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When Darkness Falls
When darkness falls upon you look up and I will have a light shinning on you. This light is to let you know that you will always have someone standing by your side. You don’t have to go through life alone no more. I will be here for you.

When I Close My Eyes....
When I Close My Eyes When i close my eyes at night i see all the things that went wrong.All the things that could have and should have been avoided.All the things that should not have been said are thrown into the air for all to absorb.Things that are never helpful but instead cause more pain and anguish than one person can stand.One person alone can cause all these bad things, but it takes two to make them go away. I know that without the second there to say, "its ok, tomorrow is a new day" nothing could or would get better.Without that someone there who really understands you, and knows that sometimes your words are not meant in the way they are sometimes taken, you are left all alone with these thoughts and feelings you want and need to express.When these things are left bottled inside they react like a can of soda exploding when shaken. Close the door to the feelings and locking them deep inside is something I tend to do more than i really should, but i know of no othe

When Lazy Catches Up To Stupid...
Good Morning, and welcome to 2009 yuck…wasn’t it just a while ago we were welcoming in 2008 and before that…Ok enough said it sucks getting old. Oh and this about old…well perhaps not old but retired. Ok this is a peeve of mine and just rocks my cradle. People who are retired can normally go anywhere at anytime right? I mean there is no job to hold them back, however it seems that most would rather meet and do their shopping at peek shopping hours. Instead of doing it say in the daytime…when nothing else is going on…I mean the working class has limited time to do said shopping but … ok I know preaching to the choir, preaching to the choir… How about goofy people for starters and Arousing Suspicion: April Westfall, 40, was arrested in Reno, Nev., in December for DUI. An ambulance crew called the Highway Patrol after spotting her driving down U.S. 395 at 4:30 a.m. with a service station's nozzle and severed hose protruding from her gas tank. Jeremy Aron, 33, was arrested for DUI on

When I Rise
When I Rise For now my grave will suffice Though I will have no warmth I will be shielded from pain The darkness almost comforts Bringing a sense of peace Though it may drive me insane My Angel has distanced herself Once again my heart cracks How do we end up in this place? My love seems a burden to her Instead of embracing it She simply turns her face I wish I could erase myself Or just reset my life Maybe life would be different then I would probably be in the same situation The same circumstances surrounding I would still be an inkless pen I am so hurting and tired now My body weakened and frail I will try to close my eyes Maybe when the coma is over I will be a stronger man Hopefully I will When I Rise

~when...why~
when dreams become like the shadows of a dying day- and hopes become like the rain washing fallen tears away- how does one have a feeling of being complete? when the heart becomes like a sieve from all the hurt endured- and the soul becomes like a winter's endless night unfurled- how can one truly feel whole? when feelings become like the air in which you breath- and your eyes become the beholders of what's unseen- - tell me- how can one ever truly believe when what s given. . . has brought not but grief? ~Candyce~

When I Was 25 , I Wrote This
i got the heart of gold but no one to love me.. is this it for me or do i have more to learn ... alot of years has passed an yet i have nothing to show for it.. what can i do with all this pain , but run an deal with it in my own little way... im 25 years old an i lost so much.. i can't run any more my heart can't deal with all the pain... the things i have learned is im strong at heart an i make my own choises... theres a better life out there then im giveing my self ... im a strong woman an i can make anything happen ...

When You Have An "i Hate My Job Day"
try this: On your way home from work, stop at your pharmacy and go to the thermometer section and purchase a rectal thermometer made by Johnson & Johnson. Be very sure you get this brand. When you get home, lock your doors, draw the curtains and disconnect the phone so you will not be disturbed. Change into very comfortable clothing and sit in your favorite chair. Open the package and remove the thermometer. Now, carefully place it on a table or a surface so that it will not become chipped or broken.. Now the fun part begins. Take out the literature from the box and read it carefully. You will notice that in small print there is a statement: 'Every Rectal Thermometer made by Johnson & Johnson is personally tested and then sanitized.' Now, close your eyes and repeat out loud five times, 'I am so glad I do not work in the thermometer quality control department at Johnson & Johnson...' HAVE A NICE DAY AND REMEMBER, THERE IS ALWAYS SOMEONE ELSE WITH A JO

When Tomorrow Starts Without Me
Donald Martin James James, Donald Martin 08-28-1960 - 01-09-2009 Loving husband, father figure, Pop Pop, brother, uncle and a very special friend. He was preceded in death by his mother and father Peggy Louise James, nee Godfrey and Richard Lee James Sr. and two brothers Robert Michael James and Jonathon Timothy James. Donnie was truly loved by all who knew him and will be dearly missed.Services: Service to be held 01-24-09 at 10:00 a.m.Our Lady of the Presentation, 8860 Tudor Ave., Saint Louis, MO 63114. ( Donnie was more than a friend, or father-like to me he was my dad ) When Tomorrow Starts Without Me When tomorrow starts without me, and I'm not there to see; If the sun should rise and find your eyes, all filled with tears for me; I wish so much you wouldn't cry, the way you did today, while thinking of the many things, we didn't get to say. I know how much you love me, as much as I love you, and each time that you think of me, I know you'll miss me too;

When Your Tears Fall
When your tears start to fall I'll be your tissue, The softest solution to all your issues. For I am that star you whole heartedly wished upon, The one to make your worries and insecurities gone. Dry your tears and know a better day is here, No rain, no clouds, nothing to fear. When you feel sad and there seems to be no cure, I'll be that cool relying breeze that's pure. For there can be no other like true love, A feeling so right, we fit like a glove. Cause I'm that star that doesn't burn up with time, I'm the one that makes a romantic night shine. So all those hopeless thoughts you have in your mind, I'll make them go away, you'll see it with time.

When Life Takes A Turn 4 Da Worst
When life takes a turn for the worst. it just seems like everything hurts. every little touch every litte step, u kant take with out feeling swept. swept away & conveintently placed in harms way. when life takes a turn for the worst. you are alwayz in danger & life never gits any plainer. but this girl who has let her life take a turn for the worst has yet 2 no wht its like 2 have a mom. well shes got a mom but she wont accept her. dis mom hates da way shes dresses & how her daughter impresses other people. not acceptin her is like a givin her a lethal....... dose of a drug dat kills all. but u never found out til they fall & quit life like they quite a job. dis girl feels robbed of a good family. her dad cheated on her mom bout 1yr after she waz born. then had da balls 2 git her mom pregnant one more time. knowin dat he cheated has her torn on da inside. she hates dis ride called life. everybody sayz everythings rite. but wht is wrong w/ her is never in plain site. everyday for her i

When Help Is Taken ....sequel To When Life Takes A Turn For The Worst
The girl who needed help is doing better. She is now able to stand any stormy weather. She went to 4winds to get the help she needed. So in 3 weeks time she suceeded. She got out happier then b-4. not worrying bout stupid exs no more. moving on to straightening shyt out. like tryna pass skool is wht she b-came all about. now that shes happy shes startin to grow up. learning when to speak & when to shut up. yea rite she still speaks her mind. but mainly in private to her stepbro most of da time. now her goal is to prove people wrong. like making it thru probation w/out being gone. now instead of hating life and wanting 2morrow 2 never come. now she kant wait for summer to hit & skool to b dun. exploring her options and taking chances. finding new loves and different romances. finally opening her eyes and she the werld and people around. finally able to stand on solid ground. now that she had got the help she needed. she is doing so much better. alot more stable and put 2gether. everyone

"when Your Path Is Blocked"
When your path is blocked, it's likely that you've just encountered a grand opportunity. When what you were planning doesn't go as you planned, it can put you on your way to something even better than you ever imagined. Sure, it's nice when When your path is blocked, it's likely that you've just encountered a grand opportunity. When what you were planning doesn't go as you planned, it can put you on your way to something even better than you ever imagined. Sure, it's nice when everything in your day and in your world goes smoothly and according to plan but yet when a difficult, unexpected challenge arises you truly have a chance to shine. When one door is suddenly slammed shut in your face, it forces you to seek out and open another door. Behind that other door there could very well be a wonderful world filled with astounding richness. If things are going along nicely, you probably will not want to venture very far from what is familiar and comfortable. Yet when you are

When You Least Expect It...
*** Originally Written March 31, 2008 *** When you least expect it the things you’ve been longing for in your life just might happen. But when you’re searching and looking for them they never do. Life is about the little things and learning to appreciate the unexpected. I’ve always said that I wanted to find someone who would surprise me everyday with something silly or goofy, someone who would make me laugh yet know when to be serious too. I always said that I wanted someone to accept me just the way that I am and think I’m beautiful, and who would ignite passion inside of me by the little things he does and says. Well I’ve finally found that person......well actually, HE found ME. When I least expected it. I have been learning recently that when something is right you shouldn’t argue with it. You shoudn’t fight the things that you want the most. In the past when I have found someone that is right and comfortable I have freaked out and thrown them away because they d

When Seniors Attack! (4/22/08)
I think this poor elderly gentleman is off his meds. Does anyone know what nursing home he belongs to? SATANSSEED: i never wanted to fuck a dude so bad in my life baby ->SATANSSEED: Sounds personal, I'm not sure I need to know all that about you. SATANSSEED: dont NEED to know but i told you sexy not a fucking problem either have a nice day.. you take COMPLIMENTS EXTREMELY FUCKING WEL

When Hearts Fall To Pride
Today I have chosen to forsake my daily declaration of love to my one.........she will understand, I hope, that sometimes I need to look at other things that I believe need to be in place ................ Today I saw two people fall out over a silly thing. one wanted to protect another from a perceived threat to her friend. Unfortunately, one sometimes has too much passion for truth and honesty.....she let's it cloud the delicacies of diplomacy. I'm not sure what I should write here........it dusturbs me that two people I have come to care about have landed themselves in this situation...it hurts me also. There is a shame that these two have fallen out. They both head down similar paths....niether one is right for the other.....niether one is wrong for the other....they are their own individual paths that become intertwined now and then. And now, if they continue away from each other, they also lose the chance to learn from each other. Blessed be ♥ Fri

When Best Friends Love
You entered my life like a gentle sigh, like a quiet breeze blowing softly through the leaves. You were a stranger first, one who laughed freely and easily, who spoke of minor intimacies and common grounds, who made me feel strangely liked and valued. You became my friend, no longer a stranger, trusting me with secrets hidden, confiding what you liked and hated. We talked and laughed and, as time passed by, I grew more and more dependent upon your smile. From strangers to friends was just a baby step, a step a thousand others take every day. Without your trust and trusting ways, without your smiles and encouraging gaze, I would never have taken the step beyond. But the gentle breeze blowing through the leaves is relentless and never ending. We became closer friends, and closer still, until much of my life was centered around the times we spent together. We traveled far along the path of friendship, avoiding the bumps somehow, never stumbling, always in step wi

When........
When it Rains it feels like little drops of heaven touching your skin. A feeling like no other, A calming warm rush of comfort that you only feel from a loved one’s hug or a gentle kiss on the cheek. When you smell the flowers the scent dances across your nose, tickles your insides with a giddy sense of childhood when all was simple. When the wind blows it weaves through your hair with tingles of little fingers running through it to make you feel relaxed and serene. When the snow falls on your tongue and it melts away quickly, take your worries and fear no more for it shall fade away as quickly as they came.

When Love Hurts
WHAT DO U DO WHEN U LUV SOME ONE AND U GIVE THEN YOUR ALL. WHAT DO U DO WHEN U TRY TO LOOK PASS THING AND LUV WITH YOUR MIND AS WELL AS YOUR HEART. WHAT DO U DO WHEN THE PERSON U LOVE IS OVER 3000 MILES AWAY AND U CAN'T TOUCH OR FEEL THAT PERSON. HOW DO U TELL YOUR LUV THAT YOU WOULD DIE FOR THEM AND DO ALL U CAN TO MAKE THINGS WORK. WHAT DO U DO WHEN ALL ELSE FAILS....

When I'm Gone
This song struck a chord w/ me tonight. "When I'm Gone" There's another world inside of me That you may never see There're secrets in this life That I can't hide Somewhere in this darkness There's a light that I can't find Maybe it's too far away... Or maybe I'm just blind... Or maybe I'm just blind... [Chorus] So hold me when I'm here Right me when I'm wrong Hold me when I'm scared And love me when I'm gone Everything I am And everything in me Wants to be the one You wanted me to be I'll never let you down Even if I could I'd give up everything If only for your good So hold me when I'm here Right me when I'm wrong You can hold me when I'm scared You won't always be there So love me when I'm gone Love me when I'm gone... When your education X-Ray Cannot see under my skin I won't tell you a damn thing That I could not tell my friends Roaming through this darkness I'm alive but I'm alone Part of me is fighting this But part of me is gone

When We Share
When we share laughter, There's twice the fun; When we share success, We've surpassed what we've done. When we share problems, There's half the pain; When we share tears, A rainbow follows rain. When we share dreams, They become more real; When we share secrets, It's our hearts we reveal. If we share a smile, That's when our love shows; If we share a hug, That's when our love grows. If we share with someone On whom we depend, That person is always Family or friend. ______¢À¢À¢À______________¢À¢À¢À __¢À¢À¢À_____¢À¢À_______¢À¢À____¢À¢À¢À _¢À¢À________¢À¢À_____¢À¢À_______¢À¢À _¢À__LOVE____¢À___¢À____ME______¢À _¢À____________¢À_¢À____________¢À __¢À_________SOME_ME_________¢À ___¢À__________AND__________¢À _____¢À_________MY________¢À _______¢À____FRIENDS____¢À _________¢À___________¢À ___________¢À_______¢À ________¢À_¢À__¢À___¢À__¢À_¢À _______¢À____¢À__¢À__¢À____¢À ________¢À_____¢À¢À_¢À____¢À __________¢À_¢À__¢À¢À__¢À ________________¢À¢À _________________¢À¢À __________________¢À¢À,

When Is Enough Truly Enough?
I have found that my life has had ups and downs for as long as I can remember. My downs do not stay for long because I am very good at lifting my chin up and carrying on. I do not quite know why I am this way, for the most part I thank my father for his parenting skills. Things could have been a lot worse for me, I know for sure as I see it on a daily basis. Currently I am in the second half of my deployment. Due to financial considerations I stayed a bit longer to make sure that I have one more good year. I also have the hopes that I will not be deployed anytime in the near future. I do not have any regrets with the service that I have given to my country. I know that I have a big decision coming up though that will affect the way I live my life for the next 10 years starting in 2010. I currently have four children at home that miss me a whole bunch. I found that out when I was home with them over the holidays. I know that they need me to be around so that I can help

When Depression Owns The Heart
It's a depression so deep it finds a way into the soul. Traveling through every pore of your heart. A depression so enlarged, it encompasses every bit of your reality. Leaving that reality, a mere cloudy memory. A depression so dense, it compresses every will you once had. Bowing you down to accept that will, as it's own. A depression so devious it takes you piece by piece. Consuming each piece, day by day. A depression so truly disheartening, it leaves you, with no other emotions. A depression so dangerous, it slaughters, everything, inside, of you.

When The Day Comes
Hundreds of miles away Yet linked invisibly so her voice is always near My arms long to hold her tight against my chest My mind calls out for her whenever she isn't here My soul weeps with the agony of not being physically near Yet everyday her radiant smile and striking eyes They catch my mind's eye They ensnare me and hold true With promises of my lips on hers I bide my time Loving from afar Till the day comes When I finally lay down my heart at her feet And tell her true that I love her so One day soon I will show her this One day soon... she will love me or not One day soon... this window into me will close

When & How Will I Die?!~ ;)~
When Will I Die by QuizRocket.com fun quizzes! » » Internet Sweepstakes - IQ Tests - The Dumb Test « « Quizzes | Hollywood Movie Trivia Quizzes | Dumb MySpace Quizzes October 31, 2013: Scared to death. You are getting ready to go out with your friends when trick-or-treaters ring the doorbell. You hand out the candy and all the kids leave, except for one small boy. He is dressed in a very real-looking zombie clown costume and stands there, staring at you with his mouth open, breathing slowly and heavily. Slowly, he raises his hand and points. Just as the little boy is about to speak, your friend jumps up behind you and screams, "Boo!" You are so scared you have a heart attack and die. The little boy was just pointing to your friend who was sneaking up on you!

When We Were Young
Halcyon days of tempestuous youth, In a land bathed in summer sun, A world without care, Clothed in the protection of softest wool, Shielded from the horrors of living, Ears closed to unkind words, And inhuman acts, But later, to burst from this cocoon, Our existence of warmth, Screaming in to the dark of abhorrent evils, To sink or swim, sucked down by the fiendish nature of mankind, To swallow the foul bile of real life, Seeping in to your very soul, Contaminating this childish view, With the stench of crippled spirits, Fallen long before, only remembered by pungent memories, The soil beneath our feat sapping our will to carry on, Faces of the weak litter our path, The mud a mix of ashes and spilt blood, A quagmire to swallow you, lost forever in a struggle to be free, But in this life of terminal bondage, Of freedom only for the free, Our only consolation and ray of hope, Is, One day it will be over.

When Were Together
When were together the world stands still, Us meeting must have been God's will. When were together the birds always sing, You're holding me under an angel's wing. When were together the flowers always bloom, My world without you would be doom. When were together the sky is not gray, The day you asked me to be yours was a glorious day. When were together and your lips touch mine, The feeling is truly devine. When were together I can't help but to touch, Because I love you so much.

When
When I am with you eternity seems to step away my love continues to grow with each passing day This is a treasure of love I treasure you with my soul how much I love you you'll never truly know You bring joy to my heart I never felt before with each touch of your heart I love you more and more Whenever we say goodbye whenever we part know I hold you dearly deep inside my heart So these seven words I pray you hold true " forever and Always I will love you"

When You Say Nothing At All..
It's amazing how you Can speak right to my heart Without saying a word You can light up the dark Try as I may I could never explain What I hear when you don't say a thing The smile on your face Let's me know that you need me There's a truth in your eyes Saying you'll never leave me A touch of your hand Says you'll catch me if ever I fall Yeah, you say it best When you say nothing at all All day long I can hear People talking out loud But when you hold me near You drown out the crowd Old Mr. Webster could never define What's being said between your heart and mine The smile on your face Lets me know that you need me There's a truth in you eyes Saying you'll never leave me A touch of your hand Says you'll catch me If ever I fall Yeah, you say it best When you say nothing at all The smile on your face Lets me know that you need me There's a truth in your eyes Saying you'll never leave me A touch of your hand says you'll catch me If ever I fall Yeah, you

When?
Im pretty much praying that tomorrow is a better day. between my back really bothering me and drama I really feel like giving up. Not that anyone is going to read my rant but hey maybe I'll feel better. I really just dont know what else to do. I shouldnt let 1 person get away with murder. well not killing me but close enough, killing my spirit and joy to be happy. although Im sure thats the master plan. sadly enough its starting to work. I really dont know how much more of the foolishness I can stand. I mean when is enough enough. between all the ex's I've had I think this one takes the cake. hell this prick takes the ice cream too. how low is someone willing to go over rejection. it makes me sick to my stomach. maybe coming back to fubar was a dumb idea. who knows

When Karoake Goes Bad...
Here's some links for my singing...tho I use that term loosely. Apparently in order to add reverb and other snazzy effects that make you sound less shitty, you have to get a premium account. Mine's obviously FREE. Listen at your own risk...I'm not paying for anyone's hospital or psyche bills! Here's the main page as I keep deleting and rerecording, etc... Oh and I had to upgrade cuz they only let you sing ten times. My Karaoke Page

When I Die And Old People
Man.......I just wish when it's my time to die ....I hope I go peacefully in my sleep just like my grandfather did........and not screaming like his passengers. I hate weddings cuz old people always walk up to me,poke me and say " YOUR NEXT !! " so to get even with them senior citizens.....I started doing the same EXACT thing to them when they attend funerals......just sayin

When Your Not There....
When you're not there My life has no meaning, Your's does but it has no feeling. You think I am there but you can't touch me, Or hold me. Everything is dark and in a shadow. You think I am OK But really don't know I cry at night Not in front of you though. Nothing can change between Me and you It's all dark and scary, but not to you. You think I am happy and cheerful But everything you see is untruthful. I can't explain what I feel when I am with you, I feel safe, happy, everything I never felt before. My friends say you're ugly, My friends say you're cute. Oh what the heck it's me and you.

When Blood Is Spilled...so Casually...
one never knows what awaits one from day to day... work stations are, by definition, not the most pleasurable of life's stations...but for some it takes on various permutations of unpleasantry...often unecessarily so as well... a case in point would be that which occurred last night at my work 'station', acting as i was in the capacity of leading hand due to illness of the regular one. when the call came in i took on the responsibility of acting on it, allowing for the crew to carry on their normal duties; having an 'extra' person certainly helped... the call was for dealing with an issue of blood around a payphone outside one of the train staions, where apparently they hadn't of yet ascertained much more, such as the extent of the loss, etc. the next call did however, after i'd made the commitment to respond to it myself. apparently the blood spill was extensive, going through the entire station, the platform...outside and down along the walkway and bridge... steeling myself for a

When It Was
When things began it was all new and fresh, I came for you lest we forget The time we met and the time we touched Beyond our dreams skyward we launched Of something else our dreams were forged Like the furnace of a blacksmiths cause We held each other and felt that glowing warmth Of slowly learning to trust the dawn No words I have to right the past No songs to sing and take it back No hope is left as it turns to ash No Light shines through what was meant to last A mighty castle was built upon our shores With turrets and towers and gargantuan walls A bastion of Hope passion and desire With callous cruelty it was beset by fire The walls did splinter and the earth shook As a scarlet dragon came to claim his due The princess walked forth to accept her fate Her forgotten prince coming much too late No words I have to right the past No songs to sing and take it back No hope is left as it turns to ash No Light shines through what was meant to last Such is

When Such Was Life...
A stout young fellow spoke of a fairy tale society, lost in a labrynth of disfigured Bugs Bunny puns. With a single clasp of its mighty wings, the great wurm over took the maiden and pinning her to the ground... ... "the school called again. They say he..." I sit here day in and day out waiting watching. I'm like some cat awaiting its prey. Waiting, watching memorizing its schedule then... "So do you think," he stammered, "maybe you'd"... falling twisting turning sounds have color "CAPITULATE!!!!" On his knees in the pew the child knelt. Struggling against the pain that began to bite into his knees to keep his back perfectly straight as the nuns had taught him. He did not cheat and hold himself up with his elbows. Tears streamed down his face. "Why, God?" he prayed as he wept. "Never, I aquiesce to none" sights tinkle with notes flying pirouetting wracking ...shaking so hard he nearly vomitted he managed a weak smile, "go t

When The Lord Made Paramedics
... he was into his sixth day of overtime when an angel appeared and said, "You're doing a lot of fiddling around on this one." And the Lord said, "Have you read the specs on this order? A paramedic has to be able to carry an injured person up a wet grassy hill in the dark, dodge stray bullets to reach a dying child unarmed, enter homes the health inspector wouldn't touch, and not wrinkle his uniform." "He has to be able to lift 3 times his own weight, crawl into wrecked cars with barely enough room to move, and console a grieving mother as he is doing CPR on a baby he knows will never breath again." "He has to be in top mental condition at all times, running on no sleep, black coffee and half-eaten meals. And he has to have six pairs of hands." The angel shook her head slowly and said, "Six pairs of hands...no way." "It's not the hands that are causing me problems," said the Lord, "It's the three pairs of eyes a medic has to have." "That's on the standard model?" asked the ange

When It Rains, It Fucking Pours!
WARNING! The word "Motherfucker" is used quite a few times in the following blog entry! Motherfucker. I've been using that word A LOT today! Not only is my relationship slooowly going down the drain with Lane (he says I'm being MEAN to him!) but some motherfucker broke in to my car and ripped out in the ignition while trying to steal it! Motherfucker!! Now that I got that out of my system, saying that I am PISSED would be the understatement of 2009. Not only does my relationship need to be fixed, but my motherfucking car does too! Do wonders ever cease? I can't frigging believe this...it always happens this way. When one thing happens, everything else happens. It was like this last year when I had my nervous breakdown. One thing happened, and then, just as quick as that happened, everything else came tumbling down. My relationship. My family. My friends. I don't want to go down that dark place again, especially since I have Piper. I won't go to that dark pl

When God Made Police Officers
WHEN GOD MADE POLICE OFFICERS When the Lord was creating police officers, he was into his sixth day of overtime when an angel appeared and said, "You're doing a lot of fiddling around on this one." And the Lord said, "Have you read the spec on this order? A peace officer has to be able to run five miles through alleys in the dark, scale walls, enter homes the health inspector wouldn't touch, and not wrinkle his uniform. "He has to be able to sit in an undercover car all day on a stakeout, cover a homicide scene that night, canvass the neighborhood for witnesses, and testify in court the next day. "He has to be in top physical condition at all times, running on black coffee and half-eaten meals. And he has to have six pairs of hands." The angel shook her head slowly and said, "Six pairs of hands... no way." "It's not the hands that are causing me problems," said the Lord, "it's the three pairs of eyes an officer has to have." "That's on the standard model?" aske

When Humankind Strikes...
so...last night...arriving at the station....standing around the front were 3 guys, all dressed in the same fashion....watching....observing...even as one immediately moved out of our line of vision... this is one of my stations....and while it has always had a reputation for bad things going down, i have never really felt intimidated working it on my own...sure there was the 'psychotic who went weird towards me when i politely declined walnut pieces....and then there were the two goofs who delighted in threatening 3 kids on their way home from the batman movie premiere...and a few other situations...but by and large it has been quite quiet... i sense things here....people behind em when there is no one around...last week i heard a voice...the most beautiful voice... but the all-too-real footsteps from people non-existent has been the most unsettling of things to occur here.... so last night...due to a late start i worked with another person....all things uneventful. as we aw

