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All He Wanted
He sat alone in his apt. staring out of the window as the rain storm raged outside...it didnt bother him one bit that lightning and thunder were rattling his windows..he didnt notice the tears falling from his eyes till he tasted the saltiness on his tongue. he wiped his eyes with his sleeve, and kept gazing at the rain, yes he was alone once more his heart broken for the one per son who= had made him oh so happy walke right out of his life, without even a goodbye or reason why, he had watched her climb into the car and drive off with her new man...suitcases and all. he looked about the empty apartment, yeah empty for it was empty without her in there just like his gut. oh well he thought....there wont be anyone else now....just me..alone....empty....crying is done there is nothing left for me....nada... he went to his lil bar and got a 5th of Vodka and some left over OJ and fixed a drink....he took a long hard drink....gods it was nasty with out ice he started to laugh into crying a

Ups And Downs; Highs And Lows
Ok so Friday I wen to see Larry the Cable Guy. I had a lot of fun. He was funny, His openeing act was hilarious too. Jeff said he had fun too. So I learned a lot in the past year. You gotta take the hi's with the lows. You gotta learn that not everything is goin to be perfect. NOTHING IS! In order to lvoe someone completely you have to love them for them, flaws and all. I learned that you can't base a relationship off past experiences with buttheads that I have been with before. I can't expect Jeff to do the same stupid things as they have to me. But I think he has also learned a few lessons. We have both learned a lot especially the past two weeks. I learned that best friends are some of the closest and most wonderful things in ones life. My two best friends - Jeff and Stet have helped me so much in the past year that it is just truelly amazing. I went for bloodwork on Saturday for my diabetes, that I got lectured about as I made an appointment because I was sick. I was maki

Enjoy The Silence-depeche Mode
Words like violence Break the silence Come crashing in Into my little world Painful to me Pierce right through me Can't you understand Oh my little girl All I ever wanted All I ever needed Is here in my arms Words are very unnecessary They can only do harm Vows are spoken To be broken Feelings are intense Words are trivial Pleasures remain So does the pain Words are meaningless And forgettable All I ever wanted All I ever needed Is here in my arms Words are very unnecessary They can only do harm Enjoy the silence

Major Annoyances
So I got to work on Monday morning, signed into our system, my normal routine. Went to log into Fubar to say good morning to my friends and I get a message on my screen that says: "ACCESS DENIED" Dammit, I tried again and I tried today but to no avail. To be perfectly honest, I am surprised that it lasted as long as it did but still mad that they cut off my access to fubar during the day. I was having fu-withdrawals all day yesterday. Its like they don't want us to have contact to the outside world or something. No networking sites, no Instant Messengers nothing nada it sucks. So if you want to contact me during the day, and I hope you do, please email me at angeleyesct67@aim.com or blue_eyedctgirl@yahoo.com I will still be checking my fubar in the evenings as time allows. I miss my mumms dammit!!

Live Life
Seeing deaths around me now, my cousins new hubby committing suicide exactly 4 months ago, and two of my friends passing away just last week in a car accident makes me realize how short life can really be. You can loose friendships you built ovre a long period of time through fighting. But what is the point. What is the point of life in general. To grow, and experiance things. Whatever your beleifs are this can go for. if your in heaven, do you want to look back at the good life you had with good memories? more then likely yes. So make more good memories then bad ones. Forgive eachother, and live life to its fullest

Swing Life Away-rise Against
Am I loud and clear or am I breaking up? Am I still your charm or am I just bad luck? Are we getting closer, are we just getting more lost? I'll show you mine if you show me yours first Let's compare scars I'll tell you whose is worse Let's unwrite these pages and replace them with our own words [Chorus] We live on front porches and swing life away We get by just fine here on minimum wage If love is a labor I'll slave 'til the end I won't cross these streets until you hold my hand I've been here so long; think that its time to move The winter's so cold summer's over too soon so let's pack our bags and settle down where palm trees grow I've got some friends, some that I hardly know But we've had some times I wouldn't trade for the world We chase these days down with talks of the places that we will go [Chorus] We live on front porches and swing life away We get by just fine here on minimum wage If love is a labor I'll slave 'til the end I won't cross these str

I Give Up!!!!!!!
I have tried to reach out fro some solutions and communicate my situation several times seems that each attempt is invalid or of no effect. People either make usless commentary or practice their jerk skills. I am feed up with the bull shit and the negativity and the no help get of my your ass kind of comments that only worsen my mood my day and just does not help. Those that have hearts here on fubar must be hiding or non existant, except for a small select few. It sucks i hate the games and I generally pissed. I drink coffee like alcoholics drink beer but I am afraid I my die from coffee overdose.be right back gotta get my coffee cooking.Well now that my coffee is on all is well. Anyway back to what I was saying. I made this mum that people a making stupid comments on; I also made this bully that may offend some but it explains the situation i am currently in. I am in my mind a writer that would like to do some blog reporting with my own style, telling of good things that happen in a

So What, Im Still A Rockstar
Im about done with putting up with any and all bullshit from everyone. my fuse is getting even shorter. anyone who knows my track record knows thats a bad thing haha right now i want: -crisp fall weather -a beer -the day off work -philip to b home from school -to go see julie in lansing -to go to a football game -to get in a fight -a bonfire I just wanna be reckless, nothing more, nothing less

Define More....
Recently I told someone I like them...They in turn said they liked me more...So I asked them to define more and this is what they said... Define more? More is the way I like you each day we continue to talk. More, is the more I see your pretty face and hear your soft voice I grow more fond of you. The more I get to know you the harder it becomes to resist your adorable charm. The longer we talk the more I smile. Well....I guess they told me...and I couldn't be more happy...

Hair Wax (too Funny)
Its been a while since I have posted a Blog. I have yo share this with you guys cause it is so hilarious. It is an eamil that I received today from my aunt and uncle in Texas. I cried while laughing so hard. THIS IS HYSTERICAL! (I don't have a clue as to who wrote this, but....WHAT A HOOT!) Hair Waxing Story: All hair removal methods have tricked women with their promises of easy, painless removal - The Epilady, scissors, razors, Nair and now ...the wax. Read on......... My night began as any other normal weeknight. Come home, fix dinner, play with the kids. I then had the thought that would ring painfully in my mind for the next few hours: Maybe I should pull the waxing kit out of the medicine cabinet. So I headed to the site of my demise: the bathroom. It was one of those 'cold wax' kits. No melting a clump of hot wax, you just rub the strips together in your hand, they get warm and you peel them apart and press them to your leg (or wherever else) and you

We Remeber Those Of 9-11
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The Flag Of Our Fathers....
The Flag of Our Fathers... ...and of these United States, it is an almost meaningless reference these days however I was born under 48 stars, in a different time and era. I like others of you am a offspring of the greatest American generation and I was marked by them. I was watching "The Sand Pebbles" the other morning and the one good scence in the entire movie is when the old river patrol boat is moving to attack the Chinese junks blocking their way up river. Realizing the situation at hand the captain calls his crew to general quarters; battle stations and his first follow on order is to run up the battle flag. Signals strikes the standard size colors and runs up a full size American flag to flutter and wave in the wind indicating their intended course, into harm's way. Why do I think it is the best scence in that movie? The crew of the 'Sand Pebbles' upto this point in the movie have been moving in a hundred different directions, disjointed and at times bitterly again

In Ecstasy, In Elegy
I take you down fast I feel nothing at first, not believing what you can really do for me But you are deep inside, slowly working your magic Biding your time perfectly Slowly melting away and escaping through every pore in my body Then you hit me For a second I couldn't see clearly through my now shakey and distorted eyes When I regain control over my body I could finally see, I saw beyond the shallow veil of this world and into the other My heart beats rapidly for you but everything else has slowed down to a snails pace Showing me the beauty of every passing moment Every sound is now one; making harmonious love Love that spills forth and blissfully into my ears like an ocean crashing against the shores of hell's pain to clean the land and make anew You left me in a daze as you lifted me high off the ground Walking through the air with you in hand I look down upon the heads of the world Allowing me t

Fading
Fading of the mid-day sun Clouded by what's been done Is there a reason to go on Now that you are forever gone I try and try to lift my head Am I alive or am I dead This loneliness chills my bones My heart is as heavy as a stone I miss you more and more each day I wish that you could have stayed I know that you had to go But now my sun no longer glows I wish that I could make you mine Or forever relive that moment in time Now I only wish you the best As I wait to find my rest Find the vein and let it drain The razor's sharp and gives no pain Needles pierce and go so deep Collapse a lung and wait for sleep Toxic dose and kidneys fail Skin slowly starts to pale Vision clouds then begins to dim If only I could trade with him Waiting for that sweet release When my heart can again know peace Soon my soul will be free Then will you still love me?

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Pain Meds And My Job.
So, me being the dumb ass that I am have gotten myself into one hell of a pickle. I had a minor accident at work and got popped with U/A. The results came back that I was possitive for opiates, no surprise there to those who know me... Anyway, I won't be fired but I may have to attend drug and alcohol classes for a week before being allowed to return to work. Having been clean and sober for one week now and thinking clearly, I honestly believe that this turn of events is for the best. I was at the point where I was taking as many as twenty vicodin/percocet at one time. And thats way bad! Way, way bad! I am most greatful that I still maintain my good standing at the foundry and will be allowed to continue working for Atlas. At any rate. I guess the point is that nothing is worth losing a good job over, NOTHING!!!! And did I mention that those little pills are spendy? For reals! I'm glad that it's over now. I can focus on what's really important to me and get on with things. Here's to fo

All The New News
My sons dad has joined the Army at 36 yrs old, no worries he is in excellent shape and will show the young ones how its done, this means I get to retain ownership of the place we bought when we were together. Which means I will be saving money by not paying rent but probably spending it all repairing the house once I move back in. This does not mean I am back with their father I dont see that happnening. I Dropped my bf for turning out to be a Friggin Loser, something I have no time or emotion to waste on. I could rant on about that but I won't, I will get my sons full time (YAY) and they are the most special men in my life. If I'm single for the rest of my life I'm fine with that cause I have the love of two lil men that will never change. This is all good and bad news and I consider it just another spirituality test to overcome, with the love of my sons I can make it through anything.

Auction Now, Ends October 2nd
Hi, New Auction that will end on October 2! I would love a bid that could help me raise my point level...trying hard to get to fuberlord!!! You can see this auction at: http://www.fubar.com/photo.php?u=1736509&albumid=1208661&i=2566428480&idx=0 Depending on bids, I am willing to add more things to the list to please my new owner...xoxo ~heart

Mutual Trust Respect And Understanding
So there are some of you on my Fubar that have had or still have feelings for me an interest in me or whatever the case may be. I am not at all sorry to say that i am happily taken, i can honestly say that i do not think i have ever been this happy in my entire life. She is all that i could ask for and then some. It all started with a deep abiding friendship and then went from there. There is an awesome foundation of mutual trust respect and understanding from there it has just blossomed. I have known her for over a year now and we both never saw this coming. We had never been nor thought of each other as more then friends she was in a relationship as was i. We had a mutual respect for each others abilities with horses, hers for training mine for identifying great conformation on sight. Not too mention each others ambitions for a horse farm, then we realised that we were talking about the exact same thing a working breeding and training horse farm of black and white paint hor

To My Beloved Cat...pepi
little cat called pepi By me for pepi little Pepi. no more will i see you, little cat, waiting at the door to go out or in like other days before i won’t hear the whisper of your tiny white paws moving, gliding silent over the kitchen floor, and i won’t feel the lick from from your sandpaper tounge or the purr when you lay contended and alseep and i won’t see you anymore. little Pepi, your gone. Now your in Heaven little Pepi, but for 8 week´s you made this Earth a more bareable place to live in .......... mrrcp2007

My Poem
My Poem By me My heart bleeds out ink, Which my hand smears onto paper. Drip by drip comes Word by word. Every poem is trying to heal the wound That makes my heart bleed. My tears form as words. These dry cheeks Still haven’t felt that salty tear drop And still I can feel that tear build up behind my eyes. So my hand works extra hard To try and cover this page, With words I turn into poems. My Blood and Tears Are words and Sentences Which I give out to all to share And to feel that little bit less alone In this world. My heart bleeds out ink……….. Mrrcp2007

Kimmi
KIMMI. I know your not on right now.. and I know that you are always a sneak little sis ... so its my turn.. OMG I found this cute thing.. and made you and casey sumfin... lol... here it is Make a Smilebox scrapbook I hope you adore it..because I adore you.. p/s casey said he loves you and misses you... Love Alicia

1981 Yamaha Xs400 "bobber"
So the work started on the conversion to bobber. I eliminated the shocks and will be replacing them with a solid strut making it a hard tail. The shocks measure 12.5" from bolt to bolt and the new distance I have is 9". Seems like its lowered alot more then that though. I found a site online that makes some pretty nice Springer front ends that I plan to get for $345+shipping. Got the dust cover that I lost already ordered. Should be here sometime this week so I can get the front end put back together for now. Tested the starter earlier and its working fine, so its the starter switch assembly thats fucked. Replacement for that is $82. Still have to get a rear tire for the bike before I can finalize the distance for the struts. My ex's uncle told me he would do the welding a while back, need to get ahold of him to see if he'll still do it. I plan to have a suicide shifter on this aswell. Just have to decide if im going to put on forward controls or not. If I do then I can have t

Libertarianism And Anarchism
Ive never really seen the difference both seem to share in most of their political philosophy's.To me a libertarian is a anarchist in a suit or someone that would vote republican.Where a true anarchist is trying to get away from any form of power state or federal. the other thing that makes me laugh is the word libertarian needs to be changed since libertarianism has allot more to do with the "TRUE"conservative system then a liberal social system.libertarian has become almost meaningless for a variety of reasons. The use of the word by many Republicans has been noted in the discussion but this isn’t the only problem. Anyways havent blogged in a long time enjoy....:)

What I"ve Said All Along!!!
September 11th, 2008 at 6:41 am It saddens me that if Clinton had done his job and had taken Bin Laden when offered on a silver platter, this could have been avoided. It saddens me that if Clinton had done his job and ordered the air strikes when Biin Laden’s whereabouts had been confirmed instead of worrying about his possible Nobel Peace(or Piece) Prize with Arafat. It saddens me that Bill Clinton did not do anything country after each terrorist attack on our soldiers and assets overseas got more and more frequent. It saddens me that Liberals do not take the terrorist threat seriously and just want to play politics.

You Might Be In A Redneck Volunteer Fire Department If....
Your department has ever had two emergency vehicles pulled over for drag racing on the way to the scene. You have naked lady mud flaps on your pumper. Your firehouse has wheels. You've ever gotten back and found out you locked yourselves out of the firehouse. Fire training consists of everyone standing around a fire gettin' drunk. You've ever been toned out on an outhouse fire. That outhouse fire was with entrapment. You've ever let a person's house burn down because they wouldn't let you hunt on their ground. At least one vehicle in the firehouse still has decorations on it from the Halloween Parade and it's January. Your personnel vehicle has more lights on it than your house has lights in it. You don't own a Dalmation, but you do have a coon dog named Sparky. You've ever walked through a christmas display and came up with more than 3 new ideas for a light scheme for your truck. Your rescue truck can smoke the tires. Your department's name is misspelled on the equipment.

The Midwife
My first birth was very long and not very fun. It was so not fun that I got it into my head that it was all the pitocin's fault. Pitocin is a drug they pump you with to keep your contractions going and it is not a very pleasant drug. "They" just give it to you because they want to go home for dinner I think. It gives you un-naturally strong and continuous contractions, and it can actually exhaust your uterine muscles so that they don't work properly anymore and I decided I was going to try to do the next birth without it. So I looked for a doctor that would respect my wish not to use pitocin. I found a doctor who "worked" with a midwife. Turns out it was really the midwife who did all the "work", but anyway. I told the midwife I wanted to try and do the birth without the pitocin and the epidural, BUT, BUT, if I couldn't handle it I wanted the painkillers. She seemed agreeable to that and I was like, ok, good. So I go into labor. I got to the hospital at 5 am. They c

Drunkin Babble
I love fubarians. Plain and simple you all rock. I have never had a bad thing to say about any of you. Well there was a few bad things but the majority of you are incredible. There are so many strong women on this site that I admire. Women that aren't afraid to speak their minds and have a FUCK YOU attitude that I always liked about myself lol. I have also found some men that have been true friends to me. I am grateful. I am going through some nasty crap in my life right now that only one person on here knows about and his support blew my mind. Thank you Swift. I am putting a link to your page on mine. I owe you my sanity. 50 years from now I will still think kindly of you and that is a promise. I know that this site is basically a game but it is so much more than that to me. Have a pleasant night or day, depending on when you are reading this.

The Way Out
A poem I wrote out of despair and remorse... The Way Out The Pain Inside is from all around, I cause it to all and make them frown Revenge is sweet, Death is Bitter yet the only way out is to be a quitter! Life is short to see it go. Watch it count down to the end of the show, even though no one knows when the end will come, I know it will for what I have done. Revenge is sweet, Death is bitter... Now I have to think should I be a Quitter? By Robert Frank Piazza Jr. Thank you Nikki I love you

Love
How do you know someone really loves you? How do you know your the only girl in his life? I dont care who reads this....this is my feelings whether anyone agrees or not. I have trust issues thanks to my ex who didnt really cheat on me in the flesh but i know i was not the only girl in his life that he wanted...or at least he use to tell other girls how much he loved them when he was still with me so im soooo afriad it will happen again. I read how my new love loved another girl a year ago and im sooo jealous that he hasnt told me in that detail that im that special as she was. maybe i am not and will never be....is it do soon to wish that someone can love you that much...my ex walked out on me and im afraid the new love will do the same to me, i know hes not my ex...but its still so vivid in my mind all the hurt i went though....all the tears that ran down my face, so many nights i cryed myself to sleep...im crying now think how all this can really happen again. i guess im so a

Robert Chrisley: Shogun The Masquerade
ROBERT CHRISLEY "Shogun The Maquerade" Shogun The Masquerade Estarr 2008 Time is but a vapor To answer to the call Stirring your head in another direction Not forgetting anything You've known, seen, felt, and taught Open up your eyes cause your rights are being sanctioned Shogun the Masquerade Shogun the Masquerade Clock em when they preach Lies to deceive And everyone said Amen Sheep scattered lost Flag burnin at the alter Faith in a leader who forgot everything Yahweh said Shogun the Masquerade Shogun the Masquerade Tonight is required of them all Shogun the Masquerade Shogun the Masquerade Set this fucker off A madman widens his eyes While women and children cry In teariny of the subconcious Shocked, yeah, cover your mouths To know what my message is all about Back yourself against your public servants Armed against you and mellicious Shogun the Masquerade Shogun the Masquerade You know what it's all about Shogun the Masquerade Demol

Soo
guess what? my myspace (sorry i said myspace on fubar...bite me i got both and most of you do to ;P) is suspended for a day, it said it was suspended for too many failed log in attempts. i haven't been on there since around 3 yesterday. i think i know who it was, and he's gonna get his ass kicked. grrrrr

Some Music I Was Singing Too
send me a angel by zeromancer done by me http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5zGRnixAMXA gone to your head by zeromancer done by me http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FOKrSMQGdvs painted black by the rolling stones done by me http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GAFERms7kdI

Impromtu Expression Of A Racing Heart
She's the beat within my heart, the very breath I take. The mountains could collapse, and the heavens fall, but as long as shes in my arms the world means little to me. If I should ever lose grip of her from my embrace for the slightest moment, I would feel lost in a world with no mount to climb to look abroad for the one that made the world disappear... And no stars to lead the way.

Sad Song Of The Heart
Not pleasing to my mind now the hurt surges through to forget that dream to swallow not chew the crop of my whole life the one who started to fall to be with you was that all? your beautiful profile and smell when you pass something I can't have forever at last emotions deep within me tell me true love can't be true but the circle of my life says my heart will wait for you needing this feeling is something I cannot bare but knowing you exist tells me how much I care.

Please Read
My neighber found out three days ago that she has leukaemia she is in her early 40s and she has two young girls i have known my neighber since her oldest child was 1yr and now her oldest is in 8th grade i wish there was some thing i could do for her i feel helpless she is in a hosp two hours away and the doctors said she is going to be there for one month i know there is nothing anyone on fubar can do about it but if you all would please keep her and her family in your prayers that would be great

Yeah So..............
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Sucide
i just found out a friend commited suicide an hr ago he was 35 wit 2 lil girls still in highschool. yesterday i was plannin on doin the same thing. as i look back at me i realize i was stupid. i have tryed 30 times in 4 yrs and faild all 3o times. this was his first attempt and he succseded. he was very sucessful wit a net worth of $45.81 million a gorgeous wife 2 beautiful girls and 1 lil granddaughter. he had everythin we all wish 4 so y did he do it?????? it turn out he had cheated on his wife and couldnt live wit the guilt. he never told her and the guilt just built up. i knew he had dont it and had told his wife she was just waitin 4 him 2 tell her. i only bring this up cuz wit wut happened 2 me and now findin this out i now realize suicide is not the answer just a piece of the puzzle. death is not a way out of ur problems... so 4 those of u that read this wit thoughts of suicide dont do it u will hurt more ppl than u realize

What Have You Done Recently?
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The United States Ranked Poorly
The United States ranked poorly in a recent international environmental assessment, coming in 39th out of 149 countries. Nations were ranked according to their performance in key categories, including agriculture policies, air pollution, sanitation, greenhouse-gas emissions, and more. Countries in Europe scored well as a whole; seven of the top 10 nations were European: Switzerland, Sweden, Norway, Finland, Austria, France, and Latvia. The others in the top 10 were Costa Rica, Colombia, and New Zealand. Researchers at Yale and Columbia University, who crunched the numbers, said this year they weighted climate-change efforts more heavily than in past assessments. High greenhouse-gas emissions, combined with lingering smog problems, contributed to the U.S.'s relatively low ranking. China came in at 104th, India was ranked even lower at 120th, and Iraq came in at 134th. Niger was dead last

What Men Want
A man approached me recently and made the following comment: "I really like the way you carry yourself. You appear so humble, never talking, always quietly going about your business. I would really like to get to know you better." Ladies, if a man is attracted to you because you appear humble and quiet, is it fair to suppose he just might be looking for a yes woman or even worse, a doormat? Gentlemen, do you believe that you can have a woman as a real life PARTNER without hearing her opinions and having her share in the decisio-making process? Quite frankly, I was appalled beyond words that a man could approach me on such a basis - My first degree is in Psychology, which means I listen well, AND when it's my turn to talk, I like being listened to. People, tell me, am I out of touch with the real world or what? Or am I right in thinking "Sorry, no footwiping allowed here"?

