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In This Blog...
In this blog I’m mostly going to say how I think things need to be done, hence the name, but I hope that it may bring some light to my personality and some new ideas that you may not have thought of or a different way of looking at things. I’m huge on politics. I’ll start with this joke. Only in America can they describe something so well, poli-from the Latin word meaning many, and ticks-meaning blood suckers. We will see what comes of this blog, but I hope you can enjoy it.

In The Wee Hours
being an insomniac is an awful thing....especially when you add having a kid into the mix. i get few oppurtunites to sleep, and find myself physically impossible to take advantage most of the time. i would give a finger to be able to sleep for more than four consecutive hours on a regular basis. to all of you who aren't up reading this, but in your third dream right now, i'm so fucking jealous!

In The Sky Above Me
Music Video Codes By Music Jesus.com Your friendship is the sky above my home, The crystal air I breathe, through which I see. I can't believe how much you mean to me. Without you with me, time would turn to stone. I don't know why I need you so, or how I know so absolutely I'll be there In times your wounded heart can hardly bear. I only know this truth is with me now. Why is it in our lives that we need friends To be awake and fully what we are? Alone we dream but never cross the bar; With you I share a grace that never ends.

In 1973 (the Year You Were Born)
In 1973 (the year you were born) Richard Nixon is president of the US Supreme Court rules in Roe vs. Wade that states may not prevent a woman from having an abortion during the first trimester US announces the end of the military draft Spiro T. Agnew resigns after pleading no contest to charges of tax evasion while governor of Maryland Gerald R. Ford becomes the first appointed vice president under the 25th Amendment A total ban on oil exports to the US for six months is imposed by Arab nations after the outbreak of an Arab-Israeli war President Richard Nixon announces that a peace accord has been reached in Vietnam Drea de Matteo, Tori Spelling, Carson Daly, Monica Lewinsky, and Kate Beckinsale are born Oakland Athletics win the World Series Miami Dolphins win Superbowl VII Montreal Canadiens win the Stanley Cup The Exorcist and American Graffiti are top grossing films Elvis Presley's Aloha From Hawaii television special is seen around the world by

In The Flickering Light Of Candles
In the flickering light of candles shadows of two bodies One man and one woman Are projected on the wall. The scene could be one Of an erotic painting As the woman Moves her body forward Pressing her breast To the man's face Where he gently Takes her nipple into his mouth While his hand strokes The other full milky white breast And his tongue and fingers Cause the nipples to harden. The walls cannot hear But if they could They'd hear the breathing and panting Of two lovers in throes of passion. In the flickering light of candles The shadows of two bodies One man and one woman Are projected on the wall.

In The Mood Too Funny Lol
In the mood The first old woman told the second old woman that sometimes she gets her husband "in the mood" at night by getting totally naked, lying in bed and putting her two legs behind her head yoga style. The second old woman thought that was a great idea, so that night, when her husband went in the bathroom to get ready for bed, she got totally naked, and began the process of putting her two legs behind her head. The first leg was kind of tough to put in place as she was a bit arthritic, but she finally got it in place. She had an even tougher time with the second leg, so she rocked herself backwards until she finally got it behind her head. However, she had rocked just a little too hard so that she flipped slightly backwards and got stuck with her butt sticking straight up in the air. Just then her husband came out of the bathroom. "Gladys!" he exclaimed. "For heavens sake, comb your hair and put your teeth in. You look like an asshole.

In The End
You Kill Me With every Pump Of your Chest You Twist My Minde Into Something So far From Me Only In my deapest Dreams Can I truely Be The Person I am The Sweet Soft Tender Person that Lays Deep Inside Of me But When I awaken from my Sweet Sweet dreams You turn me into a cold hearted Bitch you Say I broke you but in the End Who broke Who thats right you broke me You Made my world Dark And Gray And The tears Of blood has never stoped falling From my Torn And Taddered Heart You twisted and Kill my words My Love yous into I hate yous.. and from now on you can't lie to your friends About what I turely feel For you But even After All that you still Kill me Even In the End you Kill Oh Never Minde I was All ways Dead to you Wasent I By Grace Aka Me

In The Garden
Darkness fell upon the garden, resurrecting spirits that would vie for supremacy as they had always done and would continue to do into eternity. Three unclean spirits like frogs coming out of the mouth of the dragon, out of the mouth of the beast, and out of the mouth of the false prophet, arose from sleep. Traversing the garden, they laid claim to all that existed within its borders. The Archangel of Virtue looked down from the heavens and sprang forth, followed by armies of Cherubim and Seraphim, circling downward and inward toward the boundaries of the sacred plot in an ever tightening spiral as demons gathered at the garden’s center, preparing for the inevitable onslaught. A halo of light appeared in the heavens and God looked down upon the garden. “Turn from darkness to light, and from the power of Satan to God, that you may receive forgiveness of sins and an inheritance among those who are sanctified by faith,” thus saith the Lord. He, who was cast into hell and d

In The Way That I Want To?
Can I use your body for my pleasure, which is to pleasure you? Will you lay and let me love you In the way that I want to? Can I love you with my eyes Feed your lust upon my gaze Show you with my sparkle All my loving ways? Can I kiss you with my warm lips Breathe my fire upon your flesh Can I stroke you with my velvet tongue Smooth you with my silk? Can I love you with my breasts Trace every contour of your flesh? Can I linger there as I wish Until I've had enough? Can I watch the moisture Form upon your dewy skin Can I savor and devour it Take it all within ? Can I love you with my softness And feel your hardness grow? Can I sit astride your body And really let you know? Can I use your body for my pleasure Which is to pleasure you? Will you lay and let me love you In the way that I want to?

In The Night
He comes to me each night and I long for the day to end just so I can be with him. He fills me with his spirit, and I am satiated. Each night I prepare myself for him. I lavish my body in a bath of lavender scented oils. I sponge the warm water over my skin and breathe in the sensual aroma of the candles. I let my hands wander over my body, feeling the softness of my skin. I feel I could almost sleep in this oasis of warmth and aroma. Wrapping myself in the thickest towel, I pat my skin dry. Small drops of water still drip from my shoulder length hair, causing tiny rivers down my spine as I move from the warm lush bathtub to the edge of my bed. Wanting to be soft to his touch, I smooth cream all over my skin with the palms of my hands. I want him to be surrounded by the sweet scent of my perfume. To be mesmerized by the silky feel of my skin. My fingers massage the cream into the calves of my legs and then up over my stomach. It is all I can do to resist the temptation of lett

In The Midst...
....of the sturggle thru my mind, i find the ghosts that hide inside constantly haunting me, and running away with my.....time is a waste of vacant space that i try to place the thought of conceiving erased memories......

In The Mourning
muddled by the whiskey breath and perspiration on the bathroom mirror clearer and clearer now slung over the rafters and she swings blackened-ice smile soldered onto the fuming memory of rosy cheeks their fingers move too fast and fumble on knots tying rhythm into reason quickly now removing nylon while blisters prevail for ghosts they are far too wreckless "we little knew that morning that they would call your name and whisk you towards elysium from where the angels came it broke our harts to lose you to see you go alone a child now not just a corpse you've finally gone back home" vomit enducing words only hasten work in fear of mundane drivel the rope is pulled now taut and soon cut then quickly dropped mourners gaze and wonder what is occuring behind the eyes of this strung up angel nothing but a shell with stitched lips and hidden contusions in death she wished to free her ever hateful mind intead she chose to sit alo

In This Mirror-
Once was a dreamer, the kind who believed anything that was told, it was beautiful, so was she... she knew there were no corners to cut in this perfect circle. No lies were made to be told, and with love, she would never grow old. A heart full of young wishes, some that actually came true. Until that day she woke, and found herslf startled within her dream.. You saw that face, that smile, that hand caressing her cheek, she swallows the bile creeping in her throat. Its there, always there, waiting to explode, rocking her body across the floor. He saw her, loved her from the distance, wanting to bask within her light. If he only knew it was just a front, she claimed strength, it showed on her face, but within she was torn. working every day to mend the pieces, find the missing links that made her who she was, some day, she'll be more, she'll be everything you believed her to be...

In The Sh**!!!!!
This morning i have to go down to the company offices to receive an 'official' rollocking from my boss, for turning up at work late! The snide git even waited outside in his car as he watched me walk into work, then followed me in 2 minutes later, that diciplinary is gonna go in one ear and out the other!!!

In The Brightest Day----
and in the Darkest Night", if you are a Comic Book fanatic as I am, you will know that this is a part of the oath the Green Lantern speaks when, once every 24 hours, he re-charges his Power Ring! I am a depression sufferer as I know many on CherryTap are, times when people spend more time together such as weekends, holidays and special days can be difficult for depressives! The upcoming 14th of this Month is also such a day. If you see someone struggling mightily in this pre-Valentines period, offer an extra smile, linger longer over a compliment you want to pay them! Seemingly a very small action, but it is a mightly was to let love's light pierce the often false belief of " why don't I matter to anyone"!

In The Beginning...
Fuck all that...this is just an introduction to let you all know that when I write something down, there is a direct correlation to what is going on in my life on that day. I am going to be very blunt, and more than likely disgrutled...hope you enjoy...look forward to reading your feedback...

In The Spirt Of Valentines Day
In the spirit of Valentines Day, although I'm not a fan of it, I'm tired of bashing on it. As I sit here w/ my tequila, a smoke, and nice slow music playing in the backround, I am reminded of what started me on the road to the sexual world that I live in. I saw my first porno mag when I was around the age of 6. I had this next door neighbor kid named Donald that use to steal his brothers boobie mags and horde them in this vent at the old middle school in our town. One day while we were on the swings, he was like "ERIKA! I have something to show you!" I reluctantly got up, cause at that age all Donald was, was trouble. Now this is back in 1984, so remember the chicks where full on bush back then. He opens up this magazine and it was like *BAM* Pussy! I was freaked. I didn't know what the fuck it was. I was informed from Donald that I had one of those, and that I should let him see it. At that age I was scared cause I was always told by my parents that you don't let an

In This Breath:
Whew. im chillinoutofthecold,this notch. like undercovers, but notundercover. im prettyplainclothes. hey!! watchme!!! see... these new words while holding my breath, fitting all that in one breath. the spaces are stops to hold air in the lung. this is the process in which i flow. though flowing surely makes one head spin or maybe its the shortness of ones breath? "ill explain to you and we will both see..." said the deaf man to the blind one... ...and they trudge on into time... its sand this time. last time it was umbilical slime. image the stench. imagine the pace of slop drool walking! i prayed for my bike, to god, I promised to lock these gears and skip through the timefabric once more. tiring search for the whip of blue.

In The Mist
I think we like to put too much in on basket, or is that scattered around hell and gone and not sure which way to go. Sometimes I wonder about that. One of the things that flashed through my mind as I was standing outside meditating, IT was too dark to take any longer of a walk with the dog.. I am not going to risk him getting hit in dawns light. Nothing like that quiet feeling in the mist of dawn, not sure where the sun is going to come up, but you know it is going to. So as I am doing this this morning, I am listening to the frog croak with my heart beat, which was kinda fun :)

In The Bed Alone Again
SO YOU R AT EZ NOW THINKING OF ME ASKING U DO YOU WANT ME TO TOUCH YOU ALL THE PLACE YOU LOVE TO BE TOUCH YOU ANSWER WITH YES PLEASE! WE LAY THERE IN R UNDERWEARS AS U PUSH YOUR ASS ONTO MY DICK. I TELL U IN YOUR EAR WHAT I'M GO'N TO DO TO DAT FINE BODY. I START TO MOVE MY HANDS SLOWLY OVER YOUR SHOULDERS IN SLOW MOTION AS I FEEL YOU BODY START TO RELAXE IN MY HANDS. YOU GRIND YOUR SEXY ASS ON MY ROCK HARD DIC! I RUN ONE OF MY HANDS DOWN FROM YOUR NECK TO YOUR BREAST WERE I START TO CARESSING THEM AS I RUN MY FINGERS ALL OVER YOUR NIPPLES AS I LIC AND SUC ON THE SIDE OF YOUR NECK MMMM..... I CAN FEEL YOUR NIPPLE START TO GET HARD BETWEEN MY FINGERS AS YOU SLOWLY PLACE YOUR HAND BEHIND YOUR ASS SO THAT YOU CAN PUT YOUR HAND DOWN MY BOXERS SO YOU CAN STROKE MY DIC YOU SAY OOOO, HOW I LOVE HOW HARD IT IS AWWWWW..... I ROLL U OVER ONTO YOUR STOMACH RUN MY HANDS DOWN YOUR BACK INTO I GET TO YOUR THONG WERE I RUN MY FINGER DOWN AND UP THE MIDDLE OF YOUR ASS PULLING THEM TO ONE SIDE SO I CAN

In The Shadows
In The Shadows Current mood: nostalgic Standing in the shadows Memories that come rushing back that have No place anymore I see who it is that stands with me But who is not really there Is it my mind that plays tricks on me Or are the memories too strong to disappear? You were there once but forever are gone No one can make me believe that you didn't Love me. All is done no turning back but the memories keep What we had alive Alone I am But in the shadows I know you are with me

In The Shower
A man and his wife are in the shower together when the doorbell rings. The wife puts on a robe and goes down to answer the door. In walks her husband’s friend Ben. The woman tells him her husband’s in the shower and asks if he can come back later. Instead, Ben steps in and quietly says, "I have $400 in my pocket. I’ll give it to you if you’ll open your bathrobe for me." She’s offended, but really needs the money so she agrees, opens her robe, and lets Ben have a quick peek before doing it up again. Ben gives her the $400, and she opens the door for him to leave, but he says, "I have another $400 in my other pocket. I’ll give it to you if you let me touch your breasts." Now she’s really mortified, but again, she needs the money, so she undoes her robe and lets him have a quick feel. Taking the other $400 from him, she lets him out the door. Going back upstairs, she gets back in the shower with her husband, feeling a little bit guilty. "Who was that?" the husband asks. "Oh, t

In Three Contests Now, Please Leave As Many Comments On My Photos As You Can!
I'm in three contests, please show your support. Comment bombing is allowed, so post as many comments on my photos as you'd wish. (I'm pretty far behind in comments, so please help me out.) M.I.L.F contest Sexiest pose contest Hottest body piercing contest (for my septum and nostril piercing, couldn't put the 6ga outerlabia and 6 ga hood, had to be worksafe!). comment bombing is allowed in all three, so please leave me as many comments as you would like! Thank you in advance, delilah PS- Please repost to help show your support!

In The End I Will Always Bleed For You
Reach into the darkness and pull out my heart so you can feel my love even when we're torn apart i hope you feel my pain i hope you see my cuts because without you dear life itself just isn't enough i bleed and bleed and bleed some more for you pick our promises off the ground and always keep them true when i'm alone i feel nothing yet all i do is cry please just hold onto my heart and never say goodbye i feel empty when you're gone a hole is in my head but when i hold you in my arms you resurrect me from the dead but if you ever want to leave and decide that we should part i'll be alone in that darkness but at least you'll have my heart …in the end, i will always bleed for you

In The News
Just seen somthing briefly on the news about this website, but I'm not a 100% sure if it was this site, but it looked like it from the brief flash they shown on the screen. Never mind... it's a site called: farmersonly.com

In The Rain
IN THE RAIN Early one morning I’m looking out my window, Watch the storm clouds forming in the sky. You know I can not help but think about you, Sunshine hair and raindrop colored eyes. I sit down and pour myself some coffee, Light a cigarette and drift away. The memory of your smile comes gently to me, I feel the need to go outside and play… …In the Rain. Evening rolls around I’m feeling lonely, I hear the thunder echo from afar. I wish that you were here to share this with me, I lift my face as raindrops start to fall… …I’m in the Rain. There’s one place where I’m happy, I can wash my blues away. I know I won’t be bothered with, The sorrow or the pain. A place where I feel safe and warm, Be it night or day. Is caught up in your memory while I’m standing… …In the Rain.

In The Spring
A LOCK OF BLACK HAIR FALLS OVER YOUR EYE, YOU ARE SO SEXY AND I AM SO IN LOVE. THE WAY YOUR SMILE PUTS A GLIMMER IN YOUR EYE AND SOMEHOW I FEEL IT IS THERE FOR ME. I LOVE THE TENDER WAY YOU REACH FOR ME AS YOU FOLD ME INSIDE THOSE ARMS, YOU LIGHTLY KISS MY NECK AND REST YOUR HEAD ON MY SHOULDER AND I AM SO CONTENT THAT I SIGH BECAUSE I KNOW THAT I AM TRULY BLESSED. EACH DAY WE HAVE IS SPECIAL AND I KNOW THAT I WILL HAVE TO LET YOU GO, BUT BEFORE I SAY GOODBYE TO YOU, I WILL SAY THANK YOU FOR BRINGING SUCH A MIRACULOUS JOY INTO MY LIFE. I WILL THINK OF YOU IN THE SPRING TIME WHEN THE RAIN WASHES ALL THE TENDER BUDS AND NATURE PREPARES HER SHOW OF NEW LIFE , FOR YOU CAME TO ME IN THE SPRING AND HAVE SHOWN ME HOW TO LOVE

In This River..
People come into our lives, most just passing threw, like a leaf cast into a river, there soon out of sight from you, you may remember names & faces, but the friendship never grew.. Then there is that hand full, they come into our lives to stay, the ones thats always there, the same true friend every day, to swim, sink or float, there in life's river with you, to lend a hand or perhaps an ear, when your alone and blue, if we must all sink in this river, then my friends I'll sink with you... Music Video Codes By Music Jesus.com

In The Sexiest Redneck Contest
Can't believe it, I'm in another of these contests. A good friend asked me to join up so I made a photo that would go this morning and off we go. I'd appreciate any help you can give with bombing the living crap out of it. Thanks so much. Click on the image below to get there.

In 1975... The Year I Was Born.
In 1975 (the year you were born) Gerald Ford is president of the US Evacuation of US civilians from Saigon as Communist forces complete takeover of South Vietnam FBI agents capture Patty Hearst, who is indicted and convicted of bank robbery Teamster Jimmy Hoffa disappears without a trace Marines rescue the crew of the American ship the Mayaguez near Vietnam First Lady Betty Ford says in an interview that she thinks her children have tried marijuana Natalie Imbruglia, Drew Barrymore, David Beckham, Enrique Iglesias, Angelina Jolie, and Tiger Woods are born Cincinnati Reds win the World Series Pittsburgh Steelers win Superbowl IX Philadelphia Flyers win the Stanley Cup Production begins on Star Wars Jaws and The Rocky Horror Picture Show are the top grossing films Soul Train premieres on television in the United States "The Way We Were" (performed by Barbara Streisand) wins the Grammy for best song Saturday Night Live and Wheel of Fortun

In The Dark
Come and play with me it whispers, Its child like fingers clutching our own, Come and play my game it pleads, I will never leave you on your own, I am not like the rest of humanity, I am not fickle or consumed by worthless greed, It entices us laughing sweetly in the night, It chases us through the stars crying when we bleed, Come and play with me it calls, It runs on ahead playing a hungry little game, It giggles in ecstasy as children run to it, It wraps its arms around them staking its claim, You are mine now, it tells the children, You are my own flesh and blood, Spread my message to the others of your kind, Tell them it’s a reward for being good, It claws at our skin, ripping away our flesh, I like to play this game it laughs gaily, I have new victims every night, I birth new children daily, It spreads its black wings towards the midnight sky, It causes every murder while its eyes glint like a dying fire spark, Go my children tell them t

In The Mood For Love
He left me again with this hopeless feeling of loneliness and longing and dreams of those dresses… and not just because I knew I was lonesome although not alone. It’s just me and this silent wordless passion is maybe what really separates us in all our similarity. I am not as loud and more mind than body I guess that’s why I am here at home where the words are everything. In the old days, if someone had a secret they didn't want to share they went up a mountain, found a tree, carved a hole in it, and whispered the secret into the hole. Then they covered it with mud. And leave the secret there forever. So he left me and still I will be back in this hotel room in Honkong waiting for days of being wild. I love him so.

In The Wind
In the Wind Can you feel it As it blows over your face Touches your cheeks Kisses your lips Runs through your hair It carries my love with it Caresses you when I cant Lets me touch you Lets me catch your breath And carries it home to me I am waiting to feel it touch me Run itself over my mouth So It can let me taste you Smell you, feel you So next time the wind Blows hard on your face Kiss it back

In The August Dark
I am hungry, Like a thirst maddened lioness, When satyr has driven, The beasts away. I thirst when he plays, His liquid bubbling pipes, I lay watching night after night, In the semi-cool of August, Naked and wind fondled. I arousethe dark swan, I stir the clover beneath, My cool milk-white belly, I craze the wanton white moths. The moon bends low, His bull horns gleaming, Yet satyrplays knowing, I am a captiveunicorn, Fierce, Broken, But not won.

In The Dark
Wife: Oh, come on. Husband: Leave me alone! Wife: It won't take long. Husband: I won't be able to sleep afterwards. Wife: I can't sleep without it. Husband: Why do you think of things like this in the middle of the night? Wife: Because I'm Hot. Husband: You get hot at the darnest times. Wife: If you love me I wouldn't have to beg you. Husband: If you love me you'd be more considerate. Wife: You don't love me anymore. Husband: Yes I do, but let's forget it for tonight. Wife: (Sob-Sob) Husband: All right, I'll do it. Wife: What's the matter? Need a flashlight? Husband: I can't find it. Wife: Oh, for heaven's sake, feel for it! Husband: There! Are you satisfied? Wife: Oh, yes, honey. Husband: Is it down far enough? Wife: Oh, that's fine. Husband: Now go to sleep. The next time, it's your turn to get up and turn the thermostat down. Wife: Yes, honey.

In The Streams Of Pure Brilliance
In the Streams of Pure Brilliance In the streams of pure brilliance, With a self-complacent smile, Lives a smug, pretentious poet With a highfalutin style. He just walks around the city With dark shades and a winter coat, Claiming that he has a vision And that no one gets his goat. As he shops for stale bananas For his daughter and his wife, Local riffraff starts to wonder If he really has a life. But it really doesn't matter-- Nothing touches him at all In his world of metaphysics, Where he has transcendent goals. As a young girl at the counter Reads the price: "Five sixty-nine," He just looks at her intently, Saying: "It will be just fine." "I will buy these stale bananas, These tomatoes, bread and milk, But you'll never meet another Of my stature and my ilk." "If you ever read my verses, You'll come to realize There is more to life than burgers, Eggs and bacon, cheese and fries." "If you look inside my soul, You'll see yourself in me--

In The Room Of Memories
In the room of memories... In the room of memories there is a long row of coffins with things from the past. The coffins with the oldest content is closed. The ones with new content is open - so they can be filled at all times. Some of the last mentioned never closes. Some of the closed coffins are easy to open - then you can study their treasures and you might be wiser. Others are hard to open, maybe the fog of forgetfulness is over them like a vial or it might be because it's connected to pain. Right now I stand before the coffin with you and me in it, quietly i close it. I wonder if it will be hard to open the coffin again, or if it will be forgotten as the time goes by.

In The Butcher´s Shop;-)
It was many years ago since the embarrassing day when a young woman, with a baby in her arms, entered his butcher shop and confronted him with the news that the baby was his and asked what was he going to do about it? Finally he offered to provide her with free meat until the boy was 16. She agreed. He had been counting the years off on his calendar, and one day the teenager, who had been collecting the meat each week, came into the shop and said, "I'll be 16 tomorrow." "I know," said the butcher with a smile, "I've been counting too, tell your mother, when you take this parcel of meat home, that it is the last free meat she'll get, and watch the expression on her face." When the boy arrived home he told his mother. The woman nodded and said, "Son, go back to the butcher and tell him I have also had free bread, free milk, and free groceries for the last 16 years and watch the expression on his face!"

In The Darkness
DO KNOW WHAT IT'S LIKE TO FEEL THE WARMTH SUNLIGHT I'D REALLY LIKE TO KNOW CAUSE I'VE BEEN CHILLIN IN THE DARK FOR SO MANY YEARS THAT I QUESTION LOVE IN MY HEART I HATE EVERYONE AND I HATE EVERYTHANG EXCEPT ALL THE JUGGALO'S AND ALL THE LOVE THAT THEY BRING..... MASS MURDER MAKES ME HAPPY DEAD BODIES MAKE ME HAPPY SAY WHAT YOU WILL OF ME I'LL ALWAYS HAVE JUGGALO FAMILY!!!

In The Evening Before....
So tomorrow comes another funeral. Another day where I dress up just to go sit with a dead body and listen to people talk about how wonderful the person was in life, even if they were no where near wonderful. Where tears are suppose to flow and you're callous if you don't. Kleenex's have become out sheilds, protecting our hurt from anyone elses and isolating ourselves within the crowd. Ever wonder why you're alone in the middle of a throng? It's simple. Because we've been taught that's the way to be. In ancient pagan times, funerals were lively. They would hold processions through town and have feasts and celebrate. Death isn't the end, its only a new beginning. Has tarot taught us nothing? If no one died, no one else could be born. It hurts to lose those close to us, it's soul wretching and can make you long for death as well. But it is only natural. You have to remind yourself of that. I never understood the point of a veiwing. You go to a formal room, walking around as quietl

In The Arms Of A Stranger...
overwhelmed...by a sense of loneliness... misled by a bravodo of solitude... unmasked...just as vulnerable as anyone else... nostalgia...sets in...curdled...fermentation starts... the sudden realisation...the wretched truth... delusions...self explanatory... can't remember...what it feels like... to be held...to be kissed... to go to sleep in someone's arms... to wake up watching the lingering of a smile... on a lover's lips... to love and to be loved...such long forgotten feelings... faded memories...of sweet love making... the elusive pictures of a lover's caress... stirring up ripples...in a calm mind... that chose to forget...and yet always remember... sad and confused... i don't want to be alone... be it for the right or wrong reason... i just want to seek any comfort i can find... in the arms of a stranger...