When The Rules Change
I was reading a mumm this evening about a man who has been with this woman for 5 years and suddenly now she wants the "ever after" and kids. The thing is that she knew right up front that he was never going to want that. So what happens when you fall in love with someone and want totally different things. I will never get married again. I had the perfect marriage and although I lost him at a young age, I never want that marriage thing again. But like the rest of the world I want someone special in my life. I am not sitting here however just waiting for him to pop into my life. I have a wonderful life now, although there are some things I would like a bit differently. I think people go into relationships that have different boundaries with their eyes wide open, but figure at some point in the relationship they will be able to bend the rules and get what they originally wanted in the first place. They tend to hold it over the other person's head that if that person doesn't do

When It Rains It Pours, It Pours It Rains Insanely
subject:When it rains it pours, it pours it rains insanely post date:2007-11-17 12:04:37 views: 24 comments: 1 ratings: 0 Ah, the joys and woes of home ownership. As a Realtor, and a lady with big dreams, buying my first house this year was such an exciting endeavor...to begin with anyways! Having a place of my own to decorate, enjoy, and do as I please in was a dream come true, and helped to solidify some knowledge as a Buyer and an Agent. Not to mention the whole emotional security of a personal retreat from all the entropy of daily life! However, if I had had a crystal ball, I might have thought twice about this purchase. I must subconsciously be asking the Universe for shit on a platter, cuz that is what I keep getting! Since I have bought this place, my BF has had trouble getting paid in his new career, the Real Estate market went super soft in my area, my Mother passed away, and every other month, there is a new expensive repair I had not anticipated (this month

When U Say Nothing At All
It's amazing how you can speak right to my heart. Without sayin' a word you can light up the dark. Try as I may I could never explain, what I hear when you don't say a thing. The smile on your face lets me know that you need me. There's a truth in your eyes sayin' you'll never leave me. The touch of your hand says you'll catch me if ever I fall. You say it best, when you say nothin' at all. All alone I can hear people talking about, but when you hold me near you drown out the crowd. Old Mr Webster could never define what 's bein' said between your heart and mine. The smile on your face lets me know that you need me. There's a truth in your eyes sayin' you'll never leave me. The touch of your hand says you'll catch me if ever I fall. You say it best, when you say nothin' at all. The smile on your face lets me know that you need me. There's a truth in your eyes sayin' you'll never leave me. The touch of your hand says you'll catch me if ever I fall. You say it

When You Love Someone
when you love someone - you'll do anything you'll do all the crazy things that you can't explain you'll shoot the moon - put out the sun when you love someone you'll deny the truth - believe a lie there'll be times that you'll believe you can really fly but you're lonely nights - have just begun when you love someone when you love someone - you'll feel it deep inside and nothin else can ever change your mind when you want someone - when you need someone when you love someone... when you love someone - you'll sacrifice you'd give it everything you got and you won't think twice you'd risk it all - no matter what may come when you love someone you'll shoot the moon - put out the sun when you love someone

When Is It Wrong To Judge?
In today's society we are constantly hearing about how wrong it is to judge anyone for anything. But when is it actually wrong to judge someone? I believe the confusion comes in two types of judging another person. Those being: (1) Judging a person for who they are and/or what they believe and... (2) Judging a person to condemn them for who they are and/or what they beleive The first type is a type of judgment that we all do pretty much everyday of our lives. It is quite impossible to get to know anyone without judging them for who they are. It is also necessary to judge a person's character in order to protect ourselves from being hurt in some way. As you read this blog, or any of my other ones, you judge my character and my writing as you read. It is simply an innate action that we all have. It is also one that I do not see as being wrong in any way. You will actually judge my opinion, and therefore me as you read this!!! The second type of judgment, and the one I view

When Do You Say 'i'm Done'?
Sometimes, you have to ask yourself when enough is enough. It pretty much applies to everything, I guess. Food, beer, relationships...at some point you have to decide if it is worth the pain, annoyance, or irritation. Some people say that we're a generation that gives up too easily, and I say that's bullshit. After years of Go, Go, Go, a person has a right to ask himself if he's actually getting anywhere. I've seen marriages end after 40 years, and while I have NO idea how that can happen, I can understand why it happens. At some point, you have to ask yourself if it's really worth it all. You gotta know that when you die - like we all will at some point - whether it was worth it. A lot of people think that it's just the way things are, but I think we make our way in life. I think you gotta just let it go when it's eating you like a cancer inside. Otherwise, it's just slow suicide. I've stood on the edge of quitting it all a few times, and I keep looking at falling on the si

When I'm With You
When I'm with you, eternity is a step away, my love continues to grow, with each passing day. This treasure of love, I cherish within my soul, how much I love you... you'll never really know. You bring a joy to my heart, I've never felt before, with each touch of your hand, I love you more and more. Whenever we say goodbye, whenever we part, know I hold you dearly, deep inside my heart. So these seven words, I pray you hold true, "Forever And Always, I Will Love You."

When I Look Into His Eyes
when i look into his eyes i see untold pleasures i watch his lips move wondering what they taste like his voice calls to me from my deepest slumber caresses over my skin so light n tantalizing sleep filled with dreams of you coming to me sighing because i miss him so is he real or my shadow lover do i reach out an touch skin or nothing i want my lover skin to skin warmth engulfing us if you are a shadow then caress me with your love

When Is Enough .....
Why is it you want the love of someone who doesnt love you back, the bad boy over the good guy, the heartache when you could have the happiness. Desire the wrong man when the right one is right in front of you? The question is: How much are you willing to take before you say , "Enough is enough!" and start saying, "I want the love of a good man!" And "I want the Happy Ending!" but is there such a thing anymore id settle for a tarnished knight in armor

When Im Gone
Yeah... It's my life... My own words I guess... Have you ever loved someone so much, you'd give an arm for? Not the expression, no, literally give an arm for? When they know they're your heart And you know you are their armor And you will destroy anyone who would try to harm 'her But what happens when karma, turns right around and bites you? And everything you stand for, turns on you, despite you? What happens when you become the main source of her pain? "Dad Im going with a friend "No baby why don't you stay. But dad i need time to go with them, i haven't seen them I want to go to baby take me with you Why is it that your friends invite you and i can't see you Then turn right around in that song and tell her you love her And put hands on her , and make love to her That's Sergio , yeah baby, sergio is crazy Sergio made me, but tonight Sergio is rocka-by-baby... And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn Rejoice every time you hear the sou

When I'm Wrong
Ever have one of those days when you are just wrong? No one has done you wrong, it just seems that every step you take is just off enough to interfere with someone else. Everything you say is just off enough to cause misunderstanding and bits of argument. Everything you do is just …wrong. How do you go about addressing people when you are afraid of making a sound? How do you converse or joke with your friends when your mind tells you that you’ll offend them eventually? And the sad part is when someone asks what’s wrong? What do you say? “Oh Nothing, I’m just afraid that if I open my mouth again my foot will insert itself.”? That would be brilliant right? Or even better, say nothings wrong and try to hide that it hurts to feel like a consummate screw up. I mean nothing is worse then self pity right? What is the advice I hear the most? Shake it off, let it roll off your back? Just for one day I would like for the stupid voices in the back of my head to st

When Angels Cry
I HEARD A SOUND TODAY THAT I NEVER WANTED TO HEAR. I HEARD A ANGEL CRY OUT IN FEAR. SHE CRIED OUT FOR HELP BUT NO ONE CAME. SHE LAY IN A CORNER CRYING IN SHAME. SHE SAID NOT A WORD AS THE PAIN GREW MORE SHE SAID NOT A WORD AS HE WALKED OUT THE DOOR. SHE PRAYED TO DIE SHE PRAYED TO LIVE ! SHE ASKED GOD TO PLEASE END ALL THIS SIN. HER CRIES WENT UNANSWERED. NO ONE HEARD TODAY THEY LAY HER IN THE EARTH. I HEARD A SOUND TODAY I DID NOT KNOW I HEARD A SONG AS THE COLD WIND BLOWS. THE SOUND I HEARD WAS THAT ANGEL CALLING. PLEASE HELP THE CHILDREN .OUR HEAVENS ARE FALLING. I HEAR HER NOW LOUD AND CLEAR. I JUST WONDER WHY I NEVER SAW HER TEARS.

When Chihuahua's Attack
I was at work today happily playing photographer having a fairly good day when I was the recipient of an unprovoked attack from a vicious chihuahua. I mean this thing was angry, it tried to rip my face off then when it couldn't it settled on my pant leg. I learned some things about chihuahuas today I'd like to share: - They are enraged by flashing lights - You should not name one nugget - If you own a chihuahua named nugget you are an idiot - Once one attaches itself you you its like a mini vice grip - They are fucking ugly - I hate them - They have the tenacity of Rocky Balboa So this thing is gnawing away on my pant leg like he is Jesus at the last supper and the useless owner is sitting there yelling at it, not doing anything. The yelling seemed to egg it on because every time he yelled "NUGGET STOP THAT!" it attacked with renewed vigor. Now I need new khakis. Finally I release my pant leg from its jaws of vengeance and pushed it away. I can't really blame the

When You Just Stop Caring....
I have come to a realization! When you care.....you get your feelings hurt, your heart broken and your expectations of something real are shot to hell. If you stop giving a fuck.....its all so much better. Nobody messes with your emotions or feelings, you have no expectations of anyone and you sure dont get hurt. The only hurt is the hole left in your heart when you thought love was a real thing. Im just not so sure anymore........ Leaving it at that!

When I Went To Bed At 5:30 A.m. , I Was 12 Hours Backlogged -- Now 20 Hours.
IT MAY GET WORSE, SO I AM PRIORITIZING -- PLEASE EXCUSE -- I WILL RESPOND CHECKOUT OF UNREAD MESSAGES & NEW FRIEND REQUESTS. AS I INDICATED IN "ABOUT ME" LAST NIGHT, I TOOK COMPUTER TO HAVE IT FIXED YESTERDAY, SO STARTED OUT LATE TO BEGIN WITH. · Bon-shell just checked you out! 26 mins ago · bikerjk67 just checked you out! 36 mins ago · thunderz just checked you out! 2 hrs ago · SnowWhite Queen just sent you a message! 2 hrs ago · Bunnie accepted your friend request! 2 hrs ago · *GODDESS OF THE... left you a new blog comment! 3 hrs ago · *GODDESS OF THE... rated your blog a '10'! 3 hrs ago · *GODDESS OF THE... left you a new blog comment! 3 hrs ago · *GODDESS OF THE... left you a new blog comment! 3 hrs ago · *GODDESS OF THE... rated your blog a '10'! 3 hrs ago · *GODDESS OF THE... left you a new blog comment! 3 hrs ago · *GODDESS OF THE... rated your blog a '10'! 3 hrs ago · *GODDESS OF THE... rated your blog a '10'! 3 hrs ago · *GODDESS OF THE.

When I Was A Kid
I was just thinking about how different things were back when i was a kid growing up. I grew up in the 1970s, we didn't have video games, cable tv, internet, computers, HD Tv's, hi tech stereo systems, Ipods, MP3s. Bands weren't even releasing albums on cassette tapes til the late 1970s early 1980s. But here are some things we did have that you just don't see around anymore, and if they are still around they are very very rare. Back in the day we had real to real tape decks, we had record players, we had the 8-track tape player, we had telephone booths, rotary phones, slot car race tracks, model train sets, the milkman. There were no walmarts, lowes, home depot, best buy, target, circuit city ect... we had Pay N Save, Fred Meyer Market Time, Pay N Pak, Thriftway, Speaker Lab, Pacific Stereo. For fun places to go we had what we called a front yard, we played in it with our friends. We actually had real life friends that we played with in our yard or we went to their house or we walked u

When I Make Godfather......
Just wanted to give a personal thank you to all my friends who have helped me get to FU-KING and gave of themselves unselfishly. At the moment I am currently 1.2 mil away from Godfather, I'll get there someday... for those who have gotten there already, you knaow that is time to make a personal choice .. Good or Evil. I am taking a poll here for what path you think I am on ...... LOL , be nice now or this Viper may BITE YA ! LMFAO Thanks, Joe Viper

When Tomorrow Starts Without Me
When Tomorrow Starts Without Me When tomorrow starts without me, and I’m not there to see; If the sun should rise and find your eyes, all filled with tears for me; I wish so much you wouldn’t cry, the way you did today, while thinking of the many things, we didn’t get to say. I know how much you love me, as much as I love you, and each time that you think of me, I know you’ll miss me too; But when tomorrow starts without me, please try to understand, that an Angel came and called my name, and took me by the hand, and said my place was ready, in heaven far above, and that I’d have to leave behind, all those I dearly love. But as I turned to walk away, a tear fell from my eye, for all life, I’d always thought, I didn’t want to die. I had so much to live for, so much yet to do, It seemed almost impossible, that I was leaving you. I thought of all the yesterdays, the good ones and the bad, I thought of all the love we shared, and all the fun we had.

When You Love Someone
"When You Love Someone" Oooh..Ooooh I tell you it will shake the earth beneath your feet The light that shines will redefine your old beliefs What you reap is what you sow and so it goes Where you plant your needs is where your garden grows Before you think about yourself Think of someone else, it will make you feel Each day ain't wine and roses I doubt it's meant to be Always a cross to bear salvation don't come free A heart that beats is a heart that bleeds And you know that's true So don't deny yourself of something good for you Before you do it for yourself, do it for someone else That makes it real [Chorus:] 'Cause when you love someone It don't matter what you say When you love someone You will dance the night away When you love someone There ain't nothing you can't do Ain't that right Yeah I want to love someone tonight Will you believe in love or just sit around and judge? Can you forgive someone or will u hold a grudge? Cuz above selfishness

When Crushes Are Crushed!
So I sit here broken hearted because my internet sweetheart has revealed their true love online. Am I alone thinking there is love here, there anywhere. I once thought I had love then it disappeared then I found it again and once again it escaped me. After many years of marriage love vanished before I knew it escaped and then I wondered is love just in my mind or does it really exists? Was I ever really in love or did I just wish it happened to me so I was happy at the thought of someone finding it with me. I can't deny that I am always happy to see my friends happy and find someone to share life and love with, but what of me? Yes I know I am not alone and other's face it every day, but it doesn't relieve my pain any less. I just go on with a smile on my face faking happiness so I don't share my sorrow but where can I put it all? No I am not looking for sympathy, in fact I don't even care if anyone responds. I just want to feel that happiness again. Sure I have faith in God but h

When I Wake Up
when i wake up i don't like getting up because its seem like i just want to bed not that along ago but when i do get going and get ready to go out side its is dark outside i don't like it outside when it is sunny out because then u can't see out there unless u wear sunglasses.

When Smiles Collide
Two whispered souls From across the room Who have thoughts of despair and gloom. But for just a moment They're lost in time And spirits lift When smiles collide. Suddenly, they feel that all's not lost Kindred souls together A simple gesture's brought. A gentle lift of sunshine upon lips that cannot hide The act of human kindness When smiles collide.

When Irish Eyes Are Smiling
There's a tear in your eye, And I'm wondering why, For it never should be there at all. With such pow'r in your smile, Sure a stone you'd beguile, So there's never a teardrop should fall. When your sweet lilting laughter's Like some fairy song, And your eyes twinkle bright as can be; You should laugh all the while And all other times smile, And now, smile a smile for me. When Irish eyes are smiling, Sure, 'tis like the morn in Spring. In the lilt of Irish laughter You can hear the angels sing. When Irish hearts are happy, All the world seems bright and gay. And when Irish eyes are smiling, Sure, they steal your heart away. For your smile is a part Of the love in your heart, And it makes even sunshine more bright. Like the linnet's sweet song, Crooning all the day long, Comes your laughter and light. For the springtime of life Is the sweetest of all There is ne'er a real care or regret; And while springtime is ours Throughout all of youth's hours, Let

When It Comes To Disciplining Children
John: Before my parents punished me for some wrongdoing, they would put forth real effort to understand my motive and the circumstances involved. I try to imitate their approach when dealing with my daughters. My wife, Alison, comes from a different background. Her mother and father were more impulsive. They seem to have chastised their children without being concerned about the circumstances surrounding an incident. Sometimes I feel that my wife disciplines our children in a similarly harsh manner. Carol: My father deserted our family when I was just five years old. He showed no interest in my three siblings or me. My mom worked very hard to provide for us, and I shouldered a lot of responsibility in caring for my younger sisters. It was hard to enjoy being a kid when i Had to play the role of parent. To this day, I am more serious than playful. When my own children need discipline, I agonize over their mistakes. I like to know why something happened and what the thought process wa

When I Close My Eyes
A gentle hand against my cheek lingers soft through out the night though you're gone, you're always near when a lonely mind takes flight. Love wakes the sleeping soul A yearning heart still cries Lying safely in your arms sensuality' sighs Darkness hides the aching heart Reaching into distant time A pillow of pure fantasy Where life at last is always kind All my wishes, all my dreams So sweetly realized In true bliss, and happiness When I close my eyes

When I Grow Up
When I grow up I wanna be famous I wanna be a star I wanna be in movies When I grow up I wanna see the world Drive nice cars I wanna have groupies So until today I thought that the last line of the chorus to that song from Pussy Cat Dolls was "I wanna have boobies." I am slightly depressed that it isn't.

When I Am Gone
Will your tears fill creek beds When I am dead and gone Will your days seem endless For you, lasting too long. I never would wish you To ever feel this way Then please my darling Listen close to what I have to say. Be happy with our lives Share all your smiles with me I will show you true happiness Unlike anything you will ever see. When it's time, and death does come Rejoice and smile to the sky Be happy that now I am home From those beautiful eyes do not cry. Someday after I'm gone You will eventually join me And forever we will go Hand in hand through eternity.

~when Luv Hurtz~
When Love is True.. There are two people and two hearts, Then there becomes a moment when there becomes two sparks, But then they, us be true to our own conscious, And that is when u know no matter, How many bumps in the road, Or how we move on cause we have no hope left, Deap inside those two hearts are still beatin, Now not just as two different people, But as one heartbeat. Author: Jamie

When The Cage Is Open...
I've waited for my whole to find you. I dream like the dessert dreams of rain. Then the heavens opened up and you decended the rain drops through my fingers slipped away. now im so afraid that you'll fly away and no cage on earth could ever make you stay. now im so afraid that you'll fly away when the cage is open will you fly away? so i tried to be everything that you wanted but i failed to be anything at all. i knew there would come a day that you'd discover i'm just an ordinary human after all.. And im so afraid that youll fly away and no cage on earth could ever make you stay now im so afraid that youll fly away when the chains are broken will you fly away? these words are broken, these wings wont fly i'm trapped here on the ground but you reach for the sky.. im so afraid to let you fly away when the cage is open will you fly away when the chains are broken and the cages is open will my heart be broken? will you fly away?

When A Man Says He Loves You
When a man says he loves you and says he's main concern is your happiness. Listen not to what he says, But what he does. Be sure his actions speaks to his words and his love is true and real. Cuz it will hurt like shit when he shows you the true meaning of, ACTIONS SPEAKS LOUDER THAN WORDS

When Will I
When will i be the one that gets the peace that i need, just want serenity When will i be the girl who can hurt everyone like they hurt her When will i understand why things happen like this When will i be able to feel secure knowing that every day it isn't another competition that i wasn't aware i was competing in When will i feel like i'm not stabbed in the back by the ones i love so much and have done good things for When will i be able to say that it really doesn't matter When will i be allowed to feel pissed off at every guy that kicked me to the curb and went for one of my girls When will i never smile and laugh even though deep inside i'm crying out my eyes When will i rise above all your bullshit and realize that you are just a figment of my imagination When will i get the respect and honor that i know i deserve When will i learn that the person i am is a dead breed, we don't belong in this society When will i be able to open up my mouth and spit the shit that you al

When Down Is Up
Things can happen in the strangest of ways... some of you know about what people call a near death experience... that is when you offically die but a medic restores you right away, some people recall a vision during that time about a tunnel of light -etc. The vision is so realistic it can often transform their whole life from that moment on. Many visions happen during such circumstances, often called revelations or enlightenment. Black Elk ( native American ) had his vision when he was very sick and in a fever, he kept it a secret but finally told the tribal medicene man and was told that his vision qualifed him to become a holy man of the tribe (aka medicene man) and many years later his stories became the foundation for some of the beliefs held by Native Americans in this generation. Fasting for many days can also bring one close to near death and generate a vision, much like the one Jesus experienced when fasting in the isolated desert. In some kinds of meditation

When You Feel You Have No One.
Its been a while since a man has hurt me, and the one that hurt me last night I never thought would. But then again I guess that's always how I feel. I tend to trust everyone, even when I know I shouldn't. I've always felt that everyone is good deep down, and that you should look to the future and not the past, but is there a point when you should take into consideration how they were in the past? I guess I did see him slipping back into his old ways slowly, I just hope that his being drunk and treating me the way he did last night isn't going to be how he's going to be from now on. I do care for him and have been proud of all that he's accomplished while he's been here, but if he's going to continue to drink I don't think I can be his friend anymore. I don't drop friends, I've never just stopped being friends with someone. So when do you say that something that happened was bad enough to end a friendship you've always held close to you? Right now I'm hurt and mad, and can't beli

When I Have Time
I'm gonna be a busy lady here soon. Not gonna be around to chat or much of anything else. I also will not be buying anymore goodies on here. So I can't return certain things. I just gotta keep moving. Always your friend...just a little busy with life. Love to you all. Sorry if I disappoint you.

When You Thought I Wasn't Looking
WHEN YOU THOUGHT I WASN'T LOOKING A message every adult should read because children are watching you and doing as you do, not as you say. When you thought I wasn't looking I saw you hang my first painting on the refrigerator, and I immediately wanted to paint another one. When you thought I wasn't looking I saw you feed a stray cat, and I learned that it was good to be kind to animals. When you thought I wasn't looking I saw you make my favorite cake for me, and I learned that the little things can be the special things in life. When you thought I wasn't looking I heard you say a prayer, and I knew that there is a God I could always talk to, and I learned to trust in Him. When you thought I wasn't looking I saw you make a meal and take it to a friend who was sick, and I learned that we all have to help take care of each other. When you thought I wasn't looking, I saw you give of your time and money to help people who had

When Is It Time
When is it time to say goodbye, To all the love I've known, When is it time to end your pain, And leave me all alone? I've watched you on your good days when I feel your strength renewed; But shortly after little ups, The down days then ensue. We ride this roller-coaster of Emotions as we try, To make it through another day, And yet, I can't deny ... That as I look into your face On days that have been bad, I see a look that beckons me It's tired, and hurt, and sad. The little spark I used to see Behind those loving eyes, Is growing ever clouded By life's cruel inhumane side. I try to see beyond the pain You feel with every step; And softly whisper to myself This may get better yet. If I can bear to watch you Just another day or two; I justify my reasons to Ensure I cling to you. For letting go is harder for The person left behind; It means that if I let you go, I cannot turn back time. Back to the days I long for now, When you were full

When You Said
When you said, "I love you," I went over the moon. My heart sang its glory, The stars sang in tune. As when with a word God brought forth light, So with those words You ended my night. So with these words You made something new: A bond of devotion Between me and you. How powerful words To shape who we are! We ponder in silence; Our words cross a bar. Your words crossed a threshold And entered the past, Yet they have created A world that will last. I love you!

When Life Gives You Lemons
From time to time life gives you lemons....I guess the question is what do you do with the lemons. You could choose to suck on them and be bitter or and some sugar and make lemonade. Personally I choose to add sugar. I sucked on too damn many lemons in the past and think that it might have shortened my life. There are enough people in this world that choose to be bitter...well I am not one of them are you? Remember it takes more muscles to frown then smile. Just a thought....Thanks

When Boredom Strikes...
~Have you thought about an ex today? sigh..yes.. ~Where is the person who has your heart at the moment? No one has my heart! ~Would you date someone who lived in another state? eh...I dunno..it's possible ~Could you handle a long distance relationship? I can...I don't trust guys though..lol ~When's the last time you said you were fine, but really weren't? Prolly today sometime..who knows ~Relationships or one night stands? Relationships ~When was the last time you wanted to punch someone in their face? this afternoon ~Is there anyone who doesn't like you? Of course. Do I look like I really give a shit though? ~Do you laugh a lot? Probably too much ~Do you consider yourself lucky? I'm the unluckiest girl you'll meet ~Connection between you and the last person who text messaged you? I dunno RIP Phone ~Do you think you're pregnant? HELL to the NO! ~You have to get a facial piercing, what do you get? I have one..m

When Shes Down Poem
when shes down nobody's around but she felt it she cant be helped time can only tell rain hides her tears to meany story's to tell she hides her heart only to feel safe not to be left behind she cant dry those eyes her wound's cant heal but only to be lost she cant help it she has no reason but only to scream her only place is home...