Who's Lying Now?? A Post By Delusional Angel
gee...this is the comment from a LIAR on my gf's page... It is intended to be a rebuttal to our scathing remarks and blogs on her tendency to...er...streeeeeetch the truth until it is not even truth anymore...in other words LIE! here is the comment, and below are the pictures that prove the lie to her words...these screenshots were taken TONIGHT...9/25/08...around 11:30 pm!!! so tell me who's a liar? She has another man in her life...and yet... wow..these are still a part of her photo album? note the captions and the name of the album holder... Who's lyin now bitch? hmmmm...the proof, as they say, is in the pudding, and a picture (or in this case FIVE pictures) are worth a thousand words!!! and that comment had a lot less than a thousand! you tell me who the viper in the sandbox is!!! Delusional Angel

To Feel That Sweet Release
Lord, please show me how to get her out of my head. I keep thinking about her; the truth is I’d rather be dead. I love her and miss her, but I don’t want to anymore. I can’t do it on my own; because my head is too sore. Father, I’m begging you to help me let her memory go. I learned I can love, but this pain I didn’t want to know. She was able to get over me in just one single day. So, now I ask you to help me to do the same as I pray. My exhausted mind needs to feel that sweet release. Erase her today from my life and let it bring me peace. If You can’t take this pain then I only have one request. Please take this sore shattered heart out of my chest. Amen. This is the prayer that I wrote that helped me tremendously in the past week. The best woman that I have met in recent years pushed me out of her life and I was a wreck for a few days. After I wrote this prayer I immediately felt better. It is still painful to think of her and still impossible not to, but at least

Roller Coaster
I kinda expect my moods to be up and down lately, like a roller coaster. I know I should expect it, but it always confuses me how I can go to bed in the best mood I've had all week, then wake up feeling so....blah. Today I just don't give a shit about anything. Anyone. If I lost everything I knew and cared about right now....I wouldn't give a damn. Nothing is important. Which is fucked up, there are some people I want to care about...people I should care about. However, I just can't force myself to. I'm completely blah. No matter what happens, it's not real. I'm just watching myself go through my day today, it's all happening to someone I don't know or care about. It's odd, I've never felt this way before. I just truly...do not give a damn. Is this a bad sign?

My Favorite Time Of Year Is Just Around The Corner
well it's that time of year again. Halloween is coming up soon and as usual i have no idea what i'm gonna go as. and again...as usual...i have no money to start working on any sort of costume. i'm guessing i'll just have wing it like i usually end up doing. i have more fun on Halloween now than i used to because i've gotten to take my kids out trick or treating. nothing as fun and joyful as watching little kids get excited getting free candy. i'm not sure exactly how this year is going to work out. it's the first year since my split with my ex-wife and i don't know how we're gonna work out taking my daughter and son out and about to get their free goodies. but i'm sure we'll figure something out. i'm one of those people that love when it becomes this time of year. all the fun decorum is on sale. and yes i'm one of those people who wish they could afford all of it and would keep it up all year. i love the "spooky" and the "creepy" and the "bizarre" and i under

The Aftermath......
Ok I'm sure everyone in ohio knows what this blog is going to be about.For everyone else,we had a vicious windstorm here on the 14th,caused by backlash from hurricane Ike.It completely tore this city to shreds,and many others in ohio.As for dayton,trees were ripped out by the roots,limbs were thrown into the paths of oncoming cars like shrapnel and power and cable lines,roofs,and siding all came down with a vengeance.my dumbass never did remember to take my camera out and get pics but here's a link to some good ones. http://www.whiotv.com/slideshow/weather/17470706/detail.html anyway,back to the venting.over 300,000 homes lost power that day.I was one of them.I was out for 12 days and it really sucked.I managed to stay positive and understanding about it for about 4 days but after eating cold ravioli out of the can for that long,and not having a phone,or internet,or lights,or hot water,I started to crack.they did finally get to me on the 12th day,which was this last wednesday evening

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Okay, Im sure all of you have seen how it says I love my toaster.. or something about a toaster... Toaster is someone very important to me. I love him dearly.. We are currently "talking". Maybe and hopefully one day it will progress to a lot more. I sure as hell hope so. Hes a great guy.. and ive done my share of putting him through hell. I cant go back and change that.. this i know. Hopefully he knows how sorry i am.. Hes probably going to tell me.. Just leave it in the past... but i want him to know how important he is too me. Hes one of those guys that can make ya smile without even trying.. and boy is sooo gorgeous too. yum. Hes so hard to try and explain.. hes just a super great guy. I honestly dont deserve him. at all. but yeah okay just wanted to get that out. xoxo Poptart oxox

I've Been Dubbed "the Shy One..."
Class was fun yesterday but boring at the same time because I was done with all my work by 3p.m. so, that left me with 3 1/2 hours to kill before I could get the fuck outa there! I've been feeling like crap the last week because of this stupid cold I contracted from this sickly group of people so, apparently I have not been very "social" so to speak, and when the instructors changed the seating arrangement all of a sudden I'm forced to sit by girls I don't really know all that well. I've been quiet. Taking it all in. I miss my friend stevie who always had something to say, loudly, I might add...and now it's just quietness that comes from our side of the classroom...so dull... So...what does the new girl sitting next to me say? She says, it's because I'm so shy, that's the reason why, and unexpectedly I was bothered by that assumption. I'm not a shy individual. I just don't lay it out all on the line on a first meeting. Especially if I don't feel I have anything in com

What About Now
Shadows fill an empty heart As love is fading, From all the things that we are But are not saying. Can we see beyond the scars And make it to the dawn? Change the colors of the sky. And open up to The ways you made me feel alive, The ways I loved you. For all the things that never died, To make it through the night, Love will find you. What about now? What about today? What if you're making me all that I was meant to be? What if our love never went away? What if it's lost behind words we could never find? Baby, before it's too late, What about now? The sun is breaking in your eyes To start a new day. This broken heart can still survive With a touch of your grace. Shadows fade into the light. I am by your side, Where love will find you. What about now? What about today? What if you're making me all that I was meant to be? What if our love, it never went away? What if it's lost behind words we could never find? Baby, before it's too late, What abo

Bullrider
A Texas hat with attitude the brim tipped down a bit as black as sin with subtle bend "Bull Rider" in its fit. A chiseled face deep resolute with eyes as hard as stone said, "If you're wise, you'd be advised to leave this man alone." A brahma bull of ill repute was placed into the stall as ugly-mean as ever seen pure hate for one and all. A mottled gray in attributes of thirteen-hundred pounds would climb a stand to gore a man or stomp him in the ground. The riders drew for random bulls and when the draw was done that Texas hat just chewed and spat he'd drawn that orn'ry son. Each rider settled in his chute before he shouted, "Now!" then left the gate to tempt his fate and hang on board somehow. A Utah man now held the lead his ride was rated best the Texas hat aware of that now moved to meet the test. He settled on to get a grip the bull rose up instead he eased on back adjusted slack then gave the go-ahead. That nettled bull flew out th

Yes
Last night i held you in my arms, and as you slept i watched you sleep, You looked so angelic in the night light i nearly cried, i did let the tears fall for they were for you, no nothings is wrong my love, its just tears of love i have for you i whispered quietly, you smiled as if you knew. I prayed every that this dream would come true, it had, is why iamk with you tonight...so Yes, iam happy, and yes iam deep love with you, and t o not have you at my side is too much to bare. yes it is silly for i do know you wouldnt leave me, but is how i am, i loe you with all my heart abd joy, with every beat of my heart and every inch of my life..Hell i could say without you i woul just give up and die! for you are everything to me, life love happiness everything that is good and wonderful thats what you are.

Vacation Pics
I just got home today from Mexico I'll post pics soon as I can But I have more pics than I have room for here right now Has anyone gone on a cruise and come home from it feeling like the ship is still rocking? I guess thatd be sealag Just curious if it's just me or not!

October 3rd Doctors Appointment
I have just went to the doctors on Oct, 3rd. He has me walking again on both feet. Although I am still in the brace. I am also still useing a walker to. And getting around kind of quick. That was a surprise. Every bone in my foot feels like it could snap. Even though there is not actual pain involved. Just a lot of crack and pops .

Bleeding On The Inside, Bleeding On The Outside
I look at you and I wonder how it is you came into my life and why it is you have bothered to stick around as long as you have. Let's face it, I'm a mess and a half most of the time. I look to you for strength and guidance but don't seem to be able to return the favor equally as well. Not a moment passes by when you are not on my mind so when you don't talk to me, I feel like I have been cut open and am bleeding slowly on the inside...like a small internal nick that trickles blood until it has all been lost. Sometimes I think it would just be easier if I sliced myself open on the outside just so that the pain wouldn't take as long and the passing would just come quicker. Am I disturbed? You're goddamned right I am. Who else would think such things about the existence of another person. I'm sprung on you. I feel things that I can't explain and should never feel. But I am who I am and I cannot change that.

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Love is a beautiful dream A butterfly released to alight on gossamer wings A warm blossom unfurling petals at night Moist dewdrops; Golden birds in flight Love is a beautiful dream A reverie of what life should be Soft sunlight drenches a sandy shore Lapping water; A note clear and pure Slumber my sweet, precious one Believe in true peace when bitterness comes Always know hope is there The world fades away; Without a thought or care Here and now not where and when Love the life you have been given Love those who are your friends Create and dream in fantasy's realm Where true genius within each of us dwells Love is a beautiful dream A sparkling champagne or pink lemonade Light laughter escaping your lips A red balloon; Your first soft kiss Love is a beautiful dream: Join me there so we can both see As we walk along that sandy shore in the moonrise A lighthouse beacon; Watching the world through your eyes

Dr. Phil's Test
Dr. Phil's Test: Here you go. Try this! Below is Dr. Phil's test. (Dr. Phil scored 55, he did this test on Oprah and she got a 38.) Some folks pay a lot of money to find this stuff out! Read on, this is very interesting! Don't be overly sensitive! The following is pretty accurate and it only takes a few minutes. Take this test for yourself and send it on to your friends. The person who sent it placed their score in the email subject box. Please do the same before forwarding it on to your friends. (send it back to the person who sent it to you.) Don't peek, but begin the test as you scroll down and answer. Answers are for who you are now and not who you were in the past. Have pen or pencil and paper ready. This is a real test given by the Human Resources Depts. at many of the major corporations today. It helps them get better insight concerning their e

Shoutout To Some Great Staff Members , Thanx To You All! Hugzzz
Thank You All for doin such a great job, love & hugz....Jade ™JÁÐÊ™ØWÑÊR & DJ @§WÊÊTWÁTÊR§ LOUNGE & DIRTY DIAMOND CREW*~@ fubar (¯`·._ JØHÑJØHÑ_.·´¯) OWNED BY BETTYBOOPS/OWNER OF SUNSHINE PRINCECESS/JADE/CATAWBA@ fubar ~*Sexy*Red2*~Promoter/Greeter@Sweetwaters*Jade's Dirty Diamond Crew@ fubar ۞ ◊HØÑË¥BABE◊♥~Eddietunes r/l wife ۞ASSIST MANAGER AT SWEETWATERS !!@ fubar (¯`·._.·[Dj Bear]·._.·´¯) /Bartender @ Sweetwaters@ fubar ☮☢BLADE ☻☯☣♡Ruine émotive @ fubar GnbRebel Head Thumper At Sweetwater's &Owned by Drama Queen &The Proud Owner OF Little Angel@ fubar DJ Sunshine Princess "Sweetwater's assist. Manager~OWNED BY JOHNJOHN~

Redemption Of The Lady Allyce; Pt. 3
Redemption of the Lady Allyce By John Pagan Part Three 18th of April, Year of our Lord One Thousand One Hundred and Seven My Dear Brother, If it hast naught entered your mind, if you are reading these my words, It is most likely due to the good Lord calling me to my final reward. I have many regrets in this world, most of all I regret I was naught a better brother and kinsman to you. Haft you been the elder son, you would now bear this title, hold these lands and be master of our family. Me thinks now after all I have seen at war in the Holy Lands and since my return that I haft rather taken up the cloth. When Father told me you would become a priest, perhaps someday to become a prince of the Church, I haft said unto myself 'poor bugger'. For this I am greatly shamed, dear brother and mayhaps this offense explains the trials I have come to suffer. That morning I found Allyce laid naked in the forest she was at first weak as a new born babe and I carried her slig

Just A Word?
true love One entry found. Main Entry: true·love Listen to the pronunciation of truelove Pronunciation: ..ˈtrü-ˌləv.. Function: noun Date: 14th century : one truly beloved or loving : sweetheart *Yep..there it is...call it magic..or fairy dust...lightening...etc...no games or rules...simple...and straight forward....never gonna settle for anything less....*smirks

It's Proof...i Should Be Red
Your Hair Should Be Red You are a passionate person... both in love and in life. You have many causes that are important to you. You can be very intense. You are very fiery. You speak up, and you don't mince words. You also have a very flamboyant personality. You love to show off. You are both eccentric and expressive. You like to share your unique point of view. You can become quite impassioned. So impassioned that you can seem a little overbearing. What Color Hair Should You Have?

Ladies Night
You are cordially invited to hang out with us in the Anti-Lounge for Ladies Night This Friday Night 10pm Eastern/9pm Central On cam for the Ladies BlOcKhEd georgec84 Sephirothfftl So Ladies... Come on in for some good times free drinks and make some great memories Ladies Night The Anti-Lounge This Friday Night 10pm Eastern/9pm Central You don't want to miss it! Broadcasting live from

Proposition 420 - Education Disbursement
Proposition 420 The U.S.H.E.M.P. Act Disbursement of Federal Hemp/Cannabis Revenue Section 3: Industrial and Economic Part C: Education Funding 25% of Total Disbursement Purpose : To double the relative pay of all Public School Teachers within a decade; A percentage of the total revenues acquired from the taxation of Hemp/Cannabis would be set aside with the intended goal of providing a means to double the relative income of Public School Teachers within 10 years after the enactment of this Proposal. “A gifted teacher is as rare as a gifted doctor, and makes far less money.” ~ Author unknown A Portion of the Hemp/Cannabis Tax portioned for Education will be used to supplement State and Local Teacher salaries from a Federal pool diverted proportionately to the States with the Sole Purpose of increasing the salaries of State and Local Teachers. An anticipated goal is to achieve, within a decade of enactment of the U.S. H.E.M.P. Act, a doubling of the pay of Teachers

Deal Or No Deal
I came up with a spliffing idea earlier Your opinion is not required because I have made up my mind and this is just to let you know what I have thought of. Every Friday night I shall be selecting three friends (from my family usually) to receive a gift form me (cos I nice like that!) I have already rewarded two and cant decide who the third should be. I am not random but if you think you deserve something, let me know in coomment here and before I log off tonight. TY xxxx

Looking For A Slave Girl For Me N My Lover
I am very friendly and sexual, looking for a slave girl for me n my lover so if u r a girl/lady, aged between 19 - 35 feel free to contact me, u must have photos and salutes and u must be bisexual, willing to do all the kinky stuff and obey me and my lover, and we will take care of ur desires. Waiting for you to contact me xoxo Kitten

Roll Call
Hey Sexy BBWs I need to do roll call.. just to check in and see how everyone is doing.. plus I don't have everyone in my folder ripped like I need too. so please stop by and say hi.. thanks Chocolate Bunny...

Ethical Choice
Will we ever in our lifetimes see a thinking robot like the ones we see in the movie AI. Where a robot boy is created to replace a real child. If we could, would we want a child that was good and obeyed us with out question. lol ok moms there are times when that would seem like the perfect solution but lets face it we have kids so that we can in a way live on past our years, Our children carry our genetic code and we nurture them they take on some of our characteristics and look similar to us and they make us laugh and surprise us in little ways we can be proud of what they achieve and share in their growth. We and others see us in them, and in a way when we are gone, a little of us goes with them and lives on. If we believe the soul lives on and that we have lived other lives you may believe as I do that they carry the seeds of our past locked away within them and in rare instances perhaps many lives from today we will remember something will unlock those deeply hidden memories.

Thats Just Wrong!
when YOU join the army, you can tell me how to wear that shirt but until you do, listen to me. said by davvvvviiiiiid about my navy shirt and bra.. because if i wear a navy shirt i have to not wear a bra FYI I'm still HOOYAH not HOOAH

Online Predators
The Online Predator By LrdAzrael The following is a composite profile of an Online Predator. This profile was compiled by a number of submissive women for use by submissive women. It is written from the perspective of a submissive female whose nature requires her to respond to a dominant male. The Online Predator Definition : The Online Predator is one who uses the mechanisms of cyber space to hunt human beings with the intent to exploit, rob, plunder and pillage their body, mind, heart and soul. Characteristics of a Predator: 1. Liar: (Self explanatory) 2. Deceiver: His self situation is presented as other than what it is. 3. Betrayer: He is likely to break trust. 4. Insecure: He is worried that others will be faithless. 5. Inconsistent: He will say one thing while doing another. 6. Lacking Honor: Usually while protesting that he has honor. 7. Lack of Respect: He will tend to denigrate others. 8. Transient: He is unlike

My First Blog
well this is my first blog...i dont really know what to say...im a single mom. i got a 2 yr old little boy. and at the present time living with my sister in law while my brother is in iraq...its only temperary but i love it for now. i get to see my nephews and niece its awesome but still can wait to get out of here. all i ever do is work and watch kids all day long and only get time to myself like never...lol its all good tho im to used to it that im going to go nuts the next week hoildays as my sister in law and the kids will be gone so it will only be my son and i here all by ourselves...for a month and a half that is going to freak me out. im not used to living by myself...but its ok i'll survive...so well i have no clue what else to say if i sound interesting to ya, hit me up i shout like all the time... chow for now.

Pdx
hear bout the land slide,... wonder if the homeowner realizes that the reason why it slid was due to a water main break. oh wait, god for bid,... the city would have to pay for that... wonder how gulable the homeowners who live there are going to be , until they realize that the city fock'd up. wonder how long the city is going to make excuses and blame the homeowners before they say , oops our bad.....

Death Of A Loved One
OK I JUST WANTED TO TAKE A MOMENT TO SAY HOW THANKFUL I WAS TO HAVE MY GRAND FATHER AROUND FOR HIS 92 BIRTHDAY BUT JUST A LITTLE WHILE AGO I WAS TOLD HE HAS BEEN GIVEN ONLY 2 WEEKS TO LIVE. I AM CRUSHED AND MY DAD IS A WRECK.I JUST WANT EVERYONE TO KEEP THEIR LOVED ONES IN THEIR HEARTS AND IN THEIR PRAYERS. GRANDPA I LOVE YOU .

Desire
Warm breeze blows into the bedroom window, the moon is pouring over us in a silver wave. aching I watch it's flowing gentle movement rippling slowly over your pale smooth skin The beauty of your glowing body beckons me to touch, to taste, to love it's graceful expanse, from your forehead to toes, fingers to nose How I hunger to know you so completely To gladly find all the wondrous places that bring you such sweet pleasure. forging bonds that tie your heart to mine, two hearts beating wildly together as one.

A Splash Of Life Through The Vast Darkness Of My Dreams...
In the deepest of dreams i never expect it to all end this way i times we shared... My dream is all but this i never dream in color but this dream was in full blown color... i was walking towards my old house an felt something chasing me i looked at the sky it was turning from blue to black an the darkness came down...once again as it stood behind me i ran faster to my house i jumped through the glass door getting all kinds of cuts an slammed the wooden door shut. as i locked it i could hear the creatures on the other side clawing at the door banging to get at me as they started to break through i placed my right palm on the door my tattoo began to glow as red electrical sparks discharged from it i blast soon followed as i look through the hole all the demons on the other side were dead...the only thing left standing was the thing that sent them after me watching simply standing there not moving or saying a single word... i don't know what this dark figure was but i knew it was

The Calling Chapter 12
After this sudden shock of what he had just told me this night about him laying his sen deep within me and now I was to carry a child again and run the risk of maybe losing it before it was to ever be born unto us. I didn't know what else to do but lay there and cry in my Husbands arms for I didn't want to tell him that I wanted this child more than I did my own first born child. Was this so wrong of me to say this in my head ? How could I love this unborn child more than my own first born ? The answers were soon to come faster than what I had wanted but yet they would be there. The next few days were really stressful on us both for we both had wall now put up around us and didn't want to be close to the other for the fear of what was to come to us soon and it was something that we couldn't avoid not matter what we tried to do we always ended up back with each other alone in our room and not knowing what to say to each other in the hours before dawn was to break on us. " My love

Smallest Tokens
I do things for you to let you know I love you and get asked why ? I give you things to show you I love you and get asked why ? I tell you things nobody else knows and get asked why ? I tell you the reason I do these things and still get asked why ? I tell you and show you in more ways than one that I love you and still get asked why ? I have told you I would be with you forever and still get asked why ? I hold you close in my dreams every night and still get asked why ? I try to let you know how much I love you and still get asked why ? I have told you I would die for you and still get asked why ? I have made a life together with you and still get asked why ? I do small things because I want to and still get asked why ? I sit and think of you daily and still get asked why ? I carry nothing but love for you every day and still get asked why ? If you can't see I do all this without wanting anything in return but your love then I have no answers t

What Polygamy Is And Is Not
Polygamy is NOT This is NOT about polyandry or polyamory. This is NOT about fornication or adultery. This is NOT about group marriage or wife swapping. This is NOT about dishonest bigamy or infidelity. This is NOT about underaged or arranged marriage. This is NOT about any form of mormonism. This is NOT about re-defining marriage. Polygamy is: a loving family arrangment, where all of the parties love, care for, respect and support each other. when one gets sick, the rest take care of them When one of us is sad, the others bring us cheer it takes a village to raise a child and we do

Never..........
Never say I love you,If you really don't care. Never talk about feelings,If they really aren't there. Never hold my hand,If your gonna break my heart. Never say your going too...If you never plan to start. Never look into my eyes.If all you're gonna do is lie.... Never say hi,If you really mean goodbye. If you really mean forever,Then say you will try Never say forever,'Cuz forever makes me cry!!

Nsfw Pics
Hi! Well if your reading this then that means your interested in seeing my pics. Well I have alot more pics that I want to put up but I need a VIP to add them all. So I will make ANYONE a deal. You get me a VIP and you will be in my fam FOREVER with access to any and every pic of me. Again, 1 month VIP and your in my fam for life! Note: If you harass me, stalk me, threaten me, or anything of the sort, then you will be kicked from my fam. Other than that there will be NO way that I will drop you from my fam. So let me know what you think! Becky!

Life Is About This
imikimi - Customize Your World Life is about having friends like you - I love all my friends the same, I am not racist or anything like that and just love making new friends. If you aint included in the above make, dont fret, there wasnt room for you all but you all hold a special place in my heart and luv to you all xxxx

Life A Funny Thing
Life its a pretty funny thing if you ask me. It can go away at any time without giving you warning. Life deals us cards and we play them sometimes carelessly other times safe. It can place a big impact on you or others that come around sometimes they may not even realize it until its too late. You can't fight life cause you will never win. You can live life to the fullest and never take it for granted and then maybe just maybe when it begins to fade on you then you will allow it to take its process without regrets. Often people don't realize how precious life can be, many think "oh i have tomorrow" but they don't realize tomorrow may never come. Love like there is no tomorrow,sing,dance be silly like it will be your last chance in life to do these things that so many take for granted. Take the chance so many fear to take and then at their wits end regret not stepping forward to take that chance that just might make you happy. Life a funny thing, can be good to you one second and at the

Building My Company
HANDY MAN SERVICES & REMODELING LLC 1156 Hightop Rd. # 17 Blacksburg Va. 24060 540 250 7194 Hi :) My Name is Clarence Peters Friends call me “Pete”. I am experienced, honest, trustworthy carpenter with over 30 years of experience looking to complete your "honey-do-list". I am experienced in all phases of carpentry. I can do your minor and major repairs as well as additions on your home or business. I build decks and screened porches, pergolas, cabinets, mantels, kitchen and bath remodel too. I will give you the fairest price around. If you're tired of looking at that long "honey-do-list" call and I make that list go away. Check out some of my work http://photobucket.com/hwbama and click on the different folders. You may contact me @ 540-250-7194 or @ hwbama@yahoo.com. I am Licensed & Insured with Class B, BLD. Our purpose is to reach out and help those that need repairs and maintenance of home or office that is beyond their time and schedule. T

What Is A Soul Mate?
If you have found a smile that is the sweetest one you've know. If you have heard,within a voice, that echoes of your own, If you have felt a touch that stirs the longings of your heart, And still can feel that closeness in the moments you're apart, If you have filled with wonder at the way two lives can blend To weave a perfect pattern that is seamless,end to end, If you believe some things in life are simply meant to be, Then you have found your soul mate, your heart's own destiny

Alone
Purity once had a name, And beauty once had a face. Life once had a meaning, And once I was safe. Once there was freedom, And once I could laugh. Happiness once was alive, And once I had another half. Once I shared her love, Once I was by her side, Once I felt I fitted, So quickly that died. Her grace so great, Her beauty so vast, All I ever wanted, Was for it to last. Fate maybe had another plan, Or maybe she had another love, But it all fell apart, The hand too big for the glove. Now it's all died away, Happiness, joy, love; all memories. Now I walk alone in this dark, dark world, With no light to guide my way.