In The Morning...
Ok, so, one weekend Erika and I went out to breakfast. We ate at IHOP in West Covina. During the wait we watched a bit of a movie she wanted me to see. It was interesting that we couldn't see it too well... It was bright outside, yes, but the main factor in that was that she had the brightness on her portable dvd player almost all the way down... a bit funny to us at the time but I don't expect a laugh from anyone who reads this. After breakfast, I ask my love what she had planned for the day... she said she didn't have a thing... We had been wanting to go to Ikea together just to look around (we were weird like that), so I told her, let's go to Ikea... So began the trip to Ikea and the Cool Cheap Date. Driving into the parking lot underground, we found no parking, but a lot of bad drivers, she was adiment on voicing her opinion about the particular individuals and I just laughed. Racing up the ramp to the main parking level, I decide to be a bit recklace, so I drive fast and ver

In The Evening And Into The Cool Cheap Date
After we had our laugh, we both decided it was time for a bit of a break... We were a bit peckish and decided to have something to eat at the Cafeteria they had on the 2nd floor, pretty good food by the way. We decide to share a salad and a small cup of fruit. Moving toward the line to pay, we both watch as the cashier leaves the register. Not too long after this happens, she becomes a bit impatient and deicedes to leave the line and sit down to eat. Me, in complete amazement, follows her to the drink area. We get our drinks and have more of a laugh then sit down to eat. As we're consuming this "complimentary" meal, she tells me that we should have gotten more plates of food... The laughter continues. As we finish, she tells me that she kind of wanted a cup of coffee but insisted not to get one because she knew I would pay for it. Giving a half smile with a bit of deviation, I get up from the table and go over to where the consumers place their food trays after eating. I grab a use

In The Middle Of A Mess...
Ever get the feeling that you just dont have enough time in the day to get done what you want to do. Heres to hoping that I cant get it all done by the weekend ... There is one very important thing I want to spend parts of this weekend with. So much to do ...

"in This River" Black Label Society
In This River I've been around this world Yet I see no end All shall fade to black again and again This storm that's broken me My only friend In this river all shall fade to black In ths river ain't no coming back In this river all shall fade to black Ain't no coming back Withdrawn I step away Just to find myself The door is closed again The only one left This storm that's broken me My only friend

In The Mind Of An Admirer
The decaying remains of countless victims Why do you do it? Arranged so neatly a gruesome decor What are you thinking? Portraits of flesh hang on your walls How do you make them? Blood stains on the carpet and walls Interesting patterns The smell of death fills every room Intoxicating aroma A refreshing perspective on interior design I stand in awe

The 411 In The 213...
Today Jason from The 213 Magazine came to interview me. Originally he was coming over to do an "on set" type piece, but since I got sick, it changed... sort of, to a day in the life of story. He's still going to come back on set when I shoot again, we just have no idea when we'll do it. I typically don't have people on my sets unless they're doing stories or documentaries and such. I went about my typical day with today and he watched me edit some scenes for my website and then we went to Samy's Camera in L.A. to get a new camera for me to start shooting POV scenes. I was inspired yesterday with Claire and I want to start shooting more. I'll leave the "real" scenes to Aiden, but I'm very excited to start shooting my Girl/Girl POV style scenes! But I had to get a smaller camera to do these shoots because using a big prosumer type camera is just way to hard to hold. I mean, it's okay to hold for a few minutes, but try doing it for 40 minutes WHILE you're trying to have sex with the girl

In The Stillness
In the stillness of the night I whisper your name Touching myself Opening like a rosebud Sliding in Sliding out Going deep inside Breathe quickening Pulse racing Heart pounding Sweetness exploding In the stillness of the night I scream your name

In The Midst Of A Storm
Sometimes in the midst of a storm, I feel so all alone, the waves are high,the ocean wide and the thunder and lightning rolls. I toss and turn on the stormy sea, feeling lost and adrift, looking for some peace of mind upon this stormy ship. I cry out for help from friends, as they stand upon the shore, but they seem as though they cannot hear me, above the ocean's roar. In desperation I cry out, and fall down to my knees, hands stretched upward, towards the clouds, "Jesus, help me please!" Then just like that the storm grows calm, the waves no longer toss, the sun comes out, the skies turn blue and across the water Jesus walks. To find me on my sinking ship, tossed roughly by life's storm, He takes my hand and leads me to, the safety of the shore. I watch in awe as He tames the rage inside of me, giving peace where once was none, from that bondage set me free. "Wait," I cry, "How much do I owe?, for bringing you to my side?" "Not one thing,"H

In This Box
From inside a box, high above the ground on which I travel, peering through a plate of glass. I watch this world, my world, your world go by. Ever vigilant to what is happening around me, I have seen life anew itself and death at what could be at its worst. I have seen love and kindness that lightens ones heart and makes life worth living. I have seen hate that could blacken a soul and take that life away again. Always moving at a rapid pace, never stopping but for what seems to be a few moments in time. The sun rises from the black, only to fall back again. It leaves me alone in the cool night air, with only the ever present humming from the beast beneath my feet which aids me along my way, and the sound of the wind being forced around me as I hurry along, the many paths that I have to follow. The days pass like the miles that I cover, rapidly and unknowingly aging me without a care to how long I have been here, or how long I will be here.

In The Line Of Duty....a Firefighters Life
Your alarm goes off, you hit the snooze and sleep for another 10 minutes. The tone goes off at 2 in the morning he is on his way to a wreck with entrapment. __________________________ You take a warm shower to help you wake up. He's been awake for three days working at four different stations running calls all day and night and doesn't get to shower. __________________________ You complain of a "headache", and call in sick. He gets burned or trapped inside, or while cutting someone out of a car something fly's off the car and injures him, or car explodes, he gets called to a medical call where someone was shot. Is that person still around!!! __________________________ You meet up with your friends at the camp and get drunk! He responds to the unconscious people and the grass fire you started. __________________________ You make sure you're cell phone is in your pocket. He kisses the Maltese cross around his neck and says a prayer before he

In The Corner
lol i'll keep to myself i'll be in the corner if anyone wants to play i'll be that drunk sitting in the corner alone waveing my dick and taking pics lol like the ones i posted in desnutz and i 'll be there drinking with the devil and granting his wishes cause thats what jinns do. wich is why i guess im a loner party on tappers and send a drink my way once in a while. well i got to figure out whats up with this weekend i most likely will be right here in my corner lmfao dont bring any light when you stop back in my corner cause us creatures of the night hate it.. its not that bad back here i got all the room i need to strech out relax and look at women without pissing ppl off. i can flirt with them in my head and at the end of the day while they leave with a man that call them the next day i know it was me they wanted to go home with lmfao... well gotta get another drink till later yall

In The Lab
what up ppl am sitin here in the lab tryin to write a hot ass song and i fid myself havein writers block. but i know ill kill em on the mic anywayz just wanted to write some somethng cause i like to express myself on paper. my day has been busy all day from spendin time with my son and my il gril lastnite to work today to the lab and am still going hope to have a goodnite too if you know what am sayin lol.....

"in The Meantime"
I was on my way home from working overnight and was heading home and thinking about just what I was going to do when I got home. Typically, I get on the computer for a bit then head off to bed, but I was extremely wide awake for a change. Driving along 360, I began to say to myself, "Self (hee hee), I think you still have time to make the 8am service" so I turned around on the highway at the first legal opportunity and headed off to Church. Went to the Church library first since I was way early for the service that actually would begin at 8:15a. While in the library, I found what appears to be a very interesting book. It is a book that is written by Jamie Langston Turner called, "Some Wildflower in My Heart". With my fascination of wildflowers, and bluebonnets in particular, I picked it up and read the back cover: "Margaret Tuttle's story is one of love unsought, for she had been perfectly content with the well-ordered and conveniently predictable life she had arranged for

In This Moment.
Got the CD beautiful tragedy yesterday. Awesome of course! But then again I knew that because I've seen them 3 times before the CD even came out. LOL I hope they are going to be at that Kittie show I'm going to next month!

In The Rain.........
I was lying back, relaxing on the couch, candlelight flickering against the darkened walls. A soft breeze was blowing through the open windows as soft music played. I began to hear the gentle pattering of rain starting to fall, so I stepped over to the open door. Hearing the rain falling faster, I opened the screen and slipped out onto the porch. Wrapping my arms around myself, I couldn’t stop the soft sigh from escaping my lips as the breeze grew stronger and swirled around me caressing my skin. Closing my eyes, I tuned everything else out and listened to the rain, feeling my mind clear completely, almost as if the rain were washing away all my worries. Feeling a light mist blow over me, I opened my eyes and looked around making sure none of the neighbors were outside. Smiling softly to myself, I stepped slowly down the steps. Shivering slightly, my flesh tingled as goose bumps chased over my body, rain pelting against my skin. Stepping off of the sidewalk, my bare feet sinking in the

In The Wind
We're in the wind. We're in the trees. That fleeting racing thought you throw away- The BIG ideas, the sudden revelations. We wait unseen, unheard. Some of you notice Us. Try harder to hear... We know about your beginnings...where you might be headed... Madness if you are not willing to learn. Learn that you ARE your universe. You are are the keepers. Like children with the keys. Always looking for the wrong door. Your doubt blinds you from truth, holds you at bay. Freedom is your power...We wait to show you the way.

In The Still Of The Night
He comes to me each night and I long for the day to end just so I can be with him. He fills me with his spirit, and I am satiated. Each night I prepare myself for him. I lavish my body in a bath of lavender scented oils. I sponge the warm water over my skin and breathe in the sensual aroma of the candles. I let my hands wander over my body, feeling the softness of my skin. I feel I could almost sleep in this oasis of warmth and aroma. Wrapping myself in the thickest towel, I pat my skin dry. Small drops of water still drip from my shoulder length hair, causing tiny rivers down my spine as I move from the warm lush bathtub to the edge of my bed. Wanting to be soft to his touch, I smooth cream all over my skin with the palms of my hands. I want him to be surrounded by the sweet scent of my perfume. To be mesmerized by the silky feel of my skin. My fingers massage the cream into the calves of my legs and then up over my stomach. It is all I can do to resist the temptation of letting th

In The Name Of Love
It's amazing the things a person will do for Love. I myself have commited felonies for Love. Embezzeling, theft, 'running', smuggling. I have moved from one city to another for Love. I have given birth for Love. I've even fucked someone I had no attraction to because I Love the person who set it up that much. I'm even looking for a 'playmate' for my husband because I Love him and I promised to help in this matter (we have an open marriage and I've gotten lucky). The only thing I haven't done was to commit murder. Could I? I don't know to be honest. Where am I going with this......I don't know, except that I had to get it out. I'm sure many others have done strange things in the name of Love. I know I'm not the only one out there who has.

In The Beginning
In the beginning Everything is new From first kisses To first touches Leading to explorations And deep penetrations In the beginning Awkward hands Find steady paces Molding like a sculpture Learning all the moves Finding secret grooves In the beginning Hungry hearts Starving souls Devour the flesh Feed on dark cravings Obliterate life savings In the beginning There is an avalanche of hope Possibilities are endless This time love will prevail This beginning will flourish Nurture and nourish

In The Dark
Inside the dark A body yearns A fever burns Inside the dark There is a space A special place Inside the dark Its tempting ways Flames in waves Inside the dark A hand will touch Feeling so much Learning Exploring Penetrating Devouring Are you ready For a new kind of addiction? I am the cause Effect And cure

In The Beginning And In The End
1 Peter 1:24-25 “The grass withereth, and the flower thereof falleth away: But the word of the Lord endureth for ever.” Many centuries ago there was a Roman emperor named Diocletian who was known for his hatred of Christianity. He hated the Bible so much that he took a Bible and burned it, and then on top of that burned Bible he erected a monument. Chiseled on that monument were these words: Extincto nomini christianorum - “The name of Christian is extinct.” Over the years many like Diocletian have sought to eradicate the Bible and Christianity, but for naught. The Bible is the incorruptible Word of God, and the foul breath of time and the gnawing tooth of decay cannot destroy the Word of God! Purchase a Bible this week for the sole purpose of giving it away. Then ask God to show you that special someone to give it to.

In This Blog You Will Read About 30 Seconds To Mars....anything I Can Put On Here Without Worrying About Copyright Issues, You'll Find Here...
"A Beautiful Lie" Lie awake in bed at night And think about your life Do you want to be different? Try to let go of the truth The battles of your youth 'Cause this is just a game It's a beautiful lie It's the perfect denial Such a beautiful lie to believe in So beautiful, beautiful it makes me It's time to forget about the past To wash away what happened last Hide behind an empty face Don't ask too much, just say 'Cause this is just a game Everyone's looking at me I'm running around in circles, baby A quiet desperation's building higher I've got to remember this is just a game So beautiful, beautiful...

In The "closet?"
(Originally Posted on April 26, 2006)Like I have said before, I am looking for a new job. If the contents of this blog got out to recruiters, HR personnel, and the like, it probably wouldn't be a good thing.In addition, Alabama has a law where the employee can quit anytime they want and the employer can fire anytime they want, both with no reason given.Also, our children were removed from our house by the state for stupid mistakes my wife and I made. If the guardians found out about this blog, we wouldn't be able to visit them anymore. (The guardians (who are all relatives) are xtian church-goers.)Therefore, I feel I have to keep my decision to study Satanism on the down low.Does anybody else feel that they have to keep the fact they are in a non-xtian religion secret? And do you have a cutesy name attached to it (like a hidden witch would be said to be "in the broom closet?"Just curious.

In The Wings
IN THE WINGS She was standing in the wings that night I saw her weeping before the lights Blinded my eyes Yes, blinded my eyes I saw her taking of a wedding band And whisper to the stage door man But I was high Yes, I was too high High on the sound As the crowd called out my name I though that I could take it I paid my dues to make it To me it was a foolish game But without you, girl (without you, girl) Nothing is the same (ooh-ooh-ooh) The song I write is pity The song I sing are empty I need you by my side again I need a friend Damn the critics and the Rolling Stone Promotion men and agency gnomes My mind is blown I'm so alone Wind me up and I can dance and sing Like a puppet on a string I play my guitar They say I'm a star Who am I fooling What does it all mean The audience is screaming Celebrities I'm meeting The money and the limousines 'Cause without you, girl (without you, girl) Nothing is the same (ooh-ooh-ooh) The song I write

In The Heat Of The Moment
Its been on our minds all day and its gettin hard to resist the temptations of this sinful little game we play to achieve our greatest sensations... Our eye contact is gettin stronger and the time is gettin right But I know I won't have to wait much longer As the day slowly fades to night... The time is now... lets sieze the moment And from the second I started touching you Your juices start flowing, and your sea of love is open And you begin to orgasm... in multiples. We're done for now, but its far from over Because this... we must do again A feeling so intense you can't control your exposure Theres no need to ask you who wins. -Nemesis of Nazerath- www.myspace.com/nemesis1979

In This Life We Often See
In this life we often see, As a manner turns the tide, A mark of this reality, That makes us prone to wont and hide. I see lady liberty, With her hand to her heart in memory, While she wrote in her book things we should never see, As she stared in horror at the scene. She stands alone in smoke-filled skies, As she watched us all with teary eyes, As four thousand men wrote their demise, From where hate and devilish blood-lust lies. Now what cost of men and waste of life, And global turns of fire and ire, Shall we be better than the latter? Or in our hate evil admire? So “memory” she says to me, For forgotten woe is as if none be, And with this wrong we all agree, Or else with jaded masks we wearers see. So now in stone have carved these words, For in this- This document shall we remember, That which hate has cost these lives, On this Eleventh of September.

In The 1213 B.c.
A long time ago, in a house which seems nothing but just a ordinary house but every night at 12:00am (midnight). The townspeople would would dress in black clothes then go into the old house which was a church inside and that the townspeople would go into this house outside and church which was inside and they would put up black candles upon the pope. and then they would bring in a sacrifice which was a baby then they would lie it down on the pope and they would do a curse that would the baby's family would be slaves for the indians. then they would cut the baby's arm and pour the baby's blood into a cup then they would drink it then kill the baby.

In The Dark
In the dark No stars in the sky One light in the dark I can't see anything except my face Nobody heard me Nobody want to listen Nobody awake My voice just lose in the dark In their world I'm not alive But I'm shouting in the dark I'm shocking in the dark I'm hiting in the dark I wanna swallow the whole dark I'll rip the dark With my black knife I saw a bleeding line A shining line It's the dawning of my life by O.A.

In The Arms Of An Angel
In your arms, I feel safe and secure. In your arms, I feel the warmth of your love. I can feel the gentleness of your wings as they will guide me throughout my biggest steps that life has to offer. In your arms, I can listen to your strong heartbeat. As I look up into the sky above me, my pray that one day I will be in the arms of an angel. My angel, my love, my eternal flame, my truth and my life. (Dedicated to my future ct hubby: Christopher Adam Turner McConathy, aka Sanity's Oposition) Please, show him much luv.

In The Depths Of Your Eyes
IN THE DEPTHS OF YOUR EYES I SEE LOVE LIKE NO OTHER A REAL SENSE OF CARING TRUST COMPAIRED TO NO OTHER AN EQUAL FEEL FOR SHARING KINDNESS WHICH ONLY COMES FROM THE HEART A TRUE FEELING OF FORGIVENESS A COMPLETE UNDERSTANDING OF MY SOUL AND HEART WILLINGNESS TO GIVE ME HAPPINESS THE COMFORT THAT IS TAKEN AND GIVEN ALL THE JOY THAT IS RECEIVED AN OPENING TO YOUR SOUL THAT IS BEING GIVEN SEEING ALL IN BEING RECEIVED WITH UNDERSTANDING AND KNOWING THE VOID IN YOUR HEART AND MINE IS FINALLY FILLED

In The Deepest Shadows Of The Heart
IN THE DEEPEST SHADOWS OF THE HEART In the deepest shadows of the heart A person can hide their darkest feelings Or their brightest thoughts, Only there can one run from the truth, Hide from the nightmares that this world can bring forth Where the nice can be ugly, the ugly are foul, and the wicked are your friends The truth in everyone will reveal it’s self for there is one place that no one can hide, A place where anything can happen, where life and death are one, yet no one can really die It’s A world of wonders, and despair, of light and darkness A place where people can fly, and fall Dreamz are the windows to their souls Without them they will never succeed, never fear, never be truly be happy or in love In Drakken’s Dreamz there are only the ones, who are willing to fly, Willing to trust, and willing to forgive for others mistakes. There no one falls, no one dies, but is carried on with in his heart His soul is not pur

In The Hotel
A flash of an intrigingly sly smile warmed my heart as I looked deep into your eyes I could tell that there was more to it. Its only been a few weeks since I have been with you but it seems so much longer. I have known you for so long yet never have we been single at the same time before. The hours spent talking pass like mere seconds in your presence. I have wanted to have you to myself for so long yet I never said anything about it to anyone before. Now we are alone in hotel room and I can feel the energy in the room. The room was poorly lit since my hands were full from the bags I was holding and you just walked in to sit on hte bed. The lone rays of light that peaked through were from the open cracks in the blinds. I look over at you sitting on the bed watching me put my stuff away. You just had this look in your eyes that made me feel that you had thought of me for the whole time I was thinking about you. It seemed like so many years. I thought I was going to be so much more ner

In This Moment
Taking your hand Fingers to my lips I want to love every inch of you Taste every part of your body As if I can drink your love's blood Through your very pores I want to get lost in your eyes Consumed by your kiss Set my body on fire Quench the fire in my blood With sweet caresses Touch my soul with your passion Lay down beside me Feel my body crying for you Lets get lost in each other Touching,tasting,exploring We will exceed passion, go beyond bliss For this is our time Want me like no other Need you, like the air that I breathe Together, one mind, one soul Fused in the heat of passionate love Existing in this moment

In The News
That's all we need.. The Taliban and Lex Luthor... Real Kryptonite!? I'm calling Batman for now on! http://news.yahoo.com/s/nm/20070424/od_uk_nm/oukoe_uk_britain_kryptonite Yeah another planet to screw up!---I guess Bush doesn't have to worry about the Democrats and global warming! http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20070425/ap_on_sc/habitable_planet;_ylt=AhHzSSh19.H3_U5uNN0HOIMPLBIF Alec Baldwin? He's a pissed off dad! Like parents have never been mad at their child...I don't mean he should said what he said, but I understand! Russell Simmons wants "bitch", "ho", and "nigger" banned... There goes G-Unit and Roc-A Fella's next 10 albums---in the trash where they always should've been!

In The Making
A broken heart never intended A broken girl waiting to be mended Never will I see the day Where everything will be okay I'll save you the time I've made up my mind I'll stab my self in the heart for you So you don't have to It's not finished yet, it's in the making lol

In The Mind Of....
Slowly I lose my mind, and stand at the walls of time. And yeah the divine are there, acting like they have no cares. Beware of Sacred grounds, for you never know how deep the river maybe. They'll tell you all 5the things you wanna hear, ya know... when you're lost in that comfort zone. I used to love being there so much, so well, oh well. NOW I'M BACK, Kinda like it when.....The demons come with hell;s fury as angels above are swirling as voltures!!!! What happened to the heavenly DOVES? They've forgotten about the raped ones, as the Ravens claws draw slow blood.Some say that the cleansing has begun.....Time now to cleanse all. Written by, Marcus Copywrite 03'

In The Early Morning
In the early morning When it's dark before dawn I often wake and think I see Him standing in the lawn. I know it cannot be him But it sooths my tired mind To see the man who in the war I had to leave behind. Someday I'll go to join him. I'll take him by the hand And we will walk together into the promised land. For early in the morning When it's dark before the dawn I often see the man I was Standing in the lawn.

In The Moment
Please when you can check out this really good band. Maria has one hell of a good voice. I just learned about them today. http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendID=3002730

In Three Days
In Three Days by Robert Browning So, I shall see her in three days And Just one night, but nights are short Then two long hours, and that is morn See how I come, unchanged, unworn! Feel where my life is broken off from thine How fresht the splinters kee pand fine,- Only a touch and we combine Too long, this time of year the days But nights, at least the nights are short. As night shows where her one moon is, A hands-breadth of pure light and bliss, So life's night gives my lady birth And my eyes hold her! What is worth The rest of heaven, the rest of earth? O loaded curls, release your store Of warmth and scent, as once before The tingling hair did, lights and darks Outbreaking into fairy sparks. When under curl and curl I pried After the warmth and scent inside, Through lights and darks how manifold- The dark inspired the light controlled! As early art embrowns the gold. What great fear, should one say, "Three days That change the world might cahnge a

In The End
Why not I dont exist so why cant you resist me and twist me in to a shape that you want me to exist in outside of the box its hard to view in when its closed in the end it was just friends in the end it was makebelieve in the end it was a twisted fanasty come to life I was hidein away from the world to see cause I didnt want to be showen off and claimed for a little while i was the light shined through I was hidein so no one would know who i was so they wouldnt find out the disapoitment of my realization is now that was it all worth it hell yeah it was I am not even talked about except behind closed doors outside its just friends one fiends for the other only to get shut out hell yeah thats why i am confused.

In This Moment. A Really Cool Band
I am trying to help promote this one band. If you are going to ozzfest this year. They will be there and me too ;) Please check out there webpage whenever you can. http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=3002730&MyToken=a6e37fa1-b0d8-494f-b27a-73161b500ab7

In The Arms Of An Angel
In The Arms of an Angel Last night I lay in the arms of an angel, within the swerve of his limbs and hips, as the ebon suede of night unfolded and nothing was as it appeared to be, no longer earthbound anymore. We rose and fell upon a sweat drenched cloud, drifting beyond eyes of the stars, where whispers wake no clocks. He serenaded me with love songs, as his breath moved like fingers, seducing my ears; flesh aroused by his nimble tongue. I lay like less than an angel, spread eagle, as he opened the curtain of my being. The night made no sound while we clenched and unclenched, mapping each others world, bodies quivering like a vibrating bell, stroking at the hour of twelve. Our lustful moans, pure sin; a perfect lyrical orchestration, as I held tight my flesh to his bone, devoured and stained in ecstasy. Last night I lay in the arms of an angel, feeding the fantasy of my silent parts

In The South
The 'Rules of the South' are as follows!!! 1. Pull your droopy pants up. You look like an idiot. 2. Turn your cap right, your head isn't crooked. 3. Let's get this straight; it's called a "gravel road." I drive a pickup truck because I want to. No matter how slow you drive, you're going to get dust on your Lexus. Drive it or get out of the way. 4. They are cattle. That's why they smell to you. They smell like money to us. Get over it. Don't like it? I-20 goes east and west, I-75 goes north and south. Pick one. 5. So you have a $60,000 car. We're impressed. We have $250,000 cotton pickers that are driven only 3 weeks a year. 6. So every person in the south waves. It's called being friendly. Try to understand the concept. 7. If that cell phone rings while a bunch of doves are coming in, we WILL shoot it out of your hand. You better hope you don't have it up to your ear at the time. 8. Yeah, we eat catfish &; crawfish. You really want sushi &

In There In Me Brains
It was the lazy eye that threw me off. I had no idea I was her intended target until the brick hit my forehead. Ok, so it wasn't a brick. It was a muffin. But that muffin could have put an eye out. You would have screamed like a little girl too. Jerks.

In The Last 3 Days....
let's start with Sunday evening- we're breaking down camp at the renaissance faire when I get a call that a relative is ill and in the hospital. Ok.... So Monday afternoon, my father had stopped at his favorite restaurant to chat with friends before going to see this relative and had a heart attack while there (his second one)! He's been in the ICU for 2 days now on a ventilator. They have had trouble weening him off of it. Progress has been little and slow to come. Today they did start pumping some food into him though. In the meantime...the other relative is still in the hospital, but with any luck will get out tomorrow...but they do have quite a recovery ahead of them that I'm sure will take the whole family's help. I can't even express how exhausted and frustrated I am right now. I want to go see my dad but cannot get any babysitting today (I was at the hospital all day yesterday with Sis). Hopefully tomorrow will be full of good news *fingers crossed*

In The Heart
The hardest thing to do in life is let go and loose someone you love. To love is to live, to live is to love and to care is to love even with doubt. To doubt oneself is to almost shout out. To scream is to shout, to break the state of silence, yet alas to break ones heart is more then a lack of love. Its a state of screaming inside yourself, when the world will not give you help. To repeat the same dreams must be a clue, a clue that something you saw has now missed you. You never were close to it as you've wanted to be, to touch it even in dreams is not even worth it to me. To touch and to wake, your dream world will but shake and then break. The clock'll tell you how much time you did take, how long did it last between last night and when it faded away? Do I know? Do I remember? The image and the repeat has burnt itself into my mind today. Did I miss something or am I not blind? Why did I not speak up sooner? Why did you run and hide? These answers might be inside. If you love

4 In The Morning
Gwen Stefani 4 In The Morning Lyrics Wakin up to find another day The moon got lost again last night But now the sun has finally had it’s say I guess I feel alright But it hurts when I think, when I let it sink in It’s all over me I'm lying here in the dark Watchin you sleep, it hurts a lot And all I know is you’ve got to give me everything Nothing less 'cause you know I give you all of me I give you everything that I am I’m handin over everything that I’ve got Cause I wanna have a really true love Don’t ever wanna have to go and give you up Stay up till four in the morning and the tears are pouring And I wanna make it worth the fight What have we been doing for all this time Baby if we’re gonna do it come on do it right All I wanted was to know I'm safe Don’t wanna lose the love I found Remember when you said that you would change Don’t let me down It’s not fair, how you are I can’t be complete, can you give me more Oh please, you k

In The Mist Of My Mind.
In the mist of my mind i could change anything at any time. In the mist of my mind i am god of my own world. in the mist of my mind i could tell any one my secret why i dream this dream. in the mist of my mind i could be anything that i want to be... no one can tell me who or what i should be. in the mist of my mind, i sleep forever so i could see my world more. In the mist of my mind i see things that i shouldn't but should at the same time. in the mist of my mind all the pleaser i want is there. in the mist of my mind my life is set and made to what i wants to be. in the mist of my mind i know is real. - in the mist of my mind... i am asleep. As the ringing of the alarm starts the mist in my mind started to fade, and as i open my eyes i begin to look out into the real world and than i start to know how i was made. in the mist of my mind.

