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How I Feel About You
How i feel about you, is really true. The feeling i have inside, just wants me to be by your side. I dream about you every night, just thinking about you feels so right. Sitting by you, holding you. Just tell me, we are the two. As i've been told, your the key to my soul. You'll always be in my heart, until we die. Telling you the truth, and never a lie. How i feel about you, is so so true. Dreaming and loving you and so much more, you'll always remain in my heart forever more

How Is Your Singing Technique?
How is your singing technique? Choir and Professional MusicYou sure do know what singing properly is all about. With a voice like yours, or at least your knowledge of good technique, you could go far. Take this test

How I Got My Soulmate!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
The best advice that I can give is to relax and do the things that you like to do. Try and attend art Galleries or Museums if you like that, go to church functions if you find that enjoyable, volunteer at hospitals or seniors homes if you find that interesting. Heck, if you are a party animal, continue to go to bars and clubs. This way the people that you meet will have the same interests as you. Just relax and let it come to you, sometimes when you try too hard to find a special someone it comes off as desperation and actually hinders the search. My answer would be the Internet, it may take a while of sorting through garbage....but it does any way you decide to meet people. People can lie to your face as well as over the computer. True love knows no boundaries. If you can't handle a long distance relationship, then maybe you could be just friends until you come together. My main theory of a soulmate is money!!! yeh they might say it is not about the money, but you all kn

How I Feel About Something That Happened.....
Feelings.. How I feel about something that happened..... What I am feeling right now. I am feeling happiness because you are still here. See last February a guy broke into my mom's house, He beat and robbed my mom, and left her for dead. He hit her repeatedly in the head with a frying pan and broke the handle off of the frying pan he was using to hit my mom. He hit her repeatedly in the front and back of the head and left a hole in the back of her head and a big gash in the front of her head. She was out cold for over 14 hours the attack started at around 10pm on Feb. 7th 2006 and she awoke a little bit at 3:13pm on Feb. 8th 2006 when the phone rang. She was with it enough to tell her co-worker to call 9-1-1. My mom's co-worker called 9-1-1 for her and the police came and where shocked to see that she was still alive with all of the blood that she had lost. I call the co-worker my mom's guardian angel, because if it wasn't for her calling to see why my mo

How I Feel About Cherry Tap
i dont care about points. im here for fun. if you have over 10 pics and i have to comment on every single one to see your private ones!!! dont add me cause its not gonna happen i dont have that kind of time!!! thanks

How I Am In Bed Lol
You scored as Sex God. You are a master at sex. You make your partner weak in the knees, and you know it. You've had the practice, and you've read the books, but don't get too cocky (pun intended) or you'll get put into place.Sex God80%A Romantic65%A Slave To BDSM63%Virgin28%How are you in bedcreated with QuizFarm.com

How I Feel About Voting
I think some voting is supposed to go down pretty soon. So what. It doesn't matter who you vote for, as all politicians work for the Man, the Main Cop, a Free Mason Nazi Bill Collector. Thats right, people. Sure, they all have seperate agendas, like pro-choice or pro-life, different stances on things like immigration and gun control. But the bottom line is that they want to fuck you over. And they probably have miniscule genetalia, which is why they feel the need to be in control. The Electoral College, F them, too. Just because. This is the truth, people. No matter who you vote for, there's behind the scene's type shit going down. Your elected officials are a facade, concealing and inner core of Corporations, billionaires, and jerkoffs not satisfied with just making a buck. They need to tell you how to live. We live in a nation that exists as a shell of madness. So go ahead, exercise your right to vote, if it makes you feel "free". Because thats all it is. You see, I truly have the ri

How I Feel Today *evilsmiley*
Edit to add -- She Wants Revenge-Tear You Apart Got a big plan, this mindset maybe its right At the right place and right time, maybe tonight And the whisper or handshake sending a sign Wanna make out and kiss hard, wait nevermind Late night, and passing, mention it flipped her Best friend, who knows saying maybe it slipped But the slip turns to terror and a crush to light When she walked in, he throws up, believe its the fright Its cute in a way, till you cannot speak And you leave to have a cigarette, your knees get weak An escape is just a nod and a casual wave Obsessed about it, heavy for the next two days It's only just a crush, it'll go away It's just like all the others it'll go away Or maybe this is danger and you just don't know You pray it all away but it continues to grow I want to hold you close Skin pressed against me tight Lie still, and close your eyes girl So lovely, it feels so right I want to hold you close Soft breasts, beating heart

How I Feel Right Now.
They say a picture is worth a thousand words, but if that's the case, a touch must be worth millions. Luckily for you, I'm not going to use quite that many. I am, however, going to tell you a story. Everyone has experienced it...that first hesitant touch from someone who's bound to be your lover. You've felt that electric spark...that moment when the connection is made...that breathless anticipation of what's to come...that tremor that starts in the pit of your stomach and somehow radiates outward to weaken your knees...and your senses. And from that first instant, whether you admit it to yourself or not, you decide whether you would let this person take it further or not. You are eager to hear their every word. You are intent on knowing this person...inside and out. You imagine the way those velvety fingers would feel gliding across your flesh...dancing through your hair...searching out your weaknesses and exploring them with reckless abandon. You long for the feel

How Is Everyone Doing Out There?
Hey there , Thanks for stopping by My Cherry TAP Page, well the reason why I didn't hit the approve button is I go threw all profiles that request to be my friend to see if they have pictures of themselves, and friends, and family, dog and cat etc... LOL , you get the point right. To keep my friends as real as possible Im not like other people on here I don't just let anyone on my list just to build it up you know what I mean. If that was so I would have 4 times as much people on my friends list and that's not what I'm about. I hope you understand, I think that works out better for both of us, that way you know you're not just another number when you're on my friends' list? I return all of my friends' messages and chat with all my, MySpace friends that would like to chat it up with me if I'm online and have the time you all know how we do =-). So when I get a friends request from a new friend I check for a lot of things just to name a few I firist check to see if they a least ha

How Is Your Self-esteem?
You Have Low Self Esteem 52% of the Time While you sometimes feel good about yourself, you tend to struggle a little with self esteem issues. It's not about changing who you are, it's about accepting your faults. You just need to be less critical and demanding of yourself! How is Your Self Esteem?

How I Feel
I'm so tired of being alone When I wanna talk to someone I'm always alone, feeling empty I just don't know what to do anymore I'm so tired of being alone When I need someone to calm my cries There isn't anyone there No one is ever around I'm so tired of being alone When I have a bad day and need to talk I turn my head to see, no one is there Which in turn, makes me cry more I'm so tired of being alone All I want to do is die But even that is complicated It makes me feel useless I'm so tired of being alone When things can't get worse Somehow they always do Just when I need comfort I'm still so tired of being alone

How I Feel About U In A Poem
yes i am i worryed that your not you self and that so suck you no i love you a lot and would give my blood just to see you not hurt or up set i would even give my very soul just to no that you were ok but i no you not so when your hurting so am i and right now your up set so am not happy either and it hurts to see you cry and it hurts to see and when your not eating or you hate life then i lost hope in a world that is never nice nice or me i love you and if need be i would take a bullet for you or die for you if need be thats how i feel am so sorry this is all happen to you and will try my best to comfort you when your here

How I Feel Sorry
Everyday is spent with you Every thought is about you Every dollar spent is with you in mind Cause I'm sprung But you don't care you got your girls who don't treat you right Every other weekend your always out You call me when you are done or lonely They left you for a moment making you think they care You raced back to them when they feed you bull shit I'm left in the dust feeling dumb and stuck I'm headed down this road in the end I'm fucked You feel bad for them but you are blind to see All the shit your doing is effecting me, I can't take it Lost in your eyes I can't get away I feel you take me for granted in everyway I'm still around cause I believed in what we shared But now it's different cause it seems like you don't care You can't have it both ways so I'm out Let's see what kind of love or friendship you can find in them I won't be gone but for now let's say i'm out Until the day you realize what love is all about. I'm not right now......I'm Forever...

How I Feel!
Broken promises empty dreams. Looking at life, with lots of regrets. All anyone can see, is how much I fret. I yell and stew, bubble and spew. Profanity is yelled, at the top of my lungs. Like a simple song, left unsung. An empty bottle, and a broken heart. I raise my glass to toast, "wow, that smarts." While I loved you, like no other. Here you are with, your arms around another. Drunken stupor, falling down. You must think, what a clown. In my life, I have no luck. In your ass, my foot gets stuck. I hope you are, happy with her. For now I, have the cure. The bottle, is my best friend. Almost like, my next of kin. In a drunken stupor, I shall always be. All because of, what you did to me!!

How I Felt At The Tender Age Of 18
The Pains of Surviving Life as a Miscreation My heart is full of emptiness, And I just can't seem to get use to this misery, And all this pain that has imprisoned me, In a world where I can't survive as eighteen with no education, I sometimes wonder how I got in this miscreated situation, At times it's has me feeling sedated and weighed down, With all my dreams and my schemes to make something of myself, But I've only found nothing how can you turn it into something, One thing I do know is you can see the past, But wonder through the future as a blind. Mike Breon-Fitzgerald Cribb Copyright ©2007 Mike Breon-Fitzgerald Cribb -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Click Here to Rate My Poem

How I Feel
I sit and stare at a monitor, a false hope in my dull existence. Names flash by, some words from those who say they care. But in the end when I turn off the lights and lay down, I still lay down in a cold and lonely bed. I never ask anyone online or in my life away from the computer for anything. But I am about ready to self destruct. I never ask anyone for anything, but yet I am always there when someone needs me. All I ask is this, just remember me ok. I never ask for sympathy, and I always hide my true feelings from everyone. In truth my life SUCKS. There are times I wish I had never been born, but I am here for a reason. In truth I don't mind comment bombing people, I don't mind rating them or even fanning them. But don't get all in a tizzy if I forget OK. Here lately I need to wear a sign, fragile, please be careful OK. Since my divorce I have fallen into a depression and I think its going to kill me because I am having trouble, I fight with my son, and he is 12. I yell at my par

How I Will Die
You scored as Disappear. Your death will be by disappearing, probably a camping trip gone wrong or an evening hike you never returned from. Always remeber that one guy who was hiking alone and got in a rock slide. He could have died, but he cut his own hand off to save himself. Don't end up like him (or worse, dead).Gunshot100%Disappear100%Natural Causes80%Cut Throat67%Stabbed67%Accident53%Disease33%Suicide33%Drowning33%Poison33%Bomb

How I Got My New Bed...
How I got my new bed.. Current mood: amused I have a funny story for y'all…and I'm really bored so its bloggin time lol.. For a bit (a while back) I was dating this guy named Justin. Justin had a bit of a jealous (I.e. psychotic) streak to him…when things started to get serious, he told me he wanted me to get rid of all my "sexy" stuff..any lingerie and stuff that I had ever worn with another guy. Ok number one..that shit is EXPENSIVE! And number two..well I just wasn't gonna do it lol. SO I just stuffed it inna bag and hid it lol. SO anyways..he pulls the same psycho trip about my bed lol says he doesn't want to sleep in a bed with me that I had been in with anybody else. So, one night, him, my (supposed) friend Rebecca (remember her from the other blog?) and I were all supposed to go out drinking together. We all went to my house and when he got there he had a brand spanking new bed in the back of his truck. Ok number one (again) I was in the mood to drink, not to mov

How I Got My "other" Nickname
So there's this much younger man...we've known each other for a while now. He and I have had this little flirtation thing going on between us for a while now. It started when I was managing a store inside a location he worked at. He'd stop by and chat and flirt. Back when he was 17 he gave me a hug and said "You know, it's only illegal if I tell." I laughed and reminded him that it would be illegal if I knew. I'm not like that. Then he turned 18 and he gave me a hug and whispered, "You know, I'm legal now." And still I hesitated. I thought about it, I won't lie...he's intelligent, he's hot, and he's charismatic... He's a bit of a redneck, he fills out a pair of jeans beautifully. He's going on 20 now. I've still not given in to the temptation, but I've recently told him that if he wants anything to happen, he's going to have to be clear and be sure...not to mention make the first move. Personally, I see it as inevitable...but I'm not in any rush. And i

How Intuitive Are You?
You Are 72% Intuitive You are a very intuitive person. And luckily, your intuition is normally right. You're wise enough to know that relying on intuition alone can be dangerous. When your intuition seems really off, you tend to ignore it - and look at the facts instead.How Intuitive Are You?

How Intuitive Are You?
You Are 84% Intuitive Your intuition is so spot on it's scary! You can learn a lot about people and situations, simply by listening to your gut. And you've even wondered if you can predict the future at times. Just be sure not to always listen to your intuition... someday it could be wrong! How Intuitive Are You?

How I Become A Vanpire
tall im about 7 foot2 born as a pure vampire my father was count vladamore from translvania born in the deepest pitts of a carvern by a foreseer that predicted i would RULE THE WORLd and unleash a greater force of evil that anyone man or beast has ever seen. death is just an illusion to really know the story about me, i must take you back, back to where it all began. silence filed the air in the castle as a women screamed in pain. thunder stroke the sky in a powerful embrace as evil breeched the mortal world. "its a boy." a nursemaid whispered. moments later another dreaded scream peirced the silence. " a girl" a voice wispered. "twins, it's a sign the ancient gods have blessed us." seconds later a voice broke the silence. " A girl, my husband would kill her especilly since i have given him a healthy, apparently strong son." the nursemaid nodded "m'lady you must think of something you must not let him kill her. for they are twins and both will die" the mother stops and t

How Immature
Ok, so the more I'm on this site, the more I realize how cool some people are, and how immature some other people are. I apologize if anyone found my last bulletin offensive. It was meant as mostly a joke... Someone took offense to it and took me off his friends list, re-rated me a 1 and blocked me... WTF is that? I don't even need to watch soaps anymore, there's enough drama here, lol. Love you all :) Hope no one else takes offense to my drunken ramblings :)

How I Feel
when i first looked into your eyes when first i looked inot your eyes each breath became a thousand sighs my heart drummed out a thunder beat i glowed whe joy from head to feet the hand of love had touched my soul as the bell of destiny began to toll the tide of love began to rise the world was filled with summer skies my sodden clouds of cold and grey glowed with gold then wisped away a brilliant rainbow arched across as waves of luve began to toss the air was filled with love birds cries when i frist looked into your eyes when i first looked int you reyes all time and space were paralyzed and in the instant i was shown a universe i had never known i dwell there still in paradise when i look into your eyes

How I Feel
How I feel there is no words. Sep/11/05 All I see is darkness like being in a tunal or blind and can only feel things. I remember seeing light the day I held you in my arm so tight. But it all was taken from Me the day I let you go. Will I ever see light again Is there that posability? Will I ever feel like I am truely loved or understood for what I've done? Or should I even let myself be loved, When I'm in so much pain? This is how I feel!

How I Feel
Half the time i feel like no one cares, even though i know in my head there are people that care about me, its not the first time ive felt this way, and its not the last time. I know there are people out there worst than me, i know there are people who live out on the streets with no one to love them. Why should i feel this way, feeling like if i roll out the gates to do our mission i really dont care if i come back, i really dont. If i go to higher ups in my unit than when im out of the army in 2010 i will be labeled crazy and it will be hard to get a job, so im stuck in limbo trying to find a cure for this and coming up short. i always wondered if i die over here like so many other soldiers before me would they do a closed casket or an opened one, what would i look like, would they put me in my Class A's, or if a closed would they still use the bodybag, or every a sleeping bag as ive seen earlier in my deployment. what makes this all worse is when i try to tell people how i feel,

How I Am In Love???
How You Are In Love You take a while to fall in love with someone. Trust takes time. You give and take equally in relationships. You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time. You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change. You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard. How Are You In Love?

How I Hold Myself Together
I hold myself together, by ropes from which my head hangs every night when I go to sleep to dream of peace and palm trees, dream of the ocean, of no one to hurt me, of someone to take the rope off my neck, of someone to let me dance on the beach...of someone to stop him from breaking me, but yes, that is how I hold myself together. Because I dream of the ocean. © Andi 2007

How I See The World With Love In It.
Love.. is it a season ticket to my heart? A stage of various emotions from my soul? Love..is it a spontaneous whisper I want to hear from your lips? A graceful touch from my body? Love.. Is it a production of just my thoughts? A pleasure of delight? Love.. Is it a passionate interest from me to you? A fondness of hope? Love ... Is it a attachment on my courage of life? A elasticity of belief? Love... Is it wrong or right or just a border that can never be reached?

How I Came Up With The Name Boo Boo Kitty Fukk
its from the movie JAY AND SILENT BOB STRIKE BACK... SO here we go I found the part Of the movie its just the words no video... Jay: What's twistin' this bitches tit? Justice: Maybe it's because girls don't like to be called bitches, Jay. Jay: They don't? How 'bout fine piece of ass? Justice: How 'bout not. Jay: Then what the fuck am I supposed to call you? Justice: Something sweet, ya big goof. Something nice. Jay: Boo boo kitty fuck? Justice: That's... a start.

How I Love You
I look at your precious face everynight and i cry. never telling you how i trace your face with my fingers as tears stream down my face making a puddle infront of me. WHen i hear your voice my heart stops then starts to pound so fast i cant hear anything but my heart. God knows how i love you my wolf. your my all. i miss being in yoru arms when the night mares come. I miss seeing yoru smiling face each day as i greet the day. I know you tell me every day a million times a day that you love me and want me in your life. but its not the same as being there with you. My heart feels as though its going to break each day i breathe. My heart longs to see you face to face. to feel my head upon your chest listening to your heart beat. why do people have to make loveing wrong. why do people have to make being in each others hard to do. why cant they just but out and mind their own business. why cant they just let us love each other with all of our hearts. HOw i love you . i cant take the pain o

How I Feel.....
As a little girl all she ever wanted was to be loved by her parents and her siblings. She awakes one morning to find her mom crying and doesn't know why, but she starts to cry. Her mom sits us all down, being one of five children all different ages, she tells us that our father has met someone else and will not be coming to live with us anymore. The oldest kids understand a little more then the younger ones, but the younger ones knew it wasn't good. A week or two later she is called to the den with the rest of the kids,and sitting in the den is her dad and mom sitting on different couches, and she remembers looking him in the eye, sees remorse and sadness for what he has done, and she grows sad for him, but angry at him. They sit the kids down and explain that they are getting a divorce but that her dad will have visitation rights for the weekends. Her dad was the only one working in the house through out the marriage, her mom stayed home with all of us and she didn't kn

How I Know I Love You Well
So you asked me how I know I love you well.... There is not an hour in the day I don't think about you, When I go to bed at night I dream about you. When you hurt its like I can feel your pain. But when you smile it's like the whole world I gain. I don't want to be alone; I want you on my path. I sometimes sit and think about things to make you laugh. In my life you bring me love, joy and peace. And when I'm with you its like my pain is seize When you're gone for more than an hour I start to miss you, I get this warm like feeling every time I kiss you. To keep you happy is my like my life time goal. I want to be with you forever even when our ages are old. Words can't began to explain just how much I feel, But it's because these few reasons I know my love is real. Now the question is not if I love you, but I want to know, do you feel the same way too?

How Is Autism Treated?
There is no cure for autism. Therapies and behavioral interventions are designed to remedy specific symptoms and can bring about substantial improvement. The ideal treatment plan coordinates therapies and interventions that target the core symptoms of autism: impaired social interaction, problems with verbal and nonverbal communication, and obsessive or repetitive routines and interests. Most professionals agree that the earlier the intervention, the better. Educational/behavioral interventions: Therapists use highly structured and intensive skill-oriented training sessions to help children develop social and language skills. Family counseling for the parents and siblings of children with autism often helps families cope with the particular challenges of living with an autistic child. Medications: Doctors often prescribe an antidepressant medication to handle symptoms of anxiety, depression, or obsessive-compulsive disorder. Anti-psychotic medications are used to treat s

How I Became A Submissive.
Origionally I started roleplaying as a slave. Most the Masters my characters had were... something to be desired I guess you could say. Most of them used and abused the characters, From that I really didn't have a desire to be in the position I am now. Though interesting as it was that I switched my opinion. One day while on the phone with a friend of mine I asked him if I could have a cookie jokingly, he laughed and told me... "I'm not your Master." I stopped.. I was intrigued by the statement, could it be possible for me to hold a Master in real... Well over the phone at least. I let him try and for the most part it worked out. Though I felt I needed something more. This was becoming a challenge for me. I needed someone who could be more dominant on me. I would go into a chatroom on Mirc where you could bid yourself off and have half hour sessions with Master's online. Some that I came up against were morons. Others almost to dominant. None of them seemed to be loo

How I Date
You date like you are 24 years old. You are a dating pro. You've been around the block a few times and know exactly what you like and dislike in a partner. Usually you can tell after one date if you would date them again. Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com

How Is My Self Esteem
You Have Low Self Esteem 16% of the Time Which can be translated to mean, you have high self-esteem and a healthy sense of self worth. You believe in yourself, and you know how to be the real you. You love yourself, imperfections and all. How is Your Self Esteem?

How I Feel About The Way Men Talk To Me Lately....
You know, most of you havent talked to me on the phone or in person, youve seen my photographs...you tell me im hot, im sexy, im gorgeous, im pretty, how you want to come over and do me yada, yada, yada. Im sick and tired of that, I want someone who wants to talk to me for me, not talk to me about sex......thats all any of my friends want to talk about anymore, I dont have one male friend short of the ones that are already taken like my unkie goth that dont want to talk about anything else except about all the things they can do to me and make me do in the middle of the night. Mabye Im sounding prudish or...mabye im sounding stupid to some of you guys.....but in alot of ways, Im looking for friendship, mabye Romance.....possibly, but definately friendship and sex has gotten me into nothing but trouble in the past.......I only have one person in mind right now that i want to consider ripping his clothes off because he talks to me and treats me like a lady and a friend.....and he lets

How I Feel Today
Silence, Emptiness, And Confusion by Bek Silence builds an awful wreckage of a girl It feeds on loneliness and creates a void Gray shadows haunt and torment and torture A teenager is stricken and destroyed There is no sound of laughter or happiness here The little one has thrown in the towel today Somber, melancholy moods decay the soul It is futile to hope and dream and pray Emptiness builds a home in this woman In this girl, this child where hollows have bred A deepening sea of nowhereness consumes And eats away at every connecting thread Confusion feeds like a savage inside her, Leaving nothing considered worthy remains Destined to walk through life less ordinary Alone, exiled, different and disdained.

How I Sound
What American accent do you have? Your Result: North Central "North Central" is what professional linguists call the Minnesota accent. If you saw "Fargo" you probably didn't think the characters sounded very out of the ordinary. Outsiders probably mistake you for a Canadian a lot.The West The Midland Boston The Inland North The South Philadelphia The Northeast

~*~how I Feel~*~
Frustrated Cuz I Can't Tell If It's Real Mad Cuz I Dont Know How You Feel Upset Cuz We Cant Make It Right Sad Cuz I Need You Day And Night Angry Cuz You Wont Take My Hand Aggrivated Cuz You Dont Understand Dissapointed Cuz We Can't Be Together ...But Still... I Will Love You Forever

How I Feel...
I'm in love and I don't care who knows it. He is a very very good person that cares about me and his son. He loves me cause for one i care about his son, two i care about him, and three i love him and thats all that matters...

How Ive Felt Lately
I'm so Hidden and you're never gonna see I'm cold Forgiven all because of my beliefs I'm no Body that you ever wanna be Cause I know that the world is afraid of me [Monoxide Child] Now you can try to sedate me, assassinate or just hate me But there's nothing that you can do to me lately Now I'm greatly accepted in the mind so I'm confused and intertwined From being rejected so many times, I wanna leave it all behind So kind of you to pick up the album and give it a try for once And run and tell your homies that these motherfuckers will die for us So many questions, fingers pointing for answers Suggesting that I'm the cancer that lingers inside the pasture With green grass up to my neck, and situations that's too fast To think about and most people can't dream about A hundred million miles and every single second And every time you hear this record I want you to feel me on every sentence Reminisce from descendants of past treasures We'll embark o

How I Feel
After a year I turned the corner And our eyes caugt love's glance As with every time I see you, My spirit lifted up to dance. Delighted in your presence, Ecstatic at your vision, The unity that i feel, Can only be fates provision. Such a sense of oneness As we walked out into the night, The feeling of your beauty, Bathes like summer light. Longing has taught me patience, And love has made me wise, Life has taught that to be the best, Stand fast and never compromise. I have seen you for two years, And well happily wait plenty more, So that when I come home, You'd greet me at the door. So if the planet permists, We shall live as one, And everyday shall be a comfort, Like the warmth of the rising sun. Your eyes are as doves, That make joy in me to rise, And to have you as my wife, Shall be a lover's paradise.

How I See Myself 2
so ok a few month agos i wrote a blog about how some people can be cold to each other. what i mean by this is that people lookin at me like i should just stay home and not come out in public, well that happend a few months back after a Def Leppard concert, it got me down and wanting to kill myself and just leave this world to make pople happy. Well fast forward a few month and god im so glad i have friends like all my cherry friends who have helped me past that. I love life and i have so many wonderful people in my life. Kimmie my lil Skittles i love you babe and u are awsome. Di u rock so hard u make me smile all the time. Tammy what can i say about you, one thing i can say is Careing, your heart is alway open to me and i thank u for that. My buddy and Co owner Shewolf she has had my ear everyday and she was ready to come here and smack me down if i felt that way again ty hunny u rock ( and ya daughter is a funny one lol). and then theres Danni omg she helped me when i was at my lowes

How I Deal With Writers Block
Writer's Block by wolf359 Wolf sat at the bar looking at the glass before him on the polished oak. The amber of the scotch reflected the light on his hand resting next to the glass. He wanted the drink as a starving man wants a meal. The writers block was killing him, it had been two weeks since he had been able to get ideas to flow from his head to his keyboard. He was so engrossed in the desire for the contents of the glass, that he didn't even notice the woman sit on the stool next to him. Climbing on to her stool, Deb noticed the man next to her. He was about forty, six feet tall, and about two hundred pounds. His short hair was beginning to gray at the temples and his short-cropped beard was flecked with gray. Noticing that he wore an gold earring, she wondered which way he swung, these days you couldn't tell. Looking closer, she could see he was wearing gray slacks, and shirt with the collar open and a dark blue blazer. Hanging from the pocket of

How It Went....
Hey!! To everyone who gave for the Breast cancer walk again thanks! It was yesaterday (Sat 21). I took my two kids with me and it went well. The walk was only 3 miles.But my kids had a blast I had fun. Thanks again for your support (to those who donated ha ha )

How I Felt In A Relationship With A Cray Bitch
Life is a prison, Oh God let me out. No one to listen, To hear when you shout. Climb the walls of insanity, Ride the waves of despair. If you fall it don't matter, There's no one to care. Used to wish for a window, To see birds, trees and sky, But you're better without one - Stops you aiming too high. Watching freedom is painful, For those locked away. Seeing joy, love and happiness, Another price that you pay. Strong is good, weak is bad. Be it false, be it true. Your mind makes the choice, And enforces it too. Cell walls built by society, With rules to adhere. If you breach the acceptable, You had better beware. Hide the pain, carry on, Routine is the key. Don't let on that you're not, What you're pretending to be. Lock it all up inside you, How badly that bodes. Look out for that one day, When it all just explodes. Leaving naught but a shell, Base functionality too. But killing all else, That was uniquely you. So how do you grow,

How I Hate This Time.
so here it is, hubby is leaving soon. i haven't got the specific date but it's coming up really quick. ya know, it wouldn't be all that bad if i wasn't in germany. this isn't my first one, but it's not going to be my last either. i'm not complaining, i know its his job and i knew when i married him this might happen. i'm just saying that this time is really hard. i can't go home to moms because i live on the other side of the world. in 26(almost 27) years, this is the first time i've ever been this far away from home. and i have no phone right now so it's not like i can call anyone. i have great friends(family to me) here on ct. but you just need to hear a familiar voice every once in a while. it's crazy and maybe i'm over reacting, but it doesn't get any easier when they leave. i know all spouses feel that way.