When Im With You....
When I'm with you, eternity is a step away. My love continues to grow, with each passing day. This treasure of love, I cherish within my soul, how much I love you... you'll never really know. You bring a joy to my heart, Like I've never felt before. With each touch of your hand, I love you more and more. Whenever we say goodbye, whenever we are apart. Always know I hold you dearly, deep inside my heart. So these seven words, I pray you hold true. "Forever And Always, I Will Love You." WORDS CAN NEVA REALLY EXPRESS TRUE LOVE BUT MAYBE THOSE OF U IN LOVE MAY RELATE TO THIS...HOPE YALL LIKE...PLS COMMENT AND RATE! THANX

When Northerners Move To The South ..
The North has sun-dried toe-mah-toes, the South has 'mater samiches. The North has coffee houses, the South has Waffle Houses. The North has dating services, the South has family reunions. The North has switchblade knives, the South has Lee Press-on Nails. The North has double last names, the South has double first names. The North has Ted Kennedy, the South has Jesse Helms. The North has an ambulance, the South has an amalance. The North has Indy car races, the South has stock car races. The North has Cream of Wheat, the South has grits. The North has green salads, the South has collard greens. The North has lobsters, the South has crawdads. The North has the rust belt, the South has the Bible Belt. If you run your car into a ditch, don't panic. Four men in a four-wheel drive pickup truck with a tow chain will be along shortly. Don't try to help them, just stay out of their way. This is what they live for. Don't be surprised to find movie rentals and

When I Sleep
When I Sleep When darkness awakens, my body settles gently into bed. The events of my day race rapidly in my thoughts as I close my eyes. Slowly, I am lulled into a peaceful sleep.I hear vibrant music - so full of passion. I feel the warmth of the sun’s rays that grace my presence. I see kind, adoring eyes gazing back into mine.The air is full happiness - so much laughter. Soft caresses are exchanged. At this moment, life could not be any more wonderful.I have never felt so beautiful; as I do when I am with you. I have finally found the respect and acceptance that I have yearned for. I eagerly listen to inspirational dreams and goals and know that I want to be the one to be there when they are complete.A thin line of love and friendship is crossed, and two single souls find a home to share eternity.Birds begin to proudly serenade the morning dawn. Lonesome roads slowly progress into distinguished passageways. Light peeps through my windows and I awaken to a new day.

When Im Gone
Theres another world inside of me That you may never see There are secrets in this life That I cant hide Somewhere in this darkness Theres a light that I can't find Maybe its too far away... Or maybe I'm just blind... So hold me when Im here Right me when Im wrong Hold me when Im scared And love me when 'm gone Everything I am And everything in me Wants to be the one You wanted me to be Ill never let you down Even if I could Id give up everything If only for your good So hold me when Im here Right me when Im wrong You can hold me when Im scared You wont always be there So love me when Im gone......

When I Could Stand
When I Could Stand I close my eyes again tonight I am so weary of my life The sleep that my body craves Will only seem to come by the edge of a knife I pathetically lay next to your picture For you lay next to another As I lay through the pitch of night Another missing piece I discover Can you feel my soul crack? Can you see the fire weaken in my eye? Can you hear my heart shatter? Can you see the man before you die?

When The Heart Strays
Her love was priceless, pure as gold. Driven from the depths of a heart not so old. Not sure what she wanted in life or how it would come about. Just needed time to figure things out. Her beauty was that of a rose, with the softest petals to brush the nose. Her innocence like that of a child, yet she was grown up free and wild. She had passion running through her veins . A feeling as refreshing as the evening rains. she always knew how to care, a sensitivity as soothing as the midnight air. Though the promises she made, she intended to keep. But know i believe, what the future holds we can not weep. And now i can say letting go is the way when the heart has begun to stray. commet and rate PLZ

When I Say
WHEN I SAYWhen I say I love you,and offer to share my life,I'd think you could see its valuewhen compared to the daily strife.You see it's not always easy,to love one born just like me,for placed upon our shouldersare the glares of society.I was taught the difference,to recognize the sin,that loving someone like me,and the hell it would put me in.So when I say I love you,I'm risking my afterlife,to share a place with you here and now,and by making you my wife.I can not help who I love,or what sex that they may be,but I'm going to love with all me heart,for all eternity.copyright 2009 jas

When Your Iq Reaches 50, You Should Sell!
ok so apparently.. Woman are an issue between brothers... ha yes ladies n gents. i am back.. back for my rantin blogs.. Ive held my tongue for to long ohh its good to be home.. So without namin names cuz yanno easing back into this i must take it slow... Rofl.... We have two brothers.. Twins to be exact.. but two completly diffrent people with simular querks. Both love woman love attention.. But one is ready to settle down so he thought.. till one of his strings wondered off to the dark side. and ill quote something i heard today..during all this nonesense i witnessed "stay away she is like a flower that smells so good .. but in reality is a poisonous flower" Now yanno usually id be mad cuz its not me being fought over.. rofl but actually its not involving me but its quite hallarious but lets get back on point.. One brother Settled on 1 woman after parading around with over 50 at a time.. big pimpin i know right but now... This brother is witnessing his twin

When*a*regular*bitch*wont*do.....
ROSES ARE RED VIOLETS ARE CORNY WHEN I THINK OF YOU OH BABY I GET SO HORNY EAT ME BEAT ME BITE ME BLOW ME SUCK ME FUCK ME OH SO VERY SLOWLY AND IF YOU KISS ME BABY DON'T BE SASSY USE YOUR TONGUE AND MAKE IT NASTY

When Your Kids Have Kids
I read a mumm today from a gentleman who was reflecting on becomming and grandpa and how it made him feel. Some of the comments givin were awesome. Some not so much. But every one is intiled to their opinion. I know how he feels seriously. When I got prego with my first child at the age of 24 the thought of a child calling me mom didnt seem to appealing. But I think that was just the shock of becomming more mature and now the responsiblity for carring for another person. Then after having two more sons, I thought about being called grandma. (shivers) that still will take some getting use to. I know I dont want to be called grandma but warmmed up to the idea of being called nana. That word dont seem to make me feel to old lol My hubby how ever wants to be called old man or old fart hahahahhaha . Hes such a dum ass !!! So for any one that might or is gonna become a grandparent. Just think one thing smirk As the child grows up you can spoil them to death and they have to

When You Give Your Heart And Soul To Man
this mans not perfect, he has no job, but theirs reasons for it health, but still you see something in him , and when you feel things are perfect he does impulsive things. theirs times when you can love him so much , and others you dont want any. you never think to cheat because you are so inlove with him you dont think of other men. but some how he feels you are and will. no matter how you prove it .youare their for him in everyway because you see the return love. you want the everything but thenhe doesnt here your voice . disrgards your concerns , dont smoke in house we have asthma , i like a clean smelling house. or that you want to let him in your world but he has so much hate for certain colors.but he knows you are not that way.he knows you want values in home and helps you structure some but breaks others.does he really love you does he really hear your heart.he does the unthinkable and you cant believe it ex ims him oh baby ill come get you i love you .the next day dads realy si

When I Saw Your Eyes
When you came to your door tonight, And your beautiful eyes gazed at me From the darkness within, The world around me came to a stop, For just a few seconds, As I saw the love from within you. You looked at me with your warm smile, Your black hair around your face, And whispered softly, "hi baby", And once again, I was at your mercy. For when you look into my soul And I hear the sound of your sweet voice, My heart opens to you my love, With all of my dreams now fulfilled. I never knew that a love like this Could ever exist, A love that consumes me, A love so powerful, And so overwhelming, That I fear if I were without it, My heart would no longer have a meaning To its existence, For the love that flows through it now, Is what keeps me alive, Keeps me whole. As I gaze into your eyes my love, Down into the depths of your very being, I can see the love you feel for me, A love as strong as my own, A love that fills me so full of emotion, So full of hope for the future, That I pray I will

When I Cry
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When Will It Be My Turn?
When is it my turn To feel the tears burn? When can I cry And express the need to die? Why must I be strong And pretend that I belong? When can I be weak And receive the comfort I seek? I get exhausted from the pretense The pain is just so intense. I hide from all of my fears And continue to hide my tears. Why is it so wrong to show emotion When I feel I could cry enough to fill an ocean? Why can’t I be just another person Instead of letting the pain worsen?

When Will Things Feel Right?
I lie awake at night and wonder when things will feel right. I stare at the stars above and question the existance of true love. What I seek is not perfection I merely want a close connection. I want to be loved for what is me and not for the potential you see there to be. I want to feel secure when we sit and cuddle or even as we sit and watch a Monday night huddle. I want a friendship and deep understanding and the comfort and peace when emotions make a crash landing. I want a shoulder to moisten with tears a partner in life to help me push away my fears. A face that can make mine brighten when I need my spirit to heighten. I want to be loved because of my flaws and to be the one that makes his heart pause. I want my happiness to be his priority for our love to be so strong that we're a minority. These wants are not just a one way thing I want both of our hearts to sing. I want a sense of safety and security and a continued feeling of purity.

When You Love Someone
When you love someone you'll do anything You'll do all the crazy things that you can't explainYou'll shoot the moon, put out the sun When you love someone You'll deny the truth, believe a lie There'll be times that you'll believe You can really fly But your lonely nights have just begun When you love someone When you love someone you'll feel it deep inside And nothin' else can ever change your mind When you want someone, when you need someone When you love someone When you love someone, you'll sacrifice You'd give it everything you got and you won't think twice You'd risk it all, no matter what may come When you love someone You'll shoot the moon, put out the sun When you love someone.

When Does The Player Game Stop
when do guys grow up and stop playing , my ex has gone from woman to woman using his hd to survie, when does he and guys like him grow up and find self worth ,is it the life you want and when you die you have nothing to show for it , going from place to place not lasting long . at 19 i found my self worth set goals and went for them , never depending on a man but sharing in the resposablity of the relationship. does it make you feel good really feel good , i think part of him wanted the roller coster to end as when i brought thins that piss me off he tried to change . but then whne a offer from a fat ex comes that she will buy his cigs and his beer again hes gone , im relieved aas i dont want this typoe of man in my life . i had hope for his health reason he see the light and i still do not for me but for his ass. im not a hatful person just dont see since in wasting your life away no self worth , no value in self . blamming others for the reason hes angered , he needs to reach inside

When You Said I Love You
When you said, "I love you,"I went over the moon.My heart sang its glory,The stars sang in tune. As when with a wordGod brought forth light,So with these wordsYou ended my night. So with these wordsYou made something new:A bond of devotionBetween me and you. How powerful wordsTo shape who we are!We ponder in silence;Our words cross a bar. Your words crossed a thresholdAnd entered the past,Yet they have createdA world that will last.

When I See You
When I see youI feel like my heart has seen eternityI dream an escape from reality.But after a whileI feel like it's crushed through the walls of deathI realize that we've never really met.This pain seems stuck with me foreverBreathing the air that suffocates meIs the only way that I could ever be.This love that I bear stabs right through meMy knuckles bleed knocking through your doorThese are the only things that I ask of: Do you see me?Do you hear my pulse whisper your name?Sometimes I think it's so loud the fairies hear me rain...Echoeing to the darkest corners of the worldAnd you, not even hearing a word that i sayFor how long this will last, I could only guess. Poem by Tammy C.

[when Come Back Bring Pie!!!]
Props if you catch the reference. Now... like I said, I was thinking about shepherds pie last night. So of course I couldn't sleep until I made it. ... It was a catastrophe!!! But I got some good ideas for next time. For this pie you will require a pie tin.A masher or hand mixerA pressure cooker or heavy duty potA 10-12 inch skillet One portion of ox tailOne slice of ox shank2-3 cups of ground or stew lamb meatOne and a half cups of beef stock/broth2/3 to One cup of DARK dry red wineThyme, salt, pepper,1 1/2 russet potatoes 1/4th-1/2 a white onion2 cloves garlicCheeze!!! ... of your choice, more on this later. Oh... and we're gonna fuck this up a bit next version. Portion your potatoes into 1 inch cubes shaved and naked.Put your potatoes and shank/tail into your pressure cooker and add the wine, beef stock, 1/2 tablespoon of salt, 2-3 springs of thyme, and lid that sucker up nothing over 350 for 10-12 minutes. Tall portions of ox tail are better here as they will be easier to ha

When Reality And Make Believe Come Face To Face
Fu-land is an amzing place at times. Then there are the times it bites you in the bum. I have a friend a very special friend he is a real face to face friend. I get to hug him and hold his hand I tell him my worries. In return he gets to hug me hold my hand and we comfort each other. For days an online friend of his keeps coming to me asking personal questions. I answer tentatively and do not feed her curiosity. tonight I get a message from her telling me she is his girlfriend and lover for the past two years. We live cleear across the country he and I in one city she as far away as possible. I tried to explain to her that prostituting yourself on cam is not being a lover and chatting online is not being a girlfriend.... But then i still feel as if even though he is my real life friend somehow I have been cheated and misled... I do not feel jealous or angry just confused at how never meeting someone you can tell a real life friend to stay away from your MAN. How can she live with anoth

When You Said
When you said forever, you meant a few months. When I said forever, I meant every day until the day I died. When you said always, you meant until you couldn't handle it anymore. When I said always, I meant until time ended. When you said you loved me, you meant I was no different from any other girl. When I said I loved you, I meant I had never felt what I felt for you.

When De;pression Slams You Like A Hammer
There is so much missery in this world, and its sad that people have to add to others life and purposely turn it up side down. If you have never experienced depression, you're lucky. NO! one can even fathem what its like to try and keep your self in check. To not jump the gun and wonder if its you or others that are jumping on your ass for nothing. Your scared to even give your views on anything cause it will be taken the wrong way. You just want to crawl inside your self and let the world go by. Anything is easier then dealing with other peoples shit. Yet here I am on this web site, reading mumms. and shaking my head at some very mean ass people with nothing better to do then be little others just for a laugh. Makes me wonder and think, if they dont have some form of depression, cause you see them lash out to a compleate stranger. I promised myself not to get to emotional over some mums I read and not take to heart the insults of others. They dont know me so what word

When I Close My Eyes
When I close my eyes he is there waiting he takes my hand and leads me away from reality into the world unknown gentil guidence the look he gives me tells me there is no need for questions only I have the answers to he walks beside me, I feel his heat I can see the want in his eyes I feel the want in my heart, they match but alas I must wake and he will be gone till I close my eyes again..... he is my reality behond reality

When You Start To Wonder About Life
A few hours ago, i got a phone call, telling me that my uncle, had taken his own life. This was a man , who all my life, was the only level headed one, of a huge family. Always the strong one, always there to help the others, always smiling, happy. But recently his business went bad, and he felt he had nothing left, but to take his own life. Leaving behind, a wife.. 2 kids, 2 grand kids.. and i can't seem to get my head around it all. How can the one we all knew as the strongest man, be so weak??? Does life really feel that bad for some people??? I know all this sounds cold, and uncaring, but suicide REALLY gets to me, so many people take that way out now, and i know that some just can't see a way out... but do they realize the destruction they leave behind? It's like I'm hurting, yet disapointed at the same time, that one of my own , would take this way out. Please don't get me wrong, i love him dearly, thats why this is hurting so much... I just wish he had of talked to us.

When I Was In Hospital
My thoughts are FUCKED My life is FUCKED Everything ive ever done is FUCKED Everything ive ever thought of was FUCKED Everytime I write its FUCKED I just want to DIE and END all the FUCKED up things ive done and END all the FUCKED up thoughts that run through this FUCKED up head of mine. I dont want anyone to feel sorry for my FUCKED up life anymore This is a FUCKED up battle that I cant WIN anymore You can tell me thats FUCKED up of me to think all you want to I dont give a FUCK anymore because I want to FUCKIN DIE and END all these FUCKED up things all for ONCE So FUCK everyone and FUCK me SIX feet under the FUCKIN ground FRLW 8-10-08

When We See Someone Successful,
When we see someone successful, we say that he just got lucky.'He must have been at the right place at the right time.'People only see one side of the picture.People don't see the failures.If you study history, you will find that -All stories of success are also stories of great failures.So if you are failing; Remember, success is waiting to happen

When We Moved To The U.s.
when we 1st moved to the states in '74 we didnt know English. We had a cat named pussy( no joke). We didnt know it meant something else. Well, one day our cat got loose and my mom was walking around the neighborhood calling " here pussy pussy". Then she asked ppl if they seen her pussy.Im not joking. We didnt understand it then-but now when we look back, it is too funny!! Just wanted to share it with you. The things we went thru when we moved here.Ill share more stories with you.

When U Have All The Answers, Change The Questions
whatisyourintention? whoareyouclaimingtobe? whatareyourmotives? whatdoyouexpecttosee? doyouhavevision? orisrealityalie? haveyouaquestion? orareasonwhy? whatisyourdecision? whodoyouask? whereisthefuture? isitthepast? whenwillyouknowmore? whatcanyousay? haveyoutomorrow? orjusttoday?

When......
When you hurt you hurt.Nothing like a broken heart.Hearts never lie.But a mind can always tell a lie.Forgive is from the heart.To forget is not of the mind.It's not of ones self.It's of one who is willing to let go of all that he or she is.To give is to take and to take is to give.All this hinders in ones life.A life that can't be forgotten by ones self.A life of lies that can't be hidden by ones heart.But a life time of all this seems never ending.A never ending torment of hell on earth.

When One Makes Mistakes.....
in my short 25 years theres is a miistake that even though i have been forgiven hauntes me to this day , i try not to let guilt get ahold of me but it does, last night i had my first nightmare about my fears and i have never been so scared , im the kind of person whos night mares are so scary that he would rather not talk about them , so how does one deal with a nightmare that is supposed to be normal, i dont kknow but for today it has tated the way i see things,if i had a time machene i would go back in time to fix that one mistake , basicly beat the crap out of my self for that shit i had done, no matter what i cant seem to forgive my self , i hope that thoughs involved with my mistake can under stand that i am a brokemn man and that i am just working to make up for these greves things that i had done i cant say srry enough , but at the same time the meer word does not describe how bad i feel in short to thoughs involved and too thoughs i love i truly am srry , and to the woman that

When Owning A Lounge Is Taken Too Serious
him (4/20/2009 10:56:39 PM): hi me(4/20/2009 10:57:06 PM): hihi him (4/20/2009 10:57:17 PM): was wondering who invited you to kink's me (4/20/2009 10:57:20 PM): sorry im lurking morgans sick me (4/20/2009 10:57:27 PM): kink did him (4/20/2009 10:57:37 PM): ok, if i find out otherwise i will know exactly what is going on him(4/20/2009 10:57:46 PM): but if kink invited you, no problem me (4/20/2009 10:57:52 PM): why would i lie? him (4/20/2009 10:57:56 PM): need to remember who your #1 lounge is though me(4/20/2009 10:58:03 PM): have i ever lied to u b4? me (4/20/2009 10:58:06 PM): i know him (4/20/2009 10:58:10 PM): him(4/20/2009 11:00:33 PM): how would i know, we don't really talk much anymore me(4/20/2009 11:01:27 PM): lol not my fault you are a busy boi lol him (4/20/2009 11:08:46 PM): they are inviting all excito members.. him(4/20/2009 11:08:49 PM): look at their member list me(4/20/2009 11:08:58 PM): really? him(4/20/2009 11:09:00 PM): l has turned v on me him (

When You Cry
When you cry upon a pillow Or tears fall down a cheek It's just emotions overflowing Not a sign of being weak We show emotions in different ways We can often lose control We cry of memories cherished The ones in my heart and soul So when I cry I’m not ashamed It’s not a thing I try to hide Teardrops flow when I feel pain Why keep it bottled inside

When Love Finds You
Love sure is something no one can explain It can bring you such joy, it can bring you pain And with every emotion, love puts us through There's nothing you can say, when love finds you Love is the power that makes your heart beat It can make you move mountains, make you drop to your knees When it finally, hits you, you won't know what to do There's nothin' you can say when love finds you Chorus: Give it all you can give it, when your love comes around It you put your heart in it, then it won't let you down You'll find out it's true, baby, someday when love finds you And when you least expect it, it will finally come true There's nothing you can say when love finds you Chorus You'll find out it's true, baby, someday when love finds you Howard -- I love you so much lovie ...you have given me the greatest gift of all ...your heart ...

Whenever You Come Around
Whenever you come around, my heart pounds as I hear the sound of a thousand angel's wings as they quietly ascend on high. And then I hear a sigh . . . which is mine, as I'm overcome by the utter and complete beauty of one so fine; while on your lovely face my eyes dine. Whenever you come around, I see a thousand stars in a midnight sky; and the eternally perfect movement from sunrise to sunset as you walk by. I get an emotional and physical high as I'm forced to visualize the inner beauty that is displayed outwardly before my eyes. Whenever you come around, I feel inspired . . . by your beauty, and for it, I desire. Should I try to extinguish this fire? Or conceal it and make truth be a liar? Whenever you come around, I smell strawberries and roses, Cool Water and Liz; lilac and jasmine . . . and I don't even know what that is. Just knowing you exist keeps my feet on solid ground; but I'm taken to new heights whenever you come around.

When Darkness Falls
Reach for me when darkness fallsAnd emptiness comes crashing inCall my name in the still of nightTo be your confidante, lover, and friend. Whisper your secrets and tell me your needsTell me your doubts, your worries and fearsI'll calm the storm that pounds in your soulI'll softly kiss away your tears. Come to the shelter inside of my armsAnd leave all your troubles outside of my doorHold onto me while the world crumbles downMy heart is your lighthouse on a wind tossed shore.

When You Loose The Best Thing
we said we would make it this time when things got rough i lost my mind for a bit and hurt you more then i relized now i have lost the love you said you had for me so now im so empty inside i just miss the love we shared with each other everyone keep telling me that we wouldnt make it but you said yes we would i belived it and i always thought you would be there as my love but your not so i walk around as a zombie heartles and souless i lost my reason for living and that was your love

When The Music Stopped
For those who are unaware, at military theaters, the National Anthem is played before every movie. The following was written by a Chaplain in Iraq: "I recently attended a showing of 'Superman 3' here at LSA Anaconda. We have a large auditorium we use for movies, as well as memorial services and other large gatherings. As is the custom back in the States, we stood and snapped to attention when the National Anthem began before the main feature. All was going as planned until about three-quarters of the way through The National Anthem the music stopped. Now, what would happen if this occurred with a thousand eighteen-to-22-year-olds back in the States? I imagine there would be hoots, catcalls, laughter, a few rude comments; and everyone would sit down and call for a movie. Of course, that is, if they had stood for the National Anthem in the first place. Here, the 1,000 Soldiers continued to stand at attention, eyes fixed forward. The music started again. The Soldiers continued to quietly

When Smiles Collide
Two whispered soulsFrom across the roomWho have thoughtsof despair and gloom.But for just a moment They're lost in timeAnd spirits liftWhen smiles collide.Suddenly, they feelthat all's not lostKindred souls togetherA simple gesture's brought.A gentle lift of sunshineupon lips that cannot hideThe act of human kindnessWhen smiles collide.

When I Open My Hand
When I Open My Hand I watched the last tear hit the floor I saw what was my life in that pool I turned my face towards the heavens The sun breaking in on this fool As my eyes slowly came to focus I could see a shadow of beauty A figure in the mist becoming clear As her eyes pierced right through me I could see her wings start to spread I could feel my heat begin to beat The ice cold blood melting in my veins

When Will You Grow Up??
While doing my usual looking at blogs and mumms, I have notice more and more people are feeling like I do about ignorant, low self asteem peeps. Who have nothing better to do then to name call, put down others just because they dont agree on the mum that person posted. Its amazing how high and mighty they feel, but I tell ya. If they didnt have their sheep to follow them and agree with every word they said. Bet you they wouldnt be commenting so much. So to take the wind out of their sail, stop allowing them to be-little you. Don't feed into their narrow minded self absorbed feeble attempts to piss you off. Simply tell them they are pathetic and a joke at best and carry on having fun.

When We Want And Want, But Just Don’t Receive
I've had a bit of a rough day and although I'm not sure that posting my feelings about anything will really make me feel better, I sometimes need to remind myself about gratitude. Hope you enjoy it. ~Mari When We Want and Want, But Just Don't Receive "Want is a growing giant whom the coat of have was never large enough to cover..." ~Ralph Waldo Emerson Recently, I have been thinking and talking a lot about gratitude. It seems that so many of us want more than what we have. It's not that we aren't happy with what we already have in our lives, we just want more. We want a better relationship, we want more money, we want a bigger house, we want, we want, we want. But what about being thankful for what we already have? A few months ago, I received a Gratitude Journal as a gift from The Secret. The journal is encased in a beautiful heavy leather, tri-fold binder. I really liked it because it had a private, secret feel to it. Like what I wrote would be just be

When Everything Goes Wrong...
you begin to wonder why the hell you keep trying...When a friend betrays your trust...Then tells you they didn't...You don't know who to believe anymore...You finally realize there's no one in the world you can trust but yourself...Blind faith in a human being brings nothing but heartache...You listen to their problems...You share their pain...You laugh with them when they are happy...You keep their secrets...Then in a split second all that is thrown away when you discover they didn't have the same respect for you... My heart is full of more shared confidences than I can count...And in my heart they stay...Even when someone betrays my trust...Still I keep those secrets buried...In the darkness where they belong...So why is it that I have not found anyone that can do the same for me? I open my soul to the people who say I can trust them...I let them into to my chaotic mixed up mind...And then become the topic for an afternoon discussion...So why the hell do I continue to care for the

When It Rains.....
It pours , Im bored outta my mind..done with chores for now.... Was to paint the bar today but they still arent ready(was to be ready on monday) .... Have to work tonight dont wanna...Im all pmsy and emo and ready to kill.... all at he same time......*sighs* entertain me for a bit ....plz... makeme smile, laugh, throw things at this point i really dont care as long as im something other then what i am....

When I Say I'm Broke I Mean I'm Broke
A little old lady answered a knock on the door one day, only to be confronted by a well-dressed young man carrying a vacuum cleaner. 'Good morning,' said the young man. 'If I could take a couple of minutes of your time, I would like to demonstrate the very latest in high-powered vacuum cleaners.' 'Go away!' said the old lady. ''I'm broke and haven't got any money!'' and she proceeded to close the door. Quick as a flash, the young man wedged his foot in the door and pushed it wide open.. ''Don't be too hasty!'' he said. ''Not until you have at least seen my demonstration.'' And with that, he emptied a bucket of horse manure onto her hallway carpet. ''Now, if this vacuum cleaner does not remove all traces of this horse manure from your carpet, Madam, I will personally eat the remainder.'' The old lady stepped back and said, ''Well let me get you a fork, 'cause they cut off my electricity this morning."