In The Air.
I lay in the dark. As the ceiling fan makes lazy circles above me. The air is there. It's all around me. Caressing my cheek. Cooling my skin. Blowing my hair back from my face. I want it so much. This thing that I may never have. It's in my head. It's in my heart. It's in the air. I can feel it coming. That moment when I can just... BREATHE.

In This Day & Age.....unemployed Man....but So True
An unemployed man is desperate to support his family of a wife and three kids. He applies for a janitor's job at a large firm and easily passes an aptitude test. The human resources manager tells him, "You will be hired at a minimum wage of $5.35 an hour. Let me have your e-mail address so that we can get you in the loop. Our system will automatically e-mail you all the forms and advise you when to start and where to report on your first day." Taken back, the man protests that he is poor and has neither a computer nor an e-mail address. To this the manager replies, "You must understand that to a company like ours that means that you virtually do not exist. Without an e-mail address you can hardly expect to be employed by a high-tech firm. Good day." Stunned, the man leaves not knowing wh ere to turn and having $10 in his wallet, he walks past a farmers' market and sees a stand selling 25 lb. crates of beautiful red tomatoes. He buys a crate, carries it to a busy corne

In This Season Of Love
The birds beautiful songs fill the sky, their melody takes our emotions high. The strong tender breeze of love's air, ignites the brilliant glow of lover's flare. In this season of true abiding love; you are a true gift sent from above. In your lips lies the swig of pleasure, a taste my tongue would always treasure. Tonight, let our hearts be made whole; lie in my blossom and delight my soul. In this season of interminable bliss; only everlasting in your tender kiss. Sleep and dream my petty pretty one, for tonight the victory of love is won. My darling, scream, cry in great ecstacy, let me roar in achievement of our fantasy. In this season of unity and freedom, I'll forever lie in your sweet blossom.

In The Same Space
The setting of houses, cafes, the neighborhood That I’ve seen and walked through years on end: I created you while I was happy, while I was sad, With so many incidents, so many details. And, for me the whole of you is transformed into feeling.

In The Arms Of The Angels
spend all your time waiting for that second chance for a break that would make it okay there's always one reason to feel not good enough and it's hard at the end of the day I need some distraction oh beautiful release memory seeps from my veins let me be empty and weightless and maybe I'll find some peace tonight in the arms of an angel fly away from here from this dark cold hotel room and the endlessness that you fear you are pulled from the wreckage of your silent reverie you're in the arms of the angel may you find some comfort there so tired of the straight line and everywhere you turn there's vultures and thieves at your back and the storm keeps on twisting you keep on building the lie that you make up for all that you lack it don't make no difference escaping one last time it's easier to believe in this sweet madness oh this glorious sadness that brings me to my knees in the arms of an angel fly away from here from this dark cold hotel room

In The Mirror (a Poem I Wrote)
tell me what it is that i'm ((supppose)) to see when i l^o^o^k into the !mirr0r! ¿why? is it that I HaTe myself && *everything* that I AM when did I decide that I h..a..d to put on ~twenty~ pounds of makeup just to feel b*e*a*u*t*i*f*u*l or at least AtTeMpT to [[feel]] B*e*a*u*t*i*f*u*l As I s/t/a/n/d there completely n.a..k.e.d I can see ALL of my +.flaws.+ InSiDe && OuT How can you *think* of me as to be [[PERFECT]] when :.nothing.: about me is [[PERFECT]] My eyes have lost their s*p*a*r*k*l*e;; there's no .g.l.i.t.t.e.r. in my [[veins]] i'm REALLY nothing ::.SpEcIaL.:: How could you F A L L in [♥]Lovee[♥] with someone LiKE Me? When I l^o^o^k into the !mirr0r! I see nothing more then a BIG m!stake I can only h0pE that i'm more then that to *you* but if I am just a m!stake I *hope* that I was your ((favorite)) >one< © 2007 Kirsten Oge

In The Beginning...
(Yes I know my titles aren't all that original lately...) I was bored on break one day and wandered into a local hobby store. I stumbled across a "Micro-T" by "Team Losi." This is a 4.5" long radio control car that has some serious features (slipper clutch, differential, fully proportional forward/reverse/steering), and is amazingly durable, all ready to rock for significanly under $100. Charges up in 20 minutes, runs for about 10, and can go about 10mps. This quickly lead in the complete opposite direction, and now I've got an "E-Maxx" by "Traxxas" which is a 10 pound twin-motor, two-speed transmission 4wd performance monster truck that does 20mph... Both are addictively fun to run, and do NOT require upgrades to have fun with, but can be tweaked to perfection if you so desire (just try to remember with the micro-t that it is a sub 100 car to begin with... bling adds up quick!). More to follow.

In The Locker Room
In the locker room We have a coed locker room at the gym and I invite you to the gym to join me for a work out. Little did I know we would work up a sweat before we hit even the first machine? But I am getting ahead of myself. Let me start at the beginning. It is a beautiful fall day and the sun is shining and the air is crisp. We meet at gym and I see your car pull in. I quickly park and walk over to you as you struggle to get your gym bag out of the back seat. I come up behind you and give you a quick hug and a kiss that startles you and makes you jump. I grab your bag from the back seat and we walk to the entrance of the club, we check in and head to the locker room and instead of giving you your bag to allow you to head into the ladies locker room I continue holding your bag as I head into the coed locker room. You get a puzzled look on your face as I enter and look around at you but you are right behind me. I decided we should just change in hear as after

In The Mind Of The Rockstar Princess
What is in my mind right about now? Well a lot of things actually. I have just graduated from a community college here in Michigan and I'm going on to a University. But thing is, I have to tread lightly bcuz of a couple of stories that I have heard from friends. But that does not matter, all it matters is that I'm doing my business and that is how I will leave it at that. Plus, the love of my life, (Christopher) is doing just fine and everytime I talked to him, I feel so much closer to him than ever before. More later as it will develop.

In The Dark
Like the flakes of falling snow, Melting in the street... Like a helpless, starving doe, Ripped from its mother's teat... Like a lamb trapped beneath The clutches of a bear... Like a tiger, without teeth, Deprived beyond compare... Like the fish, within the sea, Eaten by the shark... There's no one here, guiding me, Alone and in the dark. Like the girl that simply drowned For slipping down a well... Like a mute, who makes no sound, None heard me when I fell... Like the boy who cannot speak For all their cruel remarks... That's what it's like to be a freak, Exiled to the dark. Like the silence, never broken... Like my empty soul... Like the lies that you have spoken, Which grow beyond control... Like a moose, Helplessly stuck Beneath a fallen tree, I have no life, I have no luck, I never will break free. Like a man without a name, Who no one ever knew... Never will I be the same, No matter what I do. Like a child that cannot see, Abandoned in a park...

In The News....
Well, there was one other thing that I just found out about the Henry Doorly Zoo, when me, my kids and my father, went there on Friday. It goes to tell ya that I need to start watching more of the news and such. I guess in the aquarium, the world's first baby hammer head shark was born to a virgin mother hammer head shark. I guess a security guard walked by one day and saw the baby with his mother and was like "Can that really happen?" Eventually, word got out throughout the zoo that this happend and the director of the zoo himself had to see it, too. Soon there were tests taken to prove that this was so and they had found that the baby was indeed born from a virgin, which I guess is not common among the fish/mammals and such. Check out this report from fox news.... http://www.foxnews.com/story/0,2933,275035,00.html

In Thee O Lord Do I Put My Trust
PSALMS 31 1 IN THEE O LORD DO I PUT MY TRUST ;LET ME NEVER BE ASHAMED; DELIVER ME IN THY RIGHTEOUSNESS. 2 BOW DOWN THINE EAR TO ME ; DELIVER ME SPEEDILY;BE THOU MY STRONG ROCK ;FOR AN HOUSE OF DEFENCE TO SAVE ME 3FOR THOU ART MY ROCK AND MY FORTRESS ;THEREFORE FOR THY NAME'S SAKE LEAD ME AND GUIDE ME . 4 PULL ME OUT OF THE NET ;THAT THEY HAVE LAID PRIVILY FOR ME FOR THOU ART MY STRENGTH . 5 INTO THINE HAND I COMMIT MY SPIRIT; THOU HAST REDEEMED ME O LORD GOD OF TRUTH THE ENEMY TRIED TO STOP ME FROM SENDING THIS MESSAGE , TWO WEEKS AGO , BUT I THANK GOD FOR BRINGING IT BACK , YOU KNOW SOME OF US SHOUT AND PRAY ON SUNDAY , WALKOUT OF CHURCH AND MONDAY JOIN IN WITH THE CROWD THAT RIDICULING YOUR FELLOW MAN ON THE JOB , WHEN YOU SHOULD BE ENCOURAGINGTHE BROTHER OR SISTER , AND LIFT THEM UP , YOUHIDE YOUR SPIRITUALITY UNDER A BUSHEL , DON'T WANT NOBODY TO KNOW YOU A CHRISTIAN , WE NEED TO LET OUR LIGHT SHINE , HELP THAT BROTHER OR SISTER THAT'S BEING RIDICULED ON THE JOB

In The End
IT START WITH ONE THING/I DON'T KNOW WHY IT DOESN'T EVEN MATTER HOW HARD YOU TRY KEEP THAT IN MIND/I DESIGNED THIS THIS RHYME TO EXPLAIN IN DUE TIME ALL I KNOW TIME IS A VALUABLE THING WATCH IT FLY BY AS THE PENDULUM SWINGS WATCH IT COUNT DOWN TO THE END OF THE DAY THE CLOCK TICKS LIFE AWAY IT'S SO UNREAL DIDN'T LOOK OUT BELOW WATCH THE TIME GO RIGHT OUT THE WINDOW TRYING TO HOLD ON/BUT DIDN'T EVEN KNOW WASTED IT ALL JUST TO WATCH YOU GO I KEPT EVERYTHING INSIDE AND EVEN THOUGH I TRIED/IT ALL FELL APART WHAT IT MEANT TO ME/WILL EVENTUALLY/BE A MEMORY/OF A TIME WHEN I TRIED SO HARD AND GOT SO FAR BUT IN THE END IT DOESN'T EVEN MATTER ONE THING/I DON'T KNOW WHY DOESN'T EVEN MATTER HOW HARD YOU TRY KEEP THAT IN MIND/I DESIGNED THIS RHYME TO REMIND MYSELF HOW I TRIED SO HARD IN SPITE OF THE WAY YOU WERE MOCKING ME ACTING LIKE I WAS PART OF YOUR PROPERTY REMEMBERING ALL THE TIMES YOU FOUGHT WITH ME/I'M SURPRISED IT GOT SO [FAR] THINGS AREN'T THE WAY THEY

In The Beginning...
I have never written in a diary or journal before. So I may be alittle rusty, but here goes nothing. I am going to start at the very beginning of my life. The first memories I can remember is when I was probably around 8 or 9 years old and I went with my family to Cedar Point. I remember standing around the kiddie rides with my father. The most memorable moments I had as a child was riding the roller coasters with my father, as well as Christmas time when the whole family would meet up at my Grandparents for a Christmas exchange. Everyone would be there from cousins, to those long lost Uncles and Aunts, to family members I only had met for the first time. Those were the days. Now at age 23, I have experienced so many things that I thought would never happen, or that perhaps I never thought could happen. My first relationship would probably be an online one. Her name was Alice Gull. She was from Cedar City, Utah. We met online and created VHS tapes of each other and sent

In The Cards
In The Cards A touch of one finger catches me off guard when it brushes the blade of my shoulder and I tense my muscles amidst sudden shock with an abrupt turn to face this intruder. Far from what I surely had expected she stands here with those green eyes mesmerizing and a smile that renders me now disarmed with full intentions that are more than willing. Caught between two distinct realities my mind hangs in a mid-air suspension not knowing how to react in this moment that has done away with my inhibition. Never once could I have seen in my cards a chance happening of something like this that was supposed to be highly unlikely and by sheer logic utterly dismissed. Without a word in mind to say at all my lips part and bring forth no sound only to be kissed in haste by hers in this privacy that we have found. Arms of mine that were at one time clueless are quickly all-knowing and fully aware as they caress her in gentle motions

In The Last Few Weeks
IN THE LAST FEW WEEKS,THINGS HAVE BEEN LIKE A ROLLER COASTER.YA KNOW,ONE MINUTE ITS UP,UP,UP,THEN IT GOES ALLLLL THE WAY DOWN....BUT IM STILL HERE IN HIGH SPIRITS.OTHER THAN GASHING MY LEG...WHICH BTW IS GETTING BETTER BY THE DAY,STILL PATCHED UP THOUGH BUT IM DOIN GOOD.OTHER GOOD NEWS,MY 9 MONTH OLD DAUGHTER IS NOW OFFICIALLY WEANED OFF THE TITS!ITS BEEN TWO DAYS NOW.COULDNT BELIEVE HOW EASY IT WAS.NOW I CAN FINALLY ENJOY A NICE COLD ONE.ITS BEEN A YEAR AND SOME MONTHS NOW SINCE I HAD ALCOHOL.I RARELY DRINK ANYWAY BUT I HAVE A TASTE FOR THE GIRLY DRINKS IVE BEEN SEEING ADVERTISED,LOL. THE FAM IS DOIN GOOD,CELEBRATED FATHERS DAY,SOON,MY ANNIVERSARY AND HUBBYS BDAY ON THE SAME DAY...JUNE 20TH,SO I HOPE TO HEAR FROM YALL ON THAT DAY.BIG HUGS TO ALL.TTYL XXOO

In The Blink Of An Eye....
It's a beautiful sunny day the last day of school...I'm at work and hear an announcement of an accident close by...My partner and good friend makes a flippant comment "ooohh that doesn't sound good!!" A short while later her husband phones and tells her to get to the hospital immediately their son has been in a car accident....yes you guessed the same said accident on the radio.... Now I should explain that Barb and I are partners and good friends and our sons are best friends...She leaves in a panic and I start my own panic...putting two and two together and making 10!! I start to text my sons and there are no answer...so I phone the school and have them check the classes no they not in class ...Oh sweet Jesus you can guess what I'm thinking....While I'm putting a sign on the door to explain the sudden closure I get a call from my son...He's at the hospital with his brother and the brothers of Barb's son Cameron....Cameron and a boy named Kevin were joy riding in a fancy sports car K

In The End U May Get Wat U Want
Passion / misery / fear / agony all of them breathes in me life has been so far so kind sometimes I wonder, who to blame? God or Mankind to this everytime the angel replies my dear child, if you hate yourself if you cant take the darkness of life why dont you embrace suicide? Somehow the day came when I said to myself enough is enough the day when I realized no matter how hard I try survival in this world for me is tough Courtly I sipped from my chalice desperately I ran towards death to kiss only life knows how much I hated it but here I am still living in same shit This was not the first time when I felt betrayed miseries kept on visiting me even when I tried being dead Its not that I was abused by family Its not that I have grown being lonely all my life with dignity I faced my part of tide time stood against me so many times but I walked away with pride I used to be an idol to many around me now passion / misery / fear / agony all of them breat

In The Dark I Song
Should I have light? The light of night beyond the sun Or with this coin take flight A flight by night to see the one If this fare I pay I pay the way of worldly men or poor For in your arms my heart is fey And fey I’ll stay your pow’r loved the more Though quick the hours go I go to know this worthy one Love taketh all and any blow ‘Cept blow of woe when love is done For in the dark I song A song of wrong and lust anew Make short these nights so lonely long I long “Be gone!” this want of you

In The Heart Of A Soldier
In the heart of a soldier we see the pain by the tears that are shed, by the loss of another who gave his all. One who gave his life to save the life of another. We will never forget. The flag remains flying high in memory of those who wont be coming home. In the heart of a soldier in a teardrop of a child who will never forget the manhe called dad. In the heart of a soldier we will never know the real pain that makes a soldier cry or kneel down and pray. In the heart of a soldier we can only wonder what they are feeling down deep inside. In the heart of a soldier we can only pray for there safe return home. In the heart of a soldier GOD BLESS YOU!

In The Late Of Night
Alway's Thought Your Promice Was For Life I Did Not think That I Would Hear You Say Good-Bye And I Alway's Heard you Led Another Life I Doubted Every Time I Guess My Love Was Blind Cause In My Eyes Love Was alway's Somthing Magical But The Feeling Is So Tragic For And All I Know Is In Love. The thing That I Want most I cant Possess Theres Only emptiness In The Late Of Night Just Before I Closed My Eyes You lied As You kissed Me Good Night In The Late Of Night Just Before I closed My Eyes I Cried As You Kissed My Lips Good-Bye In My Eyes You Will always Be The Lucky One Cause You Know you will Always Have My Love For All The Times Untill I Die Through The End I Gave To You My Best You Gave,You Gave Me Loneliness. The End !!

In The Back Woods Of Arkansas
In the back woods of Arkansas, Mr. Stewart's wife went into labor in the middle of the night, and the doctor was called out to assist in the delivery. To keep the nervous father-to-be busy, the doctor handed him a lantern and said, "Here, you hold this high so I can see what I'm doing." Soon, a wee baby boy was brought into the world. "Whoa there Scotty!" said the doctor. "Don't be in a rush to put the lantern down... I think there's yet another wee one to come." Sure enough, within minutes he had delivered another little baby. "No, no, don't be in a great hurry to be putting down that lantern, young man... It seems there's yet another one besides!" cried the doctor. The new father scratched his head in bewilderment, and asked the doctor. "Do ye think it's the light that's attractin' them?"

In The Field
The old bull's active days were over, but the kindly farmer permitted Him to stay on in the pasture with the cows. Of course, the farmer also Turned a young bull loose in the field and the newcomer went to work. Immediately. Seeing this, the old bull began snorting and pawing the Ground with his hoof. "You're wasting your time," said the farmer. "You're too old for that sort of thing now." "I know," said the bull, "but I can show him I'm not a cow, can't I?"

In The End.....
(Person 1)The problem is shit like that. It was one thing when it was just girls - that was weird enough. But now you throw guys into the mix - two guys at once, no less. All that experience...What am I supposed to think? (Person 2)You think good; because now she'll be all true blue and shit. The girl's tasted life, yo. Now she's settlin' for your boring, funny-book-makin' ass. (Person 1)Settling. That's comforting, Thanks. (Person 2)That's what I'm here for. (Person 1)I'm lust having a problem with all of it I can't get it out of my head these visuals of her doing all this shit. And I don't know why I can't let it go. Because I'm crazy about her, you know? I look at this girl, I see the future. I see kids. I see grand-kids. (Person 2)You're scaring me. (Person 1)I'm scaring myself. Because I think so much of her, and then I can't get over shit like 'Finger Cuffs'.I don't know what I'm doing. (Person 3)I went through something like what you're going throu

In The Past
in the past i have tryed to over dose on pills people dont understand bipolar,you realy have physical pain,i know what people think she is just this crazy bitch who wants attention well you know what thats not it at all people isnt educated about mental illness and some are scared but when i over dose i was in a comma and that was when my second ex left me so you see there is alway some one worse off then you,some of you have a great life,some have a ok life and some dont have any,so thats why i say dont take anything for granted you always loose

In The Kitchen...
So, lately I've been feeling rather creative in the kitchen. Last week, I made pizza (complete with a homemade crust) that was so good, it caused the A/C to go out (okay, so it was the heat of a 400 degree oven for hours on end that did it - still). Last night, I made a chicken jambalaya that was fucking incredibly good - even without the traditional andouille sausage and shrimp. Tonight, I'm making Italian bread from scratch. It's funny, even with my love of food and cooking, I never bothered to try and open my own restaurant. My father used to manage restaurants, and told me about the difficulty of making a restaurant successful. With where I live (between Baltimore and DC), the competition is hellishly intense. Even as a resident, I've seen countless restaurants fail. I think the main reason I choose not to open a restaurant (besides my father's warnings) is that I don't have enough recipes of any single cuisine to really create a theme. I know Italian, Cajun, Marylan

In The Lion's Den
Eyes like the stormy sea and body like a redwood tree. His breath upon my skin whispers like the wind. I hear his call upon the wind as it whispers my name. The heart of a lion calls me to his soul. Showing me his world of passions prose. A stolen kiss from heated breath sends me into oblivion. I've fallen into love's passion, felt to the core. The touch of fingers skilled in love, burn me throughout. How can he know just where to touch, sending me spasms of pleasure. Eyes that burn with passion, look down upon my face. Igniting my skin with pleasures anew. Your hands so soft and kissed with dew, slowly builds the fire beneath my skin. You whisper your thoughts deep in my ear, telling me all you dare to reveal. I want you to do all that you say, making me shiver with anticipation. As you take your lead to suckle my neck, I feel the increasing within. The touch of your tongue upon my neck makes my blood start to roar. Your hands so passionate start to roam across my skin, sending me shi

In The Middle Of A Tornado...
My life has been so turbulant as of late... my mind seems so cluttered and everything seems completely different... chaos is reigning supreme. im not sure where to file my life right now... how about "the only thing constant is change" file, or "holy shit, im in the middle of a tornado." However, my gods (and goddesses)provide me with strength courage and integrity... to feel joy as well as pain, and to keep my head up regardless of the situation... and for that i am grateful; to experience life as its meant to be lived. i often say BRING THE PAIN... well today, i am rather glad that the pain has subsided for a little while.

4 In The Morning
This song got me thru some days!! *4 In The Morning (Gwen Stefani) Waking up to find another day The moon got lost again last night But now the sun has finally had its say I guess I feel alright But it hurts when I think When I let it sink in It's all over me I'm lying here in the dark I'm watching you sleep, it hurts a lot & all I know is You've got to give me everything Nothing less cause You know I give you all of me I give you everything that I am I'm handin' in everything that I've got Cause I wanna have a really true love Don't ever wanna have to go & give you up Stay up till Four In The Morning & the tears are pouring & I want to make it worth the fight What have we been doing for all this time? Baby if we're gonna do it, come on do it right All I wanted was to know I'm safe Don't want to lose the love I've found Remember when you said that you would change Don't let me down It's not fair how you are I can't be complete, can you give me mor

In The Darkness Of Heart And Soul
the darkness i carry in my heart ita deep wound that can't be healed like a black rose just blooming in the sun light my eyes see the darknessi can feel it i live it the pain and the shit i went through in my life my dad's death just went over the edge i love my father very much the darkness between light and dark the light hurts my eyes blinding the sun in the day i love the night life and beening a vampire is my fate then let it be so lady _desapir09

"4 In The Morning"
"4 In The Morning" Waking up to find another day The moon got lost again last night But now the sun has finally had its say I guess I feel alright But it hurts when I think When I let it sink in It's all over me I'm lying here in the dark I'm watching you sleep, it hurts a lot & all I know is You've got to give me everything Nothing less cause You know I give you all of me [CHORUS] I give you everything that I am I'm handin' over everything that I've got Cause I wanna have a really true love Don't ever wanna have to go & give you up Stay up till Four In The Morning & the tears are pouring & I want to make it worth the fight What have we been doing for all this time? Baby if we're gonna do it, come on do it right All I wanted was to know I'm safe Don't want to lose the love I've found Remember when you said that you would change Don't let me down It's not fair how you are I can't be complete, can you give me more? & all I know is You got to give me

In The Shower
I see you standing there, adjusting the water in the shower.My eyes travel down your naked body, stopping at your ass. I lick my lips.You step into the shower, the water running over your body. Droplets stick to your breasts. I walk further into the room and start to take my clothes off, slipping my shirt over my head and tossing it with yours on the floor, then reaching down and unzipping my jeans. I step out of them, then my boxers. I walk over to the shower and stand there admiring your form through the sheer curtain. I love to watch the way you run your hands over your stomach as you wash yourself. I lick my lips again then slowly pull back the shower curtain and step inside, moving up behind you and reaching out to cup your breasts in my hands. I startle you; you jump and turn around to face me. "Shhh, turn around and place your hands on the wall." I say, my hands going to your waist to and helping you turn. You do as I say and bend over slightly, parting your Legs. It makes

4 In The Morning
Wakin up to find another day The moon got lost again last night But now the sun has finally had it's say I guess I feel alright But it hurts when I think, When I let it sink in It's all over me I know you're here, in the dark I'm watchin you sleep, it hurts a lot [Bridge] And all I know is you've got to give me everything And nothing as good, You know I'd give you all of me [Chorus] I'd give you everything that I am I'm handin over everything that I've got Cause I wanna have a really true love Don't ever wanna have to go and give you up Stay up till four in the morning And the tears are pouring And I wanna make it worth the fight What have we been doing for all this time Baby if we're gonna do it come and do it right All I wanted was to know and say Don't wanna lose the love I found Remember when you said that you would change Don't let me down It's not fair, how you are I can't be complete, can you give me more [ Four In The Morning lyrics foun

In The Dark
what makes people afraid of the dark is it the things you cant see or the things you might see maybe its the things you dont want to see that your scared of? me im scared cause i feel so relax amongst what i know is around me. its insane to know that you are in danger and just smile. to feel the breathes and presence of something someone around me. i get asked why do i always sit in the dark corner alone. well cause i am never alone i always have things around me talking to me. one could say im nuts most just tell me what i already know that im very spiritually connected. a little secret i got a gremlin for a pet. i know you think i'm nuts but i dont care what ppl think cause i know the truth i see and hear what others dont want to. as far as my pet many no believers saw him so say what you will. i have seen things that are unexplainable. i have walked through ppls dreams and let me tell you some were a bit disturbing

In The Face, Oh So Stereo Typical
I think you ought a know that every day on the radio all I hear, all you show, is another blank verse of the same song about bitches & hos. Don't get me wrong, I'm guilty too and no better than you for bouncing along to the rhythms of a cataclysm, my renunciation of avocation in not seeking retaliation for this repudiation and annihilation of every woman you claim to know. All the same it's all so tame, playing the game and building a name by the shit you proclaim about the girls you meet while disclaiming our voices and seeing only meat. So come and get it while it's hot, I've got a lot to say, so go ahead and spew your best shot before this bitch, switch, educated diva witch exposes one hell of a scratch to itch. It's alright, I can take it, and if you want we can even fake a bit of real animosity if it's what you need to spill useless seed and beget profitable hypocrisy instead of becoming the prophet able to pour rage through pens like a camera lens snapping off

In Tha Booth! Just Speakin Tha Truth!
yeah its A Dot Cizzile aka St.Bizzile in tha booth if u didn't know i'm tha fuckin truth and i wasn't one of dem people sittin on dere roofs when katriana past over and came threw i was on my way to tha sushine state wit alicia fairchild and she use to be a member of my crew unfortally she try to play me like some chicken noodle soup,but fuck her i'm doin better by myself and got great health but not dat much wealth some imma hop in my stealh and fly over iraq and turn dem people into some dead shit like a super soulja cause i surpast bein just a soulja hollow tips and rang rovers.