How I Feel.
This world will never be What I expected And if I don't belong Who would have guessed it I will not leave alone Everything that I own To make you feel like it's not too late It's never too late Even if I say It'll be alright Still I hear you say You want to end your life Now and again we try To just stay alive Maybe we'll turn it all around 'Cause it's not too late It's never too late No one will ever see This side reflected And if there's something wrong Who would have guessed it And I have left alone Everything that I own To make you feel like It's not too late It's never too late Even if I say It'll be alright Still I hear you say You want to end your life Now and again we try To just stay alive Maybe we'll turn it all around 'Cause it's not too late It's never too late The world we knew Won't come back The time we've lost Can't get back The li

How I Ache
How I ache for you to touch me And hold me in your arms To make me feel safe and secure And protect me from all harm How I ache to just be able to hold your hand and walk To be able to enjoy each other To be able just to talk How I ache for you to kiss me To feel your breath upon my neck Not being to hold you or touch you Is making me a wreck How I ache to look at your face And see the desire in your eyes Knowing I have lost you forever Breaks my heart and makes me cry How I ache for what we had And what will never be The good times, the bad times It was all worth it to me You were the greatest love of my life and always will be Forever etched into my heart You mean the world to me Don't ever forget me or the life we once shared Know I will always love you and I will always care

How Is Ur Life
Your Life is 78% Perfect Your life is pretty darn perfect. You don't have much to complain about. Of course, your life is occasionally less than perfect. But you're usually too happy to notice. How Perfect is Your Life?

How I Feel!
Miles and miles of perfect sin- I swear, I said , I fit right in I fit right in your perfect skin Give me a reason to be beautiful So sick in this body So sick in this soul I'll give you this body, just sell me your soul Oh, and everything I am will be bought and sold Oh, and everything I am will turn hard and cold And they say, in the end- you'll get bitter- just like them And they steal your heart away When the fire goes out, you better learn to fake It's better to rise, than to fade away Hey, you were right. Named a star for your eyes. Did you freeze? Did you weep? Turn to gold? Baby- sleep. honey of mine I was there all the time. And I weep at your feet. SO I SAY FUCK IT ALL!! AND I NEED A BREAK

How I Am Going To Deal With Downraters
From this point forward, I will rate anyone that rates me less than an 6 on any of my pics or my profile, I will rate them 1 point higher on their profile, then I will block them from my site so I don't have to deal with them in the future

How I Am Feeling
WELL IT LOOKS LIKE MY OTHER BLOG DID NOT SHOW UP. BECAUSE I DONT SEE IT. I HAVE BEEN GOING THRU ALOT THESE PAST 2 DAYS. NOW I AM BEING BLAMED FOR THE PROBLEMS THAT ME AND MY OTHER ARE HAVING. HE TOLD ME THAT IT IS NOT HIS FAULT THAT I AM INSECURE ABOUT MYSELF. I AM NOT. IT JUST UPSETS THAT HE HAS BEEN TALKING TO THESE FEMALES BEHIND MY BACK. HE SPENDS MOST OF HIS FREE TIME ON HIS LAP TOP THEN HE DOES WITH ME. BUT IM SUPPOSED TO BE OK WITH THAT. AND IM NOT SUPPOSED TO GET JEALOUS OF THESE GIRLS WHO ARE CLOSER TO HIS AGE AND BETTER LOOKING THAN ME. IM SUPPOSED TO JUST DEAL WITH IT HE SAYS BECAUSE THEY LIVE FAR AWAY. WHY AM I THE ONE TO BLAME FOR WHAT GOES ON. HES THE ONE DOING THIS NOT ME. I DONT IGNORE HIM. I DONT GO LOOKING FOR OTHER MEN LIKE HE DOES WOMEN. I DONT SPEND ALL DAY LOOKING AT WEBCAMS WAITING FOR GUYS TO GET NAKED. LIKE HE DOES WITH THE FEMALES. I AM BEGINNING TO THINK THAT HE DOES NOT CARE FOR ME ANYMORE. I AM JUST SO CONFUSED. ON TOP OF THAT MY GRANDMA IS GETTING WORSE W

How I Feel Right Now ... Lost Girls By Tilly And The Wall
Girl, I know the hall looks dark & the storm it seems so scary Your face lit up on beats of lightning you start, you start running & your eyes are like screaming & since there is no end and no beginning You will run You will run You will run Girl, I know the woods look dark & the trees they seem so deadly The girls around you are so frightened & you start, you start to panic and your courage starts to vanish & the world, it really is on fire & it burns & it burns & it burns & it burns Vivian, your life is told through 19 thousand pages in a world too unreal to behold Your innocence has faded Faded all your blues to gray Your skin has bruised through moving days Glue is peeling back away Curling, cracking, painted Girl youve been rolled up in colorful carpets Your blood is rushing, look around you you're froze, you're frozen quiet & your eyes, they are widened Room unfurnished, no light for nightfall just rugs for rolling you up you know you can't g

How I Feel Sometimes
You didn't say I love you when you Hung up the phone And the times we could be together You are always gone And this knot inside my stomach tells me Somethings very wrong And I'm here All alone So I'll smoke another cigarette And let go of the things that might have been And remember that altho the night is dark The sun will shine again And somewhere on a distant breeze I hear your voice as it calls out my name But that voice is far behind me now Even though you're gone The memories remain

How Is Autism Diagnosed?
Autism varies widely in its severity and symptoms and may go unrecognized, especially in mildly affected children or when it is masked by more debilitating handicaps. Doctors rely on a core group of behaviors to alert them to the possibility of a diagnosis of autism. These behaviors are: * impaired ability to make friends with peers * impaired ability to initiate or sustain a conversation with others * absence or impairment of imaginative and social play * stereotyped, repetitive, or unusual use of language * restricted patterns of interest that are abnormal in intensity or focus * preoccupation with certain objects or subjects * inflexible adherence to specific routines or rituals Doctors will often use a questionnaire or other screening instrument to gather information about a child’s development and behavior. Some screening instruments rely solely on parent observations; others rely on a

How Is Autism Treated?
There is no cure for autism. Therapies and behavioral interventions are designed to remedy specific symptoms and can bring about substantial improvement. The ideal treatment plan coordinates therapies and interventions that target the core symptoms of autism: impaired social interaction, problems with verbal and nonverbal communication, and obsessive or repetitive routines and interests. Most professionals agree that the earlier the intervention, the better. * Educational/behavioral interventions: Therapists use highly structured and intensive skill-oriented training sessions to help children develop social and language skills. Family counseling for the parents and siblings of children with autism often helps families cope with the particular challenges of living with an autistic child. * Medications: Doctors often prescribe an antidepressant medication to handle symptoms of anxiety, depression, or obsessive-compulsive disorder. Anti-psychotic medicat

How Irish Are You?
How Irish Are You? Your Result: True Irishman (or woman) You are truely irish, you support and love your country. You are the kind of person who would put Ireland before anything else. You like to eat corned beef, and drink beer, but you are not the stereotype of a drunk irishman. You would fit in just fine in a bar in Dublin or Cork.No doubt, you are Irish Irish But Lacking Not true Irish, but close enough Fake, Fake, Fake How Irish Are You?

How I Feel
Not many people realize that the death of a child is NOT in accordance to God’s NORMAL scheme of things. It is unnatural. God did not mean for a child to go first. A child buries the parent. Not the parent buries the child. Most people do NOT experience the pain and devastation of the death of a child. And I truly hope, no parent will ever feel the death of their child because they do not deserve it. If you love your child, the death of your child is more painful than the death of any of your loved ones, including one own’s parents. And because of this devastation, I do not wish this pain even to my enemies. We as parents have become older, and we lived our lives. It is now our Children’s turn to live theirs and hope, as parents, we did most of what we had to do as God had wished us. When we returnto our Creator, it’s okay because we lived our lives ... we have fulfilledour lives. Justin's death — the death of any child — is the death of an unfulfilled life. Th

How Is Your Driving
Your Driving Is is: 54% Male, 46% Female According to studies, you drive both like a guy and a girl. This means you're a pretty average driver, with typical quirks. Occasionally you're frustrated and or a little reckless, but that's the exception - not the norm. Do You Drive Like a Guy or a Girl?

How I Am Doing.. Come See
WELL THIS YEAR HAS BEEN A BLESSING.. I HAVE 2 BEAUTIFUL DAUGHTERS THAT ARE RECIEVING AWESOME GRADES AND ARE ON HONOR ROLL.. GOT GREAT NEW FRIENDS HERE.. AND FINALLY GOT A PROMOTION @ WORK, I AM SO HAPPY TO SEE THAT I AM WELCOMED IN ALMOST ANY STATE IN THE U.S. OF A !! AND I AM VERY LUCKY TO HAVE A CAR THAT IS GONNA LAST ME AND MY GIRLS ARE VERY LONG TIME.. SINGLE AND STILLL LOOKING.. ANY COMMENTS? PLZ FEEL FREE TO ADD

How I Did It !!
I guess I should start off by saying what I did lol..... I have actually stayed Married for 15 years as of May 2nd this year. In the past few days I have had a couple of peope ask me OMG how did you do it....And my reply was.......... Hum I dont know. Ive been thinking about this questions for a few days now.. And I have been pondering what a good answer should be.. I would have to say alot of comperomise, alot of understanding on both sides, learning to over look each others little quriks and give each other space when needed, dont ever try to change the person your with, and be yourself in all matters. But the truth is I really don't know how we made it this long thinking back it was a rough road with alot of twist and turns along the way. Trying to over look someones quirks haha we all know dont really happen we just learn to live with them, Comperomise lol just do it my way or we fight til I win or we forget what we were fighting about, Giving each other sp

How I Feel.............
Hi all, I just wanted to say that right now i am totally frustrated and a lil concerned as well. I am trying to get ahold of my hubby on his cell phone, and usually he answers it pretty quickly after it rings, well i have been trying to get ahold of him since 8pm (cst) and his phone keeps hanging up on me, like it's either dead or it's charging. We also have the PTT feature, where u can push to talk and that doesn't seem to be working either, so i don't know what to think! Just frustrated at it, the dang phone! He is supposed to deliver in Oklahoma City,Ok in the morning, well he isn't gonna make it. He was supposed to be driving since 8 and i haven't even gotten a chance to talk to him or wake him up! Well i guess i will keep trying to call him, so u all have an awesome night, take care, Hugs and all my lovin u beasts and vixens Jilly

How It's Been
It's been hard the past few weeks i been trying to figure out what I want relationship wise every time i think im ready to settle down my age comes into play and I have second thoughts and burn a bridge before it happens I guess im afraid of commitment from being cheated on and hurt so much..I dont know tho...I mean i commit myself to my music and thats all I feel its the only solid thing I have right now..my best friends been on my back i know he wants better for me then what I have but i dont want to leave someone in my life high and dry with nothing to fall back on but i need to get on with my own life too Im just fuckin lost and shit...I guess its time to grow up sooner or later this may give yall a negative thoughts about me but i could care less ive got to vent some how and i feel weak telling yall my probblems but i guess its like Cherry Tap's online theorpy lol helps to tell someone you dont know about whats going on..I dont know what to do anymore

How I Am Feeling Today!!!!!!
I HATE IT, THAT SOME ONE CAN GET TO ME SO EASILY! HOW IS IT THAT A HARD HEART CAN TURN SO SOFT! I GET SO SICK AND TIRED OF THE DAMN EVIL DOERS, BUT I KNOW I CAN'T CHANGE THEM! I JUST WISH SOMETIMES THAT PEOPLE WOULD UNDERSTAND RULES ARE RULES! THEY ARE MADE TO BUILD STRUCTURE. THEY ARE NOT MADE TO BE BROKEN!! PEOPLE JUST TAKE ADVANTAGE OF EVERYTHING AND EVERYONE! WHEN THE FUCK IS IT GOING TO STOP? I JUST WISH SOME TIMES THAT I COULD JUST GO HIDE IN A LITTLE HOLE. AWAY FROM ALL THE PAIN, HATE, EVIL, AND ANGER!! MAYBE THEN I COULD GET SOME FUCKING PEACE OF MIND!!!

How Is Your Vocabulary?
Your Vocabulary Score: B You have a zealous love for the English language, and many find your vocabulary edifying. Don't fret that you didn't get every word right, your vocabulary can be easily ameliorated! How's Your Vocabulary?

How I Feel Inside
WHAT IF THE PERSON YOU CAN'T FORGIVE IS YOURSELF? HOW DO YOU BEGIN THE PROCESS OF HEALING THEN? THE WORLDLY COUNSELORS CAN ONLY HEAL YOU FOR SO LONG! I FEEL THE NEED TO HAVE A SURGERY TO HEAL MY INSIDES! I HAVE BEEN PARALYZED BY MY OWN FEARS, ALL MY LIFE! FEELING SO BROKEN UP INSIDE. THE TREASURES WITHIN IS WHERE OUR HEARTS ARE! WE MAY ALWAYS BE BROKEN,BUT WE CAN LEARN HOW TO COPE WITH IT IN BETTER WAYS!! STILL FEELING SO MUCH ANGER AND BEING A SINISTER IS WHERE I LYE RIGHT NOW! IT IS TIME FOR ME TO DEAL WITH MY ANGER AND FEARS! I HOPE SOME ONE WILL PRAY FOR ME, THAT ARE INTO RELIGIOUS WAYS, IF NOT THEN LOVE YOU ANY WAYS!!!!

How I Feel
my pain is your gain it feels like a rusty blade my heart so hurt my blood so cold this day i awake without u in my fold u ignore me u hate me u slash me u trash me each day arises with a hole in my soul i treated u kind but u loved my turmoil one day in your life was like my beer on tap a day without u was like bieng in a trap try to continue my love unatached one day u will finfd it was meant to last.

How I Feel About This Crapy Town / State
well life is life i only have two thing to look forword to seeing sean grow and moveing i cant FUCKEN WAIT i feel like this town is eatting my resson for living its like a tate worm it eats eveything good and leaves the shitty crap that is left i have sean who is the light of my life and there is nothing for him here but the same shit and the same type of people i want so much better for him but it seems like eveytime i have a good thing going i fuck it up you know but i have to deal with what i have done i just think its time to move on and get the fuck out of this black hole of a town i dont know why but i cant WAIT UNTILL I CAN FORGET EVERYTHING AND ALMOST EVERYONE THAT FUCKING LIVES IN THIS GOD DAMMM STATE

How I've Been...
As you may have read in my last blog, this was a very trying, traumatic and sad week that I had to endure. Two people, one of them a little girl, died in front of me during an accident earlier this week. Truly it was a horrific event, one that has played itself over and over again in my mind, and I had been depressed for the past several days. Well, I went to see the two survivors in the hospital, not knowing how I would be received or how they would be. The mother, who was driving at the time of the accident, was still in a state of shock from losing her niece and youngest daughter. The other daughter, when I was tending to her on Tuesday, could not feel her legs. She was brought in for emergency surgery and I learned that she should make a full recovery with complete use of her legs, so I breathed a sigh of relief that something actually went right on Tuesday. When I saw them, the mother was officially discharged and visiting the daughter. I swear my heart was in my throa

How I Feel....
How I feel.... Current mood: disappointed I lie here wondering....When will this pain escape my chest? Cold and alone are all the feelings I feel, begging for surinity, if only for a moment. The only peace I find is deep in my mind...Hidden away...like a miner trying to find that perfect gem. I beg for release..But all I get and feel are anger and fellings of emptyness and pain. I wish it would all go away, but to do that I would have to end my life. I sometimes think...What will my funeral look like..Will there be alot of people there or just my family? I kind of know the awswer to my question. But I just think it would have been nice to be loved by so many. It's sometimes hard to focus on the future when you guilt yourself so much form the past. So mush sorrow and pain. so many what If's. Christina 5/19/07

How I Am
im a nice person just trying to make friends for whatever reason any body makes friends im very laid back i like to smoke and drink beer (im a beer snob really lolz) but if you ever need anything im the best friend you will ever have cuz friends are to lean on when you need someone to lean on or to get you drunk when your having a bad day. im workin on getting more pictures up so hopefully that will be soon. and make sure you wish me a happy bday if you read this i always like hearing that

How I Really Feel About My Best Friend.....
TO START OFF WE HAVE BEEN BEST FRIENDS FOR 3 YEARS AND IT'S BEEN THE BEST 3 YEARS EVER... LET ME START BY SAYIN THIS, SHE IS THE MOST WONDER PERSON ANY ONE COULD ASK FOR. SHE IS THE LIGHT OF MY LIFE,WHEN I AM DOWN SHE ALWAYS MAKES ME LAUGH SOME HOW. SHE HAS NEVER TURNED HER BACK ON ME WHEN I'VE NEEDED HER THE MOST. I DON'T KNOW WHAT I WOULD EVER DO WITH OUT HER. SHE IS SO... THERE NO WORD TO PUT ON HER, THATS HOW WONDERFUL SHE IS. WE'VE LAUGHED TOGETHER AND WE'VE CRIED TOGETHER. SHE IS ONE PERSON I CAN ALWAYS TELL MY FEELINGS TO AND WON'T EVER LAUGH OR THINK IT'S STUPID. SOME DAYS I FEEL I OWE HER MY LIFE. SHE HAS DONE SO MUCH FOR ME. AND I KNOW I CAN'T EVER REPAY HER FOR THAT. SO IF YOU SEE HER ON MY PROFILE PLEASE STOP BY AND SAY HI TO HER, YOU'LL BE GLAD YOU DID... JESS I KNOW YOUR GONNA READ THIS AND IT'S FOR YOU ANYWAY, I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART. YOUR MY FLICKA.......

How I Feel
I know each Master has his own ways of viewing and teaching a submissive slave as for being a Master to me it is many things it knowing my own desire and want as well as my slaves , it is cherishing what is mine and watches over her . showing the respect to her as she herself shares within me.never acting out in anger or jealousy for these acts are ones of a lack of trust and a lack of ones own control. my beliefs are that if one is to control another one must be in control of oneself! You will find that I have my ideas as how beings Master/Dom should be to me the Master is a strong man, a dominate man. He is sure of himself, confident in his place in society. He cherishes females, revels by their presence. He is giving, caring, Loving and understanding. When the Master takes on a new fledgling, he worships her, discovers her, slowly possesses her. He gently pushes her, always ready to show her that she is strong, that her limits are not what she believes them to be, that she can be t

How I Learned To Stop Worrying And Love The Bomb
I am working on Wealth, Women, and War: Surviving Globalization and am at the point of discussing the Cold War. As you might guess, one cannot discusses that time in history without taking about The Bomb. I am having fun with it as I begin the section with a blurb on Dr. Strangelove, or: How I Learned to Stop Worrying and Love the Bomb as I derive the chapter's title from the movie's subtitle. I am having fun here. Hope all is well with you, too.

How I Feel!!
I'm the Only One Please baby can't you see My mind's a burnin' hell I got razors a rippin' and tearin' and strippin' My heart apart as well Tonight you told me That you ache for something new And some other woman is lookin' like something That might be good for you [CHORUS] Go on and hold her till the screaming is gone Go on believe her when she tells you nothing's wrong But I'm the only one Who'll walk across the fire for you I'm the only one Who'll drown in my desire for you It's only fear that makes you run The demons that you're hiding from When all your promises are gone I'm the only one Please baby can't you see I'm trying to explain I've been here before and I'm locking the door And I'm not going back again Her eyes and arms and skin won't make it go away You'll wake up tomorrow and wrestle the sorrow That holds you down today [CHORUS] Like The Way I Do Is it so hard to s

How It Is Done In Iowa!! I Miss Almost Everyone There!!!
FRIENDS: Tell you not to do something stupid when drunk IOWA FRIENDS: Will post 360 degree security so you dont get caught --------------------------------------------------------- FRIENDS: Call your parents Mr. and Mrs IOWA FRIENDS: Call your parents drunk as hell and tell them about the fat guy you tried to pick up -------------------------------------------------------------------- FRIENDS: Hope the night out drinking goes smoothly, and hope that no one is late for the ride home. IOWA FRIENDS: Know some wild shit will happen, and set up rally points and an E & E route. --------------------------------------------------------------- FRIENDS: Bail you out of jail and tell you what you did was wrong. IOWA FRIENDS: Will be sitting next to you saying, Damn...that shit was fun " ------------------------------------------------------ FRIENDS: Cry with you. IOWA FRIENDS: laugh at you --------------------------------------------------------- FRIENDS: Borrow

How Im Feeling Today.....
its sunday.... i really dont care for sundays only because i no i have to work tomorrow.... eh but its all good because i like my job... unlike others. mom asked me to wash ALL the towels i the house... we'll see. lol. i dunno what im actually doing today. i dunno if im going anywhere today. all i know is is that today is sunday and im alive. who could ask for more than that? chow!

How I Feel
i have been married for 3 years but i am no longer happy. every guy has proven to be jerks. lieing to me all the time. and ever man keeps proving me right. always out for sex or want to know about my privite sex life. come on some one prove me wrong just once. why cannt there be a sweet guy out there for me. some one to make me smile and laugh again?some one i can look in to their eyes and see how much they love me and want to be with me for me. i may not look the best but i have a good personality. i wish some one could see me for that. its not whats on the out side it is whats on the inside that counts. i have built this wall around my heart because of guys i dont trust any of them but may be one day i will find the one who can change all that. at times i feel like i be betterof dead just to please alot of people. but i dont want to feel that any more. please god one day send my angel from heaven to show me the love i deserve.

How In The Hell?
What is it I'm feeling... could it be... that stupid emotion I burried deep inside of me after Steven? that one that Rusty walked all over after I had his child? The same feeling I put walls up around after Daniel was ripped away from me? I can't start to feel this way again... I have a bad history of it... And yet Im craving something real... as the popular MCR song goes... I'm not okay.

How I Fell Right Now!
I am feeling kinda strange. I am tired as hell, but I do not want to go to bed yet I do not want to be awake either!! I am going crazy and that is all I can say about that. I miss my boyfriend like crazy and I just know I probably will not see him this weekend because of my stupid car! Kids, Don't ever let some dumb a$$ cut you off and then stop....the car gets its feelings hurt (not to mention your wallet when you have to shell out 2,500 dollars to get the thing fixed). Anywho, enough of my pity party....I am so digging this site it is a ton of fun and I can see why I was told that I would feel like an attention hoe!

How I Feel Sorry A Bit Long
Abandoned wanted to take another avenue Never knew it but love was when I finally found you Eternal glimmering beautiful love surpassing all of My wants and needs The miracle of patience and love you are my Destiny Amidst of all the chaos and all the hideous Malicious ill intent This love we have between us so beautiful and genuine Nothing could persuade me ever to undo my heart and soul To each other we are ecstatic we have become one forever soul Leaving behind all the fear and all the negativity Of love failed so many numerous times You were there to clear and open up my eyes Within every person is the power to make decisions And where I found myself I will never take back of ever Want to change You are my miracle and dream in every possible way Total love and contentment in my chakras As they circle and forever illuminate and shine The love between us will always be yours and mine One path two never more will there ever be Just one you and me one soul

How Intuitive Are You?
You Are 64% Intuitive You are a very intuitive person. And luckily, your intuition is normally right. You're wise enough to know that relying on intuition alone can be dangerous. When your intuition seems really off, you tend to ignore it - and look at the facts instead. How Intuitive Are You?

How I Roll! Lol
Iam smart+caring+loving+funny+free... To tell ya tha truth i haver no moneys..... Down to earth+spontanious+ optimistic+cute+pretty+mean.....but nice on a good day!;) I have no car+ ive been to a bar+im thinkin arbys, weve got shakes+i like earth quakes+thunderstorms+the sound of the rain..+snickers+pictures+stencils+confetti+ Im addicted to all tha wrong guys, it makes me nervouse when you look deep into my eyes... Ive been hurt but it made me strong+i have no regrets+im not perfect+my room may be a mess but i know where everything is+i like to oat oat oat opples and banonos...lol i like to paint+draw+write... i hate to be alone at night...I love my family+Icherish my friends+i smoke+drink......coffee........;) I love music+my favorite color is pink+I have wierd talents+my sister cannot wink!(haha tiff!) I didnt graduate high school.. but im still cool!;) I live with my dad and my evil stepmother...lol I had my own spot... but now i do not!:( ...lol Im from cali+i wish upon

How I Feel....
I've been told I'm sweet I've been told I'm kind Each time I fall It blows my mind It hurts so much When I find you've lied With nothing else to do I sat down and cried I don't know why I fall so easy It hurts a lot And makes me queasy I'll walk away And let you be 'Cuz I can't take What you've done to me. By Dori Axt May 25, 2007

How I See Things
Most men treat women like rocks, useless things that they can throw around and abuse and not care what they do to them, not caring for their feelings. I.E. a guy walking down the road, sees a beautiful rock (woman), picks it up, he thinks it's all neat and cool, he abuses it, throws it, kicks it, and then takes it to his friends and the process continues. The woman develops into a rock, cause after a guy does this to her, she becomes cold and not willing to trust anyone at all, no matter what. The rock is hard and mainly undestructable so that nobody can get threw. I see women as diamonds, priceless, fragile items that need the best of attention. They need to be treated with respect and always need to be shown they are needed and loved and cared for. If not taken care of correct, they could shatter and/or break. Sometimes you'll find rocks, but just give them alot of time and love and after awhile, the rock will crumble, revealing the most beautiful, unique diamond, you could e

How Im Feeling
As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back. Don't be afraid that your life will end, be afraid that it will never begin.

