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Don't Make Me Love You
Don't make me love you It's can't last forever. Don't make me love you I can't leave here, not ever. Don't make me love you It will only end in pain. Don't make me love you I will not be staying. Don't make me love you The pull to you is strong. Don't make me love you I've held up this long. Don't make me love you We are not meant to be. Don't make me love you I know you can't love me.

Blah F***in Blah!
ok so this is the first blog ive done and i dont really know what to say. i like this site its cool n shit and alot of people i know are on here so thats all good too! i would like to find more peeps on here that i know and stuff so i can have more friend! ok well thats all for now ill talk to everyone laters! sara

The Beginning Ii
What is it about the beginning of a friendship that makes you want time to stall so that it does fly by so fast that words are forgotten to be spoken. Why is it in the beginning you start missing the person the minute they leave and smile grow huge when they comeback to make you want to tell them everything about you and not hold nothing back So darling if this is the beginning of something big I want you to know I hope there is no end

Release Training
Preparing a submissive to release on command An Essay by Lord Colm Let's first makes sure we are talking about the same thing. There are two basic ideas related to orgasm control training. The first is to condition the submissive to delay orgasm until permitted by the dominant. The second, much more advanced technique is the training of a submissive to release on demand, usually a spoken word, without the physical stimulation normally associated with sexual release. Why Do Such Training? In a word: Control. The dominant/submissive relationship is based upon a power exchange and there are few things a submissive can surrender that are more intimate than sexual release. Assuming that the submissive is already capable of achieving orgasm, accepting control of and exercising wisely that aspect of his or her life can add a depth to the relationship that is difficult to comprehend. In surrendering this control, the submissive becomes keenly aware of just ho

Charge Of The Goddess
Hear my words and know me! I shall be called a million names by all who speak! I am Eternal Maiden! I am Great Mother! I am the Old One who holds the immortal key! I am shrouded in Mystery, But I am known to every soul Hear my words and know me Whenever the moon rises in the heavens Shall my children come Better it be once a month when the moon is full Shall ye assemble in some secret place Such as this and adore the spirit of I I, who am the Queen of Witches. And under my watchful eye My children shall be taught the mysteries Of earth and nature Of the ways of all magick That which is unknown, shall be known And that which is hidden, shall be revealed Even the secluded soul shall be pierced With my light From my cauldron shall be drunk All knowledge and immortality Ye shall be free from slavery and Ye shall dance, sing and feast Music shall surround you for mine Is the ecstasy of the Spirit And mine is also the joy of earth I dont demand s

Feeling Sick
thinking that maybe i shouldn't of eattin so much food for dinner now i feel all blahhhhh and i don't want to do anything i feel like a mack truck hit me guess i'm going to bed early tonight, the baby has the hiccups out the yingyang and keeps tossing and turning making my stomach do flip flops so its making me sick to my stomach so i think that i'm gonna lay down and go to bed night fellow CT's and Blog freaks

Waiting..2..!!
I forgot to tell you, when I went into the eye glass place, I told them that bf was bed ridden and could not get out. Two different people-told them the same thing--and they both asked, "Has he been seen here before?"! ?????Well, duhhhhh! Nice little(big)me behaved and said "no".

Withdrawal
With darkness all around you Where do you go, What do you do? Can you fight this darkness? Do you find your nights Full of sleeplessness? When will it all Make sense again? You fight and fight But you never win. Look out now, It's closing in. It's time to jump Will you sink or swim? If only there were Some way out. Without a tear Without a pout. It's not your heart I'm afraid of breaking. I already know I'll be the one left aching. So why won't I let you Walk away from me? Because my heart is locked? And you have the only key? I wish I knew What to do to make This end just right. But it seems all I can do Is make us fight. I've suffocated And smothered you. Changed you from the boy That I once knew. I've tried to walk away So many times. But you bind me to you And it's me that pines. You don't love me You don't know how. Please don't follow I'm leaving now Please don't follow It's not allowed.

Take Back Yesterday
If I could take back the words I said to you yesterday I'd take back everything that hurt And the guilt that made you stay. I never wanted to hurt you, I never meant for things to go this far, I never meant to use you, I never thought my words could scar. Yesterday is done and over What promises I made I cannot make over I'll just pray for the memories to fade. Can the sun be Setting on our life together? So what happens to me And you, forever?

Semi-charred Life
by Tonya Buchanon, my best friend from infancy For life is a street you walk down alone; Lonely and distressed as not to be known. The farther you walk, the farther you are, Only to find there's nothing afar. For some it's easy, for some it's hard For me it's rough, successful and charred. Charred by the fire that burns deep inside For the one I love who isn't by my side To have all this stress lifted away Would be like sunshine on a cloudy day.

"how-to" Books
They have books on How to fix a broken car Or a leaky sink So why isn't there a How to book on How to fix a broken heart? Or how to survive The loss of a love. Or how to go on When he no longer is. When you are so far apart In distance and in heart. Or how to survive When you roll over And he is no longer there. Or more importantly… How to survive When you reach out To touch him and you Grasp nothing but air…

Goodbye Whore
Give me another chance I will make it right Let's have one more dance I promise not to fight. If we could just kiss once more, I promise I'll walk out the door. I won't stay much more, Not even to be your whore. We have nothing beyond today So let's have what we can. A touch, a kiss, a damn good lay. Just give me all you can.

Gifts From The Heart
A lover will send a gift When she has a need. A wife will give a gift When youve done a good deed. A girlfriend will send a gift When she needs assurance Of your undying love, But a friend will send a gift When you arent close Enough to hug.

Creative Advertising
The boss of a Madison Avenue advertising agency called a spontaneous staff meeting in the middle of a particularly stressful week. (This is one pretty sharp boss!) When everyone gathered, the boss, who understood the benefits of having fun, told the burnt out staff the purpose of the meeting was to have a quick contest. The theme: Viagra advertising slogans. The only rule was they had to use past ad slogans, originally written for other products that captured the essence of Viagra. Slight variations were acceptable. About 7 minutes later, they turned in their suggestions and created a Top 10 List. With all the laughter and camaraderie, the rest of the week went very well for everyone !!!!!!! The top 10 were: 10. Viagra, Whaazzzz up! 9. Viagra, The quicker pecker picker upper. 8. Viagra, like a rock! 7. Viagra, When it absolutely, positively has to be there overnight. 6. Viagra, Be all that you can be. 5. Viagra, Reach

Growing Wild On A Beach
Carmen Will Do Anything To Get Her Citizenship Here is this guy who really takes care of his body; he lifts weights and jogs five miles every day. One morning, he looks into the mirror and admires his body. He notices that he is really sun tanned all over except one part and he decides to do something about it. He goes to the beach, completely undresses and buries himself in the dand except for the one part sticking out. Two little old ladies are strolling along the beach and one looks down and says, "There really is no justice in this world." The other little old lady says, "What do you mean?" The first little old lady says, "Look at that." "When I was 10 years old, I was afraid of it." "When I was 20 years old, I was curious about it." "When I was 30 years old, I enjoyed it." "When I was 40 years old, I asked for it." "When I was 50 years old, I paid for it." "When I was 60 years old, I prayed for it." "When I was 70 years old, I forg

Random
yes I' m the Swamp Fox 5050 aka Dave kind of new here to this site so bear with me I have my space , tagged, tag world,Yahoo's 360. and others to keeep up on not to mention my account at SLS that's an adult site that I can get in touch with other couples with the same interest as I have. there I did it went and off and said too much for the general public to really know about me and my lovely wife

Anouk-girl
Girl girl girl When I hear him talk Ooh my mind gets blocked girl Speak up 'cause my jaw is locked Which is good, good for me girl It hides like a warning sign But I'm too blind to see Speak up yes I'm coming down With an ice cold fever Ice cold fever Ice cold fever Still got my hands they're clinging So I just keep going I don't know where I belong Could I belong to you No I don't know where I belong Could I belong Girl girl girl Get it while it's hot they say You see I'm burning up here I want to but I just can't stop And it hurts It hurts like hell girl You turn me inside out and upside down Ooh you got me head over heels I'm stuck Yes I'm coming down with an ice cold fever Ice cold fever Ice cold fever, aha Still got my hands they're clinging So I just keep going I don't know where I belong Could I belong to you No I don't know where I belong Could I belong Could I belong Still got my hands they're clinging So I just keep going I

Who???
who will I be loving?The one who loves me the most Who will I be kissing?Only one person. Who will I be making love to? The one I should be with of course, Who is he?You ask? A name is not relative. There is a right one who,...For everyone It is up to you,to find them.

What To Do
do I know you? sometimes I'm sure I do at times even better than you know yourself other times I don't know you at all something is happening I will agree your words have caught me up in something big and we have made a real connection here in a short time do you know me? you think you do you've read some parts of me those I've sheared off to rhyme or not rhyme but is that knowing? one thing I know for sure my wants and desires scare the hell out of me and my instincts tell me to run and not look back where do we go from here? ... what to do about you

Computer Show
I went to a computer show today with Thore Gundi and it was cool. I got a couple things and he got a neato mp3 player and dvd burner. It was smaller than when I first went to it several years ago. In fact, that is the 2nd time I go to computer shows with people I met from the internet. I sense a pattern lol.

My Rifle Club
THE ___UNITED _________STATES _______________MARINES ______________________CORPS ___________________________SEMPER FI ____________________________________OOHRAH We stole the anchor from the Navy, The rope from the Army, The eagle from the Air Force. And on the 8th day God rested. We stormed the gates of Heaven and stole the earth from God himself. WE HAVE BEEN RUNNING THE SHOW EVER SINCE. SEMPER FI OORAH OORAH

A Pledge Of Love
I think of love, and it scares me, For I know that it's much more, Than the flowers that you sent me, Or the kiss the night before. I hope that from this moment, I will find what true love means, For when found, it lives forever. And outshines your wildest dreams Will you protect me from all harm, When I am old and grey, If so I'll pledge my life to you; Until my dying day. done by christine

In Your Arms
I search for thoughts, that you speak. I find comfort in the emotions that they bring. As you shelter me with, your warm loving heart. Listen to the beat. Shh ! listen ! Each beat takes me away, away from my troubles. Here is where I belong. In your arms. done by christine

You+me+my Room??
WE'RE LOCKED UP IN MY ROOM FOR TWENTY-FOUR HOURS & WE COULD DO WHATEVER YOU WANTED, WHAT WOULD YOU DO WITH ME? TELL ME IN MY INBOX... CUZ ITS A SECRET... THEN REPOST THIS IN YOUR BULLETIN... YOU MIGHT BE SUPRISED WITH THE RESPONSES YOU GET. THEY COULD MAKE YOU LAUGH OR EVEN SMILE OR EVEN DISGUSTED... LOL. IF YOU DONT REPOST THIS MEANS YOU WILL HAVE BAD LUCK FOR 6 MONTHS. REPOST IT SAYING... U + ME + MY ROOM=

Well They Have Gone And Done It I Have Been Proven Crazy
fi yuo cna raed tihs, yuo hvae a sgtrane mnid too Cna yuo raed tihs? Olny 55 out of 100 plepoe can it. i cdnuolt blveiee taht I cluod aulaclty uesdnatnrd waht I was rdanieg. The phaonmneal pweor of the hmuan mnid, aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy, it dseno't mtaetr in waht oerdr the ltteres in a wrod are, the olny iproamtnt tihng is taht the frsit and lsat ltteer be in the rghit pclae. The rset can be a taotl mses and you can sitll raed it whotuit a pboerlm. Tihs is bcuseae the huamn mnid deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef, but the wrod as a wlohe. Azanmig huh? yaeh and I awlyas tghuhot slpeling was ipmorantt! if you can raed tihs forwrad it. ONLY FORWARD IF YOU CAN READ THIS!!!!!!!!

Ambition
I posted these thoughts a while ago in another place, but they seem to be coming back to me these days...so I thought I would post there here. Ambition~ Ambitions are infectious. Avoid ambitious people, otherwise something in their ferver is bound to infect you. You may start moving in a direction that is not yours, you may start doing things that you had never thought of before, just because you fell into company with somebody... Ambition is the root cause of madness - try to understand your ambitiousness. Your effort to be somebody in the world will drive you mad. Just be nobody and then there is no problem. Drop ambitiousness and start living, because the ambitious person cannot live, he always postpones. His real life will always be tomorrow - and tomorrow never comes. The ambitious person is bound to be aggressive and violent, and the violent person and aggressive person are bound to go mad. The ambitious person is always in a hurry, running, rushing towards somethi

I Do Not Struggle In Your Web
The weekend left much to be desired. Thursday was the return of the 'Dancing Mach-ine' only for me to be left at the club all by my lonesome. Friday I experienced something I have never done before. But it was exciting and I got to dance in a cage. The only bad part was driving on the freeway with no plows in the 4in of snow we got. Saturday was my lazy day and I needed it. Needed to recharge my batteries. Obviously I spent most of the day on here though. And Sunday was the worst. I had realized that I somehow lost my IDs and card. So I had to go through the hassle of reporting those and I'll have to replace them. Man I needed to hit something so bad yesterday. Good thing I have football practice tomorrow. I am my own worst enemy. When you look in to my eyes you see the truth yet you continue to doubt me and dance around the question. I have allowed addiction and feelings of euphoria blind me to what has been so evident. Have you ever been in the presence of a being so powerful y

Because Tigers Drop Bombs...
I can't sleep....I'm getting sick I think...and so I'm just posting random shit here.... and I can't stop watching this: (If this doesn't work its the video for "Mad World" from Donnie Darko...I've watched it off the DVD like 4 times already) well maybe I'll con someone into reading me a bedtime story...If I make it through the night I'll be on tomorrow till then.... xoxox - Betty

Touchy
someday i want to live in a world where i'm proud to bring up my children. i want to live in a world that isn't held by boundaries and dumbass theories about what love should be. what happened to faith in the people? what happened to a world where we didn't have to be afraid to talk about what we believed? you'd think i would shut my mouth by now. well, fuck that. the only way you'll get me to shut up now is if you killed me first. i will scream it from the highest venue i can. if you don't want to hear it... too fucking bad. i know there's a piece of paper the fucktards in charge like to ignore that says i have the right to piss you off and rant and bitch in whatever way i feel like. funny how that doesn't go for everyone.

Missing You
SITTING UNDER THE TREE OF DESPAIR WONDERING WHERE U ARE TONIGHT. WISHING THAT I KNEW FOR SURE PRAYING THAT U R ALRIGHT. KNOWING THAT WHEN U LEFT AND THE WAY WAS NOT TOO CLEAN. JUST BECAUSE WE LET SOMEONE COME IN BETWEEN. THE THINGS U SAID , THE THINGS I SAID ARE ALL A BLUR INSIDE MY MIND. I HAVE TRIED TO PLAY IT BACK AT LEAST A THOUSAND TIMES. I KNOW THAT U WILL COME BACK THAT IS NOT MY WORRY OR MY FEAR I JUST NEED U DARLING BADLY I NEED U TO BE HERE. I NEED U HERE TO TALK TO WHEN MY LIFE GOES OUT OF SINC AND TO CALM MY FEARS TO LISTEN TO WHAT I THINK. TO DRY MY WEEPING EYES AND LET ME KNOW EVERYTHING IS OK I WILL BE HERE WAITING MY LOVE UNTIL MY DYING DAY. Courtesy of MsTags.com

Fix, Face & Forget
Psalm 31:23 “O love the Lord, all ye His saints: for the Lord preserveth the faithful.” Ty Cobb and Babe Ruth were two of the greatest baseball players of all time. Ty Cobb was known for his record number of stolen bases, and Babe Ruth was known for his record number of home runs. What you may not know is that Ty Cobb was also thrown out more than any other man in baseball trying to steal bases. And Babe Ruth struck out more than any other man in baseball! These fellows didn’t let their failures stop them, and neither should you! Fix your goal. Face your faults. Forget your failures. Failure in the Christian life is not final. Failure in the Christian life simply means you just haven't passed the first time. You are not judged on the number of times you succeed, but on the number of times you fail and keep trying. Maybe you or someone you know is feeling discouraged today. Remind them or yourself of the promise in Philippians 4:13. I can do everything t

"let It Go"
Let them go!! If you are holding on to something that doesn't belong to you and was never intended for your life, then you need to...... LET IT GO!!! If you are holding on to past hurts and pains ..... LET IT GO!!! If someone can't treat you right, love you back, and see your worth..... LET IT GO!!! If someone has angered you ........ LET IT GO!!! If you are holding on to some thoughts of evil and revenge...... LET IT GO!!! If you are involved in a wrong relationship or addiction...... LET IT GO!!! If you are holding on to a job that no longer meets your needs or talents .... LET IT GO!!! If you have a bad attitude....... LET IT GO!!! If you keep judging others to make yourself feel better...... LET IT GO!!! If you're stuck in the past and God is trying to take you to a new level in Him...... LET IT GO!!! If you are struggling with the healing of a broken relationship....... LET IT GO!!!

Yonoo
CIW YONOO Welcome to Netvibes! This is your personalized page, you can now modify everything: move modules, add new RSS/ATOM feeds, change the parameters for each module, etc. Your modifications are saved in real-time and you'll find your page when you get back on Netvibes.com. If you want to be able to access your page from any computer, you can sign in (at the top right) with your email and a password. The content is available from the "add content" button at the top left of this page. Feel free to check the Netvibes blog to stay tuned about new features on the site.

Blah
So I'm in some sort of funk...I dont know whats goin on with me. I almost got into a car accident today because some stupid fuckin cuntrag wasn't paying attention and pulled out infront of me. So I slammed my brakes on thank god we didnt hit but we were about an inch away from eachother..I'm tellin ya People out here are fucking DUMB. Never in my life have I seen so many stupid people in one area. Gotta love Florissant. Anyway, I took Dillon to his doctor's appointment today and then came home and started cleaning and as soon as I started cleaning I just felt shitty. I don't know maybe I should hire a maid or something hahaha wouldn't that be great. Maybe I need to go and smoke a big fatty and just chill out and zone off into my own space who knows...Anyway that's it I'm just blabbering anyway lol. Later all

For Someone Special
What would I give up Just to spend a minute with you I would give up a trip to Heaven and spend enterinty in Hell turn my back on anybody who puts you down family, friend, or foe It wouldn't matter to me Your happiness your love your smile your trust your respect are all I care about I would look you in the eyes and promise to be true as long as we are together and make sure you feel no pain Spend each day tryng to tell you show you, make you see how much just knowing you has made a better man of me the man I want to be How you faded the scars on my heart Callously left by those before you I'd thank God everyday that the path he put us on intersected here and now and hope it leads to now and forever Just pray for the opportunity to take you by the hand lead you to the bed, lock the door slowly undress you and without a sound let the thunder of our passions roll wild and free across the skies of our desires watch the flame burnin

Wedding Day Wishes
I wish that you could be here, To share my special day; To walk me down the aisle, And give my hand away. I know you want to be here too; You look down and hold me In your warm embrace. I cannot see your arms But I know that they are there-- They comfort and they hold me And I know that you still care. It wasn't right that you were taken Away from us so soon, But I see you every night When I look up at the moon. And every now and then I sit entranced in calm and wonder When the wind blows with gentle ease-- For it's your words of love I hear-- Echoing in the breeze. done for my cuz and his wife to be . done by christine

You Seem To Be Thinking Of Her
Many nights i think of you, my mind ponders what to do. You say you love me but i'm not so sure, the fact is you seem to be thinking of her. I love you so much, but so often you are cool to the touch. Rarely will you open up to me, afraid of what i might see. But everything seems to be coming into place, in your heart is not a picture of my face. Maybe over time this will cease, and both of our hearts will be at peace. But until then I cannot rest, with this sinking feeling of second best. I pray to me your love is true, but I still haven't fiqured out what to do. Everyday I spend with you brings me pain, for the thought of my heart being slain. I know you can't help how you feel, I just pray your love for me is real. But I cannot force you to find love like no other kind. I don't know whether to stay or leave, I just want to be loved not decieved done by christine

Just For Fun
You scored as Armand. Your the mysterious type only those close to you know the truth about who you really areArmand75%Marius50%Dracula50%Lestat33%Akasha33%Angel33%Blade33%Spike33%Louis25%Deacon Frost17%Whose your Vampire personality? (images)created with QuizFarm.com

A Tense Night In Tucson
A Tense Night In Tucson The year was about 1983, and I was on the outskirts of Tucson, Arizona, a town with unforgiving heat and sun, yet is strangely hypnotic at night. It was very tranquil to look up at the sky at night and see literally millions of bright stars, along with an occasional meteorite. Actually, I was just sitting around my house with my cousin Duane, who I lived with at the time. He was a body and fender mechanic for a number a years. The telephone rang, and it was from an "associate" of mine who said that he would be stopping over at 11 pm. It was a surprise to me, but Carlos and I had several mutual interests. In short, we were friends. When Carlos knocked on the door, it was quarter past eleven, and when I opened the door, I noticed that a friend of Carlos, Mikey, had come with him. Carlos was a dark-haired man, about 6'2" and athletically built. He had bronze-toned skin. Mikey was a little shorter, I would say around 6 feet tal

-=[recipe For Love]=-
-=[Recipe For Love]=- Never sleep on an angry word. Never make the other feel absurd. Always believe in each other's dreams. Keep communication flowing like a stream. Speak to each other with a tender heart. Remember each day how you felt at the start. Treat each other with kindness and respect. Love grows only with care not neglect. Never forget a special day. Never miss a chance to say, All the good things that you feel, A loving kiss can always heal. Desire should make you swoon, Each and everyday should be a honeymoon. Nothing can ever be more important than your lover. Never give a passionate thought to any other. To make love last for all eternity, The "ME" must become "WE". When your heart is full of affection, Love will always know the right direction. Share Love. Spread Love.