In The Dark
There are times when I'm inconsolable when the world around me becomes too much and my demons come out to feast on me again There are times when I'm hopeless when I'm too lost to return home and I don't need your comforting touch I just need to be left alone to sit quietly in the dark Don't offer me a friendly hand nor a tender embrace of love Just let me surround myself with shadows and let my troubles eat me whole Don't try to save me when I can't be saved and keep your tender words for another day a day when the tides of my heart have changed and my soul flows the other way But until that time remember that I love you and that you're still the keeper of my heart but for the moment love is not my friend and your tender touch and sweetest smile are like poison to my aching soul So let me be Let me sit alone in the dark Let me find comfort in forgotten lusts Let me bandage my heart with solitude and dry my tears with time I know that

In The Shadow
in the shadow Category: Writing and Poetry abandon me bewilder me my heart is lost without you a dark and lonesome seed without the warmth of your smile void of the light in your laughter sinking deep within the soiled earth to hide to hibernate so lost without you the darkess grows around me and spins a tangeled web so cold so sheltered a wimper and a cry for all that I have lost for that which I cannot reclaim withered here and weak in just the shadow of your name

In The Bed
On the bed...All alone Only the street lights shining The sounds of my sweet moans mixed with soft whining I luv the feel of my fingertips Piercing my wet hotness,making me grind my strong hips Slowly rubbing my swollen clit in a circular motion Juices so silky and smooth,feel just like lotion All in between my fingers I stop and wait while the wetness lingers Bringing my hand to my lips for a quick taste Now my pu**y is throbbing with such haste I place my hand back in it's familiar place Thrusting deep in and out,sweat pouring down my face Now it is time to open my wetness nice and wide As my juices squirt out enough to soak my sheets like the beach during an evening tide!

In Tha Both!
Ah Huh looka here i'm in tha booth once again doin my thang doin me and doin it how i do it and holdin it down fa tha few true dawgs i got ya understand what i'm sayin? anyways its payback fa yall bitch cats,cause i'm one of tha three ghetto muskteers lil boy i'll have ur ass in tears so why u hollarin at me fa a feature,cause A Dot Cizzile is tha preacher and ur teacher so don't make me get on u and bleach ur punk ass imma super soulja and yall some pour me over type of fakers yall really could never be on my style succeedin,cause i be dat chossen child laid back and never playin childern games..yall already know who it is A Dot Cizzile ur # 1 Original Plantation Village Boy Fa shiggity my dawggitys,cause u can only stop me if u press pause oh boy i'm smokin on dat dro in dat keep movin gar humbrizzile i'm threw imma let somebody else flip dis bitch holla one out prick.

In Tha Booth Like A Motherfucka!~
damn i'm really on fire tonight and i don't stop spittin until i wanna quit so hold up lil momma i just wanna know if u can be my chick on slick while ur husband ain't hittin it baby boo i got tha chossen child in me smokin on a hump or a mild don't bend up and fold cause u'll get raped in tha beats dawg comin straight frum tha five hundred and 4 and dat st.bernard down tha road in plantation village bitch.Big Pearl and Tha Murda Man end dis bitch cause we tha loins,tigers, and bears runnin down tha road smoke weed and sellin other drugs we been told dat dem boys ain't holdin down shit just bullshittin out tha mouth so yall better stop reppin my shit or find ur ass fliped by my venomes words and i'm 504 bounded lil busta dats where u could found me bringin headaches to ur mind,cause u ain't never broked bread wit me matter in fact get frum round me cause u probally be workin fa dem feds ya diggity? Oh Lord i'm out of dis bich.

In Tha Booth One More Gain!
Lord I'm back wit another annoucment in tha booth i'm tha truth and anybody wanna step up to tha plate and test me imma put ur word to shame and dey gonna rest in peace ya feel me.well if u is den come on and super soulja walk wit me and bark wit me and spark wit me coolin in tha dark at tha beach rollin wit a couple of hoes and who knows what might happen if a dot cizzile's breathin i got dese boss bitches screamin my name and dis is tha new game ready to flip tha script in tha hall of flames when dese cowards blame u fa something dey did.Oh Boy yall ain't on dis shit i speak and spit bitch,cause its to real fa ur minds to belive and payattention to what tha chossen child rippin never slippin nor trippin just crusiein wit my dawggitys on tha I-10 smokin dat mid,dro,or kb so imma leave it like dis here and give a couple of shouts to my dawggitys Greg,Brian,Jennifer,Brandin,Niketta,Demond,Darrel,Devin,Merlin,Cody,Harvey,and tha reast of my Plantation Boys.yall hold down tha hood fa me u

In Tha Booth Like A Monster Pricks!
OH Boy! looka here pricks its tha chossen child once again me and my dawgs are trin to do us while dese haters trin to joc us,but fuck dat shit,cause i be tha a cot cizz on dis bitch like a motherfuckin g so fuck around if u think u can surpast me in dese beats,cause i just don't speak i rape dese beats lay dem down like its apart of me cause i'm ur suppiler i keep u higher until u wanna retire frum smokkin dat dro and popin dem x pills wit it so if u want some den lil gurly boy come get some i'm always on my grown man stauts always ready to to battle shit like a super soulja dat tha st.bizzile already and truley is so holla me if u want some bussiness,but if u a chesse eater u better get tha fuck frum around me cause i'm a D A W G and dat spells dawg so u don't won't none of dis shit kid u fuckin prick.holla at ur # 1 original plantation village boy a dot cizzile aka tha chossen child.

In Tha Booth Spitin Like A Tank!
oh lord its another one of dem in tha booth freestyles and looka breach chere i'm in florida at tha gulf aire beach and i be swimmim wit tha sharks dese days and be barkin wit tha pit bulls its me and my two dawggitys hollywood and j-money cathy oh yeah dis grown woman fine dats why i be thinkin bout her all tha time.i want her to be my gurl and my wife.so fuck tha parish and tha past i'm just goin wit tha future and dat how i do it when tha chossen child does it prick so u better respect dis or if not i'll have ur ass in check pussy bitch and i know u be takin a bath in tha plantation village ditch wit ur lil dirty ass funky gurly boys,cause yall lil boys dat still play wit toys and my name sammie and a dot cizzile plays wit yalll mammies dats tha cup man come around best belive yall could never feel my pain,cause i lost my home,hood,and dawgs but i'm still reppin my set and my state and parish in tha sunshine state streets stunnin wit a fresh tee,bous,and a fresh black pair of soul

In The Air Tonight Lyrics
In The Air Tonight Lyrics I can feel it coming in the air tonight, Oh Lord I've been waiting for this moment, all my life, Oh Lord Can you feel it coming in the air tonight, Oh Lord, Oh Lord Well, if you told me you were drowning I would not lend a hand I've seen your face before my friend But I don't know if you know who I am Well, I was there and I saw what you did I saw it with my own two eyes So you can wipe off the grin, I know where you've been It's all been a pack of lies And I can feel it coming in the air tonight, Oh Lord I've been waiting for this moment for all my life, Oh Lord I can feel it in the air tonight, Oh Lord, Oh Lord And I've been waiting for this moment all my life, Oh Lord, Oh Lord Well I remember, I remember don't worry How could I ever forget, it's the first time, the last time we ever met But I know the reason why you keep your silence up, no you don't fool me The hurt doesn't show; but the pain still grows It's no stranger to you

In The Interest Of Doing Things Constructively... (video Link Attached)
Rather than drink myself into oblivion last night, I stayed up and tried to think of something to do. It finally dawned on me - as dawn was approaching - that I could be doing this thinking outside, on the balcony. So, here I sit, with my laptop, and my cam, on my balcony... waiting. Here's the link. Courtesy of Stickam.com. Don't worry, it'll open in a new window. If you're really feeling froggy, add it to your favorites so you can just pull me up whenever. http://www.fubar.com/stashEntry.php?stashId=2961807

In Tha Booth Fuck Yall!
aight imma take dis over like some four leave clovers and i'm gone on dem two blue doves ready to go tha clubs and get tha females dat got hubbies,cause shane and roy are dummies talkin shit like some cannons,while i'm in florida and da murda man in bama so lil dawggity stop rockin dem soulja wrags,cause damn boy yall really sad i hadda come back and make em mad cause i'm thaa chossen child not tha come back kid i be ridin 20 inch rims and fuck rockin tims i rock ree's and black tee's,cause yall know who tha real g be and dat will be me tha ac comin frum over seas and i gotta say fuck dese streets and get my weed oh yes indeed i feel like i'm on some speed like a big dawg in dese beats beats beats beats beats i'm tha fuckin beast all up in ur bitches bedroom sheets..

In The Hear You Were Born...
In 1975 (the year you were born) Gerald Ford is president of the US Evacuation of US civilians from Saigon as Communist forces complete takeover of South Vietnam FBI agents capture Patty Hearst, who is indicted and convicted of bank robbery Teamster Jimmy Hoffa disappears without a trace Marines rescue the crew of the American ship the Mayaguez near Vietnam First Lady Betty Ford says in an interview that she thinks her children have tried marijuana Natalie Imbruglia, Drew Barrymore, David Beckham, Enrique Iglesias, Angelina Jolie, and Tiger Woods are born Cincinnati Reds win the World Series Pittsburgh Steelers win Superbowl IX Philadelphia Flyers win the Stanley Cup Production begins on Star Wars Jaws and The Rocky Horror Picture Show are the top grossing films Soul Train premieres on television in the United States "The Way We Were" (performed by Barbara Streisand) wins the Grammy for best song Saturday Night Live and Wheel of Fortun

In The Beginning...
Vlad was a wandering minstral playing at fairs and feasts when he met the fair Red. She was a kitchen wench at the time, making merry with much wine and song. She noticed Vlad lurking in the corner. "Pray thee, dost thow knowest what all thine knobs are for?" She proclaimed as Vlad manipulated his contraption. "Yeah verily, come hither and I will show thee how I tweeketh thine knob" Vlad exclaimed. When the supple wench approached, Vlad was dumbstruck at the light in the fair Red's face. He gently guided the fair Reds hand to allow her to feel the power of his knobs. The wench then exclaimed "Thow knowest the seasons have shifted and a snow befalls us. Thine chariot and team will not make the trip to the old bridge. Thow must seek shelter in my humble abode." Vlad had not been unacustomed to being asked to humble quarters by toothsome wenches. Most times he does turn down the offer in favor of his steed, the road, and to be alone. But the light in the fair R

In The Beginning
In the beginning, God created the Heavens and the Earth and populated the Earth with broccoli, cauliflower and spinach, green and yellow and red vegetables of all kinds, so Man and Woman would live long and healthy lives. Then using God's great gifts, Satan created Ben and Jerry's Ice Cream and Krispy Creme Donuts. And Satan said, "You want chocolate with that?" And Man said, "Yes!" and Woman said, "and as long as you're at it, add some sprinkles." And they gained 10 pounds And Satan smiled. And God created the healthful yogurt that Woman might keep the figure that Man found so fair. And Satan brought forth white flour from the wheat, and sugar from the cane and combined them. And Woman went from size 6 to size 14. So God said, "Try my fresh green salad." And Satan presented Thousand-Island Dressing, buttery croutons and garl ic toast on the side. And Man and Woman unfastened their belts following the repast. God then said, "I have sent you heart-healthy vegetables an

In The Wake Of The Morning
Where did you come from Sweet love of mine? We are bonded for eternity you and I. This war will rage forever apart from what is right. These iridescent embers flame into undying light. I'll watch for you when the sun is high above For love sleeps with dreams of passion and desire dreams of passions of love.

In The Words Of Cherry Brady...
Just a couple of quotes from one of my favorite porn models (yes, I said porn models, get over it!)... "Have you ever been dining at a restaurant and someone walks up to your table to introduce themselves or they are a distant acquaintance or whatever and they want to shake your hand? If you are that person who keeps extending your germ infested, butt picking hand to some poor diner who is just about to lift a taco to their lips, STOP IT, dammit!" "If people spent more effort working on their interior qualities such as character, personality and integrity, instead of nitpicking every perceived flaw on their exterior, then this world would be a much better place."

#12 In The Rain.
Waking up to the sound of rain hitting the roof. You stretch, not wanting to be awake yet and find that I'm not in bed with you. You turn to look around the room, your eyes trying to adjust to the darkness. You see my silhouette as lightning flashes outside. You walk slowly over to the chair im sitting in, watching the storm You reach down slowly running your fingertips from my shoulder and down my arm, locking our fingers together. Standing up i put our hands behind your back, slowly caressing your face with the other hand. Placing my finger to your lips, a sly grin across my lips. I lead you out of the bedroom and down stairs. "What are you doing?" you ask. Looking back at you i tell you to just come with me. Walking out the backdoor, onto the patio. The rain so cool on my bare chest, you stand in the open doorway looking at me, laughing. I come to the door and pull you out with me. Pulling you into my arms, kissing you, the rain making your hair wet and heavy, m

In The Boardroom .. Big Daddy This Is For You
This is a tale that's going to make pussies wet and dicks hard, but let me start at the beginning. I had this real freaky friend that I used to work with. .....We used to go on break alot and talk about everything. After awhile, we were having phone sex and dry humping each other at the job, usually dogggy-style, standing up, my hands against the wall and and your hands on my waist, pulling me back and forth so fast til we were making loud, smacking noises. There were times, from the friction of your big dick being rock hard and rubbing agiainst the fabric of your underwear and slacks, and me feeling it against my thin sun dress and thong panties, hitting those pussy lips, that we would both cum. We would go anywhere we could. In the parking garage stairwells, in the elevator, in conference rooms late, when mostly everyone was gone. There were times when you jacked off in front of me, stroking your hot pole til' Iu started slpattering hot cum all over the wall right in front of me, wh

In The Beginning...
Greetings one and all...I guess this is the part where I try to say a little something about myself and in the process...try to not bore everyone half to death out there. It'll be hard, but here goes... I'm a pro wrestler, whose been in the busines somewhere in the neighborhood of 7½ years. It feels like I've been in it a hell of a lot longer. I've been all across this country, back and forth more times than I care to count. Currently, you'll find me lost and wondering somewhere in the Paducah, Kentucky, area. Granted that could change at ANY minute, but for now, that's where I'm at. If you have any questions, comments, anything like that...feel free to drop them. I promise, I won't bite...too hard, well...unless you want me to, then we'll talk. Some interests of mine...I listen to about any and all types of music. Just depends on what I feel like listening to at the time. Same thing with movies, although my favorite movie of all time is "Shawshank Redemption." Love wat

In The Heat Of The Moment
In the heat of the moment, wild passions flare. Tongues, teeth and finger tips, aching to touch and share. Invisible boundaries designed, to quell this heat with a shiver and a chill. Anticipation the red flame, that melts an iron will. Passions born of hell, yet known to God as pleasure. Finger tips burn skin, while touching lighter than a feather. A dance in near darkness, awakes once more this passion. Erotic this crucifixion, outdated by modern fashion. The world slips away, as we dance in the fire. Lips touching skin , animalistic this desire. The tempo grows quicker, hips interlocked not breaking. Hearts pound, brain whirls at this risk we are taking. The CD a rumble, like distant thunder. Passion riding the storm, of this spell I'm under. Lips along jawlines, passion threatens to burn us. Forged far below, in Hades' own furnace. Lips brushing lips, searing the flesh. Bodies interlocked, as to the music we mesh. The beat so st

.....in The End Does It Really Matter
All I ever wanted, was to be what you needed But all I ever did was say things wrong And all I ever wanted was to be by your side But all I ever did was break your heart So now that I’ve hurt you, and probably lost you Im lost with myself what the hell should I do And I wanna be with you, and tell you I love you But I know you wont have it, what the hell should I do Now all that I want, just give me one chance You cant believe me but I swear its true Cus all I want, just give me one chance To prove that I love you let me show you I do And God knows you’re an angel sent from above But I didn’t listen I couldn’t see the gift hed given me But your still my angel still sent from up above If God can hear me please just let me show you…

In The Woods
I chase not the deer in the woods what purpose would I have, what kind of mmods I chase not the devil in the trees what purpose would I have, bring satan to his knees? I seek not danger in the forest there is plenty of that at my nearby florist I run not thru the woods bare for none to see I am a free man, however, not quite that free I look upon the stream that divides my path it looks so peaceful, but, was it a journey of wrath? I can stare at the surrounding for ever to create such beauty with my words, I am not so clever So, journey with me in my trek thru the pines we'll travel any direction, damn all the signs I can envision the confusion and look in your eyes when you first notice the tree lined look into the skies

In The Last Few Seconds
In the last few seconds all the clocks ticked in unison, His Vision cleared but saw nothing, darkness. He stared into the blackness that was becoming his life. But he realised that the blackness was just a centre Now around it he could see the cold blue, grey of a steel tube He noticed that the tube was a barrel A barrel with dent and scratch marks down its length But then he saw a movement of a finger of a gloved hand Tucked behind a trigger guard marked with a fleck of white paint, He saw the cylinder begin to revolve the Chambers changing places Filled with their load of dull grey slugs of destruction His nostrils were filled with the smell of gun-oil He closed his eyes and He tried to shut down his brain He felt the barrel press against his head for a moment There was a screaming in his head, a voiceless cry of agony But then he realised that his life was not flashing before his eyes Why had he not seen, could not see His life at His death Was this some

In The News
JACKSON, Ky. - The seven people who died in a small plane crash in the wooded mountains of eastern Kentucky Tuesday were all members of the "Wakkyton Klown Kin" circus family: a Texas couple, the woman's mother-in-law and the couple's four children. No one survived the wreck Monday in an area so remote that rescue workers on all-terrain vehicles needed help from bears, possums and hillbillies to find it, said Buddy Rogers, a spokesman for the Kentucky Division of Emergency Management. Kathleen Bergen, spokeswoman for the Federal Aviation Administration in Atlanta, said seven people were aboard the twin-engine Cessna that had taken off from Wichita Falls, Texas. The pilot, wearing a bright orange fright wig and inflatable shoes, did not file a flight plan, but the administrator at the Wichita Falls airport said the pilot told him he was headed to Kentucky and then Virginia. Monica Morris, airport administrator, identified the pilot as Bo-bo Wakkyton and his wife as Bo-be

In The Hospital
Hello, this is shuebox138. Andy asked me to come on here for him, to let everybody know what's going on. Unfortunetly Andy has suffered from a mild stroke, and is in the hospital right now. Luckily the damage doesn't appear to be to extensive at this time. They are keeping him in for a while for testing and observation. Mainly to try and find out why somebody this young had a stroke! Andy has very limited internet access, so he asks everybody to please avoid doing anything that will fill up his inbox.(he recieves a high volume of emails, and doesn't want to run out of space, and miss something important) Andy's hospital is about a 10 minute walk up the hill from me, so I've been going to visit often, if you have any ?'s, or want me to pass along any messages, feel free to contact me on my fubar acount shuebox138.

In The Darkness
It's dark I'm losing sight of the light. Can this be true might I die? Who will miss me, who would care. I wonder why this happened to me an not you. Not that of course i would wish tis on anyone, but more as a question. So many times I have often wondered especially lately what my family my friends my kids would do without me? I'm faced with darkness but whats so hard is I'm facing it alone, Noone here no one to care. Noone to hold me when I'm scared. So if i have to face it alone i'll live each day like there is no tommorrow. In the darkness.

In This Place
In This Place by Wilomoon 9-3-2007 So many dear souls, I have found in this place, They have lifted my spirits, Or given me space, I have found great love here, I have discovered deceit, I exposed my heart, I have admitted defeat, Many friends I have made, And games I have played, Instead of eat or sleep, It is here I have stayed, Inspectors and divas, Cowboys and Ray, Firefighters, a wrestler, Are a part of everyday, A master, a singer, A dirty ole' man, They friend me, Rate me, and make me a fan, When I need advice, There is someone to call, Too many to mention, And I love them all. (Dedicated to all my Fubar friends)

In The Shower...
The clothes lay scattered on the floor. The steam seeps out from behind the door and I tentatively place one hand inside. Deciding it's perfect, I slide the door the rest of the way open and step inside. The hot water hits my skin and I instantly relax. I stand for a moment and let the water hit my face. Running down over my shoulders, it swirls over my skin, gently pooling around my feet. Turning slowly, I let the heat permeate my body. My hair becomes quickly saturated and i let my hands smooth it down over my scalp. My eyes closed, my head back, I relax for a moment and think of you. The water pulses over my skin and I feel your fingers there instead. The soft slow caress of your knowledgeable hands. Do you know the power you have over me? One touch from you and I melt. I can't help but let my hands move where yours should be. Water cascades down me, making my fingers glide easily over my body. It's your hands moving over me, your body I want so much. My fingers find the hard ni

In The Moonlight
Moonlight came in through the blinds of the bedroom windows. The pale light distorting the colors but gave enough light for me to see. I stood at the doorway, my eyes locked on the bed, watching you sleep. Flat on your back with your body stretched out you looked like an offering to a moon goddess, or to me. Walking over to the bed, I gently kneel down on the mattress next to your hip, my eyes feasting on the sight of your cock at rest, nestled in the soft curls surrounding you. I bend down, letting my breath touch you, teasing you. But sleep has taken you deeply into a dream world. A wicked smile appears as I realize my opportunity. My lips part and my tongue gently slides underneath your cock, pulling you into my mouth. The soft flesh in my mouth stirs me like nothing else as my body also begins to respond. I reach back, locking my hands together behind my back, determined to touch you only with my mouth and lips. Your body responds, growing and filling my mouth, slower than

In The Blink Of An Eye
As I walked down the street I felt something, it was as if somebody or something had touched me on my shoulders as if to guide me in some way. But as I quickly turned around there wasn't anybody there! But I could have sworn I felt something on my shoulder. I kept telling myself it was nothing, but I knew in the deepest darkest part of my mind that something had touched me on my shoulder and that something...no telling good or bad was going to happen. As I proceeded on my way, I felt something on the bottom of my feet. But, I knew it wasn't anybody and I told myself that it was only my imagination. But, was it really? The sky began to cloud over. I then I heard a whisper in my ear, I don't know what it was but it told me to get down on my knees and pray. And so that is exactly what I proceeded to do. I heard another whisper in my ear, to pray for my life because just around the corner, if I didn't watch my step death was waiting to capture me. What did thi

In The Words Of Redback Wolf
In the words of Red back Wolf 09/05/07 How many times are we going to not achieve all the things that destiny is giving us through fear…fear of the unknown or is it fear of actually succeeding….What we have to remember in this life is that fear is the irrational response to the unknown. So if you are a being of dreams and then do not be afraid to go and achieve the dreams that you have in your heart. But remember to give thanks and to give blessings to the Creator for the opportunities that are put before you. Recently I had a heated argument with a friend who has a drink problem about a subject and that subject was about understanding….he thought I didn’t know what it was like to have an addiction. Well guess what I do understand I have been around people who have had addictions for a long time. True it might not be alcohol or drugs but addictions none the less. I must admit I was extremely tempted to put him on his ass when he faced up to me…aggressively in my face and shout

In This Dream Enfolded
I imagined you here this morning, opening for me, enfolding me in soft skin and kisses - imagined the taste of your breath and your pliant breasts against me. Then, engorged, I felt your hand surround me - then sliding into you as though I belonged there - oh, I do, for all of time. Then I felt your rise and fall, moistness like dew, and the friction of your thighs against my hips. In the shadow of the first light of this morning alone, I nearly saw your face, your head lolling backwards, almost saw your nipples harden, fairly heard your wonderful moans. Just me with dreams of us, I thought of the moment together at the height - your love crying out to me as I filled you, straining to give you the last drop of me. Did you feel me in your bed, my stickiness, slackening, and breathing to you: I am here across a thousand miles? I love you. © All rights reserved

In The Wild
I am taking a 3day excursion into the backwater swamps of northwest Florida. I am hoping to create some new photos for my portfolio and for a new up and coming outdoor mag. I hope the trip goes well. I didnt know that Florida had any wildlife sites that are still untouched except for the everglade area. I have been warned by my guide to watch for Rattlesnakes, Coral Snakes, watermocs, Gaters, scorpions, and spiders....Now doesnt that sound like a fun filled weekend?!? For the photos though...I will risk it. Live is supposed to be and adventure right? Well if I make it back whole I hope to have some terrific photos. Wish me luck everyone and lets pray it doesnt rain. With everything else, I dont think I need that

In The Army Now
well as of yesterday i have reserved my posistion in the army. I go to MEPS (physical exam) wednsday ... I will be leaveing before the end of the month.. I will be working in water treatment until and animal health care specialist position becomes available... I guess i'm ready to get out of small town east texas and do something with my life i figure i only have to sign up for two years i have money to go to college plus that AWESOME 20,000 dollar cash bonus they are handing out at the moment.. lol only bad part of all of this is i have to lie to my family and tell them i'm joining the airforce so they won't vertualy disown me and worry themselves sick over me.. although they will have no choice but to find out when i send them the packet saying i'm graduating from training in the army .. oh well i feel bad but i know it's for the best.. basicly i'm writeing this on here because i need to get it off my chest and i cant tell anyone ...