How I See Things And How I Live My Life...
I know some ppl might not think the way I live my life is the right way. But to me, it's the best way you can live. I live each day as if it were the last time I'd see the ones I care about, just incase it ever is. I want them to know if and when anything did happen. I did everything I could in my power to help them and have fun and spend time with them. To be the best I can be. Not like some ppl to where they take everything for granted. Nothing is guaranteed. Just cherish every moment you are given with everyone you meet and care for. Go out of your way to help someone in need. Atleast that's how I live. I want to be remembered as someone who was different and who truly cared about how they treated ppl. Not to be remembered as someone who was self centered or conceited. That's not me at all. I was brought up better than that and I KNOW I can do better. Who cares if I am never truly happy, just knowing I made another life happy, simply cause of something I did, then you

How I Love
Your Love Style is Agape You are a caring, kind, and selfless partner. Unsurprisingly, your love style is the most rare. You are willing to sacrfice your world for your sweetie. Except it doesn't really feel like sacrifice to you. For you, nothing feels better than giving to the one you love.

How Is Everyone?
As for me. just working my ass off and feeling the repressions of being away from home and traveling through Europe, next time I will have my back up plan and things taken care of at home before I run off to Europe again. Sure I have been traveling several times but this time it was a different feeling and the events that happened when I came home was like a snowball effect. I really know who are real friends are and those who are not my friends or do not believe me or just want to use me then I dont need them. This is who I am and hey I am easy going. For those who are just out to play head games or assume crap about me, I have news for you. As for those friends who have been a help, thank you for everything and I will repay your hospitality and kindness in time. I know words are not enough and I hope to do more for you in time. For those who just added me with out reading my profile or what I had to say about my friends request, I am sorry I talk wayyy toooo much about my

How Is Cf Diagnosed?
How Is Cystic Fibrosis Diagnosed? First, your doctor will obtain a detailed medical and family history and perform a thorough physical examination. Next, your doctor may order some tests to ensure an accurate diagnosis. The sweat test is the most useful test for diagnosing cystic fibrosis (CF). It measures the amount of salt in your sweat. For this test, doctors rub a small amount of a chemical called pilocarpine (pi-lo-KAR-pen) on your arm or leg. They then attach an electrode to this spot. The electrode provides a mild electric current that produces sweat. This may cause tingling or a feeling of warmth. They then cover the area with a gauze pad or filter paper and wrap in plastic. After 30 to 40 minutes, they remove the plastic so the sweat that collected on the pad or paper can be analyzed. The test is usually done twice. High salt levels mean CF. Your doctor may also do the following tests to understand more about your condition and how to treat it: Blood tests to look

How I Am Feeling...
Not my own...but never better said "Hurt" I hurt myself today To see if I still feel I focus on the pain The only thing that's real The needle tears a hole The old familiar sting Try to kill it all away But I remember everything [Chorus:] What have I become My sweetest friend Everyone I know goes away In the end And you could have it all My empire of dirt I will let you down I will make you hurt I wear this crown of thorns Upon my liar's chair Full of broken thoughts I cannot repair Beneath the stains of time The feelings disappear You are someone else I am still right here [Chorus:] What have I become My sweetest friend Everyone I know goes away In the end And you could have it all My empire of dirt I will let you down I will make you hurt If I could start again A million miles away I would keep myself I would find a way

How I See The World As Of Late?
People seem more lonely lately to me. We each have so many friends, but even in a crowded room we can be so alone. Ever try to step out of your own little world and look around? The checkout girl looks like she spent a night protecting herself from an abusive lover or worse. The kid with all the tattooes and piercing has the manners of a gallient knight. Next time u're in a major hurry to get out of Wal-mart or the local stop and shop. Take a minute to look around and see for yourself. How many other lonely souls are floating through this life with u.

How I Spent My Saturday
I was invited to watch something new. Also I would meet someone I hope will be a good friend. Tim is a good friend to a friend of mine. He was in my neck of the woods for a parachute jump meet. I went. Had a good time. Learned a few things about parachuting. No! I will not even consider trying. 1. I'm too fat. 2. I'm crazy but not stupid. 3. I'm afraid of heights. 4. I'm not that crazy. 5. I am a klutz on a good day. The idea of falling at 60 miles an hour with a small piece of cloth between me and Splatt!!! does not appeal to me at all. 5. I have physical problems that do not allow such foolishness. 6. Again I repeat, I'm not that crazy. Would I go to another one? You bet. Did I have fun? Yes I did thanks to Tim. The people around were friendly and talked to me like I was one of them. I hope Tim invites me again the next time he is in this area. Now for a long shower and maybe an early bedtime.

How I Feel.
You know, I get asked alot about my views on the war and how I feel about it being a US Soldier, and Marine. And I have to tell you, I don't care. I swore an oath to defend this country. I swore an oath to follow the orders of my Commander in Chief, and his duly appointed representatives. I swore an oath to defend the Constitution of The United States. I swore an oath to defend the American public. I Swore An Oath. And I don't care. I don't care about all the bullshit out there. I don't care that I may be called up to go to Iraq, Afghanistan, Kosovo, or wherever else they may send me. I don't care that you hate me for making that decision to put my life on the line to protect you so that you can stand there and critisize everything I do. I don't care. I swore an oath and I will defend it with my very life. Take it or leave it, I don't care. Today, I read a posting put up on myspace by my brother, and I couldn't agree more. I want to share it with you. I think that you might ag

How I Feel Sometimes
I hate looking myself in the mirror, I hate knowing I have fear. I hate seeing what isn't there, I hate feeling that I am scared. I hate believing what isn't true, I hate believing and trusting you. I hate crying myself to sleep, Forgive me for I have dreams. I feel left out and all alone, With no one to call my own. My eyes are red and I cry blood, Please help me or I'll cry a flood. My friends see what I let them see, If they only could see the true side of me. And as I die inside with pain, Please don't think that I'm insane. Cause believe it or not I have a heart, That's been slowly torn apart.

How Is Email Like A Penis?
- Some folks have it, some don't. Those who have it would be devastated if it were ever cut off. They think that those who don't have it are somehow inferior. They think it gives them power. They are wrong. - Those who don't have it may agree that it's a nifty toy, but think it's not worth the fuss that those who do have it make about it. Still, many of those who don't have it would like to try it. - It can be up or down. It's more fun when it's up, but it makes it hard to get any real work done. - In the long-distant past, its only purpose was to transmit information considered vital to the survival of the species. Some people still think that's the only thing it should be used for, but most folks today use it for fun most of the time. - Once you've started playing with it, it's hard to stop. - Some people would just play with it all day if they didn't have work to do. - It provides a way to interact with other people. Some people take this interaction seriously; oth

How I Feel...
I am not me, and I'm not who you WANT me to be. Who does that make me? Every dream I've ever chased has failed miserably. This was all I had left, all I Truly wanted, and now even this dream has been placed on hold. I can never be who I want to be, and it's not because of anyone else. It's because I LET my dreams die. Why fight for something I know I cant have? I feel like I've given up. I have no emotion left, no motivation, there's not much fight left in me at this point. I feel drained. My surroundings aren't the only part of this problem, my mentality is also in play. Granted, Iowa sucks, but if I were ever to leave it, If I were to actually persue a dream and fail, I could never live with myself. My fear of failure is literally preventing me from living the life I want to live. I hate waking up everyday and realizing that I can never have the things I want, because I'm too afraid to get out there and grab them for myself. I want a stable loving home and children to raise in it.

How I Feel
Am I to be happy? I dwell so deep within myself that I have never seen the light of day. The past never happened, the future will never come, and the present isn't real. Depression is a part of everyday life. The birds chirp for someone else, The day warms the lives of everyone, but me. Happiness lies near, but my mind won't let my heart reach for it, and happiness never knew. I live in a prison, solitary confinement. Fear is my guard. Nothing stops happiness from reaching me, only me from it. I am sure that if I can ever grasp it that the barrier will be forever shattered. How do you break through invisible bars? What is it like to touch something you've never had? I am confined to myself, Just me and my sadness.

How I Rate
I just wanted to clarify something with you. Some of you have asked why i dont rate anything you post. Well my reasoning is I don't rate using alerts. If you see on your picture I rate it.I rate my friends when they are close to leveling. And if you have 100 pictures or 800 pictures during a level up i will rate them all until you level up. If that bothers anyone that i dont rate when you post please tell me and i will rate your things as you post. It just makes leveling you a lil easier. have a great day.

How I See You.
Eyes that don't see See the things that you do Do you wish me to describe Describe how I see you... Skin so delicate Delicate as a rose Rose that will blossom Blossom as it grows. Hair moving gently Gently you tease Tease...softly whispering Whispering summer breeze. Voice so melodic Melodic singing birds Birds, such sweet tunes Tunes enchant like your words. Dress...rustling Rustling, swirling...trees bare Bare as leaves fall Fall, the colour of your hair. Your perfume..sweet fragrance Fragrance frangapini's bring Bring back many memories Memories of spring. Yes I am blind Blind, yet I see See you in my mind Mind filled with glee.

How I Feel...
Right now, I feel really happy, but really shitty. lol I'm really happy to have made lots of new friends on here tonight, and have lots of love brought my way. I like it. :D but in reality, I feel like crap cause my tooth hurts. lol I don't know what I did to it. and here I am up at 2 am, and I am bitching about it. ROFL. I should just go to bed. huh? Night All. Love to all! *hugs&

How I Am About Sex!
You scored as Hot/hard, You love hard sex. You like it hot and fast. You love to scream and to listen to your partner scream. You'll go at it as fast as you can. Just make sure you don't go too hard for your partner, just because you can take it doesn't mean they can.

How I Like My Pussy Ate.
95% of females can't cum from sex UNLESS, they're on top..and they're on top why? so they can stimulate their clit..by doin' their lil snake charm grindin' grab on our pelvic bones..which..really does nothin' for us..so the key is..eat pussy first..make her cum a few times...numb her up..then hammer away or soft and slow with alot of vaginal teasing with your magic stick to build it all up in the end, however u like...... now once ur in between her legs..don't just fuckin' dive in there like a bum at a thanksgiving charity dinner...take your fuckin'time I know pussy is nearly irresistable...but don't act like it is.. lick her inner thighs, kiss them..kiss around her pussy lips..kiss the lips etc. etc..finally once u've got your tongue on her clit..this is what u do..(u can use ur hands to spread her lips here if u want..that's all preference...it's easier to make em cum w/their lips spread..so u have easier access to their clit) now...roll the tip and somewhat flat part of your tongue

How I Came Up With The Name Oguardianshaven
Well when I went on-line I need a screen name and there were three or four girl-friend's here and I asked them what would be a good name for me. They all said Guardian Angel, well of course that was taken already so I started trying variations and came up with Oguardian, then a little bit later when I started my on-line Biz I added Haven. So thats how OguardiansHaven became.

How Important Is It Anyway?
How important is it anyway? I was recently divorced several years ago and had my kids over for a week’s vacation. My kids wanted me to go outside and play with them. I was busy washing their clothes and didn’t want to take the time. My mother had stopped by to visit. I was putting the kids off because I was busy. My mother asked me, how important is it anyway? So I stopped doing the laundry to go out and spend time with my kids. At that time, I didn’t really want to spend the time with them. I wanted to hurry and get the household chores done. Years flew by and my kids have grown up. I’d forgotten my Mother’s words about how important is it anyway? A few years ago, my Mother got real sick. It didn’t look good. I thought, my Mother was going to die. Her words came back to haunt me. How important is it anyway? I reevaluated what’s important now. I spend time with my Mother knowing, my Mother hasn’t got too many more years on Earth. I try and call my kids more often or, drop them a

How It Starts
I am sitting on the back of this beautiful powerful machine...I feel the power between my legs as the engine revs up harder and faster...my arms around your waist breathing you in until I feel I have to have you. The faster you go the more I hold on and feel myself getting all hot and wet, I know I have to have you soon. I need to feel your hands all over me touching me in places that were once so cold and alone. YOur tongue caressing every inch of me tasting all the sweetness I have to offer. God it feels so good. The look in your eyes as you plunge deep inside me filling me up with every inch of you. The rythmatic motion molds are bodies into one perfect being stuck in a moment of pure bliss. The taste of your mouth on mine the feel of your tongue swirling deeper and deeper in my hot mouth. I love your taste, I want to drink you up and hold you forever. I run my nails down your back, pushing you deeperin me til I feel I will explode with such force I may die. Then I wake....I guess

How I Feel
Well... I am officially 100% jaded, I expect nothing from the existence but sooner or later to get screwed over by life. That screw job will come inn many forms. I'm not complaining. It happens to everyone, so why fight it? Just sit back and wait for it. Screw Jobs are like Death and Taxes. You hate 'em, but sooner or later, it happens. I've seen enough to know this. I'm not out to change anyone. I'm just saying what's on my ming. If you don't like it, that's your choice. If you disagree or agree, it's no skin off my back. It's something a long time in the making and there is no changing it for just as long a time. I have personal reasons behind it that are just that...personal. It has nothing to do with my 'state of mind'. It has to do with my state of 'being'. It's not aimed at anyone, it's what I think. I could care less what people think. Because there's no point in trying to fit in with the standards of others just to make them happy. If I had known what life had

How I Go...
I could tell you the wildest of tales; My friend the giant and traveling sales. Tell you all the times that I failed; The years all behind me, The stories exhaled. And I'm drying out, Crying out, This isn't how I go. I could tell you of a man not so tall, Who said life's a circus and so we are small. Tell you of a girl that I saw, I froze in the moment and she changed it all. And I'm drying out Crying out This isn't how I go Hurry now Lay me down And let these waters flow Flow... Son I am not everything you thought that I would be But every story I have told is part of me And you keep the air in my lungs; Floating along as a melody comes. And my heart beats like timpani drums; Keeping the time while a symphony strums. And I'm drying out Crying out This isn't how I go Hurry now Lay me down And let these waters flow... Flow.... Let it flow Let it flow Son I am not everything you thought that I would be But every story I have told is part of me Son I lea

How Italian's Tell Time
The video is in Italian, so read the setup. SETUP: An elderly Italian man is sleeping on the side of the road on a pile of hay.. He is awakened by a wealthy man on a motorcycle who asks for the time. The old gentleman has a donkey next to him and by simply feeling the donkey's testicles, He tells the man on the motorcycle the time... This gentleman on his return trip spots the old man again and,thinking the old man was just lucky, asks him again. To the wealthy man's surprise, the old man is exactly correct again about the time. Now watch the video (In my stash) and see how the old man knows what time it always is. Have a Great weekand I hope you will rate me....JC

How I Feel.... My Language
If I don't call you [ Its because im waiting for you to call me ] When i walk away from you mad [ Follow me ] When i stare at your mouth [ Kiss me ] When i push you or hit you [ Grab me and dont let go ] When i start cussing at you [ Kiss me and tell me you love me ] When im quiet [ Ask me whats wrong ] When i ignore you [ Give me your attention ] When i pull away [ Pull me back ] When you see me at my worst [ Tell me im beautiful ] When you see me start crying [ Hold me and tell me everything will be alright ] When you see me walking [ Sneak up and hug my waist from behind ] When im scared [ Protect me ] When i lay my head on your shoulder [ Tilt my head up and kiss me ] When i tease you [ Tease me back and make me laugh ] When i dont answer for a long time [ reassure me that everything is okay ] When i look at you with doubt [ Back yourself up ] When i say that i like you [ I really do

How I Came Up With The Name Oguardianshaven
How I came up with the Name OguardiansHaven, Well year's ago I met this girl who was way off in the drug world and I took her under my wing took care of her when she was on a down slope, giving her a safe place to sleep with worry of being raped while she slept. In doing that I meet many more girl's that I did the same for. Well when I went on-line I need a screen name and there were three or four girl-friend's here and I asked them what would be a good name for me. They all said Guardian Angel, well of course that was taken already so I started trying variations and came up with Oguardian, then a little bit later when I started my on-line Biz I added Haven. So thats how OguardiansHaven became.Most of the girl's I took in are doing great!,Clean, married with kid's, being responsible adult's now.Not to mention they are true loyal friend's that will do almost anything I ask of them without question!. I have earned that trust from them.

How I Stole Amy's Cherry
In high school I had lot’s of friend who were guys…Most of the girls wouldn't be seen near me. It wasn't just that they thought I was a slut. It had also gotten around about how I liked to swing both ways. I hadn't exactly made a secret about that. One day several girls had walked into the girl's room to find me and Amy locked in a passionate embrace. One of my hands was inside her panties and had pushed her skirt way up over her belly. It wasn't possible to deny anything about that incident, and I actually couldn't be bothered trying. I kind of liked my “slutty” reputation. It made life interesting. Amy, of course, was now in the same boat as me. She was a real shy girl, who was scared stiff of boys. She wore these long, super-conservitive dresses around, and jumped whenever anybody spoke to her. If that somebody was a boy, she turned seven shades of red and stuttered in reply. What the girls had seen in the bathroom was really just another of my come ons which the little ninny had

How Is Sex Like Riding A Bicycle?
How Is Sex Like Riding A Bicycle? 1. You have to keep pumping if you want to get anywhere. 2. It's best to wear protective head-gear when going into unfamiliar territory. 3. You can do it with no hands, but it's best not to try it until you have a lot of experience. 4. It's easier to learn with the help of someone who has a lot of experience. 5. You can do it by yourself, but it's usually not as much fun. 6. It's usually hard to control your speed the first few times you try. 7. It's best to have a soft place to land. 8. You don't need any special clothing, but you can get some if you are really into it. 9. If you're with someone who is having trouble keeping up, it's usually best to slow down and wait for them. 10. Most people think it looks easy until they try it for the first time. 11. Once you learn, you never forget how. 12. If you fall off get right back on. 13. If you get a flat, try pumping it back up. 14. Remember to signal before you

How I Know..
honestly, it's different for everyone...this is how it is for me.. There's that first meeting...for me it was a blind date of sorts..i knew what the person looked like..she was gorgeous..could have any guy in the world. I was so nervous meeting her because of this..really..shes gorgeous.. Anyway, that first meeting..you're nervous--you've had bad luck in the past, why should this be any different? From that first instant she has you with her smile...the way her hair blows...the way here eyes look at you..every corny detail that makes true love so cheesy. You make lame jokes at an attempt to see her smile as often as possible. The first day is amazing..you wonder where this girl has been your whole life...its creepy how well you connnect...she knows what youre thinking at every second, which makes you even more nervous about screwing this up. Her laugh makes your heart flutter. You can't stop staring, and when she catches you, you have no explanation. And then the meeting i

How I Lived
Dreams have been drempt, Life has been lived. There is only one thing in life that I care to give. It's the life of a child that is as precious as gold, You'll never understand until you fit the mold. Men are unsure these days of what they want in life. Why can't it just be a child and a wife? A silent kiss in the darkness of night, the hardening of passion when the timing is right. When a family is made it's a life of a treasure. It's a fulfilling way to satisfy a pleasure. The love I've felt no words can explain. It's the only thing I feel that has kept me sane. The birth of a child is as precious as day, My life changed in an early morning in May. When you die the only thing to remember is how you've lived. Where you a man of gold or a father of pride? Where you a woman made of strength or a coward to hide? Did you live your life to the best that you could? Did you do those things that you thought you should?

How I'm Feeling Today.
~Confused. Drunk. Tired. Lonely. Lost~ I've been drinking for about 10hrs so far, and I'm feeling pretty spun out. I'm emotional, and I miss Jorge like I can't even describe. I didn't get to talk to him last night and there's nobody in his unit on the base to get a msg to him for him to call me before he flies out. It's gonna be atleast 3-4wks before I talk to him again and by that time I'll probably be on vacation in FL again. And after that, I haven't the faintest when he's allowed to call but I'm gonna be writing letters like mad. After talking to Brandy, Heffy, and the OnCall ICM I made up my mind. When Christine calls me this morning I'm gonna pack my shit and have her take me to St. Lukes ER. I have alcohol in my system so they can't turn me away, I'm depressed, I need to be back in the hospital. I don't want to give Jorge reason to worry about me, I hope he knows that I'm doing this for myself and my children and for him, too. I'm just being a worrywart because he'

Howie Schwartz Speaking At Authority Summit
Howie Schwartz speaking at Authority Summit Howie Schwartz speaking at Authority Summit - Behind the scenes and co-creator in a number of internet marketing projects. He is often working hard at the "lab" on finding more innovative methods at increasing traffic that most marketers overlook. His knowledge on Web 2.0 and its impact on the internet is often unmatched, and will be sharing his secrets on how best to harness Web 2.0 to your traffic advantage. An SEO expert skilled in "black hat" tactics, Howie has recently switched his focus to more "white hat" strategies. With his SEO background almost every site he touches turns to gold.

How It All Began
A MAN CALLED BANJO My life story in a nut shell ,true fact's about the man you know as Banjo with a little humor added but what the heck you probably will like to read it any how.I enjoy telling it. Here's how it started -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- On September 13,1943 the most wonderful thing occured that brought lots of joy and happiness to a certain family,at the time they all thought I looked like a Larry so thats what they named me I was told my Grand Pa Jesse Cline named me . I was Borned in Wyoming Co. in the township of Hanover , a rural community in the south western hills of Wva .Forty miles from the nearest Town and just as far back in a hollar as you could walk on foot . It was in a log cabin farm house belonging to my Grand Pa where I first set foot on this land . I was told that the Doctor came on horse back crossing over three moutain ranges following a Horse and buggy trail th

How Is It
How is it when I look at you I see all the things I want and feel. But , when I turn away and go another direction I see only vainess. How is it when I look at you I see the perfect person I want to see. But, when I walk the other direction I do not see anything that's ment to be. My heart is aching and longing for you to the point that I see and feel you in my dreams. Sometimes, I want to scream and let the birds and the sky and the world hear my pain I feel for you. This is when the darkness comsumes my every thought my soul being, and takes me to that dark place that no one can bring out of. How is it when I look at you I only want to say how I feel . But, when I turn away and walk the other direction I can not bring you with me. Because, then that would only bring you into my darkness and one of use has to be brave. So. listen to your heart and feel the power of our love and soul as it becomes one and we pay no attention to right or wrong we just know that we belong.

How It Is
I feel low today. Just wanted to put that out there. I want to say that it was all a miss understanding. And why am I the one that get fucked? I get fucked alot. Not be everyone but by alot of So called friends. Not just peps I meet on here. I just want to be happy. Why is that? I can not be happy huh? I just got to be me. I got good friends I think. I feel bad about what I say and they make me feel bad about this now. Like look at what people say to me like I am talking about them and I am not. I am talking about how I feel. If you can understand that. I know someone will. I feel like I don't need to be here. in the world. I just want to go. I will be here into i can not do it any more. But that time I feel is coming. what do I do?

How I Got On Here
First off, being a new member to fubar and this being my very first blog entry, I wanted to start off by saying that I absolutely LOVE to write and always have, but this is honestly the first time I have ever written a blog on a profile before. I have other profiles such as MySpace, Tagged, Yahoo 360, MSN, and I think some other ones that I can't even remember it's been so long since I visited them! I just never took the time to write down anything interesting. But then when I start writing there's usually no stopping me and I tend to ramble on and on and start writing novels at that point oblivious of paragraphing, etc. So pardon me if I use this newfound space here as a bit of a catharsis because that is exactly what it is going to be for me. A way to heal and overcome a situation that has exploded in my face. I consider myself to be a very kind and understanding and loving person, but the kind of emotional pain that I have been subjected to the past few days has practically pus

How I Have Felt The Past Few Day
Hurt You've hurt me to many times You've put me through so much I'm tired of being hurt by you You've made me stay home day and night You've made me clean up after you I'm tired of being hurt by you You've cheated on me You've left me with no money, no car, no friends I'm tired of being hurt by you You've called me names I didn't like You've beated me till I was on the ground I'm tired of being hurt by you You've told me I couldn't see my family You've told me you hated me I'm tired of being hurt by you You've done so much to me in the past years I can't take this repeating pain anymore So I'm saying good-bye to you I'm tired of being hurt by you -------------------------------------------------- Silence, Emptiness, And Confusion Silence builds an awful wreckage of a girl It feeds on loneliness and creates a void Gray shadows haunt and torment and torture A teenager is stricken and destroyed There is no sound of laughter or happiness here

How I Feel
This happend back in April and yeah its a repost but im sick of tards pulling this shit all the fuckin time!!! GET A FUCKIN CLUE YOU FREAKIN COCKSNOTS!! So I wake up this morning thinking it was gonna be an ok day. A couple things went kinda retarded due to the fact of some messed up friends I have. well "had" then continue on my day to go outside and see that some little snot nosed preteen took a crayon to my car door. 20 minutes after cleaning that off and cursing all the way to my sisters house.. and wondering ..why does my mom want to see me so bad? I just seen her the day before.. so on my merry way well wishin it was merry. w/e.. I sit up on my sisters bed watchin my 9 month old neice blow bubbles of spit and thinking it was the funniest thing while cleaning out my purse and flickin pennies at my sister.. good times huh?? you would think so. Then my mother arrives and wants to see my down stairs.. I thought "well maybe she wants my parking spot cus its cl

How I Feel Right Now 2
**you always have to be happy. if you are sad or upset for some reason or another, there is something wrong with you. perfection has to be achieved or you are a bad person. if you are not perfect you are not loved, being loved and having someone to love, is what life is about..... but first you have to be perfect. the flawlessness you have to create to attain everyone's love. Hide behind the fake plastic smile and cheery image. Then you will measure up, and be loved. is there any one person who is perfect? how can happiness be achieved?