Just Thoughts
i honestly dont know what to do. i want to move after the situation with my parents. i am 20 years old and still living at home. its okay, but i wanna start somewhere new. its been crazy running around Nebraska when im not even near home and i want to go back. which i plan on it in December. hopefully explore a lil on the way there. THANK YOU to everyone who has talked to me about the shit that has been going on the last week i really appreciate it a TONS! what in the hell do you do when u really like someone? you tell them well duh i did that! and it had a good out come im just scared of what could happen

The Slut Chronicles
STORY I At yet another stop light waiting to carry on yet another monotnous day of work, I find my mind wondering again, fantasizing. Those eyes of his, the way he just looks threw me, deep into me. I feel my heart begin to quicken the pulse beginning to rise. The feeling under my skirt begins to match the pusling in my heart. Wishing now I would've worn underwear in fear my co-workers may see the wet spot that is beginning to form. I pull into the driveway at work. 7 days in a row straight. The hours not very forgiving for me to have a social life. Not allowing me to see him. Those lips, God those lips the way they move when he talks, talks dirty to me. Never had I thought the words slut, whore, or cunt could sound so good. I've got to stop these thoughts. Gotta get in my work mind frame. I have the greatest job. Although right now I am wishing I worked someplace a little more mundane like a morgue. Working in a Porn Store can be fun, but very challenging. Especially knowing th

Dear Senator Obama
A letter to Senator Obama This letter deserves circulation. There are millions who feel the same way. Interesting and perhaps indisputable points. For some reason, liberals really detest this letter, and they see hate in the words rather than facts and opinions. Keep it moving till the election. Send to everyone and hope that all will at least read some of it. Dear Mr. Obama: It is August 30, 2008. My name is Mark Gregg. I am a 50 something, conservative white male. I have followed your campaign closely, including the speeches you and others made at the democratic national convention. I am respectfully providing you with seven simple reasons why I could never vote for you. I believe that many people share my opinion. I do think that there needs to be an awakening to the fact that you are not a (the) messiah that the media and liberal Hollywood entertainers are trying to portray you as. 1. I hear your mantra of change, change, and change. Yet, you picked a l

Texas Chili Cook Off (laugh Til You Cry.. Seriously!)
NOTE: Please take time to read this slowly. If you pay attention to the first two judges, the reaction of the third is even better. For those of you who have lived in Texas, you know how true this is. They actually have a Chili cook-off about the time the rodeo comes to town. It takes up a major portion of the parking lot at the Astrodome. The notes are from an inexperienced chili taster named Frank, who was visiting Texas from the East Coast: Frank: "Recently, I was honored to be selected as a judge at a chili cook-off. The original person called in sick at the last moment and I happened to be standing there at the judge's table asking directions to the Budweiser truck, when the call came in. I was assured by the other two judges (Native Texans) that the chili wouldn't be all that spicy and, besides, they told me I could have free beer during the tasting, So I accepted." Here are the scorecards from the event: Chili # 1 Mike's Maniac Mobster Monster Chili J

I Confess
I confess, that I have lived before. A place where the dragons soared and magic was all around. I was worshipped, for the blessings I granted. In places that honored me, people that praised my name. Gifts were brought, layed before my feet. Women honored me, men feared my wrath. The seasons were mine to do as I pleased. To worship me was to love the darkness. For only in death and darkness, do you find yourself. I onced lived and I will live again. This I do confess.

How Many Times Will I Break Til' I'm Shattered?
Last night I cried myself to sleep, and the phone call that I very well deserved I never got..What was I thinking?? Wow, I let someone in and they left me torn apart. How am I suppose to explain this to the ones that mean the most to me? Looks like I'll be wearing long sleeves for awhile. As if someone else hurting you isn't enough. Why is it that when you get hurt, you feel the need to take it out on yourself? Is there a pill that you can take to not remember??? Maybe my doc needs to up my dose. I'm cancelling my cardioligist appointment, right now, I dont care what is going on with me. I thought my words mattered...hell I thought I mattered. Boy was I sadly mistakened. I use to think that the internet can kill a relationship....that's not true, when someone is happy with what they have, then the internet means nothing. Make that a lesson learned. People use the three little words way too lightly. I dont believe that they should be said unless they are true, but I cant control the wor

Sigh...
Well my weekend is over....back to work ago. This wasn't the greatest week...I'm sad at the moment.... I feel like giving up on a lot of things. Maybe I just need a break from everything....everyone.... But then I think, what good would that do? I still crave for attention....I want attention. :( I want to be beautiful....just to be noticed.... Why does it seem like....ugh I just don't know....it just hurts a lot and I never know what to do... What if i just disappeared...would anyone even notice? Not just on the online world..... here as well.. No one talks to me...I don't talk to anyone... my friends....well what friends? I feel alone...I don't know what to do... maybe i do need a break. I should pick up on drawing or something. I've been wanting to paint....that's good right? Would it be a happy painting? Or a sad painting? I'm going crazy in the head again.... I'm tired of feeling hurt...ugly...lonely, neglected, un noticed..... sigh... This is going to

The Latest !!!
well my grandmother passed away ,on roctober 11th.. We had her funeral in tenn..it was a great service,and a kick ass turn out. She will be missed forever!!! She raised me ,with my mom... BETTY BROWN MAY 1OTH,1928 OCTOBER 11,2008 I CONTINUE TO WRITE SONGS AND PLAY GUITAR/BASS AND ACOUSTIC..AND GOT A KEYBOARD HERE WITH DRUMS AND ALL THAT.. MORE TO COME! THANKS FOR YOUR SUPPORT... DJKRIS2FUR

Come Join Me And My Family @ Stilettos And Hand Grenades And Get Your Face Fukin Rawked!!
WARNING..YOUR FACE IS ABOUT TO GET RAWKED THE FUCK OFF!!! COME JOIN THE PARTY AT STILETTOS AND HAND GRENADES!!! CLICK ANY PIC TO COME GET YOUR RAWK ON!!!

Jealousy ?
FUBAR: 'home.php' rendered in 0.12 seconds on machine '183'. My Server: "profile.html" rendered in: 0.018773 Seconds on machine: Onyx Just because my code is better doesn't mean you had to delete my blogs. Communists....

Halloween & The Interests Of Children(important!!!)
Subject: New drug in Schools...Please pass this on to your friends, neighbors, grandchildren, schools, clubs, etc This is a new drug known as 'strawberry quick '. There is a very scary thing going on in the schools right now that we all need to be aware of. There is a type of crystal meth going around that looks like strawberry pop rocks (the candy that sizzles and 'pops' in your mouth). It also smells like strawberry and it is being handed out to kids in school yards. They are calling it strawberry meth or strawberry quick. Kids are ingesting this thinking that it is candy and being rushed off to the hospital in dire condition. It also comes in chocolate, peanut butter, cola, cherry, grape and orange. Please instruct your children not to accept candy from strangers and even not to accept candy that looks like this from a friend (who may have been given it and believed it is candy) and to take any that they may have to a teacher, principal, etc. Immediately. Pass this e

Myself
WELL AS U ALL KNOW I AM NEW HERE. I LIKE TO PLAY AND I LIKE TO PLAY HARD. I LOOK FOR MEN WHO CAN HELP ME WITH ALL MY NEEDS I WANT TO SAY THANKS TO ALL OF U WHO HAVE CHECKED ME OUT AND FRIEND REQUESTED ME SO FAR U MAKE ME FEEL AT HOME

Why Orwell Matters Before Seven Days That Shook The World
I don’t need a book-length essay to remind me why George Orwell matters. For better or for worse, the political dialogue that’s entered our language and culture as a result of his anti-totalitarian essays and small output of novels with big impact (“Animal Farm” and “Nineteen Eighty Four” are the big two) colors how we see both. By and large, we don’t even think of “doublethink” defined in the latter book as holding two contradictory ideas simultaneously and accepting both, and the fact that “Big Brother” the ruler of Oceania who may or may not be a real person is now the titled of a why-is-it-so-watched “reality television” show is both a good and a bad thing. Which is doublethink itself, isn’t it? Anyway, Christopher Hitchens’ treatment of Orwell in “Why Orwell Matters” (ISBN 0465030491) is intended more as a rebuttal of the author’s critics than presenting anything new about the man himself. He fought in the Spanish Civil War – if you don’t know that is, neither do I besides

Story From Coming Crashing In
It was a warm summer day. The kind of day that bridges the gap between summer and fall. Windy, but partly cloudy and warm. He was walking down the street then happened to notice her. A girl by the name of Erica. Not too short, not too tall. Blonde hair, perfect body, the kind of body that women dream of. Tight stomach with a cute little belly button ring. He began to stare. She noticed him from across the street and smiled. He blushed as he realized he was no longer hidden. He took a few steps, then turned left and began to cross the street to meet her. "Hi there, my name is Mike." he said, with pink cheeks. "Hello." Erica replied. "I couldnt help noticing you as I was walking. I hope this isnt too rude or abrupt of me, but you have an amazing body. Are you single by chance?" he asked, hoping... "Yes I am, why do you ask?" she replied. "Well, I was just wondering if you'd like to play a little game with me?" he said. She nodded. He then took her by the hand and led her behi

Halloween History
Halloween History More than 2,000 years ago, October 31st was a day to be feared by the Celtic people who lived in what is now England, Ireland and France. For them October 31st was The Festival of Samhain, which marked the end of the year and the end of the harvest season. It was their New Year's Eve. Why all the fear? Because it was believed that during the evening of this harvest festival the Lord of the Dead, Samhain, would allow the dead to return to earth for a few hours. To hide from these evil spirits many people donned masks - the more gruesome the better - so the spirits would think they were not mortals but other evil spirits and pass them by. Grotesque masks of all sizes and shapes were made from animal skins, animal heads and anything else the Celts could find and use. Costumes were also incorporated in this ceremony. The wilder the costume, the more frightening it would be to ward off the evil spirits. Bonfires, in honour of the sun god, were bu

Jakalope-digging Deep
Reeling me in not afraid To treat me life a fish I can be smooth as I wanna be But it's no guarantee That I'll be better than me Someday instead I'll just keep wanting you anyways And I'll be Be digging deep Reel me in I'll give in Til I win Hold me up I'll dig my hands in Reel me in I'll give in Til I win Hold me up I'll dig my hands in Keep to the surface You'll be A place that I can't breathe Not used to feeling Less than me Less than incomplete You know that I can not drown But it's not safe to be found You throw me away And I'll be Be digging deep Race me to defeat Put it on repeat I'm not done yet Reel me in I'll give in Til I win Hold me up I'll dig my hands in Reel me in I'll give in Til I win Hold me up I'll dig my hands in [guitar solo] Reel me in I'll give in Reel me in I'll give in (Hold me up I'll dig my hands in) Reel me in I'll give in Til I win I'll give in (hold me up, I'll dig my hands in) Reel me i

Gezzz Lol
why dont people listen when u say back up why is it when u have plans crap always happends but ya know when everything eles fails you just say f it do what you gota do anyway it doesnt matter what everyone eles wants its what u want and only you but ya know screw the world your life is your life

Army Pvt. 2 Giovanny Maria
NO PICTURE Army Pvt. 2 Giovanny Maria 19, of Queens, New York City; assigned to the 10th Mountain Division, Fort Drum, N.Y., killed Nov. 29, 2001, by a non-combat weapons discharge in Uzbekistan. Died: November 29, 2001

Army Master Sgt. Jefferson D. Davis
Army Master Sgt. Jefferson D. Davis 39, of Watauga, Tenn.; assigned to 3rd Battalion, 5th Special Forces Group, Fort Campbell, Ky.; killed in a friendly fire bombing on Dec. 5, 2001, in Afghanistan. Died: December 05, 2001

Politically Correct Terms For Males
He does not have a beer gut; he develops a Liquid Grain Storage Facility. He does not: Hog the blankets He is: Thermally unappreciative He is not: Unsophisticated He is: Socially malformed He does not: Eat like a pig He suffers from: Reverse bulimia He is not: A sex machine He is: Romantically automated He is not a: Male chauvinist pig He has: Swine empathy He is not: Quiet He is a: Conversational minimalist You do not: Undress him with your eyes You have a: Introspective pornographic moment He is not: Afraid of commitment He is: Monogamously challenged He does not have a: Fabulous rear end He has achieved: Buttocks perfection He is not: Stupid He suffers from: Minimal cranial development He does not: Get lost all the time He discovers: Alternative destinations He is not: Balding He is in: Follicle regression You do not: Buy him a drink You initiate an: Alcohol-For-Conversation exchange He does not: Fart and belch He is: Gastronomically expressive His jeans are not: Too

First Read-thru
There is something very exciting about the first rehearsal of any play or musical I am in. There's an excitement of creation, a feeling of teamwork and a sense of ownership of a role to play. It is always invigorating. This time around it is no different, except for one tiny...person. To be involved with my daughter in the same show fills me with pride and responsibility. Having a shared hobby, no matter what that may be, gives me such joy and a feeling of family. And it runs rampant with the rest of the cast as well. Sisters, parents and their children performing for the sake of Theatre Arts. We had a first read thru of the script tonight. Everyone sitting around together, laughing at the prose, and just having a great time. Bringing culture to everyone, not just the priveleged few, is what this particular venue is about. Now, will there be offstage antics? Probably. Drama Queens and Kings? Absolutely. And I wouldn't want it any other way.

Way Of The Fist....
YOU WANT IT,YOU GOT IT EVERYTHING YOU NEEDED AND MORE YOU SAID IT,I HEARD IT CAREFUL WHAT YOU WISH FOR DELETED,DEFEATED,EVERYTHING YOU'VE EVER BEEN NO MERCY STRAPPED WITH RAGE GOT NO PATIENCE FOR VICTIMS SICK AND TIRED OF THE WHOLE FUCKING WORLD I DON'T REMEMBER ASKING YOU FOR YOUR IMPERFECTIONS YOU MIGHT WIN ONE BATTLE BUT KNOW THIS,I'LL WIN THE FUCKING WAR STEP TP ME MOTHER FUCKER YOU'VE RUN OUT OF TIME TALK THE TALK NOW WALK THE DAMN LINE DESERVE IT,YOU EARNED IT GOT YOURSELF A FUCKING WAR BELIEVE IT,YOU NEED IT FACE DOWN ON THE FUCKING FLOOR I HATE IT,CAN'T TAKE IT WANNA BREAK YOUR FUCKING BONES NO MERCY,YOU SHOULD HAVE LEFT IT ALL ALONE

A Poem......
Forbidden fruit: I crave the taste of your kiss like a forbidden fruit. My mind says run and my heart says don't deny you I can picture eternity in your arms, just the two of us in your dark world. I am but a moth drawn to the flame, will it burn me or will I live in eternal bliss. We are but 1 soul it seems when we talk, your ability to break down my walls is unheard of. So long i have hidden my true self from the world, it is unsettling how you see through me. I long to hear your voice, to taste your tongue, for you to pull me close and caress my soft skin. To make love to me in a world that is our own,you have bewitched my soul and enslaved my heart. I am your slave now and forever

How Will I Laugh....
HERE I SIT AND WATCH MY WORLD COME CRUBLING DOWN I CRY FOR HELP NO ONE'S AROUND SILENTLY SCREAMING AS I BANG MY HEAD AGAINST THE WALL SEEMS LIKE NO ONE CARES AT ALL ALWAYS AN EMOTION BUT HOW CAN I EXPLAIN? IT'S KINDA LIKE THE SCENT OF A ROSE WORDS I CAN'T EXPLAIN THE SAME WITH THE PAIN CAUGHT UP IN EMOTION GOES OVER MY HEAD SOMETIMES I HAVE TO THINK TO MYSELF IS THIS LIFE OR DEATH,AM I LIVING OR AM I DEAD? THE CLOCK KEEPS TICKING,BUT NOTHING EVER SEEMS TO CHANGE PROBLEMS NEVER SOLVED JUST REARANGED WHEN I THINK ABOUT ALL THE TIMES THAT I'VE HAD,SOME GOOD ,SOME BAD I SEARCH FOR PERSONALITY,AND I LOOK FOR THINGS I CAN NOT SEE LOVE AND PEACE FLASH THROUGH MY MIND PAIN AND HATE IS ALL I FIND FIND NO HOPE IN NOTHING NEW AND I'VE NEVER HAD A DREAM COME TRUE LIES AND HATE AND AGONY THROUGH MT EYES,THAT'S ALL I SEE IF I'M GONNA CRY,WILL YOU WIPE AWAY MY TEARS?IF I'M GONNA DIE,GOD PLEASE TAKE AWAY MY FEARS BEFORE I DROWN IN SORROW,I JUST WANT TO SAY HOW WILL I LAUGH TO

Making Changes.
It was my birthday this week and i've decided it's time to make some changes. I'm tired of the way I look, the way I feel and the way people treat me. I'm tired of being passed over by decent guys who only want to be "friends". So here's a list of promises I've made to myself. 1.No more putting myself down. 2.No more laughing off cruel jokes at my expense. 3.Get this body into shape. 4.Stop settling for looser who treat me like shit 5.Cut back on the drinking. 6.Use any means possible to improve myself. 7.DARE TO BE FABULOUS! This is my testiment and my promise and because i'm motivated and determined and with a "special help" from my friend it WILL happen. And all those fubar creeps who rated me a 1 and left those stupid ignorant comments like bow wow and yikes,well, i'll have the last laugh on you.

Craven Needs To Level
Craven MooreHead ☠Craven Moorehead~Owned by Naughty By Nature~R/L boyfriend of KCPilar69☠™@ fubar He has been a member of the FU For over a year now. I want to see him finally level to Henchman. He had an Auto 11 once b4. He didnt get many rates. He needs a new Auto 11. PLEASE!!!! PLEASE!!! PLEASE!!! Whom ever gives this awesome MUMMER an AUTO 11. Will get MOLESTED by me. I will make you a few pics, I will PIMP you out. And ravish you with my 11's. So please help him out.And you will get helped out in return AddictedBy Saving AbelBest Video Codes

I Left My Life
Now, that I'm here breaking my relationship with time and space watching my life through the milky glasses of a window now it all becomes so clear If I had the opportunity to smell the enchanted wind of a spring flower I would take a deep breathe to relax If I had the chance to get the tingling emotion of warm white sea sand slipping through my fingers I would hold on to the feeling If I could see the pure and carefree smile of a child as the original nature of honesty it would be so refreshing being able to respond If I could hear the greatest sound the silence of forest in the early morning just interrupted and up valued by the lonely call of a bird I would answer If I could have my body back to be reloaded by a sip of crystal clear water water which is not polluted by chemical industry I could taste the freshness of the unspoiled nature Now, that I'm here breaking my relationship with time and space watching my life through the clear glasses of

A Lost Love
A Lost Love I thought it was over, I thought I could move on, I wish this would've never happened, I tried to move on with my life, I even moved out of state, Still my heart breaks and my life feels fake, Ever sense the day our relationship came to an end, I had to make a new beginning, Somewhere or someway, I put my sorrows at the bottom of those empty bottles many times, I tried leaving thinking this would be for the best, Well; Here I stand, There was many flings with relationships in between now and then, But, My feelings still stand, Something has held on this long, It's something between me and you; "Was the past really that bad?"; I will always find myself loving you! By: Jess L. Burris Jr.

Promo
WEDNESDAY NIGHTS AT RADIO STORM LOUNGE! ITS A GREAT FUN GAME! THE OBJECT OF THE GAME AN HOW IT GOES IS THE DIRECTOR WILL GIVE OUT 3 CLUES AN EVERYONE WILL TRY TO GUESS THE CORRECT WORD OF WHAT THE CLUES ARE RELATING TO. DO YOU HAVE A DIRTY MIND ? COME FIND OUT :-D THE WINNER WILL WIN FU-BUX! EXAMPLE : CLUE 1:YOU BLOW ON ME HARD. CLUE 2:I GO IN HARD . CLUE 3: I COME OUT SOFT. WHAT AM I? ANSWER:GUM

Ha, That Was Quicker Than I Thought!
I thought I was going to have to wait forever to see Ms. Ruby Cairo again. Well I'm on the phone with her (surprise, surprise) and go figure, I'll be seeing her next Friday! Woo hoo! Happiness. :)

Hump Day
I don't know when I've been more excited. It's Hump Day, the downside of a short work week, and things just seem right. I can't wait to get home, eat my leftover homemade chili (which turned out more like cheesy nachos), hook up my cheap-ass home theater to my cheap-ass DVD player, and shave the rest of my chest. (The nurse spot shaved my chest for an EKG yesterday. I just can't hack that "mangy" look.) Maybe I'll take "before" and "after" pix and upload them to fubar. Think I'll stop on my way home and buy a bottle of rum... and just make a night of it. God forbid if I get on fubar while I'm drunk. LMAO!

Cradle Of Filth - Nymphetamine (jezebel Deva Fix)
Led to the river Midsummer I wave A "V" of black swans On with hope to the grave And through Red September With skies fire-paved I begged you appear Like a thorn for the holy ones Cold was my soul Untold was the pain I faced, when you left me A rose in the rain... So I swore to the razor That never, enchained Would your dark nails of faith Be pushed through my veins again Bared on your tomb I'm a prayer for your loneliness And would you ever soon Come above unto me? For once upon a time From the binds of your lowliness I could always find The right slot for your sacred key Six feet deep is the incision In my heart that barless prison Discolours all with tunnel vision Sunsetter... Nymphetamine Sick and weak from my condition This lust, this vampiric addiction To her alone in full submission None better... Nymphetamine Nymphetamine, nymphetamine Nymphetamine girl Nymphetamine, nymphetamine My nymphetamine girl Wracked with your charm I'm c

It's A Couples Auction And We Entered
ITS A COUPLES AUCTION AND WE ENTERED TOGETHER THAT MEANS FOR THE PRICE OF 1 YOU GET US BOTH. COME BY AND SEE WHAT WE ARE OFFERING. MAYBE YOU'LL BE INTERESTED. THE STARTING BID IS 250K FOR BOTH OF US. JUST CLICK ON THE PIC TO GO BID. OUR OFFER!!! 1}RATE ALL PICTURES A 10{OR 11 IF VIP RECEIVED}BY BOTH OF US. 2}RATE ALL STASH BY BOTH OF US. 3}TOP FRIEND FOR A MONTH BY BOTH OF US. 4}TOP FAMILY FOR A MONTH BY BOTH OF US. 5}DAILY COMMENT BY BOTH OF US. 6}DAILY DRINK BY BOTH OF US. 7}PIMP OUT BLOG/BULLY MADE BY BOTH OF US 8}OWNED BY IN MY NAME BY BOTH OF US. OFFER MAY GO UP IF BID IS HIGH ENOUGH. IF BID GOES HIGH ENOUGH 1 SFW SALUTE WITH BOTH OF US IN IT.