When I Wake...
They say time heals all I know this is all a lie So many ways to placate the afflicted Pour your poisoned honey into our ears The truest delusion is self delusion We all blind ourselves to the ugly in this world We tie our own hands Open your eyes and see the real world There is no bright and shining sun The flowers are all dead Trust is simply a way to bare your throat to wolves I see clearly now in my cancerous view Hold no one close lest they stab you deep A helping hand will only pull you down Commiserate in misery I've wasted every chance and hurt you all Somehow sorry just isn't enough The best thing you can all do is to forget what was and is I spend so much time in the shadows Maybe it'll be better if I just go to sleep Kind words are threats in disguise A smile bares the teeth that bite A simple wave draws your victims near I'm convinced that there is something wrong with me Consciously conscience deprived I'm so very weak Maybe I should sleep See yo

When I Close My Eyes
Every night when i close my eyes, i drift to sweet dreams of you. I dream of the taste of your lips, the feel of your hands in mine, and the softness of your mustach brushing against my cheek. Then suddenly i am strong but yet week from my need for you. When you hold me close and look into my eyes as you whisper how much you love me, i'm carried gently to the clouds. Your love makes me feel so alive and proud of the person i am when i am with you. Yet when the stars dade away as dawn breaks, you kiss me goodbye and i awake needing you even more than i did the day before. I'm missing you so much, and wish you could be here, but tho your not, in my heart you will stay. I will never stop wishing you were beside me every day. I will dream about you and now i escape to the place in my heart where we are never apart. I will love you with all my heart from now tell the end of time. April 7th 2009

When You Came Into My Life
You came into my life unexpectedly, and everything took a turn for the better. Your warm eyes, your laugh, the sincere way you speak, and the kindness you have showed me, all became a part of my life. As you unfolded yourself to me, i discovered more and more beauty. I have never seen so much gentleness in one person. Without you knowing it you were slowly making a place for yourself in my heart. It used to seem so hard at times to feel so close in a relationship, but it's so easy to feel close to you. I can't tell you how nice that feels. I realize now that i had never known what it meant to be loved until i was loved by you. i love you so much baby. April 17th 2009

When I Am With You
When i am with you, eternity is a step away, my love continues to grow, with each passing day. This treasure of love, i cherish with my soul. How much i love you, you will never really know. You bring a joy to my heart iv'e never knowm before. With each touch of your hand, i love you more and more. Whenever we say goodbye, whenever we part, know i hold you dearly, deep inside my heart. So these seven words, i pray you hold true. "Forever and always, i will love you" april 20th 2009

When I Go Down
"When I Go Down" I'll tell you flat out It hurts so much to think of this So from my thoughts I will exclude The very thing that I hate more than everything is The way I'm powerless To dictate my own moods I've thrown away So many things that could've been much more And I just pray My problems go away if they're ignored But that's not the way it works No that's not the way it works When I go down I go down hard And I take everything I've learned And teach myself some disregard When I go down It hurts to hit the bottom And of the things that got me there I think, if only I had fought them If and when I can Clear myself of this clouded mind I'll watch myself settle down Into a place where Peace can search me out and find That I'm so ready to be found I've thrown away The hope I had in friendships I've thrown away So many things that could have been much more I've thrown away The secret to find an end to this And I just pray My problems go away if they're ignored But that's not the w

When I First Felt Hell
When I First Felt Hell My heart longed for you Before I was even born My flesh cried out for you And is now rotted and forlorn The touch I craved from you The spirit I longed to bask in Was tainted with a poison Decimating us before we could begin The spaces that divided us Became the grave that I call home The time waiting for our birth Was a desert I wandered alone

When Honey Comes A Calling
Throughout my days and evenings. i think of her and sigh my heart she`s been healing never sure just how and why. as i think of my honey a thought comes to mind of how soft is her hair and i wish she was there to show her i care and to hold in my arms right now. i wait through the day and dream of her eyes so pretty and grey and her voice so soft that it sets me off on a journy to a place that we share i see her standing in white and me in a suit of grey alone by a lake by her side a life we vow to share i take my honey into my arms and confess all of my love from heaven and earth our marriage give birth and to protect her from every harm. i awake from my wonderful dream as real as it may have seemed im still all alone no rings on my phone and my tears are starting to stream i try to return to my dream but my honey is nowhere in sight then the squeek of the door and footsteps on the floor and my honey appears to my sight. if my hon

When The Dust Settles
A spark. Slowly a flame flickered. We fueled with passion, love, everlasting. Enduring. The fire blazed. A fire that nothing could extinguish. A spark. Slowly a flame flickered. We fueled with anger and pain. Losing sight. The fire blazed. Love conquered. The fire extinguished. All is not lost. I have not left you. You are still with me. You take my hand as we rise from the ashes. Like the phoenix taking flight.

When You Were Mine
Every single momentHas stayed in meYears without you Haven't changed anythingStill living with the memories Keeping them close to my heartFinding piece with the thought I once had you by my side There is no consollation For this sadness deep in meNothing could compare To what we once hadRemember how you were mine And just slipped awayMy heart beats harderFrom the day you have left me Will I ever get over the needTo have you by my side?Will I ever accept the fact that You are never coming back? The burden of my painHasn't eased as time passes byLiving goes on, but I stay back in timeStill living in the years when you were mine.

When It Rains
When It Rains When it Rains it feels like little drops of heaven touching your skin. A feeling like no other, A calming warm rush of comfort that you only feel from a loved one’s hug or a gentle kiss on the cheek. When you smell the flowers the scent dances across your nose, tickles your insides with a giddy sen

When I Look Into Your Eyes
To look into your eyes And see the power you hold inside Makes me want you more More than any other time To be with you in heart and soul Will make me lose all control To have the sexual desire Quenched by your fire Gliding on hew Heights Feeling free forever Knowing that I can trust you An be able to lose my self forever With out fear of being hurt But knowing that I am loved When I see the power you hold inside When I look into your eyes. by : AimeeCBuchanan

...when You Are Feeling Bummed.....
A lovely story about the love! Great time of year to stop, think and appreciate those special friends in your life! Lucky Dog.... Anyone who has pets will really like this. You'll like it even if you don't and you may even decide you need one! Mary and her husband Jim had a dog named 'Lucky.' Lucky was a real character. Whenever Mary and Jim had company come for a weekend visit they would warn their friends to not leave their luggage open because Lucky would help himself to whatever struck his fancy. Inevitably, someone would forget and something would come up missing. Mary or Jim would go to Lucky's toy box in the basement and there the treasure would be, amid all of Lucky's other favorite toys. Lucky always stashed his finds in his toy box and he was very particular that his toys stay in the box. It happened that Mary found out she had breast cancer. Something told her she was going to die of this disease....in fact; she was just sure it was fatal. She scheduled the double ma

When Life Kick's You In The Ass....
Have you ever had one of those days.... Where you feel like life has just kicked you in the ass? The good things you do...go unappreciated.... You try..and you try....to be a good karma person... And nothing changes? Yea...that's where I am.... How does one make a change...in their life...and ensure that the one's that are most affected by the change will be ok? I'm at a loss as of 4:34 CST....

When I Close My Eyes....
When i close my eyes.....I dream of you,doesnt matter the time of day. Thoughts of you run thru my head. I have known you for a short time now and our paths have never crossed...I am waiting for the day.......it doesnt matter,morning noon or night...thoughts of you run thru my head.

When You Say Nothing At All
It�s amazing how you can speak right to my heartWithout saying a word you can light up the darkTry as I may I could never explainWhat I hear when you don�t say a thingThe smile on your face lets me know that you need meThere�s a truth in your eyes sayin� you�ll never leave meThe touch of your hand says you�ll catch me if ever I fallYou say it best when you say nothing at allAll day long I can hear people talking out loudBut when you hold me near, you drown out the crowdOld mr. webster could never defineWhat�s being said between your heart and mineThe smile on your face lets me know that you need meThere�s a truth in your eyes sayin� you�ll never leave meThe touch of your hand says you�ll catch me if ever I fallYou say it best when you say nothing at allThe smile on your face lets me know that you need meThere�s a truth in your eyes sayin� you�ll never leave meThe touch of your hand says yo

When Best Friends Love
You entered my life like a gentle sigh,like a quiet breeze blowing softly through the leaves.You were a stranger first, one who laughed freely and easily,who spoke of minor intimacies and common grounds,who made me feel strangely liked and valued.You became my friend, no longer a stranger,trusting me with secrets hidden,confiding what you liked and hated.We talked and laughed and, as time passed by,I grew more and more dependent upon your smile.From strangers to friends was just a baby step,a step a thousand others take every day.Without your trust and trusting ways,without your smiles and encouraging gaze,I would never have taken the step beyond.But the gentle breeze blowing through the leavesis relentless and never ending.We became closer friends, and closer still,until much of my life was centered around the timeswe spent together.We traveled far along the path of friendship,avoiding the bumps somehow, never stumbling,always in step with one another.You were my guide, my eyes and ea

When You Fall In Love
From the movie: Captain Corelli's Mandolin "When you fall in love, it is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake, and then it subsides. And when it subsides, you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots are become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part."• Don Juan DeMarco "Have you never met a woman who inspires you to love? Until your every sense is filled with her? You inhale her. You taste her. You see your unborn children in her eyes and know that your heart has at last found a home. Your life begins with her, and without her it must surely end."

When It Rain's It Mother Fucking Pours...
ya know. there are so many quotes involving lifes trials and trivulations but they all mean one thing...life is shit. so graba spoon and start eating cause its never gonna go away. and no a pfa is not another way of saying i love you. it means you're an idiot and i'm not dealing with it for another minute. 4 years mother fucker. 4 fucking years. and you still have your head in your ass with 2 additional kids that you cant take care of. bitch please. i am not holding your hand for nothing no more. GROW UP!! keep your head out of your ass and your dick in your pants and maybe JUST maybe people wont call you a loser worthless piece of shit. just maybe. but i am now going to get DRUNK. cause i deserve a break from reality with my boo. peace out FUCKERS!

When I Rap
When I rap, I make trees collapseShake the street like a tank perhapsWhen I sing, I clear cloudy skiesReveal the truth among a million liesWhen I spit, I make ugly hotSlot machines stop and hit jackpotWhen I rhyme, I like the darkHungry passion from the heartWhen I rap, the freekshow appearsDo in three seconds what takes two yearsWhen I sing, you can feel the windWe in three d and time can bendWhen I spit, it's like power onTotal staleness becomes the BOMB!When I rhyme, the sun shines overAnd the moon appears that much closerWhen I rap, I defy impossibleLeap right over it like every obstacleWhen I sing, volcanoes erruptI turn twenty cents into fifty bucksWhen I spit, we reach high elevationYour head recieves mass educationWhen I rhyme, everybody can flyGoals get reached on they very first tryWhen I rap, the carnivals in townFour leaf clovers all over the groundWhen I sing, the hat can singToys come alive and it ain't pretendWhen I spit, I spin the planet fasterWe skip tragedies and dod

When I Cry
You see the pain that lies in my eyes,But, alas, my eyes are dry,I won't cry.No, I won't cry.You see the anger that burns from my gaze,The madness that sets my eyes ablaze,I won't cry.No, I won't cry.You see the fear that closes my eyes,The smile I wear is but a disguise,I won't cry.No, I won't cry.You see the hope that is finally dead,I cannot trust for my heart has been bled,I won't cry.No, I won't cry.You see the love that lies within,But I shall never love again,She won't cry.No, I won't cry.You see death's hand that has glazed my eyes,No one saw me die inside,They won't cry.No, they won't cry.

When You Fall Madly In Love
When Two Hearts Fall Madly In Love, heir hearts beat faster and deeper than normal. There is nothing unusual, They stare deep into each others eyes, silently telling one another that there must be no lies, and if there will be love and lust, there must be between us trust. Standing there only inches apart, no one or nothing else could be heard, not even a weep nor even a bird. When Two Hearts Fall Madly In Love, they fall head over heels, and not one feels like arguing, even when push comes to shove. You know the deal. They ignore it or them, and continue to pursue the other’s thoughts, and their feet seem like lead. Nothing or no one can separate them, no matter what they think or try to do. When Two Hearts Fall Madly In Love, that when they stand so close together, not even an inch apart. Their eyes meet, and they can feel each others body heat, and so quiet, they can even here the thumpity thump of their hearts beat. Sunshine rain or sno

When This World We Kno Endz
Waz my destany fuck it ? let me chase it than face it evan if i don't make it id rather fall off than fake it? nothin can hol us back where we take it evan though i kno those slipery serpants out there layin waitin an playa hatein an i kno its frustr8in jus tryin to live rasin 4 & 5 kidz with no time 2 give FUCK THe World 4 ME!! Life Ain't A JOY 2 LIVE ! Itz like a roller coster ride with 2 bustin friendz itz prolly why we all bust 4 chips rush for shit to get it quick get a grip on your life be4 the world an the millenium flip! may all these wordz that i wrote give a young brother hope Lord knoz itz hard to cope with all this hate an the dope.

When The Music Is Over
After surgery to remove a cancer tumor the hospice group came to my house to provide post op care. Their doctor warned me that agressive treatments to kill the final 10 percent of the cancer remaining (assumed remaining) would put me back into the hospital and although I might gain some extra time that time would not be much fun (I will not go into details). So at this moment I believe I will not subject myself to an attempt to get cured by x ray bombardments. Hospise will make sure the rest of my time here will be as comfortable and as painless as possible. However.... cancer is a funny thing and sometimes it can reverse itself, this i will not know for a few months. The doctor said he cannot speak about miracles and must stick to the science of course. Although I must take it easy to recover from surgery it is not in my nature to sit around dieing so I will focus on living instead. I am not feeling down and out nor depressed, and ready for whatever this journey has to o

When Life Gives You Lemons
The local bar was so sure that its bartender was the strongest man around that they offered a standing $1000 bet. The bartender would squeeze a lemon until all the juice ran into a glass, and hand the lemon to a patron. Anyone who could squeeze one more drop of juice out would win the money. Many people had tried over time (weightlifters, longshoremen, etc.) but nobody could do it. One day this scrawny little man came into the bar, wearing thick glasses and a polyester suit, and said in a tiny squeaky voice "I'd like to try the bet." After the laughter had died down, the bartender said OK, grabbed a lemon, and squeezed away. Then he handed the wrinkled remains of the rind to the little man. But the crowd's laughter turned to total silence as the man clenched his fist around the lemon and six drops fell into the glass. As the crowd cheered, the bartender paid the $1000, and asked the little man, "What do you do for a living? Are you a lumberjack, a weightlifter, what?" The man replied,

When Johnny Comes Marchin Home Again...
Hurrah! Hurrah! Well give him some hardy STDs again, hurrah! Hurrah! Oooh!! Can it be ARMY wife day? You know, the loving, supportive woman missing her man as he is off in some hostile land daily risking his life for his country. Except that she is being loving and supportive to everyone BUT her man, because the selfish cunt cant go more than 3 days without being the unfaithful whore that she is, taking guys out for drinks on her mans hard earned hazard pay, and then sneaking them in the house past her sleeping children to get fucked doggystyle by the guy in the bathroom while her face is bouncing around the toilet bowl, purging the too many to count jagerbombs she had earlier. The ARMY cunt is generally a carrier of various STDs, reading like highschool textbook complete with full color in home models, and maybe some lingering discharge still oozing from her gaping maw. If CSI ever came to this bitches house, theyd end up having to profile the last 10 years worth of soldiers on ba

When I'm Hurting
When I'm Hurtingby: Mike Blair It's easier for you to walk awaythan it is for you to reach out to me.It's easier for you to look awaythan it is for you to see the depth of my despairIt's easier for you to look through me,than it is for you to see "me."It's easier for you to distance yourself,than it is for you to really care.It's easier for you to bask in your joy,than it is for you to feel my pain.It's hard for me to smile when I am hurting.It's hard for me to talk when you won't understand.It's hard for me to reach out when I need help the most.It's hard for me to smile......When I am hurting.It's easier for me to cry,than it is for me to talk.It's easier for me to walk alone,than it is to risk rejection.It's easier for me to push you away,than it is for me to be held.It's easier for me to distance myself,than it is to trust that you won´t hurt me.It's easier for me to die,than it is for me to face life's challenges.It's hard for me to smile when I am hurting.It's hard for me to

When Will Enough Be Enough??
When is enough, enough? Life is a very peculiar thing. It has its ups and downs, and just to keep thing interesting life throws a few curveballs in for good measure. I was goin through my old blogs tonight. The last blog I wrote was about me taking charge of my life shortly after the Lisa suicide debacle. I am better now. Hell I was better then I jus didnt know it or couldnt see it. I can see clearly now, but as they say hindsight is always 20/20. Since that time there have been numerous changes in my life, not all for the better. But that is one of life curveballs. It seems that im destined to have more than a few thrown my way. Its true that I have walked my own path pretty much since the day I turned 15. And a lot of the problems and difficulties I'm having in life are a result of decisions I made when I was younger. I can deal with that. But in the meantime, does everything else have to work against me?? Be that as it may. I didnt start a new blog to rehash the past. Im

When World's Collide
(written years ago, since then I continue to be amazed.) "Come here little kiddes, guess who's back. Ahh ahh ahh ahh ahh!" What a perfect song to have on while I write about my day. A conglomeration of childish sounds and grown up ideas. My little girl, a fifth grader who takes pride in her ability to inspire the fear of a good beat down in boys much bigger than she is by virtue of her fearsome energetic personality alone, went on her first "date". She likes a boy from her class and he likes her. When I asked her what she liked about him she told me that he was "clean". I took the opportunity to expound on the joys of hygiene and wonder aloud why I still had to almost make it a direct order to get her in to the tub to enjoy some hygiene herself. (Instance ONE of world's colliding). Sparkling Boy and Bouncy Daughter wanted to see the new version of Charlotte's Web. After some intense negotiations with Protective Daddy, it was agreed that this could be accomplished if I provi

When I Look Into Your Eyes... By Kevin Hill
When I Look Into your Eyes When I look into your eyes I know I've found the ultimate prize Because you are someone worth giving my life for Those eyes, there beautiful they make my heart swore Your eyes are more elegant than the rarest flower They must have some magical powers Because when I see them I freeze in shock And only you have the key to the lock

"when Life Hurts Toooo Much!!!
"JESUS CHRIST SAID,"IN THE LAST DAYS THEY WILL HATE YOU FOR MY NAME'S SAKE!!!!!" THIS IS FOR THA' HURTING AND THE LOST IN FUVILLE225,I HAVE REALLY COME TO UNDERSTAND ONE THING HERE,"FUVILLE'S HURTING AND HURTING BIG TIME!!!!!" SO,I'M GOING TO SAY THIS,"DADDY(GOD),LOVED THE THOUGHT OF YOU SOOOO MUCH THAT HE GAVE YOU LIFE!,TO LIVE,LOVE AND EXPERINCE WITHOUT LIMITS ON ANYTHING IN LIFE EXCEPT SIN.IT AMAZES ME TO SEE A-L-L THESE"GODS AND GODDESSES"RUNNING AROUND HERE"SELLIN'THEMSELVES TO EVERYONE HERE AND THEN CRY,BITCH AND WHINE FOR THEMSELVES AT NIGHT(THIS IS N-O-T MULTI-TASKING PEOPLE)!!!!!" TO HAVE A-L-L THE NECESSITIES OF LIFE IN WHICH TO LIVE DECENTLY AND STILL NOT BE CONTENT?!?THEN THAT'S ON YOU CUZ DADDY HAS GIVEN HIS LIFE,HIS WORD AND"OUR BIG BROTHERAND HIS BLOOD"FOR YOU AND ME AND I'M DOIN' SOMETHING WITH MY LIFE THAT HAS N-O-T-H-I-N-G TO DO WITH ME. I SEE MY BROTHERS AND SISTERS CRYING FOR THEMSELVES WHEN THEY WON'T DO A-N-Y-T-H-I-N-G CUZ,"SOMEBODY'S GOTTA'DO IT FOR ME!!!!!"W

When In Sheep Town ......run With The Herd !!!!!
So,since people have been putting those fancy "acronyms" in their screen names ,i have thought thought up a couple that "WE"the mummers can use in ours . RMA which = "regular mumming asshole" or RMM which = "regular motherfucking mummer " (feel free to put it in your screen name if you want lol i know i am going to :O:O)

When You Have Nothing, You've Got Nothing To Lose.
Have you ever felt like you always tried your hardest, but you're hardest was never enough? That everything you did was never appreciated, and always forgotten. That's how it's been in my house for years, it seems. I left a good job, and my OWN place, to move back to rent a place from my father and help him with my grandfather, and I'm still worthless as a daughter. No matter what I do, I still suck as a human-being...and that's it. So what, if on my days off I decide I want to sleep until...oh, 10 a.m. After a 40-60 hour a week job, I thought maybe I was entitled to sleep late..but I'm not. It makes me a worthless daughter. So, I know nobody will ever read this or even care that it's how I feel but I needed some place to vent my frustrations.

When I Say
I love your kindness I love your friendship I love the way you make me feel When I talk with you I love your sarcasm I love your wit I love the way you tease me Even just the thought of it I love the way you trust me I love that I can trust you I love the sound of your voice When you say my name

When Tomorrow Starts Wihout Me
When you open your eyes And realize I will no longer lies Beside you once more. But don’t cry It was my time to walk thru Deaths door. I wish you wouldn’t cry over me Cause now I am free. To live the life I wanted too I just wish you knew But when tomorrow starts without me I just hope you can try and understand, please It was my time to leave this place So please don’t cry when you think of my face I don’t want people to cry When they think of the way we said good bye I had so much to live for There was so much for me to do and much more When I think of how you cry over me I just want to wipe your tears away and make you see How happy I am now So don’t cry sad tears over me, it is not allow When I think of all the days we spent together The good ones and the bad ones from there to here When I think of all the love we shared And how much you and I cared If I could relive just one day I would use that day to say How much I love you and hug you Maybe e

When Things Become To Much To Handle
I decided to open up my myspace page just to see if any one sent me a message. Well (sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh) some dum cow decided to hand me my ass because of a blog I wrote on hubby.She has no idea who I am or what I am all about. I tend to write blogs of things that upset me and that helps me release the frustration and keeps it from buildiing up and becomming more then it is leading to a fight.Any how soooooooooooooo I got to thinking of the blogs I write on here. Of which most are the same blog.So for any of you wishing to hand me my ass...let me explain this.!!!I suffer from depression and at times things get to me more then they should and I become over whelmed, and tend to take my mood out in a blog rather then the family or friends.I am not saying it works all the time, but it helps.I am not mean or spite ful and I love my hubby even thou he ticks me off from time to time. And yes we go threw crap like any married couple.Any how she went on and on and said when is the last

When The Time Has Come
When the time has come, you will notice the stars and moon; until then you see complete darkness. Although many saw they have noticed the stars and moon, only to have them dissappear before their eyes. Many have come to this spot where I now stand, to glance up at the blacken sky; wondering why no light seen from the sky. This day has come where all humans will see the moon and stars, the day has come for all living creatures on Earth. Have you forgotten the time when you could look up at the sky, just gazing up there to relax like on that camping trip you last went on. You once found a quiet place where no sound was heard, only the chirpping of hte little crickets, the wind and in the very distance a wild animal rustling about for some food. That was the peace and quiet, before all hte new houses and lakes we have now; we could gaze up to the sky from our homes. When the time has come to see the moon and stars, then we will see peace on this Earth as once before. Come take my

When
When your world's a hidden secretThat I yearn to touchI wanna know your soulReveal it to meWhen your eyes are flood of teardropsAnd your wings are brokenI will give you hopeBelieve in meIn the dustOf your waveA heartbeat is a partOf the greater dreamLike a ropeRound your throatIt won't let you breatheIf you let goWhen your stars are out to get youAnd you can't find loveInside to fill the holeThere's comfort in meWhen your roots are taken hostageBy the one you loveWhy don't you let it beSurrender to me

When Times Get Hard
Well my last blog was a lil different than this one. Right now my life is great and Im completely happy in mostly every way. Iv got a great boyfriend and he means the world to me hes my everything. I dont know how I got him and what hes doing with a crazy country georgia with a West virginian twist. When I think sumtimes he can do much better. But thats not what Im writting about today. Im might look all perky and happy but theres sumthing missing in my life and I think I know what it is. Eventually I wanna go back to school and finish my dagree in music and art. Im happy everythings going good I have a good joband Im finally out of a life of crime and drugs. 4 months sober and drug free. So Im just letting people know thAT WHEN stuff gets hard and you cant exactly do what you want right now like my example school. Just remember dont give up on urself theres more to you than you think. Be strong and keep truckin yes i said truckin.lol.