Bionic Women !!!
OK here is the deal.......March 22nd at Jefferson Hospital.....I will undergo a real scary surgery. They will take 2 bones from what I have no idea but anyway 2 bones one to be put in the c-5/c-6 and one shaved down to make my neck & spine of normal curvature at the c-4/c-5!! Like it is a shock to me that I am defective..lol... then take a metal plate to keep them in place it will take 4 to 6 months for recovery! I am sure I will be needing the company of my Cherry Tap Bud's Wish me strength and endurance!

Slilent But Strong Type
IM PRETTY FOND OF THIS GUY, HE'S VERY RESPECTFUL OF OTHER'S AND THEIR FEELINGS, YOU COULD'NT FIND A BETTER FRIEND... HE'S ALSO CUTE LADIES, WHAT MORE COULD YOU ASK FOR? Def Leppard - Bringin' On The HeartbreakAdd to My Profile | More Videos

Serious. Support Needed Please!
XXOOXXOO to all my fellow Cherries. I know you all have big hearts, so I am asking for a bit of help on a personal level. Every hour of every day, someone is diagnosed with MS. Not so long ago was the day that my sister, Brenda was diagnosed. I have watched my big sister, who was more like a mother to me go from a healthy, go-getter who put her life on hold countless times to care for others to an MS champion who now needs that help. That's why I registered for the MS Walk and that's why I'm asking you to support my fund raising efforts with a tax-deductible donation. The National Multiple Sclerosis Society is dedicated to ending the devastating effects of MS but they can't do it without our help. It's faster and easier than ever to support this cause that's so important to me. Simply click on the link at the bottom of this message. If you prefer, you can send your contribution to the address listed below. Any amount, great or small, helps to make a difference in the lives o

To All Wrestling Fans
If you like wrestling, and roleplay, then come join my efed. If you have never efed before it's fun, and we will be happy to teach you. We are new, and need good loyal members. So come join the fun at... http://southwt.proboards104.com/index.cgi

~ Social Security ~
SOCIAL SECURITY: Franklin Roosevelt, a Democrat, introduced the Social Security (FICA) Program. He promised: 1.) That participation in the Program would be completely voluntary, 2.) That the participants would only have to pay 1% of the first $1,400 of their annual incomes into the Program, 3.) That the money the participants elected to put into the Program would be deductible from their income for tax purposes each year, 4.) That the money the participants put into the independent "Trust Fund" rather than into the General operating fund, and therefore, would only be used to fund the Social Security Retirement Program, and no other Government program, and, 5.) That the annuity payments to the retirees would never be taxed as income. Since many of us have paid into FICA for years and are now receiving a Social Security check every month -- and then finding that we are getting taxed on 85% of the money we paid to the Federal government to "put away," you may b

Grab A Tissue Cuz U Gonna Cry!
This is what happened When she was alive... Her dad was a drunk Her mom was an addict Her parents kept her Locked in an attic Her only friend was a little toy bear It was old and worn out And had patches of hair She always talked to it When no one's around She lays there and hugs it Not a peep of sound Until her parents unlock the door Some more and more pain She'll have to endore A bruise on her leg A scar on her face Why would she be In such a horrible place? But she grabs her bear And softly crys She loves her parents But they want her to die She sits in the corner Quiet but thinking, "Please God, why is My life always sinking? " Such a bad life For a sad little kid She'd get beaten and beaten For anything she did Then one night Her mom came home high And the poor child was beaten As hours went by Then her mom suddenly Grabbed for a blade It was sharp and pointy One that she made She thrusted the b

Jasper And Uncooked Yeast Rolls
Jasper and The Uncooked Yeast Rolls We have a fox terrier by the name of Jasper. He came to us in the summer of 2001 from the fox terrier rescue program. For those of you who are unfamiliar with this type of adoption, imagine taking in a 10 year old child whom you know nothing about and committing to doing your best to be a good parent. Like a child, the dog came with his own idiosyncrasies. He will only sleep on the bed, on top of the covers, nuzzled as close to my face as he can get without actually performing a French kiss on me. Lest you think this is a bad case of no discipline, I should tell youthat Perry and I tried every means to break him of this habit including locking him in a separate bedroom for several nights. The new door cost over $200. But I digress. Five weeks ago we began remodeling our house. Although the cost of the project is downright obnoxious, it was 20 years overdue AND it got me out of cooking Thanksgiving dinner for family, extended family an

~ Redneck ? ~
We have enjoyed all the redneck jokes for years. It's time to take a reflective look at the core beliefs of a culture that values their home, family, country and God. If I had to stand before a dozen terrorists who threaten my life, I'd choose a half dozen or so rednecks to back me up. Tire irons, squirrel guns and grit -- that's what rednecks are made of. I hope I am one of those. If you feel the same, pass this on to your redneck friends. Ya'll know who ya' are... You might be a redneck if: It never occurred to you to be offended by the phrase, "One nation, under God." You might be a redneck if: You've never protested about seeing the 10 Commandments posted in public places. You might be a redneck if: You still say "Christmas" instead of "Winter Festival." You might be a redneck if: You bow your head when someone prays. You might be a redneck if: You stand and place your hand over your heart

Lmao! Who's Smarter Here???
subject: LMAO! Who's smarter here??? date: 2007-03-01 18:31:28 When girls don't put out!! This was written by a guy... it's pretty damn smart. Girls -- Please have a sense of humor! I never quite figured out why the sexual urge of men and women differ so much. And I never have figured out the whole Venus and Mars thing. I have never figured out why men think with their head and women with their heart. FOR EXAMPLE: One evening last week, my girlfriend and I were getting into bed. Well, the passion starts to heat up, and she eventually says, "I don't feel like it, I just want you to hold me." I said, "WHAT??!! What was that?!" So she says the words that every boyfriend on the planet dreads to hear... "You're just not in touch with my emotional needs as a woman enough for me to satisfy your physical needs as a man." She responded to my puzzled look by saying, "Can't you just love me for who I am and not what I do for you in the bedroom?" Realizing that not

Vacation
at 2 pm today... my vacation starts im so happy and ready for it... so i wont be on here until like wed or thurs... so ill get back to you then... for those of u who have the digits.. u know what to do ...florida here i come!!! HOLLA.

Redneck Poetry
The National Poetry Contest had come down to two, a Yale graduate and a redneck from Texas. They were given a word, then allowed two minutes to study the word and come up with a poem that contained the word. The word they were given was “Timbuktu.” First to recite his poem was the Yale graduate. He stepped to the microphone and said: Slowly across the desert sand Trekked a lonely caravan; Men on camels, two by two Destination Timbuktu. The crowd went crazy! No way could the redneck top that, they thought. The redneck calmly made his way to the microphone and recited: Me and Tim a huntin’ went. Met three whores in a pop up tent. They was three, and we was two, So I bucked one, and Timbuktu

Moms And Dads Check This Out!
www.FamilyWatchDog.us Pass this on When you visit this site you can enter your address and a map will pop up with your house as a small icon of a house. There will be red, blue and green dots surroun di ng your entire neighborhood. When you click on these dots a picture of a criminal will appear with his or her home address and the description of the crime he or she has committed. The best thing is that you can show your children these pictures and see how close these people live to your home or school. This site was developed by John Walsh from Americas Most Wanted. This is another tool we can use to help us keep our kids safe. Please pass this on to everyone!!! This site does work - it's scary!!!

Wifee From Hell!
A police officer pulls over a speeding car. The officer says, " I clocked you at 80 miles per hour, sir." The driver says, "Gee, officer I had it on cruise control at 60, perhaps your radar gun needs calibrating." Not looking up from her knitting the wife says: "Now don't be silly dear, you know that this car doesn't have cruise control." As the officer writes out the ticket, the driver looks over at his wife and growls, "Can't you please keep your mouth shut for once?" The wife smiles demurely and says, "You should be thankful your radar detector went off when it did." As the officer makes out the second ticket for the illegal radar detector unit, the man glowers at his wife and says through clenched teeth, "Dam it, woman, can't you keep your mouth shut?" The officer frowns and says, "And I notice that you're not wearing your seat belt, sir. That's an automatic $75 fine." The driver says, "Yeah, well, you see officer, I had it on, but too

Why A Woman Cries
Why are you crying, a young boy asked his Mom? "Because I'm a woman," she told him. "I don't understand," he said. His Mom just hugged him and said, "And you never will, but that's O.K."....... Later the little boy asked his father, "Why does Mom seem to cry for no reason?". "All women cry for no reason," was all his Dad could say...... The little boy grew up and became a man, still wondering why women cry. Finally he put in a call to God and when God got back to him, he asked "God, why do women cry so easily?" GOD answered...... "When I made woman, I decided she had to be special. I made her shoulders strong enough to carry the weight of the world, yet, made her arms gentle enough to give comfort... I gave her the inner strength to endure childbirth and the rejection that many times will come even from her own children. I gave her a hardness that allows her to keep going and take care of her family and friends, even when everyone else gives up, through sickness and fatigue without com

Insomina
Last night was the worst. I couldn't sleep no matter what I tried. I counted to 100 then counted backward thinking I'd get so tired I'd fall asleep. Hell no I kept counting. Then I finally fall asleep like around four only to have my son wake me up. I brought him in bed with me thinking he'd go back to sleep quicker but he only flip and floped and thought it was time to play. I put him back into his crib only to have him scream. So I let him scream. Then my husband woke up to see why my son was crying and lay him back down. Would you know it, he lays down for daddy but not mom. I hate not being able to sleep because when you finally do fall asleep you're victim to whatevers around you.

Why Do We Rush So Much?
Most of us accept the standard ideas we were taught. "Men should be good providers." "We will get self-esteem from hard work." "It is a virtue to be productive." "It's better not to have too much time to think." A major crisis can quickly change our perspective. Perhaps someone close to us dies, and we are faced with how temporary life is. Or we have a health crisis, or a relationship crisis, or an addiction crisis. The standard ideas come crashing down. We look closely at the rush of our lives and ask deeper questions: Are we hurrying to a worthwhile goal? Or are we losing out in our great rush? These doubts can teach us personal things that society can never teach us. Wisdom comes out of pain and the willingness to learn from it. Today, I will allow some time to stand still and reflect.

This Bleeding I Am Doing Is All For You
Hey there pretty lady, can you help me cause I'm bleeding, I've cut myself too deep to breath, much too deep to believe everything you say to me, babe please stitch me up, cause I'm bleeding, and this bleeding that I'm doing, is all for you, woman please taste my blood, does it taste so bitter, does it taste so sweet, does it taste good enough to forgive me, woman please can you help me, I'm bleeding, I've cut myself too deep to breath, much too deep to believe everything you say to me, babe please stitch me up, cause I'm bleeding, and this bleeding that I'm doing, is all for you, you ditched me just because you simply had enough of my sweet love, did you ditch me cause I'm hiding beneath a bed of broken promises, a bed of broken dreams, a bed of lying eyes, hey there pretty lady, can you help me cause I'm bleeding, I've cut myself too deep to breath, much too deep to believe everything you say to me, babe please stitch me up, cause I'm bleeding, and this bleeding that I'm doing, is al

Internal Schizophrenia
(this one hasn't yet been seen through eyes, so enjoy) Schizophrenic are the conversations I hear in my headset, with the solitude of my eager regret, dividing the solitude of my lesser life sentence, To an entire life of pain and misery, I ask myself about this gentle grievency, could it be owned up to a life of cold indecency, or is there another reason to be the man that I wanted to be, or is there another reason to dig myself deeper than I have to be, to an entire life of embarassment, and to all the bitter harassment

Joke: Spaghetti
A wealthy man was having an affair with an Italian woman for a few years. One night, during one of their rendezvous, she confided in him that she was pregnant. Not wanting to ruin his reputation or his marriage, he paid her a large sum of money if she would go to Italy to have the child. If she stayed in Italy, he would also provide child support until the child turned 18. She agreed, but wondered how he would know when the baby was born. To keep it discrete, he told her to mail him a post card, and write "Spaghetti" on the back. He would then arrange for child support. One day, about 9 months later, he came home to his confused wife. "Honey," she said, "you received a very strange post card today." "Oh, just give it to me and I'll explain it later," he said. The wife obeyed, and watched as her husband read the card, turned white, and fainted. On the card was written "Spaghetti, Spaghetti, Spaghetti. Two with meatballs, one without."

Sweetie On The Way Home!
Tomorrow sometime the love of my life will be home. And he's been fair warned- he's going to be walking a bit funny when I'm through with him! Leave me alone for a week and a half and that's what happens! I get a bit demanding, you see. He's going to have to make up for missed times- Let's see, ten days means at minimum five times really good or ten satisfactory, but not so much effort. I'm thinking five really good goes will do. ;)

Lady Abigail And Sir Arnauld Part 2
Sir Arnauld is home at long last The battles fought now in the past Lady Abigail is relieved he is safe Being uncertain, her nerves did chafe * Sir Arnauld must now decide his future And he was looking for a different adventure One which included the lady of his heart The Lady Abigail would give his life a new start * Sir Arnauld must petition now to his King Convince him that Lady Abigail must wear his ring The King listened to Arnauld state his plea The love Arnauld had was so plain to see * The King bade Abigail to come before him To see if her love for arnauld was a whim The King would see if her feelings were true Would he allow them their dream to pursue * The king knew that Arnauld was his best Knight And he wanted to make his future bright So he gave his blessings to allow them to wed For Arnauld enough blood had been shed * The banners were hung announcing the news The glad tidings across the land f

Rollin....rollin....rollin....
Got lots done this week! Met with my attorney (shes one cool chick) again (about harrassment etc), go back Monday to sign all the paperwork to start the seperation agreement until we get past the 30 day mark, then on to divorce proceedings if (and I say that with a huge SIGH) IF he will be cool & compromise on property and custody issues. Itd certainly make things so much easier on both of us. Then I went and got my apartment, and I love it! Everything is new...nice, clean, spacious....location, location, location! The bad news its going to take at least a week to two to get it ready for move in (new complex). I love it there because they are only one story units so no one over us or below us! So im packing...my personal things, the girls stuff, im just ready to go. Its time to move on...and get away from here as soon as humanly possible. I am a little worried about his mother, she seems a tad bit unstable. Since she is only a few homes away from mine she thinks its

The Feeling
The feeling in your heart The feeling in your head The feeling u get when u see her smile The Feeling u get when u feel her touch The feeling u get when u know your gonna see her The feeling u get when she calls you The feeling your feeling just might be love

March 3rd 2007
another quick saturaday.. pretty boring. Nobody was on this thing during the afternoon. Everyone was buss say.. I don't even know why i bother having a cell phone sometimes. I drove out today cause it was pretty outside. It got cloudy all of a sudden of course cause i wanted to go out.. weathermen have no clue what they are talking about I hope i can go to the movies with a friend of mine. Zodiac sounds like a good movie. hopefully not too goresome and more intriguing. We shall see. I hate going to the movies by myself Sunday here I come.. ~Timmy>

Talkin
so ive been on this shit for about a day and people dont talk ive got like 10 freinds and only a couple of them have sed any thing so the ? is how do i get you to talk so if your are down hit me up if not thats koul

6 More Hrs.~she Has Not Won A Contest
Hey There Everyone Please Come and Vote for my sexy girl Named Sexy Simmer She is the bomb and she is a good friend and If you bomb her pic until sunday I Will make a tag for you and Buy a gift for you when I get back just send ME a message to let me know who helped. Please Help her out thank you.

Hate You (poem)
For letting us fall apart For the hurt in my heart For all the tears cried For everytime you lied For the promises unkept For the nights I never slept For the dreams we won't see For not caring about me For leaving me all alone For this broken home For taking away my soul For treating me so cold For all the s*** I went through For every memory of you For the feelings of betrayal For putting me through hell For taking all I had left For making me wish for death For all the times untrue I f***ing hate you

Mateo
For my Mateo The sadness will ease You will find your dreams Open your eyes And you will see What you truly mean to me You are always in my prayers I worry about you the most Your smile is fading A lot is changing It's what life is Constant disaray You will battle it well Put a smile on your face Get your ass in gear no pitty parties You're a man Who understands What life has given you Don't wallow in your self Find the silver linning Lean on me if you need I'll always be here for you I love you like no other You are my favorite brother So quit your pissing and moaning Cuz it Thizz what it iz!

Written August 14, 2006
THE SCENE IM JUST GOING TO SAY, FOR FUTURE REFERENCE, THAT THIS SHOULD NOT BE TAKEN PERSONALLY NOR AM I SPEAKING ABOUT EVERYBODY. THIS IS AN OPINION IVE FORMED FOR MYSELF BASED OFF OF MY OWN PERSONAL OBSERVATION. its pretty funny that just now im noticing just how pathetic the "scene" is. Its just as bad as "society". its like this...every race has the same kind of heart and brain even if they look different. "Live Fast Die Young"...is that really what you want? end up in the fuckin gutters and kill yourself from drugs cause you got that temporary high...is that worth your life?! even if it isnt...is it punk rock. Jesus fuckin christ man "punks" or at least the younger generation...are so stupid. You look at the band members up on stage that are older who go all out but you just dont get it. when you grow up, and you will if you dont kill yourselves first, you have fuckin responsibilities. When youre pushin 40 or so, you think people are gonna care how much ink ya got or how l

Hair Dryer
A young woman on a flight from Switzerland asked the Priest beside her, "Father, may I ask a favor?" "Of course. What may I do for you?" "Well, I bought an expensive woman's electronic hair dryer for my mother's birthday. The dryer is unopened and well over the Customs limits; and I'm afraid they'll confiscate it. Is there any way you could carry it through Customs for me? Under your robes perhaps?" "I would love to help you, dear, but I must warn you: I will not lie." "With your honest face, Father, no one will question you." When they reached the Customs area, she let the priest go ahead of her. The official asked: "Father, do you have anything to declare?" "From the top of my head down to my waist, I have nothing to declare." The official thought this answer strange, so asked, "And what do you have to declare from your waist to the floor?" "I have a marvelous instrument designed to be used on a woman, but which is, to date, unused." Roaring with laughter, the official said, "Go ahea

The Latest Scoop
So in case you missed the show last night, well, I was let's call it compromised on the mic! About two minutes before we were to go on air, I took some cough syrup. I have had a cold and needed to not cough while airing. I didn't know the cough syrup was LOADED with CODEINE!! I was intending to do a show of substance, talking about the Libertarian Party and had two guests to represent both the conservative and liberal sides of the party. I had Todd Anthony Barnett from Liberty Cap Talk Live along with Eric Dondero from Liberty Talk Live. Somehow, we started out in the direction of politics and ended up with talking about sex with tomato's and serial killers. Now mind you, not mentioned yet were two other hapless guys who just called in and got sucked into the maylee! Alex and Ryan from The Dead Air Show just called in to say hello and somehow got caught up and stayed, well Alex did for the whole show! Lol. I don't know how it went awry...but shit was it funny to hear today!!! L

Mutilation Is My Medication
I'm sick again today. Same as yesterday, and the day before, and probably tomorrow too. I need my relief, so I pull out my knife. You see, mutilation is my medication. Self-Prescribed. I roll up my pants, and pull down my sock. SLICE!!! AAAAHHH!!! It hurts but in a good way. I feel the rush. My face gets red. The searing feeling. But in a minute, I'll feel better than I did before. I watch the blood pour out, and my ailments along with it. I've ruined alot of socks this way, But thats the price you pay, With this medicine. Relief is achieved. And it lasts awhile. Sometimes for days, sometimes just one. The cut? It heals, but slowly, Because I cant help but pick at the scab. Sometimes that helps me to cut back on my "medicine". It eventually scars up, but thats ok. No one sees them anyways. Another day passes, And I'm still sick. This medicine doesnt cure, It only relieves the symptoms. For awhil

What Tarot Card Are You?
You are The Lovers Motive, power, and action, arising from Inspiration and Impulse. The Lovers represents intuition and inspiration. Very often a choice needs to be made. Originally, this card was called just LOVE. And that's actually more apt than "Lovers." Love follows in this sequence of growth and maturity. And, coming after the Emperor, who is about control, it is a radical change in perspective. LOVE is a force that makes you choose and decide for reasons you often can't understand; it makes you surrender control to a higher power. And that is what this card is all about. Finding something or someone who is so much a part of yourself, so perfectly attuned to you and you to them, that you cannot, dare not resist. This card indicates that the you have or will come across a person, career, challenge or thing that you will fall in love with. You will know instinctively that you must have this, even if it means diverging from your chosen path. No matter the difficulties, without it

I Love Them, With All My Heart And Soul. They Sing Things That Go On In My Head.
When you wake up to white walls and endless halls there's an emptiness that echoes through it all so sit back in your bed, with your mind medicated and your senses stuck on the sick scent of the dead You can call for the doctor...it's all you've got anymore. He's the ticket to the life you had before. If I could just make them see that I don't need this. doctor, doctor what am I here for? can't you see that I don't need this place? I don't need these walls, I'm no threat at all Is there a way we could maybe, through therapy, find a way to rate and release me I just need to be outside, even if supervised back to my job, back to my life yes I know what I've done and I regret it every day if I could make things right, you know i'd find a way but when I wake up to these white walls and the endless halls of the hospital I get lost in the emptiness that echoes though it all doctor, doctor what am I here for? can't you see that I don't need this place? I don't nee

I Love My Mommy
Ok ,maybe Im whoring my momma out , but Im allowed to because Im that awesome :p I just thought this was so funny .This was her latest blog .. so go by and rate Mommy Dearest(if you havent yet) and comment her ..shes my mom , so ya know shes something special . -------- have to share this my 4yr. old great niece that we watch all week went to walmarts with us today. first of all ya never know what's gonna come out of her mouth. there was a firetruck in the parkin lot and she wanted to know why it was there. we told her they collect for children. well, that was fine as we were headn down the road to get to my street she blurts out life alert. so naturally i ask what do you mean by that. she said Net that's what she calls me, she says Net you need life alert ok dumb founded i said why. she says that Cyndi my granddaughter said i was old and that i needed life alert. ok now you know the hubster and my daughter KIMBERLY MICHELE are havin a field day with this one. so i thought if ya

A Wonderful Read ..
If you love to read .. I've the book for you . well .. I guess you should love dogs .. and have a big box of tissue near by .. The book .. "Marley and Me" .. by John Grogan.. I laughed and laughed .. I cried .. and cried .and cried some more ...He writes lovingly about his neurtic dog Marley who just grows on you .. A must read in my eyes .. Mr Grogan tells a wonderful story .. not only of Marley but of his family .. their growing .. loving .. and experiences .He also has a Web site if you'd rather check things out prior to deciding weather to read or not .. www.marleyandme.com there you can see Pictures of Mr Grogans Family and of course Marley, He's got snippits from the book .. and his blog .. hoping you all enjoy .. as much as I did .. Wishing you all a wonderful day .. Wen :)

Whats Your Brain Pattern
Your Brain's Pattern You have a dreamy mind, full of fancy and fantasy. You have the ability to stay forever entertained with your thoughts. People may say you're hard to read, but that's because you're so internally focused. But when you do share what you're thinking, people are impressed with your imagination. What Pattern Is Your Brain?