How I Feel....
Sometimes I feel like the FOOL. You know when you final think things are going ok for you, suddenly the door slams shut and everything you worked for goes out the door. Sometimes I feel like a CLOWN. I'm all painted up waiting for the laughter to begin and then the lights come on and instead of laughter everyone throws tomatos at me. Sometimes I feel CONFUSED. Because a new door has opened in my life and I'm not sure if I should walk through it or not. Sometimes I'm HAPPY. I feel safe in my surroundings, my friends protect me, and my children are all around me. Sometimes I wish I had somebody to wrap there arms around me and tell me that everything will be ok. Sometimes I wish my ex husband would fall into a hole deep enough that he can never crawl out of. But most of the time, I'm CONTENT with everything going on in my life. I have a roof over my head, my children have food and are warm. I do need someone but I'm keeping that too myself, I do know that I

How I Feel Right Now!
Since i've been on this site I have met some wonderful people. Some of us have kinda went our seperate ways, but i'm sure will catch up again. I always enjoy running across someone I haven't talked to in awhile and catching up. Others of you have come into my life and played games and because of my insecurities I allowed it and got caught up in it. Well the game playing is done! This is all about me now. I believe that today i'm 100% stronger and no longer need some of you idiots to show me this. Your ignorance so they say has been bliss and helped me to grow and become the woman I am today. This site is all about friendships and many I value. You all know who you are and I thank you all for helping me as well. Anyways just a fair warning to those of you that still think you can mess with me emotional ... won't happen, even in your dreams. As for the couples out there that have so nicely asked me to get to know them better....I have to honestly say as flatte

How I Remember
It’s not difficult for me to talk about. I’m not sure if its acceptance or if I’m still in shock. I feel as if I’m still numb from the experience and it’s all just a dream. It started out like any other day as a daily commuter on New Jersey Transit. I wait at the Main Line train stop in Glen Rock, New Jersey. I have my MP3 CD player and listening to my tunes, hoping for a burst of adrenaline to get me through my day, let alone start it. It’s a pleasant day. The sky was clear and was temperature comfortable. The company I worked for at the time recently moved to Jersey City from Secaucus, right across the Hudson from the World Trade Center. You could look out of the east windows and see the ferry stop right at the base of the 16 story building. It’s about 8:45 am when the train arrives to pick up the drones for the daily duties, we all board looking for seats away from anyone else. I take a seat facing the direction the train is going – sitting backwards always m

How It's Done
Having sex is something People take like a greeting It's physical, it's powerful It's a tremendous meeting Two bodies join together Without a mindful connection Deep thrusts and kissing Shallow touches of affection But making love is something different Something special, up and above Anything you're looking for The best is found in love Touch me with your body now Show me what's in your mind Make me feel anything you think Moving throughout our time Minds connect and feelings are shown That is how it's done When you find that special lover When two souls become one

How I Experienced 9-11-01
It was September 11th in 2001 around 2:45pm or so. I was sitting with my fellows in our audience hall, learning for an important exam when a friend rushed in, yelling "a plane just crashed into the WTC". We were stunned - how the hell could that happen ? We wouldn't believe him, so we dropped everything and ran for the next TV. Everyone did, in whole Germany - public life was at a halt and everybody was listening to radio or watched television. As we reached for the TV, we saw the second plane crashing into WTC2. "Ok, lads", my friend said, "you all know what this means". We couldnt speak, but everybody knew : Our brothers and sisters, our friends and buddies in the US are under attack. Our task was to help you all - so were we raised in Cold War and so were I taught in the German Army. I was in the Rapid Mobility Reserve Forces at that time and it was necessary, in a collective self-defensive case by NATO, that I had to get home and wait for the call to arms. We cancelled all

How I Got A Vip
Youve received a Mail from Fubar Shop... ***bought you a 1 month VIP membership! This means that you get to experience: - Increased photo storage space -- Upto 2500 photos! - A blue, pink, or bolded gray nickname that will be displayed all over 'fubar'! - The special ability to rate members and photos 11's! - Space for up to 50 family members! - 10,000 Points bonus! - Access to VIP-Only gifts! the_dark_o...: 11s ->Psychowolf...: a gift of sodomy, does the body good! the_dark_o...: now you have to rate all my shit 11a the_dark_o...: lmao ->Psychowolf...: holy fuck...l;mao!.... the_dark_o...: waits ->Psychowolf...: seriosuly....ill shove things in all their buttholes the_dark_o...: lmfao ->Psychowolf...: but me a VIP and ill sodomize a dozen ppl of your choice the_dark_o...: ~falls over~ its been a looonngggg week

How It All Really Began
There is no more lively sensation than that of pain; its impressions are certain and dependable, they never deceive as may those of the pleasure women perpetually feign and almost never experience.

How I Found Out I Liked Girls (aka Twincest)
Me and my twin sister Stephanie joined the cheerleading squad our freshman year of highschool. That also meant we had to be at school early a lot, so in order to save time we started taking showers together in the morning. It wasn't a big deal, nothing sexual, and we were closer than non twin sisters anyway. Eventually we started washing each others backs and if we were in a playful mood we slapped each others butts and giggled. I didn't realize it at the time but we were flirting. One morning before my mom left for work she stopped by the bathroom to let us know that school had been canceled for the day. We were so excited that we spanked each others butts, jumped up and down laughing and gave each other pecks on the lips. We had just gotten in the shower so we decided to finish. We could take our time but we still soaped each other up. When Steph finished with my back she spun me around and rubbed her soapy hands on my breasts. I gave her a peck, and another until they l

How I Feel, I Love You Baby!
If I could have just one wish, I would wish to wake up everyday to the sound of your breath on my neck, the warmth of your lips on my cheek, the touch of your fingers on my skin, and the feel of your heart beating with mine... Knowing that I could never find that feeling with anyone other than you. - Courtney Kuchta

How I'm Feeling Today...next Post Will Explain It
THREE DAYS GRACE LYRICS "Pain" Pain, without love Pain, I can't get enough Pain, I like it rough 'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all You're sick of feeling numb You're not the only one I'll take you by the hand And I'll show you a world that you can understand This life is filled with hurt When happiness doesn't work Trust me and take my hand When the lights go out you will understand Pain, without love Pain, I can't get enough Pain, I like it rough 'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all Pain, without love Pain, I can't get enough Pain, I like it rough 'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all Anger and agony Are better than misery Trust me I've got a plan When the lights go off you will understand Pain, without love Pain, I can't get enough Pain, I like it rough 'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all Pain, without love Pain, I can't get enough Pain, I like it rough 'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing

How I Love ….
How I love, talking to you, because you chase away my blue, you fell my heart with delight, and sweet dreams of you all night. How I love, thinking of you, of knowing a gentleman so sweet and true, it’s been so long since I heard polite words, it fells my ears as does the sound of birds. How I love the way you sweep me of my feet, and make my heart skip, skip, skip a beat, not for time shared together personally, but for the hopes that one day we could meet. LSR 28 September 2007 1810 hours To my sweet Sinan From Lori

How I Feel
how i feel is not totaly clear unconditional love like a brand does sear with forgiveness just as abundant as pain but self conflict i feel like im going insane doubt and mistrust continue breeding inside your true feelings i feel you continue to hide your pain of guilt i wish my love could erase im sure your pain grows deeper when you look at my face on the continued pursuit elsewhere of your intamate needs the fire of my pain continuosly feeds know that my love can conquer my pain like an unwelcome drought can be conquered by rain a fireocious battle, my love cannot win as long as your path leads you to this sin though my battered love has survived this long night your love in my corner will win this fight

How I Feel
HOW DO I FEEL ABOUT CERTAIN THINGS THAT LIFE THROWS AT YOU? I WENT HOME THIS PAST WEEKEND AND I THOUGHT MY BOYFRIEND WOULD BE HAPPY TO SEE ME. WE HAVE AN OPEN RELATIONSHIP WHERE WE SEE ONE OTHER PERSON THAT EACH ONE KNOWS ABOUT. I THOUGHT I WOULD SURPRISE HIM AND LET KNOW THAT I WAS HOME WHEN I GOT THERE. SINCE I HAVE BEEN GONE(ATTENDING COLLEGE AND ONLY BEEN GONE FOR 3 WEEKS) HIS WHOLE ATTITUDE HAS CHANGED. WELL WHEN HE FOUND OUT THAT I WAS HOME HE CALLED AND SAID THAT HE WOULD BE OVER. YEAH HE CAME OVER AND STAYED 30 MINUTES THEN OUT THE DOOR HE WAS GONE. AND HASN'T REALLY CALLED SINCE I BEEN BACK ON CAMPUS. HOW DO I FEEL ABOUT THAT? IT USED TO HURT BUT IT DOESN'T HURT ANYMORE. I HAVE TWO OTHER MEN OUT THERE THAT ARE TRYING TO STEP UP AND TAKE HIS PLACE.

How It Starts
And it starts with the peacock Feathers bright, strutting his stuff Flogger hanging from his belt Peacocks, the most ferocious beast. . . . . .of the petting zoo. So it goes to the bull Muscles rippling Horns sharpened, Flashing his knives amid his leathers. A little obvious if you ask me. Domesticated creatures don't do it for me. But it's hard to fear camouflage So my freedom is to go unnoticed The deadly spider. . . waits. It starts with your neck Tight in my hands A gasp as your breath is lost So it continues in your eyes The surprise, trepidation, fear. . . But you ain't felt nothing yet. The spider sits and waits Counting every insult Seething at being overlooked Revenge is the art of the spider. You're going down As I vary your torments Breath, pinch, slap, cut. . . Just a bit at first. I want you to realize your mistake. Nobody fears camouflage. But it starts. . . August

How I Am
Hush, just stop There’s nothing you can do or say, baby I’ve had enough I’m not your property as from today, baby You might think that I won't make it on my own But now I’m… Stronger than yesterday Now it’s nothing but my way My lonliness ain’t killing me no more I’m stronger That I ever thought that I could be, baby I used to go with the flow Didn’t really care ‘bout me You might think that I can’t take it, but you’re wrong ‘Cause now I’m… Stronger than yesterday Now it’s nothing but my way My lonliness ain’t killing me no more I’m stronger Oh, yeah Here I go, on my own I don’t need nobody, better off alone Here I go, on my own now I don’t need nobody, not anybody Here I go, alright, here I go Stronger than yesterday Now it’s nothing but my way My lonliness ain’t killing me no more I’m stronger

How Ironic...
So it's my only day off til next sunday and I'm sitting here doing ABSOLUTELY 100% NOTHING. It's incredible...and I've actually caught a lot of shit for it today...and I almost felt bad till I read my horoscope for the day.... This is what I have actually been doing all day!

How I Am Doing So Far
DOING PRETTY GOOD IN SCHOOL SO FAR. JUST SUBMITTED MY FIRST BIG POWER POINT PROJECT TODAY. I HAVE A BIG EXAM THIS WEEKEND, AND ANOTHER ONE NEXT WEEK. SO FAR I HAVE 100% IN 2 CLASSES, AN 88% IN ONE, AND 89% IN THE LAST ONE. BUT THAT IS ONLY AFTER 6 WEEKS OF CLASS. STILL A WHILE TO GO YET. I GOT TO ADMIT I HATE ACCOUNTING. IT IS NOT LOGICAL. HOW IN THE HELL CAN A CREDIT EVER BE A NEGATIVE, AND A DEBIT A POSITIVE. SO STUPID. THE CLASS THAT I THOUGHT WAS GOING TO BE MY FAVORITE "HISTORY" HAS THE WORSE POSSIBLE TEXT BOOK EVER. THE INFO IS PRETTY GOOD. BUT IT IS SO POORLY WRITTEN AND EDITED. I DON'T KNOW HOW IT EVER GOT PUBLISHED. THE WRITERS SHOULD BE ASHAMED, BUT THEN HOW MANY BOOKS ARE OUT THERE ABOUT "THE HISTORY OF FUNERAL SERVICES" ?? THE INSTRUCTOR HAS GOTTEN SO MANY COMPLAINTS ABOUT THE BOOK, SHE IS WRITING OUT WEEKLY NOTES FOR US. BUT SHE IS KOOL, AS ARE ALL MY INSTRUCTORS. I EVEN HAVE THE DEAN OF MORTUARY SCIENCE AS MY INSTRUCTOR IN ACCOUNTING. HATE THE SU

How Insane Does One Hafta Be To Do This???!!!
hmmm. let me think of what to say today....i don't really know. lol. i guess i just wish that a certain person would stop being such a bitch constantly . . . anyone out there know someone like that? you know, just someone who WILL NOT get over the fact that they dated your husband when your husband was 13 years old? yeah. and the fact that she purposely got knocked up by him b/c she thot that his parents would MAKE him marry her, so she could live in the (and i quote) "fairy tale house with the perfect family"? this person also constantly makes up lies about her kid, so she can have a "reason" to call her XXXXXXXXXXboyfriend; she also gives out our home phone number to all of her bill collectors, uses OUR last name (which was NEVER offered to her, btw), and basically just has no life whatsoever except to try to bother me and my love. oh well. at least i know the truth. he loves me; he never loved her, and the only reason he had sex with her that night that they ran away to the police

"how I Feel"
"How I Feel" "I know how this all must look Like a picture ripped from a story book I've got it easy I've got it made There's a golden road laid out before me And everyone how they adore me Like a diamond In the sun Did you just waste your breath Asking me how I feel today Or do you really want to know I'm completely unconnected Constantly rejected Like everything I've ever loved is coming down I'm drowning in emotion In the middle of the ocean Never knowing when it's over and I'm going down That's how I feel I know I signed up for this game Where everybody knows my name Now they own a little piece of me My happiness fell off the track And I'd do anything to get it back Give this all, I'd give this all away Did you just waste your breath Asking me how I feel today Is that a place you wanna go I'm completely unconnected Constantly rejected Like everything I've ever loved is coming down I'm drowning in emotion In the middle of the ocean Ne

How It Is
you wont be his first, his last or his only. He's loved before,he will love again, But if he loves you NOW,what else matters? He is not PERFECT, and neither are you. The two of you will never be PERFECT,but if he makes you laugh at least once, causes you to think twice, and admits to being HUMAN and making MISTAKES.... Hold on to him and give him all you got. He is not going to quote poetry, hes not going to be thinking about you every moment,but he will give you apart of him that he know's you can break. Don't hurt him,Don't change him, Don't expect too much from him. Smile when he makes you happy, Cry when he makes you sad and miss him when he's not there. ~annoyomous~ ~~*~~

How I Used To Feel
"Feelings of Lonelyness" Why is it everytime I think my life is going good, something always pushes me back and knocks me down? Am I one of those poeple who isn't suppose to make a good and honest living? Now I can see why people don't want me around and ignore everything I say. Maybe I just need to stick to what I know and which is staying to myself and being a loner once again. I've never really had any real friends and I don't know the meaning of going out and having a good time. I guess it's the fear of saying something and feeling completely stupid and looking like a total dilatant. I admit, I can't handle stress or depression to well. I even thought about suicide and still do but if I wasn't such a chicken shit, I'd be dead right now. Maybe everyone was right, maybe I am just a waist of gods good, clean air and space. And I will never make anything of myself or my life. The way things are going, it seems like it. Hell, I have no job, no transportation, no money, I have home bu

How I Have Been........
Hi all I am sorry that I haven't been around more.... been very busy this year with kid's schedules and all. I have finally gotten a little break, as this week is Fall Break....... after today they are out til next Monday. I have had to work on my car with hubby, when he was on vacation! That was loads of fun, NOT LOL! I will be getting on here as much as I can. My youngest son, Kyle is doing so well. He is now in a regular pre-k class, instead of a special ed class, so he is going half a day, so by the time I take him to school, get home, clean a little, I have to go pick him back up. I will find out today how well he is doing in class....... I have a Parent-Teacher Conference today at 2:10 for Kyle, then Andrew's is at 4:45....... I will let you know how they both are doing. I hope you all have been well, Take care, Hugs~ Jilly

How I Feel About You
How do I tell you how I feel about you When everytime i think of you my body shakes everytime i see you my knees grow weak and everytime i'm with you i dont want the time to end. When everytime i look into your eyes, i wish i was there everytime i see you smile my heart melts and every night before i go to sleep i pray we dont end. I've tried somehow to say: you're the sun that lights up my sky the wind that keeps me cool on a hot summer day and sweet incense that keeps me on a natural high I want so much to tell you: that without you with me each day my day isn't complete that since day one I've always wanted to be with you that no matter what's going on in my life you're the reason there's a smile on my face and that loving you seems to be all I need to know. But everytime I want to the words just wont come out to you it may sound mushy or too cute you may not believe it so it's better I keep my mouth closed Then to try to tell you exactly whats on

How I Got To Be Sitting Here
Ok,well recently I have a lot of night time on my hands.I've recently broke away from a brief but heavy on my heart relationship.We was together for about 9 months,, we acted great together when we had the time,,she was always quick to get a temper, I was anti confrontational .So I had enough,,I had to go,,I'm on my own now ,,she tries to make amends,,I just can't not ,especially how my moving came about. I was forced to live in a tent fer about a week,,one night of pourin rain a few nights were ok,, but I had all the amenities ,,bbq grill,,power and internet,,lol yea I know ,,in a tent,,it was mainly to secure my accounts before it could be jeopardized.I ended up waiting till friday,,payday. I secured a place on the water right smack dab in between lake Ontario and Irodiquoit bay. whatta score I thought,I don't kare if the walls fall out,,I'm here fer the duration,,( I've always dreamed of livin on water) loving it!Alone!

How I Feel
I love you with all my might that i have in my heart. My love is truly the most real thing that I have to to offer you besides my friendship. The way you make me feel is something that I have not felt in a long time. When you hold or even tough me you put chills down and up my back, you also put butterflys in my stomach that flutter around in side my body. All I want to do is stay in your arms because when I'm their i feel as safe as I have ever felt in my hole life of living. When I am around you I feel that I can do anything that I put my mind on doing. There's something about you that makes me be the woman thats inside my mind. When we are togather you make me laugh at things that I would not laugh at before I met you in this time of my life. I have had a bad life in the few years of my life time. I have been hurt alot in the passed few years of living. So what I am trying to you is that please don't hurt me anymore than I have been, because I care too much for you to hurt me. It wo

How I Feel About Becoming A Mom
Before I was a Mom..... I never tripped over toys or forgot words to a lullaby I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous I never thought about immunizations. Before I was a Mom..... I had never been puked on. Pooped on Chewed on Peed on I had complete control of my mind and my thoughts I slept all night. Before I was a Mom I never held down a screaming child so doctors could do tests.Or give shots. I never looked into teary eyes and cried. I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin. I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep. Before I was a Mom..... I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put him down I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn't stop the hurt. I never knew that something so small could affect my life so much I never knew that I could love someone so much. I never knew I would love being a Mom. Before I was a Mom ..... I didn't know the feeling of having my

How I Know!
How I know! To be honest I don’t know how I know But I promise to do my best to explain What’s so bad is I don’t even know if I can find the words To express my feelings wants and desire for you To explain how I know that “I love you” You take my breath away every time you touch me Even if it is ever so slightly Have you ever felt those butterflies in your tummy When you are on a roller coaster That is exciting and kind of scary at the same time I feel that every time you walk into a room To hear the phone ring, get an email or anything That comes from you Gives me a smile from ear to ear That doesn’t just go away as quick as it came But lasts for hours because I am still thinking About the fact of how happy it just made me The way it makes me want to cry When those three little words That means nothing apart but everything together Pass through your lips to me The fact that I feel I can accomplish anything with you To know that my whole day can fe

How Is E1?
Whats up e1? how you been? :P jus wanted to say i updated my porfile ya'll should go check it out n i got some new pics as well ill return da love ya'll know i do hehe...hope ya'll are havin a great nite ttyl..;) ~~Chula~~

How I Feel
I've been told I was distant,or too clingy,never just the right ammount,ive been told I run hot/cold ..ive never seen it..ive been told I love you,but never im so in love with you,and ive been the best I can be at times,and still feel like I should have more to offer..you really must not know how much joy you bring to my life,everyday,how many smiles you bring to my face every minute,and how you make my heart beat faster every second.

How I Feel Kelly Clarkson
Looks like I made a mess again Heartbreak everywhere I step This fire is getting hot again But I touch the flame 'cause I'm a curious cat Creeping where I don't belong Finding out what I knew all along Crying all alone And it's all my fault, all my fault Yeah, I did it again...again Oh, I'm getting tired of believing Even sicker of pretending That it's not so bad, just wait it out Oh, I think you're feeding me lies again The only good man left wasn't him And that's how I feel right now so just let me be Let me be It seems every time I find a good man He's got a good little wife I'm not jealous but I won't lie I don't want to hear about your wonderful life And babies everywhere I look Trophy wives with their little black books At this rate I'm gonna end up alone It's probably all my fault, all my fault Oh, another dead end:again Oh, I'm getting tired of believing Even sicker of pretending That it's not so bad, just wait it out Oh, I think you're

How I'm Feeling
This time, This place Misused, Mistakes Too long, Too late Who was I to make you wait Just one chance Just one breath Just in case there's just one left 'Cause you know, you know, you know I love you I loved you all along and I miss you Been far away for far too long I keep dreaming you'll be with me and you'll never go Stop breathing if I don't see you anymore On my knees, I'll ask Last chance for one last dance 'Cause with you, I'd withstand All of hell to hold your hand I'd give it all I'd give for us Give anything but I won't give up 'Cause you know, you know, you know That I love you I have loved you all along And I miss you Been far away for far too long I keep dreaming you'll be with me and you'll never go Stop breathing if I don't see you anymore So far away Been far away for far too long So far away Been far away for far too long But you know, you know, you know I wanted I wanted you to stay

How I Feel Right Now...
Backstreet Boys Videos | Nashville Real Estate | Denver Real Estate (dont mind the song i love it) i feel kinda funny but in a good way, im getting excited about moving and starting to like my friend more, but i want to take it slowly and really not mess it up, she's a really good friend and i hope we can meet someday and just hang out, that would be fun but its all when she and i are ready. shes really sweet and fun to talk to, and we have alot in common but like i said i want to take things slowly so thats how i feel.....zacky says hi and loves 2 everyone

How I Feel Sometimes!
LIMP BIZKIT LYRICS "Break Stuff" Its just one of those days When you don't wanna wake up Everything is fucked Everybody sux You don't really know why But you want justify Rippin' someone's head off No human contact And if you interact Your life is on contract Your best bet is to stay away motherfucker It's just one of those days!! [chorus] Its all about the he says she says bullshit I think you better quit Lettin' shit slip Or you'll be leavin with a fat lip Its all about the he says she says bullshit I think you better quit talkin that shit (Punk, so come and get it) Its just one of those days Feelin' like a freight train First one to complain Leaves with a blood stain Damn right I'm a maniac You better watch your back Cuz I'm fuckin' up your program And if your stuck up You just lucked up Next in line to get fucked up Your best bet is to stay away motherfucker Its just one of those days!! [chorus] I feel like shit My suggestion is to keep

How I'm Feeling, Fervant Prayer
it is my fervant prayer that life will enlighten me with wisdom and make me stronger and make the concept of goodbye and the concept of infinity disappear it is my fervant prayer that i forget the tears that have yet to occur and the shoulders that saved the world and the laughs that saved me is is my fervant prayer that i will find the innocence lost that the ones i love be shrouded in mercy that the lord spared from me and they are no longer broken it is my fervant prayer that i stop surviving and that i start living that i stop needing those i try not to need and i stop wishes i can't have for those i can't have nor keep

How I Feel
Not exactly sure where to start. I would start at the beginning, but I'm sure that nobody really wants to read through my entire life story. I have had several friends ask me over the last couple of days whats wrong with me. Why am I sad, or why am I crying and upset, and the truth of the matter is, I don't really know. I have some theories, but nothing solid to blame my mood on. Maybe it's just the weather, been very overcast and rainy the last couple of days... could be because everyone I see around me has someone they care about and love very much. And even though I know some people that I care very deeply for, love me for who I am, I don't have the physical closeness that I so desperately long for. There are so many guys that talk to me on here and all they are interested in is fuckin me or having me suck their cocks or some other form of temporary physical pleasure. And despite the fact that I am a very sexual person, it just wouldn't mean anything to me without some kind of f

How I Feel This Morning
GOOD MORNING ALL OF MY GREAT LOVING FRIENDS.. AND THERE IS MANY . I AM HAVING TO BLOG THIS BECAUSE AS USUAL MY SHOUT BOX ISNT WORKING.. I TRY VERY HARD TO ANSWER EVERYONE.. PLEASE DO NOT FEEL THAT I AM IGNORING YOU THAT WILL NEVER HAPPEN ..IF I DONT SHOUT BACK WITHIN SECONDS THAT MEANS MY SHOUT IS DOWN.. JUST THROW ME A PRIVATE MESSAGE EASIER FOR ME ANYWAYS ... THIS MORNING I ACTUALY FEEL MUCH BETTER EXCEPT I HAVE WOKE UP WITH A SEVER SINUS HEADACHE BUT I AM TAKING MEDICINE AND DRINKING MY COFFEE AS I TYPE... I LOVE YOU ALL PLEASE THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR CARRING ABOUT ME. IT MEANS A GREAT DEAL.. LOVE YOU. COME LUV ME

How I Was Felling ...early 2007
OK SO I THINK IM INLOVE WITH THE WRONG PERSON BUT I DONT KNOW HOW TO BRAKE OFF A RELATIONSHIP WITH SOMEONE....I FIND MY SELF INLOVE WITH A PERSON WHO LOVES ME,CALLS ME THERE ONE AND ONLY, YET I CANT CHILL AND BE WITH THEM 4 LIFE I WANNA BE BUT IDK HOW TO STOP FLIRTING AND ALL THAT BULL...I KNOW I CANT HAVE BOTH AND IM LEANING TO A PAST THAT I HOPE WELL KNOW IS STILL THERE BUT I MEAN WHAT DO I DO ABOUT WHO IM WITH...DO U JUST GIVE UP BECAUSE I CANT SEE MY SELF WITH THEM 4 LIFE,YES I AM YOUNG BUT I WANT A FAMILY/HUBBY/AND LIFE THAT IS 4 LIFE NOT 4 A FLING OR SHORT TIME... I THINK THE PAST KNOWS WHO THEY ARE AND U HAVE TOLD ME TO GO WITH WHAT MY HEART TELLS ME TO DO, BUT WHAT IF I MEANS HURTING A PERSON THAT HAD NUFFING TO DO WITH YOU OR ME...IF I SIT DOWN AND THINK OF WHAT I WANT IN MY LIFE I SEE THE PAST IN IT MORE THE I SEE THE PERSON I AM WITH...ITS NOT THAT I DONT LOVE THE PERSON I AM WITH IT JUST THAT IT WILL BE HARD FOR ME TO JUST GIVE UP ON MY WHOLE LIFE FOR JUST YOU I MEAN I HAVE

How I Died In Your Arms!
i never knew that love can save my soul i never tried to open up i've been avoiding getting close to you till now! i see you lying there looking into my eyes i take a deep breathe and i start to hold you you wisper in my ear you love me and want me forever i lost my never i should've never said i gota go walking away from you was the hardest thing i had ever done in my whole life well i got a as far as the drive way thinking i am an asshole, i run back to the front door race up the stairs shouting i'm comming up to you as i get to your bed room i get in the bed and i wisper i love you too she holds me and i died yeah i died in your arms the end

How I Feel
You know, I wonder if they'll laugh when I am dead Why am I fighting to live, if I'm just living to fight Why am I trying to see, when there ain't nothing in sight Why am I trying to give, when no one gives me a try Why am I dying to live, if I'm just living to die a look inside my mind

How It Can Feel
What it feels to realize you cant do what you did not so long ago because you bumped your head to hard. Sitting down on the bed, Might feel better if I were dead. Put that lump inside my brain, Now I slowly go insane. Look around the padded room, Thinking of my pending doom. Say a prayer for all I see, And wait for darkness to take over me. This injury has taken all I am, Is no there a cure or even a plan. Falling deeper inside my self made cell, Someone release me from this living hell.

