorrow too will be marked By my budding loneliness
Why I Will Be Mia
There are a few reasons why I will be missing pretty soon here.
(and yes I am waiting until I gift that HH, as I always keep my word)
First of all the crazy bitch that is my sister has gone COMPLETELY off her rocker. To the point she spit on me and broke my necklace (that I can not replace because it was sent from Bahrain). Now yes, after she spit on me, I wiped her spit up and I slapped her with it. I also came about 3 inches from putting her head into my knee.
Later, she decided to slam my laptop on the floor, breaking it. Oh then she hit me with a broom. After that, I picked her up, put her in her room, and told her she pulled this shit again and I would beat her like a man. I know I am a LOT stronger than she is, both physically and mentally, and I know where to stop. But I will not live in an environment that is violent, and I will send her ass to jail, and make calls to CPS to keep her son away from this shit. I trained horses for 10 years, and I kick boxed. She knows full
Imagine Greater Than In Brightest Day, In Blackest Night
Martha was still taking Sarah to bed after reading her a story upstairs when I got in from picking up treats for my wife, her sister Mary, and me at Dairy Queen last night, and I caught the tail end of SyFy (Sci Fi channel’s attempt to be trendier) broadcasting the fourth season “Star Trek: The Next Generation” episode “Half A Life”. Basically, it’s about the Enterprise crew helping a scientist who’s working to revitalize his home planet’s dying sun. The government of said planet cuts off his access to research and even refuses to listen to him because he’s approaching his sixtieth birthday, the time when all citizens of said planet are to voluntarily submit to “the Resolution”, a ritual suicide. Watching this now when I’m thirty-seven as opposed to when it originally debuted when I was in university and nineteen, I realize there’s not always an answer.
Today both Martha and Mary are off from work and hom
left right left right straight ahead
dead ends every way i turn
faster i run and faster they hit me
left right left right straight ahead
screaming and frightened i can hear
the fog is rolling in now
left right left right straight ahead
keep running just keep runnign
where did i go who is screaming
left right left right straight ahead
times run out theres no one here
empty and hollow all is black
left right left right straight ahead
twisted and ripped i see it there
reaching and stretching yet not quite there
left right left right straight ahead
finally i understand
this is nothing more than an unfufilled life
life is routinedo the same thingeveryday withoutbreaking a routineuntil something happensthen the routine breaksthen out the blue youredoing something unexpectedwhat you least expected to domaybe good maybe bad in theend it is up to us change our lives
A Slight Detour Pt. 8
A 250-Year-Old Boogey man pt 8
It's all Just Chemistry
"Elvis, what the Hell kind of name is Elvis? ...I don't trust him... He's got those mirrored sunglasses like the guy in Cool Hand Luke."
-Me, one night commenting on a Hemet "tweeker", at Walmart
Now people say to me (at least in my mind anyways)...
"...Misha, what do YOU know about chemistry?"
Yours is the field of psychology, after all.
And people say to me (at least in my mind anyways)...
"...Misha, what do YOU know about the intricacies of chemical experimentation?"
Yours is the field of Academia, after all.
"Tell me something, nigga, how are YOU gonna write a chapter about chemical interactions?"
Well, and to be honest, "psychology is the result of chemical interactions", thus spake the bard, Herr Sigmund Freud.
But I know a little something about chemistry, outside the field of psycho-analysis, anyways.
I worked with chemicals, for many years. I know how to check my
come stand by my side. allow me to see the world through your eyes. let me see what you see and let me know the world within. take these fears away. show me who you are. tell me i'm the one for you. speak your secrets into my ear and show me what i mean to you. i need to know that everything will be ok. i need to know that the world through your eyes is the same as my own. will you allow me to look through your eyes or will you leave me here standing?