When You Say You Love Me Lyrics-- Just A Beautiful Song
this is what i'm determined to have in my life someday: Like the sound of silence calling, I hear your voice and suddenly I'm falling, lost in a dream. Like the echoes of our souls are meeting, You say those words and my heart stops beating. I wonder what it means. What could it be that comes over me? At times I can't move. At times I can hardly breath. When you say you love me The world goes still, so still inside and When you say you love me For a moment, there's no one else alive You're the one I've always thought of. I don't know how, but I feel sheltered in your love. You're where I belong. And when you're with me if I close my eyes, There are times I swear I feel like I can fly For a moment in time. Somewhere between the Heavens and Earth , And frozen in time, Oh when you say those words. When you say you love me The world goes still, so still inside and When you say you love me For a moment, there's no one else alive [bridge:] And this journey that we're on. How far we'v

When I Left My X
I could write something sad, about everything i gave. but what would that do cuz i'm not gonna stay. i see the way u look at me now, the resentment in your eyes. i'm still gonna take a stand and not back down because... I don't need your lies, and all the things that make my cry. I don't need your screams, and all the things u say to me that r so mean. I don't need u any more, so i'm walking out the door. and the sad thing is, u don't even stop me. I know i'm tearing apart our world now. shattering it like glass. but i'll make it through and so will u. and it will work out the way it's ment to b. it's just not going to work out between u and me. Why won't u tell me don't go... Why don't u say u love me so... Why won't u take me by the hand... Why don't u understand...

When To Quit Job
I am genuine and down to earth person. I love going out and meeting people. I have a very outgoing personality. I am fun to be around. My hobbies are going to the gym, swimming and cycling and my favourite is socializing with my friends. I love to travel with my family When To Quit Job

When Darkness Falls
When darkness falls, I want you near. When darkness falls, Hold me close, Wash away my fears. When darkness falls, I get scared. When darkness falls, I am all alone, No one is near. If only you where here. Then when darkness fell, The sky would shine with stars. The moon would shine bright. My heart would feel the tenderness of your touch. When darkness fell, My heart wouldn't be heavy, It would know it was loved. The darkness fell when you walked away. The sun is starting to shine, but are you staying this time?

When Quit Job
I am genuine and down to earth person. I love going out and meeting people. I have a very outgoing personality. I am fun to be around. My hobbies are going to the gym, swimming and cycling and my favourite is socializing with my friends. I love to travel with my family When Quit Job

When Is A Tax Increase Not A Tax Increase
President Obama sparred with ABC's George Stephanopoulos over what constitutes a tax. From ABC News' Jake Tapper President Obama and George Stephanopoulos got into a somewhat contentious back and forth yesterday about whether or not the penalty for those who do not abide by the individual mandate in the health care reform bill offered by Sen. Max Baucus, D-Mont., constitutes a tax.You can watch their exchange HERE. "Under this mandate, the government is forcing people to spend money, fining you if you don’t," Stephanopoulos said. "How is that not a tax?""Well, hold on a second, George," said the president. "Here -- here's what's happening. You and I are both paying $900, on average -- our families -- in higher premiums because of uncompensated care. Now what I've said is that if you can't afford health insurance, you certainly shouldn't be punished for that. That's just piling on. If, on the other hand, we're giving tax credits, we've set up an exchange, you are now part of

"when A Baby Grand Grows Up"
Piano Mover: It won't fit through the door. Woman: You said you could move a baby grand. Piano: It isn't a baby grand. Woman: It is. I bought a baby grand. Piano Mover: If you did, it grew, it's now a teenager. -- Overheard in: Home, Redbank NJ --

"when You Borrow Something, It Means You Bring It Back"
Woman 1: Three weeks she's had my CDs. Woman 2: So get them, ask for them back. Woman 1: I have. Woman 2: What does she say? Woman 1: No, not until I return her chairs. (shakes head) It's infuriating. Woman 2: You have her chairs? Woman 1: Yeah, for Fred's party. Woman 2: That was a month ago. Woman 1: No. (pauses) Yeah. So what? -- Overheard in: Huntington NY --

When I Think Of You
When I think of you my heart skips a beat I feal as if I am all alone on a empty streat I have this burnig desire to hold you tight To make love to you in the pale moonlite I want to surrender to you in every possible way For my love for you is definetly here to stay When I think of you I want to go that special place Knowing I am the one who put that smile on your face When I think of you tears come to my eyes I need you more than ever and the heart never lies So when I think of you the whole world ceases to exist You are the only thing at the top of my list Today I think of you and I feel that farmiliar pain It tells me to stand in the sunhine and get out of the rain I need you now more than ever before So I think of you now and walk out the door I will think of you till my dying day

When Will It End
It's cold yet I make deal It hurts but I can't feel I lay here in my new found fate Was lured by the evil and fell for the bait The toture that goes on inside The days go by and I just want to hide Isolated behind a World of walls Life definetly has me by the balls I guess there is no reason to pretend This tourmented life will see no end I can not die nor can I feel Nothing I do ever seems real So when will it end I'd like to know Take me there now it's past time to go

Whenever, Wherever
Lucky you were born that far away soWe could both make fun of distanceLucky that I love a foreign land forThe lucky fact of your existenceBaby I would climb the Andes solelyTo count the freckles on your bodyNever could imagine there were onlyTen Million ways to love somebodyLe ro lo le lo le, Le ro lo le lo leCan't you seeI'm at your feetWhenever, whereverWe're meant to be togetherI'll be there and you'll be nearAnd that's the deal my dearThereover, hereunderYou'll never have to wonderWe can always play by earBut that's the deal my dearLucky that my lips not only mumbleThey spill kisses like a fountainLucky that my breasts are small and humbleSo you don't confuse them with mountainsLucky I have strong legs like my motherTo run for cover when I need itAnd these two eyes that for no otherThe day you leave will cry a riverLe ro le le lo le, Le ro le le lo leAt your feetI'm at your feetWhenever, whereverWe're meant to be togetherI'll be there and you'll be nearAnd that's the deal my dearTh

When I Think Of You!!
When I think of you, I think only of how lucky I am to have you in my life. So many times our paths had come so close, yet never crossed When they finally did, I knew I belonged in your arms. The way you smile when I make you laugh The tender way you hold me near The look in your eyes when you tell me how much you want me All fill me with wonder I thank heaven every day for the gift of you and your love, and I hope and dream of our future together I fell for you more than I thought possible Yet my heart keeps growing as each day passes. I belong with you and you with me and with the love between us we'll be together for eternity. Written by Dj Sexy Doc MSD

When He Puts On His Mask, Then You Will See Him
From the gospel according to my daughter Sarah … yesterday she was sitting at our dining room table having breakfast and drinking water from her bottle with a Winnie the Pooh (who is always referred to as “Pooh” or “Pooh Bear” by others, I’ve noticed) topper in his Super Sleuth outfit from Disney Channel’s “My Friends Tigger and Pooh”. Pay close attention, and you’ll notice Pooh sports a domino mask – you know, the kind with eyeholes – on his head, but we’ve never seen him put it over his eyes. It wouldn’t make much sense since there are no other Pooh Bears to distinguish himself from, and if it is a disguise it’s not much of one … anyway, I pointed out Pooh never wears the mask he sports on his forehead, but he’s always got it ready. Thus came Sarah’s response, the title of today’s narrative of my life. It sounds Zen to me, but it makes sense. What doesn’t mak

When You Have Lost Your True Love.................
This topic was a mumm last night.I didnt get to share my vast knowledge because I was blocked for whatever reason. The answer is NO.It doesnt get any better. You dont cry in public for no apparent reason as much,you learn to find a more private place.Then one day your tear ducts dont betray you and now you can feel all the emotional release of a good cry while joking and smoking with the boys.NO it doesnt get any better. You dont bury your face in the cloths she had wore and left behind.With just a hint of her perfume,or her favorite bath soap.Just the rite amount of Downey.No you dont pile them in the bed and try to sleep with your face buried in them.You finally wash them and put them in the Cedar chest at the foot of your Daughters bed.You know how fashion 360's.NO it doesnt get any better. You know she's in a better place doing more important things than baby sitting your evil ass,when you realize she never left.Oh no she turned the reins over to someone mu

When Fangs Is Drunk...
hehe ok so I get all huggy my friend invited me to a party but she didn't know if I should go because i like to give hugs. she says her friends get scared by this but well I don't see it I mean they seem fine but I guess they are shy and they think im one of thoes loud bitches but whatever. Any advice on that? What is a good sign but suttle saying please back up beer breath.

When People Go Bad...
The whole idea behind fubar in my opinoin is to have a place for ADULTS to go hang out. The keyword of course is ADULTS. The sad part is I find more and more too many on here are FAKE, TROUBLE MAKERS, or SIMPLY MENTALLY ILL. I mean you must be MENTALLY ILL to assume you can create a fake profile and attempt to STALK and RUIN someone's life online. What people forget when they do this is... in most cases the person they are attacking is real, has feelings, and isn't here to hurt anyone. And yet they put more effort into being someone they aren't to decive and hurt others than they spend just being themselves. How sad their miserable, pathetic life must be to stoop to that level. What they don't realize is it will come back to bite them in the ass. Eventually someone will find them and call them out. Then what the fake can only BLOCK the one who catches them or they delete their account and start again. Also think of what happens to the REAL person they are stealing pics and identity

When Her Funeral Is Plzzzz Show Some Love
Ashley's funeral will be Monday, Oct 26 at 1:30 pm - George Boom Funeral Home. There will be visitation on Sunday from 1 pm to 8 pm, with family present from 6 to 8 pm. Her obit will be posted later today @ georgeboom.com and will be in the Satu...rday Argus Leader (originally posted by a family member of Ashleys on one of her facebook pages) I say we all keep an eye out for her obit on georgeboom.com and when it comes up they usually have a guest book that you can sign online and write something, I say we all make an effort to show our support to Ashley and her family

When Will They Learn To Read?
->teddybear: there is alot of folks out there that do this.teddybear: u need to fix ur pic trhat is on ur page->teddybear: my comment is you need to find out what sex the person is before you ask them to do stuff like cam to cam.teddybear: way do u have a females pic on ur page?->teddybear: ok let me put it to you this way. I AM A MALE.teddybear: i did that it did not work hun->teddybear: left click on my name and then a box will open click my name in the box. it will open my profileteddybear: how can i get to your profile hun?->teddybear: the task is to read my whole profile->teddybear: i have a task for you to do. please do it. i will take your silence as that you understand the circumstances that you have put yourself in. and that you will walk away and nevaer ask a female again to do this.teddybear: will do u or wat hun->teddybear: thats what i thoughtteddybear: to wach each outhr get off hun->teddybear: be more specific pleaseteddybear: play->teddybear: what kinda funteddybear: to

[when Your Fingers Start Bleeding...]
Above is the finished 1/100 MG Gouf Custom. I'm probably over halfway there. That is not mine >> It's time to take a breakEstimated time spent thus far on my mastergrade 1/100 Gouf~9 hours.At least two (lost track)were spent on the individual fucking 1/2 centemeter diameter rings that I had to slide onto a guide wire, feed the guide wire throughnot onenot twobut FOUR teeny tiny loops/sockets on the hips and crotch I still have to feed the rear end of the tubes into the jet pack.It tookTHAT long to get it right, the damn things kept slipping out of their sockets in the front and spilling loose bead sized parts all over the floor.So I'd feed half the beads on the guide wire.Slide the guide into the hip loops and then put the other half of the beads on (because the beads would snag on the hip loops... of course and couldn't be fitted into the crotch sockets) which were mounted on the underside of the panel and about 3/4 the size of toothpick holes. ... I'd show you pictures of this shi

When We Learn All We Need To Know...
In May this year my cousin's 5 year old daughter lost a 17 month battle for her life. She had neuroblastoma. After several months of chemotherapy and several weeks of radiation, she received a stem cell transplant. For reasons never known, her blood counts would still not stay up. Finally she suffered renal failure and the end everyone knew was coming close. No one told her that she was going to die, yet she still knew. From her death bed she asked, "Why do little kids die?" Her aunt, who we all considered to be one of the duller of the knives in the drawer, said without missing a beat, "Sometimes when we learn all we need to know here on Earth, it is just our time to go." Again, no beats missed, the little girl says, "Wow, my papaw must not be very smart cuz he sure is old." While of you might not find the story of interest, I will never forget those words of a dying child.

When Is It My Turn
Iam just sittin here thinking wtf happened i thought rc was diffretn but to my surpirze he is like all the rest of the jerk off in the world wow lades watch out dont get chacht in his tangled web of lies when it is my turn to be happy for real not just a wek or two iam just getting plain tried i hope boo is diffrent i will only have to wait and see

When I Was A Little Girl People Called Me Lotta
This story begins when Lotta 10 is on the way home after playing at a friends house ..Lotta discovers that dad is not home so she goes to the playground and sit down to wait for her daddy to come home ..After a while, uncle Stig comes by to gonna visit dad, sees Lotta in the playground and begins to talk to her ..Since Lotta had been waiting quite awhile she is starting to get really hungry, uncle Stig says they can go home to him and eat, - we leave a note to dad so he knows where you are ..So Lotta who have known Uncle Stig all her life trusted him and followed him to the car ..The sound of the engine made Lotta fall asleep as it does with almost every child ..Lotta wakes up in a very strange place and sees uncle Stig looking real strange ..- Why does he looks so strange? she asks herself .. She notices he has taken off his clothes ..She gets scared when he start to slowly walk towards her with a tie ..He puts the tie around her neck, and tighten it until she faints ...She wakes up w

When I Hear Your Voice
When I hear your voiceI forget everything I have in mindI will love u,No matter what people would think or sayYour beautyJust got me so distractedI told I want to see youI want to tell you about what I have in mindWhat is going on?What’s going in my blood?I want to start But I don’t know where or how to startYour beauty just got my thoughts scattered It stole my brainMy day became night,My night turning into day timeIt’s confusing meIs there any one could bring my heart back of your hands?? Just to get it stopped Stopped of beating To kill me!!Because it’s the only way my heart would ever stop loving you It’s when it stop beating and pulsing------------------------W, B: Mr. M***aAt 5:51 am 11/3/2009

When You See Millions Of The Mouthless Dead
When you see millions of the mouthless dead Across your dreams in pale battalions go, Say not soft things as other men have said, That you'll remember. For you need not so. Give them not praise. For, deaf, how should they know It is not curses heaped on each gashed head? Nor tears. Their blind eyes see not your tears flow. Nor honour. It is easy to be dead. Say only this, "They are dead." Then add thereto, "yet many a better one has died before." Then, scanning all the overcrowded mass, should you Perceive one face that you loved heretofore, It is a spook. None wears the face you knew. Great death has made all this for evermore. Charles Hamilton Sorely, killed in France 1915

When I Return As A Skateboard - 4/23/09
WHEN I RETURN AS A SKATEBOARD Lauren Zuniga Poetry Workshop When I return as a skateboard I will reincarnate the birth of practice to the slam death of beast perfection Taking the dichotomy of my rough sandpaper exterior that only seems to close you out with the smoothness of the symphonic roll of the ball bearings in the wheels that do not discriminate against any terrain Don’t be discouraged by the injuries of initiation for that ollie will soon soar over racial boundaries taking the 180 kickflip to the derision of elders who have forgotten their youth For you see my view of the world has expanded along with my skills to boardslide past any insecurities The world is my skatepark and in seeing past the obvious handrail or curb I will embrace with ease the person of color shake the hand of the guy in the wheelchair because we all cross this ground by foot or by wheel.

When Will This Pain End.
When does the pain stop? When will I feel whole again? I think the answer is never . Not a day shall pass for me without pain. Do I bring this pain upon myself or do others inflict it upon my very soul? Perhaps it is both that inflict this pain upon my soul. Wil this pain ever stop taunting me. In my every waking moment there is nothing but pain. Even in my hours of sleep I can not escape the pain I feel inside. A pain so harsh and raw I just want to scream and never stop. Once I had a friend tell me they were broken but perhaps it is I who is really broken. A shell of what I once was so carefree and full of life till the pain took over and left me a so utterly broken. I know not if I can ever be more than this broken shell you see before you. Always asking myself what people want from me? Are they only after causing me more pain? After so many have brought me pain always in the back of my mind it lingers that maybe that’s all people want . To bring me more pain and h

When Will I Have My Wings
When will I have my wings? Wings to help break the shackles of this world. Wings to lift me high above the pain the surrounds me. Lifting me high above the world I call home. Soaring high above the darkness . When will it be my time to be free? Free from all these tears Free from all these fears When will I have my wings? Let the wind take me higher So high above it all. When will I have my wings?

When You Are Old
When You are Old When you are old and grey and full of sleep, And nodding by the fire, take down this book, And slowly read, and dream of the soft look Your eyes had once, and of their shadows deep; How many loved your moments of glad grace, And loved your beauty with love false or true, But one man loved the pilgrim soul in you, And loved the sorrows of your changing face; And bending down beside the glowing bars, Murmur, a little sadly, how Love fled And paced upon the mountains overhead And hid his face amid a crowd of stars. --William Butler Yeats (1865-1939)

When Your Bummed About Xmas!!!
Christmas in the Sand I had no Christmas spirit when I breathed a weary sigh, and looked across the table where the bills were piled too high. The laundry wasn’t finished and the car I had to fix, My stocks were down another point, the Cowboys lost by six. And so with only minutes till my son got home from school I gave up on the drudgery and grabbed a wooden stool. The burdens that I carried were about all I could take, and so I flipped the TV on to catch a little break. I came upon a desert scene in shades of tan and rust, No snowflakes hung upon the wind, just clouds of swirling dust. And where the reindeer should have stood before a laden sleigh, eight hummers ran a column right behind an M1A. A group of boys walked past the tank, not one was past his teens, Their eyes were hard as polished flint, their faces drawn and lean. They walked the street in armor with their rifles shouldered tight, their dearest wish for Christmas, just to have a silent night. Other soldiers ga

When I'm Gone
When I'm gone just carry on don't mourn rejoice every time u here my voice just know that I'm looking down on u smiling and I didn't feel a thing so baby do't feel no pain just smile back! I hate bein alone this shit sucks! Fuck a hater fuck a snitch!

When Miscomunications Make Ur Week
so on facebook i jokingly engaged my friend cole.... for some reason this girl from my highschool saw it and felt she needed to verbaly bash me for being engaged. im been out of highschool for 2 years and have not once spoken to this girl since. so the idea that my life can mean so much to her completly suprized me. for some reason she felt she had to tell me how fat and ugly i was, how im a horid person whos addicted to drugs and my "husband" must be blind or retarted. so i did what any other person in my mental state would do.... take pics on myself on photobooth and put them up lol. this is were it gets good. for some reason i got just a blast of people from my past telling me how good i look and that was enough for me to be satisfied. yet its not over the next day i get some really inteligent guy who isnt to bad lookkin sit next to me in my class and just have a beutifall conversation with. wile im leaving class i meet to of my best friends walking on the street. so after all thi

When Love Fades
When Love Fades....... A man was sitting on the sofa watching TV when he heard his wife's voice from the kitchen. What would you like for dinner Love? Chicken, beef or lamb ? He said, "Thank you, I'll have chicken." "F*ck You. You're having soup. I was talking to the dog

When You Are Alone
For every min of the day you wish you could fine some one to love and yet your heart would like to feel what love mean when you are a lone there is no one to love thus how can one love if once heart doesn't know what love feel like for who would give a lonely heart some love.being a lone is only loneness for it only make one think of life but life is free and love is special for some one to love let one search for once true wait what does once eyes see for there is a light from the top of the hill for what does the light mean for there is a gentle heart that wish to share his love.when you are a lone there is no love but yet you fine your self wish for some one to love thus just to hear the birds sing about love bring tears to your eyes for what you want is to just to be love where oh where can one fine her true love for her heart cry for love.

When Will...
When will this ever end I don't want this love to send. my heart screams aloud but gets drowned out in the crowd. When will this ever stop I want for this just to drop. my eye drops a single tear to drown out my deepest fear. When will this ever heal

When Death Replaces Life
Irony....Its been said that "irony it seems....is not without a sense of humor". Looking on how I feel at this moment I'd have to agree. How ironic that my favorite song from the band Cannibal Corpse not in lyrical context,but the title of the song is the name of not only this blog,but also symbolises how the past 2 and a half weeks have gone for me. Now before I get into it all,I'm not looking for anyone to feel sorry for me,or saddened or anything,I just need to get this out of me as I walk through the fragments here on fubar of what my life used to be. In the past 2 and a half weeks I've lost 4 ppl that were very close to me,all of them I would've laid my life down without hesitation in a nano second if it wouldve meant no harm would come to them. Of the 4 I lost 3 had passed away,the 4th I lost due to the complications of the stress building up in my life trying to be supportive of someone very important to me's need and support her during her time of pain and grief for her loss a

When She......
When she stares at your lips[ Kiss her ]When she pushes you or hits you like a dumb ass cuz she thinks shes stronger than you[ Grab her and dont let go ]When she starts cursing at you tryin to act all tuff[ Kiss her and tell her you love her ]When she's quiet[ Ask her whats wrong ]When she ignores you[ Give her your attention ]When she pulls away[ Pull her back ]When you see her at her worst[ Tell her she's beautiful ]When you see her start crying[Just hold her and dont say a word ]When you see her walking[ Sneak up and hug her waist from behind ]When she's scared[ Protect her ]When she steals your favorite hat[ Let her keep it and sleep with it for a night]When she teases you[ Tease her back and make her laugh ]When she doesn't answer for a long time[ reassure her that everything is okay ]When she looks at you with doubt[ Back yourself up ]When she says that she likes you[ she really does more than you could understand ]When she grabs at your hands[ Hold her's and play with her finger

When A Soldier Comes Home
WHEN A SOLDIER COMES HOMEThis email is being circulated around the world - please keep it going When a soldier comes home, he finds it hard.... ...to listen to his son whine about being bored. .....to keep a straight face when people complain about potholes.

When Will I Learn
I swear I don't know what the hell is wrong with me. My relationships with men are like a nightmare set on a loop. It's the same thing every time. Things are great then they just disappear on me all together. And the excuses....GOD THE EXCUSES. I love how men think I'm stupid and will believe the lies they tell me. I'm not a moron. You can only have bad signal on your phone soooo many times. And the fact that it's everywhere you go?? Hmmmm yea I believe it. I need to quit bein so nice and forgiving. And I need to quit wearin my heart on my sleeve. All I'm doin is lettin people take advantage of me. Look out...this MILF is growin a set...try and play games...just remember, never play games with a woman who can play better. >:)

When Tomorrow Starts Without Me
When tomorrow starts without me, and I'm not there to see, If the sun should rise and find your eyes all filled with tears for me, I wish so much you wouldn't cry the way you did today, While thinking of the many things, we didn't get to say. I know how much you love me, As much as I love you, And each time that you think of me, I know you'll miss me too, But when tomorrow starts without me, Please try to understand, That an angel came and called my name, and took me by the hand, And said my place was ready, in heaven far above, And that I'd have to leave behind all those I dearly love. But as I turned to walk away, a tear fell from my eye For all my life, I'd always thought, I didn't want to die. I had so much to live for, so much left yet to do, It seemed almost impossible that I was leaving you. I thought of all the yesterdays, the good ones and the bad, I thought of all the love we shared, and all the fun we had, If I could relive yesterday, just even for awhile, I'd say good-bye a

When Love Has Gone
By this he knew she wept with waking eyes: That, at his hand's light quiver by her head, The strange low sobs that shook their common bed Were called into her with a sharp surprise, And strangled mute, like little gaping snakes, Dreadfully venomous to him. She lay Stone-still, and the long darkness flowed away With muffled pulses. Then, as midnight makes Her giant heart of Memory and Tears Drink the pale drug of silence, and so beat Sleep's heavy measure, they from head to feet Were moveless, looking through their dead black years, By vain regret scrawled over the blank wall. Like sculptured effigies they might be seen Upon their marriage-tomb, the sword between; Each wishing for the sword that severs all.

When Smiles Collide
Two whispered soulsFrom across the roomWho have thoughtsof despair and gloom.But for just a moment They're lost in timeAnd spirits liftWhen smiles collide.Suddenly, they feelthat all's not lostKindred souls togetherA simple gesture's brought.A gentle lift of sunshineupon lips that cannot hideThe act of human kindnessWhen smiles collide.