Food Pairs...american Idol Sucks This Year
Good Morning, good morning to you. Sounds like the start of a song doesn’t it? Nah, just me being me. Did you get a chance to listen to the horrid singing last night of the American Idol (Male) Hopefuls? Let’s just say hope does not float. I would have preferred listening to cat scratch fever done by Phyllis Diller. My gosh they sucked! Hopefully the women shine tonight. I am slowly being weaned away from any remote possibility of continuing my torture of watching that show. Just like Survivor. Once again the show semi sucks because of lopsided teams. Oh well time for me to take of witchcraft. Or the studies of Hindu Voodoo. What is a Hindu? No idea… Ok as I was waffling around this am just prior to writing my daily dose of that special thing that comes out the south end of a north bound goose, when I seen on MSN FOOD-PAIRS oh yeah I like to eat, well I think everyone does or they would shrivel up to nothing more then a cadaver. Just how on earth does a dead body become a cadaver? I k

Slut Or Nut?
Congratulations your ALMOST a Slut! Just a wild night away! Go out and rack up some points! Your Motto: "Maybe Baby" Your Sign: "Curves Ahead" * Don't forget to pratice SAFE SEX! Take The Slut Quiz Now!"Slut Quiz - Men" is available here***starXtest v2.0***

The Best Analogy Yet!!!
Best analogy yet!!! Let's say I break into your house..... A lady wrote the best letter in the Editorials in ages!!! It explains things better than all the baloney you hear on TV. Her point: Recently large demonstrations have taken place across the country protesting the fact that Congress is finally addressing the issue of illegal immigration. Certain people are angry that the US might protect its own borders, might make it harder to sneak into this country and, once here, to stay indefinitely. Let me see if I correctly understand the thinking behind these protests. Let's say I break into your house. Let's say that when you discover me in your house, you insist that I leave. But I say, "I've made all the beds and washed the dishes and did the laundry and swept the floors. I've done all the things you don't like to do. I'm hard-working and honest (except for when I broke into your house). According to the protesters: ·

Do This For Me....
Would you makeout with me me? [] Hell Yea [] Yes [] No [] Maybe Would you sleep with me? [] In an instant! [] Yes [] No [] Maybe Am I attractive? [] Heck no [] hot as Hell [] Fine [] Cute [] Okay [] Ugly! Do you think I'm a virgin? [] Yes [] No [] Don't know Name one thing you would like to do to me... ____??? I look like.. [] A player [] One time thing [] Next bf/gf [] A friend [] A friend with benefits [] A possibility [] A loser If you saw me for the first time would you talk to me? [] Yes [] No [] maybe Would you rather.. [] Hook up with me [] Cuddle with me [] Date me [] Friends [] Friends with benefits On a scale of 1-10 (10 being the highest), rate me.. []1 []2 []3 []4 []5 []6 []7 []8 []9 []10 What would you want me to be to you? [] Friend [] Girlfriend/Boyfriend [] Friend with benefits [] Husband/Wife Would u give me your number if so let me get it? _____________________ Are you going to repost this so i can answer for you? [] Yes

Police Warning To My Space Users Please Read Important
important one... a serial killer on the loose! ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ POLICE WARNING TO MY SPACE USERS PLEASE READ IMPORTANT Please read this.....I hope that all of my Friends Post this and help keep our myspace friends safe. State police warning for online: Please read this "very carefully"..then send it out to all the people online that you know. Something like this is nothing to be taken casually; this is something you DO want to pay attention to. If a person with the screen-name of jokerkid613/Ja$on MoNeY contacts you, do not reply. DO NOT talk to this person; do not answer any of his/her instant messages or e-mail. Whoever this person may be, he/she is a suspect for murder in the death of 56 women (so far) contacted through the Internet. Please send this to all the women on your buddy list and ask them to pass this on, as well. This screen-name was seen on Yahoo, AOL, AIM, and Excite so far. This is not a joke! Please send this to men too..

Woot Announcment!
Just to keep you up to date on wuts not exciting and interesting. and because i dont wanna prep my uniform for tomarrow, i will entertain yall with a bloggizzle. First its official. B-Ry and Amber will be making a road trip two weeks from now. It will be for both buisness and pleasure. I will find out if i have diabitis and she will see the wonderful crack capital of the world. Win win situation right? Furthermore. yesterday was the two month mark for me. Exactly two months from yesterday i will hopfully be leavin town for a while to go become what i always wanted to be. A pornstar...i mean soldier. So anyway. Now that I have wasted your time, you should vote for me on this contest. I might give a lil surprise to whoever votes for me the most...ya never know. Bomb it and comment as much as you want. werd. Im not the sexiest, but you can lie for me right? http://cherrytap.com/viewimage.php?u=586853&i=27052603 oh and i almost forgot. My apartment is the cleanest its be

Light A Candle.
GREEN EYE BANDIT. ABRACADABRA! LIGHT A CANDLE. TURN THE LIGHTS OFF. CLOSE YOUR EYE'S. SAY MY NAME 3 TIMES AND BABY I'M YOURS. ABRACADABRA! FROM CD LOVE-U-UNCONDITIONAL WAR. with love, Myke Bragg LIGHT A CANDLE. TURN THE LIGHTS OFF. CLOSE YOUR EYE'S. FROM CD LOVE-U-UNCONDITIONAL WAR. with love, Myke Bragg

These Roses, These Thorns
These roses, these thorns. Each flower precious to the sight. Each thorn dangerous to the touch. Roses as red as the blood that flows though my heart. The life giving force that keeps me alive. These thorns, see how they prick These thorns, see how they draw blood These thorns, see how they cause pain My life giving force is flowing out of me now These thorns have found the part of me that is weak They have found the part in me that is vulnerable Each drop that falls from my skin is a sign of the pain that is inside of me. Each drop a representative of what i hold inside of me,the precious, the hidden. Each drop is needed, but yet it escapes as the thorns press into my flesh. How can this be stopped? How can something so beautiful cause so much pain? There is so much pain, there is so much blood But then, there are so many thorns to help it escape These thorns are not the cause only the result of the combining of the two, the petal to the stem.

Revised Pledge Of Allegience
I pledge defiance to the flag Of The United Snakes of America And To The Fascist State For Which It Stands One Nation Under God - OR ELSE!!!! With Liberty and Justice For All Who Can Afford It

The Pie And The Piercings....
"I changed my mind. I want pie today. Not tomorrow." "Kay. Call Sheryl. See if shes cool with that." "K. BYE!" Hang up. dial out. "Beanie Beanie Bo beanieeeee!!!!" She squeals. "I thought we were having dinner manana not today? Am i wrong?" "No your not wrong. We have to go out tonight...know why?" "Why?" she wonders. Inquiring minds and all that. "Cuz. I want pie now." I can practically HEAR her eyes roll around. "PLUS!!! We havta see MERL. We do. " "Youuuuuuuuuuuu guyssssssssss!!!!" she squeals. But I can hear the smile in her voice. Four hours later Dawn and I were snapping night pics of us and Merl. Friggen Dawn had to hump him with her vagina. She missed her occupation. She should be a fluffy pole dancer.... Anywho... Dawn and I got there first. Fricken Geeka is always late. This time she lost her keys. (altho i know where they were lost....more on that later) In she comes with her laptop and prom book. I mentally groaned. I th

Poem
Its sad and sweet and bitter inside a thing called adoration can make the strongest men weak and the weakest men mighty with ink you wake up next to someone that can destroy your soul and crush your emotions when it works its heavenly look into the eyes of your lover to know they are there for you keeping your universe together wondering what it was like before and nothing could be after but love for me is always a disaster ~Timmy~

Life
Ya know, i realized today, after talking to Derek... my head is pretty screwed up at times... i mean, after my mom died, things went downhill for me... BAD... i didn't know how to react to things... that STILL is something i deal with on a daily basis... i over react to small stuff, and under react to big things.... it's strange... it really messes w/ my thought process sometimes.... I was brutally honest telling him everything about me today. I am sick of people realizing it later and going whoa... ok, you're crazy. But, i think hes cool w/ it right now... we've been chatting like all day, so it's been pretty cool... in so many ways he reminds me of lindon... in like, the good ways, not the bad ones... all of the characteristics i loved about lindon, i really like in derek... and HE doesn't have an issue w/ my kids... First guy i liked who went out of his way to ask about my kids, AND BY NAME.... not just "how's ur kid" type thing... he actually directly asked something about Tash, ca

Scott, Part Ii
Wow... ok, so i got off work today, and was bombared w/ all these messaged on CT and Yahoo IM... I am not sure if he is just naturally that hateful, or if i really hurt him that badly that he would react this way. Although, goes to show, "love" means jack shit to people sometimes... they say it like it's nothing... and forget about it overnight... and go to saying all kinds of crazy shit... I dunno... i've been under hella stress recently... yeah, i made an ASS out of myself w/ the drama w/ scott the other night, god knows i know this already... but i wasn't expecting all of this... it was the same hateful messaged over and over and over ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Scotty: in fact i need to go back on there and make sure that all comments i left you are deleted as i don't want to be further associated with the likes of your Scotty: i had not further plans to..but ill go on your profile any damn time i please..you don't tell me what to do :) Scotty: don't flatter yourself..i al

Kid With Pet Contest Now Open
~~ Kid with pet contest ~~ I need kids with pet pics for my contest! Most comments wins! you can comment bomb ur own pic! 1st Kid is...... with 1 comments 2nd Kid is...... with 1 comments 3rd Kid is...... /cherrytap.com/viewimage.php?u=144590&i=3945380096" target=_blank> with 1 comment 2 gifts each winner! Send me ur pic to my inbox and i will add you in the contest! Contest will start 3/9 thur 3/16 Thanks Maria click pic to enter contest! ~*~Maria ~*~ Owner of Angel Family Hangout~*~And ~*~Angel Family Founder ~*~@ CherryTAP

About Kids
i live in wheeling, west virginia and i have children...a 15 year old daughter and a 9 year old son... recently there have been a rash of attempted child abductions and one was successful but her abductor let her go after he raped her and she was only 11 years old... i am as proud of my kids as any other parent but why do people post pics of their kids on the net? i think it is asking for trouble...the ones that post pics of their kids should not put where they are...leave it annonymous the US is a big place or don't put anything at all...the world is even bigger! just my thoughts

Hey Gurls
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Loss Of Unborn Baby Ii
well the sack finally came out yesterday it hurt worse than it did when i had contractions to have my kids im glad that its over i aint gonna have anymore kids no more i cant go through the heartbreak when i lose a baby and my body cant handle it either i really dont know how i even made myself go through 5 misscarriages and 4 live births i tried to tell the dr i had at the end of my last pregnancy that i wanted my tubes tied but he didnt do it so now this has happened hes going to in couple months cause they cant do it right away but imma ask to have the shot so i dont have my period i just dont want it at the moment anyways i hope noone has to go through misscarriages it hurts in more ways than 1 i know theres support groups for this too so if anyone has the misfortune of having a misscarriage then please go to a support group or make one if theres not one cause theres alot of comfort in knowing that your not alone when it comes to this. lots of Love to all you women that have had

Girls Drive Me Coo Coo Pt 2 (3-9-07)
Pittsburgh is one of those cities i had an ex live in. lets say she's older than me and i was probably just her personality i liked. her looks were not great. which shows i dont care about looks not saying im good looking but i am who i am As i listen to some Korn, I think about how I drove all the wait out there. drove 7 hrs to see a girl i really thought i was gonna work with. i took a risk. when will a girl take a risk with me? don't see that happening unless im rolling in $$ Long distance relationships seem to be a common day theme with me. Not that I have any right now. I have a lot of friends on here.. maybe 4 or 5 really say hi to me. let alone more than that. Friends are not really a defined term for me. I can go into the dictionary to see the the definition. I am quick to get into something. Thats why recently i've had to end some chances at happiness. maybe cause i didn't know the person fully before getting involved. maybe i am scared to lose the person

With Cherrytap I Can...
i am a designer in a very nice but BORING country. Thanks to cherrytap i can now... 1) get wasted while at work. 2) not get a hangover. 3) blurt out about WORK STUFF ...i wish there would be online house parties where you can wreak havoc on people's pads and puke all over the furniture and make out in their parents' bedrooms and get arrested by police and... oh, i find the interface a bit complex... have to get used to the morphed scattared ultra-personalized myspace-ish layout. cheers! Loe

#3
you did it like steel your heart feels the thorns you used to pierce my heart the knife you used in my back Nothing is what you mean Nothing is what you will be Fucked yourself again Is your orgasim as sweet Look at me and weep Remember the Sun and warm gone now your heart of steel One peg in the fence post by Debra Ex

St Patty's Day
Well it's almost a week until St Patty's Day! Does everyone have their plans in place for the pinching day? I know I do! Funny though, I have no idea where we are going though! All I know is that we have beads and pins that are green! So we have that covered. The pub, well it's in Paso Robles, CA that's all I know! Come Wednesday the 14th, I'm on a jet plane flying into Santa Barbara and going straight to Sharky's! After that...the pictures will have to do the talking! Happy St Patty's Day!

# 5 I Think
teasing and making you want getting you hot making you feel the heat the desire fuel burning down deep inside the warmth consuming you the sweetness of release the smile within the moment of freedom taking what you want making it what you need believing it will end trying again..and again explode into me tell me your dreams lick the taste from my skin is it enough ...for now by Debra Ex

Eyes
You scored as Eyes full of Pain. People tend to overlook you, which makes you feel less worthy of their attentions. You sometimes wish you could just disapear from the world around you. You have been hurt very badly in the past and you just wish that someone would understand you, and what their cruelty is doing to you.Eyes full of Pain100%Passion83%Mysterious83%Diamond Eyes50%What do your eyes reveal about you?(PICS!)created with QuizFarm.com

Words On A Page. . .
I like to read. I always have. Now when I say read, I don't mean flipping through magazines for the pretty pictures, no I like to read books. I know what some of you are thinking; "He likes the ones with the pretty pictures that stand up when you turn the page." Contrary to popular belief I read actual books. I will read most anything. I love fantasy novels, although my experience with such works is limited. I have read 5 different series' and have not branched out to many different authors because I like to stick to who I know I like to read. There still are some authors that I want to read. In time I will. Another genre that I enjoy is action/thriller, Dan Brown and the like. They make me think and that is good. I need a story that will keep my interest. Unlike movies which I will literally watch anything, I am way more picky when it comes to books. Stephen King usually holds onto my brain and keeps it spinning, so his books are usually on my shelves. I need to be enterta

You Know Who You Are
I Have an Angel Not in the sky, But here, on Earth. Just outside of my hometown. I do admit, She brings me pain. But She's the only one, That CAN keeps me sane. She makes me laugh. She makes me smile. She makes me feel like , i could just cry. As long as I have her in my WORLD. The pain and joy will always be worth my while. For there is No Fear of an Angel. If I were to some day awake. And she was to have disapeared And never too reapear. I don't know what I would do. For losing her. "Is always my biggest Fear!" Besos para ti my Angel I have only this one FEAR in my whole WORLD

You Either Love Me Or Hate Me
That is it plain and simple, you either love me or hate me. Usually because I am blunt and to the point and say what is exactly on my mind. However the reason the reason why people sometimes do not like me is that when I speak they fly off the handle and do not let me finish my train of thought before they decide they are offended and storm off and stop listening before I finish. Then later I have to apologize with my tail between my legs, explaining what I really meant and then smoothing thins over, when all that could have been avoided when people would just listen to me in the first fucking place. I mean seriouly. I am really tired of people expecting everying thing a one way fucking street. I am tired of being the one way street, walking on egg shells with everyone else when they dont do the same considerations for me. I dont deal well with hipocracy and I dont see why I have to be the one kissing ass all the damn time. For one I detest ass kissing, whether I am kissing som

Why, I Want To Know
Why is it always me? I can never find a guy to make me happy. I always find the losers of the world, I really do wish I was another girl. I'm tired of being told I'm so nice and so sweet. Maybe if I was mean, there'd be a nice guy out there I'd meet. I'm tired of being lonely, but, tired of being used. I'm hoping and praying for God to bring me good news. Is there something wrong with me? Is there something in my life that I've done to make me unworthy

What I Am
You scored as Faerie. Faerie: Aren\'t you a cute little flying person? Faeries are earth spirits. They live among each element completely hidden. They have cousins called Pixies. Pixies however, are very mischevious. They enjoy tormenting other creatures for fun. Little pranksters.. I hope you never meet one. Pixies have a bad reputation for finding a creature and clinging to them until death. Faeries can be somewhat close to a Pixie, but mostly they are loving, playful, and carry with them a child-like enthusiasm for life. Hide among the pedals of a Daisy, you are a Faerie.Angel100%Faerie100%Demon58%WereWolf50%Dragon42%Mermaid33%What Mythological Creature are you? (Cool Pics!)created with QuizFarm.com It seems I am both a full fledged Angle and Fairy, maybe I\'m a new breed. You scored as Blue. Your heart is blue. You are a very calm and relaxed person. You are very caring and like helping others. You\'re grateful for what you have in life, even if it\'s not perfect. People

Work
I just got a call. I a to work from 1pm until 10. These are not the hours i want to work. I would much rather work in the day but this is what is available. I have no choice when i work. All i can do for now is cross my fingers and hope that my next job is a morning one.

I Miss You All The Time...
7 years ago today I had the worst day of my life and I will never stop thinkin about it. March 12, 2000 I gave birth to the mostamazing little girl who lived for 5 minutes at died in my arms. I would give anything to have her back. However the world had another plan for her. So as her mother I'm angry that the world took her from me and her from the world, however I thank the world for taking her from a life that would have been hell. I give kudo's to all the children out there in this world with birth defects I cant imagine what life is like. I will never forget her and she will always be on my mind. and I am fortunate to be blessed with my son who's healthy and amazing. Life throws many things is front of our path and it's our resposbilty to over come them. SO remeber this what does not kill you will only make you a stonger and better person. and for me wont you give you son or daughter a kiss and tell them you love them even if they are a brat you lucky to have them... In mem

Its Just Me
Sometimes I wonder who really cares.Doesnt meen someone did something wrong.I just get to the point where I dont feel loved.Like I am on this earth and not important to anyone.Dont think its you because it isnt.I have started to feel dead inside.Like the world has gone on but I was left behind.It is a cold place Im in.I long for the warmth that I once knew.Then again who really cares?Its just me.

Daydreaming
I'm feeling: restless You'll find me: listening to music As I look out the window, I see the sun rays coming in uninvited, and daydream of jumping on the rays to see the world in a better light. But as the rays fade away so do my dreams.

Judgement
Everyday as we work, play, and any other life activities we make judgements. On ourselves, choices, and mostly other people. I'm sure everyone has heard of Karma no matter what your beliefs. We all sit here wondering why this world has become so negative and chaotic. I will tell you the answer I feel that the world has turned this path, it all has to do with Karma. Everything we say is energy, wheither it be positive or negative words. If we are a negative person who constantly judges (talks bad about) other people, curses all the time, acts irrationly negative/violent, gripes and complains all the time, and puts out negative vibes into this world; then it comes back to that person in the way they put it out, negative. I know of people that sit there all day talking about their "friends" and gripes about how crappy their life is. People like this only have it hard because that is the energy they put out there, and I pity them. Putting out negative energy, in my opinion is a

True Quotes
GREAT LOVE: It's when you shed tears yet you still care; it's when you're ignored yet you still long; it's when she begins to love another yet you still smile and say "I'm happy for you." -anonymous ------------- It's amazing how someone can break your heart, but you still love them with all the little pieces. -unknown ---------- The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can't have them. -Unknown

I'm A Loser, Baby, So Why Don't You Kill Me?
It's come to my attention a few things that I hate. Like...people on your friends list that don't reply to messages you send them (this is really more of a Myspace rant)...hey, if you're supposed to be on my friends list, respond to my fucking messages! Like it really takes that long to hit the little reply button and say "Hey, I'm a busy motherfucker but I took three seconds out of MY day to let you know that I still love you." Not hard, people! I also despise people that don't return phone calls, especially when there is a voicemail message left to accompany these calls. I'm pretty guilty of this myself, I can't lie...so I probably despise myself too, but damn it...let me know you're ALIVE, at least, holy shit. God, last night was so craptacular I could cry. I'm learning to do laundry by hand in the bathtub due to my brokeness (the laundromat is starting to break me, i have to go too often), and, well, because it would be nice of me to learn to live without some things (I'

The Havamal.
The havamal Young and alone on a long road, Once I lost my way: Rich I felt when I found another; Man rejoices in man, A kind word need not cost much, The price of praise can be cheap: With half a loaf and an empty cup I found myself a friend, Two wooden stakes stood on the plain, On them I hung my clothes: Draped in linen, they looked well born, But, naked, I was a nobody Too early to many homes I came, Too late, it seemed, to some: The ale was finished or else un-brewed, The unpopular cannot please, Some would invite me to visit their homes, But none thought I needed a meal, As though I had eaten a whole joint, Just before with a friend who had two The man who stands at a strange threshold, Should be cautious before he cross it, Glance this way and that: Who knows beforehand what foes may sit Awaiting him in the hall? Greetings to the host, The guest has arrived, In which seat shall he sit? Rash is he who at unknown

Could Resident Evil Be Real?
In the movie/video game Resident Evil, a fictional multinational company, the Umbrella Corporation, creates a virus that re-animates dead tissue, in many cases, creating "zombies", humans who no longer have any higher brain function, who are nearly impervious to most damage, and have only one driving instinct; to kill and eat the living. This makes for great video games and movies, but is of course purely science fiction horror…or is it? Currently, at least one real world multinational corporation is delving into research that could theoretically create just such a horror epidemic. Of course, the research is being conducted under the auspices of the most humane purposes, but there are obvious military applications, and we all know, that is how all good zombie films start. It is really the combination of a number of different but related lines of research that, when combined, could lead to something akin to a Resident Evil. The first is the MRL mouse. W

The Ultimate Showdown
Just to show you how much spare time we cyber-nerds have, you may have noticed on various message boards, the running debate as to who would win in a battle between Michael Myers, Freddy Krueger and Jason Voorhees--almost as vehement a debate as who was a better captain, Kirk or Picard. Some like to throw Pinhead and/or Leatherface into the mix, but as Leatherface is based on a totally mundane person, and Pinhead is an extra dimensional demon, I will stick with the seminal killers. Let's start with Freddie. While the mythos has altered somewhat throughout the series, he is basically a psychic entity, having no real existence in our world. Said to be the bastard child of a thousand maniacs, he went on to become a serial child murder, who was burned alive by angry parents. He then became able to manifest in the dreams of the new children, and to effect them physically in those dreams. Granted, a twist of fate made it possible for him to face Jason Voorhees in the movie Fredd

What Kind Of Mixed Drink Are You?
You Are a Mai Tai You aren't a big drinker, but you'll drink if the atmosphere is festive. And when you're drunk, watch out! You're easily carried away. What Mixed Drink Are You?