I have met the man of my dreams. He is my soul mate, my lover, my Daddy, my Master and King. MasterdaddySir has shown me more love and understanding than I have recieved in my whole life. He is a kind gentle caring man who loves with all of his heart. I am fortunate to have met him and fall deeply in love with him. Thank you baby for coming and staying in my life. I Love You very much
Past Present Future & Life
Letting go of the past & moving on can be one of the hardest tasks anyone has to do, however once you get past it, It will make you a stronger person. You always have your memories & You may even have a few "what if" go through your head from time to time, but dwelling over something that is long and gone can put a toll on you and in the end really is not worth being held back from everything life still has to offer, no matter what the past holds. Never let anyone tell you that you are weak for giving up, because sometimes it takes much more strength to give up something you love. Live for the moment, Live life as if tomorrow was the end, never have regrets about anything you ever have or will do, for once all is said and done, everything you did was exactly what you wanted to do and you learn a lesson for everything that happens in your life that in the end makes you who you are as a person. Spend time with your family and friends, you never know what tomorrow may hold. Speak your
Slave To Taxes
Funny until you get to the end and realize the truth about taxes! Tax his land, Tax his bed, Tax the table At which he's fed. >>>>> >>>> Tax his tractor, Tax his mule, Teach him taxes Are the rule. >>>>> >>>> Tax his work, Tax his pay, He works for peanuts Anyway! >>>>> >>>> Tax his cow, Tax his goat, Tax his pants, Tax his coat. Tax his ties, Tax his shirt, Tax his work, Tax his dirt. >>>>> >>>> Tax his tobacco, Tax his drink, Tax him if he Tries to think. >>>>> >>>> Tax his cigars, Tax his beers, If he cries Tax his tears. >>>>> >>>> Tax his car, Tax his gas, Find other ways To tax his ass. >>>>> >>>> Tax all he has Then let him know That you won't be done Till he has no dough. >>>>> >>>> When he screams and hollers; Then tax him some more, Tax him till He's good and sore. >>>>> >>>> Then tax his coffin, Tax his grave, Tax the sod in Which he's laid. >>>>> >>>> Put these words Upon his tomb, 'Taxes drove me To my doom...' >>>>> >>>> When he's gone, Do not relax, It's time to apply Th
the tears fall like rain,trying to wash away the pain,i try to forget,all the past heartache,lies,death and bullshit, my heart is place on a shelf,i hate myself,there is no one who knws hw i feel,there is no love around for me to feel,i am so empty and lonely,it is the world against me only,i cut myself as i watch the blood pour,as it falls to the floor,as i look in the mirrorall i see is a tear,tryn to relive my pain,as i slowly go insane,nothing is reasl,ther no luv left to feel!~meow~
Just Something To Get Off My Chest.
It's eating at me like cancerAs each day goes by it get's worse and worseI don't know if she even thinks of meYet I find myself thinking about her Every say's it'll take timeThat we will be friends once it's done and overI don't want that I want her in my life I want.I want to be a familyI want ... her to be my wife.. I want to get alongI want the fights to endI'm tired of being told to do one thingAnd when I do I get yelled atI'm tired of not being herdI tried to be more affectionate an getting dirty looksGetting acused of things I haven't done.I'm tired of hurting and being in tears I just want a Sweet, Affectionate, Nubile, Delicate, Risible, and Amazing.Yet these words will be taken as suger coated lies, just like every thing else I have ever said or told her.So why do I bother cause Im in love and I just figured it. A day late and a dollar short and about as worthless as tits on a boar thats me.Till I met her, does it matter no cause now Im without her and without my child. I just
Starting back at work after the Christmas break is always depressing. My husband was out of town and the house was lonely. This first week back was considerably brightened up by a new guy who started in our department, David. He’s about 30, he’s a dish and I enough to make a girl wet! As it happened, one morning he was out at a meeting and I needed something out of his office. I went into his office knowing where it would be, and I noticed that under his newspaper there was one of those men’s’ magazines, the kind which is full of pictures of naked girls! I kept this little secret to myself, but I went quickly to the ladies’ toilet, slipped off my panties, a brief set in thin white cotton with a pretty flower pattern, returned to David’s office, and without anyone noticing I slipped my panties between the pages of his magazine. I also left a little note saying “soak my panites with your cum tonight”. I was so excited I had to go back t
Are You Right Brained Or Left Brained In Love?