How Ironic!!!
HOW IRONIC!!! Message: Samuel Cabble, an African-American Private in the Union Army, Promises His Wife That Slavery, the "Curse of This Land," Will Be Crushed In the beginning of the Civil War African Americans pleaded with and even petitioned the government for the opportunity to fight. But it was to no avail. Political and military leaders feared it would only stimulate recruitment efforts in the South, and many held the racist view that blacks were cowardly, lazy, and untrainable. But as Union casualties escalated and the military command recognized the need for increased manpower, small regiments of black troops were formed starting in the summer of 1862. After issuing the Emancipation Proclamation, President Lincoln launched an aggressive campaign to recruit black soldiers. On July 18, 1863, the Massachusetts Fifty-fourth, the first all-black regiment organized in the North, demonstrated extraordinary courage against impossible odds during an attack on Fort Wagner in Sout

How I Feel About Him
NO ONE by ALICIA KEYS I just want you close Where you can stay forever You can be sure That it will only get better You and me together Through the days and nights I don't worry 'cuz Everything's going to be alright People keep talking they can say what they like But all i know is everything's going to be alright No one, no one, no one Can get in the way of what I'm feeling No one, no one, no one Can get in the way of what I feel for you, you, you Can get in the way of what I feel for you When the rain is pouring down And my heart is hurting You will always be around This I know for certain You and me together Through the days and nights I don't worry 'cuz Everything's going to be alright People keep talking they can say what they like But all i know is everything's going to be alright No one, no one, no one Can get in the way of what I'm feeling No one, no one, no one Can get in the way of what I feel for you, you, you Can get in the way of

How I Feel About Him - Part 2
BUBBLY by COLBIE CAILLAT I've been awake for a while now you've got me feelin like a child now cause every time i see your bubbly face I get the tinglies in a silly place CHORUS It starts in my toes makes me crinkle my nose where ever it goes I always know that you make me smile please stay for a while now just take your time where ever you go The rain is fallin on my window pane but we are hidin in a safer place under the covers stayin safe and warm you give me feelins that i adore CHORUS It starts in my toes makes me crinkle my nose where ever it goes i always know that you make me smile please stay for a while now just take your time where ever you go What am i gonna say when you make me feel this way I just........mmmmmmmmmmm CHORUS It starts in my toes makes me crinkle my nose where ever it goes i always know that you make me smile please stay for a while now just take your time where ever you go I’ve been asleep for

How I Feel
Yeah Its my life In my own words!!!!!!!!!!!!! Have you ever loved someone so much, you'd give an arm for? Not the expression, no, literally give an arm for? When they know they'e your heart And you know you are their armor And you will destroy anyone who would try to harm her But what happens when karma, turns right around and bites you? And everything you stand for, turns on you despites you? What happens when you become the main source of her pain? "Daddy go to now to work..... "Daddy where's Mommy? I can't find Mommy where is she?" I don't know go play Jack&Emma babys, your Daddy's busy Daddy's writing a song, this song ain't gonna write itself I'll give you one underdog then you gotta swing by yourself Then turn right around on that song and tell her you love her And put hands on her mother, who's a spitting image of her That's The Bandit ya bandit need to be hard. And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn Rejoice every time you hear the sound of m

How I Feel
Will I ever find my true love? What if he's in front of me and I'm to blind to see it? What if he's to blind to see me? Questions that just go through my mind all the time. Only time will tell how my love life will go. Which direction it will take me. I believe there's a reason behind everything. I feel there might be a reason why that I'm still single and haven't moved on. I do believe at love at first sight. I also believe people who are friends can become lovers. Sometimes you have to open up your heart and let that person in. Forget everything in your past and focus on the present and the future. Life is to short to have someone drag you down the wrong path that broke you heart once. Its a fact they will do it again. You just have to move on and forget them. Put all the bad memories away, hell even the good ones away too. Life isn't suppose to be stressful and depressing. Its suppose to be the most wonderful thing in this world. Why make your life miserable and unhappy. Sometimes

How I Got My Name
How can I save you When I can't even save myself Oh, you want me A number of different ways Feel me, fuck me, hurt me, love me, Hate me, save me, kill me Feel me, fuck me, hurt me, love me, Hate me, save me, kill me Doppelganger I love you My pain is your pain Your pains are my pains Your chains are my chains, too.. How can I save you When I can't even save myself Now you want your Own sick requiem Cry, don't you? Oh, you want to.. Feel me, fuck me, hurt me, love me, Hate me, save me, kill me Feel me, fuck me, hurt me, love me, Hate me, save me, kill me Doppelganger I love you My pain is your pain Your pains are my pains Your chains are my chains, too.. Doppelganger I love you My pain is your pain Your pains are my pains Your chains are my chains, too.. How can I save you When I can't even save myself How can i save you When I can't even save myself Doppelganger I love you My pain is your pain Your pains are my pains Your chain

How I Hate My Job......
How I hate my job.......well not the job its self, but the retards that I have to put up with. I work in a union plant, I am a non-union worker that works there storeroom. We are here cause if they had their union running things nothing would get done. I use to love my job, but with recent events, its change the way I view this place. These people drove a wedge between me and my girl who works here as a guard, worse decision of her life was to take that job. They made it hard for us to see each other, cause we worked different shifts the only time we could see each other was at work. They went to there human resorce person, and whined that I was up there, so she in turn gave my boss hell and hers so we werent able to see each other but maybe for a couple of hours. Course they can go there and sit all day say preveted things to her and nothing gets said, which is wrong, she all the time conplaned to me about them but did nothing. these people seem to think that you should kiss there bac

How Important Are Looks To You
With a lot of failures in relationships and rejectons from dates it raises the question.. is it really a partners personality the atracts people or is it just all about the looks? I may not be much to look at but there's more to a persons looks like how much they can truly care for someone and how they show their love. Don't get me wrong... if by some miracle i had a beautiful, slim girl ask me on a date then i'd jump straight in there but i still look for inner qualities. So the question begs... what's is more important to you.. looks, or heart???

How I Feel Right Now.!
My wish for you is that you never look back but never forget the past. I hope the days go easy and each road leads you to where you want to go. My wish for you is this life becomes all you want it to be, your dreams become big and strong. I hope you always forgive and never regret. I want you to remember where ever you are and your wishes are coming true never forget where you came from and who you left. But most important my wish for you is that you life becomes all you want it to be, and someone in this world will love you for you and just you. May all your dreams become big. The biggest wish of them are you find your everything and you live happy living you dreams I know you have many of. Never take things for granted you never know when your life will becoming to an end, and it might be to late to go back and try and do the things you once had a chance to do.!!

How I Feel About My Life
Can You Feel? When you feel death,do you fall. When its all gone,do you scream. When the pains too much, do you cry. All these things I feel, but cannot let out. Why can't you feel, feel the pain I feel? HOME(damnKatrina) Just wanna go home, so tired of being alone, wish I could just go home,it hurts to be alone. Far from safe, gone from faith. Wish God would take this place. Wish I got just erase(the pain you feel) God watch us so long, now we feel to hell. Damn the land, send me back, to the hell where I once dwelled. Take away this shit we made. Break Her She gives her soul. To all of those who do not care. Sells her hands, to those who abuse and misuse. She screams in pain, but only inside. Always alone to her demons wish.Why cant she break free,save herself from hell. She's always there to drain her spirit dry, of all the tears she's cried for you. All the little things build a wall, to break her down, destroy her. Thrown to the side, who could have cared any l

How I Became A Bartender
Question: How on earth did a snot-dripping, rudderless, horny little bastard from a small town in suburban Texas secure a bartending position at the Blue Martini -- the Mona Lisa of all bartending gigs -- without so much as a drizzle of experience? Answer: It was the result of a botched gang rape... My first four months in Tampa were a kind of honeymoon. I had money saved and an apartment on the beach. But then I depleted my savings, the landlord jacked up the rent, and I was forced to move inland -- away from the Beach Blanket Bingo Borough and into the colorless corridors of Clairemontís Crystal Kitchen. I answered a roommate ad from a woman who lived on the corner of Clairemont Mesa and Diane Avenue. Her name was Holly, and she needed a roomy for her second-floor apartment in the utterly bland Riviera Arms complex. When we first met, she seemed sweet and harmless enough -- but, of course, Holly was violently insane. Our apartment overlooked a

How I Know If I Really Want Her
(Do not skim this blog- There is a huge question at the end) I have been blown away by a few girls in my day. Out of all of them though, I can say that with only 3 of them, I have seen real long term potential with. I am 28 years old... 3 girls. This includes my son's mom who I thought I would spend the rest of my life with. Now I think guys and girls are different about this to the point where I will blog about that later but... In order for me to want to settle down with a girl I require two things. Mental and physical stimulation. Mentally- I need a girl to be able to challenge me intellectually, and be somewhat entertaining or entertainable. There are more things needed but I am not going to rip into a huge blog about that again. Physically- I have dated some good looking women despite my ugly mug. I am not gonna settle down with someone who is not at this point. You may call that superficial, but as I have said before, those people can have fun fucking each

How I Am About Sex:
How are you about sex? (with pics)created with QuizFarm.com You scored as Passionate/wetYou are a passionate lover. You go with what feels good. Your passion might cause you get wet often even outside of sex but you channel your passion to where you can please your partner. You either have a lot of lust or you just love your partner truely. You can't keep you hands of them and they wouldn't have it any other way. Please rate and comment and tell me what quiz this is when you do! Passionate/wet 90%Exciting/Exotic 70%Hot/hard 60%Shy/Sweet 55%Awkward/New 35%Soft/slow 35%

How I Feel
I can't sleep, I'm always thinking I'm staring at the wall, my eyes aren't blinking I'm wondering where life will take me, when will it end I feel so alone even though I have my family and friends. I use to know who I was, but now it's like I don't know me I lost myself now, and I may never again be happy. I use to cry and get shy, when I thought people would stare I use to help people anyway I could, but now it's like I don't even care Time changes everyone,and yes I mean all I stand alone, if I don't make it will be because of me if I fall If I never trust anyone, then I'll never get hurt My feelings will never get stepped on or ran through the dirt. The closest one to person, will be the first to do them wrong fast They'll talk behind your back, they'll bring up your past. Sorry if it's the truth and I'm just trying to be real Hate me if you want but this is how I feel Copyright © 2007 Damon Taylor

How I Feel
on't know what's going on Don't know what went wrong Feels like a hundred years I Still can't believe you're gone So I'll stay up all night With these bloodshot eyes While these walls surround me with the story of our life I feel so much better Now that you're gone forever I tell myself that I don't miss you at all I'm not lying, denying that I feel so much better now That you're gone forever Now things are coming clear And I don't need you here And in this world around me I'm glad you disappeared So I'll stay out all night Get drunk and fuck and fight Until the morning comes I'll Forget about our life I feel so much better Now that you're gone forever I tell myself that I don't miss you at all I'm not lying, denying that I feel so much better now That you're gone forever First time you screamed at me I should have made you leave I should have known it could be so much better I hope you're missing me I hope I've made you see That I'm gone forever

How I Am Let Me Know How You Are
got my friends back till I die got my friend frieds back and I don't mind if I have to actt I am not afrade of deth I greet it like a brother life or deth to the lette you know who you are I would kill for you I die every time I see you cry my heart brakes I would do anything to see you smile hair you laugh makes me fly so high

How I Feel For You
How I Feel For You Sometimes I wonder how you really feel. You came to me so sudden, could this be real? When I saw you it was like love at first sight. You were innocent and carefree, how could this be right? The first time you looked at me the anxiety built up inside. I was overcome with so many thoughts and feelings in my mind. You were gentle on the eyes with a solemn smile. The love you possessed would be mine after a while. How could I know it would go this far? There was something about you that captured my heart. Before I met you I was filled with sadness. Hurt by someone else plagued by the never ending madness. But you made me happy once again. In you I found a lover and a friend Though we are young I don’t love you any less. So special to me I know that I am blessed. I love you more and more each day. I hope that you will never take your love away. I love you Harley.

How It Started
My father gave me a screen name on aol 8 years ago. At that time the had UK chat rooms and I went on looking for a boyfriend I had who was from London, well being an idiot I didn't realise just how big London really is and needless to say I didn't find him or anyone that knew of him but I stayed in the chatroom because the people in there were funnier than hell. One was Listeri69 or Simon from Manchester England , he didn't care what he said or who he said it too and that boldness made me laugh. It wouldn't be till six years later that we would get personal but with me if you can make me laugh and I mean really laugh then you become very sexy to me as I'm not the an Irishman, Scottishman , Welshman and an American man go into a bar humour that bores the hell out of me. I like improv type humour you have to be quick witted. God help you if words offend you because just like my husband if I find that out more than likely I'm going to keep up with it. Most women are offended by the C w

How I Feel
well im feeling really upset lately cause they have my brother in jail and there is nothing we can do to get him out and they want him to move away from us cause supposly we dont help him stay away from pills when none of us do them i have never tryed it and dont plan on it ever, but what i dont understand is hes in a program that alway says hes pissing dirty when he aint anyone with advice please let me know!

How It Is
the one i love her words like a dove the look in her eye's hearing her own lies i tried to tell her what to do but now it looks like we're through all i wanted was to say good bye but now it seems as if you want to die the only thing i could say wasn't enough to keep your demons at bay i offered my heart and soul just for you to control it's as if i didn't mean anything to you or just had something better to do but i still tried to show like the falling of the snow that no matter what, you always come down and you wonder why you frown my monotone words not even sence to the birds had more meaning that known if only i had shown that life isn't as great remember the stories of fate? our time for judgment is here you with a evil snear i have an ace up my sleeve too and no matter what you do i still have my soul not like you, so out of control

How It Should Feel
FEELINGS IN MY MIND As I sit here gazing out the window, Instead of working, I'm daydreaming of you... And wondering if while you're in your own world, You're thinking of me too. I reminisce about the day we'll meet and how you'll make me feel, Looking at the glowing smile on your face, Staring into your dreamy blue eyes, Your smell, your touch, your warm embrace What a special night that will b... And now, I'm starting to feel that warmth inside, Like nothing or no one else can make me feel... Butterflies, a constant smile, happy thoughts, Looking forward to the time we'll meet. What lies ahead, down the road to love? Can it possibly be what I've been hoping for? All my goals, dreams, passions, hopes... Glaring now before me with great anticipation. No one knows what tomorrow brings... One can only wish and believe... that my dreams will take care of me, And bring the right person into my life. Could it be you? Time will tell... I feel a special

How I Feel
I'm sitting here. I say i have friends, but yet i feel completely alone. I know i'm fairly successful, but yet i feel like a failure sometimes. I'm scared of where my life is going. I dont know why i bother. Why I try. I dont know anything for certain anymore. I feel like there's no meaning, no purpose. I feel.....empty. I know overall as a person I am lost. How can I find myself? I need direction. I need a light.

How I Am Feeling
One of the oddest progressions of life is probably when someone is growing up. All those memories of failures which you hope could be thrown into the garbage can like a piece of paper and all those memories of successes which you hope could be saved on a computer like a piece of hard disk turns into endless thoughts similar to that of a math problem which the equation contains the variable infinity. Why oh why is life so hard sometimes???

How I Know He Stopped Loving Me...
I Knew He Had Stopped Loving Me When His Conversation Changed. I Knew He Had Stopped Loving Me When He Stopped Saying My Special Name. When I Told Him I Was Ready To Be More Than Just A Friend. Instead I Got It Backwards And Now This Is The End. I Said I'd Wait A Lifetime For You To Want Me To. So Then I Sat In Misery Not Knowing What To Do. But Now I See In Front Of Me The Way That I Must Go. But I'll Always Have You In My Heart, And That He Surely Knows.

How I Feel Right Now!
I'm not the type to get my heart broken. I'm not the type to get upset and cry, cause I never leave my heart open, it never hurts for me to turn around and say goodbye. Relationships don't get deep to me. I never got the whole in love thing. Someone can say they love me truly, but everytime it didnt mean a thing. My mind is gone I'm spinning around,and deep inside my tears I'll drown, I'm loosing grip! Whats happening? I strayed to love, this is how i feel. This time it was different. Feel like i am just a victim, and it cut me like a knife when you walked out of my life. Now I am in this condition, and i have all the symptoms of a girl with a broken heart, but no matter what you will never see me cry. Did it happen when we first kissed? Cause it is hurting me to let it go. Maybe cause i wanted spend so much time and now i know its no more. I should have never let you hold me. I didnt give it to you on purpose, i cant figure out how you stole my heart. How did i get here with you?

How It Was And Now
Jamie Marie Osborne is my other half and I Love it. She always makes me laugh and smile everytime I look at her. Ever since we got back together the first time I must admit I wasnt the man I knew I could be to her and It killed us both. We argued and fighted constantly and it was pushing us apart!! Eventually it got to much for her and I lost her she went back to an ASSHOLE and tried to continue her life but she knew deep down I would do anything for her and I did! I Matthew Allen Osborne went through anger management and all asorted help just to change my dumbass ways and it worked because she realized it and also realized that her bf at the time was treating her the same if not worst then I ever did and thats why she left him and now I have her back and we are getting married and thats that........ Jamie Marrie Osborne you belong to me and I pitty the one who tries to take you from me or even flirt cause I'll Get to how i used to with those Punk asses and BEAT THE SHIT OUTTA THEM!!!!

How Im Spending My Valentines Day
Turn down your dimmers, this is not for beginners I know...I stole that line from my nigga, jigga In room 112 where all the players dwell Sip the cold brew tell me how you do it well Before you come out your panties lets discuss how smart You put the red slick scarf over the lamp, to play the part Red light tonight honey dont worry about your spouse I dont know a thing beauty, do me good like whinehouse I dont care about tomorrow as long as tonights the night You can call me baby face and we whipappeal thats right So, if youre gonna turn off the lights, lets make one thing understood If you want me money, baby girl you better stroke me good And I know this is never thee appropriate time But for just for one night could you say that youre mine As we slept the night away til the morning comes Last night I was your only one

How I Spend My Valentine's Day
I had planned to have a wonderful day and spend it with my baby. This did not happen however when I opened my latest emails. I read a simple email that told me I'm sorry and Goodbye. I did not understand why and tried to hit reply but got instead, an error message there. No reply or chance to see why, just the slamming of the door into my crying face. I've had alot of things happen lately too but I have told you this before. I am here for you and I hoped you were too. I need to speak with you and find out why you stopped loving me, how you can and not look back. Angry words were what I got in response to all my love. I do not understand just really why this is. Can you tell me what it was I did to make you shut me out? I hugged my teddy late into the night and tossed around and did not know why. Was my body trying to tell me of the pain I was soon to feel? I can not eat, or even sleep for fear of seeing your face. When I do I know i'll cry a thousand more tears for you. When will my ey

How I Hit Rock Bottom And Came Out On Top/episode 5
hey everyone this is cloie the director & illustrator for AUAD. (AGAINST,UNDERAGE,DRINKING) I would like to share with you about my story of how i hit rock bottom, and came back to the top stronger than ever. All because of this one special girl, Kristin Sortier. i never drank in high school, or in college, well mainly because i never got past the 5th grade; but thats beside the point. I always did the right thing that came to mind, but usually everything changes when it comes to peir pressure. I went to a party last year and met up with my friends, they began to drink and wanted me to join. i tried to say no but they forced me and I willingly accepted the offers. i was friends with brenda way before she cleaned her act and nearly lost her sister, so there for everything has changed over the past year. this how it started BRENDA: Hey Cloie!!! CLOIE: Hi Brenda BRENDA: Wanna drink some Jimbeam CLOIE: No way, I'm underage CLOIE: I'll just stic

How It Works....
Ok I decided to start this up in order to entertain all my lovely friends and family!!! I will post the question towards the beginning of the day... today it will be posted right after this... And you guys post comments with what you think the answer to the joke would be.... Then later on in the day I will post the answer and the names of who all got the answer right! Plus if you get the answer right I will buy you a gift!!! Let the jokes begin!!!

How I Try Not To Suck In Bed
I think women have no idea the pressures that befall a man when it comes to sexual performance. Lets face it, men are fairly easy to please. Surround the penis with a preferred orifice, choke it till it spits, and you are the winner. But, as I have said before... The pussy is like a snowflake. No two are ever alike. Every time a guy sleeps with a new girl, its like a rubix cube that is shaped differently and has different colors than the last one. Women all have different kind of orgasms, and alot of guys have such a hard time finding the clitoris, some have mistook a pinky toe for one. It's a lot of fucking pressure pleasing a woman. Mainly because us men are fully aware that you will gossip to your friends about how bad we were, and chances are, we might want to fuck one of your friends too. In an effort to save every man from this humiliation and to help them score with his girlfriend's friends... Here is what I do to avoid sucking in bed. Rhythm- I get a song

How It Feels To Be Engaged
Wow, it feels so good being engaged to my real life boyfriend. I love him with all of my heart and soul. He asked me to marry him last week on V-day. He told my best friend (who introduced me to him) that he knew that it was the right time to ask me. The only people who know is my best friend and his mom. We haven't told my parents yet, because we have decided to wait until I actually have an engagement ring on my finger. Temporary, Im wearing his High School ring right now until he has enough money to pay for it. And we have also decided to wait a couple of years for the wedding because we want to take all the time we need and save money. After all, it is much to deal with at one time. Bu tno matter, we will get through this together. More to come later.

How Is This For Perspective?
I hope you will all read to the end. Jay Leno puts it into perspective and makes us think about the pathetic negativity. That's right, Jay Leno !! Jay Leno wrote this; it's the Jay Leno we don't often see.... "The other day I was reading Newsweek magazine and came across some poll data I found rather hard to believe. It must be true, given the source, right? The Newsweek poll alleges that 67 percent of Americans are unhappy with the direction the country is headed, and 69 percent of the country is unhappy with the performance of the President. In essence, 2/3's of the citizenry just ain't happy and want a change. So being the knuckle dragger I am, I started thinking, ''What are we so unhappy about?'' Is it that we have electricity and running water 24 hours a day, 7 days a week? Is our unhappiness the result of having air conditioning in the summer and heating in the winter? Could it be that 95.4 percent of these unhappy folks have a job? Maybe it is the ability

How I Feel:(
All i do is cry myself to sleep at night while i think of how much I LOVE YOU.. Then i start to dream of how our life could have been so much more than it is now..Then thats when i wake up n reliz that with out u im lost...

How I Roll
please feel free to add your own!!!!!! The Rolodex of Love The following sexual acts and descriptions are part of a fad that has run through the internet, that of coming up with the most terms for whatever extreme things you could do in bed with your partner. Most of them were born with the 21st century but some are decades old. They are generally crude, rude, and nasty to women; if you find them that way, don't do them. Thank you. Angry Dragon Immediately after you blow your load in a girl's mouth, smack the back of her head and make it come out her nose. When she gets up she'll look like an angry dragon. Arabian Goggles A "seldom-seen" maneuver when you put your testicles over her eye sockets while getting head. (Picture it: ass on forehead) It may be anatomically impossible, but what the fuck else is new. The Bait N' Tackle The sailors used this one in the old Navy days. Before you go off for a long, lonely voyage, get yourself a tall jar and fill it completely w

How I Will Always Feel
No matter what you say about love I keep coming back for more Keep my hand in the fire sooner or later I'll get what i'm asking for No matter what you say about life I learn every time I bleed That truth is a stranger Soul is in danger, I gotta let my spirit be free To admit that I'm wrong And then change my mind Sorry but I have to move on And leave you behind [Chorus] I can't waste time so give it a moment I realize, nothing's broken No need to worry 'bout everything I've done Live every second like it was my last one Don't look back at a new direction I loved you once, needed protection You're still a part of everything I do You're on my heart just like a tattoo (Just like a tattoo, I'll always have you I'll always have you, I'll always have you) I'm sick of playing all of these games It's not about taking sides When I looked in the mirror, didn't deliver It hurt enough to think that I could Stop, admit that I'm wrong And then change my mind S

How Is Autism Diagnosed?
Your health professional will use diagnostic guidelines, established by the American Academy of Child and Adolescent Psychiatry (AACAP), to determine whether your child has core symptoms. 4 A child may also have hearing and other tests to make sure developmental delays aren't the result of another condition with similar symptoms. Early diagnosis and treatment of autism is important to make the most of the child's potential.

How Is It Treated?
Behavioral training, speech and occupational therapy, and parent education and support can often improve a child's problem behaviors, communication skills, and socialization. Medications are sometimes helpful as well. A child with autism responds best to a highly structured, specialized educational program tailored to his or her individual needs. However, specific treatment varies depending on the range of individual symptoms, which can combine in many different ways and change over time. Parents, school staff, and health professionals are usually all involved in planning a child's treatment.

How Im Feeling!!
Well thought i would come write in this blog for a lil while and express how im feeling about everything.. To start off with i would like to thank all my friends (when i say friends i mean true friends you all know who u are .. u are the ones thats been behind me pushing me bringing a smile to my face when i need it being my shoulder when i needed to cry ) i dont have to name u for u to know. So back to the blog .. i dont really know what to say here so ima blab a lil.. Well here lately ive distanced myself from those that truely care about me i know its wrong but i feel talking only makes things worse and i dont wanna burden anyone with my problems , i know i shouldnt do that but i do its me take it or leave it its how ive always been .. i dont open up to anyone and when i do its a big deal .. so i usually just keep everything bundled up until i cant take it anymore and i cant take it anymore i dont wanna be distant from anyone it hurts and i feel if i open up im just gonna end up ge

How I Feel
"All Around Me" My hands are searching for you My arms are outstretched towards you I feel you on my fingertips My tongue dances behind my lips for you This fire rising through my being Burning I'm not used to seeing you I'm alive, I'm alive I can feel you all around me Thickening the air I'm breathing Holding on to what I'm feeling Savoring this heart that's healing My hands float up above me And you whisper you love me And I begin to fade Into our secret place The music makes me sway The angels singing say we are alone with you I am alone and they are too with you I'm alive, I'm alive I can feel you all around me Thickening the air I'm breathing Holding on to what I'm feeling Savoring this heart that's healing And so I cry The light is white And I see you I'm alive, I'm alive, I'm alive I can feel you all around me Thickening the air I'm breathing Holding on to what I'm feeling Savoring this heart that's healing Take my hand I

How I Feel 3-9-08
THE AIRPORT IS WHERE WE FIRST KISSED I FELT SO MUCH MORE ALIVE THAN EVER NEVER TILL TODAY HAVE I FELT SUCH SADNESS WITHOUT YOU MY LIFE IS COMPLETELY OVER YOU WERE A DRUG AND MY ANTI-DEPRESSANT FOR NOW YOU'VE MADE YOUR DECISION THIS IS MY LAST WILL AND TESTAMENT MANY PILLS ISNT AS MESSY AS AN INCISION IVE NEVER LOVED ANYONE AS MUCH AS I DO YOU PROMISE ME YOU WILL REMEMBER ME WITH NO FROWN THE WORDS IM SAYING TO YOU ARE TRUE THE PILLS ARE KICKING IN NOW ITS TIME TO LAY DOWN!