Fear
I wrote this when I was like 17, working 3rd shift security in an abandoned hospital. Waiting in the halls of madness, Lurking in the endless night Lies the creature of my torment Stalks the cause of all my fright. Silently it sits there waiting I cannot pinpoint its place Still, its presence fills the room. Hiding in every dark place. Were I stronger I would face it, Cause my foe to bear the shame. If I could but find and name it… Our weaknesses would be the same. Taking reign of all my courage, I now know what must be done T'is by logic, not emotions, That the battle will be won. Warily, I stalk the shadows Think to myself, "What is the worst…" Broke and battered, they pack my body, Inside any waiting hearse Bolder now, I charge the darkness, Determined now to find my fear. Flush it from its place of hiding Find out what it wants in here. Then I see it, wrapped in shadows Its rising shadow loom

Would Somebody Please Tell Me....
This is pissing me off. Would somebody please tell me what is NSFW about this wallpaper that I did? Click here to see the wallpaper Honestly though, If you think that one of my graphics are NSFW then please send me a PM about it. I will mark it MYSELF, I swear I will. But how can I start making them more acceptable to the general public if someone does not tell me what I am doing wrong in the first place. I am not looking for an argument, I will not post shit about you or none of that. I just want to figure out how to keep my graphics visible by keeping them out of the NSFW file. Eddie

Tuesday And Thoughtful
I think i'm getting numb to the whole being alone thing. I'm sitting here wondering where i stand with friends and family. its all a mystery with me. I wonder how everything will pan itself out. I hope for the best yet never get it. how is everybody doing? its quiet right now. my handful of ppl im pretty close with barely know me. I felt like writing stuff people don't know about me. Yet it just wasn't a good time cause I'm in a pretty good mood. I'm listening to Chris Isaac on my cd. He's one of my favorite singers that makes me feel better without being heavy. Like Disturbed, Nickleback , or three days grace. American Idol is getting kinda boring. My dad loves it and it is kinda strange. Maybe he just likes old music cause they don't really sing current stuff. Anyways I hope you all are good and keep in touch. :P timmy!!!!!

Will You Give This To My Daddy?
Last week I was in Atlanta , Georgia attending a conference. While I was in the airport, returning home, I heard several people behind me beginning to clap and cheer. I immediately turned around and witnessed one of the greatest acts of patriotism I have ever seen. Moving thru the terminal was a group of soldiers in their camo's, as they began heading to their gate everyone (well almost everyone) was abruptly to their feet with their hands waving and cheering. When I saw he soldiers, probably 30-40 of them, being applauded and cheered for it hit me. I'm not alone. I'm not the only red blooded American who still loves this country and supports our troops and their families. Of course I immediately stopped and began clapping for these young unsung heroes who are putting their lives on the line everyday for us so we can go to school, work and home without fear or reprisal. Just when I thought I could not be more proud of my country or of our service men and women a young girl, not more

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"letting Go"
It’s over now No use in fighting Over who was right or Who was wrong? The writing on the wall Long told the story That this wasn’t to be We pulled at it for long There is no use When one wants The other doesn’t Was it you Was it I Whose keeping count Doesn’t matter Does it make my heart feel better? How ‘bout yours? We’ve tried Been there Stayed there Played with it Perhaps we should try the truth Although the truth isn’t pretty But that is what It’s come down to Right To love someone is beautiful To be loved by someone Is to be treasured Sometimes love is not enough It’s true Used to wonder how that could be When I always felt with love Everything should just fall in place Work out, you know No Don’t work like that Then again, it all depends if One knows what true love Is all about? Relationships have to be built On more than love You see it’s Communication Give-and-take Forgiveness Unselfishness Truth Patience Und

I Didn't Write This. But It Appeals To Me Right Now
Everything's so blurry and everyone's so fake and everybody's empty and everything is so messed up pre-occupied without you I cannot live at all My whole world surrounds you I stumble then I crawl You could be my someone you could be my sea you know that i'll protect you from all of the obscene I wonder what you're doing imagine where you are there's oceans in between us but that's not very far Can you take it all away can you take it all away well ya shoved it in my face this pain you gave to me Can you take it all away can you take it all away well ya shoved it my face Everyone is changing there's noone left that's real to make up your own ending and let me know just how you feel cause I am lost without you I cannot live at all my whole world surrounds you I stumble then I crawl You could be my someone you could be my sea you know that i will save you from all of the unclean I wonder what you're doing I wonder where you are There's oceans

Fail Forward
Failure is not the opposite of success. Failure is an important component of success. Suppose you set an objective, take action, and then fail to reach that objective on the first attempt. Even though you have experienced a failure, you're in much better shape than you were before you started. Because you've just learned, in a compelling and meaningful way, what doesn't work. And that puts you well on the way to finding what does work. The greatest achievements of all time are built upon multiple failures. The greatest achievers are those who are willing to experience failure on their way to the success they know will most certainly come. No one sets out with the intention of failing. Yet when failure comes, it is nothing to be ashamed of, and no reason to give up. Learn to see failure as just another step in the process of success. And even when the failures come, they will serve to move you forward. -- Ralph Marston

Poem
Molestation of Me Thoughts of your hand on my skin- committing the devils treachery makes me incapacitated with failure- saturating me with your possessive infestation. What happened to no meaning no? Moments after you have left, I close my eyes and shriek. I taste the devil on the tip of my tongue depression is lost inside me diffusing the descendant of your brush ingrained inside my essence. A friend is not worth anything when you step beyond the covenant and attempt to be more than I desire and force yourself on me. I shudder with indignity and the misery is almost- too much to endure. I keep jostling my head back and forth seeking to cancel what just happened. I twist into an orb of haven thoughts racing through my head.. You play the contest of the impostor- when faced with your crimes you point a finger at me and say I entice you. Thoughts of him still consume me as an original

If You Don't Like The Weather - Wait 5 Minutes!
FFS! We had 72 degree temps here on Tuesday. Today we're in the middle of a frickin' blizzard! There was 3-car (well, a van, a bus and a car) accident at the school when I was picking up the kids. There was another accident at the corner of my street. I'm thankful that I'm home and the kids and I are in one piece. Pookey's not home yet but he's been warned to be damn careful. Bring on Spring!

A Dance
A Dance Can you feel it going around you closing in? Tighter it gets reminding you about your sins Elegantly wrapping your body so tight Letting you know you’re going to be mine tonight My hands now run over your body ever so sweetly Teasing you at every little touch so very softly As I stand behind you and bring you closer to me Now I whisper in your ear to put you at ease Rest your mind and let your body slowly give in In you heart and soul tonight I free you from sin Your thoughts run wild as your mind starts to race With my soft touch I will lead you to a special place Ropes may bind your body but never your mind Smile sweet and be ready for one hell of a passionate time We shall dance tonight like never before And if I’m lucky we will dance this dance many times more Poetry In Motion “Mario” http://www.myspace.com/dying_poet http://blog.myspace.com/dying_poet

A Dark Ally....
A Dark Ally … Across a crowded I see you talking there I’m doing my best to hide and not to stare That little black dress you have on tonight Shows off that body all nice and tight With your long hair reaching down your back Drives me wild as I do my best not to attack I know you seen me staring at you But what’s a guy like me supposed to do I seen you smile when I caught your eye Think I didn’t see you acting all shy You smile at me and do the very same As we both start to play this little game I start to walk through the crowded floor As you start to head towards the downstairs door Turning for a second to make sure that I see you With a wicked smile you see I’m almost through You head to the stairs then stop and wait I’m just seconds behind and I’m hopping not too late I see you know standing there with eyes on fire The truth is out know I can’t hide the desire Hand in hand we run down the stairs Knowing tonight we’ll have nothing to fear Walking ou

Now You Be The Judge Tap
YOU TELL ME HOW THIS TAG QUALIFIES AS NSFW? IF YOU THINK THIS TAG ROCKS AND KICKS ASS THEN GO BOMB THE HELL OUT OF IT IF ANYTHING IT SHOWS TRUE AMERICAN SPIRIT AND PRIDE FOR THE UNITED STATES MARINE CORE AND ALL MILITARY IF YOU THINK ITS NSFW THEN YOUR A HATER AND HAVE NO AMERICAN PRIDE! IF YOU DONT LIKE IT THEN LEAVE THE UNITED STATES YOU PUNK ASS BITCHES!

Not Written By Me
When I think of a Soldier When I think of a soldier I think about you Someone courageous, brave, loyal and true When I think of a soldier I often feel your pain Torn from your loved ones, off to War again When I think of a soldier my eyes fill with tears As you are shipped away, sometimes for years When I think of a soldier I often feel guilty For all the lives lost and all the loves scarred I wish I could stop it, but it’s a task that’s too hard When I think of a soldier I can’t help but feel pride Knowing Osama Bin Laden will run out of places to hide When I think of a soldier I feel safe back at home Knowing we are protected by great people like you When I think of a soldier I think about you For all you sacrifice, for all you do When I think of a soldier I just have to say You make me PROUD to live in the U.S.A. © Jennifer Ann Hultmark 2005

Sex Slave Contest
I Decided what the Hell. Why not Lol And what recognition would the winner get. Let alone the title Lol.. Sex Kitten or Sex Slave, Mistress. So if you're interested in applying yourself.. Do so and tell me. I'll have a pic of your choice ripped, When I've at least 10 or more applicants. Let the sweet game begin. The most comments spammed on the pics will be the winner.. The winner may request Camming, Cybering, Or a Bombing on comments within a contest of their own? Maybe even a Diamond ring.. :p

Have You Ever?
Have I Ever Have I ever told you that if I sit really still and silent, sometimes. I like to think I can hear your heart beating in time with mine? Have I ever told you that when I watch you speak to me through lines and cords, and bytes and ram, I imagine your voice, whispering into my ear? Have I ever told you that I wait out each day in anticipation, wanting only an hour or two, just a second in space and time, to feel close to you? Have I ever told you that there has been times, when I ached for you, ached for you so badly, that the emotions overwhelmed me.. and so I sat and cried? Have I ever told you that sometimes, I will reach out, touching your name on this cold screen before me, wishing I could reach in and pull you to me? Have I ever told you that after the first time I heard the sound of your voice, thousands of miles away, I sat up all night, turning the conversation over and over in my mind, examining it, like some new

Poem 1
Always, deep within my soul, I know we have a love like no other. What we share is something others only hope for and dream of, but few ever experience. Our love is magical beyond belief. Always, without hesitation, you give of yourself completely. You have reached the very depths of my soul, bringing out emotions I never knew I had and unveiling an ability to love I never thought possible.

Argue With A Woman?????
One morning, a husband returns after several hours of fishing and decides to take a nap. Although not familiar with the lake, his wife decides to take their boat out. She motors out a short distance, anchors, and takes out her book. Along comes a game warden in his boat. He pulls up alongside the woman and says, "Good morning, Ma'am. What are you doing?" "Reading a book," she replies (thinking, "Isn't it obvious?!"). "You're in a restricted fishing area," he informs her. "I'm sorry, Officer, but I'm not fishing, I'm reading." "Yes, but you have all the equipment. For all I know you could start at any moment. I'll have to take you in and write you up." "If you do that, I'll have to charge you with sexual assault," says the woman."But I! haven't touched you," says the game warden."That's true, but you have all the equipment. For all I know, you could start at any moment." "Have a nice day, ma'am," he said.and quickly left. MORAL OF STORY: NEVER ARGUE WITH A WOMAN WHO RE

Strip Poker
strip poker - by someonne in the UK We’d all been to the pub and had a few pints. There was six of us, myself, Barney, Michelle, Anna, James and Jane. We’d all known each other for a long time. I was single and loved to entertain. James was Anna’s other half and Michelle was with Barney. I’d spent the night flirting with Jane and was hoping to get somewhere with her. The pub had shut and I’d invited them all back to mine for more drink. James didn’t seem keen and neither did Barney but their girlfriends convinced them. Barney and James had grown very boring in the last few years and even thought they were 27, they acted 50 sometimes. Their partners, Michelle and Anna were wild and loved a party and never let their partners hold them back especially when they were drunk as they were tonight. I cracked open some wine and beer we all sat round chatting. I’d not really paid much attention to Michelle and Anna. My eyes always wondered thought when I was fairly pickled and tonight

Once You Go Grunge...
Okay, so I'm in the mood to make a good grunge CD. I have a decent amount of Stone Temple Pilots and Pearl Jam and stuff, but does anyone have any suggestions for something good to download that would round out my CD? I would appreciate anyone's input as this is the focus of my lazy ass day, haha. Either comment or send me a private message. Everyone's input is appreciated... Thanks Jessie

R.i.p. Little Buddy
I wrote this back in July 7 2006 But I feel it needs to be posted again. I've always thought that it was hard to write about the loss of someone and it's harder if it'ssomeone you know. I've found out today that not only is it hard but even harder to right about a child. My nephew lost his 3 year old son last night and it is going to be hard on veryone that knows little J.D. J.D. was a very loving kid who loved to play and help his dad and mom. At gatherings he would play with the other kids and even find a way to get the adults to join in the fun. He always did what his mom and dad asked him to do, Even if it really should not have been done. (Mostly dad's doings.) He lived a very short life, but in this time he taught us all what love really means. He reminded us that no matter how old we are we are never too old to have fun. He reminded us that no matter what kind of trouble we ay find it will always turn out OK in the end. And with all this he has reminded us of a few last

Kids
Why we love kids..... NOW YOU SEE WHY WE FIND THEM SO IRRESISTABLE!! ENJOY! MOMMA (repost of original by '(Momma) Sinfulmans Wife ¢¾' on '2007-03-18 10:44:42') (repost of original by 'annieo/astarte-protectress of souls co-fnder and regulator of ldcf/ct wifey to booshine&moosejr' on '2007-03-18 11:00:16') (repost of original by 'Emanon~Forever Fake~~Father of The Fallen Ones~~' on '2007-03-18 11:43:27')

Religion (1)
I can see I'm going to end up writing a few entries on this topic as time goes by; so I'm having to lable this entry with a (1). I'm inspired to write this entry by a certain user who has had a cherry blast up for some time now, who is most obsessed with jesus. My first point for discussion (thru comments on this blog) is, how healthy is it to identify yourself by your belief system? There are millions of people across the planet of all different faiths, who are completely convicted to their faith (me included; and no i'm not christian) who don't identify who they are, by their faith system. I'm not knocking any faith system here, I believe life is about respect, and if someone has a different faith system to me, then thats kool. Nor am I singling this particular user out, I merely used him as an example to kick start this entry. What I am saying is regardless of your faith system, you are your own person. You define yourself through your words, deeds and the people you hang

My Birthday Celebration
ok well i had a blast for my birthday weekend ...thought it was gonna be a plain weekend ....boy was i wrong! saturday was my 23rd b-day my mom took me my man and my neice to red lobster .....i figured its my birthday be adventurous...opps not good idea ...i tried lobster tail EW well the maine lobster tail wasnt so bad but rock lobster YUCK! so yeah i got a 30 dollar dinner and barely ate any of it.....well then i got home i was going to go up to the shop but my friend called and invited me out to a place called tiki bobs in pontiac....pretty kool place, played a lot of techno....only complaint it was packed and drinks were expesive i got 2 double shots of capt and a miller high life (20oz) it cost 23 freaking dollars eh oh well cantchange it now......well any way we got there at 1130 and i was wasted by 1230....i had total of 8 double shot like 6 or 7 miller high lifes....3 yeager bombs a shot called superman yum! and 3 other shots! i was so shit face.....i rode a mechicinal bull and

Thumbling
There was once a poor peasant who sat in the evening by the hearth and poked the fire, and his wife sat and spun. Then said he, how sad it is that we have no children. With us all is so quiet, and in other houses it is noisy and lively. Yes, replied the wife, and sighed, even if we had only one, and it were quite small, and only as big as a thumb, I should be quite satisfied, and we would still love it with all our hearts. Now it so happened that the woman fell ill, and after seven months gave birth to a child, that was perfect in all its limbs, but no longer than a thumb. Then said they, it is as we wished it to be, and it shall be our dear child. And because of its size, they called it thumbling. Though they did not let it want for food, the child did not grow taller, but remained as it had been at the first. Nevertheless it looked sensibly out of its eyes, and soon showed itself to be a wise and nimble creature, for everything it did turned out well. One day the peasant was getti

Rip Gavin Tyler Gray
R.I.P. GAVIN TYLER GRAY JUST FOUND OUT MY COUSIN'S BABY PASSED AWAY SOMETIME THIS MORNING GAVIN TYLER GRAY 03/18/2006--03/19/2007 HE TURNED ONE YESTERDAY PLEASE PRAY FOR HIS FAMILY; PARENTS: JESSE AND PAGE GRAY GRANDMOTHER VONNIE GRAY I'M SORRY, I CAN'T BE THERE FOR MY FAMILY

Now That I've Listened
to all the most depressing music i could have possibly listened to. I feel better about everything. I came to the conclusion that I am completely and utterly worthless. I'll probably never reach a man that will put up with my neurosis, and that i'll die alone. It's depressing, but theres plenty of valium and vodka where that came from!

Poem 1
the darkness in your heart swallowed the light that i had in my heart. i dont cry ne more tears over that fact that you ripped my heart out. moving on wth life is harder then i thought. but everyday i'm movin closer to the surface again. no thanks to you. i'm pickin up all the peices and puttin myself back together. hoping that somewhere out there is my soulmate. the one person to make me happy. just beginging to luv myself for who i am now. i hate the fact that you made me a bitch but thank you for teachin my how to stand up for myself and for makin me come out of hiding. i'm not livin in your shadow ne more and it feels great.

Time To Let Go
Time To Let Go! If I could stop my heart from loving you, I would be free from all of this pain. Knowing no matter how much I love you, you are never going to feel the same. I have done everything that I know how, to show my love and devotion to you. But it isn't enough to make you love me, so I'm now left, with nothing that I can do. There was a time when I thought you did; guess it was only an illusion in my mind. As I had held onto any glimmer of hope, to have a love with you, I'd wanted to find. But time comes when you have to let go, because the love you want can never be. And now, with great sadness in my heart, I know the time to let go has come for me.

A Call To All Cnc And Fff Of Ct Ice P Needs Us Now All Friends An Fans Who Support The Cnc An The Fff
OKAY LISTEN UP ALL MEMBERS OF THE COWGIRLS AND COWBOYS OF CT AND ALL MEMBERS OF THE FURIOUS FIGHTING FIRE FIGHTERS THIS IS A CALL FOR HELP TO GO BOMB THE HELL OUT OF ICE PRINCESS CONTEST PIC AS SHE WAS BEING GIVEN SHIT TODAY BY SOME UNKNOWN NAME PERSON AND WE REALLY NEED TO PUT AN END TO THE CRAP AND SHOW ICE P WHAT THE HELL WE ARE REALLY MADE OF SHE PUTS HER LIFE ON THE LINE EVERYDAY 24 HOURS A DAY SHE SAVES LIVES EVERYDAY LIVES LIKE YOURS AND MINE LETS MAKE HER SEE WHAT WE ARE REALLY MADE OF SO MYSELF AND FIREMAN185 AND OUTLAW ANGEL AND ONECRAZYMAMA ARE ASKING FOR ALL OF YALLS HELP ANYONE WHO HAS BEEN READING MY BLOGS AND ICE PRINCESS BLOGS KNOW WHATS GOING ON WE WANNA MAKE HER FIRST AND GIVE HER THIS WIN FOR THE CNC AND THE FFF OF CT SO COME YALL GO BOMB HER ASS SHE NEEDS US NOW MORE THEN EVER..>/b>

Attitude Adjustment
Attitude Adjustment A big Texan gets married to a very small and pretty little lady. After the wedding they're in their honeymoon suite and getting ready for their first night together as a married couple. They're both on different sides of the bed getting undressed when all of a sudden that big Texan takes off his pants and throws them over onto her side of the bed and says put those on! The little lady being surprised by his actions says, honey you know I can't fill those big pants you wear. The Texan smiles back her and say that's right! I just wanted you to know who wears the pants in this family and that's the way I want it to stay! The little lady thinks for a minute and takes off her panties and throws them over onto his side of the bed and says put these panties on!! That big old Texan picks up the little lace panties and says baby you know I can't get into these pretty little lace panties you wear. She smiles back at him and says that's right, and don't ex

What Does Your Favorite Outfit Say About You?
What Your Green Outfit Means Having a unique style of dress is quite important to you. You're a bit of an oddball, but you're also very friendly. No worries - people find your eccentricities charming! Designer match: Diane Von Furstenberg Signature accessory: A vintage purse What Does Your Favorite Outfit Say About You?