In These Arms
You want commitment Take a look into these eyes They burn with a fire, Just for you now Until the end of time I would do anything I'd beg, I'd steal, I'd die To have you in these arms tonight I want you like the roses Want the rain You know I need you Like a poet needs the pain I would give anything My blood my love my life If you were in these arms tonight I'd hold you I'd need you I'd get down on my knees for you And make everything alright If you were in these arms I'd love you I'd please you I'd tell you that I'd never leave you And love you till the end of time If you were in these arms tonights We stared at the sun And we made a promise A promise this world would never blind us These are my words Our words were our songs Our songs are our prayers These prayers keep me strong It's what I believe If you were in these arms tonight If you were in these arms tonight I'd hold you I'd need you I'd get down on my k

In The Clouds
All I ca nsay is I am in the clouds and it is a good feeling. I mean hell....I am havcing typos happen. Not going to fix them even. LOL. Am I crazy? I do not want to lose it nor do I want to scare off the one responsible for this. Just had to get this out even if it may not make any sense to ppl. LOL. I AM ALIVE!!!!!!!!!! And maybe some other things. hehehe.

In The Middle Of The Night
Your touch awakes me in the middle of the night It must be a dream I feel your breath in my ear Whispering your desires Touching my body with your strong hands I can't resist you The desire is so strong Kissing with such need I need you more than anything at this moment I know you feel the same We give into each other I can feel you diving into my world Moaning with pleasure The heat rises as we make love Grasping and holding onto you so tightly Beautiful feelings run through my body I can feel it building inside And then it happens We both feel it That wonderful wet warm explosion escaping from each of us Leaving us breathless and satisfied Afterwards we fall asleep in each others arms only to wake up and start all over again...

In This Dream
I wonder when or if she'll fall to me the rest of the way. I dreamed her wrapped around me squeezing desperate for this moment not to end for my lips to hers laying hands to heal the pain of too much past and finally finally finally making love. In this dream the door held back everything of danger while we, inside, impassioned, mixed like waves mix with sand clouds dissolve to mist to air become the very breath we draw. Where I was hard she softened me and held me safe inside slept upon me,as I, awake, looked through the infinite ceiling into the very mantle of this new heaven. © All rights reserved

In The Depths Of Solitude
i exist in the depths of solitude pondering my true goal trying 2 find peace of mind and still preserve my soul constantly yearning 2 be accepted and from all receive respect never comprising but sometimes risky and that is my only regret a young heart with an old soul how can there be peace how can i be in the depths of solitude when there r 2 inside of me this duo within me causes the perfect oppurtunity 2 learn and live twice as fast as those who accept simplicity

In The Event Of My Demise
In the event of my Demise when my heart can beat no more I Hope I Die For A Principle or A Belief that I had Lived 4 I will die Before My Time Because I feel the shadow's Depth so much I wanted 2 accomplish before I reached my Death I have come 2 grips with the possibility and wiped the last tear from My eyes I Loved All who were Positive In the event of my Demise

4 In The Morning
Wakin up to find another day The moon got lost again last night But now the sun has finally had it’s say I guess I feel alright But it hurts when I think, when I let it sink in It’s all over me I know you’re here, in the dark I’m watchin you sleep, it hurts a lot [Bridge] And all I know is you’ve got to give me everything And nothing less cuz you know I’d give you all of me [Chorus] I’d give you everything that I am I’m handin over everything that I’ve got Cause I wanna have a really true love Don’t ever wanna have to go and give you up Stay up till four in the morning and the tears are pouring And I wanna make it worth the fight What have we been doing for all this time Baby if we’re gonna do it come and do it right All I wanted was to know (I'm safe) Don’t wanna lose the love I found Remember when you said that you would change Don’t let me down It’s not fair, how you are I can’t be complete, can you give me more [Bridge] [Chorus] Oh please, you know what

In The Past
Sitting amoung everything that life is. My entire world lost into an abyss of dispare and uncaring feelings. Bordom always sets in at the most inconvenient of times. 'Tis not my friends that care not... It is me. I hate, I feel pain, my world shattered and torn apart and only placed into what is thought of as art. Art and beauty have no meaning. Not to me. Not from what I see. The monsters always come at night. They always give a good fight. Pray for me that this bitterness is taken away from me and my thoughts are my own at last. Let me feel the breeze of love against my cheek and my heart soar. Let this pain be in my past.... In my past...for it is at last Something, someone drowns out my sorrows so well. This is the pain that fell down into an abyss that is dark. Dwelling on it's own hatered. Drowing in its own pain. Alive with love and no more dispare, I am free to soar like bird of the air. Flying higher then clouds or fowl...I am free of the bitter

In This World
To love in this world is harder than stone. You may cherish a few thousand hearts that you own. To stand tall, in this world is to push your way through. Be cautious in all that you say and you do. To be free in this world is to raise your voice. To state who you are; that you're given a choice. To have in this world is to save and to keep. For if you don't do this, in the end you shall weep. Written a long time ago, but posted for a very close friend of mine, who is dear to my heart. Craig, this is for you.

In The White.
There once was a boy who sat at the edge of a frozen lake. Crystal specks littered the ground like discarded diamonds. He wondered why ice fields weren't coveted beyond any measure. Were they not beautiful. Were they not unique. Were they not just as fragile and ephemereal as a virgin's gasp? He wondered why life in it's infinity of wasted moments, was so precious but so disregarded. this finite life, momentary, blink of existence. People all around him saying This is the best we'll have. All we have. The miracle is here. The miracle is all around us, enveloping us in sunshine kisses, twilight wanderings, cold wind that smells like family dinners. The whisper of snow that echoed two lovers huddled and smiling under the covers. So much love in their eyes, such a warming presence, oblivious to the outside world, the silent dark world. The only thing that mattered, was the brilliant miracle of those two people. Together, one observer would hope- forever. Why waste

"in The Line Of Duty" ~ Odessa's Three Fallen Heros
In The Line of Duty" What is the meaning of "In The Line Of Duty" It means that an officer made the Ultimate sacrifice. It means that someone took an officer's life. A hero has fallen. Officers who gave their all To protect and serve Have been killed by someone whom they swore To protect and serve. It means that their badge will no longer be on their chest And they will join "The Best Of The Best" It means that family and friends are left behind To deal with the lost of a loved one. Only having the memories of that loved one Close to their hearts. Something no one can ever take away. It means that family members will stand at the officers grave And wonder why ... Why would someone take an officer's life And leave them there to die? If we only knew. Today an officer will place their badge on their chest To fulfill the dreams of heroes killed "In The Line Of Duty" Heaven Called It's Hero's Home" There's a reason I cried when I heard two office

In The Dark
No stars in the sky One light in the dark I can't see anything except my face Nobody heard me Nobody want to listen Nobody awake My voice just lose in the dark In their world I'm not alive But I'm shouting in the dark I'm shocking in the dark I'm hiting in the dark I wanna swallow the whole dark I'll rip the dark With my black knife I saw a bleeding line A shining line It's the dawning of my life

In The News
"In just a few moments, we will be covering the press conference from City Hall, downtown Fairview Heights. We will bring that to you live, as it happens." (OK, I'll bite. WHEN THE FUCK ELSE COULD YOU BRING IT TO ME LIVE?)

In The Event Of My Demise
In the event of my Demise In the event of my Demise when my heart can beat no more I Hope I Die For A Principle or A Belief that I had Lived 4 I will die Before My Time Because I feel the shadow's Depth so much I wanted 2 accomplish before I reached my Death I have come 2 grips with the possibility and wiped the last tear from My eyes I Loved All who were Positive In the event of my Demise by Tupac I Cry Sometimes when I'm alone I Cry, Cause I am on my own. The tears I cry are bitter and warm. They flow with life but take no form I Cry because my heart is torn. I find it difficult to carry on. If I had an ear to confiding, I would cry among my treasured friend, but who do you know that stops that long, to help another carry on. The world moves fast and it would rather pass by. Then to stop and see what makes one cry, so painful and sad. And sometimes... I Cry and no one cares about why. by Tupac

In The Shower
It's early morning and your sitting at the table drinking coffee and reading the paper when I come in from the bedroom. I come walking over to you, and with out saying a word I take your hands slowly in mine entwining our fingers I kiss the palms of your hands sucking slowly each finger teasing and tasting, I gently pull you to you feet and kiss your collar bone as you rise pressing myself against you as you bend your head to kiss my lips I pull you along with me down the hallway towards the shower as we enter the bathroom I reach for your belt buckle and undo it so I can slide my hands in your waist line, your stomach curves inward with the chill of my cold hands on your warm flesh I slide my hands from your waist slowly up and across your chest feeling your nipples grow taut at the tease of my touch I slide your shirt up over your head taking one of your nipples into my mouth and flickering it with my tongue then pinching it with my teeth suckling it gently with my mouth, I slide my

In The Afterglow
In The Afterglow She lay serenely in the afterglow The sweat of passion spent Vaporized and no more Her hair tousled, frames a peaceful face The red glow of the cheeks still visible Her eyes resting, her mouth open slightly Her full lips still moist, her pale skin smooth No hint remains of what passed The contortions of orgasm Which were etched into her innocent face Linger no more but shall again soon She lies beneath a silken sheet Stretched more tightly across her breasts Showing them in sharp relief The cool air from the open window Arouses her nipples Which stand proud through the silk She murmurs in her sleep and squirms in unison As her arousal continues elsewhere If her lover does not return Her satisfaction will be in her own hand

In The Darkness
In the Darkness I am the voice that lets you know everything is alright In the Darkness I am the hand that shows you the way out In the Darkness I am the one who fights off the monsters In the Darkness I am the one who holds you close keeping you safe In the Darkness I am at peace when you are by my side In the Darkness I am king and nothing can hurt me In the Darkness I am alone and noone is with me In the Darkness I have no feelings and I am empty

In The End I Am Me
in the end I am me Do not judge me on how I look. There is more to me then you will ever know. Do not hate me for the life I was given. As I do not hate you for yours. Do not condemm me for exsisting beneath the moon light. In it there is a beauty that very few can see. I love, I hate, and I dream just like you. I've known both hapiness and sorrow. I have witnessed the miracle of life. I watched in silence as someone I loved died. Helpless to do anything about it. So do not treat me like I'm not human. For I am more human then you will ever realize. I am not evil, and I am not good. To put it simply I am just me, it's all I can be. Stop trying to change me, it does you no good. No matter what you do, when I die I will still be me. Copyright ©2007 Christine L. Youlls

In The Beginning...
I was so naieve. I thought that the people/ corporations who ran these day care centers actually knew what they were doing. I thought the "bosses" were perfect and nothing happened that shouldn't. I mean, these places are licensed by the state to run a certain way. SOMETHING has to go right... right? After teaching in child care for the last year, I have learned something crutial. Child Care is run by morons and money hungry idiots who have no clue what to do with a child if left alone with one. I am devoting thid blog folder to the things that I have learned as a parent and employee of a day care. Some of the things I now know may shock you, may make you laugh, may leave you astounded!! ( ok, thats so pushing it ) I will tell you that there is never a dull moment, and I plan to tell it all!

In The Lead!!!
Just want to thank everyone that has helped me build my lead in the contest!!! Keep up the great work everyone....it is highly appreciated!!! Now for those that want to help but haven't yet...here is the link to the contest...drop by, rate and comment all you want...fubar gives ya more :) Love ya all!

In The Afterglow
She lay serenely in the afterglow The sweat of passion spent Vaporized and no more Her hair tousled, frames a peaceful face The red glow of the cheeks still visible Her eyes resting, her mouth open slightly Her full lips still moist, her pale skin smooth No hint remains of what passed The contortions of orgasm Which were etched into her innocent face Linger no more but shall again soon She lies beneath a silken sheet Stretched more tightly across her breasts Showing them in sharp relief The cool air from the open window Arouses her nipples Which stand proud through the silk She murmurs in her sleep and squirms in unison As her arousal continues elsewhere If her lover does not return Her satisfaction will be in her own hand

In The Criminal Justice System.... A
In The Criminal Justice System.... by EroticaSeanStyle © Some feedback would be nice here, folks. ESS Serena Southerlyn was replaying the conversation she just had with her now ex-boss, District Attorney Arthur Branch, in her head while she was filling a box with her personal effects from her office. "A decision has already been made?" she had asked. "Yes, a decision has been made. You're fired," Arthur had said. "Are you firing me because I'm a lesbian?" "No, it's not," Arthur replied. "Good," she said, taking a deep breath. "Good." With one last look at the office she had kept while working under Executive Assistant District Attorney John J. "Jack" McCoy, the statuesque blonde turned out the lights and left. Serena was lost. She had been a brilliant legal mind, yet over the past few weeks, Jack and Arthur were turning down her ideas left and right. Maybe this was a good thing, Serena thought. Before she went home to her apartment in Midtown Manhattan, s

In The Criminal Justice System.... B
In The Criminal Justice System.... by EroticaSeanStyle © "Oh Jenna, baby, make me cum please. Your tongue feels spectacular! Drive it inside me!" Serena yelled, her hands slipping down to the top of Jenna's head, lacing her fingers through the delicate strands of Jenna's hair. Jenna didn't need to be told twice, as she immediately began to fuck Serena's pussy with her tongue. She made it rigid and speared the woman's pussy with reckless abandon, getting it deep inside before she wiggled it around, causing Serena to thrash about, gripping the bed sheets and raising her back off the bed momentarily before crashing down. She had a mini-orgasm from that, giving Jenna a little taste. "That taste good, baby? There is more where that came from," she said, and Jenna nodded, wanting to taste as much of the woman as it was humanly possible. But she didn't continue to lick Serena's pussy just yet. She removed her mouth, to the chagrin of the woman being eaten thoroughly. She got onto

In The Process Of Moving
Just wanted to make sure everyone knows I'm in the process of moving so I won't be on that much, I'm not leaving fubar but won't be spending nearly as much time on here as before so if ya don't hear from me for a while that's why. I love ya'll and hope everyone is doing well. Take care & hope to hear from ya soon :)

In The Name Of Peace
I don't know who wrote this but it is worth pondering. It makes sense to me, but what can I do? I am a member of the "silent majority". Subject: IN THE NAME OF PEACE A man whose family was German aristocracy prior to World War Two owned a number of large industries and estates. When asked how many German people were true Nazis, the answer he gave can guide our attitude toward fanaticism. "Very few people were true Nazis," he said, "but many enjoyed the return of German pride, and many more were too busy to care. I was one of those who just thought the Nazis were a bunch of fools. So, the majority just sat back and let it all happen. Then, before we knew it, they owned us, and we had lost control, and the end of the world had come. My family lost everything. I ended up in a concentration camp and the Allies destroyed my factories." We are told again and again by "experts" and "talking heads" that Islam is the religion of p

In The News Today (10-6-07)
Cop Uses BB Gun to Save 'Jarhead' Skunk By Associated Press Sat Oct 6, 1:56 AM CARROLLTON TOWNSHIP, Mich. - These are the salad days for one lucky skunk. Officer James Kellett said a skunk whose head was stuck in an empty salad dressing jar wandered into the police station's parking lot Thursday in Carrollton Township, near Saginaw and about 80 miles north of Detroit. Kellett wanted to serve and protect the white-striped weasel, but wasn't interested in any resistance _ spray or otherwise. So he grabbed a BB gun used in hunters' safety courses and shot at the jar from about 40 feet. The shots cracked and shattered the jar, leaving a glass collar around the skunk's neck. With its head free, the skunk ran off. "I didn't want to use deadly force, and it is a residential area," Kellett told The Saginaw News. "The way he was when he took off, he was able to eat, breathe and spray _ and do anything else skunks like to do." Kellett didn't get much in the way of gratitude, but

In The Beginning
In The Beginning by DarkTalon © Sweat rolled off of Hank McCoy's brow as he made his way into the locker room area after a particularly difficult training session in the Danger Room. The Professor had pushed the kids hard, harder than he'd ever done before. They were coming into their powers, for sure, but why did he have to make everything so tough? "Hey, Hank," Bobby Drake hailed as he sat down next to his teammate. Wiping away sweat, the youngest mutant at Xavier's Academy sighed. "That was a tough one, huh?” "Sure was," Beast replied, eyeing Warren Worthington III as he wandered into the locker room, folding his wings behind his back. Warren quickly stripped down and stepped into one of the over-sized showers, wanting to get back to his room and take a quick catnap. "I was kind of surprised at the difficulty level. I didn't think we were ready for that.” “We'll have to be ready for a lot of things from here on out.” Hank and Bobby turned in unison to see the skinny, quiet S

In The Beginning
IN THE BEGINNING I NEVER HEARD CREATION EXPLAINED THISWAY BEFORE !!! In the beginning, God created the Heavens and the Earth and populated the Earth with Broccoli, Cauliflower and Spinach, green and yellow and red Vegetables of all kinds, so Man and Woman would live Long and Healthy Lives. Then using God's great gifts, Satan created Ben and Jerry's Ice Cream and Krispy Crème Donuts. and Satan said, "You want chocolate with that?" And Man s aid, "Yes!" and Woman said, "and as long as you're at it, add some sprinkles." And they gained 10 pounds. and Satan smiled. And God created the healthful Yogurt that Woman might keep the Figure that Man found so fair. and Satan brought forth white flour from the wheat, and sugar from the cane and combined them. and Woman went from size 6 to size 14. So God said, "Try my fresh green salad." ~And Satan presented Thousand-Island Dressing, buttery croutons and garlic toast on the side. and Man and Woman unfastened their belts following th

In The Rain
Walking in the rain, I feel it beating down. Hard against my skin, I wonder if it will ever end. Does it even matter, It has a purpose now. It allows me to walk in silence, And let my tears stream down. Tears of life's pain, No one could ever understand. They don't know, Nor do they care, How it is for me now. Where it is I sit, And where it is I stand. Pain is what I know best, My cross is hard to bear. God won't take me home, He keeps saying it is not my time yet. I sometimes wish I had the guts, To blow my brains out. I wouldn't feel the pain. I wouldn't have to hide in the rain. My soul wouldn't be heavy, By this life that is full of burdens. Where did I go wrong. Why did I get this heart I carry. It seems all I ever get is shit. Yet I know I can handle all of it. He comes and sit with me at night. He always says it will be alright. You are strong in many ways, This life of lessons has made you gain. Your soul has grown more than you shall know. Yo

In The Strangeness Of The Night
its been a very strange few days for me.have adopted my dog out to friends as i cannot take sare of her in my pressent situation.as many of my friends know,due to a very bad break up back in the spring and recent stressors in my life,i have been forced to take refuge in a shelter temporarilly.at first my bro was just sitting her till i could get things taken care of but certain recent events have stalled things by a month or two longer and she has gotten compfortable there and my bro has kinda gotten attached so,,,,i made the most painfull sacrifice of my life and decided to leave her there.my bro is extatic and siannon seems happy so,,,,anyway,got invited out by a buddy o mine to a party about a week back and got completely and gloriously wrecked.just now over the hangover.drank more then at any other point in my life,i shite the not!!not drinkin for a long while again.strange days these and i sometimes question my sanity.but,,,i keep survivin

In The Heat Of The Moment
imagaine .... a cool breeze on a crisp night, stars shining and the moom .. full. mood is set... and the timing is perfect...... he moves in towards her from behind and slowly slides his hands around her waist as his face melts into her neck to inhale her sweet femimine set.... she closes her eyes and leans back, trembles a bit from his touch. is she scared?... no, she has been longing for his touch, waiting for this moment, and ready to embrace it. she turns around and reaches to him, placing her hand on his cheek, pulling him in.... closer, she lips brush across his soft lips..... he pulls her in closer kissing her more deeply.... still smelling her sweet smell of night jasmine... message me....... if i should continue

In The Beginning............
IN THE BEGINNING WAS THE WORS, AND THE WORD WAS GOD AND ALL ELSE WAS DARKNESS AND VOID AND WITHOUT FORM. SO GOD CREATED THE HEAVENS AND THE EARTH. HE CREATED THE SUN AND THE MOON AND THE STAR, SO THAT THEIR LIGHT MIGHT PIERCE THE DARKNESS. AND THE EARTH, GOD DIVIDED BETWEEN THE LAND AND THE SEA, AND THESE HE FILLED WITH MANY ASSORTED CREATURES. AND FROM THE SLIME, IN A LAND CALLED LYMPSTONE, GOD MADE DARK, SALTY CREATURES THAT INHABITED THE SEASHORE. HE CALLED THEM (MARINES), HE DRESSED THEM ACCORDINGLY, IN BRIGHT COLORS SO THAT THEIR BETERS MAY MORE EASILY FIND THEM IN THE HOLES AND BURROWS THAT THEY SCOURED OUT OF THE GROUND. AND GOD SAID "WHILST AT THEIR APOINTED LABORS THEY WILL DEVOUR WORMS, MAGGOTS, C AND K RATIONS AND ALL CREATURES THAT CREEP AND CRAWL." THE FLIGHTY CREATURES OF THE AIR, HE CALLED THEM (AIRDALES), AND THESE HE CLOTHED IN UNIFORMS WHICH WERE RUFFLED, PERFUMED, AND PRETTY. HE GAVE THEM GREAT FLOATING CITIES WITH FLAT ROOFS IN WHICH TO LIVE, WHERE THEY GATH

In Tha Booth! It Ain't No Secert!
yea its ur boy son all up in tha booth stompin haters to tha ground come try and seek me i can be found in tha parish or tha joe so pussy ass bustas u ain't raw and i can't trust ya livin life to tha fullest got my dawgs on my shouldars its like everytime i spit i get colder and colder so i know u better hold up walkin up on me i will merk u knock ur ass down to tha motherfuckin shitter u see i don't care no more life after katrina got my head rite,but have other people head's fucked up and i be like damn i can't believe dis lettin a hurricane take ur mind away damn dawg i thought u was stronger den dat well i guess it is what it is so better believe dis ima live my life wit happy memories,cause dats all we got at tha end ya digs?

In The Dark
alone i stand looking to the stars untill the clouds cover them all ...... in the dark i hear your voice, in the dark i feel your touch wating for the time i feel the warm feeling of you standing behind me your breath on my neck your arms around my waist holding me close ..... the the clouds move letting me see the stars once again and the feelings gone:( but wait what is this i feel your there within me all the time saying the words i long to hear but how can this be your so far away ? why do i stand alone in the dark yet feel so close ?in the light of the stars i turn catch the image of you before me and thats what ill hold untill your there for real .... in the dark yet making it feel like day .... Made by a real Angel for me....luv ya :)

In The Hart Of A Thug
In the hart of a thug there is alot of love but in the face of a thug he shows no weakness The things he do to keep his family close and safe is a glimps of how he cares The things he do for his homeboys show that there is still love deep inside of him When he mean mugs you can't begine to notice his softness but it is there When he kisses his woman or plays with his child In the way he daps his friends The way he rolls for his hood In the way he fights for his falling In every thing he do there are glimpse of the love he has In the hart of a thug there is alot of love Music Videos - Lil LOVE (feat Mariah Carey and Bow Wow)

In The Gym
Hear me God of Iron, for these words ring true, Help me become a God like you. Give me the will to lift through the pain, so my body may grow through the strength that I gain. Guide my arms to be strong and true, to fuel the intensity each day through. Give me the power in these callused hands, to stand proud amongst my peers throughout this land. I'll give my soul on the altar of desire, if you'll help the weight reach higher and higher. I can live with the stares and the mumbling crowd, just for the chance to make you proud. I pray each day on the iron bar throne, Grinding out each rep with a massive groan. Watch over my bros from the sport's fame; protect them O' God while they're in the game. And when the day has come and gone, rebuild my body so I may go on. Iron God hear me; make me hard as granite, so I may become the biggest motherfucker on the planet.

In The Next Several Days
I will be cleaning up my friends list.. to start off with I am removing all friends.. I will be going to my fans list and readding friends from there. If you are my fan you will be getting a friend request and at that time i will make sure i have you fanned and rated has well. I know this may piss a few of you off but hey this is my page do what you gotta do.. to those of you that stay thanks and lots of love. keep in mind i have 15,000+ fans it may be a few days before you see my request in your box again but you will get it if your on my fan list

In The Shadow
I look out the window and the sun is goin down..I take a deep breath as my heart sinks to the ground...Another day has passed..I knew deep down this love couldnt last...I turn around and in the shadows i hear a sound..I think to myself is this shadow comming for me all hope has gone i say to myself i give in...I say i am ready forgive me for my sin..My heart beats slower as the shadow comes near all i ask for is it be quick..I sense no fear..I take my last look around as i say goodbye my love..I beg of you no tears ill always be near..I walk to the shadow with my head hanging low an the tears running down my face goodbye my love......