When Will Your Number Be Up?
So I was at my brothers house on Christmas day and was sitting there talking to someone that out of respect, I call “Pop”. We were talking about life itself. He looked at me and told me this story. With it being the end of one year, and almost the start of the next, it’s fitting to write this now. “My wife and I have been married for 58 years, and in the past seven or eight months, we’ve been closer then ever. We go to bed at night and hug and kiss each other goodnight, wake up in the morning an hug and kiss. Neither one of us know if when we go to bed, we’ll wake up in the morning. When you get to be my age you realize that every day is a gift. We’re both in our 80s. Hell, I went out the other day and before I did I made sure that I gave her a hug and a kiss and told her that I love her. You just don’t know when your time is up.” I know that may sound pointless but it’s really not. Every day should be th

When People Assume......
Every ideology is a mental murder, a reduction of dynamic living processes to static classifications, and every classification is a Damnation, just as every inclusion is an exclusion. In a busy, buzzing universe where no two snowflakes are identical, and, indeed the smallest sub-atomic particle, we are assured, is not even identical with itself from one micro second to the next-every card index system is a self delusion. Or, to put it more charitably, as Nietzche says, "we are all better artists than we realize". It is easy to see that the label "Jew" was a damnation in Nazi Germany, but actually the label "Jew" is a damnation anywhere, even where anti-semititsm doesn't exist. Anytime a person is labeled for their color, religion, or social class is a damnation. "He is a catholic", "He is a Dr.", "He is homeless" to the card-indexing center of the cortex in the brain, that my experience with him will be like my experiences with others such as him. Thus individuality is ignored

When The Tones Go Off
I've had the best/worst luck the last three days. I've walked into the firehouse and each time within 5 minutes a call's gone out. Yesterday was no exception... walked in, said my hello's, and we get tapped out for a 7 year old female seizing. Look around, no one else to drive the medic unit... God dammit. Jump on, off we go. Head into the house, she's unresponsive and barely breathing. Then she starts seizing again. Get oxygen flowing, establish an IV, push some drugs, then I pick her up in my arms and take her to the ambulance. Put her on the cot, help get some equipment set up, then go back up front. Hop in, throw it in reverse, and off we go. I always tell my guys that speeding is almost never worth the risk it comes with; you might save a minute or two and you also might wreck. Well, in this case I decided it was worth it. Turned a 19 minute trip into just a hair over 13. Rolled into the ER, and within 5 minutes they had a helicopter en-route Priority 1 to take her to a pediatric

When I'm Hurting
"When I'm Hurting"Original Song By: Mike BlairIt's easier for you to walk awaythan it is for you to reach out to me.It's easier for you to look awaythan it is for you to see the depth of my despairIt's easier for you to look through me,than it is for you to see "me."It's easier for you to distance yourself,than it is for you to really care.It's easier for you to bask in your joy,than it is for you to feel my pain.It's hard for me to smile when I am hurting.It's hard for me to talk when you won't understand.It's hard for me to reach out when I need help the most.It's hard for me to smile......When I am hurting.It's easier for me to cry,than it is for me to talk.It's easier for me to walk alone,than it is to risk rejection.It's easier for me to push you away,than it is for me to be held.It's easier for me to distance myself,than it is to trust that you won´t hurt me.It's easier for me to die,than it is for me to face life's challenges.It's hard for me to smile when I am hurting.It's hard

When I Said
How about I come home and the house appears empty - I want to have a hot bath and slip into something more comfortable. It's been a week since you have been gone and I know you are coming home tonight. I want to prepare myself for you.....properly.Take care to powder and scent myself in preparation of your return. I have just the right outfit for you....I bought it with you in mind! I've had to pleasure myself this week and it just hasn't been the same. I have even resorted to chatting on a sex site with a stranger - just to be able to pleasure myself - without you being here I really - really need a release. The thought of those long sexy chats and phone calls with a stranger make me feel oh so horny! And wanting your lovely cock even more.... I rub my nipple and it hardens - I can feel my desire for you rising....maybe in the tub I can warm myself up for you!?As I walk to the bedroom I start to disrobe slowly taking my time. Suddenly I am grabbed and am blindfolded from behind! No wo

When Things Happen
The truth hurts at times. But the truth only hurts when one person lies in the first place and then you find out a little too late on what truly happened. One thing about being honest though is that when you are honest people have a hard time believing you anyways because so many has lied. Like for instance a guy tells you bluntly that they have a thing for another woman while you are with him in a sense. So many miles apart and shit is it selfish to hold him back and tell him to wait for you? Or do you really want him to be happy? I believe if he comes out and is so honest with you, and you do want him to be happy let him free and let him be happy. Selfless as it may seem, it does hurt, and will hurt. But it's for the best. Why make him wait when he can have something right there in front of him. Stupid some may call it, or foolish, but if you love someone you want them to be happy no matter what. But on the other hand when you have had someone and they keep letting you down and lying

When It Rains It Pours But For Me It Thunders
People ask "how are you doing" and i always say good, they ask "whats new with you" and i always say same o same o, they ask "havent seen you around much" and i always respond with just busy with work and life. I avoid the truth, i always try to sound happy and i carry around a fake smile with the hope my outgoing personality and silliness cover the pain and fear in my heart. Fact is a person can only be so strong, can only carry so much before it becomes too overwhelming and all you want is to be told everything is going to be ok, all you want no all you need is to be hugged and hear in someone's voice understanding and compassion without the undertones of pity. People face extreme obstacles everyday, yes we have friends but why burden others when they have their own life to deal with, how can one allow themselves to lean on another without coming off as needy or attention craved. I always try to be a good friend, ive said many times i have a hero complex to the point i neglect my ow

When It Was Me-paula Deanda
Ooh, noYeah, yeahShe's got green eyes and she's 5'5"Long brown hair all down her backCadillac truckSo the hell whatWhat's so special about thatShe used to model, she's done some actingSo she weighs a buck 'o 5And I guess that she's alright if perfection is what you likeOoh, ooh, and I'm not jealous, no I'm notOoh, ooh, I just want everything she's gotOoh, ooh, you look at her so amazedI remember way back when you used to look at me that wayTell me what makes her so much better than me (so much better than me)What makes her just everything I can never beWhat makes her your every dream and fantasyBecause I can remember when it was meAnd now you don't feel the sameI remember you would shiver everytime I said your nameYou said nothing felt as good as when you gaze into my eyesNow you don't care I'm aliveHow did we let the fire dieOoh, ooh, and I'm not jealous, no I'm notOoh, ooh, I just want everything she's gotOoh, ooh, you look at her so amazedI remember way back when you used to look at

When Love Comes To Town By U2
I was a sailor, I was lost at sea I was under the waves Before love rescued me I was a fighter, I could turn on a thread Now I stand accused of the things I've said Love comes to town I'm gonna jump on that train When love comes to town I'm gonna catch that flame Maybe I was wrong to ever let you down But I did what I did before love came to town I used to make love under a red sunset I was making promises I would soon forget She was pale as the lace of her wedding gown But I left her standing before love came to town I ran into a juke joint when I heard a guitar scream The notes were turning blue, I was dazing in a dream As the music played I saw my life turn around That was the day before love came to town When love comes to town I'm gonna jump on that train When love comes to town I'm gonna catch that flame Maybe I was wrong to ever let you down But I did what I did before love came to town When love comes to town I'm gonna jump on that train When love comes to town I'm gonna c

When Your Mouth Runs Over
Have you ever been out with friends you’re talking, having a great time? Then suddenly you say something and the reply wasn't what you thought it was going to be. Upset and a bit on the defensives side crap spills out of your mouth. As you quickly wish your mouth would for once check with you before speaking. (But damnnit to hell) It does not. I mean isn't that what we are taught growing up...Mom says "Think before you Speak" then none of that would have happened. The list of people to include yourself could go on forever, have said that very line knowing that they too at some point have said the same thing. So we have a few different oops or foot in mouth so many clever sayings for the simple fact that "You my dear Fucked Up". So my question is how does one fix it? This is where I ask for your help, because my way seems to add fuel to the fire so to speak. If you think about it we have all at some point or time said..."wow?! Did I really say that"? And some of us are found

When You Put It Up To Your Ear...
Sam's on the edge of my bed.Dirty floors light dusting of mites andlibrary muskfeels like when you press your cheek against the walllistening to faint pin drops, waiting for a complimentthe best kind.Wood scratches against toe callousescuts in better than a rude spouse at the theatre.dirtycrackedoldjust like the mirror.high beams, low tide, low point mid gradehigh expectations.flouride in the sink.thick and creamybut still frothyfreshly gargled.fresh out of fresh.Tile's no better.Threshould stubs, rainmakers on the radiocoffee's in the kettledances alone in the kitchenmaking sweet standing love to a figment.Dawn cheated todaywith no post-sex peeor stale cigarette and scarred arms wrappedwhen the colors diedand the blankets felland the harbingers crieddead leaves come to clatterclickingtickingtimetoo cold this morning anywaybut we never go out any more...not for sunrisesnot for blinking stars or winking moonsnot for breakfast at 3 and a big lengthy nothing.Kettle screams.Forgot what to

When I Die...
When I die, I want you to be there beside me.. Just take my hand and tell me you love me one last time.. Be my knight in shinning armor one last time.. Be the Prince Charming I alwayz knew you could be.. Realize that you are the one for me even though I'm laying here lookin at the shinny white light.. One day we will be together one last time and when that day comes no one will come between us.. Realize that I love you and that I've wanted to be with you from the first day we met to my last breathe that I take.. Take me home to that place and just lay beside me..

When It Comes To You..
When it comes to you I will alwayz love you no matter what happens.. You may have someone else but nothing will ever make me stop feeling the way I do about you.. You are the only one that I want and the only one who can make me smile and laugh the way you do.. I want you to be the one that I bring home to meet my parents.. Boy if it wasn't for you my life would have been over.. I tried ending my life, but when I thought about you I just couldn't do it.. When we use to talk you were all I thought about.. Now that your gone my life has no meaning, no motivation to live, no nothing. I truely feel lost with out you.. You gave me the motivation to go to college to stick it out when it got hard... I have no motivation anymore it has all go to hell because with out you I'm just a nobody...

When I Look Into Your Eyes!!
When I look into your eyes I see a sweet person who is just dieing to come out. I see someone who loves adventure and who enjoys life. You're someone who can be counted on when someone needs someone to talk to. You're that guy that every girl dreams about having, but won't ever get. You're a dream come true off a star that every girl wishes on. You're the light in every girl's eyes. We all want you but only one can have you. I see that your heart is broken. Your eyes show hidden dreams and hidden talents that no one has seen. Don't hide them from people show them to the world and let them decide if they are good or not. I see an angel that was sent from heaven. Your eyes are the true meaning of the word faithful and the true meaning of the word love just looking in your eyes I see all that. I could look into your eyes everyday and see something new and extravagent. Your eyes show me that there is hope. When you cry your eyes shed the love that you felt when you first layed eyes on her

@@@@@@when You Know You Really Like Someone, Here Are Some Signs.@@@
@@@@@@When You Know You Really Like Someone, Here Are Some Signs.@@@@@@@ ......2-12-2010SOMEONE ASKED ME.. WHAT I THOUGHT SO HERE IS MY INPUT..I WROTE A BLOG ABOUT IT SO THE ONE WHO ASKED HERE YOU GO.@@@@@@@When You Know You Really Like Someone, Here Are Some Signs.@@@@@@@ but im also going to give thoughts of what other people may say/think. but that does not make it so.. ****falling*** fast***They are all you think about, from waking up in the morning to sleeping at night.You dream about them.You maybe don't always want to talk to them but me on theother hand i do. but you do want to see them/ be near them.When you see them you get butterflies.You find it hard not to look at them, even in a crowded room.You would feel empty without them.Being away from them for longer than a day is torture.You always smile when around them, and ( even if they don't) you think they are always looking at you.They always look amazing, no matter what. you can't stop blushing.when som

When You Know Its Time To Throw In The Towel
how you know when your finally fed up! lies pour in with every flip of a tongue things you belived in dont matter or make sense anymore , strength you had to keep on trying weakens with all the lies.memories that kept your full of joy are crushed with all the fake,not wanting too see whats yet to come. life is full of surprises , so i dont want anymore DEAD END ROADS , Empty promises are for daydreamers. i want a life full of true meaning filled with true love , trust , honesty , and friendship. I want a life with some one who can GIVE LIFE a chance who loves me for who i am and someone who will stand by me through it all, and never give up even when were losing.

When I
When I When i take a sharp razor blad against my bare skins,I can feel the blood rushing Like it wanting to escapefrom the painwhen i take a sharp razor blade against my neck,I can feel my scream when i feel my scream,i just wanna scream to letout my fear when I scream i let out all my pain as i take a sharp razor blade against my bare skin slowlyslicing my wristletting the blood rush outas i kept slicing my wrist till the blood became a puddle as i lay there soaked in my own blood as i kept on slicing my wristtill i passed outtill i loose alot of my blood.

When I Say I Want You, This Is What I Mean...
I miss your voice as it speaks my name.I miss your eyes and how they burn with a passionate flame.I want to feel your breath On my naked skin.And the touch of your hand so tender - Which ignite the fires within.My mouth deeply hungers for the sweetness of your lips.My body craves your touch as you explore me With your fingertips.I want to feel the heat as the passion quickly builds.Your caresses and your kisses make it easy For my body and soul to yield.I want to feel the pleasure as we feed our lusts and desires.Your flesh and mine becoming one burning hot with passion's fire.Only you can satisfy and bring me to ecstasy.Only you can fulfill my deepest desire.

When I Was On Hold.....
For the school bus, they had the music, and what was playing was All that she wants Ace of Base, and I was dancing. Then I realized a lot of the music they have for hold music unless it's at a radio station, they play oldies. What the hell? when did Ace of Base become an oldie band? Same thing happened a year ago but it was Bel Biv Devo's Poison Anyone else find themselves dancing or rocking out while being on hold?

When My Mind Is Still
When my mind is still and alone with the beating of my heart, I remember things too easily forgotten: The purity of early love, The maturity of unselfish love that asks -- desires -- nothing but another's good, The idealism that has persisted through all the tempest of life. When my mind is still and alone with the beating of my heart, I can find a quiet assurance, an inner peace, in the core of my being. It can face the doubt, the loneliness, the anxiety, Can accept these harsh realities and can even grow Because of these challenges to my essential being. When my mind is still and alone with the beating of my heart, I can sense my basic humanity, And then I know that all men and women are my brothers and sisters. Nothing but my own fear and distrust can separate me from the love of friends. If I can trust others, accept them, enjoy them, Then my life shall surely be richer and more full. If I can accept others, this will help them to be more truly themselves, And they will be more

When Rough Is Too Rough
Recently I had a conversation with a friend about rough sex, mainly cause she was limping and I said "what? too tough?" and she replied that indeed it had been too rough. I don't know about the rest of you, but I do like to spice it up a notch by going a bit on the rougher side of life. But in the heat of the moment sometimes you don't realize that you are actually hurting the other person and since they are having a blast too, they don't really feel the pain. Not long ago I started biting a girl during sex, first like playful nibbles but as the sex got hotter she started asking for more and lo and behold, the next day she had bruises all over her breasts, arms, neck, thighs and buttcheeks. Which made me think "I guess I shouldn't have actually bitten but more like nibbled a wee bit" So have you had this happen to you and did you learn from experience or it keeps happening?

When Loneliness Consumes The Soul
Alone at night when darkness falls and the lack of life echoes through the halls The only sound; the heart rending silence left in the wake that seeks to drive me from this place The silence left with the absence of love, that precious gift bestowed from above With tears glistening throughout my eyes I stare blankly at all the lies The words that rended the lives in twain, such passion, desire, left only pain And through agonies blissful cry Im trapped inside and wish to die With mournful steps I go through life, a shell of the man consumed by strife And yet I still hear loves call, lost in the distance of it all Darkness encroaching, consuming the life with love approaching My love lost to me, locked inside my shell as my agony draws me down to my personal Hell My eyes lift to the heavens and I cry out, of fear, of doubt My agony so profound as the loneliness of my soul resounds As I still seek to find the woman to complete me, the one who will be mine

When Did This Become Okay?
I'm sure if it were a "white" group singing/rapping about black people saying a racist term they would be told how horrilbe they are. So why is this any different? Is it funny? In some parts. But overall I think it's very tasteless. But he will hide behind the "It was a joke" cover and be fine. [shrug] Video in comments.

When A Girl....
When a GIRL looks at u with eyes full of questions ... she is wondering how long you will be around. When a GIRL answers ' I'm fine ' after a few seconds ... she is not at all fine. When a GIRL stares at you she is wondering why you are lying. When a GIRL lays on your chest .. she is wishing for you to be hers forever. When a GIRL wants to see you everyday... she wants to be pampered. When a GIRL says ' I love you ' .. she means it. When a GIRL says ' I miss you ' .... no one in this world can miss you more than that. Life only comes around once make sure u spend it with the right person .... Find a guy .. who calls you beautiful instead of hot. who calls you back when you hang up on him. who will stay awake just to watch you sleep. Wait for the guy who ..... kisses your forehead. Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats. Who holds your hand in front of his friends. Who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you.

When Life Spins Out Of Control
Swirling in a mist of confusion, Never quite able to finally reach the absolute solution. Everywhere I look is instability, Yet, I keep seeking for others to reach down to me and to show compassion and humility. I may not be what this world finds as ideal, But I wish people could see what I'm faced with is horrifically surreal. Even if a soul can't empathize with my reality, Can't they take the time to try to understand the cause of my complicated mentality? It's easy to judge and easy to shun, The only thing not so easy is when you feel trapped with nowhere to run. I can't find any peace with all of this pain, And I can't understand why I can't find a way out of the rain. Others find their days of sun, All I find is that I wake up to is a body that leaves me feeling drained and done. They all live in a different world with what they believe to be true, Meanwhile, I'm being mainstreamed when my color has a completely different hue. Can I be who I am without bein

When I Fall In Love
When I fall in love, I want to be with her always; In happiness, to smile with her, and be the one to hug her near. In sadness, to cry with her, and be the one to dry her tears. When I fall in love, I will spend my every waking and sleeping moments with her and catch each moment in its eternally lovely form. When I fall in love, I will miss her the very moment I say 'goodbye' and my heart will yearn for the very moment I say ‘hello'. When I fall in love, all my old hurts and pains will seem lost and faded away and I will be strong and brave once again. When I fall in love, I want you to be happy always, ever and feel like the happiest person of them all . . . Because that's what I will feel, when I fall in love, with you.

When You Fall
Someday I will be there,To gently catch your fall.Because the day that happens,You wil have given the greatest gift of all. No gold or mans wealth,Could be greater than this.The one gift you could give,And fill my life with eternal bliss. Beautiful I will wait for your fall,Then from you never again be apart.Because on that wonderful day,You will have handed me your heart.

When I Look At You - Miley Cyrus
Everybody needs inspriation.Everybody needs a soul.A beautiful melody.When the nights are long.Cause there is no guarantee.That this life is easy.Yeah, when my world is falling apart.When there's no light to break up the dark.That's when I, I look at you.When the waves are flooding the shore.And I can't find my way home anymore.That's when I, I look at you.When I look at you.I see forgiveness, I see the truth.You love me for who I am.Like the stars or the moon.Right there where they belong.And I know I'm not alone.Yeah, when my world is falling apart.When there's no light to break up the dark.That's when I, I look at you.When the waves are flooding the shore.And I can't find my way home anymore.That's when I, I look at you.You appear just like a dream to me.Just like kelidescope colors.That further me, all I need.Every breath that I breathe.Don't you know you're beautiful. When the waves are flooding the shore.When I can't find my way home anymore.That's when I, I look at you.I look a

When I Look At You.......... Written By Me
When I look at you By me When I look at you I see the sun, the moon and the stars. I see everything thats beautiful in this world.I see a momma who loves her babiesI see a woman who loves her familyI see strength and convictionI see love and I see respectI see an un assuming womanI see someone who is not affraid to be themselfI see a flower in full bloomI see a shy girl I see a strong womanI see funI see laughterI see seriousnessI see fearI see trepidationI see sunshine on a dark stormy dayI see a sultry sexinessI see sexy smokey eyes I see eyes that have seen love and painI see happinessI see sadnessI see confedenceWhen I look at you I see what I want

When Is It Time To Pay The Devil?!?!?!?!
ok heres the deal that has me pissed off enought to bitch to eveyone. what can i say i have no cule what to do...... ok background ..... i have a 4 year old son, im single , but my son and his mother live with me... ok now on to problem i dont date 2 reasons y no time ,and if i happen to date someone and i turn into an ass to my ex she will take off to NC to live with her mom (side note i live in pa).. 2 my ex dose not have a job!! so i pay for everything (the rent the bills ect) .... PROBLEM the ex had friends over to my place all week not my friends her friends and didnt ask me eather.... then last night i wanted to get layed, witch according to our little deal i still get a peace every now and again. but anyway she was like like fuck no and me asking for it started a fight !!! so what the fuck do i do do i tell her its time to pay the devil and risk loseing my boy or is this simply the fucking i get for the fucking i got so long ago?? comments wanted..

When They First Met
She stood there, hair swaying in the breeze, Watching as he walked towards her. Her heart, beating very fast, she can't help but smile, as he gets closer, to where she stands. He stops in front of her, as a smile breaks, on his face. She thinks of, how handsome this man is, with his smiling face, and glowing hazel eyes. Her green eyes, as bright as his, She says a "hello," her cheeks, turning a lite pink, as he stares at her. He says "hello" back, and whispers "how beautiful." She raises her hand, and he raises his own, they press their hands together, palm to palm, fingers intertwining, and in that moment, their connection, grew so much stronger, then it has ever been before. With their fingers intertwines, eyes locked, on each other, both smiling, not needing words at the moment. Its like the world disappeared, the only two things, where the two lovers, that stood before each other. Their hearts, starting to beat as one, makes a love song, for just them to

When I Say I Love You
When I say I love youIt may just be 8 lettersIts more than those 3 words can sayIt's something so much better When I say I love youMy heart is chiming inIt says the words and sings the notesAnd tells our life to begin When I say I love youI see you smile wideI know you grin and stare at meAnd your heart swells big with pride When I say I love youIts what I always feelThe things you give me arent what countsYour love for me I know is real Today I say I love youWith sincerity and emotionAnd promise as your one true loveTo forever show devotion!

When Frustration Comes To Call...
When we talk about frustration, we generally mean those feelings brought about by shocking changes in our worldly circumstances.Loss of property,loss of job,disappointed expectations.These events and so many others, leave us feeling frustrated and helpless. "How could this happen to me?" we ask, "Who did this to me?"The hard lesson is that even though the events that led to our frustration just came out of nowhere, the solution will not. It's up to us to quit trying to figure out how this happened and turn our attention to what we can do about it.Frustration leaves us feeling out of control, prey to random forces. When frustrated, we must learn to seek out the areas we can control and learn to accept that the ultimate CONTROLLER of our circumstances is always watching out for us.

When The Darkness Won't Lift...
DEPRESSIONIt's a word we use casually, lightly ignoring the fact that true depression---whether its cause is biological or brought about by life events---can be utterly devastating.The depressed person is emotionally paralyzed, cut off from the stream of daily life.And the condition is self-perpetuating.Just finding the energy to seek help can seem like an insurmountable task.So how do people find their way out of the darkness and into the light?The motivations to seek help and the ways people find to lift themselves out of the pit of depression are as varied as individual personalities.

When Is Enough Enough??
Read it or don't.It has been awhile since I bothered to even think about a bulletin here. After this, I don't know if I ever want to write another. The end is nigh.Fake profiles, fake pics, fake this, fake that. At the end of the day, who are WE to judge another? People creating their own deaths or illnesses online in order to get sympathy? It's real, that's very damn real!Where does it end, when do people collectively say enough is enough?? I understand that people are entitled to be informed when someone misrepresents who they are in order to gain real cash items online. Fraud is fraud, we all suffer in the end from it.But where do we draw the line in the sand, as people we are drawn to those that we can either relate to as person, or to what we are attracted to looks wise. At least I admit to that, I like a beautiful woman same as every other NORMAL male online. But looks are just that, photos are just that. It is what it is, if the person has no substance, are you going to continue

When Im Gone
people who actually kill themselves never give warning or signs, those that do aren't serious but I can tell you this, Suicide is a train barreling downhill track with no brakes- it starts slow but builds into an obsession impossible to stop. You should feel honored that he felt you were the most important person in his world that he chose you to spend his last hours with- that was carefully and intentionally planned. When you are on the train you enjoy the view the speed your last hours but feel it is inevitable so you are happy and never feel the ending coming, its all preplanned and nothing can stop it, you dont want it stopped, you want it over. My roommates have no idea it ever happened to me, that I was ever on that train but I have many times and if I were on it right now, no one would know. When we refer to people we love who are gone, they want us to remember the fun we had together, to them death was just another step in life. the only predictable part of life is that it is u

When Will Baby Arrive? Take A Guess
I am Going to be induced on June 3rd if baby girl don't come before then.... So what i want from you all is Guesses! I am Currently as of May 25th 4 centimeters dilated. I will be 39 weeks pregnant May28th. I have gained 22 lbs. I have contractions off an on obviously. So you tell me, What day do you think Trinity will come? What time? How much will she weigh and how long will she be? What color hair and eyes will she have??? Have fun we'll see who gets which one right. Remember my other 2 kids were born Late Eric was born 6 days late and Cassidy was a week late and came by induction. Both natural no Epi. They have a different father then Trinity so i don't think their weight and length at birth will matter. But i'll give them to you anyway. Eric was 7 lbs 6 oz and 20 1/2 inches long, Cassidy was 8 lbs 11 oz and 21 inches long. HAVE FUN GUESSING EVERYONE!!!

When Souls Cry Out In Pain
My soul cry's in pain, as I stare out through my window pane. My tears stream down my face, hitting onto my pillow case. I am a soul in pain, no love or comfort, will I gain. Love is lost never to receive again. I am a soul who' been forgotton, no one seems to share them selfs to help me out. They turn away and laugh in my face, for they think I'm just a mental case. I scream out to God in pain, why must you, put me through all this anguish, and sadness. I wonder through the roads of life, living but not living, each day is a stuggle. As I search, for comfort but its not there, pulling away from people who stare. Reaching out in the vast cosmos of space, leaving behind a life that has not lived. I cry but no one hears, my fears are as real as they shatter the sound of my own beatting heart, wish I could just rip it out. No more feelings I will bare, cause frankly who even cares My soul crys in pain, never wishing to live once again

When You Care For Someone.
I've learned, That if someone really honestly cares about you, You shouldn't have to fight off whores and sluts.. and They wouldn't be ashamed of you. If you care for someone, you should tell them how you feel. And show them you care as well. Not just behind close doors. Love is a Beautiful Part of Life Enjoy it!