Cherry Blast For Mistress M
It's about time this Mistress gets her own Cherry Blast, so, I just want to know who will be the first lucky one to be honored by making a tribute to Mistress M with her first Cherry Blast.... Surprise Me! p.s. just wait for new more exciting pictures to come.... Lots of Love & Whips Mistress M

Truth Or Dare
Truth or Dare and be honest. Fill this out and send it to my INBOX!! I dare you... to tell me the truth.. Four things you wonder about me 1. 2. 3. 4. Three things you like about me 1. 2. 3. Two things you don't like about me 1. 2. My best feature 1. Two things you want to do with me 1. 2. One word that describes me 1. One question for me 1. I dare you to repost this see how many people do this to you

Shit Happens
SHIT HAPPENS in various world religions TAOISM: Shit happens. CONFUCIANISM: Confucius say, "Shit happens". ZEN: (What is the sound of shit happening?) JESUITISM: If shit happens and when nobody is watching, is it really shit? ISLAM: Shit happens if it is the will of Allah. COMMUNISM. Equal shit happens to all people. CATHOLICISM: Shit happens because you are bad. PSYCHOANALYSIS: Shit happens because of your toilet training. SCIENTOLOGY: Shit happens if you're on our shit list. ZOROASTRIANISM: Bad shit happens, and good shit happens. UNITARIANISM: Maybe shit happens. Let's have coffee and donuts. RIGHT-WING PROTESTANTISM: Let this shit happen to someone else. JUDAISM: Why does shit always happen to US? REFORM JUDAISM: Got any Kaopectate? MYSTICISM: What weird shit! AGNOSTICISM: What is this shit? ATHEISM: I don't believe this shit! NIHILISM: Who needs this shit? AZTEC: Cut out this shit

Done
ok thats it i have finally come to see that people simply lie / fib/ or use whte lies for no reason. it pisses me off. i am tired of having somthing to look forward to and them get ignored. so unless you mean what your saying to me then please dont say it.

Last Night
Ok, so last night was the first real night I have had to spend some time alone. I ran a nice hot tub of water with some bubble stuff in it, sit down and relaxed for a very long time...just kept heating the water up until I was all relaxed. I then took the time to do some shaving, all parts!!! I felt great afterwards! Would have been better if some one had been there to spend it with me though! Darla

Someone Rated Your Photo A '4'
When I first signed up, I thought, hmmmmmm, pic ratings. And with the sensory overload, I rated that way unknowingly about points and that it can piss people off.... Anyway. I got one today. But I don't care. Of course, there are those souls out there that get offended or ticked off (jealousy) over another user's popularity, for whatever reason, and go to town rating a user's pics low. I've had my share of Y! Chat drama, perhaps I've come across some users that frequented 20's love rooms.... ... drama is a waste of time.

My Study Has Started...
and it is starting with the same outcome that I thought it would. Interesting, I was hoping that it wouldn't.... People are so vain, and it doesn't matter if you have an awesome personality. If you are not hot, then you get less attention then someone who exudes tremendous outward beauty even if they have a total bitchy personality. More later...

Jacked Up
If you take a look at the following picture, let me tell you ... it is not animated. Your eyes are making it move. To test this, stare at one spot for a couple seconds and everything will stop moving. Or, look at the black center of each circle and it will stop moving. But move your eyes to the next black center and the previous will move after you take your eyes away from it. . . . Weird

My Personal Pictures Are Open..
And they will be for an hour. I'll make my main picture one of myself during that time... I'm no Jennifer Aniston, but some of them are good pics :) Let me know what you think, and repost this if you have a minute! thanks! Please fan/add me if you show love, so I can be sure to return it!@ CherryTAP

Personal Survey
1. Who were you with last night? Sean and my kids 2. What woke you up this morning? I woke up naturally. 3. Where are you? In the comp/alligator room. 4. Is tomorrow going to be a good day? It's Friday.. 5. did u kiss or hug anyone today? Nope. not yet! 6. When was the last time you cried? Watching a tv show last night. -The PAST- 7.Ever thrown up in public? I think so. 8. Passed out because of alcohol? yes 9. what's on your mind right now? My son's b-day next Tue. 10. Would you take a bullet for anyone? I wouldn't put myself in a situation where I'd have to, but there are a couple people I would for. 11. Where would you like to live? Sicily. 12. What kind of home would you like? One that's mine. 13. What do you want to be when you grow up? I am grown up and I love what I am :) 14. Where do you see yourself in 5 years? Who knows! - ON MYSPACE - 15. Who is your number one? Sean 16. Have you kissed your number one? Duh, he's the mos

Planes, Trains And Never Automobiles!
When you are travelling, especially on trains. There's always one fucking nutter that sits opposite you, and tries to engage you in a conversation. You politely; make some form of gesture to acknowledge them, and they take it; as an open invitation to launch into some tirade of verbal detritus. I'm of the conclusion that when I'm travelling, I'm flypaper for freaks. Whether I'm alone or in company, people seem to think they can chat to me! Do I look like a freakin people person?!?!?!? Over the years, I've come to recognise the signs (or is that the stereotypes?) and stick my earphones in fast and gaze blankly out of the window. I learnt fast, never pick up a book and try to read! The Travel creep, will have; 1. Read it themselves and launch into a synopsis. Thus ruining the book and making it a waste of time reading it. 2. Will ask if it's any good, and could you recommend it. 3. Find some other bizarre way of getting you to talk using the book as ammo. First r

Gimme Input :)
[]My house []Ur House []Pool []Shower []parents room LOL OTHER....please explain in () 2.What position? []Doggy Style []Missionary []69 []OTHER...() 3.What would you use?? []chains and whips []choc. syrup and whip cream []strawberries and whip cream []cherries and chocolate []ropes and hand cuffs OTHER...() 4.Lights? []ON []OFF 5.Where would you take me 4 a date before all of this? ()PLEASE EXPLAIN 6.Givin Head? []Yes []No 7.Gettin some head []Yes []No 8.Protection? []Yes []No 9.Day or Night? []DAY []NIGHT 10.What song would we fuck to? ()PLEASE EXPLAIN...... 11.top or bottom []top []bottom 12.Will you repost to see what others say? []YES you better .. REAdY SEt GO!!! []NO

Whats She Thinking
What's She Thinking? How she does it I will never know Night after night she goes back to him The man who hurts her more than anything She thinks he loves her But love does not leave cuts and bruises I wish she'd get the nerve to leave But she says she can't survive without him Does she think she doesn't deserve better? So much control he has over her With some nice words he's forgiven I don't know what she's thinking She says he'll change someday Why can't she see the reality Nothing will change until he's gone Or she is... Music Video:ANIMAL I HAVE BECOME (by Three Days Grace)Music Video Code provided by Video Code Zone

Reaching Into The Light
Gee, how ironic that my Work follows the Wheel. I started working on dealing with my Shadow during the dark half of the year, and now that the light half is starting, I make another decision. I don't even do this consciously, things just come to me that I ponder upon and THEN the realization hits me that I'm working the Wheel, even though in much smaller ways. So, this great realization comes to me. Ok, maybe it's not so great, but for me it's a big step towards...whatever it is I'm moving toward. Happiness, maybe? There's so much change on the horizon, and it's good. Even the divorce will prove to be a good thing; I'm getting out of a stagnant situation, one that's made me miserable for a long time. All of this change is still a little scary, but since when is life easy? Especially for me. And that's when it hit me: I am WAY too hard on myself. I hold myself to a higher standard than anyone else. Heck, my standards are stricter than those placed upon me by my job, my friends

Online Friendship
Online Friendship... The true friends who we meet online are a very special kind They pierce your shields and see within the corners of your mind. They're always there when you're in need with their power to discern. They feel your pain.........they offer hope and genuine concern. We bare our souls, expose our hearts and show our inner fears, and then before you know it the keyboard's stained with tears. And if we could see them through that screen then no one could deny that to be a TRUE online friend they too must surely cry.

As A Witch Breathes
As a Witch Breathes by Judy Kennedy As a witch breathes the leaves turn around in a whirlwind the air makes a spiral of knowledge only those who dare will climb. . . As a witch lives the life of all creatures become one no death or no darkness to tread but only a moonlit path. . . As a witch speaks the sun stands still as her soul and listening through senses of fire flowers can grow without rain. . . As a witch loves the music of the spheres is her heartbeat the light of the stars is her eyes for being nothing more than herself. . . But as a witch cries all her tears form oceans and seas that humanity might someday be free for we are reflections of her Love and the reason for her being what we all are in essence - God. . .

Little Johnnyh, That Litle Rascal!:):)
Little Johnny is passing his parents' bedroom in the middle of the night, in search of a glass of water. Hearing a lot of moaning and thumping, he peeks in and catches his folks in The Act. Before dad can even react, Little Johnny exclaims "Oh,boy! Horsey ride! Daddy, can I ride on your back?" Daddy, relieved that Johnny's not asking more uncomfortable questions, and seeing the opportunity not to break his stride, agrees. Johnny hops on and daddy starts going to town. Pretty soon mommy starts moaning and gasping. Johnny cries out "Hang on tight, Daddy! This is the part where me and the milkman usually gets bucked off!"

How Rare Is Your Personality
Your Personality is Very Rare (ENTP) Your personality type is optimistic, curious, enthusiastic, and open. Only about 4% of all people have your personality, including 3% of all women and 5% of all men. You are Extroverted, Intuitive, Thinking, and Perceiving. How Rare Is Your Personality?

Song Of The Day! Afternoon Edition
OK THIS IS BY FAR ONE OF THE MOST CRYPTIC VIDEOS BY MM AND THE BEST PART IS HE BRINGS IN THOSE SEXY GIRLS FROM THE SNEAKER PIMPS(WHERE'D THEY GO) HMM I LOVE THIS SONG FROM THE SPAWN SOUNDTRACK HERE IS LONG HARD ROAD OUT OF HELL BY MARILYN MANSON ENJOY :D I want to fly into your sun Need fear to make me numb Live like a teenage christ Im a saint, got a date with suicide Oh Mary, Mary To be this young is oh so scary Mary, Mary To be this young I'm oh so scared I wanna live, I wanna love But it's a long hard road, out of hell I wanna live, I wanna love But it's a long hard road, out of hell You never said forever, could ever hurt like this You never said forever, could ever hurt like this Do do do do do do dodo do me Do do do do do do dodo do me Do me Spin my way out of hell, there's nothing left this soul to sell Live fast and die fast too How many times to do this for you? How many times to do this for you? Mary, Mary To be this young I'm oh so scared I w

Why I Feel I Have Low Self-esteem
When you get married you think it will be forever. Your own wishes and dreams cloud your vision and so when the clouds move away you see the choice you have made and realize it was wrong. YOu stay becasue that is the way you have been taught. My first husbandtold me I was to fat. I was about the same size I am now as I was then. I believed him and so I didn't care how I looked. We were married two years before he started hitting me. The last night I was home with him he threw a knife at me to use on him. I threw the knife accross the room and ran out the door. My parents lived next door so I had only a few feet to go. I stayed at my parents and went ot the police the next day to file charges and they said they woudl get back wiht me. No one did and I stayed at mom's. Whiel I was gone on a job interview he moved everything out of the house. He filed for divorce, forcing me ot get a lawyer. He got visitng rights to our son but when he came I had a very uneasy feelign so

Bleah....
I'm at work, fighting with an old handspring and Outlook 2003. Good gods. I doubt they are meant for each other, but I gotta make it work. *sigh* Other than that, I was supposed to go to the club last night, but ended up driving to Burien to rescue a friend from her, now ex, abusive boyfriend. Gaaah! It took all night. I finally got home around 2. *sigh* Of course, I'm feeling a little odd today. It's one of those moments when I realize that I have no interest in sane women, yet I feel the tug to spend some quality make-out time with someone. Looks like a trip to the looney-bin for me, eh? LOL I heard this song on a friend's page and I think it's pretty accurate.. I'll post the lyrics here, but you'll have to find it yourself if you want to hear it. By the way, it's full of vulgar, adult langauge. You've been warned... Now, I'm going to get some stuff done and head home. I can't remember what else I was supposed to do.. My poor memory is shot. JJ Buckcherry - Crazy

Got This As A Email
This is a little spooky I like the writing in green at the end!!!! Read all of this one, it is interesting!! Read down to the very bottom highlighted in green. You don't want to miss this!! VERY INTERESTING- 1. The Garden of Eden was in Iraq. 2. Mesopotamia, which is now Iraq , was the cradle of civilization! 3. Noah built the ark in Iraq . 4. The Tower of Babel was in Iraq 5. Abraham was from Ur , which is in Southern Iraq ! 6. Isaac's wife Rebekah is from Nahor, which is in Iraq ! 7. Jacob met Rachel in Iraq . 8. Jonah preached in Nineveh - which is in Iraq . 9. Assyria, which is in Iraq , conquered the ten tribes of Israel . 10. Amos cried out in Iraq ! 11. Babylon , which is in Iraq , destroyed Jerusalem . 12. Daniel was in the lion's den in Iraq ! 13. Belshazzar, the King of Babylon saw the "writing on the wall" in Iraq . 14. Nebuchadnezzar, King of Babylon, carried the Jews captive into Iraq . 15. E

Read This!
Desiderata Go placidly amid the noise and haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence. As far as possible without surrender be on good terms with all persons. Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to others, even the dull and ignorant; they too have their story. Avoid loud and aggressive persons, they are vexations to the spirit. If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain and bitter; for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself. Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans. Keep interested in your own career, however humble; it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time. Exercise caution in you business affairs; for the world is full of trickery. But let this not blind you to what virtue there is; many persons strive for high ideals; and everywhere life is full of heroism. Be yourself. Especially, do not feign affection. Neither be cynical about love; for in the face of all aridity a

A.s.a.p
Ever wonder about the abbreviation of ASAP? Generally we think in terms of even more hurry and stress in our lives. If we think of this abbreviation in a different manner, we may begin to find a new way to deal with those rough days along the way. There's work to do, deadlines to meet. You've got no time to spare. But as you hurry and scurry... (Always Say A Prayer) ASAP In the midst of family chaos, "quality time" is rare. Do your best; let God do the rest... (Always Say A Prayer) ASAP It may seem like your worries are more than you can bear. Slow down and take a breather... (Always Say A Prayer) ASAP God knows how stressful life can be and wants to ease our cares. He'll respond to all your needs... (Always Say A Prayer) ASAP Today I'm saying a little prayer that God will send a smile to you and send you special blessings through everything you have to do.

I'm On Cloud 9!!!!!
I JUST GOT OFF THE PHONE WITH MY NEPHEW. I WAS SO HAPPY TO HEAR FROM HIM. SOME OF YA KNOWS HE IS IN BAGDAD. HE IS DOING OK. WHEN HE COMES HOME HE WANTS TO GO CAMPING WITH US. I'M GOING TO BE READY! I'M GOING TO HAVE THE BEER COLD AND WAITING FOR HIM. I MISS HIM SO MUCH. IT BRIGHTENED MY DAY. BUT I JUST THOUGHT THAT I WOULD SHARE THAT I WAS WAS ABLE TO TALK TO HIM.

Doves-black And White Town
Here comes the action Here comes at last Lord give me reaction Lord give me your chance You should follow me down In satellite towns There's no colour and no sound I've been ten feet underground I gotta get out of this satellite town Here comes some action First time in my life I gotta get up to get compensation I gotta get up to get this to light Whether you live alone Or you're trying to find your way in this world you better make sure that you don't crack you're head on that pavement, man My God! what a shock! It's been preying on me and mine This is a dangerous place man This is a dangerous place, there's nothing here. You should follow your way down In satellite towns There's no colour and no sound I've been ten feet underground In A Black and White Town You should follow me down There's no colour and no sound In the Black and White Town I've been ten feet underground In Black and White Town

Colors
Once upon a time the colors of the world started to quarrel. All claimed that they were the best. The most important. The most useful. The favorite. Green said:"Clearly I am the most important. I am the sign of life and of hope. I was chosen for grass, trees and leaves. Without me, all animals would die. Look over the countryside and you will see that I am in the majority." Blue interrupted:"You only think about the earth, but consider the sky and the sea. It is the water that is the basis of life and drawn up by the clouds from the deep sea. The sky gives space and peace and serenity. Without my peace, you would all be nothing." Yellow chuckled:"You are all so serious. I bring laughter, gaiety, and warmth into the world. The sun is yellow, the moon is yellow, the stars are yellow. Every time you look at a sunflower, the whole world starts to smile. Without me there would be no fun." Orange started next to blow her trumpet:"I am the color of health and

When Is Enough .. Enough
When in life is enough enough? When do we, as human beings, need to step back and take heed of our lives and our actions? In the last week or so I have watched people progress from personal insults to insults against mothers and fathers.. wtf people?? I had a discussion with someone this morning on our superiority. We are supposed to be the superior race.. the more intelligent.. the only thing that places us high enough of the food chain people is the weapons we use to stay there. We are just another animal otherwise. And contrary to what you might think, IF we had to survive without those weapons, especially in todays world, we'd be extinct. Our egos will be the destruction of us eventually. Our treatment of others in our daily lives whether on the net or off will determine that. Since when did one human being become better than the next because of what they believe or think? Since when did I become superior to my neighbor because of the job I have? Since when did

Are You A Real Friend?
If you're a true friend. Please come bomb my contest picture found in the link below. It would be greatly apreciated, And I'd return the favor. Please be considerate enough to help me achieve something so worthwhile. Thanks alot. Bombing means keep commenting over and over. So as boring as it is. remember it's a great cause. http://cherrytap.com/viewimage.php?u=512578&albumid=279189&i=497881105

For A Reason
Hello my friend, I'm here for a REASON I am sending this to you to see how many actually read their comments.Your response will be interesting. Pay attention to what you read. After you have finished reading it, you will know the reason it was sent to you. Here goes: People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person. When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. Wh

The Ashes Are Sifted
well all came out last night her friend is in deep shit and now im rebuilding the pain that was cuased it saddens me i was weakened by fear and hate to the point i would doubt the one i love and all i can do is say sorry

Way To Pissed To Think Of A Subject....ok Subject:pissed!
Yeah you really don't want to fuck with me right now.I'm thisclose from loseing the little grip I have on my temper as it is & one more lame ass comment or one more fucked event just could see someone dead. No,I'm not joking. For the last few days we've had an unwanted guest. They remianed even after being told to be gone by the day';s end. Told us since we didn't own this plce we'd have no pull on getting them out.Welll that was fucked up we do live here we are housemates.But my beautiful wife to be is much to kind. That kindness might cost us our unborn child. But I get ahead of myself. This all started about a week back. A ...female came to visit.She protrayed herself as a good friend to one of my housemates. Then proceeded to try and fuck said housemates' husband. Made my housemate feel bad and was allowed to stay. but was told to get out. they went on a much needed getaway. This cunt stayed. Daily drama always with her..I should have just risked getting my lady pissed at me and

Escape
Celestial sacrifice of the lamb Hold high above your head For the gods are taking their sacrifice Dance your rituals of praise Let the rapture bind around you Graces degrade the worthless Sinners crowd around you As they lye dieing Scream in pleasure of their dying day In a world from eden You find your way

Scrabble
This has got to be one of the most clever E-mails I've received in awhile. Someone out there either has too much Spare time or is deadly at Scrabble. (Wait till you see the last one)! DORMITORY: When you rearrange the letters: DIRTY ROO M PRESBYTERIAN: When you rearrange the letters: BEST IN PRAYER ASTRONOMER: When you rearrange the letters: MOON STARER DESPERATION: When you rearrange the letters: A ROPE ENDS IT THE EYES: ! When you rearrange the letters: THEY SEE GEORGE BUSH: When you rearrange the letters:/ FONT> HE BUGS GORE THE MORSE CODE : When you rearrange the letters: HERE COME DOTS SLOT MACHINES: When you rearrange the letters: CASH LOST IN ME ANIMOSITY: When you rearrange the letters: IS NO AMITY ELECTION RESULTS: When you rearrange the letters: LIES - LET'S RECOUNT SNOOZE ALARMS: When you rearrange the letters: ALAS! NO MORE Z '

It's Official
Well, after almost 4 years of being out of New York State, it's official. I am now a Florida resident and my car is finally registered in the state of Florida. Last weeks I transferred my license over and I really did not want to part with my NY license because the picture was amazing, but they had to take it away from me. And now this pic sucks and I hate it. This morning I transferred my car over and now i don't have a plate on the front of the car which just seems really weird but hey, now i am going to go and get some sort of designed plate for the front of the car. So anyways, I am no longer a New York State resident and the only thing that I still have that connects me there is my cell number and that is primarily for my sister to get a hold of me even though that does not happen very often. I have more to say about a whole lot of stuff but I just don't feel like typing right now so I will talk to you all later.