Each Moment
Sympathize No more lies Live to learn One single time Each moment Play the rich Spread don't preach Innocence Love will heal Each moment Sweetness all around us Just taste it all Your wishes all the way to heaven Bless us all The kind will only bring us joy Love will save the day We will never fall again Compassion is the way Let me show you my world Open your heart to my soul My love is complete Complete at your feet As much as you need Breathing in Breathing out Action gives reaction Cause each moment Trust in life Trust in now Letting go is everything Each moment

So Simple
Silently, she smiles to herself, as she thinks of him, sitting along in his comp. room sipping coffee. He thinks of her too. But little does she know it's shameful. Both check each other out everyday everywhere in the cyber world, without passing on the knowlege of their inwardly turned love. Time and time again it happens, for who has the courage to say it first. Or do they just enjoy their secret love affair? BISOUS, Lacey

What Color Nail Polish Best Fits You?
Your Nail Polish Color is Black How you're unique: There's nothing about you that isn't unique Why your style rocks: You are a total indie chick... and you can pull it off What this color says about you: "I'm a trendsetter and don't care what anyone else is doing!" What Color Nail Polish Best Fits You?

What's Your Hidden Talent?
Your Hidden Talent You have the natural talent of rocking the boat, thwarting the system. And while this may not seem big, it can be. It's people like you who serve as the catalysts to major cultural changes. You're just a bit behind the scenes, so no one really notices. What's Your Hidden Talent?

The Twelfth Card By Jeffery Deaver
Plot Summary: Lincoln Rhyme, Deaver's popular paraplegic detective, returns (after The Vanished Man) in a robust thriller that demonstrates Deaver's unflagging ability to entertain. But even great entertainers have high and lows, and this novel, while steadily absorbing, doesn't match the author's best. Geneva Settle, who's 16 and black, is attacked in a Manhattan library while researching an ancestor, a former slave who harbored a serious secret (not revealed until book's end). Amelia Sachs, Rhyme's lover/assistant, and then Rhyme are pulled into the case, which quickly turns bloody. After Geneva are a lethally cool white hit man and a black ex-con—but even when they're identified, their motive remains unclear: why does someone want this feisty, hardworking Harlem schoolgirl dead? To find out, Rhyme primarily relies, as usual, on his and Sachs's strength, forensic analysis; the book's tour de force opening sequence consists mostly of a lengthy depiction of their painstaking dissection

Christina Is Taking A Break!
so i went running, it was fabbbbulous¢¾ although im not gonna lie im gonna be mega sore tomorrowwww¢¾ Essay is almost done i just cant force anymore wonderous knowledge out my bbrrain¢¾ so i shall take a break and hopefully i can gets more juices flowing¢¾=) And ive decided im not gonna be a bad individual so that i may better my charisma and integrity¢¾ They say love is blind, but is it deaf as well?¢¾ Music is wonderful¢¾ Love Love Love life¢¾

Gary ~ Shadow Leveler Madethis..this Rocks
Addicted to Fubar by Gary DSC We log on in the morning. We log on at night. But one thing is for sure, We all want to level, right? We're constantly rating pictures And stash too. I ask my friend to help me Because I helped you. You can rate 1 to 11. The choice is up to you. So tell me, Are you addicted to fu? We hit those red cherries As fast as we can. The bouncer tries to stop us But we show him. Freshmeat or Rockstar, At home or in your car. One thing is for certain, We're all addicted to fubar. I receive lots of drinks And lots of gifts. If this was real life, I would be rich! So little time, So much to do. I'll admit it, I'm addicted to fu. It's a great place to meet friends. Hang out and play. I don't get no sleep at night. Thanks BabyJ! I can't stop, It's like a disease. I can't logout, Somebody help me please! So take it easy And take it slow. After you reach the end, There's nowher

Boyfriend App. Had To Post This.. Its Funny
Boyfriend Application :) This custom myspace survey was generated on Sunday, November 18, 2007. About this survey: Heres for me getting a good guy! Name: Whats your birthday/age: Height: Hair color: Eye color: Piercings/Tats: If no, do you want any? Do you drink? Do you smoke? Do you do drugs? What would you say is your best quality? Whose your favorite band? What kind of music do you like? Do you like kids/want any of your own? How do you feel about marriage? Do you live at home/on your own? Do you prefer cats or dogs? What do you like to do in your free time? What do you think is my best quality? Are you Spontaneous? Are you afriad of commitment? Are you romantic and treat girls the way they deserve? Would you make me feel like im the only girl you want to be with? What would our first date consist of? Whats the sweetest thing you've done for a girl? What movies/TV shows do you like? Do you like your fa

Coaching
For those who remember the stories... I am coaching a wrestling team again this season at my old high school. I've only been doing it a week and already I am getting in shape faster and my blood pressure is through the roof. These punkass kids will be the end of me, thank god I get to hit them.

On The Road
Jon Kelly is an experiential researcher known for his studies of secret backwards messages encoded in human speech along with the production of spiritual phenomena recorded on camera. A popular guest in the media, his unique catalogues of audio and photographic materials have been featured on over 1000 international radio and television programs. Following is an interview Jon gave to American Chronicle on their series "On the Road to Roswell and Burlington 2008 RNN: Jon, thank you for doing this interview. I want to get right at it, so let's being with the question: Are there secret unconscious messages hidden backwards in human speech? KELLY: Yes there are and we can detect these messages with the help of a digital audio editing workstation. Most people know about Freudian slips that occur when the unconscious mind takes temporary control of the speech organs. People may end up saying things they later regret but these slips are involuntary on their part. For example,

Top 10 Things Learned Today 11/22
So there are a few things I've learned Today. 1. No matter how good of a friend you are its never good enough for some people. 2. There are things that even you dont know about people you've known all your life. 3. There will always be someone out there that will hurt you no matter how high your build your wall. 4. You can be friends one minute and enemies the next. 5. If you allow them to people will take advantage of you at every turn. 6. True friends dont just want to be your friend when somethings wrong with them or they need something. 7. Taking risks wont always pay off and are almost never worth the effort. 9. No matter how hard you try there will always people how dont like you. 10. The internet is the internet..so believe about 1/3 of what people tell you and dont take it too seriously!

I Love U
I can feel my heart beat but I cannot move my feet. Pound, pound in my chest I swear this feeling is the best! Never felt something quite like this and I feel it each time we kiss. Thump, thump in my throat, You're the one that floats my boat. Without you I'm sure to sink, this love has got me on the brink. I just can't wait to be with you, it all sounds crazy, but I swear it's true! You're the one I want holding me tight, You're the one I want sleeping in my bed at night. I want to wake up to your loving smile, so if you don't mind I'm keeping you a while. I'm holding you close, not letting you leave 'cause one thing's for sure you belong with me! You're my angel and I know it's true, 'cause even when you're gone, baby, I love you

The Two Suns
The Two Suns There were two suns burning in my sky But all I really need is one Now with the promise of a new dawn I believe this day is finally done Now as one sun finally sets Another begins it’s rise Warming the bedrock of my heart And setting a fire in my eyes Full of hope and courage strong I stand and face the breaking light I question the course of this new day And assure myself that it is right And with thoughts of this rising sun Warming me to my heart’s core I realize of the setting sun I shall think no more

The Dating Game
The Dating Game You see her standing there But you’re too afraid to move Unable to take the chance So instead you choose to lose Whenever you see her It’s always the same So you ask yourself why Why do you play this game The dating game A ritual dance Go on boy And take a chance Don’t be afraid Don’t feel no shame Just roll your dice It’s the dating game You torture yourself Every time she walks by You think of things to say But instead, you just sigh You wish it were easier You wish you knew how to play You’re sure you could win the game If you only knew what to say It’s the dating game The ritual dance If you don’t move boy You’ll miss your chance Show your hand Play your card Come on boy And get it hard Every time she walks by Every time you see her face You can only win or lose There’s no show or place If you take your chances Sure, you just might miss But what if you win? The reward is her kiss The dating game A

Red Chant
Red Chant Excited temper Please pause Control yourself Create no flaws Come what now Hour is nigh Bloods boil Passions fly Speak no anger Hear no complaint Once you practice Self restraint Toss to wind Another Volley Speaking wrath Fools folly Cruel words Meant to harm Less kind words Lost of charm Whirling dervishes Spinning round Mad thoughts Within your crown Furrowed brows Shielding glares Angry eyes Feral stares

Social Networking Vs. Love- Who Really Wins?
11-24-08 Maybe the internet is good for many things. For me it has been helpful for promotions, both in art and in the past, for work. It has been nice in other areas too, it has helped me to kill time, make some new friends, learn things... I even met the love of my life on the internet. But, I also think that it can be a bad thing too. Social networks for instance. I think it is possible that they are the bane of relationships. Sure, they don't have to be, when not abused. At least in theory that should be the way it is. But really who's fooled by theory? Scenario: You and the one you love are on a social network. You trust each other. There is no history of cheating or anything like that. What person alive can resist taking a peek at the comments that their significant other receives on said social site? What person in love can honestly say they don't care what other people may or may not be flirting with the person that they share their lives with? None that I know.

About To Snap
This is the sound of a heart spread too thin spent the treasure buried with in given out all hes got wishing he was someone he is not beating his head against the wall hoping this isn't his final fall picking wounds open not to let heal letting them bleed just to feel giving self is the greatest gift watching his life turn to ashes he will sift fuck it all and get it all back this motherfuckers about to snap.... killing himself killing his fears what blood is spent will be payed back in tears the tears of regret are cutting deep they return to haunt him in his sleep hes tired from being the damned fears the slaughter for being The lamb! giving self is the greatest gift watching his life turn to ashes he will sift fuck it all and get it all back this motherfuckers about to snap.... death is coming from a far mourning his life from the dark curled in the corner for all to see wishing they all would let him be crying on the inside looking strong but

Auto11s To Godmother!
Auto11s ON to Godmother! Hi Peeps...I am hoping to Level to Godmother today! Would love to see you there! Also saving up fubucks for Spotlight! Come enjoy the big points and help a Fu~ Thank you...xoxoxoxo ~heart

In Time
*Written for myself and for those who've been waiting... In Time I miss you every day As I watch the clouds move away from me Drifting towards you Direction and intention changes throughout time I can't even begin to imagine How it could be if you were with me I close my eyes, tilt my face to the sky Thinking Dreaming That you're watching me Touching me Loving me Far deeper than any before you A hesitant exhale from lonely lips Under a sleepless morning sun So quiet, I can hear your voice whispering That you're waiting Not wanting to want me But you have no choice I take a long drag of my cigarette Knowing Hating That time is never on my side Frustration runs thick Like the smoke whirling away from my lips Can you smell it in the air? I'm thinking that lonely skies shift over time This familiar, stagnant air could fade With another sway of direction Excitement is just over the horizon And everything could change In time I don't want to wa

The Infinite Sadness Of Losing Your Girl
Coming home at night, No one has called all day, No one to keep me company, No one to watch me slip away. Wanting someone to talk to, But there is no one to call, Wanting someone to care, But no one cares at all. Pacing endlessly, Looking for something to take the pain, Searching my heart and soul, Trying to find something there again. The seconds pass like hours, The hours pass like days, My heart burns all the time, Someone, please put out the blaze. As I lie down to go to sleep, My mind explodes with thoughts, Thoughts of life and death, Thoughts of lessons I've been taught... The lessons of endless pain, Of being totally alone, Lessons that show me How I wasnt meant to be alone

Just Dont Know Anymore
Sometimes i feel all alone and think i am better off all by myself i been on my own since i was 13 and been in the military for ten years all together and never had a thanksgiving or Christmas. I been hurt b4 from past ex girl friends now things with my girl friend now is not going to good one week or mo. im happy then the next im not i cant seem to figure out why i get in to my moods where i wanna run and hide i already been hurt in this relainship i caught here kissing a other guy she just meet in his car and read one of her blogs about she had a good time when she went to lunch with him and how good of a kisser he was that just broke my heart and i gave us a chance but heard once a cheater always one she told me it was just a misstake and would not do it again something like that will take some time to gain trust back one of her ex boyfriends keeps hacking her site and sending me everything she writes so i set my fubar page to private so the shit would stop now that i made up an oth

:(
listen. i know youre reading this. whatever happened, im truly sorry. i didint mean to ruin everything. all i ever wanted was to make you happy and see your smiling face. if i could hold you in my arms for just a minute id be the happiest man on earth. im miserable without you. i miss you like crazy, and your not talking to me is making things worse. i dont know how to express what im losing... but i know its the best girl ive ever met. i love you. i miss you. i dont know what to do. im lost without you.

Shit
SHIT" Manure... An interesting fact Manure: In the 16th and 17th centuries, everything had to be transported by ship and it was also before commercial fertilizer's invention, so large shipments of manure were common. It was shipped dry, because in dry form it weighed a lot less than when wet, but once water (at sea) hit it, it not only became heavier, but the process of fermentation began again, of which a by product is methane gas . As the stuff was stored below decks in bundles you can see what could (and did) happen. Methane began to build up below decks and the first time someone came below at night with a lantern, BOOOOM! Several ships were destroyed in this manner before it was determined just what was happening. After that, the bundles of manure were always stamped with the term 'Ship High In Transit ' on them, which meant for the sailors to stow it high enough off the lower decks so that an

Kiss Your Soul
Kiss Your Soul I saw you shriveled in your corner Feathers of your wings burnt to ashes All your bones broken and decaying Skin scared from all the slashes Your head slowly lifts eyes dried I peer deep into the dusty tears I see a heart covered in scars From the lies of life through the years Hands that were extended in deceit With their claws they dug in deep As the wolves of this world Circled you like innocent sheep I touched your shivering hand And you shrunk more in your corner As my heart breaks and mixes with yours I pray the pieces reform to one with her As the time passes and I sit with you You become accustom to my presence As your world of pain settles down The darkness becomes less intense As I tend to every scrape and wound Mending our heart making it whole As we create our own touch And I Gently Kiss Your Soul

"the Vines."
“The Vines.” I bought the little cottage, early in the fall It felt so quaint and cozy, and on it’s outer wall Were tangled veins of ivy vines, clinging to the stone They added quite a charming look, to my historic home Once settled in, I took a drive to the neighborhood nursery And I bought myself some flowers, some red and white beauties Now back at home I planted them, all perfect in a row Beneath the vines of ivy, hanging thick and low But barely one week later, I saw a sight which made me gasp My helpless little flowers were clutched within the grasp Of those cruel vines, those tentacles, those jealous arms of green It was the saddest sight that I had ever seen. And so it went, for weeks on end, no matter what I tried Every thing I planted there it suffered and it died So a thought it grew, and then I knew, I had made up my mind I’d had enough, and I resolved to wage war upon the vines. First I tried to prune them, to try and thin them out But day by d

Why People Have To Feel The Need To Report A Pic
Some clown comes into my photos today after this pic has been in my folder for almost a month now and the bouncers never marked it as NSFW but some wanker decides "oh lets have a report day on pics" and what do ya know BINGO the bouncers are up me ass and therefore send me the lovely message One of your photos has been marked as NSFW (Not Safe For Work). Please make sure ALL your NSFW photos are flagged as NSFW and placed in an NSFW album. Your photo was marked NSFW because it was either offensive or NSFW in nature. Also, your primary photo and all your background photos may not be NSFW photos. NSFW CONTENT IS NOT ALLOWED in the public areas of fubar. You can define a new primary photo and background photos by clicking on images link. Continued violation of 'fubar' policy, will result in your account being deleted without warning. Click here for reported image. WTF is up with some ppl are ya jealous of the person or the persons pic at the time ya viewed and reported? get a go

Favorite Movies
List was compiled rather quickly and in Notepad, pardon spelling errors, I'll edit later. 1. Action - Braveheart, V for Vendetta is a CLOSE second (Also, any of the James Bond movies, Leathal Weapon, Die Hard, Transporter movies) 2. Adventure - The Three Musketeers (Also, any Indiana Jones, Robin Hood, Zorro, Pirates of the Carribean) 3. Comedy - Brain Donors (This one is inspired by great childhood memories, mostly. Also, there are way too many clasics, Blazing Saddles, Young Frakenstein, Caddy Shack, Airplane, Naked Gun) 4. Crime and Gangster - The Gangs of New York (Also, Lord of War, The Bone Collector, Get Carter, Pulp Fiction (Samuel Jackson's classic speech in the diner)) 5. Dramas - To Kill a Mockingbird (Also, Schindler's List, Forrest Gump, Apollo 13, Guess Who's Coming to Dinner) 6. Epics/Historical - Gone With the Wind (Also, The Bridge on the River Kwai, Dune, Star Wars, Lord of the Rings) 7. Horror - Identity (Also, Gremlins, Jaws, The Omen, Exorcist) 8. Musica

Reminded
As we lay there quiet I was reminded of all the reasons why I lust you Your smile, and the way it teased at me seductively Your laugh, and the way it tempted me Your eyes, and the way they seem to hypnotize me As we sat there silent I was reminded of all the reasons why I love you Your smile, and the way it brings such life into me Your laugh, and the way it makes everything okay Your eyes, and the way they seem to read my thoughts As we stand here now I am reminded of all the reasons why I hate you Your smile, and the way it confuses me Your laugh, and the way it seems to mock me Your eyes, and the way they can look into mine and not feel a thing

Yeeeeeeeeeeeeeehaw!
This is Stina! She was internet challenged for a while, but no worries because I fixed her computer issues (told you i'm a nerd lol) Anyway............. go say hiiiiiiiiiiii!!!!!!!!!!!!! Stina@ fubar

Staying Sane!
These Images Racing Around My head, Speak volumes & Libraries, Off mass confusion & Pain, Is sunday Monday or Monday Sunday. If I knew I'd care, Let me fu sleep some, Get out of my fuzzy head, Pick up my wings & fly to the sun. Its Sunday,Sunday, Watching planes, Fly around my head, Trains on steel tracks rolling, The barn alight burning oil. Digs up Royal soil, Let's the cauldrons boil, While everybodys sleeping sound, I'm going somewhat crazy. Let Hanging high & dry, Please dont sigh or cry, Let the wheels Roll, Let them roll. High & Dry, Slow & fast, The cogs never stopped ticking, The axle's pumped full of gas. The suspensions bouncy, I'm feeling the rev's of a mighty machine, Humming with pride & Beauty, The sunlight bouncing ray's o warmth!

Snowflake
Snow Flake I was born to the winter chill and the northern rain, White crystal beauty made with no fear of pain. My spirit sparkles like none ever seen As I dance across the vast serene. I drift down below now and then, To give icy kisses again and again. Though my life will not be long lived, I relish the moments of joy that I give. As children play and giggle with delight, When they come outside and see me insight. Soon the seasons will begin to change, As warm southern breezes drift across the range. I dread the day my life will melt fast away, If only forever in the sky I could stay. As the river swiftly moves around the bend. It will carry me sweetly to the waters end. But before I am no more- forever missing, My last icy kiss I will quickly be giving. Tonya Rea Cook Copyright ©2008 Tonya R Cook

What It Was Like On The Street?
I had an unfortunate assurance when I caused my own downfall by opening my mouth too wide and putting my whole foot and leg in it. I regret that I didn't utilize the self control I have preached to others. I look at my loss of my temper or let my temper get the better of me it still equates to the same thing, I should have found some way to refrain my comments with such a blunt way. I do not consider myself one who is in control all the time butt I try to give people some idea of what I would do. Well, my experience started that regretful night at about 6 pm an awful time to put someone out, it was not surprising but still it wasn't enjoyable to say the least.(not like anyone plans to do these things) I had to ask my mother who was at the time renting a room with someone related to the family of her grandson and strangely enough related also to my ex-girlfriend which I forgot to mention who was the one who kicked me out. She will not like that I am writing this but it is not to cause

My Bcs Rant
You can't be serious. Well, of course they're serious. I told everyone three days ago the BCS would pick OU for the 2nd place ranking. There are certain teams that have enough clout to get their way, and OU is one of those teams. Separate all of the bullshit from the ranking and one fact remains. It's a three-way tie. If they take Tech out of the equation (btw, 7th place is a slap in the face), you have two teams left. One of those teams beat the other one in head-to-head competition. That's it. The buck stops there. Texas beat OU. Period. What do you mean OU gets the nod??? Because they beat the shit out of OK State this weekend, and we pulled out our first string to have some pity on A&M?? You're telling me the coaches are so biased that they fail to see the black and white truth in favor of their mood at the end of the season? God I hope UT pitches the bitch fit to end all bitch fits. If you can't trust your coaches to make an unbiased decision, then go to a pl

Yeah....who I Am
I ama 26 year old single guy. I get horny *shrugs, do i acknowledge this fact, fuck ya. Just b/c i like sex and anything that goes along with it pretty much. Im anice guy. Ill be whose ever friend. If i flirt a bit too mcuh, just say, chill. man, i am who am i. Ill treat you right and if i dont, let me know and ill fix it if i can. Im not gonna change who i am to fit someones expectations or w/e. Take me at face value and ill take you at face value. Im here to meet friends and w/e that comes along my way. But on another note, im a music major trying to get done, and i work as a meat cutter/clerk. I love singing, i love sports and i loves gmaing of any type really. board games, computer, w/e. If you wanna know more about me ask! any question you want. dont be shy to ask 8)

Unforgotten Words
A thousand lights, A brilliant hue, A few words, That only begin to describe you, And words I haven't got, Because you've stolen them, From my heart, They're yours to keep, For words cannot describe you, And dreams are there to stay, As I look into your eyes, I see something, Or feel this world has never known, And remember the memories, That never did once die, I turn again, Searching for those eyes, That hold the words, I search for those eyes, And they're right there, Looking and searching for me.