How I Communicate
You Communicate With Your Body This isn't as bad as it sounds, it just means that you're a "touchy-feely" person. You need a lot of affection in your life. And for you, this means both giving and receiving little touches. Warm hearted, you bond with people easily. In fact, you often feel a little sad when you're not in the company of others. A little moody, you tend to be controlled by your emotions. But a bit hug always comforts you! How Do You Communicate?

How I Love Your Company....
these feeling within my heart are new and make me want you more, to hold you in my arms, to kiss and adore. the addiction of our new memories... will burn brighter then the sun in the summer sky. your eyes and smile, the thought of your skin softly touching mine is like a breath of the purist air that blows across my cheek in the spring. the rolling thunder that is my heart within my ears as you seem so near to me. i cant help but adore you. wanting you by my side. as i have you in my grasp, my mind is filled with dread.. to see you slip away... how am i to deal with this when your no longer there? i will close my eyes and keep you with me in my dreams where we will never be apart, til you come back to me... you will stay within my heart. ((my work in progress))

How I Miss You By Texas Rose
My Darling, How I miss your touch I miss your whisper of "I love you so much" Your love is so sweet, so gentle, so tender So wonderful - just like the sender My love for you is so true and so deep I pray that my love you will forever keep I love you more each and every day I love you, Baby - in every way I love it when you Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr! ! ! ! ! OMG - that makes me Purrrrrrrrrrr! ! ! ! LYL - is where I want to be Me pleasing you and you pleasing me I want to be touching you - skin to skin Baby - I am ready for our life to begin I am counting the days until then You will long for love - never again I will love you like crazy for the rest of your life You will have the best friend, lover and wife I want to be your everything I want to be what makes your heart sing I love you, Darling - please never doubt I love you so much - I want to Shout Until we are together again - hold me in your heart I am holding you in mine - as I have from the start

How I Truley Feel
WHO WILL CRY? If tonight I die, Who will cry? Strangers with their feigned interest, While those I love have turned away. And if my best isn't good enough, What more can I give? Go ahead--walk away. Just leave me here alone. And if tonight I die, Who will cry? All my strength is drained, With nothing left to give. Drowning in the depths of sorrow, No tears left to cry. A silent voice and distant eyes That no one hears or sees. And if tonight I die, Who will cry?

How I Got The Name "bubblewrap"
Ok, everyone is asking why the name “Bubblewrap”… :P Back in 2006 I took a little joy ride around the Western United States and stopped in Odessa, Texas before heading straight to Jackson, Mississippi. The ride was just less than 800 miles from Odessa to Jackson and it took me about maybe 10 to 12 hours to do it. Now when I got to Jackson MS I went straight to the Harley Shop and saw the Owner and let him know I had did my first Harley Road Trip and made it back on my own. He says “great, we leave at 8am for Odessa Texas at 8am tomorrow” for the Air Show. I told him I had just got in from there and my but was still sore. He said that I could go or stay home it was up to me. Well as we pulled into Fort Worth Texas my butt was really sore and I went into the store and ask the young lady there if they happen to have any “bubblewrap” and she said yes they had just got a fragile shipment in and handed me a bunch of it. I took it to my Harley and attached it to my seat to

How I Feel About Pam
I keep wondering how I met you What luck and timing had to come into it all Its all I wanted and more Hope to give you what you need Desire for enough to give you what you want You have my heart Soulmates we are, forever will be

How I Got This Way
Well hello there everyone. My name is Cloie Street. You all know me as the creater of the AUAD series. Many people have stopped me on the street and asked where do I come up with these strange and bizzar ideas. Well it's simple if you really want to know the truth. It all has to do with my childhood experiences. Most of it all reflects on my parents. Some say I get my personality from all three of my daddy's the milk man, mail man and the paperboy. i remember how we used to play football in the back yard. How proud I would make him...there goes my boy...the son I always wanted instead. He was so silly. Heres my father holding me as an infant...we look so happy together. see how happy he was to have a little girl that looks just like him...i was his pride and joy. ( pic of daughter like father) then theres my mother. how beautiful she was and always caring (pic of my momma) always brilliant with her creative thinking. i remem

How I Feel Today
What Good Is Love I waited for your love in hope, That ours would come again, And make me feel the things I felt, When we were one, back then. But time and distance have erased, The things I wished anew, And now I find myself alone, Though I am here with you. What good is love, that does not touch, What good is love, that gives you pain. What good is love, that makes you run, And makes you lost out in the rain. I traveled to another world, Out far beyond the one we knew, I thought that I could live again, And now I find I'm back with you. But what of hearts that beat as one, And what of passion and embrace, Is it too much to ask of you, To make these tears of mine erase. What good is love, that does not touch, What good is love, that gives you pain. What good is love, that makes you run, And makes you lost out in the rain. Too painful this - to journey back, To times of love and laughter free, The times we lay together with A sense of you , a sen

How It Is Said
"It is not just the words that are said, but how they are said and why." There is several reasons I say this tonight, and I have felt it for many years now as well. I talk for hours on end with a very special woman that I have fallen madly and deeply in love with. There is a very strong and loving bond with us. We share our inner most feelings and fears as we have never shared with anyone before. Sometimes it is hard to find the right words to explain your feelings, sometimes it is not. But when you are trying to tell the one you love how much you love them... It is not just the words you say to them, but how you say them and why you say them the way you do. The love of my life, Rhonda, was sent a link to a blog posting tonight. It was about "Being Treated Well". And she then sent the link to me and asked me to read it, because when she did read it herself, she thought of me. The words he put down are very inspiring, and made me think all over again how much I love my Rho

How I Feel?
November 23, 1998. The day my world crashed. The day my life changed. The day I lost a part of me that I would never get back. The day I lost my dad. Im not sure why but for some reason...you never think it will happen to you. But, it did to me. I was only 8 years old, and it was EXACTLY 1 week before my 9th birthday. Being 8, I didnt really comprehend what had happened. All I remember is my mom coming home from the hospital, taking me and my sister in her arms, and telling us that [he’s] gone. Of course I cried because I was sad. Now that I’m 18, Im fully realizing the situation. My dad was my best friend. The only reason I know that is because of all the pictures I have with him. It was always ME and HIM. I was a daddy’s girl. I want to know what it would be like if he were still here. I hate that he’s gone. I hate that I cant remember what he looks like. I hate that I can’t remember the way he smells. I hate that he’s gone. No person should lose someone they love. It is the worst

How I Feel.
My dad raised me to only depend on myself and no one else. Well the guy im dating he pretty much doesnt depend on anyone either. Im trying to change the way I feel and accept that hes in my life and cares for me. Well Im trying to help him and he does appreciate what I do for him but he doesnt really want to accept my help. I feel like hes shutting me out because of it. He doesnt ask me to do these things for him but I want to. I just seem helpless. He is in a state he doesnt know let alone town. I am the only person he knows here except for my family. Im just so happy hes here. Im emotionally attached to him. I just wish things were different right now. I just dont know what to do. I have given him all of me. Everything I have to offer...

How I'm Feeling
I have always relied on myself and for a long time I thought that's the only person I can rely on. I was wrong, relying on only myself only makes me lonely. I had a woman who would have given me everything of herself and I was too stupid to appreciate it and realize how special and wonderful that is. Well I've been on the other side and I know how it feels to give your all and not have it appreciated. If given the opportunity, I would give all of myself and with a grin from ear to ear and honestly a couple of tears falling from my eyes I'd accept her all. I don't want to sound opportunistic or be a jerk but to have someone love me so much as to give their all to me, that'd be a treasure that would be priceless to me.

How I Feel....
I've always wondered why you feel lonely even when your not alone.I mean i have family around.Is it your mind playing tricks on you. So much has changed in mylife in the past several months. Everything for the better, but yesterday i hit rock bottom and feeling a bit lonely and lost. So now i'm having to pull myself back up on my feet, which i have done before. I don't think very many people know me and how much of a strong person and determined person i am. I don't know the words "give up", they are not in my vocabulary. I have no idea why i'm writing this, but to get this off my mind. I'm starting my life fresh,a new start. I can be myself and enjoy life. I know life is a bumpy road.Also I am very much in love with a wonderful man, who means everything to me and who i would never hurt. I never thought a man like him would fall for me. He means so much to me that i don't have enough time or space to type, how i feel about him. But i can say that i'm very lucky to have him in mylife an

How I See It
OK LIKE CHECK THIS OUT. . . I HAVE BEEN AROUND THE BLOCK A FEW TIMES, AND I KNOW ALOT, BUT STILL WILLING TO LEARN. THE WAY I SEE IT IS LIKE THIS, PEOPLE GO AND DO THINGS IN CYCLES, RANGING FROM THE TOTALLY ABSURD TO THE MUNDANE. FOR EXAMPLE THE MOST RECENT POLITICAL DEBAUCLE OF SPITER, WITH A HIGH CLASS PROSTITUTE, NOW TURNED INTERNET STAR. I AM TOTALLY SO FREAKING TIRED OF OUR ELECTED OFFICIALS, GETTING CAUGHT EITHER IN SOME KIND OF SCANDAL, OR WITH THE WILLIES CAUGHT IN SOMETHING, OR SOMEONE ELSE. I PRAY AND HOPE THAT WE CAN ELECT SOMEONE WHO WON'T THINK WITH HIS, OR HER GENITALS, AND THINK WITH THERE HEADS ON THEIR SHOULDERS, AND NOT IN THEIR PANTS. AS A SIMPLE PERSON, WHO JUST SEE WHAT THE WORLD IS FROM READING BOOKS, AND WATCHING THE NEWS, MAYBE I HAVE BECOME A BIT JADED OVER THE YEARS, BUT THAT'S . . . . . HOW I SEE IT

How I Feel Don't Like It Don't Read It!!
Things go wrong and aray but still you hold onto the day but why hold onto something that is meaningless and not worth remembering. Why try in life where you know you will not succeed. Why build hopes and dreams for them to be knocked down like building blocks in a heap at your feet. Why do people love you is it because of the person you are or the things you do. I have found it is because of the things you do not because of the person you are. Lets think how often do people really know other people they don't they really never truely take the time to understand and individual for who they are. They take them for whats on the outside or for what they can do for them the shell of the person they appear to be. I don't want anybody to try and get to know me they might get lost in the vast darkness that is me. I have tried all my life not to be swayed to do things that are for evil or bad but now that I think about it Fuck it it takes less effort to hurt people than to help them.

How I Love Thee..
You chip up branches, and limbs...I've even seen you destroy credit cards in that one cheezy commerical but one thing is certain is that I'm in love with you woodchipper. You make my life complete. Without you I could never dispose properly the frozen bodies that are in my basement. Now if only I could get that fat bitch frozen so we could toss her in. I hate stalkers...

How I Feel.
This is how i feel and if u dont like it then TOUGH bc i could give to shits and a fuck less!!! I don't give a FUCK what people think of me. and i dont care what people say about me behind my back either. i hate it when people talk about me behind my back to my so called best friend and then they tell other people what that person said and then like 10 def. people come up to me and tell me. thats really irritating, and i hate it. another thing that i hate is when people judge poeple before they kno them. yea i kno that ure sayin that i do that. be see the thing is that i USED to. so what if a person has like 20 dif. piercings on their face. its their choice and that dosent make them a bad person or a person that worships satan or anything like that. its their style and thats how they like to dress. DEAL WITH IT! It doesnt matter what kind of music you listen to. just be u listen to heavy metal or screamo shit doest mean that you are a bad person. it just shows that u li

How I Felt A Month Ago
i walk through each day lost i am not here nor do i belong like the mighty ocean i am pulled in and thrown back time and time again some days i am a treasure newly discovered a joy to own on others you walk buy just seeing trash i am lost to myself for i feel me shutting down trying hard to hold on but the rocks are slippery and i am weary i am lost for i cannot pick up my head and watch you walk by not noticing a treasure just seeing trash instead

How Innocent Conversations Go Wrong..
->exnavy_1974: well i cant help you with that exnavy_1974: good! Just work up too....too horny lol ->exnavy_1974: how are you doing? ->exnavy_1974: Doing good, just woke up a little bit ago exnavy_1974: how are you this morning? ->exnavy_1974: hello exnavy_1974: hi there Just a classic example of why I now block people right from the jump. You come at me like this at fucking 7:30am your ass is going to get blocked. Hell, it really doesn't matter what time it is, just seems more rude to start this shit with someone when they just wake up. What the fuck is wrong with some people? Can't these motherfuckers get a girlfriend? Are they that desperate to get off that they gotta hit up some girl on the internet?? I think it's time to update my profile as this sort of crap is happening quite frequently. Sorry folks I have to vent as this pisses me off. I hate men like this and wish they would all be put on some island far far away from a computer. *wugh*

How I Felt
On Dec.18th i lost a very special person in my life my mother she ment the world to me and more she was the only parent i had left & on Dec.18th at 2am we got a phone call i had answered it they had told me my mom had turned for the worse and by the time we got to her she was already gone & i will never get to say goodbye or hear her laugh or hear her yell or anything i really miss her and mothers day is comeing up and the thought of not haveing her hear hurts but i know shes in heaven with my dad and 1 of my brotehrs and uncles and aunts grandparents and she is and always will be my hero and i really miss her and life aint the same without her hear with us...I LOVE & MISS U MOM MAY U REST IN PEACE!!!!!!!