You Are Left Brained in Love
When it comes to love, you try to be as rational as possible. Your head doesn't lead you astray. You believe that love should never be blind, and you're not the type to get swept away easily. You are a cool customer when you fall for someone. You are able to look at things directly. You believe the honesty is key to a good relationship. You also try to be dependable and trustworthy.
Are You Right Brained or Left Brained in Love?
Tell Me Why You Cry
tell me, why you cry.why do you smile,when so broken inside?tell me why you're filled with such sorrow.just remember that today is the beginning of your tomorrow.tell me, why do you hurt?and when you walk, why do you stare at the dirt.is it because you are falling?dont go into the darkness.that is death who is calling.how did it feel when he broke your heart?to learn that he was going to hurt you,
from the very start.
OK, I've had it with that dumb cunt!!I was out walkin with MY daughter today and ran across an old friend. This friend proceeded to tell me that she had run into my lil girl's EX-mother. I say EX-mother because the worthless whore decided that seein her child and helpin support her daughter(a whole 30 bucks a month was ordered) was too much for her to do. So SHE decided it would be easier just to sign over ALL parental rights.Like I said, SHE decided!!! That stupid BITCH called MY lawyer, not the other way around.Anyways, back to point. My friend told me that the cunt told her I TOOK my daughter from her!!BACK UP BITCH!! Think back, SHE left her so she could be with her piece of shit pedofile!!SHE didn't bother seein her!!SHE skipped her 3rd birthday after lying to her face and tellin her she was comin over with gifts!!SHE made the decision to give up her rights!!SHE is the worthless cunt that tried claiming her as a dependant for unemployment and got caught!!SHE is the one who couldn'
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oh you girls never know,...
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Have You Ever ?
Have you ever been so deep in love with someone that they are all you can think about ?
Have you ever been in love with someone so much that you can't eat till you hear from them ?
Have you ever gave your whole heart to someone with only love being in mind ?
Have you ever told someone they would be your only one till the end of time ?
Have you ever fallen in love with someone and couldn't stop thinking about them ?
Have you ever been on the edge of tears everytime you talk to that person ?
Have you ever been so in love with somebody that you can't love ?
Have you ever loved the one your with and yet not love them the way you once did ?
Have you ever wanted to die for feeling this way ?
Have you ever felt like you failed because you hold back feelings and emotions from the one you love ?
Have you ever been in love and yet not in love at the same time ?
Have you ever ?????
It's amazing....I haven't had any bad dreams in months. I can't really recall when I had a bad dream. I would have a lot of bad dreams about Rich..dreams of harming myself weird dreams of worms, snake and spiders. A lot of the dreams were reacurring dreams...same type...different places...Maybe when I finally seperated from him...those dreams had stopped.
Went out with Kari and Myke today. I got Kari started on liking the lotions from Victoria Secrets. So we went there and she bought a bunch of Love Spell stuff. After I got off work yesterday, I hung out with them and we went to Hot Topic...I bought myself a skirt..It's pretty cute actually...I don't really wear skirts..but some people have told me I should try wearing them...I Don't think I got the legs for them though..but I'm giving it a try...It took me forever to wear tank tops out in public.
I have no plans for tomorrow..probably do some cleaning... Rich is barely home anymore...which doesn't bother me much. But he really needs
Commies, Sale Garages, And The First Appearance Of Josceline In Kindergarten!
Saturday morning Martha went to Anytime Fitness before I woke up, and after I wrote out my morning devotion and had breakfast, Sarah came downstairs and I got her changed and fed. It seems Jeffrey will sleep in whenever he can, that and he likes the door closed when he’s sleeping while Sarah insists I leave it open. Martha came in while we ate and told us about a small rocking chair she saw at one of the dozen or so rummage sales on our side of town that she wanted a second opinion on. Before Mary could offer to go with her (and freak me out when they spend two hours doing whatever it is they do – be thankful I’m not that suspicious – after getting off work and not letting me know) I volunteered Sarah and I to go with her. It’s a good excuse for should-be-closest family to spend unrushed time together … and if the rocking chair’s going in MY living room, I want to have a say in it.
I saw it, and it was good; it’s sitting in our livi
Sodomy In Your Life....