Your Tsr Is Not Your Enemy And Other Such Nonsence..
TSR = Technical Support Representative for those of you on the other end of the phone.This is what I do,I love my job but customers are customers. From here on out this will be my weekly ramblings and rants of such customers. I am technical support for a company for a very large well known provider that offers a "bundled package" Tv,Internet,and Phone (voip*) My job entails offering support to those of you who may have difficulty in connecting to the internet or problems with their digital cable/dvr. I do not offer technical support for the phone portion as we have "highly trained" monkeys for this in another place. In this blog or rant space I will talk mainly about YOU our customers,co workers and of course other such shenanigans. If I offend you and you feel the need to lash out please do so,it just lets the rest of us know that you have called in at some point to tech support and have shown the same qualities as our own members. There will be no real names used to protect those i

New Lounge
Come one come all to the newest lounge Gateway between Heaven and Hell cool music talk about anything...just no drama!...make new friends..maybe even more:P and listen to good music that the djs are playing no bouncers just me and some staff...no so called silly promoters...or greeters everyone greets you as they please!!! come enjoy a relaxed atmosphere where even the most unlike could possibly be liked....SEE YOU THERE

You Can Help Make A Difference!
http://folding.stanford.edu/ Our goal: to understand protein folding, misfolding, and related diseases. What is protein folding and how is folding linked to disease? Proteins are biology's workhorses -- its "nanomachines." Before proteins can carry out these important functions, they assemble themselves, or "fold." The process of protein folding, while critical and fundamental to virtually all of biology, in many ways remains a mystery. Moreover, when proteins do not fold correctly (i.e. "misfold"), there can be serious consequences, including many well known diseases, such as Alzheimer's, Mad Cow (BSE), CJD, ALS, Huntington's, Parkinson's disease, and many Cancers and cancer-related syndromes. You can help by simply running a piece of software. Folding@home is a distributed computing project -- people from throughout the world download and run software to band together to make one of the largest supercomputers in the world. Every computer takes the project closer to our

Now Open
"> All I Want For Christmas Is You - Mariah Carey ALL I WANT FOR CHRISTMAS AUCTION NOW OPEN..! AUCTION WILL RUN THROUGH DECEMBER 18TH ,2008 AND WILL CLOSE AT MIDNIGHT EST ™JÁÐÊ™~*ØWÑÊR & DJ @§WÊÊTWÁTÊR§ LOUNGE*~@ fubar

The Great Fubar Social Experiment
Obviously, a large portion of many persons' time on FUBAR is spent trying to make it to another level. Of course there's nothing wrong with that...I mean, if you like seeing 'r/f/a' on every profile you run into, or if 'ez rates' and 'auto 11's on' gives you a tingle. All in all, though, I've never given too much thought to it all. The part I don't understand is the people buying gift blasts or happy hours or bling for those at the oracle, disciple, or even prophet level! I'm trying to understand why someone would spend real money on a person who has obviously reached the uppermost levels on this site. Shouldn't it be the other way around? Shouldn't those who breathe the rarefied air at the top of the levels basically advertise for the people they like? I mean, it's not like a person who's at oracle or disciple status is going to rush out and have a date with 'random user who buys a blast'! I think it may be that people will brown-nose no matter where they're at. Online, r

Put A Little Umph In It
[Chorus] I love it when you grind on me When you put it right on me All the faces that you make All the sounds you create When you put a little When you put a little bit of humph in it That's when I lose control When you put a little humph in it Start squeezin' and you won't let go When you put a little humph in it Keep tellin' me how much you love me When you put a little humph in it When you put a little bit of humph in it, ooh [Brandon] She's so scandalous But I love eveything she do the best (yeah, yeah) Ain't no competition, so down wit it And so submissive I'm in all, all of you, you're my mission Got my mind in a trance and my body sure to follow Ooo, keep doin' that thing you do Go head and ride [Chorus] I love it when you grind on me When you put it right on me All the faces that you make All the sounds you create When you put a little When you put a little bit of humph in it That's when I lose control When you

New Auction Site
FOR STARTERS LET ME JUST SAY SCREW EBAY !! HEH Now seriously i have found quite a few other auction sites on the web with ALOT better prices than "FEE BAY" like http://us.nine.ebid.net and http://auctions.webstore.com/index.php these sites are absolutely free to buy and sell so that means the prices you pay for stuff is not as high as ebay since these sellers do not have to cover all those outrageous fees ebay charges the sellers. so stop in these sites look around there is A LOT of great deals for shoppers and great opportunity for sellers.

Update On Dad
The tests showed he did not have a heart attack yesterday. That is the good news. Tomorrow he will have a heart cath to check for blockage. Something caused the pain and the sudden high blood pressure. Hopefully tomorrow we will know the answer. I spent most of the day sitting in his hospital room. I just couldn't leave. I know he will be fine. I know I can stop being so worried. But I still get chocked up when I talk about it.. and when I hugged him and left I did again. TY for the prayers.

Last Minute
Im lying here on my bed starring at the white ceiling, feeling my blood run down my cold hands Feeling my warn body go cold The pain that was once so scrucinating now so numbly gone Waiting for my angel that i will never meet Remembering the love i had for the special someone, The one i love so much Im sorry i had to leave I will be back with you again, Some day in heaven or in hell I slowly start to loose the strength to hold on, I take a glace around to remeber where i lay dying and i see you standing there, You drop to your knees knowing im goin soon i use my last breath to say I LOVE YOU !! I slowly shut my eyes and let my last my last breath go.

Alone
I often wish i was alone thinking of a place to go bu not realy being there, Impossible you think but i know its possible. In my mind i can make it happen but i dont know if i realy want to be alone. I often dream im alone by a river side feeling my blood run warm down my hands into the water feeling my self-destruction, feeling my body going cold. All alone by the river side i feel im not alone death is near. I start to fall, falling in to the water, i see my self fall, i stand there my body float and my blood starts to slowly turn the water red. My body starts to sink to the bottom of the river,im in my place but not realy there, im all alone in death's world. I'm dead but my soul still lives, see im right here. you can feel me but you can see me, days go by i wish i wasnt alone not in deaths world but in reality. i could be sitting in a dark corner all alone. They found my body in the river, i never been to a funeral before,but being at your own is something different. I watch

Praying For Sleep By Jeffery Deaver
Plot Summary: This engrossing thriller depicts the hunt for a 300-pound schizophrenic murderer who escaped from a New England asylum seeking revenenge. My Comments: I had a hard time getting through this book. There were a lot of slow parts, but then something would happen that would draw you back in. Towards the end it got really good and had a great closing. Rating: 6/10

Elderly Abuse
I never understood elderly abuse, how someone could want to hurt an old person; however recent events in my life have brought me to an understanding of how someone could at least want to do it. I recently started taking care of my 90 year old Great Great Aunt (my Great Grandmothers sister). She is 90, over weight, diabetic & most days a whiny, emo, caculated and cruel old bitch. She has a 70 percent hearing loss and the onset of severe memory loss - she doesn't eat , has a biting dog and refuses her medication (she claims it is poison). Her behavior is none less then reflection of my two year olds' temper tantrums. She acts completely helpless when it is convenient for her and she She lies or creates fantasies in her own mind.. I hear her talking on the phone saying that I poison her and don't feed her. I just want to scream. I buy 300$ worth of groceries and put them in the house only to hear her complain because there is not enough chocolate milk in the house and that's all she w

Tattoos
Now let me just say first that I like tattoos if they are done well and don't just look like a blob of ink. That having been said, what's with all the ugly boob tattoos on this site? A big black tattoo on top of your boob that looks like it was done by a nearsighted drunk with shaky hands is not hot ladies. So please give it a little thought before you choose to get inked. When you're 80 you'll thank me. :)

The Tenth Commandment Arcs Multiple Sociopathies
"Thou shalt not covet thy neighbour’s house, thou shalt not covet thy neighbour’s wife, nor his manservant, nor his maidservant, nor his ox, nor his ass, nor any thing that is thy neighbour’s." The tenth commandment expressed in Exodus 20:17 certainly doesn’t prohibit us from sincerely desiring what or who we see that another person has. But like we ourselves must, it sets a limit on what we can do to obtain our desires. The proverb "the grass is greener on the other side of the fence" is only true when you’re looking over the fence. So often we can be like children in that we can be so me-centered. Even though Jesus says in Matthew 18:3 that we cannot enter the kingdom of heaven without becoming AS children, He is not referring to our behavior. We see too many adults becoming LIKE children; they don’t know what it means to share or sacrifice for anyone’s good but their own. That’s why we need the law – the set of rules to live by – but keeping the law is not an entry permit into G

Needs Some Fu-buck Help...can Ya?
Hey how are ya fu-friends? Hopefully if you are reading this..we have had a chat at some point and at least introduced ourselves..lol. I'd like to give a serious try for the SPOTLIGHT tomorrow and make Godfather before X-mas. I am about 1.9 Million points away. I am not asking for specific amount of fubucks, just whatever amount you can spare would be a big help. Thanks to all who read this even if you're in the fu-poorhouse. Hope everyone has a great Christmas and New Year.. Neil

Saying Good-bye For Awhile
Im going to be leaving fubar for awhile not sure if I will be back or not. This site has caused me trouble once and I left. Well since then I have made a new account and again Im getting myself in trouble. So until I can get my prioities in order I am leaving.... thanks to all my REAL friends

Shadow Of Reality"
In darkness, he searched for her, and didn’t find her….. In silence, in one corner she sits again, empty mind, but Her soul is wandering somewhere”. ……….”she noticed the shadow of a man getting closer to her, He cleared his throat” she was not shaken”, agitated as she feels him touched her hair, Softly, tenderly, her body trembled, but for these past few years, she has learned to conceal her feelings” she wanted to push him away, but rather she embraced him” She closed her eyes, but she feel nothing but emptiness”, but in her thought, she knows she has no right to break him”. …………..he held her close, and uttered words that killed her almost thousand times”.. “ I know , I never tell you how beautiful you are”, but YOU ARE’, and you are mine. I have never loved anyone as much as I loved you”.. she smiled sweetly”, but no words came out of her mouth” for she feels nothing”. He continued” I see you with me, I see you every moment, I see you move, I see you work, I hear you ta

One Word
You Can Only Type ONE Word. Not as easy as you might think. Now copy and paste into your blog and tag 5 ppl to do the same. Leave a comment to let us know you have done it, AND LEAVE THEM A COMMENT TO LET THEM KNOW THEY HAVE BEEN TAGGED. It's really hard to only use one-word answers! 1. Where is your cell phone? my desk 2. Your significant other? none 3. Your hair? black 4. Your mother? work 5. Your father? RIP 6. Your favorite thing? sex 7. Your dream last night? lotto 8. Your favorite drink? alcohol 9. Your dream/goal? Stable 10. The room you're in? office 11. Music? variety 12. Where do you want to be in 6 years? Africa 14. Where were you last night? sleep 15. What you're not? drunk 16. Muffins? nah 17. One of your wish list items? money 18. Where you grew up? projects 19. The last thing you did? this 20. What are you wearing? slacks 21. TV? drama 22. Your pets? snake 23. Your computer? love 24. Your life? good 25. Your mood? whateva 26. Miss

Funny Little Happenings
I've worked with/in the computer industry for about ten years now (though it seems I'm spending more of my time blogging about crap than working lately). Most of those years were in helpdesk support, in pretty large places with a lot of users. The funny thing is I used to always get phone calls from people who say they are trying to do this or that, but it won't work. I'm a very hands on type of person, so I would normally go to that person's office, sit down, and do exactly what they were doing, and have it work. And normally I get "I just tried that!" And I don't doubt that they did, in fact, I'm pretty sure I did the same exact thing that they did. My normal response is that I'm magic, it happens all the time. And it really does, one out of three service calls I went on were fixed just by me showing up. I've even had the person's stuff start working when I walk in the room, I don't even have to touch the computer. I have no clue what causes it, and I'm pretty sure it's happened to a

Greed
I find it absurd on how many women on Fubar are disgracing the womens rights movement. What I mean by that is that almost all the women on this site are asking for "Bling packs", or "Blasts", or "auto-11's" all in exchange for either NSFW pictures, or a promise of a shout out on the item that those men purchase for them. To me, I see Fubar as little more than a booster of self-confident for those who have little to no confidence, and I think that's fantastic. It's good to be around people that make you feel good about yourself, but to do so at the sake of showing your cleavage in every picture. I get bored seeing pictures of the tops of girls heads just so that we can see their cleavage. I tend to find myself looking at humorous pictures, or artsy pictures more so than your boobs. Now don't get me wrong, boobs are great and I wish I had a pair of my own, but have some damn respect for yourself!!! Keep your damn clothes on, and if you want to get naked and let someone pay for you to

Break?
Been debating on if I should just disappear for a while...take a break from a lot of things. Just personal stuff I Guess.... I know I'll only pop online to do my administer stuff and crap I gotta do on some site....so I won't ignore that... Until then....I may not be around.. We'll see... I'll check messages here and all.... But yea.... I"M OUT...

Caresses Of The Nite
The feel of your lips, a caress and light touch. A feeling within, I've held onto too much. Just a thought, a whisper, a tease Makes me smile and beg "Take me please." You smirk as your eyes stare deep into mine, And your fingers tickle all down a line Straight to the center, to where pleasure lies. "Please, take me now," I beg with hands tied. Your a tease as you tickle You please as you go You grab a firm hold, as I moan, from below. Another caress sends chills down my spine Making me squirm, seemingly moaning in time. A nibble, a bite, a grasp and pinch I moan, you think "Well, this is a cinch." My voice looses itself as you tickle and tease. My mind draws a blank and I grow weak in the knees. You draw yourself over me I'm not able to touch. I can't help but think, "This is too much." I draw my head up, trying to kiss your sweet lips But you pull away not allowing this kiss. You whisper, I moan you lick as I groan. "Now, don't stop n

Let The Rain Kiss
To those who lack the strengh to bring the day to a close, Let the rain cry for them So they dont have to weep for themselves. For those who feel pain In the hollow shafts of their hearts, Let the rain remind the of its sympathy And how it once saved them from loneliness, With its ever present rythm On their smoky window panes As they sat, alone, in the darkness. For those who have lost someone, who trudged on, gray and wrinkled, with remorse, Let the rain touch their shoulder And give its gentle hand to hold. For those who have passed, Who sleep deep within the earth, Let the rain cleanse their darkened faces. For those ailed with sickness, Who wish pain no more, Let the rain heal their wounds, Let it breathe life into their souls And bring them happiness again. For those who are young, But feel a lack of love, Let the rain wrap them in its arms And rock them to sleep. And for those who have lost love, Let them feel the rain's kiss So t

Left
Darkest clouds have gathered in the skies Drops like needles pierce translucent skin, I can feel them filling up my eyes- Ugly storm is brewing from within In a clearing I'm standing all alone There is not a living soul around; Without you I'm just a lonely drone I am stranded here, I am homebound You have left, not knowing that I stayed Leaving, couldn't hear my voiceless plea; Many times I hoped and prayed That someday you would come back after me Rain is getting harder to withstand Weakened mind and body feels no pain. Covered up in muddy grass and sand, I will soon be with you once again

Meeeeeeeeee
Hiya this about me me me and a little more about me ;) the craziest sexiest DJ on FUBAR lol no serious Im a DJ for sixth sense the coolest lounge on fubar, im 40 and from the UK i suffer with BI-Polar and get loads of help and support from my friends on Fubar hope i can add you to that list :)

Omfh
yeah.. that's right. OMFH I'm hyper as fuck. and I'm listening to music with the one and only manda.rd I'm also dancing like an ultranerd.. in my boxers 'cause that's how I roll! I hate that saying. MOTHERFUCKIN' HATE IT LOUD NOISES!!! but I just used it 'cause I suck.. 2x yeah.. two times.. not twice. I have issues and I'm soon to be a subscriber thanks to the homoface I love beer. =]

"the Demon Clock Of Nuremberg"
“The Demon Clock of Nuremberg” There are many dark things both here and below Some hide in the shadows, where we seldom go And one of the blackest, of which I’d ever heard Was the Devil’s clock from Nuremberg It was a superstitious German town And in the 1500’s the rumors did abound Fearful tales of witches who gathered there Who mounted their brooms and flew through the air In time these fables grew and grew And the town officials knew what they had to do They vowed to make war upon the witches To kill and destroy those wicked bitches So all suspected of casting dark spells Were arrested and taken to a true living Hell To the deep dark dungeons in a state of undress And put to the torture to make them confess And once they admitted, it sealed their fate The torture was over but now came the stake Hundreds of women, old, young, and fair Were roasted alive while their screams filled the air That all sets the stage, these things I have said For a clockma

You Complete Me
I've seen life in so many ways from blue grey nights to hazy days and as I travel this road I'm on its only unbearable when you are gone. Because You Complete Me. I've been around the block a time or two and its only worth living when i share it with you. Oh I know i have my daughter that much is true. But its such a great blessing to share her with you. Because You Complete me. You have given me oh so much the warmth of your smile, your soft gentle touch, a kick in the ass when i worry to much your kind hearted ways and slow moving hand they give me so much when I'm not able to stand. You Complete Me. You make me see reason when all seems so lost you lend me your strength no matter the cost. Because You Complete Me. When life is unfair and I've given up hope You tell me you Love me an help me to cope. The strength I have it all came from you your guidance and pounding just to get through I was lost when you found me that much is true and lost I'd still be if I gave up on you.

Name Calling
Well see this guy named duff keeps callin me names that shouldn't be said and i think it's bullshit that he don't get in trouble for the shit....he had no right to call me a ho and fat emo ugly ho or a stupid cunt...wtf did i do....i don't deserve that treatment!

Tickling Defined
Tickling as a fetish is perhaps one of the most common human behaviors known, in that studies indicate nearly 85 percent of adults in some way or another enjoy tickling others, being tickled themselves, or watching others be tickled. Apart from these general attitudes from tickling, forced laughter by tickling can also be found in the sexual fetish world of BDSM. Those who gain sexual pleasure from tickling and/or being tickled are known to have a tickling fetish. Those who seek tickling out, and who gain pleasurable excitement from tickling and/or being tickled are known to have a "Tickling Fixation". Tickle fetishes involving "erotic tickling" (frequent breaks, safewords, sensual movements), using fingers to tickle areas such as the ribs or feet, using the tongue to lick the face, soles of the feet and toes or items such as feathers and brushes to produce tickling sensations as part of erotic foreplay. There is even a form of online tickling through a messaging client known as

"but The Heart Knew..."
“But the Heart Knew…” I wasn’t looking, I wasn’t searching Not seeking someone, or so I said… I was a blind man, lost in darkness No ray of light, I could not see But the heart knew, and it whispered Then it demanded, louder still And when the heart spoke, I had to listen It knew of you, it knew of you… I wasn’t starving, I wasn’t hungry Not needing food, to fill my soul Without a craving, without a longing Long denied, lost to time But the heart knew, and it whispered Then it demanded, louder still And when the heart spoke, I had to listen It knew of you, it knew of you… I wasn’t drifting, I wasn’t floating Lost at sea, without a map I wasn’t dreaming, of my New World A place to live, a place to grow But the heart knew, and it whispered Then it demanded, louder still And when the heart spoke, I had to listen It knew of you, it knew of you… I wasn’t hurting, I wasn’t empty All alone, in the night I wasn’t injured, seeking healing Not needing he

Addicted To Dee
Dancing with you skin to skin, kissing and touching While the stars and moon shine down upon us two The music playing softly as you hold me tight Nothing in this world matters, just me and you My heart begins to pound faster, as our body touch each other Emotions takes over control, and arouse me, from my head to toe It drives me wild and makes me wiggle, You are the easiest and more certified way to do Your passionate communication, even lusty dialog An erotic anticipation that simply keeps me craving For more The steam, the excitement, the sheer animal passion, We couldn't help from tearing each other clothes off In the heat of passion Just the thought of you drives me crazy Your mighty torso and your beautiful eyes The way you always hold me tight, my baby Making love to you is a never ending surprise My nervous system is on fire Triggering powerful physiological changes My hormones levels soar, boosting my heart rate and increase my physical senility My emotio

Brad Paisley-whiskey Lullaby
she put him out like the burning end of a midnight cigarette.she broke his heart.he spent his whole life trying to forget we watched him drink his pain away a little at a time but he never could get drunk enough to get her off his mind until the night.he put that bottle to his head and pulled the trigger and finally drank away her memory.life is short but this time it was bigger then the strength he had to get up off his knees.we found him with his face down in the pillow with a note that said i'll love her till i die.and when we buried him beneath the willow the angels sang a whiskey lullaby la la la la la la la.la la la la la la la.the rumors flew.but nobody knew how much she blamed herself.for years and years she tried to hide the whiskey on her breath.she finally drank her pain away a little at a time but she never could get drunk enough to him off her mind until the night.she put that bottle to her head and pulled the trigger,and finally drank away his memory.life is short but thi

Dark Wing Angel
A guilty look from above Staring down at me Wishing that i never was Something that should not be..... How did this ever come to be? Never was i in the plan A mistake was made Cast from above, rejected from below Never am i home Let the eons flow Time is a curse to me Just let me be Dark Wing Angel..... Dark. Wing. Angel... I live now amongst the fortunate ones Melting into the face of humanity One lifetime is how I live Born again in ignorance I try So hard To be at peace It shall not be Remembrace is all i have Let it come unto me DARK WING ANGEL (laughter) Dont you see? I am here Tread softly were i walk Lest you are caught in the vortex Light and darkness swirl together In the Dark Wing Angel..... A cold heart beats Next to the darkness of the soul Seen within the devils eyes Of the Dark Wing Angel... Light shines from within this angels eyes Illuminates the goodness around us all Shows the path to heaven....... And Hell! Com

The Single Mom
The Single Mom On the coldest day July's ever felt Sits a mother With a heart to unmelt Children in the garden running through rows Making the best of their childhood woes While mother does tend their heart as she should Sitting alone in the fields near the wood Lost in her thoughts as the children do play Much Longing for warmth on this sumner's day A northern blows fury inside her skin Felt by none other than her from within She looks towards the youngsters who chatter near by Drags out a smile with sparkling eye Gives them a glance with a cheerful facade Laughs at them gaily and gives a pleased nod As they tumble 'cross ground like a rough jagged wheel dirt stuck on their faces and summer to kill Such innocence found in their hearts every day The ones she adores in every true way She pulls up some onion for a meal to prepare Trods to the cottage with no time to spare Clutters the counter with colanders and chives Pulls

Ministry - Psalm 69
congregation, please be seated and open your prayer guides to the book of revelations, psalm 69 drinking the blood of jesus drinking it right from his veins learning to swim in the ocean learning to drown in his pain the body of christ looked unto me a preacher with cock in his hands he wants you to suck on the holy ghost and swallow the sins of man psalm 69 the invisible piss of the holy ghost comes down like acid rain they're making a bonnet of terminal guilt the scavengers go on parade the fathers who write that eternity is used to fight the sword have filled you up with the devil's cock and he'll come in the name of the lord the way to succeed and the way to suck eggs

Guy's Side Of The Story!
The Man Rules At last a guy has taken the time to write this all down Finally , the guys' side of the story. We always hear " the rules" From the female side. Now here are the rules from the male side. These are our rules! Please note.. these are all numbered "1 " ON PURPOSE! 1. Men are NOT mind readers. 1. Learn to work the toilet seat. You're a big girl. If it's up, put it down. We need it up, you need it down. You don't hear us complaining about you leaving it down. 1. Sunday sports It's like the full moon or the changing of the tides. Let it be. 1. Crying is blackmail. 1. Ask for what you want. Let us be clear on this one: Subtle hints do not work! Strong hints do not work! Obvious hints do not work! Just say it! 1. Yes and No are perfectly acceptable answers to almost every question. 1. Come to us with a problem only if you want help solving it. That's what we do. Sympathy is what your girlfriends are for. 1. Anything we said 6

Introduction
At one time, when I was much younger, I thought I wanted to be a professional writer, a novelist. I wrote a few short stories, and have several novel ideas still wringing around in my head. Dialog is always my problem, so when I take long drives I often find myself "acting" out what the characters would say. I am pretty sure I've gotten so crazy looks from other drivers as they see me talking to myself. Anyway, I ran across a couple of my shorts from *years* ago, and I figured I'd share them. And maybe the first couple of chapters to the novel I've been working on, on and off, for the last five or so years. Enjoy!