How I Feel On A Daily Basis
I'm tired of being what you want me to be Feeling so faithless lost under the surface Don't know what you're expecting of me Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes (Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow) Every step that I take is another mistake to you (Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow) [Chorus] I've become so numb I can't feel you there Become so tired so much more aware I'm becoming this all I want to do Is be more like me and be less like you Can't you see that you're smothering me Holding too tightly afraid to lose control Cause everything that you thought I would be Has fallen apart right in front of you (Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow) Every step that I take is another mistake to you (Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow) And every second I waste is more than I can take [Chorus] I've become so numb I can't feel you there Become so tired so much more aware I'm becoming this all I

~~~how I Feel For You ~~~~
Sometimes I wonder how you really feel . You came to me so , Could this be real? When I saw you it was like love at first sight . You were innocent and carefree, how could this be right? The first time you touched me the anxiet built up inside. I was overcome with so many thoughts in my mind . You were gentle on the eyes with a salemen smile. Ithe love you passessed would be mine after while. How could I know it would go this far? There was somthing about you that captured my heart. Before I met you I was filled with sadness. Hurt by someone else plagued by never ending madness. But you made me happy once again . In you I found a lover and a friend . Tho we are Young I don't love you any less. So special to me , I know that I'm blessed. I love you more and more each day . I hope that you will never take your love away. Done by Christine

How I Felt Today
the heart dies, the heart dies, when you leave, when you stay, when you are happy, when you are sad, when you are drunk, when you are not, when you run fast, when you walk slow, the heart dies, when your asleep, when you are awake, when your are here, when you are not, the heart dies, when you do not love me, when you dont talk to me, thats why my hert will never die. bedrock

How I Am.
I am not normal. It actually feels good to type that...like a weight has been lifted off of my shoulders. I've typed it before, but without the same meaning...or the same intensity...and now I come to you with contradictions painted all over me and I declare to the world that... I AM PROFOUNDLY NOT NORMAL. Precisely three years ago, I had an experience that I think really did some massive damage to me. I've written about it before and, if you're so inclined, you can find it somewhere in this blog, but really, although it seemed like a good thing for a while, I'm starting to think that perhaps it's done me more harm than good. I think that maybe I've been irreparably damaged in some fundamental way and that, because of that, I may never be any good to anyone. It's as if a fissure was created in my mind...a chasm where on one side is my desire to love and to be loved and on the other side is my utter disbelief that this kind of love exists...at least not for me. My life

How I Feel Bout Most Niggaz!!!
u niggaz aint shyt, u think imma let u hit, well u betta forget it. lets b real doe, wats da deal? tell me how u feel. fareal doe, imma let u kno wat i think, u stink, deep down inside yo favorite color is pink, so imma smear u lyke ink. all u rap bout is money, ho's, cars and clothes, when u take pictures u pose, u havent looked in da mirror lately, cuz i dont think u can see, u fuckin UGLY! no matta wat u do, u will NEVA b my boo!!! u think u can rap, but yo rap game is wack, so step da fuck back.

How I Feel
The pain. The depression. It's all gone away. Involuntary tears streaming down my face. Its all torn apart. Nothing left. All faded away. I ask you one more time. Where is my life direction. The path. My journey. The light above and beyond. Flowing down the tunneled drain. Twisting and turning. Far away. Slipping and sliding. Into the distant darkness. I scream. I reach. I strive. Distant fears and screams. Agonizing. Terrorizing. Tagonizing. Flaming brutal torture alone. Why I ask you. Why I scream. Throat burning. Am I treated like I am. Abusiveness. The long struggle... Fighting to stay alive. Hurt and depression...heartbreak and failure. Broken and bleeding. Torn and pleading. Down on my knees. I'm locked deep down inside. Fading into eternal darkness. Unable to breathe. Covered..and coated...and showered. In the realms of HELL i DO reside.

How I Feel
I know as we are together with friends I feel as if you want me To tell you the truth I want you too but in my mind its just a dream You wanting me would be unreal To see you on other guys All I can do it hold my rage Till one day i will let you know how i feel When the day comes to tell you that All I'll do is want you

How It Really Is
"How It Really Is" why you always think its what it is without even knowing what it really is cause it aint what it is unless i said that it is what it is and thats how it is im steppin upto the line like im a target sick and tired of mothafuckas actin retarded sayin you knew me back but tell me who is that i dont know you and i dont owe you a damn thing im gettin hotter with every line the papers are printing and hell im barely gettin started its crazy people gettin all grimey and shit acting like we homies when all you did was try to play me for a fool kid, my eyes open they been for awhile im steppin up and to a mountain you could never climb imma raise to the top look down and smile why you always think its what it is without even knowing what it really is cause, it aint what it is unless i said that it is what it is and thats how it really is yeah haters gotta doubt me true homies from way back never doubt me the ones i hold close know what im a

How I Feel About Us Now (this Country)
Prayer of The Refugee - Rise Against Warm yourself by the fire, son, And the morning will come soon. I’ll tell you stories of a better time, In a place that we once knew. Before we packed our bags And left all this behind us in the dust, We had a place that we could call home, And a life no one could touch. Don’t hold me up now, I can stand my own ground, I don’t need your help now, You won't let me down, down, down! Don’t hold me up now, I can stand my own ground, I don’t need your help now, You will let me down, down, down! Down! We are the angry and the desperate, The hungry, and the cold, We are the ones who kept quiet, And always did what we were told. But we’ve been sweating while you slept so calm, In the safety of your home. We’ve been pulling out the nails that hold up Everything you’ve known. Don’t hold me up now, I can stand my own ground, I don’t need your help now, You will let me down, down, down! Don’t hold me up now, I ca

How I Feel About You....
Well I found this song, was one of my favorites a while back!!!! It actually defined probably one of the best friends I ever had and our relationship!!!! I miss him greatly, though I've come to realize that this encompasses my feelings for all of my friends and the one thing that's the hardest is when they have to go, cause they'll always remain in my heart even if I don't in their's!!!! So to all of you, my friends no matter what you'll always be in my heart, even if it's shattered when you leave!!!! So thank you for being there when you were if you've left me, if you haven't know that I'm always here, well really I'm always here for any one of my friends!!!! If you've left for some reason, please read this and know it comes from my heart!!!! I won't be here soon and for some of you maybe that'll work for you for others I am sorry, i need some time with some things and being reminded of how much my heart hurts isn't helping!!!! Just please read this and know this is how i

How I Feel
Remember the day,we first share our first.”Hello” I was setting amidst a little end watching the rain hit against the window.It started out so innocent the the little play on words.Remember tha fisrt time you said I love you,,those three little words melted my heart coming from you.You remember the first time you called me on the phone.I was setting in my brand new apartment,on the floor pillow Tucked under my chin.Thinking about the man on the other end.Remember our first encounter that drove us to ecstasy.I was so nervous,my tummy crawling inside.Remember, when you first heard my voice.The chill it sent up your spine.I remembber that first little gift that you gave to me,a keg to be exact.Remember the first time I read what was going on in your mind,and I said”Wow!”And I smile when I hear”Yummy!”nYou can put all the first together,for they are priceless to me,but when you took upon yourself,to ask me that one special question.Words I never thought I would hear,That was the ultima

How I Came To Fubar
Very recently I lost one of my best friends to AIDS. She was also my oldest sister, Lizzie. While with her in her last days she gave my cousin and I one last beautiful gift...Serenpece. Serene happened to be my sister's best friend and now to me she is a new sister. She can never be anything less. So, when I prepared to return to Ohio she emailed me an invite here, and I gladly accept. So, although I miss Lizzie more than I can say, I am so honored for her gift of Serene. Just like my sister to know I'd always need an oldest sister to try and keep me from really trying to set those who annoy me on fire with my mind. Hasn't worked yet but I don't give up easily. always, Sandy

How I Spent My Summer Vacation, Lol
So, here it is, my last day of my vacation. Its nice and balmy outside. Lawn needs mowed and pup is yappin in the yard. Think I will weed the flower beds, finish my laundry from the campin trip and maybe even take a nap!!! Didn't sleep much last nite, too much on my mind. Not lookin forward to goin back to work, but gotta bring home the bacon cuz ain't no one else gonna do it. Thinkin about the letter I gotta write someone too. Toxic relationship and now we are friends but I need to lay down the law and let him know what he did to me. Anyway, life goes on and then you die!!

How I See You
I see You in ways that I'm not sure anyone else does. That alone fascinates and frightens you at the same time. You don't like others to see You for what you are. You wear a mask, but not the kind that most people wear that make them appear sane to the rest of the world. You wear one that accentuates your flaws. You use it to keep most people at bay and those who cannot look beyond that are the ones you don't feel deserve your friendship. Hell, even some that do you don't deem worthy, either because of their past actions, or simply because of simple personality differences. However, it also doesn't mean you won't rule out a friendship just because of these things either. You imnundate yourself with negative imagery about the world around you. You appear to others and hard and crass because of this, but it is just your coping technique. It's another way to distance yourself from people, and make yourself immune to the pain it could cause you. You are actually really sensiti

How I Feel
This is how i feel and if u dont like it then TOUGH bc i could give to shits and a fuck less!!! I don't give a FUCK what people think of me. and i dont care what people say about me behind my back either. i hate it when people talk about me behind my back to my so called best friend and then they tell other people what that person said and then like 10 def. people come up to me and tell me. thats really irritating, and i hate it. another thing that i hate is when people judge poeple before they kno them. yea i kno that ure sayin that i do that. be see the thing is that i USED to. so what if a person has like 20 dif. piercings on their face. its their choice and that dosent make them a bad person or a person that worships satan or anything like that. its their style and thats how they like to dress. DEAL WITH IT! It doesnt matter what kind of music you listen to. just be u listen to heavy metal or screamo shit doest mean that you are a bad person. it just shows that u li

How I Hate Mid August
It is fast approaching, August 14th. My lil girl would be 14 this year.How interesting my life would be with two teen girls. However, that was not meant to be. Mihkala Koren Walsh was born August 14th 1994 and died Sept 2nd 1994. I only had 19 days to get to know this sweet lil girl and it wasn't long enough. My lil girl had so many problems. Her heart was on the wrong side flipped backwards, all her organs were backwards, she had no spleen, her lungs were deformed...she was just messed up inside. But outside she was beautiful. My mom told the doctors that if she had dyslexia we now know why. I had to order a DNR on my lil girl and I was only 22 at the time. At that age no one should have to do that. I was able to hold her hand as she took her last breath, as her heart beat for the last time. I was there as my daughter slipped from my life. The only time I got to hold her was after she was gone. I didn't care though. To me the hardest loss in life is that of a child. This pa

How I Feel For U...
Have you ever met someone you feel like you have known forever? You miss them and have never met in person? You long for them and their touch? You feel like it's gods will and fate working for you? You know this is the beginning of the rest of your life? Your so happy you can not stop smiling...you laugh at the the things you know you will say...the butterflies in your stomach....the lump in your throat...biting your bottom lip at the site of them, your lips longing for the first kiss...Love is the greatest gift..holdon...go along for the ride...be kind, caring, loving, supportive and not selfish...love like its your last day...as you look forward to forever and always with them...

How I Like My Kisses ~very Cool~
Good Kiss Survey 1. Short Kiss or Long Kiss Long Kiss 2. First kiss or goodbye kiss Both 3. Eyes open or closed while kissing Closed 4. Biting Yes 5. In public Yes 6. Breathe with your nose or mouth Nose 7. With or without tounge With 8. Is wetter, better No 9. Where Do your hands go On their back 10. The best non-lip kiss Eskimo Kiss Fun quizzes, surveys & blog quizzes by

How Im Felling
will always be just a lay because I don't know what u want in life I make guesses,e when it comes to life is that what u want ? IM just the lay !That is want life is ! If It is just a lay then its the game of life Do u really want to be played? Ore is it just love what you are looking for If its the game of who fucks who ! Why does it hurt so much why when I have some one in my life you all seem to care about my feelings? When IM not with anyone no one care about my feelings Why does everyone show up at the same time ! What is it IM that dam good all u people want some of what everyone wants that is me? IM not just the lay I get in five mints it take a lot more ! As you all know in not the minute man its take a long time u all get off Meany time when it it my turn? I know that its my true when you tell me you can't go any longer and I still don't get my true to let it go inside you so I just give up I have give you all what everyone wants but all I can say when is it time

How Is It Possible
I think offended some one in Twisted Minds Lounge and tried to make amends for my crime, cause that is what I felt like when they kicked me out. I know that I messed up but when you at least try to make it right and someone just kicks you out the lounge. I was told or it sounded like DJ Chaotic said i had a small mind, that is why I reacted like I did and told the person he said I offended I was sorry and I was done. But I guess he couldn't wait to kick me out or maybe it just might of been counter productive for the lounge, that I comprehend.

How I Feel An What I Hide In Myself
Hey There FuLand of Fubar. How are You doing this evening fuland? Well I am doing ok... I guess I could be doing a lot better I am sure. But anyways I am writing to express my thoughts Because It's Better for Me. Well I just sit day to day an do pretty much nothing since I have graduated High School. That Was 3yrs ago in June of this yr. 2months ago. But anyways. I struggle every day But I keep my head held High an stay strong on the outside! But really deep in down side of Me. I ask My self that One Question every one asks. Why!! That is the simple question I ask. You Probably are thinking Ok Where does that fit in and why? Well I was born early and I have a mild case of Cerberal Palsy. I have to wear this brace on my left foot (the side it effects most) so I can walk an stuff. But I really planned to go to college right out of High school but no that didn't happen and I didn't speek up and addovate for my self an get help going to college. So Yeah I kick My self for that a

How Is It...
How is it that when a person gets hurt by someone they cared about, they lock themselves away but someone else comes along and breaks them out. Feelings I thought I had hidden, re-appear and are so much stronger then before. The difference is who those feelings are for. Friends that can talk about anything, lovers that can plan a wedding together. The jokes we share, the smart ass comments, the tears we shed for each other. Sometimes, emotions can get overwhelming. Sometimes they can push apart. But, if caught in time, they can bring each other back to one another. A day does not go by that I am not thinking about her. A day does not go by that I wish she was in my arms. A life I want to share with her, a life she wants to share with me. I know who I love and why I love her. I know what my heart says, I know what my heart wants, I know what my heart desires. Sometimes, it can be overwhelming for me and I don't do the right things. Love is a challenge, a challenge I am g

How I Miss You So....................
A different kind of heartbreak, Not one from a lost love, But that of a missing friend. No more are the days together, Laughing at absurd jokes, Ones only we understand. Bear hugs are no more, Just dismissive actions, And condescending smiles. Conversation dying down, Only awkward pauses, Where words used to flow. Questions linger in the air, Of where my friend went, And when he will return. I mourn what is left of us, The inseparable renegades, Now being laid to eternal rest. Walking past our small place, I lay an imaginary rose there, As I silently cry for my friend. We have become lost, dear, Separation a cruel feeling, For we are fading away…

How Independent Are You?
Your Independence Level: High You are extremely self reliant and autonomous. You are definitely into doing your own thing. But you also wouldn't turn down help if you needed it. You follow your own path, but you don't do so blindly. How Independent Are You?

How I Made The Acquaintance Of The Little Prince
So I lived my life alone, without anyone that I could really talk to, until I had an accident with my plane in the Desert of Sahara, six years ago. Something was broken in my engine. And as I had with me neither a mechanic nor any passengers, I set myself to attempt the difficult repairs all alone. It was a question of life or death for me: I had scarcely enough drinking water to last a week. The first night, then, I went to sleep on the sand, a thousand miles from any human habitation. I was more isolated than a shipwrecked sailor on a raft in the middle of the ocean. Thus you can imagine my amazement, at sunrise, when I was awakened by an odd little voice. It said: "If you please, draw me a sheep!" "What!" "Draw me a sheep!" I jumped to my feet, completely thunderstruck. I blinked my eyes hard. I looked carefully all around me. And I saw a most extraordinary small person, who stood there examining me with great seriousness. Here you may see the best potrait that, later

How Independent Are You?
Your Independence Level: Medium In some aspects of your life, you can be very self reliant. Making your own informed choices feels great. But you aren't as independent as you could be. When things get stressful, you sometimes run away from the hard decisions you need to make. How Independent Are You?

How I Believe
Lotus flowers are amazing and have strong symbolic ties to many Asian religions especially throughout India. The lotus flower starts as a small flower down at the bottom of a pond in the mud and muck. It slowly grows up towards the waters surface continually moving towards the light. Once it come to the surface of the water the lotus flower begins to blossom and turn into a beautiful flower.

How I Rate, Fan, And Add
Everyone on here has their own method and guidelines for adding, rating, and fanning people on here. I've been asked a few times how I go about it. ADDING: I don't send add requests to people I don't find appealing and/or interesting. So having info in your profile is a big plus on helping me decide. I don't add MEN over 40. I don't need a daddy. I don't add people from Turkey. RATES: I rate everyone that sends me a friend requests. That DOES NOT mean I will add you! If I find you attractive or interesting I'll rate you an 11, everyone else gets rated a 10. FANS: I only fan people I've spoken to, think are attractive, or find interesting. ---------------------------------- One other thing...If I don't respond to your shouts STOP SHOUTING ME! I'm not interested in talking to you. ---------------------------------- We all reserve the right to rate what we want, add who we want, and fan who we want. Don't harass me about why you weren't rated, added, or fanne

How Independent Am I?
Your Independence Level: Medium In some aspects of your life, you can be very self reliant. Making your own informed choices feels great. But you aren't as independent as you could be. When things get stressful, you sometimes run away from the hard decisions you need to make. How Independent Are You?

How Innocent Are You?
Questions --- I'm curious to see if there is anyone on MY Friends list that have the guts to repost this, answering the questions themselves. . . . . . . . . (1) Is there someone on ur top friends u would like to have sex with? I'm married, so of course not... (2) Sex in the morning, afternoon or night? Whenever it's available (3) Have you ever had to pull over on the side of the road to puke? oh, hell ya (4) Have you ever taken your clothes off for money? buddy, could you spare a dime? (5) Shower or bath while having sex? you betcha (6) Do you want someone aggressive or passive in bed? depends on what I can get away with (7) Do you love someone in your friends list? I don't do the L word (8) Love or Money? I have my own money...and don't do the L word (9) Credit cards or cash? plastic, except when it's an illegal purchase (10) Have you ever wanted a best friend? my husband is my best friend and Dave is my best buddy

How I Get Their Attention...
You Are a Tiny Tease You like to flirt and show off your body, but what confident woman doesn't. You enjoy male attention, and you're usually pretty good at not leading men on. However, there are times when you get carried away with your sexy behavior. It's okay to use your amazing flirting powers for good - but never for evil! Do Men Think You're You A Tease? You Are a Coy Flirt You may not seem like you're flirting, but you know exactly what you're doing. You draw people in, very calculatingly, without them even knowing. Subtle and understated, you know how to best leverage your sex appeal. A sexy enigma, you easily become an object of obsession. What Kind of Flirt Are You?

How I Started Out
For all the curious out there who wanted to know how exactly I started out what aircraft I learned to fly in heres a run down: My VERY first hours behind the stick was in a T-6C Texan for 30 hours, than it was onto a T-37 Cessna for another 30 hours. Finally I qualified or rather kualafied if you will for my final 30 hours in a T-38 though it'd be years before I actually owned one. I flew a Messershmit 109e for a while as my first privately own aircraft untill I could own my very own T-37. Moving up the ranks into getting more hours behind the stick of large ramjet aircraft and G55 Lears led me to eventually own my own Vednova sweptwing transport bird and then finally my own T-38. As I write now, I WAS on the cuspt of being one of the few Mikoyan customers in the US, but eh fuck it, they're a bunch of goddamn commies anyway so they can all roast in a jet fuel fire in hell for all I care. I'm a lockheed man through and through and I'd tell you outright what I fly now but the

How Is This Right?
I just lost all my commenting priviledges on fubar today, and I'm PISSED. And I do mean ALL...I can't even leave a comment on a friend's profile or blog, nor on my own friends-only mumms! The worst part is that the COWARD who did it to me won't tell me they did it or why, and didn't give me a changce to retract it, change it, or apologize before zapping me. Now I ask you: Is that any way to behave? Fush yu, mang. The bouncers simply say it was ADMIN and point me toward the fubar TOS... which others violate with impunity every day. So why single me out? My guess is it's because I dared to scoff at the "no fakes" bullshit one too many times. But seriously, if I want to use a default photo that's not myself, say an actor or a cartoon character, where is the harm? I always add a disclaimer right at the top of my ABOUT ME section when I do so. It's just for fun, not to get points. I don't give a shit about fu-points! I'm just here for the laughs. Anway, if the louse who did this

How I Feel
In my daughter's eyes, I am a hero. I am strong an' wise, And I know no fear. But the truth is plain to see: She was sent to rescue me, I see who I wanna be, in my daughter's eyes. In my daughter's eyes, everyone is equal, Darkness turns to light, And the world is at peace. This miracle God gave to me, Gives me strength when I am weak. I find reason to believe, in my daughter's eyes. An' when she wraps her hand around my finger, Oh, it puts a smile in my heart. Everything becomes a little clearer. I realise what life is all about. It's hangin' on when your heart has had enough; It's givin' more when you feel like givin' up. I've seen the light: it's in my daughter's eyes. In my daughter's eyes, I can see the future. A reflection of who I am, An' what will be. An' though she'll grow an', some day, leave: Maybe raise a family, When I'm gone, I hope you'll see, How happy she made me, For I'll be there, in my daughter's eyes

How Important Is Experience?
When I teach business people about how to interview and hire I tell them that there are three things you look for. 1. Talent 2. Chemistry 3. Experience. I also tell them that while most managers hire the most experienced applicant, its the least important factor. (Witness Bush) Always hire Talent and then Chemistry. In fact, the only way you get experience is by not dying. However experience has nothing to do with accomplishment or the promise of performance. So, based on my "experience" all this talk of experience is for the inexperienced manager, or in this case, voter. Go for talent

How I Got Here
Hey there. I know what you’re thinking… ”What’s this old fool doing here”? Well, I may be old, but lately I been pretty young in the heart. My great-nephew Alvin has been helping me with my computer projects and deserves a good dose of credit for what you see, but make no doubt about it…I’m the brains behind it. Alvin lives about a mile an a half from me, here in Dunbar, and I hike over to see him nearly every week. For about four years he showed me all about e-mailing and the internet, and all the things you can do & see here. First I thought it was a big old waste of time, but I slowly warmed up to it. Then about four months ago he showed me that My Space place and I was amazed. To think you could go on-line (see, I’ve learned some of the lingo) and meet people from all over the whole damn world was almost unbelievable. Well, right then I knew I had to get me a computer and like they say…I’m “Up and Runnin” over there. Then about a week ago I ran into Jenny Ferguson &

How Is It Treated?
Most people who have breast cancer have surgery to remove the cancer. The surgeon may also take out some or all of the lymph nodes under your arm to find out if the cancer has spread to this area. After surgery, you may have radiation therapy to destroy cancer cells. You may also get chemotherapy or hormone therapy. These are powerful medicines that travel through your body to kill cancer cells. You might have radiation, chemotherapy, or hormone therapy before surgery to help shrink the cancer. Depending on the stage of your cancer, you may have a choice of: * Surgery to remove just the cancer from the breast (breast-conserving surgery, or lumpectomy). You will need to have several weeks of radiation after surgery. * Surgery to remove the breast (mastectomy). If you choose mastectomy, you can have an operation to make a new breast. This is called breast reconstruction. Sometimes radiation is not needed after a mastectomy. In years past, having breast cancer meant that

How I Am Feeling Now
It just kinda hits home right now...with everything going on with a stupid boy....just leave me alone, let me get over you, let me move on. Papa Roach-Scars I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut My weakness is that I care too much And my scars remind me that the past is real I tear my heart open just to feel I'm Drunk and I'm feeling down And I just wanna be alone I'm pissed 'cause you came around Why don't you just go home Cause you channeled all your pain And I can't help you fix yourself Your making me insane All I can say is I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut And my weakness is that I care too much And our scars remind us that the past is real I tear my heart open just to feel I tried to help you once Against my own advice I saw you going down But you never realized That your drowning in the water So I offered you my hand Compassion's in my nature Tonight is our last stand I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut And my weakness i

How I Feel
there is so much going on in my life right now. i don't know which way to turn anymore. i am in arkansas with my biological father right now and the rest of my family who i haven't seen in almost 20 years, i love it here and don't want to leave, sometimes i think coming on this trip was a mistake. cuz now it makes me really sad to have to leave. this place has so much more to offer me in life plus i'm surrounded by people that love me. but there are obstacles back home, parole being the main one. i just found out my ex is getting married in 3 weeks, on halloween of all days, the day we were supposed to get married. it is so hard to be madly in love with someone who is in love with someone else. and in 2 days i see my sister who is sitting in jail awaiting trial and is looking at 15+ years in prison. it seems sometimes as if nobody understands, even though i'm not stupid and i know that to not be true. i just don't know what is wrong with me.

How I Feel!!!!
HOW I FEEL !!!! SITTIN HERE ALL ALONE WONDERING IF THIS IS REALLY MY HOME . FEELING SO EMPTY AND LONELY ASKIN GOD IF THIS IS REALLY HOW AND WHERE HE WANT ME TO BE !? GOT SO MUCH LOVE TO SHARE , JUST SEEMS NOBODY REALLY CARE ! WHAT IF I WOULD LEAVE THIS PLACE ? WOULD I B MISSED ? IN MIND KISSED ? DONT KNOW WHATS REAL OR FAKE ANYMORE THIS EMPTYNESS IS KILLIN ME DAY BY DAY EVEN WHEN THE SUN IS OUT THE SKY TO ME LOOKS SO GREY!! HOW CAN I SEE NICE THINGS , IF I KNOW WHAT BAD ALREADY TOMORROW BRINGS? THE ONLY HOLD IS MY LIL ANGEL SENT FROM HEAVEN ABOVE , CAN NO ONE TAKE AWAY OUR LOVE !!! IM SO GLAD TO HAVE THIS LEFT IN LIFE , WITHOUT HER I WOULD END UP WITH A KNIFE!!!!! I KNOW MY THOUGHTS R CRAZY AND THIS FEELING I FEEL IS SHADY BUT I CANT HELP IT I WISH I COULD ! JUST KNOW IM FALLIN IN A DEEP HOLE AND SOMEONE COME CATCH ME , I WISH SOMEONE WOULD !!! MY HEART SO COLD CRYIN OUT FOR A HELPING HAND SOMEONE TO TAKE MINE AND SHOW ME A BETTER WAY THIS IS WHAT I PRAY TO GOD EVERYDAY !!!!

How Is Your Election Opinion Going?
Recently I listened to an interview with Colin Powell. I am a registered Democrat and if Powell, a Republican, would run I would strongly consider voting for him because I trust his judgment and his record. Now, after listening to his interview with MSNBC I hear Powell is endorsing Obama, crossing party lines. Powell does not like the way the Republican Party is swinging, to far right, and he believes Palin is not ready to be president. I agree that a vice president has to be ready to be president from day one of taking office. Also, Powell feels McCain's economic plans won't work and that McCain is to short sited when it comes to the needs of the middle and lower classes. McCain proves that himself. We have to give relief directly to the middle and lower classes, include small business, because depending on the wealthy and the big corporations to help us does not work. This has been a Republican practice for centuries and what has been proven is the wealthy won’t let anything trick

How Insane The World Really Is...
I've done some thinking tonight, and there are really so many thing that I'm fucking sick of. I've always never been a really big fan of the General population, But I've just gotten so fed up with EVERYTHING and EVERYBODY: First off, I'm sick of these stupid ass Metalheads who go growing their hair out and wearing stupid cheap ass rings and pendants and throwing their "Horns" in the air and "Rocking out" to Satan, Yet when someone dumps your sorry asses, you go around crying and carrying on like the "Pretty People" You all hate so much and try so hard to not be like. Speaking of which, I'm tired of you assholes who visit my profile with the same goddamn pictures, same loser personality but a different profile and screen name riddled with X's and some dumb ass reference to Metal. Every picture has to be with you holding your index and pinky finger up, or holding a guitar, all the while trying your best to look pissed off at nothing. Instead of wasting your money on buying the latest

How I Feel????
I have to say I feel stupid for the people who walk out on the kids and married ... YOU call yourself real but in my book , i call you nothin but 100% coward ... see i am feelin this way cause i have friend , who got pregnant , and the guy walked out on her and the baby and when she told me this , i was hurt and piss but also sad , i mean come on , man walk out on daughter , i know i would not do that ... it will hurt me now to see she is not goin to have father in her life , but i do hope i can be there for her where i know i am not the dad ... If i did or do get female pregnant , I will be the man and stand up and take care of both and everything where I was raise to be real man and stand up to take it like real man should do BUT if the baby was not mine i will still be there no matter what and raise her as mine ... what i am sayin is no matter what , if i got female pregnant , i still be there no matter what

How It Feels
no one knows how it feels to be aloner no friends to talk to do one to trust,till you have been thur it yourself. I am telling you how i feel setting here alone no one to talk to or trust,It is a very scary would.it hurts.you see people out there laughing having fun with others.I was raised up in a hard ruff time i was abused in a way where i was never alowed to talk to anyone when i was growing up.When i did say a word like hi to someone i was beaten and put in a cage . now that im all growen up and have 3 kids i sit and feel so alone.till one day i met this sweet lady on paltalk on line that is now my only best friend i have the only one that i have that i can fully trust.my would changed i started to open up and talk . Now i face another thing i dont want to loose my only true friend i have.at times when i cant get ahold of her for a day or 2 i feel i have lost. I cant handle the thought of looseing my only true friend.I am very protective of my friend dont want no one to hurt

How It Started
I started out when I was 10 with go-karts, midgets, and some sprint cars. I also started out with my bestfriend you see in those pics I have. We both started with the Go-kart thing. Then I went from there to racing bikes and doing bmx for sometime. From there I started a dirt bike career when I was 14. Finally I got tired of what I was doing since I was doing so good that I went back to stock car racing when I was 16 and I was also playing some other sports while I was still in School. I stopped for a while due to an injury I got and finally went back in when I was 20 while I was in the army as well. When I finally took some outside work with the army's help I started my career in racing by taking on the ASA Racing Series while being on call as a soldier for missions. Went from the ARCA Remax series to finish out with due to lack of sponsorships and a fight between me and another driver. I finally have come to where I am now which is me Testing on a regular basis for certain teams and

How It Is Supposed To Be
I am beginning to believe (doh) that, its not just sunshine and lollipos that should fill your days. You have to have a equal balance of good and bad. Like, when that fat austrailian guy farts beside you.....bad, but not the end of the world (maybe). Bad days, and bad times....things seemingly not going well....is supposed to ....be. When i`m down, and yup...living the glorious existance i do.....i still...get down, makes me more aware of what i`ve go, and what i need...is not always what i seem. It sometimes drives me nutty (er) listening to how some people can`t ever see that life is more than their so called "ho hum" existance. Funny thing is...if you were not so consistantly down on your self....things would be better than you seem. Hey...i know i don`t walk around town with a big smile, and hugging and kissin all that i run into......but....i am ....generally a happy guy. Good jobs, with lots of time for me, a roof over my head....mostly good people around me, and....f

How I Feel
This best explains how I feel right now its from slipknots new album. Snuff lyrics Bury all your secrets in my skin Come away with innocence And leave me with my sins The air around me still feels like a cage And love is just a camouflage For what resembles rage again So if you love me let me go And run away before I know My heart is just too dark to care I cant destroy what isn't there Deliver me into my fate If I'm alone I cannot hate I don't deserve to have you My smile was taken long ago If I can change I hope I never know I still press your letters to my lips And cherish them in parts of me that savor every kiss I couldn't face a life without your light But all of that was ripped apart... When you refused to fight So save your breath I will not hear I think I made it very clear You couldn't hate enough to love Is that supposed to be enough? I only wish you weren't my friend Then I could hurt you in the end I never claimed to be a Saint My

How Important Is A Profile?
How important is your profile on here? I'd like to think it was very important as its an insight into the person your asking to be your friend.... However, I have also observed that alot of people do not read my profile let alone your name and status, mine clearly states that I am no longer joining fu trains, yet today I have yet again denyed someone due to a train. Ok, so I was obviously still attached to the train in mention but after the 7th attempt I got a request saying " this is my 7th attempt are you gonna accept me? this is a condition of being on a train to accept etc ... I replied nicely that I assumed i was still on the list and then the guy accepted my reply but what niggled me was he obviously didnt pay any attention to my profile page or he would have known why i had refused again. So my question is, is there really any point putting anything in the profile page except a pretty profile skin ? .. there thats my monday moan over with enjoy the rest of you

How It All Began.