Subject: PASSPORT LETTER This letter is a thing of beauty (even if the language is a bit rough).. You definitely feel the guy's pain! An actual letter to the passport office... Dear sirs, I'm in the process of renewing my passport, and still cannot believethis. How is it that Radio Shack has my address and telephonenumber and knows that I bought a cable t.v. from them back in 1987,and yet, the Federal Government is still asking me where I was bornand on what date.For Christ sakes, do you guys do this by hand?My birth date you have on my social security card, and it is on all the income tax forms I've filed for the past 30 years. It is on my health insurance card, my driver's license, on the last eight damnpassports I've had, on all those stupid customs declaration forms I've had to fill out before being allowed off the plane over the last 30 years, and all those insufferable census forms that are done atelection times. Would somebody please take note, once and for all, that my mother's
I run my hands through her hair
and pull her gently to a kiss,
She does not falter she does not sway
her lips to mine it does not miss,
I stare in awe at those beautiful eyes entranced by her blissful gaze,
Submissive me with a care in love in so many ways,
Shaking now I take her hand and press it to my cheek,
Disregarding my pride and shameful thoughts
that this action shows me weak,
Shes broken through my many walls and pierced into my heart,
I put trust in her alone to keep it whole and not break it apart,
Perfection in a word explains her to a T,
It cant be chance it cant be luck that somehow she found me,
I rest beside her excited in a gitty boyish delight,
that in the morning I'll still have her past this very night,
Im happy now as I fall asleep to dream about her touch,
My wonderous one my perfect girl the one I care for so much.
Written by: David Gobeo
I stand up for this Pride on LBGT! so I made a doll if you want you can rip it, its in my doll bomb folder 4.
It's Time For A Rant...
It is hotter than heck in my little shitty apartment, I have no a/c and i figure it is the perfect setting for me to go on a rant off the top of my head again...
I am sick of working my ass off and getting nothing in return. I work so hard to barely provide for my family, and I can't get ahead for shit. For the most part, I try my best to just stay positive about it and do the best I can, but every once in a while it just overwhelms me. I get so frustrated that my older daughter just does not fully comprehend the phrase "I have no money", how she bitches that there is 'nothing to eat' because she won't make-do with the groceries we have. I am doing the best I can, and can't seem to catch a break.
I am starting to loathe the weekends because it gives me too much free time to think, and also because I am too broke to do anything anyways. Blah...
So here it is, a Saturday, and I am asking myself "Is it Monday yet?" But, that's for a whole other reason aside from just the di
My Space Is The Place
hi all my space.com is the place and facebook.com is the place to met good friends i have yahoo acunt any one whants to chat with me its email@example.com and firstname.lastname@example.org any one has fancey for me i like new friends am in facebook and myspace frank of pa bethlehem
As I sit and reflect on yet another death of a friend, I can't help but realize even more that you are not promised tomorrow. We are not even promised the next second.
She left behind family and friends that have to continue on without her. I sit and think of the past events of the last few days in my life and how pale they seem in comparison.
The real lesson to be learned, live life to the fullest. Never forget to tell the people in your life how much you love them, because one day they will not be here for you to do so.
RIP my dear friend you will be greatly missed.
My Star Sign
A Sagittarius woman lacks tact and her flat, on-the-face statements may make you feeling like running away from her. Then, suddenly, she will say something so charming that you will feel as if you are on the seventh heaven. There, you go again! You will be trapped in her charm once more. Once you have been enamored by a Sagittarius girl, you will be staying with her for a long time. She is pleasant, friendly, outspoken and very talkative. Her forthrightness comes form the fact that she has no illusions about the world.She sees it exactly as it is and says what she sees. At times, you may wish that she were not so honest. But then, she would be like any other girl, wouldn't she? In all probability, you will not like it. A Sagittarian female is very optimistic, but she is not irrational. She will judge the entire situation as per the facts, analyze its probable outcome and still believe that things will get better. Usually, she is very calm and composed. However, when you become rude to
a smileSmiling is infectiousYou catch it like the fluWhen someone smiled at me todayI started Smiling tooI passed around the corner andsomeone saw my grinWhen he smiled i realised I'dpassed it onto himI thought about the smile thenI realised it's worthA single smile just like minecould travel round the earthSo if u feel a smile begindon't leave it undetectedLets start the epidemic quickand get the world infectedSMILE &SMILE
A Few Minutes...