The Knob
The Knob : A woman visited her plastic surgeon who told her about a new procedure called "The Knob," where a small knob is placed at the top of the woman's head and could be turned to tighten up her skin and produce the effect of a brand new face-lift. Of course, the woman wanted "The Knob." Over the course of the years, the woman tightened the knob, and the effects were wonderful, the woman remained young looking and vibrant. After fifteen years, the woman returned to the surgeon with two problems. "All these years, everything has been working just fine. I've had to turn the knob many times and I've always loved the results. But now I've developed two annoying problems: First, I have these terrible bags under my eyes and the knob won't get rid of them." The doctor looked at her closely and said, "Those aren't bags, those are your breasts." She said, "Well, I guess there's no point in asking about the goatee."

Just Because
You stir me so deep inside Now my feelings I can’t hide The flame burns out of control Now I don’t care about my soul Only the passion I hold for you Only You are the one who knew How desires we share can fan the flame That nothing of the world can tame Fires that forge two into one makes us forever till time is done To think you. To breathe you every day To long when apart for you in every way To know that forever you’re my heart and soul And to know without you I will never be whole Bonded in the spirit that we both share No other heart and soul can compare By R, Thomas Dinsmore Some ones picts got me thinking

Passing Storm Update
The Music to the Dark Ride is almost finished. During the original song writing process 2 and a half years ago this song was a thorn in my side. Thankfully I have figured out what was lacking and now have an almost completed Dark RIde. Tonight I plan on finishing the Dark Ride and starting on Silent Rain. Expect the Unexpected. Also concerning the track list Imaginations From The Other Side will NOT be a part of the cd.

Empathic
I CAN FEEL YOUR PAIN, YOUR NEXT THOUGHT JUST CAME ACROSS MY LIPS, I CAN FEEL YOU,I KNOW WHEN YOU ARE HAPPY,OR SAD, I CAN SEE THINGS THAT WILL HAPPEN, I CAN SAY WHEN I WILL SEE YOU,OR WHEN YOU MIGHT CALL,I KNOW WHEN YOUR IN TROUBLE,I UNDERSTAND, MY DREAMS HELP,IN WHAT DOES SEEM LIKE IT CAN'T BE REAL,....MY EMPATHY IS TRUE TO YOU,...

Burned
You change things in your life to make him happy, you patiently wait for him to come home, he is the only one you think about and love, but it was never good enough to be able to keep his heart only set on you.

Men Bashing! Lmao
Too funny!!! >One day my housework-challenged husband decided to wash his Sweat- >shirt. Seconds after he stepped into the laundry room, he shouted to >me, "What setting do I use on the washing machine?" >"It depends," I replied. "What does it say on your shirt?" >He yelled back, " University of Oklahoma." >And they say blondes are dumb... >------------------------------------- > >A couple is lying in bed. The man says, "I am going to make you the >happiest woman in the world." The woman replies, "I'll miss you..." >------------------------------------- > > >"It's just too hot to wear clothes today," Jack says as he stepped out >of the shower, "honey, what do you think the neighbors would think if I >mowed the lawn like this?" "Probably that I married you for your >money," she replied. >------------------------------------- >Q: What do you call an intelligent, good looking, sensitive man? >A: A rumor >-----------------------------------------------------

Piece By Piece
you're sweeping me away little by little the pieces locked away in a dark place no one has the key to yet. and they settle there, waiting for you... still with the hope you'll be there, trying like hell to set them free. and i don't know how you make me love you or how you remain so constant in my heart, but it's shocking, in a way, that you're still here. still gripping onto my love so tight no one else can touch it.

"rebuild"
No more sorrow, no more pain Only love and understanding is left to gain No more words without meaning Only phrases and gestures full of feeling No more lonely days and sleepless nights Only quality time filled with hugs so tight No more thoughts of worthlessness Only moments shared together engulfed in happiness No more starving for attention and a look of disgrace Only daily kisses accompanied with a warm embrace Love is patient, kind and complicated To make it work communication must be initiated God and His words play a big part Hold Him near and dear, close to your heart

Victor Crowley, New American Horror Icon ( Hatchet)
Hatchet - Old School American Horror Fan of Horror films? Sick of all the remakes and PG-13 shit that's been swamping the masses? Then follow the link and be amazed. Scope it out, nuff said... http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=69931110

New Contest
In Honor of Mothers all over the world I will be starting a Best Mom picture contest, The picture can be of your mother, your mom and you, You, You and your kids, (if you are a mom) Your wife etc. If you would like to join send me a private message with a link to the photo you want me to use. The details will follow in a couple days but the winner of the contest which will start on April 13th at 6pm Pacific time , The Grand Prize for the Contest will be a 30 day blast and the contest will end on Mother's day at 8pm pacific time, There will be several other blasts awarded for other reasons, Pay attention to my blog and profile for more details.

Trial! (they Come And Then They Stop! The Jokes)
Defense Attorney: Will you please state your age? Little Old Lady: I am 86 years old. Defense Attorney: Will you tell us, in your own words, what happened the night of April 1st? Little Old Lady: There I was, sitting there in my swing on my front porch on a warm spring evening, when a young man comes creeping up on the porch and sat down beside me. Defense Attorney: Did you know him? Little Old Lady: No, but he sure was friendly. Defense Attorney: What happened after he sat down? Little Old Lady: He started to rub my thigh. Defense Attorney: Did you stop him? Little Old Lady: No, I didn't stop him. Defense Attorney: Why not? Little Old Lady: It felt good. Nobody had done that since my Albert died some 30 years ago. Defense Attorney: What happe ned next? Little Old Lady: He began to rub my breasts. Defense Attorney: Did you stop him then? Little Old Lady: No, I did not stop him. Defens

Free 30 Day Blast
FREE 30 DAY BLAST!! Mother’s Day Contest Starting April 12th at 6pm Pacific Time And ending at 6pm May 13th Mothers Day!! GRAND PRIZE 30 DAY BLAST I am hosting a contest in Honor of Mom’s all over Cherry Tap You don’t have to be a mom to enter (but the picture must be mother related and SFW) GRAND PRIZE

Twenty Truths To Remember
Subject: TWENTY TRUTHS TO REMEMBER TWENTY TRUTHS TO REMEMBER 1. Faith is the ability to not panic. 2. If you worry, you didn't pray. If you pray, don't worry. 3. As a child of God, prayer is kind of like calling home every day. 4. Blessed are the flexible, for they shall not be bent out of shape. 5. When we get tangled up in our problems, be still. God wants us to be still so He can untangle the knot. 6. Do the math. Count your blessings. 7. God wants spiritual fruit, not religious nuts. 8. Dear God: I have a problem. It's me. 9. Silence is often misinterpreted, but never misquoted. In other words learn to watch your BIG MOUTH!! 10. Laugh every day, it's like inner jogging. 11. The most important things in your home are the people. 12. Growing old is inevitable, growing up is optional. 13. There is no key to happiness. The door is always open. 14. A grudge is a heavy thing to carry. 15. You have several things that you need to work

Answer This
Post this and see how many messages u get....don't be scared!! It is really amazing to see what people really think about you...and I promise you are probably going to be shocked at some of the responses.... (1) just friends (2) gorgeous (3) cute as heck (4) hot (5) fine (6) sexy (7) amazingly sexy (8) we can be friends with benefits (9) id take u to my crib (10) i want 2 make u my gf/bf (11) i love u baby (12) call me.....(__)____-___

How To Find Your Member Number
When filling out your information for an ID request you will need to give me your member number. So view your profile comments. At the top in the address bar you should see a URL similar to this one: The number at the end of the URL is your member number.

Heartbroken Tears
The heart break you caused All the tears flowing from my eyes Its not caused by your flaws It just another fact of life I shed so many tears And the more I would cry I realized all my fears And the tears ran dry You tell me one thing And promise me the rest Its a song every man will sing And I only want the best If what you say to me Telling me of whats to come When these results I dont see I will say simply "Im done" I want to be with you And for you to know I care If you can prove it true Then I know you'll be there Keep me safe in your heart Showing just how much you love me Making sure we are never apart Then I know we will always be

Tupac Amaru Shakur..aka Lesane Parish Crooks
Tupac Shakur was born Lesane Parish Crooks in Brooklyn, NY in 1971. While still a small child, his mother changed his name to Tupac Amaru after an Inca Indian revolutionary, "Tupac Amaru", meaning "Shining Serpent". "Shakur" means "Thankful To God" in Arabic. From childhood, everyone called him the "Black Prince." Formisbehaving, he had to read an entire edition of The New York Times. When he was two, his sister, Sekyiwa, was born. This child's father, Mutulu, was a BlackPanther who, a few months before her birth, had been sentenced to sixty years for a fatal armored car robbery. With Mutulu away, the family experienced hard times. No matter where they moved-the Bronx, Harlem, homeless shelters- Tupac was distressed. "I remember crying all the time. My major thing growing up was I couldn't fit in. Because I was from everywhere. I didn't have no buddies that I grew up with." By the age of twelve, Tupac had discovered his loves for acting, writing love songs and poetry. As a young teen,

Gotta Escape
Fucking Fucking Fuck!!! Okay, there's this dude I don't like, well I fooled around with the person I thought was his ex (turns out not to be the case) and he comes after my blood. After years of me declaring me hatred after his being interested in women under the age of consent and his constant setting of my friends against each other by the controlled spreading of bullshit, I do something with someone I didn't know to be with him and he has the gall to declare a death threat against ME! Anyway this bastard shows up at my house at 23:30 to the irritation of my parents, who banned him from the house, and me, who was happily talking to friends online. I'm pretty enraged at this point but he fucking tells me that my words are worthless and he wants to beat me into the ground and if it wasn't for my friend he'd have killed me already (my friend is there being a middle man peacemaker). Trouble is this dude may talk shit but this stuff is to the point where I can take him seriously (an ac

The Only Flag That Doesn't Fly
Between the fields where the flag is planted, there are 9+ miles of flower fields that go all the way to the ocean. The flowers are grown by seed companies. It's a beautiful place, close to Vandenberg AFB. Check out the dimensions of the flag. The Floral Flag is 740 feet long and 390 feet wide and maintains the proper Flag dimensions, as described in Executive Order #10834. This Flag is 6.65 acres and is the first Floral Flag to be planted with 5 pointed Stars, comprised of White Larkspur. Each Star is 24 feet in diameter; each Stripe is 30 feet wide. This Flag is estimated to contain more than 400,000 Larkspur plants, with 4-5 flower stems each, for a total of more than 2 million flowers. Ocean Ave. in Lompoc , CA ! .. Aerial photo courtesy of Bill Morson Soldiers' Prayer? ? For our soldiers.... Please don't break it When you receive this, please stop for a moment and say a prayer for our servicemen. There is nothing attached.... Just send this to all t

Done With You
i know your passion bleeds from the scars on your face i see that time keeps ticking ive walked alone and ive been shutdown and erased but yet i seem to keep talking i know you and i see inside ive felt what is it you do to me you told me that this time it was goodbye when i thought i was your one and only i guess im just tired of it all ill bet you laughed when you seen me fall i guess ive just had enough of it all im done with you im finally happy and I get to smile again i live it day to day i killed myself just to walk again will never let it go away i guess i just had enough of it all this time im the one who's laughing and now i sit and watch you fall your life is twisted and cracking

Well Thanks
For no help! Especially to the person who popped into my pm box and called me a "Stupid Bi*ch" If nothing else, A guys perspective on the situation would be appreciated A female would help more, wait, I only like about 10 of those on here, dang... Thanks Again though Much Appreciated.

Bare Truth ....
Are you tired of those sissy "friendship" poems that always sound good, but never actually come close to reality? Well, here is a series of promises that actually speak of true friendship. You will see no cutesy little smiley faces on this card- just the stone cold truth of our friendship. 1 When you are sad -- I will help you get drunk and plot revenge against the sorry bastard who made you that way. 2. When you are blue -- I will try to dislodge whatever is choking you. 3. When you smile -- I will know you finally got laid. 4. When you are scared -- I will rag on you about it every chance I get. 5. When you are worried -- I will tell you horrible stories about how much worse it could be until you quit whining. 6. When you are confused -- I will use little words. 7. When you are sick -- Stay the hell away from me until you are well again. I don't want to catch whatever you have. 8. When you fall -- I will point and laugh at your clumsy ass.

Didnt See That Coming!!
Do this and no cheating!! Think of a letter between A and W. Repeat it out loud as you scroll down. Keep going ............................ . . Don't stop . . .. Think of an animal that begins with that letter. Repeat it out loud as you scroll down. Think of either a man's/woman's name that begins with the last letter in the animals name Almost there........ Now count out the letters in that name on the fingers of the hand you are not using to scroll down. Take the hand you counted with and hold it out in front of you at face level

Guys - A Word Please.
Guys, be more alert and cautious when getting a drink offer from a girl. There is a drug called "beer" that is essentially in liquid form. The most effective varieties are being shipped in from other countries. "Beer" is now being used by female sexual predators at parties to convince their male victims to have sex with them. The shocking statistic is that this "beer" is available virtually anywhere! All girls have to do is buy a beer or two for almost any guy and simply ask the guy home for no-strings-attached sex. Men are literally rendered helpless against such attacks. Please! Forward this to every man you know... There is safety in numbers...

Saying Good-bye
Life is a maze it’ll leave you in a daze Where one door opens another will close Always feeling the pain though it never seems to go away Crying out for help but not sure of what to say Play back the memories as if they were today People come and go your heart playing the part of the “revolving door” As the tears fall you know that you have lost it all Watching them leave is painful enough But saying good-bye now that’s tough

Salute Contest
SO I HAVE ENTERED A SALUTE CONTEST GIVEN BY MY FRIEND LATIN DIVA (AND YES, SHE'S THE BEST!). THE CONTEST RUNS TILL NEXT SATURDAY AND GOING TO BE JUDGED BY THE RATING, NOT THE COMMENTS RECEIVED. SO NO NEED FOR ALL THAT COMMENT BOMBING CRAP! LOL SO GO VOTE FOR ME YA'LL AND SHOW HER SOME LOVE WHILE ON HER PAGE!!! LUV YA ALL AND THANKS, TIFF :) HERE'S THE LINK, CLICK ON IT AND GO RATE ME A 10 CAUSE YOU KNOW YOU WANNA!!! :) ~WISHIN' HE WAS HOME!!!~Salute Contest@ CherryTAP

Through The Darkness
A betrayal of the soul A sickness that cuts deep within my shattered soul missing the pieces that make it completely whole The touch that warms me like none that can really be the embrace of the innocents now taken away from me Lost in the petty fight of two who vowed to be one attempts on the love by one who would have all undone A pitiful sight to behold the queen of lies a murder of character before everyones eyes The genuine loss is seen by those who will see for those who will not they believe it to be A horrible truth that can only be known by the victims to find that a war wages at all cost for the benefit of her sickly mind A change has come at a price that is far too high to bear something sub human has shown prides true error Unable to believe that one could turn away from the leach lost is her meal of a spirit kept so far from her reach Seeking to hurt all who come near her truth to behold one who is hurt and hides from the light, growing

Empty
Memory needs you or it has nothing, is less than the black box of night, closed indefinitely, less than a never -stirred lake, no thing to press against its cheek, less than rock unturned, no one to witness its shadow beneath, or its pulse within, absent or too slow to be taken. And you need memory because you need yourselves to stay. That simple. You don't want to be, can't imagine being, alone with you. Memory, a mirror, nothing to draw in to yourself, only a growing circular haze, steam, then your warm breath, evaporating, from its cold, unyielding face, you leaning in, trying to see who and what you have been. You leaning in, your surface, met and stretched, across the skin of a river. Drop a single wet stone through glass skin. Self splinters, shatters. Selves undu -late memory’s expanding, receding, circular wake. The shadow of willows dropping their shoulders, giving

An Open Letter To A Witch
this is a rePoast of a blog entrey of one of my frends I do not know what tradition you follow. That does not matter. Indeed, for all I know, you may not follow any of the traditions. You may be one of those that, for whatever reason, must worship by "feel' rather than through any formal coven training or participation. But whoever you are, and however you worship, all that matters to me is that you hold true to the Goddess and the God. My purpose in writing this letter is to enjoin your aid in destroying that which cripples our Craft. Dissension is the disease. It is not a cancer, for it can be cured; and, as with most herbal cures, the best treatment is that administered internally. Friend, help spread the Brotherhood and Sisterhood of the Craft. Do not seek to establish a scale of Wicca purism, (for no two Witches will ever agree on the relative positions on the scale of even their own tradition.) There is no one religion for all people, and THERE IS NO ONE TRADITIO

Relates To Everyone..........
I miss the part, when we were moving forward now On our way down But maybe someday, I'll be something more than love Just know I'll never tell And when you're on your way down Through the clouds And you're waiting for your body's re-entry again We speak in different voices When fighting with the ones we've loved We speak in different voices Why can't we say what we're thinking of I'm missing parts, now that you've told me everything On our way down And I was blessed and I've forgotten how to love You said you'd never tell And when you're on your way down Through the clouds And you're waiting for your body's re-entry again We speak in different voices When fighting with the ones we've loved We speak in different voices Why can't we say what we're thinking of Not even I will tell... We speak in different voices When fighting with the ones we've loved We speak in different voices We say these things to know they're real. We speak in different voices

Tie Me Up And Just Do Me
I have been a very bad girl lately no longer the sweet innocent angel I PRETEND to be,lol!!!!!!!!!!!Seriously,I have been naughty,naughty n I LOVE IT!Last night was crazy,now that I was attention I mean dream wise.I swear if I had a guy like that in real life I wouldnt let him go for sure! In this dream this man was tall and he had me drooling,with the way he could tie knots.Normally I am the one tying ome one up not being all submissive like and letting them tie me up.I have to admit I am a DOM by nature.Yet there's this secret part of me that would love for a man to tell to me to crawl to him,tie me up with my legs spread and flog me,then make me do what ever he wishes.So ya a part of me wants to be collared. I can admit it,but honestly with how strong and stubborn I am,it will take a TRULY strong domi to make me his dirty little slut for sure.I think that I would like a dom who was gentle yet firm. Alas though it's only a dream.............................but what a dream it is!!

First Letter Of Your Name Tells Your Sexual Identity....r Is Mine!!!
According to studies, the first letter of your first name reveals your sexual identity ... What do you think? Repost this with the letter of your first name. -A- You are not particularly romantic, but you are interested inaction. You mean business. With you, what you see is what you get. You have no patience for flirting and can't be bothered with someone who is trying to be coy, cute, demure,and subtly enticing. You are an up front person. When it comes to sex, its action that counts not obscure hints.Your mate's physical attractiveness is important to you. You find the chase and challenge of the "hunt" invigorating. You are passionate and sexual as well as being much more adventurous than you appear; however, you do not go around advertising these qualities. Your physical needs are your primary concern. -B- You give off vibes of lazy sensuality. You enjoy being romanced, wined, and dined. You are very ha ppy to receive gifts as an ___expression of the affection of your lo

Needing A Reality Check
So...this website is adicting and i am realizing that everything in my life is a wish or a dream but very little is real...i can't wait for easter break to get here so that i can check back into the reality of my life...even if it sucks and all...i think this was spurred by the fact that i have missed a few detail here and there that my friends told me while i have been chatting with friends on here, facebook and myspace...i missed so much that i get woke up by a friend crying upon the word that a guy that she really likes had decided to end his life...good news me and another friend talked him out of it but i have been on edge since that moment...i know i need to break down and cry but i cant bring myself to it...i wish i knew how to fix all of the problems going on around me because i hate this feeling inside of me... i wish that nobody ever has to feel the way i do...i cant explain everything but with my hectic life i turn to sites like this as a get away but it seem like these site

Emptiness...
I have never really known what it means to truly be empty and alone.. But recently I experienced that one time and one time only... I can say I REALLY did NOT like that! but fortunately my honey proved herself to be the stronger of us two and held on for dear life... I will NEVER again place myself in that situation but rather hold on with IRON determination to the one woman I love... honey.. YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE.. and you know how special you are to me.. I will forever cherish your love for me.. until the day I die!

Simple Misunderstanding
Two old ladies were outside their nursing home, having a smoke, when it started to rain. One of the ladies pulled out a condom, cut off the end and put it over her cigarette, and continued smoking. Lady 1: What's that? Lady 2: A condom. This way my cigarette doesn't get wet. Lady 1: Where did you get it? Lady 2: You can get them at any drugstore. The next day, Lady 1 hobbles herself into the local drugstore and announces to the pharmacist that she wants a box of condoms. The guy, obviously embarrassed, looks at her kind of strangely she is, after all, over 80 years of age, but very delicately asks what brand she prefers. Lady 1: Doesn't matter son, as long as it fits a Camel. The pharmacist fainted.