I am starting this blog in lu of my mumm that I created for those of you that don't know my mother or my realtionship with her.. I am not trying to say I was the perfect kid cause none of us are! But I really can't afford therapy so this is the next best thing hehe... Well before I was even born my mother wanted to have an abortion an my grandfather told her no way in hell so thank god for that!! When I was 4 yrs old my mother took me to my grandfather an left me with the words " take her I don't want her she never shuts up!" ( great start right?) so my grandfather took me an basicly raised me till I was 4 yrs old,, he then got sent to prision ( i know not the perfect settin but hey it is all i had) mom had no other choice but to take me at that point.. i don't remeber alot from that point on utill i was like in 3rd grade.. i just remember being really afraid of my mother..i can remember havin the chit beat out of me at one point an being drug around the living room by the hair of my h

How I Could Kill A Man
1. Put your music on shuffle. 2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer. 3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS! IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY?" YOU SAY? Pieces - Sevendust WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY? Rebel Yell - Drowning Pool WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL? One In A Million - Aaliyah HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY? Caress Me Down - Sublime WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE? Lost In The Crowd - Shinedown WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO? Loco - 311 (LMAO) WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU? Doin' Time - Sublime :) WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN? Headspin - Rise Electric (shit this is a good one!) WHAT IS 2+2? Simple Man - Shinedown WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND? The Past ft. Chris Daughtry - Sevendust (Another good one!) WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE? Santeria - Sublime WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY? We Fly High - Jim Jones WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?

How I Feel.....
You are the first person I look for every day, it’s an automatic thing. When I hear your voice and you are happy with me, it warms me. When I know you want me, it makes me burn for you. When you are angry, it chills me, and I shrink back within myself. I look forward to spending anytime I can with you. And crave your touch. Even though you are far away I can feel you. There is a connection there. And then I think… Is it in my head? How much am I building this up, idealizing this. Can he truly care for me the way he says, or is it just something to keep me around? Horrible way to think, but then why would I doubt? Is it me? Am I not enough? And so I go round and round, happy to be in your company then desolate to be out of it. Elated to hear the warmth in your voice, and devastated by the silence. There are days I can’t get warm There are days I feel numb There are days I don’t want to get out of bed at all. I’ve been told by friends snap out of i

How I Feel About This....
How many times in life do you find someone that is just like you in life?Have you ever let someone go that is just like you? I ask myself this all the time.It is very rare to find someone like you ,dont everyone want another half thats just like themselves? I know i do i rather have someone that has the same interests that i have in life or even in my dreams.But i do believe in sometimes things arent meant to be . I hear what could of happend if we stayed together what would the future bring us ?It aint bring us nothin in the past nor the future you keep on coming in and out of my life for 8 years its getting old all i can do is move forward and keep you in my past i cant do this anymore theres a reason why we keep on loseing touch ..i wanna keep it that way .I know we have so much in common we both are in love with hip hop we think alike but can can never get along anymore and you always put the blame on me when it isnt me but its all good tho ...all i can do now is move forward ill

How I'm Feeling Inside Here!
You know, I've really started to wonder and question things like my "so called friendships" with people whether they're living in my area or what not. I mean as it stands right now, gas these days are down in my area from $1.60 a gallon for gas unlike what it was several months ago here, I know a lot of people are laid off and out of work because of the unstable economy but my god, it shouldn't flipping matter here if gas is $1.60 per gallon or almost $5.00 per gallon for gas here, I am a human being just like anyone else that is physically challenged that has a right to have friendships and they sure as hell don't have to be online friendships either, it's ridiculous, now these days and for years ever since the internet made it's appearance people like myself and yes I am guility of it too have just sat here on my butt along with other people and have talked to people and that, which is ok but it's not great, spending time with people that are my friends is something I want to do some

How I See Life
it seem's that life will cause stress on you but if you let it it will kill you or make you kill your self... if you don't like who you are your the only 1 who can change that so if you have to let the old you die off and start being who you want to be dont let nothing stop you your the only 1 who is in controll so take charge be that person your looking to become tmmarow is a new day a chance for a fresh start for you not no1 else it mite hurt some but if it help's you be who you want then that's a chance to be the real you .... this is the begining of my stash's more insite from me will fallow so i hope it help's any 1 who need a little insite..... .............MR.SMITH...........

How I Conquered The Sex God Of Germany
well, we have been together some time and all I would ever hear was about how Craven (aka Pitch.black) is the sex god of germany. when we had finally gotten together I was a bit leary about the sex, i mean come one a mere commoner like myself and the sex god. I didnt think i would be able to compare. then the other night we went out to a clib and had a few jack & cokes not enough to be drunk but tipsy. upon coming home we had a small snack then was off to bed. In which I instigated an intimate intrigue well he was all up for it ( if ya know what i mean) then it got a bit hot and heavy, i wont get into details, but to get straight to the point, he was trembling upon the finale and his legs were hurting. in the back of my mind i was all like YES! he had told me he had never had sex like that before and i was all patting myself on the back while having my smoke. needless to say. He is a sex god and amazing in bed. but to to us commoners, sex gods can be conquered and then we are up there

How Is A Winner Going To Be Decided?
I am going to do a raffle to pick the winner of my Purple Dog Tag Salute Project. Hopefully it turns into a NIGHTMARE(that means soo many people bought tags and made salutes it nearly kills me.)...and I spend days putting all the entries into the bin. I will probably print out all the names of Saluters and then draw them. First drawn will be First Place. Second drawn will be Second Place. Third drawn will be Third Place. I am going to try and find a way to stream it that doesnt crash and doesnt require me to approve everyone viewing.. I also would like to get one of those little raffle tumblers made out of wire mesh and use that..but..barring that..a big bucket will work..haha. SO to all the MEN out there..you have just as good a chance of winning as the ultra hot chick. SO GET YER TAG!

How Is Your Heart?
during my worst times on the park benches in the jails or living with whores I always had this certain contentment- I wouldn't call it happiness- it was more of an inner balance that settled for whatever was occuring and it helped in the factories and when relationships went wrong with the girls. it helped through the wars and the hangovers the backalley fights the hospitals. to awaken in a cheap room in a strange city and pull up the shade- this was the craziest kind of contentment and to walk across the floor to an old dresser with a cracked mirror- see myself, ugly, grinning at it all. what matters most is how well you walk through the fire.

How I Heard It.
I was trying to see if my best freind and "soul mate" would listen but he didn't. I have been thinking a lot about my life and what went wrong. So I am going to blog it. This is a bar and Im shit faced so that means I start to talk shit fight and cry. So here I am crying pouring my here for all to see. Ok first off my was living in a home with 1 brother, 1 sister and 1 cousin, who shall remain name less, My parents were dating, this is how it was told to me. They were dating and the cousin liked my dad. My mom was still in middle of a divorce, in that marraige she had two living children, 1boy 1 girl. in that order. Since she was out of luck with her ol man, she started to date my dad. They got seriouse and she was still in love with her husband. She confided in her cousin and her boyfreind (my Dad. She thought they were good people to talk to. No not the cousin. The cousin started to fuck shit up you know like, Lieing and telling my dad things. She was living with my mom and she l

How I Spent My Tuesday Evening
The guy on the banjo is Jayme Stone. He won a Juno award (Canadian Grammy) in 2008 for an album of instrumental bluegrass/jazz/otherstuff, then went to Africa to find out all bout the real history of the banjo. Good times.

How I Spent My Yuletide And New Year...
i worked both christmas eve into christmas morn, and new years eve into the new year, scheduled from 10pm to 7am. i accepted it, although it was odd to not be able to indulge as i had in the past... but things happened on both of those nights while i worked...things disturbing-especially in light of what said days are supposed to represent; they reinforced much inside of me, as to what so many of the human animal are, in fact. the future doesn't hold much promise. christmas eve: the first incident concerned having to take a number of bags of presents left at a station to lost and found...these being presents for children and, based on what some of them were since there were some ripped open, they were destined for kids who likely don't have much to begin with. apparently they were left behind when the parents/guardians were arrested by the police and carted away. obviously, these kids were going to wake up to a christmas few of us could likely imagine....without any visit from san

How I Fucked Up
well ok here we go it started out like this i was up all night like iam all the time during the night and i started to feel sleepy so i went to bed i got up around 5 am to go to my computer to check what i downloaded from the net well i have a table that is metal in my room and when i went to get up my arm hit it so hard i think i bruise the hell out of it so i wont be on fubar much for thos who care i doubt there are that many who do also it seems iam unable to post anything since it say i have 175 pics and when in fact i dont so iam not sure whats up with that anyways good night for the real friends i do on here

How I Do It
Just so ppl know how I randomly bling it's like this...I see my bar tab and mouse over with my eyes closed.Whoever I land on gets Blinged....I ususlly pick 3 or 4 so that's how it goes ppl. The bling is usually 1 to 3 credits....Only occasionally do I bling special abilities bling

How I Love You Love
How I Love you Love By Casey Fox Don’t date me anymore, for ill just fall apart As you tell me how I’m not the guy u like For I’m just too nice, u want to stay friends So I smile just for you and chock back my tears Only to say thank you, hope you have a great day You turn around and walk away happy you’re ok Never thought about me, as keep walking So don’t tell me ill find love or to not give up Because their some great girl out there That well love you, but I bet she married Are just think I’m one of her good guy friends February is coming up; I think I’ll give up For I’m tired of all lost hope towards love Saint Valentine makes me depressed in side With no hope at gaining someone else’s love So I raze one more pint size suds filled glass Taste the bitterness fall back inside my mouth I swallow it all down, drinking all alone So don’t tell me ill find love or to not give up Because their some great girl out there That well love you, but I bet she married

How I Feel
Lyrics to This Fire Burns by Killswitch Engage Yeah ( screaming) Yeah All I ever wanted was destined to be fulfilled It is in my hands I must not fail and I must not fail Even through the darkest days This fire burns always This fire burns always This is the broken ground Misery begins to rise Turn away from yesterday Tomorrow is in my hands Oh! Nevermore to be held down By the wings against me Nevermore to be cast aside This day is mine Even through the darkest days This fire burns always This fire burns always I will not be denied in this final hour I will not be denied this day is mine This passion inside me Is burning Is burning This passion inside me Is burning Is burning Even through the darkest days This fire burns always This fire burns always This fire burns always This fire burns always always

How I Feel When I Write
i write when i am happy sad hurt or just plain mad i write about the good times i have had or the heartbreak i have felt i write about the ones i lost or the ones that did not care to stick around i write about the funny things in life as they happen i write to express my self in ways that no one would ever know when i write a ease feels my soul and peace comes again when i write its not always happy but i write to let it all show if you know me and i mean really know me then you know that to me writing is life its something i must do to be able to sleep better at night writing ... its me

How I Feel At This Point
Do you ever feel like breaking down? Do you ever feel out of place? Like somehow you just don’t belong And no one understands you, Do you ever wanna run away? Do you lock yourself in your room? With the radio on turned up so loud, That no one hears you screaming, No you don’t know what it’s like, When nothing feels alright, You don’t know what it’s like to be like me, To be hurt To feel lost, To be left out in the dark, To be kicked When you’re down ,To feel like you’ve been pushed around, To be on the edge of breaking down, And no one’s there to save you, No you don’t know what it’s like, Welcome to my life, Do you wanna be somebody else? Are you sick of feeling so left out? Are you desperate to find something more Before your life is over? Are you stuck inside a world you hate? Are you sick of everyone around? With the big fake smiles and stupid lies, While deep inside you’re bleeding, No you don’t know what it’s like, When nothing feels alright, You don’t know what it’s like to

How I Feel....
Shut off the t.v and peel off those sunday gloves And I'll stain the clean that you've been counting Old mr. fletcher passed by here today After 40 years of toil he just up and walked away Fantastic the panic that showed in his eyes He shrugged when I asked him about it He said "young man pay heed, you listen well to what I say Now there comes a time for a man to walk away" Walk away, I'll be a parade And I'll be determined that no one shall dissuade on my way I'll take my sweet time and burn all the bridges that I'm leaving behind He passed by again and he was shivering from the cold I'm not sure but I think that he was trying He told me about the weather and something old to pay "But tomorrow", he said, "I'm gonna surely walk away" Some days I just wanna walk away....thanks to Bad Religion for the words....

How I Expect My Wife To Be Treated:
You are to speak to her like you would a lady, Because she is one! Do not use her or think of her as your sexual object/ toy Kari is very open and honest- PLEASE be the same Please treat her like you would expect someone to treat your mom/sis/daughter If she is full of drinks- you can send her a gift she loves those and it doesn't bother me Don't get pissed off at her if she doesn't get back to you right away- Kari has things to do away from the computer- She has a life - But her friends are very important to her We will let you know if we want to Yahoo, IM, let you in our private pics etc.. If you want to be a Rude Ass come find me or just leave us alone THANK YOU CHRIS

How I Was Almost A Racist.
How I was almost a racist. I know what you are saying if you know me, you are saying "You mean you are not a racist?" "You with all of your race, ethnic, and gay jokes?" Well then answer is no, now if you ask if I am prejudiced, then I would have to say yes. I make pre-judgments about people all the time based on how they dress, how they carry themselves, and who they hang out with. If I see someone dressed as a gang-banger, I assume they are a gang-banger, or a least a wannabe. Do I make jokes, sure, but it is funny to me. I don't say the jokes out of hate, and I always ask that if I cross a line, please let me know. That stuff is not as bad as it could have been. I was watching documentaries on the KKK and Neo-Nazis on the history channel, and I was brought back to a time when I was growing up in Connecticut. My Dad was bringing us up racist, not so much against the Jews (honestly where we lived, I never even cared if other people were Jewish) but racist against Blacks and ga

How I Am Doing
Well today is Laundry Day II. I am washing my bed stuff and some clothes. On Laundry Day I, I washed the bed stuff of the elderly guy I care for. Yesterday I took my ex-wife and her youngest daughter N. out to lunch and shooping. (N. wasn't supposed to be with us, but that is how it worked out.) We ate a Mexican restaurant that specializes in Mexico City dishes. After lunch, we went to Walgreens so I could by a reloadable VISA card. (I want one so I can do online shopping.) We then went to a thrift shop. I bought three shirts--a 2000 Sydney Games, Tucson Sidewinders and McCain-Palin '08. We finished up our time together by going to McDonalds for milkshakes. I am in the process of winning back my ex-wife. I dearly love her and know I will be a better husband to her if given another chance. I learned that I need to pay more attention to her needs, put our family before my job and don't let the little stresses of life get between us. My job is going ok. I hope to earn more mon

How I Feel About Her
IT HITTZ ME IN SLOW MOTION THE SCENT OF YA BODY SENSATION ERECTIN' MY ROTATION INTO YOUR SITUATION THE FLAVOR YA CREATE IZ MY TYPE OF CREATION SO WHAT YA NOT TENDER WIT THE SWEET I DIG DEEP SO LACE WIT THE TREAT DANG CURVEZ,THEM EYEZ TO FACE I SEE EVERY WEEK GOOD DAMN ALMIGHTY,TOUCH OF GRACE TYPE SEEK LOVE YA MIND ON POINT WHEN I PUT ON MY POUND IT SO LOVELY WHEN YA PUT OUT A SOUND STILL GO WILD WHEN I GET ON THAT HILL & MOUND ATTACCIN' LIKE IM GOIN' FOR A REBOUND ALWAYZ RESPECT A SAVAGE WAY BABAY IZ BEATIFUL IN MY MAJOR WAY WE DO THIZ LIKE BRUTUS IN OUR OWN WAY LIKE ITZ YA BIRTHDAY,ALL DAY TO PLAY

How Is It
how is it that love can be so amazing yet with so much pain how is it this is all we say we want when all we do is suffer and want more each day how is it that each day all any1 can think about is the pleasure of themselves but today is always a new day but yesterday will always be tomorrow because nothing ever seems to change

How I Feel
don't need to be anything other Than a prison guard's son I don't need to be anything other Than a specialist's son I don't have to be anyone other Than to birth of two souls in one Part of where I'm going, is knowing where I'm coming from I don't want to be Anything other than what I've been trying to be lately All I have to do Is think of me and I have peace of mind I'm tired of looking 'round rooms Wondering what I've got to do Or who I'm supposed to be I don't wanna to be anything other than me I'm surrounded by liars everywhere I turn I'm surrounded by imposters everywhere I turn I'm surrounded by identity crisis everywhere I turn Am I the only one who noticed? I can't be the only one corncerned? I don't want to be Anything other than what I've been trying to be lately All I have to do Is think of me and I have peace of mind I'm tired of looking 'round rooms Wondering what I've got to do Or who I'm supposed to be I don't want to be anything other than me

How I Found The Urantia Book...
"I found the UB in 1979, while living in Lahaina, on the island of Maui,Hawaii... A friend Eve, pulled out the UB, started reading it at random, while we were high, from smoking da kine, great Maui buds... it was a really mind blowing experience... at the time I thought it was very mystical... I haven't smoked buds for over 20 years now, I'm high on life... reality, what a concept... I can not imagine a life without the UB, it is such a major part of my life... I thank God every day, for giving me the Urantia Book... I have been in study groups for over 20 years... I am currently enrolled in the urantiabookschool.org provided free by the Urantia Foundation, and part of the group SPAD on ubron.org that reads 6 pages a day, at that rate we read the UB every year... I listen to the UB on my ipod and computer... this year I have listened to 100 papers already and its only February, way beyond 6 pages a day, i love it so much..." The rest of the story, as it appears in the bo

How In The Hell?
A 7-month-old boy left overnight inside the family car in North Texas was found dead on Wednesday morning, Cedar Hill police said. The child was left in his car seat after his mother picked up her three children from day care, MyFOXDFW.com reported. Laheather Wilson, 35, told police she went outside before 6 a.m. Wednesday and found her son unresponsive. Wilson was charged with injury to a child and was being held at the Dallas County Jail Wednesday night. It was not immediately known whether she had an attorney. The Dallas County Medical Examiner has not released a cause of death. The overnight low recorded at Dallas-Fort Worth International Airport was 50 degrees. Wilson's two other sons are now in the care of Child Protective Services. Click here for more on this story from MyFOXDFW.com. The Associated Press contributed to this report. What I want to know is how in the hell could you forget to take your child out of the car and how could you not realize that yo

How Is It Possible...
How is it possible that someone can say they love you so much yet hate everything you represent and do? Like they will say "I love everything about you...BUT this this this and this." How in gods name is that possible? If they Love everything about you how can they hate just certain things? It makes no fuckin sense to me... i guess im just confused.... someone PLEASE explain this to me...

How I Feel
EVRY DAY IS A SPECIAL DAY WHEN U THOUGHT U HAVE SOME ONE IN UR LIFE THEN THE NEXT MIN THERE GONE.THE PAST FEW YEARS HAS BEEN RUFF FOR ME BUT IF I DIDN'T HAVE MY BEST FRIEND TO HELP ME THROUGHT WITH IT I DON'T KNOW WHAT I WOULD HAVE DONE. SHE HAS TOLD ME TO LISION TO MY HEART AND FOLOW IT AND I KNOW THAT SOME OF THE DECISION I HAVE MADE IT WASN'T BECAUSE I WAS AFRIAD OF MOVING FORWORD AND I THINK I AM NOW TO SEE WHAT IT WILL TAKE ME AND FIND A LOVE OF MY LIFE THAT WILL MAKE MY LIFE COMPLETE SOME DAY .THERE IS SOME ONE THAT I LIKE BUT I KNOW THAT THIS MIGHT NOT WORK BUT I KNOW I WILL KNOW WHEN IT WILL HIT ME IN MY GUT LOL. WELL ALSO THERE HAS BEEN ALOT OF THING HAS HAPPEN TO ME IN LAST FEW MONTHS IN MY LIFE AS HEATH WIZE BUT SOME WHEN I THINK OF IT ITR SCARE ME BUT I HAVE TO FACE IT HEAD ON AND MY BEST FRIEND KNOW HOW I FEEL AND I CAN UNDERSTAND WHAT SHE BEEN THOUGHT BOTH OF US BEEN THOUGH ALOT SOMETIMES KNOW WHAT WE THINK BEFORE SAYING IT I WILL BE HER ANGEL ALWAYS

How It Is
the day goes on and i'm sitll here and i nener understand the things that happens but i keep going. i may never understnad but i will get over this things.i get up every day and i go to sleep every night thats what happens one day it will change hoping 1 day soon that sounds stupped but thats what i thought about hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha

How Is Not Giving Out My Yahoo Im Drama?
I don't get it... lol. He was the one who randomly shout boxed me. It's read from the bottom up. No Drama Q...: NO drama, MEANS no dramaNo Drama Q...: buzz off->No Drama Q...: lol ok. If you had read my profile you would have knownNo Drama Q...: whateva->No Drama Q...: I don't give it outNo Drama Q...: cool, what's your yahoo?->No Drama Q...: yesNo Drama Q...: question, do u have yahoo messenger?

How I Feel This Month....
My first blog... All my blogs will be lyrics to songs...since a lot of them apply to my life...This is my theme song....had it since high school....This sums up how I feel, I'm just sick of it all... Heart breaker, soul shaker I've been told about you Steamroller, midnight stroller What they've been saying must be true Red hot mama Velvet charmer Time's come to pay your dues Now you're messin' with a A son of a bitch Now you're messin' with a son a' bitch Now you're messin' with a A son of a bitch Now you're messin' with a son a' bitch Talkin' jivey, poison ivy You ain't gonna cling to me Man taker, born faker I ain't so blind I can't see Now you're messin' with a A son of a bitch Now you're messin' with a son a' bitch Now you're messin' with a A son of a bitch Now you're messin' with a son a' bitch

How In The World Do You....
How do you make pics that look like slideshows to use as your main/primary pic? How do you make those pics that turn from you into something else like a wolf or a movie star? Any help with this is greatly appreciated xxOxx

How I Feel When Im Around You
It's amazing how I feel when I'm around you,How my heart pounds when you come into a room.I look at you and think: My God! How lovely!And everything I am bursts into bloom. I feel as though you must, you must be mine,Not as a possession but a goal,Something almost unimaginable:The free devotion of another soul. As though I were about to enter heavenOr just within the hour condemned to die,My mind with one fierce thought keeps running over,With you, and only you, the reason why.

How I Have Been Feeling Here Alot Lately.
please come now i think i'm falling,i'm holding onto what i think is safe.it seems i found the road to nowhere and i'm trying to escape.i yelled back when i heard thunder but i'm down to one last breath and with it let me say let me say.hold me now i'm six feet from the edge and i'm thinking maybe six feet ain't so far down.i'm looking down now that its over reflecting on all of my mistakes i thought i found the road to somewhere in his grace.i cried out heaven save me but i'm down to one last breath and with it let me say let me say.hold me now i'm six feet from the edge and i'm thinking maybe six feet ain't so far down.hold me now i'm six feet from the edge and i'm thinking maybe six feet ain't so far down.i'm so far down sad eyes follow me but i still believe there's something left for me so please come stay with me.cause i still believe there's something left for you and me.hold me now i'm six feet from the edge and i'm thinking ... hold me now i'm six feet from the edge and i'm th

How I Feel
"None Of Your Business"What's the matter with your life?Why you gotta mess with mine?Don't keep sweatin' what I doCause I'm gonna be just fine - check it out[CHORUS]If I wanna take a guy home with me tonightIt's none of your businessAnd she wanna be a freak and sell it on the weekendIt's none of your businessNow you shouldn't even get into who I'm givin' skins toIt's none of your businessSo don't try to change my mind, I'll tell you one more timeIt's none of your businessNow who do you think you arePuttin' your cheap two cents in?Don't you got nothin' to doThan worry 'bout my friends? Check it...I can't do nothin', girl, without somebody buggin'I used to think that it was me, but now I see it wasn'tThey told me to change, they called me names, and so I popped oneOpinion's are like assholes and everybody's got oneI never put my nose where I'm not supposed toBelieve me, if he's something that I want, I'm steppin' closerI'm not one for playing high-poleLike the high soditty 90210 type of

How I Found Goddess And What I Did To Her When I Found Her
Principia Discordia or How I Found Goddess And What I Did To Her When I found Her being a Beginning Introduction to The Erisian Mysterees Which is Most Interesting as Divinely Revealed to My High Reverence MALACLYPSE THE YOUNGER, KSCOmnibenevolent Polyfather of Virginity in Gold and HIGH PRIEST of THE PARATHEO-ANAMETAMYSTIKHOOD OF ERIS ESOTERIC (POEE) HAIL ERIS! KALLISTI ALL HAIL DISCORDIA! Dedicated to The Prettiest One The Upstart of one hand clapping JOSHUA NORTON CABAL - Surrealists, Harlequinists, Absurdists and Zonked Artists Melee POEE is one manifestation of THE DISCORDIAN SOCIETY about which you will learn more and understand less We are a tribe of philosophers, theologians, magicians, scientists, artists, clowns, and similar maniacs who are intrigued with ERIS GODDESS OF CONFUSION and with Her Doings I Tell You: One must still have chaos in one to give birth to a dancing star! -Nietzsche

How I Feel..
I wonder why she didnt respond to my IM?I don't even know what I said or even did,but she's really mad at me and my heart is aching sooo bad right now.I'm hurtin' right now,and I'm slipping back into my depression again.I really thought things were great between us...I just thought she liked my pathetic self...but I guess I was wrong.And thats what hurts me so bad.I can't live to lose one more person I care about.My heart won't be able to take that much pain.I'm broken again...and this time theres no cure for what ails me.Not this time.I fucked it up,and now I'm paying for it emotionally.Now what am I gonna do.I was starting to invest myself,more than 100%,into this relationship.Now what am I gonna do?I gave her my heart,something I can honestly say I've never done with anyone before,but I don't think she wants it anymore.I'm assed out now,with noone to talk with,or to text me in the middle of the night.But now she's flat out ignoring me.I think I'm just gonna go back to the hard stuf

How In The World....?
Why is it that us decent-looking, kind, intelligent, pure-hearted folk always seem to be perpetually single..meanwhile the people who shouldn't procreate always seem to find someone? Seems the best of us are always single, always looking, you think we'd stumble upon each other..but that never seems to work. Somehow the decent people always manage to find the ones who will hurt us, abuse us, take advantage of us, and discard us like trash before moving on to someone who isn't half as good as we are. So while we sit around, pained and broken, jaded with the world, we see others in relationships and become bitter with love. Meanwhile we take a look at those happy couples around us, and we wonder: "What the fuck? HE/SHE can get someone, but I can't?" Hideous ugly troll women with 8 chins, sparse facial hair, gargantuan ass, cankles bigger than most men's thighs, a high-pitched screeching voice, and a lingering smell of sweltering pork faintly clouded over by febreeze walking hand-in-han

How It Went
The interview for the most part felt like a conversation. I feel the DM has a lot of the same management style philosophies that I hold. She also conceded things she has to watch out for in herself that I know I have to watch for personally. For a couple of my answers she asked to pause for her to write it down becasue she really liked the idea and it had never occurred to her before. She did give great continuations along the same lines as I was iterating on other questions. I honestly got the impression that I was better informed of the company at the corporate level than she was. She started off the interview by answering one of my planned returned questions about her own history with the company. When it came time to ask my return questions I did tell her I had planned to ask that but it was already covered and then moved on to the key elements she looked for in her managers. I finished by asking her what concerns she had at this point about my skill set, qualifications,

How I Feel Right Now
so yea right now i feel like cryin and im not sure why, i just dont know if i can handle everything right now, i have family problems out the ass, grandmas in bad shape and everyones fighting, got friends comin to me with their problems so im helping them even tho i cant even help myself i feel like shit i seriously feel like hiding in a corner and crying call me whatever you want i just cant take all of this, then i have guy trouble on top of everything else, if its not dealin with pervs its dealin with shallow guys, to tell everyone IM FAT you dont like it fuckin move on with yourself like i can take another guy likin me until he finds that out then books it, heres the deal ppl im five foot three and i weigh 320 pounds no joke im short im fat if you dont like it delete me now, quit talkin to me do whatever cuz im seriously goin to stop caring its not like i dont have enough to worry about with world war III goin on in my house like everyday and worrying if my grandma is goin to die

How I Met My Husband
It was 2001. I was on a red line L train at 12am. he was too. He was one of the 10 ppl in a car, and the only cute one. He was lookin at me throught the reflection, I did too At my stop, I and came up to the door to get ready to get off (or to get him to notice me), and he said that I had a a cool necklace (it had a spider on it) he followed me to a parking lot, and I thought he was cute, so I wasn't freaked out. He was kinda behind, so I pretended to be tying my shoe lace so he would catch up. He started talkin to me about music, where I was going, etc. We wound up talkin next to my car for an hour. He lost his .com job, and was going to move home to CA next month He went back to Cali for a friend's wedding, and when he came back, he called me and we went out on a date. We went to a park by my house, where we made out in the grass, then a hot dog place. After that we went to his house, and watched movies for awhile. That was followed by going to a Mexican hole in the wall,

How It Came To Be
Searchers have a question they'd like answered: Who started Father's Day? Who do they have to thank for the mandatory bonding time they're spending with dear ol' dad this weekend? Lookups on "father's day origin" and "who started father's day" inspired us to investigate. The results of our research shook us to our very core. OK, maybe not to our core, exactly. But the story of how Father's Day came to be is still pretty interesting. A blog from a Detroit church explains that most historians credit a woman named Sonora Smart Dodd with creating the holiday. Ms. Smart Dodd was "inspired by her father, a widower and Civil War veteran named William Jackson Smart." She wanted to do something to honor his memory while paying respect to all fathers. Clearly she was a woman with a plan. Alas, not everybody agreed with her pleas to "give it up for the papas" (our words, not hers). In fact, Ms. Smart Dodd's proposal was often mocked when it first made the rounds. Folks felt it unnecessary. And

How I'm Doing
TYSM for caring about me you guys. I've gotten tons of support the last few days cheering me on. For those who don't know, I had oral surgery today. It was the best surgical experience I've ever had so far. The doc is very nice. He explained everything well. Made sure I knew all the risks and complications. He gave me nitrous oxide and oxygen, after 5 or 6 deep breaths my whole body went numb and I didn't care anymore. I felt absolutely nothing, don't remember anything either. 35 minutes later I woke up feeling good, great even. They had given me versed, a medication we give patients when we're going to intubate them (put a tube down their throat)...they monitored my vital signs and everything went well. I was wheeled out to the car, my mama took me there. I came home and put ice on my face and slept and sopped up the blood with several 1x1 cotton pads. I am suffering from a complication of the surgery though. A video I watched several weeks ago said that there's a small chance t

How It Is
How It Is There is no substitution for time Use it wisely for it may be gone Hate not, but feel joy and see beauty Smell the rain, fell the wind, taste the sea. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone. , make peace with your past so it won’t disturb your present

How I Feel Bout Things... For The Hell Of It!
The main issue with me is I'm so use to getting hurt by others and hurt in general that I tend to hurt everyone around me... trust me if I could be warm and loving it would totally rock.. but because I'm only human getting hurt and then lashing out is really the only thing I can do! Do I feel better about myself when it happens HELL NO... but what are you gonna do? Not a whole lot someone can do in my situation... I still give alot because I believe that some day when I need it the most I will receive not that I haven't recieved already for the things that I have done but I'm hoping one day that I will get what I've always wanted and that is to be free... > They say in order to get something that you always wanted that you must work hard in order to achive it... I would love nothing more then to get out of this house and all though I have tried as little as I can... Its still not to the best of my ability and I know that! I'm not good at change at all, hey some people arn't some

How I See The World In The The Lyrics Of Dreamer By Ozzy Osbourne
Dreamer lyricsGazing through the window at the world outside Wondering will mother earth survive Hoping that mankind will stop abusing her sometime After all there's only just the two of us And here we are still fighting for our lives Watching all of history repeat itself Time after time I'm just a dreamer I dream my life away I'm just a dreamer Who dreams of better days I watch the sun go down like everyone of us I'm hoping that the dawn will bring a sign A better place for those Who will come after us ... This time I'm just a dreamer I dream my life away oh yeah I'm just a dreamer Who dreams of better days Your higher power may be God or Jesus Christ It doesn't really matter much to me Without each others help there ain't no hope for us I'm living in a dream of fantasy Oh yeah, yeah, yeah If only we could all just find serenity It would be nice if we could live as one When will all this anger, hate and biggotry ... Be gone?

How It B How It Go
well when things r tuff never give up on what believes in u cuz this person will never give up on u and yr situations u r in, cuz they wont ......this new life this person has is open for u and yr situation how do i get these words across just a wink a smile or a smooch will let me no u r ok im bout to leave and wont b on just need to no u r ok and that u no im on my way to meet my destination got couple hrs left and im gone... let this new walk of life be the best thing that happened for u and me

How I Feel About You?
Here I sit, thinking only of youWondering what is to become of usUnderstanding all you have been throughHoping to slowly gain your trustMy heart aches for you, and also I yearnI want to understand youIn hopes that I will learnYour unique and special qualities amaze meYour smileYour mindYour eyesYour hairYour ability to cheer me upWhen you see that I am downMy feelings for you go beyond that of wordsAnd at first it didn't seem realBut that just taught me a lessonIn doubting what I feelIt seems I dreamed you into lifeAnd the reason for my stareThe bluest skyThe deepest seaDon't even compareYou're so very special in every single wayAnd thoughts of youRun through my headEvery hour of the day I hope that you will understandJust how I feel about youI want to be your guiding handFor all that you go through

How I'm Feeling Right Now
Ok. Just so you know. I'm on the waiting list to have Gastric Band Surgery. I have 12 to 13 weeks to wait. I'm sick of waiting. Last night I found out that My Brothers GF is having another baby. I couldn't handle it. I broke down in floods of tears with the thought of having to wait 2 years until I can have another baby. I was sitting there feeling like I wanted to start self harming again. I wanted to cut deep into my own stomach. I really hate Myself right now. I don't know who to turn to. I can't tell anyone so I thought I would write it down so I can at least get it out of my system. Yeah I have a Daughter. Yeah I have a Husband. But I have never felt more alone than what I do right now. I want to be happy and live my life.