For a few minutes you made me feel as though I actually meant something to someone.
This Is Me
I'm 33 and divorced my exhusband was married to me and some other gal at the same time So I divorced him after being married for 3 years.The dating thing is all new to me again so I'm kinda shy.I have no kids I am taking care of my neice's little oy because she is a drug addict and on probation.I'm on Furbar but not that much unless I forget to logg off lol.The website that I'm in all the is myyearbook as I'm a battle officer for 4 groups and a head battle officer for one so I stay busy.
A Soldier's View Of 9/11
9/11/01. We all know the date. We all know what it means. It's our generations version of Pearl Harbor. A day that will live in infamy. I remeber that day every day of my life. I was in freshman year of high school. I remember our superintendant telling the teachers to turn on CNN. When we all saw it, it was surreal to say the least. My godmother worked there. She was on the 67th floor in the first tower that collapsed. We tried to call all day. Nothing. Three weeks, nothing. Finally, her son told us she was found. That feeling made my heart literally collapse. She was my second mother, for lack of a better term. I have nightmares to this day of thst day. I would have had them even if she wasn't in there. But to this day, I still remember everything going in slow motion. This is with me being a state away, mind you. This was the reason I joined the Army. To give back to the country that's given me so much, and to make a woman who meant so much to me proud. I love you Titi Olga. Rest i
I served this country and was damned proud to do so. I would have gladly given my life in the line of duty for each and every last one of you people on this site and there are not many that i have ever talked with for more than a few lines on here.
You see though the thing is that there is already a government selected day for this day designated as a holiday...... Memorial Day. Today is the day to pause for a moment and remember the fallen men women and children of that day and move on. Too few of us realize though that we are not living in the country that so many have died for in the last 233 years.
Can a smoker sit in a diner and smoke a cigar or cigarette after a meal? No. Can a parent not let a 4'6" 10 year old child not have a booster seat and seatbelt? No. Can you say anything about the shitty job the last 2 presidents of this country has done in public without ramifications? No. And just think about this. If the racist Obama gets his way, I will be fined for not being able t
The sun rises on a cool crisp morning
My body aches for want of yearning
I want your caress your touch
For I need your love oh so much
You are my presence in my mind
I am so lucky to find a man so kind
To hold in awe at your passion and need
Your want for me is not out of greed
To languish for hours within your arms
Your wit, your humor and your charm
Enlightens within me a new desire each day
One I hope is there forever to stay
I love you lover, my friend, and desire
My body aches for you as though on fire
My breast hardens at your thought
Nipples grow hard, sensitive and taut
The door to my inner depths opens for you
The passion, the fire, the need to endure
Caressing you, touching you, kissing you
My love has been waiting so long for you
Lips softly touch, hands caress, and ember heat inside
Sending us desires, those ones we usually hide
Then passion mute to language finds ways to be heard
Making lovers join as one, their eyes will say its words
Skin glides over skin like clouds through humid skies
Slowly building static to make lighntning fly
Dark clouds fill the air, as thunder starts to boom
Echoing sounds of pleasure, heard thoughout the room
A mighty storm now is spent and sunlight fills the air
Revealing lovers glowing with dampened and tangles hair
Their eyes send each other a rainbow, a gift we call love
As passion sits in silence to wait for clouds above
"what Is Any Life Without The Pursuit Of A Dream?"
"What is any life without the pursuit of a dream?" "Sometimes you flush and sometimes you bust, and when you're up, it's never as good as it seems, and when you're down, you never think you'll be up again, but life goes on." Currently in the process of asking questions and discovering answers, curious about where my explorations and thoughts will take me, closeness to the development of ideas through self-criticism and analysis, seeing what society is really based upon.. trying to find something worth substance in this dull and often acutely unpleasant existence..trying to find realism somewhere in this twisted illusion of visionary fantasy..I'm just another statistic, a number, just another person trying to be good enough, trying to be perfect in every way, an addict..just trying to find a connection with anyone..To find true happiness, I just want to live my life not based on what society is based upon, I don't want to be like everyone else, I won't.