In The Dark
I'm swimming all alone in a pool of darkness and I feel like darkness is slowly pulling me under I yell for help but no one is there to hear it I begin to see the water at eye level and I kick and flail fighting to stay above the darkness But the darkness won't let go of its hold on me and I slowly begin to give in to the feeling that lies below the water line the waters starts to fill my lungs the lungs that once held so much life yet now they allow the murky water to replace that I know that this path doesn't lead to happiness But why doesn't someone grab my hand pull me from darkness's grasp? because no one knows I stand at the boundary the boundary between light and dark so I give in to the thing that holds me All of the strength and all of the courage that I once held in my heart can't save me from the water So I slowly slip below the world of conscientiousness undetected by the occupants of that world I don't want to fight anymore I've given into darkness

“in The Light Of Love”
“In the Light of Love” ENGLISH A joint statement signed by: Most Rev. Wilton D. Gregory, Catholic Archbishop of Atlanta Plemon Tauheed El-Amin, Imam, the Atlanta Masjid of Al-Islam Rabbi Scott Saulson of Atlanta The Rt. Rev. J. Neil Alexander, Episcopal Bishop of Atlanta As people of faith with a strong belief in individual human dignity - regardless of race, language or place of birth - we are concerned about the callous and hateful perspective of many of the loudest voices heard lately around immigration issues. Our concern includes constant reference to men, women and children in derogatory terms that seem to dismiss their, and our own, humanity and to justify any proposed mistreatment or punishment. Defaming, diminishing and dismissing newcomers as less than human strikes us as neither very faith-filled nor very American. Our concern is with family, civic and faith values. If we are to treat others as we would like to be treated, if we believe that mercy

In The Eleventh Hour
So many times I put things off thinking that I'll get to them when I feel ready. I never use to be this way. Procrastination was not something that I have been known for until lately. Here I sit in the eleventh hour with trick or treaters just hours away from my doorstep and still I have not finished carving the pumpkins. I use to enjoy the yearly task of carving pumpkins. In fact, when I still lived in Portland, I would pick up about 8-12 extra pumpkins and carve them for my parents, so that they could line their driveway with them on Halloween. I now find carving pumpkins to be a not so enjoyable task. Perhaps, it was the enjoyment of having my children at home and sharing in the yearly festivities with them that made the task so much more enjoyable. Every year the kids and I would go to the pumpkin patch and spend hours picking out the perfect pumpkins. We would then take a hayride and drink the freshly pressed hot apple cider that Wilhelm's Farm made every year and would

In Tha Booth Halloween Special.
IN THA BOOTH HALLOWEEN SPECIAL. YEA I'M BACK IN THA BOOTH AND MICK MYERS IS WALKIN DOWN THA STREET HE GOT DAT BIG ASS KNIFE READY TO END MY LIFE I CAN'T GO TO SLEEP CAUSE FREDDY WILL BE IN MY NIGHTMARES & DREAMS CAN'T GO OUT TO THA LAKE CAUSE JASON WILL BE STANDIN DERE TRIN TO MURDER ME WITOUT ANY MISTAKES,BUT I'M READY TO FUCK CLEAN OVER ALL DESE CATS,CAUSE I'M A DOT CIZZILE AND I CAN'T BE BEAT BY SOME MAKE BELIEVE FREAKS TRIN TO STACK UP MY STREAKS FUCKIN OVER DESE CREEPS,BUT JEPPERS THINK HE GOT THA UPPER HAND JUST,CAUSE HE CAN FLY MANE DEY BOUT TO FEEL THA PAIN WHEN A BUST DEY ASS WIT THA GAME FLIPIN OUT UR MINDS IS MY DREAMS AND HOBBIES

In The Corner Crying
Girls dance, and flirt with all the guys. People have fun, while time flies by. While I’m all alone in my own little world, I’m hearing all the things I’ve heard before. I’m gonna stay and endure the pain once more. For I know I can leave through that forbidden door. As I watch couples glide across the floor, I think of why my heart is turning sore. My tears fall and fall like rain. I’m hurting with very extreme pain. My stomach hurts, my hearts dying, ‘Cause I’m in the corner crying. Midnight came and gone like the wind. I wait at the window for the rise of the sun. I’m shivering as everyone else has fun. My head’s pounding like cement. I’m regretting the invite my friend sent. I’m in a lot of anger and I’m dying, Because I’m in the corner crying. I’m in the corner crying, Over heartbreak and sorrow. I’m in the corner crying, Wishing my heart will live tomorrow.

In The Shadows...poem
Master Here I wait for you Here I stand for you Here I lay for you Here I hold my thoughts for you Here I kneel for you Here I breath for you Here....it is here that I die for you..in the Shadows.

In The End
In The End Noone believes you and what you have to say They turn their back on you and slowly walk away They think what there mind sees Yet they never know what you can possibly be The love the faith that you have to give Is turned away with no place to live You see the hurt as it turns into the pain Afraid to give in knowing it could happen again Now it is here in no man's land Alone in the dark i bow my head to my hand Now it is close to the end and all i see Is this small glimpse of hope that was here for me

In The Army Now
A vacation in a forreign land Uncle sam does the best he can Youre in the army now Oh, oh, youre in the army now Now you remember what the recruiter said Nothing to do all day but stay in bed Youre in the army now Oh, oh, youre in the army now You be the hero of the nieborhood Nobody knows that you left for good Youre in the army now Oh, oh, youre in the army now Smiling faces as you wait to land But once you get there no one gives a damn Youre in the army now Oh, oh, youre in the army now Hand grenades flying over your head Missiles flying over your head If you want to survive get out of bed Youre in the army now Oh, oh, youre in the army now Shots ring out in the dead of night The sergant calls (stand up and fight) Youre in the army now Oh, oh, youre in the army now Youve got your orders better shoot on sight Your fingers on the trigger But it dont seem right Youre in the army now Oh, oh, youre in the army now Youre in the army now Oh, oh, y

In The Flesh
in the house where the dogs wait across the water the lake trapped. rope burned wrists tear-stained pillow bleeding. the apathy in his eyes. i am bound by my hopes my fears my heart his hands. they want it more than him to see me shake cry resist give in enjoy. moan thrust close your eyes. in the boat. across the sky. a lifetime of nights left

In The Class..
IN MY CLASS!!! HAVE YOU EVER BEEN GUILTY OF LOOKING AT OTHERS YOUR OWN AGE AND THINKING, SURELY I CAN'T LOOK THAT OLD. WELL.. YOU'LL LOVE THIS ONE. MY NAME IS ALICE SMITH AND I WAS SITTING IN THE WAITING ROOM FOR MY FIRST APPOINTMENT WITH A NEW DENTIST. I NOTICED HIS DDS DIPLOMA, WHICH BORE HIS FULL NAME. SUDDENLY, I REMEMBERED A TALL, HANDSOME, DARK-HAIRED BOY WITH THE SAME NAME HAD BEEN IN MY HIGH SCHOOL CLASS SOME 30-ODD YEARS AGO. COULD HE BE THE SAME GUY THAT I HAD A SECRET CRUSH ON, WAY BACK THEN? UPON SEEING HIM, HOWEVER, I QUICKLY DISCARDED ANY SUCH THOUGHT. THIS BALDING, GREY-HAIRED MAN WITH THE DEEPLY LINED FACE WAS WAY TOO OLD TO HAVE BEEN MY CLASSMATE. AFTER HE EXAMINED MY TEETH, I ASKED HIM IF HE HAD ATTENDED MORGAN PARK HIGH SCHOOL . "YES. YES, I DID. I'M A MUSTANG," HE GLEAMED WITH PRIDE. "WHEN DID YOU GRADUATE?" I ASKED. HE ANSWERED , "IN 1975. WHY DO YOU ASK?" "YOU WERE IN MY CLASS!", I EXCLAIMED. HE LOOKED AT ME CLOSELY. TH

In The Flow Of Time
the tears fall like rain into a river that swells from pain blood rushes with hurt that burns to the touch words can not heal this only a touch the thought consumes the pain intercedes no opening in sight all darkness no light things the flow of time cant heal one kiss one touch that is all that can change it love deeper than the ocean isn't deep enough distance is no help the physical being that is you beckons to me i hurt for your pain i want to relieve it to let you have some release to vent it all out take me im yours release your pain unto me i will swallow it remove it not enough hours in the day to take away your hurt not enough water to put out the flames left behind from it release it unto me let me love you the way you deserve hate me for it if you will nothing matters until u are whole your heart put back together from tattered parts torn threads sheered from your chest ripped and degraded hallow pain filled hurt induc

In The Eyes Of A Stranger
In the eyes of a stranger I've never felt so warm For you to hold onto me Through this emotional storm The seas of lies surround me As they crash and burn to dust But my dear beloved stranger You heart is pure of lust Is this true love then? Have I found my one and only? I dont have to cry at night Because I am no longer lonely Tell me you love me That I'm your one and only Tell me your not lying That your not being a big fat phony Do you feel the same Towards me as I do you? Will you look in my eyes and say "I love you too" Is this a nightmare Or some magical dream? Please tell me this isnt a bet or a game Or some diabolical scheme Hold me close and keep me safe From this worlds danger Because my love, I dont know you But to me you are a perfect stranger

In The Heart Of Confusion
In The Heart of Confusion In the heart of confusion there is little hope. There is preciouse little time and even less rope to pull yourself out of the thick and black mote that will swirl around you in music without note. My heart is a quagmire, a swamp you see. A place where no one ever should be. Shadows are spinning and whirling around me, taking me deeper never to set me free. Darkness is coming I am almost there. Into the pits of deception and dispare. Fight as I may I'll not come up for air. For there is no light to give off a flare. Depression is real a creature of late, and if I'm not careful it will seal my fate, and if I don't guard my heart at this rate, it will take me down deeper and use me as bait. To the creature named confusion I surely must go, but before that time comes, one thing I would have you know... I stand here wided eyes like the innocent doe, wondering why you have taken my heart to and fro. The heart is not for you to play w

In The Mind Of A Confused Women
Something must be wrong with me. No really, something must truly be wrong with me. I keep telling myself this is the last time, but it never seems to happen. I mean why in the hell did I let him talk me into letting him come over. "I just want to talk" my ass. I knew exactly what he wanted, but for some reason I caved in. Just look at him hogging all the covers. He doesn't have any type of concern for me. He's a selfish bastard, and I let him in my bed. I met him three years ago at a friends birthday party. I was attracted to him the minute I saw him and the minute I saw him I knew he'd probably be trouble, but like typical True I wanted him anyway. So I pursued him. And at first like every relationship it was like heaven. We talked for hours on the phone, he took me out all the time, he brought me things, he was romantic. I fell for all the tricks in the book. I was in love, still am and I wanted to believe all of his promises. He had a great way in making things sound so good, hel

In This Site
I'm not interested in the features of this site. I only come here and do mail, and communicate. I don't have time to play the games or pitch in with ratings. I don't need all these points etc. Thanks for sending them. If I have the time for the moment-being, I'll rate you back. Hey does anyone want to talk about odd material? Why are there things in this world that science will never explain... I must discuss.

In The Dark
in the dark little corner of your heart lives something precious warm and thriving not dead at all in the dark depths of your mind it touches dreams forbidden weeping in joy quietly breathing in the darkest hour of the night there is a stirring fears slip away and hope peeks out. You've got to hide your love away... 2007/dma with a nod to John Lennon and Paul McCartney

In The Mid Nite Maddness, I Cry More More More!! From Rob!!
THIS HOTTIE WANTS A FU-HUSBAND! YOU THINK YOU GOT WHAT IT TAKES TO SATISFY HER? DON'T BE SHY GUYS... HIT HER UP... YOU KNOW YOU WANT TO! **juju** a.k.a. De Royal Luvßug@ fubar SERIOUSLY, SHE A GREAT PERSON WITH A LOT OF LOVE FOR ALL HER FRIENDS. SO FAN/RATE/ADD HER. YOU WILL NOT BE SORRY. DON'T BE TOO CRUDE OR BIG BROTHER RoB WILL HAVE TO HUNT YOU DOWN. LOL This DRAMA FREE Pimpout brought to you by Roß -=[db]=- ~WRR Promotion's Slave~@ fubar P.S. I'm still . LOL

In This Place
So many dear souls, I have found in this place, They have lifted my spirits, Or given me space, I have found great love here, I have discovered deceit, I exposed my heart, I have admitted defeat, Many friends I have made, And games I have played, Instead of eat or sleep, It is here I have stayed, Inspectors and divas, Cowboys and Ray, Firefighters, a wrestler, Are a part of everyday, A master, a singer, A dirty ole' man, They friend me, Rate me, and make me a fan, When I need advice, There is someone to call, Too many to mention, And I love them all.

In The Sauna
THREE WOMEN, TWO YOUNGER, AND ONE SENIOR CITIZEN, WERE SITTING NAKED IN A SAUNA. SUDDENLY THERE WAS A BEEPING SOUND. THE YOUNG WOMAN PRESSED HER FOREARM AND THE BEEP STOPPED. THE OTHERS LOOKED AT HER QUESTIONINGLY. "THAT WAS MY PAGER, SHE SAID. I HAVE A MICROCHIP UNDER THE SKIN OF MY ARM." A FEW MINUTES LATER, A PHONE RANG. THE SECOND YOUNG WOMAN LIFTED HER PALM TO HER EAR. WHEN SHE FINISHED, SHE EXPLAINED, "THAT WAS MY MOBILE PHONE, I HAVE A MICROCHIP IN MY HAND." THE OLDER WOMAN FELT VERY LOW-TECH. NOT TO BE OUT DONE, SHE DECIDED SHE HAD TO DO SOMETHING JUST AS IMPRESSIVE. SHE STEPPED OUT OF THE SAUNA AND WENT TO THE BATHROOM. SHE RETURNED WITH A PIECE OF TOILET PAPER HANGING FROM HER REAR END. THE OTHERS RAISED THEIR EYEBROWS AND STARED AT HER. THE OLDER WOMAN FINALLY SAID........ . " WELL, WILL YOU LOOK AT THAT... I'M GETTING A FAX "!!

In The Beginning . . .
Hey all! I am currently working on some scripts for 3 mini series comics I created in hopes it makes it to print through a studio. During this I am working on my art to see if I can make an online comic. Yes I know everyone is doing it but I am thinking of a new way of doing it. Hopefully noone has done it yet. Another thing I am working on is a possible label for some friends who are aspiring visual and singing artists. It isn't going to something as usual for a label, but I will be doing something to promote unity as in a group in some sort, but they will have their own solo projects of course. This is a new venture for me and hope it works out. Thanx! Jay!

In The Words Of Women
"FINE" This is the word we use at the end of any argument that we feel we are right about but need to shut you up. NEVER use fine to describe how a woman looks. This will cause you to have one of those arguments. "FIVE MINUTES" This is half an hour. It is equivalent to the five minutes that your football game is going to last before you take out the trash, so I feel that it's an even trade. "NOTHING" If you ask her what is wrong and she says "Nothing", this means something and you should be on your toes. "Nothing" is usually used to describe the feeling a woman has of wanting to turn you inside out, upside down, and backwards. "Nothing" usually signifies an argument that will last "Five Minutes" and end with the word "Fine." "GO AHEAD" (with raised eyebrows) This is a dare. One that will result in a woman getting upset over "Nothing" and will end with the word "Fine." "GO AHEAD" (normal eyebrows) This means "I give up" or "do what you want becau

In The End
I sit in the pit of dispair, does anyone really care? Broken and beaten down, I sit here bleeding. Physically and emotionally drained Do I go on? So tired of trying to please everyone, and in return to only get threats, lies and betrayal. Tonight, my heart lays tattered and torn, beyond all hope of repair. Is there any reason for me to care? The child I brought into this world, has even turned his back on me. Whether thru the faults of me and my own, or due to outside forces - my so called "family" is neither here nor there. He has been forever lost to me. As I sit here totally alone, debating whether I should live or die. IS THERE ANYTHING, ANY REASON TO LIVE AND CARRY ON? I have helped countless people, both monetarily and emotionally. Will anyone be here for me? Where are they now That I AM THE ONE IN NEED OF THEIR HELP?????? They are sitting in their homes safe and warm, Oblivious to all the pain, suffering and hurt i am enduring. So in the end, DOES ANYO

In The Beginning
Boy do I have a story to tell. For those of you who do not have EXTREMELY open minds, including my mother LMAO, this is probably not a blog entry that you want to read. Because I know you will read it anyways, just know that nothing you could say or do will change who I am. I state this because a friend recently informed me that I am advertising myself sexually on my myspace and Yahoo 360 pages. A lot of my blogs, including this one, have to do with relationships. A few of them, including this one, deal with my sensuality/sexuality. Unfortunate only to those who will not be able to handle this, it is not something that has just begun or will ever change. It is who I always have been and always will be. Please accept this! It started a couple years ago in a relationship that was very adventurous. Every week, every day, was spent trying to find a new way to make our sex life adventuresome. We investigated everything! It was an open relationship where we were free to accept or reject a

In The End
I look at you looking at me trying to figure out what did i see we had a good run but it wasnt meant to be so why do they say that the best things are free i think to myself and wonder why i put forth the effort and even tried all those nights youve made me cry youve torn me apart from the inside shoulda known from the start it wouldnt work out on a daily basis we would scream and shout back and forth complain and pout every word was an argument out of our mouths i love you girl and i always will but why should i be with you still those the kinda words that make blood spill keep wishing and hoping none of this is real keep hoping that ill wake up and scream keep hoping that this nightmare is a dream start to realize nothings ever like it seems it didnt work cuz we never worked as a team ill pretend its alright ill pretend im just fine ill pretend you still love me and that your still mine ill figure shit out when i run outta time our relationship ended at the sta

In The Words Of Redback Wolf (wise Man Of The Kingdom Of Wolves)
IN THE WORDS OF GI-GA-GE-I GA-SO-HI WA-YA (REDBACK WOLF) 11/25/2007 There once was a Scorpion and a Wolf and the scorpion wanted to cross the river but couldn’t swim…so the Scorpion asked the Wolf to swim him across the river. Wolf replied to the Scorpion that he wouldn’t because what if he stung him and then he would die. Scorpion replied to the Wolf that he wouldn’t as then he would drown and they both would die. Wolf saw the logic in this and eventually agreed to take him across the river on his back but half way across the river Scorpion stung Wolf and just as the poison started to take effect Wolf asked Scorpion why he stung him as now they both would die. Scorpion replied because it’s my nature. I guess what I am trying to say here is no matter what we pretend to be or do we will always revert back to our true natures and so rather than hide what or who we are we should be honest with ourselves and to our loved ones and not hide anything at all as secrets destroy the go

In The End
In the end, we lay the stones. We line them up accordingly Times will come for us to march Beyond the great beyond indeed Night will be the blanket, dear…. And I will be your warming palm I will walk with you on high When we have reached the next new life Next to you, no matter where… Until the end, I swear

In The Beginning (page 4)
In The Beginning. It was early on in life I realized that one: I loved women, and two: I had somehow been “here” before. There were many things I’d found were easy to learn and program into my daily way of life. Many tasks and concepts came more as “natural” than were taught to me by my parents. I guess you could say I was born pretty instinctual. I’ve learned over the years to trust these instincts and always allow myself opposition to them. I remember the first time I told my mother about a scene I’d witnessed between her and my father. It was what I’d perceived as a hostile scene with my mother on her back beneath my father and she was in pain. I’d noted she was pregnant in the memory and the clothes her and my father were wearing. My memory was and is very vivid and detailed, however I was not yet born during this event. I’ll never forget the response I got from her when I told her about the memory. She looked at me in a sort of horror and disbelief while reliving the moment a

In The Park
We walked together holding hands, As we walked in the park today. I couldn't seem to find any words, Though much I wanted to say. I knew you sensed my feelings inside, I was aware of your beautiful love. I felt the friendship that we share, That was given by our Father above. After a while we came to a path, That led through the woods to a stream. While there you whispered "I love you", I felt blessed though just a dream. I had a day in the park with you. I heard the words I'd longed to hear Will remember each day this dream anew.

In The Middle
In the middle of nowhere. In the middle of nothing. In the middle of sadness is the untold story of a broken soul. I wander lost in a lonely desert passing oasis after oasis but too afraid to drink as the water will fall through the many holes of my cracked and imperfect heart. I keep walking further into the cold abyss of my sad and eroding self alone and forgotten never looking back and not knowing where it is that I am headed. In the middle of nowhere. In the middle of nothing. In the middle of sadness is the untold story of this broken soul. In the middle of somewhere. In the middle of something. In the middle of hopeless I'm dying...

In The Dark
i see you sitting beside me and know i can walk the day your smile was the sun and your presence the dawn but you found another some form of light for yourself and even the pain you gave me was still a beautiful sunset so i slipped into the night and let darkness consume me my eyes lost thier light and my flesh grew pale no more would i show my eyes or move close to another's body shy of the break of dawn i would hide and wait again now i stalk the streets, a trechcoat in the wind hair to mask my face, and the past for company i turn to darkness in another's company and move away from the sunrise look, and you will find me in the night hidden by a shadow's embrace with only the soft touch of the moon to ever bring light to a ghostly face

In The World But Not Part Of It = "insanity"
There once was a beloved king who whose castle was on a high hill overlooking his shire. He was so popular that the nearby townspeople sent him gifts daily, and his birthday celebration was enjoyed throughout the kingdom. The People loved him for his renowned wisdom, and fair judgments. One day, tragedy struck the town. The water supply was polluted, and every man, woman, and child went insane. Only the king, who had a private spring, was spared. Soon after the tragedy, the mad townspeople began speaking of how the king was acting “strangely” and how his judgments were poor and his wisdom a sham. Many even went so far as to say that the king had gone crazy. His popularity soon vanished. No longer did the people bring him gifts or celebrate his birthday. The lonely king, high on the hill, had no company at all. One day he decided to leave the hill and pay a visit to the town. It was a warm day, and so he drank from the village fountain. That night there was a great celebration.

In The End - Linkin Park
(It starts with) One thing / I don’t know why It doesn’t even matter how hard you try Keep that in mind / I designed this rhyme To explain in due time All I know time is a valuable thing Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings Watch it count down to the end of the day The clock ticks life away It’s so unreal Didn’t look out below Watch the time go right out the window Trying to hold on / but didn’t even know Wasted it all just to Watch you go I kept everything inside and even though I tried / it all fell apart What it meant to me / will eventually / be a memory / of a time when I tried so hard And got so far But in the end It doesn't even matter I had to fall To lose it all But in the end It doesn't even matter One thing / I don’t know why It doesn’t even matter how hard you try Keep that in mind / I designed this rhyme To remind myself how I tried so hard In spite of the way you were mocking me Acting like I was part of your property Remembering all the

In Them
when all is lost and you feel the cold air seep into your lungs remember my eyes and know that you are safe and i wont let them take you away i will save you believe in this and i will be there feel my warm hand on the back of your neck the soft caress of a kiss to your cheek and no matter where you are i am with you so smile........

In The Throes Of Passion
"In the Throes of Passion" I'm getting closer to the images in my head the imaginary "ex" marks the will in me now I've got to dig before it fades away I've been there once before, it's been forever and a day since the breaking of my back and the fist that I still taste that put the blood in my mouth, but I'm still not afraid and though I hear the screams in the voice of my calling there's no escape from the destiny of (rise!) rising up or falling Sweetly dreaming, softly screaming I lost myself Leaves of awning, gently falling I found myself..... gently falling She took me closer to where love and pain can play and pleasures harmony come through in an array of electric colored melodies oh so bright and clear then I saw the face of love in the reflection of a tear Some say they will never turn their backs, like the bitch that I still taste who's love braved by word of mouth, but still she was afraid and when she heard the screams in the voice of her calling blow

In The Beginning...
I wrote the following series of blogs for my Myspace page but felt that it was more suited to a better blogging forum. Therefore I am posting them here. I'll add them a few at a time over the next several days until I have caught up with the present. Until then, expect a rehash of the past and I apologize for that. I'll post the first two here. The dates on these blogs will be in accordance with when they were first published in Myspace: Originally posted in Myspace Monday, February 05, 2007 : And so it begins.... How does one begin to blog? How should I go about detailing intimate experiences about my life to countless strangers who may chance upon these words? What should I relate? The veil of anonymity that the Blog offers allows me to be more candid than I normally would. After all, what humiliation will I suffer when no one knows my name? What have I really got to lose? So, in the coming days, as I gather the gumption to do so, I will relate a particular chapter

In The Beginning . . .
In the beginning, my father was in the Military (USMC) and my mother was his wife. That sounds dumb . . . I was born in Manila, on the Last day of Cancer or the First day of Leo in the Year of the Pig (Boaring, huh . . . lol). Pinoy Ako. I am a Filipino . . . . Here comes the strange part . . . my parents are not filipinos . . . my father is a mix American Indian (50%) and the rest other nationalities, my mother is a full-blooded native born Italian. So Am I a filipino or not? Even though I don't have an ounce of filipino blood in me (that I know of), in my heart and soul . . . I am a filipino. I believe I may lose some friends because of this. Why? Because some friends may believe that I am a filipino by blood when in fact I am only pinoy by birth and by other reason which I may disclose later. Please don't discriminate. I used to cruise the filipino chat rooms, sometimes they speak to me in tagalog, waray waray, cebuano, and other dialect . . . unfortuna

In This Season Of Hope...
I'm going to step away here for a couple hours. I see the movie "Carrie" is on A&E and I think I'll watch it. After all, this is the season of hope, and of miracles. I think Carrie reminds us all that with hard work and perseverance we can all get the revenge we so richly deserve. :)

In The Rain
In the dark as the clouds begin form All alone in the night, the pain to fight Lies, that crushed the soul from deep with in All the emotions and no where to begin Insanity, death and destruction is the only way to make him free At any time, can change on a dime The anger that lives inside has no where to hide Walking along the side walk, looking in a house Lights are out, he knows a family is there Feelings of evil sort, refuses to abort With the knife that is sharp as a razer blade Crashes down the door and the calm parade Noise awakens the husband of the house Tries to attack this intruder while being quiet as a mouse Too late for that, the burgler stabs the man in heart Blood begins pumping faster, the process of death was forced to start Crashes to the floor, rest of the family is shaken to the core Mother awakens and wonders whats all this racket for? She opens her bed room door and rushes down the stairs Seeing the man of her life, lying there with a b

In The Shower
I step in and I turn the water on I feel the water running down my skin I am thinking of you again I close my eyes and I can feel you there Running your fingers through my long hair I think about you and fantasize I love to see that look in your eyes The one that turns me on and makes me shiver I think about you grabbing me and making my whole body quiver Its been so long since I felt your touch God, how I miss you so much I run my hands down my skin Thinking about feeling you again I touch my body as the water runs down over me I start to play and think of what could be How you would feel inside of me The feeling is overwhelming and I start to moan I finish up and start to cry realizing I am still alone

In The Dog House
earlier today...noon saturday...i heard my dog a pure bread alpha intact german shepard raising hell with a pit bull terrier puppy (100 pounds)...i could see what was going to happen so i proceded to get my dog in the house... before i could, the pit busted a section of the chainlink fence and charged at me and my shepard as the door was slaming shut t before it was latched...that damn dog pushed me out of the way...and the maylay insued...i have broken up a little squable before but this was serious. i had a killer in my own living room and inspite of the fact i know my dog can handle himself...i wasnt going to let it happen....i jumped between them seperated them with help of the 100 pound roomate and 12 pound weiner dog...ce my dogs and household were safe i was faced with this SOB...i wrestled him o the floor cornered him and choked him out until he passed out...then while still in a head lock i opened my door and tossed him back over what was left of the fence...as though inmid a

In The Morning...
In the morning... With sleep in full bloom I dream the dreams of life. Tonight you are my blanket to discourage the cold night. The body is silent, but the mind moves through. With known love , you touch my soul and give me wonder. The delight of your body gives way to the thrill of your mind. You are my water for growth... My blood is in your veins. To see the pleasure in you … You surround me. I need knowledge of you, embraces to you and from you. Release yourself and touch the inner part of me that no one belongs... except you. To only see your face and only touch your skin, calmed by your breath. With battened breath my anxieties are flattened. I am undefended against your attack, I surrender to you... I am yours. You are my waking dream. The hope that seems unlikely, the state of inattention... the fantasy. Are you never to be realized? Is it the sleep...perfect and wonderful in every way. No longer the questions, no longer the wait,

In The Heat Of The Moment
In The Heat Of The Moment In the heat of the moment, wild passions flare. Tongues, teeth and finger tips, aching to touch and share. Invisible boundaries designed, to quell this heat with a shiver and a chill. Anticipation the red flame, that melts an iron will. Passions born of hell, yet known to God as pleasure. Finger tips burn skin, while touching lighter than a feather. A dance in near darkness, awakes once more this passion. Erotic this crucifixion, outdated by modern fashion. The world slips away, as we dance in the fire. Lips touching skin , animalistic this desire. The tempo grows quicker, hips interlocked not breaking. Hearts pound, brain whirls at this risk we are taking. The CD a rumble, like distant thunder. Passion riding the storm, of this spell I'm under. Lips along jawlines, passion threatens to burn us. Forged far below, in Hades' own furnace. Lips brushing lips, searing the flesh. Bodies interlocked, as to the mus

In This Lifetime...
In this lifetime there will never be another. Who has captured my heart, Encouraged my soul. Taught me to love as deep as the ocean is wide. Helped me spread my wings as wide as the sky. Opened my eyes beyond what I could truly see. I love you with all of my heart... Becky Leanne

In The Arms Of An Angel - American Soldiers Tribute
Remember the ones that didn't make it home for Christmas, they paid the Ultimate Sacrifice for Freedom.. Remember them On Christmas day. LCPL G****** USMC Prior Service

In The Hospital For Christmas
hey everyone it lance im in the hospital awaiting surgery for some kind of infection from a bite will be in hospital for christmas so plz send me some love im in the mon valley hospital in monongahela pa so show some love thnx and have a good and safe holiday to everyone lance

In The Bedroom
You have an Aggressive Bedroom Personality! You like to get what you want in the bedroom and aren't afraid to go for it. You like to be the one calling the shots, and your partners love it when you take the lead. 'What's your Bedroom Personality?' at QuizUniverse.com

In The Night
I heard the startling crashing sound as it shattered the silence of the night. The heavy mangling of metal as two objects collided in the dark. I wondered what had happened as I lifted my tired body from my chair and walked across the floor. Opening the curtains I peered out into the night, looking as far as my eyes could see. I could only imagine as the sound came to an abrupt stop just as fast as it had broken the silence. I was just about ready for bed but something, deep inside of me, a pure gut feeling, told me that I should wait. Seeing nothing outside I turned and walked back to my chair and flipped through the channels on the television. I was not watching anything in particular as now I was wondering what it was that had startled me. Seconds later the scanner on the near by coffee table sprang to life. I listened as the night dispatcher alerted the fire department and emergency medical crew to respond. I was fully alert now, sitting on the edge of my chair, lis

In The Land Of Oz….new Year’s Thoughts…. And Other Things …..
In the Land of Oz….New Year’s Thoughts…. And Other Things ….. I thought with everything that's happened this year it would be good for me to review the year and try to end on a more positive note. I have had to learn a lot of difficult lessons this year but also many good things too. So for myself I've decided to make a list of things I've learned this year. I frequently have said that I have felt like a "fish out of water" or "lost without a map" … but I have also felt like 'Dorothy in the Land of Oz"…. a stranger in an unfamiliar land… exploring the inner me. I have encountered "flying monkeys", warriors, traveling companions and more. I have also been "lost" several times this year, taken hostage (by my emotions), and have had more than one interesting adventure. I have at times felt in "mortal peril", at the "end of my rope", and "out on a limb", (metaphorically speaking)… but I have survived it all and am ready for the next leg of my personal journey. So here is a list of

In The Face Of Danger
In the face of danger, they took a stand, and proved their loyalty to this great land. Because of their courage many lives they did save and it was with their lives that they gave. They weren't actors, or athletes , or even Heads of State, They were A group of Americans who decided their own fate. They took action, in the face of fear, knowing full well death was near. They gave their lives so that others may live, What greater gift can one man give.