Just Stuff I've Wrote
Heres a few things ive wrote in the past... A Poem I wrote about my Military experience.. These are a FEW of MY Likes and dislikes in a MAN! I need to edit a few things in here but haven't had the time... PLEASE RATE MY BLOG... THANKS A BUNCH! JEN

Polyamory?
I borrowed from a friend and placed here as a reference. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Chapter One : Polyamory concepts & theory -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Terminology Poly :- what is commonly referred to as 'poly' is a blanket term to cover one or more of 'pansexuality', 'polygamy' or 'polyamory'. Polygamy :- is the state of being married to more than one person. Polyamory :- is to have multiple loving, caring (possibly sexual) relationships. Pansexuality :- I will cover Pansexuality in the first topic on this page. Consensual Sex :- is sex where both parties are mature enough to understand the nature & potential complexity of sexual interaction; and all involved parties have consented. Pansexuality Personal Pansexuality is a state of not having one's sexuality limited or defined by the culture in which you live. Social customs and tradition are n

[erotica]: Her Kidnapping
The young woman lays restless amongst the satin sheets, tossing and turning with each unknown noise that fills her room. The wind howls into the night and the trees sway in the bright moonlight as it casts shadows across her hardwood floors, shining faints beams of light through the crimson shears that dress her window. She catches her breath, as she is startled awake, brushing away stray strands of her long auburn hair away from her face and tucks them behind her ear. Her dark chocolate eyes scan the room and stop dead cold as they gaze upon a long figure standing in her doorway. He’s dressed in tight denim jeans and a body hugging black sweater. His eyes widen as his stares have been met with those of his first and only victim. Throwing back the covers on her bed, the tall stranger crawls up onto her bed and covers her mouth with one of his hands. “Don’t say a word and you won’t get hurt. You might even enjoy what I have in store for you”, he whispers huskily in her ear

Winners
CONGRATULATION FOR THE WINNERS IN THE HOTTEST TATTOO AND PIERCING CONTEST FIRST PLACE WINNER FOR: Current Rating: 10.14 (65) Comments: 14269 Ripped From: Mike S Loves MzMic 2ND PLACE WINNER FOR: Current Rating: 9.94 (35) Comments: 11206 Ripped From: ~♥Mrs.Babycakes♥~ Member Of (T.M.A.F) 3RD PLACE WINNER FOR: Current Rating: 9.97 (39) Comments: 5769 Ripped From: cracr HAVE A GOOD WEEK EVERY ONE

Is It Time To Dump Him?
This won't come as news to women: Men aren't all that good about breaking up. Sometimes a man will half-heartedly try ("things just aren't clicking"). Sometimes a man will force you to make the first move ("well, if you think things aren't working out then"). Sometimes a man will stew in a bad relationship for years before actually having the guts to break it off. Why? For lots of reasons -- one of them being that many men, even if they don't like the relationship anymore, don't want to be immortalized (to you and all your friends) as The Bad Guy. Not an excuse, but it's what men tend to do. When you consider a recent national survey showing 21 percent of men say they're on the lookout for a better relationship while they're in a relationship -- then it's all the more important that women know the signs of a guy who's looking for the exit before he's even in the room. Dump-worthy: He ignores Not dump-worthy: He doesn't listen There is a difference. The way I see it, the guy

Soul Mates
i longed for the moment i held you, looked in your eyes and told you that i am your's forever, and truly asked you if you would be mine, both knowing where we belong. the moment our lips touched, and i felt you race through me as poured myself into you. every fear, worry, and moment of pain healed through the purity of your unconditional love. you will always know you are safe, that you are loved beyond all, and i will forever stand by your side no matter what lies ahead. i am your rock when you are weak, the embrace when you are vulnerable, i am everything you need just as you are for me.

Unearth!!!
I am so fucking serious about this guys! I am sure for the right price or an awesome blow-job, Roach can hook it up! May 10, 2007 : Seattle, WA Venue: The Fenix (Formerly The Premier) Time: 7:30 PM Cost: $26.00 Bands: Dimmu Borgir, DevilDriver, Kataklysm C'mon now. How can this NOT look like fun? It is fucking UNEARTH! Just go assholes! It'll be fun. I promise!! -Manda♥

Transplant
A pro golfer was involved in a terrible car crash and was rushed to hospital. Just before he was put under, the surgeon popped in to see him. "I have some good news and some bad news." says the surgeon. "The bad news is that I have to remove your right arm!" "Oh god no!" cries the man. "My career is over! Please Doc, what's the good news?" "The good news is, I have another one to replace it with, but it's a woman's arm! I'll need your permission before I go ahead with the transplant" "Go for it doc" says the man. "As long as I can play golf again." The operation went well and 6 months later the man was out on the golf course when he bumped into the surgeon. "Hi, how's the new arm?" asks the surgeon. "Just great" says the man says. "I'm playing the best golf of my life. My new arm has a much finer touch and my putting has really improved." "That's great." said the surgeon "Not only that," continued the Pro, "my handwriting has improved, I've learned how to

Ouch
Ok so yesterday before I went into work, I ran some errands. Filled my car with gasoline (3 fucking dollars a gallon good grief its not even SUMMER yet)... Mailed a bill... Returned some DVDs to the rental store. So then I was like Hey Lets Get MY EYEBROWS Waxed... which I have done many times before at beauty salons. I don't mind it, it sure beats the hell out of plucking them. So I stop at this random place near my house that I've never been to before. The lady waxes my eyebrows in a weird way... with this long stick thing that had a roller on the end with hot wax inside. I'VE always had someone apply the wax with a small wooden spatula stick thing and then the strips, then they rip the strips off, etc... So the roller thing kind of weirded me out. Like how many other ppl have used that? Ew. But she did clean my eyebrow area off really well before hand. So Getting My Eyebrows Waxed now has turned into My Left Eyebrow Is Extremely Swollen. I don't know what she did, they

Written Long Ago Of A Past Long Gone
Beloved Deceitful wretch The deceitful wretch telling me lies Thinking them to be a comforting disguise Counting upon my gullibility Believing that through them I can not see Telling me lies of love and our content Acting as if it was heaven sent To be there always by my side Yet in the shadows the wretch does hide Pretending that I don’t know what is real Acting as though it cares how I feel Yet doing to me all that is wrong Tears fall with the words of the sad song Knowing that I know deep in my heart Soon we must split forever apart Turmoil in the eye of a storm made of lies To let it pretend longer is most unwise For a foundation so weak can never stand All passing away like the shifting sand Leaving nothing worth even bringing to mind It is the way of bad things left behind Better to clear the way for love so real One who will not deceive and cares how I feel One who does not hide in the shadows of lies One who shares their heart without need to di

Untitled #3
When I am alone with my thoughts, I think of you. When I am beaten by my fears, I scream for you. When loneliness is banging against my heart, I yearn for you. Why do you do this to me? Promise me forever, but then you go away? Are you coming back? That I'll never know. Only one this is certain though. Even though you walked away, I can't let go.

Guestbook
So I decided to get a guestbook, I don't really know why, I guess mainly to just see where everybody hails from in a nice pretty sort of way, and look at nifty pictures and little messages (maybe if someone wants to...) So, drop by, add yo'self, say hello or whatever. It's all sparkly!

Us Policies
WOULDN'T IT BE GREAT TO TURN ON THE TV AND HEAR ANY U.S. PRESIDENT, DEMOCRAT OR REPUBLICAN GIVE THE FOLLOWING SPEECH? My Fellow Americans: As you all know, the defeat of the Iraq regime has been completed. Since congress does not want to spend any more money on this war, our mission in Iraq is complete. This morning I gave the order for a complete removal of all American forces from Iraq. This action will be complete within 30 days It is now time to begin the reckoning. Before me, I have two lists. One list contains the names of countries which have stood by our side during the Iraq conflict. This list is short. The United Kingdom, Spain, Bulgaria, Australia, and Poland are some of the countries listed there. The other list contains everyone not on the first list. Most of the world's nations are on that list. My press secretary will be distributing copies of both lists later this evening. Let me start by saying that effective immediately, foreign aid to th

Neurosonic, "so Many People"
I'm not a big fan of Techno Rock/Metal and I barely accept the term Nu-Metal for the music I do like... This band is fairly fresh and just started getting some airplay on XM and when I first heard this track I thought it sucked ass...lol...but it grew on me...then my mind kicked in and I got into the lyrics and realized these guys were singing about that twit Ashley Simpson and her fucked up lipsync on SLN... But I think it goes a little deeper into the superficial nature of our society these days... How the youth of today don't have any real goal in life except to be famous...the problem is that most kids today don't know the difference between "Fame" and "Infamy"...I wonder if they did know... would it really matter to them? Everything under the sun going to hell in an episode of snl watch it on the tv you ugly girl you can not sing can't even lip sync apparently money can even buy you dignity never wanna forget in a couple of days it doesn't matter what they say i

Bdsm
BDSM is any of a number of related patterns of human sexual behavior. The major subgroupings are described in the abbreviation "BDSM" itself: Bondage & discipline (B&D) Domination & submission (D&S) Sadism and masochism (or sadomasochism) (S&M) Many of the specific practices in BDSM are those which, if performed in neutral or nonsexual contexts, could be considered unpleasant, undesirable or abusive. For example, while pain, physical restraint and servitude are traditionally inflicted on persons against their will and to their detriment, in BDSM, these activities are engaged in with the mutual consent of the participants, and typically for mutual enjoyment. Any "consent" may or may not amount to legal consent and represent a defense to criminal liability for any injuries caused. I love using a safe word but its kind of difficult if you are gagged. I have yet to get my first collar so I have been improvising with a thick leather belt. The imagination just keeps going an

A Newbie To Cherrytap And The Clubhouse, He Is Also Exectioners Son So Please Welcome Him
PLEASE WELCOME THE NEWEST MEMBER TO CHERRYTAP AND THE CLUBHOUSE! SHOW HIM SOME LOVE'N. josh_taylor19-- prospecter for clubhouse cherry tap@ CherryTAP

I Love This Song!
THREE DAYS GRACE LYRICS "Pain" Pain, without love Pain, I can't get enough Pain, I like it rough 'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all You're sick of feeling numb You're not the only one I'll take you by the hand And I'll show you a world that you can understand This life is filled with hurt When happiness doesn't work Trust me and take my hand When the lights go out you will understand Pain, without love Pain, I can't get enough Pain, I like it rough 'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all Pain, without love Pain, I can't get enough Pain, I like it rough 'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all Anger and agony Are better than misery Trust me I've got a plan When the lights go off you will understand Pain, without love Pain, I can't get enough Pain, I like it rough 'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all Pain, without love Pain, I can't get enough Pain, I like it rough 'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing

Can I Sit On You??
I kinda really want you right now, but can i sit on you for a lil bit? I really want to feel you, nice and hard, slow at first... just feeling you... closing my eyes... lifting myself up untill i feel the tip of your hard dick, then slowly back down as i tighten myself to feel you better... nice and slow... driving myself crazy, wanting you more, moving faster and faster... untill im slamming myself down on you. I want to hear you moan. I want to see your eyes closed, just in the moment, feeling me, wanting more, grabbing me, pulling me closer to you, opening my legs a lil more to get you deeper until i just want to explode. I lean back then and the only parts of us that are touching are your hard dick and my wet throbbing pussy. I'm leaning back, feeling you throbbing inside of me.I tighten... get you harder... you pull my hair, my back arches, i try to hide my moan, the feel of extasy, i move backcloser to you and now im just fucking you... slamming down on you, i hear you moan and w

Fire
Oh my love! I have breathed you in Through the pores of my love - quenched skin; For ours was not a moon laden with honey. It was a moon bursting with fire, Satiated by the drippings Of our mutual desire. Oh my love! You course through my veins, Intermingled with what blood remains. No longer does my heart pump that vital potion. It crests your love like a waving ocean, Bounding to shore with impassioned force; Returning to its aortic source. Oh my love! To what do I rush To a desperate school girl's crush? A pounding tsunami crashing my heart's shores? A woman's passions sweating musk from my pores? Which? I cry to the deaf - mute choir? True love or unrestrained desire? Oh my love! In which is it filed? In the whimsy of a fickle child? In an immature girl's intimate embrace? Or in a woman's passionate grace? Enlighten my aortic route. Swell my love. Erase my doubt. © Andi 2007 for my kool aid

Today You Said Some Words
TODAY YOU SAID SOME WORDS AND YOU KNEW I'D BE HURT, YOU SAID SOME WORDS THAT MADE YOU SOUND LIKE A JERK. HOW CAN I FEEL THE SAME AS BEFORE? AFTER YOU SAID THOSE THINGS AND WALKED OUT THE DOOR? YOU SAID YOU HATED ME AND WISHED WE NEVER MET, YOU SAID THE DAY YOU ASKED ME OUT IS A DAY YOU REGRET. HOW CAN PEOPLE EXPECT ME TO FEEL THE SAME WAY, AFTER THE WORDS YOU SAID TO ME TODAY? YOU SAID SOME THINGS THAT I HOPE NO ONE HEARD, LIKE WHEN YOU SAID I MEAN NOTHING TO YOU IN THIS WORLD. I THOUGHT WE WERE IN LOVE, I THOUGHT WE HAD IT ALL, BUT YOU SAID THOSE THINGS JUST TO WATCH ME FALL. I HOPE YOU FIND ANOTHER GIRL AND HURT HER INSTEAD, I DON'T KNOW WHAT'S GOING THROUGH YOUR TINY LITTLE HEAD. YOU SAID I WAS WORTHLESS, A WASTE OF YOUR TIME, BUT AFTER ALL THAT I STILL WISH YOU WERE MINE. I STILL FEEL THE SAME YOU'RE STILL THE ONE I LOVE. YOU'RE STILL IN MY HEART, MY ANGEL FROM ABOVE. HOW COULD YOU DO THIS TO ME, AFTER ALL WE'VE BEEN THROUGH? BUT IT'S OVER AND

White Fox
Craziest dream last night. Finally remembered all of it. I was in an animal shelter and I was looking around doing my thing. I see out of the corner of my eye a white fox that was wicked beautiful so I went to the cage. It ate its way through the cage and was totally fine around me. I started to walk away from it and it came up to me and bit my calf. People say you can't feel pain in dreams but I sure as shit felt that bite. So I have this fox attached to my leg and i'm running around trying to knock it off. It finally lets go and it went from me being in the shelter to me being in my backyard. I walked into the house and thats when I woke up. A white fox though, wtf is that about.

Just My Thoughts
I see that someone I too thought was a friend is accusing me of starting rumors and creating drama . When in actual reality they cause drama everywhere they go . If said person didn't want anyone else to know about something then she should have said so in the first place .But since I had heard it from someone else too I didn't think it was that big of a secret. But critizing me and pointing me out and leaving mean comments about me on here is just plain childish . Especially after I had said I was sorry for whatever it is I supposedly did . Now who is causing the real drama here ? Anyone that really knows me knows that I wouldn't do anything like that at all. I don't talk bad about people or spread rumors whether I like that person or not . And rumors are something that isn't true ..it's not asking if someone told them something that is true . So before you start accusing me of something I wish you would get it right . And notice that I don't feel the need to use profantity in my b

Father's Love Letter
My Child, You may not know me, but I know everything about you. Psalm 139:1 I know when you sit down and when you rise up. Psalm 139:2 I am familiar with all your ways. Psalm 139:3 Even the very hairs on your head are numbered. Matthew 10:29-31 For you were made in my image. Genesis 1:27 In me you live and move and have your being. Acts 17:28 For you are my offspring. Acts 17:28 I knew you even before you were conceived. Jeremiah 1:4-5 I chose you when I planned creation. Ephesians 1:11-12 You were not a mistake, for all your days are written in my book. Psalm 139:15-16 I determined the exact time of your birth and where you would live. Acts 17:26 You are fearfully and wonderfully made. Psalm 139:14 I knit you together in your mother's womb. Psalm 139:13 And brought you forth on the day you were born. Psalm 71:6 I have been misrepresented by those who don't know me. John 8:41-44 I am not distant and angry, but am the complete expression of

(no) Thanks For The New Cmail (from A Bullitin)
I liked the way this is written. I've been absent from the site for a week now, and come back to this technological mess... hmmm... my thought: shouldn't we fix the bugs that have been present in the site since day one before adding even more features?? Like the search trackz thing has been disabled since I joined last august, most of us just get to rate two pictures before we are told our rating is blocked for ten minutes because we are flooding the servers... I mean come on.. maybe the site is getting to be to much for mike to handle? many issues and few resolutions is what i see... original bulletin: subject: Thanks for the new cMail (repost) date: 2007-04-04 22:25:15 Sessions expire without warning Messages are lost constantly The shout box is fucked up and causes a problems constantly Things like the "family list" bulletins have been broken since inception (try it, you'll see anything posted by family members in less than 24 hours just doesn't show up when you

Drama!!!!!
Ok so Im taking two singing classes right now. Both of my professors said that I should go for the choir at school and maybe some drama so that I could do some musicals. That would be fun!!! I love singing. . .and I wouldn't mind acting.

Just Blowing Off Steam
I Love my job most days, even though I'm a Shift Manager for a fast food resturant. But when I have crew, that disrespcts me and the rest of my team, it angers me!!! I work hard to get where I'm at profesionaly, and ask no one to do any job that I would not do myself. Then to have one Bitch cruse out a customer and try to belittle me.. Who is she and what gives her the right? Even worse I clock her out, write her up and send home, she dares call my boss, and tries to get me in trouble.. WTF?!?! Then I come here for a little fun, and what do I find, more drama.. Come On this is the net.. I say get a life!

Im Leaving Ct
HI EVERYONE-IT HAS BEEN NICE TALKING TO YOU ALL AND MEETING U ALL BUT IM LEAVING BECAUSE I THOUGHT PEOPLE HERE LIKED TO MEET NEW PEOPLE AND HAVE FUN ON HERE AND ARE FRIENDS BUT IVE MADE A LOT OF FRIENDS ON HERE AND I ASKED A SIMPLE THING FROM EVERYONE AND IT SEEMS LIKE NO ONE REALLY CARES SO I THINK AFTER APRIL 30TH IM CLOSING THE ACCOUNT UNLESS THINGS CHANGE FROM ALL MY FRIENDS ON CHERRY TAP. THE ONE SIMPLE REQUEST I ASKED IS LISTED BELOW IF I AM WRONG ABOUT WHAT I SAID ABOVE AND U DONT WANT ME TO LEAVE THEN PLEASE READ BELOW AND SHOW ME THANKS 10,000 IN 1 WEEK THANKS HEY ALL HELP THIS MAN OUT HE IS AN AWESOME GUY SO PLEASE GO COMMENT BOMB HIS AND SHOW MORE THEN U EVER HAVE AND THERE WILL BE A SUPRISE IN IT FOR THE ONE WHO DOES 10,000 IN 1 WEEK NOT ONLY THAT THIS MAN SERVES IN THE UNITED STATES MARINE CORP AND IS CURRENTLY SERVING OVER IN IRAQ AND MAKING IT SAFER FOR ALL OF US SO LETS SHOW HIM OUR LOVE AND SUPPORT FOR ALL HE HAS AND IS DOING FOR US!!! T

Plz Rate Me A 1
ever since i realized that it is impolite to rate other than a 10 i have wanted to make level 10 so i could create polls if i wish and then make it to a 1 rating. yes this is really what i want so if you actually like my shit rate me a 1

My Name Is..... (re: Fibromyalgia)
MY NAME IS FIBROMYALGIA by Terri Been Hi....My Name is Fibromyalgia, and I'm an Invisible Chronic Illness. Iam now velcroed to you for life. Others around you can't see me or hear me,but YOUR body feels me. I can attack you anywhere and anyhow I please.I can cause severe pain or, if I'm in a good mood, I can just cause you to ache all over. Remember when you and Energy ran around together and had fun? I took Energy from you, and gave you Exhaustion. Try to have fun now! Ialso took Good Sleep from you and, in its place, gave you Brain Fog. I can make you tremble internally or make you feel cold or hot when everyone else feels normal. Oh, yeah, I can make you feel anxious or depressed, too. If youhave something planned, or are looking forward to a great day, I can take that away, too. You didn't ask for me. I chose you for various reasons: That virus you had that you never recovered from, or that car accident,or maybe it was the years of abuse and trauma. Well, anyway

Guys, This Is For You.
Ok, this is for all the horndogs out there. MY 10 RULES FOR CHATTING. 1. Yes, I have a cam. No, I do not always want to perform on it for your pleasure. So if I say no, have some respect and don't badger me about it. 2. Sometimes I am not in the mood for sexual chat. If I say no, deal with it. 3. Gentlemen who cam for/with me. I like to see a man's face when he's putting on a show for me. nothing turns me on more than to see the expressions on a guy's face when he's really getting into it. so please don't just position the cam on your cock! 4. Some things are a big turnoff. like animals, scat, golden showers,and rape. If you cross a boundary of mine and I tell you, back off. 5. My cam doesn't always work. Sometimes I may want to, and can't get it running. please be understanding. 6. what is the big obsession with cumming on a girl???? I soooo do not get it. 7. If you have a foot fetish, I can indulge it. If I feel like it, that is. 8. I have odd tastes and k

Anonymous...
The massive gates of circumstance Are turned upon the smallest hinge, And thus some seeming pettiest chance Oft gives our life its after-tinge. The trifles of our daily lives, The common things, scarce worth recall, Whereof no visible trace survives, These are the mainsprings after all.Anonymousin "Harper's Weekly"

James Doohan
James Doohan From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia Jump to: navigation, search This section does not cite its references or sources. Please help improve this article by introducing appropriate citations. (help, get involved!) Any unsourced material that has been or is likely to be challenged may be removed at any time. This article has been tagged since December 2006. James Doohan Doohan in The Twilight Zone, 1963 Birth name James Montgomery Doohan Born March 3, 1920 Vancouver, British Columbia, Canada Died July 20, 2005 (age 85) Redmond, Washington, United States Spouse(s) Wende Doohan (1974-2005) Anita Yagel (1967-1972) Janet Young (1949-1964) Notable roles Montgomery Scott in Star Trek James Montgomery Doohan (March 3, 1920 – July 20, 2005) was an Irish Canadian character and voice actor who is best remembered for his role as Montgomery "Scotty" Scott in the television and film series Star Trek. Doohan's characterization of the Scottish Chief Engineer o

Hurt
Hurt is such a small word for such a big feeling. it cannot discribe the the breaking heart or the torn soul. it does not begin to cover the lost, lonely and alone that runs threw your mind. not long ago i had the whole world. now i have nothing. but a little word called HURT......

Bonfires!
I went to Jay's last night at like 12:30 because he called me saying that he was having a bonfire and there was alcohol. So yeah, there in a heart beat. Jay is the BIGGEST redneck I have ever met, but I love him to death. He's gotta be one of the funniest, most awesome dudes ever. So yeah. I have to work tonight and tomorrow morning. Blah! Granted I don't have to be to work until 11 tomorrow, but still. I have to work.