Sometimes Life Is Just Life
Tried to sleep, but this thought keeps running through my mind....gotta purge!!! March 28th 1966, that was the day I was born. Just a day like any other day u might think, but it wasnt. It seems that on this day, something strange and unusual was coming into this world and not in the normal way. I dont believe my mother ever went to a doctor at the young age of 16 when she finally realized she was carring me. If she did I doubt I would be here now. It seems that there were 4 children, including myself, that were situated in thier mothers in such a curious way, and I was the only one to live. We were not in our mothers womb....but on the outside of it. I myself was in here adomen, in my own sack, attached to the placenta on the outside.....so normal child birth was not possible. To this day, I still find it curious. I find it curous that life had choose this path for me and for all my life I believed that I was meant to do something on this earth, but what is it? Last year, it seems, th
This Is Me!
Ok people this is me don't tell me I don't scare you when I know I do since I am real I can prove it and I will go the mile to prove you I am real, and not fake I move fast, or slow but I go by what you tell me as I feel you are real to but don't mess with me I bite and I am kinky, but I can be the boogie man in ur worst nightmare I am the most evil person you have ever met you piss me off I can devour your soul and spit your astral dust out after.
Be real with me and I will be real with you, but you tell me one thing then do another and I will snap instantly! I have an attitude that will put somone in the hospital, but I am nice guy as long as you respect me with the same respect.
Heart Strings Are Played Upon
It's becoming more evidentMuch more obvious to meI thought much more of youThan you ever thought of meWas this my biggest mistakeLetting myself think you caredWas I just your marionetteWith heartstrings open and baredWith me left here still thinkingWhat was false, what was trueSo puzzling and so complexI’m left to await another clueOn my heartstings you playedEach left with a loving memoryYet I still have those questionsDo you ever think about meI’m wondering why all the intrigueNow why all of this mysteryWhy am I left here hangingYour the one that holds the key.
It felt so nice and seemed so right,The words she read seemed to ignitea passion, a zest for life, felt once long ago, or was it a dream, am I dreaming now. Why is this so inviting and warm? It's mere words I see....yet the passion they do stir inside of me...I want to throw my head back in lustful bliss and feel the warmth of a lovers kiss. O a strong embrace, a look so pure and inviting, I give myself completely in to this.Give me the want that only you can,make dreams come true with the touch of your hand,caress me, fondle me, feel my desire,hold me, thrill me, till my flesh is on fire,love me so tender, then hard as you can,fill me with passion, take me just as I am....Let the hours fill with warmth and the hot sweet perfumeof lovers at play in a candle lit room.This never-ending lust is too much to take,but don't let it end, don't let me wake. Hold me through the night until the dawn breaks, then go quickly from me, Love, lest my heart breaks.
Kisses across my neck,Sending shivers down my chest, Everything about you takes my breath, Hands roaming down my thighs , Sweat driping down my spine, My sex aches for yours in mine,Like a roller coaster ride, So many lows , so many highs, You take your hand in mine,Thunder clashes at the door, Our tense bodies wanting more, A throaty ghasp , begging lower.Bodies sliping, driping wet, Your the one that I like best ,Now baby put me to the test.Headboard hitting till it fell.Don't whisper, baby yell!take me all the way too hell. Your body pressed against my ass, Tell me baby, this will last,Hold my throat untill it passes, Like a night time earthquake,you make me shiver , make me shake, Press it harder till it breaks
A Short Story I Wrote
Ida was what the kids now-a-days called old school. She and her husband Frank lived in a farm house on the outskirts of Wutknot, a tiny little town with a population of about one hundred and seventy. Ida and Frank never had children of their own but they loved their animals. Unfortunately when Frank died four years ago, Ida simply couldn’t handle all the work alone so she had to sell off the horses, goats, and chickens. Then all she had were her cats. At first there were only three, but eventually, she had a total of fifteen. Oh sure the house smelled of kitty litter and fur balls were always discovered while cleaning but they made her happy. They each had their toys and beds and dishes and they were all her babies. Especially Pootsie. Pootsie was the oldest and Pootsie was Ida’s favorite. She had always loved Pootsie the most and since he been a kitten when Frank was still alive so that made her partial to him. Pootsie had the best toys and, whenever the can opener started
Ensign: The Phantom Menace
All ye inhabitants of the world, and dwellers on the earth, see ye, when he lifteth up an ensign on the mountains; and when he bloweth a trumpet, hear ye. Isaiah 18:3
AN ENSIGN ON THE MOUNTAINS 25 September 2009
Qui-Gon Jinn: Don't center on your anxieties, Obi-Wan. Keep your concentration here and now, where it belongs. Obi-Wan Kenobi: But Master Yoda says I should be mindful of the future. Qui-Gon Jinn: But not at the expense of the moment. Be mindful of the living Force, my young Padawan.