When Words Are Unsaid
TRYING TO EMBRACE THE MOMENTS THAT ARE NOW MERELY WISPERS IN THE WINDIF I COULD DO IT AGAIN I WOULD HAVE MADE EACH SECOND LASTI WOULD HAVE DONE THINGS DIFFERENTLYMOMENTS UNSPOKEN (TALES)THINGS ARE BETTER LEFT UNSAID-THINGS AREN'T OK BUT YOU'D RATHER THEM JUST GO ON-AFRAID OF CONFRONTAION-MAKING A BIGGER DEAL OUT OF WHAT IS AND TURNING IT INTO UNNECESSARY DRAMA-YOU LIE TO YOURSELF-TRY AND MAKE YOURSELF THINK ITS NOTHINGWORDS FORGOTTEN IN THE BREEZE OF YOUR BRETH FLOWING FORWARD ONTO YOUR NEXT VENTUREESCAPE INTO THE NEW FORGETTING THE WORDS YOU SETSO I ASK MYSELF WHY COULDN'T WE HAVE PRESSED REWIND MAKING THAT SOMETHING LAST FOREVERI CAN FORGET YOU-EVEN HATE YOU-IF I IGNORE YOU-SHIELD MY HEART FROM THE HURT YOUR KISS LAID UPON MEBUT WHEN YOUR SMILE CATCHES MY EYE IT MELTS AWAY EVERY OUNCE OF FEELING IN MY BODY THE ONLY THING PRESENT IS ECSTASY FLOWING THROUGH MY VEINS PUMPING AND RUNNING TILL IT HITS MY HEART SHOOTS THIS UNEXPLAINABLE ENERGY THROUGH MY BODY AND OUR SMILES MEET ONE ANOTHE

When Loss Is Found
Staring in the light of day The sunlight ravishing the mind with pain Numb sensations filter through the soul The agony felt loses sight of the goal When out of the light a darkness comes Like rain laden clouds to blot out the sun Cold downpour of dreary rain Falls down on the hollow remains Cleansing to the soul and water the soil My body lying naked in my hole I toil With empty words I cry out from my grave Seeking to undo all the pain I have made Angelic sounds filter to my ears Everpresent but never near The spectres of love and desire Tantalizing as they sear my soul with fire Covet thy neighbor and drown in sin For sweet whispered bliss that may never have been Just hopes and dreams within my sight As I soldier on and muster the will to fight And I strive on still to hear that sound Of love and happiness when loss is found

[when A Man Loves Two Men]
This blog has nothing to do with the topic. Tonight I mowed my front lawn.And ... came to terms with a growing attraction to hot mexican girl's sister. I mean... it was always there.She's the older, wiser, more temperate shorter, gentler hot mexican girl >> Where one has the swagger and firethis one has chilly modesty I think where my mind wanders mostwhen my eyebrows are damp with sweatand my chest is heavingand ... my arms are bloody and bruised isn't to how sweet it would be to hire some neighbor kid to do this shit but rather I think back to the time I was taking a faux-nap in the breakroom and hot sister was talking to one of her friendsand they were talking aboutporn Oh yes. Not only pornbut sexand deep throatingand their graphicpersonal experienceswith deep throating. I don't know that I'll everEVER tell her about the fact that I overheard... But I was ear-to-ear that whole afternoon. Especially where she talked about how her eyes watered up from it. Tis a charmed

When Does Trust Begin?
When do you start trusting someone that you are suppose to be talking/dating? How soon or when do you think that things should be progressing towards the next part of the relationship? Why play these little games with us, I mean if you dont like us in the sense that you dont wanna be with us, then Y lead us on? If you dont want to be with us in the bf/gf way. I want a honest answer.....GUYS please help out on this one!

When You Should Stop!!!!!!!
put the drink down never. their should always be a back up plan! when to just say no cant . whouldnt know how to act! what is the stoping point you ask? no paints no short an you have no idea where your clothes are is 1 . then there is when walking becomes a problem 2 /

When I Need You
You are there somewhere and I am hereWe are far from one anotherI feel you so close to my heartYet so far coz I cant feel youIn times I want to hold youI am missing youAnd I know how you are missing me tooBut I can’t hold youIn times when I want toNow that I want to be with youThe days seems so slowEven the ticks of the clockThat runs so fast when I am not longing for youWhen I need youThe clouds darkenedWanting to pour the rainTelling me just to wait for the sun‘coz he will rise to shineWhen I need youThe birds are singingTelling me to waitCoz you will fulfill as you have promisedTo be with me forever

When Traveling Abroad, Use Interval Shift To Estimate How Far You Poverty To Go
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When Im Gone
Hush my love, and go to sleep. No need to fear, no need to weep. When you wake again, my dearYou know that I'll always be here. Close your eyes, my love, and sleep.Let me lead you through the deep. Through seas below and stars above, Close your eyes and sleep, my love. Let my words bring you to peaceYou know your worries, they will keep.Just let my words encircle you, And take your soul beneath the blue. You'll find me with you in your dreams, Its as real as it can seemEven though my body's gone, You will never be alone. Its the way that time should turn, And everything in time will burn. Though I know you can't see me, My heart at last is truely free.

When It Crosses The Line...
When it crosses the line from being upset and feeling a certain way about things to harassment, slander, liable, and defamation of character, then enough is enough. We can appreciate the feelings that people have and why they may feel that way, but what people don’t seem to understand is that you may not attack, smear, or launch campaigns against people in order to make yourself feel better, especially if what your doing is for yourself and not for those whom you proclaim to be advocating for. Those of you who know us know that just over two years ago, we inherited a few new members to our family. We were asked to take in 3 children; first and foremost so that the situation that was playing itself out did not result in the children going into the system. It is well documented that we were asked to take these children in. Once again due to the situation that was playing itself out, once the children arrived and events transpired, it was apparent that these children would be her

When Leveling And Your Stressed Out Listen To Music
so i had my eye's on hopeing to level to godmother & i had all the help from my family & friends now it was all up to me to get the points in order to level as i was superclose to leveling i gotten stress out because it seem like every page i went to rate & get points i already rated . then i was like what the fuck i'm going to do now i was getting a headache i took a break i went to my ipod i was like fuck this i wanna go to go old school i took out my music all of cds and i think i have ocd or something because i have then all organize from the 50's all the way up to now 2000's so i went into the 80s cd file i saw my favorite song head over heels by tears for fear's so i put the cd in and i was jamming like crazy it brought back alot of memories and it took my mind off of i gotten to level to i'm danceing in my room acting a fool . i gotten happy & when i went back to fubar i finally level i really think that just chilling out and not takeing leveling so seriously and takeing a break

When U Think Life Sucks
ppl think that their lives suck some ppl have an easy life i know from personal record how hard life can b ive never had a normal child hood was a punching bag for 13 yrs ive been made fun of picked on cause i look diffrernt talk different wasnt born with a silver spoon in my mouth never had things handin to me i worked for every thing i have ppl judge way too quick bout a person get to know b4 u judge

When You Were A Kid Or You Were An Itch In Your Daddy's Pants.
Many of you were born during, or after, the "Cold War". None of you know that the "Cold War", was just as hot as Iraq and Afghanistan. Except we weren't fighting terrorists, who are cowards and shitpiles anyway, due to some jihad. No, we were fighting worldwide annihilation against ORGANIZED, WHOLE FUCKING ARMIES. While you were a baby, or your mom and dad were humping it to create you, myself and others were all over the damn place eliminating threats so you could sleep at night, and not have to wear 5 million sunblock from multiple 350 kiloton nuclear warheads launched by some Soviet (yes, Soviet- not CIS) missile sub or land based silo, or rail based system. You didn't have to practice "duck and cover" (ask your grandparents about Dwight Eisenhower's solution- dig a hole) to protect you in school. So, despite the fall of the Soviet Union, their missiles are still out there, but now free to purchase. Doesn't matter if they are. Because those warheads were, and still are, targeted at

When I'm With You
The earth, moon, and stars.All the heavens above.For when I think of you,they cannot hold all my love.The expanding universe,is the best example I know,to best describe,how much I love you so.There is no limit on love.This you should always know,for now and all eternity,my love for you will grow. I Love You Michelle.

When You Are Alone
Its Sunday.I am in my new home.Its been two weeks now.Still haven't settled in yet.Still have my clothes in my car and it is starting to put off fumes.I also need to go to the dump!(lol).When you are alone everything comes to visit you in the mind.Old friends,past events.....past regrets.....the could of would of should of.Now I am dealing with the fact that people who are close to me are trying to get into my mind to see where I am at.So I have fortified my newly made walls to keep them out.They will be torn down one day by the one who knows what tools to use.But for now there is nothing that can get in for I am protecting what is behind them for it is full of beauty and depth.I got to see my boys yesterday for the first time in two weeks and even though we had fun I can see there pain and concern.I am just hoping now that they will one day come to the conclusion that what I did I did for myself and them also.Whenever you hide from your true self you get lost.Now thru the quietness of

When We First Meet, This Is What I Hope Will Happen
WHEN I SEE YOU!!!! THE WAY I WILL LOVE YOU… The moment I see your eyes and my lips touch yours, I know that the waiting has been worth it. As my tongue parts your lips and I taste your tongue for the first time my cock is busting to get out of my jeans and pressed hard against you. I find a free space on a wall and move you to it and press you hard against it. I start stroking my fingers through your hair and grab it pull it with enough force so you tilt your head back so I can start to lick and suck your amazing neck. My left hand already caressing your sweet breasts and my tongue is making its way down to meet my hand. I lick and kiss all the skin I can get to and decide that your shirt and bra are in my way. As I remove them I kiss and lick your shoulders down your arms and all skin that you offer me and I now love the taste of you, the smell of you and want so much more. As my mouth covers your breast and my tongue makes your nipples scream for more my o

When You Touch Me!
WHEN YOU TOUCH ME! @ When you touch me Touch me so I can feel you Let me know the real you The you nobody else knows When you touch me Touch me with meaning For the world to see That I belong to you alone When you touch me Don’t let me think or feel That it is just to appease me I’d rather you touch to please me When you touch me Caress me with meaning Let me feel the love in your hands Let me know it’s my heart that you hold When you touch me Grab my hand with purpose Do not just touch me Feel me and let me feel your heart When you touch me I will always touch you So you will know that it’s me And how much I adore you I Love...When you touch me! By Scott Scherer

When I Think Of You
WHEN I THINK OF YOU When I think of you, you make me dream Of times without lonelinessI remember times without love and happiness And dream of a love so pure, so true When I think of youWhen I think of you, you make me wishThat I could be wherever you areI could be in your arms looking into your amazing eyesWhen I think of youWhen I think of you, you make me wantTo kiss your sweet lips over and over againKiss your cheeks, your arms and all of youWhen I think of youWhen I think of you, you make my heartLong to be in love again, to feel loves warmthTo be truly wanted and desired againWhen I think of youWhen I think of you, you make me cryTo cry because I hope for no more painCry as I have in the past from my heart being brokenWhen I think of youWhen I think of you, you make me hopeThat one day I will find the woman who will truly love meOne day she will come to me and never let me goWhen I think of you! By Scott A. Scherer

When I Run
As performed by Suzy Bogguss When I see the way you look at love I feel so blind;'Cuz I don't know how to give that much to you;And when I think of what it means to love forever, I get scaredThat I won't be strong enough to see it throughAnd about that time I don't know what to do. And when I run, it's only cuz I don't know how to stay;I don't know how to get my feelings out of my way;It's not you, and it's not fun;I know trying to hide is crazy and walking out won't save me -My demons only chase me when I run. In your arms I am sound and safe from my own harmOr at least you always make me feel that way;It's only when I turn away from you that I get lostAnd my mind lets some old hurt get in the wayI stop listening to what my heart has to say. And when I run, it's only cuz I don't know how to stay;I don't know how to get my feelings out of my way;It's not you, and it's not fun;I know trying to hide is crazy and walking out won't save me -My demons only chase me when I run. And how,

When I Left Fubaf
This is what I said when I left FUBAR I stand by those feelings and I am not sure if I will come back for good or for just right now. Anyway to save the feelings I had there at that time I created this blog. I am going to likely be on here from time to time but no where as active as I once was. Ok well I have had enough of FUBAR for a while I am tired of the drama, people begging for blasts, tickers, VIPs, Happy Hours, and FU-Bucks. Also people doing anything they can just to get points. This is supposed to be place to meet people, have fun, and make new friends. Well I have been on here for almost 10 months now, at this posting I have fanned 574 people and made 457 friends. Sometimes I only fan people but that is rare most of the time I rate and fan profiles before sending a request. I only have 185 fans myself and only 1214 profile views that is about 4 views a day. To those Few Friends that I have made on here that wonder why I want to leave think about it 4 views a day and I hav

When I Lost My Mind.
Only one way to know for sure.Fingertipswet lipsdry bottlesThick varnish, chipped on spilled beer and foreheads.I feel nothing.sharp dirt in the cracksthe wail of a sirenPickupdropofftraumamorgue.All passes by so blank.So blur.That initial burn before the numb.That first glare before light.I feel nothing.Fingertipswet lipswarm exposedfleshecstatic gaspsthe wail of sirensI feel nothing.My handher facethat initial glarefading infading outthe stains on the sheetspickupthe awkwardlimp dropI feel nothing.sharp dirtbareexposedwetfleshThe wail of sirens.Such a blank.Such a blur.Fading in.Fading out.

When Darkness Comes...
when darkness comes at the end of the days monotony, i find myself amidst beautiful strangers and the nameless faces of those who have already forgotten me... people who never knew the bright shining supernova of my prior self. when darkness comes i am stupefied by the remnants of my former self's life... pictures of lost angels and beauty queens, super-heroes and little villains, Cinderellas glass slipper, and a red ranger mask, a pair of panties and some old eyeliner. is this what i had? i have nearly forgotten. when darkness comes, that's when i truly realize what loss is. i have even lost myself in all of this, for what am i truly writing about? it is not about the loneliness of spending my nights alone, or at least with those that matter most. it's about when morning comes and my dark nightmare becomes my stark white reality... the dream from which i never wake

When The Trumpet Sounds
The skies will turn bright and the clouds will part for himWhen that trumpet sounds his children know he is here for themGod will descend from the heaven to take his children backwhen that trumpet sounds his children will go, no need to packIf you have taken him into your heart, you've been forgiven of your sinWith God in your life your saved and we will all meet againI will stand at the gate waiting for you to come see meI hope to see your face at the gate someday, so pry with meIf you don't know him, you'd better sit and think againcause with out the BLOOD your lost,no man is without sin.So please get on your knees and ask for forgivenessGod in your life is the one and only key to happinessSo for you I will prat I pray we will meet at that gate some day.3-27-09

When The One You Love Betrays You.
So this is a great way to start a blog on Fubar (yes sarcasm is completely intended). I guess I need to just get this shit out of my head. I haven't told anyone I know including my family about this. I know that the would all be biased in one way or another so there is really no since in telling them because their feedback would be crap and someone would piss me off sooner or later. Honestly I just don't have anybody that I trust in my life enough to discuss personal shit with anyway and the only person I have ever trusted is the reason I'm writing this. So I'm fucked and the whole situation is fucked. Any way the question I can't seem to answer on my on or at least have been able to find peace of mind with is “what do you do when the only person that you have ever trusted and really loved betrays you?” I'm not talking about the kind of genuine but common love that you have for family and close friends or the kind that you bestow on your significant that you find a comfor

When You Thought I Wasn't Looking
WHEN YOU THOUGHT I WASN'T LOOKING When you thought I wasn't looking, I saw you hang myfirst painting on the refrigerator, and I immediately wantedto paint another one. When you thought I wasn't looking, I saw you feed astray cat, and I learned that it was good to be kindto animals When you thought I wasn't looking, I saw you make myfavorite cake for me and I learned that the little things can bethe special things in life. When you thought I wasn't looking, I heard you say aprayer, and I knew there is a God I could alwaystalk to and I learned to trust in God. When you thought I wasn't looking, I saw you make ameal and take it to a friend who was sick, and Ilearned that we all have to help take care of each other. When you thought I wasn't looking, I saw you give ofyour time and money to help people who had nothingand I learned that those who have something should !give to those who don't. When you thought I wasn't looking, I saw you takecare of our house and everyone in it and I

[when It Rains It Pours... That's Not Rain]
God is PISSED.I'm not entirely sure whyprobably all that sacrilege and anger.My car broke down in traffic on the way to help move.So I spent 2 hours doing the tow/repairshop shuffle.AndI'm not spending more money on that thing than it is worth, which is apparently nothing, but heyat least I drove it for 100 miles before it ... died.AlsoAt one point my phone's battery was explodingnow... its just not charging.So...........................I fucking quit.Yup.I quit.I've got my battery in some rice (worked for a day last time I did that) and ... I think I'm going to get drunkand go to bed.Its on 1/8th battery, and refusing to charge. I'm pretty much at emergency communications only right now.Oh yeah... and I had to deep clean my airbrush last night for the third time in a week.I don't know if its fixed or not, but my needle is clearing my nozzle again, that's a good indication that any blockage is now cleared (at least in that chamber).I'm going to bed now.

When The Full Moon Shows
When the full moon showsYou no longer can waitCome to my bed. .. ...I myself, have clung tomy fantasies and dreamsAnticipation is killing me You want to be kissedCome to my bed .. .. ..I miss you all over againCan't you see, can't you seeWhat you are doing to me You only came to be kissedLeft my bed to soon. .. .. Oh, how I missThe smell of your hair . ..jasmineYour pouty mouth and strong perfumeSoon to be winter. . . . You have not called memy bed is burning for your loveWhere can you beI see your eyes in front of meAnd the hands that hug me Come to my Bed. .. ...

When My Mom Caught My Spirit Gf. Why I Prefer Spirit Girls Over Living Girls!
I was having a romantic relationship with a spirit girl before I finally decided to look up "astral sex" on the Internet to see what other people have to say about it. I mainly just kiss and hug a spirit girl. It's funny but I'm completely comfortable with her and I can't even talk to the girls on this Earth much less have any kind of physical contact (holding hand, kissing, hugging etc.) with them. If I didn't have several near-death experiences over my 1st love I probably wouldn't have learned about the spirit girl that is usually with me. On one of my Birthday's while me and my mom were staying in this office I went to do yard work to make some money and mainly to have an excuse not to be here when my aunt showed up while I was miles from here my mom told me she in her peripheral vision (corner of her eye) she could see a short alien with long dark hair and wearing a robe run thru this office really quick. I thought it seemed a little odd because I haven't seen any bein

When You Look At Me
When you look at me what you see? Do you see the good father, passion I have to give, or do you just my scared face, tattoo's and say not some one not worth knowing? Can you see past my mask? See into my eyes and look ferther, and see what I have to offer?

When You Visit My Page
there's a few things about me that i feel like people should know. hopefully this blog helps distinguish my beliefs and thoughts for those of you out there who give a sh*t. so for starters, i joined this site in late 2005 ( it was called lostcherry.com back then, not fubar) when mike had first had it up and under construction. there was less than 100,000 users, never really even 30,000 or so online at the same time. i've seen it change alot but still feel that it's the best non-dating profile site around. it's the only one i use. in commercials now everybody and their mother wanna remind people to click on their f*ckin twitter link or facebook or whatever. psh, f*ck that. i hate the fact that even fu sold out a little by linking itself with facebook but i guess i can understand. they help promote, which in turn pays the bills. so yeah, i have a half a decade worth of funny pics, show fliers, videos from gigs and different bands i like stored here. my stash is a goldmine if you take th

When You Go To Pick Up The Milk, Please Remember To Pick Up The Milk!
Boy, did I feel silly after I got home to Mary, Sarah, and Jeffrey after I dropped off Martha at work and picked up a few items at Walmart. The one my wife used to work at is a Super Walmart, one that should you not be involved in some kind of distance exercise program would provide an excellent pace for your feet; i.e. you can get in a few miles walking there! So I picked up a few items there and came home but then realized I wasn’t carrying the bag that the gallon of two-percent milk for the kids was in. And I recalled not carrying it out from the store with me … gee, and I thought Martha was getting beside herself because she didn’t remember whether she had cosigned a paper with me the day after I did! Something must be catching; I picked up two bags of Halls’ strawberry Fruit Breezers because nearly all of us are coughing right now! With me it’s not so severe, because I seem to remember catching a cold every other month or so growing up &helli

When A Fu-cation Goes Bad
I was gone for the majority of the holiday season... I didn't forget about you guys...I was just insanely busy and had to sleep when I could I miss you guys... Dammit.. you need to update me on your lives

When Is It My Turn
When will women stop trying to be controlling? I just recently got with a woman who took oxys and percs. I did everything possible to make her happy but when she was on her meds she changed. Then didn't remember what i did for her. She would give me hell for it. I couldn't take it any more so I had to le her go. Sometimes the best thing to do is let go. She tried to Alpha Male my life instead of sharing it she wanted to control it. Maybe one day she'll remember how nice I was to her. By then I think it will be too late. So now my next chapter of my life begins. Who will be in my life next remains to be seen. Till then I'm just taking some me time. Catching up on my school work and life in general. Every now and then one needs to regroup collect your thoughts and keep moving forward. So to all who have a similar problem just hang in there life does get better. When life throws you lemons make Vodka (wink, wink)..............

When Paramedics Become Heartless People
Now it been 3 days since I was rushed to the er for an seizure attack that last over 20 minutes.When the paramedic's can in my home they were to my mother and boyfriend.My bf was trying help before that jerk from his arms and I was complete helps couldn't anything about.I pull me through the pull kitchen and then my living.They wrapped there arms around me and it made me throw up on my closes they give a shit. then grab my arms so tightly to were it was hurting me and forcing me to walk when I was unable to even stand on my own two feet.Then they put me the gurney hard.Well I was in the they talked to hateful and rubbing my chest bonr so hard it was hurting me.Then my started rolling back and Tony O. put finger on my right told me quite faking my own seizure,well the other male paramedic put more rubbing pressure on my chest bone again.The male paramedic rammed the iv into my left arm that wont's the worse put I passed out and Tony O. break the small salt instead of waving h sticks up

When Life Veers Off Path...
When life veers off path we have to make choices that will either make us or break us and in the long run we will never know if that other choice was the right or wrong one. We learn from our mistakes along the way and then we can try again if those choices arise again. Life has many paths and it isn't always the right one but we have to use our better judgement and see where it will take us. There will always be those what-if questions in the back of our minds nagging at us. Sometimes the choices we make reflect on others around us and thats when you have to sit there and give it more thought than any other choice because you need to make sure you are happy first but in most cases you have to considers others feelings too. I've learned to many times that I can't make everyone happy unless I want to end up the unhappy one in the end. I wish I could take back some of the stuff that has transpired but I know in the long run I won't truly know if it will make a difference or not. I have t

When God Is Man
When God is a man One can understand his wrath If God is a man Easy to understand his vagaries Easy to relate to his judgements Easy all around if you are a man. When God is a man All focus is on ease * simplicity Black & white That somehow ease equates to Being a God Or at least close to one like a pathetic water boy that at least gets to wear a team Jersey

When Will It Ever End
when will it ever end? the pain, cant stop the rain. a knife rips at my heart, we are so far apart. like the stars, you are so far. I was never a hero, always a zero. i hang on by a string, wondering if i should just let go. when will it ever end. i build a wall, you never seen me fall. you never heard me call. just want it all to go away, i sit in the darkness. will you ever come. to wipe away the tears, chase away my fears. where are you. when will it ever end?

When I Write
when I write aloneI visit a friendI find her sulking, pacing,waiting her turnin her dark secluded cornershe shies awaybut when I write alone I let her playshe makes visiblewhat superficial lenses missshe carries my baggageall my burdens and shamethrough her eyes I’m a slave to expectationbut when I write alone she says “Fuck perfection”throughout the day, no one can hear hershe never fights inside her cella good girl, she sitssilently suppressedbut when I write alone we’re a vessel possessedset free under lamp lightI let her write, write, open her veinssometimes it’s heartfelt, seductive, or lamebut she scribbles and scratches whatever comes outfor several minutes or pages, until nothing remainsand our hearts beat with a sated tonethen I tuck her away for next time, when I write alone

When I Think About You
When I think about you I think about Happiness. I think about joy, laughter, smiles. Walks in the park holding hands. picnics in a meadow. Looking into your eyes and seeing the Love you have to give.. It warms my Heart to think about you. nothing in this world can ever take your place. no amount of gold or riches can equal the feelings you give me.. I LOVE YOU......

"when Having More Leaves You Empty, You Discover True Happiness Lies In Enough!"
"I wish you enough sun to keep your attitude bright. I wish you enough rain to appreciate the sun more. I wish you enough happiness to keep your spirit alive. I wish you enough pain so that the smallest joys in life appear much bigger. I wish you enough gain to satisfy your wanting. I wish you enough loss to appreciate all that you possess. I wish enough "Hello's" to get you through the final "Goodbye."

When Is Enough, Enough?
I got this awesome man I have been crushn' on for 6 months, we used to talk everyday, every mornin it was the most wonderful experience in my whole life, to have someone that devoted but now sometimes we dont chat n he doesnt share much of his life with me, I know I'm moody n mushy but crap, should I just cut my losses n suck it up to experience or do I stay loyal n stay his lovin honeybuns? I thought when is enough, enough, n that answer is never if u love someone!!! What does my heart say? It hurts knowin what can happen, oh dear what should I do??

When I'm Sad, I Come Back
it seems like i'm only on the fu when i'm sad. every breakup in the past few years has lead me back here. it's not a bad thing. i'm not trying to be all emo. or overly sentimental. just wanted to say. that even though there are TONS of assholes here (and perves) there are a few nice people who always manage to cheer me up when i am down. and i thank you for that dearly. also. chat me up late enough and we can get frisky, 'cause i'm single now wooo. jk.

When You Send Me A Text
R2D2 yells at me. When you send a text stating REDCROSS to 90999, you donate $10 to the American Red Cross. All proceeds of that donation support disaster relief for those affected by the Japan earthquake and Pacific tsunami. The bling is still a nice way to give, especially if you got the credits as a gift and don't know what to do with them. I'm not saying buy them for me - buying them for anyone helps. Watch your language, R2!