Vote Me Miss Winter Fubar & Place A Bid Too.
I Think I could be Miss Winter Fubar... If You vote me to Be... Music Playlist at MixPod.com I'm up for Auction So Come Have fun Bid on me.. You know I'm worth it.. Oh Yeah and don't forget to leave a comment voting me Miss Winter Fubar.. and Rate the Pic as well. You know you want to... CLICK PICTURE BELOW TO START HAVING FUN! Come on have some fun and come vote for me. Auction

Habits
This one will be quick, seeing as I'm still wet and in a towel from the shower. It's funny the habits we develop. I dated a girl in high school and a bit in college (we dated for five years), and I spent a lot of time around her at her parent's house. They would leave, and being the extremly vicarious youths we were (boy do I have stories) we'd get pretty freaky around the house. Any sex that is good sex requires a shower afterwards, so we'd shower, play around a little bit more, and then get dressed. I'll never forget, though, the first time we showered and I stepped out and grabbed the towel and she flipped. Every single one of them dryed off in the shower so the shower mat wouldn't get wet. And I got the mat wet, so they would know I was showering there. So, I had to develop the habit of drying off in the shower when I was there. I just realized that habit stuck (makes sense, I was there a lot). I wonder what other things I do without thinking just because of some random little h

What Type Of Writer Should You Be?
You Should Be a Film Writer You don't just create compelling stories, you see them as clearly as a movie in your mind. You have a knack for details and dialogue. You can really make a character come to life. Chances are, you enjoy creating all types of stories. The joy is in the storytelling. And nothing would please you more than millions of people seeing your story on the big screen! What Type of Writer Should You Be?

Auld Lang Syne
Auld Lang Syne Should auld acquaintance be forgot, And never brought to mind Should auld acquaintance be forgot, And auld lang syne And surely ye 'll be your pint' stowp And surely I 'll be mine And we 'll take a cup o' kindness yet For auld lang syne We twa hae run about the braes And pou'd the gowans fine But we 've wander'd monie a weary fit Sin' auld lang syne. We twa hae paidl'd in the burn Frae morning sun till dine But seas between us braid hae roar'd Sin' auld lang syne And there's a hand, my trusty fiere And gie 's a hand o' thine And we 'll tak a right guid-willie waught For auld lang syne [CHORUS] For auld lang syne, my dear For auld lang syne We'll tak a cup o' kindess yet For auld lang syne (And now for the English translation:) Times Long Gone Should old acquaintance be forgot, And never brought to mind Should old acquaintance be forgot, And days of long ago [CHORUS:] For old long ago, my dear For old long ago, We w

My Feelings
Written at 1:38 am on December 30, 2008 Why does it have to be this way... Like there are walls all around me No one can break through them My pain, no one can see I built these walls A long time ago Never to let hurt in Why are the walls there? So many people ask.... I really don't know I blame it on my past But is that true The real reason why I may never get an answer Until the day I die Will I die ALONE? It seems to be that way I'll never find happiness Sadness every day Some days I seem happy Or is it a false facade Put on a happy face for all to see Make it look not odd I have been to counseling, tried to talk about my feelings Never know where to start Not a thought that brings So I start back at square one With no answers at all I live a hopeless, helpless life Deeper, more depressed I fall Where will I find the answers, When will I live to be happy These are some of the questions That are asked of me The answers are

Insecurity
It seems to me that much of human behavior is driven by insecurity and fear. I wonder if people started feeling good about themselves if they would be more prone to treating others with respect? There is a book called The Four Agreements, and the first agreement is to use your word "impeccably". This simply means not to use words for destructive purposes such as lying or insulting largely based on the premise that words have power unto themselves and when you send them out they have an impact beyond just that moment. I'm not sure if I believe that exactly, but I do believe that words can make the world a better place, or a worse one. It seems many times people choose the power of their words to inflict pain, and I wonder what it is they get out of it. Does it take away their own pain? I rather doubt it... so what is the gain? The only thing I can assume is that it provides a false sense of superiority, if only for a moment.

Momies Love
I have been writting to my mom since 2005. The year she died you gotta share though when it gets tough. So I am venting here. I don't know how much of you believe in the supernatural. I do know. I was cleaning the house one day, crying contemplating my marriage. When i saw out the corner of my eye a person at the top of my stairs. I looked up it was my mom. What do you think that means. I meen i was bawling around thinking of my marraige and there she appears. A woman who wouldnt leave a man if they killed her. Which i think her bastard husband did. but I have dreamed that one day that i would get to know here. I was in and out of foster care. I lived with my dad from the ages 5-12, not a picnis i tell ya. My step mom hates me she kicked me out after some crazy shit went down. My mom was proud of me though, I was the first from her side of the family to graduate, the 2nd to join the military. by choice. I miss her. If you read this feel free to geve me advise on how to coop i still don

Year In Review
Everytime I come to LJ I'm constantly reminding myself that I really need to sit down and hatch out my "Year in Review" like everyone else. J A N U A R Y I remember news year last year was weird, not many people showed up to my party. I ALWAYS have a party. Well... It was a shitty turn out and from there I told myself tat I wasn't throwing any parties this year. And I didn't. Incase anyone noticed. yeah we had people over constantly for BBQs and the sort...But no parties. That and we STILL CANT FIND THE DAMM REMOTE! I dont really remember much from Jan... I had been working at my current job for 6 months by then and at the time i REALLY REALLY hated it. But I figured if I just stick to it, sopmething better will eventually come along, and being as I have security there. Why leave? I should be so lucky to even have a job! I remember however making resolutions, and naturally they never come to bud... But I def. started taking more pictures and becoming more seriosu about my p

So...
I leave to see Jeff in a week and a half. I'm excited. I really miss him. I hope everything goes well. We're supposed to look for houses and shit this visit. I've already picked out a few to check out. Hopefully we can work it out. Anyways, hope you're all doing well.

I Remember
I remember ur kisses,Ur body next to mine, I remember ur eyes,And how they looked at mine, I remember how ud say u loved me, I remember how ud say u missed me. I remember everything,how it was,When ud be @ work and how I missed u sooo much. I remember the time when u were by my side, I regret the things I kept inside. I regret the things I didnt do. If id done it all so right,I know 2day, Id still be with you.....

For My Mom
It is now Two months since she has left this world to sit at the Right Hand of God. She is sadly missed by those who knew her. She is deeply loved and missed by her children and grand-children. She is no longer in any pain. May she continue to Rest in Peace...She is now our New Light in the nights sky. This world can be a lonely place, so few of us remain, Who care for their fellow man, who will cause no other pain, That give freely to those they meet, they greet them with a smile, Doing all they can each day, to make others feel worthwhile, I was one who thought, all this world could be was cruel, That in the battle of light and dark, that evil won every duel, When from the dark an angel rode, a blinding shaft of light Saying despair no longer my daughter, everything will be alright, I am here to show you now, there's caring people left, Unlike most of those you know, of good emotions bereft, Look to the east, you see it, in the darkest that new star, Beneat

One Of Those Days...
WE'VE ALL HAD THEM The day starts off stellar, you're hyped to ride and then things rapidly begin to fall apart.Maybe you're clocking footage with your crew, shooting pics, excited to do that trick you just learned. Competing in a contest or just out riding like you always do and having fun. Then like a slap in the nuts and no bitches around to give you mouth love it happens. You get a flat, some dip shit walks in front of your line, you eat shit. Your homie filming forgot to press the button, you can't stick the trick! You get the fucken point. Temperatures will boil over that crap no doubt. Well don't sweat it because sooner or later it always turns around. The next block over has a better set up, you still have a second run, you'll pull it smoother on the next try... Tomorrow is a new day and it's going to be a good one now fuck off.

Why?
i sit here looking a new year in the face,why is it alll i wish for is to hold my baby one last time?i had a beautiful woman ask me to dance tonight and all i could think of was rae's voice sayin sheloves me.i know its not healthy but why cant i get past her,was she that special or am i that lost? i wish i knew the answer.because im so tired of being alone.what i wouldnt give to be held by someone that loved me.love it's so taken for granted these days what does one do when they know the true meaning of love? i wisgh i knew tonight all i can say is i love you rae and miss you more then words cn say.what ide give to hold you tonight.......

New Year Fury
It happened as it always does the New Year came at twelve surrounded by my loved ones I am ready to explode can hardly contain the fury wrath consumes me within I quake with held in anger I struggle with my ire the need to hurt is overwhelming the desire to maim overpowering but I must stay my hand control is required desired by all so I hide put myself away from all I would hurt I seek calm peace a tranquility of mind rarely found I succeed for now all are safe from me for now next time I may not be so lucky God help me!

My Star - A Beginning
I sit out here, miles from everything, and I thank my stars for being where I am … and who I am. There’s adequate turmoil in the populated world. I’m glad it hasn’t found my little neck of the woods yet. Of course, I didn’t always live out here next to Great Spirit. A short time ago, I was part of the rat race I dislike so much. But now? Well, there’s just me, my dog, my snug cabin, and a view back to the previous century. As I sit on my willow rocker, strumming an old acoustic guitar, I wait for night to fall so I can watch my special star rise into the clean and clear sky. This particular special star became mine only a few days ago. Before that, it was just an ordinary star, one of several trillion flickering in the great darkness that surrounds my place after the sun leaves us for the day. One night, it just seemed to flicker a little brighter; kind of winked at me; and we’ve been on the same plain ever since. Why this star picked me out of all the good citizens on ea

Fu _ Own Me !!
I recently noticed I been getting Fu - owened. And I think its kinda cute and funny. SO for all who are interested get into the game. And try your best to make me yours. Thats right, FU - OWN me. Lets see the fun and games begin .

I'm Yours! That English Reggae Thing, Lol
Well you done done me and you bet I felt it I tried to be chill but you're so hot that I melted I fell right through the cracks and now I'm trying to get back Before the cool done run out I'll be giving it my best test Nothing's going to stop me but divine intervention I reckon it's again my turn to win some or learn some I won't hesitate no more, no more It cannot wait, I'm yours Well open up your mind and see like me Open up your plans and damn you're free Look into your heart and you'll find love love love Listen to the music of the moment maybe sing with me A la peaceful melody It's your God-forsaken right to be loved love loved love loved So I won't hesitate no more, no more It cannot wait I'm sure There's no need to complicate Our time is short This is our fate, I'm yours I've been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror And bending over backwards just to try to see it clearer My breath fogged up the glass And so I drew a new face

My Bday Bully From Jc & Uncle Abe
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR FAT SONNY......HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!! ~FAT SONNY~@ fubar GO SHOW THE BIG GUY SOME BIRTHDAY LOVIN!! ADD~FAN~RATE~BLING BIRTHDAY PIMPOUT BROUGHT TO YOU BY: •• . .ΜFĸŋ JÇ. . ••. . §ëЯ. . ••. .@ fubar AND

The Apple (iv)
He swore and spit the pizza out in the trash. Learning from a previous mistake, he now placed it to cool off on a plate, and started chugging from a 2 Liter bottle of Pepsi. Finally, making sure he gave it enough time, he picked up the pizza and took another bite. And another; and another. Sloppily chewing greasy melted cheese and letting the oil run down his chin, he looked at the box. There were 5 more slices left, and although he genuinely enjoyed it at the moment, there was no way that he could have finished all this food. After inhaling the slice, he reached for another one. This time he did not feel extreme anticipation before eating; on a contrary, he was quite full and could barely take another bite. Glancing at an almost full pizza box, he let out a sigh, still holding a limp slice of pizza dripping oil on the floor and, finally making a decision, he flung the leftover slice into the garbage.

Bea Spiced It Up....she Rawks!!!
Halloween Theme - Techno Remix THIS IS FOR ALL THOSE THAT KNOW AND LUV TAPPINIT AND WANNA SEE HIM COME BACK TO FU IN THE NEAR FUTURE...HE DOES THE MOST RAWKIN ANIMATIONS THIS SITE HAS SEEN...SO SHOW A LITTLE SUPPORT AND ADD YOURSELF BELOW... ♥ Xmasbaby73 ♥ Tappinit Supporter@ fubar BrightEyedArtist

The Christmas Gift....
Year after year I spend all I have for my kids... Down to the last penny with out one thought of regret. I don't expect anything and have not for the last 10 years until this year... I have a person in my life that means the world to me... I have the most wonderful kids that anyone can ask for... If you ask me if I received everything I wanted, I would probably say Yes... I did not receive much and I'm good with that... but when I received this from my daughter it brought me to tears, it filled my soul with love, and brightened up my holiday more so then i have ever imagined... Below you will see what she gave me. This is priceless and will never be forgotten...I AM SO BLESSED!

New Year Resolutions
Well a new year has begun and my birthday is fast approaching.So I have to decided to really stick to my guns with my goal of losing weight and a better control of my money spending so wish me luck on these endeavors.

Deaths Lullaby....
I walked silently between the tree's in this dream. In the distance death gleamed at me. Death pointed his hand of fate, your life this day I must take! ...so when you wake and I am gone, hold me in your heart! My soul is gone with Death's enticing song. I know its short..

Etymology
The Oxford English Dictionary dates the first appearance of the word vampire in English from 1734, in a travelogue titled Travels of Three English Gentlemen published in the Harleian Miscellany in 1745.[3][4] Vampires had already been discussed in German literature.[5] After Austria gained control of northern Serbia and Oltenia in 1718, officials noted the local practice of exhuming bodies and "killing vampires".[5] These reports, prepared between 1725 and 1732, received widespread publicity.[5] The English term was derived (possibly via French vampyre) from the German Vampir, in turn thought to be derived in the early 18th century from the Serbian вампир/vampir.[6][7][8][9][10] The Serbian form has parallels in virtually all Slavic languages: Bulgarian вампир (vampir), Czech and Slovak upír, Polish wąpierz, and (perhaps East Slavic-influenced) upiór, Russian упырь (upyr'), Bel

Emotional Nudity
Take your soft and loving hands and Remove the mantle of mistrust from my shoulders. Softly unbutton the silken gown Of regret from my skin. Come my love and remove the veil Of heartache from my face and Kiss these lips that were ordained only for you. Confiscate the jewels of deception from My arms neck and ears-discard my fears. Feel the fabric of the chemise Of my misgivings and set me free from it. Kiss my naked shoulders honeyed with newfound faith Liberated from doubt and the threat of neglect and obscurity. My darling go further south and Remove the thongs of this world's Hatred and prejudice from my hips and slide Them slowly down to the floor where they can be no more. Undress me until I am stripped bare of The world's evil and tainted essence until like The day of my birth, I emerge beautiful untouched- unpoisoned. Let this nude daughter of Eve stand Before you liberated from the negative- Pure and positive and

Happy Birthday Leathurwud
This Lovable Man Caught My Eye Last Year And I Am So Lucky That He Did. I Am So Honored To Have Shawn As A Friend. He's A remarkable man to get to know. This Man has become very dear to my heart as a friend. I wouldn't have it any other way. He's Been there for me and shown real concern towards me when my life was topsy turvey. He didn't have to but he did. THATS a Friend! We know so much about one another for two people that have never met in person. And I keep all that we share very dear to my heart. I Have Genuine Love & Respect For You Shawn Nothing will ever make me see otherwise. Your A True Friend and that is rare to come by these days. Not to mention you ARRRRRE funny LOL. Today Is His 36th Birthday & I'm Proud to Pimp His Ass Out For it! (((( whistles ))) heheehhe Go Wish Him A Very Happy Birthday...Get To Know Him on here ...Its worth it. OK OK I HAVE TO DO THIS! There damn! lol YOU got Your Flash LOL Add/Rate/Fan Him He's

Socialite
Last night was a pretty rough night. Everything started pretty good, grilled steaks with the friends, played a few board games, just a nice relaxing night. Started out with a couple of drinks, and then one of our friends bailed, so a few drinks turned into four, five, six, and then lost count. I drank about a half a bottle of rum last night, so I was feeling pretty good right about ten. So it's me and the two of my friends who are dating just kinda hanging out on the couch. Now, these two people are intelligent, but young, and haven't really seen too much of the world. I'm only a couple of years older than them, but I've seen more than my fair share of things growing up. I've always been too mature for myself and have dealt with things that people of any age shouldn't have to deal with. So we just started talking, them asking questions, me answering. Some were silly questions, have you ever done this while having sex, or that, or whatever, what was your most embarrassing moment, things

Bad November - Track 9 - Redemption
Bad November Disclaimer: This is a chapter in a story I wrote. None of the characters in this story are real and any relation to anyone dead or living is not intended. I apologize for any wrong use of United Kingdom English because I am not that familiar with United Kingdom slang. Any input would be welcome and any flaming will be ignored. This story is planned to be revised and maybe I can talk the writer to let me post them here if people like them. Please comment and let the writer and me know what you like or don't like. Also if 2 male characters being romantically involved sickens you please don't read. If you're still interested please keep reading. One last note, if anyone wishes to copy my story please get permission first (Not that I think that will happen but who knows). Lyrics from Redemption After everything we been through/ I want to forgive you/ Yet all your words to me/ Echoes with lies/ You told me you’re an angel/ Now you have fallen/ What you need baby/ Is

What Kind Of Pancakes Are You?
You Are Buckwheat Pancakes You prefer healthy, foods made with whole ingredients. You shy away from anything refined, high fat, or with too many scary ingredients. It's not likely someone would find high fructose corn syrup or trans fats in your kitchen. Instead, someone might find a huge, interesting salad or stir fry being prepared. What Kind of Pancakes Are You?

Heart Less
i should have known you would play with my heart this is how you left me heart broken my fualt for falling for you. i thought you were different it happens to be you turned out to be JUST like every other "HEARTLESS"

Letter From Heaven
LETTER FROM HEAVEN To my dearest family, some things I'd like to say. But first of all, to let you know, that I arrived okay. I'm writing this from heaven. Here I dwell with God above. Here, there's no more tears of sadness; Here is just eternal love. Please do not be unhappy just because I'm out of sight. Remember that I am with you every morning, noon and night. That day I had to leave you when my life on earth was through. God picked me up and hugged me and He said, "I welcome you. It's good to have you back again, you were missed while you were gone. As for your dearest family, They'll be here later on. There's so much that we have to do, to help our mortal man." God gave me a list of things, that he wished for me to do. And foremost on the list, was to watch and care for you. And when you lie in bed at night the day's chores put to flight. God and I are closest to you....in the middle of the night. When you think of my life on earth,

Warning: From New Study Of Beer
This is serious stuff....beer contains FEMALE HORMONES! Last month OSU scientists released the results of a recent analysis that revealed the presence of female hormones in beer. Men should take a Concerned look at their beer consumption. The theory is beer contains female hormones (hops contain phytoestrogens); therefore, by drinking enough beer, men can turn into women. To test the theory, 100 men each drank 8 pints of beer within a one hour period. It was then observed that 100% of the tests subjects: 1. Argued over nothing. 2. Refused to apologize when obliviously wrong. 3. Gained weight. 4. Talked excessively without making sense. 5. Became overly emotional. 6. Couldn't drive. 7. Failed to think rationally. 8. Had to sit down to urinate. No further testing was considered necessary

My Teaching Star
I sit out here, miles from everything, and I thank my stars for being where I am … and who I am. There’s adequate turmoil in the populated world. I’m glad it hasn’t found my little neck of the woods yet. Of course, I didn’t always live out here next to Great Spirit. A short time ago, I was part of the rat race I dislike so much. But now? Well, there’s just me, my dog, my snug cabin, and a view back to the previous century. As I sit on my willow rocker, strumming an old acoustic guitar, I wait for night to fall so I can watch my special star rise into the clean and clear sky. This particular special star became mine only a few days ago. Before that, it was just an ordinary star, one of several trillion flickering in the great darkness that surrounds my place after the sun leaves us for the day. One night, it just seemed to flicker a little brighter; kind of winked at me; and we’ve been on the same plain ever since. Why this star picked me out of all the good citizens

You're More Precious....
You're more precious.... You're more precious than a diamond ring, A shimmering light that lasts with each new swing. You're more of a leader than those that set up new trends, As destiny may sing in words that at length none defends. You're throughout the thought that never fades but remains intact, In heart and mind an interesting event like with the Devil we make a pact. But somehow beneath it all lives this lost and oblivious soul, Who resides within pain and darkness but cannot change when individuality one stole. You're something more special than words can describe, The height of adventures that cannot over ride, Once thought of as a silly game of words without meaning or feeling, It's more than just what we think of as our daily dealing. Because love is not just a simple feeling that can shake the earth, It's something that you never felt for you never once looked beyond what is was all worth. It was always that I'm not worthy of thy love, How could

The Duke Spirit-lassoo
I talk to no-one Oh, you're invisible And with this venomous tongue None of it's true And I can taste it You see, it's in the heavens Merciful forever And now I understand Could I maybe get over you And you get over me Could I maybe get over you And you get over me And more I just see you And more and more I just see you This is the first day I walk the rolling hills again Where I can make plans With pictures too Tender trouble It's almost lovable I feel the weight of the trees Beat on my chest Could I maybe get over you And you get over me Could I maybe get over you And you get over me And more I just see you And more and more I just see you Feel bad Say so Feel good Let it go Feel bad Say so Feel good Let it go And more I just see you And more I just see you ----------------------------------

Catch Me If You Can
Catch Me If You Can Would it be easier to catch a falling star or grasp the wind? What kind of bait would I use? Where would I begin? To take in my possession something wild and furious A tempest of sensuality hidden in a kiss She has captured my every thought And in her snares I am caught An inner child a lost little girl deep inside Never showing the world all the pain she hides She is passion she is fire a flood of temptation How do I capture all this unrestrained sensation? She will never be bought or sold She will show a face brave and bold She wishes to be caught yet stands in the shadow She wishes to be taken yet struggles against the flow She wishes to be touched by a passionate hand Yet she hides behind masks and built walls singing Catch Me If You Can

Not In A Good Mood
I’m so ready to just scream. If I knew it wouldn’t give me a headache and make me feel worse I would. I’m so tired of looking at MRI films & the CD of it laying on my dresser. I’m tired of hearing all the directions on how to get there. She ain’t dumb I’m sure she can get me there in one piece. I’m waiting for them to start telling me how to act tomorrow. Hello it’s my back I’m pretty dang sure after three years of dealing with it I know how to act. I’m not retarded even though some will dispute that , I know how to open my big mouth and let the sucker know he hurt me. I need a vacation I think because I feel like I’m about to blow. Makes no sense to me I didn’t ask for or make this appointment. Yet that stupid surgeon’s office can’t even pick up the phone call two places and get MRI results & films. Not no but heck no I had to gather up all that. It wasn’t my lawyer nor I who came up with this appointment, so why should I have to get anything together for it. Like the nice person that

Phase One
For two years you were my world My lover, Best friend, and everything I ever needed I gave you everything you wanted and more was there for you no matter where you were All you gave me was a lie what you needed to show to keep me stringing along I thought that losing you was the worst thing that could ever happen to me and now I realize it's the best thing for me I've learned about who I am, and excatly what I want in a man Sad part is your too young to tell that life your living is nothing but hell I wish you the best in everything that you do but I can honestly say that I am over you I loved a person that never was, a lie that was nothing but pretend and decite I don't love you now I love who I thought you were and you taught me everything I never knew. You taught me about what i deserve and I hope that you figure out that your game you play...well your gonna lose.