Too Tell Ever One Thank You ....
TO you that read my blogs, im glad that you spend time too read them ,i thank you becase i write them to under stand my self an if i can help you along the way an save my soul..ive been though some hell these last few month an im getting ,better buy the day ,leaning its not my falt she went a way..becase im the one that loved whit all heart&soul... thank you my friends..and remmber life isnt nothing wht out your soul, an love will come back if its true. your friend,ANGER

Thoughts...
Why do we even bother to fall in love? I spent 30 years not hurting because I never let myself open up to someone so much that it hurt when they left... Now my heart hurts because I let someone in... Now it is like my heart is dying... I can't say that I am sorry for it, but I can't say that I will be happy anytime soon... When you love someone and them lose them for whatever reason, it is never the same for you again... I guess it is the same feeling for everyone... I hope the pain will grow less over time (which is what I've been told). But for now, when you see me smile or I type lol to you, I thank you for that second of happines because I feel like I am falling apart... Love Sucks...

Cuff Me And Dont Be Gentle.
You scored as Bondage. Your turn on is bondage... all out. You don't have a specific part of kinky sex that turns you on more than any other... everything working together turns you on. And why shouldn't it? Sex isn't sex without all the trimmings.Chains/Handcuffs92%Bondage92%Biting83%Whips75%Blind Folds67%Blood42%What's Your Kinky Turn On?created with QuizFarm.com

Bite Me
yeah you heard me open wide accept take a chunk of bittersweet go on sink your teeth in work those jaws for real this time bite yes bite until all held heaven or hell bursts free to coat your lips with all that is me water nectar syrup spirit spit cum bourbon blood bile acid lava love I'm your apple in the garden of eden so bite baby bite become a part of me tonight

~poetry~
POETRY ARE WORDS THAT COME FROM WITHIN THEY ARE PIECES THAT ONE WRITES TO REFLECT THE EMOTIONS THAT STIR IN THEIR SOUL EMOTIONS THAT ARE EXPRESSED THROUGHT PEN TO PAPER OR ANY OTHER MEANS THEY ARE OFTEN PUT IN BOOKS OR JOURNALS STUFFED IN A DRAWER WAITING TO BE DISCOVERED SOME WORDS ARE PUT TO MUSIC AND SOME ARE READ OR RECITED SOME ARE SHARED AND THEN THERE ARE THOSE THAT ARE NEVER READ

An Appropriate Sunday Joke
A Priest, a Pentecostal Preacher and a Rabbi all served as chaplains to the students of Northern Michigan University in Marquette. They would get together two or three times a week for coffee and to talk shop. One day, someone made the comment that preaching to people isn't really all that hard. A real challenge would be to preach to a bear. One thing led to another and they decided to do an experiment. They would all go out into the woods, find a bear, preach to it, and attempt to convert it. Seven days later, they're all together to discuss the experience. Father Flannery, who has his arm in a sling, is on crutches, and has various bandages, goes first. "Well," he says, "I went into the woods to find me a bear. And when I found him I began to read to him from the Catechism. Well, that bear wanted nothing to do with me and began to slap me around. So I quickly grabbed my holy water, sprinkled him and, Holy Mary Mother of God, he became as gentle a la

Ok This Has Gone On Long Enough
EVERYTIME I TURN AROUND PEOPLE SEEM TO WANT TO PICK OUT A CERTAIN GROUP OF INDIVIDUALS TO HATE ON JUST BECAUSE OF WHAT WE LISTEN TO OR WHATEVER AND FRANKLY IM SICK AND TIRED OF IT. I RESPECT ANYONES CHOICE OF MUSIC AND I DONT CARE IF ANYONE AGREES OR DISAGREES WITH IT BUT THIS HAS GONE ON LONG ENOUGH. THESE IDIOTS WHO CALL US OUT AND THEN PROCEED TO RATE US LOW OR RIP OUR PICTURES AND THEN HAVE THE LACK OF TESTICULAR FORTITUDE TO BLOCK US ARENT DOING ANYTHING BUT PULLING BITCH ASS TATICS REMINESCENT OF 12 YEAR OLDS(AND I WONDER WHY WE GET CALLED CHILDISH?).. AND PERSONALLY I SAY RATE ME LOW RIP MY PICS W/E MAKES YOUR DICK HARD BUT AS FAR AS IM CONCERNED AS LONG AS PEOPLE MISUNDERSTAND THE MESSAGE THAT THE INSANE CLOWN POSSE CARRIES IN THEIR MUSIC PEOPLE WILL CONTINUE TO HATE AND I REALLY DONT CARE ANYMORE BUT THEN AGAIN AS FAR BACK AS HISTORY GOES PEOPLE FEAR WHAT THEY DONT UNDERSTAND AND IF THEY ARENT OPEN-MINDED ABOUT IT THEN THEY WILL CONTINUE TO DO SO AS WELL...MMFWCL

To All My Friends
TODAY WILL BE MY LAST DAY ON HERE UNTIL SUNDAY. I START WORK AGAIN ON WEDNESDAY AND MY SCHEDULE WILL ONLY ALLOW ME TO BE ON HERE SUNDAYS AND MONDAYS FOR A FEW WEEKS. I LOVE YOU ALL AND WILL MISS CHATTING WITH YOU BUT I WON'T FORGET YOU. I'LL STILL BE AROUND. HAVE A WONDERFUL DAY!!!! JIM

A Friend For All Seasons
True friendship is like a strong sturdy tree It matures and spreads its branches giving comfort It yields itself to us without condition or request It's there for a reason to help us through each season. In the spring it blooms new hopes and dreams for the future In the summer it reassures us when the heart grows restless In the fall, when the twilight years fade to gray it consoles us And in the winter, it shows compassion when the end is near. True friendship is like life giving rain that nurtures our spirit It is a beacon of trust that guides us in those troubled times It calms the tempest storm that stirs from within us It will always and forever be the landmark of our soul.

I Am Getting Drunk
Well my uncle is dying and there is nothing I can do...which makes me feel helpless. My father died of cancer and now my fav uncle is dying of cancer and I can't even be there to help him out. He helped me out when my dad was dying but Im stuck here in Fl and can't go anywhere! Im so frustrated. I just wanna get drunk and then pass out and maybe it will all go away. I know it wont cause I did that for about a year before my dad died and he still died. I just dont get why all the bad stuff has to happen to good people. Why can't it happen to the people who just dont give a fuck or just dont care? Why does it happen to the people who care and do all they can for others? I wish I could hug him one last time and have the oppurtunity that I had with my dad before he died. Im hoping and praying that something will happen and he will be fixed and back on the golf course soon. I dont handle death very well.

Loverly
"I Will Follow You Into The Dark" Love of mine some day you will die But I'll be close behind I'll follow you into the dark No blinding light or tunnels to gates of white Just our hands clasped so tight Waiting for the hint of a spark If Heaven and Hell decide That they both are satisfied Illuminate the NOs on their vacancy signs If there's no one beside you When your soul embarks Then I'll follow you into the dark In Catholic school as vicious as Roman rule I got my knuckles bruised by a lady in black And I held my tongue as she told me "Son fear is the heart of love" So I never went back If Heaven and Hell decide That they both are satisfied Illuminate the NOs on their vacancy signs If there's no one beside you When your soul embarks Then I'll follow you into the dark You and me have seen everything to see From Bangkok to Calgary And the soles of your shoes are all worn down The time for sleep is now It's nothing to cry about Cause we'll hol

Strategies For Sinus Problems
If your sinuses are giving you a hard time with the changing seasons, these are some practical guidelines to relieving them. Coping with Allergies Recurrent sinus infections are commonly due to persistent allergies or if it is seasonal, hay fever. Also, many people who are affected by chronic fatigue syndrome have been found to have sinus disease. Treat the hay fever first and once the allergies subside, the sinus condition will get a break from the incessant inflammation caused by allergic reactions and should improve. You may want to focus on strengthening your immune system, as well, to prevent infections. Here are some tips for clearing up allergies: 1. Irrigate your nose with saline (warm salt water) twice daily. 2. Reduce allergy-load on your body by avoiding mucus-producing foods like dairy, wheat, and sugar. 3. Take bee pollen supplement and the herb stinging nettle. 4. Use an air purifier in your home, as well as in your workspace, if possible. 5.

"thick" "bbw"
OK, by no means am I a small girl, but, really, I'm not that big, I have abs, and not a roll. So, let me put this out there. Guys, unless a woman tells you she is a BBW, do not call her such. I do not consider myself big, OK. And do not refer to a woman as thick, I am not a steak. I am not small, I am not big. I am curvy and voluptuous. I am not fat. Look at all the famous greek sculptures of women, rounded and soft, but not fat. So, guys, all it boils down to is this. If a woman calls herself a BBW, wow, more power to her, I am in awe of the women that have the self confidence to do so. If she calls herself such, then it is probably ok to refer to her this way. If she does not, and she is not skinny. Do not assume she wants to be called big. You make yourselves look like asses. And on my page, you automatically get blocked by me. USe your brains guy. You would not want a woman to look at your NSFW pics and say "Damn, I love a thin one"

Never Wonder
When you look at me - I wonder what you see, Am I the everything - You say you need, Am I the answer to your prayers - the one you look for in your dreams, Chorus: i don't want you to ever wonder - Don't let one doubt cross your mind, Always want you to be certain - you're in this heart of mine, so when I say I love you - i hope you can see, My heart open for you - Oh...run to me, Girl there's nothing - That could take your place, I see every thing i need - in yuor shining face, You give me hope when all is gone - It's your love, Your love keeps me hanging on, I don't know where I'd be - if you weren't with me, I thank the lord every day - You're next to me, i thank you every with all my heart - for the love you give to me.

First Blog
Well, I just joined CherryTAP two days ago. (Thanks a lot Amanda)! I'm currently doing some work on my profile. If anyone has any feedback or suggestions, feel free to send me your opinion! I also like meeting new people so don't be afraid to contact me! :) *D*

Fill Me Out
Fill this in 1. Who are you? 2. Are we friends? 3. When and how did we meet? 4. How have I affected you? 5. What do you think of me? 6. What's the fondest memory you have of me? 7. How long do you think we will be friends? 8. Do you love me? 9. Do you have a crush on me? 10. Would you kiss me? 11. Would you hug me? 12. Physically, what stands out? 13. Emotionally, what stands out? 14. Do you wish I was cooler? 15. On a scale of 1-10, how hot am I? 16. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it. 17. Am I loveable? 18. How long have you known me? 19. Describe me in one word. 20. What was your first impression? 21. Do you still think that way about me now? 22. What do you think my weakness is? 23. Do you think I'll get married? 24. What makes me happy? 25. What makes me sad? 26. What reminds you of me? 27. If you could give me anything what would it be? 28. How well do you know me? 29. When's the

Down-raters
OK, So this chick keeps sending my RT husband dirty gifts on here. I asked her nicely to stop, she kept doing it, I went off, then blocked her. Well guess what, she can still view and rate my blog, so, she did, she rated it a 2. Well, i won't stoop to that level, but I will let you all know who she is. mlmssy@ CherryTAP

Cherish The Blessing
My own, my love It is odd how I've changed. Now, I need the old man. Not my dad, but the man I use to be. The one who saw her and was lost to himself. The one that said she's mine, she's the one. The gentleman that would do anything to hold her. I'm told he's in me somewhere. If I'm good, he'll show me the way. To cherish the blessing. Renew, refresh, ... And rediscover the pleasure of "I love you." I love Jennifer. Now and forever. Duane

Prayer To The Voice In The Winds
O Great Spirit, whose Voice I hear in the Winds, Hear me -- for I am small and weak: I need Your Strength and Wisdom. I seek Strength, O Great One, not to be superior to my Brothers -- But to conquer my greatest enemy: Myself. I seek Wisdom: the Lessons You have hidden In every Leaf and Rock so that I may learn And carry these messages of Life and Hope to my People. May my hands respect the many beautiful things You have made; May my ears be sharp - to hear Your voice. May I always walk in Your beauty; And let my eyes behold the red and purple Sunset So that when Life fades with the setting Sun, My Spirit will come to You without shame.

Kevin Durant Rumor
Supposedly he has decided to turn pro. Damn. There's a shocker. A shocker on par with the revelation that Don Imus is an asshole and closet racist. Which is to say, not the least bit shocking. Good decision young star. Only thing left for him at college is an injury or an off-year that hurts his current very high draft stock. Off to your pro rewards, Kevin Durant. The four remaining Grizzlies fans will have their weekly meeting this week and resume their seance to will the ping pong ball to return one of the top two picks in this year's draft.

Glad To Have You...
So many people take my kindness for granted But you replace the pain with pleasure And when it feels like I just cant stand it You bless me with one of your lectures... You remind me that true love exists And for that I owe you my loyalty I feel alive with every touch, every kiss You are nothing short of royalty... When people speak evil about my ways And tell you that I am not love worthy You stay by my side, regardless of what they say Becuase you know that misery loves company... This is why I love you so much My heart is filled with grattitude Becuase when times get tough, you become my clutch And that's why I'm glad to have you... -Nemesis the Nazerene-

The Jones And Henry Suspensions
With the announcement of the suspensions of Titans DB Adam "pac-man" Jones and Bengals WR Chris Henry, the NFL has served notice that it will no longer tolerate bad behavior amongst its players. Jones, who was given a suspension for the 2007 season and Henry, who was suspended for 8 games of the 2007 season have also been put on notice that this is their last chance to save their careers. Keep in mind, these suspensions fall under the old discipline policy of the NFL and suspensions are without pay. Jones is losing $1,292,500 and Henry will lose around $214,000. Some players have already complained that the punishment handed out is to severe and unfair. How someone can say the punishment is too severe is beyond me, both of these players have had numerous run ins with law enforcement over the course of the last 2 years. Henry has violated the terms of his probation once already and Jones is facing possible felony charges in 2 states! Even the players have gotten tired of the idio

Only A Handful
I wonder why hardly anyone talks to me. I have my "friends" on my list, and most wont say a word to me. I have a few friends, and a couple great ones, mostly on my Family list, most others hardly even say hi. Oh well. Seems odd though lol

My Attempt At Erotic Poetry..... "face"
face 4/12/07 2:15 am mmm yes... touch taste and sound... visualized through imagination and remeberance... i can taste you smell...see you taste.. and i remember it so well for its traces never leave my senses... im looking to quench my thirst for you but it seems all things keep getting pushed to the left and i guess i cant be greedy but i rememeber your touch and i desire for it... i need it...i crave it...i loathe that i cant have it... tracing the outlines of your curves figure 8's in the nap o fyour neck and down your spine and behind your knees indeed i have cum to please and am pleased to give and once ive lived in you warmth i could never go back i relaspe...i know its not mines but i must have it the madness of it is maddening but such sweet sacrifices to the gods of my loins are perfect i taste the teardrops and pray it turns to rain and im not wearing a rain coat or slicker quicker my pulse rises and so do i and my desire to penetrate

Hehehe,so True!!
You scored as wanderer. You are a wanderer. You have a restless soul and you love to be free. School really sucks for you because even though you like to learn you hate the strict curriculum and people dont seem to get you. You are most compatable with the magician or mabye a group of martyrs as friends. If you feel you have been incorrectly charachterized contact me or retake the test. Thankyou.wanderer56%Martyr50%Magician39%Emperor34%Servant33%Orphan33%Warrior11%Whats your personality: warrior, magician, martyr,servant, orphan, wanderer, or emperor?created with QuizFarm.com

Have You Seen The Moon?
i was just wondering...have you seen the moon? i noticed after you left that my surroundings change, there was a stillness...a void...a loss that was intense to me, to the innerness of me. more clearly, it was like a stop of time and space, all had lost its reason continuity in every sence of the world, was no more...there was nothing. i wondered to the far side of the porch and watched as your soul drifted away into the distance and i would have sworn that you, had taken with you the sounds of the birds, the light of the stars, the breeze of the wind, the scent of the air, the beat of my heart, and the moon in my sky! i looked to see if i could find just one single thing that was the same as when you and i had shared that space, but all was lost. there was nothing, except this noticeable emptiness within me. years passed by and i realized that 'all' was not lost, for if i strained a bit i could hear the birds in the distance, they confessed that you were indeed still around. the

Goals
i do alot of thinking about my life and my plans for the future. i think its good to make plans, so you have something to look forward to. but then i think you should always have a back up plan, just incase your plans dont work out like you want it to. and also try to enjoy live the best that you can, thats what im trying to do. im at the point in my life where im finally making planing and sticking with it, it goes to show that my plans do mean alot to me. im only 23, i know im young and i havnt done much, seems like ive been waisting alot of time doing nothing. and i guess my parents accident got me to finally open my eyes and try and do something with my life. from the accident i know life is short, and that you should do all that you want to and everything that makes you happy cuz you might not get the chance later, and never have regrets, cuz i think regrets only hold you back and keep think about the past and what didnt happen. i think in order to be happy you got

Kiss
What kind of kisser are you?OH DAMN! LIPS OF AN ANGLE!YOUR PARTNER IS SATISFIED AND WILL BE BACK FOR MORE. THEY WILL BRAG ABOUT THIS KISS FOR DAYS OR EVEN WEEKS! GOOD JOB!!!How do you compare? Take this test! | Tests from Testriffic

Tongue Update
ok, well my tongue piercing is a week old tomorrow, but Yesterday I woke up and the ball on the underside of my tongue was almost totally inbeded. I was not impressed. I had kinda had an inkling that the bar was too small. So, I went to my local Tattoo and Piercing place, as it was originally done on a recomendation of a family member in a place over an hour away from me. They were so nice in there, and understanding. I was so worried they would think I was an idiot. He was really great and changed the bar for me. It did cost me a furthur £15, but at least I didn't have to take it out completly. He reassured me that it was healing well, before slagging off the original piercer, saying that he was obviously not professional, as not only was the bar too small, but the balls were too small also. He was such a darling and I will in future have any work done there. No questions asked!....

Ladies Only Lol
One day my housework-challenged husband decided to wash his Sweat- shirt. Seconds after he stepped into the laundry room, he shouted to me, "What setting do I use on the washing machine?" "It depends," I replied. "What does it say on your shirt?" He yelled back, " University of Oklahoma ." And they say blondes are dumb... ----------------------------------------------------------- A couple is lying in bed. The man says, "I am going to make you the happiest woman in the world." The woman replies, "I'll miss you..." ----------------------------------------------------------- "It's just too hot to wear clothes today," Jack says as he stepped out of the shower, "honey, what do you think the neighbors would think if I mowed the lawn like this?" "Probably that I married you for your money," she replied. -----------------------------------------------------------

Bad Fucking Day!!!!
When you occasionally have a really bad day, and you just need to take it out on someone, don't take it out on someone you know, take it out on someone you don't know. I was sitting at my desk when I remembered a phone call I'd forgotten to make. I found the number and dialed it. A man answered, saying "Hello." I politely said, "This is Chris. Could I please speak with Robyn Carter?" Suddenly a manic voice yelled out in my ear "Get the right f**in number!" and the phone was slammed down on me. I couldn't believe that anyone could be so rude. When I tracked down Robyn's correct number to call her, I found that I had accidentally transposed the last two digits. After hanging up with her, I decided to call the 'wrong' number again. When the same guy answered the phone, I yelled "You're an asshole!" and hung up. I wrote his number down with the word 'asshole' next to it, and put it in my desk drawer. Every couple of weeks, when I was paying bills or had a really ba

What Do You Do
What do you do when everyday is just another heart break, so many bruises have been left. I don't know how much more my heart can take. There isn't a lot left to give. What do you do when everything that was so close has gone away. When thats all that kept you together. When we don't have anything left to say. Its a sad story and its mine. What do you do when you're hurt, when he ignores your pleas, when he treats you like dirt. When your mind can't take anymore abuse. What do you do when all tries fail, and when he shows he doesn't care. When he continues to tell another tall tail. How is this fair to me. What do you do when you know your dieing inside, because of what he says. Because you know he lied, what is left to get me through the night. What do you do when you have to make choice to live or die? When you know if you stay you have nothing. When you know if you stay all you will do is cry. Because he isn't in love with you anymore. What do I do when i have to choose to sta

To Pain: To My Family
All I see is tears, All I hear is crying, All they talk about is suffering, All they do is cry. I try not to hear, I try not to cry, I try to always look happy I try not to make tears fall out of my eyes. I want the pain to go away, as fast as it came, I want everybody to be happy, I want my life to be tame. I want things to be alright. I pray for my dad to be strong, I pray for my mom to be healthy, I pray for the things that I did wrong, I pray for my family to be happy again. I need a friend to rely on, I need to be brave, I need hope in my life, I need faith. You try to hide the pain that's dwelling inside of you. How can I make it through the day? How can I make things better? How can I help in any way? How can I take all this pain? I can do things on my own, I can do the chores by myself, I can make it through the pain, I can try and make everything better. I hope the things I do can help in any little way, I hope this day will neve

Becoming Burned Out
Working as a dual rated worker in the casino business after fifteen years I find that I am getting burned out. With all the new staff and new ownership in the casino business. I find that people are taking all kinds of cheap shoot at me. from Cansino Managerial to dealers, also customers are taking their shoots also. By putting words into my mouth (ak miss qouting what I have said). I know I have a temper and try my best to avoid stressful problems and events. Problem is people go out of their way to get under my skin to stress me oput at times. So I get written up for my temper. So I have to bite the bullet and listen to the Casino manager and Shift boss say I have a bad personnality. When I do not. I like having fun and can handle stress when I know it is coming. Problem is when others are working to blind sided me and talk bad about me or say things about me when I have no clue that it is said to some one else until I called to the office for a formal write up. All this does is pis

What Would You Do? Ladies Only!!!
ASK YOURSELF THISWOULD YOUDATE? KISS? TUCH? SLEEP WITH?HOW HOT AND SEXY IS THIS GUY?WHAT ALL WOULD YOU DO WITH THIS GUY?PISS, SHIT, AND OR SPIT ON IF GONE DOWN ON YOU?SOMETHING ELSE THAT YOU WILL DO? Please send a message to me to tell me what you would do with the guy in the pic? Tell me what all you would like to do and what all you would do if you wanted to and or didnt want to but would do anyways? feel free to speek your mind and say it as though you mean what you say!!!