When I Was A Biker
I saw you pull your child closer when we passed each other on the sidewalk.But you didn't see me playing Santa at the local mall.I saw you change your mind about going into the restaurant.But you didn't see me attending a meeting to raise more money for the hurricane relief.I saw you roll up your window and shake your head when I drove by.But you didn't seeme driving behind you when you flicked your cigarette butt out the car window.I saw you frown at me when I smiled at your children.But you didn't see me when I took time off from work to run toys to the homeless.I saw youstare at my long hair.But you didn't see me and my friends cut ten inches off for Locks of Love.I saw you roll your eyes at our leather coats and gloves.But you didn't see me and my brothers donate our old coats and gloves to those that had none.I saw you look in fright at my tattoos.But you didn't see me cry as my children were born and have their name written over and in my heart.I saw you change lanes while rushin

When Asking For Help With Coding
Hello, this blog is designed to give some outlook from my point of view as a volunteer coder on fubar. Many of you who begin looking for a coder have a lounge that you opened and are having issues with many aspects of coding a good lounge.. and here are some things i have run into in the past few months siince I started coding lounges..hopefully this blog will explain something to you... 1. when asking for help, please, is it help you are looking for? I have found that many times i recieve a message from someone who has found me from the coding help loounge or blog. If you want "HELP" i would be more than happy to help you, with what ever it is.. but lets define help right quick...dictionary.com defines it as "–verb (used with object) 1. to give or provide what is necessary to accomplish a task orsatisfy a need; contribute strength or means to; renderassistance to; cooperate effectively with; aid; assist: He planned to help me with my work. Let me help you withthose

When Did A Kiss Become Something More
when did a kiss become something more when the mere thought of your lips touching mine would leave me breathless the minute I felt your warm lips my body sighed I never wanted that kiss to stop wanting only to drown in the feeling the possession of my lips by yours how I hungered for more a kiss never seemed to be just a kiss it felt like more a trace along your lower lip would have me sighing aching to nibble on that succulent morsel catching myself even now licking my lips chewing on them remembering those kisses how even now if I were to look upon your face you would see my eyes tracing your lips wanting to ask for just one kiss I know if I were to look upon them then look up into your eyes you would see how

When It Rains It Pours
Last Tuesday (April 5th) I got a hysterical call about 9:30 pm from my mom saying I needed to get back home (in Ohio) that my brother had shot himself. That 3 hour drive took only about 2.5 hrs this particular trip and still felt like an eternity to make. When I reached OSU Medical Center I found out he had been life flighted and had already undergone brain surgery to stop the bleeding and remove the loose brain matter. Finally at 6am Wednesday morning I was able to see him, he was bandaged from his forehead up, and what I could see was covered in dried blood and extreme swelling, he had no facial features what so ever. He was on a respirator but his other vitals were stable (working on their own). Kyle is 28 and no matter how old he is, he's my baby brother. We've heard bits and pieces of what happened but honestly none of it adds up. Just the week before I talked to him and he was happy and excited over news I had for him, and just this past Sunday (2 days before) he had sent me vide

When My Time Is Affordable, Dimes Pay The Price.
"she wants to dance to my pulse but ive got heart murmurs." we found so much in words. all these words, that anyone can use. anyone can say.were all guilty of this. we all do it. say shit that we never mean, say shit that we do mean that we wish we hadnt said.and then we all see our own ideas in words. we make our own worlds in the words that others play upon us.they make me want to beat the shit out of you.make me imagine that perfect tree and those perfect solar lights in "our" front yard.make me want to talk more.make me want to talk less.make me want to leave.make me want to live a life of silence.like thats easy. like its ever easy to walk away from anything. people always say that. "it was so easy to walk away from that shit." but you know that those words really mean that it was hard as hell to even take one step away. i dont plan to ever do hard as hell again. that makes my words pretty BAMF!bitch.

When I Was Younger
I used to live in a house right beside a neighborhood bar. They had a small parking lot that connected to our yard. There was a small shed and a broken down fence along the property line. I used to sneak out my window to go have smoke behind the shed. I was 15 at the time and it had to be around 3am on a Friday night. I lit my cigarette leaned back against the shed and took a few slow drags and closed my eyes to relax. That's when I heard a voice, "hello". I replied "hello" and he started trying to make conversation. He appeared to be in his fifties, I wouldn't say he was dirty, but definitely not well groomed. He was wearing blue work cloths and work boots and appeared to have recently gotten of of work. After a few minutes of making small talk, my cigarette was spent and I was about to go back to bed. That's when he said it. "I have $17 and a pack of cigarettes, suck my dick and you can can have it" I was stunned but horny and running low on cigarettes. I took a step back into the sh

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When I was a kid I didn't have an XBox or Wii, there was this thing called a Lite-Brite. My curfew was the street lights and mom didn't call my cell, she yelled "time to come in". I played outside with friends, not Online. If I didn't eat what my mom made me then I didn't eat. Hand sanitizer didn't exist, but you COULD get your mouth washed out with soap. Repost if you drank water out of a hose and survived!

When Tomorrow Starts Without Me
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When first I looked into your eyeseach breath became a thousand sighs.My heart drummed out a thunder beatI glowed with joy from head to feet.The hand of love had touched my soul,as the bell of destiny began to toll.The tide of love began to rise,the world was filled with summer skies.My sodden clouds of cold and greyglowed with gold, then wisped away.A brilliant rainbow arched across,as waves of love began to toss.The air was filled with lovebird cries,when I first looked into your eyes.When I first looked into your eyes,all time and space were paralyzedAnd in that instant, I was showna universe I had never known.I dwell there still, in Paradise,when I look into your eyes.

When "i" Becomes "i"
purrrrrr I have spent so much time and energy on my submissive side that I had forgotten how much I enjoy feeding the Dominant side. I am, after all, as much a sadist as I am a masochist. I attended a party last night allowing my inner "steve" out. (big smile) I enjoyed needle play as the piercer for a change. I had the pleasure of introducing it to a few curious bottoms. More than that, I enjoyed a surprisingly aggressive scene with a heavy bottom. At the suggestion of a friend we negotiated some play and I must say was tons of fun! To my surprise this lovely TV bottom took one hell of beating. After over an hour of flogging, clamps, CBT, paddles, crops, bare handed spanking, biting and body blows we both relaxed in the afterglow sub/top space. Counting games, begging, the panting whispers and encouraged cries of "More please, Ma'am".....Ma'am, it had been a while since I heard such sweet words (with the exception of precious who still calls me Mistress). "I" will alway

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This is part of my book, PleasuresBy: Izabia LaTesee Primous Pleasures (part 1) In the morning light I awake to the sweet sounds of rain falling upon the window. I turn over to see that you still sleep peacefully. I slowly turn on my side making sure not to disturb your slumber. My dark Warrior, my gentle Angel how you fill me with such peace when before I was full of rage and pains. I look at every detail upon your face and though you look fierce even in sleep there is always that softness behind it that gives you the look of that little five year old boy. I reach out to stroke your hair with feather like touches as your head turns into my touch as I hear you purr yet you don’t awaken. Your eyes are beautiful even when closed lashes that rest upon your cheek. Your bushy eyebrows so sexy and can bring a girl to letting you having your way. As my eyes travel downward there is the flesh right between your back and the base of you lush hair. First I lean over and just let my

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Again it has happened....AGAIN...I give my heart to someone only to have it thrown back at me....in pieces as usual. I guess that no one will ever know the real me because the real me is back behind the walls where I belong. I am tired of the BULLSHIT reasons that I keep hearing when I get dumped......why the fuck don't these women just tell me the fucking truth...that they think I'm just not good enough to be with them....it would STILL hurt....but at least it would be the truth!! So now...I am closed off to the lies known as relationships...I am closed off to the GREAT lie (I love you) that women like to toss about.....the ONLY love in my life right now is my KIDS and my MUSIC......everything else is pretty well bullshit. I am tired of giving my heart because no one really gives a shit about it....I am tired of my heart being a play toy for someone that got screwed by someone else.....tired of being comapred to the others before me....tired of the GAMES!!!! When does it end??

When Love Dies
"As I gazed into your eyes - something inside me forever changed...You laid there by my side and gave me a smile that tore down the walls surounding my Heart..I found what I'd been looking for all along..that magic feeling I could never have before..I felt you there.. beside me.. taking my hand in yours..When the tears faded away and I came to my senses - You gave me a promise I'd been dying to hear since the moment we met..You Told me that we'll always be together...Time and space ceased to be.. Our threads of fate became one..All the pain, doubt and fear in the world would not keep us apart..Not anymore..If I'd have died right then and there in your arms,it wouldn't matter.. It still would have been the happiest momentof my life.. Death is only death.. and you.. are so much more..But then something happened.. The dream ended.. I was forced to openmy eyes only to realize.. that I had lost you once again..I had returned back to reality - along with the sad shards of my broken Heart.. T

When I Look At U
Everybody needs insperation,and everybody needs a song,when the night are always long,cuz there is no gerintee that this life is at all easy. and when my world is fallen apart.and theres no light to brake up the dark.thats when i look at u.and when the the aves r flooding the shore,and i cant find my way home anymore,thats when i look at u. when i look at u i see forgiveness,i see the truth,you love me for who i am,like the stars hold the moon,right there were they belong,and i know im not alone,when i look at u.u sometimes feel like A DREAM TO ME THATS WHY I ALWAYS TOUCH U. thats why i look at u. Marryjane cain luvs nick1982 4 ever

When I Belong.....
I'm not right for this day and age. If I could, I'd turn back the page. Yeah! I'd go back to days of old. Days of King Arthur and Chivalry. I'd go back to when I belong..... I belong when nice guys actually stood a chance. I belong when women actually cared about romance. I belong when it was okay to cry. I belong when it was okay to be a nice guy....... I'm not an egotistical asshole or anything close. I've tried to be like that. I'm too nice of a guy I suppose. I'm not a woman beater. Nor am I cheater. I wish I could go back to when I belong...... I belong in the days old when it was okay to be yourself to make it in this world. I belong back when you didn't have to be hateful or scold..... I belong when it was okay to cry. I belong when it was okay to be a nice guy. Women in this day and age, are the reason there's not many of us left. Some have turned into what they keep running from and back to. Women in this day and age are hateful and spiteful be

When I Get That Feeling, I Need Sexual Healing
Dear Ninja, after hours & hours of chair f*cking on the deck this weekend.. my lower back has a bruised line across my lower back..... i never wanted tramp stamp yanno.... anyways i have iced it up and it is slightly sore but how can i get rid of the bruises?!?! *giggles at what might be your answer to this unforeseen but very pleasant experience*sincerely, I never wanted a tramp stamp Dear Tramp Stamped, Sounds like a great weekend to me! But yes, there is some TLC to help get rid of those unsightly bruises faster. A Bruise is actually a subdermal hematoma (fancy talk for blood under the skin). When you do some fun sex stuffs, sometimes, you have a little too much fun and need to hide that evidence. A natural method for speeding up the process of bruise removal, a heating pad. Get yourself a nice warm compress or a heating pad and apply it to the site every few hours for 20 minutes at a time. If the heat is minimal, you can leave it longer, although high heat is not reco

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when u miss & love someone you will go thru everything that needs to be gone thru...just to keep this special person in your life. you will experience pain, tears, lust, hurt, a broken heart, u will feel that if u ever lose him/her you will not want to live anymore, before they walk out of your life you will rather take their steps so you can always step back to them, you cant imagine a world without this person, u cant trust anyone but yourself, you will do anything in order to have this person forever in your heart, you will cry yourself to sleep when you’ve been hurt, you’ll miss them all the time, you never stop smiling when u are with them, you’ll always remember that first and last kiss, you’ll dream of them close to u and wake up crying thinking that the dream was real, you’ll have butterflies in your tummy every time you think of them, you’ll have to lie just in case you lose them, you’ll always picture there smile and put it in a frame

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Something i have been trying to correct for five years now When you looked at me for that brief moment in time I lost my breath. My heart plunged into my stomach and it felt like I was floating on thin air.When you held my hands in yours I felt like no one could take me away from you.When you looked into my eyes and I yours, you saw me. You saw my soul. You didn’t see what I wanted you see, instead you saw me, the real me.But all that faded away when you lied and broke my heart. That one fatal instance that separated us both from each others warm embrace, I feel I can no longer love. I was torn in two because of you.I may have lost my passion for love, but I know deep down that it’s not gone because I still love you. Because of that one brief moment that I fell in love with you that my love, shall never change.I may still love you, but you can no longer take what I no longer have to give, because of that one brief moment that I fell in love, and lost my self,

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The lurid rape case against Dominique Strauss-Kahn appears to be collapsing like a big hard phallus suddenly gone flaccid when confronted with the all-too-deflating truth. The alleged victim, a housekeeper whose torrid tale of savage rape at the hands of the 62-year-old IMF chief in a luxurious Sofitel suite had so entranced police and pundits with its seductive “credibility,” has been linked to drug-dealing, money laundering and lying like a wet bathmat on the cum-stained bathroom floor. She was also recorded, within 24 hours of the alleged “rape,” having a telephone conversation with a prison inmate about the exciting and lucrative benefits of pursuing assault charges against the man with whom she’d just had what now appears to have been consensual oral sex. Talk about the maid service blowjob from hell…. Don’t check into the Sofitel! That’s the first moral of this torrid tale. Another might be Read the rest of this entry »

When To Say No To Only Chil?
THAT WOULD BE A GOOD QUISTION? RESENTLY WENT THEW SOME CHANGED AND MY ONLY CHILD MOVED OUT AND QUIT COLLAGE! BOY WAS I MAD I I PUT A LOT OF MONEY INTO THE UNIFORMS BUS PASS LUNCH MOMEY AND IT GOES ON AND ON! I HAD NO IDEALL SHE WAS GOIING TO MOVER! EVER ONE ELS KNOW EXCEPT ME! BOT WAS A MAD! SHE MOVED OUT IN TWO TRUCK LOSDA SHE WAS GOHN! I WAS SAD FOR A WHILD AND MISSED HER LIKE MAD! ISUPOTED HER EVEN THOW I THOUGHT IT WOULD NOT LAS AND I WAS RIGHT! GOT A CALL THAT WE ALL HATE TO GET AS A PARENT THAT SHE HAD BEEN BEAT UP! TOOK HET THE THE ER AND SHE HAD A MILD HEAD ENGERY FROM HUR X! I LET HER MOVE BACK AND ASK HER TO GO BACK TO COLAGE AND STAY AWY FROM THIS MAN! AS FOR STAYING AWAY FROM HIM SHE HAS AS FOR GOING BACK TO SCHOOL NOT INPORTANT TO HER ! NOW WHAT TO DO ! I AM A SINGLE MO AND BEEN LIKE THAT MOST OF MY LIFE ANS ONLY NEED THE BEST FOR

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When will men learn?One evening a husband, thinking he was being funny, said to his wife, 'Perhaps we should start washing your clothes in 'Slim Fast'. Maybe it would take a few inches off of your butt!'His wife was not amused, and decided that she simply couldn't let such a comment go unrewarded.The next morning the husband took a pair of underwear out of his drawer. 'What the heck is this?' he said to himself as a little 'dust' cloud appeared when he shook them out.'April', he hollered into the bathroom, 'Why did you put talcum powder in my underwear?'She replied with a snicker. 'It's not talcum powder; it's 'Miracle Grow'! You guys just never learn, do not tick off the woman .

When I Say I Love You
When i Say I love YouI say the words " I luv U" so muchthat I wonder sometimes if you take forgranted the feeling that is behind them.I never want you to see them as justwords to begin or end a conversation."I Luv U" is just my way of sayingthat you have touched a place in myheart and made me come alive.You have claimed a part of my heartthat, no matter what happens to us,will always belong to you.You taught me how to love.You broke through all of my defensesand comforted my fears...You touched places in meI never knew I had,and made me feel thingsI never thought I'd feel.You have all of the patience, care,understanding, and concern neededto build the kind of relationship we have.So when I say " I Luv u"the words are not spoken out of habit.It is my way of saying thank you forbeing you and of returning someof the joy you have given me.

When You Are In Love With Your True Love!!!!
Why does people half to try and break up someone that is so much in love with there man that they DON'T EVER WANT TO LOSE THEM EVER, The love The love that we have The love that we share The love is what we Share in every day life, We live in love we share, love all the time. But we lose are too alot of times too. We share the same bed, Share the same blanket, alots of things in life. Sometimes we lose the love of our lives. We dont want to lose them all, but some times we have to make a mistake in life. Love is suppose to be when you are happy with someone that you love very much. Love is when you care about that person that you are in love with. All you do is think about the one that you love. When you think of a person that you cant live without, or cant breath with out them, being able to talk to them and seeing them.

When I Miss Coolness
When I miss coolnessI remember you wheiting the rain fascinatedInviting every drop of rainfall to touch youComming form the angry clouds of summerIf I want to troumble...My god... wow I fall asleep into your armsOutside it was snowing and the winter show to me his fangI was stuporing....Warmyou remember we was going into the mountains .... to take fresh airLooking form there up... we was flyingUp to Gods creationTears...You are laughing beacose of nothingI could read your happiness into your eyesVisiting medieval placesSmile...Werry ill i rase my handTo take a tear form you and to show That for you Id like to found only tears form hapinessDeathWe was gooing that coold night you know whereWe was stucked just for a talkI embraced you first time.... daring to kiss youLife Wow many plans we hadYou know when you will be old finising this lifeIll take your hand ... knoking on the heavens door.Forever...God will just open!

When I Close My Eyes
WHEN I CLOSE MY EYES I SEE HIM AND ME STANDING IN THE SHOWER! AS HE BEINGS TO LATHER MY SPONGE I FEEL HIS WARM BODY PRESSES AGAINST MINE AS HIS DICK BEGINS TO HARDEN ! I TAKE MY HAND AND WRAP IT AROUND HIS HEAD AS HIS LIPS KISSES MY SKIN! WHEN I CLOSE MY EYES I SEE HIM DROP THE SPONGE AS HIS HANDS SLIDE UP AND DOWN MY BODY! SMACKING MY ASS AS THE WATER CAME DOWN SLIDING HIS HANDS BACK UP TO SQUEEZE MY BREAST AS HE BIT MY NECK ! "MMMMMMMMM" AS I SAY AS THE WATER RAN DOWN MY BODY ! WHEN I CLOSE MY EYES I FEEL HIS HANDS OPEN MY LIPS AS HE BEGIN TO RUB MY CLIT AS MY ASS ROCKED SLOWLY ON HIS DICK MAKING IT HARDER AND HARDER ! I LIFT MY LEG UP AS HE BEGIN TO PLAY AND TEASE AROUND MY HOLE! WHEN I CLOSE MY EYES AS HE BITES MY NECK I FEEL HIM SLIDE TWO FINGERS INSIDE MY WALLS ! "MMMMM" I SAY AS I BITE MY LIPS! AS HE CONTINUE TO SEEARCH AROUND MY WET COVE I FEEL MY CUM STARTING TO TRICKLE DOWN MY LEGS ! WHEN I CLOSE MY I SEE HIM SIT ME ON THE EDGE OF THE TUBS AS HE OPEN MY LEGS BURRING HIS FACE

When Does Enough Become Enough?
As a parent, you want to take all of your child's fears and pain away and give them answers to questions that are about to push them off of that emotional ledge. I can't take my son's fears and pain away, and I don't have any answers to his questions that are pushing us BOTH off that emotional ledge that life has put us... Three weeks ago, my son came over with his wife and my two grand babies. He had informed me that he's been suffering from groin pain for awhile, and had found a lump in his testicle. He made an appointment with his MD who peformed a panel of tests and an ultrasound. While waiting for the results we were just being us, joking and knowing that it wasn't anything bad because after all, we are invincible. A day or two passed when he got the call that he had Testicular Cancer, and he would have to have it removed ASAP. He would also have to undergo a CT scan to make sure it hadn't spread. With Testicular cancer it begins in the testicle, then sp

When Is The Best Time To Order Your Wedding Dresses Online
Most brides-to-be dream to be focused on their big day. They are engaged about begin to seek ideal wedding dresses even a long time. They know those pieces are incredibly crucial. A beautiful wedding dress presents your outline. It speaks for your personality and status.Do not think the Cheap wedding dresses are all bad in their quality.There will be numbers options when talk about the style ,color and fabric.People may find this become a hard task then. But the decision can only be made by you. You know what your ideal wedding dress looks like. No matter it is the Plus Size Wedding Dresses or the Pink Wedding Dresses.All you want to do is make up yourself beauty.Honestly speaking, you get to know that is the ideal piece instinctively when you put on the dress. Even though you do not get satisfied by ready-made collections, ask designers to customize for you. Let' s face it: most brides prefer to customize rather than buying a ready-to-wear piece on the racks directly today. You get

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we always think its others fault .but sometimes love isint meant to be sometimes its both that fuck up and make love go on a different path . hurts like a motherfucker but sometimes its wrong .. some people arnt ready for the commitment love brings .. and they get distracted by other things .. the other day i told my ex i i missed so .. and i guess its true but it don't change the facts .. it dont change how he left me adaboned me .. and broke me heart .. and went to another to heal the scars on in his heart .. i don't and can't understand and never will .. when you give up everything you are for one .. when thier your heart and our soul .. how can anything come between that .. how can one choose the other day .. and spend moths in a strangers arms .. miles and miles away .. and when his daughter cries hes not there to hear her .. i cried myself to sleep night and night i couldn't eat .. i wanted to die .. i felt like i always did .. i gave him so much of me .. so lost in him .. i lo

When Does It Stop?
I think of you every day and every single night, Aaron. It's worse at night. The short time we had are jam packed with memories that will NEVER leave me. You impacted my life in ways you will never know. Are you at peace now? It's going on three months since you passed away and yet it feels like yesterday. The pain is still potent and my tears are still flowing. Our time was so magical and special, I know I will never have that again. I can still hear your voice, I can still see your smile...your laugh, your pain, your stories. We shared so much so quickly...my spark in the dark is what I call you. God sent you to me for the little bit of time you had left on this planet and I thank him every single day. But when does the pain stop? Does it ever? Will it ever? Sometimes I feel you when I stay the night at your old house with Monica. Especially at night when I'm trying to sleep downstairs on the couch next to the spot on the floor where you died. I stare at that spot for hours, listeni

When The Rage Builds!
Seems like each day brings something new to be angry about. If it's not work, then it's home. If it's not home or work, then it's bills. You get tired of being sick and tired...but what do you do? To give up means you die...and I'm not ready to die!! I have to find SOMETHING to release the rage upon. I am not a violent person, never have been but I don't want to end up yelling at people for no fucking reason. Maybe I need to suck it up when it comes to the body pain and get back to playing basketball or something. IDK... :(

When I Am With Someone I With Them
I been Dating this girl Monique we meet on another site called Wireclub why that site kinda went down hill, we both came here to fubar, when i am with someone more so her I don't flirt with other girls I don't think about anyone but her! She is the only one for me, when she isn't online it sucks things are much better when we get to talk, she always brings so much joy into my life and I love her so much! There isn't anything that I wouldn't do for her, and she knows it!

When I Awoke Last Night
You came to me, when I closed my eyes. As if you were there, inside. I felt your heart, beating with mine. Creating our own, moment in time. Your breath against, my skin. Your warmth, deeply within. The softness of your touch, set me on fire. The look in your eyes, pure desire. The sound of your moans, was music to my ears. Nothing but pleasure, no pain or fear. Skin against skin, cheek to cheek. Not a single word, did we speak. With each caress, every touch, every kiss. We wrote our own message, that couldn't be dismissed. The we laid there in each other's arms, just a few minutes more. Both dreading you, reaching for the door. But you didn't, you just held onto me tight. I could still feel you with me, when I awoke last night.

When It Rains, It Pours
First I stay in an old hotel. The sink had rust in it and the shower/tub was nasty.... On the way home, it rained so bad that we had to pull the car over twice because we couldn't see the road. I get home and was going to see my boys, but my I can't steer my car A belt is off of it. I now have 3 guys looking at it. I called my boyfriend and he's mad because I didn't call him sooner. Ugh. WTF did I do? Karma is kicking my ass for some reason.

When Do They Mean It?
I've alway been the type of person that, unless I get right in your face somehow, I tend to go largely unnoticed. Most of the time I'm pretty ok with that. There will be times I'm at a party or something and drinking; then I like to entertain and be somewhat a center of attention. But most times, I like fading back a little bit, and not being largely popular. Sometimes on a site like this, that can be frustrating. There are very few people on here I go out of my way to talk to as frequently as possible, but the few that I do - I always let people know when they have become special to me. Not going out of my way to get attention makes it easy to get lost in the shuffle of things. Over the part month, I have both moved and been very busy with school. I have not been on here as much as I used to, and honestly, losing the ability to pimp people out anymore has added a small part to it. If I can't really do much that helps people out (I don't spend money here, that family boost is fuckin st

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A boy liked a girl but wanted to make her jealous. Then one day things went terribly wrong. The next few weeks were like a very sad song. He made her jealous on purpose he tried. When the girl asked, "Do you love me?" on purpose he lied. He played with jealousy like it was a game. Little did he know things would never be the same. His plan was working but he had no clue. How wrong things would go, the damage he would do. One night she broke down, feeling very alone. Just her and the blade, no one else at home. She dialed his number, he answered, "Hello" She told him she loved him and hung up the phone. He raced to her house just a minute too late. Found her lying in blood her heart had no rate. Beside her was a note, in it her confession. Her love for this boy, her only obsession. As he read the note, he knelt down and cried. Grabbed her knife, that night they both died. She was found in his arms, both of them dead. Under her note his handwriting said: "I loved her so, she never knew.