My Ex Sucks
i meet a man in real life (sbharleyrider) and we had a wonderful time for the first several months that we hung out. everything was very casualy no stings attached no expectations. i discovered that he had an internet problem (or whatever the fuck u wanna call it)when he got on the net while i was at his house and was looking at pics of nasty gross ladies (no offense, but some of ya all must not have mirrors in your house, or be blind or something). after we were more serious, i asked to to at least not go on Fubar while i was at his house, he did but i had to remind him several times to get the fucl off. maybe i would not have minded but i was not getting what i needed. he would tell the chics on the net how much he wanted to lick them, when i was not getting licked AT ALL, was hardly getting fucked at all. i am submissive i would have done ANYTHING that he wanted and he did nothing with this. nothing except tell chics on the net that he had a sub to make himself seem sexy, manly

R.i.p Alex Keith Gary Everyone Please Take Time To Look At This He Was My Cousin='(
Friday January 16th will be the day we finally lay Alex Keith Gary To rest.He was such a good loving young man...Alex i will always remember you...and we all will miss you with every beat of our hearts not a minute of each passing day will we ever forget you..Make sure you take care of Uncle Bruce or should i say make sure he takes care of you lol?...We love and Miss you Terribley....July 18th 1993-January 11th 2009Reading, Mich. - Alex Keith Gary, 15, of Reading, died Sunday, Jan. 11, 2008, in Fort Wayne, Ind. from injuries sustained in a snowmobile accident in Branch County. He was born July 18, 1993 in Coldwater and was a 9th grade student at Reading High School. He enjoyed hunting, fishing, football, basketball, mechanics and belonged to a muzzle loading group. Alex was kind-hearted, a hard worker, and enjoyed making people laugh. Survivors include his mother Mamie Sue (Webster) Robison of Reading, father Robert Gary of Reading, grandparents Karen (Scott) Dietrich of Reading, John

Taken From Craven, Poetic, Sherry & Mel...
If you were to introduce me to someone, what would you say? This should be fun. Pass this along and see what YOU get back. Yes I am going to be a sheep, which is not like me at all

Diet And Mother-in-law
Despite not having the best week, between preparing for MIL's visit, having a fight with hubby and cheating on my diet right after the fight, missing my walk twice due to bad weather, etc., I still managed to lose 2 more lbs. Yeah it's not much, but it's a loss, not a stall or gain. So, yay. That's 6 lbs. lost since the New Year. So, MIL is coming in from Puerto Rico tomorrow. She'll be staying with us for 2 weeks. Despite the fact that we have other relatives close by, she always stays pretty much the whole time with us. She's a good lady and I do love her, I just love her more when she lives 1,000 miles away. She's very paranoid and always panicking about the littlest things. She's always convinced that I'm doing something terribly wrong as a mother and I'll cause my children irrepairable harm. (I guess that's a universal trait in in-laws though.) Anyway, I'm sure she'll be keeping me on my toes. Hubby's not taking vacation either, so since I'm the stay-at-home mom I'll

For My Angels
here Will Always Be A Place Down Deep Inside My Heart, A Special Place Where Only You Will Occupy That Part. I Will Always Remember All The Beauty And The Grace, Your Smile As Bright As Sunshine And Your Beautiful Angelic Face. The Way Your Body Felt As I Held You Close To Me, In My Heart And In My Soul Is Where You'll Always Be. God Gave Me An Angel To Call My Very Own, Now We'll Always Be Together From This Moment On.

Girlfriend's Revenge
Girfriend's Revenge > A woman and her boyfriend are out having a few drinks. > While they're > sitting there having a good time together, she starts > talking about this > really great new drink. > The more she talks about it, the more excited she gets and > starts trying > to talk her boyfriend into having one. After a while he > gives in and > lets her order the drink for him. The Bartender brings the > drink and > puts the following items on the bar: > > A salt shaker, > A shot of Baileys, > A shot of lime juice. > > The boyfriend looks at the items quizzically and the woman > explains. > 'First you put a bit of the salt on your tongue,next > you drink the shot > of Baileys and hold it in your mouth,and finally you drink > the lime > juice.' So, the boyfriend, trying to go along and > please her, goes for > it. > > He puts the salt on his tongue........ salty, but OK. > > He drinks the shot of Baileys and holds it in his > mouth........smooth, > ric

Omg
MARION, Texas – Authorities are trying to find out who stuffed 70 dead Siamese cats into seven large trash bags and dumped them onto a road in suburban San Antonio. San Antonio television KABB reports the dead cats were found Thursday in the Guadalupe County town of Marion. The animals were all adults. Guadalupe County Sheriff Arnold Zwicke says the cats appeared to have been kept in a freezer or refrigerator. They've been buried at a site in Guadalupe County. Marion is located 23 miles east-northeast of San Antonio. ............ I say find the person and kill them

Jokes That Lead To Hells Gate !
First god created earth, then he rested... Then he created man, then he rested... Then he created women and no one has rested since! -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- A pastor explained to his congregation that the church was in need of some extra money, so he asked them to consider being more than generous. He offered that whoever gave the most would be able to pick three hymns. After the offering plates were passed about the church, the pastor glanced down and noticed that someone had graciously offered a $1,000 bill. He was so excited that he immediately shared his joy with his congregation and said he'd like to personally thank the person who placed the money in the plate. A very quiet, elderly, saintly lady in the back of the church shyly raised her hand. The pastor asked her to come to the front, so she slowly she made her way towards him. The pastor told her how wonderful it was that she gave so much, and in thanks he aske

Tag Ur It
TAG YOUR IT !! The rules are: Once you've been tagged you have to write a blog with 10 weird or random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose 5 people to be tagged. List their names and why you chose them to be tagged. Don't forget to leave a comment thats says "You are tagged" on their profile and to read your latest blog. Have fun! 1) I am allergic to work lol 2) I hate fake people 3)I can mutitask 4)I can change the brakes on my volvo 5)I have a sexy scar 6)my middle name is michael 7)I love my baby girl 8)I have never broken a bone 9)I have a big heart 10)I have had a cat thrown at me got scratched. brother threw him and i got clawed.lol I choose ~C~ in la la land because i love her I choose cassi cause she is an awesome friend I choose ****fubarmademeabitch**** cause I care alot about her I choose sweetgb cause shes sweet I choose donna cause shes a good friend

A Little Piece Of Me.....
You look at me and wonder what I know of Goth/Emo...I was a child of Goth/Emo before some of you were children........ I just had to learn to hide it on the inside. My ramblings on here are often all I have left of an era that has past me by now....

Sex Kills?
Dangers posed by sexual activity is probably minimal, but heart disease could curtail your sex life. While research shows that sex can indeed trigger heart attacks in some people, especially men, the odds of literally succumbing to passion are very low. Sexual activity is a contributing factor in less than 1 percent of heart attacks, according to a 1996 study by Harvard Medical...

Bleh Blah Bleh
Hmm I swore I wrote in this earlier after I got home. Maybe I forgot to hit submit or something. Anyways, Work was just another blah day... another day with me thinking about stuff. I was talking to my co-worker about the situation between Rich and I. I told her some things that's been happening. That I haven't been happy in a long while. She asked me if I still loved him and I told her that I didn't know anymore. Another co-worker heard us talking and he said that I should take rich out to dinner or some place to where we can talk, again. Have a talk outside from home. I've had soooo many talks with Rich about this. It'll work for a while or whatever..but then it just starts all over. But, I'll give it a try.....AGAIN. I'm also going to see how things go this week. Try to give him the hint of certain things I guess....like..simple things like I'll ask him if he wants to cook dinner or does should I....he hasn't cooked dinner in a while... Okay, well he did on Wednesday...

Grow The Hell Up
this person did not like a comment I left her. All I said was I have my doubts. She asked me in a sb what I was refering to, she then re rated me a 1 left several comments I had to delete and blocked me. Personaly, I hope she just goes away.....She is not worth anyones time. And please if your friends with her, just delete me now. Save us both the trouble of listening to her. I returned the favor. http://www.fubar.com/user/874286

Leave In Silence
I was talking to her the other night when someone else had posted a video. I was saying the band that was in the video were a local band to me when I was younger. The band's name was/is Depeche Mode, one of the original groups to develop a movement called Modern Romantic. It was on a background of the Punk era and Disco that a new movement was born.....just at the time I was beginning to consider music in a more comprehensive way. I had been introduced to such things as mid western rock, british rock, hard rock, ska and reggae.........mix this in with experimental drug taking, it gives for a heady remedy of emotions for a young man. I've never really thought of myself as belonging to any particular clique or group. I have always stood as an outsider.....if memory serves me well, I have lived in over 34 different places in my lifetime to date.....I would appear to be a wandering spirit. When 'things' get too much for my soul, I look to move on. Lately I have been thinking it

Rotflmao
BEST "HEADACHE" JOKE EVER!!!!! A husband emerged from the bathroom naked and was climbing into bed when his wife complained, as usual, "I have a headache." "Perfect," her husband said. "I was just in the bathroom powdering my penis with crushed aspirin. You can take it orally, or as a suppository,it's up to you."

When Best Friends Love
You entered my life like a gentle sigh, like a quiet breeze blowing softly through the leaves. You were a stranger first, one who laughed freely and easily, who spoke of minor intimacies and common grounds, who made me feel strangely liked and valued. You became my friend, no longer a stranger, trusting me with secrets hidden, confiding what you liked and hated. We talked and laughed and, as time passed by, I grew more and more dependent upon your smile. From strangers to friends was just a baby step, a step a thousand others take every day. Without your trust and trusting ways, without your smiles and encouraging gaze, I would never have taken the step beyond. But the gentle breeze blowing through the leaves is relentless and never ending. We became closer friends, and closer still, until much of my life was centered around the times we spent together. We traveled far along the path of friendship, avoiding the bumps somehow, never stumbling, always in step wi

Fu Do You Think You Are?
I don't ask for many things not blasts, nor HH nor blings, just rate my page, my pictures too, and if you fan me then I'll fan you. A crush or two would be quite nice and as they're free I'm worth the price. LOL new friends welcome

Are You A Procrastinator?
You Are a Bit of a Procrastinator You tend to get things done in a timely manner, but you can't help but put off tasks you hate. You have no problem getting the fun or easy stuff done. You generally enjoy taking care of responsibilities. However, if a task arises that you dislike, it might get shelved for a long time. And even though it's human nature to procrastinate, your procrastination is hindering your productivity. Take a look at the things you are putting off doing. Do they really need to be done? Complete any task that's important. The other stuff you're procrastinating is probably not worth doing. Are You a Procrastinator?

Heaven On Line
There's a land where I go when I need to share that's not on a map, yet exists everywhere A land of names without faces, a curious place, modern creation that's called cyberspace. There's all creation of people with cute little names Like Pookie, and Sandman and Rosebud and Flames. Some are just snobs and some are real fun. And some of them just want to find someone. But both good and bad they all play a role. Still each one unique, but part of the whole. We talk and laugh and wonder why. We flirt and we hug and sometimes we cry We can't be heard and can't be seen. Yet, there it is, right on our screen. But all in all the most curious part Is the power it has to open our heart. To share with a stranger those things we've concealed Which to our closest of friends we'd never reveal. Our deepest regrets and most troubling fears The scars in our life which bring us to tears. What gives them the power to reach into me and show me the

Realtionships...
well lets see im sick of hearing bout realtionships so im going to speank my opiniosn bout them. well lets see i believe a realtionship is a part thing bothe the guy and guy must agree, get along, care for each other equally. same goes for guy with guys, or girls with girls. I also believe that a realtionship can work if it long distance can work, and work out better then realtionships of those the cpoupel live close to each other. i believe that a realtionship is a mutual thing both have to have the same feeling and etc. im sure this blog makes no sense but it not the point.

It's Been Awhile
its been ahwile since ive updated ya'll on my life..well as you all may know im an army wife of a deployed solder in afganistan,suckyes..very. Honestly if it hadnt been for alot of you on here it woud have been harder than nessacary for us when our/my daughter Lizzie~[~AnglEyes passed away in Sept,o8.. On to a long year for the family as you would presume.. honestly it got much worse i was also left out of her obituary ...i have resent to have it redone..not because im mad because i forgave as soon as it happened,(some ppl know not what they do to others) But because they might as well of left her out ..if you all follow me.. i know just another blog on someones life .. honestly i dont care what you think other than my true freinds will always be there for me ..THats why their my family.. i have honestly been pushed to mylimit this year.. An yet i always find the strength ..im always here for my freinds on Fubar an probally always willbe... ***alot of you are brothers an sist

Poetry
ON a road well traveled is this the road for me ? Today I take a different road one I have never traveled before . With it's curves bumps and blind spots it brings me fear . not a fear of death but a fear of life one that I feel apprehensive to explore . But on this road less traveled I make a stop . With this stop I find a piece of mind a seance of need and desire to explore this stop on this road as I am torn do I have a final destination or do I stay and explore this stop on the road less traveled ?

Battle
Fierce warrior. Hear the battle sounds. Thunder rolling through the sky, It's Aries war cry. Shaking ground from The feet of worthy men. Adrenaline pumping Hearts thumping. Seek and destroy Seek and destroy Survival of the fittist. The clash of metal Echoing through the shouts Bone to bone, The crunch vibrates down your body. Rivers of red Flow fresh with the rising sun. A ground where Man is no longer Man. It's the beast within. Bared teeth. Voice growling. Daring you to step in his domain. ATTACK It happens in a flash. You or him could be laying on Your back. Battle grounds. Where the beast is set free. And Aries smiles with glee. copyrights....Ashlae Grisham

Our Plans Are Semi-solid.
Jeff and I have talked extensively and have started getting the whole living together thing in action. It doesn't help that he had to drop 2k to fix his car today. Never buy a fucking Ford Taurus. Pieces of shit. We will have one more visit, and then I'm moving there in April. So soon. I need to sort and pack. I'll be leaving half my shit at home, and when we actually get a real house, I'll be retrieving it. I packed shit, and now I need to sort through it to make sure I want to take it. That won't be fun, but it will only take like an afternoon.

I'll Be There...
*I'll Be There* *When no one is there for you* *And you think no one cares* *When the whole world walks out on you* *And you think you're alone* *I'll be there* *When the one you care about the most* *Could care less about you* *When the one you gave your heart to* *Throws it in your face* *I'll be there* *When the person you trusted* *Betrays you* *When the person you share all your memories with* *Can't even remember your birthday* *I'll be there* *When all you need is a friend* *to listen to you whine* *When all you need is someone* *to catch your tears* *I'll be there* *When your heart hurts so bad* *You can't even breathe* *When you just want to crawl up and die* *I'll be there* *When you start to cry* *After hearing that sad song* *When the tears just won't* *Stop falling down* *I'll be there* *So you see, I'll be there untill the end* *This is a promise I can make* *If you ever need me* *Just give me a call and...* *I'LL BE THERE!*

This Relationship...
This relationship what is it? Is it Love or Lust? Some may think its just lust, but they only see it from the outside. The thing is I know its love, I know first hand! Love is the kind of drug you cant resist, something you can't say no too, you can't say no to, because you always seem to be craving for more I always seem to be wanting your strong hands touching my body. Your amazing eyes looking into mine, Your amazing body lying upon mine. I crave your attention more than a child. To see you smile, just to make me smile with you. To look at me over ANYONE else in the room. When you do these things it makes my heart skip a beat. People still ask how do you know its love and not lust? I tell them, I am not in it for the moment, I am in it for the lifetime!!!

Random Facts: The Sequel
-listening to the audiobok of "fear and loathing in las vegas" helps me fall asleep ( so far i havent finished it) -i´m not a very social person. i usually prefer a good book or a movie over a party -i love cheese -i get distracted rather easil... oh look a bird! - i try to distract people from the fact that i´m a pretty insecure guy wih lame jokes -i´m not baptised but i do believe in a higher power -i´m very picky about a girls voice. if i want to date a girl i have to be able to listen to her talking without wanting to stab my ears with a rusty screwdriver -my right foot is a little bigger than my left one -i call my mom fartface -why do people like harry potter? -after 5 years of being single i seriously doubt my ability to have a relationship -i almost never get angry about anything. exception: sports. cause i´m very competitive to be continued...

Master.
All power is relinquished to Master. All fears become Master. All dreams are Master. All feelings are Master. Slave. Touch. Suck. Do whatever… Master requests. Releasing power to control. Becoming the Fantasy. Beckoning pain. Do whatever… Master requests. Boundaries are none, blood is welcomed, crying not allowed. That is to be determined for when Master wants to… hurt the slave, punish the slave, it has to be done.

The Official I Hate Jen Club.....still Growing!!!!
This blogs continues to grow... check it often i WANTED TO START THIS BLOG OFF WITH AN EARLIER POST FROM MY MYSPACE ACCOUNT - SO ALL YOU HATING ASS BITCHES KNOW THAT YOU ARE NOT ALONE IN THE WORLD!! Thursday, June 21, 2007 The Official I hate Jen Club...KISS MY ASS BITCHES! Current mood: pissed off Category: Writing and Poetry I am so sick of the so-called inlaws and their bullshit! I had somewhere to go tonight with my Uncle, and so Mark stayed with the kids at the house, which is good since it was nearly dinner time for them. When I returned to my home, I wanted to use the phone and noticed that Mark's mother had called my home.. I said to him "oh, your mom called, what did she want"... thinking that she might have actually called to book the Pampered Chef party that she promised that she would and has been blowing off...but oh no....that would be too much like right. He tells me right away that he can not talk to me about it right then and that he doesn't want

Now Open For Business!
OK LADIES HERE'S THE DEAL YOU CAN NOW BUY YOU VERY OWN COCK SALUTE!!! YOU EVEN GET TO PICK WHO IT'S FROM! FEEL FREE TO LOOK AT OUR PICTURES AND BROWSE "THE MEAT FOLDER" TAKE YOUR PICK OF ANY OF THE HOTT YOUNG GUYS WE HAVE LISTED THERE. THEN JUST DROP US A MESSAGE OR SB US AND WE'LL GET BACK TO YOU ASAP! PRICES ARE LISTED UNDER THE PICS WE DO SPECIAL ORDERS* WE'LL WRITE WHATEVER YOU WANT ON OUR COCKS!!** TELL YOUR FRIENDS! TELL YOUR FAMILY! TELL EVERYONE! WE ARE ALSO ACCEPTING APPLICATIONS FROM ALL MEN AND WOMEN!! MESSAGE US OR SB US FOR MORE DETAILS!!! ADDING NEW STUDS TO THE RANKS DAILY!!! AND AS ALWAYS BE SURE TO ADD/FAN/RATE US!!! SATISFIED CUSTOMERS PLEASE DROP US A COMMENT!!! NEW! WE'VE ADDED SOME LADIES TO OUR RANKS SO GENTLEMEN GO CHECK OUT "THE DESERT FOLDER" AND TELL US WHERE YOU'D LIKE YOUR NAME! * ADDITIONAL FEE MAY APPLY SB OR MESSAGE US FOR DETAILS ** 10 CHARACTER MAXIMUM THERE WILL BE A SMALL FEE FOR EXTRA LETTERS

The Ballad
Where the moonlight meets the water On a path of light, She was sitting on a river bank, Tears like diamonds sparkled in the night. She already knew without him Life could never be the same, When she heard his voice coming from below- He was softly calling out her name. Come with me, Join the waves at last; We will always be together, Just like in the past Come with me Take the pain away Let the river help us meet again today First she thought that she was dreaming, As she looked in from above; To her mind then came his last dying words: “Someday we will meet again, my love.” Since the day his life was taken She was living in the past. Now that Lord just gave her another chance, She will be with him again at last. Come with me, Join the waves at last; We will always be together, Just like in the past Come with me, Take the pain away, Let the river help us meet again today Where the moonlight meets the water On

Trust
Trust is a very precious thing. When you trust someone, It means sharing part of your soul. For some, trust is not easily given; It takes time and comes in small pieces. Once given, trust is a powerful tool That creates binding ties. To have trust broken is an agonizing thing. It's as if someone Has smothered a piece of your soul. Your self-esteem suffers a blow It may never recover from. You find yourself in a pit of blackness, Full of despair and self-pity. Yet, somewhere in your mind There is a light. You will find strength to recover And, God willing, you will trust again.

Results
Using your mouth Your sexual hidden talent is your ability to use your mouth. You are incredibly sensual, a great kisser and a seductive lover. You drive all of your partners crazy with your mouth. Take this quiz at QuizUniverse.com

My Apology
I did about the worst thing a person could ever do. I have upset one of the closest bestest friends I have ever had. I feel like such an asshole. I assumed something and acted on those assumptions. I didn't account for what was going on in his life at the time. I couldn't be more sorry for how I acted. I hope that you can find it in your heart to accept my apology to you. You mean a lot to me and to not have you in my life, well I just wouldn't feel the same about things if I know that I have driven you out of it. I cry as I write these words to you. I'm sorry. Becky Leanne

United We Must Stand!!
Well I'm seeing progress in looking for a job so I'm feeling better but are economy still scares me I have been googling and reading tons of stuff off the internet I'm ashamed to say the least our government is shady and I very much believe in the land of the free but our fore fathers would be ashamed at were we are also. We the People of The United States of America are falling to the blindness of greed. We need to reunite and overturn our governments greed STAND TALL ALL IS OUR COUNTRY WE NEED TO TURN IT BACK FOR THE BEST........... Many bad signs all around us. We need to stop all of the crap and B.S. ourselves. For our soldiers and ourselves. Well enough of that unless we can become One again.

When The Day Comes
Hundreds of miles away Yet linked invisibly so her voice is always near My arms long to hold her tight against my chest My mind calls out for her whenever she isn't here My soul weeps with the agony of not being physically near Yet everyday her radiant smile and striking eyes They catch my mind's eye They ensnare me and hold true With promises of my lips on hers I bide my time Loving from afar Till the day comes When I finally lay down my heart at her feet And tell her true that I love her so One day soon I will show her this One day soon... she will love me or not One day soon... this window into me will close

Afraid Of It All
I'm so afraid to love again I love this girl but every chance I get to be near her I just run away This girl you see She stole my heart And I poured my very soul into what we had But she took all that and crushed it underfoot So now I sit here terrified to give out my heart again I'm afraid of rejection I'm afraid of giving away that which I clutch to my chest now For fear of having it spit on once more I haven't always made the right choices with love So now I'm so afraid that I don't want to chance it all Don't want to gamble it away on this girl But tomorrow is a new day And I have to give myself the chance to even find love For I run at the slightest chance of being hurt And now that I sit here confessing it all I pray to you almighty lord Come down and show me your mercy Help me find the one girl in this world just for me Help me to risk it all and win it all Dear god just let me love again Unlock these chains around my heart Untie this knot in my stoma

When We Were Young
Halcyon days of tempestuous youth, In a land bathed in summer sun, A world without care, Clothed in the protection of softest wool, Shielded from the horrors of living, Ears closed to unkind words, And inhuman acts, But later, to burst from this cocoon, Our existence of warmth, Screaming in to the dark of abhorrent evils, To sink or swim, sucked down by the fiendish nature of mankind, To swallow the foul bile of real life, Seeping in to your very soul, Contaminating this childish view, With the stench of crippled spirits, Fallen long before, only remembered by pungent memories, The soil beneath our feat sapping our will to carry on, Faces of the weak litter our path, The mud a mix of ashes and spilt blood, A quagmire to swallow you, lost forever in a struggle to be free, But in this life of terminal bondage, Of freedom only for the free, Our only consolation and ray of hope, Is, One day it will be over.