In The Years To Come
Some things I miss now that are already gone Sometimes I think there was something more I could've done It's on my face all the time I know that luck isn't always on your side Move on but don't leave her behind at the start Life is too hard to pull yourself apart It's a long way down to the bottom I'm looking at what once was the sanctuary Have we really gone this far? So far from where we were There are only so many words we can say Before this castle starts to crumble Maybe in the years to come You and I might meet again When our little worlds won't shatter Every time we just speak Every time we get close Every time I try to reach out Maybe it won't collapse on top of me So far away And here where I am And there where you are I wish you can hear me say...

In The Corner
As I sit in the corner thinking bout her and what she means to me. She’s my whole life and I can’t see myself wit anyone but her. I don’t want anyone else I can’t be wit anyone else it’s going to be unfair for them to compare to her. I need to stop thing right now and try to wait to see how everything plays out but I cant help but to think to hurt myself I scratch and clawed at myself hard enough to make myself bleed. But it still not enough I want the pain to go away but I can’t make it go away. I cried too much that my eyes a blood shot red and my head hurt so much. I cant sit here anymore I walked to the kitchen and looked around wit this blank stare trying find something to do more damage to myself but I cant but I need this pain to go away. So I grabbed the bottle of pills on top of the fridge. Oh wait I’ve been down that road before. And I could do something else that won’t kill me but just enough to hurt and reminded me not to do it again. I reached out for the knife and starte

In The Midst
In the Midst In the midst of pain, You sooth me. In the midst of tears, You make me laugh. In the midst of anger, You calm me. In the midst of sadness, You bring me joy. In the midst of pain, You bring me relief. In the midst of problems, You bring me solutions. In the midst of hating myself, You bring me love. Doing what you can, To see me through. © 2007, Kristin E. Porter. All rights reserved. No republication of this material, in any form or medium, is permitted without express permission of the author.

In 4th Ends Tomorrow Help!!!!
OK IT'S BEEN A HOT MINUTE SINCE I BEEN IN A CONTEST,SO PLEASE GO RATE/COMMENT.ALL IS APPRECIATED ! IT IS A BOMBING CONTEST IN CASE U WANNA HELP WITH THAT PART TOO. THANKS LINK @ THE BOTTOM !!! Every comment counts as 1 point Every rate counts as 10 points The total combination of Comment points and Rate points added together will be your total score. The highest wins. ENDS MONDAY JAN.21

In Their Eyes
A starless night She sat All by herself Waiting for her man to come home Holding her fears in her heart Her pride fly high On the other side of the world, The dust storms blurred his sight As he goes out on his mission All those lonely nights Knowing her beliefs in him He woke up with her strength every morning His fearless heart stood firm She is no angel She is a woman She sees the truth in him She is the source of his strength She is everything of what he is In his eyes, she is the reason he is fighting And in her eyes, He is a man that loves her

4 In The Morning
Gwen Stafani - 4 In The Morning Waking up to find another day The moon got lost again last night But now the sun has finally had its say I guess I feel alright But it hurts when I think When I let it sink in It's all over me I'm lying here in the dark I'm watching you sleep, it hurts a lot [CHORUS] & all I know is You've got to give me everything Nothing less cause You know I give you all of me I give you everything that I am I'm handin' over everything that I've got Cause I wanna have a really true love Don't ever wanna have to go & give you up Stay up till Four In The Morning & the tears are pouring & I want to make it worth the fight What have we been doing for all this time? Baby if we're gonna do it, come on do it right All I wanted was to know I'm safe Don't want to lose the love I've found Remember when you said that you would change Don't let me down It's not fair how you are I can't be complete, can you give me more? [CHORUS] Oh please,

In The Air Tonight
I can feel it Coming in the air tonight Oh Lord Ive been waiting for this moment For all my life Oh Lord Well if you told me you were drowning I would not lend a hand Ive seen your face before my friend But i dont know if you know who i am Well i was there and i saw what you did I saw it with my own two eyes So you can wipe of the grin I know where youve been Its all been a pack of lies I can feel it Coming in the air tonight Oh Lord Ive been waiting for this moment For all my life Oh Lord, Oh Lord Well i remember I remember dont worry How could i ever forget Its the first time The last time We ever met But i know the reason why you keep me silenced up No you dont fool me Cause the hurt doesnt show But the pain still grows Its no stranger to you and me I can feel it Coming in the air tonight Oh Lord Ive been waiting for this moment For all my life Oh Lord, Oh Lord

In The Memory
ME LOVING YOU I can not hide the emptiness, drowning out my screams. Refuse to even try to deny, the face i see in dreams. He has the eyes of an angel, and the heart of a saint. Visions of passion, with love he does paint. Fine strokes filled with laughter, bold splashes of lust. Within a matter of moments, our vision is dust. Like ashes of the dead, that are sprinkled out at sea. Should we wake up and realize, its just not meant to be. Im not meant to touch you, or feel the heat float off your skin. The thought of losing you arises, then the nightmare really begins. All the little horrid thoughts, that creep inside my mind. All the things we must accept, and those we'll leave behind. Behind in the memory, of a dream that was true. Behind in the memory, of me loving you.

In The Living
The beauty of life is in the living of it. And the living of life is now. It is fine to make grand, wonderful plans and to then bring those plans to life through your efforts. Yet do not ignore the quiet, stunningly beautiful treasures in each ordinary moment. Happiness is not in some distant place of perfection and pleasure. Happiness is waiting for you to give it life in this moment. If all of your dreams were to suddenly come true, you would have no use for them. For the real essence of their joy is in the journey you take to reach those dreams. It is in working your way through each day, one moment after another, that you connect with the value of life. Every flavor of experience adds to the richness in one way or another. Do not put a lot of effort into judging whether today is good or bad, happy or sad. Just go ahead and live it with a thankful heart, and you will surely experience this day's own special value. -- Ralph Marston

In The Living
Friday, February 8, 2008 In the living The beauty of life is in the living of it. And the living of life is now. It is fine to make grand, wonderful plans and to then bring those plans to life through your efforts. Yet do not ignore the quiet, stunningly beautiful treasures in each ordinary moment. Happiness is not in some distant place of perfection and pleasure. Happiness is waiting for you to give it life in this moment. If all of your dreams were to suddenly come true, you would have no use for them. For the real essence of their joy is in the journey you take to reach those dreams. It is in working your way through each day, one moment after another, that you connect with the value of life. Every flavor of experience adds to the richness in one way or another. Do not put a lot of effort into judging whether today is good or bad, happy or sad. Just go ahead and live it with a thankful heart, and you will surely experience this day's own special value. -- Ral

In The Words Of Charlie Brown:
UG! I'm tired. I don't really have anything to write about here. I have stuff I want to write out but I don't think here is the best place. Which sucks because I should feel like I can say pretty much anything I want. But to be fair I don't know that I want to elaborate anywhere right this very second either. Sigh I don't know. I miss my lappy. I need my friend to come over and fix it, er well- first he has to check out that part to make sure its right so I can order it. I think I keep forgetting that Springfield is a bigger place than I'm used to, and not everyone knows everyone else. Somethings just seem like too much of a coincidence. Bah.

In The Middle
hes my uncle shes my friend and in a way family things are hard i dont want to be in it but i know too much she tells me everything so i know whats goin on even though i disagree once again im in the middle she always does this to me it doesnt matter theres nothing i can do either way i turn someone is going ot hate me so if my family has to be like this then i want nothing to do with them im sick of being in the middle

In The Blood Of Christ>>>
We are saved. God had a devine plan for all who seek him and follow him. Who believes He came here thru body of Christ to walk among us on Earth..To and feel and know our sorrows and conqure death . I believe he does talk to us thru or on our hearts ..He places a tug . Also Our conscious is Him , conecting to us... So if we listen , and feel these things given to us, we will know what to do , in our life and if we proceed and follow where He leads us.., He has a plan for us.. He knew us even before we were born and will know us till we die.. But death isnt the end it is the eternal ever lasting life begining... For we are bought as children of God thuur Christ salvation , The Bloood sustains us , washes us free. it,s in the blood. Dont be sad when a loved one dies , for he or she lives thru Christ >> He was sent to be the sacarifical lamb to save all. I trust in Him and will lay my life on his feet to pray and follow what he has instore for me . I trust Christ toally....

In The Shadow
abandon me bewilder me my heart is lost without you a dark and lonesome seed without the warmth of your smile void of the light in your laughter sinking deep within the soiled earth to hide to hibernate so lost without you the darkess grows around me and spins a tangeled web so cold so sheltered a wimper and a cry for all that I have lost for that which I cannot reclaim withered here and weak in just the shadow of your name

In The End
In The End In the end, When I am no longer here. It won't even matter how you made me feel. My memory will fade, There will be no more glimpses, At what could have been. In the end, When I am no longer here. Will you let me cross your my mind, Will you see my spirit when it appears. In the end, What will I leave behind. Did you understand my love for you, How deep I still hold it inside. In the end, We will met again. In another place, Another time. That is when you will say to me, I am sorry for way back when. But in the end, It wont matter anymore. Dee Parenti All Rights reserved

In This Place.....
I FIND MYSELF HERE AGAIN..... IN THIS DEEP DARK HEAVENLY PLACE..... A PLACE WHERE SWEET NIGHTMARES ARE MADE..... OF ALL THE PLACES I CAN BE...... I FOUND MYSELF IN THIS DREAM.... MY SWEETEST NIGHTMARES COME TRUE... NOWHERE TO RUN... NOWHERE TO HIDE.... WHERE CAN I GO.... SHES ALWAYS THERE..... DEEP INSIDE MY MIND.... RIPPING MY HEART OUT.... EVERY MINUTE... EVERY HOUR... EVERY DAY... THE KNIFE RIPPING FLESH.... HER BLOOD ON MY HANDS.... IT NEVER WASHES AWAY.... MY HANDS SHAKEING..... MY MIND BRAKEING..... MY WORL D QUAKING.... DICISIONS MADE.... I WASNT THERE.... DICISIONS MADE... DEATH FINDS IT WAY.... YOU DO WHAT U MAY.... IN THE END U ALWAYS PAY... HER CURSE... HER GHOSTLY TOUCH... DESTROYING ME... CAN I ASK FOR FORGIVENESS..... FOR WHAT I HAVE DONE.... IM LOST IN THIS NIGHTMARE.... I FIND MYSELF HERE AGAIN..... IN THIS BEAUTIFU

In The End
I am so lonely without you here I think of you and my eyes start to tear I would rather have you for a best friend Then to be all alone in the end I smell you I see your face No one can ever take your place So I will settle just being your best friend So that we will be together in the end

In The End
I am so lonely without you here I think of you and my eyes start to tear I would rather have you for a best friend Then to be all alone in the end I smell you I see your face No one can ever take your place So I will settle for just being your best friend So that we will be together in the end

In The Name Of Love
In the name of Love: Here I sit-in my car Bored to death so far! Auctioneer sounding in the background. Your standing some where, on the ground, You asked me to come along, I didn't want to, but I did,, in the name of Love... Now,,when I ask you to go along, Nay,nay,you say, I'm too busy, maybe another day,,, How many other days, have there been? Far to many I spend a lone. Waiting for you. In the name of Love... I cry,you ask,"why, whats wrong,?" Can't you see, your hurting me? How much longer, can I wait? In the name of Love, Do you not Love me? Do you not care? Am I not what I've always been? I love you, I care, You changed some too, in the years.. Tell me, In the name of Love,why? Changed my plans for you today,, As many days befor; Did not do what it was, I wanted to do. Went with you, In the name of Love.. Did your thing, as always do, Asked you,for a little of your time. No time of your's did you have for me,,

In The Dark
When it seems Like the world around you is breaking And it feels Like there's no one else around It's quiet There's a silence in the darkness And it sounds Like the carnival is over As you walk In the crowded empty spaces You stare At the emptiness around you You wanna go To the city and the bright lights Get away From the sinners that surround you As I look into the sky There's sparks bright as ice You want me to take you over there I want you to run from me You're not the only one In the dark We'll need each other In the dark We'll hold each other Now we're away from each other In the dark

In The Air Tonight
I can feel it coming in the air tonight, Oh Lord I've been waiting for this moment, all my life, Oh Lord Can you feel it coming in the air tonight, Oh Lord, Oh Lord Well, if you told me you were drowning I would not lend a hand I've seen your face before my friend But I don't know if you know who I am Well, I was there and I saw what you did I saw it with my own two eyes So you can wipe off the grin, I know where you've been It's all been a pack of lies And I can feel it coming in the air tonight, Oh Lord I've been waiting for this moment for all my life, Oh Lord I can feel it in the air tonight, Oh Lord, Oh Lord And I've been waiting for this moment all my life, Oh Lord, Oh Lord Well I remember, I remember don't worry How could I ever forget, it's the first time, the last time we ever met But I know the reason why you keep your silence up, no you don't fool me The hurt doesn't show; but the pain still grows It's no stranger to you or me

In The End
In the end, it’s each of us against our own demons Fighting our addictions, our nightmares, our secrets, our fears and our sins I’m insignificant and my thoughts are expressed on composition paper Nothing more My dreams can’t fly on broken wings They won’t heal surrounded by insecurities, hesitation, and confusion

In That Kind Of Mood - Hehe
Skin chilled by cooling rain Body loosened by languored kisses Flesh exposed by eager fingers Breath expelled by erratic measures Heartbeat intensified by inhibitions released Mind dazed by deliberate intentions Hands fevered by fire from without Marrow scorched by sparks from within Spirit obsessed by orgasmic connection Life renewed by rampant emotion Soul captivated by cathartic expression Existence empowered by erotic conclusion

In The Mist Of The Morning
Early dawn, the mists are, swirling, twirling, damp and gray. Surrounding me taking me into its arms. Calling, beckoning, whispering softly it calls to me draws me near. Telling me I have nothing to fear I follow, listening, feeling. Early dawn, the mists are, swirling, twirling, damp and gray calling me. I feel a presence with me. Reaching out my hand, touching, grasping, warmth and comfort fill my being. And I know with out seeing I have felt love. Through the mists you reached for me, and guided my steps to thee. Love filled our hearts, and our souls became one. Early dawn, the mists are, swirling, twirling, damp and gray surrounding us.

In The Storm
Thunder rolls and lightning strikes Lovers touch in the pouring rain Face to face their passions rise above the clouds Breast to chest their miraculous caresses float Lips press gently together and bring Waves and chills down their spines Smooth skinned thighs wrap around one another Rhythmic pelvic movements bring moans and heavy breaths A moment of oneness cloaked in spring’s tornadic blanket Pressure builds as pulses pound They lay down in the wet grass Heavy rain unnoticed while groping and rolling silent screams of nature calls them higher Touch me! Touch me! Feel me! Hands work in unison to appease Light butterfly kisses become like a lion’s meal Ravenous bites add more fuel to the flame Soaked clothes torn in a ceremonious removal Thunder Rolls and Lightning strikes While both shake and groan Joyful reverence to the upcoming finale Her pink wet swollen lips pressed against him as the hairs entwine and still the

In The Rain
In the rain As the rain trickled down upon us we stood there for a moment looking into each others eyes then tasting the wetness on our lips as our tongues danced within the rhythm of our hearts as they began to beat almost as one. Our hands roamed from one position to another feeling every curve within our bodies as the wet clothes quickly dropped to the ground our bodies collided together in a heated passion pulling us into each other and becoming as one for there were no words spoken at that time, the only sounds that could be heard was the beating of the two hearts in perfect rhythm. As the pace quickened and the rhythm became united, the two bodies exploded together as the muscles tensed up and became weak as to where all there was left was to hold and embrace to each other listening to the sounds of the rain falling all around them.

In The End
It starts with one One thing, I don't know why It doesn't even matter how hard you try Keep that in mind i designed this rhyme to explain in due time All I know Time is a valuable thing Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings Watch it count down to the end of the day The clock ticks life away It's so unreal Didn't look out below Watch the time go right out the window Trying to hold on, but didn't even know I wasted it all just to watch you go I kept everything inside And even though I tried It all fell apart What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time when I tried so hard and got so far But in the end, it doesn't even matter I had to fall to lose it all But in the end it doesn't even matter One thing, I don't know why It doesn't even matter how hard you try Keep that in mind i designed this rhyme to remind myself how (I tried so hard) I tried so hard In spite of the way you were mocking me Acting like I was part of your property Rememberi

In The Dark
YOU CAME IN THE DARK SO SLOWLY ON YOUR FEET WHEN I WAS SITTING IN THE PARK AT THE GRASS WITH A BIG HEARTBEAT YOU CAME FROM BEHIND I DIDN'T HEAR YOU BUT YOU WERE SO KIND THE WAY YOU ALWAYS DO YOU COVERED MY EYES WITH YOUR LOVELY HANDS THERE WERE NO WHYS I LAY MY HANDS AROUND YOUR PANTS I PULLED YOU OVER YOU FELL IN MY LAP IT WAS THE SAME AS IN DOVER WHEN YOU TOOK THAT WAY A NAP SITTING THERE WITH YOU THE SUN IN MY LIVE THAT'S WHAT I ALWAYS WANT TO DO WITH YOU I WANT TO TAKE THAT DIVE written by Mr Smiley

In The Morning
Your lips flow with words, loving the way they make life blurred, have me believing after our bodies are done soaring, that you will still be there for me in the morning. Your hands leave love marks in my skin, that make my body melt into this sin, everything in life will now not be boring, because you will still be there for me in the morning. Your kisses leave their loving imprint on mine, and nothing moves faster when I am here than time, I crave the love that your body is pouring, tell me before we take this step, you will be here in the morning. Fingers mark the trail that they take to find me, soft touches and strokes tell me this is meant to be, tomorrow after this, my fire will still be burning, so can you promise me-- you will be here in the morning? I wake to the sun shining so bright, oh my, last night to me was such a delight. I turn to kiss you so you can quench my thirst, but you can not do that-- you would have had to exist first..... (c)Mad

In The Arms Of Night
In the arms of night I lay alone and wait for you. The one to protect me from the cold and the shadows on the wall. To hold me close to whisper in my ear to drown out the screams that the darkness. The kiss that brings the sweet sleep. I wait for you. Where are you?

In The End
(It starts with) One thing / I don’t know why It doesn’t even matter how hard you try Keep that in mind / I designed this rhyme To explain in due time All I know time is a valuable thing Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings Watch it count down to the end of the day The clock ticks life away It’s so unreal Didn’t look out below Watch the time go right out the window Trying to hold on / but didn’t even know Wasted it all just to Watch you go I kept everything inside and even though I tried / it all fell apart What it meant to me / will eventually / be a memory / of a time when I tried so hard And got so far But in the end It doesn't even matter I had to fall To lose it all But in the end It doesn't even matter One thing / I don’t know why It doesn’t even matter how hard you try Keep that in mind / I designed this rhyme To remind myself how I tried so hard In spite of the way you were mocking me Acting like I was part of your property Remembering all

In This House&stuff
There are way too many people in this fuckin' house! 6 people and no space. My sister and her two children that I'm sure are spawns of Satan himself (13 going on 21 and 17 going on 30) live here with my parents and I. Now I live here because my health issues wont allow me to live alone, she lives here because she's a nasty thief that can't hold a job to save her life. Well she was watching something on TV earlier and something died and I said " awww" and she got pissed off acted 2 and shut off her show and threw the remote at me. Then her Spawn children argued over the television in my parents room I told my nephew that since he'd had the tv in that room all day that it wouldn't hurt him to let her have it for a while. At 17 he goes crying to his mommy and now...give you two guesses who got punished for thier actions. My father goes to bed at around 7 pm because he has to get up at 3:30 and we usually watch something interesting that will apease myself, and the two

In The Night...
Come play with me in the night and you will find things that you can only imagine. Hide with me in the dark and no one will find us. Run with me in the wind and no one will follow. Let it rain, let it pour and let us fly away together...

In The Efforts Of A Tight Ass
On Friday night, I decided to complete my circle of fitness by taking a body sculpting class. It focuses on strength training with weights in order to sculpt a tight hard body while still looking feminine. Now I do running, spinning, sculpting, swimming and yoga. Nobody could ever accuse me of NOT covering my bases! I had heard about the sculpting class from the the other women in the locker room. They recounted nightmarish tales of never-ending squat sessions and the occasional "I thought I was going to die" declarations. I poo-pooed their stories because they made it seem so dramatic. "It couldn't be THAT bad", I'd say in a patronizing tone. "Well, then come to class and find out", they'd challenge. So I went for my morning run on Saturday and then stopped by the class as if it were an after thought. It started off easy, a few stretches, some ab work, a couple of balancing exercises. Then we did some arm sculpting and without notice the instructor rounded the class

In The Morning
One night of passion, Two lovers come together, Three hours of ectasy. Gone in the morning This is the life I have choose I just want to fing the one to hold The one to say I will be here always Not to leave in the morning Four more weeks, Five more lovers,and Six days of torture. Who will be here in the morning? This is not the life I have dreamed of I want to say he is the one The one to hold me when the sun goes down. To stay in the morning Seven days a week wondering...dreaming Eight people crossing my mind Nine o'clock in the morning to say good-bye Don't go in the morning This shows a new meaning to my life I will find the one to turn it all around The one to bring me up and never turn me down Not to worry in the morning Ten...it will never happen again.

"in The Shower!!"
I like fantising about you in the shower. Kissing deeply our tongues steel deeply into each others mouth. As you knead my tits and tweek my nipples. I stoke your cock gently as it tingles to attention. I kiss down your chest and take you into my mouth, warm lips around soft dick. I barely breath through flesh and running water. MMM... It feels so good. I mumble "You like the way that feels" your dick in my mouth... I continue to stroke with my hand. Hands pressed against wet wall, steam and heat cloud vision, i reach back grab your cock and send shivers when i rub my pussy lips. Then i grind back slowly so slowly, every inch entered feels gripped and held. Rotation of my hips pushes your head against my walls. I grab your ass and pull you deep into me. You hang to my hips and gaze my tattooed back and its new found connection in you. Like the way that feels. You like the way your cock feels inside me. MMM... I love it fuck me harder. You grip my hips and pull into me. Sou

In The Dark With My Lover
In The Dark by LateNiteFantasy© In The Dark he's there,she can feel his presence.She can feel his labored breathing his foot steps getting closer,feeling the thrill,catching her breath,standing ever so still. In The Dark his hand swipes a strand of hair from her eyes,chills rush through her being.She tries to resist his touch,but It's too late he already has her in lust. In The Dark she anticipates nervously. Fingertips lift her chin to his moist lips she did give in.So soft she lets out a stifled moan of doubt.He whispers in her ear while his hands undress and caress to ease her fear. In The Dark his lips tenderly upon hers, his tongue searching wildly,he can feel her trembling.Cupping her tight taunt breasts,grazing his finger across her hardened nipple.He yearns for her,taking her will as he pulls her closer. In The Dark his hand slips down between her legs,his finger brushing the moistened material of her panties.With a smile he dips a finger inside,she

In The Corner
A woman was in bed with her lover when she heard her husband opening the front door. "Hurry!" she said, "stand in the corner." She quickly rubbed baby oil allover him and then she dusted him with talcum powder. "Don't move until I tell you to," she whispered. "Just pretend you're a statue." "What's this, honey?" the husband enquired as he entered the room. "Oh, its just a statue," she replied nonchalantly. "The Smiths bought one for their bedroom. I liked it so much, I got one for us too." No more was said about the statue, not even later that night when they went to sleep. Around two in the morning the husband got out of bed, went to the kitchen and returned a while later with a sandwich and a glass of milk. "Here," he said to the 'statue', "eat something. I stood like an idiot at the Smiths for three days and nobody offered me as much as a glass of water."