A few weeks ago, one of the devotions I read in the morning caught my eye for the pop culture reference it used. It referred to a scene from “The Empire Strikes Back” my all-time favorite movie and Episode V of the Star Wars movie saga … but more about that in a few weeks. So you know if you want to get my attention, use a Star Wars reference. I’m sure I drive my wife crazy from time to time calling her “Jedi Master” and our kids have the basic ide
1 Week Blast
Anyone to buy me a one week blast I'll will send you two very sexy nude pics to your cell, showing all the goods ;)!!!
Had It Easy~not Really !!
I was told yesterday, by someone probably about sixty years my senior, that people from my generation have no respect for their elders because we had it too easy growing up. This came out of the blue, and all I had done was say hello to this person. While I agree that my generation and the ones following me have had it easier due to advances in medicine, technology, and what have you... I don't think many of us had it as easy as some would like to believe. I grew up with a single mother, living paycheck to paycheck. I lived in a trailer house, wore clothes from Walmart and thrift stores, and learned very early on to be happy with what I had because some people didn't even have a roof over their heads and food in their stomachs. I know what it is like to go without... there were times when our cupboards were so bare, we had to go to the food shelf in order to feed ourselves. There were some days when I watched my mother go without eating so that I could have dinner, even if
Just Some Nice Quotes To Think About
When you leave true love unspoken, it is the quickest way to a heavy heart
Live your life in such a way that when your feet hit the floor in the morning, Satan shudders & says... 'Oh crap....she's awake!!!'
Never take someone for granted Hold every person close to your heart Because you might wake up one day And realize that you've lost a diamond While you were too busy collecting stones.
May your day be filled with blessingsLike the sun that lights the sky,And may you always have the courageTo spread your wings and fly!
The Spirit Of God And The Epic Nature
“Then wrought Bezaleel and Aholiab, and every wisehearted man, in whom the LORD put wisdom and understanding to know how to work all manner of work for the service of the sanctuary, according to all that the LORD had commanded.” With the opening of the thirty-sixth chapter of Exodus, the student becomes the teacher, as we see the men the LORD called by name in chapter thirty-five, verse thirty and first referred to by name in chapter thirty-one, verses one and six when Moses was on mount Sinai in God’s presence. Why did it take so long for Bezaleel, Aholiab, and the wisehearted to get their commission and get to work? There is that little episode with the molten calf from chapter thirty-two and Moses’ breaking of the tables when he saw it, both episodes that were a slap in the LORD’s face. Be thankful that He is the LORD of second and many other ordinal number chances!
We see verses two through six describe a problem I suspect most churches would like
That woman is just something else. She is the ugly side of Fubar incarnate. Just disgusting...
we all know who I'm talkin about
It is raining again
The rain runs down my cheeks and over my lips.
I can hear the sounds of the drops...
as the rain falls at my feet.
I feel the lightning crackle...
as the back of my neck feels the charge.
Are You mocking me!
Have you not taken enough...
He was only three...Oh he was so free...
but now...now...he is there with Thee.
And still the rain falls at my feet.
I raise my head and yell to
the heavens above...
Was he not enough...
Did you have to take Alex from me!
You should have left her be...
You took her before she was born!
Oh..how I wish she was here with me.
But still...the rain falls at my feet.
I raise up my fist and argue with Thee...