Snow Iii
The staircase reeked of mold, stale cigarette smoke and ammonia, combined with some other less recognizeable smell, which he couldn't quite put his finger on. Moldy off white stained walls, dark brown floor tiles speckled with white paint and matters of various origins, and a dim light, emanating from a single lampbulb which was originally a part of a wall sconce with a glass shield now missing, were all creating an atmosphere of unwelcomeness and discomfort. A draft created by a large crack in a windowpane in a space between a flight of stairs added to this general feeling. He slowly reached his floor, trying to avoid touching a filthy metal bannister or the walls, and walked up to a door that said "506, Randolph" on it. He tapped his feet to shake off the snow off his boots, briskly ran his hands over the coat, took off his hat, tapping it on a knee, and walked into the apartment. As he turned on the light, a stream of warm air engulfed his senses; he was happy to be home. The room h

Respect..or The Lack There Of...
You know, the thing that pisses me off more than anything in the world. Is people's lack of respect. More specifically, men in general. When it's blatantly obvious that someone they know is ' with ' someone else, certain douche bags have a tendency to not respect said parties and continue on about their business without a care in the world. That is the biggest problem with society today. And people wonder why I don't like males. * laugh * Yet another prime example why I don't...every time there's an ounce of happiness or joy in my life, someone's always there trying to fuck with it.

A Sad Day For Us!!!
A friend of mine Stan lost most of his trailer today in the ice storm that we have had. A tree limb came through his roof and now he has to stay with me at my cousin Paul's cause I lost power myself. Please pray for Stan during this time of need. Thank you all!!

Saying Goodbye To Someone You Love
A few months ago I said good-bye to my best friend that I could have counted on for so many years. She was someone who could finish my sentences, laugh at the most dumbest jokes, we could talk for hours on end. I think about all the smiles I worn when I was with her, but my smiles have now turned into a frown. My best friend was my Aunt, she passed away from cancer. She was there the day I was born and held me, I was there the day she passed and I held her. My tears seem to keep flowing inside my tired eyes each day I am feeling more distance my sadness pulls me further from happiness I seek,thinking to myself I've lived in a box my whole life I don't want to spend the rest of my living years in one anymore. Since her death now whenever I'm worried I ask her for guidance and I swear that she has helped me profoundly. I now feel that although I have endured an emotional darkness more intense and shattering than some people have gone though it is not the pain that has chang

Black And White
Some people say they want to die, They think it would be better. When I here these words they say, My blood grows even redder. They don't even know what it's like, No one does in all mankind. I know and I've found, What many has seeked to find. I know what death feels like, I know that death is real. It is very hard to explain, I can't discribe death's feel. I know what happen after death, I won't tell you it's dread. Which is why the reason I choose to die, With these secrets in my head. If I told you or any one, What happens when you die. You would either think I"m crazy, Or do nothing but cry. It is such a bad time, As I hold this knife. But if I told someone, It would ruin all your lives. I won't give you a hint, Or a single clue. I won't tell you if it's good or bad, Or when it will happen to you. I do know when death is near, I know on who it stalks. I fear the worst for that person, But

Another Week Gone By
Finally, another week gone by, and I have almost 3 more to go. I can't wait to get to my new duty station, they're giving me 30 days of leave after I graduate. On friday I gave a speech to the class about Leadership, I felt really good, and my words came out really strong, I felt like I was preaching to them about Leadership. I took a cab back to base after my race earlier, jumped in the cab, and I tell the guy that I'm going to MCRD (Marine Corps Recruit Depot) the guy looks at me and asks is it home depot, I then got that feeling that maybe this guy doesn't know where he's going, and i'm about to go for a ride, so I told the guy that MCRD is right next to the airport, and he says yeahh I gotcha. So we get near the airport, and this guy ends up taking me to some other type of base that I never even heard of, I think it was some Navy base. The meter is allready at $20, and i'm nowhere near base, I noticed that the guy had a GPS in the windshield, so now i'm thinkin to myself this

Backward Masking
The other night my son and I were listening to "Stairway to Heaven" by Led Zeppelin and we got into the discussion of backward masking. My take on it is you would have to be a genius to write a song where the lyrics, both forward and backwards, makes sense. I told him you could pick any song, play it backwards, and make "something" out of the sounds... most anything. To prove my point I picked a song about life and aging... "100 Years" by Five for Fighting. I picked a small clip of it and then played that backwards. It was a twist of fate that I just happen to choose this clip. I laughed so hard I almost past out. My son almost fell out of his chair, literally. I've included the two clips. Listen to them and post what you think it says. Just wondering how many different answers I'll get. Regular Free file hosting by FileAve.com Backwards Free file hosting by FileAve.com

Rules Enforced As Of 01/22-2009
These rules apply to new and existing members unless otherwise specified. If you have any questions or concerns, please use the comments section below and a member of management will contact you to discuss any and all problems you may have. 1. For new/exisiting members: You are REQUIRED to post a salute to the FUBAR's MOST FINEST page. This salute needs to be sent to Colonel for approval and posting. If you do NOT follow this directive, you will be removed from the FUBAR's *MOST* Finest. THis is to ensure that there are not any fakers, posers, etc. You have two weeks when you are accepted into the group. From the time you become a member of the FINEST, you have 1 week to get your salute to Colonel. If you do not follow the specified guideline, you will be removed from the group. Again, this is to ensure that you are 1000% real. 2. All members are to have Yahoo Instant Messenger in order to effectivley communication with management. If you do not have Yahoo Instant Messenger, plea

Starbucks
I was at a Starbucks in Conway, Arkansas yesterday and one charming young female local approached me with he obvious intention of starting a conversation. I hadn't had coffee yet and was in no real mood to talk to some farmer girl in a Starbucks. The conversation that follows is word for word: Girl: *looks outside* Looks like it gonna rain Me: *Looks outside* I see no evidence of that, Then again I've only seen evidence of one thing since I got to this town. Girl: oh? Me: Inbreeding Girl: *walks away* I got my coffee and left feeling a little more pleasant :)

Rascal Flatts-god Blessed The Broken Road
i set out on a narrow way many years ago.hopeing i would find true love along the broken road.but i got lost a time or two.wiped my brown and kept pushing through.i couldn't see how every sign pointed staright to you.every long lost dream led me to where you are.others who broke my heart they were like northern starts pointing me on my way into your loveing arms.this much i know is true.that god blessed the broken road that led me straight to you. yes it did. i think about the years i spent just passing through.i'd like to have the time i lost and give it back to you.but you just smile and take my hand you've been there you understand.its all part of a grander plan that is coming true.every long lost dream led me to where you are.others who broke my heart they were like northern stars pointing me on my way into your loveing arms.this much i know is true.that god blessed the broken road that led me straight to you.now i'm just rollin home into my lover's arms.this much i know is true.th

Early Morning Dream
I have spent nights, just wondering what it really would be like to curl up in your arms at night, and I in some ways know already, because I feel you near me so often. Just thinking of climbing into bed and just feeling your naked body pressed so close against my back, your arm holding me close and feeling so content and safe in your arms and drifting into such a peaceful sleep. Waking just a few hours later to feel soft kisses on my neck, and your hand tracing patterns over my stomach...Turning my body slowly, and my right hand softly resting on your hip, I feel you move back slightly as I lay completely on my back, and gaze up at you, realizing that this is not a dream that I have had many times in the past. Reaching up and tracing the outline of your face with my fingertips, I whisper that I love you, and you in return reply. Tracing your mouth with my fingertips, feeling how soft the are, and remembering how sweet your kisses are, I move my hand to the back of your neck, and

You
Someday I hope to finsihs the pages that hailed my return to writing Someday I hope to accomplish Your pressance to help me finish Someday I hope to win your love These tears won't wash away the pain The rain can't calm the stinging sorrow These words won't rerlease the burden on my heart My love for you won't return you to me These hands have nothing to hold When I reach out into the spaces Beside be where you used to lay I touch cold empty air Instead of your warm body And I miss you God only knows how much I miss you My eyes now search an empty sky Looking for the star I used to Wish on about you The world is no longer my haven For you are not here Nobody hears these cries of mine No page I write will ease your absence No tears I cry will change fate No soul but yours will quench my longings

Life's Story
There was this girl named Nicole that lived in a small town. She was born into a loving and caring family. She had blonde hair and the deepest blue eyes you had ever seen before. Her life was goin great until she was about 12 years old.It was November 14, 1998 Nicole got up just like any other day and got ready for school. She walked down to the end of the road to catch the bus. What Nicole didnt know was that while she was at school her mother was at home packing up her bedroom. She got off the bus and started to walk up the road to her house. As she was topping the hill she noticed that all her brothers and sisters was at the house. She started to think if it was someones birthday and noone came to mind. So she didnt pay any attentaion to and opened the door and walked in. Nicole was stunned at what she saw. It was her mother sittin at the kitchen table crying. Nicole's sister walks up to her and asks her to come back to the bedroom with her. So Nicole goes back with her sister to he

Hug War!
HUG WAR! Pass this hug to all of your friends and back to me, see how many you get back! 1-5 HUGS....Your on someones mind! 5-10 HUGS...Someone likes you! 10-15 HUGS..Someone wants to be with you! 15-20 HUGS..WOW! you YOU HAVE BEEN CONSIDERED ONE OF MY S WEETEST FRIENDS ON MY LIST. ONCE YOU HAVE BEEN TAGGED, YOU HAVE TO TAG 5 OF YOUR SWEETEST FRIENDS AND LET THEM KNOW THEY ARE SWEET X X X I HOPE I GET THIS BACK I believe that without a friend you are missing out on a lot!!! But don't just send it back, send it on to everyone

My Life
I found someone that makes my heart super happy. He is my knight in shining armor and he rawx my world. I believe in my heart of hearts that he is the one for me. I get butterflies when we talk and he makes me smile. I never thought that anyone would ever be able to do that for me again. He makes me laugh every night that we talk...he is my soul mate. We get along and understand each other. I thank GOD everyday that he sent this wonderful man to me. I know now that GOD does truelly answer prayers.

Ride My Pony...
Songs for the Long Hard Ride #9 My Pony Im just a bachelor, Im lookin for a partner Someone who knows how to ride without even fallin off Gotta be compatible, Takes me to my limits Girl when I break you off, I promise that you wont wanna get off (chorus If youre horny, lets do it Ride it, my pony My saddles waitin Come and jump on it If youre horny, lets do it Ride it, my pony My saddles waitin Come and jump on it Sittin here flossin, peepin your steelo Just once if I have the chance, the things I would do to you You and your body, every single portion Send chills up and down your spine, juices flowin down your thigh (chorus 2x) If youre horny, lets do it Ride it, my pony My saddles waitin Come and jump on it If youre horny, lets do it Ride it, my pony My saddles waitin Come and jump on it If were gonna get nasty baby First well show and tell Till I reach your pony tail (oh) Lurk all over and through you baby Until we reach the stream Youl

Lounge Promotion
TROLLING THE SCROLL BAR So you want to try and get more people into the lounge. One of the ways is to leave random comments on new profiles, but that doesn't always work. Maybe the person isn't online. Or they just got swamped with 10 other lounges doing the same thing. Or maybe there are a couple of people in the lounge but you want a couple of more to come in and party with you. I call it "Trolling the Scroll." Basically, if you're on the scroll, then you're online. And if you're online when someone says hi, then odds are that they'll be there to reply. STEP ONE: THE GREET First thing you should do is say hi. It's tacky to just drop a link, and if they are scrolling, they're online. That means you can actually talk to them, and if you're polite with them they're more likely going to reply to a "hi" than to a random link. ->Random Scrolly Person...: hi Random Scrolly Person...: hi STEP TWO: THE REASON Don't be afraid to tell them how you came to their pag

This Weekend/my Daughter
the last 48 hours have been hell to say the least.. the weekend started out well i got off work about 2 hours earily went home went to bed and got up to go to work on sat morning.. then i got a call that my daughter who is only 12 ran away with another girl.. my little girl has had a very hard life being abused by her mother and her mothers b/f who spent 4 years rapping her . because of that she has many emotional problems and is very untrusting of everyone...The scary thing is she wants to kill herself and tryed to last thursday wrote the note anyway her shrink found it at the place she has been staying ... she was put on suicide watch and should have been ok but some how she was able to run spend all night sat and sun looking for her and did find her at a walgreens she ran had to chase her down and once i caught up with her she kicked me in the face breaking my nose bite me many times spit on me and proceeded to tell me how bad of a father i am and how she hates

We Walked Through The Park
We walked through the park; the spring air was fresh but warm. The sun shone striking the ground through the newly grown leaves on the trees. Spring was definitely in the air. Our bodies exuded the passion and instinct. We knew that we were walking to a secluded spot where we could enjoy the cool air on our bodies while we fucked like rabbits. We reached the spot and as we did, our hearts started to beat fast in anticipation of the natural act we were about to perform. We held each others hands and faced each other; the passion was rising from the depths inside us both, we could see it as we gazed into each others eyes. The magnetism was getting unbearable, drawing us in face to face, our bodies touch together, my face moulds to hers as her lips moisten mine with a passionate kiss, the saliva passing back and forth, tongues entwine. My hands grasp at her buttocks pulling her in to my groin, so she can feel me grown inside my trousers, my cock starts to fill with blood, expandi

**if You Love Me (as A Friend Or More) You'll Read The Whole Thing.
**If u love me (as a friend or more) u'll read the whole thing. What would you do if for every moment you were truly happy there would be 10 moments of sadness? What would you do if your best friend died tomorrow and you never got to tell them how you felt? So, I just wanted to say, even if I never talk to you again in my life, you are special to me and you have made a difference in my life. I look up to you, respect you, and truly cherish you. Send this to all your friends, no matter how often you talk, or how close you are, and send it to the person who sent it to you. Let old friends know you haven't forgotten them, and tell new friends you never will. Remember, everyone needs a friend. dont ever leave the one u love for the one u like, because the one u like will leave u for the one they love. If you wake up in a red room with no windows and doors, DON'T panic.. you're just in my heart!!! Send this to all the friends you want to keep forever... 1COURT ORDER!!! You are

Symbols Of Love
As human beings, when we fall into love, we search endlessly for symbols of it. We turn to the time-honored traditions thereof, roses, diamonds, candies and cards in an endless bid to find something, anything, that can fully express what we feel. We hope that, even if but for a fleeting moment, that something we hold can express what tomes of poetry and years and millenia of modern romance has never been able to touch. This quest pushes us to do strange and desperate things. In such a commercialized society, we spend billions of dollars buying jewelry, gifts and trinkets in a bid to express our love. We spend countless paychecks, work second jobs and put untold amounts of strain on ourselves just to prove our feelings through material things. The dirty secret of it all though is that love has no symbols. It is something that, by its very nature, defies all symbolism, especially with material possessions. The rich feel love no differently than the poor and the wealthy suffer no le

Ducks Or Eagles
I was having a conversation with a good friend about the difference between survival tactics humans adapt to just survive in certain geographical locations and the issue of CHOICE in life. Low and behold another dear friend of mine sent the following in an email to me - completely oblivious to the previous conversation. I felt this was a sign to share what I already believe. Choice is the ONLY thing in life we truly have control of! DUCKS OR EAGLES: No one can make you serve customers well. That's because great service is a choice. Harvey Mackay, tells a wonderful story about a cab driver that proved this point. He was waiting in line for a ride at the airport. When a cab pulled up, the first thing Harvey noticed was that the taxi was polished to a bright shine. Smartly dressed in a white shirt, black tie, and freshly pressed black slacks, the cab driver jumped out and rounded the car to open the back passenger door for Harvey . He handed my friend a laminated ca

Domination? Hot Or Not? Little Long. Comments Wanted!
He stands before me, chest bare, gleaming in the candlelight. His head is shaved, glistening, adding a hint of hardness to his appearance. My breath catches, lodging in my throat, as my eyes wander, staring for only a moment into the swirling captivating green of his. Moving over his hard, square jaw and the soft thin line of a beard and goatee, the kind that is barely a centimeter wide, to his sensual slightly parted full lips I had to steady myself drawing in a deep breath. Eyes roaming I trail over his thick arms, muscles hard, quivering. I feel my lips part and a soft moan escapes at the veins roping his strong arms like ivy covering a wall. His hands, large and marked slightly from labor fist, then open as he lays a palm on my arm. I tremble, heat floods me and moist gathers between my legs at the soft but controlling touch of his hand. I let my gaze drop lower, breath quickening and feel my body tighten as I sweep down the tiny trail of dark hair leading from his stomach to t

Do You Know How Much I Miss You?
Have you ever bothered to realize how much you mean to me? I care so much for you inside and miss you so deeply. I sometimes sit for hours Just to hear from you And when you never come on I’m unsure what to do I lay awake in bed sometimes With you stuck in my head Sometimes I question your feelings for me Or that your with someone else instead Sometimes I walk at night Just to gaze at a lonely star Sometimes I fall to tears Because you are so far And every now and then When I do speak to you I always get worried Incase you say our friendship is over. And do you ever wonder Just what I’m doing to And do you know Just how much I think of you Because if tomorrow doesn’t come And I haven’t spoke to you How will you ever know? Just how much I care about you! This poem was written for a certain someone and you know who you are!!!

I Want To Know U
YOU'RE ON MY FRIENDS LIST, I WANNA KNOW YOU...I want to know 47 things about you. I don't care if we never talk, never liked each other, or if we already know everything about each other. Short and sweet is fine...You're on my list, so I wanna know you better! 1. What is your full name? 2. When is your Birthday? 3. What is your e-mail address? 4. Do you smoke? 5.How many sexuall partners have you had? 6. If you can't answer, is it really that many? 7. Can you cook? 8. What was your dream growing up? 9. What talent do you wish you had? 10. Favorite place? 11. G-strings or thongs? 12. What was the last book you read? 13. What zodiac sign are u ? 14. Any Tattoos and/or Piercings? 15. Worst Habit? 16. Do we know each other outside of Fubar and if not why don't we? 17. What is your favorite sport? 18. Pesimist or Optimist attitude? 19. What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with m

New Update
I guess the 11th was the last day people to make ther entries.The Voting part of it is stll existing.On the 13th they will tell who is the three finalist on www.taitboudoir.com ****************KEEP THE VOTES COMING!************************************* I cant stress that enough.You know how you try to win something over the phone how do you keep doing it?Keep redialing right?Well inthis case try emailing them at info@taitboudoir.com over and over like that til you think you really getting tired of it.That would be awesome! Thank you for all who have been voting their butts off.Grateful to have you in mylife..ok enough of mushiness,let make this happin' cap'n! Kitty V.(CA GQ)

I Read Things Like This And I Die Inside.
Preface: As almost none of you know I run a very large outdoor adventure group in NY. Today I got this message. hay if your thinking about having this id like tooattend but dont know whared it is can you help pleased thanks bye I have no idea what he is talking about... can anyone translate?

Bluemew360
DO YOU KNOW MY SEXY NEW OWNER?? WELL YOU SHOULD!!! SHE'S SMART, BEAUTIFUL, FUNNY, AND A GREAT FRIEND TO ALL!!! SO GO SHOW HER LOTS OF LOVE AND MAKE FRIENDS WITH HER!!! ADD/RATE/FAN/CRUSH/BLING...IS THAT IT?? HMM AND HELL JUST SAY HI TO HER. TELL HER I SENT YOU AND I PROMISE THIS TIME YOUR ORDER WILL BE MADE WITH NO SPIT IN IT!!! ZoOkS!!!

13
13 tattoes to kiss and lick 13 looks from accross the crowded room 13 dreams that make the days worth being 13 times to stop and look at your picture 13 songs that top my mix cd 13 names i know in the dark 13 places you left your mark 13 reasons i smile the way i do 13 ways to make you blush 13 secrets to every ones crush 13 movies that in my top 10 13 outfits id love to see you in 13 where do you fit in ?

Difference Between Http & Https.
FIRST, MANY PEOPLE ARE UNAWARE OF: **The main difference between http:// and https:// //> is. It's all about keeping you secure** HTTP stands for HyperText Transport Protocol, which is just a fancy way of saying it's a protocol (a language, in a manner of speaking) for information to be passed back and forth between web servers and clients. The important thing is the letter S which makes the difference between HTTP and HTTPS. The S (big surprise) stands for "Secure". If you visit a website or webpage, and look at the address in the web browser, it will likely begin with the following: http://. This means that the website is talking to your browser using the regular 'unsecure' language. In other words, it is possible for someone to "eavesdrop" on your computer's conversation with the website. If you fill out a form on the website, someone might see the information you send to that site. This is why you never ever enter your credit card number in an http website! But, if the

Feelings
i sit here and wonder, why do i always do everything wrong, why am i still alive. my life isnt worth shit i just keep going through this pain. missing the only person i love more than ne thing. why cant i see the light. is it not my time it sure feels it. i need to get out of this wicked world. is there anyone who cares, is anyone listening,of course not. they dont feel how i am feeling relationships only push me away. seems every time i try i just cant keep going on like this so i just go to that empty room and cry over that special someone who means so much to me dearly. wish things could of been different,so i cut myself and hope i die. but its not my time why i am so confussed. plz help what do i do.i dont know. should i just lye here and hope i die.....

I Need One Of These Kind Of Store Lol
Husband Store A store that sells new husbands has opened in New York City , where a woman may go to choose a husband. Among the instructions at the entrance is a description of how the store operates: scroll down You may visit this store ONLY ONCE! There are six floors and the value of the products increase as the shopper ascends the flights. Th e shopper may choose any item from a particular floor, or may choose to go up to the next floor, but you cannot go back down except to exit the building! So, a woman goes to the Husband Store to find a husband. On the first floor the sign on the door reads: Floor 1 - These men Have Jobs She is intrigued, but continues to the second floor, where the sign reads: Floor 2 - These men Have Jobs and Love Kids. 'That's nice,' she thinks, 'but I want more.' So she continues upward. The third floor sign reads: Floor 3 - These men Have Jobs, Love Kids, and are Extremely Good Looking. 'Wow,' she thinks, but fee

Falling In Love
It is a mystery why we fall in love. It is a mystery how it happens. It is a mystery when it comes. It is a mystery why some love grows and it is a mystery why some love fails. You can analyze this mystery and look for reasons and causes, but you will never do anymore that take the life out of the experience. Just as life itself is more than the sum of the bones and muscles and electrical impulses in the body, love is more than the sum of the interests and attractions and commonalities that two people share. And just as life itself is a gift that comes and goes in its own time, so too, the coming of love must be taken as an unfathomable gift that cannot be questioned in its ways. Sometimes, hopefully at least once in your life - the gift of love will come to you in full flower. Take hold of it and celebrate it in all inexpressible beauty. This is the dream we all share. More often, it will come and take hold of you, celebrate you for a brief moment, then move on.