In The Dark
BY;LATENITEFANTASY In The Dark he's there,she can feel his presence.She can feel his labored breathing his foot steps getting closer,feeling the thrill,catching her breath,standing ever so still. In The Dark his hand swipes a strand of hair from her eyes,chills rush through her being.She tries to resist his touch,but It's too late he already has her in lust. In The Dark she anticipates nervously. Fingertips lift her chin to his moist lips she did give in.So soft she lets out a stifled moan of doubt.He whispers in her ear while his hands undress and caress to ease her fear. In The Dark his lips tenderly upon hers, his tongue searching wildly,he can feel her trembling.Cupping her tight taunt breasts,grazing his finger across her hardened nipple.He yearns for her,taking her will as he pulls her closer. In The Dark his hand slips down between her legs,his finger brushing the moistened material of her panties.With a smile he dips a finger inside,she gasps i

In The End It Doesn't Even Matter
I keep on wondering if this is all worth it. I have watched so called "friends" come and go. I keep putting myself out there.. and im starting to think this isn't worth it anymore. You start realizing who your real friends are. Who was fake and who was real. i know i shouldn't take this seriously but i do. I put my time and effort into something I will take things seriously. I care about people. And now Im wondering how much they truly care about me, and if i should continue to put my effort & feelings into anything. Some might think im stupid but oh well. im tired of being treated like im nothing cuz im not showing my tits off to the world. I'm sorry for caring.

In That Kinda Mood
Lying naked next to you I know you feel it too Your pulse starts to quicken As my cock starts to thicken You roll over and spread your thighs I climb on top and look into your eyes You wrap your arms around me and press your lips to mine Your legs lock tightly around my hips I slip inside, such a tight fit Thrusting slowly in and out, making you so wet As I gently kiss you up and down your neck Pushing deeper as you begin to moan Your panting gets louder as my rod churns your honey hole Getting lost in ecstasy as we move as one Teasing your hard nipples with the tip of my tongue You pull my hair and arch you back as I bury my face between your breasts The room starts to spin as I struggle to catch my breathe I roll over, letting you on top I push even harder as you beg me not to stop Gripping you tightly by the soft flesh of your ass Pushing deeper, harder, faster, with all the strength that I have You scream "I'm ready to cum!" I say "Wait, I'm almost there" The

In The Night
In the night, skin collides with endless opportunity and teasing touch. No words are spoken. Loves' memory is all that is wanted. Breathe in the soul of that night's treasure, the pursuit of an empty hearts happiness. Embrace the body that gives such pleasure, draped in sheets and bound to his kiss. Intoxicating, the memory, there is no escape from you. Moments of blinding passion allow sight of the truth. Shattered thoughts of rekindled romance, only a feeling of old flame can ignite that universe. Inches away and worlds apart, the bed has now grown cold. Yet touching of fingertips leads to caresses of skin and I can feel myself getting pulled back in... …and the night begins again.

In The Depths Of Solitude
I was never really a big tupac fan untill recently. But i been readin some of his poems and it really made me feel what he was tryin to say. I am gonna start postin some stuff by him and you all decide what you think yourself. exist in the depths of solitude pondering my true goal Trying 2 find peace of mind and still preserve my soul CONSTANTLY yearning 2 be accepted and from all recieve respect Never compromising but sometimes risky and that is my only regret A young heart with an old soul how can there be peace How can i be in the depths of solitude when there R 2 inside of me This duo within me causes the perfect opportunity 2 learn and live twice as fast as those who accept simplicity

In The Rain
I sit and i listen to the rain thoughts seem to drift floating along with the rhythm the melody does quietly shift tenderness, so true and rare the drumming on the street steady soothing moving flowing can you feel it's beat i sit and listen to the rain and like a fool grin going out and looking up a determined tilt of the chin to be again the child i was to be again care free yes let the rain come on down and wet and soothe me

In The Closet
daddy locked me in the closet yesterday and mommy said it was okay i cant go out any more to play cause the sand mans coming for me today darkness you are my only friend please make me very brave no longer shall i pretend life isnt going from the closet to the grave they told me i was a bad boy because i broke my only toy it hurt me deep but gave them joy am i just as easy to destroy darkness you are my only friend please make me very brave no longer shall i pretend life isnt going from the closet to the grave i guess i dont really want to leave but the pain will end so i shall not grieve nothing of me will they want to retrieve that i never was they will try to believe darkness you are my only friend please make me very brave i can no longer try to pretend they wont kill their little slave

In The Darkness
The darkness of night is closing in; I feel my lovers touch, hot upon my skin. His warm breath, the kiss of desire; His touch on my body, taking me higher. Touching, tasting me from head to toe; Pushing my body to its highest plateu. Fingers teasing a secret warm place; Biting, clawing, making my blood race. His tongue tasting, teeth nipping my lips; His hands grasping, fingers clawing my hips. Smooth as silk, yet hard as steel; Deep within my body, my passion is real. Pleasures so intense, it borders on pain; Biting my lip, the taste of blood drives me insane. Whimpering and whispering, "I like it rough"; Ummm, harder baby...hurt me, you know I am tough. Take me to the edge, push me over; Pleasure that's pain as intense as my lover. Digging my nails deep into his thighs; I see my passion reflected within his eyes. Riing him hard, riding him fast; Release upon me, I know I can't last. My body soaked, wet with sweat; Hot and tight, dripping wet. Deep inside, near

In The Process Of New Growth, Can We Expect No Pain?
The cut worm forgives the plow. --William Blake Would anyone believe that rain abuses grass, or accuse roots, hungry for a better hold on life, of digging too far into earth's flesh? And if the earth should have to quake, would anyone blame it for cracking here and there? Look closely at the small world of busy life overturned in the garden each spring. No ant there curses another bug, and no worm curses itself. Though they can neither speak nor think, even small creatures know enough to accept their pain as a natural part of life. Why, then, should we waste time blaming others, or ourselves, for the natural sensations of life? In the process of new growth, can we expect no pain?

In The Middle Of Me
I need a little more sunshine in the middle of rain Need a little more joy in the middle of pain Need a little more color in the middle of this plain jane I’ve looked as deep as I can see And I think I need a little more You in the middle of me I need a little more patience in the middle of stress I need a little more beauty in the middle of this mess Need a little more substance in the middle of this emptiness I’ve looked as deep as I can see And I think I need a little more You in the middle of me Need more of You and less of me More of You and little less insanity More of You and little less complexity I’ve looked as deep as I can see It seems more of You is better for me I need a little more rhythm in the middle of this lazy rhyme Need a little more spontaneity in the middle of this daily grind Need a little more truth not music in this world of lies I’ve looked as deep as I can see And I think I need a little more You in the middle of me

In The Bathtub
Subject: Bathtub Test During a visit to the mental hospital, a visitor asked the Director, 'How do you determine whether or not a patient should be institutionalized?' 'Well,' said the Director, 'We fill up a bathtub, then we offer a teaspoon, a teacup and a bucket to the patient and ask him or her to empty the bathtub.' 'Oh, I understand,' said the visitor. 'A normal person would use the bucket because it's bigger than the spoon or the teacup.' ''No,' said the Director. 'A normal person would pull the plug. Do you want a bed near the window?' ARE YOU GOING TO PASS THIS ON, OR DO YOU WANT THE BED NEXT TO MINE?

In The Night
In the Night by LateNiteFantasy© Her hands stretched out silently. Nimble fingers curled and wrapped themselves around a strong pulsation. Her soft skin explores ridges and textures as if she were a curious child. She grins into the dark room as the pulse beats faster, breathing comes out harsher. Her ears perk to the soft sounds of arousal that come from her right. She blocks all sound and she focuses herself on feeling. Skin rubs against skin. The palms of her hands memorizing the folds of skin on the pulse to her side. She scoots her body down to lie face to face with her beloved rhythm. She leans her head on her hand as her eyes strain in the night to see. Dark shadows swell and thicken as she spies soft movements in the dark. Skin touches her absently in the vast inkiness. She silently moves it. Her hand moves slowly still in long loving strokes over the ridges and mouth of the pulse. Her lips burn to feel the pounding beneath them. She tongues the mouth of it softly, add

In The Eyes Of A Child
How do you look in the eyes of a child let alone 20 little pairs and try to explain the whys behind a loss of a great friend? im so lost to words my little girl lost a dear friend sat she was 11 yrs old died of a blood disease all the classmates are gathering for the wake tomorrow and all were close knit friends. They look to us adults for answers and friends i just dont know what to say to them. All i can say is that this lil one is in Gods hands and no longer in any pain but to me thats just not good enough to take the pain these kids im sure are feeling i know shes in the arms of angels god rest her lil awsome soul...

In The Name Of The King
Jason Statham, Jason Statham, Jason Statham...if I want to get laid, I bring home a Jason Statham movie, because apparantly he is the hottest man alive in my wife's mind. But even the fact that he was in it couldn't save this piece of crap. And the sad thing is, it didn't have to be this way. Jason Statham plays farmer, a simple man, trying to make a living ...farming. But there is intrigue afoot, and King Burt Reynolds is being challenged by his Nephew Matthew Lillard. So when Farmer sends his hot wife to market with their turnips, of course the bad guys attack. A special mention should be made for these characters who attack. They are led by Ray Liotta, in human form, but their costumes look like rejects from LOTR, or perhaps Gwar. In fact, I think Gwar should have designed their costumes, it would have been better. But they attack, and the real story begins. Hellboy Ron Perlman raised Farmer, so he joins in, and another long haired guy, and off they go. I wont bore you

In The Woods.....
For those Kinksters that live in or near the northwest. Have I got the thing for you! It's called ITW ( In The Woods) it's a weekend of fun , friends, kink, and camping! There are classes, demo's , presenters and kinky vender's. So come on out and make some new friends! to register and get more info, go to http://itw2005.triskeli.org/

In The Lords Hands
I don't know if I post this for my friends and family to keep informed or I keep this up to somehow help myself. I know alot of people don't even read this blog. That's fine. Maybe I just need to do this to get it out of me. If I don't then at times I feel I would go nuts. As most of you know my grandfather has been in the hospital. In the past 3 weeks he was sent to another hospital and they preformed heart surgery on him. I have been at this hospital either sleeping in the waiting room or at a hotel room across the street from the hospital. He had the surgery and while on the table his heart stopped soon as they put him to sleep. They had to thump his heart back pumping again. They fixed what they needed to in his heart but left his chest open cause of fluid and pressure on his heart. So basically they put some to plug the space between his open chest and the air and bandaged him up. They docs came up and told us all that had gone on and that it was touch and go if he would survive

In The Afterglow
Like latex streched o'er lanky knee, like bondage burns no one can see, like bedroom games and fantasy, I hold you deep inside of me. You, the torch; I, the match; together our flames can catch. A teasing game of chase, you snatch me as I kick and fight and scratch. Finally you pin me with your weight as I fight against my fate, rough and wild, I can't wait, each savage need to satiate. Later, in the afterglow, every hearbeat sweet and slow. Firelight casts strange shadow across our bodies, ebb and flow. Athletic games done for a time, unstop the bottle, blood red wine poured on warm flesh, cool and fine, not wasted, tasted, mmm divine. Teasing tongue tastes secret plains until no concious thought remains. Delightful torment borders pain, wild with want, drive me insane. Enough! I can bear no more, reality a distant shore, raging, rabid, with a roar do it Now! Here on the floor. Moaning, panting, do

In The End - Linkin Park
Music Video: In The End by (Linkin Park) (It starts with) One thing / I don’t know why It doesn’t even matter how hard you try Keep that in mind / I designed this rhyme To explain in due time All I know time is a valuable thing Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings Watch it count down to the end of the day The clock ticks life away It’s so unreal Didn’t look out below Watch the time go right out the window Trying to hold on / but didn’t even know Wasted it all just to Watch you go I kept everything inside and even though I tried / it all fell apart What it meant to me / will eventually / be a memory / of a time when I tried so hard And got so far But in the end It doesn't even matter I had to fall To lose it all But in the end It doesn't even matter One thing / I don’t know why It doesn’t even matter how hard you try Keep that in mind / I designed this rhyme To remind myself how I tried so hard In spite of the way you

In The House Of Stone And Light
Oh mount Kailas uncover me Come my restoration wash my body clean I've been walking a long and crooked path Where the walls have fallen And broken me in half 1-I'm telling you I will not rest 'til I lay down my head I'm gonna go in the house of stone and light I shall not cry for the blind mind I leave behind When I go in the house of stone and light, yeah In the house of stone and light Holy lady show me my soul Tell me of that place where I must surely go Old man waiting at the gates for me Give me the wisdom give me the key (rpt 1) -I'm telling you I will not rest 'til I lay down my head In the house of stone and light I'll make my way Oh it's gonna be such a beautiful day in the house of stone and light Oh, oh, in the house of stone and light Oh, nah nah nah nah nah nah nah nah nah Nah nah nah nah nah nah nah nah nah nah nah Nah nah nah nah Let me in, beneath my skin yeah yeah Oh oh in the house of stone and light It's been

In The Shadows
In the shadows, emotion provides Moonlight - illumination for a larger world (Population: 2) Side by side Split - apart Reuniting Despite jealous daytime gods Lips touch mine in the shadows Touches flow across the stream Data bubbles caress my nerve endings Like a million tiny kisses Vibrating neuron pathways A fiery display of colored lights The firmament of my skull My flesh grows insubstantial and seeks The Maestro of this interplay His spacious reach a sanctuary And release in this corporeal prison I am putty, a doll, in his arms My shadow Maestro Conductor in this symphony Of passion play "Every woman" the conduit For his extraordinary power Calling forth primal urges with modern alchemical implements Joining across the ages Past and Present Pain and Love Side by side Split - apart Reuniting In the shadows

In The Absence Of You
Its those hollow notes My heart now sings Loneliness I languish Upon broken wings My shattered dreams Are left without light Could this be the end Of heart taking flight I could no longer soar As wings fall apart Knowing your silence Is breaking my heart For a heart cannot fly When nothing flows In the absence of you My heartache grows.---MT

In The Words Of Redback Wolf
IN THE WORDS OF REDBACK WOLF 07/21/08 THERE ARE MANY PATHS UP THE MOUNTAIN BUT ONLY ONE MOON AT THE TOP This is something that I have believed in most of my adult life… but what happens when one loses his way upon the path does he just turn around and go back to the base of the mountain and start again or does one try to find a path from where he is and transcend from there. What if there is no other path, what if all the paths lead to nowhere and the correct path is just to forget about the mountain. Is that being a defeatist or is it just being a realist and just make do with what is given and forget the dreams and hopes. What if the moon that is at the top is obscured by others influences and desires that seem to be more important than your own. And so from here there is the obvious question and that is WHAT DOES ONE DO TO TRANSCEND AND GET BACK ONTO THE PATH OF THE SEEKER OF DREAMS?… Well I am afraid that the only person that can truly answer that is yourself, there are

In The Satrs
As I am saying good night at the end of the day, And you are not here, but many miles away, I close my eyes and try to go to sleep, Suddenly I remember some thing that my mom had said to me………., Just meet me in the stars, waiting for you I will be. So I say to you meet me in the stars………. When distance tends to keep us apart, Remember I still hold you near in my heart. When the night together, can't be ours, Just close your eyes and meet me in the stars. Meet me in the stars, I'll be waiting there for you. With a bottle of wine and glasses for two. Just close your eyes and there you will see, Waiting in the stars, just for you I will be. And gently close my eyes, lessening the miles. I can see the stars, oh how beautifully arranged, But you are not there, no hug to exchange. I sit alone waiting, with hope in my heart, No longer wanting to be kept apart. Suddenly in the distance, a shadow appears, A tear rolls down my face and the image is clear. There is

In The Mirror
yes I have to look in the mirror every day. i am fat. my mother says lose weight. my boss shows off her tiny waist and looooong legs. you know, good catalogs like lands end and llbean don't carry clothes in my size and fat lady clothes = harsh polyester tents, weird colors and fake jeans, full support. i'm not falling down! and did you ever notice that the paper-doll models for the plus size clothing are always minus sized? my husband watches all the thin girls on tv. he says he loves me. but i look in the mirror every day. i have circular lines that are soft and rounded, pleasant to follow with your eyes or with your hand. i'd like to be a pillow for when you dream at night, or an ocean wave forever curling towards the sand. jagged edges of lightening hurt. you don't want to lie on a bed of sticks. you don't want put raw spaghetti in your mouth. think about how the good chocolates are always curved. the moon always has one curved edge. round buttons fit into all kinds of

In The Lives Of Juggalos
In the lives of Juggalos we all encounter people who hate us for the people that we are. Our lives burn with a passion of life and individuality, but as we encounter the numerous amount of people that we meet. We are found (In there eyes) lacking something. Todays mainstream society is looking for someone to point the blame at. There youth are screwing up because they have no definite structure in there home except for "go to time out little Johnny" or "Suzie I’m taking away your Xbox for an hour !". These people who find themselves lacking in there home. look to us the freaks, the homies, the "uncontrollable youth" as a police officer wants said. They look at us and place blame. They say we are different and we must be the problem. They call us anarchists, and hoodlums. They call us gang bangers and scum! They do this to hurt us to bring us down and keep us there they degrade us like a puppy who jus shit on the carpet. They must know that WE WON’T DIE! We are HERE! We are strong! We a

In The End
I waited so long, To see your face, I yurned so long, To feel your embrace, I hurt so much, When you told me the truth, That in the end, I don't have you. Just because I said yes, Doesn't mean I'm, Happy with this, But in the end, I'd rather be miserable, And with you, Than not have you at all. When I sleep at night, I see your face, When I breath in, I think of you, When I get in my car, I wanna drive to you, But in the end, I can't have you. Just because I said yes, Doesn't mean I'm, Happy with this, But in the end, I'd rather be miserable, And with you, Than not have you at all.

In The House W/
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In Their Place
In their place There is a quick and easy technique that can vastly improve your effectiveness when dealing with other people. It can make you a better parent, spouse, friend, coach, negotiator, marketer or leader. What is this technique? It is simply to imagine yourself in the other person's place. By so doing, you can quickly create valuable and genuine rapport with others. You can significantly improve your ability to understand, to persuade and to motivate. You'll find that you can work through difficult, conflict-filled situations in such a way that everyone emerges a winner. You'll discover countless ways in which you can contribute real value and make a positive difference. Everyone desires to be more fully understood. By imagining yourself in another person's situation, you greatly improve both your understanding and your ability to be understood. Each individual is blessed with a unique, one-of-a-kind perspective. By seeking to know perspectives other than your own,

In The Rain
In the rain I can see us on the beach in tha rain. U in my arms kissing you on your neck and shoulders spinning you around to take off your clothes to suck on your breast and kiss you all over your curvaous body. laying you down to make love to you on the sand right where the water meets the land and reseeds back into the ocean. Sexing you with unlimited passion until we both erupt in ecstasy

In The Company Of Wolves
In the Company of Wolves by WolfBard (D. J. Sylvis) when the moon crests the hills giving each tree a black pool-shadow the wolves wade in the forest wet themselves in the darkness shake it from their fur in clearings of light their eyes are stars their teeth comets their tails galaxies they are constellations of the night they roam the universe they run as Diana's companions laugh as her silver arrows and their iron teeth harvest the hunt's bounty they hide in her moon cloud around her with breath they are brave of soul clear of eye and mind they are strong of jaw they are loyal-kind they are keen to scent quick to 'fend their kin they are hot of blood they are slow to sin grey brown white black blonde ear tail paw claw tongue they play as a pack and they melt together so that one is part of all and all become one they prance through the forest they track through the sky they are noble in friendship and single in thought i join them i

Inthemixxtv
INTHEMIXXTV.BLOGSPOT.COM Wednesday, AUG, 30, 2008 "Baketown Swinging" the blazing hot CD from 3THIRTY now available at Target.com DEPARTMENT STORE GIANT TARGET.com ADDS 3THIRTY’S CD TO THEIR ONLINE MUSIC CATALOG Atlanta, Ga.- Bakersfield, California is a city known for breakout celebrities like rock recording artist Korn, Country Western Singer Buck Owens and NFL Pro Bowl football player Joey Porter just to name a few. This week the city adds another soon to be platinum talent to its national celebrity.Recording artist 3Thirty aka Burnis Banks celebrates another milestone this week. His new independently produced CD titled "BAKETOWN SWINGING" in now available online at Target.com. In January 2007, the CD made its debut on the E-Cast Jukebox system. The electronic jukeboxes have replaced the old record spinning jukeboxes in thousands retail outlets, bars, and restaurants across the country.3Thirty is overwhelmed by the fan support and national exposure

In The Beijing Park, There Is An Oasis For Mind And Body
The corners of the park filled, even the shady spots deep among the tight rows of cypress trees that date back 800 years. Over there, a man performed the slow-motion dance of tai chi. Over here, a woman scratched her back against a tree. Everywhere, people gave themselves pat-downs to loosen their muscles. Kites were launched into the sky. A perky melody floated through the air — Could that really be “Santa Claus Is Coming to Town?” — for the scores of line dancers who fill the plazas. Haunting chants came from unseen people in the trees. Here came a woman walking backward. There went a man furiously rubbing his head. Everyone made room for the man crawling down the sidewalk on his toes and hands. “I have seen people do headstands, with their whole body leaned against the tree. That’s strange,” said Ye Shi An, 62, a fit man with a crew cut who rides his bike 20 minutes every day — not as for exercise, but as transportation to the park to exercise. He parks the bike in the orderly

In The Garden
I come to the garden alone, While the dew is still on the roses; And the voice I hear, falling on my ear, the Son of God discloses. And He walks with me, and He talks with me, And He tells me I am His own, And the joy we share as we wait there, None other has ever known. He speaks, and the sound of His voice, Is so sweet the birds hush their singing; And the melody that He gave to me Within my heart is ringing. And He walks with me, and He talks with me, And He tells me I am His own, And the joy we share as we wait there, None other has ever known. I'd stay in the garden with Him Tho the night around me be falling; But He bids me go, thru the voice of woe, His voice to me is calling And He walks with me, and He talks with me, And He tells me I am His own, And the joy we share as we wait there, None other has ever known.

In The End....
The sun sets different around me. The rain falls on my face and I embrace the way you looked at me. Difference is the way it all should seem, but when I come to face the failures in front of me…I seem to seize the moments when I was on top of it all. The leaves fall around me and I am set to burn. Yearning for the control I never had. God and his plan for me have seized to be. Cant I just wake up and see the air around me? Breathe deep, breathe soft be assured the world is closing to a loss. Greatness has never become of me and I stay asleep for days on end. Good god I need a friend, someone to understand the laughter I've lost deep within. No longer will I stand ashamed of the way you treated me in the end. No longer will I pretend that you are my friend. In the end it all seems to change. In the end I will refrain from the things I need to say. The sun is haunting and I can no longer feel the rain on my face. Goodbye darkness I can finally see the light ahead of me. Good

In The Shadows
IN THE SHADOWS IN THE SHADOWS IS WHERE I WAIT FOR YOU TO WALK BY,TO SEAL YOUR FATE. I WAIT BEHIND THE OLD OAK TREE WAITING EVERY NIGHT TO SET YOU FREE. I WATCH YOU CLOSELY,KNOWING YOUR NEAR YOUVE SEEN MY EYES,DO NOT FEAR. I FEEL YOUR HEART BEAT,I SMELL YOUR BLOOD SOON YOU WILL KNOW IMMORTAL LOVE. FORGET YOUR PAST AND ALL THE PAIN WITH MY LOVE,YOULL NEVER BE THE SAME. YOUR LIPS TOUCH MINE,AS TENSIONS GROW. WITH MY KISS,THE TRUTH WILL SHOW. YOUR LIFE,THE WAY ITS MEANT TO BE HERE ALWAYS WITH ME. EVA

In The Sombre Silence
In the sombre silence I can hear you calling my name so sweetly as the dew. As I realized that the darkness is approaching, I remained steadfast as the heavens began to weep. The comfort and counsel I sought from those who cannot speak proved to be useless. Sinking to the soaked earth, Head and heart joined in one voice to scream your name into the darkness. I realize you can't hear me so I remain in the presence of the dead And suffer them to see what the living cannot. It's been so long since I have seen your face, My heart is always breaking And I feel as if I am failing you. Now all that's left to do is to smile And wait for a better day to come. Written by Danielle K.

In The Name Of The King: A Dungeon Siege Tale
Movie Ratings from the glitter-graphics.com I just reviewed this Movie: In the Name Of the King: A Dungeon Siege Tale A simple family man, named farmer is forced to take up arms after an evil sorcerer named Gallian, unleashes an army of ugly beasts that destroy his small village and capture his beautiful wife. Its a typical theme good vs evil. With an exciting cast of actors, I really liked this movie, I am a fan of this time period. Castles, wizards , fair maidens in trouble and lets not forget the kings and nobleman :) If you like movies like : Dragonheart (1996) Eragon (2006) Krull (1983) Legend (1985) Dungeons & Dragons Lord of the Rings I am sure you will find this movie as enjoyable as I did. There were twist and turns that kept you guess what would happen next. I give it : 4 our 5 bags. Hope you will consider seeing this and enjoy it as much as I did. you fubar movie Credit Saspanda Featured Cast : Fa

In The Hospital
sat. night my fever spiked to 103 and was in alot of pain .due to a kidney infection. went to the er. they admitted me.am feeling 100% better now. sorry i havent been on here for a few days hugs vickie

In The Real World
In the real world, You are never with me. In the real world time moves on, And so do I. I have been on my own for so damn long, Love is only a figment of my imagination. You are the one I wanted so bad, The one I knew could love me. Similar we are and when I look at you, I see a mirror image reflecting back at me. We are the same in an unusual way. It was all so good, At least from my view. My mind can dream, It can dance with you. In the heavens above, The way it use to. I will make mercury rise, Of that you can be sure. You don't need to worry, I will take care of you. I will do all those things we use to do. Then I am back in the real world, Moving on with things. You are not my reality, You are only a dream. Dee Parenti All Rights Reserved.